#why did i put my whole ass into this shitpost

[ailius-suffers-through-art]

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a redraw of that old ass meme

[marikosenwrites]

﹒⪩nsfw headcanons - karasuno edition

a/n: YES I AM BACK WITH THE NSFW EDITION HAHAHAHA ... yeah i only did five characters because i'm really running out of time before my vacation (two months long) and i assure you my progress will be really slow but i'll still be posting some random shitposts

characters: hinata shouyou, kageyama tobio, sugawara koushi, tsukishima kei, yamaguchi tadashi

gn/fem!reader

⋅•⋅⊰∙∘HINATA SHOUYOU∘∙⊱⋅•⋅

-i would head canon him as the experimental type

-he’s kind of just the softie that looks after you a lot even during sex (and especially during sex)

-not if he goes feral though- (we don’t talk about it)

-mm…if you were sadistic he would enjoy your sadism and be a ma…masochist- (my friends said i was one and i mean i don’t disagree…)

-likes seeing your face!! so doggy style isn’t really that common for you guys

-(i’m actually looking hard into this wait until i get lazy)

-if you or shouyou something find something new- HE’S ALL “OOH CAN WE TRY CAN WE TRY” even if it’s like two in the morning and you have to tell him to quiet down

-“b-but i wanna try!! 🥺🥺🥺”

-and oh man is that face your weakness- you give in anyway

-his aftercare is like the best

-you guys just watch a movie or chill in each other’s arms because it’s comfortable that way

-if you’re only taking a small break i think shouyou would prefer keeping his dick inside of you so he can feel your warm ass walls ��🥺

-i don't even know what i'm writing anymore

-would actually only have sex after you're twenty and would make sure that you guys have dated at least a year but if circumstances...

-idk why but he would like to brag about it to kageyama- i mean they *are* rivals after all-

-has incredible stamina

-uh...idk probably into edging?? i'm really unsure with this one

-his moans are uh??? loud

-ALSO REMEMBER THAT ONE TIME HE GOT HIT IN THE BALLS BY A VOLLEYBALL BY KINDAIICHI-

-i'm not elaborating let me pretend he didn't get permanent balls damage

-also try to avoid quickies with hinata he’s going to get overboarded with that shit

⋅•⋅⊰∙∘KAGEYAMA TOBIO∘∙⊱⋅•⋅

-possible power play?

-you like to make fun of him by calling him 'king' and he's gonna be like "stoppp..." and yk it riles him

-sadist

-not really the needy type tbh

-it’s really more of a “how i’m feeling that day”

-but he’s clingier than you expect him to be

-more of the traditional type actually

-doesn’t really experiment much

-he actually puts in effort during sex (i haven’t read enough about this)

-he TRIED during aftercare (keyword is try)

-might try to make you something but cooking isn’t really his forte

-so he gives you cuddles and you guys might just take a bath but that usually leads to another session-

-down for quickies anywhere

-i forgor to mention

-his moans are pretty

-when you guys make eye contact all you see is a hunter eating his prey

-he loves eating you out or vice versa <3

-literal king in bed tbh 😩

⋅•⋅⊰∙∘SUGAWARA KOUSHI∘∙⊱⋅•⋅

-i'd say average when it comes to sex

-really soft with you, and is barely feral

-small grunts and gentle movements against your skin

-you guys would definitely have a safe word

-he gets carried away sometimes...><

-tries to plan everything before hand

-like starting with a date and ending in bed and shit

-possibly breeding kink when you guys are older

-loves being cockwarmed since he feels so warm on the inside <3

-feral-ness 3/10

-not really down for quickies, it's risky

-doesn't like experimenting

-might prefer to keep your sex life private and unlike hinata and kageyama not brag about it

-but the whole team knows of your relationship

-his stamina is just average so usually just a round and a half and he's down and snoring

-aftercare is a must if he isn't that tired

-consists of food, bubble bath, AND TONS OF CUDDLES

-literally an angel

⋅•⋅⊰∙∘TSUKISHIMA KEI∘∙⊱⋅•⋅

-sadist FR.

-he just loves teasing and edging you

-literally when he's helping you with his slim and long ass fingers he stops when he knows you're going to come and goes like

-"you don't think sluts deserve to come, do you?"

-kEiiiii stappppp plz 🥺

-but when he's not edging you he's just a marshmallow

-so fluffy

-OK BUT HIS LONG ASS FINGERS ARE HELL BECAUSE HE GETS TO TEASE YOU ENDLESSLY

-that tall ass blond is gonna tease you endlessly about your height (this hc is both nsfw and sfw)

-pretty moans though <3 probably gives you goosebumps

-there probably is a safe word

-PHONE SEX PHONE SEX PHONE SEX RAHHHH I'M GOING CRAZY HEAR ME OUT

-OK WHAT IF HE'S AT CAMP AND HE JUST CALLS YOU BECAUSE HE FEELS HORNY AND YOU GUYS *lip biting*

-ya get what comes next he guides you to touching yourself and vice versa <33333

-but it's not that often he VOLUNTARILY goes to camp (he also wouldn't call you during the potential youth training camp thing)

-down for quickies anywhere

-i feel like he would be into getting caught by both girls and boys because now they know you belong to him and he belongs to you

-sooo yeah <3 ain't he lovely

-his teasing is crazy btw if you hadn't gathered that from the anime that is like "who said you could come, slut?" and "yeah baby, doing well-" it's like two hell and heaven differences

-his aftercare is amazing though because he shows his soft side

-lightest teasing maybe

-protecc at all costs

⋅•⋅⊰∙∘YAMAGUCHI TADASHI∘∙⊱⋅•⋅

-masochist for a change bc well kei

-really really really gentle with you during sex

-safe word needed!! he gets overboard sometimes

-doesn't really moan that much contrasting to public opinion

-more groans and grunts

-loves to be cock-warmed

-no quickies nuh-uh

-kind of afraid of getting caught to be honest

-no kinks though tadashi's average when it comes to sex

-no phone sex either i guess he's the type of guy that FIRMLY believes that his cum only belongs in your pussy and nowhere else

-squeezes you hard when he comes

-i really shouldn't be doing this at school when i'm supposed to be working but integrity doesn't exist

-i hc that if you want to experiment smth with him

-he would do it with you <3

-overall a fluffy relationship

©marikosenwrites 2023-2024 all rights reserved. i do not own any of the haikyuu characters mentioned. please do not repost on any other platforms or translate them. likes, reblogs, and comments are welcomed! <3

tell me if you want more characters!

[pokemenlovingmen]

Random selection of Pokeguys with this old classic:

Character: “I wasn’t that drunk last night!”

“You were flirting with S/O.”

Character: “So? He’s my boyfriend.”

“You asked him if he was single.”

“And then cried when he said he wasn’t.”

… you guys know the one I’m talking about right? A big fandom meme but I can’t find the og, if there even was a non fandom-affiliated og. This is probably really convoluted for a shitpost lmao I’m sorry, this is just silly goofiness to me while I wait for requests and the guys here were just kinda picked by who I thought would be the most fun to write.

Content warnings: alcohol consumption and drunkenness

Adaman

💎 — Emotionally devastated but trying so hard not to show it

💎 — Considering he was sloppy-ass drunk enough to ask you, HIS BOYFRIEND, if you were single that’s not really something he’s doing great at

💎 — “Oh nooo that’s so… I’m sorry… oh noooo you’re just so pretty :(“

💎 — He stares vacantly off into the distance, holding back tears while you stare at him and wonder how long it’s gonna take for him to realize.

💎 — It’s kinda pathetic so you give up the joke and tell him the truth, to which he ACTUALLY bursts into tears.

💎 — “Hweuuuhhh Mighty Dialga is truly gracious and kind to have blessed me with your love I’m so luckyyyyyyyyy”

💎 — Just leans against you and sobs for a while, while you pet his hair and try to console him and insist this is real life, and that you’re sorry about the trick. Mai and Irida, who are watching the whole thing, are NOT sorry you pulled this one because it’s fucking hysterical

Melli

💙 — WAILS

💙 — Cue incoherent sobbing into your shoulder about why Mighty Dialga hates him so much that it would torment him with the ethereal beauty that you are that he’s forbidden to have

💙 — If only they existed in Hisui, you might want to grab a velvet chaise for him to lay on and sob dramatically in a very theatrical pose

💙 — When you finally give up the joke and tell him that the person you’re dating is, in fact, him, it’s like you just clicked the off switch. I mean, the tears are definitely still flowing but he shuts up instantly and stares at you like you’ve grown a second head.

💙 — Then starts fanning his face, still clearly crying while trying to look all smug and confident.

💙 — “HMMMMMPH of course I knew that, only I would be worthy of your company anyway” (still visibly crying a river)

💙 — Clings to your side the entire night and also looks like a pathetic wet rat while he does it

Red

🔥 — :(

🔥 — visible despair

🔥 — sad shinji meme

🔥 — he just kind of. sulks. pouting very dramatically.

🔥 — I mean good for you and whoever you’re seeing but he’s very drunk and to him you’re like the hottest man on earth right now??

🔥 — Eventually you put your arm around him and hit him with the “Red honey, I was talking about you. You’re the other person I’m seeing.”

🔥 — …

🔥 — :,D

🔥 — prommy????

Ingo

⚫️ — INSTANT ugly crying but not for the reason you think actually.

⚫️ — “WAUUGH PLEASE FORGIVE MY RUDENESS I DIDN’T MEAN TO IMPOSE I AM SO IGNORANT PLEASE TELL YOUR SIGNIFICANT OTHER I’M SORRYYYYYY”

⚫️ — I mean yeah, he’s also upset you’re apparently not single but all he can think about is how much he must have offended you and AUGH you’re so handsome and sweet and he was so clueless please don’t take it personally he doesn’t really know what’s gotten into him!!!

⚫️ — Probably the one you have to drop the joke the fastest with because you were NOT expecting this reaction at all and between all the sobbing and shouting you’re starting to worry about when the last time he actually took a breath was.

