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after all of this
#its still happening#i forgot that its not normal#one of my classmates photography project was of a girl playing cards with her imaginary friends#and it was supposed to be creepy and sad#but#thats just me#i forgot people leave their imaginary friends#i couldnt#i cant#still the fucking third grader sitting alone during recess talking to her imaginary friends#my utterly fascinating life#why cant i grow#why cant i talk#why cant i have friends#why is this still happening
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10 years later
#my art#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#jjk fanart#jujutsu kaisen fanart#yuji itadori#fushiguro megumi#nobara kugisaki#itafushi#itafushikugi#jjk spoilers#jjk manga spoilers#least heterosexual group photo ive ever drawn tbh#u have the kings of subtle pda and their judgy lesbian third wheel#this does remind me a lot of the kind of art i used to do jhgdjghdfj#specifically that one furuba main trio piece i did forever ago. same vibe better art#anyway......i tried my best........ i tried so hard#i do not know how old they look . the goal was 25/26 but atp i've gaslit myself into thinking they look the same#especially megumi im so . throws hands in the air in defeat#but idk what else i can do cries at least i like it??? i think???????#i don't know!!! if they look younger than 25 whatever!!!!!!!!#why is it so hard fr me to make chars look older im gna slam my head against the door#maybe its fine. idc <- (lie)#in other news itfs are married fight me abt it . yuuji rockin the right hand ring fr Lack Of Finger reasons#also i am Eating nobara's fit . she might also look a bit younger than intended the more i look at her gDI why cant i have nice things#new hairstyle carrying tbh. i think she would a. grow it out and b. switch the side she parts it on to make Seeing easier#god just take it all tht really matters 2 me is low pony nobara and Rings On Fingers itfs#i did my time in yoi i know how to make wedding bands Work
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*You tell a joke about two kids who played in a muddy flower garden.
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*You tell a joke about a kid who slept in the soil.
#my art#art#digital art#artists on tumblr#undertale#ut#psst its transparent#chara undertale#asriel undertale#chara#asriel#chara dreemurr#asriel dreemurr#utdr#undertale fanart#utdr fanart#fanart#okay some fun little explanations#asriel's arms and legs are restricted because as a flower he cant use them at all. his body is not his own/his to use#which is also why the biggest flower is covering his face. ofc thats flowey i dont have to explain that part probably LOLOL#also it makes his body look more like a stem lol#he also is still holding onto chara with everything he has. the vines as well tie them together.#if u look close its actually an incomplete infinity symbol teehee#theres something to be said about how chara is the one sleeping in the soil and how flowers grow from soil/how asriel idolizes chara and#tries to adopt their mindset (which comes from abuse) and in floweys case it's exacerbated by like. the whole soullessness +#no consequences thing#but i cant articulate that so. if someone else figures it out go ahead HELP . anyways#those blue flowers r forget me nots in case its not clear
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invisible scars (referenced previous talk here)
[ID: A colourless, digital Trigun comic of Vash and Wolfwood talking about Wolfwood's scars. They're both laying in bed and topless. Vash lays on top of Wolfwood, playing with the rosary around his neck. Then, Vash kisses a spot on Wolfwood's chest. Wolfwood asks, "What are you doing?" Vash smiles sadly, "You got shot here. In the last town we visited. You didn't even bother moving."
Vash props himself up over Wolfwood, who frowns slightly. Wolfwood is quiet for a moment before he says, "You remember that, huh?" Vash grabs Wolfwood's left wrist and brings it to his face. "And here." He kisses another spot there. "When you helped free the hostages from that robber..." Wolfwood dismissively says, looking away, "Was a lucky shot." Vash huffs, “Don’t brag. Jeez.”
Half of Wolfwood's expression is shown, eyes returning to Vash who is now sitting up, continuing to say, "And..." Vash goes on and kiss Wolfwood's right palm. "You got cut here, even though that girl was aiming at me." A moment from the past flashes, of Wolfwood grabbing a knife aimed at Vash, his hand bleeding.
At present, Vash moves down and puts another kiss on Wolfwood's right shoulder. "And here, from watching my back." Another memory flashes of Wolfwood and Vash back to back. Vash looks back as Wolfwood grins while holding Punisher, bleeding from multiple gunshots in his shoulder.
