#which is something i kind of knew but forgor

[gertritude-art]

sometimes when you're not a great programmer and everyone looks at you and goes "i don't know... that's scary" when you want to do something in ren'py you have to get creative and by creative i mean code that would make an actual programmer get mad at you

[fanofthelamb]

lovely art you make please never stop!!!

WAAA TOO SWEET. thats it. MOREEEEEEE ART DUMP!!!!!!!! im not sure how many of these i posted but!! i think mostly it's all new!!!!!!!

I wonder if this'll become a thing for me. BAHAHAH

scrapped ref page i've made before ^^^^^ it was similar to nari's except it turns out the red's color jitter was too extreme.... the grren was AMAZING tho. Comments with the pieces btw!! and 30+ pics I think?! So expect a long ass post. :) this isn't even all the unposted art, just the stuff I thought was good enough to post!

First thing's first! How about a comic I never posted? I was kinda embarrassed by the writing of it, but this WAS just something to help Rue. (You might notice a lot of the art in this thread was sent to Rue and never posted. Sorry Rue. little of this is new for you. sone is tho. orzzzzz)

Woah? The lamb has feelings? The lamb has bad feelings about their past?? Who knew. Shocker. (also LMFAO AT NARI IN THIS HE REALLY SAID "oh ur crying? I'll give you a reason to cry")

something to kind of help storyboard out the animation i'm tryna work on. its not going well. turns out that shit is hard.

and some beyond the grove narinder. yall eat BTG nari UPPPPPP.

speaking of BTG? how about some panels of a future page? Chapter 1 still. feel free to laugh at how strangely i draw the draft. ti works for me!

back to normal nari. IN PANTS!!!!!!!!!!!

THIS isnt actually a drawing it's a real image taken of me and rue

i dont know if i posted this or not, actually. i am not a big fan of it, though.

i need to draw leshy and val more </3

idk if i posted kalladad either BAHAHAHAHA

also, i dont know if i posted THIS either. i dont SEE it but i could be wrong ?

now how about a couple of kissing booth scraps?

long with the scrapped comic where narinder kills and eats the face of the goat. </3 rip that thing (the goat LOVES fighting and LOVES someome who can beat thier ass almost as much)

and some heket bullying her brother (she wuvs him tho)

i dont know which acc i posted this to, actually. i drew this bc rick kept reposting halflife shit BAHAHAHH

oh and here's a vent piece or two i made with annona. they seem harmless enough to post i guess? i wish i made more content with them.

i jsut wanna chew them between my molars like a marshmallow.

this si also sometihng i made for rue BAHAHAHAHAH HAVE I POSTED IT? IDK.

and of course, the least toxic totally-not-abusive-as-fuck pairing of lamb and the red crown. this isnt exclusively BTG related but I dont know how much interest people would have with him being a character on FOTL? he is 1000% having his own role as his own charavter in BTG though.

oh, and this guy i wanted to post forever ago, but i needed time to adjust to his design. this is the best i have made of him and it might be what sticks. he's leshy's uncle. (took worm baby in after both his siblings went missing)

more nari, because he's my most popular scrumplie. probably bc i draw him the most and a lot of my stuff is nari centric. nude nari because i literally couldn't think up what i wanted to draw on him. i was gonna edit clothes on later and forgor BAHAHAHA

i actually dont know if i posted this too? this is tyar and baal <3 baal was pretty shocked to have learned vitas was tyar's spouse. he's still not ready to talk about it, but he does want to ask the lamb about it one day.

and some childhood memories i never finished.

i MIGHT have posted this one ?

i posted pieces of this page but here's the full:

[scarabbai]

What would the fight against Kalim's Overblot look like in rr au? And how will Jamil and Kalim's relationship look after Kalim's Overblot?

*looks at date sent and SWEATS*

Okay ngl at this point (since I haven't played the game in a longgggggg time, have lost my au notes, and kinda just havent thought about this au for a while) i KINDA forgor BUT I can tell you what I remember the most from my original plans (they may change... or just not be written at all lol! I got other stuff going on unfortunately)

I don't quite remember the logistics of how they get back into scarabia aside from the octavinelle trio helping jamil and the yuu gang navigate the floodwaters (think something reminiscent of ch3 where the yuu gang had waterbreathing potions and such) and they swim up and up from the portal to the last remaining bit of dry land in the desert (which is likely the highest roof/balcony of the dorm? I kinda never fully knew the scarabia layout)

rr au kalim has always been best represented in my mind as "the genie who desperately wished to become iago" where in his heart of hearts all he ever wanted was to be kind and grant others happiness but to stand by jamil's side forever he turned to more sinister tendencies (this is reflected in his undying support of jamil despite the dorm tyranny and his guard duties but also his internal struggle of helping the struggling students anyway) SO BECAUSE OF THIS i imagine his overblot monster actually does take on most of the characteristics of the good genie but may be all warped with bird features since kalim himself is trapped in this in-between state of "purehearted wishgranter" and "right hand to the sorcerer of sands"

I also like to imagine that even though kalim and jamil had been skirting around their feelings prior to the overblot (and continue to do so after bc WHEW awkward), during the overblot itself kalim ends up expressing his hidden desire to love and protect jamil forever while overblotted and thus may take jamil "hostage" for the fight to have him to himself, keeping him away from the yuu gang (+octavinelle) for most of the fight until they wear him down enough and jamil can either talk him down or Snake Whisper him into submission to stop the overblot and make sure kalim doesnt injure himself beyond saving with his magic consumption and mental turmoil (there was also the background fear that since i hc the scarabia dorm/all dorms exist in a "pocket dimension" of sorts, eventually it would reach capacity and kalim would drown himself from all the rainwater he produces, which was why time was of the essence even though kalim's UM doesnt consume much magic comparatively)

after the overblot (when kalim falls unconscious) jamil gets overwhelmed with emotion at the thought of losing kalim and kisses him briefly, which jamil REFUSES to address afterward despite the yuu gang literally losing their MINDS over how stupid jamil is being but no siree hes not about to address that bc then hed have to admit he kissed kalim and that he liked him this whole time and how terrified he was- jamil does NOT wanna deal w all those emotions yet he needs to sort himself out and get over his superiority complex first AND resolve the whole master/servant power imbalance they got goin on yanno

Speaking of which, kalim and jamil do end up spending much more time apart so that they can learn to be more independent... they have a LOT of codependency going on where kalim feels like hes useless if he isnt able to serve jamil while jamil trusts absolutely nobody and is way too paranoid about everything to the point of basically not letting anyone into his life aside from kalim so they do need to separate for a bit to be healthier, both for themselves and each other. Since rr kalim, unlike canon jamil, kinda doesnt mind acting as a servant all that much (which has to do with a whole lot of childhood indoctrination and such we do NOT have the time to talk about here lol), I imagine rr jamil takes matters into his own hands (to his chagrin, bc ideally he wants kalim to be able to recognize his own personhood and stand up for himself bc he loves him dearly) and dismisses kalim from his duties for the time they spend apart so that kalim can heal and jamil can work out his trust issues properly

And thus, the genie is free...

[uniformbravo]

since i've spent the past few days essentially staring at nothing but natsuyuu volume covers i thought it'd be so fun and silly to try and redraw them all from memory tee hee. all 30 (thirty) (三十) of them!!! wheee!!!!

i haven't actually looked at them next to the originals yet so guess what time it is!!!! LET'S COMPARE

starting with volume 1. iconic. show stopping. masterpiece. the mona lisa of natsuyuu SURELY i reproduced every single detail perfectly such that it kickstarts my career as a forgery artist RIGHT

well feast ur eyes

(im using the english volumes for comparison btw they have a good clear view of the art)

CAN U TELL WHICH IS WHICH OOO THEYRE SO ALIKE BET U CANT!!! SPOT THE DIFFERENCE LEVEL 1000 WHICH ONE DO U SHOOT

all i remembered for this one was GREEN and it's not even the right shade of green ajgosugdjfkdgj i even made the fuckin. what do u call it. i'll just say yukata??? I MADE IT GREEN AND ITS SUPPOSED TO BE RED i stg if u held a gun to my head & asked if there was any red on vol 1 i'd be DEAD

but i remembered the book of friends is like. weirdly purple? ok well in this pic it looks p gray BUT ON OTHER COPIES...... IF U UP THE SATURATION GKSJKDNFKDG

why is nyanko sensei smack dab in the middle HUH i couldve sworn he was bottom left this is so fucked up and scary. haunted manga volume??????? i bought it from a grarage sale idk you guys-

at least natsume's pose is like kind of right but also that's most definitely a complete accident i can ASSURE u (im rereading this the next day and the pose isnt even CLOSE what are u TALKING ABOUT)

anyway can i just fucking point out the kanji on the book of friends bc that is from MEMORY YEEHAW here's what it's Supposed to look like: 友人帳

LIKE even tho i got the last one wrong ITS LIKE STILL PRETTY CLOSE??? i think i deserve 100 points for this objectively

MOVING ON THO....

