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quibbs126 · 3 months ago

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Okay but why is it that D-16 gets to have a giant fusion cannon, B-127 gets Energon knife hands, Optimus at least gets an Energon axe and flamethrowers, but Elita doesn't get anything other than like, wheels on her feet? Which aren't really a built-in weapon like the other three, just her vehicle wheels

Kind of unfair honestly

#I think I saw someone talk about how B and D get built in weapons #while at this point also being the most impulsive and violence prone #while the other two kind of get nothing #it was as a joke but also legitimately kind of lame for those two #and at least Orion gets this solved when he becomes Optimus #but Elita still has the short end of the stick here #she needs some built in weapons not just an external blaster #transformers #transformers one #d 16 #megatron #b 127 #orion pax #optimus prime #elita 1

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egophiliac · 3 months ago

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So.... what are your thoughts on Ace's UM, if you haven't been asked this already?

sneaky magic for the sneakiest boy

no but really, I think it fits him really well! I had thought his UM would probably involve something kinda sleight-of-handy or pickpockety! and I looooved that it made such a nice loop-around back to episode 1. ❤️ I was. kind of half-expecting him to just run out and punch Riddle in the nose again. but instead this time 'twas he who offed the queen's head! it was great! and he did it while stone-cold terrified out of his mind! because Ace is the only remotely normal or well-adjusted person at NRC and therefore the only one who is like "we're going to literally die, this is super effed up". but he did it anyway!!!! I AM SO PROUD

#art #twisted wonderland #twisted wonderland spoilers #twisted wonderland episode 7 spoilers #twisted wonderland book 7 spoilers #twisted wonderland episode 7 part 12 spoilers #twisted wonderland book 7 part 12 spoilers #also love how it complements deuce's magic! they are two of a kind ❤️♠️#i do think bet the limit fits the 'uno reverse card' description more though #like...okay they haven't really said much on how joker snatch works #(literally ace went 'we'll talk about it later')#but i think it's not supposed to be inherently retaliatory if that makes sense #the japanese is something like 'put an ace up my sleeve'#which implies to me that it's not really an in-the-moment thing? i think he can steal it and hold on to it for a while probably #like he might be able to snatch it and then use it on someone else later rather than it being reflected back on the original caster #versus deuce's being that he punches you back with your own punch (and/or other various punches he's acquired)#(a connoisseur of fine punches)#i am 100% guessing though so who knows! we will find out later i presume #now the only one left to get their um is grim maybe 👀#(i mean i would also love to see some staff ums HEY TWST THAT WOULD BE COOL)#(but like. narratively speaking and all)#oh and maybe crowley's depending on how plot-important he actually ends up being #what if it turns out nothing's going on with crowley and he's actually completely irrelevant #he tears his mask off and he's just some random dude who has zero idea of what's happening #nobody's been orchestrating shit #everyone's just been getting radioactive poisoning from the stone adeuce replaced in the chandelier back in the prologue #this was all a cautionary tale about getting the blot levels in your school's hvac system regularly checked

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lazylittledragon · 23 days ago

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so uhhhhhhhh. not to be cryptic and bitchy on main but congratulations to everyone in my messages for like 5 months on being right i guess