"And," Vash combs up Wolfwood's hair to reveal his forehead, "Here." A final memory shows Wolfwood with a regeneration vial in his mouth while getting shot on his temple. The next panel is framed in blood with Vash at the center, eyes wide and stunned in horror. The next panel is a closed up shot of Wolfwood's eye, locked on Vash's face.
Back to present, Vash’s head is bowed down as Wolfwood raises a hand to his nape and says, “Spikey.”
Wolfwood looks serious and frowns as he says, "We talked about this. Those were my decisions. They're not there anymore. Forget about them." Vash looks very sad before he smiles ruefully and says, "I still see them. All the time." He leans down so they touch foreheads. Wolfwood’s sorrowful expression can be seen as Vash says, "You protect so much. I could never forget what you've done to me. And many others..."
In the last image, they're drawn more cartoonishly. Wolfwood sweats and asks, "You don't actually remember every wound, right?" Vash points at a spot on his chest. "Kuroneko left a scratch here 7 times." Wolfwood, startled, says, "Why the hell are you keeping count—" End ID]
Credits for ID here and here
#vashwood#vash the stampede#nicholas d wolfwood#trigun#trigun maximum#another scars comic for one of the vw week days!!!! frankly i think about their scars WAY too often . most notably wolfwood's because#it really symbolizes a lot for him imo bc for vash it's a history of all the people that's ever harmed him betrayed him and the trust he has#given to humanity despite it all. its a beautiful reflection of his character and then u look at ww and presumably#since we dont really see him half naked Ever (shame) and i mean. i guess technically its a hc -- i assume he wouldn't have any scars bc#of the regen potions (which is why he doesnt have his t scars btw the regen pot took them away :pensive:)#in a way its like washing his hands of blood. giving him the body of someone who might never been involved in a fight never held a gun#but he knows thats not true yet he cant really do anything about it anyway bc he's still just human. if he stops taking the regen pots#he can't press forward. so its just a rinse and repeat and growing accustomed to whats inflicted on him because he knows it'll go away at#the end of the day. he's human but he's also not he's far beyond what could be considered a normal human but he still just is.#mortal but also not immortal. idk. i overthink about it a lot GMSKGMDK frankly i dont think it matters THAT much in the context of trimax#but it means a lot to me somehow. also thinking about how no matter how many times ww kills he's never numb to the sensation of it. maybe#the adrenaline gets to him for the beginning half but ive been rereading like.. vol 3? and that entire fight for ww#u can slowly see him spiral as he keeps on going on. anyway anyway. i love ww#ruporas art
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Sketches based on my FAVOURITE project sekai concept EVER by @the-one-that-weeps that when the characters enter their SEKAIs, their bodies adapt to the worlds as well! I also took some inspiration from the notes and my own concepts :DD
Thought it'd fit the Halloween spirit a lot!
#“why are minori and ichika together they wouldnt be able to meet” SHUSH. halloween magic#emu with multiple hands because shes got sm energy shed love to do several things at once <33#mafuyu has the notes of niigo's songs that helped her. and also empty notes for future songs to appear#not pictures but one over her chest & hesrt would probbaly be a fragment of kanades song that saved her#you cant see it well but kohane has a filmstrip on her left arm. and below that a graffiti of the vbs logo#left arm has a fragment of a “KOHANE” graffiti (apecifically the HANE) and vbs logo on her hand. little paint splashes on her face#ena has the. auxiliary lines for drawing humans yk. on her face and elbows and knees#like shes an unfinished sketch yet. has to still be worked on. but can still become a masterpiece. yk#also little drawings but also some crossed out. also her eye crossed out. yk. the struggle of not being able to draw the other eye#and teeny kanade with flowers growing where she walks but also wilting soon after. she still hasnt learnt how to save people </3#the rest are obvious. i think. feel free to ask if not!#kerizart#prsk#prsk fanart#prsk art#wxs#wonderlands x showtime#kamishiro rui#tenma tsukasa#emu ootori#kusanagi nene#mafuyu asahina#kohane azusawa#ena shinonome#hanasato minori#ichika hoshino#do i tag kanade AHAHDHAHA#kanade yoisaki
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And some days, I just wish you wouldn't look at me at all.
