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I wish we could have met in some other way.
Lawlight Week Day 2: Soulmates
If you saw me repost and re-edit this several times uh No you didn't </3
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If you know what every frame is from you get a free cookie. by the way
#death note#dn#light yagami#l lawliet#lawlight#oh god here we go#death note jdrama#death note 2015#death note 2006#death note musical#lctw#l change the world#dntm#lawlightweek2024#my art#collapses i am NEVER putting this much effort in one piece ever again /hj this was the Only one i had mostly prepared in advance#ironically the most painstaking part about making this entire thing was converting the images into an animated file#that wasn't either horrifically compressed or just. wouldn't loop. why do gifs have to look so BAD it's so inconvenient#and THEN i realized I had to forcibly Stitch the two animations together so they would actually be synced and it wouldn't look dumb#and the end result is STILL so compressed. because Tumblr. uhhh just don't click on it it'll look so scuffed LOL. anyways#this is what i get for watching Every Adaptation of Death Note. i am a death note multiverse truther#usually i'd have something clever to say in the tags but. this drained the life out of me just uh.#yeah. they're doomed in every universe. this is the only way they could've met. they are doomed by their own natures and the#circumstances that surround them. there is no universe where light tries to prevent L's death. and even in the cases where L Doesn't die#there is no universe where L can save light. there is no universe where he can truly “catch” Kira and make him see where he went wrong#(<- if you read LCTW you know. :) )#in every universe and adaptation L will call Light his first friend. in some universes they'll take that notion more seriously than others#no matter what one of them will die due to the other. its the only constant. it's the only way it can ever be. they are the others downfall
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EMERGENCY FANFIC PROTOCOLS: ACTIVATED
Hey while AO3 is down
Here is a GDrive link to all my downloaded fics (it's OVER 9,000 2,000)
Mostly Avatar, also The Magnus Archives, Danny Phantom, Teen Wolf, and a few others
Mostly unsorted, some not even intentionally downloaded because the auto-downloader I use is Like That, so consider this a glorified "give me a random fic" button
MAKE SURE TO KUDOS THE AUTHORS WHEN AO3 IS BACK UP
>>> Linkie link <<<
Edit: Note that when AO3 comes back up that link will go dead again... until it's needed, once more
EMERGENCY FANFIC PROTOCOLS: DEACTIVATED
...Until next they are needed
If you were going through these for fic recs, check out my AO3 Bookmarks for the more curated list.
To make your own fanfic backups, I recommend AO3 Downloader or FanFicFare. (I'm not tech support for either; please don't message me for help.)
Happy reading!
#ao3#emergency fanfic protocols activated#avatar the last airbender#atla#Zuko#buffy the vampire slayer#Danny Phantom#full metal alchemist#harry potter#the magnus archives#tma#my hero academia#mha#boku no hero acedamia#Naruto#Pokemon#rwby#teen wolf#Why do I have TWO Magnus Archives folders#yes I am creating these tags alphabetically as I scroll#the untamed#no but seriously kudos/comment on the authors fics when AO3 is back#download fics have a link at the beginning and end that leads you back to the story#if you've never downloaded before#also recommend the ereaders Evie and @Voice Reader#if you've never had the joy of listening while doing whatever#goodbye eyestrain#star wars#obi wan#so much obi wan
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guys what do we think !
#pro tip: exaggerate the leg warmers so you dont have to draw the sneakers#considering that this is a tour event and we're not getting the 3d outfits im not even gonna try drawing their sneakers#im trying to cook some ideas for a drawing to post this week but im not sure if i should draw just natsume or ibara too... or both of them.#im probably gonna draw just natsume [insert thinking emoji here]#if youre asking yourself why am i posting this here it's bc i want to ramble on the tags#OK BUT SERIOUSLY. WHAT DO WE THINK#have you guys noticed they're wearing arm warmers too#look at natsumes 5*#THEY'RE NOT SLEEVES#my art#sketch
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Respectfully, but a character can be and SHOULD BE allowed to be more than one thing without it being considered "contradictory", "retconning," or "negative character development."