⚫️ — You end up needing to rub his back and scream your own apologies to him because you were only joking, the person you were dating is HIM!

⚫️ — At this he’s now just crying for a different reason, because he’s so lucky and you’re so handsome and he doesn’t know what he did to deserve this.

⚫️ — He calms down pretty fast after that, but never mention that incident to him again

⚫️ — He already doesn’t drink much and remembering how dramatic and off kilter he was being that night just has him actually wanting to curl up in a hole and just. Live there.

Emmet

⚪️ — “Oh! Okay then!”

⚪️ — You’re a bit surprised by his unfazed reaction for being absolutely piss drunk, but after delivering that line he immediately pivots on his heel and speedwalks the hell away.

⚪️ — You call his name at first, and when he doesn’t respond and also looks DEAD SET on leaving whatever event you guys are at, you have to run after him calling his name all the while.

⚪️ — Drunk Emmet thought process: Dear lord, I’ve made a horrible mistake. I am extremely embarrassed. I’m going to immediately vacate the area and probably never come back.

⚪️ — You practically corner him because he is so, so fixated on leaving out of sheer embarrassment when you explain you were just messing with him and the person you’re already dating? That’s him.

⚪️ — By the look on his face, he practically needs one of those little buffering wheels above his head, because he is thinking HARD about this. His entire worldview has shattered. The earth has stopped turning. His wig is gone.

⚪️ — Eventually he just… climbs into your arms and lets you take him back to where you guys were. Both extremely embarrassed for a totally different reason now while simultaneously being in complete and total awe that sober him scored someone like you. Woah.

[cyber-neptune]

Legalize being able to mess around with characters WHILE BEING AWARE that they're ooc.

Sometimes you just wanna share stuff you made up as an inside joke or just wanna try projecting some stuff as a way to cope or to try and express yourself without someone screaming at you for "Making them OOC".

I'm honestly so tired of this shit and I know Im no better for giving this dog shit situation more attention but for fuck sake.

I am AWARE my goofy headcanons/shitpost/whatever ARENT CANON / ARE OOC. You literally don't need to harass me over it.

"He wouldn't act like that"

I KNOW!! I FUCKING KNOW!!! I just wanna make up stuff and have fun with shitty parallel universe is it that fucking hard to understand or did you have a stick shoved up your ass since day one?!

I've been giving multiple explanations as to why I like making shitty things for fun yet no one seems to understand. So ill go ahead and say it here and hope people will get off my back about it.

Hi, my name is Zero and I make cringy fem Megatron content. I am well aware it isn't canon and aligns with next to nothing. I'm only making content for fun. This whole girl-Megs thing started as a joke and soon became something I enjoyed experimenting with. While you have the normal "everything is the same except Megatron is a girl lol" I decided to post my headcanons I made up for fun while being AWARE that they're fanon and ooc.

Like I mentioned, it's just for fun.

However, people decided to go ahead and harass me instead of doing the mature thing. Which is either

A) scroll past it

Or

B) block me

This has been putting a lot of stress on my mental and emotional health. It's been messing with my self esteem because I'm a people pleaser who always tries to make things right even if it's something I don't enjoy.

Megatron is a comfort character for me and some sort of muse. I like drawing tfp Megs because he's one of the first tf character I learned to draw. I use him as a placeholder for a fan continuity/personal design.

This is one of the main reasons why a lot of headcanons/shitty takes dont make sense. Because im tailoring them to my own continuity.

I will now repeat myself;

I know my headcanons/shitposts aren't Canon.

'TFP Megatron' is a placeholder for my Megatron design im still working on.

I am aware what I write is insanely OOC.

Megatron is a comfort character and a muse for me.

This has done nothing but mentally fuck me up. I'm sincerely hoping this is the last time I have to speak up on this.

[castielspahdehrah]

Update:

So, it's been announced at work that I'll be working 31.5 hrs mandatory OT until probably early December, so 70 hrs per wk.

This includes Saturdays and Sundays, due to the overwhelming amount of claims submitted due to Hurricane Helene........

Luckily, the big wigs saw fit to have us put in 16 hrs of mandatory OT for the last 3 wks to get us caught up on existing claims to make room for these new ones.

Obviously impact the amount of TIME I have work on the fics I currently have in progress, but hopefully it won't affect my drive to do so. I just know I'm gonna be beyond exhausted real fuckin' quick.

I'm going to keep my queues going as best I can, to keep my blog active (although I don't know why I bother considering I've lost about 10 followers per blog since I started that) and I will MAKE TIME to interact with you guys, even if it's just a simple DM or whole ass blog post letting y'all know how much I've missed y'all over the last few years, how glad I am to be back, and how much you all mean to me.

Even though there's been some seriously chaotic bullshit over the last 10 years I've been on this platform

(yeah, it's really been that long and apparently my blogiversary was 6 days ago. There is/was this "memories" thing that would create posts based on your blog details and one of the ones from my drafts says I joined Tumblr 09/28/2014 3:12:27 AM!!!!)

it's still the best time I've ever had. Better than the Book of Faces, Tweety bird, IG(uess), READit, any of 'em....well maybe not better than MySpacecadet. That was peak internet and, as far as I'm concerned, THE birth of social media. MySporks was a damn fine site. I miss it (and my damned pictures they fuckin' lost to the ether!!!!!!).

Did y'all miss me referring to things by the wrong name, but you still know what I'm talking about?

Anyway, if you've read this far.....I FUCKIN' LOVE YOU and I just got off work 48 minutes ago. It's currently 8:48pm EST and I'm only gonna be able to stay up til about midnight because of my "STFU & Sleep" medication. While I'm doing some housework, I'll leave Tumbledryer open, so if you wanna send me stuff PLEASE DO?!?!?!?!?!?!

Send me asks, gifs, tag me in shitposts, anything?!?!?!?

LOVE YOU GUYS, GALS, and PALS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[chemicalbrew]

tagged

by @radellama thanks bestie!!!

1. why did you choose your url?

multiple reasons:

I chose chemicalbrew as my go-to handle everywhere important, because the handle I picked for this purpose as a teen is cringe

I like having canon URLs; especially if they are kind of hard-to-get and\or subtle references, which this one is perfect for, IMO. The last time I felt good about a handle in this sense was when I went by theplanetbuster

I like katzero :) a normal amount :) and I always will I think :)

Chemical Brew is just a good track and I love being reminded of its existence every time I log on anywhere.

2. any sideblogs? if you have them name them and why you have them.

I'm too lazy to upkeep them, so I compensate with my tagging system... Well, there is actually one where I wanted to put my writing if I ever did any, but in the end all writing I do is roleplay stuff on discord that's not meant to be shared widely HELP. And what I do end up getting out once in a blue moon, I just put on AO3...

I used to hoard a whole lot of URLs, but I got scared of getting terminated for a second time, so aside from the almost empty writing blog I mentioned earlier, I just hoard five that I'd hate to see anyone else have (some of these I used to go by, too)

3. how long have you been on tumblr?

Almost ten years; I haven't remade once, so you can see this just by going to the archive (don't do that, actually)

4. do you have a queue tag?

I do, and it's a Transistor reference :) I can count on my hands the amount of times I've queued stuff, though.

5. why did you start your blog in the first place?

Found this place while looking for Zelda fanart; thought it would be easier to use the dashboard instead of checking individual pages. At least I think that was the biggest reason. IDR

6. why did you choose your icon/pfp?

Zero I like him :) At this point it feels wrong if I don't have him as my pfp on here and\or discord so... here he is!!! (since I'm still Four on discord) Not to mention that I kinda need him here to match the rest of my stuff.

I put the NB flag border for Pride month this year for fun and I'm too lazy to put the old version back (also, once again, I like weird subtle shit like that.).

7. why did you choose your header?

I always choose my headers with purpose, though it's not quite the case here: this is a holdover from when I was cherrymegablaster, and it's meant to directly complement that URL in a way that's obvious if you played the game. LOL

I kept it because it's funny to call a drink a chemical brew (and because there's not enough DLC footage for me to make a nice gif with. There's a few stills I really like, but I prefer my headers animated!) ...and because I'm just really happy with the gif.

8. what’s your post with the most notes?

I can't be assed to use the site that scans for this stuff and I'm not proud of my ancient random shit that blew up a bit anyway. So... I'll just tell you this gifset I made on a whim is the one with the most notes.

I REALLY hope the rainbow katzero set outpaces it one day because it's also continuously showing up in my activity and it's easily the one I put the most work into. I need to get off my ass and make more gifs!!!

9. how many mutuals do you have?

...does anyone keep count of that? just the right amount to keep me happy :3

10-11. how many followers do you have? how many people do you follow?

343 \ 1414. why are these such nice numbers

12. have you ever made a shitpost?

Yes, but I don't post them, I just send them to my friends on discord. I'd say hatewar but it's on fire alone counts as a collaborative shitpost of the highest tier, but barely anyone knows what I mean and I love it.

13. how often do you use tumblr each day?

Ehhh, it depends... I know I check my activity mostly every morning just in case, and I check the dod3 and katzero tags once or twice a week, but it's not a strict schedule thing, I forget sometimes :] The tags are slow anyway, and I have sooo many active katzero posters blocked that it's even slower for me :p

14. did you have a fight/argument with another blog once?

I don't think so..? Definitely not in public, I've had arguments with friends I made here, but it's a different thing. I think everyone on my dash is largely chill and has moved on past the disk horse or whatever the fuck

15. how do you feel about ‘you need to reblog this’ posts

DO PEOPLE STILL MAKE THESE...

16. do you like tag games?

That and 'reblog and put your opinion on X \ what you did today' is always really fun, I <3 being annoying about minor details in my boring life (also I'm literally doing one rn, aren't I)

17. do you like ask games?

Yes, but I never get any asks, so I don't reblog them too often. :]

18. which of your mutuals do you think is tumblr famous?

