#which I also want to remedy

[arolesbianism]

I have been playing beastieball and first of all very good game second of all smth smth Olivia Broussard

[wanderingibon]

actually baffled that I've never drawn my favorite character(s) of all time on here so I had to remedy that immediately!!! ft. crow & glint

[unopenablebox]

the way people talk about """"building community"""" feels so weirdly like. abstract? artificial? alienating? idk. i see those posts and have an immediate reflexive feeling of "this could only be done by some entirely other kind of person with whom i share no skills or interpersonal approaches" and it takes me a while after that to remember that i organized a union

[ahalliance]

how do i turn qantoine’s spontaneous marriage proposal to qetoiles into evidence of his early-days fear of qfrench drifing away and keeping secrets from one another

[icewindandboringhorror]

"We can get through this by working together, reach out to your friends, community is all we have, a social network will be your security in the world, now is the time to lean on others!"

I do agree, and it's scientifically sound (pretty sure there is data about how people with better social networks live longer and etc) but also....augh..... what about the severe social issues, difficulty to leave the house, physical issues which lead to like zero socialization energy a majority of the time, etc. etc. Social support can be a replacement for structural support, but.. I guess I just wish it didn't have to be. Community is extremely difficult to build, even moreso if you're someone who has issues with social cues or group conversations or even just being around others in the first place. And blah, nuance, of course I'm just complaining or maybe being too negative or maybe misunderstanding, but, I hardly have the energy to brush my hair once every 2 months.. how am I supposed to maintain a wide social network and be active in a Community and Join Groups lol... sometimes it kind of feels like "er.. well if thats my only option then...... ruh roh". It's overwhelming

[l3ominor]

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[youssefguedira]

if i really wanted to i could contrast the old guard 2020 and diabolik 2021 as comic book adaptations and the different ways they approach both adapting their source material i.e. diabolik as an adaptation is both paying homage to its source material constantly and regularly reminding you that it is a comic book adaptation whereas the old guard is more trying to make a regular action movie based on a comic book, drawing occasional visual parallels that won't be recognisable unless the viewer is familiar with the source material. both are also adapting the story in some way for film, but diabolik stays much more strictly to the book it's adapting while the old guard makes a lot of changes (afaik there's almost nothing from the comics verbatim) but keeps the core of the story and essential scenes in. something interesting there about diabolik reminding us of the series' origin as comics probably due to a) its long-running history and b) cultural icon status (source: me and my powerpoint) vs the old guard falling into what i might call the current style of comic book adaptation where the focus is on appealing to a wide audience, comics fans or not, to the point where you might not even know it's based on a comic outside of marketing. but also essentially i think a comic book adaptation should match the tone of its original, which they both do: the old guard is a darker, more serious, more "adult" comic, and so it follows that the adaptation largely follows that tone (save for one or two parts that to me feel very recognisably comic book style), whereas diabolik is, albeit technically also for adults, a different genre / tone. and then there's something else to be said there in the evolution of comics considered adult, e.g. diabolik considered adult in the context of its first publishing because it contained crime and killing but generally becoming considered one of the more tame examples of the subgenre it spawned, vs the old guard being adult in terms of current standards via depicting sex / nudity / swearing / violence far beyond the scope of diabolik, which is pretty much unchanged. anyway these two things are not really connected beyond "both being comic book movie adaptations released in the 2020s featuring notable italian luca marinelli in a somewhat major role as a character who says vaguely ominous things and largely emotes through microexpressions" but it's fun to think about sometimes

[velvetjune]

the need to talk about Alan Wake all the time has become a personal issue

[pepprs]

ok. moving out update. today i:

talked to my beloved ex supervisor / mentor (<- SCARY!!!!!) to ask her about her experiences living by herself esp as a short woman (which is not a big deal except for how it is + how my parents think it is) and get her advice abt how to navigate that experience psychologically and practically. i asked her if we could talk abt this very impulsively on thursday after not having the courage to do it for almost a year btw (<- BRAVE!!!!!!!!) and i was still too scared / embarrassed to ask her some stuff abt safety / self defense lol but it mostly went really well!