#this is specifically about the people reacting to downfall going WOW WHAT IS TAL DOING WITH MELORA SHE WAS SO SWEET AND KIND#and WOW PELOR USED TO BE SO SWEET??#like no people contain multitudes#and it's common in EVERY FANDOM so I'm not tagging it as a specific fandom#because it feels like characters get sanded down to one or two core traits#and anything not related to that either gets ignored or considered a retcon or the writers/players/actors not knowing the character#like going back to CR i saw some people reacting to Tal's VERY COMPLEX view of ashton's contradictory views on his feelings for fearne#as tal not understanding his own character and i'm like omfg have you never been a self-hating person who wants something they're scared#that they can't have??#are you all seriously just One Thing all the time#LET CHARACTERS HAVE THEIR NUANCE#STOP CLAIMING IT'S OOC OR RETCONNING OR BAD WRITING WHEN A CHARACTER IS COMPLEX#I AM GOING TO EAT A ROCK#this isn't even getting into this with my other fandoms#like oh this character did something shitty one time they are now completely defined by that shitty act#and any further kindness is just trying to cover up the shitty thing they did#how dare they#JUST HHNNGSDHSJKJ I AM SO ANNOYED BY THIS#STOP IT#WHY IS THIS HAPPENING
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What's so fun about BruJay as a ship is Jason's sheer obsessive devotion to Bruce. Jason is possessive over Bruce, to the point he doesn't care about the deaths of others so long as he has Bruce's attention. A part of the UTRH arc this isn't talked about enough is that Bludhaven fucking explodes mid-way and Jason won't let Bruce see if Dick is alive.
batman (1940) #650
A lot of discussion about UTRH paints Jason as this anger-driven cold, calculating machine up against Bruce when it's so clear that his love for Bruce is what drives him at his root, even if he won't acknowledge it. He says it himself, he would've done anything if it was Bruce who'd died instead of him and his anger is rooted in that possessive devotion not being reciprocated.
batman (194) #650
BruJay as a ship always to be, to some level, unrequited. Even if Bruce loves Jason back in that way, he'll never be that obsessed with Jason. Jason will always view Bruce's love for Dick or Tim to be a distraction, proof that Bruce isn't dedicated enough to him. Jason has the need to always have Bruce's attention, even when it could come at the cost of Bruce's other loved ones. Something something cannibalism as a metaphor for love in how Jason wants to consume Bruce's whole existence. He can't let Bruce leave him again, can't let Bruce love or grieve anyone else. Forcing Bruce to choose between Jason and the Joker isn't just about confronting Jason's killer, it's about confronting the other person who exists as this duality with Bruce and consumes so much of Bruce's life. That's the role Jason wants to fill, calling himself Red Hood and forcing Bruce to look at what he's become. But still loving Bruce and wanting more than anything for Bruce to reciprocate that love in the way that Jason understands. I just think it's good soup and rife with Dynamics that are underexplored with them.
#necrotic festerings#brujay#jaybruce#jaybru#jason todd x bruce wayne#batcest#i've had this thought in my head for a while#i was just weirdly shy about posting it? like convinced myself it's not as verbose as some of my other thoughts#also GOD why is the art of this arc SO BAD.#i can't take it SERIOUSLY#i hate looking at it.#the faces. why are the faces like that.#brujay needs more love bc jesus#gotham war had some good brujay content but i am still too bitter to discuss that shitshow. so. ignoring it for now.#bruce changing jason's brain chemistry as an act of love is the most FUCKED UP brujay thing ever tho#it's so Them.#sorry that is just peak brujay. they are incapable of meeting in any middle and always trying to change each other.#maybe this meta should've been about that.#but then i'd have to use new-52 and rebirth panels so eh. nvmd.#this page makes it seem like i hate post-flashpoint comics. i don't i swear#they just interest me less for batcest.#like oh yay everyone's getting along and working together.#it only came at the expense of throwing away decades of character work. small sacrifice.#i need to stop posting meta at fucking 5 am.#no one is going to see this bc i can't be a normal person.#wrote this while watching invincible#which is pretty good so far but man the ending of ep1 clocked me. i was absolutely bamboozled.#i had something else i was going to say in the tags but i lost it.#anyway most of this is a ship post and projecting shit as per usual and yk. not serious comic media.#i'm just silly and gay.