#ramble #ughhhhhhhhhhhh ok so #i will delete this later bc idk if this person has tumblr and i genuinely mean no ill will i just need an outside opinion #i vented about it on my close friends story already but i need like. a neutral party #i won't say their name but if you're on other socials you probably know who it is #basically for a while i've been getting messages saying 'this person has hacked your art style' or 'is REDACTED your alt account'#and in the beginning there were like. similarities? but nothing i could really claim and also i don't want to accuse someone of theft #like i don't own any stylistic choices or anything. i've used things from other artists i like. honestly it's kind of flattering #and we are actually really friendly in DMs now and we even joke about it. we message eachother any time we get a comment about it #i made a joke literally 2 weeks ago about how we're two different people i swear #but after adding some Very specific things to my art (like the paper texture/hatching/shiny lighting). they also added them #and i gave them the benefit of the doubt bc i don't like to believe anyone has bad intent with stuff like that. and i've done the same obvs #but recently they dropped some tav lore and it was. basically a panel for panel copy of one of my cyra comics down to the HAND PLACEMENT #and obviously i don't own the Bitch Mother trope or anything but it's just. mmmmm it makes me feel weird #idk it just feels like it's gone a bit far now and i'm not sure what to do about it #like you would think after we became moots they would get scared and stop but i think i was too openly trusting and they just kept going #recently someone on THEIR PATREON thought they were me and they weren't even one of mine (which by itself is funny but. y'know)#i don't want to call anyone out or upset anyone bc it only causes more problems but like. i Know. and idk if they should know that i know #maybe i'm just stupid idk i really trusted that it wasn't happening but it is and i don't know how to feel #hONESTLY I'M JUST MAD THAT I CAN'T DO ANY MORE CYRA LORE NOW BC PEOPLE ARE GOING TO ACCUSE **ME**#also PLEASE do not witch hunt this person i want to deal with this as quietly as possible #i really felt like i was in the twilight zone or just being paranoid so i had to ask

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krysmcscience · 7 months ago

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Don't mind me, just slacking on a big Billford comic by making other far more ridiculous Billford comics and also some AU art (please excuse my slapdash human!Bill thank you please, also before anyone asks the art style is messy and all over the place because idgaf LOL)

This started out as an excuse to design a Bill Cipher-inspired "wedding" dress, but then spiraled wildly out of control. Various rambles and a bunch more human!Bill arts under the cut, including another silly little comic at the end! (Feel free to skip the rambles, I won't be offended. I know I'm bad at shutting up. XD)

I may or may not write some comedy stuff for this AU, which I'm calling 'For Better Or Worse (But Mostly Worse)'. While Ford DOES remember getting sloshed enough for one thing to lead to making out with another after karaoke, neither he nor Bill remember this wedding, At All. The Love God did nothing to dissuade them from going hog wild on their marriage spending, either, so it got...uh. Exorbitantly Expensive. As in, the grand total could probably buy the entire fucking MOON sort of expensive. (It's fine, don't worry, Bill's good enough at crime to be able to afford it.) Also, because the logic of this AU is mostly dictated by Rule of Funny, the Love God's powers are close to unlimited when it comes to matters of romance, but ONLY when it comes to matters of romance. (Like weddings!)

Want an empty human vessel to smash the soul of a triangle into for date nights or when it's convenient, or perhaps even when it's NOT convenient? Easy peasy! Want the marriage to be recognized in every corner of the multiverse from now until the end of time, thus making any potential future divorce nigh-on impossible? Can do! Want to buy an entire beach for the ceremony and honeymoon and in general, and totally not at all because it would be Super Hilarious to prevent any specific movies from being made on that very same beach in the future? Fine, whatever, it's not his finances he's ruining!

Does the Love God also provide special rings that just so happen to turn incorporeal as long as the "happy couple" doesn't remember that they barged into his dreams to bully him into presiding over their marriage? ...No comment!

He spends the next thirty years trying and failing to get in touch with either of them for payment. This is why you should always demand half the money up front, my guy!

Also it's absolutely a traditional Jewish wedding, because I like the idea of Bill demanding all the keepsakes from the marriage that he paid for, and being completely confused when one of the things he's handed is a fancy container full of broken glass. He gets it later, but in the moment, he thinks the Love God is just fucking with him some more.

Ramble over! Here's the full dress that caused the comic to happen, along with what Ford wound up wearing at the wedding (and begrudgingly agreeing to put on again later for Reasons), aaaaand also a close-up of Bill's ring:

I may have forgotten to draw Bill's hair floofier when drawing the back of the dress, lmao

Since double ring ceremonies have been leaking over into Jewish wedding customs for a while now, Ford also has a ring, but his is the much more traditional plain gold band. There's definitely a message engraved on the inside - embarrassing, cringe, or incriminating somehow - but I haven't decided what it is yet, so use your imagination for now. XD Bill, on the other hand, saw the phrase 'traditional plain gold band' and said "No Thank You" before proceeding to embellish his ring to his liking. And because he's a secret sap who adores Ford's extra fingers, the triangle points add up to twelve, as do the engraved stars. Yes, they're stars, not dots, I just got lazy. There's also six lashes on the eye gem, and probably an eye engraving on the inside with another six lashes. (Bill's got it BAD, okay? We all know this.)

