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bee623 · 1 year ago

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Fjord: I swear there’ll be buttons and shiny shit if you go into the water with us!!

Nott: Oh really!!! Wow I’ve totally changed my mind!!!! Look at this fucking bastard Jesus fucking Christ

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always-a-slut-4-ghouls · 4 months ago

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love how hua cheng is just like "I support xie lian rights and xie lian wrongs, except he can never do anything wrong ever even when he kills a bunch of people. Go off king" and Xie Lian is like “This is my beautiful husband, he has committed war crimes, but haven’t we all?”

And their relationship is somehow healthier than anything I've ever been in.

#emma posts #to be fair everything involving me didn’t have me aware that it was a thing #but I couldn’t compete anyway #tcgf #is it dating someone if they never told you they were dates and you misinterpreted them?#not asking for a friend #this is just straight up every situation I’ve been in #that’s as close as I’ve ever actually gotten to dating someone #I’ve witnessed plenty of other people’s relationships though #‘we’ve been dating for six months’ ‘those were dates?!’ ‘you asked me out first’ ‘and you rejected me!’ <- closest to dating I’ve been #all the other times I didn’t even ask the person out first. the just flat out never said it was a date and I thought we were just chilling #and all the other times I’ve asked someone out they rejected me and then DIDN’T ask me out without telling me they were asking me out #how was I supposed to know he changed his mind?#I’m still not over how I didn’t know we were dating until after we broke up #just the sheer comedy of my love life gets to me #comedy of errors ass love life #I’m getting really side tracked #Xie Liana’s friends were totally reasonable to think that someone stalking someone for several centuries is alarming #but somehow those two had it happen in the healthiest way possible???#I respect it tbh #only healthy relationship I’ve ever had that much sheer dedication in is me and my favorite cat which is a very maternal relationship #and i didn’t even actually kill the people who threatened him. they weren’t real threats but they knew they did psychological damage #to this day I wish I bit them until I tasted blood #but being in detention with them would have meant being around them longer than I had to be 😑#they have probably changed a lot since then but I still never want to see them again in my life #that might actually have played a slight role in how feral I get about protecting my cat 🐈‍⬛#I’m getting into personal issues again #our co-dependent parental dynamic. me and my cat. is perfectly healthy and I will not change it #said by someone who is not healthy but definitely will not change this specific thing #and the co-dependency is in fract mutual. that’s why it’s CO dependent

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moonstandardtime · 8 months ago

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i want to put link in isat. im sure hed do fine. the heros spirit endures

#my post #i was gonna say like. 'probably not the worst thing the heros spirit has endured.' but actually #man. idk. ppl like to say majoras mask is super dark. i think bc ur constantly faced with tragedy in a very direct way #zelda is usually slightly less in your face abt that stuff. mm crosses the line for that juust enough for it to be Particularly Notable #loz generally isnt afraid to address the Horrors. or at least acknowledge them #i dont mean this in a 'mm is darkest zelda' or whatever kind of way. (see jacob gellers video 'every zelda is the dsrkest zelda')#i mean it as like. mm is just louder about it #yknow. but is mm is speaking loudly then. if u put isat next to loz then it would drown mm out quite easily #in large part bc the story is just told differently #the characters are much more expressive in every way. bc the story is being told through expression #whereas loz tells stories specifically via player action #if that makes sense?#loz focuses on the journey. isat focuses on how the journey feels #not to mention links permanent 😶. which definitely influences this #honestly link as a general character (tho especially botw link) is very similar to siffrin. im not gonna try to put that into words rn but #maybe another time #anyways. if isat were told more like a zelda game i think it would be along mm and botw #i say those 2 specifically bc time loop and death and loss. lol #if the reverse were true. if loz ganes were told more like isat. then god dude i dunno #i might go through the plots of each and measure out how much i think the bitch(link) is Going Through It sometime #not rn. but sometime #initial gut thoughts tho. i think probably oot sksw la andd. possibly ww. wojld have similar emotional impact #sksw especially. have you seen his face when he sees zelda in the crystal thing. god #id say botw too but tbh. i kind of think its emotional impact is best as is.#it leaves itself a lot of room to breathe. you can rlly like. think abt it.#man these tags are off topic from the original post. eh its my post who care

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californiaquail · 15 days ago

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dug through everything trying to find my little command hooks and poster putty and those seem to have vanished into the ether but what i did wind up doing was digging my impulse purchased pair of snaffle reins out and oiling those with my beautifully scented leather conditioner that they dont make anymore and made myself sad lol

