#which makes me not mad anymore

[liauditore]

this mf really took one look at the etho situation this season and went obsessed?? let me show you obsessed and i appreciate that

[lesbiangiratina]

Funny as hell. Yeah theyre doing great

[pseudophan]

gonna be so sad when tonight is the first preshow space with good audio and i'm asleep because i have a psych appointment tomorrow

[nightskyfoxyy]

Just saw a take on tw1tter so exquisitely rotten that I fear I might have to make tons of Genoa Family art in retaliation. All the worse for being big name fans but alas, theyre entitled to their own opinion.

Anyway Helena and Djoura will forever be canon and both their parents would sooner shoot themselves in the kneecaps than see them face even the mildest of struggles. They love their daughters (and each other, suck it <3 ) so very much and there is nothing you can ever do to change that ^^

If theres any questions/requests youd like to see answered or sketched just reply or send a DM my way, seeing that take made me realise there absolutely needs to be more of them on the internet and not just kept hidden on discord servers and private chats cause Im shy lol.

[frameconfessions]

What I love about Warframe as a newcomer is that there doesn't seem to be any sort of shipping wars or fandom discourse at all. I've been into a lot of shooters before (ie. Overwatch, Apex Legends, etc.) so Warframe is a huge breath of fresh, clean air.

💯

[inamagicalhallucination]

i dont think bsd is poorly written at all

[perenlop]

gonna say something that may raise some eyebrows and im sorta like. raising my hands first like "I'M TRANS!!!" but i'm writing a psot on the scorpion family and.... i'm like. halfway tempted to write about castor's deadname in it???

not to deliberately misgender him or anything (i'll be using he/him throughout the post ofc) but because names are an important motif for castor's arc and for this family. dusk doesn't have a real name, and sheds the name when she leaves. she never got to choose her own name and it shows how little agency she has. bruno insisted on naming all three of them to show how he had them all under his control. castor not only discards his original name once he's made to leave, but the next name, and the name after that, because he has no idea who he actually is and is trying to contort himself to be what others want him to be and so he lets everyone else name him, and him choosing the name "castor" is him finally coming into himself and accepting his own desires...

the thing is, i already reveal another character's narratively relevant deadname on BoP and the main fic and i am already very very very very VERY worried about how people will take that to go "oh that's this character's REAL name and now i should actually refer to them like that" or people potentially thinking i'm being very disrespectful towards other trans people

[spiderrcakezzz]

Must be nice to be an adult right abt now,,... . (/hj /hj)

(this is abt Sparklecare Btw)

[averlym]

@remylong :

[faaun]

ok let's catch up quickly

[databent]

VAGUEPOST ABOUT IRL INCOMINGG

"im not transpjobic ive never thought of you as anything other than a boy" ok well coming onto me and then continuing to insist yohre straight as fuck and into women only probably isnt the best way to demonstrate to me how mcuh you Dont tnink of me as a woman girl lady woman vagina fem lady girl. you know.

[suffercerebral]

me having gone to bed at 6 am every day for the past week and generally spiraling mentally while rotting in bed waking up this morning: a 4 mile hike in the heat is a really good idea right now, and while we're at it let's start like 3 art projects

[anaer]

i really do hate jjk

[thornsent]

oh well apparently they have me blocked so I guess they'll be fine if they go on my blog and make the decision to look and see this lol <3

I lost my best fucking friend this year like a week before my birthday because they decided to cheat on their fiancee who they had been with for 12 years with at least 3 of their coworkers at the job their fiancee got them. their fiancee was at this job for a loooong time and considered their coworkers like family. not only that but my former best friend lied to everyone and manipulated the fuck out of the situation. at first when people confronted them they seemed to relent and just accept they fucked up, but when I confronted them and really went in on just how fucked up this is to me specifically (I had an ex that did this to me LMAO and they know about how bad it fucked me up) they then promptly began to gaslight me, say that I knew I was cheating on their fiancee and ENABLED it, etc.

it was unimaginably cruel and completely unlike them and I am quite literally traumatized and only just coming out of shock from it because that person is not my best friend and I genuinely do not understand what happened to them. I told them over n over when they vented about the issues they were having to just talk about it like adults but they never did, they just ghosted their FIANCEE and tried to avoid them and literally told me they "hoped they'd just get the hint" (again. 12 years total they were together. they were engaged. I was so stoked for them and so excited to go to the wedding. their ex had been saving for a house and everything and it was just so reminiscent of what my last ex did to me that it makes everything a thousand times worse)

Our last conversation I barely remember bc I was shaking and crying so hard I could not see the screen (they broke up w their partner over text too. so like. yeah.) but I basically was just like I don't understand why you did this when you know how bad it hurt me why would you do it to someone you loved for 12 years, why would you lie to me, why would you lie to everyone else, I love you but this is so cruel and horrible it changes how I view you forever and I can't move past that, etc (in addition to screaming at them for cheating on their partner with a wook with heinous vibes and the wit of a styrofoam block) and eventually their responses got so fucking horrendously manipulative I muted them with the intent to come back to the conversation, but then other shit kept piling onto me and quite literally this shit was so bad whenever I would begin to try and unpack it I would have a mental breakdown

anyway I've been having a rough fucking october because in addition to it being the 10 year anniversary of my worst abuser's death (mom, died on halloween when I was 16) normally this time of year I'd be spending a ton of time with the now-ex best friend because we tried to throw halloween parties every year and we always made a big production of it. this year, because I'm so far away I don't get to see any of my friends or do anything. We don't have the money for gas. I haven't made friends here because when I haven't been busy I've been too exhausted to even take care of myself, and I can't find any sort of event for adults for halloween locally. I can watch spooky movies with my girlfriend but fuck dude. It's about the tradition.

moreover it's about the sense of family. That's going to fuck me up this entire holiday season and I won't forgive them for it--- My ex bestie's family was so inclusive of me, I'd get invited over for thanksgiving and christmas and it made me look forward to those holidays because I wouldn't be rotting alone in my room, I'd be with friends. With family. I've never fucking had that and then I finally did and then they fucking took it from me and I don't think I will ever forgive them for it. I didn't block them here or anywhere else because I really truly in my stupid fucking heart thought they'd realize how bad they fucked up, but also realize they didn't have to lose me too. but they fucking chose to, at the end of the day. it felt like they wanted to get rid of everyone from their boring old life and go fuck this stupid fucking russian boy.

I'd been trying not to post about this because I know for a fact some of you guys know who I am talking about and are also mutuals with them and idk I guess I wanted to preserve some sense of their dignity? but something about this, about realizing they fucking blocked me, just gets to me. I left the light on for them and they just smashed it. There's literally no sense or purpose to their actions aside from selfishness. they ruined their own life and I think ultimately they only cried so much because they were found out, not because they actually felt guilt or remorse for what they did. and if that's the case then I guess I just never knew this person at all and it is heartbreaking and so isolating.

if they ever read this I do genuinely hope it haunts you, I hope the consequences follow you until you learn your fucking lesson, I have shed far too many tears over this and I know my Mother is watching you. I hope you are publicly strangled by your own shame until you fix whatever it is in yourself that makes you do these things to other people and their feelings and lives because it isn't cute, it isn't funny, it is a disease that spreads to everything you love until you find the source and stop it. and if you don't then brother I just hope you die before you do it to someone else. You don't get to shimmy out of this.

[woolydemon]

just sent my last message for closure & blocked & officially cut off toxic individual that was wiggled into my life !!! can we pop the bottles !!!!!!!!!!

[tevatron]

i'm so glad i won't be working with my pi after this month. i think i've reached my limit. i just can't deal with her anymore