OK NOT AS BAD AS I THOUGHT SURPRISINGLY im actually like. i thought i bombed this one completely but liKE THE COMPOSITION??? KIND OF ON POINT. KIND OF GENIUS TBH

i remembered Blue and Madara and like what else do u need rly. butterflies are optional in all scenarios imo

also i NEVER have any idea what natsume's wearing in any of these so i always just like default throw him into his school uniform LMAO u will see a pattern

why is the book of friends burgundy in this one btw. it was GRAY i mean purple definitely purple aha

ok volume 3 im actually scared for i know i fucked up SOMETHING

HGLKFKGLKFKGFN OK!!!!! OK NOT SUPER AWFUL!!!! just noticed i forgor to color the book of friends fukg

main thing i remembered abt this one was the color of natsume's... attire.... and which characters were present. whats sensei doing all the way up in the top corner tho 0/10

return of the school uniform lmaooooo hm. irrelevant who cares plus didnt ask. all things considered this wasn't as bad as i thought. THE NEXT ONE HOWEVER,

hsngjfgnfjn okayyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

sensei's way cuter in this one than i realized wait wtf this cover's cute af how did i never notice. underrated cover -10 @ me. look at his lil BLEP >:O!!!!!!!

i knew there was some fuckshit going on w the yukata in this one ourhg i was just like hehe greeennnn also sensei's there. my work here is done

what is natsume's pose even hgnkg i was straight up making shit up at this point LIKE the first 6 or so covers are SO hard for me to distinguish in my head i should get a free pass for the poses in all of them like i can do whatever i want IM the artist now

oh god whats next vol 5

OK!!!! like a straight 5/10 TBH i literally forgot i was planning on rating these LMAO

i remembered the like white v-neck shirt thing and his pose kind of??? i had NO idea what to do for the yukata tho i just made it orange and u know what?? close enough. my rule of thumb is just like pick a color and then throw flowers all over it u cant go wrong

taki looks so much more mysterious on the original and also wearing a skirt. i gave her a big stick bc i thought i remembered her having one in general but i think i made that up tbh wouldn't put it past me. got her hat right tho hee haw

cant believe i didn't get natsume's beautiful artwork tho look at that little shit sensei up there god hes so ROUMD literally moma material

PROBABLY my best one yet uhhhh but i maybe cheated JUST a little for this one ITS LIKE BARELY CHEATING STOP BOOING ME

as i was toying w the idea of doing this redraw thing i was still working on collecting my Images and Pictures so i kinda started taking note of a few small things here & there and one of them was just. the general gist of this cover SO LIKE that's why it's so good LOL

forgor the flowers tho. i literally forget everything that isn't a character like immediately BUT OK CUT ME SOME SLACK like after a point the covers start being whole ass scenes which are SO much easier to remember shit abt than the fuckin Green Void (p sure this is the last green void cover tho)

8/10 composition is gr8 but details like the shirt & the yellow flowers are wrong, also the stick is backwards. i literally looked up what that thing is called and forgot already tee hee

OK WE'RE NOT DONE W THE GREEN VOID I REPEAT-

fuck dude. fuck. i rly thought vol 6 was the last one LOL not to spoil but as i was grabbing these images i saw a Preview of what's to come and the green void lasts until fuckign volume TEN LOL collapses onto the ground and dies

so erhermrm this is vol 7 lolllll i remembered the bg flowers this time can u believe hahaha distracts u from the fact that LITERALLY everything else is wrong auhghg

u know what the green void turned into bushes and i think that's beautiful.... like points for creativity on my part tbh. like to be completely honest. 3/10 i got the characters right

YO????? GATE CONFIRMED LET'S GO?????? it's definitely the school gate but i choose to believe natsume & tanuma r in jail for crimes and u should too

actually this is shockingly accurate for how much i goddamn struggled w this one gkjsldkg the CHARACTERS are right the OUTFITS are right SENSEI'S THERE urgh i knew one of these covers had tanuma holding sensei like that but i couldn't remember Which

i can't believe i actually got tanuma's pose that close i rly thought i was bullshitting w that one wtf. +5 points instantly

do u like how i just scribbled sensei wherever lmaoooo i drew natsume & tanuma & went like. i think sensei's in this one. PLOP

6/10 honestly closer than i thought

OK........ I SEE........ literally dies

this one i was getting MASSIVELY confused w vol 4 bc i could remember nothing distinct abt either of them except Green and natsume w Big Doggie

i remembered the BARE essentials of the composition but not much else... since i thought the green void was gone i put the green i remembered into natsume's yukata (and then put him in the school uniform again LOL) and went WELP. GUESS I'LL DIE NOW

2/10 honestly one of the worst fucking ones lskdjflsdkg

OK THIS ONE.... i almost died irl trying to remember this shit, even before i started and i was still viewing the covers i was like there is no way in HELL im remembering this shit for vol 10. and i was right

like. Purple. White Mask. Antlers. WILD layered clothing. at first i drew the mask as an actual deer skull but later had a straight up epiphany and redrew it like that which... still not correct but I MEAN.... IT'S PRETTY GOOD

i cant believe most of the purple is the bg oughgh his clothes are WHITE..... this is fucked up. i DID remember the stick tho, bells and everything!! actually bells and nothing else!!!

7/10 ok it might seem high but CONSIDERING this design..... i think i did shockingly well TBH

NOT...... the worst...... one....... i could've sworn he was sitting on a pile of books this is so sad that woulda been so cute 😭

for a second when i saw the real cover again i thought he was sitting ON the bookshelf and i was about to RIOT but its okay it's a step stool. still physically possible

my version of natsume here is so much more like Proper gksld he looks like a school boy... studying in the academy's library... hardworking student.... but no the real one is just sitting there like a wet puppy orz he's not even READING i rly thought he was reading. this is such a huge L

cannot fucking believe i was right abt the window tho. like wrong shape but the fact that it's even there.... giving myself a whole ass point for that one

5/10 i rly thought i nailed this one gksgndfkj

also RIP TO THE GREEN VOID U WILL NOT BE MISSED o7

ah shit ok. well one of them was in the school uniform at least fjgugjdkf

why is my natsume lying there like hes abt to start a therapy session, boy would NEVER-

also the plushie hmnmhnmhngnf i dont KNOW i knew there was some kind of prop there but like gun to my head i woulda died again. main colors that stood out to me for this were green and that bluish purple so i got those into mine but i mean. well u can see

once again a random window in the bg i got correct let's gooooo 5/10

LMAO SPITS OUT MY DRINK WHOOPSIE!!!!!!

this is so fucking bad im choking im gurgling LOLLLL i was SO sure natsume's paper had an eye on it i was POSITIVE this is so fucked up. i mean obvs i picked that up from sensei but like i didn't even KNOW sensei was there. or that there were bg characters at all uuuuuououohghh (matoba ignored +5)

i was like. black yukata red flowers CHECK piece of paper w eye CHECK horns CHECK i even went back and edited the horns to be more accurate i was so proud of myself sobs

ok but i knew it was shit trasjh when those were the ONLY details i could remember bc obviously there was gonna be more going on I JUST DIDN'T REALIZE HOW MUCH MORE.....

straight up dookie/10 no jk fr like 3/10 @ me u need to use ur EYES

OK..... I WAS VERY CONFIDENT ABT THIS ONE..... except for his outfit i knew i was bullshitting that BUT I THOUGHT I NAILED THIS ONE....... the one fucking time i didn't just default to his uniform LMFAO

even remembered the pink flower ball smh and for WHAT. i knew he was sitting in a pile of plushies & blankets or smth but no way in HELL was i even gonna attempt to draw them with a speck of detail. but HEY the plushie i drew for vol 12!!! i knew he existed Somewhere. he doesn't even have a horn tho thats so fucked up i thought he did

obviously the most striking thing abt this cover is the bg w that deep burgundy & the circular window so that was the main thing i nailed down right away (my palette was more muted tho). also natsume sitting there w paper in his mouth but i thought he was mid return when rly hes playing like keep-the-balloon-off-the-floor or whatever the fuck he's doing. i love u natsume

(if i thought he was in the middle of returning a name WHY didn't i include the actual book of friends flksglkd automatic fake fan/10)

8/10 this was like my ace in the hole i was like if i got nothing else i got U volume 14!!! and then

NOT THE FAMILY PHOTO......... FUCKING DIES

man idk shit just end me. whats even going on in this cover im gonna deck u natori. dont ask why this makes me want to commit violence hes just so. URHGHGHnH

i dont know whats happening to me rn looking at this im losing my fucking grip dude who let this happen im gonna hurl this volume into the sun??? i think???

why did i add the other two youkai i just thought they should be included but i played myself i had to draw them from memory and for WHAT. pls tell me i got them at least a little bit right i stg

it's the crossed legts dude if he was just sitting there like a board the way i drew him id be like ah shit it was just natori sitting not natsume too but he just HAS to cross his legs and the fucing elbow propped up holding the glasses im S MAD IM SO MADdestroy him

it's 1am i gotta go. i have to go. right now my mom is calling me i have to fukcng. 4/10 i got the couch colorr right. bye

