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the thoughts r getting bad. i might use my vent again jst to like. write shit i dunno how to say out loud.
#im. suicidal#at this point ? idk how much longer i hav#thts where my head is at lately.#i evn considered th possibility of hospitalization but. tht didn’t wrk b4#its like i feel nth#im so apathetic towards th idea of LIFE#like. mine hz no point#idk wut i wnt. i hav no talent. im slow. im strange.#who evn cares#maybe use th tracks at the overpass like tht high school girl#but i’ll receive no flowers. no wrds. nth to remember.#i hvnt left a mark on a single soul or accomplished anything at all#jst gna disappear.#i wnt to run away into the dark of th night and jst. exit xistence#idk it’s all jumbled#but it all feels off#im watching myself live a mediocre life frm th rafters#i jst wna put the lights out and end th show fr good
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figuring out how to draw zooble correctly since i was drawing them wrong and it bothered me also because she's my favourite
#the amazing digital circus#tadc fanart#tadc jax#tadc gangle#tadc zooble#tadc kinger#tadc#zooblejax#i'm like so normal about zooblejax i can't evne explain it . I'm like the only person who cares about them#its okay i feed myself in every fandom im in#kinger ishere because i like him too i guess
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Worship.
(also why does he have that thing around his neck)
#gerard way#my chemical romance#evn I don't understand my obsession with them#who cares#they're beautiful#mcr#i miss gerard way#mcr5
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cad sideshow figure is very very cute i love his pose but they deleted his hooded eyelids from his official arts 💔
#who tf gave him blepharoplasty !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! undo it NOAW#i draw him with monolids usually anyways so not abt accuracy but still . hooded eyes in his official art are cute!!!!!!!!!!#and in every design too so its not jus a one-off#im p sure theyre v hooded eyes in th official art. i drew monolids in my design bc i misremembered i think lol#and then it just stuck and i like how it works together for drawing him n stuff#either way. not a prominent double eyelid#kiddo say#this is th dumb shit i care abt im not evne caught up on th gd show <3
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I miss cutting so much I wish I could cut
#i dont evn have anything#cutting was the only thing that made me feel better#she keeps pushing and pushing me until i cant think and i start screaming and then she gets to act all calm and cool and act like im the#crazy one#i canr ducking take it#its mot like im the one who asked for this#you were the one who gave birth to me and couldnt even give me a home and im the one to nlame fuck u fuck u fuck u fuck u fuck u fuck u#i cant i wish thete was a button to kill myself it would be so much easier#i already kmow those things you fucking idiot#ypu cpuldnt even treat the o e thing you claim to care about properly and u think u have the right to treat me like this????#i wish someone would kill me i wish i was steuck by lightning i wish i could go out in front of a car and die but i cant bc im a coward#i cant take being lonely anymore#i want to die#i wouldnt be useless if i had even an once of some support or not even support but if i wasnt left alone to rot i mightve been ok#not happy but okay#i csnt do this#why cant i be dead#i dont even know wjere to get blades#im so fucking useless im basically a child i know#but who made me like that huh??? dont fucking blame me for the thjngs u did#kill yourself seriously and give me a break
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I am not crazy i am not crazy i am not crazy i am not crazy i am not crazy i am not crazy
#losing my mind. i have no friends no one to distract me fromm myself#just Sitting here thinking bad thoughts idk whay to do i fucking hate my life#wveryone fucking leaves me. i hate every person who i ever thought was my friend i fucking hate them#everyone is selfish everyonf turns on u it doesn’t matter how good it seems everyone will end up hurting me#swear to fucking god its alwaysthe same shit I’ll never be happy#always comes back to this#how could i POSSIBLY trust anyone??? fucking how? doesn’t matter how much i care abt them or love them or give myself to them#they will hurt me. i literally can’t trust fucking anyone how do i keep living like this#and u know i will stick around bc i have no one else so of course you will hurt me again like u already have#i give soooomuch love and all i get is damaged over and over and no one fucking cares not evn you
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im joking around but im genuinely abt to have a breakdown over this why am i so autistic
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i hate when ppl im not close with get involved in my life and habits. like this is not ur business! you're not fixing anything!