#soft and well finished leather reins that i found at some tack shop in oregon for $8 and didn't want to pass up even though i had no real #use for them. i guess i optimistically thought i might be able to use them at what was going to be my cool working student gig in ny #but then i fucked that one up by not learning to drive within what i didn't realize was the trainers very strict time limit #i'm still upset about that because she's an excellent dressage trainer and could have given me really fantastic connections. but here we are #i miss riding dressage :/ i miss doing something i was good at lol although i have moved on from a lot of that specific trainers ways #(not the ny one the one in california) after i realized they were....not making very sound or happy horses lol #but i did get pretty good at it and got a lot of good feels and got to ride some very very nice horses every day #my two horse friends that i moved up here to care for are back down there now and i think of them often and rather sadly #and i think about the farrier they use who fuckin sucks ass and about how we were just getting the foot problems on those guys under control #and then they have to live in tiny stalls and get about 5 flakes of shitty hay total in 3 discrete meals. ugh #😒😒😒😒#anyway i recently discovered there's somebody around here who does. horse yoga? i think the horse is just there while you do yoga?#possibly while on the beach? unclear but i kind of want to do it #i would go be a working student again tbh but hardly any of the people whose training i respect do that #or they're somewhere insane like georgia and for multiple reasons i am not cut out to survive very well in the south #mainly the weather but also. you know #anyway. the command hooks and putty are literally gone which vexes and haunts me because i can't imagine i would have tossed them #but they are nowhere to be found. driving me nuts #me

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dzozef · 16 days ago

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i got offered the promotion at work.... why am i every business owners wettest dream damn....

#yapping #yes my ocd is horrible for my mental health but boy is it good for my wallet !!!!#its not OFFICIAL yet #but it was offered to me and i accepted so theyre seeing how they want to proceed now #cause its not just about me theres a shit ton of changes they want to make that include switching like 5 peoples schedules around #but my team leader said that most of those changes being possible depended on whether i would accept this or not #so well see #id be a team leader myself now #the feminine urge to become a power hungry dictator control freak at work.......#id be switching from my current early morning shifts to late night shifts which is much less healthy on paper #but my body is made for sleeping late i physically can not go to bed before 3am even now when i wake up at 5:30 #i might have the money to renovate my apartment now cause i think this comes with a 20% pay increase which is a lotttt #i basically will be earning two incomes myself now 😭#dani said he fully believes Ace Of Spades exists at this point cause everything always ends up going my way in the end #i know it may seem like im flexing but please be aware when i started this job a year and a half ago i was borderline homeless 😐#so its a huge deal for me 😭 and really quickly done as well which is why its so insane #like. in a year and a half only i went from borderline homeless and my parents keeping me on constant phonecalls #cause they were worried id off myself if i hung up #to being a homeowner that earns two incomes by herself while working from home #i feel like in most companies hard work doesnt rly pay off tbh i was just lucky to get into one of the few companies where they do value it #the literal CEO is my biggest dickrider 😭 but i do appreciate him giving me raises randomly cause he feels like i deserve it #but yeah !!!! apparently life altering anxiety that forces you to compulsively do perfect work at any job you ever do #because making mistakes and not giving it your 110% feels like a moral failure so you feel sick at the very thought of it #is apparently what makes the dream worker #if only they knew i dont actually care about this in any capacity.... i am just fucked in the head in a way that works im their favour 😭#this is why all of my ex bosses begged me to stay when i quit teehee #im yapping too much but yeah !! heall yeah money !!

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homosociallyyours · 10 months ago

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#idk how to explain it but like.#was talking to my ex earlier and he is falling in love again #and there's a part of me that's sad about it bc it's been so long and i am way too messed up to fall in love again #but the biggest part of me was just immediately filled with genuine joy #i want for him something as good as what we had or better #which is a tall order tbh bc we did have something very good #but i think there's real possibility this time and that makes the little bit of ache ok #I'll be honest-- i have never been able to figure out where i fall in the poly/mono spectrum #but times like these push me toward poly?#bc when i love someone their joy brings me joy even if I'm not the source of it #and i know i might have to push to keep in touch more (hard) but mostly i just want this person i care about #to have the love and support they deserve #ignore that I'm crying rn though im not sad just nostalgic and touch starved and lonely and drowning

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nexus-nebulae · 1 month ago

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every time im in front i can just Feel like pretty much Everybody else in-sys just staring at me like prairie dogs ready to be alerted to any sign of anxiety

