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Churched Out: Why I Left The Church
“You prophets tell lies. Your lies hurt good people—I did not want to hurt them! You support the wicked and encourage them. You don’t tell them to change their lives. You don’t try to save their lives! 23 So you will not see any more useless visions or do any more magic. I will save my people from your power, and you will know that I am the Lord.” Ezekiel 13: 13-23 Repost: My mom and dad raised…
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I love being queer and I love being a mormon, but there are times when I'm just so tired.
#im really glad i found queerstake because i definitely would have left the church by now if not#i can't believe i went that long without any kind of community#i just guessed that there were other people like me because i couldn't possibly be the only one#but i hadnt met anyone yet who was queer a member and was planning to stay and i just felt so alone in this#i was actually on the verge of leaving and giving up when i stumbled across a post#i dont even know how it could have possibly crossed my path it was so random i really think god put it there because there is no way#especially in the moment i needed it that badly#it was just a part of a liveblog from a general conference that was especially rough on me and i saw the queerstake tag#because like. i dont want to leave. why should i have to i like it here i dont want to leave just because people dont want me here#and i just really want to be there and hopefully be fully out one day so that queer kids in the church can see me and know they aren't alon#but there are times when im just so bleh and tired and sad#vent#tw vent#queerstake
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I didnt even know DB Daima dropped bc life shit but @peridotite has informed me that they just casually drop that namekians apparently originate from [checks notes] the demon realm
Yk everyone's favorite and most memorable DBZ setting ..... The Demon Realm .......... ..
#skit yells#me ages ago: man i wish there was more namekian lore stuff in modern db#*monkeys paw curls*#dbz#dragon ball daima#THESE BIFCHES ALL AFRAID#TO MAKE THEM DRAGON FURRIES#i actually had a lore for their species but i cant remember chunks of it rn#too tired#dragon ball z#i just#bro not everything has to be secretly connected fo everything else 😭#nameks are cool and mysterious enouvh on their own just develop the lore within the constraints#it doesn't even make thematic sense to have them be demons like o yeah the pacifist vegan farmers who go to dragon church every sunday#they were demons all along actually#also way to weirdly rob the poignance of piccolo realizing he's not a supernatural force of destruction but just Some Guy#who has free will like anybody else and just had metaphorical generational trauma out the ass#ik this is 30% furry malding but srsly why on earth is a show with dragon in the title so uninterested in dragons 💀 💀#how do you not focus on that very much it's so cool#and theres already lots of unknowns#so to pull new shit outta left field is ://#ok my thumbs hurt now im gonna queue this#goodnight tri state area
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Im absolutely loving your new Nancy Langraab story!! Hell yes for making boring townies interesting via a new backstory!! (I never found Nancy and Geoffrey much to my taste because ts4 just presents them as another boring rich couple who are probably shitty parents. But this backstory adds so much more interest and layers to her!) I can’t wait to see everything fall apart for her… (Angst is my favorite part of storytelling, hahahaha) Also, I just have to say that the fact that Cassie’s friends are playing D&D at a Catholic school in what would have been close to the height of the satanic panic, which very heavily targeted D&D as a horrible anti-Christian thing is very funny to me. (Not saying this to be rude, I genuinely find it amusing.)
Thank you so very much ✨😭 I too love some good ole fashioned angst. It’s my coffee in the morning.
I did do a super quick google search prior to writing the scene and saw a few discussions about D&D and the church ( here and here and here ) because it did dawn on me that the school would have likely had an issues with it during that time period but decided to write it in anyway, as a nod to the late 80s and early 90s and as a stereotypical “geeky” thing that Geoffrey and his friends did together. 😭🙏🏾
#tw religion#tw religious mention#tw religious trauma#ask#the art of being seen tag#I grew up in the Deep South Baptist church and I swear everything was a problem#they didn’t like Harry Potter but they didn’t ban it#it was heavily frowned upon tho#def didn’t like the gays - which one of many reasons why I left
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i know the "butch's carabiner gets caught on goth femme's fishnets" meme is making its rounds in the locked tomb fandom (as it should), but i'd like to introduce it to the blue eye samurai world
*warning: horny bullshit below the cut*
As Akemi and Taigen lean against each other at the bar, Akemi feels something pulling at the gauzy white tights she's wearing under her miniskirt. She looks down and sees that she's somehow become attached to...someone. Someone handsome. Pretty? Both?
The someone looks sharply at Akemi when they realize they're being stared at. "Excuse you," Akemi scowls. The someone scowls right back, taking Akemi aback. The someone doesn't break eye contact as they fiddle with the carabiner on their belt loop. It gets somewhat awkward as the someone realizes the carabiner isn't coming free. It's then that Taigen takes notice of the situation and stands up to puff his chest at the stranger.