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tumglr...... only allows 30 pictures per post..... bc im not on desktop? or is that a site-wide thing now. in any case this is getting long so i think im gonna split it right down the middle into 2 posts so there u go, first 15 volumes. so far my score is ermmm

well i didn't rate the first few volumes.

vol 1: 6/10 decent

vol 2: 6/10 also decent

vol 3: 5/10 composition is Scramboled

vol 4: 2/10 it's SO BAD

so now my overall score is 74/150 fjggudjofjdkgjk doing gr8!!!!!!!!!

ok bye for real ✌️

[fictionfixations]

playing this game for the first time

IM GOING TO THROW IT CRASHED ON ME WHILE I WAS MAKING A PROFILE i KNEW I SHOULDVE SAVED 😭(I STARED AT THE SAVE BUTTON LIKE 'should i save just in case? nahh i dont need to save until im done' and then it kicked me out)

i dont think of myself as a person good at designing stuff

but i was really liking what i made it looked so pretty hjfiouweshjdWQIUAsk

it doesnt even mean that much to me im just gonna feel really depressed for awhile cause like wtf man 😭

this is the farthest i got last time i kind of hate it. the quality of stuff i do always degrades the more i repeat it so hhhhhhhhhhh it feels really nitpicky but something about the images behind the classroom just dont look right

it keeps saying connection error when trying to save

im pointing a fan directly at it cause my phone is a fucking heater hoping it fixes 😭

im gonna close and reopen the game this sucks (not the game im just getting tired of all the live2d games i play being laggy as fuck or having connection issues, its not just this game that hates me 💀) idk if the twitter button works i havent pressed it cause i tend to lag so much more the moment i click out of a game and then re-enter without closing it and re-opening

tbh i dont know anything about this. i think theres a good story (kinda depressing(???)) but i havent heard much about it

one of the first things i saw about this game tbh was the customizing a profile and i got my mind blown cause it looked so pretty i kept getting pjsk in my recommended and idk something about tatsu...???? forgor rest of name. blonde guy. where apparently in the movie he switched to a pirate outfit???? im. so confused

i feel like im being sabotaged cause im trying to play a song and then it lags and i miss and im dfaiuhdwushdajw

WHY do you do this to me 😭

i need a fan because when it overheats its literally unplayable (its not even that its hot its that it starts lagging like hell) so im just having cold air blasted into my eyes which is kinda distracting :'D

its fun though i like like the interface?? its really smooth its a little confusing with note placement but im. getting used to it

im sad i have to actually play with a fan because i really like rhythm games i wanna get into it but it keeps lagging

why do all the good games (that i wanna play) have to be on mobile and prone to crashing/lagging 😭

tbh im getting into it now that im used to it crashing its like. tears of themis. which also crashes often and lags me. which sucks cause i really enjoy the story. but then id be going through this important bit and almost finish it and then it crashes and then keeps crashing while im speeding through it trying to complete it 💀 (cough cough the trial bits suck because i keep having to re-present evidence and im just like do i look like i remember what the answer is LET ME THROUGH)

its kinda because of that that i cant play it in super long bursts though so im just gonna be here procrastinating from it for months because i dont feel like continuing to crash trying to do shit. play again. crash. stop playing.

sigh. sometimes i hate that i get more invested in stories in games by actually playing the game. because sometimes my devices dont want me to play and makes me lag like hell sadge

anyway my favorites rn are nightcord at 25:00(?) w/ the miku from that ver theres another like band rhythm game i play except the 3d models make me lag so much more. this game is much more manageable. ..like osmetimes it lags so much i literally lose all my life but like. at least i can play ?????

anyway uh ill try to play more. like. i play a lot of games but ive been neglecting the story so ive been trying to speed through them (while actually reading but like bingeing through as much story as i can before it stops me or i give up)

okay i think i can play songs now without lagging except teh moment i think about how its not lagging it starts lagging 💀 (another time is when i started singing along it started lagging. i just have bad timing man.)

i can.. kind of play expert songs. (except when i cant) except its.really overwhelming and i stop being able to read the map to where i just default to see note = tap so its ilke im kinda spamming in a sense??? and praying it works out also my brain sometimes stutters so i fuck up. this prob isnt like anything revolutionary but with flick notes if therse one flick note and at the same time a note thats not a flick note and i get confused i just act as if both are flick notes cause its not like you get penalized for flicking a non-flick note

the 3d music videos are cute

i only got a new outfit for.. person me no remember name of purple haired girl

i think you can set it to have characters who are actually singing the song but i like staring at the characters i have cause i put my favorites on the team + like my only 4 star rn?? also like kaito is there i think (im bad at names but hes one of the vocaloids is he not) because i wanted to go with like the dark sorta empty vibe

but so its so weird when a model is singing but its so clearly not the right voice lmfao

i feel like itd be fun to learn the choreography especially for like cosplay stuff??

id like the music videos more if i could play the songs while watching them without lagging really badly 😭

NOO PLEASEE DONT LAG DURING THE VIRTUAL SHOW 🙏

i crashed 😭

song: plays few notes immediately crashes

hhh i know the song but i cant remember the name

tfw your glowsticks feel like a windscreen wiper

also i just realized your view moves if you move your phone. thats cool but i cant do that because my battery drains stupidly fast if its not being charged all the time i am not joking

i dont really have an attachment to these characters yet so i cant understand how it might feel to someone really invested but this is cool 👍

oh it ended

i missed the first song unfortunately :(

i think theres another one happening in like. ..30 minutes? an hour?? shrug. idk if its the same one or something else

i know this post kinda makes it seem like im having a bad time but im having a fun time its just that when something bad happens i have more to say

anyway i like this a lot more than the other band rhythm game i play. like i mean i had a lot over there and there are some songs i really like that arent on here but i.. also wasnt reading the story for that game either i was literally just playing it because rhythm game thats it 😭 i only went through the story to skip through it cause it gave me like the stuff to pull for the gacha so um

im gonna try to pay attention this time 👍👍👍

also auto is a blessing i will never not praise auto in a game (except when it plays bad but tbh if it works then it doesnt matter. not a shade towards this game but towards hsr cause sometimes it ults on a single enemy with low health that could be killed with just basic atk. and then next wave and that ult wouldve been so useful 😭)

off topic but idk why but 3d music videos dont lag when its playing the song on auto. except when i take a screenshot wtf

or maybe its just that it lags when the phone starts heating up. which tracks. wish i could play this on pc. wonder how itd work if it did cause buttons you press are what??? (honestly i can only play 4 note songs on pc anything else my mind blanks) but it still wouldve been cool and deffo less laggy

[hildegardladyofbones]

Ooh ijust finished season 1 and here are all my thoguths. Do not expect coherency I went to sleep at 3am last night

Nothing good ever happened. I cannot remember a single good thing that happened that immediately didn't go to shit. I'm usually all for angst but at one point it will get tiring.

The writing itself was quite good, but something they sort of used as a crutch is pogo. Whenever a character came to a realization and was confused, pogo always came in like "I think I can explain". After one point it was just funny. Half of the plot wouldn't have happened if after reggie's death pogo had sat everyone down and caught everyone up to speed. The fucking apocalypse wouldn't have come.

Speaking of which- I knew from episode 6 onwards that they will fail. Not even for a second did I believe these fucktarts could be competent enough to stop the fucking apocalypse. I was right. I don't think this is a bad thing tho- I was kind of tired of guaranteed happy endings anyway. This wasn't a bad ending, because technically they all survived, but it wasn't certainly successful. It was just an ending.

Another thing I loved was Ben's character. I knew quite a lot about the show before watching it so I knew there was a brother who was dead already, but I didn’t expect to see him, which was nice. Its funny to think that there were times where all 7 siblings were together and didn't realize it. I also love the trope of a character speaking to voices/beings/ghosts that others can't see. It's always so fun

The acting was also a highlight. Obviously I love klaus and his actor's acting with all my heart, but I think the best performance was five's. First of all, his actor was really young, and young actors taking on a big role is always impressive. Secondly, his role was complicated. It wasn't a 13yo boy, it was a 13yo boy with 58 years of experience. And his portrayal of five really did that justice. Five is a hardened mean old man and I really appreciate the show not shying away from treating him like one. With shows like sherlock, where the protagonist is also a kind of a shitty person, I get the feeling we're supposed to look at that like a silly quirk, not an actual flaw. Did not get that feeling here at all. In fact, all of the characters are kind of bad people and I LOOVEEE that. Seriously. I fucking love it when people are people and do shitty things.

Oh yeah and another performance I loved was Grace's. Her role was unique as well, because it's difficult to portray someone who is not human (especially when the actor herself is human), but who is made to appear and act human. You're a human pretending to be a robot pretending to be a human.