#its. mildly unnerving #that. might be contributing to how i obscure front a lot now that i think abt it. scopophobia system-wide and all.#its. a little odd. being.. Maybe the only one in front rotation with a whole lot of anxiety and Definitely the only one with self-hatred?#like it's just new for our system. its really strange to me feeling like the odd one out here #which like. overall? net positive. good thing for us #way way more of us to focus energy on helping others feel better #much smaller percentage of front time spent feeling like shit (emotionally. physical complications notwithstanding)#but also like #growing up and like. now especially as an adult #we've noticed well-adjusted people so often just HATE people with a lot of depression or anxiety or trauma #so our instinct is to Avoid people like that because. none of them have ever understood or cared or were willing to try at all in the past #so like why would it be different now #which. gets in the way of us making friends a lot tbh. we need more friends in a similar state of recovery as us #like. not still in the bad in a way that would very very easily make us spiral bc we overly try to help at our own detriment #but also not so well adjusted that a few bad days or relapsing doesn't ruin the friendship #but like that instinct we have. i keep applying it to my system mates;;;;;#even though they've shown me over and over and over that they care a lot and want to help as much as possible #i just. i can't. i can't accept it. i can't feel comfortable with it #im too neurotic

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phagodyke · 7 months ago

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weekend melancholy is starting to kick in >~<

#im gonna go and do my food shop etc to keep myself busy and hopefully my 2nd meds will kick in and we'll be able to handle it together #i think i kind of do this so regularly bc my brain is just processing everything bc i dont rly have time during the week #all cool tho im doing good overall def on the up n i feel way more capable of coping emotionally which is nice. i <3 meds #also.. possibly settling on the idea that i might be agender. very tentatively. lots of experiences n thoughts coming together rn #ive been reacting in unexpected ways to a lot of gendered shit atm which has made me reconsider the way i think abt myself #but very difficult to articulate it to myself let alone anyone else. so ive been sitting with it for now until it precipitates #gender stuff has never rly affected me much or ive never been in a place to explore it which is why i havent thought abt it super hard #but im not the sort of person who needs a lot of internal exploration to figure out my identity like im v self aware tbh #and while im wildly indecisive abt most things in my life for some reason i never have been abt stuff like this. i learned abt lesbianism #like idk 9 years ago-ish and straight away was like yeah that makes sense for me. never looked back since #n similarly ive experienced forms of gender dysphoria before n just immediately dealt with it symptomatically n moved on #its never been smth to agonise abt for me like i know what makes me comfortable in my skin so theres no question abt doing it #and ik im privileged to be able to do that. and also it helps that gender for me is mostly divorced from external perceptions #+ that im v autistic so social pressures dont stick to me very well. i mean yeah i was bullied for it as a kid but i was stubborn asf #so yeah from the moment i realised i was genuinely uncomfortable/upset abt it earlier this week i was like okay. lets try this instead #its given me pretty instant relief from any distress i was feeling so far which is nice. rare respite from one of my torture labyrinths #just testing out internally whether it frames things more clearly n makes me feel more myself/at peace before i choose to stick w the idea #but not gonna do a whole coming out fanfare either way. dont think i wanna change how ppl interact w me + im still a dyke #so i dont consider it relevant to anyone else unless they share a similar understanding of gender to me. or if we're v close #ill prolly broach it w other trans friends eventually bc insert philosophers talking image. but to everyone else its business as usual #happy to play my cis-sona at work. + w new queer ppl i meet ive been introducing myself recently w mirrored pronouns instead of any/all #and i think i prefer that. virtually indistinguishable but theres smth nice abt inviting ppl to recognise me the way they do themselves #like translating + localising a non-gendered language into a gendered one... simplifying decisions abt how to perceive me #and ofc ppl are still gonna perceive me however but idc much unless we're actually friends. the rest is all a performance anyway #doubtful anyone on here ever has reason to refer to me but if u do for some reason... im freeloading off ur pronouns now btw <3 #but yeahhh. much 2 think abt. i need to read more alien/ai sci fi.. non-human sentience has been such a comforting concept lately #but yea tldr i woke up one morning this week like damn im prolly agender but i have a full time job to go to rn so idc abt that #.diaries #okkkk my dex is kicking in im no longer on the verge of tears lets go get these groceries wooohoooo

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sorikkung · 9 months ago

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people interacting w wgoin in my notes... this would be a rly bad time to say all my writing will probably be on hiatus for the indefinite future huh