#ffxiv#sketch#wol#meteor survivor#zenos yae galvus#adventurer zenos#oh no#its the consequences of his actions#everything is fine until the only man on the star you care about looks at you with the same contempt your father did#(Meteor's not doing it intentionally- its a reflex after he comes back for quite a bit)#and zenos is getting bodied because its been a while since... you know... him being able to really feel anything at all#and no- its not him regretting anything that had to do with varis- just him regretting the thought meteor could look at him like that#little does Meteor know he's emotionally bodying the man he's trying to be cordial with#its a little okay because in how I write adventurer zenos this serves as one of his main wake-up calls to make some changes#and realizing both the mistakes he's made with meteor and that meteor hating him in any way is actually -not at all- what he wants#but not okay on the end that every time meteor does this he has to watch zenos actively dissociate right in front of him#until zenos just kinda autopilots and walks away#the second time (or perhaps third) in the last 11 years that zenos has felt regret to any major capacity-#on meteor's end I just enjoy seeing the progression of the WoL through subtext#and why meteor is willing to even entertain the idea despite how much he hates zenos- his decisions and the path he's walked#is the realization that there is high chance that he could actually be a direct catalyst for zenos' growth#and the realization the wol has that they were the only one zenos has ever genuinely reached out to#besides- i just like the idea of having your equal other half fighting back to back with you- or being able to handle threats you cant#and i find their dynamic neat- of meteor not forgiving zenos but giving him his last chance- and growing to enjoy being around him#and zenos being able to work on moving past being the weapon or the monster- finding the connections he's longed for#and giving himself purpose to finally truly just live- for him to learn to experience and have the freedom to find what he enjoys#(and curiously him having estinien's brand of accidently helping people even in StB gives me ideas...)#but enough tag ranting- ill get to zenos' actual adventuring in another post lol
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little moshang fan kid <3
spoiled, aloof, a bit of a bitch, terminally 'weak constitution'-ed, lowkey lazy, prefers reading his dailies in the office and pretending to do paperwork to fighting
#svsss#moshang#he DOES grow up and becomes a respectable demon prince eventually. but hes a cold disinterested spoiled brat as a teen#shang qinghua rides his ass because he KNOWS that hes slacking on the paperwork that hes pretending to do#but unfortunately thats His Baby and he cant be TOO strict (this attitude not extended towards binghe... sad)#crawling out of mirrors like The Grunge to scare the transmigrated soul out of uncle sqq#he got his love of shiny shiny jangly accessories from aunt sha hualing#when he was a baby everyone in court was trying to poison him for political reasons#but didnt realize that since hes only half demon full demon poisons wont kill him#so for years moshang just thought their kid had like. horrible IBS. lack toast and tolerance that almost kills you#and even now as a young man hes like.... ah... sadly my body is too frail to go on ceremonial monster hunts with father..#my greatest love language for a series..... making fankids#his fighting style is Very elegantly avoiding all attacks. poor MBJ like JUST STAND TALL AND TAKE A HIT LIKE A FUTURE DEMON KING#his poor firstborn son like Why would I do that. getting beaten up is very unpleasant. i would personally like to avoid that
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worst family in the town-on-gorkhon or whatever
#i hate them (vlads)#ew vlad jr & capella havin trouble in communication bc capella reminds him their dead mother eww why r they like this#vlad jr was so fucked up for sayin “She will not grow to be a Mistress” man shut the fuck up!!!#pathologic#pathologic 2005#capella#vlad jr#vlad olgimsky#мор утопия#влад ольгимский#младший влад#капелла#avart#i dont want to think bout them but i cant
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If nothing else Koenma is a Kuwabara stan and I'm right there with him o7 (I need to write the kuwameshi fic that goes with this fr)
