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Message from the future...
...so I finished Elpis.
I am not okay.
I knew it was going to hurt. Didn't expect it to hurt that bad.
Goodbye gil.
Hmmm hmm hmmm...
Just gonna... cry a bit.
#ffxiv liveblog#rhesh'a tag#elpis#spending all my money on minions#why can't I have them both out at once#don't panic#I'm fine#Just Suffering TM
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Oklahoma! (1955) is a WILD watch. some lovely ballet though
#i saw a high school production of it when i was a kid and i mostly only remember the peddler who i thought was hilarious#and then i played in a pit orchestra for it in high school so i didn't *really* know what was going on#heard half the lines but couldn't see anything#so this is definitely A Time!#apparently this lady thinks this guy is scary because he looks at porn. and then she steals his carriage & horses leaving him stranded#^^ unfair summary sorry he did also confess his love and hug her#she couldn't possibly have turned him down and asked to be dropped off! she's a scared helpless woman you see#oh she also almost killed them both in the process! wow can't believe he made her do that by scaring her by hugging her#after she agreed to go to a dance with him and he perhaps had reason to think she was interested#she literally didn't once try out the word 'no'. she went straight for risking everyone's death#why did she say yes to going to the dance? so glad you asked. to make her crush jealous#also said crush went to the guy's cabin to tell him it'd be cool if he killed himself. it sounds like i'm exaggerating doesn't it#incredibly the woman and her crush are the protagonists#we're not even going to comment on Ado Annie. i don't have time for a dissertation#(
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finished shadowbringers a year ago today and went back to watch some of my fave cutscenes now that the graphics are updated :'''''''') i don't think a day has gone by since last year where i HAVEN'T thought about these two in some way shape or form!!
#kalyna orben#leigh plays ffxiv#ALL OF EMET'S TEXTURES LOOK REAL FUCKING GOOD. HIS UNDERCUT ESPECIALLY?????#also yes hearing full fathom five/neath dark waters still makes me bawl like a fucking baby#goddamn this expansion really just decimated me in the best way possible. IT HIT ALL THE RIGHT BUTTONS.#also genuinely haven't felt so inspired to flesh out oc lore since finishing it. goooooooooood.#once shadowbringers sinks its teeth into you it's not letting go#also regrettably i picked up on the fact that SO MANY OF THE THINGS EMET SAYS. HAS LAYERS. THROTTLING HIM.#GO SIT IN THE CORNER WITH GUNTER I CAN'T HAVE YOU BOTH DOMINATING MY ENTIRE BRAIN SPACE#anyways im normal. im fine. will probs see if anyone in party finder wants to run hades ex tonight. for fun.#also the reason why kal doesn't have the flowers in the first set is cuz they were a gift from emet <3#a lil memory prompting on his behalf to see if kal remembered them. cuz azem always wore that flower.#(spoiler alert they do not remember <3)#emetkal#ffxiv shadowbringers spoilers
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Y’all are being subjected to my Sims 2 tests, so there
The other set of Vargases came over for a visit and Scriabin picked up Shmee and started talking to Scriabin through him. Very normal, very usual
I downloaded some circle-glasses recolours and hghghh they look so good! Closer every day to his final details! Getting ever closer!
Edgar too! I made him a custom hair with a lighter undercut - I’m mostly happy with it, probably could’ve shifted it a shade closer to his skintone but the texturing was weird no matter what :P And his stripey shirt! I wish Body Shop didn’t have that hands-on-hips pose lol, it looks so much better in-game, but that’s all the better :)
I got some new clothes for Todd as well! As soon as I saw this ‘fit I was like “Oh that’s 100% Todd there he is.” Scriadad hug ♥ So cute
Foot-dancing together stopp it’s so cute!!
The way he looks at them stoppp <3 <3 They kept doing this right up til they left for home haha, Todd’s giggles are the cutest
Used SimPE to save him to the Body Shop, I now have infinite copies of The Boyyyy ♪
Moved him in with his “parents” as just shadow people basically, they’re not gonna matter in a bit as long as I remember how to get the Social Worker/Adoption process to work properly. Get her Todd!!