#not like it makes a practical difference considering i only upload twice a year at best #but im realising how much my writing is shame motivated and its just not sustainable or healthy #it saddens me that these stories i invested So much time and effort into will probably never get finished #i wanna hold out hope that they will but #i dont want anyones expectations to be too high #bc knowing myself they probably wont #i started wgoin thinking that this would be the story i commit to finishing and not just abandon as soon as i get bored #but that was before i had really realised how my brain works #and for a while writing these chapters have felt very forced #gbgb had a much better run till it crashed and i was just unable to pick it back up #tbh that one could potentially still be saved bc of how open ended it is if i get any inspo for it back whatsoever #bc it had no strict plan i was entirely making it up as i go #and im realising thats how i write best. i tried to plan wgoin so id commit to finishing it but im realising that has the opposite effect #if i plan anything too thoroughly writing it becomes like gnawing on lead #cause i got all the dopamine out of the idea already #i write best when i have nothing but a vague idea or a vibe #gbgb crashed bc i ran out of vibes and ideas but if i find any again who knows #there is the possibility where i scrap the plan i had for wgoins entire plot and make the rest up as i go #which i might try purely bc i love the story sm #and i think i enjoyed writing it most back in the first three parts where i Was making it up as i went #which is why im saying indefinite hiatus instead of discontinued #bc there is hope for them. just not. much #so if u stick around maybe follow me on ao3 if u dont wanna see all my posts n just my stories #maybe in 3 years time youll see another wgoin notif or sumn #sorry to the small but dedicated handful of readers who really loved these fics #i wanted to write more for you guys bc ik its hard to find this kinda fic anywhere else; its why i started writing it #but i am but one unmedicated autist w severe adhd. we r working on the unmedicated part tho #ive learned so much abt how my brain functions now n how to make the most of it tho #i told myself id finish any new writing before i post it. so know anything new Will be complete :3 #mischiefing time

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brutalmasks · 9 months ago

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what kind of time loop are you stuck in?

historical tragedy.

you know how people say that when someone dies, it’s like their candle goes out? of course you know, you’ve been lost in the dark before. you’ve felt the wax drip onto your skin as the wick burns out, the smoke rising away from the puddle in your hands. maybe you can reshape it—put it back together. maybe you can light it again someday.

tagged by: i found this quiz here on tumblr!

tagging: @hexsreality, @divingdownthehole, @question-marked, @clawsextended, @furiaei, and anyone else who wants to take this quiz!

#SOMETHING FEELS AMISS: musings.#rp memes.#hmm... idk what i was expecting TBH but this seems fairly accurate NGL.#bunny mask has unfortunately DEFINITELY been in the dark before. and her time loop taking place in the past honestly makes too much sense.#because she is very much an outsider to everything that is going on in present time. though trust me she tries-#her best to get as accustomed to everything as possible. however i feel as if there will always be a part of her-#that is trapped back in that cave as she'd spent the majority of her waking life in there... as twisted as that may be in reality.#so yeah. that's uhh why it makes sense because i feel as if she might feel more ' at home ' in the past #plus bunny is an ancient being so y'know. she's loved through countless tragedies though the likes of which-#she's never actually seen.

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bi-buck-coded · 1 year ago

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#ik that i need to be honest with my doctor and tell him i havent been taking my meds…#but what if i lie instead and somehow fic it myself #its just what if like i tell him how long i havent been taking them and he decides that i dont deserve them??#which isnt likely and would b a very shitty thing to do that i think legally he might not b able to do but #what if???#i might lie a little and tell him but say its been a shorter amount of time than it actually has been #dude idk but im starting to feel like possibly i might have an episode soon like it feels like one might b coming on and im scared tbh #like idk at this point theres not much i can really do except make aure im getting sleep and continuing to go to my lifting classes #but ya idk #i need to figure out how to get back on track with my meds but im scared to talk to him abt it bc i Just started seeing him #i also start therapy with a new therapist tomorrow and thats scary #but maybe i could talk to het abt it idk

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saturdays--sun · 1 year ago

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LMAO this was about me, actually.

#''her very close and precious suitors'' is that what we're calling them 💀#i prefer this scene in the anime (as i do w like. every scene. tbh i'm really just using the LNs as supplementary to the anime lol) if only #—because ''do you mind if i throw my hat in the ring?'' (or however he phrases it) opens up the possibility for my insert to be like—#''ya know what. why not. this might as well happen too. sure. you can take me out sometime.''#which is SO funny actually lmfao #i should expand on that #♡ — text #☆ — 𝐟𝐮𝐧𝐞𝐫𝐚𝐥 𝐠𝐫𝐞𝐲. [ drrr!! ]

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kissingarthurclaus · 2 years ago

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Ok so...originally Brea doesn't belong to any battalion and doesn't hold the rank of General, but lately I've been thinking about the possibility of making a few clone OCs and designing a squadron for her to lead! In my main timeline she's just kinda backup and is constantly called across the galaxy to assist other jedi with their fights, but I think it'd be fun to explore that and make new characters to share :3