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/HEAVY BREATHING/
WHY ARE THEY SO CUTE
WHY IS XIE LIAN SO CUTE
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
GOD BLESS PICREW
#THANK YOU MY GOOD BRO WHO’S CHALLENGE TAGS I NEVER PARTICIPATE IN BECAUSE I DONT WANNA REBLOG A HUGE THREAT BUT AM VERY HAPPY TO BE TAGGED#THANK YOU#NO SERIOUSLY WHY IS XIE LIAN SO CUTE IN THIS#HUA CHENG IS TOO BUT XIE LIAN???#MY HEART PHYSICALLY CANNOT TAKE IT#OH MY GOD LOOK AT HIM#WHY HAVE I NEVER CONSIDERED#XIE LIAN IN GREEN#AND ALSO#XIE LIAN WITH DOG EARS#ITS FREAKING PERFECT#😭😭😭😭 HE#tgcf#hualian#xie lian#hua cheng#tian guan ci fu#heaven officials blessing#天官赐福#picrew
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Someone get this man some coffee
#I drew this instead of sleeping#So Four and I are in the same boat at the moment#seriously tho why on earth am I not asleep right now#Even I don’t know…#linked universe#lu#four linked universe#lu four#linkeduniverse#lu memes#linked universe fanart#art#my art#Windy if you ever see my tags for this I am sorry#I failed you…#I’m still awake 😭
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"oh theres so much laios tentacle stuff" WHERE IS IT?? WHAT WEBSITES?? TELL ME
#WHY AM I FINDING MORE LAIOS/MARCIELLE STUFF THAN I AM LAIOS/TENTACLES THAT IS NOT FUCKING RIGHT#WHY IS THERE 50 PAGES OF CHILCHUCK GETTING TENTACLE FCUKED AND NOT LAIOS HES THE PRIME CANDIATE#god i hate the tumblr ban yet again bc it would surely be So Much Easier to find here#im trying ro use gelbooru and pixiv and shit but 1. having trouble figuring out how to search 2. SERIOUSLY WHY SO MUCH#MARCILLEE/LAIOS SHIT THAF OUTWEIGHS TENTACLES BY SO FUCJING MUCH#WHY!!! UNNECESSARY!!!#also unfortunately. laios and falin stuff which is. hm. no please keep that 100000 miles away from me thanks.#also for how popular laios/kabru is here i hardly see ANY of it there#dungeon meshi#delicious in dungeon#laios touden#maybe if i tag it the laios squad will come with links and websites and search terms#TELL ME EXACTLY WHAT WORDS TOTYPE INTO THIS WEBSITE PLEASE ITS IN A DIFFERENT LANGUAGE AND I AM CONFUSION
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how it feels to discover a blog that has a tag with a bunch of archived posts of ur favorite characters that you've never seen before
#i couldn't even make it to the bottom of the tag i scrolled back like two years and had to make myself stop bc i was getting wayyy too-#-worked up about ethubs for my own good. i was like ok i need to stop lmao. ur honor i love them to bits i love them so much#<no but seriously it's almost been exactly a year since i watched bdubs' last life WHY AM I STILL HERE#they won't leave my brain. i've never been consistently intensely insane abt a duo for anywhere close to this long before.#anyways i have so many things to do and notifs and asks to respond to on here ignore meee <3#terra is rambling
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Hey #GreekMythology tumblr, I want ya’lls help on something :).
So, I’ve been thinking about starting this massive project. Like, would take years and years work of writing and research and sheerly finding the time and motivation for. And as I was thinking about the specifics, I thought: why not bring others into it as well? Because as much as I am interested in a lot of Greek Mythology, there are things that are simply not my interests and might cause writers block and my goal for the project would to be as fun as possible. So, here we are.
What is the project exactly? Well, hopefully, it’ll be a long Ao3 series/fic focusing on the individual perspectives of various figures/events in Greek Mythology arranged in (semi/good enough) chronological order. I personally intend to write for Poseidon in his/my version of the Titanomachy and (maybe) some events that follow, if you want a little bit of an idea on what I’m talking about.
