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Going to walk into the fucking water 🙏👍🚶➡️🌊
#going insane. cant sleep the fucking constant irregular snoring… ahut the fuck uppppp please#no peace or autonomy in the day and i can’t even rest at night. day 2 of 2 weeks 👍#earplugs do not drown it out. i can’t sleep through it. im going genuinely insane#like distress tolerance works for not like clawing my own face off out of hate#but it does feel like 2 straight weeks of keeping my hand in the Dune pain box#exactly how I prefer to spend my only time off from my phd coursework btw#seething with sublimated resentment and anger while wearing Steel Plated Happy Mask#god forbid I get to relax or have a nice time with people who like me or cook food or read in bed#nope ! just holiday hate and competitive ulcer cultivation.#not going to put my head thru a wall because i’m an adult with emotional control#but sooo awesome to get to spend the next 2 weeks exhausted and wishing I could#and then straight back into constant work. awesome. Not clawing face off. Doing awesome#btw dbt is great for some things but i do hate how it is like. aorry if your environment sucks and other people are tangibly causing you#real distress. however : it is your responsibility to absorb the impact and defuse it#Like pleeease I’ve had the best year of my liiife why is 36 hours with my parents enough to send me straight to hell#at that point I feel the problem is less my emotional regulation skill#and more that when people treat me badly or in ways i find upsetting i become naturally: Upset?#big if true. whatevwerrrr okay im just going to sit in the fucking hotel lounge and work on fic or somwthing. fine
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i was finally able to have the house to myself for a bit today... brought all my dirty dishes out of my room and was able to tidy up a little bit without feeling weird
#by tidy up i mean put my dirty clothes into a hamper and my clean clothes onto the floor so i can reclaim my bed#i dont know why i feel so stressed taking dirty dishes out of my room with other ppl around#im self conscious. i think because my mom would get mad if she saw me doing it#and that leads to bad eating (not being able to eat) etc.#i took rlly poor care of myself this week.... but it felt like it just didnt slow down#i was barely able to feed myself cause there was just no time for grocery shopping#and i STILL need to grade tomorrow#bc thr fucking. kids. are so stupid. using chatgpt and making my head hurt#i cant wait to grocery shop tomorrow#i might try and get up early for it so theres no one around but we'll see#me saying 'i cant wait to grocery shop' u know its bad when i HATE grocery shopping#but this evening was wonderful... after a field trip day that was good for me (got sun on my face) i came home and washed my hair#and got cozy and played stardew valley and balatro#i'll do laundry tomorrow... grade... grocery shop... try and just relax#anyway ur still here. gives u a thanks 4 reading sticker
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the older you get the more posts like the one i just made sound so insecure and self obsessed and its true but also . no i have to accept thr patheticness of what i need to announce
#ive thought i was old since i was 1w but thats also bc only younger kids talked to me rippp#now its just ok u look young For now relax. it is kind of funny tho for an old man to be like i literally thought you were 13. how are u 26#and cant drive still#this is why i can get away with being stupid still bc people give me the benefit of the doubt and assume im young when i am 30 or 40 atm#12 not 1 week*. but probably still then
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Damn i had a feeling they wouldn't forget. Gotta work this weekend for this stupid ass version upgrade they're doing to our software. Yeehaw...
#at least its not early but like why do we have to if there is an entire tech team doing all this shit already#i have no idea how long it will be and nobody will give me an answer so cant wait for my one day of the week i can relax to be fucked over
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I hateeee being asked to do audit things for work whyyyy do my managers ask me!! And why cant i say no!!!!
