#which is why im posting
Explore tagged Tumblr posts
Text
Sometimes I gotta sit my anxiety disorder down at night and go:
Okay, yes that thing you’re freaking out about COULD happen, but even if it does, it will not and physically CANNOT kill you. It’ll just be annoying to deal with and you’ve dealt with it before. You’re alive now through those times, you’ll live again. It will be FINE.
#anxiety#anxiety disorder#i am 90% fear at night i SWEAR#i cannot be left with my own brain for too long#i stress over the most basic things#currently im scared about being fired#even though i have done nothing wrong#like literally there is zero reason i would be fired#but im still scared that im gonna go to work tomorrow and my boss will be like ‘you’re fired actually’#when thats NOT GOING TO HAPPEN!#i KNOW its not#but still#scared as fuck#i feel like typing it out though helps a little#which is why im posting#the brain is silly like that#im stressed as fuck over nothing#really i shoukd be MORE stressed about making sure my passport gets registered before next year#so i can go to sweden when i have the opportunity#but nah#anxious about being fired
2 notes
·
View notes
Text
the funniest meltdown ive ever had was in college when i got so overstimulated that i could Not speak, including over text. one of my friends was trying to talk me through it but i was solely using emojis because they were easier than trying to come up with words so he started using primarily emojis as well just to make things feel balanced. this was not the Most effective strategy... until. he tried to ask me "you okay?" but the way he chose to do that was by sending "👉🏼👌🏼❓" and i was so shocked by suddenly being asked if i was dtf that i was like WHAT???? WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY TO ME?????????? and thus was verbal again
#yeehaw#1k#5k#10k#posts that got cursed. blasted. im making these tag updates after... 19 hours?#also i have been told it should say speech loss bc nonverbal specifically refers to the permanent state. did not know that!#unfortunately i fear it is so far past containment that even if i edited it now it would do very little. but noted for future reference#edit 2: nvm enough ppl have come to rb it from me directly that i changed the wording a bit. hopefully this makes sense#also. in case anyone is curious. though i doubt anyone who is commenting these things will check the original tags#1) my friend did not do this on purpose in any way. it was not intended to distract me or to hit on me. im a lesbian hes a gay man. cmon now#he felt very bad about it afterwards. i thought it was hilarious but it was very embarrassed and apologetic#2) “why didn't he use ���🏼?” didn't exist yet. “why didn't he use 🆗?” dunno! we'd been using a lot of hand emojis. 👌🏼 is an ok sign#like it makes sense. it was just a silly mixup. also No i did not invent 👉🏼👌🏼 as a gesture meaning sex. do you live under a rock#3) nonspeaking episodes are a recurring thing in my life and have been since i was born. this is not a quirky one-time thing#it is a pervasive issue that is very frustrating to both myself and the people i am trying to communicate with. in which trying to speak is#extremely distressing and causes very genuine anguish. this post is not me making light of it it's just a funny thing that happened once#it's no different than if i post about a funny thing that happened in conjunction w a physical disability. it's just me talking abt my life#i don't mind character tags tho. those can be entertaining. i don't know what any of you are talking about#Except the ppl who have said this is pego/ryu or wang/xian. those people i understand and respect#if you use it as a writing prompt that's fine but send it to me. i want to see it#aaaand i think that's it. everyday im tempted to turn off rbs on it. it hasn't even been a week
148K notes
·
View notes
Text
take your clothes off and get on the bed what no we aren’t having sex right now we’re cuddling and pressing every inch of skin together as close as possible for the next six hours
#wlw#wlw mood#sapphic#sapphism#lesbian#sometimes you just need to be CLOSE ya know#also i went to bed really early last night and slept So Well#and i just woek up and im still realllll sleepy#which is why i seized the chance to post this#because i get too shy and embarrassed to whenever i try to do it when im not half asleep#pointign and laughing at fully awake me rn🫵#lmao loser ass🫵🫵🫵#now it’s posted and there’s nothing you can do about it#im gay and i like sleeping
8K notes
·
View notes
Text
funds for indigenous communities affected by the canada wildefires *updated*
grassy narrows first nations (ontario) needs funds for an escape route
odawa first nations (quebec-ontario) is raising funds for evacuees
algonquins of barriere (mitchikanibikok inik in alberta) lake mutual aid request
you can drop donations for the odawa first nations at 815 st laurent blvd in ottawa
you can drop off food donations for mitchikanibikok inik at the ramada plaza in gatineau; you can also email info/@/health.rapidlake.com with mutual aid donations. please note that the maniwaki native friendship center is now closed to donations
if you’re directly affected, the pueblo action alliance has developed a guide for DIY filtration for the smoke
updates (as of 6 june 2023):
donate funds for evacuees from little red river cree nation (via kahkakow)
k'atl'odeeche first nations needs funds to rebuild homes and businesses lost (via aelabee)
i’ll update this as i find more fundraising initiatives and please free to share your own. reblogs with anything than sharing resources/mutual aid requests/fundraising opportunities get blocked.