Going back to the topic of this show not being scared of bad people and bad things- I really admire this show's audacity to casually send klaus to war. I love how it was shown. Like. We see klaus open the suitcase and disappear, and later in the episode he reappears shaking and clearly distraught. Okay. He saw something he shouldn't have. And then it turns out he spent 10 months in 1968 Vietnam. And they don't move on from it. I think other shows would've sent him to war for like a day at most and then moved on from it or turn it into a joke, especially considering how we we weren't shown that he went there, just that he got back from there. Ykwim? Like usually these things that are such major events in a character's life get shown, but here they didn't show it and I think that's genius because then you get the feeling of "lol where'd he go. Oh he went to war. Oh okay he's a bit traumatised. Oh shit. Oh SHIT-" you just sort of gradually start understanding the severity of what he experienced. And the others don't question it? Fucking love that. Like "Yeah, he's our brother. Yeah he went to war for 10 months in Vietnam :/ Yeah he's a traumatised war vet :/"

I also have to mention that everyone just accepted that five's girlfriend is a mannequin.

Uhh what else fuck I forgor

Oh yeah might be a controversial opinion, but I don't mind the "incest." First of all- it's fiction. But even then it's like the most ethical version of incest out there. They're both consenting adults with literally no age gap, they're not related in any way, and imho they were barely raised as siblings. Like yes they see eachother as siblings (like the 6 of them) but their mom was a robot and dad was barely a father. They didn't have a childhood. I don't necessarily ship any of the siblings together tho. I think they hate each other too much.

Another thing I noticed is that this show *loves* it's song montages. Ther wasn't a single episode where they randomly started playing a song where the lyrics didn't even fit the situation that much while they. Fight or something. I thought that was kinda funny. Unserious. Even.

Which brings me to my next point, which is how disconnected from reality this show is, superpowers set aside. The visuals are very illustration like and they make some really interesting choices. It's set in 2019 but no one has cell phones or modern cars. Reginald is apparently from the victorian era?? And the composition of some shots is also somewhat wes anderson-like. Which is to say I loved the visuals of this show. They understand that not everything had to make sense or be explained. More often than not audiences are willing to go along with most things as long as the show itself doesn't question it. People don't ask for explanation for things you haven't pointed out need an explanation. All their previous nannies looked very 1910s but I won't question it if the show won't mention it.

Coming back to the characters I think the ones I enjoyed the least were Luther and Diego because even though I get their motivations, I just personally don't like them all that much. As people not as characters. They're very believable as emotionally stuck manchildren. One of my favourites that I haven't already mentioned are Hazel and the handler btw. Hazel is just so loveable and sympathetic and the handler would punch me in the face so of course I love her. She's a woman with light hair and a smoking habit. That's all my type is tbh.

Anyway I think that's all for now. As a number rating I'd give this season a "misery is all that remains" out of ten because happiness only exists in fanfiction I guess. Feel free to send death threats over me justifying incest or whatever. Or just tell me your own opinions. Whatever the fuck. My head hurts.

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[lubelzoldyck-artworks]

📍📍📍NEEDLE DAY📍📍📍

Full artwork and ramblings under the cut 🌸

[pov you are Hisoka and it's Illumi's birthday]

HELLO HELLO, I just finished this piece in honor of the Illumi Day, aka 11/11, a very popular headcanon birth date for Illumi 🌸 Illumi Day was a suggestion from the amazing @bungeepuppet and I am happy to contribute to this tiny event! Even if I am late, but uh, I suppose it became usual from me 🥲 I could have finished it earlier, but a close friend was celebrating his own birthday and I couldn't just be an ass and tell him Well sorry dude but I have this fanart that isn't even a commission to finish 😶

I drew the sketch for this fanart in september, when I noticed my headcanon birthday for Illumi (9/9). I was pretty sad to have missed it, and motivation to actually draw has been rather scarce since a few months. I wished to finish though, but I couldn't. But then I heard about the 11/11 heacanon, which I think is a brilliant idea, and I simply knew it was the perfect occasion to finish this piece!

I wanted to draw something among the lines of Hisoka gifting him something for his birthday. Since I wanted to draw Illumi in lingerie (again), I ended up drawing him in a lingerie and harness ensemble. I thought it funny for said harness to be pink because it's kind of Hisoka's color and, well, it might ce off a but weird to gift someone something /you/ like (but it sounds in character for Hisoka to do something like that 😂). But Illumi loves it. Maybe he just really loves harnesses. Maybe wearing it gives him the feeling of having Hisoka close to him. He would never admit it though.

I don't think Illumi cares about birthdays, even less if it's his own. When he was very young Silva and Kikyo probably offered him stuff but he was taught soon enough to stop caring about stuff that are simply futile and unimportant in an assassin's life. But maybe he might just start to do little celebrations again, thanks to Hisoka, the worst person ever but maybe the best thing that ever happened to him. 🥺

That Hisoka plushie thing has been made by Illumi and it's just a silly little idea of mine. Hisoka probably sweats nervously noticing it and the several needles planted in a very specific location... probably wondered for a second if Illumi cursed him or something, but, nah. Illumi's ability don't work that way and we all know the clown is just a horny mess 👁👁

Oh also uh I wanted to save a textless version but I forgor,,,

Might just do a continuation to this scene one day. 👀

If you appreciate my work please contribute to my visibility by reblogging this post 🌸 likes and reactions are also very appreciated ✨️

I am open for commissions 💕

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[Written transcription:

Illumi: I still think birthday celebrations are pointless... But your gift is acceptable. You better make me scream.

(He actually Loves that gift.)

Hisoka: Oooh Illumi... Is that a threat? ♡

"Harness gifted by Hisoka" arrow pointed at Illumi]

[wc-confessions]

i left the fandom years ago but needed to get this off my chest.

squilf hope to me mischaracterized bramble similarly to Daenerys suddenly deciding to become a tyrant in s8 of game of thrones— only majority of fans hated that because daenerys was a fan fav. bramble was already disliked before tbc so it was obvious the concept of mischaracterization/flanderization is going to whoosh past people's head because you didnt even gaf about his character in the first place.

take note that while this book takes place before tbc, it was published after the first book of the arc, so you could only assume many aspects of the book was retconned /shoehorned to kind of tie in the story (it didnt. it genuinely didnt do anything to tbc)

in the first few chapters of squilfs hope, it was hinted to the readers that bramble's mind was in shambles, that something is constantly disrupting his thoughts, causing him to act out of character act times. which is fine, because we as the readers knew that this would soon lead to his possession arc. but then how does this interesting concept get written in the later chapters squilf's hope? blank. they did nothing with the possession seed they planted. it affected absolutely nothing in the story and they forgor how this brown cat was supposed to act when hes not hearing ashfur's whispers, so it led to him being a jerk for no reason, because why would you not rewrite his entire characterization when you need your misogynistic views to get validated? oh, remember how he spent the entire previous arcs going on and on about being noble, saving and landing mercy on anyone who needed help? oh how bout we ignore that. stupid colleen hoover of warrior cats.

im not saying bramble was not abusive. he was, but he was only written that way because he was greatly misunderstood by the indecisive authors with a very messy series that has too many focal characters, messy plots and no actual intend to end the series for their own sake (plus i didnt realize how many unnecessary romance there is in the series until recently)

the erins needed someone to validate their twisted views on toxic relationship and our greatest contender just happened to be bramble :))

not to mention there are so many other cats that act out of their bounds/character throughtout different books/arcs, hell id argue even squilf was treated SO WRONG in the new arc, with her being super aggressive lol what was that. it's not just these two that is affected it's basically every single cat, infamously onestar 😮‍💨they needed a villain and they decided "hey why not take a perfectly good character n make them bad for no reason yay we are so cool woahhhh"

warriors had always has INCONSISTENT and BAD writing. if it weren't for me discovering this series as a child, in my adult age, this children series would be considered a D list or even lower. the ONLY thing that kept warriors alive is the fandom, and the fact it was only one of the most popular series to have talking cats.

[fowlfics]

Ten questions for writers

Thank you so much for the tag, @katia-anyway !

1. how many works do you have on ao3?

At the moment of writing this post, 253!

2. what’s your total ao3 word count?

I just broke 700k with my last fic :3c

3. what fandoms do you write for?

Whichever one I'm obsessed with at the moment xD Currently, I am thoroughly within One Piece's grip. Before that, there was BNHA, but I have written for a couple other fandoms in far smaller quantities before.

4. do you respond to comments? why or why not?

I used to! But it became overwhelming fairly soon. Moreover, a lot of the comments I get are simple emojis or "this was cute!" and while i do appreciate them - of course i do! it always brightens my day to see them! - i find myself at a loss as to how to respond. I don't like seeing a chain of my own "thank you!" comments responding in the same way to everyone, and it feels like i'm cheating somehow, like i'm artificially inflating my comments count ajsdhkajh So nowdays I usually only respond if someone asks a question or says something that I feel I can respond to with something more substantial than just a "thank you <3"

5. have you ever had a fic stolen?

Not to my knowledge (unless I am forgetting, which is also possible lol)

6. have you ever co-written a fic before?