Here are the initial scribbles of Bill's custom vessel in more casual attire, please ignore the wonky anatomy and the fact that I flat out refuse to ever draw him with a proper top hat:

He does actually need a cane in this vessel; since Bill tends to possess men and especially Ford more often than not, he's used to having a higher center of gravity when in a human body, so his ability to balance is pretty garbage. (He may or may not topple over with concerning regularity.) As for his empty eye socket, his bangs don't do much to hide it since he's so high-energy (dude is constantly on the move), and he also refuses to wear a patch over it, because 1.) why bother, and 2.) it's more fun to freak people out.

To better align with Ford's attraction towards the strange, the vessel was designed with super minor shapeshifting ability - Bill can look like a perfectly normal human, but he can also make the teeth and fingers sharper whenever he likes (which is mostly just when he's angry or being more of a menace than usual), as well as slit down the pupils or outright ditch the irises altogether. He can also have whatever he wants in the downstairs department, just because I'm an indecisive bitch on that front, lmao. Maybe he can have boobs if he wants them, too, but I ain't drawin' tits on no triangle, nuh-uh, no sir. His powers are otherwise limited down to what humans can do, because for some reason, the Love God doesn't trust Bill to not snap into Immediate Apocalypse Mode if he's given a physical form that's actually all his and no one else's.

Due to the body being all his and no one else's, it's also not really a standard possession so much as it is just...Bill being temporarily human. He's a lot more aware of and in tune with his human body's senses than he ever was with his "puppets", which makes things like pain a lot more intense. (He is mostly fine with this, because he's a fukken masochist.)

A bit more fashion stuff, including beach and party attire~

The beach outfit was mostly me trying and failing to nail down his body shape, which is still not bottom-heavy enough. I then decided to slap a bikini on it, before making it supremely unsexy with a pair of fugly shorts, because Bill's fashion choices are not allowed to be conventionally attractive. Meanwhile, the party outfit was mostly me looking at the casual attire I designed, asking 'how would Bill make this Worse', and then drawing the result. The mismatched thigh-highs are killing me inside! :D

No, his vessel can't actually summon fire, I just drew it for funzies before I decided on said vessel's limitations. Yes, the gold brick tattoos are absolutely a reference to the fic 'Knowing Me, Knowing You' - I simply could not resist.

I also HAD to draw Bill in one of his canonical(?) shirts, just made tank-top'd:

He is absolutely about to over-correct and fall backwards after this. USE YOUR CANE, GOOFBALL!!! (I meant to draw Bill closer to this degree of bottom-heavy in the other images, but. Alas. I am bad at anatomy, LOL)

And, last but not least before More Comic Time, I attempted to draw him closer to Gravity Falls style:

Jury's out on whether or not I succeeded, but - hey. I tried. Now have some Handyman Bill AU, but with my goofy human design, instead:

Hey, it's a 'mystery snack', and the guy wanted A BITE to eat - the joke was right there, guys!!! (Based on this post, because it just screamed BILL CIPHER to me.)