Wanna play? :D
Menacing :(
Look, Todd, your new dads are here! Initially I wasn’t sure who I wanted to adopt him, got lots of options; the first passes, the married couple with their own Todd, Johnny?? He definitely doesn’t have the facilities for a child lol But these are the ones that showed up on their own, so the married Vargases are the winners!
Scriabin cares more about him than his actual parents ;; A stranger off the street shows him more care! Not that it’s a high watermark
Look at him being a good dad!
Weh, he just wants friends ;; Poor baby
Best timeline, thank you
While we wait for CPS, let’s get some other interactions in! Nny is mean so he tended to prank the other two with a nose flick - mostly Edgar lol ♪ Now kiss
“Oh please don’t break all my bones~ :3” I love Todd looking up at them haha <3
Pffft, I think he was talking about the other Scriabin and just how attractive he is. Classic Scriabin. Alternatively, also funny to imagine him bragging himself up about how he’s just so handsome that Edgar can’t help but love him hahaha ♪
Allow me to tickle you with my KNIFE! >:D
Get a load of this guy lol
He ended up passing out at one point - I forgot which motives make CPS show up >.> - and completely 0%’d his comfort, but for some reason stargazing increased it?? It’s the same ground wh
Is two not enough to satisfy your butterfly bloodlust child?? He ended up with three, I had him release them before he was picked up by the Social Worker - success!
He rolled a new Want as soon as Todd was taken away - “Wants to see Ghost of Todd” Woah, dark! :0
And here he is on the married Vargases’ lot!! Success!! I did it right!! Heck yeah! :D Unfortunately they were uh, indisposed at the time. Good job guys pft
Goes right for Shmee, he really is Todd <3
#The Sims 2#My queue is too backlogged on main! And I /have/ been working on a lot of Vargas-specific Sims 2 retextures so it's fine lol#These are still tests - as said up top lol - so these events are ''non canon'' to what will eventually be my actual Vargas family#The beats will be similar tho! It's mostly just a lot of tweaking at this point to get everything just where I want before the domino falls#Edgar Nny and Todd are all so close to done - Scriabin still needs a bit more work lol of course he's the problem member ♪#It'll be worth it tho! >:3c Handsome lad <3#Did find out some interesting things with the Social Worker/Adoption process :0 Most importantly that adoption basically wipes everything#Wipes memories and family relations and changes the last name! So I'll have to go in with SimPE to change his name back once I'm there#I love SimPE haha ♪ I mean it's just an extension of how much I love TS2 but I just ughsjkhagf it's a good program!#It's extremely powerful and easy to get lost in if you don't know where to look but it's also incredibly user-friendly if you do know#Like - it's as easy as ''Open this sub-menu. Click this button. Rename this. You're all done'' it's just jdsflf Sims 2 my beloved <3 <3#I decided to cheat down the Casils' relationship with Todd before everything else - thus why his father is menacing him for the prank#I've seen Sims with not high enough friendship to not take a water balloon as a fun invitation but not between a parent and child!#It's subtle but the parent being mad and the kid cowering :( It's sadly appropriate for Todd#I stuck the Casils in a box to wait things out and they ended up glitching frozen in bed - they're effectively dead by Motive but can't move#So they can't die /or/ live - feels fitting#If you'd like to recreate CPS taking your child away without straight up torturing them! - Hunger. You just need hunger lol#Alternately you can also have them miss class if you'd prefer to feed them - both will result in being taken away after long enough#If I return to this save it's gonna be confusing since both Todds are identical and have the same names lol#I do have a bunch of new clothes! Second shopping trip :D#There's something oddly fitting for the Vargases to adopt twin/clones lol - fun shenaniganary until the Final Version comes to pass#Although now that I think of it I Could also give them a toddler!Todd hmmmmmm#It's an idea :)
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if i was an artist with budget i'd be able to draw the buildup and all. i am not an artist with budget tho. so 3 panels will do
Kinda suggestive/nsfw tags btw go there with caution
anyways i think i huave covid