@/ositia, they're a very good artist and I miss seeing them around

19. do you have a crush on a mutual?

I have only had two crushes in my life, and one of them was on a former mutual I've drifted apart from. I know he won't be reading this cause he blocked me, but I still think about him and I hope he's moved to a nice enough place, at least :")

20. tags

uuugh just do this if you want to

[randomclam24]

Why is it that the subconscious mind, underlying even religious truths in that they are repurposed, is exclusively in the hands of liberal-agreeing, in the exact sense of "I'm With Her" as the *slogan*

We can say "our problems began when we attempted to publish our findings", as I've been parroting the article title on circumcision for a while a while back

But no one alive will ever have made the connection that, *oh*, liberals getting butthurt, as they call it, over having their headspace ruined by what in their heads I guess is Republican *Zionism*, is actually this exact *construct* - liberals get their arguments across not by being the argument it is in their heads, but in pushing, and pushing, and pushing until that argument as it is by proxy is pushed in to the subconscious brain of the onlooking victim. *We* cannot do this, as all of the resulting forces as a comeback are too much for our feeble existence

Essentially, depersoning only happens when a Republican, Zionist by associating, does the subconscious insertion that a liberal does as the sure constant of their banter, for the first time, as that is the *only* time it takes before personal derailment begins as a liberal-agreement zeitgeist upon the *fundamentally*-unsuspecting host **population**

Unfortunately, what has built up over the years, being considered the same way as generational experience, by this paradigm is fundamentally inaccessible to us, as it only intensifies to the point of people, in solidarity with (whatever this implication is(?)), reducing their very existences to ham spinning on a rod to splitting to tiny pieces

Basically, *as* they're piledriving the subconscious focus into you, even the Biblical passage about all things of nature calling to the glory of the Lord is undergirded and repurposed by *nature* by the zeitgeist which is basically the zeitgeist of the *rap* culture, which is "we're still in that place, come and test us" on every *rhetorical* point.

Liberals have this entire thing like, yes, you're actually a person *except* until you're (now that the unconscious aspect is laid out, set up camp and lay out the progressive stack here arbitrarily(you could really put any shitpost)) In reality that's the precise feeling I'm having when people I trust finally just decide to cave and show their ass on real-world metapolitics

Unfortunately, something underlies, manufacturing the ensurance of consent that all this was underlied by something I did not have the intellectual fortitude in order to ultimately find myself in *compliance* with, being in the first place for its own sake seeing as I have no association - but by that right my points on projection reset back to things being as they were, as they were, as personal fallings-through are preassumed as fact to have no relevance when posed with these metapolitics

The point is I as an individual who is more than a job with metapolitics associations (or considerations of anyone in that depth for realism's sake (meaning recognizing projection, as I prioritize it more highly when in context of seriousness when it gets just ambiguously applied to muh big(?) world events)) have no right to exist before the momentous weight of references to the context of the seriousness when it gets applied to muh big(?) world events and figures as they apply to subconscious headspace specifically. [I think if God *loved* us, he wouldn't have made a human subconscious, as this is the being of these things.] Other people bear too many momentous accusations, my whole life being a mere kaleidoscope effectively bearing *witness* to these, my actual life not anything more than theoretical if and when left by itself

People act like there's something special in (whatever association this is(?)), so that it's a real shame and that I have to get my life together for bureaucratic mental gymnastics for obviously their own sake and none ever other than this for its own sake repeating at all times for its own sake which is repeating in order to drill into my subconscious acting directly countered against my conscious will, but I very most obviously, even by simple way of this description, have no motivation to want to begin to associate with these foundationally fallen creatures. Like they say America is fallen by design - that is exactly what I mean by saying this thing

What do I want? "Here's this thing you have - I'm going to fuck it up, like crumpled paper." "You'll never recognize the motivation that went into it, only the glorification of myself that came out of it."

That's everything. People outside to myself don't **have** motivation like I do.

The subconscious guilt by association *always* takes precedent to human imperfections factoring into the equation in people's subconscious - so it's implied by effect projection is a canard, even though it's the universe's guiding axis all along the entire durating that is self-insisting.

How hard is it to break to people that what you associate subconsciously by your nature does not guarantee any relationship to knowledge

When a scientist starts to speak outside their jurisdiction, it tends to be pretty quick they get criticized for going outside their expertise

But everyone, "absolutely" everybody, says positively - subconscious affectation is *absolutely* jurisdiction That's why laymen will sotter themselves out like ham disintegrating on the spinning rod, knowing they do it without shame. They *know* they can do this because they can get away with no negative effect - ability for "I'm With Her" subconscious to manifest forcefully in the *other* is all that matters.

You can't just demand people have open minds like liberals always have succeeded in doing. That's not natural. We'll spend hundreds of years figuring and not figuring out what they've really done to us. What *have* they done? I don't *realize*. But no liberal ever told me that, so I discount any valuation of their open-mindedness as a virtue. [It is a baseline requirement to keep you off the streets though - that will snake you in the ass certainly]

Without "I'm With Her" jewish noses in our subconsciousnesses, we would have:

More of the exact singularity we perfected, because people have to still have jobs for arbitrary made-up reasons by bureaucrats ultimately

Speaking reasonably, either way you get labyrinthine garbage insisting upon itself for its own sake for its own sake, implying *by that* something esoteric which it ultimately then just won't *help* you on. It's all the same. You get to the sophomore year of college education, and nobody can help you without lazily disproportionate levels of time-wasting and going back-and-forth for its own sake for its own sake in a personal meeting with the college professor who can't ultimately *help* you if you don't help yourself which would have to just come from without like *most* people's assumptions, just like seeing any psychologist who isn't even highly regarded in the *first* place in that sense

Update We're not allowed to acknowledge the existence of people as figures that don't just ultimately signpost to an abstraction. For the most part, though, there would only be negative effects from doing that, like acknowledging projection as the universe's new guiding principle in all things more so than any other law. People's theories don't translate into activity, because if they did, the cover of plausible deniability we all exist under under the "I'm With Her" subconscious agreement system we all exist under that's already *complete* would then and thereby have been fully and completely retracted by ourselves. Who would be willing t-

We want our kids to be protected (*do* we? under this toxic environment?(but now that that's out of my head and into writing, it's been assimilated to saying what the police already think when they're storming a man's house for his "transgender" child(only naturally))), under this umbrella of plausible deniability that we would *never* rectify action against "I'm With Her" singularity consensus - is it that they're just (now) garnering this consensus, like it hasn't predominantly existed throughout actual real-life experience througout my entire life?, so that they're the victims? - I don't know what's going on

On the Earth *I* come from, those of the uniparty who are of the "I'm With Her" singularity consensus ultimately, revealed through caving and showing their ass on metapolitics issues in casual talk where for some whatever reason they felt the need *in* their ass to do this specifically to save face somehow?, this being the need to save face at where I am not existent by sheer evidence of the treatment in the situation?, are the ones lifelong-dominating us and nitpicking our every *thoughts.* I just want to be gone(and that has *left* the opinion singularity intact spewing on overdrive mocking us for our every attempt at effort, as nitpicking-posting *online* like on 4chan has been our *only* comeback at salvation. What a hoax! That's the real hoax, folks.)

You keep tweezing - maybe we'll quit being *meat* packets one day

You - oh, *not* you, because of what I'm about to describe - do *I* - specifically and *exclusively* I, because of the same description Do I want to know what is really happening with that? No one else I've associated with has any *awareness* to these fallings-through because they've had no desire to do any action at *all*, which is a requirement by which to see, because actualization reveals these kinds of things, that we're fucked utterly beyond all resuscitating, and in the speech of the "I'm With Her" singularity shills, which are most generally just common people, so no shilling, it's because we're failed. Really, I don't know what that means, as I have no affiliation with any persons living or dead. I never *have* What I'm doing is just the exceptionalism from a purely abstracted state by what we can do *despite* whatever the foundationally fallen state is or might prove to be in process, acknowledging in process and moving right on, because we don't have *time* for these things. If you want to foundationally make your state fallen, then you just move right on, because you have no *place* here What's that? Everyone who cared about actual action is dead? I'm just going to keep *denying*

I've only ever heard of it when invoked at the most extreme level, but it's really the stance taken at every level of proactivity taken against the "I'm With Her" establishment: If you want civil war, we start at your house - specifically state your name and address - they're *not* taking what (look - nobody cares what [I'm trying to redirect their focus after the fact of them making that as their very thing their very first own move, hand-having the act of doing so at a subliminal level - like I'm not even registering what specifically it is in the first place they're *doing*, so why can *I* be allowed to attest to human activity as the focus in the first place (in any case if I acknowledged what was really being done spiritually at that subconscious level, I would never be able to contain the hatred resulting directly ensuing from it and be sent to prison right away, so there's no profit throughout this run in doing *that*)] Focusing to specifics is not a concept. [This is already debunked in advance - the act of doing so in itself is hand-had to the act of depersoning a person and singling them out] It's like I live on a different planet. Why would I *ever* then relate to other people? It's insane! There's *no* context provided. [And then they singularly repeat ad infinitum then if there's no reason for them to be upset at me, then there's *no reason* for me to be *upset*, as I'm evidently from experience no more than the projection sum described previous]

I don't *know* my history. I'm actually a first-generation partly because my dad was born somewhere else and moved at a young age. I can only see the current state as fundamentally divorced from all past circumstance, and that makes it appear exclusively akin to *demonic* possession

And at the end of the day, what I'm thinking and feeling is actually divorced from what I'm writing, so all the reference to all the best of what other people in their writing have afforded is lost and wasted while the establishment just has to step in saying my personal atomization as an example monitored keeps being their best *asset* - by that, they can justify openly tyranny on earth, because I'll just keep *coping* - I have to manually put a stop to that. I felt the requirement to prevent myself washing in the shower this morning until it was completely too late with all the shower water cold.