Oh, yes, plenty! Lemme dig up the receipts. Most notably there was a ton of fic telephones in Fic Fight '22 which I'm still not certain if I've got all of them jotted down xD

Then there was that one Stain & Aizawa & Izuku & Katsuki longfic we had started with (listing in the order on our tracking spreadsheet) Addri, myself, LadyE, Blanc, Sophy, Ryuka and Kooky! We initially started it as a November NaNoWriMo challenge back in 2022 (inspired by the joint Whumptober completionist thing NWA did) and we've got up to 40k before life had caught up xD

OH and of course the NWA Two Perspectives in Feb 2023, where both Brinn and I wrote 11k of the same EraserMic fic (fic 1)(fic 2) each in one person's POV, it was a lot of fun!

Other then those, there might have been instances of me co-writing with someone, but I do not recall them! (my memory is a sieve, if you wrote a fic with me and i forgor pls don't take it personally :crypuddle:)

7. what’s your all-time favourite ship?

There isn't one! I am a notorious multishipper, and I'll ship anything that moves in the vicinity of my current blorbo (cough cough Sabo the Revolutionary and April O'Neil being the. current victim of that)

The ranking of my fav ships switches pretty much hourly, with individual blorbos taking a longer time (it's been a mix of Sabo, Ace, Luffy and Law in any order for the past half a year or so) and fandoms being the slowest to rollover (BNHA to OP pipeline across 4 years)

8. what are your writing strengths?

I've been told I'm a speed demon xD You Are Loved (13k) got written over the first four days since my joining of MDL. I prefer to go all-in on a fic idea the moment I think of it!

9. what are your writing weaknesses?

If I let a story idea stagnate, I'll have to wait until I'm in the mood for that particular fic to write it again, and it could take months. I write fast, sure, but it doesn't exactly work if I have no words to put down on the page xD My writing is very motivation-based, which sucks for any kind of a schedule but alas, I deal with it

10. first fandom you wrote for?

Hmm I believe that'd be Danny Phantom! I've written entries for Phannymay back in 2017, but I have since moved those to an alt AO3 account due to the fact that I barely knew english at the time and didn't want those on my record xD

Tagging: @mangogreent @portgas-d-aroace @taizi @swordsmans @ceramicwings hi pookies <3

[fox-buried-in-maple-leaves]

and 26 to 50 for iceheart's aria

Ask Game

Do any of them have bad habits that the other can’t stand?

Honoré doesn't like Harper's habit of internalizing his feelings, especially if its in response to Honoré's feelings. Who is more down to earth?

Harper, absolutely. Are they affectionate in public? Is it too much?

Not supremely, mainly cause Honoré is a little bit shy about PDA and because Harper is an idol and all. How are they affectionate in private?

Very lovey dovey in private. Honoré is incredibly touchy once the public's eye is turned away. Cuddles, kisses, hugs, (redacted). Just the whole nine yards. How does your OC react to being broken up with?

"You.. Wish to bre.. bre.. you're.. leaving me..?" He's not surprised, not really, Honoré is a very broken man with a very messy past. He's hard to handle, and his problems are hard to face. But god does it hurt.. He left WS for him.. Abandoned everything he knew, for him.. Even Tesla can't get him out of his lab for the next month. He considers going back, its the only other home he knows. Do they fall in love easily?

Not at all. He loved the same person for one thousand some years. Your character is in love, do they confess? If not, how long do they wait?

Honoré prefers to wait, test the waters, make sure Harper loves him too. He's so afraid of being rejected, or worse, used again. He can't do that again. Who was the first to say ‘I love you’?

I forgor... Who is more stubborn?

Harper. What moment did they realise that they were in love?

When Harper didn't judge him for being unable to stand properly in the bar after ingesting too many substances. When Harper hooked his arm around him and helped him to his shitty shoebox apartment. When Harper didn't leave him alone, staying to take care of him. Even as he cried about previously being something more. How long have they been friends? Would they consider each other best friends?

Ah yes, love at first one night stand. So yeah, not friends for all that long before they get together. But they become best friends very quickly. Harper is the first person Honoré tells everything to. How did they become friends?

Honoré was tasked with collecting intel on AE and any other targets of interest in the area. This included Harper. Their meeting was a tad more purposeful than Honoré would like to admit. Who’s more ticklish?

Honoré isn't at all ticklish so maybe Harper? Idk. If your OCs has/had a child, who would be the stricter parent?

Honoré probably. But I don't think they'd ever have kids. What do they do when they miss one another? Is one more needy than the other/s?

So uh Honoré will cuddle Harper's pillow or smell his shampoo and then maybe cry a little bit. He's not outwardly needy except for when it gets late and he's feeling particularly lonely. What green flags do they have for one another?

Kind,, charismatic, listens to him, kind... patient. Have they ever been jealous?

Honoré is an insanely jealous person which.. you're poly... dude come on.. he's more jealous than he should be. He got it from Kevin. Is one more introverted/extroverted than the other?

Honoré introvert x Harper extrovert. Who’s the better cook?

Harper lol.. But Honoré is really trying to learn for him!! Are they good at comforting one another? Does someone hide their feelings usually?

Honoré tends to hide his feelings because its just easier. Would they have been friends with each other in school?

Became friends during a school project imo. Who made the first move?

Harper did. Bought him a drink, brought him home~ Do they get on well with each other’s family? Is family important to them?

Well you see the thing about that- Do they tease each other? What about?

Anything and everything, Honoré is such a bully sometimes lmao, sorry Harper. Is there anything that scares them about their friendship/relationship?

Well one is a warrior destined to protect humanity, one keeps getting dragged back into it. Just surviving is so uncertain. And that's scary.

[jealousraisin]

Jonothan&His Career

Bits and pieces of how he got to where he is now, his career and just kind of why he is the way he is. Backstory sort of i guess. <3

Not currently but before the charlie era he COULD NOT talk to girls he was ridiculously nervous around them . Partially the reason he stayed quiet/awkward for so long at the beginning of his and charlie’s friendship/relationship.

His mum and family would manage every single aspect of his life from the moment he was born, everyday was a performance, just doing what he was told to/expected of him. His mum especially with her being the one who put him into modelling, he felt really suffocated.

When he was younger (like under 10 years old) he would constantly express things he wanted to do or learn. Go over to his friends house and play, watch the new movie his classmates were talking about, you know kid things. But he was always rejected and told he had to study more, he had a photoshoot, 'its not proper', don't be stupid, don't waste your time' etc. At some point he stopped asking, he doesn't remember when. Now when he sees something that gets his interest he catches himself before he can get too excited in the idea of following that interest, he doesn't really understand why that happens (he forgor 💀) (he'll remember later guys 🫶)

Part of the reason he wanted to move to the States, to get some breathing room.

Will not lie this dude had no sense of self, felt like he was just something to be manipulated and guided, no wants no needs just comply ‘it’s all in your best interest’ ??? what interest who am i outside of this?

This guy was honestly very quickly sliding into suicidal/heavily depressed territory with that kind of thinking, it was all very subconscious for him so he really didn't understand why he was feeling the way he did I mean he 'has a pretty good life, right?' which is why when he started to understand this feeling of suffocation he pushed so hard to move away under the guise of “expanding his career internationally” because he felt it was the only other option aside from,,,that. And he knew his family wouldn’t agree to him stopping what they’ve worked on his entire life.

Took a lot, and i mean a lot of convincing to get his family to agree. When he first came to the US his family had everything set up so he would continue doing what he was doing back in France. Initially he was happy with just being physically away from their overbearing “guidance”. But slowly over time he would start to ignore emails, messages and calls in favour of hanging out with his new found friend.

Becoming friends with Charlie at that time helped him start to develop a sense of self outside of his lifelong career, which helped a lot with his overall happiness.

Charlie is a big advocate of pursuing anything and everything that piques her interest, no shame about it and that extends to the interests of her friends and family so when she noticed him shying away from things he clearly has an interest in she was not going to have that. So in her own unspoken way she started helping him engage in those things. He didn't notice that's what she was doing until he was already starting to do things on his own, but neither of them will say anything about that until a while into their relationship.

He was really considering dropping modelling all together once he got to the US but with developing his own wants, needs and likes he felt that his career didn’t feel as overbearing. Also Charlie would talk about fashion so passionately he started to see another angle to what he has been doing his entire life, he decided to tell her about his work and she reacted so excitedly about how she has ‘sooooo many ideas i need someone to help me out’

They ended up working on a project together to post on her blog and it was one of the first shoots he did where he felt himself start to ease up and do what feels natural not what was directed, While charlie gave him a guide she really trusted the guy to have better knowledge than her in the modelling aspect.

That shoot ended up in the sights of his family and they had quite a few words sent his way. Especially considering that they did NOT approve of this shoot happening, they voiced their concerns about how he could be ruining his image and so on blah blah blah. But this is when his personality started to switch up to his current (true) self so he didn’t agree for the sake of agreeing with some of the things they had to say. ‘It’s not like he wasn’t still doing the gigs they were managing for him anyways what do they care?’ This event set off him looking for a manager he picked rather than his parents. Took a while to find a new manager but he found someone who will still make sure he doesn’t fuck up but isn’t dealing with every single aspect of his life, just professional.

