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MEETCUTESNYC LESTAPPEN VER. (MV1, CL16)
charles leclerc x driver!childhood friend!reader x max verstappen (no team or gender specified) summary. you, max, and charles are approached by the meetcutesnyc instagram account, and this is how it goes. (1k) warnings. should be none!! andi's note!! obviously this is not the oscar fic i was working on but i keep seeing these reels on ig and i got inspired :) â if you don't know what i'm talking about the account is meetcutesnyc & they go up to couples and ask them how they met, etc.
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meetcutesnyc Sports Rivals
["Excuse me." You, Max, and Charles all look up at the sound of his voice. Max has a blank look on his face, expecting a fan interaction, while you and Charles both look a little spooked. "Are you two a couple?" The person behind the camera gestures to you and Charles.
Max snorts, "All three of us, actually." You roll your eyes as Charles nods. "That's awesome. Would you guys mind telling me the story of how you all met?" Charles visibly lightens up, and he nods eagerly.
"I will tell the story."
The camera cuts, and now you're all standing along the edge of the sidewalk with Charles in the middle. "I met them both in karting when I was seven, but they met when they were younger. They hated each other, and at first, I played the mediator, for a while, actually. But then, Max really started to get on my nerves." Charles laughs a bit, his cheeks turning rosy. "So we," He gestures to you and him, "Became his number one hate group. He was our enemy." Max rolls his eyes at 'enemy' before interjecting.
"I was their enemy because I was better, of course." You and Charles both begin speaking over each other, arguing about your skills. Max just laughs as you both go on. Eventually, Charles calms down enough to continue. "Then, it was 20, uh, 2015. They come up to me and say that they went out on a date with Max-- him of all people! I was outraged. First, he got an F1 seat, then he got my crush, too? Oh, it was horrible. It destroyed me."
You shake your head, an amused smile on your face, "He's being dramatic, he literally asked me out the next day." Charles gasps. "I am telling the story, let me continue."
"So, I learn of this and then I go to Max and tell him about my feelings for them. Then Max just goes 'oh I like you too if you're cool with that'. I was shocked! Who wouldn't be? So, the next day I go up to them and I ask them if they want to go out on a date with me and Max. Obviously, they said yes. And now we are here, many years later."
"What's the secret to ten years together?" Max's face scrunches up in response and he turns toward the two of you. "Has it really been ten years?"
"Unfortunately, yes." Before they can start bickering, you answer the the original question. "We work together so it's really easy to see each other, but when we don't that's a little hard, obviously. But, I think our rivalry keeps things going, even during the off-season, we're arguing or joking about something that happened 13 years ago."
"Racing against each other definitely makes it very interesting. Adds some fun to everything, I think." Max teases, his eyebrows raised. "It's also just nice in the summer; we go on vacation and don't do anything. We just enjoy our time together," Charles adds.
"And what are your names?"
"Charles." "Max." "Y/n."
"Thank you." You wave toward the camera, and the video ends.]

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user charles and y/n being the original max haters...yeah i could've guessed that lol
user the funniest part is they're like his biggest defenders now đđ user the verstappen hater to max defender pipeline is in fact very real, no one can resist his charm âł user loser cat dad charm âł user user duh ofc user gax rivalry at the end of 2024...where he mentioned how y/n and charles would do anything to defend max...uh huh, yeah cool
user charles being so excited to tell their story đ he just knows everyone will eat it up
user and i did. i've watched this video 30 times now and it just keeps getting cuter
user "adds some fun to everything" oh yeah i'm sure it does max đŒ
user never forget las vegas 2023...i have those pictures saved to a special pinterest board that i look at every day âł user and las vegas 2024...i can't wait for november, las vegas has become their number one race for being insanely hot in public user max always needs to add an innuendo if he's in an interview with either of them đ
user i was today years old when i learned they've been dating for ten years...i thought this was a recent thing
user you and max apparently đ user it's been recent publically, but everyone kinda assumed they've been dating for a while just bc of the way they act
user playing the y/n champagne pour edit on my tv while i watch lestappen interviews on my phone
user #1 y/n edit, good choice user every time i see anything related to any of them, i'm opening my camera roll to watch the edits i've saved
user max looked so offended when the guy didn't realize all three of them were dating đ how obvious does he think their relationship is
user literally everyone knew before they announced it lmao âł user how do you think they look to an outsider tho? not everyone's an f1 fan âł user never forget ted kravitz interviewing y/n pre-silverstone 2022 where they jokingly said they were gonna crash into charles for 'leaking their relationship' and then having to do damage control later when they actually (accidentally) crashed âł user user watching those interviews seasons later actually had me crying đ literally no one would believe them
user watching this makes me wonder how the grid deals with third-wheeling them all the time, it must get tiring at a certain point
user they seem so fun to be around tho, they're always bickering đ„Č user please tell me you've seen those compilations on yt of clips of the grid being annoyed/rolling their eyes at them whenever they're around đđ âł user OMG??? i'm about to run to youtube i need to see this

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Bunny⣠àł
summary: Churchbunny!Reader starts writing to Criminal!Rafe through a prison pen pal program meant for the churchâs older volunteers⊠but she chose him instead.