I don't know what context then I'm supposed to *do* things in, because at some point you get stinky, and the priority to get things done is still in place unconsciously, tampering with the way things are perceived, priority-wise. That makes things malicious when I do them forcedly as I know to *always* do, because otherwise I wouldn't have survived In reality, that's a coping mechanism against people who want me, preemptively, *destroyed*, and not-personed, foundationally, by their fundamental nature [I'm positive this is where they're calling it their "common humanity", the thing that proverbially should be enough, the ignoration of which leads to branches of lashing out by them which can be taken the easy way or the *hard* way]. Looking at the human subconscious, there's *nothing* genuinely deep between us (like, at *all*) What an interpersonal relationship *is* (in the modern worldbuilding) does not translate to action at *all* - in the sense of "I'm With Her" presupposedly-required tagging-along does that translate in their minds to compulsive *action*, otherwise they send you to a *group* home - they're just, as it's been said, when you try to go doing that yourself, going to stab you compulsively targeting preemptively the back of the neck when once they see the *opportunity.*

[suckitsurveys]

Do you ever have days where you just don’t do anything? Yessssss I am looking forward to having several of those in a row soon. After this Thursday I am off work for 2 weeks!

Have you ever been extremely tired but refused to go to sleep? Yeah.

What is your favorite episode of True Life, if you have one at all? I don’t have one.

Have you ever experienced something paranormal? Nah.

What’s the longest amount of time you’ve been stuck in traffic? I think when L*d** and I went to Indianapolis to see Sarah when she was there. There was an accident on the interstate and we sat in the same spot for almost two hours.

Best field trip experience? I LOVED going to any kind of museum on a field trip. We also went to the Zoo a lot because it was so close to where I went to grade school.

Have you ever been to New York City? Not yet! I am going this spring though!.

If so, is it all its cracked up to be? --

What is the most amount of money you’ve spent on a meal before? Like $400 at a steakhouse once oops.

What museums have you visited, if any? A lot of them. Most of the ones in Chicago, and some in other cities too.

Have you ever had a group project and one of your partners bailed on you? Uh huh.

What’s your worst traveling experience? I've *thankfully* haven’t had any really awful traveling experiences. Just exhausting ones.

Sims 1, 2, or 3? Why? I never really played the Sims games.

Have you ever dealt with noisy neighbors or roommates? How did that go? The people who lived above us before our current neighbors had the LOUDEST dog that they would just let bark and bark and bark.

Who was (or is) the teacher that gave you the hardest time in school? My English teachers. All of them.

Best muffin you’ve ever had? Blueberry muffins with the crusty sugar tops.

Have you ever taken a woodshop class? Just a workshop, not like a whole class.

If so, was it required? --

How much time do you spend on Facebook, if you have one? Maybe 30 mins - an hour a day total. I belong to a shit ton of shitposting groups so I like to check those daily lol.

What area of math are you best at? Worst? Blah.

How do you feel when you meet someone with the same music taste as you? I mean, good? Idk. My music taste is “hey, I like the way this song sounds,” so.

How often do you “half-ass” things (put little effort in)? Every day at work baybeeeee. Lol I’m kidding, but it does happen.

Do you ever feel self-conscious when you eat around other people? Not really.

Has a teacher ever made you hate yourself/your work? My English teachers completely ruined reading for fun for me.

How reliable is your internet connection? It’s pretty good.

Have you ever missed a meeting/event that was required/necessary? Yes.

What’s something that makes you incredibly nervous? Making phonecalls.

What’s the latest you’ve ever stayed up to finish homework/a project? I’ve pulled some all-nighters in my time.

If you don’t have glasses, how would you feel if you had to get them? I do have them.

If you do have glasses, how would you feel if you didn’t need them anymore? It would be so refreshing to just wake up and be able to see. Or have other sunglasses I can actually wear lol.

How many vegetarians do you know? I can think of three of the top of my head.

Have you ever considered going to art school? I considered going to an art high school just because some of my friends were going, but I really didn’t have a desire to outside of that.

Is there anyone in your life who consistently angers you? My brother in law.

How quickly can you write an essay? I would need a full day to stress over it first.

Have you ever had problems falling asleep in class? Never fell asleep while in school.

Have you ever been on the barrier or front row at a concert? Yeah.

What bug frightens you most? I’m not “afraid” of bugs, but earwigs and centipedes creep me out the most.

Are your parents supportive of you? Yes.

How often do you take the train to go places? Rarely.

Do you play with your phone in awkward situations Sure.

Have you ever participated in a mock trial, or a real trial? Yeah, mock trials in school.

[homeofjonicles]

The Jonicles - Entry 12 (original image source)

Note: This is the twelfth entry of The Jonicles, hence why the date does not match when this is being posted. This was written back in June of this year before I started this blog, and there will be errors or developments in how this series was being written. Please enjoy (or don't enjoy) the twelfth entry of The Jonicles!

It is currently the 16th of June, 2022 at 8:10 am. It's a Thusday, and what's even more special is that Garfield (at least, the Garfield as we know him...) has his birthday coming up on Sunday!! Today also marks #29 of my Jon Arbuckle hyperfixation. I'm almost at day #30 and that frightens me.

You know, this whole fixation on Jon Q. Arbuckle has lead to me seeing some pretty weird things, kinda like that image up above. It's the Garfield fandom, after all. Lasagna Cat, Gorefield, Bad Monday Simulator, r/imsorry jon, Garfield Minus Garfield, I've seen it all, babey. 

But, even after all that, there are still some things that break me, and just yesterday when I was looking through the Jon Arbuckle hate blog (yes, that exists and it's hilarious, even as a Jonniseur) I found a reblog of a post from someone I forget the name of who described an experience with a dream they had, a specific detail that they had remembered in that dream. Included in that post was this image of an entity I only know as simply "Turnip Jon".

Turnip Jon. Turnip Jon. Turnip. Jon.

There are so many weird fucking drawings and art pieces I've seen of Garfield and Jon. I've seen art where Jon has some sort of orange fungi sprouting from his body, I've seen art where the roles are reversed and now Jon is Garfield's pet, heck, back in 2017 I binge-watched a bunch of fanmade Garfielf videos which all led up to the reveal of Garfield being a supreme, godly being featuring a mashup of Garfield openings X Waters of Megalovania. So many drawings, so much fanfiction, so many shitposts...

But even still, nothing prepared me for Turnip Jon. The pure simplicity mixed with absurdity still truly perplexes me even hours after I first saw that image. Look at him. Just look at him. The sheer image of him is enough to break someone. It's so weird. He's so weird looking, his plump turnip body with that smug ass smirk like you know this man is up to something michievious. And those eyes. Those half-lidded, seductive eyes of his he has. And to think, someone dreamt him. Someone's deep, complex, intelligent subconscious created his entity and put it into existence in this person's mind. It created the perfect being. How. How do you even do that.

They then go on to explain Turnip Jon's known abilities, of which he has two. He is able to hover above ground by using his leaves as a propeller, an astounding evolutionary trait that no turnip has seen before. He is also able to shapeshift, specifically into one of those spinny turbine thingies you see on top of houses. An evolutionary masterpiece and an effective house coolant system. He is truly the best being. Nothing can top him.

And for what purpose? Why does he exist? What is his duty in this world? Why does such a perfect being, a being that is a mix of absurdity and hilarity, deserve to live in this flawed, horrible chaos that is this mortal coil? What is his purpose? What has he seen in his life? Why, despite all the wars, all the pain, all the hatred, do we still deserve this unsung entity? Maybe he is not the entity we deserve, but he's the entity we need in this world.

And it gets deeper. Is there a Turnip Garfield? A Turnip Odie? Turnip Liz perhaps? Mayhaps even Turnip Lyman? How many Turnip Jons exist in this world? Where did he come from? Why, out of all the turnips in the world, does he have the power to fly and shapeshift? Can Turnip Jon shapeshift into other objects? Is he edible? What is his origin story? Is this turnip form simply a primal form or is it Jon's most powerful one? Is... Is Turnip Jon God!?!?!?!?

Folks, there are many questions I have about this fantastic little sponge here, but even after all this, maybe we'll never know the truth. Maybe the truth is not ours to know. But even knowing that, we can at least have the comfort of knowing this one thing.

Turnip Jon is perfection. Turnip Jon is incredible. He's so simple yet he's so... amazing. He only has two abilities yet it feels like he could do anything in the world. He's so absurd yet so charming and he's so memorable. He's so dumb yet has so many complexities to him. And you know what? I love Turnip Jon. All my homies love Turnip Jon. I love his little veggie form, his smug little face and his adorable leaves. I love imagining him hovering mid-air and smacking his face into a wall repeatedly. He's so... good...

Turnip Jon, I welcome you with open arms into both my insane-in-the-membrane brain and into my heart, as all Jons go to. You are perfection, you are absurdity, but most importantly, you are Jon. Enjoy your stay, my man. My skrunkly, tiny, stupid turnip man.

Turnip Jon is love. Turnip Jon is life.

Last edited at 8:44 pm. Long school day!

God, that least line is just... so cursed. If you know, you know, but if you somehow don't... I send my condolences.

Anyway, Turnip Jon is probably one of the funniest things I have seen on this godforsaken website. He's so funny looking, he's so weird, and oh my goodness it took me a literal hour to find the original source of the image for this entry. I thought I had it bookmarked but I didn't, I went through so many reverse image searches and came up with nothing an the only way I found it was by painfully scrolling through the Jon hate blog to find it again. Very elusive of him to just hide in there like that.

And yes, Turnip Jon is still as perplexing and just... unbelievable to this day. He's just..... so weird, man. I love him. He's fantastic. Yes, this entry is written in a slightly satirical fashion and I exaggerate some things, but I genuinely find Turnip Jon to be such a perplexing creature. He's just so..... I don't even know, magical? Yeah, magical.

(i also apologise in advance to the original poster of turnip jon, i' just find him to be so fucking funny i'm sorry)

Cheers,

Your Local Jonnoisseur

Posted on the 22nd of July, 2022 at 8:30 pm. We're getting close, fellas.