"Hey, what do you think you're--" his breath hitches as the stranger's storm-blue eyes meet his, not without venom. He clears his throat. "This is my girlfriend."
"Fiance," Akemi corrects absentmindedly, taking in the stranger's lean frame, wiry with obvious muscle, and the cagey way they move. She has a strange urge to trap them, make them stop moving like they're trying to run. She supposes, staring dryly at the hardware still attached to her tights, that she has sort of trapped them, so to speak.
"Yeah, fiance. Who do you think you are, man?" The stranger raises an unimpressed eyebrow at Taigen's valiant efforts, their knife-sharp jawline flexing. Akemi catches Taigen's Adam's apple bob and a light flush spread across his face. Oh, she thinks, gears turning.
Akemi swats the stranger's still-fumbling hands away from her thigh and yanks her tights away from the hook. The tights tear with a mighty rip, revealing the smooth skin of Akemi's upper thigh to the stranger. Akemi looks up to find them eyeing the skin with very intentional blankness. When they meet Akemi's eyes, she quirks an eyebrow. "You ripped my tights," she says.
The stranger raises an eyebrow right back. They're really good at it, Akemi notices. "I ripped your tights?"
"Yeah," Taigen pipes up, "you ripped her tights? I mean, yeah, you ripped her tights." Akemi puts a firm hand on Taigen's arm without taking her eyes off of the handsome stranger.
"I think you owe me new ones," Akemi says, giving the stranger a slow once-over.
The stranger sucks their teeth. "I don't owe shit to anyone," they say, but they don't sound very convincing. Akemi smirks like a fox.
"No?" she says, faux innocent in a way that always gets her what she wants. "Not even a drink?"
"Yeah, not even a drink?" Taigen pipes up weakly. She strokes his arm and pulls him down for a kiss that startles a quiet moan out of him. She always finds it so hot when he's confused.
The stranger drags their eyes over the both of them. Then they nod gruffly at the glass between Akemi's fingers. "Vodka martini?"
Akemi sharpens her gaze. "Gin." The drink was really closer to a Vesper than anything, but this stranger didn't need to know that.
"Dry?"
"Wet."
"Dirty?"
"Extra dirty." The stranger's thin mouth, which had been set in a firm frown during the entire exchange, finally twitches with mirth.
Akemi smiles sweetly as the stranger flags down the bartender. "And scotch on the rocks for my boy, here," she says, holding the stranger's gaze as she cradles Taigen's muscled arm between her delicate hands. The stranger's eyes dip to follow Akemi's caress; they suck their teeth and meet Akemi's eyes again.
"I didn't rip his tights," they say lowly. Akemi notices that they are leaning in closer than before; she can almost feel their breath as they speak. She leans closer, speaks lower.
"But you could," she says delicately. "He'd let you." He would. Akemi could feel where he was now pressed against her back, finally caught on to what she was going for and wholly into it. As Akemi watches the stranger's resolve finally, finally crumble, her grin turns from sweet to wicked. She loves getting what she wants.
The stranger sighs harshly through their nose. "He'll have bourbon," they say, and hand the bartender their card. "Neat."
Akemi grins like a cat and hooks a manicured finger through one of the stranger's belt loops as Taigen mouths impatiently at the back of her neck. She pulls each body closer to her, running her tongue over her teeth.
"So, your place or ours?"
#this is the absolute horniest thing i've ever written and i am so sorry#i left the catholic church years ago why do i feel the need to go to confession#himbo taigen#i am a domme akemi truther dont @ me#good god why do these three make me feral#i love them all sm#blue eye samurai#mizu x akemi x taigen#mizu blue eye samurai#mizu#akemi blue eye samurai#taigen blue eye samurai#taigen x mizu#taigen x akemi#akemi x mizu#mizu x taigen
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You got to wake up. because if you don't, then trying to keep that dream alive will destroy you! It'll destroy everything!