#perceptive little crow#fettered paintbrushes#never thought i'd be able to make a kiss scene this good. it's not spectacular but yesssssssss it's exactly what i wanted#anyhow i'll die and go to hell#depending on how im feeling I'd give you two answers over how this went down#the first one is that peka just was struggling for his life to get the knot done (he's doing a hard one) so he went#'ok maybe if i make out with her I'll be able to hide the fact i can't do this at all'#the second one is that. man. tying someone's tie? having your hands close to their body in an attempt to do something for them?#SPECIALLY what might as well be the love of your life? the one person that you just can't stop looking up to?#man that's hot as fuck#snd he felt it#of course he couldn't describe it (nor that he knows the words anyways) but he felt it deep down#the way im wording this kinda seems like this would've been their first time. like both kissing/making out and#hell maybe even having sex together#which honestly? kinds fits#i guess one of the things about their relationship is the restrain they have#i don't even know why it'd happen yet. i just feel like they wouldn't really like...allow themselves to be intimate. at all#maybe some hugs here and there but never something actually like. deeper#it's just kind of a fun scenario if the bubble finally broke in such an innocuous moment#only because one of the parties felt a little bit more aroused than usual. and decided to act upon it#i guess that'd make it the more painful once they separate bc they literally wouldn't have time to enjoy each other anymore#anyways thoughts thoughts#sorry for being insane over teorija with a suit i think a sleeper agent just activated on me#anywayssss
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I freaking love your au and your latest comic because MAN
I FELT THOSE LAST WORDS AND I WAS LIKE "OH FUCK"
First panel was already a bit unsettling itself - like you get it's just intimate manners as you do as a couple but he felt so possessive already and
Sunny's inner thoughts
I'm sure 100% his abandonment anxiety will increase drastically the more he stays with nick and honestly slay
I mean it's kinda obvious
But like I felt that
Yeah
Nick is unhinged
Nick is crazy
Y'all are gay for him
Good 😵💥
Sunny has soooo many issues. So many of them. He's so vulnerable and he makes himself vulnerable to Nick while still being intimidated by him, it's... Dude's got some problems.
#ive talked about mental illness and nick before but not sunny...#well. only a bit. ive said sunny's autistic#but he's also got other problems-- such as abandonment issues as you said#sunny's very insecure in relationships - partly because he has a very limited experience with them#and partly because he has self image issues.#when you grow up as an undiagnosed autistic kid you tend to be very aware you're different while not knowing how to change it#everyone thinks and says you're weird but you have no idea what's weird about you so you can't even try to fit in#a friend of mine told me once that she thought i was so brave for not being scared of being different in middle school#i wasn't. i wasn't brave. i just had no idea why people thought i was weird#sunny in this au knows how deeply different he is from other people but he doesn't know /what/ makes him different or how to change it#and as a result he just doesn't open up very much. he's very reserved and doesnt talk to many people. he has like two friends total#which also conviently makes him easy for nick to isolate#sunny also has bpd! and he gets deeply attached to people who show him any kind of affection very easily#as i mentioned before he also tends to fall for people who intimidate or scare him -- people he sees as mentally superior to him#his self image is constantly oscilliating between 'im the greatest person to have ever lived' and 'im the worst thing to have ever existed'#he's extremely unstable. he has mood swings. he gets obsessive easily. he seeks out relationships with mostly toxic or older people#he doesn't have a good support system. he's socially anxious and an introvert. he's openly trans. most people think he's weird.#he has no stable sense of self. he has panic attacks. he's both hypervigilant and oblivious to lies and attempts at manipulation#all of this makes him a very easy target for someone like nick.#at least- at /least/-- nick genuinely loves him.#ask#tosteur-gluteal#rant#arsenic#i start talking about psychology and i get lost. my apologies
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I'm not a "new musical theatre style music" person. Never have been.
Even when I was doing voice lessons, I'd steer towards the golden age or jazzy musical theatre songs. My voice teacher would have to drag me kicking and screaming towards adding anything new musical theatre to my repertoire. For a while, the most modern song in my book was I Know The Truth from Aida, and I wouldn't count that as new musical theatre style since I mean more the Pasek&Paul or Joe Iconis type.