His manager is a woman older than him who actually used to be a model herself, she ended up quitting modelling when she got married and went in the pursuit of other things. Though she did return to the fashion world looking to be a manager/personal assistant, Her and jonothan found each other and they clicked. She does have her work cut out for her as his career progresses because he starts to become more unhinged/independent as time goes on.

Starting his own PERSONAL social media separate from his professional ones (that he did not get to manage btw) was a big step in the right direction, started to get into posting his thoughts and things he enjoys.

Charlie introduced him to rhythm games and the idol genre. Got hooked on love live and ensemble stars. Later on would get into project sekai when that launched. He now owns a lot of bits and pieces of merch. (idk much about love live or enstars but ik he would <3). Now he actively engages with this interest, it's one of the most important ones he's found.

His apartment felt so liberating when he first moved in, but after a little while it felt lonely. That's when he ended up adopting a stray he would always talk to on his way to school, this cat is the most affectionate little guy you could find. She would always follow him up to a certain point of his route to and from school and she was pretty eager to finally come home with him. Over time Jonothan would spoil the shit out of this cat.

He still has a lot to unlearn and teach himself but now things aren't bad. Him and his mum aren't as tense as when he first left but he just can't seem to find it in himself to forgive or relax around her and have that mother son relationship like things didn't happen the way they did. He wishes it was all different but his newfound family and friends gives him comfort that it doesn't all have to be this way forever, it can be better.

[smidgen-of-hotboy]

Two parts, one day- Two Jay's Thoughts: Extended Cut, one day- LETS GO!!

We learn a two things:

Juno probably isn't one to often remember his dreams

Nureyev has insomnia

"Juno trusted him" which is VASTLY different than the Juno we know from canon, who did not trust Rex Glass, who did not want to trust Peter Nureyev, who had to trust Duke Rose.

We learn some more things:

Buddy (as has been established) is a heavy drinker, possibly alcoholic. (I will be characterizing her as one, mark my words)

Jet is at the bar, and he works as a bouncer. Which makes sense. He is "The Big Guy".

Bud calls on Jet when things are dire. So she trusts him.

And Jet has experience handling shipments and pirates. This I think is a fun detail because I had to reread the Tools of Rust transcript for a quote and M'Tendere mentions that Jet was a smuggler during the War.

"wore her heart and its many thoughts on her sleeve like a badge of honor for her humanity" IT IS ABOUT THE HUMANITY!! IT'S ABOUT TRUST!!! AND LOVE!!

also we learn that Rita is an ugly crier. nice. (same girlie pop, same)

"Juno had known her for years, and she had never stopped talking once." PRO YAPPER ALERT!! but seriously, when the bubbly best friend goes quiet and things turn dark for them, shit has hit the fan. repeat: shit has hit the fan!!

Rita drinks milk. I- as a lactose intolerant boy, tummy ache girlie- can't relate. smh.

Buddy croaking = my hc that she is surprised she even remembers what a frog's croak is anymore. winter has been here so long...

"Rita, look at me. Rita. DAMMIT, I need you to tell me what happened to him." oooooooOOOOOO- Juno's scared. he's on edge here. hackles raised. his heart has already dropped to ground, already in his feet. he knows what's coming. he doesn't want to hear it. he has to. (on a personal note: my cat got seriously sick 3 years ago, my parents were driving home early from their vacation to deal with it, and the whole time i was waiting for them to come home, my heart was in my feet. on the ground. I told my partner at the time "they're not telling me something" and sure enough- he was gone. i already knew what was coming, already knew the truth, i just didn't want to hear it.)

RAGHHHHH- I FORGOR THAT HE DESCRIBED ALL THAT- "And then he realized. He knew that expression. It was nearly second nature to him. He had seen it every morning on his own face in the mirror after Benten had- And then he knew." FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKK

"No. No it can't-" Denial.

LADIES AND GENTS AND ALL- WE'VE REACHED WAIT FOR ME!!!!!!

"Rita said he called your name." = "She called your name before she went"

"And Juno didn't even hear him. He hadn't been paying attention. How long had he been calling? How long had Juno been ignoring him?" = "But I guess you weren't listening"

"He couldn't remember the last time he had felt so horrible about himself." juno didn't feel like shit all the time with Nureyev, he was motivated to fix spring because of Nureyev. augggggh- writing about juno's depression will never not be cathartic for me in some way

"before a different wave of feeling crept over him" ANGER.

"He was going to get his husband back if it was the last thing he ever did." has me thinking about Olivia Rodrigo "i wanna get him back" lol

"Jet nodded sagely. [he doesn't WANT to tell Juno anything about this] "This is true. I walked that road with a friend of mine years ago, trying to save people from unwise decisions.'" [FRIEND?? WHAT FRIEND JET??]] (i know who, you know who Zeph, no one else does and they'll just have to wait and see lol)

"Buddy looked at Juno again, an odd kind of hollow despair marking her face, like she saw something in Juno's set jaw and bright eyes that made her want to disappear. [oh- oh Bud- Zeph you almost make me feel guilty for the things I'm going to do to her. almost.] "I know what you're thinking, Juno, and it won't work. I've tried. Believe me.'" [ALMOST.]

"There was a defiant flame rising in him now, melting the shards of his broken heart back into a semblance of hope." This line takes on a whole new meaning after the discussion we had earlier today lol. smth smth tho- about the shards of his heart reminding me again of Glass but also for some reason the Chimes? From Freedom in Chains?

"How far are you willing to go for your husband?'" = "Just how far would you go for her?"

"'To the ends of the fucking earth.'" = "To the end of time/ To the end of the earth" FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK (also again with the fire, "The flame grew into a wildfire." eheh- ahahahhaahha- stg you silly kids are going to hate me for what I'm cooking, Zeph is biting me it's that evil.) (also also, "Wait for Me" is one of my favorites. so fucking good. so lovesick. so fucked. so doomed by the narrative.)

JET ON GOD BROTHER- "'Very well then. Pack your things. I will take you to where the road to Hadestown begins. If you are going to make stupid choices, I will at least make sure you can begin making them safely.'" </3 hits harder and harder (again) knowing what I have planned

and BUDDY BABE!! She's walked that road Juno, she's tried, and failed! she- YEAH EXACTLY JET!! "'And yet you took the same course of action all those years ago, Buddy. What does that say about you?'" IT'S HER TRAUMA!! IT'S HER FEAR!! HER COPING!! SHE FOUND THIS FAMILY AND STITCHED IT TOGETHER AND SHE CAN'T LOSE ANYMORE, NOT ANYMORE, PLEASE DON'T TAKE HER ONLY REMAINING FAMILY AWAY!!

Juno the deer in the headlights- Buddy bitter and resentful for ~mysterious reasons~- Jet stern, yet passing minimal judgment on Juno but heavier judgment on Buddy- AND RITA!! the bestest bestie of best friends RITA!! can't go leaving her out, or leaving her behind!

"'Wait for me, Mista Steel! I'm comin' too!'" = "Wait for me, I'm coming/ Wait, I'm coming with you" FUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCK- this hurts me so much to have Rita being the one begging for Juno to wait, wait for her, she's coming with you. i love that you gave her this line. it fits. it works.

"Hang on, Nureyev. Just a little longer." PODCAST REFERENCE!! can't be bothered to find the episode it's from but I know it's from the podcast i would know that juno-ism anywhere (and if it's not a quote, then damn!!! you got me fooled)

"He was getting his husband back. At any cost." :) :)) ::))))

SONG FOR A CAGED LOVEBIRD: PART 9 (?)

i've lost track by now ngl. we're at over 9,000 words so i get a pass. this part is. ouchie central. so i am expecting a lot of people yelling at me in the comments and tags. this is fun for me.

LETS GO TPP CREW, ROUNDING THE CORNER WITH MY TPP CREW: @smidgen-of-hotboy @ceaseless-watchers-special-girl @urjover @one-joe-spoopy @waters-and-the-wilde @demonic-panini (@the-private-eye i'm tagging you too bc i can :))

The silence was what finally woke him.

Juno had been solidly asleep, dreaming about things he couldn’t quite remember but that made his stomach twist. When he finally opened his eyes, the room was abnormally quiet. No rain, barely any wind, and… he rolled over to check. Nureyev wasn’t next to him in bed. That was not entirely out of the ordinary, as his insomnia often took him on long walks through the woods as he tried to find sleep, but this morning it set his teeth on edge. Something about it felt…  wrong. Like he had walked out of the door for the last time, and would never come back. 

Juno shook the thought away. It was a ridiculous notion. He loved him too much to let that happen. If Nureyev was having trouble, or looking to leave, he would have told him. Juno trusted him.

He dressed and washed his face and walked downstairs to grab some breakfast before starting to get the bar together for opening. Hopefully, the rest of the day would pass without incident, and he could chalk this nauseous, nervous feeling up to a nightmare that he couldn’t quite remember.

It was what he saw at the bar while half-way down the stairs that really made him feel sick to his stomach.

