#why is everything stupid and scary

[cyb3r-mutt]

Raaaahhh mini rant sorry

I decided to defer my work term to next summer instead of this one cuz I might be getting this airway surgery on short notice any time this summer (hopefully this summer or I’m gonna be pissed and feel like shit and embarrassed about waiting ) and 3 weeks recovery time blah blah blah but why do I feel like I should have just done one cuz I know part of why I was so okay with not doing it this summer is because it’s really scary and I’m scared no one will hire me but also i know that it legitimately would fuck with an internship because the long recovery time would cut into my required hours and also getting a placement then on short like 1-2 weeks notice have to be like oops sorry you hired me I actually will need to be gone for 3 weeks sorry bye????

I just feel ill about it and know I’m gonna have to defend myself to my classmates and it’ll be so much worse if i don’t hear anything from the surgeon.

I had emailed my academic advisor about it before i stopped applying to things and he said it would be fine to do it next summer no questions asked and I believe him I’m just stressed now cuz the career services lady just emailed me asking for an update on my work term

[kavehater]

I’m going insane I actually can’t believe them !!!!

[critterchitters-closedcaptions]

trying to decipher if the overwhelming dread & Thoughts are cause of the state of the world or cause i need a shower.

vent post in the tags. idk. do whatever 👍

[dandyshucks]

i am being attacked from every angle dear god get me out of here THERES AERIAL ATTACKS NOW TOO ????

[todayisafridaynight]

What’s Daigo’s tattoo supposed to be?

It’s Buddhist deity Fudo Myo-o/Acala the Unshakeable! Since we’re here, here are some fun facts. Under the cut:

“Myo-o”, or The Mantra Kings, is actually a group of violent deities. In addition, they are meant to represent wisdom, knowledge, and are meant to remove objects that may prevent enlightenment.

Acala is often depicted as sitting on a stone, representing their immovable resolve. The sword in their hand is meant to subdue demons and “cut down” ignorance. The rope is meant to bind evil spirits. Their halo/aureole is often depicted on fire to represent the “burning away” of material desire. 

Like in Daigo’s tattoo, Acala is sometimes depicted as having the dragon king Kurikara on their sword. Kurikara is another symbol of Acala, as in some accounts Acala would take the form of Kurikara. Most notably was one story where they threatened to consume the sword a heretic was disguising themselves as

Furthermore, Acala is often depicted with an upward fang and a downward fang, a trait meant to depict reality’s dualities such as yin and yang and the two realms buddha inhabit. The upward fang is meant to represent enlightenment, while the downward fang is meant to represent the enlightened descending to teach the unenlightened.

In some depictions, Acala is depicted with a third eye to represent their wisdom.

The two eyes Acala has now one is shut. Similar to the asymmetrical fangs they have, Acala’s shut eye is supposed to represent the duality of life and reality.

Acala is one of the thirteen deities of the Shingon Sect, one of Japan’s major Buddhists schools. In this role, he presides over the seventh day of memorial service subsequent to someone’s death.

Acala, serving as one of the Five Great Kings (deities meant to serve the Buddha), is the only one to bear a ferocious and menacing face. Acala’s frightening demeanor is purposeful, as their purpose is meant to eradicate evil, protect believers, and to frighten nonbelievers.

Although Acala’s elemental symbol is commonly associated with fire, it’s not uncommon for people to want to wash and bless their money underneath statues of them. The precise reason for this association with water isn’t exactly certain, though Kurikara being a dragon (dragon’s are often associated with water in Asia) may be a possible reason, as well as Kurikara and Acala commonly being depicted by scenic water sights (i.e. waterfalls, rivers)

[fragglerockopinions]

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[im2tired4usernames]

I might just be dumb but I don't really understand making fun of you partners? I don't understand introducing them to your family like "gets my stupid asshole "I don't understand the play fighting I get teasing on some stuff is fun n cute if your both into that???? but?????my wife's smart I'm not gonna call em dumb to be funny and I'd cry if my wife told their friends I was super dumb n annoying? Yeah people are gonna do stupid things and no one's perfect I know I'm gonna do something that's gonna be annoying and stupid same with my wife n friends n family and well really anyone I just don't get when people talk down their partners to they're friends? Like do you want your friends to think low of your partner Do you want your friend to really think they're stupid and smelly and hate them????Do you actually like the person you dating???? Then why are you telling your friends and family what a stupid irresponsible jerk they are and how you can't stand them????????????? Am I missing a joke goin on is this a humor thing or social thing in just out of the loop on???????