started making a budget and determined that a) i may be getting overpaid somehow (😳) b) i may be getting double or even triple charged for my health and life insurance (😒) so now i need to call hr on monday and figure all of that out. and also c) i suck at math but we knew that. but i forced myself to figure out what i did wrong so that’s an achievement

made my first ever student loan payment 😀🔫

booked a tour of one apartment and attempted to book a tour of another (the same place i was looking at in may) but their website was glitching out and then they didn’t answer when i called to schedule it over the phone which. hm. 😒 but yeah the tour(s) will happen mid week next week and im going to ride the shuttle to the apartment complex(es) and back to campus to see what that’s like too!

posted on local subr*ddit asking for recommendations for those two apartments + other places in the area. haven’t gotten anything back bc i just made the post but 😎👍

read a bunch of old journal entries from 2021 to remind myself of what it was like to move onto campus and how i pushed through my family’s hurt and disapproval to live the way i needed to. haven’t finished reading it all yet but i will tomorrow (while also doing my stupid homework 🙄)

[lyanachaan]

what about sideritis?

My beloved wip of all time... Sideritis is actually a rework of an older fanfic of mine with the same title. It's more a less a comfort piece for me and I'm trying to do it justice with what I have stuck in my mind. It's about the point where Yelenas and Cullens relationship reaches the very blurry line between professional tolerance and genuien affection. It's basically a "both are pinning but are too much in denial to realise".

It's currently still a wip only because i just can't come to a satisfying end.

It was early. So early in fact that the Makers blessed light hadn’t risen over the horizon yet, dew and frost still clinging to the mountain peaks and the keep’s walls. Everything lay still at rest, no chirping of birds or howling winds, not even the boundless night sky seemed to move and most of Skyhold was still sound asleep. The cold mountain air mixed with smoke stoked by a hearth down below in the courtyard, soon it would carry the smell of fresh bread. He wasn’t sure how long he had been just lying there, staring at the hole in his room, watching the sky slowly bleed from dark ink to soft hues of blue and gray. The heat of his skin had ebbed away as he had counted the steps and shifts of the nightwatch just outside his tower, distracting his mind with whatever he could. It felt less tacky now, the sheets not clinging to him so tightly anymore. 

One, two. Then came a creak, a thud. Three, four, five, six, just below him. Another creak and thud.  The nightwatch had an hour left before they were released from their duty, as they passed through his office for the last time that night. An hour before sunrise they made their last lap across the battlements. An hour of peace he would have before the doors to his office would open and close without as much as a thought. Cullen took a deep breath before slowly sitting upright and swinging his legs over the edge of his bed. The polished wooden planks were nearly too hard against his soles, feeling as if his bones were jutting right against each other. He feared to sink down to his knees. Resting his elbows on his thighs he interlocked his fingers, head dropping between his shoulders and pressing his clammy forehead against his fist. A quick prayer left his lips in the blue hours of early morning, as most of Skyhold was supposed to be asleep, when he was supposed to be asleep. A soft sigh escaped his lips, exhaling whatever breath was left in his lungs. Sleep kept slipping his fingers like the sands of the hissing waste, memories come to taunt him in what sparse hour he would manage to catch. He was used to it by now, though he wished he wasn’t, wished this occurrence wasn't bound to normalcy.  Flexing his fingers he dared to push up from his bed, feeling his limbs tremor slightly just below his skin. He stood still for a moment before taking a careful step towards his dressing table. His body weighed heavily on his bones, almost lumbering across his small room, his feet barely lifting from the ground. The new patches of cold floor were a small relief to his bare skin with every step he took, just as much as the cold washcloth he ran across his face and down his arms. In the low light of early morning Cullen barely recognised his own face in the small mirror before him, the shadows making it look all the more sunken. The rougher than usual stubble across his jaw was partly to blame for it, yet he would only cut his skin if he tried to shave it now. Reaching across he took a small vial into his hand, even in the low light he could make out the intricate swirls of the glass, light twinkling off its edges like tiny specs of stars.  Compared to the rest of his dressing table, even compared to the rest of his room the vial seemed out of place, like it didn’t belong. Swirls etched into unmarred glass, its smooth edges felt nice against his skin as he absentmindedly ran his thumb across them. They unwillingly reminded him of the same smooth lines running across her cheeks and forehead. The little bit of light that made its way into his room through the open roof made the ornaments twinkle like a trail of stars. As he uncorked the vial the faint smell spilling from it was one of an elfroot salve mixed with a freshness of something akin to citrus. Something that was entirely her to him. It helped alleviate the pain in his joints. His fingers moved in a circular motion, massaging the liquid into his skin, just like she did when she first brought him the salve.  He was skeptical back then, he still remembered her furrowed brow and the curve of her lips as she held his hand, concentration and stubbornness etched into her face, yet her grip had been loose enough for him to take back control any moment. Even in her insistence she didn’t force him. Afterwards the Inquisitor had pressed the vial into his hand and refused to take it back and ever since it had found its place in his barren loft.  With a soft clink he put the vial back onto the dressing table. A sigh escaped his lips as he ran his fingers through his hair, the ache slowly ebbing away. With a last glance at the small mirror he straightened his shoulders, standing up taller and feigning confidence as he donned his fur coat, foregoing his armor.