whoops i forgor bills ring and cracks ahaha too late now

I WILL SHUT UP AND STOP RAMBLING NOW K THX BYYYYYE

#fanart #gravity falls #billford #bill cipher #stanford pines #stanley pines #the love god #human bill cipher #human bill design #fashion design #comics #poor stan gets to find out his twin boinked a triangle when the love god shows up at the mystery shack demanding payment LMAO #cue internal panic for stan as dipper and mabel lose their collective shit over the fact that they now have a surprise new grunkle bill #the love god helps himself get paid by teaching the kids how to trap bill in his human vessel for the foreseeable future #bill is bewildered and pissed but also very much 'holy shit i have a FAMILY again??? neat but terrifying??????? what the F*CK do i do now'#he then proceeds to attempt to lovebomb his new family into being okay with the impending apocalypse #all while the three of them attempt to lovebomb HIM into giving up his plans for said impending apocalypse #then two days later ford shows up and is just like. what the ACTUAL F*CK IS HAPPENING???#cue stan immediately screaming 'I HAD TO PRETEND TO BE THAT THING'S HUSBAND FOR TWO DAYS STRAIGHT SO F*CK YOU AND YOUR BAD TASTE FOR THAT!'#stan spends those two days straight dropping very sour hints that he's being punished for someone else's terrible mistakes #bill finds this absolutely hilarious and thus plays along - but not without dropping his own hints that ford is the FAR superior twin #dipper and mabel have ZERO idea of what is actually going on because the love god did NOTHING to clarify the situation #dipper is convinced that stan and bill are speaking in some kind of bizarre code that only adults can understand #mabel is convinced that the code is flirting - which means stan and bill are going to live happily ever after and have tons of kids + pets #NEITHER of them are prepared for ford showing up. not that they were in canon. but still. now it's even MORE crazy #'what do you mean we get TWO NEW GRUNKLES???' 'two grunkles in two days - gotta be some kinda record'#ford then has to decide if he wants to remain justifiably furious at bill or join the other pines in lovebombing him into submission #he then gets to learn that lovebombing bill works surprisingly well because that triangle is just The Biggest Attention Wh*re #the entire AU would just be ridiculous antics with a splash of billford #these tags are an abomination lmao

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vaguely-concerned · 30 days ago

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powerful mental image of lucanis expounding passionately about any given one of his limited but extremely deep areas of interest (the wyvern/knives/coffee/cooking/murder continuum of lucanis dellamorte special interests if you will) while rye lounges around and Beholds him with palpable twink boutta pounce energy

#having lucanis really go off about something no matter what it is is a rare and precious gift for rye specifically. free aphrodisiac #honestly rye's version of that might initially be subtle enough that only davrin would notice it (and suffer accordingly) lol #'could you guys do that while I'm not here. I'm starting to feel sick' '*perfectly innocent rye voice* do what davrin? I'm not even #doing anything :}' 'yeah you're doing nothing with a lot of subtext rook there are whole chains of footnotes here I'd rather not know'#very funny idea of rye leaving the top button of his shirt open (which means about one centimeter of throat exposed. to be clear)#to go to dinner b/c that is enough to make lucanis completely lose his train of thought every time he glances over #and davrin with half his glorious booba out at all times shaking his head at rye across the table like 'you harlot (affectionate)'#(may I remind us all that his first crush was viago de riva. I remind myself of this at least twice a week b/c it's one of my few sources #of joy and delight these days. rye only gets as mean as viago under very rare and specific cirumstances but I think that #might be lucanis' equivalent aphrodisiac material lol. whenever rook gets tried to the point of showing his hand that not only #IS he actually very clever he also has the capacity to be a *bitch* when provoked lucanis finds his trousers suddenly a little tight.#man something here about both of them struggling with holding on to their anger yet actually finding it appealing in the other person #that's actually kind of moving as well as hilarious haha. rye losing his cool and being like 'oh fuck my cover is blown yet again #now everyone will know I am an asshole actually' and meanwhile lucanis is like 'I need to kiss him under the pale moonlight' <3 #something something nothing is more beautiful to me than the fullness of your nature getting to witness the full spectrum of your being #'*davrin facepalming just out of frame as they gaze upon each other like this* literally what did I just SAY!!! assan avert your eyes #this is grownup stuff. weird-ass grownup stuff I don't fully get and yet I suppose it takes all kinds etc. but still grownup stuff')#davrin being the baffled witness to the intricate yet extremely low-key mating dance of two introverts is something that can be so personal #he clocked them from the moment they showed up to recruit him (which to be clear is before either of these two dumbasses realized anything)#and now he has to live with it <3 sorry davrin I love you davrin #dragon age #dragon age: the veilguard #oc: Ellaryen Ingellvar #lucanis dellamorte #davrin #from my tag rants etc.#rook x lucanis #rookanis #holding on to my sanity and will to live by a shred but with how coherent and sane this is I'm sure it's not even noticeable