And now I have an audition coming up for a small production of a show in that style and I'm supposed to sing a song in a similar style. And I'm looking at all my sheet music like... let me do some Cole Porter... or Gershwin... at least Sondheim please...
#look i do have SOME newer musicals in my book. but like i said. kicking and screaming.#i'm probably gonna end up doing 'I Think That He Likes Me' which is not IN a musical it's just new musical theatre style#as part of a songbook for some writing duo that i can't remember the name of and it's 2:45am so i can't care enough to look it up.#and it's the only one in my sheet music folder that i'm like 'ok. this is TRULY the right style' and i know it's good in my voice#and it's a cute song and i do like it and it definitely fits the overall vibe of the show#and though i haven't sung it in like 4 years i still remember 90% of the words and have time to study it before the audition#but while trying to find that song deep deep in my folder i pass by other songs i just love so much more#and i'm like ahhhhhhhh why#and i'm not even like 'god i hope i get it' (see A Chorus Line. that's more my type) i truly don't care if i'm cast or not#and yes i can technically audition with any song i could ever want it's just suggested to do the same style#but i know the entire creative panel who i'll be auditioning for and the last 2 times i auditioned for them i sang the same song#only because it's a GOOD song that fit both shows i was auditioning for (Can't Stop Talking About Him by Frank Loesser)#(perfect audition song since it's short at like 28 bars and you can pick the tempo and do a lot of character stuff)#(but see this is what i mean. like 1/3 of my entire sheet music folder is golden age musicals. then half is 60s-90s.)#(and then the last chunk are the few new-ish musical theatre and some pop music.)#(if i took performing more seriously i'd have a wider range but this is truly just for fun and just for me. so i do what i like.)#i don't want to go in for a 3rd audition with the same creative team and doing the same song. especially since it doesn't fit this time.#so once again. dragged kicking and screaming. over to new musical theatre territory. unwillingly.#if i get cast we'll have to see if the show itself even grows on me since honestly i think there's maybe 2 songs i like in it.#it's definitely not the worst new musical theatre style show but it's also not one that drew me in.#ok wait while looking through lists of 'new musical theatre' shows to find one i actually like (i think just Legally Blonde sorry guys)#(every other new musical in the last 20 years that i like did something interesting with the music like Come From Away)#i ended up finding out that apparently 13 was adapted into a netflix movie? when did that even happen?#i mean i don't care for that show either but i thought i was at least up to date on movie adaptations.
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Wanna put your friend in a lil terrarium just to see what wacky things she does stg 😂
i actually Cannot Stress the migraine she gives me every time we hang out. like without fail she'll always say or do something that ranges from mildly questionable or irritating but relatively Whatever to How Have You Survived This Long Without Burning Your House Down Boiling An Egg
#snap chats#and then there's her just forgetting things or being late despite the amount of times ill remind her#and i keep stressing to her i cannot stand it when people are late. and then she shows up to things an hour late anyway#or 'when shes late' by fifteen minutes because she didnt think to text me she's there. and im already stressed and annoyed I. UGH i swear.#LIKE. i have only really had two irl friends and both of them i lowkey had to parent in some way#at least my childhood bestie she's like. she's grown a lot and even if i havent spoken to her in a while im real proud of her right#THIS MOTHERFUCKER THO. OUUUUUGGGH.... youre not supposed to say anythin if you dont got nothin nice to say#which is contradictory to the main body text but point is let me Not be any more mean than how ive been already LMAO#even funnier about her looking at that comic is that LITERALLY masumi says he's talking to jo ☠️☠️☠️☠️#did i already say i have to remind her who jo is every three seconds#like the entirety of chap 2 when ichi's out of jail she was all 'why doesnt he just say who ACTUALLY killed the guy'#and then when we finally run into the fuckass who 'actually killed the guy' she's just 'wait who's that'#then i tell her and shes like 'oh my god he's so old now' IT'S BEEN 18 YEARS DUMBASS#ngl did wanna make a comic based off that LMAO BUT POINT IS she tests my patience every day and i think its good practice#if im going to work with people in the future like ohh.. my god....#she told me once she's never been on a date and its like. yeah i wonder why you can't even be assed to show up on time to hangouts ☠️#like ive never had friends so maybe im just insane.. im not insane for wanting people to be on time tho....#OK IM BEING TOO MEAN LET ME CAP IT THERE
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The med school primary application asking if my work and activities are meaningful, like by simply going out of my way to do anything doesn’t have some kind of impact on my life.