Buddy was leaned over a half-empty bottle of whisky, rubbing the bridge of her nose, tear tracks shiny on her face. That bottle had been full when he had replaced it on the shelf last night. She never drank this early in the morning, and never that much. Always said it made her unfit to serve the public or interact with any decent human being. Jet, the man she had employed as a bar bouncer when times were better, was standing next to her, a large hand on her shoulder. He was crying too. Buddy only called him when things were drastic, like when their latest whiskey shipment had been stolen by pirates on its way to the bar.

And then there was Rita.

Rita, who wore her heart and its many thoughts on her sleeve like a badge of honor for her humanity, was nearly silent. She was snot-nosed and puffy-eyed, like she had been crying for hours, and said absolutely nothing outside of the occasional sniffle and a quiet request for Jet to grab her a glass of milk from the kitchen.

Juno thought he might hurl right there on the stairs. A silent Rita was new. Juno had known her for years, and she had never stopped talking once.

What the hell had happened?

He cautiously came down the rest of the stairs and approached the bar. Buddy looked up at his approach and tried to wipe some of the tears from her face just as Jet returned from the kitchen with the milk for Rita. “Good morning, Juno.”

“Hey, big guy,” Juno responded, nodding in Jet’s direction before looking at each one of the weeping figures in turn. “What happened? You guys look like hell. Did we get another snowstorm in the middle of the night or something?”

The three of them exchanged a look that Juno couldn’t quite decipher before Buddy answered.

“I think Rita can answer that question better than Jet or I can,” she croaked before downing another swig of whisky.

Juno turned to Rita and reached out to wipe a stray hair out of her face. “Hey, Rita, what happened? It’s okay, it can’t be that bad, right?”

At that, Rita burst into tears again. “It is, it really is that bad, Mista Steel! You don’t get it! It’s the worst thing! It’s about Mista Nureyev!”

Juno’s heart dropped through the floor the second she said his name. “Rita. Rita, look at me. Rita. DAMMIT, I need you to tell me what happened to him.”

Rita looked at him then, with such a look of despair and heartbreak on her face that Juno’s heart ached for her. And then he realized. He knew that expression. It was nearly second nature to him. He had seen it every morning on his own face in the mirror after Benten had-

And then he knew.

He breathed in, breathed out. Took a step back. The floor was spinning. He dropped to his knees. “No. No it can’t- no, no, no, no, this can’t be right, Nureyev can’t be…”

Rita nodded, tears still flowing steadily down her face as she clambered off the bar stool to hug Juno. “He came back after dark last night, and I thought he was actin’ real sketchy, so I watched him for a while, and then when the sun started comin’ up, he packed up some stuff and left, but I followed him, only he didn’t know, ‘cause I acted real sneaky-like, and he went to a train station that I’m pretty sure wasn’t there before, and he met these big, creepy guys, and they gave him paypawork to sign, ‘cause I think they were makin’ some kinda deal, and once Mista Nureyev signed it, he fell down and started coughin’, and then one of the big guys said somethin’ about not havin’ enough time to wait for him to die, and then the otha one pulled out a huuuuuge knife, and then he- then he-”

She burst into sobs again on Juno’s shoulder. His ears were ringing and he knew his face was deathly pale. This wasn’t real. It couldn’t be real.

Buddy looked at him hollowly from the bar. “Rita said he called your name. It was the last thing he did before he… before they loaded his body up onto a train and left.”

‘He called your name. It was the last thing he did before he died.’ And Juno didn’t even hear him. He hadn’t been paying attention. How long had he been calling? How long had Juno been ignoring him? Why was he only now hearing his echo instead of his voice? How pathetic was he, that he prioritized a fucking song over his husband? What was wrong with him? But of course, as soon as he realized his problem, it was already too late to solve it. 

He never got to say goodbye.

Dimly, Juno realized he was shivering and tears were flowing down his face and Rita was apologizing profusely that she didn’t do anything to try and save him. He couldn’t remember the last time he had felt so horrible about himself. 

Now, it was all over. He’d lost him forever, and it was all his fault.

He would never get to see Peter Nureyev again.

He sat there, curled up on the floor for a moment longer before a different wave of feeling crept over him.

No.

No.

This was not the end. He wouldn’t let it be the end.

He was going to get his husband back if it was the last thing he ever did.

He sat up, wiped the tears from his face, and grabbed Rita by the shoulders, lightly shaking her out of her self-deprecating ramble.

“Rita. Rita, look at me. I need you to tell me everything you know about the Underworld. It’s important. Really important.”

“Well,” Rita sniffled, wiping her face on the sleeves of her sky blue sweater, “I heard a while back about there bein’ a back door. A way to get in without havin’ to actually, ya know, die or somethin’.”

Jet nodded sagely. “This is true. I walked that road with a friend of mine years ago, trying to save people from unwise decisions.”

“It’s not easy though, Mista Steel. The road is reeeeeaaaaally long and difficult, and with the weatha bein’ the way is it, you could get caught in a storm and get hurt, and I don’t want you to get hurt, Mista Steel!!”

Buddy looked at Juno again, an odd kind of hollow despair marking her face, like she saw something in Juno’s set jaw and bright eyes that made her want to disappear. “I know what you’re thinking, Juno, and it won’t work. I’ve tried. Believe me.”

“I’m not going to give up on him this easily.” There was a defiant flame rising in him now, melting the shards of his broken heart back into a semblance of hope. “I can get him back. I know I can.”

Jet walked over from his perch next to Buddy and crouched on the floor next to Juno. “Rita is right, Juno. The road to Hadestown is not an easy one to take, which is why I must ask you: how far are you willing to go for your husband?”

The flame grew into a wildfire. 

“To the ends of the fucking earth.”

There was silence as Jet examined him for a moment longer, face expressionless, before letting out a small sigh and standing up again. “Very well then. Pack your things. I will take you to where the road to Hadestown begins. If you are going to make stupid choices, I will at least make sure you can begin making them safely.”

Buddy started shaking her head vehemently. “No, no, no. You can’t let him go, Jet darling, he’s just going to get himself killed too. It’s not safe.”

“And yet you took the same course of action all those years ago, Buddy. What does that say about you?”

A muscle in Buddy’s jaw twitched as she took another long swig of whiskey. Juno slowly stood up, like a prey animal caught between two predators trying to remain ignored. He desperately wanted to know what had happened between the two of them, but somehow got the impression that any requests to know would be soundly ignored. 

Buddy glared at Jet with one sharp eye, but said nothing.

Jet sighed again and put a large hand on Juno’s shoulder. “Go grab your things. We will leave in two hours.”

“Wait for me, Mista Steel! I’m comin’ too! I gotta go get my stuff and then I’ll go with ya! Lil old Rita isn’t as fast as she used to be! Wait up!”

Juno sprinted up the stairs, Rita’s voice carrying after him. And in spite of the loss he had just suffered, he was grinning.

Hang on, Nureyev. Just a little longer.

He was going to get his husband back. At any cost.

[vynseducationalflagpole]

Moral of the Story

"A soulmate who wasn't meant to be"

Artem x Reader

Genre: Angst

Warnings: mentions of "Attempted murd€®" portrayed as a case where you and artem participate in theres no exact details on it, it was just mentioned

Typos ahead (I honestly dunno how to use desolation and melancholy in a sentence so—)

A/N: ITS SO HARD TO MAKE ANGST FOR A MALE WIFE OMFGGG(This was inspired by that ome case in Artem's personal story i forgor which was it)

It's been quite some time since you and Artem have ever confessed to each other yet not much has changed. Though, I meant those in a bad way. Artem still looks at you with a gentle gaze, he still looks like that 'Cold looking superior' and the only thing that changed was how he treated you. There were rare occasions wherein he'd show you a plenty amount of affection and unfortunately, there are still times where he just completely 'ignores' you. You felt that he was trying his best so you've let him do his things until things get a bit too much.

Artem barely ever calls you. The last time that you had a court defense, Artem wasn't present. When you went to a party with your coworkers, he wasn't there. You do occasionally pass by him but he just keeps his eyes ahead blinding himself from his surroundings. Now coming back to the present, Artem was asked to handle this certain case involving an attempted murder. The victim was still somewhat emotionally affected by the accident but still manages to warm up to you. Captain Darius Morgan had assigned you to take care of the Victim for the mean time and you agreed. Artem had never allowed you to go inside the scene and neither did Darius. Even though you've told them that the victim had a camera present in there which could help you drastically but they deny that fact.

You took it upon yourself to go inside and attempt to take it back but for some reason, due to your bad luck, Artem was also inside. You try to hide away from him but he still finds you. An argument between you had broken out and died down when Artem heard the following words come out of your mouth. "Break up". He remains speechless and spaced out. He wasn't sure to what to do and say in the situation so he stays perfectly still the whole time. While you stare at the frozen in front of you, you take the evidence and leave the area. You gave it to Captain Morgan and told him that Artem found it. As soon as you got the permission to go back home, you drive away. Your vision blurs as you feel something stream down your face. You attempt to wipe them but they keep reappearing. The cold atmosphere outside hasn't bothered you this much. 'Maybe I've caught a cold' you thought to yourself. Even though you knew that it was unlikely, you did it to convince yourself.