#tzu rambles#vent#i guess???#like idk if i have issues maybe thats not your business#like yeah okay ppl can worry about me but i dont need a therapist. genuinely. and i certainly dont need YOU to be my therapist#its more annoying than anything#like hwen my FRIENDS are like hey you should go to bed thats fine!!#its just kids at school have been a little too comfortable with me! who do you think you are#especially this one dickhead who i hate#and he wants to try and like. do that mean rude caring for you#like “oh you better eat or else”#mf SHUT UP#im not scared of you. fuck off.#jesus CHRIST#also different situation but this girl in my third period who keeps mocking me as a joke#i dont like being mocked. even by my friends. and i dont evne particularly like her. SHUT UP
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every day im reminded people hate women with short hair
#like what do you mean emma chamberlains new hair isnt it#SHE LOOKS GREAT I DONT EVN CARE ABT HER I KNOW NOTHING ABT HER AND IT LOOKS GREAT#short hair is only good on women when you think it looks feminine and pretty and socially acceptablely long#sorry i complain about this every few months but it drives me crazy. no one says it to women who already have short hair but when you have#long hair and cut it now all the sudden its a problem and oh but you wouldve looked so cute with a bob 😕😕#SHUT UP SHE DIDNT WANT A BOB OBVIOUSLY NOT EVERY WOMAN WANTS LONG HAIR#trinket reflects
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also my blog name wasnt to pretend to be you but to make fun of your username because i think "a dose of did reality" (or even a "a DIDose of reality") is funnier than didadoseofreality
genuinely just replace the word DID with "the shot" or something wild and "a dose of reality" can become a really clever pun for antovaxxers. i think if the op is actually an antivaxxer they can steal that idea and try to come up with a better primary title to be followed by the subtitle "a dose of reality" :P
it would all be really silly shouty lies by an old man/woman/erson who's scared of The Furries Oh my Gosh!!! and it's hillarious
#also i highly doubt this was any good advertisement#me when stretch the truthor perhaps even outright lie on the internet#500 followers to What Blog Exactly?#is it one of the 5 random likes on your posts?#the only reason im interacting with you (outside of the whole 'engaging in syscourse is unhealthy but i like to argue my point anyway' bit)#is because you are so ridiculous and you don't evne cite any sources#you just vaguely say “the DSM removed fictives and social media from the criteria”#when 1 u didnt say what was changed and where we can find proof that it was changed in the way u say it did#and 2 even if it was changed to not directly call out certain experiences... its because other people dont experience that#like. some systems dont have any fictives#some systems have never touched a social media ever#to have that be part of the criteria itself would be silly#although having it as diagnostic examples in some form would be good#but i dont think im trusting this user to diagnose anyone properly anyway so. lol#they cant even find the block button jNKDSN#like oh wow i asked questions on a side blog i amde 5 hours ago because you dont hve anons on#ITS TOTALLY ADVERTIZING#the MOST i did was talk to someone else who's actually debunked your claims in some kinda-indirect way jnfkshjfh#but like. i dont think they care too much#i am using too many tags tumblrs gonna get mad. if ur reading this drink water. unless ur didadoseofreality then drink p-
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thinking about this song and thr female experience.........
#NEEDING a reason to make yourself appealing and presentable because you constantly need an audience#it doesnt evn have to be someone you care about#just need people watching#and knowing#that im trying#To be pretty and likeable#AND UNENDING DEVOTION TO ANYONE WHO VALIDATES YOUR APPEAL#not anyone i mean but yes#named a star after your eyes#you were born so pretty oh summer babe#then eventually they get bored#and ur left begging#ten good reasons to stay alive#because#you are not worthy of life if you're not pleasing people#TEN GOOD REASONS THAT I CANT FIND#NO ONE IS PLEASED#everything i am will turn hard and cold because constantly advertising urself this way makes you die inside and eventually uoure just noth y#youre a shell#of a person#you are NOTHING if ur not eye candy for men who couldnt care less#this would not bave happened if he just texted me back on time#I FIT RIGHT IN UOUR PERFECT SKIN I CANNOT BREATHE!!!!!#i CANNOT breathe#!!!!!!!!!!!#take it all the way down hey baby taste me anyway#IM FADED LIKE A ROSE CAUSE YOU FADEEEEEEEEEE YOU LOSE ALL SENSE OF YOURSEL F ANF ITS JUSST HIM ITS JUST HIM#everything i am will be bougjt and sold#cause youre a commodity#no matter what u do
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It's kind of pathetic to watch my father scramble to find out why I'm so cold towards him lately. I know from my mom he seems to know I don't like him and it really makes me cringe inside whenever he clearly attempts to bond with me. I just want to scream most of the time. That he scares me, that he disappoints me as a parent and as an overall human being. That he has disgusting opinions, disgusting behaviour, that I can't look up to someone who is so pathetic and narrow-minded. He has never done anything to make me even remotely respect him and he is single-handedly extinguishing any warmth I have left for him. And then because I'm still his child nonetheless I'm stuck feeling sorry for him. It's depressing.