[a3-headcannon-hell]

mankai tik tok headcannons

starting this blog off with a banger am i right folks -kazunari literally begged sakyo, matsukawa and izumi for the account. like on his knees begged. he made a whole-ass google slides about why the company should have one, and half the reason why sakyo approved it was due to the sheer amount of effort put into the slideshow. his one condition is that the account must be used professionally. -anyways no one uses the account “professionally”

-kazunari and taichi are immediately posting dance videos, and they manage to coerce other members of the dorms to dance with him. tasuku sees tsumugi hitting the woah while kazu records and he has a fucking stroke - “the official company tiktok account is for professional use only. miyoshi if you use the account to perform the act of “throwing it back” i swear to my fucking mother you will not see the light of day”

-omi has a few cooking videos, with camoes from taichi and juza! those two like to pop in from time to time, helping him chop veggies and the like. b/c of his photography skills, his videos are actually really nicely edited/composed! him and kazu’s tend to have the best composition 

-izumi is inspired by omi and makes a “cooking challenge” where she makes a different type of curry every single day. it is an unfortunate year for the rest of mankai. masumi is her official curry taste-tester, and helps her film -masumi, itaru, omi, and kazu have the best camera work/best looking tiktoks. masumi pulled several all-nighters learning how to be the best camera man for izumi’s curry videos

-itaru regularly shitposts on the account and he has to hide from sakyo after he posts one because he's "ruining the company's image" -you know that one tiktok trend where a kid tells their parent to hit them every time a song swears and the song always gets so close but doesnt do it? thats banri with sakyo and omi except sakyo actually hits him - theres actually cute videos of them goofing off backstage during show time!! its usually sakuya filming them, and the content ranges from the boys preforming out of character etudes while in costume to tik-tok dances while they’re getting mic’ed.  -there’s also quite a few videos of the cast/stage crew fornite dancing in the wings as a particularly serious scene goes on on stage - during ginji the wanderer banri was doing the orange justice on stage left while taichi filmed. sakyo, on stage, saw him out of the corner of his eyes and never has his resolve as an actor been tested so much -after showtime he made barni sweep/clean the stage all by himself -citron is the best dancer out of the boys. no cap. his cannibal is flawless -guy films all of his work -chikage has never been in any tiktok video. he fucking refuses to be apart of this. muku and taichi have tried to get him in a video without him noticing and he notices. every time. he stares into the camera until they go away  -tenma tries really hard to do the dances but he puts way too much energy in them and they come off very forced. yuki calls him a hack off camera, and citron critiques his form. his rendition of savage is wayyyyyyyyyy to aggressive.  -yuki does the occasional lookbook w/ filters, azami likes to join in from time to time and show off his makeup skills. yuki’s vids also tend to be pretty well put together  -azami does little tutorials on how he does stage makeup for shows, and does speedpaints for some of his art. -muku uses the account to talk about whatever manga he’s reading, and posts videos of his team’s track meets/pep rally days - sakisaka/hyodo tiktok dances.... banri looses his shit when he sees juza try and fail to do a dance. later that night banri comes to dinner with a black eye. geez where did he get that from -banri does allllllllll the fuckboi dances. pushes his hair back, lip-syncing, everything. its awful -juza duets banri with a video of him filming banri doing one of his titktoks, juza recording from his bed. banri slowly turns around, staring daggers, before fucking go after his roommate as juza flees the room cackling to himself as he uploads the video

-kazunari has started several mankai-themed tiktok trends -kazu also just films like random shit happening in the dorm. a very popular video series is him filming hisoka sleeping in the weirdest spots and tasuku trying to get him back down -autumn trope minus sakyo does the shirtless boys tiktok and sakyo nearly flays them alive -misumi likes to showcase all of the triangles he’s found in the triangle hunt that day and it’s so wholesome. kazu helps him film and its so good -3:42am tsuzuru in sleep-deprived mode accidently goes live while he’s writing. he intended to snap itaru to go pick him up an energy drink so now all of tiktok gets to see tsuzuru with bloodshot teary eyes as he begs itaru to go get him some fucking redbull -taichi spends seven fucking hours on a saturday once trying to hit a ping pong ball into a soda cup with a golf club. the cup in question has been perched on a sleeping hisoka’s head. -when he finally gets it he didn’t realize that his phone battery died two hours ago

-hisoka launches the cup at him when he starts crying -tsumugi has no idea what tik tok even is and at this point he’s too afraid to ask -azuma likes to show off his skincare routine, and posts little vids/adds of when upcoming mankai shows are!

-homare recites poetry. so. much. poetry. sakyo takes away his tiktok privileges for a month after all three hundred and thirty five latest posts from the account are him reciting his bs  -guy lets taichi and kazu throw on the craziest hats/accessories on him while he goes about the day, and they film the highlights. he doesn’t really understand what exactly is entertaining about it, but he lets them have their fun

[catharsis-in-a-bottle]

MY THOUGHTS ON WW84

Spoiler alert: I didn’t like it, so if you don’t wanna hear me being an absolute bitch just move right along

tHiS iS a ShItPoSt

Also, alert for actual movie spoilers lol

Okay so, as per usual, ima just dump all of my thoughts non-chronologically with zero apologies.

FIRST THING’S FIRST: I wanted a better villain. Yeah, that’s right. You know who the villain was in the last movie? Fucking ARIES. The god of fucking WAR. And who is it this time? Some random dude turned ravenous by greed with NO GODLY POWERS? Pedro Pascal, sweetie, I’m sorry, but put that Mando helmet back on and get Grogu back in your arms because the whole ‘mAkE a WiSh you mOtHeRfuCkeRs’ thing just didn’t work.

Going on this ‘I want a god as a villain’ theme, the plot could have totally had more Greek gods tied into it!!! Like, the wish stone? There’s dialogue that’s something along the lines of “you look like you’ve seen a ghost” when Diana reads the inscription inside the wish stone and Diana says “I thought I did.” Like, that means Aries made the stone, right?? She’s having flashbacks and shit, yeah?? I just feel like the *backstory* of the stone could have had more prevalence, idk.

Disregarding the plot and everything else, Gal Gadot looks fucking badass in literally everything she wears.

But, Barbara, honey. What the actual fuck was that leopard shit? She legit turned into a feral furry and went apeshit on everyone?? And the costume design was,,,, um,,,, just very questionable for her

CHARACTER DEVELOPMENT. WHERE THE FUCK WAS IT????? In the last movie, Diana grows SO MUCH!! Like that was the WHOLE POINT!!! And now in this movie, she was an entirely static character, which really just didn’t do it for me. Building upon the theme of static-ness, part of the plot is basically the same as the last movie. Steve has to sacrifice himself and she despairs. It’s literally the same. Rather repetitive.

HOW THE FUCKING SHITTING HELL DID SHE JUST..... FLY???!!!???!!!??!!!

LIKE SHE GRABBED AN AIRPLANE WITH HER LASSO AT FIRST, YEAH, BUT THEN SHE WAS JUST...... FLYING???? LIKE DIDNT SHE LOSE HER POWERS???? WTF???????

*coughs*

Seriously Pedro Pascal grow your fucking mustache back and get a godDAMN BABY YODA IN YOUR ARMS

Alister went through some shit (that is almost definitely not how you spell his name)

THE COLOR SCHEME. Okay, this is a very weird and minute thing, but it’s noticeable for me in EVERY movie. The previous movie had a largely blue and cool-colored lighting throughout nearly the whole thing, except on the island of the Amazons, which I like because it really created the contrast between the island and, you know, the shitty realm of un-godlike humans. In this movie, however, it was very bright and kind of all over the place, and it really just kind of.... blew the mood? Like yeah, overly decadent 80s clothes and shit, but.... something about the previous movie, and how the visual appearance in terms of color made me feel, was just better.

why does tumblr put so much space between bullet points on the mobile app dear lord cthulhu it looks so weird in editing mode i mean y’all won’t see it when i post but s t i l l

Genuinely, I high-key want that golden bird armor thingy because not only *cool in battle* but also *shiny wings*

I hated Babara literally throughout that entire movie I’m sorry, especially when she, you know, became an asshole and started killing innocent peeps, ma’am we don’t do that in this house and it is absolutely okay to want popularity and recognition in this life but not to the point whERE YOU ARE LITERALLY MURDERING PEOPLE

steve came back in some random dude’s body lol

AT LEAST THE DUDE WASN’T AN ASSHOLE THOUGH he was actually really nice to Diana at the end so there’s that

THE FUCKING MEN. THE AMOUNT OF CREEPY AS FUCK, CONTROLLING MISOGYNY ON THOSE GODDAMN SIDEWALKS. THATS RIGHT BARBARA, THE ONE TIME I LIKED YOU WAS WHEN YOU BEAT THAT FUCKER’S ASS. YEAH DIANA, SHOVE THAT BITCH TO THE CONCRETE. My mom was literally making comments about like “yeah most men in the 80s were like that” and I was like JESUS FUCK. i mean lots o bastards are like that today so. yeah. Become Wonder Woman and fucking POWER PUNCH THEM

my gender is lasso of truth

The fight scene graphics in this movie were just OFF. Like, for some reason it looked really cheesy, you know? Overuse of the lasso, perhaps? Or badly timed slow-mo? The world will never know

I love the fact that Diana speaks so many fucking languages like I like her a lot in general okay it was just THIS MOVIE

Okay I’m done being an absolute snob on main, have a nice day, watch the first Wonder Woman and feel happy or edgy or whatever emotions happen to be generated at the moment, YES EDGY IS AN EMOTION

[iampikachuhearmeroar]

sometime in this last week, or this week coming, my blog has turned/turns 10. god. a decade old. a whole ass chunk of my life i’ve spent on this hellsite. when i began on here, i was a kid. a lost, lonely, depressed and anxious 15/16 year old kid. a kid scared of her future. a kid confused about her future. what to do for uni. to change schools or not??? to do drama/acting at uni or english/philosophy or to move 8hrs away to another regional uni to “escape” her “washed up, dead end hometown” that was so typical of all the pop-punk music that she was listening to at the time.