On the other hand, Artem puts one hand on the steering wheel as he contemplates his actions. He thinks back as far as he can just to see your lovely smile once more. Artem felt such a melancholic feeling yet he keeps on focusing on your smile. His face then 'Attempts to do the same yet he can't overcome the desolation he feels. "Everyone makes mistakes, it's okay. Nobody's perfect, keep calm." He replays those words again and again on his mind like a broken record in an attempt to reassure himself but all it does is make him feel worse. He parks at the side of the street to calm and collect himself for a second and then continues to go on his way. He lays in bed looking at the ceiling. For some reason, he hears your voice resonating, he feels a warm breeze beside him but when he looks, there's nobody there. He closes his eyes to forget the past as he goes and drifts away as the night goes. Despite his hard work, his memories with you kept repeating in his head but instead of your warm smile and kind words, he sees you visibly upset at him. You stood there silently judging him as you spew harsh words at him. 'I never should've tried. I never should've held your hand. You were just a stranger yet I couldn't help but indulge myself.' Despite those negative thoughts, Artem tells himself again. 'But atleast I finally knew how it felt to love, right? Even though most of it didn't feel—right, Atleast you were there with me.'

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A/N: Now imagine that he was just stressed for some engagement preparations and he was avoiding bcs he thinks ur so smart that you'd find out abt his preparations in a single glance HAHAHAHSHHAJX

happy advance new year yall<3333

[b4cteriophage]

bleh i could not write somethin good today im sorry

i forgor how to write 💀

Hank trudged into 2BDamned’s makeshift medbay, letting out a miserably dramatic sigh. 2BDamned swivled around in his seat to assess the situation as Hank wobbled over to the metal table they had sat on so many times with a huff.

“I assume you’re not terribly injured if you’re putting on such a show,” sneered the not-doctor. Hank glared at him, then shrugged off his stained jacket to reveal a few bullet holes and a gaping knife wound that stretched around his midriff.

“Jebus Christ Hank,” 2BDamned sighed, rubbing his eyes as he shut his computer. He wasted no time getting supplies, darting around the room grabbing who knows what from crevices and corners. Hank peeled off his shirt, tossing it on the floor haphazardly. 2BDamned pulled up a stool, placing a small first aid kit on the table next to Hank. His fingers fidgeted as he took a closer look at Hank’s newest wounds.

‘You here to oggle me or fix me up?’ Hank signed “I’m not oggling you. I’ve seen you naked more than you have yourself, Wimbleton.” ‘Pervert’ “Do you want me to stitch you or not? Because we both know how god awful your job at it is.” Hank didn’t snap back at that one, earning a snicker out of the dissenter. 2BDamned worked like a macine, sewing up Hank was basically muscle memory at this point. He quickly wrapped up his work, taking off his gloves with a sigh as Hank slid off the table with a grunt.

“You’ve been awfully tense lately, Hank.” “What of it,” Hank grumbled, surprising 2BDamned. The mercenary rarely talked, and even when they did it was never more than a short whisper. Even when they and 2BDamned were alone, he could barely get a peep out of them unless he flooded them with questions.

“Well, I just wanted to know if you’d like to stay here the night? You’ve been running around like a chicken with its head cut off lately. And… I haven’t really gotten to see you as much…” Hank felt a pang at that one. They knew 2B rarely ever said how he actually felt, and was usually one to make excuses to hide his real motives. There was no harm in staying, they decided. They did need it.

Hank nodded, and although 2BDamned had his mask on, they could tell he was smiling. “I’ll get the booze,” he grinned. ‘You found booze? How?’ Hank questioned, tilting their head. Any kind of alcohol was as rare as diamonds in Nevada, since the A.A.H.W. soldiers tended to hoarde any of it they could find. “I have my ways,” 2BDamned said, which only made Hank raise his eyebrow further.

—

The two sat side by side in a part of the building that was half crumbled, allowing a view of the star-studded sky. 2BDamned had rested his head on Hank’s shoulder, taking swigs of wiskey straight from the bottle. He handed the bottle to Hank, who took a long sip before handing it back.

Hank had at first taken these small moments for granted. They were a man who always had to be on the move, always had to be doing something, going somewhere, never stopping. But 2BDamned forced them to slow down- which they abhored at first- but grew to yearn.

Hank eyed the dissenter, admiring his every feature. His chapped lips, pulled and stretched into mangled mountain ranges of scars that tapered off at the end of his jaw, his soft, peppered hair that barely brushed his shoulders- Hank could stare at him for hours. 2BDamned’s lidded eyes met Hank’s gaze. Hank nearly melted under that gaze, but couldn’t look away even if they tried their damn hardest. “Look who’s staring at who now,” 2BDamned scoffed, a soft smile teasing at his lips. Hank huffed and looked away, his cheeks not just warm from the alcohol, which they took from 2B’s hands to have a taste. ‘You’re beautiful. I mean it.’ 2BDamned snorted, looking away with a flustered laugh. “You’re just saying that.”

His tone was playful, but Hank could tell he was genuine behind it. “I… do mean it…” he said, clearing his throat after. The dissenter just let out a sad sigh, more interested in the cold concrete floor than in Hank’s response. Hank growled, setting down the bottle of whiskey before grabbing the small man and pulling him into their lap. “Hank, what the hell-“ 2BDamned started, but was cut off by a kiss. 2B was caught by surprise, but quickly melted into the kiss, wrapping his arms around Hank’s neck and sinking into their embrace. Hank pulled away. ‘I love you,’ they signed, ‘and I could… I could stare at you for hours.’ “Simp,” said 2BDamned, holding in a laugh. Hank smacked him on the head with a huff of annoyance. ‘I profess my love to you and you call me a simp. You’re more insufferable then fighting that damn clown.’ “And yet you can’t get enough of me,” 2BDamned grinned, kissing Hank’s neck with a grin. “Urgh,” Hank deadpanned, even though their face was flush red with that simple gesture. 2BDamned laughed, kissing Hank on the cheek. “You seem even more tense then before, Wimbleton,” he teased. “Be quiet, you twink.” “Twink? You’ve been hanging around Deimos too much.” “You jealous?” “Of you choosing to drain years from your life talking to him? Course not.” Hank chuckled.

It was always a victory for 2BDamned to get even a small laugh out of them, and he tried his hardest to make the mercenary laugh whenever he could. He knew full well they needed it.

“How are they doing? Sanford and Deimos, I mean.” Hank cleared his throat once, twice before speaking. “They’re fine… found a nice place to stay… although Deimos called me a bottom last time I visited, so-“ Hank cleared his throat, then coughed. 2BDamned rubbed their back, which they leaned into like a cat. “So I broke his nose.” 2BDamned burst out laughing. “He isn’t even wrong, Hank.” “You- You BARELY top me.” “Because we barely have time to top and be topped Hank. You’re constantly doing something.” “I know. I- should stop. Sometimes. So we can… spend time…” “Hank… it’s fine. I enjoy these moments because of how rare they are. You don’t need something else to worry about. It’s fine. I mean it.” Hank sighed, and pressed his lips against 2BDamned’s. The man quickly returned the kiss, cupping Hank’s face in his rough, scarred hands.

—

Hank replayed that moment in their head again as they lie awake in bed late that night, 2BDamned’s small frame curled up in the crook of their arm, bare skin against bare skin. They stared at the ceiling, wondering what they did to deserve this fragile being full of love, before slowly falling asleep.

[angstashes]

Egotober (Day Five) - Water

Trigger Warning: Mention of kidnapping Characters: Captain Magnum Summary: Captain Magnum just looking at the ocean and reflecting on memories. Word Count: 312 Was supposed to be posted on 05/10/21 but is it posted on 09/07/22 (because I forgor about posting daily + got busy with family stuff) __

Blue oceans and the sight of ocean life filled the captain's view as he looked around. A smile slowly formed on Magnum's face as he loved this sight so much, wishing it could see it forever. However, he couldn't, and he knew that. Still, the view was nice, and they had a rather calm ocean to travel on for once, which was a good thing. 

Magnum glanced around the ship, looking at the crew; Most were doing work to keep the ship in working-order, others chatting, and the last remaining few were eating due to breakfast being made hours ago. Everything overall was relaxing and peaceful among the crewmates.

The captain then looked at the ocean again, seeming as if something about it drew him in. Honestly, looking at the water source reminded him of his time at home.

|~*~|

"Don't go into the ocean," The captain's mom demanded. "Pirates have been going around, kidnapping young kids like you, Magnum. Be careful, and stay away from the beaches," His mother warned. The poor woman already lost her husband earlier that year, and there was no telling if she could stand losing her son the same year. She couldn't live alone in silence without a person to talk to.

The younger captain nodded and slowly took the money his mom handed him. "I'll go to the market and be right back, I promised," He told his mom. He waited for his mom to dismiss him before leaving the poor woman. Little did he know he was never going to see her again.

|~*~|

The captain shivered, looking away from the water. Maybe it was best not to look back on such memories as those. His mother was kind, and he hoped the best for her, but he's not with her anymore, and Magnum wouldn't be able to go back anyway.

Even if he wanted to.