#jane journals #self insert talk #ill pick like an arbitrary number for them to be called and pick a color #and im thinking her captain would be very big brother to her. like her impulse control and looking out for her #he respects her command and abilities #but also respects that she cares about them!! maybe he even thinks she cares about them TOO much.#and he doesnt want that care to distract her #BUT HED LEARN THAT ITS NOT A DETRIMENT BUT A STRENGTH >:0 #i do admit tho #theres a possibility i might accidentally fall in love w him AND THATS WHY I HAVENT YET TBH JFJGKGK #but hey if that happens then it happens 😂😂#lowkey would love if other ppl were interested in the other troopers of the squad too #ofc gotta make em first lol #which i might sometime soon!

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asinglesock · 1 year ago

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I am actually feeling more optimistic about school than I have in several weeks. I'm thankful for that.

#a sock speaks #grad school tag #got paid for the fellowship I did this fall (which I'm just realizing I never posted photos from here. maybe I should do that sometime.)#the pay was not much but tbh having it on my CV is probably more valuable #got my research job sorted out so I can clock hours again #got a topic I'm actually interested in for my Big Scary 20 single spaced page 2nd Temple lit paper #got the ok from my program advisor to completely restart my portfolio if I'm still not happy with it in the spring #lots of New Testament course offerings for spring semester and I'm going to take as many as possible #and I'm very timidly going to say that I might be doing a little better with Hebrew verbs this week #I talk a lot about my negative feelings here but it's really not all bad

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viiridiangreen · 1 year ago

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also i turned 26 today and it was mostly just like. A Thursday. Got to work from home tho if i had to come into the office on my birthday i would've.............. prolly not done anything drastic but i wouldn't have liked that at all lol

pros: we ordered some Special Cookies (if u haven't tried alfajores u r Missing Out), hung out w partner, & their family sent nice messages. finally dipped my toes into franchise mode in planet zoo (so not following a set Theme but starting my own park from scratch with a Likely Overambitious habitat for Spectacled Caimans with an underwater viewing gallery. it's gonna be rad if i can avoid running out of money hhhh. i'll post pics when i've added foliage / rockwork / the actual critters lol) & we're about to do this week's destiny story update thing rn.

cons: my family was A Bit Weird abt it esp my aunt on my mom's side like she typed a whole thing in whatsapp which started with "I think about you almost every day" and then she deleted it when i didn't look at it within a few hours haha.

#viitalks #oh i also got some messages from Facebook Simps bc i forgot to turn off birthday notifs on my anon streamer acct lol #i felt very tbh creature abt it like not terribly high highs or low lows but it was good overall i think?#i think it's the same thing abt our Living Quarters (dark damp literally uncleanable) and my Undxed Whatever dulling things down but #if things continue to take their present course we might get Significant Help in the living situation department #as in. an apartment #bc the only way ppl in my generation get a place 2 live is if they're connected to older ppl with privilege or luck or both. and my partner #is. via their dad. so.............#yeagh #ig things seem like they'll turn out alr in the long run for us. barring like. the total collapse of society or the city running out of-#water. etc. lol #but uhhhhh Short Term im still v surprised at how bad i am @ coping with everyday routine shit #& by that i mean my complete absence of a routine #self dxed possibly fake adhd and autism which might just be laziness & social ineptitude instead FIGHT #coughs

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burningcomputerpersona · 3 hours ago

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went outside and saw a bunch of fat little borbs chirping at each other on a bush. effervescent.

#been having a super low energy day. woke up late skipped all my classes lounged around in bed all day #but i had to pick up my meds from the pharmacy and it took me so long and so much effort to get ready #literally took an hour to put my clothes on one article at a time in the correct order (i almost put my boots on before my pants)#and it was so so exhausting but while i was outside i heard chirping and looked to my left and saw the fattest lil borbs possible #also sidenote i love how fat birds get during winter they're so Round i love them #anyway they were on a bush chirping at each other and i stepped closer to take a look and they didn't fly away!!!#so i admired them a bunch and tried to take photos and admired them a bit more #the birds were brown and tiny so the bushes obscured them a lot in the pictures which is why i didn't post them #but it was very nice to come across birds while i was outside #im back home and feeling exhausted now i might end up going straight to sleep tbh #and it was nice being outside. not breathtaking or emotionally fulfilling the way it normally is when im having a good day. but still nice #i was hoping being outside and seeing nature would help me feel better bc it can really boost my spirits sometimes #and that didn't rlly happen but ill take what i can get #mine #random

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