#are we not the sum total of all our memories and experiences#peace speaks#yeah I know it wants the most meaningful#but I think it's so dumb#like I volunteered in the respiratory ICU during the height of covid#I didn't really do much but it sure left an impact when family members kept desperately asking me if they could see their loved ones#and I had to tell them not yet because the doctors were doing something#like that didn't massively change me as a person or alter my viewpoint#it just made me highly uncomfortable and have the desire to go into a field where I never have to interact with patients#but I can't say that because med schools don't like you saying things like I want to go into forensic pathology#because they want you to be open to new experiences#which they can clearly tell from the fact that I have both a science and art degree#participated in college sports#and also shortly worked at a shipyard#not once has anyone said my life is boring when I have to do the rundown of why I'm currently doing anything#even explaining where I'm from takes at least a few minutes due to how often I've moved#meanwhile all the stupid example essays I've seen are just#I've wanted to be a doctor ever since I could remember#how does that make them a better applicant than me#they should just let everyone in and let them fail out like nature intended
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Do i succumb to the temptation..... Do i rb someone's post to argue with them........
#someone on the hi tag said 'lol the gi and hsr fans fighting over worst female character designs when we know they both suck'--#'we all know hoyo can't design female characters period'#-- and went on to say (in the TAGS btw not the main post) 'that's why I'll never try honkai impact i can tell its all oversexualized there'#like bitch. first of all. if you weren't gonna even bring it up in the post itself why use the proper tag?? you know we can see it now right#AND SECOND#most hua battlesuits would like a word. as do delta. bronie. kongming. ranger? bladestrike? snowy sniper? 6th serenade? HoR HoTr HoS??#there's enough that trying to list them would be tedious#and like. hsr and genshin also. have some good female designs?? that's why the fanbases know hoyo can do better???#yknow what maybe i just needed to type this out and vent. or maybe i'll look at the honkai impact tag again later and get tempted once more#who knows at this point
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Okay all -- few quick thoughts about the Elon Muskifying of the government, especially the takeover of the Treasury and associated financial data for every single US citizen and organization, that we are learning about in detail today.
Don't panic. This sounds bad, because it is bad. It's really, really bad. It's outrageously fascist bad. But we've still gotta take a deep breath and get through it.
This is the kind of shock-and-awe exercise of untrammeled fascist power where they are absolutely counting on gleefully terrorizing, paralyzing, and stunning you into mounting no resistance, or just giving up and giving in. They are literally live-tweeting it in real time and boasting about all the access and influence they have right now. They want you to know about it and feel like you can't do anything, so you might as well let it happen.
We have to show them that's not true.
TIME TO MAKE SOME NOISE. Because it's Sunday night, I've gone ahead and contacted my state Attorney General and both senators by email (but come Monday morning, we should all be calling). Here is the email that I wrote to my AG:
Dear Mr. [AG],
As you will be aware, today (February 2, 2025) the Trump administration has granted wide-ranging access to sensitive US Treasury data, including the personal and private information of [state] citizens, to Elon Musk's so-called "Department of Government Efficiency." Musk is an unelected private citizen who has no legal right to access this data, and is engaging in extensive intimidation and coercion to fulfill his personal and harmful ideological agenda. The present and material harm that this causes to US citizens, [state] residents, and basic laws of government, privacy, and financial security is direct, unconscionable, and actionable. I strongly urge you, in your capacity as [state] Attorney General, to file direct suit against the Trump administration, Elon Musk, the "DOGE" office, and any identifiable individuals who have taken part in this action, in order to protect consumer data, citizen privacy, and basic faith and trust in government.