#like thanks for trusting me ig but PLEASE STOP ASKING ME IT GIVES ME ANXIETY#and how do i say no?? i cant.#:(#i should be happy they trust me with such important things but. why me#i want to be invisible#i said yes#:/#and its the week after my birthday and i took a few days off for my birthday and now i wont even be able to relax bc I’ll be thinking about#the entire time
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Imma be honest I just want my Pinterest account back like
#like it doesnt make any sense how depressed this is making me like its exhausting being THIS depressed#of course i know its other things ny brain is doing but this is just....on another level i never realized how much i study snd search#on Pinterest till now and its lie the most harmless hobby i had and now it's gone#☹️ i cant see my friends stuff anymore or anything i cant find cool art or study anatomy or just straight up just relax on it#i know i shouldn't be dependent on something like that it was a majority where i found stuff i just liked and like idk#i just really really hope they give jt back i dont even know why it happened its been a week since in sent the appeal and ive gotten no#response at all like do u know exhausting stressing over this is like good things have been happenin lately u know and like it only happened#after this happened and im soooo sick of the cycle of something bad happens then i get good things im so tired of this actual CURSE#im genuinely cursed and it sucks#its comical at this point it really is#i know its not that serious but it meant alot to me whatever#james talks
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#really hate i learned i have PMDD now im just actively having suicidal idealation for two weeks#fucking hate it#there is ALWAYS something wrong with me always#why can i just be happy for once#im either always panicked or depressed i cant fucking relax#im so tired of this shit i just wanna sleep and never wake up#or get into a car and have someone run me over#will delete later
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if you see me posting a lot of art just know that I'm procrastinating studying for a test im about to fail
#god i wish i had more time for my art#like why are we rushing to learn things why cant uni be like 5-6 years so we can slow down and relax#when i create my socialist utopia im making uni slower in general#like you have the option to go fast but you can also just have time to hang out and write and draw#vio text#all my classmates are going to see me break down crying in aroudn a week
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taylor released a song that literally says to not look up to her cause she fucks up and some of you are still like ‘i cant look at her the same way 🥲’ ‘this is so out of character for her’ ‘i might have to step away from her’ like HELLOOO??? i get it if you’re like 12 cause yeah your fcking 12 but some of you with your fully developed brains still choose to put her up in a pedestal and then you get pissed when she doesn’t live up to your expectations? are we both looking at the same white privileged uber millionaire white woman?
#like it pisses me OFF#critical thinking out the window#you shouldn’t separate the artist from the art yea yeah of course but if you cant stop yourself from setting her up to being this#perfect little angel and think her songs are perfect like her then maybe you should try and separate the art from the artist#the way this whole website turned against her in a matter of a week is just insane#remember 2019? 2020? where were you in that time? cause i cant belive she dating ratty causes this much outrage but whatever the fuck#happened in those years didnt#if you still choose to see her dating life as a personal attack to you then idk what to tell you other than grow up#this is the last of it im saying cause it makes my blood boil to see you being all whiny and stupid#maybe take a nap go outside and relax with nature for a while and question yourself as to why this is so complicated to understand#x
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#*problems occur on a project multiple ppl r working on* my boss @ me: what do u wanna do?#me. disastrously burnt out: i couldnt not even to give a fuck abt all this. i dont care i dont care i dont care#but thats not what i say. i say ok ill talk to the ppl and see how i can drop everything to help. and that probably means driving an hour#away to the other uni which is irrationally terrifying to me to the point where it will probably destroy my whole week a prevent me from#sleeping when i already am struggling to sleep. but its fine. ill get it done and itll be fine. for this stupid fucking project i dont#care abt. ay its so weird. ive never been this angry abt things. i mean its not even really anger its more dispair and frustration but it#manifests as just wanting to scream and throw a fit like a toddler. and i mean its my fault. i dont have to live the way that i do. i mean#i do but in an irrational compulsive way that i cant entirely control. but like its Saturday and i sepent 6 and a half hours taking#measurements and then met with my boss for like an hour and she was showing me cool imagines and talking abt cool new collaborators at her#new school and im just sitting there trying to maintain a smile bc my brain is semi disconnected from my body and im so exhausted#ugh. my brain is so fucked rn. i dont want to drive with even lower functioning thsn usual. and i was gonna meet my friend Tuesday morning#for once. and i might have to drive back and forth multiple days. ans what's my reward if were successful? two fucking weeks of watering#and measurement taking and i might have to stand around other ppl in all that time as well. usually im off spinning in circles by myself#amd looking unapproachable. i dont want to have to b a person around the undergrads#god im so weird. its like from the outside perspective if u were looking thru the window at me u would see me using a hammer and assume im#putting something together and i am but im also hammering nails thru my hand which no one asked me to do#so then why do i have to do it? ugh. thats y its a hard thing to complain abt bc ppl r like oh it sounds like ur compulsive habbits make u#productive and successful and yea sure but they're also destroying my life. im laying on the floor doubled over in pain and ppl r like oh#look how useful u r. who gives a fuck everything feels stretched and distorted like im suffering some sort of selfimposed Devin punishment#whatever. fuck this. tomorrow ill try my hardest to relax. literally i cant remember the last time i stayed in bed until at least 7am. ugh#but i also have some bullshit i have to get done tomorrow so well see#uuuuuugh let me leave this place @ schools send me ur official offers pls i wanna plan out my life for the next 5yrs#unrelated