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monochromeia · 1 month ago

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REALLY wanna work on a fan continuity where the decepticons are in the right

#or more like #are not the villains #because half of the time in tf media they are in the right LMFAO #then they go “too far”#i think itd be fun instead to explore one where a lot of the decepticons “evil” actions are misconstrued #theyre only ever violent in self defense but it gets spun as them being violent brutes #they only ever want equality but its framed as them wanting power #could totally have like two parts too right #pre-war and beginning of the war focusing on the decepticons pov #but then what if when the war moves to earth all of the old autobots are gone and the ones that are there were raised on that propaganda #and it then focuses on the new autobots learning that the decepticons were never evil #and unlearning that propaganda and bias #was also thinking about optimus dying before the war moves and elita getting the matrix and becoming prime #has nothing to do with the main concept here but a fun idea #anyway so then you could have one autobot (elita) who WAS there in the initial stages of the war #who knows that the decepticons just wanted equality and arent evil but also thinks they deserve what they got for it #and having to unlearn that as well #which i think could also be an even more complicated journey than those who were just told 'decepticons bad' yknow #cuz theyre all like 'wait we were told they wanted total power but they dont. okay then'#still an issue but not necessarily part of a facet of their person? they were jsut told these guys wanted to murder everyone #and pretty reasonably thought 'thats not very nice' even if it does turn out to be a lie #while elita's opinions and ideals ARE something that are ingrained into her #and they are a result of something she was told but that kind of classism/functionism is still very much a part of her person as a whole #and don't necessarily have the excuse of a 'reasonable reaction'. not that the other actuall was as well but u get what i mean #okOK ill stop yapping #SOMEBODY hear me out on this #mono talks #transformers #maccadam

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fortes-fortuna-iogurtum · 25 days ago

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studying Philosophy is really like

you think this is going to help you understand the world and your place in it better,

but actually all it does is confuse and befuddle you farther than ever before

and also you make friends with the most annoying (read: great, smart, lovely, kind, but argumentative as ALL GET OUT) people in the world and then you realize you've BECOME one of those people and you kind of want to just curl up in a nice quiet little hole in the ground with all your books and read and think until a complete and total understanding of the world falls out of your noggin and everything makes sense; but actually you just want to take a walk in the woods with a friend and not think about anything for at least a year.

#I have a paper due on the philosophy of math #at 8 AM TOMORROW #and my brain is NOT WORKING #and I really want to go cry for a while #but that's not really going to fix anything at all is it #on a related note if y'all want to pray for me... my emotions have returned and they really just want to process everything that's #happened for approximately my entire life at one time. and it's kind of hard to do all the things I think I should be doing right now #when that's going on #also thinking too much about trying to love people well and what that means and how bad at it I've been and it's hard not to get stuck ther #when there's basically nothing I can change anyway #(need to have an awkward convo with someone soon... for my sake probably more than theirs #I fear I haven't loved them well and it matters to me to know that our friendship hasn't been compromised #but unfortunately it's also strike one) a boy and strike two) a boy I like #and unfortunately he figured it out and I have a pretty good indication that he doesn't like me back. and I can't tell if he's interested i #a mutual friend #and I am AwkwardTM and trying not to let it bother me. but Fake It Till You Make It #(my philosophy since getting to college)#isn't really going that well for me in this case.#and I think an honest conversation would be the best thing for everyone... except I'm kinda terrified of that lol :') and I want to serve #him well not just serve my own emotions and need for validation)#prayers would be appreciated #that I will love others as they are meant to be loved and not just as I want to love them #or as my selfish emotions and desires think I want to love them #and that I'll be able to know when something needs to be said and when nothing at all is the best option for everyone #God sees and knows. and He loves me. and that is so /so/ hard to believe sometimes but I try to hold onto it with everything I have lately.#gurt says stuff #college stuff #philosophy #one day I'll look back and laugh at undergraduate me #personal tags