Criminal!Rafe x ChruchBunny!Reader
cw: fluff!!
You were never even supposed to be at that table. But you crossed that line.
It was set up at the chapel foyer after Sunday service, a small quiet program for the âoverlooked and mischancedïżœïżœ. He named it letter of Mercy. A pen pal program for the incarcerated. Meant for the kind hearted women, motherly. Women with age softened hands and caring actions. No, not you.
But youâd been observing the table. Most people walked through the door, past the full table. You were about to walk to your car, then you stopped. You stopped behind the folding table like something called you. You ran your fingers along the stack of files before picking up one
Rafe Cameron.
Then a short summary: multiple counts of second-degree murder. Public indecency. Battery. Incarcerated for 20 years.
Somehow, to you that was the one. You snuck the folder with you.
The first letter was cautious, written in black ink on delicate stationary with pink flowers. You didnât sign your full name but told him everything. How you woke up early to make cinnamon coffee and a breakfast sandwich for your dad, lay flowers on your mothers grave, drive the youth choir to competitions, and the clothes you thrifted and made to your taste. You told him how you felt unheard, missing, like you never connect to anything. And he wrote back.
He stayed himself, not changing. Told you what he did, how he did them. Names. Blood. You read them like it was the holy grail.
Youâd never even kissed anyone, never even touched a man talk less of kiss. No never, not like that. You werenât supposed to, you were meant to wait, wait for the right man. But he triggered something chemical in you. You wanted to learn more.
So you sent him a lock of your beautiful hair. Doused in Carolina Herrera perfume. Then a few weeks later, an old locket with your face in it.
You eventually went to see him, going through a centuries worth of documents. Your dress was modest. Pastel pink. Lace along the collar and white pumps. You had to get the permission to bring Rafe treats, just a few homemade cookies, and a small paperback Bible.
He smiled and inhaled around every single bite he took.
âDidnât think you were real. Thought it was an investigation tactic from these assholes,â he muttered. âThought God made you up to tease me.â
You blushed so hard you felt your ears burn. You covered you mouth with your hands bashfully, giggling.
Right after that very moment he started calling you Bunny. His Bunny.
âMy Bunny,â heâd scrawl at the top of every letter with his surprisingly good handwriting, âtell me what youâre wearing today, and what kinda birds are outside your window..â
âWhat lipstick did your wear today?â
âWhere do you go when youâre lonely?.â
You answered every question he asked with a million paragraphs, your heart swelling with adoration with each. You never stopped writing.
Each visit blurred your memory of what heâd done, all you could see was a broken man holding your soft hand with his calluses veined one, staring into your eyes with a daydreamy face. You told yourself that it was mission work. That you were softening a sinner.
You never asked him to stop calling you bunny.
Never. Not once.

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Canât be friends.
Paige x Azzi
Word count: 1.2k
An: an anon asked for this and I started it yesterday then I had dance then the knicks were playing (they lostđ) and Iâm just now finishing it k bye hope ya like! Also I added like no fluff and lowk leaving it on a cliffhanger cs idk what else to addđ€§
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Paige and Azzi had always been, different. Their parents noticed it when they first became friends. Their teammates noticed it when Azzi stepped on UConnâs campus for the first time, and Paigeâs mood drastically changed.
The only people who didnât seem to notice were Paige and Azzi themselves.
They went along with being âjust best friendsâ though, the lines between that and something more had been crossed years before.
They went along with being âjust best friendsâ until the glances between them lasted a beat too long. The hands on backs rested lower. And, the tension between them was so thick, people were starting to see it.
Especially their teammates.