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sad hours, let's go
#weeks actually#im so very depressed lately#why life hard yk???#anyway idk if im not gonna go on a forever hiatus#or delete that page?#but on the other hand i love writing so much and it relaxes me and i want to write#i just cant get myself to start it sucka#i hate it your honor#on the chat with ris
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i was super gonna say something when i opened this app but i lost it. wuh
#wind howls#i am sleepy and im sleeping soon i promise. but there eas something i was gonna say and i forgot#umm.. oh in the end my dash and everything still loads on my phone. no idea why it misbehaved earlier#all good now. hmmm#what else. end of semester is starting to hit and it is Not Very Pleasant if i can be so real with you all#like i enjoy what i do. it definitely is fun and im enjoying my classes for thr very most part#but gweh... im onto the final projects for like. modelling. editing. space/architecture. animation.#and we missed a few classes in photography bc of the strike and other stuffs. and the teacher has covid.#so im not sure what the hells up with that class. were not even onto the final project/exam i dont think.#and the teachers are likely striking again from december 8th to 14th which like. weh#classes end on the 11th so its not the end of the world but we still have quite a few projects due#and strikes mean the school is out of use. so we cant like. use the school computers to do our assignments at all#and some of those assignments i cant do at home bc i dont have the programs for it because adobe doesnt deserve a single penny from me.#all in all were really in it deep and a bit rough. it couldve been easier but i understand the need for the strike#sigh...#big assignment due on friday that i havent started yet. i hope to do it all tomorrow after i finish my classes since i end at like. 3 pm.#and i dont have any after school plans other than going to the bank so ill be able to work on that for a lil bit at the very least.#hopefully i could even finish them. so that i can spend thursday worry free. maybe even relax.#i feel like ive been running all week ! i need a breather and 17 hours straight of sleep !!!#goodnight !
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Gonna start repeatedly screaming into the void
#j.p speaks#idk why#im feeling nothing but also something#im so *gestures vaguely*#yeah#i cant even fully relax until next week
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its so nerve-wracking when u cant get ur anger out in the only way you know how bc now wtf am i gonna do? face my emotions? fuck
#cant vent art my way out of this one ladies#i havent done actual vent art in like years to be fair unless u count like just drawing ur favorite characters normally as vent art but i w#would consider that more as coping#but anyways ive resorted to just writing about it in a writing app i downloaded thats my only option and its driving me insane#i need to go to a rage room#(actual venting from here on sorry) (thank god for movable tags) (warning for potential assault i think)#i need something to numb this bc uhhhh LOL im losing it#losing it over smthing that happened 3 months ago on April First#spent the morning at a guy friends house#went in with gaming controllers and comics thinking we'd just be relaxing#came out questioning my life and what just happened LMFAO#i laugh but its been destroying me for 3 months now#right afterwards i went to a bowling alley birthday with my friends though <3#i just still feel so disgusting even though it was months ago and hes since apologized for it#it was so strange that day and for a few days after#i could still smell him on me and taste him#sometimes even now i can still smell him on me#i did a few weeks ago and it was so weird and i felt like i wanted to throw up#idk#its just a weird situation because some days i wont care and other days ill be crying over it and question why i let it happen#and other days ill be so pissed off about it like i can believe i let this happen after swearing to myself i wouldnt let it#fucking shaking in anger like holy fuck#its such a weird feeling#anyways#stay silly ^_^#- lorii rambles
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˖⁺｡˚⋆˙new fav wag | LS2˖⁺｡˚⋆˙
pairing: logan sargeant x williams social media admin!reader y/n (she/her)
genre: social media au
warnings: none jus fluff
summary: in which the internet knows you're in love before you do
a/n: I STARTED WRITING THIS BEFORE THE NEWS DROPPED SO LET'S JUST PRETEND NOTHING HAPPENED FOR NOW IM SO SORRY
request!!!: logan fic or smau where the reader is williams’ newest social media admin?? and logan immediately is crushing on her, and the fans are trying to speculate why logan is suddenly so smiley in a bunch of the clips and videos posted on the williams ig or doing a bunch of challenges on the williams tiktok page (and alex is totally laughing his ass off)
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user7 omg? how is she so gorgeous
user8 oh the garage pic lol so she's 100% the right girl
user9 wish i was her omg
user10 omgg. i'd be happy looking at her too 👀
user11 real. can u blame logan lollll
lilymhe prettiest girl!!
yourusername ilysm <3
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user12 does she have a bf? second pic
user13 no one knows lol
user14 logan found dead
user15 logan in the likes too hehe he's down bad
user16 can u blame him
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logansargeant cant wait to relax a bit!
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yourusername for sure i could find some time!