Supernatural S8E08 Hunteri Heroici ( + S8E06 Southern Comfort )
#sam winchester#spn 8x08#spn 8x06#s8#gifs#I wish they had actually shown how Sam dealt with his grief after s7#but it's not that hard to understand why he didn't try harder to find Dean#It was just too much for him. He was left all alone in the world#Bobby was already dead at that point#Dean and Cas disappeared before his eyes (he probably thought they were dead. certainly didn't know they were in purgatory)#and the king of hell took Kevin#Isn't it obvious why he was running from all of it and trying to hold on to something? it was too much for anyone to go through alone#I'm saying it wasn't the best thing to do but totally understandable#(and what's so criminal about trying to make his life less miserable anyway??)#the sad thing is almost every choice he made while running from the burden of reality turned into messes#He had to leave the woman he loves and now his brother trusts a vampire over him#All of that piled up and weighed down on him#It made him question his self-worth#And that insecurity led him to the church in the season finale (not to mention the whole “I'm not clean” thing)#and even after s8... oh I can't do this rn. I'm sad again
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I just had a whole actual married, mother of two adult woman be the first person older than about 21 to actually accept the fact that I don't want to get married and be willing to talk through what that means for me, instead of trying to convince me that I'll change my mind as I get older. I'm going to fucking cry
#I told her I'm lonely and why. and I told her that part of it is because I never want to get married#and so as the people I love move on to new seasons in their life I will always be left behind. because I don't ever want marriage#and she was just like ''okay. that just means you have to figure out what YOUR milestones are going to be#because that's going to look different than most of the people around you.''#I've never had an adult woman. especially not a church one. just accept it before#it's always been ''ok but everyone feels that way at your age [a blatant lie. most of the people I knew in high school#got married RIGHT out of high school] you'll feel differently in a few years''#or ''well don't shut yourself off from the possibilities!'' or ''oh but you'll meet The One''#so it's like. earthshattering for someone like this to just accept that I know my own heart in it and help me figure out what that means#for the future#like. I'm going to cry. I'm literally in tears.#Lu rambles#sorry for swearing. it's for emphasis. I'm very emotional rn
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The Greco-Bulgarian Schism in the Orthodox Church began in 1872 and lasted until 1945; it took 73 years to resolve and they’ve been back in communion with each other since.
Countless non-Orthodox, with superficial knowledge of Orthodox ecclesiology and history, making op-eds about the hierarchical schism between the Russian Orthodox Church-Moscow Patriarchate and the Ecumenical Patriarchate-Orthodox Church of Ukraine as if it’s the end of Orthodoxy and we Orthodox Christians have no choice but to jump ship from the Orthodox Church and join their preferred schismatic heretical group!
I typically attend Divine Liturgy in Greek Orthodox Churches and Monasteries but on Russian feast days, I go to Russian Orthodox Churches and I can take Holy Communion in both. This “schism” is something nobody outside the Church can fully understand. Our loyalty lies not in the person of the hierarchy, in no Pope or Patriarch, but in Christ alone and the Right and Orthodox Confession of the Faith which will remain unshaken forever.
#moscow patriarchate#ecumenical patriarchate#orthodox christianity#i didn’t want to make this post but i see so many people who aren’t even Orthodox trying to shepherd people away from the truth#making it seem like there is no Church left on earth so we have to settle for something less#God help us all!#all the ships are being tossed about by the tumultuous waves of the passions but by God’s grace we find rest in the Ark of Salvation#this is exactly why ivan and alyosha couldn’t come to an understanding and why i believe that the two are symbols for the west and the east#rationalism of the west vs orthodoxy of the east
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this may be a silly question
but i dont really understand the whole The church is Bad thing in fantasy high?
like about megachurches?
as a muslim i feel like theres a lot of cultural baggage im not understanding , especially around the evangalising stuff
can someone explain?
#ITS HARD BC I CANT PINPOINT WHAT I DONT KNOW#i just know im not gettign stuff#islam doesnt have the same strucutre as christianity so i am missing things left and right#ahoys thoughts#the sol and helio stuff is confusing cause i still dont even know what a televangelist is and why is ti bad specifically#honestly maybe i should just rewatch s1#fantasy high#kristen applebees#buddy dawn#bobby dawn#why si the The Church an entity? i dont understanddd
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peace and love to the ones that dont suck but what is it about christianity that makes people need to become the most insufferable people alive
#text#where in the bible did god say to stand around campus holding signs trying to get people to talk to you and join your religion#girl im at secular college so i DONT get proselytized at.#one guy has a sign saying 'have you been hurt by the church' YES. AND I AM NOT GOING BACK.#AND I AM NOT INTERESTED IN HEARING YOU DEFEND IT. BECAUSE. GET THIS. I ALREADY HAVE BEEN IN THE CHURCH#I ALREADY KNOW WHAT IT IS. IM FAMILIAR WITH THE RELIGION. I DONT LIKE IT OR AGREE WITH IT. HENCE WHY I AM NOT PART OF IT#also why r u marketing towards people who ALREADY LEFT . are you stupid?#sorry. sorry. done now
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hate going for christian weddings sometimes because i always see the prettiest women with the ugliest men, the sermon is always some shit about wives being slaves (but not like bad slavery, mutual slavery except the husband is a benevolent master which makes it okay) and making babies for their husband, the music is always lame, the mc is always weird and obnoxious, and older women keep fucking asking me when it's gonna be my turn and never take no for an answer.