#maybe one day i'll write that au i have sitting in my head#ever since the comment he made about making kuwa spirit detective instead ive been thinking about it#like...what if yusuke is still recruited same as canon but like#kuwa was already spirit detective? doing assignments for the guys upstairs and all#and they made yusuke help him after his resurrection instead of going solo#and it's hilarious because they still have the ''rivalry'' set in place so it's like#now i gotta be coworkers with this guy i was in a fist fight with last week?#yusuke is like you can't be serious you want me to fight DEMONS with the guy who cant even beat ME? lmaooo okay#kuwa would be more in tune with his powers atp in this au and super offended like hello#why would i use my reiki on a FELLOW HUMAN CHILD you DICK i can hold my own on my assignments just fine#but he's actually really excited to be able to spend time with yusuke doing something besides getting his ass handed to him#they're both genkai's students (she's endlessly annoyed but they grow on her)#i just think it'd be fun cos like#it'd be harder to exclude kazuma from shit if he's literally been involved in this shit before he even met#kurama and hiei#kuwabara isn't really told about yusuke's resurrection so things go mostly the same up til he's brought back#they're both called to koenma's office and it's the spiderman pointing meme 💀#it's koenma's first time seeing kuwa in person as he usually just sends assignments with botan#yusuke has already seen him cos of the resurrection arc#and koenma is SUCH a fanboy ''kuwabara it's such a pleasure. you know you're my best worker 🥺''#''um urameshi am i seeing things or is that a fuckin baby'' yusuke will NOT stop laughing#it fucks koenma up so bad he makes sure he's in his adult form when he's around kuwa next#cos he wants to be the respected boss but also guy that you can chill with!! he's so cringe#okay yeah i need to write this it's such a fun concept#kuwameshi#yu yu hakusho#kuwabara kazuma#yusuke urameshi#koenma
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guhh love this guy
i don’t get why people shit on him so much 💔
or maybe i do but like still
let my man have flaws not everyone is perfect
if he takes over the world he don’t need to mind control me i’d go willingly 😭
#i should be allowed to like shitty characters#the only person i can allow to shit on charles is his husband#like he earned that title#i genuinly love mentor characters in general#the main characters always put them on high pedastals until they grow up and see their flaws#PEOPLE HAVE FLAWS THEY MAKE MISTAKES#THEY CANT BE PERFECT FOR YOU#thinking about iroh and dumbledore#i’d say im somewhat of an iroh kinnie#mentor characters aren’t allowed to struggle too apparently 🤨#they get put in a bad light a lot makes me sad#why don’t we want mentally ill people mentoring they need to share their wisdom#charles xavier#professor x#x men#cherik#wish does not shut up#sometimes sad old people sharing their knowledge of the world just get me
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one thing i really appreciate about jinshi's character is how he has NEVER once actually had any intention of succeeding the throne. every time the idea is brought up he immediately detests it. so hes giving maomao as much as he possibly can, even though maomao has many qualms about it due to their difference in social status, but jinshi DOESNT CARE because hes NEVER cared about or wanted the status of crown prince! its been nothing but a burden to him! from his perspective the ONLY thing keeping the two of them apart are outside influences. he has no doubt within himself-- hes horribly down bad, in fact. but unfortunately his stupid JOB is getting in the way of him skipping off into the sunset with his favourite little cat
#jinshi literally maiming himself infront of the emperor and empress: “can you please fire me so i can marry the girl of my dreams”#emperor: “no. now go to the west capital relatively unsupervised with the girl of your dreams andpromise REAL HARD u wont something stupid”#also not to mention i think maomaos problem isnt that she doesnt want to marry jinshi bc she doesnt care about him-- she cares abt him A LO#which is precisely why shes convinced herself she cant marry him. she wants whats best for him and#she wholeheartedly believes that marrying her is the EXACT OPPOSITE of whats best for him.#like she has. yknow. not the prettiest of backgrounds. growing up in a brothel might do that to you#shes mentioned before- shes basically a commoner. she has her biologicaldad but hes more of a wildcard selfmade man with no real connection#and she doesnt even like him.#but she just CANNOT comprehend that someone would sacrifice so much for her and ask for nothing in return but her company#i just love them a lot your honour.#the apothecary diaries#the apothecary diaries spoilers#for the anime/manga onlies#READ THE LIGHT NOVEL#kusuriya no hitorigoto#kusuriya no hitorigoto spoilers
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had some thoughts about certain characters having halos with specific looks to them, so i drew it.