[strawberryfaced]

I am feeling sick actually. I have to go see a really beautiful tree and hear the birds sing now thanks

[dionysus-complex]

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[website-com]

i know youre all wanting to know if this foul muck or the mans clean smooth medicine is better for my oozing body. i know youre all nasty and dying to know

[wizardofpalmsprings]

I completely forgot I left Minthara alive and got jump scared when she showed up at Moonrise. She’s in camp now but the game doesn’t fully expect that you would ask both Halsin and Minthara to join you so her tent is now over laid with his. Thaniel is just chilling next to Minthara meanwhile Halsin is halfway across camp next to Shadowheart.

[amatres]

anyway my personal ranks of origins backstories just in the game by themselves is brosca and tabris at the top, aeducan at the bottom. cousland i will admit is pretty impactful but i still feel like, as wild as an option it would have been, that a cousland warden should had the option to solo rule. they are from the only other teryn in ferelden and it's even said that it was considered for bryce to rule so like! come on!

aeducan is at the bottom because it so tightly locks you into siding against bhelen, which i suppose is fair for brosca being so skewed in behlens favor bc of rica, but brosca is just Good so i forgive that, while aeducan is just suffering.

i still stand by my idea that the 'noble' dwarven origin shouldn't have been the second aeducan child, they should have been the second aeducan's second in place of gorim. that way there would have been more room for roleplay. also the second aeducan child would have been a secret third option for ruler of orzammar that you would encounter with the legion of the dead that they joined after being kicked out.

you would have to both do the legion of dead quest to give them a noble caste, and also have high as hell coercion for it to work but it would really cool and also so funny to do. that said the origin just by itself is pretty fun, love being backstabbed by my second favorite baby brother from the dragon age franchise

mahariel and the magi warden are in the 'i like them but they don't feel as impactful' as much as it hurts me. they're both just kinda there, however that said if the game let you recruit jowan into your party that would bring the magi warden up much higher. alas.

[montanabohemian]

i honestly don't know how many times i have to repeat myself that the u.s. is not a two-party system but is already a multiparty system. you're just being deliberately obtuse ignoring other legitimate parties that are not republican or democrat. you're just mad that the republican and democrat parties have spent literal decades building foundations to have a platform and raise a ton of money to run candidates across the country. if you want other parties to do that, then you have to actually put in the fucking work.

if any of you actually took two seconds to study comparative politics (or just looked at a multiparty system in action), you'd recognize that every single one operates the same fucking way: through coalitions. there are usually two major opposing parties and if one can't win a majority, they work with other parties to create a fucking coalition party. you fucking dumbasses are so thick that you can't be bothered to see that that is exactly how it works in congress in the united states (and in all state legislatures). most independent politicians are gonna lean towards the left and libertarians are gonna lean to the right (until the republicans piss them off).

it isn't fucking rocket science. politics is pretty similar across the world. but every single country is just a little different. and it has to be. because every nation is unique. their way of government cannot be cookie cutter same.

the real problem facing the united states elections is two-fold: money in elections and voter suppression.

stop getting your fucking information from idiotic memes about european countries that are wildly racist and xenophobic.