#canada wildfires#mutual aid#fundraising#indigenous#signal boost#for the sake of this post i am a white canadian settler and have not see any comprehensive list on this website yet which is why im posting
29K notes
·
View notes
Text
watch dog cat
p2!
#cult of the lamb#cotl#my art#cotl narinder#cotl lamb#narilamb#cotl toww#shitpost#cotl fanart#cotl ocs#puryn oc#been working on my follower ocs lately!!#the one talking to lamb is puryn#hes one of their disciples later on ^^#this has a second part which im working on rn#posting it later tonight or tomorrow#pretend the hands arent there actually#they dont exist that’s why idk how to draw them
1K notes
·
View notes
Text
KL ML 😋
#i drew this whole ass piece but the colors are too abstract so it basically just looks like off model regular lb and cn CRIESSSSS#which is why im posting off my normal time on a random thursday LOL get it out of my sight.....#too finished to abandon but too weak a piece to queue... SAD!!#klance#voltron#vld#keith kogane#lance mcclain#miraculous ladybug#au#art#my art
966 notes
·
View notes
Text
GOOD NEWS EVERYONE!
I got box braids for the first time ❤️
My sisters bought it for me as a 30th birthday gift!!
#ITS ALL UPHILL FROM HERE#my bday was on the 19th and I celebrated with my sister over the weekend! i got my hair done on Saturday!#....you wont believe what happened on sunday tho right afterward which is why Im posting this today lol#real talk#selfie#my face
677 notes
·
View notes
Text
me when im looking for a fic but all im getting is pure smut
#somehow smut follows me everywhere#please i just need fluff and maybe suggestive#even some angst would be nice#PLEASE#i cant take it anymore#stop the smut outbreak#the smutpocalypse is upon us and i hate it#please i need more spencer reid fluff#more peter parker loser nerd fluff#lowk controversial post unfortunately#sorry guys it wasnt directed at writers#its towards tumblr algorithm and showing me tags that i have blocked already#i have smut blocked on multiple different tags and im still shown it which is why im upset
719 notes
·
View notes
Text
I want to use a transfem sub with another trans guy dom so bad its unreal... we could tie her up and take turns facefucking her with our tdicks and breeding her with our straps, groping her tits and leaving bitemarks and dark bruises wherever we can. It would sooo nice hearing her whine as we talk about how good she feels and how pretty she is right in front of her. We'd constantly praise her but only to each other as if she's just an adorable fucktoy for us to use (because she is!!)