âOk Paige. What the hell is going on between you and Azzi.â Ice asked Paige, while watching the lobby screen of their fortnight game.
âYeah,â Kk chimed in. âYou guys are like, super, weirdly, close.â
âBruuh. What are yâall even saying right now?â Paige asked, with an incredulous look on her face.
âWeâre asking, friend to friend, if you and Azzi have something going on.â Ice said, matter of factly. âItâs totally chill if yâall do, I mean, we donât care, we just wanna know.â
Paige slowly put her controller down, and turned to look at her friends. âThereâs no way youâre seriously asking me that. Right? Me and Azzi are just friends. Whyâs that so hard to believe? Sure, weâre close but, yâall are close too. Itâs the same thing.â
Ice and Kk shared a look.
âNo. Itâs not the same honey. Not at all. I mean sure Ice and I are close but, you and Azzi, yâall are close.â Kk said, putting emphasis on the last word.
âDefine âcloseâ. Because since Azzi and I are just soo âcloseâ, Iâm sure you have examples of our âclosenessâ.â Paige said, rather defensively, for a reason she couldnât name.
âSure,â Ice nodded. âYou open her water bottles, drive her car, when she very clearly has a license; you bring her snacks, text her asking if she ate or if sheâs hungry, you bring her food without asking, you always, and I mean always, let her steal your clothes, but when I ask you say no, or you âdonât know where it is because last time you saw it Azzi had it.â What else Kk? Thatâs all I got.â
âOh Iâll go on,â Kk responded. âPaige, you literally have carried her out of the bar when she was âtoo tiredâ to walk, Iâve watched you make snack bags for her, and for away games, you carry her bags and yours to the bus so she, and I quote from you, âdoesnât strain anything holding her bags because theyâre heavy.â Thereâs a lot more, but you look shocked right now, so Iâll let you sit with that.â
When Ice and Kk finished, Kk was right. Paige was shocked. She never realized how much she did for Azzi. All of it was just second nature to her, like taking care of Azzi was her birthright.
All she could say to her friends was âOh.â
Ice raised an eyebrow. âThatâs it? Just âohâ?â
Paige blinked, like she hadnât even heard the question. âI didnâtâI mean, I just⊠I donât know. Thatâs just how we are.â
Kk crossed her arms, gaze steady. âNo, Paige. Thatâs how you are with her. Thereâs a difference.â
And maybe Paige shouldâve argued, shouldâve denied it again. But instead, she sat there, controller long forgotten in her lap, a cold dread settling in her stomach.
Because they were right.
She didnât sleep that night. Her mind kept playing scenes back like a highlight reel: Azzi asleep on her shoulder during the flight to South Carolina. Azzi curled into her side on the hotel bed, scrolling on her phone while Paige absentmindedly braided her hair. Azzi in her hoodie. Azzi in her car. Azzi everywhere.
And the way her chest clenched whenever Azzi smiled at someone else like she used to only smile at her.
Paige rolled over, staring at the unread text.
Azziđ: âu up?â
She didnât reply.
For days after that, Paige pulled back. Not enough for Azzi to call her out, but enough that the gap started to formâsmall, but noticeable. She stopped waiting outside practice for Azzi. She made excuses to ride with someone else. She laughed at her jokes but didnât meet her eyes.
And it was killing her.
Because nothing had changedâbut everything had.
The final crack came on a Tuesday after team workouts. Everyone else had left. Paige was gathering her stuff when Azzi stepped in front of her, arms crossed, face unreadable.
âYou mad at me?â she asked, quiet.
Paige blinked. âWhat? No. Why would I be mad?â
âYouâve been avoiding me, Paige,â Azzi said, voice firmer now. âYou donât even look at me.â
âIâve just been tired.â
Azzi scoffed. âDonât lie to me. You suck at it.â
Paigeâs hands tightened around her hoodie. âIâm not avoiding you.â
Azziâs gaze narrowed. âThen why do I feel like I did something wrong?â
Paige swallowed hard. âYou didnât.â
âThen what is it?â Azzi asked, voice low. âBecause if youâre gonna push me away, your best friend, at least tell me why.â
Paige shook her head. âYou donât get it.â
âMake me get it,â Azzi said, scanning Paigeâs face for any type of answer. âBecause I canât fix something you wonât tell me.â
Paige scoffed and shook her head. âThatâs the thing, Az. You canât fix it.â
âWhy not?â
âBecause itâs me,â Paige said, finally meeting her eyes. âItâs what I feel when I look at you. Itâs what I do, for you, without thinking; like carrying your bags, buying your snacks, giving you every part of me like itâs nothing. And itâs not nothing. Not to me.â
Azziâs lips parted, but she didnât speak.