The limits on this are almost completely free, all that I ask are that each of your submissions are one POV only (and by that I mean your main subject’s POV). Why do I say this? I say this because that is what I want this project to look like. It doesn’t matter if it’s First, Second, or Third POV along with all the other variants of those three, my main focus is on the individual experiences of these individuals. Kind of like character studies, if you know what I mean. I’m intending for it to be mostly formal but I will absolutely accept crack admissions that I will probably put into its own series to Separate the Vibes for whoever comes by :).
Ultimately, this is a completely open-ended project that has absolutely no deadline. I’m about to go to bed so I can’t go into too much detail, but if you want to DM me or send any asks, I am completely okay with that and we’ll all flesh out the specifics we go :).
What is my overall purpose? Not only is this project made for my own individual purposes of learning more about the gods and other Greek Mythology writers, but it’s also the chance to spread the word of other writers. I know how hard it is to get specific audiences, especially when you’re shy, so this is a chance for your work to be stumbled upon. Each post on the eventual Ao3 fic will include your socials, how to find you, and your other general works on either ao3, tumblr, wattpad, or other :)
Can you participate even without socials or a tumblr page? Yes you absolutely can :). My asks will always be open to anons and I will do my best to give credit when I eventually post everything :). If you want to post multiple submissions or simply just want a trackable (between works) name to your writing, just sign something at the end. It could be a name, it could be a potential username, I don’t mind at all :)).
How do I submit things? Well, the best way would be to DM me :). I have a personal writing email separate from most things that would be perfect to either share a google docs with or to just send a copy-and-pasted copy of it. Otherwise, I take asks. None of them will be posted unless asked or we’re ready to so it’ll be safe to just drop them off in! It’s also where I take questions :).
Any other things to note? I’d really appreciate some other moderators and editors :). There’d only be like two or three of each and we’d have to know each other decently well before officially starting, but some help would be appreciated! Also, I’d like to keep a working ‘spreadsheet’ of who’s working on what just for people to see what’s going on :). Maybe some people can collaborate or it’ll encourage those niche writers to write :). A third thing is that most questionable stuff is accepted. I’d personally rather not handle all those things other than posting it so it might be a while until I can officially accept (consensual and/or graphic) ✨spicy stuff✨ but, other than that, I’ll take any of it (also, it’s Greek Mythology, almost all of it already happened). If someone’s willing to take over the ✨spicy stuff✨ then please DM me so we can work out the details and see if it’s a nice fit :)
Honestly, that all should be it. The main point is that I’m trying to start up a long-term project on Tumblr and Ao3 about what is essentially Greek Mythology character studies that not only allows for mass communication across a wide audience, but also (hopefully) gets some recognition for the smaller writers :). Feel free to DM me or send me asks with questions but for now, I shall sleep
Tagging: @bluebellstudio @thirteen-deaths-later @0lympian-c0uncil @happyk44 @h0bg0blin-meat @sworeontheriverstyx @deathlessathanasia @gotstabbedbyapen. Sorry if I tagged you and you want nothing to do with it, I just wanted to get it out there /pos /gen
#ya know this is the one time I regret deleting all my old accounts :/#I had such a large (ish) following on my old tumblr (neptunes-sea-of-writing btw if you recognize it)#that it’s kind of intimidating to restart again :(#need to do it tho. i just gotta#but I haven’t really written-#anyway that’s not this post’s problem#tagging everyone to try to get it out there#even if you aren’t interested#it’d be appreciated if you share anyway to get to a larger audience :)#i just. wanna build that community and know more things#as much as I’d love to tackle this project all on my own#I know I can’t and it wouldn’t be beneficial for me#but since a large portion of it is gaining knowledge#why not ask it from others?#tagging everyone to get it out there#also the general tag is going to be:#Neptune’s Big Ass Greek Mythology Project#bc why not :)#but seriously#consider it if it’s your thing#and if it’s not that’s fine#I remember being a small writer so intimidated to find people#and I’m feeling that feeling once again having started my entire platform over again :)#we’ve all got this. we’ll make it work /pos#greek mythology#also#you can write for absolutely any fandom#idc#as long as it’s one consistent pov of your focus character :)#also I’m like incredibly sleep deprived and tired rn ive been up since four am and its nine pm rn
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Buck and Maddie's relationship is one of the most interesting on the show to me personally.