All the best,
[Qqueenofhades]
Short! To the point! Doesn't waste time, tells him what I want him to do, how Elmo's nonsense directly harms the residents of my state, and why he should take action to stop it! And frankly, given how on-the-ball blue-state AGs have been thus far, they're probably already working on it. You are very welcome to copy-and-paste this message and fill in your AG's last name and your state as appropriate. Super easy to do. Takes five minutes. Call tomorrow.
If you are in a red state, your voice is particularly important right now. The Trumpsters are counting on and are even emboldened by blue state pushback, but you really need to make it start coming from Republican strongholds. Congressional Republicans will only feel the slightest amount of unease about docilely enabling this BS when it starts threatening their own personal power. Hit them where it hurts.
Other lawsuits are coming. Marc Elias, Democratic lawyer extraordinaire, is well aware of this situation and has noted on Bluesky that more lawsuits are in the works. He often wins his cases. This does not mean that you shouldn't loudly make noise elsewhere, but please remember that this is one of those 24-hour periods where, as noted, they are counting on demoralizing you with a nonstop blizzard of bullshit. It does not say anything about how this will play out long-term or the opposition that can and will be mobilized to stop it.
Once again: courage. Take the small steps that you can do today. Then take a breath and get off social media for a little while. Try to take the long view. One step at a time, we will get through this.
Courage.
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I would have also liked to include the scenes where Atsushi hurt Naomi and Haruno and the one where he saw Sigma die, but I couldn't make them fit without disrupting the flow of the edit (╥﹏╥)


Sigma's scene in particular, since - if I remember correctly - Atsushi still doesn't know that Sigma is alive. So as far as Atsushi is concerned Sigma is just another person who died as consequence of being close to him (´;︵;)


— Their blood is on your hands.
#I'm glad this resonated with people!!!#I wanted to convey that white noise effect of when one has received very bad news and they're spiraling so I'm glad that went through :)#That's why Atsushi's is the only static panel.#Because he's supposed to be frozen and incapacitated to move in the eye of the hurricane y'know?#That's also why Akutagawa amd Dostoyevsky are surrounded by darkness and you can't see their faces well.#Because it's their words hitting Atsushi hard and their physical presence is only secondary and comes off as distant#I really like that one Atsushi panel. Although it's from chapter 8... But I like the ricurrence of it.#Like the same horror Atsushi felt back then is once again back haunting him...#I also really appreciate the irony of Akutagawa filling both the first two pictures.#His goal was to torment Atsushi but he ended up victim of his own words... Because he started caring for Atsushi...#I was considering making the dead friends outlines more sharp..#I merely would have had to place a layer on top with the clean panel on multiply or whatever other blending mode#But I opted not because I feel like in our memories the outlines of our companions aren't really sharp.#And Atsushi can't remember their faces well. Not as well as he would like to.#But that comes from someone who's totally completely face blind so I probably shouldn't speak LMAO#That's probably why I left Tanizaki as the only one you can see the eyes of...#Because he was looking Atsushi straight in the eyes when he died and I suppose that image got imprinted in Atsushi's mind#While with Akutagawa... It's already been too long#just rambling. I'm still not sure if the bubbles outline came out well. If I should have made them thicker...#I got a little lazy perhaps. Sorry I had already made 58738457 frames for the animation#reblog+
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#it's actually impressive at this point how i manage to attract the most unavailable men ever and them only#like in all my years of life it has happened over and over again and I'm so tired i truly don't know what the universe is playing at#like I've seen what you've done for others why can't i have it?? like a normal standard thing?? not asking for much??#anyways the latest guy that i Know was attracted to me like i could tell and his hands literally shook the first few times we talked#he has a girlfriend dhfkdjjf unsurprising anyways very unsurprising again not the first time but yea abandoning that one#it's always either this or they suddenly turn out to get really into religion I'M NOT EVEN KIDDING often both things at the same time#it's freaky it has happened more than once#erola.txt
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I ran out of tag... (It's mostly like two things that end up becoming annoyingly intertwined the more the series goes on). He was only powerful when it was convenient to the power scaling, which led to him being constantly put in otherwise intensely traumatizing victim situations solely to spur the main character into saving him no matter the cost. Which normally would have only furthered his unrealistic inferiority complex (and also his fear of weakness as well as distaste for weak people given how many people VICTIM BLAMED HIM, which you'd think would only confirm his fucking bias??) which OOPS was made into a... realistic inferiority complex?? Somehow solely to show that the MC somehow managed to grow past the underdog he never fucking was, and since the fans adored this, that became his only character! Yeah, somehow THAT was his big character growth...