Paigeâs voice cracked. âI donât know when it stopped being just friends, but I know I didnât even notice until it was too late. And now I feel it all the time. All the time, Azzi. And I didnât want to say it because if I do, everything changes.â
Azzi took a slow step forward. âIt doesnât have to change, P.â
âIâm scared.â
âSo am I.â
There was silence.
And then Paige, barely above a whisper, said, âI think Iâm in love with you.â
Azzi didnât move. She just stood there, slightly taken aback, breathing slowly, staring at Paige like sheâd waited years to hear those words.
Then, finally, âGood. Because Iâm in love with you too.â
They didnât kiss that night, no. It was two girls, with a long history together, sitting on a bench, still sweaty from practice, hands shaking slightly as they reached for each other. It was quiet. Heavy. Real.
They didnât tell anyone right away. Not because they were hiding, but because Paige wasnât ready to say it out loud again.
When the team asked where theyâd beenâwhen they snuck away during a night out or vanished from the locker room after practiceâPaige would shrug, let Azzi answer. She couldnât bear the teasing, the jokes. Not yet.
It wasnât until Ice caught them in the hallwayâAzzi standing too close, Paigeâs thumb brushing over her knucklesâthat someone finally said it.
âYouâre together, huh?â
Azzi nodded slowly. Paige froze. Azzi noticed.
Ice smiled, small and sure. âTook you long enough.â
And Paigeâs chest loosened, just a little.
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warnings: blood and thunderbolts spoilers and guns
a/n: should i write hcs for being a thunderbolt and buckys ex
not requested
You chuckled as you saw this one. Itâd been years since this place ever crossed your mind. Romania, 2016âthe quaint apartment you and Bucky shared when you were both on the run. The place where you fell in love. âOh, hell.â You rolled your eyes to cover up the fact that this could be yours. CIA broke into your home moments later and in the mayhem of the raid and Captain America coming to your aid, you were shot twice.
You laid on the floor clutching your wounds, fading in and out of consciousness. Lifting your hand for a moment you looked at the dark red blood drenching your hand. Two to the gut, you were going to dieâat least, you thought. Bucky was running toward you, but as more bullets came flying he fled the scene. And it all started over again.
âWhich one of you is this?â Ava asked, you and Bucky exchanged confused looks. âWell, what was the regret?â
âLeaving y/n to die.â Bucky answered as his past self, still recovering from his time as the Winter Soldier, so cowardly left you there on the floor with no guarantee of your safety.
âTrusting the Winter Soldier.â You revealed after his weakly heartfelt confession. âI could have died, yet I trusted my life in the hands of him.â Bucky rolled his eyes and the two of you began arguing.
âAre we really going to do this ten years later? Youâre still alive, arenât you?â Bucky started to raise his voice.
âI got put in the Raft, asshole! You swore youâd stay by my side and you left me to die and then you let me rot in prison!â You shouted back and the rest of the team stood aside.
âI thought these were traumatic, shameful memories, not ones that piss you and your ex off.â Ava asked, clearly confused.
âTheyâre definitely masking their grief with anger.â John added and Ava glared over at him. âMy wife and I went to one couples counseling session. Didnât really work out.â
âYou might have everyone else fooled, but how much have you really changed?!â You continued spouting off angry comments at one another.
âYou would know if you ever returned my calls!â Bucky argued back, which only set you off more. After continued shouting, both of you realized the escape to this room was where you hid your go-bags under the floorboards. A swift punch through the floor opened the next room up. âBefore we move on, why didnât you return my calls?â You sighed at Buckyâs question, something you yourself had been pondering a while.
âBecause I was afraid to let you back in.â
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Rattled
Summary: The cracks in your relationship all stem from that one night . (Nightwing x batsis!reader)
Word Count: 2.5K
Notes: Here's another one loveliess~! Warning for description of injuries if you're not cool with that, and then just some changing tenses for tiny pieces that I was too brain fried to fix up while editing. First of the sequels to come out (first fic linked below), so I hope you enjoy!