//explanation(?) in the tags if your curious vv
#ok the tags are going to be a mountain of explanation im sorry#how it works is only mistress' can see them unless its a character that is able to break the fourth wall or understand the situation#maria and capella have the same ones as their mothers#maria's moon is upside to resemble horn yknow nina the wicked etc etc#capella's is meant to resemble a crown#capella's is also small and incomplete due to her still being young#she will eventually grow into a full large blinding sun halo trust#katerina is an eclipse because unlike the sun or the moon it doesnt give off light in the same way and blah blah blah blind you get it#however its the closest to a real halo if that means much to you#clara's is scattered not whole and the most inconsistent of the 4#her's changes size depending on emtion and actually cant be seen by the other mistress' it can only be seen by 4th wall breaking characters#if you have made it here and are wondering why katerina and capella look like that i like to fuse the p1 and p2 designs... sorry#also if this is extremly ooc im sorry i havent finished clara route i just thought this concept was cool..#clara saburova#clara the changeling#clara pathologic#katerina saburova#maria kaina#capella olgimskaya#capella pathologic#pathologic art#pathologic#pathologic 2#pathologic fanart#my art
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i dont understand the hate toward musicals as a genre tbh
#i understand hating CERTAIN musicals but i cant understand why something being a musical wld put u off otherwise#like u dont like having more songs to get stuck in ur head?#maybe i was borned to be a theater kid but my shame gland got too big LMAO. also saying this#as someone who will run to the tv if hairspray is on and sing every single song#talkys#anyway i would go see wicked bc the cgi looks boring and its 3 hours and idc about ariana#but id otherwise be interested since ive heard the songs in other media or such growing up#my brother said he wouldnt wanna go on the sole basis of it being a musical as if thats not the only good part (of the new movie at least)#*wouldnt go see
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thoughts i've had.
#he's soooooooooooooo#i love you sans. i really do#my boyfriend.#WAAAAAH WAAUGH#my hair grows out super fast. i cant keep a cut for too long#why do i always change the way i draw him. ok well i think its because i focus on different details of him everytime?#like his cheeks. his eyes. his nose. the way he smiles. and then i work around that#the models are from a website called posemy.art#graphart#graphsans#sans#graph#you may block:#self insert#sans x self insert
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Linktober Day 8. Tunic
#linktober#linktober 2024#the legend of zelda#wind waker#ocarina of time#loz#loz ww#loz oot#link#josh art tag#had a lot of fun with this one despite how annoying it was to draw#oot link was at a difficult angle and i also just could not shade this for the life of me. restarted the shading like 3 times#i think im reaching that point in the cycle i typically go thru with my artstylr where ive grown tired of my shading style#to the point that i forget how to do it and it never quite looks right#so if my next post features changes to my artstyle thats why lol#but i enjoyed making this despite that cuz i like the ideas behind it!#i normally wouldve redesigned ww!link's outfit but i purposefully drew it accurately#to highlight how its more like a costume. cuz thats kinda what it was! and its modeled after the hero of times clothes#but is pretty innacurate. which i think is cool.. shows how much time has passed and how the view of the hero of time has warped#so i also purposefully made oot link wearing my redesigned outfit for him (even if you cant see much of it at this angle)#to further emphasize how ww!link's outfit is not only essentially a costume but is also quite innacurate#i like having ww!link ditch the costume for something else to show how he stops being some kid in oot!link's shadow#and grows into a true hero of his own#hence my ww!link redesign where i put him back in the lobster shirt. but i do keep some green and something similar to the hat#to have him fit in with the other links while still being unique#look i have a lot of feelings about ww!link and oot!link#i wish zelda would do more stuff like this... i think having oot relate to wind waker makes the story more interesting#and makes ww!link more interesting! cuz he cant be the hero of time they want. but he does become the real hero they need#the oot ww tp trio is so good... and they all work great as standalone games but their connections do really add something
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i can imagine will byers trying to subtly be more feminine and subtly pick up feminine habits so mike will see him as a girl and love him back.
#obviously he cant just like be feminine as a man bc like 80's homophobia#thats why i said he would do it subtly#like growing his hair longer#wearing more colorful clothes#talking in a higher pitched voice#shit like that#will 'i wish i was a girl so you can love me' byers#byler#stranger things#byler endgame#mike wheeler#will byers#anti mileven
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