[girl-bateman]

Ohhh.. guys 🥲 remember when I said I didn't particularly feel anything, emotionally, about the whole sex thing ? Well im definitely feeling something about it today and it's very very awful. I kinda wanna puke up my soul and rip off my skin. What's that about, gang? 👎

[running-in-the-dark]

I just had to see this comment on that 'how anxious are you while driving' poll:

and tbh... haha shut your mouth :)

[larnax]

the thing with the radio drama horror podcasts is that i fucking hate that every single one of the classic ones i tried like the magnus archive the black tapes archive 81 whatever the other popular ones were is that they all started with the anthology format where every one of them is an unconnected Wouldnt It Be Fucked Up If structure which is mostly pretty good but then they choke because they CANNOT RESIST the urge to have all of it be connected to an apocalypse. like the thing about demon apocalypse stories is that they are almost completely incompatible with "this really happened" horror becaue No It Fucking Didn't. if there's a story about what if a fucked up guy was in your apartment that's presented as if it really happened thats fucking scary because it feels like it could be real and if they give you a fake or vague location/time it's impossible to disprove. on the other hand if i'm reading a diagetic series of recordings from a supposedly real paranormal investigations institute and they start talking about the apocalypse that immediately punches me in the face with a visceral reminder that this is fake because i live in the world and i know the demon apocalypse did not occur when john scarystory read the evil poem, which murders my suspension of disbelief.

because the thing is that i actually think a lot of early-middle magnus archives stuff is really strong cheesy horror! the book of death is one of my favorite horror stories, "what if there was a book that foretold your death and every time you read it and tried to avoid it your death got closer and more brutal" is good! it's really nasty and taps into a very visceral fear and the "it's already too late for you" being present for the protagonist gives it an ending of inescapable doom without overplaying its hand by pretending it can escape to the audience bc like then i would know its fake. the thing about "what if you were looking at your neighbor who you kind of knew's window and a creepy thing crawled through it and killed him and took his place and nobody noticed except you?" very strong! that's scary! sure neither of their concepts are that original but they don't NEED to be! the series' eventual lore relies on the scariest things being the things everyone is afraid of! the idea of the world being eaten by an all-consuming eye would be scary if it like. happened to me. but it's not scary to hear about. what IS scary to hear about is what if there was a monster you spent your entire childhood thinking had rules you could learn but one day it just appeared right beside you and said "the rules never mattered" before Fucking Getting You.

[illicit-lilies]

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[marcvscicero]

tumblr feels like a lil online holiday or place of refuge from all the other sites, like it's so nice + peaceful here... i just sit here reblogging pretty pictures + funny jokes + ancient history + things related to my favourite shows/books/games...

rarely ever do i see something that i disagree with….. but tiktok ?? twitter ?? they are literally full of the most evil, most stupid, most ignorant, most cruel people u will ever meet in ur life…… like i truly don't understand how some ppl can be so full of hate + so lacking of empathy for others.......

[girlthativealwaysbeen]

why does everyone in my life have one foot out the door i just want to have someone reliable someone dependable and trustworthy who fully comes inside the room of my life and takes my hand and locks the door and promises to stay forever

[deadrlngers]

evil thoughts possessing my brain (zefyr/gale romance)

[fappellmoan]

my one friend going to LA on this trip is gonna make me spend time around her boyfriend 😐 can he just go sit in a room somewhere instead while we go out.

[navysealt4t]

guys i’m experiencing a scary. the horrors of u may. uurrgghh.