#i genuinely cannot and will not take responsibility of his feelings#you love me? you care for me and my wellbeing? prove it#i feel like the only thing that is going to make him react is if i truly demonstrate that he is totally lost me#my mom doesn't want me to cut him off (she inferred that from a previous convo w/me evn though that wasn't what i meant)#but if he refuses to accept me as i am (which i have no doubts about him doing)#how am i supposed to feel confident in a conversation with him when he has only ever been condescending to me?#and i understand his condescention is him trying to show himself as a guide/parent/teacher... but it fucks me up to be treated like a child#i'm 22 dude! and i'm far more emotionally intelligent than your sorry ass will ever be!#bc a 50yo man who refuses to expand his views bc ''he wasn't taught that growing up'' is an embarrassment#it feels so cruel to say this: but i'm peaceful when he is not around#my mom's rough but she is emotionally intelligent#my father? a goddamn wall. ZERO humility and grace when it comes to being in the wrong.#it's sad for me bc i know there are men out there who do better with their children and i envy that and by contrast my disappointment grows#(the grass is greener on ther other side and all... but am i completely wrong?)#it's sad for him because he does love me and has no idea he is digging his own damn grave#me.txt
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after that little blurb about jason still caring about reader even after breaking up with her for her own safety i now desperately need an angsty but also a comfort fic where they break up, reader is comfused and sad, jason is even sadder and maybe evn regrets his decision and then something important happens to reader and jason realizes what a mistake it was to push her away and apologises and its all good again! … lol sorry if this is too long i just liked your idea a lot :)
Jason breaks up to protect you
A/n: thank you for requesting :3 it’s so exciting and getting to challenge myself was fun!
Warnings: Blood, injury, brief description of depression, not proof read
5:30pm
Far above the city Jason watches you.
The rain and smog almost conceal his view as you exit your apartment.
But he knows your habits, the way you walk.
It’s only easy to get through your window because he’s the one who goon proofed it.
Your room is clean, as if untouched. Except the bed.
He takes stock of your fridge. Rotting vegetables he tosses, along with the moldy bread and…whatever the hell that was.
His heartache is good. And earned. Deserved even.
All it took was for one rogue to mention your existence, and that was it. Didn’t have a name; just a vague idea of your existence.
He clung to the feeling of panic lacing his veins, keeping it vivid in his mind. He used it to replace the urge to hold you, to wipe your tears, and reassure you. He knew better than to have been in your life.
He uses fresh milk to replace your…chunky one.
“I did not raise you this way…” He mutters; humorously.
As he broke up, he managed to look at your face, he imagined what it would look like dead, and bloody.
It didn’t help. Because you weren’t dead, but you looked something akin to it.
Eggs, and cheese. You don’t like eggs. He knows this.
More bread even if it goes bad again. And snacks. Easy freezer meals.
He shouldn’t, but he stays. He stays hidden in the dark where he belongs, needing to know you make it home okay.
6:31pm
Everything is a fog of grey.
The half eaten sandwich you had at work tasted like nothing.
You couldn’t even cry because—what was the point? You didn’t even really feel anything.
That nothingness multiplies when you get into your apartment. Locking everything up the way Jason taught you.
Although the stab wound, and blood dripping down your side doesn’t feel like nothing.
Sweat beeds down your face, collecting in the neck of your sweater. You just have to get to the kit Jason gave you; the medical bills were not worth it right now.