she was a tad overdramatic, loud, “funny” (as described by her school friends) and terribly forgetful in regards to homework and school assignments. she was angry at the world, most especially the catholic school she was fucking sick and tired of attending. but she was convinced that since she was the so-called “funny girl”, that she simply couldn’t be depressed or anxious. she believed herself unloveable because she didn’t look like a weird mixture of hayley williams and emo-pop queen lights. but now, i no longer believe that i have to look like the women that i looked up to in the ~emo scene~. fuck beauty standards. i am loveable.

in the years since joining tumblr, i’ve managed to get through business college, my undergrad degree and, well, failed out of postgrad due to obvious burnout and health issues amongst other things. although i’ve lost many friends irl and many followers/mutuals online on here. for those who’ve stuck around to see me get through all of this, thank you. to all the friends/casual mutuals that have since deactivated or only followed me for a short time then unfollowed; thank you.

like obviously i was never/have never been a massive popular blog on here, like thebootydiaries or vampireapologist (who has since deactivated a couple of months ago) with tens of thousands of followers. my follower count is still close to the 8,000 range at 7,892. obviously that’s still a lot of people (and of course, porn bots lmao and many, many non-active blogs), enough like one super old post from like 2012 tumblr pointed out, enough for a small to medium sized city or town, or something like that. i don’t know how many people i’ve really reached. i really don’t know how i actually amassed this small army of people.

i am aware though, that on other platforms like snapchat (lmao does anyone even use it anymore in 2021???)/instagram/youtube/tiktok etc, i’d PROBABLY be considered as some type of ~micro influencer (🤮🤮)~. hell, i actually had a bot slide into my notes about being one on here on this hellsite back in 2019. i don’t know if i’ve ever actually ~influenced~ anyone on here with my shitposts (when i started making some) or my personal posts. i don’t know my reach. even though, now, i do occasionally get featured on buzzfeed listicles (although pay me buzzfeed along with the OPs of those original embedded posts), i still don’t know how many people i’ve reached… and even with my very occasional checks of google analytics lmao. on top of this, grappling with the loss of followers at times is much, much easier than it was when i began on here and the first few years following that. i know that my follower count doesn’t determine my worth and stuff.

but over these 10 years, i have grown. i turn 26 this year. back in 2011, 15/16yo me never thought she’d be here. she was partially down the suicidal thoughts hole, with things about ~picturing her funeral and wondering who’d bother to turn up. if only she could pretend to be dead for a day to see who’d give a fuck~ and 16-18yo me was defs down it with her HSC hellscape thoughts in 2012/2013. that 3rd floor tafe/tech women’s bathroom window drop and the thought of scarring her class for life (and that cool dude from catholic school that she crushed on who ended up at tafe with her) with jumping out of it onto the concrete below. instead, she just posted on fb about ~being a failure~ etc which ultimately did lose her a bunch of facebook friends lmao. it was practically the same thing. her mental breakdown after the end of her hsc, where she let her earrings go green and get infected in her ears because “fuck self care, bc what the fuck is it??? i’ll never get better! let me fucking wallow in my self loathing bc it’s the only thing that i’m fucking good at!!!” so i no longer have my ears pierced. oh! it was just all too fucking much!!

i am happier today. i no longer have those semi-suicidal thoughts. hell, i almost died in 2020 from a fucking bowel aneurysm, after my stomach tumour excision surgery. that forced me to put things into perspective. i appreciate the little things . i appreciate the very few friends that i actually have. yes. i’m still depressed and anxious. some days are still shitty and hard. but nowhere as hard and shitty as they were back when i began on here 10 years ago.

how the fuck last 10 years have gone past, with my ass on here; clearing out my blog and caring more about doing that than my uni work (lmao whoops); having made some lifelong friends both internationally (from the US) and long distance domestically in australia, it’s been a long ride; i honestly have no fucking idea. obviously over these past 10 years, i’ve debated with myself over and over and over again whether i should delete/deactivate this account or not. would it make me healthier??? more than likely. but then when i have meltdowns or just inner ramblings i have to get out somewhere, where else to post??? on fb?? obvs not. it’s “attention seeking” or the like on there. no one will read them. no one will resonate. but on here??? even if i got/get one “like” in the notes or one “yo i feel this” response in the tags or replies, it feels like i’ve reached someone??? okay yeah. i know this place IS NOT therapy and i’m not using my followers as amateur (or probs even actual professional) armchair psychologists…. which is a thing i think people need to stop doing internet-wide: but that’s a whole other post that i reblogged a few days ago lmao. i really need to get another therapist, actually lmao.

but it’s the community i’ve found hard to leave. i have what feel like friends, when i’ve never been employed (still as of yet); and when all of my irl friends/acquaintances are working and doing the whole ~adulting~ and ~grown up life~ thing right. it’s also the frenzied rabidness of spite with hating staff’s godawful ideas. the memes. oh the memes. and also the RaWrInG 20s XD emo scene reemergence on here that’s kept me here. the messy petty drama from time to time of big blogs fighting it out.

this place really is bizarre and fun sometimes. and also the fact that i can still hide behind the ridiculous “roaring pikachu” URL that i made all those years ago. i am anonymous. it’s freeing. but on fb it’s all like “WHY WONT YOU ADD A BANNER IMAGE AND TELL US 20 FUN FACTS ABOUT YOU!!!!!???? LET PEOPLE WHO HAVENT SPOKEN TO YOU IN 10 YEARS KNOW EVERYTHING ABOUT YOU BECAUSE WE’RE ALL FRIENDS HERE!!!” and the same goes for Corporate Hellscape Facebook™️ (linkedin) but in the professional sense instead. y’all know fuck all about me really. besides my posts. and i love that and live for that. okay yeah. y’all know more about my mental health than my fb feed obvs… which is probably a terribly unfortunate thing. but still.

over the last 10 years then, my superiority complex for being ~so original and intelligent~ or whatever the fuck i had in high school, has all but ebbed away. i’m not that smart just because i went to uni. hell, i literally did NONE of my in-class work and none of my philosophy readings in uni….. so i have fuck all idea of how i got through undergrad like that lmao. i’m not original when so many people can articulate the same thoughts that i have, but like, sometimes better, on a post (even though sometimes/most of the time the Tumblr User Hot Takes Tuesday™️ takes on here are fucking awful lmao). but still. originality is not something i really have anymore. or really had in the first place lmao.

so will i deactivate after these 10 years, like i’ve been saying for so, so long??? i honestly have no idea. but just know. thanks guise. have a nice gpoy selfie day XD. grab your wands. your tardises. grab your war paint. grab your whatever the fuck other fandom specific stuff that was one that hella cringe post from 2011 til 2015 random tumblr. that relic is as old as time itself. just as this mysterious roaring pikachu is for someone whose too loyal to leave this W E B B E D H E L L S I T E that’s just as much of a train wreck as she is. lmao.

[akegatacchi]

Sense8 AU!aftg

In the honor of absolutlynothing I’ve decided to put out there one of the many au I have on my phone and archive it there

Big shout out to @a-m-peengoo and @bluesuederose for participating in this mess with genius lines and always be there to bear my 36 ideas per hour. We did a masterpiece girls.

Here we go it’s gonna be long

The cluster:

Kevin: Nomi. He’s just a fuckin hacker who’s running away from his family (riko). When he’s bored, he spends nights crashing the Pentagon system for fun, and makes every screen in the White House play Best Exy Actions Compilation (the longest and hardest part is choosing one compilation to play).

Dan: Will. One of them have to keep them under control. Plus, Dan with a gun i can’t even-

Matt: Riley. Soft, blue strand of hair, a heart of gold, maternal. As a DJ. Yes. SO SOFT (he still knows how to box)

Allison: Capheus. Listen. Imagine Allison in high heels, skin tight leather pants, driving a bus. Also, a F1 pilot champion who can drive anything (even if it’s the first time)

Andrew: Wolfgang. Duh. Do I need to explain myself. Just think abt him saying “This is Berlin. Those are my people. And we go to our knees for no one”.Boy he does NOT like this situation, at all. Will keep the others out with sheer willpower and no blockers. The cluster’s deadliest weapon. PLUS HELLO???? ANDREW IN A PASTEL PINK BOMBER SHOOTING ON A HELICOPTER WITH A BAZOOKA????

Aaron: Felix? Sorta? not a senseate but a great doctor. Senses bullshit and when someone is in Andrew’s body real quick  (Andrew: says more than 2 sentences and is pleasant. Aaron:.....who’s that bitch where is my brother) . Later helps to manufacture blockers.

Neil: Kala. A pharmacist that uses his skill for arson and may or may not be running away from mafia/family matter and currently hiding in India. Him saying “Bring it, bitch” to Riko is my sexuality and Andrew’s. Can create explosives from a Fanta can and spices I mean it’s already canon in aftg. (plus andreil would work even better bc technically Neil can’t even touch Andrew for real)

Nicky: Lito. The drama, the sass. Also the scene where he discovers the Twinyard in Germany are his cousins would be hilarious. The scene where Lito seduces the nurse but with Nicky (“engaging into heterosexual activity? me????”) or the scene where Lito screams in the museum but with Nicky

Erik as Hernando. That’s it that’s the post.

Renee: Sun. I mean, a korean fighter lady in prison trying to be a better person and had a silent bffs relationship with a german gangster? Come on. Also. Allison in a bus and Renee doing art martials stuff. 

Riko: whispers i guess he can eat Allison’s high heels

Now the ~scenes~ (it’s just shitposting):

Aaron, on the verge on several break downs: wait so you have like … DJ Blue Matt and F1 pilot Allison Reynolds in your head? since when? ANDREW SINCE WHE-

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Neil: what’s a better use of a multiple thousands dollars education than precise arson?????

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Aaron: why does your boyfriend always end up burning things up?