He went from a complex, morally grey character to UwU empty ship fodder, and the fans of the series ate it up SO much that one of the main villains (one of the only people who genuinely acknowledged the strength and horrible treatment of my silly guy) telling him 'You're useless actually, I just want to kill you to make that other kid sad lol-' is seen as his PEAK. That. That's his peak. That's the "good ol days" the shipdom romantacizes. A villain poking at his weakness and deepest insecurity is somehow the canonizing moment of the ship (and it doesn't even happen, MC gets mad at his best friend's death for three seconds and then effortlessly kicks the villain's ass, as like the shittiest cherry on top) < it only gets worse from there!
I was also a shipper back in the day, and, in hindsight, I really should have seen the whole shitshow coming, but unfortunately I went on to dedicate six years to this hyperfixation that continues to haunt me three years after I attempted to quit the fandom cold turkey. It didn't even work.
reblog this with one canon thing you dislike / think is flawed about your blorbo and/or the way they were written
#the sheer inconsistency of the writing#deadass the story relied SO much on Tell Not Show that one of the STRONGEST main characters (in the MC's age range at LEAST)#is constantly and continuously victimized#and this is supposed to be his 'character growth'#but because him constantly being put in victim situations ties him to the main character everybody cheers and makes him into ship fodder#the SERIES in its finale made him into ship fodder but ofc it's a damn anime so gay people can't ACTUALLY exist#so his entire character- being the ONLY one that had growth being one of the most HARDWORKING and DEDICATED mfs on the cast-#ended up being absolutelt nothing.#at thr end of the day his BIGGEST FEAR FROM DAY ONE was just randomly canonized and his 'growth' turned into...#accepting the inferiority complex he had built up for himself based on absolutely NOTHING#to the point where ONE OF THE GODDAMNED VILLAINS tells him his only worth is his closeness to the MC and would you GUESS#people. fucking. cheered.#like there are soooo many things I could rant about this guy#first of all constantly being stuck as a victim doesn't actually make you sympathetic?? and it was almost ALWAYS at the negligence of the#adults around him. He was an ASSHOLE yeah but he was a TEENAGER who learned everything from the adults around him#only for those very same fuckers to turn around and verbally and PHYSICALLY berate or degrade him for upholding the values THEY INSTILED#second-ish the fact that he's contextually one of the strongest main characters in the entire series yet he CONSTANTLY gets nerfed#and forced into otherwise incredibly traumatic situations that would have HINDERED HIS PRE-EXISTING GROWTH- and it's all to make the#'underdog MC' shine and get the glory of saving the dude who HATES HIM. JUST LEAVE HIM ALONE MAN. THAT IS WHAT HE IS ASKING.#MC isn't even treated like an underdog either. He gets things SO effortlessly it makes you wonder why the hell everyone else even works#the series is RELIANT on his victimization. but it ties him into a ship he doesn't want to be in so people eat it up#then despite EVERYTHING he's been through HE UNDERGOES SEVERE CHARACTER GROWTH#he COMES TO TERMS with his tendency of lashing out and apologizes to the MC for treating him poorly due to his made up inferiority complex#and from then on it's just treated like a Canon Fact he is and always was inferior to this guy who put in. almost none of the actual work.#at the VERY least the series from the MC'a perspective shows the fact that he heavily idolized and looked up to my boy#but then the shift in perspective and suddenly every interaction with them is fucking 'he's ahead of me like he always has been'#buddy his fucking battle tactic is throwing himself into a lion's den and sheepishly laughing when he comes back burtally maimed. what.#what was once OBVIOUS BIAS became somehow OBJECTIVE FACT in order to half fucking traumabond this kid to someone who made him feel like shit#and that's not to say his actions towards said kid were excuseable- he was a bully and an asshole! Both things the MC just elects to ignore?#but at the end of the day the MC made him a WORSE person and he KNEW that and was trying to ESCAPE from it. He should have been allowed to.