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user39 second pic?????
user40 HELLOOOO
user41 soft launch...? 👀
user42 love when he hangs out w alex omg <3
user43 love youuu logan
user44 this is sooo bf
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oscarpiastri great race this weekend 🤟
logansargeant 🔥
user45 there's no way the 3rd pic was logan alone
user46 legit it's too girly
user47 y/n was here? 👀
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user48 HAHA alex liking this comment 😭
user49 lol he ships them so hard
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user50 no rizz
user51 she's a professional let her live x
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user53 this is so logan
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user57 god.
user58 ME WHEN
user59 y/n & logan fr.
user69 confirmed much?
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user71 GIRL WE KNOW UR DATING
user72 obsessed with everything about this.
user73 on god i love them
user74 she's just too beautiful
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user75 the second omg yeehaw much
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user76 okay.
user77 you alr know he was fighting back the urge to profess his love for her
user78 he looks so good in the third pic omg
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user86 ahh not them being caught red handed 😭
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user88 CUTIESSS AHH
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user89 LOGOATTTT
user90 omg points & hard launch all in one weekend i feel dizzy
oscarpiastri eventful weekend for you!
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user97 what a rollercoaster it's been
user98 SO HONOURED TO HAVE BEEN APART OF THIS JOURNEY
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user100 literally. spill the secrets logan
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alex_albon wow finally. i was in the trenches for a minute there
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★ ★ WHAT IS LOVE? ★ ★
what's real love for them. (ft. sanji, law and corazon). part 1/?
content warning: plus sized!reader. mentions of younger law in cora's part. proofread. partially nsfw. size difference. blowjob. overstimulation. cunnilingus. cockwarming. slight belly bulge. slight praise kink.
a.n: my first post! I'm afraid ngl, but I really hope yall like it. Idk why i took so fckn long tho??? I was really lazy I'm sorry sbehwjsvwga
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when you care about the little things about him, remembering things he told weeks, even months ago. letting him know you hear and pay attention to everything he says.
when you take him off the kitchen, forcing him to rest, he'll ''complain'' about it, but he's so grateful and head over heels when you massage his tense muscles, letting out a sigh as you reach his sore shoulders.
when you trust enough for him to lay on your fluffy belly, caressing his hair. that was the best nap he ever took.
when you lecture luffy for asking sanji to cook for him so late at night, letting the blonde go to sleep a little earlier. he really loves how you care about his well-being.
when you help him in the kitchen, he insists he don't need help, that you should rest, but you're stubborn, helping him in every way you can. he swears he can't fall in love more that he already did, but you always proved he was terrebly wrong.
when he sees your fucked out expression after eating you out for hours. your throat sore from screaming his name, your hands on his messy hair. "just one more, mon chèri... for me?"
𝐂𝐎𝐑𝐀𝐙𝐎𝐍
when the first instinct that you have when he fall for the thousand time, is helping him get up and asking if he's okay.
when he gets home late at night and sees you're sat on the couch with a book in hand, waiting for him so you'll both go to bed together.
when you look into his eyes everytime he smiles, "you look so cute when you smile, rosi" you say, and as his cheeks burns, you smile too, knowing well what you do to him.
when, on one of the nights he can't sleep, you hug him from behind and kiss behind his ear and neck, making him relax in bed; reassuring him with your presence.
when he sees you and law getting along with each other; he sees law opening more with you and he cant help but smile at the sight of you and him talking about "Sora, the warrior of the sea" while law smiles.
when you try to take all of his cock in your mouth, it barely fitting as you look at him all innocent with tears in your eyes. his hand on your hair as he fight back the urge to fuck your face. "that's it cariño... you're doing so well"
𝐋𝐀𝐖
when, in the middle of the night, you go to his office and lay your head on his shoulder, mumbling that the bed is cold without him, leaving him with no choice but to cuddle with you in bed.
when you're laying on his chest and trace his tattoos, slow and delicate fingertips running through everywhere the black ink is.
when you let him lay on your breasts, his hand passing on your belly while the other arm is around your waist. your right hand is on his raven hair while the other is caressing his back.
when you chuckle while he look serious patching your wound from a recent fight. "what is it?" "you look cute when you're trying to look serious"
when you come into his office, onigiris in hand while you remind him that he have to eat and rest. you're always so good to him... he really dont know what he would do without you.
when you're on his lap, his dick so deep inside you while you try not to move too much. he points at your tummy "you see that, dear? I'm so deep in you... you're so good to me, taking care of me so well..." he says and kiss your neck, leaving you a moaning mess.
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