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weirfq1 · 5 months ago

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with all these gaston crackships/rarepairs that are coming out lately it would be so fucking funny if he had a flig with all the main characters (ambar, nina, simon... hell luna too if you want) and they all know it except matteo

#mf would feel so betrayed once he finds out #and not because he's jealous or anything - or maybe yes (they kinda have a vibe between them if you get what i mean)#mainly because his best friend didn't tell him #gaston would 100% use “you didn't ask” with a shit-eating grin while shrugging his shoulder #he would have the time of his life making fun of matteo reaction lol #and matteo would also lowkey be insecure (understandable because gaston was probably a better boyfriend for all those people [real])#[from here on i'm gonna yap but like... YAP - get ready]#type of flings/situationships/whatever i think he had:#LUNA/GASTON : [barely a fling/ a kinda relationship (?)] - them just trying it out for the hell of it #they had a lot of fun and it strengthened their friendship #they never talk about it unless they're sure that they're by themselves #gaston sometimes reminiscences about it in front of others(to make luna panic/embarass)but in such a vague enough way that they don't get i #it always comes off as them play-fighting #it either happened before he and nina got together (which is what i'm running with for this post) or they did it after she left #because they were the closest to her and were the only people that could understand what it meant to lose nina #(luna also dated her in the past by this point)#GASTON/NINA: [literally canon and one of the main ships] so i don't have to explain it i guess #GASTON/SIMON: [was a “they were all in their feelings” during those moments - kind of deal]#that scene i reposted the other day is a good way to pinpoint when they started to actually eye eachothers /put a start to what they had #it ended two or three months later - don't know who put an end to it between them #but it wasn't a problem because they both had something else they wanted to focus on more - they're extremely chill about this #GASTON/AMBAR: [kinda the same - got to know eachother when they were kids and became extremely close (even tho it took A BIT since #even if gaston came from a good family ambar was still as standoffish as now (and also a bit shy even if she wouldn't admit it)]#gaston was the one that did the first step #at that point ambar actually never stopped to think about dating in general but especially him #but the idea of losing him as a friend for something so stupid as a relationship terrified her #he reassured her that whatever happened nothing between them would've changed #which was real but also not really #they ended up breaking up a year and a half later and became a bit awkward around eachothers for a bit (mostly because of ambar)#they're still cordial with eachothers

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bumblingbabooshka · 2 years ago

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Workforce Tuvok is my cringefail babygirl

#why are you a Vulcan suffering from dysphoria syndrome?? So you can get held down by other men???#I really want to know what 'humorous anecdotes' he had to share.....I love him so much #I love that without his Vulcan discipline he becomes even more clearly annoying <3<3 explaining a joke TO the guy who TOLD IT to him #+ laughing SUPER hard at someone else being 'humiliated'#Also Janeway looooves being romantically quirky in an old romance movie way and idk how else to describe it #Neelix: If I had a tarynian nickle for everytime I had to rehabilitate a friend who'd lost all their memories I'd have two nickles #which isn't a lot but-#st voyager memes #bea art tag #OH! Janeway seems like she's two seconds away from swinging herself around a lamp post in the rain with a dazzling smile on her face #Workforce Tuvok (and thus normal Tuvok) contains so many multitudes...he is SO friendly he is VERY annoying he is SCARED of needles #he is OFF putting and PUSHY and he is KIND <3 #He seems like if I made a mistake he'd VERY loudly laugh and point it out but also help me correct it while telling a story about himself #Literally a CRIME that Tuvok and Neelix didn't interact in this ep they would've become buds #another crime is that Tuvok does nothing in the second half of the episode v_v not even a little 'ribbon scene' at the end #Janeway: Thank you so much Chakotay and only Chakotay for helping get us all out of there <3 #Tuvok in the background: ..........................................................................................#the 'ribbon scene' would have been between him and Seven - she completed the research he started v_v