She was nine, she lost her brother and gained a new one and suddenly she's not just an older sister, she's a parent too. She's nine years old and someone's Mother. While not being allowed to properly grieve the brother she just lost. Not even allowed to acknowledge his existence.
And of course she did the best she could, but she was a child raising another child. No parent has all the answers, but especially not a CHILD who never asked to have this put on them. So she of course got things wrong. One that really sticks out is her explanation about their parents worry when Evan falls off his bike. She kinda put the idea in his head that getting hurt is what will get him that love he craves from their parents. And that was NOT her fault. She was 12. And also living in this abusive household. But she was the one that gave him the idea to continue hurting himself to get attention. And there are likely other things that he learned from her that weren't actually healthy, due to her being a child trying to learn about the world herself.
And when she left for Boston, that would definitely feel like a parental abandonment for Evan due to her being the only parental figure he ever really had. But it WASN'T. It was a 19 year old moving out and going to School, which is what a lot of people that age tend to do. But to Evan, it would feel like the only parent he's ever known leaving him. And logically he'd know that's not the case. She's NOT his mother, she's his sister and she's supposed to live her life and she never asked to raise a child at such a young age. He was NOT her responsibility. But emotionally? That's the start of his abandonment issues.
And it's why Maddie can be kinda overbearing with him at times too. (Especially after the lightning strike...) It was ingrained in her from the age of nine that he's her kid and she has to take care of him. So as soon as she sees him suffering in any way, those instincts come back full force. She's gotta take care of him, make sure he's not going to die while she's not looking. AND make it clear she's not leaving him again.
They've had to figure out how to go from the relationship they had as kids where she was more a parent than a sister, to a new one now that they're adults where they're siblings.
And that's gotta be tough. And I would love more of a focus on that really. Just them still kinda adjusting to having to have this new dynamic. Because logically they both are aware that Maddie having to raise Buck was messed up and unfair for them both. But it's also just what's normal to them.
And any time someone comes for Maddie about not being a good sister it makes my blood boil. SHE DOES HER BEST! She was a child raising a child, and she's now an adult who went through abuse for pretty much her entire life! First the neglect from her parents (plus the parentification) and then her marriage to Doug for like 15 years! Of course she's not perfect. And as much as they both love each other, they ARE BOTH part of each others traumas. For Maddie a big trauma for her was having to raise him, and for Buck a big trauma for him was her leaving. And they've managed to work through that for the most part. It's always going to be there, they're both very defining for each of them. For Maddie having to become a parent at such a young age made her feel as though she couldn't be a very good one due to not being a perfect parent AS A CHILD. And for Buck, Maddie leaving was definitely the start of his abandonment issues. And neither of them are at fault for that, but they both have these issues that are directly tied to each other. It all comes back to their parents though. If they'd just done their jobs as parents, things would be so different.
Some of this may not make much sense as it is very hot here right now and I am not thinking right. But you get what I mean, hopefully. 🤣
I would also like to add to Supernatural fans, you can not claim Dean Winchester is just the best brother in the world for raising Sam and then turn around and claim Maddie is a terrible sister. Especially as Dean could be very abusive at times...
#911 abc#evan buckley#maddie buckley#buckley siblings#anti dean winchester#just to be safe#just at the end there#it just pisses me off#i see so much praise for dean and then so much hate for maddie#i am also not a huge fan of the dean and buck comparisons#sorry for somehow managing to turn this into a dean winchesteer hate post#i've just completely gone off his character#and now that i've gotten started i can't stop#seriously not for dean winchester fans#dni if this angers you#please#i'm ranting#i kinda wanna make a post about why those comparisons upset me#i can't be the only one...#sorry again#just focus on the buck and maddie of it all#that's what this post was supposed to be about#i got way off topic#i would delete all the other tags#but i'm kinda interested in what people have to say
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Both my parents actually suffer from HORRID emotional dysregulation and are prone to snapping and going into rages. My sister is the same way tbh. I am now realizing this is why they are constantly baffled by the question of whether or not I am mad at them.
I don't have external meltdowns.
I could. I don't let it happen.
I keep my rage on the inside and stay pretty quiet about it. It's just as strong as theirs [physically shaking nose bleed from high blood pressure kind of bad], but like as a kid I saw how terrifying it was to be around [dad breaking dishes, mom putting our lawn chairs into walls] and I just internalized that I wasn't going to wear that anger on the outside.
So my mother genuinely cannot tell if I am just being quiet or if I am silently hearing the dial-up noises of pure rage. This has lead her to both making strong and confident statements like "You are a pacifist who would never hurt a fly U.U" but also acting like I am secretly dangerous maybe... It's because she has never seen me snap.
She knows what her temper is like [throwing chairs through walls], she knows what my father's temper is like [pick up child and toss out door], and she can tell I am being tested, but she doesn't know what happens when I snap or where that breaking point is.
Her -perhaps unhinged- solution to this, my whole life, has been to do things that should obviously enrage me or shut me down completely, like ignoring important boundaries, repeatedly, punishing me for expressing emotions or needs at all, etc... And then to constantly ask me if I am angry with her when I get too quiet [right after near directly telling me to shut up].
It has occurred to me now, they have never once seen me lose my temper, so they literally just can't tell if I am angry at them. My sister is easy, my mother fights and screams with my sister constantly, my mother understands this. My mother doesn't have any grasp of feelings or boundaries that are not screamed at her [apparently, and I fear my sister is the same way]. Her and my sister are close despite constant fucking fighting because they understand each other.
They are trying to get me to engage the same way and it is not working. I realize now that this has been hard for them.
I was so successfully taught to suppress my emotions, by being punished for any outburst, that rage quiet looks the same as any other kind of quiet from the outside. To them anyway.
I did tell her. For the record. I used my words. I did tell her very calmly that my response to rage, in order to avoid doing the things that terrified me as a child, was to simply leave [the autistic urge to GTFO]. When a situation or person causes too much of the dial-up rage noise, I simply extract myself from that situation, up to and including never speaking to a person again. I explained this calmly. I explained it calmly 100 times and I explained that I explain myself calmly as my rage response 1-5 [also pretty much every other negative emotion tbh], and I told her that what came next was me simply opting out and fucking off. I told her this. I couldn't understand why she never took me seriously, or why she never fucking understood.
I couldn't understand what made her like this.
But it's the same problem I have with everyone else multiplied by a factor of 10.
If I am explaining myself calmly, they can't understand that it's actually serious or that I am actually upset. ESPECIALLY because they read me as "female" and women "aren't that rational" so if I am not screaming and crying about something, which I never do, people assume I can't be upset and it isn't serious.
And then after having my boundaries ignored too many times despite having calmly explained how and why it's a problem [shaking inside or not]... I leave. I leave and everyone gets upset like this is unexpected behaviour, even though I told them 50 times that is how I would respond if they kept doing *the thing.*
And for neurotypical people especially, they are expecting there to be a disconnect between what someone says they need or feel and what their actually boundaries and feelings are, and they expect the latter to be demonstrated with emotions. Telling them bluntly you do not function that way somehow never helps?
My mother isn't just looking for normal yelling or a few tears to know I am serious, whether or not I do those either [I don't], she's looking for an explosion to know there's a problem at all.
Fucked if I know how she proceeds through life this way in general or if this is just her expectation of her own kids???
And I couldn't get why my mother couldn't read my emotions and didn't seem to think I have any. It's because she's testing for the rage limit to see where my 'actual' limit is instead of taking my word for it. Never the fuck mind that she could simply *not* test at my boundaries instead of letting me have them. Separate issue.
I couldn't figure out what made her *like this*
She's expecting me to throw a giant meltdown violent tantrum at people when I have 'actually' had enough. Maybe she got away with those being like 5'4" in another time, but I am the size of the average man, I do not get to have giant screaming rages, whether or not people perceive me consciously as a woman, and least of all because a lot of people -at least unconsciously- read me as 'masculine' or at least always "they guy" of the situation compared to all other women and some men [bigger stronger and more rational, more able to just absorb the damage and let it go so the less rational screaming/crying one doesn't have to be dealt with]. Even if it was in me to be willing to terrify people [usually never], there are such limited instances where it wouldn't just blow back on me. Potentially very dangerously.