Part 1
RiRi~ xoxo
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You and Dick had always had a sibling relationship that everyone joked was unbeatable.
You had always been the pair known for late nights and laughter, conversations that flowed for hours without a hitch. Everyone could see how the creases smoothed from Dick's forehead when his eyes settled on you, and when he'd playfully wack at the back of your head. He wasn't supposed to have favourites as the older brother, but everyone knew he that if there was a contender you would be up there no questions asked. You knew it too, in the way that you'd ask Dick for permission if Bruce had told you no or asking him first if you knew Bruce was going to deny you outright. Dick knew what you were doing, even if he sighed and shook his head when you asked. Yet he'd still just berate you lightly before giving you permission and instructions not to come crying to him if things went badly. The same man who'd blink owlishly at any other member of the family if they interrogated him on the soft spot he had for you, responding with a 'I'd do it for any of my siblings,' before walking off.
Partners in crime, and you were to be partners in justice.
Now as he sits in his room, eyes trained on the bland ceiling above him, he wished for you to come crying to him more than anything.
When you came back, you came back different.
Even you could feel that, and it wasn't just the throb in your leg or the persistent limp that told you. When you first woke up after the Black Mask incident, it had been in the back of the Batmobile. As you blinked languidly, staring at the roof of the car, your surroundings began to take shape. First had been the burn. The god-awful burn that started in your thigh and shoulder, and made you want to throw up from the intensity that it struck you. When you groaned you could hear worried voices, the sound of Dick yelling something at someone. You could feel the hum of the engine through the leather seats as it worked harder, and the vibrations rattled your skull until you felt the familiar black fog close over you.
The second time that you had woken up, you had been in your bed. The roof of the batmobile had been traded for the canopy of your four poster, and the hard leather traded in for the plush familiarity of your mattress. there was still the persistent stinging in your leg of course, but it had died down some. Pulling back the cotton sheets revealed a tightly wrapped bandage, just a dot of red peeking through. Your arm was stiff as you rolled it, pain squeaking through your joint at the action. The wrapping was the signature of Alfred, the tight yet even tension throughout the bandages speaking to his countless years of wrapping up child soldiers. You winced when you put pressure on your leg, a jolt running up the back of your thigh like a live wire. That wasn't enough to stop you however, merely making you grimace as you shuffled to the door, threading your arms through your fluffy, printed dressing gown.
Your bedroom door creaked open, letting spills of golden light into the darkness of your room. Faint chatter could be heard from down the hall, leading to the foyer. You looked both ways, trying to see who was around before stepping out and closing the door softly behind you. You had only made it about six paces down the left hall, headed for the library to where Jason often visited, before a voice called out to you.
"You should be resting."
Those words were enough to make your shoulders hunch, like a deer caught in headlights. When you turned back around you were met with the cold eyes of your father, jaw set tight, and arms crossed. He was imposing as ever, whether you saw him dressed for patrol that night or if he was simply Bruce Wayne like he was now. You just wrung your hands, looking down to your feet. You couldn't help but feel the scalding in his tone, the disappointment enough to make your eyes water. You didnât really consider yourself to be a cry-baby, but the tiredness that clung to your brain like a fog, paired with the stare he normally gave your older siblings was enough to make you curl up inside.
You heard his footfalls, and it was like the world was shaking with each heavy step. Bruce crouched in front of you, sleeves rolled to his elbows which he rested on his knees. "Look at me." he commanded, voice a touch softer than it had been before. Reluctantly, you pulled your eyes up to meet his. His eyes were dark but not angry, searching yours silently before flicking around your face. A rough hand came up to the side of your face, reaching for your cheek. His hands were large and rough, but they tucked hair behind your ear so softly you almost didnât realise he had.
Involuntarily your lip wobbled, closing your eyes as you felt the familiar sting. "I'm sorry." you forced out, throat feeling like sandpaper after waking up so recently. You only had realised how thirsty you were, now that you had used your voice. Bruce sighs and stands up, warms hands coming to rest on your shoulders before softly pulling you in. "It's okay, chickadee." he murmured lowly. "You have nothing to be sorry for."
The use of your childhood nickname made the hot tears beading your eyes finally sink into his shirt. You wrapped your arms around him as your brain flashed with pieces of what had happened last night, each one that zapped through your brain making your leg sting and pulse.
You wrangled your emotions under control, taking a deep breath. even breathing felt like a chore, having to push each breath past the built-up knot in your chest. You parted your lips, wanting to say something to the silent yet steady father before you, but the words caught on your tongue.