#mine#personal#brief storytime in the tags#one of my family friends got married and i was happy she was happy#her parents are like an aunt and uncle to me#i was happy to share that moment with them#we cried and laughed together#and my friends#their other daughters were on the line and looked gorgeous#it was just beautiful watching us all grow up in a way and move on to “the next” together#BUT#im a pastor's kid#and my dad loves weddings#he drinks them in whenever he can now especially because they make him happy and he's had to attend a lot more funerals this year#he's been burdened a lot by how many people he's had to bury and how many hospital visits he's had to do#so i was happy to see him happy too#it just all felt so bittersweet to me#because i know how badly my parents want this for me and for themselves#there was a daddy-daughters dance at some point and i could feel my dad beaming beside me watching that#and i was a little sad about it because i was like im never gonna give you that#this could be the best thing i could ever give you and i will never give you this#i can never kneel at an altar in front of a pastor and swallow that sermon#i would never marry a man in my generation#if i married a woman you and almost the entire tent filled with people that watched me grow up would not attend#my happiest day would be another funeral for you#it was worse because im kind of a small celebrity in this community because of my parents and their siblings who are politicians#so people i barely knew kept coming up and asking me when it would be my turn and how they so looked forward to the day#and i was like i love that we're a community here and i missed the pestering of aunts since i left church#but at the same time i was glad to remember why i left#there is no freedom to be myself at all with them because all they do is project their beliefs and ideas on me because that's what children
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mind your own business queen
#answers#it's always the (what i'm assuming's the case here) american christians who have to shove it down your throat#there's a reason why i left the church (aside from the fact that i cannot and will not believe in it)
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people will say "cats will eat you after you die" as if thats a bad thing. i mean, feeding a hungry cat seems like a nice thing really
by the way, dogs will do this too. it is not an expression of heartlessness, it is merely animal hunger
anyways at least the body would serve a purpose rather than being sealed in a box in the ground
#yes i still believe in respecting dead bodies#my mum was made to look pretty for being put in a casket#i picked out her make-up. they brushed her hair. the church provided pretty white clothes#all for the sake of our odd human psychology#it would feel... wrong otherwise#i think my logic is... yes my mum isn't within that meat anymore. but she spent her whole life in it#so it's respectful for make it presentable#it wasn't even an open casket funeral - that would have cost 500 dollars extra for some fucking reason#anyways. if for nothing else: mum valued her appearance and it had made her sad that her sickness withered her away#so it felt extra right to give her nice make-up and pretty hair#we left her earrings on too. they were a gift from me anyways#return the silver to the earth. why not. also it's just easier to leave 'em in her ears#the coroner apparently struggled to get her ring off. but he managed and im wearing it now#this all has nothing to do with the post. im just. yeah
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Like. there is one gallery I would actually like to do a show in but entirely bc it was such a big part of my childhood. and that kinda ruins the joke. bc like. If I showed up with gallery of my beasts and just showed them to the local art community the reaction wouldn't be funny. it would just be "oh hey (dead name) isn't dead yet. Nothing about its art has changed in the like. 5 years since any of us saw him last. Also we need to see who won or lost that bet about him being a dyke."
and that's just not as funny as inflicting myself on people who like think Banksy is peak edgy art.
#like ive already had my art on display there multiple times but never as an adult#my entire personality can be summed up by the fact that bc there was not a lot of child care facilities in my home town#my parents just kind left me places#Namely the gallery in question. adn the church i briefly apprenticed at.#Thats why i am the way that i am#also the chronic heavy metal poisoning.
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i get that most people ~liked~ the righteous gemstones, but do you listen to “misbehavin’” and “there will come a payday” at least once a week … or are you normal?
#words#the righteous gemstones#look i left the church at like 13 or so but i still feel this weird soul connection to this show#i can’t put into words why i enjoy it so much#but those songs give me warm fuzzies#couldn’t be interested in christianity any less#but i grew up in mega churches and wealthy white churches and i just feel somewhat vindicated and validated by that whole show
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literally why is this so nervewracking……
#gideon.txt#we haven’t even left yet literally all we’ve done is get dressed (bc church isn’t for another hour)#and yet we’re over here paralyzed w fear abt everything that could go wrong ????#like. the absolute worst things that could happen are either#1. I drop the food and make a big mess and get in trouble and am embarrassed forever#or 2. I burst into flames upon walking inside the church and everyone sees it and it’s embarrassing#LIKE….. grow up dude it’s not That serious#we aren’t religious in the slightest but it is a big thing to Other People (including lin) which is why we have to get a perfect grade
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