Andrew: he lits up my heart as well

Aaron: FOR FUCK SAKE

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Kevin, shocked and betrayed: is there a better sport than exy?

Aaron and Allison: YEAH A REALLY GOOD CAR RACE

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Allison: you’re - you’re like the spirit of Lucy Liu. In Charlie’s Angels. I watch it once a day. Renee:.....that’s sweet actually :) 

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Neil: does a molotov cocktail

Matt: I tHoUgHt yOu wErE a PhArMaCiSt

Neil: Yes? That’s PHYSICS

Matt: no that’s ARSON NEIL

Alternative:

Kevin: breaks into the Pentagon virtually

Neil: breaks into the Pentagon physically

Matt, again: i thought you were a PHARMACIST!!!! Neil: Yes I am??? That’s irrelevant

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A senseate sibling, escaping, grabbing a vehicle at random: someone knows how to drive that?

Allison, in stilettos : no, but I sure will soon

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Just Allison driving Renee around to fight people

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Everytime someone mocks a senseate sibling Neil or Nicky shows up to roast them. Sometimes they do it both at the same time. It’s apocalyptic. The sass. The drama. 

They can also bullshit their way out of any situation. Neil is such a smooth liar and Nicky is just ridiculous. The FBI agent charged to arrest them somehow ends up crying abt childhood trauma while hugging a teddy bear.

Neil, caught in the act of making a string of explosives by the FBI guy: uuuuuuh….Nicky?

Nicky, currently dealing with a white mom in retail: somehow convince the FBI to buy christmas lights

(Yes Nicky works in retail bc his family cut ties with him but he hopes to be an actor.ON BROADWAY)

(From retail to actor to cluster negotiator real quick)

A  fuckin moron to Allison: a hottie like you driving a bus? what is this, hooker on wheels?

Neil: please let me have this one

Allison: seats back and enjoys Neil roasting him

Nicky: brings the popcorn

Nicky, to the FBI guy: You can’t arrest me Daryl I’m your long lost little brother

The FBI guy, a white man: My name is not Daryl Neil: THAT’S WHAT THEY WANT YOU TO BELIEVE

The FBI guy, texting Neil (don’t ask): I guess I’m still in love with my ex

Nicky: aaaaaw we have to help this sweetheart

Neil: do you want me to burn his current boyfriend’s car, buddy?

(Nicky: DON’T REMIND HIM THAT HE’S SUPPOSED TO ARREST US)

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A fuckin homophobe: ready to get your ass kicked, faggot?

Andrew: appears through Nicky

Nicky, smiling: fuck yeah, baby 

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Andrew, between two bazooka shot, to Neil:  we’re nothing

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Nicky, through Andrew, all cheery: Hi!!!! :D

(Aaron jumps like a scared cat)

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Andrew: ready to kill ppl for mafia business

All the senseate siblings in the back minus Renee, eating popcorn and enjoying the show: Kick ass, Drew!

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Andrew, on the hospital bed: has an emotional moment with Aaron

Aaron: sir or ma'am, idk who you are but it’s family only, I will ask you, as his doctor, to leave my brother’s body

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Aaron: Andrew is2g if you’re making psychic love to that fuckin red hair rn i will-

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Andrew each time a senseate is hurt: Aaron it’s for you

(Just Aaron doing med tutorials for a whole cluster while Andrew repeats it with a bored tone to everyone)

(Aaron, sighs: it is Neil again? Just let him bleed for a few minutes)

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Neil, making bomb with kitchen stuff: If it means losing you then no

Andrew, falling in love: oh

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Bad guy: You have no weapon, blondie!

Allison, with Renee and Dan behind her: Think again, sweetheart

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They made a little “honorary cluster member” badge to Aaron (he does not cry STFU NEIL)

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Dan and Neil both knows by heart the laws of different countries…..for very different reasons.

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Luther: humiliates Nicky once again

Renee: calmly breaks his hand at dinner while smiling like an angel, all the while stopping Andrew from killing him with the other hand

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Neil, a pharmacist: blowing shit up and arson

Aaron, a doctor, watching him: yk what hold my beer I know several ways to stop a man’s heart

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The whole “You don’t know how to use a gun” “No, but you do” with andreil or matt and dan

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Just Drew and Renee kicking some mafia asses together as buddies

(While Neil blows some shit up in the background and Allison/Nicky cheer)

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Matt has the perfect ear too

Him and Kevin are the remote operation/communication team but one day all the fighters/criminals of the cluster are busy so they both start to fight as well and fuck they are good at it

Nicky: I expected this from Biceps Matt but Kevin??? You can land a kick like that???

Kevin, outraged: I WENT TO THE EXY OLYMPICS WHEN I WAS 16

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Speaking of Kevin, they all call him “nerd” or “einstein”

Allison: so the nerd can fight uh

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Aaron, counting down on his fingers: so you have F1 Pilot Superstar Allison Reynolds, former gold medalist and tech genius Kevin Day, a human diapason, a multilingual arsonist, World no.1 Taekwondo Champion Renee Walker, a cop, an actor…..what are you there for??

Andrew, literally a mafia king:....ice cream and crime?

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Neil to Andrew, after the whole debacle with his father is out: You did know there were mafia out of Germany too, right?

Andrew: I can’t even have that for myself fuck this family

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Dan, every time before each “mission”: okay guys I know we need to do it but I’d like to remind ALL of you *looks pointly at Neil and Andrew* it’s STILL illegal and morally dubious

Neil: …….like I said to Nicky, irrelevant *without missing a beat blows up the entire building and puts on stolen Gucci shades*

Alternative:

Neil: ok saint theresa why were you the one to suggest we explode Riko’s brain off then

Dan: ...don’t turn the conversation around me it’s about you

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Allison “guess we’re detourning a place next” Reynolds and Kevin “It’s not that hard to pilot” Day

(Kevin: But why are you on a plane to Russia? I thought you were in India last time?

Neil:....don’t ask)

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Aaron to Andrew, where they are trapped and betrayed: your boyfriend wouldn’t happen to know how to poison a whole room with gaz?

Neil: I was born for this moment

(Andrew: just bc you’re my brother doesn’t mean you have the right to dirty talk my boyfriend)

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Andrew: be gay, do crime and eat ice cream

Nicky: AND BLOW NEIL’S D-

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(before they know abt Neil’s past, when Andrew is angsty bc he caught feelings)

Andrew: You  shouldn’t get close to me, it’s dangerous, i’m mafia

Neil: oh haven’t you heard-

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Jeremy, bouncing out of nowhere: Hey Kev ! Love how you BI-nary code ahah have you heard of the ARCHIPELAGO 

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Neil, sipping tea: so my father is the Butcher

Matt:  okokokok coolcoolcoolcool yk what arson doesn’t sound like a bad idea after all

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(this one is not funny sorry) but Neil taking over each time someone is hurt bc he is used to deal with it

“Give the pain to me”

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Andrew and Aaron like to fuck around a lot with the whole sensate stuff (since only one of them is a sensate)

Bad guy: only one of you is a sensate, which one is it?

Twinyard, in a perfect and flat tone: try to guess

A bad guy is spying on Andrew and waiting to kill him in Germany, via a cam, thinking he’s safe BUT SUPRISE MOTHERFUCKER it was aaron dressed as Andrew in a mafia meeting and now you have to deal with a 5 feet tall mafia boy

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For real tho they are a little protective of the normal doctor who heal them every time (yes even Neil but don’t tell him) so you bet something like that happens one day:

Aaron: comes home from work angry

Andrew, cleaning up blood or counting money: whassup shithead?

Aaron: There’s this older doctor he’s great and all but he’s a fuckin asshole to me he belittles me everyday bc i’m young and we lost a patient today bc he rathers humiliate me than let me save him 

Andrew, a dangerous glint in his eyes and a whole cluster behind him: oh?

Kevin, opens his computer and digs up dirt on him: give me a sec

Allison: I can roll over him with my truck

Neil: there is so many ways to mix two meds and kills him ON ACCIDENT

Dan: let’s see how he deals in prison

Nicky: oh this is going to be fun

Kevin, reciting facts like he’s reading a grocery list: so yeah he smuggles meds from the hospital so local drug dealers, illegally sells meds for himself on the black market, does tax evasion, is friend with a local senator and both of them are involved with minors….i have already several reservation at X hotel btw and cases of work harassment on nurses and interns, threats to others older doctors in serve, and OH. OH. We have a spanking kink on our hands too.

Every members of the cluster, turning to Nicky and Neil:....go wild

Nicky, giggling: not that’s it’s a shame when it’s consensual but not here so - let’s start with the spanking :D

Neil: Can I make him cry

No violence is used but the doctor is found on the floor drowning in his own tears after a few minutes and after an hour he’s resigned and leaving the country

Andrew was dressed as Aaron for that (that being: smuggling Neil and Nicky into the hospital to meet the doctor through him)  and sends him a selfie of a 5 feet surgeon and the man crying on the floor 

It’s their best memory as a family (Aaron hates Neil a little less after that)

Neil to Nicky: why did you stop me from pushing towards suicide??? He’s gonna do that in another country

(Kevin: no if I can help it)

Nicky: bc we don’t do that to people!

Neil, Andrew, Aaron, Allison:...........right

Neil: killing even indirectly is no good but destroying their life and humiliating them publically is good?

Nicky: YES!

Matt and Dan: WAIT NO

(Allison: don’t brother Neil you’ll just hurt your head)

(Neil, close to tears: but...but...but arson?? Andrew, with knives out: alright fuckers who broke his heart?)

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Matt and Dan bc they’re fuckin weak to Neil: ITS OK BUDDY ARSON IS GOOD

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I have to end on this note:

Storyline wise, Neil would have make the perfect Wolfgang too….if Wolfgang was a twink.