He had just come up the stairs, rounding the corner when you saw him. Dark hair damp from an earlier shower, it hung in strings in front of his face. He was in a pair of ragged pyjamas, feet tucked into battered grey slippers. He looked up from his phone, freezing as he catches your eye. The glare from the phone screen highlights the bags under his eyes, heaver and darker than usual. His face was a little more sunken in the cheeks, and a worry line seemed to have taken residence on his forehead.
Not able to stand the building pressure in the small distance between you both, you looked down and away. It was like your gaze was the only thing keeping him a voyeur to the moment between you and your father, and you could see his slippered feet shuffle for a moment, before eventually continuing down the hallway. The tired image of his face lingered in your mind long after Bruce had walked you back to bed and tucked you in, like a persistent itch on the inside of your eyelids.
When you slipped back into sleep, you dreamt of it.
You dreamt of being back in that shipping container, body thrumming with pain and warning signals firing in every corner of your brain. your teeth could feel the texture of the wooden spoon you bit, mouth dry and tongue aching from the texture. Pain boiled through your veins like acid, and the spoon clatters from your mouth. Your mouth is dry, but your cheeks feel as wet and you beg Dick to stop, and you can feel that your leg is sickeningly wet and warm.
While you're tossing lightly in your sleep, Dick is awake down the hall. He couldn't sleep, but not for the usual reasons. For reasons unknown to you, he was staring at the ceiling with his heart in his throat. If he took his eyes off it for too long it warped back into the shipping container roof, his vision blurring like they were covered in tears. He had to keep his eyes trained on the ceiling to make sure he didnât accidentally slip back there, to prove to himself that he was in fact here in his room, and it wasnât some trauma response imagining he was. His hand clenched and unclenched in the sheets, repeating to himself over and over that he was safe, you were safe. It was just a nightmare that never seemed to end, but he had gotten you back safely.
If his eyes closed for even a second too long, his ears rang with the sound of your sobbing and the pleading that came from your lips. With a sigh he wipes his face with his hand, blinking languidly as the air puffs out from his lungs. Who was he kidding. Safe? You were hardly safe. You had been bleeding all over your suit, all over that medical chair, all over his hands. That red was still staining the backseat of the Batmobile, and no matter how many times Jason told him he had cleaned it fully, he was convinced he could still see it there faintly.
He wasn't your hero.
Dick knew that much, and it hurt. He hadn't been the one who eventually saved you, that had been Tim. Who had come to him with a kit and the car, who had helped him pinch off the bleed, who had driven as fast as he could to get you back to Alfred and the med bay while all Dick could do was hold you in the back of the car. He was supposed to be unshakeable, your rock and foundation. He had advocated for you to be able to come out with them, promising Bruce, promising himself that he would sooner die than let anything happen to you.
What a lie that was.
Despite his best efforts, when he looked down to his bloodied lap, the sight he saw was not the debut vigilante. It was his little sister back when she was ten, in the gala dress Bruce had bought her. Hair slightly messy from running in the halls and roughhousing with Damian, knees skinned from tripping over near the garden well. It was the little sister that would fling herself into his room whenever she wanted or would come charging at him down the driveway when he came back from a trip to Bludhaven. The little girl who had posters of all of Gotham's vigilantes on her bedroom wall but had a few extra Nightwing ones tacked up on the inside of her wardrobe. That was the one he had failed.
With a crushing pain in his chest he swung himself upwards, tousling his hair with a shake of his head. Alfred should have given you another round of painkillers, which meant that more than likely you were going to be knocked out for a while. He shoved his feet into slippers, sighing as he turned the handle of his bedroom door. This was a bad idea, but he couldnât stop himself. It's not like he was going to be sleeping much tonight anyways.
The lights of the hallways were dimmed but still bright enough to hurt his eyes, and he solemnly wondered if that was how Bruce felt constantly. Your door wasnât too far away from his, yet he still hesitated outside. He steeled himself, taking a deep breath and checking to see if anyone was around before he grabbed the handle and pressed it down, your door swinging open silently.
The beeping of the monitors near your bed made his heart pang, and he looked over your sleeping figure. Your eyes were closed, lips parted softly as your chest rose and fell. The sheets were tucked up neatly under your arms, no doubt Alfred's work, while one arm rested in your lap and the other by your head. