#who is said ‘he’? idfk im a minor

[hauntedrose555]

eyelashes longer than his d!€k!!!

[homesickformb]

Roommate hamzah! You guys live together as flirty friends but one night break and hookup

im a minor so im not comfortable writing any smut about anyone! 😭 so i won't be writing anything smut ever!! if you request something with anything sexual in it, i won't be mad, but ill turn it into something sfw! so sorry if that's what yall wanted to see!!

btw can someone tell me the difference between hc, blurbs, etc. just wanna use the correct wording!!

(okay last p.s., still working on a format. if anyone has any tips, suggestions, or anything like that, please tell me i need help figuring everything out on here. i'm fairly new to tumblr!!)

PART 1 / idfk how many parts this is gonna be 😭

you and hamzah have been friends for a while now.

you were both on 4freakshow (pretend it had 5 people) but we all know that came to an end. you and hamzah are th eonly two people who stayed friends after the podcast ended.

you lived in NY and were visting hamzah so much it was costing you so much money.

one time you were vistng, you guys got high, and hamzah threw out the idea

"y/n, why dont you just move in with me?" he said while looking out at the streets form his balcony

you released your hit and waited a moment. you had never thought of that.

you guys sat in silence for a little while you thought about everything, from how you guys were gonna split the rent and bills to how it would affect your guys friendship.

would you guys argue? would you guys get in such a bad argument that it ended your friendship?

that was the last thing that you wouldve wanted to happen. but you didnt know why you didnt want that to happen.

you tried to convince yourself thta it was because hamzah had been your friend for the longest, and who would want to give that up?!

but you knew deep down, that there was another reason.

you always though hamzah was fine. but you tried to push those feelings down by saying that maybe he was a catfish on zoom for the podcast.

but once you finally saw him in person, you immediatly knew he was not a catfish.

for a while it was just physical attration, until you found yourself practically crying when you left his apartment for the airpoart when you had to go home.

hamzah had snapped you out of your thoughts.

" you okay? sorry if that made you uncomfortable "

you were not aware of how deep in thought you were. what the fuck is in this weed?

" no no, it didnt make me uncomfortable. just thinking about it. "

" okay. " he waited a second. "you know you can think about it for a few days. its a big decision. "

" i dont need to think about it any longer, im gonna do it. "

you saw hamzahs eyes light up

you guys spent the rest of the night planning everything out

you guys knew that the pets werent gonna be an issue, as peter and your dog got along great all the time.

hamzah planned to move all his stuff out of the office and have you move in there.

you guys were so fixated on it, that you guys pulled an all nighter finding stuff for your room and planning

when you guys saw that there was daylight outside, you decided to put on a movie, hopping it would keep you two awake for the remainder of the time until you could go get energy drinks and breakfast,

around 20 minutes in, hamzah fell asleep on your shoulder.

you only lasted about 10 more minutes and then you were alseep too

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i hope you guys liked it!! this is my second time writing anything in about 2 years so i might need to do some brushing up.

let me know if you want to see anything specific in the next part (hamzah helping you move in, or straight into you and hamzah starting to flirt and catch feelings for eachother)

[kumezyzo]

planned on posted something else two days ago.... but this just happened to come to mind and i- yea, anyway, this is another bf!sapnap but slightly suggestive but still in the realm of fluff, yea idfk..... minors, you can read but do not interact!!!

also, not a usual blurby type of writing, more narrative idk....

enjoy....or dont! :) m.list

bf!sapnap who doesnt let go of you in the mornings admist his deep slumber

you woke up a few minutes ago but didnt feel the need to get up. not that you could if you wanted to, your boyfriends arms were draped over you, but you've learned in the past to not attempt a silent escape.

soon enough, the warmth wasnt enough to keep you there and you felt the strong urge to go to the bathroom only growing.

as you pulled away from his chest, he shifted and pulled you back towards him. you pursed your lips and sighed.

"Nick, i need to go to the bathroom," you tried to whisper to him. He softly groaned and snuggled into you. "Nick!"

He stirred a little and managed to barely open his eyes, "hmm?"

"can you let go? i need to pee..."

he sighed and lifted his arm off of you before snuggling into your pillow and warmth you left behind. you smiled at the sight of his face pressed into the pillow, all that was visible being his messy hair.

when you walk out of the bathroom and back into your bedroom, you shake your head at the sight of him not having moved.

bf!sapnap who wakes up in your bed disoriented and wondering where you went. he would waddle out of bed and go look for you immediately.

when he spots you at the kitchen island scrolling on your phone, he smiles drowsily.

"you left me all alone to scroll on your phone?" he asks trying to sound annoyed. It was distrupted his smile.

"oh, im so sorry," you say sarcastically as he took steps closer to you. "i was under the impression you werent even awake when i left you."

"you would have left me without me knowing?" he gasps, turning you in the spinning island chair to stand between your legs.

"i guess i already did," you said putting your phone down and leaning in to kiss him, a smile that matched his growing on your face.

"hmm, thats really messed up" he whispers against your lips before kissing you.

bf!sapnap who lets go of you to go to the bathroom as you try to decide on food to order for breakfast. when he find his way back, he is back all on you.

he has his arms wrapped around you you as he looks over your shoulder to look on your phone with you.

"yea that looks good," he says, briefly glancing at you before nuzzling his nose into your jaw. "just pay with my card baby."

you bit your lip at the low resonance of his voice. instinctually, you close your eyes as he starts pressing soft kisses to your jaw and neck.

"wow... are you tryna spoil me or something?"

he chuckles quietly, "just go ahead peaches, order it."

"mhm..." you pry your eyes open and finish the payment process. as soon as the payment went through, you turned around and kissed him. he accepted happily and grinned at the way you pulled him in closer.

yea idk what this is. i wanted to make it longer but its too much work.... i might make a pt.2 but idk for sure. tell me if i should or whatever.

btw where is 🐬 anon 😭😭 they were my motivator fr fr -Nony

[rekofan101]

DAY 121: reko’s homestuck quadrants

i know i’m a cringelord okay. i’m just sharing my thoughts on what i think would be placed where… though i’ve found it has been quite hard.

NOTE: NO MEN/MINORS WILL APPEAR IN HER QUADRANTS, UNLESS SHE IS AN AUSPISTICE. this is because all troll romance quadrants are ROMANCE-BASED: unless you are the AUSPISTICE in an AUSPICIOUS RELATIONSHIP. i’ll delve into basic definitions in my explanations for who i choose where… maybe

<3 (MATESPRITSHIP) : NAO

obviously nao is going to be her matespritship. i’m a naoreko truther. matespritship is basically human equivalent to the average romantic, dating relationship. they’re literally in love you can’t convince me otherwise….

<3< (KISMESISSTUDE) : URSHEEN / SUE MILEY???

this one is because im also a reksheen truther. i definitely think a valid kismessistude would be with ursheen rather than sue miley, as miley is mainly a joke kismesisstude because i couldn’t think of who she would engage in one with. but ursheen makes way more sense. kismesisstude is basically “toxic yuri” in reko’s stance: if you’re in a kismesisstude as a troll, you’re just in a romantic relationship with someone you “hate.” maybe hate isn’t the right word. more so, someone you aren’t compatible with. it’s black romance it’ll always be fucked up.

anyway i said ursheen mainly because 1) reksheen is life and 2) i think they would only establish the relationship during samurai yaiba, since after alice’s murder case she cuts off all contact with ursheen. therefore, with her attitude at the time towards her band members + ursheen’s attitude towards her, they would be kismesises. not a lot of lovey dovey stuff considering reko (during samurai yaiba) definitely was not down for that, and i doubt ursheen would care as long as she could kiss reko (little freak)

okay and sue miley… that’s just because of what she did in the manga LMFAOOO. girl they obviously hate each other and that scene was CRAZYYYY THAT WAS CRAZY…. that’s the epitome of kismesistude.

o8< (AUSPISTICISM) : REKO (AUSPISTICE) / SARA / RANMARU

okay this one i’m unsure of… auspisticism is a relationship in which a third party gets “involved” to pacify the rapidly switching matespritship/kismesistude between two individuals. so… basically… it’s like… ransara unstable & complicated relationship (considering the stressors occurring, they easily switch between loving/hating each other… or maybe it’s more of a one-sided thing) that reko manages and pacifies so that it doesn’t boil over into a permanent black romance shitstorm (aka really sour and bad/toxic kismesistude). in even simpler terms, she’s stepping in to mediate/prevent a possible bad relationship (no offense to ransara fans. just think logic route)

i only really say this because reko is someone sara is able to rely on throughout the entire game and, when reko is alive and around ranmaru, she is often seen pacifying/calming/reassuring him when he’s flipping the fuck out. which obviously helps his and sara’s relationship, since that’s supposed to be her partner in this minigame, therefore making him more cooperative.

obviously in logic route her auspistice role would fail, considering that ranmaru kills her and they would end up falling into that “kismesistude” (though sara would probably not be in a kismesistude with him at that point… it is still a romantic relationship after all) (one sided kismesistude i suppose) (ranmaru WISHES he could have a kismesistude) (loser)

this one is a reach though… because quadrants like this are hard to fill. she doesn’t talk to a lot of people, let alone pacify them. she’s usually the one being pacified!!! but never really in a romantic aspect, so… that throws her in an auspicious relationship without being a auspistice out of the window

<> (MOIRALLEGIENCE) : ??? IDFK… NAO AGAIN? URSHEEN IN A REUNION AU?

she genuinely doesn’t talk to enough people in game who could be her moirail. moirallegience is like platonic soulmates— but not in a “twinflames” sort of way. it’s still a romantic relationship, just also in a platonic way. really complicated way to phrase that. it’s another pacifying relationship, like auspisticism, but there is no auspistice here, and their relationship is not entirely platonic. like best friends who kiss each other sometimes is the only way i could describe this.

anyway, we don’t know enough about her personal life outside of the game to define a clear moirail, and she doesn’t talk to enough women of age in game to have a moirail (of which there are already barely any). so all i can say is this could be ursheen or nao again… even though they already have quadrants that work way better… sigh….

nao because obviously they’re basically soulmates. she pacifies reko and reko pacifies her and their personalities compliment each other, which is the whole point of moirallegience. but also they’re actually literally in love and this relationship is meant to be viewed more as platonic than romantic despite its romantic aspects, so… nao is still her matesprit to me

ursheen would only be a moirail in some crazy au where they meet up again and make up and they bond over the loss of alice or something. which will never happen in canon so this relationship is basically not possible. but in that universe… this could be feasible.

[stuck-in-the-ghost-zone]

💚💔 forrrr either prime defenders or danny phantom >:}

OHHH FUCK THESE R GOOD. I THINK IM GONNA DO BOTH

DP:

💚- literally the way the fandom as a whole characterize danny. considering the fact that apparently 70% of the ppl in the tag have not actually watched the show (this kills the me. every time i think about it), nobody actually knows What The Main Character Is Like . hes supposed to be an awkward quippy annoying 14 yr old boy. of course hes gonna say and do stupid shit!!! hes not some capable noble hero who always does the right thing and is nice to everyone. hes a kid who has a big heart with a crippling sense of responsibility. head in hands

💔- this might be cheating bc hes only a minor character and existed for exactly one (1) episode but.. fucking Gregor. i haaated double cross my heart that episode sucks so bad. lets just. remove the whole thing. also its really funny i had to google his name because i just kept thinking of grefgore (<< npc from the jrwi vampire campagin who is my angel the light of my life). would the fandom kill me if i said wes weston. hes not even a real guy it wouldnt matter if he was removed.

EDIT I JUST REALIZED THE PROMPT LITERALLY SAYS MAJOR CHARACTER. FUCK. uhhhhhhhh idfk. i guess if i HAD 2 pick. maybe clockwork? as much as i fucking love clockwork he was not utilized enough. he couldve been such a cool mentor character working in tandem with frostbite in season 3 and he just. wasnt. god hes so cool i wish they wouldve done more with him. but also if he didnt exist neither would my favorite ever episode. FUCK this is HARD

PD:

💚- NOT ENOUGJ PEOPLE UTILIZE WIWI BEING A PETTY JEALOUS LITTLE BRAT. THIS IS A FUNDAMENTAL PART OF HIS CHARACTER AND I AM SO ANNOYED ANYTIME IT IS SANDED DOWN. honestly? also? any time anyone writes william as being. 100% Automatically Morally Good. if dakota wasnt there his ass wouldve gone full villain arc halfway through season 1.

💔- i????? honestly???? dont know if i would remove anyone??? i genuinely cannot think of someone i wouldnt be super distraught about not having. maybe like. idk. Bacon Man. but bacon man is sweet bc hes a character bizly made up when he was a kid and im weak for including old ocs in current projects bc i think its fun. I CANT EVEN SAY LIKE. PARTY CITY GHOST. BC I LOVE THE PARTY EPISODES.

[nco05]

hey sorry couldn't help but read ur tags on my checo quote and im just wondering if by tumblr page you meant my blog? i posted that quote precisely bc i find that checo gets a lot of xenophobic hate/comments in f1 and that f1blr fails to address it, and as a latina that really hurts to see. so i just hope you're not referring to me and if so i was hoping you'd point me to what exactly ur referring to. thanks! <3

No no that was not directed to you IN THE SLIGHTEST! NOT AT ALL! Not a sliver of a percentage was that supposed to be an attack on your person! That is just an uncalled for action on a stranger who could live an entire ocean away from where I live

I did not mean to hint it was you who is the problem. My sincerest apologies! I'm so so sorry!

With "this Tumblr page" I meant my own! No one else but my own! I have a tag for CL16 & LN4 that is also like that. It's to highlight all these 3 motorsporters are more than the roles pushed on them that I find gross: CL is more than just a pretty boy, he is not dumb. He is smart (mathematic wizard & trilingual? OK COOL!). LN is more than the infantilisation he gets (he's nearly 23 ew 🤢) or lately a bitch (cuz he's more confident & shit idfk). SP is not any stereotype to his ethnicity (as you said you are from a latin-region also so you know better than me which ones they are)

I meant the xenophobia Checo has to deal with from the media. Specifically the British media (you know how they be) but also the general media. Then too some part of this fanbase which you've also said to me (what I've seen specifically was from the toxic DR3 fans who hate RB but want him back there which makes no sense? On a minor extent the odd PG10 fan that is like that - not you & not me (well I try to just have a good time)!)

I went back in the RB & I clarified it there further what I actually meant 😌

But if you want me to delete the RB. That is fine. I'll do it

Have a nice whatever part of the day it is for you! Enjoy race weekend later this week (I hope the PG10-score streak of 2 goes to 3 but the AT is unpredictable + unstable af & their strategies are eeeehhh too) 💃🏽

Again so sorry for the misunderstanding on my part. Hope there's no hard feelings here 🤞🏽

[traumatizeddfox]

my bf said he's voting republican and i think i just experienced bpd splitting?? i do have bpd but i don't split or at least i'm unable to tell when i am but like. i have this version of my bf in my head that is perfect and radinclus and like pro-wellness and everything and then he will say stuff like this like arguing against trans women in sports and im like yo. i did not sign up for this. who tf is this guy? but at the same time im like, aren't i supposed to respect differences in a relationship and not just become completely enmeshed etc? like i would love for us to have the exact same political views and he even said he wishes i agreed with him but there's obviously a fundamental difference in our values and i don't know how to feel about that. i've been with him for over a year now and we are living together. he's super sweet and supportive but i just don't know how to reconcile his political views. maybe im just too chronically online idk im just extremely empathetic and i want to protect minorities so i feel like being democrat is the best way to do that idfk. im not that political anyways i just care about human rights more than anything

Honestly in a relationships I think its good to have differences but also when it comes to like...people being super republican and are anti gay/ anti abortion/etc it can be so hard to be with someone like that! I dont think you're chronically online!!

[pigeonliker420]

been reading a lot lately as in finishing one book every two or three days (several of which i should really go back and reread to let it melt into my brain, they were good) (this is amazing considering my pace for the last few years has been 1 a year) but fucking starship troopers. its hanging me its like hitting a brick wall its meeting a book where im making excuses to not read. and ive hateread stuff (this is a bit of a hateread ig)

i think its a combination of the pacing being both slow as shit and fast as it jumps around, none of the characters being particularly likeable or memorable, and. obviously. thje fascism. its like drenched in it thats why i picked it up actually i wanted to see it for myself. that and. you know. reading the "classics" to inform my own writing and stop me from thinking im being a genius when im just reinventing the wheel (id only seen bits and pieces of the 90s movie, and in high school, glimpsed on others tvs, so when the whole idea of the cap trooper thing realized itself as what it was i was like aw fuck. well i wasnt doing anything new (the dying at the end/not being picked back up might be new but given this im sure theres some dystopias out there with that)) all this said theres something funny about having the workings of its military explained to me and going damn thats something id use for an evil empire

actually i think it might be a combo of thje lack of engaging characters and what id read directly previous. reading a series with an incredibly engaging viewpoint character + amazingly casual inclusion of race gender and lgbt topics is so refreshing so cracking open an ancient tome from a writer i already know i sort of dislike was bound to not impress

what i mean is its fun to read something set in the far future and even if its dystopic its where You are Normal and not worth additional commentary, but also capable of being any sort of important figure or minor throwaway, where nothing about ur identity actually figures into what roles you can or cant have

and then you read sthn written by a straight cis man who has never had to think about himself except egotistically (to put it like that is so cliche, but even in the series id read directly previous to That one i still noticed the like. cliche and contrivance with which he wrote the women, despite them being important and an attempt being made at rounding them out. i feel like the difference might more be along the lines of waving a flag going see? i dont care! i don't care! and actually not caring. but the real problem might be me comparing somewhat of a more amateur author just starting out with one with two series under her belt, though)

but im also only like 6 chapters in (despite trying my hardest) and idfk it could pick up somewhere. i usually only give up on a book after halfway if it isnt working with me but also i didnt even bother to look at how long this was, hoping to read it then watch the movie which i remember as being fun. that might be in like forever

[hibikinumberonefan]

I’ve been somewhat present throughout both situations, with this account and the one they mentioned. Here’s what I have to say. I will admit that I am a biased party,

1. I will not argue the definition of proship or anti-ship here.

2. From what I understand, the account in question made the post, and then saw that the post was screenshotted to @/anti-anti-otonokoji-twins, and then panicked and asked for the post to be removed. @/anti-anti-otonokoji-twins refused, and the user then ended up taking a break from tumblr. I would also like to note that those screenshots are still in @/proship-yuuki’s pinned post.

3. That is true, however I was told that @/catgirl-izuru did tell you in private that @anti-anti-otonokji-twins was blocked by @cat-girl-izuru and then (I’m calling the account “otonokoji twins” for simplicity”) derailed the conversation, so he ended it.

4. That is true and I’m not going to pretend that @catgirl-izuru was doing the right thing here. I personally think mistakes were made on both sides, and was caused from anxiety and stress. Privately, I encouraged people to remove the posts mentioning otonokokji-twins, and to not make more.

5. Again, I am not denying this or saying they were in the right here. I do want to say however, that the people that otonokji-twins is addressing here are minors who aren’t completely equipped to make the best decisions. This isn’t completely an excuse, however, and I do disagree with these threats. Otonokoji-twins did not deserve those threats, and does not for trying to clear things up here.

6. I would like to thank @/proship-Yuuki for not continuing this situation or not sending that anon. I am not sure exactly where @/alloftheworldknowsmebynowsheep came from or who it was, and I will not speculate on that.

7. Some of the anons directly referred to the situation at large, and thus can only be in at least some way, aware of the situation. I will admit however, that I don’t have direct screenshots of this. I can say however, that this situation spurred them on, but whether or not they were your followers is something I cannot say. I personally believe the same goes for @/alloftheworldknowsmebynowsheep.

8. Sadly that’s the issue with anons. You can never know where they came from. Should @catgirl-izuru be assuming they’re from you? Probably not, but I won’t fault him for a knee-jerk reaction. I appreciate @/proship-yuuki saying however that he didn’t deserve the mess that @/allyhewprldknowsmebynowsheep, or any of the hateful anons.

As a short bonus, @/isthatafuckingcorpse was one of the ones to say things against otonokoji-twins, however they do not post uncensored gore fics, or at least in my opinion. The post otonokoji-twins cites as evidence was not exactly, gore in my opinion. However, this accusation comes from this anon that otonokoji-twins received

The first paragraph is addressing a fic that I wrote. People were assuming it was gore for some reason, when it was not. All of my posts with gore have written content warnings before the content itself. And that also is if I didn’t make a mistake, like I did with one of my posts. However, I’ve since fixed that and have not been informed of any more.

However, they’re not addressing @/isthatafuckingcorpse here not outside of the mention at the beginning, me. They’re addressing someone else. The user they are addressing however has gone back and added more appropriate content warnings to those writings.

Finally, to @/proship-yuuki because I want to make myself clear. The comment I made under that anon was not meant to be directed at you specifically. It was meant to express my intent to not put up with stuff like @/alloftheworldknowsmebynowsheep did. My apologies if it did not come off that way.

so first f all i should say i blokced Corpse after he sent me a long list of name n said 'why r u following these people they're bad', and when i looked into the accounts i couldnt find nything bad on them so idfk

im not sure still wht to think about this whole situation, i think ill have to do reserch of my own

[bramblepaws]

im thinking about gender again and im putting it OUT IN PUBLIC cuz i wouldn’t mind if someone came and pointed at me and told me to either be more self-critical as a cis person thinking about gender or like, pointed at me and said “valid” or some shit idfk. ramblings under the cut. 

i have been so very firmly in the “i am cis” camp for like, Basically my Entire life, because i look at my physical self and EXCLUSIVELY see woman, and look at my personality and see how much of womanhood has directed that, and look at my past and see how much Being A Woman has pushed me into specific situations and reactions. like my entire BEING is IMBUED with Woman. but i also cycle back around to “am i .. Just Woman?” pretty.. like.. relatively frequently

idk how gender shit works but like in an IDEAL world i’d look like this:

i can’t draw so excuse that but like. i’d look pretty androg. and in an even more ideal world? i’d be able to swap around at will. like sure maybe i’d feel like being A Wamen on fucking, idfk, thursday, but then the next day i’d just swap around my physical form to look like a dude. like if i could just change primary and secondary sex characteristics at will that would 100% be THE IDEAL. not that i currently ever feel like A Man necessarily but like i ww.www..ant to? very frequently want to feel like a man. don’t! but want to. 

and that’s why i am like “welp i Am Cis despite the desire to not be” because like i FEEL... like a woman .. whenever i am Perceiving Myself. like not just looking at myself, like, thinking about me as a physical form AND as a collection of personality traits. 

but like god i, have been, interacting a bunch with a specific Minor Internet Celebrity and watching him interact with his spouse, who is like fem-presenting but goes by he/she/they......... it makes me REALLY emotional in a BIG “i want that” way. but like idk if it’s in a gay way or in a gender way!!!!!!!!!! idk if im like “hell yes queer people” or like “god i fucking would love to have my gender be That.” 

and it’s weird because i feel like i’d be massively different if i was raised as any other gender, like, i leaned HARD into a very specific form of womanhood basically from age 12 on, and it influenced a LOT of really major things in my life. and it’s fascinating but ultimately unhelpful to think about how different i would be if i had been raised as any other gender. 

idfk!!!! idk where i’m going with this!!!!! like i guess the last thing that i’ll say is that, like, even though i Want certain things, i also feel weird with pronouns that aren’t just she/her. like when i see people using they/them for me i like it specifically if they Don’t know me irl / aren’t close to me? like if someone uses they/them for me when we Know Each Other im like “oh no i go by she, you can use she” but i prefer if people use they/them if we aren’t close? it’s like.. like i just can’t See Myself As Anything Other Than Woman. even though i want to? 

ESSENTIALLY IDFK HOW GENDER WORKS........................ shoutout to you if you’ve read this far lmfao. 

[thatfangirlingdepressedkid]

i was tagged by an anon so like here u go

LAST:

1. drink: water

2. phone call: ummmmmmmmm who uses phones anymore?

3. text message: a human

4. song listened to: Death of a Bachelor by Panic! At The Disco

5. time i cried: the question is: when am i not crying?

HAVE YOU EVER:

6. dated somebody twice: nope

7. been cheated on: nah

8. kissed someone and regretted it: no

9. lost someone special: mmhm this weekend actually

10. been depressed: constantly

11. gotten drunk and puked: im a minor so...yes

THREE FAVORITE COLORS:

12. ugh black isnt a colour...ummmm...very very very dark blue

13. GAY COLOURS LITERALLY ANYTHING GAY

14. very very very dark grey

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU:

15. made new friends: shoutout to my tumblr fam! oml did i just say fam. fml

16. fallen out of love: i guess so :)

17. laughed until you cried: yeah cause inside jokes ahhhhhhhh

18. found out someone was gossiping about you: ALL�� THE👏FUCKING👏TIME LIKE SERIOUSLY GET A LIFE

19. met somebody who changed you: yup :) a couple people actually

20. find out who your true friends are: i think so? but i mean...bpd so...i guess we will never know

21. kissed somebody on your facebook list: facebook is for old people

HOW MANY/MUCH:

22. facebook friends do you have in real life: get over it facebook is so 2007

23. pets: ive had 7 fish...ive given up all hope

24. want to change name: idk maybe on my dysphoric days but not constantly

WHAT:

25. did i get for my last birthday: a phone + data and a trip to Toronto for dance as far as i know

26. time i woke up: ummmmmmm ever heard of insomnia?

27. doing at midnight: probably on tumblr while watching netflix sometimes talking to friends

28. something you cannot wait for: death

29. last time i saw my mom: 45 mins ago

30. something you wish you could change about your life: being alive

31. listening to right now: grey’s anatomy cause OML THAT SHOW IS BOMB, jesus did i just say bomb...kill me

32. something that gets on your nerves: homophobes

33. talked to a person named Tom: idfk probably ive met a lot of people through acting im almost positive that i had a producer named tom when i was like 6

34. most visited website: TUMBLR. but netflix and youtube comes a close second...not really but like i use them a lot

35. elementary school: i went to 2 and was homeschooled for some reasons but like only briefly

36. high school: im in high school? only been to 1 but homeschooling might happen probs not but maybe

37. college: probably will be dead by then...BUT...if i am unfortunately alive, ill be in LA idk what ill be doing but ill be in LA or NYC but probs LA

38. hair color: dark brown looks black in the light kinda red and brown and black UGH WORDS u need to see it to understand what im saying

39. long or short hair: TOO LONG. TOO FUCKING LONG

40. crush: a cool human

41. do you like about yourself: i am filled with self hatred. there is no room for ‘liking myself’ what are u talking about

42. piercings: nope no nah nuh uh not happening not today boo boo not today FEMALE DYSPHORIA IM SORRY

43. blood type: you would think i knew cause ive done too many blood tests to count but nope still clueless as fuck cause IM A MINOR FUCK YOU MOM

44. nickname: M, some people call me Mandy but if u call me Mandy ur dead to me

45. relationship status: taken? wow thats weird to say

46. zodiac: Pisces

47. pronouns: she/her? he/him? they/them? EVERYTHING IN BETWEEN? depends on the day i guess...or whatever im feeling? still kinda confused LEAVE ME ALONE OKAY

48. favorite show: grey’s anatomy currently but pretty little liars comes really close

49. tattoos: WANT WANT WANT WANT WANT

50. right or left handed: ambidextrous get on my level

FIRST:

51. surgery: there has been too many i cant even remember my first

52. piercing: ugh refer to 42 ^^^

53. best friend: a couple of them? no names mentioned u know who u fucking are

54. sport: dance, ugh dance, love dance but like love hate, ummmm im really fucking athletic so like everything?

55. vacation: THAILAND U TAKE ME TO THAILAND U ARE OFFICALLY MY BEST FRIEND ALSO LA TAKE ME TO LA PLEASE I LOVE U FOREVER

56. pair of shoes: adidas cause i get them for freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

RIGHT NOW:

57. eating: newsflash im anorexic

58. drinking: nothing? water i guess?

59. im about to: UMMMMMMMMMMMMM

60. listening to: LA Devotee by Panic! at the Disco

61. waiting for: death? thats not original...ummmmmmm summer i guess? no summer = stress ummmmmm fuck it death im waiting for fucking death. refer to my blog to understand WHY IM SUICIDAL

62. want to see: my hw finished on my table

63. want to get married: idk i guess so? probs will be dead :)

64. career: acting i think but dance is an option i mean im already in the business and working actively so why not continue? idk if i actually wanna pursue it tho

WHICH IS BETTER:

65. hugs/kisses: depends on the person ;)

66. lips/eyes: ^^^ but usually eyes cause eyes are pretty

67. shorter/taller: people are cute no matter what

68. younger/older: does it matter? “age is just a number”

69. romantic/spontaneous: romantic but i wouldnt know im making an educated guess

70. nice arms/nice stomach: nice humans

71. sensitive/loud: sensitive

72. hook up/relationship: relationship

73. troublemaker/hesitant: hesitant i think?

HAVE YOU EVER:

74. kissed a stranger: nope

75. drank hard liquor: fuck yes gets u drunk fast

76. lost glasses/contact lenses: dont wear them...yet....we’ll see (see what i did there) (and there again) I AM AN AWFUL PERSON

77. turned someone down: yes quite often actually idk why it just happens?

78. canoodling on first date: first of all, ive never been on a date. second, im a virgin. third, WHY CANT U JUST SAY SEX? LIKE ITS NOT A BAD THING TO SAY WE ARE ON TUMBLR WHAT ARE U TALKING ABOUT...okay im done now sorry

79. broken someones heart: oops

80. had your own heart broken: mmhm all the fucking time idk why it just happens, i just realized how many times ive said that

81: been arrested: nah

82: cried when someone died: MMHM ALL FUCKING WEEKEND

83: fallen for a friend: who hasn’t like lesbihonest (sorry im just really gay)

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

84. yourself: of course not who do u think ur talking to

85. miracles: i hope so?

86. love at first sight: ummmmm i think so? i really hope so but idk

87. Santa Clause: no but ummm idk but like no but like maybe but like no

88. kiss on first date: yeah

89. angels: i want to believe that i believe in angels but after everything that has happened to me idfk

OTHER:

90. current best friends name: fucking classified bitch leave me alone

91. eye color: hazel

92. favorite movie: anything disney cause im a disney freak ummmm The Imitation Game cause gay ummm OMG PRIDE GREAT MOVIE also love Tomboy cause it made me cry uggggh coming out ahhhhhhh tears ahhhhh

i tag everyone that reads this cause im too lazy

U BETTER DO THIS TAG ITS ACTUALLY A GOOD TAG SO LIKE

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sn///k ramblings dont read

i think the reason i’m so protective of eren rn is bc i tend to have a soft spot for characters who are either antagonists or hated by a lot of people. and there’s a lot of examples for this, in a lot of media i’ve been into. and like there’s always been a vocal minority that disliked eren but only in this arc has he become disliked by a lot of other characters in the manga

and someone pointed out that the one time historia appeared in recent memory, her facial expressions were very very similar to some of eren’s. which i find incredibly interesting bc they’re literally the only two important characters whose motivations we don’t know. and if this person is right, then they’re the only ones who know something important/possibly sad and also eren is the father

which is an incredibly popular theory but i don’t wanna subscribe to it because that would imply that eren and history fucked which.................. i don’t wanna imagine. unless it happened through some weird royal titan magic and probably paths

unless the pregnancy’s fake. which could be a possibility as well but. yea

i am like 100% sure that hoodie-kun was eren. obviously. but why is farmer-kun relevant. or maybe he’s a red herring. OR MAYBE HE IS RELEVANT

also i find it interesting how both eren and historia are growing their hair out

might be 0% relevant. might be very relevant. if my theory that eren’s hairstyle reflects his personality has any truth in it. probably not.

maybe he put his hair into a bun because he needs glasses and his hair kept falling in his face. i am 100% serious.

but there’s that other theory that the kid (whoever the fuck the father might be) will actually be named ymir and will have some kind of connection to the original ymir. idfk how it goes ive read too many theories and im mixing them up

there’s a lot of time loop/time travel/memory transfer in the past/timey-whimey theories and idk how much i subscribe to them bc while there is some timey-whimey shit bc apparently paths encompasses the past and present and future thanks to which im not too opposed to the memory transfer theory

and i also wouldn’t be too unsatisfied if the ‘eren goes back into the past and becomes the devil in the legend/eren goes back into the past and prevents the pact from being made/whatever the fuck’ theories become true

but the time loop is where i draw the line. while the concept itself is interesting in general and would be very interesting in this particular setting, unless isayama made it different somehow, it would feel very.... cheap? i guess. bc there’s always been so much emphasis put on characters’ individuality and their choices and the factors that influenced them while making those choices that if it turned out to be a time loop, it would just feel like everything was for nothing

they struggled and fought and suffered and yet no matter what choices they’d have made, the same things would’ve happened. its just weird idk

but the memory transfer theory is interesting too bc who knows what eren sacrificed to go back into the past and give his memories or smth to his 10-yr old self AND THEN SAID 10-YR OLD SELF FORGOT EVERYTHING AND NOTHING ENDED UP BEING CHANGED. BC NEARLY EVERYTHING HE SAW AT THE VERY BEGINNING IN BRIEF FLASHES STILL ENDED UP HAPPENING

idfk where im going with this

IVE READ TOO MANY THEORIES HELP