[theexecutionerssong]

How do you feel about all these spn jokes/shitposts from people who don’t watch the show or people who stopped years ago? I’m not gonna lie, i at times feel like a little sensitive bitch bc it just makes me a bit sad in a way? Cause to them it’s funny to post and reblog and tag with jokes when maybe they’ve seen a few episodes or a few seasons and then gave up. But to me it’s like well shit, trust me, i know the finale was a shitstorm and it sucked but it hurt like a bitch to see that finale especially because of how much the show/cas/dean meant to me. So my sensitive ass at times feels like I’m being mocked. Even though I’ve seen some jokes and theyre funny but in a way it’s different because it from people who watched the show the whole time and felt the same way i did when the finale aired. Idk it’s just weird, so i wanted to ask how you’re doing with everything.

I basically have a zero tolerance policy. I let it slide and just muted posts for 15x18 the first day because the euphoria was through the roof, but after that, seeing hurtful posts and memes from people who know nothing about the show, the characters, the cast, the writers, was just a big no.

I make a point to curate my dash on here with only things that interest me and that make me happy. I block people left and right when they reblog my posts and add something rude or hurtful. Make your own damn posts if you’re gonna shit on something I love, i don’t want to see it. Creators can see your tags, we go there to find joy, not to read your negativity. If I blog about something it’s because I love it, i don’t want to see anyone shitting on it or mocking it. I can’t not take it personally. You insult something i love then you insult me.

I know everyone I follow, I know why I followed them and what they blog about. If they suddenly started posting about Supernatural just to get clout or to ride the high and it’s bullshit, then I unfollow. I don’t even care if we were mutuals. Actually, it’s even worse coming from mutuals, because you would think that they at least would not find so much glee in something that they know caused me to feel so worthless after the finale - unless they have somehow not seen one single post on my blog since then but then... what are they still following me for. But apparently that decency is too much to ask. I know not everyone keeps up with their mutuals so I may be too sensitive but when it comes down to it, I draw the line.

They don’t know shit. They don’t know about the years we have spent calling out things that were problematic, like, we know okay, we know and the show still means everything to us. They don’t know who stood up for us in the writers room. They know nothing of the hope, the comfort, the constant in our lives the show gave us over the years when we had nothing else. They don’t know the cast at all because they haven’t been following them for a decade and a half. I don’t blame them but you know what I do when I see something blow up in a fandom I don’t know anything about, or that I used to follow from afar but haven’t kept up with in years? I shut up. I don’t get involved and I don’t laugh at it, especially if it’s evident people are hurting over it.

From what I saw the first couple of days after the 15x18 and since the finale, some people seem to think that it’s trendy to shit on anything relating to Supernatural. It’s top tier cringe culture come back. But they weren’t there. They didn’t try to understand. They have no ground to stand on and spread things that are just untrue (the Jensen the homophobe narrative is driving me up the walls) or misleading, or just to take the very thing that has hurt us so much and turn it into a joke and laugh in our faces. So what if Supernatural has been around forever and you somehow feel entitled to comment on it even if you haven’t watched / stopped years ago? It’s not welcomed where we can see it. It’s rude, it’s hurtful, it’s 98% of the time completely wrong. Leave us alone, we’ve been through enough.

TLDR: I don’t think you’re being too sensitive, those people are assholes and you should not have to put up with it if you don’t want to.

[robiness]

hottest of all takes: qrow and fear (my final/main/fave theory, rwby7 spoilers)

(reposted bc all my reblogs became messy :( since this is my last and main qrow/clover theory, i wanted it to be straightforward yay)

Volume 7 Chapter 13: “The Enemy of Trust” (Description: Who will you become when your greatest fears are realized?)

My initial reaction was: oh damn, Qrow. (and ironwood obviously, but whatever) - Qrow.

But HEAR ME OUT: 

Fear.

What if Qrow is still unconscious from the crash?

It sounds like a denial/joke, but I’ve put so much thought into my other speculations (Qrow’s tragic character arc, Raven saves everything + clover’s aesop’s fable c/o @synvamp​ - sorry im tagging u again!, rwby7 themes + time travel support)

and none of them can explain why:

there’s no official confirmation/explanation/reaction from the crew (not even at least a “he dead”, tho correct me if im wrong)

clover suddenly came out of nowhere with that characterization (qrow even notes the out-of-the-blue manipulation using the body of Robyn, who clover Respected)

clover/qrow made the weird decisions they did:

clover focused only on qrow, as if he couldn’t see tyrian a lot of the time

qrow made THAT decision re: tyrian

neither clover nor qrow saw tyrian coming to make stabby on that empty ass tundra

clover dramatically said “good luck” after qrow said he’ll make james take the fall, something that this version of clover shouldn’t be down with???? just seconds ago, he was all about following ironwood bc the general gave him a place blah blah blah?

+++ where was everything else in that last scene with the sunrise/bi flag?

We see Harbinger, Qrow, Clover. 

That’s it. Only the stuff that Qrow would focus on and remember in such a scenario.

This is a really wide shot, and there’s only those elements + bi sunrise? Can’t make me believe that.

If the three-way was real, if it actually happened, where’s signs of the fight? those huge blood stains/splatters? Kingfisher? the wreckage? the pin that should contrast against the snow even a little???

edit: the pin might be near Harbinger when zoomed in actually? is it that dot thing? - in any case, still counts as significant to Qrow in the situation!

Dreams can be irrational once awake (and to us, the audience) and I’m telling y‘all right now, it’s a dream

Everything after the crash is a nightmare in every way. I can believe it’s what Qrow thinks might happen. Because he’s afraid of trust, especially after Ruby’s panicked call and the warrant. Plus, Clover was actually intending to arrest him before the crash/wait until they see the general, which could have contributed to this sudden characterization of the Ace-Op.

Qrow would definitely fear both Clover completely turning against him/them, plus him monumentally messing up, because those are the two worst things that could possibly happen in that exact moment. 

That whole three-way fight was Qrow’s nightmare:

Clover turning out to be a follower turned victim and going against him (chances of them having the exact same history with their leaders? a bit low, they couldn’t be THAT similar, despite being foils)

Qrow’s Semblance causing the worst possible scenario, giving proof that he can never escape it

These sound very much like things Qrow would’ve been mulling over all season, despite (or because of) his increasing happiness and recovery. His confused thoughts would be: Did I get it all wrong? (Most likely also: fuck. But I digress.)

In that short amount of time, he probably still hasn’t completely trusted this current lucky streak (why should he? it’s only been months). Therefore: crash - unconscious - nightmare of worst case scenario.

(Same, Qrow.)

Anyway, this is what I’m holding on to until the end. Good night everyone. Peace.

^ here’s the obligatory shitposting section. WAKE UP QROW, OPEN UP YOUR EYES AND TRUST LOVE

[countryshitposts]

I Finally Talk About My Feelings For CountryHumans

I don’t necessarily hate it (if i were to be hating it i would’ve been making a ch hate acc or posting in that subreddit), but i have many problems with it.

Let’s start with how i first encountered countryhumans--- just over a year ago (about late April) me and my sister were stranded in our cousin’s home because we were going to tend to our sick grandmother (now dead; rest-in-peace) i found Pkrussl’s video about circle flagheads, clicked on it, and burst out laughing. so i got the deal, and tried to avoid this cursed thing that sexualises the third reich.

That worked well.

and now here i am, a year in limbo.

if limbo hurts me too much, i won’t be able to stand burning hell that was my life for the past fifteen years.

hey, do you know what’s the most frustrating thing about this fandom? it’s about the fact that people would pay attention to what was already GIVEN to them and shunts aside the people who actually has much more creative ideas than what the bland mainstream has. aren’t people... supposed to love ORIGINAL and CREATIVE ideas? or is it the fact that people are so used to the mainstream that it made them lose the fact that they have creativity and goes along with the flow, dancing to the good artists (yet... terribly lacking in actual content) and this makes me... frustrated. the fact that we can only get to fame by drawing the ‘famous’ countries and its ‘famous dynamic’ (i’ve seen half-assed gacha pieces get more likes than me... WHAT)

also the most i complained about is that i broke my wrists writing and drawing to give content out for everyone but in the end they... get.... 5-10 notes... while the shitposts i wrote for ten seconds.... can get to 100.... guess people here in this fandom REALLY LOVE originality B)

then there’s also the sexualisation... but we aren’t talking about THAT, we’re gonna talk about the inconsiderate assholes who think they’re the ‘angel saviours’ of the fandom by saying that we are... disrespecting people’s sexualising and fetishising interpretations of horrible regimes we have horrible memories of. the most current example i have is @redffeather‘s post about the Japanese Empire here, then look at the comments.

yeah so i got mad at those comments because first of all--- they have NO IDEA of the impact the Imperial Japanese Army made, and second of all, they did more bad than good, and third, they said it was disrespectful and asked deci why she put it on the ch’s hashtag.

haha why don’t u read the whole thing u dumb bitch-- don’t u have at least ONE brain cell rather than critique someone who was just frustrated at the whole fandom?

then there was also my discord argument w/ some guy, and they said the Soviet Union wasn’t ‘that bad’ and i told them ‘um they killed 20 million people’. then they responded with ‘i bet you googled that’. then proceed to make fun of the whole debacle by including Canada burning the White House.

u can tell and Estonian/Kazakh/Ukrainian that the Soviet Union wasn’t that bad. how would they respond

then there was also a comment in a Korean Empire/Japanese Empire drawing (EW EW EW) who said that their relative was a comfort woman and this is offensive, another person told them ‘it’s fictional’ and to ‘get out’.

yeah so basically most of the ch fandom are rather... inconsiderate with other people’s feelings, and prioritise their own. this makes me rather annoyed, as i have loads of assholes harrassing me for.... making Philippines embody the government rather than the people... i don’t... WHAT

THE CH FANDOM FEEDS OFF OF MY SPITE, ANGER, STRESS AND ALL MY NEGATIVE EMOTIONS

TL;DR:

someone: hey the IJA was a horrible army--- please stop sexualising it

inconsiderate person: OH MY GOD YOU’RE SO MEAN DON’T LIKE DON’T LOOK!!!