Your eyes meet his.
Your heart nearly falls out of your chest, releif flooding your veins.
“Jay I’m hurt.” Your voice breaks as tears warp your vision, softening out the world.
6:34
You, are still the most beautiful thing, he has ever beheld.
What was he doing? He had only meant to bring you food. Knowing your tendency to neglect yourself when you were heartsick.
It wasn’t your fault; he’d never blame you. Just wanted to know you weren’t going to fade out of existence the way he faded out of your life.
He runs to you, immediately ripping off your sweater, pressing his hand into your side.
“I’m not going anywhere sweets. M’right here.” He murmurs against your ear, “Who did this?”
“Some stupid—son of a bitch in an alley.” You rasp as he lies you down.
“Yeah? What son’uva bitch? You tell me. Now.”
His accent was so thick when he got upset; like when you forgot to eat, or drink water instead of caffeine.
He’s stunning.
“Hi…” you rasp.
“…hi surga’…” He soothes your cheek.
8:40pm
When you come to you’re alone in your bed.
A sob breaks through the quiet.
So light on his feet, you don’t hear him until he’s halfway into your room.
“Shhh baby it’s okay…hey, hey I’m right here.” He cups your tear streaked face.
You whimper. “You left.”
“I know but I’m not ever going to leave again okay? Yeah?” He tilts your face upward.
“You…you just think you know all the things.” You sniffle.
He can’t help his fond smile; he doesn’t mention how your words make little sense.
“Yeah?” He croons.
You nod.
“You just do things. All the time and it’s…just so you.”
Your glare holds little heat.
Even if it did, any heat from you is warmth to him.
His emotions are bared to you, he’s filled with guilt. Staying wasn’t rational, but he needed you.
He smooths your cheek with his thumb.
“Can you find some forgiveness in that pretty heart of yours?” He murmurs.
He knows he doesn’t deserve it, but it’s the best he can do to ask without begging.
“…I just missed you…the most.” You say, a bit delirious.
“Yeah I missed you too…” He kisses your forehead.
“Is that how you kiss the love of your life?” You glare.
There’s his sweetheart.
“Well you didn’t give me permission now didya?” He smirks.
You meet each other half way, his lips caressing yours.
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Sick!Sevika x reader Hcs
🥀A/n: back on my bullshit‼️
🥀Cw: fluff, comfort, kinda angsty but only if u tilt your head, put on glasses, and squint
🥀Character(s): Sevika x reader
sick? her? she still has to do silco's dirty work, she doesn't have time to be sick- or weak in any form
sevika absolutely overworks herself when she's sick, i said what i said. she practically doesn't believe in weakness, and thinks she can just "push through" the natural way
she can be so stubborn about self care, it genuinely makes you want to scream
there isn't exactly good healthcare in the undercity, but she absolutely seems like the type to take 15 advil and call it a day. she might evn try taking shimmer to "boost her immune system" pls stop her
you have to practically force her to bed, sevika could be seconds away from collapse and still claim that she's "fine", but with enough pleading she'd take a break
it isn't long before she just passes out though
at first, sevika would be a liiitle bit irritated at your worries, claiming that she can handle herself, but feels bad once she realizes how much you genuinely care. she does NOT have an appetite when she's sick but would, begrudgingly, at least try to eat if you asked
she gets headaches a lot. this is just a personal hc, but i really feel like she would get a bunch of tension headaches. sevika HATES them so much, and would be really appreciative of massages
its one of the few ways to actually get her to relax when she's feeling unwell, just say a few sweet words and start rubbing her upper back and she'll practically melt (but she'll never admit it ;)
sevika isn't used to having someone take care of her, and will try her best to make it up to you
that being said, she's not above trapping you in bed with her all day for cuddles- she doesn't care about germs, she just wants you close to her
i feel like she wouldn't be the talkative type when she's sick, and would be a lot more affectionate. you are NOT leaving the bed, she's practically clinging to you with her arm thrown over your body
will respect your wishes to not kiss on the mouth, and gives you a lot of forehead and hand kisses
she has an adorable sneeze. i think it's hilarious when tough, strong characters just have this adorable chipmunk sneeze.
pretty pliant when it comes to taking medicine and other forms of healing, and once she isn't sick anymore she definitely pampers you (more than usual) to pay you back
"y'dont have to do that, doll," Sevika murmurs as you massage her neck, her voice raspy from exhaustion. "i know, but i want to," you reply, gently kissing the top of her head as you apply some more pressure to her spine. she sighs, leaning backwards into your touch ever so slightly. the chair she's sitting on creaks as you continue your ministrations, relaxing all of the knots in her muscles and working away at all of the excess tension. Sevika suddenly inhales sharply and you pause, worrying that you hurt her, only for her to sneeze softly. "oh my god Sev..."