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Honorably discharged partially disabled Simon, who swears he is perfectly fine and capable of doing everything himself. But it doesn’t really matter what he thinks says because Price sees differently. He sees the way Simon’s hands shake and how he’s started fidgeting when he’s never done that in the past, he can see Simon’s right side, the side that was crushed under rubble during an attack, he sees it shake and almost falter every time Simon puts even a little bit to much weight on it, but what worry’s Price the most is when Simon zones out and stops paying attention to his surroundings or whatever he’s doing. Not to mention now Simon has to go back and live in civilization, when all he’s known is military life since he was still a teen.
So although Simon claims he’s fine, Price gets him live-in-help, you. You’ve been with him the past week and although he rarely talks you’ve learned a few things. The blinds always need to be fully open unless he’s sleeping, he needs to be able to see what’s happening but it’ll keep him up when he’s trying to sleep, so they close at night. He gets very tense when he can’t see your hands, it hurts you a little to know he doesn’t trust you but you understand. He can't cook at all, unless you prepare food for him he’ll only eat a prepackaged dinner nothing else, of course that isn't healthy so you've started fixing him both breakfast and lunch which he accepts with a grunt but he doesn’t eat till you’ve started. He never takes off his mask around you unless he's eating and even still only up to his nose. Lastly you've noticed something always sparked in his eyes when you called him Simon, you haven't been able to figure out what it is so instead of risking offending him or something, you've stuck to calling him Ghost.
Price chose you for two reasons, you were quite, something he thought Simon would like, he was very wrong. It’s probably the oddest thing about him, he doesn’t like when you're super quiet you've learned it cause he doesn’t know where you are or what you’re planning the other reason is Price hired you is because you were a military nurse for quite a bit so you would always be there for Simon. This was something Simon actually did like it meant he didn’t have to leave his flat just to see a doctor, what he didn’t think about though was the cut and bruise on his face that he would have to remove his balaclava for.
“Okay Ghost” you paused not sure how he would react to having to take his mask off “I-i need you to remove your mask for me please” almost immediately he grunted out a why “because you have a cut and bruise on your face and I need to make sure it’s healing properly” Simon stilled completely for a few seconds before he slowly pulled the balaclava completely off. You took a second looking over his entire face before you brought your hand up inspecting the area “your bruise is completely gone” you whispered slightly surprised it had only been a week, you went to write it down but the moment your hand left his face he spoke up “it’s still ere, jus can’t see it” carefully your brought you hand back to his face to carefully push on his check “does that hurt” “bit” was all he grunted out, you hummed to yourself as you removed your hand and started writing, but had you been looking at him you would have seen the almost pout gracing his face.
Once you finally looked back up, placing your hand on his face “okay let’s finish this quickly” you say looking over his scar “I know I’m not that pretty but you ain’t gotta rush” he said in the quietest voice. You looked up into his eyes quickly only to find them looking back at you with what you could only describe as curiosity mixed with need “Gh-Simon that’s not what I meant, your very beautiful I just thought you wouldn't want me touching or looking at your face any more since you always hide it behind that mask” he never replied to you, just kept staring with that look in his eyes. Finally you peeled your eyes away, finished writing whatever you needed to in your book then you got up and walked away “I’m gonna fix us some lunch, okay Simon?” you called from in the kitchen already, and that’s when Simon managed to place the feeling he had been having every time he saw you. He liked you, he had a crush, a crush! “Simon?” You called again “yeah okay” he called back, he wasn’t gonna fuck this up, not when he thinks he might have found a new purpose in life.
pt 2 here
#simon x reader#simon riley x you#simon ghost x reader#simon ghost riley#simon riley x reader#medic!reader
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