Maybe if we're feeling really mean we could just make out and frot our dicks together in front of her until the poor girl is whining an begging for our touch, barely able to stop herself from grinding her hips back and forth from how desperate she is. Or maybe we'd get competitive and try to see which of us can make her cum the most, writing or carving little tally marks on her thighs to keep score until her mind is completely empty and she's reached the limit of what she can take
#and then next time we hang out we could tease her by jokingly arguing over who did which marks#just to get her all flustered#making her short circuit by holding my hand to her neck because i “just want to prove its my handprint around her throat”#and then carrying on as if i dont know what im doing :3#you get the vision#cicadacrtdom#ftm dom#t4t nsft#ftm t4t#queer nsft#trans nsft#t4t kink#transmasc nsft#bd/sm kink#topposting#domposting#if anyone is wondering why Im reposting from an hour ago its because somehow tumblr fucked the whole post but i had a version of it in draf#hornyposting💫
770 notes
·
View notes
Text
accumulated enough abandoned wips to dump them in a post again
#deltarune#kris#noelle#my art#i actually really like that first one but once ive left a piece for too long i cannot bring myself to work on it again i dont know why.#maybe if im rly motivated and have the time.. which i have neither of right now#im sorry im always complaining abt how busy i am but its upsetting how much its been affecting how much i can draw..#whcih is why i thought now would be a good time for a post like this at least
760 notes
·
View notes
Text
ultimately i think my insistence on aro positivity honestly is as much a political stance as a personal one.
when i say aro positivity is crucial and that i dislike doomer-ist posts that express sentiments like 'I hate being aro so much I wish I was dead instead’ it's not because I don’t think there can and should be a space for negativity and acknowledging self-hate, or the many ways being aromantic can really suck sometimes. i find that to be very important!
that being said. there is smth here about how self-hate posts are sometimes just arophobia that we inflict on ourselves. and when we put that out into the ether it (intentionally or not) can become arophobia that we inflict on other members of the community. i think there absolutely needs to be a place for negativity and the expression of anger and frustration and self loathing even - these are all good things to talk about because these are things that we experience. that being said, it can also be genuinely upsetting and triggering to people to have what is essentially arophobia shown to them and then have that be validated by other aspec people. your personal thoughts can affect your wider community on a level you may not anticipate. and i understand it i truly do! it took me so long to be able to recover from accepting being aroace - it threw my entire world off kilter and made me question everything about my place in the world.
but my insistence on aro joy and positivity is because ultimately i do believe that building is at the core essence of it all. that ultimately discussions and the purpose of community should be about construction, not destruction. and this is both a personal and a political stance. talking about how much you hate yourself and cultivating online discussions/spaces where negativity about aspec identity is the main and only theme is destructive - if that’s where we let the conversation end. these thoughts can and should be used as a vehicle to look for a path forward!
joy and positivity create a space where the focus can become on forging a path forward, on construction, on community building instead of tearing ourselves and others down with negative thoughts. it’s not productive or healthy when it stops at a place of negativity - it becomes actively destructive to the essence of community.
and i do think that this is especially poignant considering the fact that being any kind of queer, but especially aromantic (and/or asexual) means forging a path for yourself and making your own happiness where there is no obvious way forward. our communities exist mostly online (right now, anyway), there is little recognition of our existence in the real world, the effects of amatonormativity are both pervasive and actively dehumanising, and there are legal, economic and social structures in place actively making our lives more difficult. yes that all sucks! it’s good to acknowledge that. we need to in order to change it. but more importantly, that’s not the end. we are still here and our happiness, our future is for us to determine. even if we can’t change the laws or society, loving yourself and understanding aromanticism as a political identity (as well as personal), as a radical worldview, and as a protest against amatonormativity is essential for both community and personal well being. the personal is political.
tldr. i guess my point is that as a community, we should focus on building, improving, and nurturing ourselves and each other (construction) as opposed to destruction. we should recognise aromanticism and asexuality as political identities as well as personal ones and rely on community and self-love in the absence of anything else as a form of protest and political power. destruction (the recognition of everything that is wrong) is essential as a starting point - but where do we go from there? we rebuild.