I am going to be the quiet calm one. You are going to have to let me use my words, bitch.
So she kept ignoring my boundaries until I had to cut her out of my life, and she probably doesn't understand and probably thinks it feels sudden -after 36 long years of bullshit- abrupt and unfair.
But I told her hundreds of times.
I probably should have just screamed at her.
#good stay out of our yard' and he didn't seem to know what to say to that#but other than that I don't think anyone in my adult life has ever seen me turn aggressive at all to the point where people 100% like to#play games of testing my patience and my boundaries because they think my tolerance is infinite#but like I have autistic rage tantrums on both sides of my family and they are just happening inside my head#And somehow it took me until now to realize that being that way was actually -expected- of me by my parents and especially my mother#and that by keeping myself outwardly level headed to be considerate I actually took away whatever signals she can understand#to have empathy for how I must be feeling#I mean it's still all on her#but it makes so much sense of why she's fucking *like this*#And why my sister thinks I hate her just because -she- stopped texting -me-#but that fucking guy#Every time I was like#In my adult life I have screamed at someone ONE whole time and it was 1000% deserved#And I threw heavy objects around one whole other time and in my defense I didn't do it in front of the guy he just felt the ground shaking#heard the thuds and came back to the logs blocking his path because that fucker wouldn't stop parking in our yard after being asked#and then TOLD not to about 10 times because he was acting entitled to just park in our yard and was crushing my plants???#seriously I don't know what his deal was but he wouldn't stop telling me how much the ground shaking scared him like it was supposed#to get my pity like I think this guy took one look at the logs I had just tossed down and was suddenly afraid of this “woman” he was#bullying in their own yard and so my ability to feel bad for scaring him had gone straight out the fucking window#I looked at him and said stop parking in our yard instead of your own you are killing my plants#he'd just fucking be like 'well the last people to live here let us D: :)“ and I'd be like ”good for them?“ ”stop“#and he'd just keep doing it#I was having a week of insomnia and was finally having the best dream#the kind of sex dream you have like twice in your life#and this fucker had just gotten some noisy ass little bike with a spoiler on it#and starts it up right under my window at 3am from IN OUR FUCKING YARD#so I had a nice long anger nap and just after he got home from work and was sleeping in his house#I picked up these chunks of deadwood tree from the back#there was like 3-4 logs that used to be a WHOLEASS fucking oak tree Like these logs were not as heavy as they -looked- but they were still#this fucker deleted half the tags I wrote and I am not retyping that fuck you tumblr so fucking hard
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🎤 day 169 🎵
➥ today’s akito is a card redraw by me of akito’s “well-known big shot” 1☆!
➥ i apologize…for creating this….
➥ when i realised a My Art Monday™ would be coinciding with day 169, i figured i would do a redraw as a nod back to day 69. i’m going to be real with you guys. i know at least one of you is a drawfee fan and will understand when i say that i had this one in me. it has an Energy that i’m not entirely sure the origin of. but it sure happened.
➥ including the sketch on this one cause I think that’s truly where the Energy was
#mostly avoided extra headcanons but i couldnt resist the eyebrow piercing#my-akitos#akito shinonome#project sekai#prosekai#pjsk#prsk#seriously does this need some kind of warning?#tw eyestrain#maybe?#ask to tag#also for those familiar with the daily vitamin blogs#there is currently no plans for “lore” and there probably never will be?#i dont really want to do horror on this blog. the glitch is just to make the image crazier#saying that like bloodborne doesn’t live rent free in my mind#and i’m not getting closer and closer to drawing akito in djura’s outfit every day…#have i made it clear yet i think of a lot of aus? and that most of them are crossovers?#wow this really is an insane post#i’m finishing drafting this at like 2 am so if these seems as crazy and all over the place as I think it does that might be why#i gotta stop staying up so late tho i have the dreaded 7 am classes this upcoming semester#i need like a fucking talking tag for this ramble hot damn#daily akito
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i can't believe there's still people out there who genuinely think Ochako would "kill Toga on sight" at this point
like, okay, there's the anime-only people who aren't aware of manga developments or are actively avoiding spoilers, and of course there's all the people who clearly stopped giving a shit ages ago (yet somehow still feel completely secure making blanket declarations about a franchise they no longer keep up with???)