"don't start."
"was that your sneeze?" Sevika grumbles, turning away from you as you giggle. "its so cute! who would've known..."
"shut up."
"aww, but you love me, don't you Sev?" Sevika sighs, turning around to face you on the chair. she gently grabs your face, pulling you down to her level where she kisses your forehead. "f'course i do, brat. now shut up and finish my massage, i'm tired." you chuckle again at her prickly attitude before giving a mock salute. "yes ma'am!" Sevika mutters a few words under her breath that sound suspiciously like brat, and not cute, but turns around and eases back into your touch anyways. her back muscles ripple as you supply relief to her sore spots.
fuck, what a woman. how you pulled her you will never know. Sevika suddenly bursts into a coughing fit, chest heaving slightly as she leans forward to steady herself. "shit, that doesn't sound pleasant," you say, and Sevika merely turns and rolls her eyes. "when's the last time you've slept?" you ask accusingly, and Sevika, failing to supply you with an acceptable answer, proceeds to stand up and follow you as you practically drag her to bed.
"you, my dear, need rest". you accentuate the last word, and watch as your lover smirks at you. "only if you join me," she quips, and you don't even hesitate before crawling into bed next to her. your so weak for her, it isn't even funny. Sevika pulls you close, your back up against her chest and her arm thrown across your body. you can feel her breathe on your neck, and you swear you hear her say, "i love you".
"what was that, Sev?" you tease, already feeling exhaustion weigh on your eyelids. "go to sleep," she grumbles, pressing a hasty kiss to the back of your neck.
"i love you too."
guess whos sick rn 😔 i thrive off of reverse comfort it isn't even funny. ANYWAYS hope yall enjoyed!!!!!! i loooove sevika soo much.
PLEEEEEAAAAASE SEND IN ARCANE REQSSSSSS🙏🙏🙏
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i want spanish telenovela level of drama please i want gricko and frosty who are like are they gonna get together or not yet and then they meet this ex and frosty realizes he could get way more jealous than he knew becaue this guy doesnt know what personal space is
frosty is not jealous of the guy now, i mean gricko seems to not care about the guy at all but all grickos been talkin about is this guy and venting about him since they met him and frost is actually amazed he is feeling this way and feels a bit embarrassed because what, is he a teenager? but he also doesnt like the way the ex acts like he knows everything about gricko or how deeply (ahem) he got to know him
i want frosty to be posessive evn though he doesnt look like the guy who would be and he probably wouldnt step inbetween unless gricko actually needs help but i can see he would subtly and unconsciously hold gricko with his tail from behind
#once upon a witchlight#ouaw#gricko grimgrin#morning frost#legends of avantris#mojo art#my art#morninggrim#grimmorning
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[fire emoji] your favorite doctor and/or your favorite episode of their's
unfortunately my faovurite doctor is capaldi and my favourite episode of his is heaven sent which is basically an extremie normie opinion among dedicated doctor who fans. i guess if i have an unpopular opinion about heaven sent its that i heavily disagree with people who say it doesn't work as a standalone. this is all the context you need to understand what happens in heaven sent:
clara is someone who the doctor cares about a lot, who died recently.
the hybrid is a big important secret prophecy.
with those out of the way i think someone who hasn't seen any of the capaldi era, or even someone who hasn't seen doctor who at all, can get 90% of what there is to get out of heaven sent as a standalone piece of television. and evne those two things i think are decewntly conveyed by heaven sent itself.
re: capaldi himself i don't know. maybe it's controversial to say that in terms of sheer talent, he's maybe the best actor to have ever been on the show and definitely the best actor to ever star in it?
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