#aromantic#aro positivity#aspec#aroace#aro#aromantic joy#arospec#when i saw its important to 'love' yourself - pls understand i am in no way trying to exclude loveless aros from this#that was just the easiest way to express what i meant! when i say 'love' i mean positivity/respect/happiness. etc. i just used that word bc#it works for ME which is why i said it. but feel free to replace it with whatever works for you! <2#also sorry if not everything im saying makes total sense i tried my best#this is something ive been thinking about for a while and have been struggling to articulate#i maybe should have read some theory for this abt community building but im too tired + overwhelmed w school reading right now so sorry.#if anyone has additions on that front though please do add them#also ngl im kinda scared to post this. i hope i explained what i mean well enough. like i get wanting to vent and express self hate BUT.#there is nuance to this and it is not unilaterally healthy i think. also i dont see any other online community fostering the normalisation#of selfhate the way the aspec one does! which makes me feel weird abt it especially.#anyway. this is basically my personal philosophy towards aromanticism#mossy posts#⚙️
411 notes
·
View notes
Text
happy pride month. i did not make this up for th ememe
#knight rider#kr#michael knight#kitt#art#doodles#comic#gay#knight rider fanart#mk2000#this has happened in at least.... 2 or 3 episodes i think#that's kinda gay michael#kitt was either going to say he's not an infant or something about how that's a word he only hears directed at attractive women#and michael is not. going to deal with one of those answers. doesn't even wanna know which he was going to ask#im going downtown tonight if i die and this was the last post on my blog it would be so so so so so funny#anyway my mom and my aunt both follow my instagram and watched knight rider in the 80s. so. i embrace whatever happens ;;#im still thinking about ''why dont You ever get me flowers'' or however that line went.#likE YEAH MICHAEL YOUR CAR HAS SAVED YOUR LIFE *NUMEROUS* TIMES. GET HIM SOME FLOWERS.#SCREAMS. why is this show so fruity i feel insane#gio if you see this when you build your kitt you need to take him to pride parades with little rainbow flags stuck off the windows#FLAG is only one letter away from F-
580 notes
·
View notes
Text
(persona 5 / persona 5 royal spoilers below)
a random assortment of tweets that show up when i search "from:corviiid akechi"
bonus self awareness
#it's absolutely disgusting how close together these are in time but i cant stress enough how many tweets i have made about akechi since 2017#2017!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#this is why i never made a compilation before now. do you know how many img oing to need? i could print a book.#p5#p5r#goro akechi#rookposting#akeshu#reminder of ones i need to do:#the subset of these posts which is just ryuji and goro butting heads#the subset of these posts wher i dunk on black mask in mementos#the like 17 tweets i have made since two days ago because employment is rough on a girl like me#persona 5#persona 5 royal#sorry im overtagging this one because i want people to be able to blacklist my akechi posting. if they desire it. because there is too much
751 notes
·
View notes
Text
ouaw doodle dump!!
#legends of avantris#once upon a witchlight#gricko grimgrin#morning frost#gideon coal#hootsie grimgrin#the post doesn’t really have spoilers but I guess the tags kind of do so if you haven’t seen past ep 20 don’t read the rest of the tags#Hootsie i love her dearly but I need to learn how to draw her better#guess which episodes I watched today impossible challenge#he was MAAAD when frost gave away the whistle#I might’ve exaggerated it but in my head this is what it looked like#(I think about the memories they gave to the hares too much fucking Gideon and frost dude giving their stuff away ughhhhh)#gricko and Gideon body swap was#something#consistent sizes of characters is not a concept Im familiar with#Gideon looks off to me but I have no idea why so#Hootsies color by number 🫶#implied grimmorning 😙#except it was just an actual line from an episode
467 notes
·
View notes
Text
this bad boy can fit so much sick symbolisms
#disco elysium#harry du bois#hey guys lil doodle cause i got my pen display back and also as proof of life and also im obbsessed with this game!#also it was about time i posted totally indesheirble art that only makes sense to me :)#cause casue he dosent wanna be this kind of animal and theres a HOLE in his head and and#also testing some new brushes so thats fun#anyhow uh yeah hope noone minds soem very unfinsiehd art!!!#song of todaayy isssss noootttt this is why by paramour#it is instead woke up new by the mountain goats which a friend pointed out is a great pre game harry song#spins him around#:))#my art
1K notes
·
View notes
Note
Kuuya is sweet. He gets the snow globe jar.
Noel is bad. He gets THE JAR
thoughts and prayers for him😔💔💔
#ask#anon#yandere oc#noel posting#sillydoods#i think i remember something about the original where apparently they left it on top of their console and it got like. cooked basically.#which is why it looked like. that#im just saying all of this to put the image in your brain#you're welcome
688 notes
·
View notes