but even then, and even if you're not a shipper or just don't like the characters-- how can anyone have ever believed that makes any sense ever? like we're not even talking self-defense apparently? just "on sight"? who do you think Ochako is, the Punisher in pink?
like i don't think i'm especially media literate myself, but-- how is it possible for people to be this bad at reading where a narrative is going?
because of course that's exactly what the Togachako plotline was leading up to, clearly the ultimate endpoint of developing Toga Himiko as a sympathetic villain important to Ochako's heroic actualization was a teenager unquestioningly enacting the extrajudicial murder of another teenager
that's exactly what MHA is all about, right? that's the sort of person Ochako is, the kind of hero that she wants to be? that's definitely good storytelling and not at all inane or grotesque? ugh
#don't want to cause/deal with any drama and it'd be doubly not worth it on a post that wasn't even about togachako#i just need to vent somewhere or i'll stew on it for ages#an offhanded comment in tags is so not worth this amount of anger and yet ohhhh i am mad#honestly this is probably less about that post and more about all the similar shit i saw on That Hellsite when the 391+ spoilers dropped#bakugou stans i have so much respect for you all i would be dead within a day if i had to deal with this BS as often as you do#mha spoilers#bnha spoilers#not really any actual spoilers but ig the vague allusions are still worth tagging for the previously-mentioned anime people#rest of the post sounded like shit opinions too but i didn't really get the whole context and not interested in looking further#this shit has already lived in my head rent-free long enough#no but seriously as a togachako OTP shipper there are in fact a lot of rational reasons for why the ship shouldn't work#canon is currently laughing maniacally in the face of your rationality but at least those reasons do make sense#why would you choose this goddamn Ochako slander as your reasoning instead
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2009 Turkish Grand Prix - Jenson Button(ft. Mark Webber & Sebastian Vettel)
#watching any jense podium(or actually any content of him at all) is just me going: wow i am painfully in love with this man#like that one where he's pouring the champagne into his mouth???? catie is offline. i literally rewatched it at least 20 times#sebson sebson sebson JENSON GRABS HIM TWICEEEEEEEEEE AND HES COMFORTING HIMMMMMM#why is mark so awkward in that 2nd gif....why does he automatically reach for the titty....thats his signature move...#as i said its funny bcs i expected to be more into martian for this season but tbh its very 'jenson has two hands' w sebson and butter#im always like ooooo sebmarkson podium!! but then mark and seb only talk to jenson seperately and not to each other cause theyre salty LMAO#but seriously on camera theres literally only one moment where seb and mark talk and its not here but#theyre at the press conference and it legit feels like jense is mediating btwn them#turkey is not a good place for martian LMAO(i.e 2010) this race was literally multi-21 but seb deciding not to be a war criminal#jenson button#sebastian vettel#mark webber#sebson#butter#jensonmark#can this rly be tagged martian if they literally dont interact?#martian#sebmark#f1#formula 1#formula one#we do a little bit of f1#2009 turkish gp#2009 turkish grand prix#season: 2009
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A Softer Trigun, part 13/?
pt. 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14 15 16 17 18 19 20 21 22 23
#a softer Trigun#bluu I hope you see this and understand why I had to#bc I saw this one in the book and choked on my own spit#then spent forever trying to set up the images so they punched in the way I wanted them to#(because seriously. the initial vision here was FELT. specific order had to be sorted in post#but as soon as I read those words the entire scene from the anime rang in my head like a fucking BELL.)#ok anyways#onto the real tagging#trigun#trigun 1998#1998 trigun#tri98#tri 98#vash#vash the stampede#vash the humanoid typhoon#vash saverem#vash trigun#trigun vash#1998 trigun Vash#vash 1998 trigun#genuinely don't know if i'm going way insane extra on the tags or not#if so than I am so sorry lmao#the ones who live outside of time#(top ten anime scenes that made me wanna turn inside out btw)#brad#brad Trigun#lmfao is anybody following his tag#does he even HAVE one#bro doesn't even have a last name but i'll be damned if I leave him out
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