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knifegremliin · 2 months ago

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i've been rotating the same fucking oc in my head for the past two weeks with no pause. it doesn't usually last this long, or if it does, there are brief pauses within it. but no. the same fucking guy. for two weeks. i think i need someone to forcibly remove them from my brain at this point

#🔪.text #oc: ghost #yeah i'm gonna tag said oc #sir please get out of my head there are other things i could be doing instead of obsessing about you #i have been no thoughts only ghost for two fucking weeks #btw the reason i want to do art rn is because i've been working on a big ass kind-of-reference sheet for him #which i have been obsessing over for about a week now #to the extent that i have been overusing my wrists LMAO #hence why i'm forcibly taking a rest day #help.#even now while i am forcing myself to not draw i am still thinking about him and doing stuff for him #they've taken over my brain. there's nothing else left up there. just them.#someone get this godforsaken he/they out of my brain #he seriously has a very tight hold on my brain

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valvesoftware · 11 months ago

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breakups are so fucking weird. three years and just like that it's gone. huh

#helix.txt #gross i ended up spilling my guts in tags. look at them fucking writhing on the floor all bloody #dont rb please #vent #to quote fall out boy i knew it was over i just didn't know the date #yeah that's it. fall out boy can fix this.#i will feel better if i go listen to bang the doldrums #and infinity on high in general #and folie a deux. folie a fucking deux how i love that album #my chem will make me better. gerard way save me #god what a weird feeling. you used to know me better than any other person but then you moved hundreds of miles away and it worked #for a while. then two years later you said it wasnt working and that this was best for both of us. guess i never got the memo for that one #hope we treat other people better because i wasn't as kind as i should have been towards the end and you were never as thoughtful or con-#-siderate as i needed towards the end. we grew apart because you're bad at keeping contact over messaging #and in some ways the cracks in the foundation that grew from that were my fault too i guess. our conversations always felt one sided #maybe i was smothering you #you could never seem to keep more than a passing recollection of the things i liked or even pay much attention to them #but i wasn't great about that either #we just became different people. you weren't what i wanted or needed and you couldn't do long distance. whatever #i know it was the right thing i just wish it hadn't made me feel so damn awful #will we still talk after this? who knows. we didn't end on bad terms but things are definitely weird #and considering your track record with people you can only talk to online i'm not optimistic #you tried to break things off initially by saying you'd said you would improve in the past with nothing to show for it #something i didn't disagree with but i said it didn't bother me much. and it didn't #but it's complicated now. i did deserve better. but you made it clear i'm not getting it from you #you weren't as present or thoughtful as i needed #i wasn't there in person the way you needed and certainly not as considerate as i should have been. and for that second part i'm truly sorr #anyways. sorry. i'd been thinking about it for a long time anyway. i didn't want to admit it because i didn't like to think #about what it might bring. maybe i should have been braver #right. that's enough

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lunavikt · 2 months ago

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i think actually the funniest case of my doctors being mildly incompetent is the fact that not a single doctor has cared or found it all that strange that i just randomly break out in hives for seemingly no reason and have been since 2019

#thoughts #i did eventually get prescribed two medications that have helped stopped it from happening #thinking about the blood tests i got for OTHER reasons while i was not taking medication where my wbc count was always high #does nobody else think its weird that my body has been always having an allergic reaction of some kind for the last 6 years orrrrr #now that im on medication and it doesnt happen nearly as often i get so paranoid whenever i get a really strong itch #me ripping my shirt sleeve up so aggressively last night and inspecting my bicep for 10 minutes because i was a little itchy #tbh at thjs point i have accepted theres probably nothing i can do to make it stop without medication but i wish i knew why it happens

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arolesbianism · 3 months ago

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Finally fixating on some nugget relationships that aren't horrible for everyone I love friendship <3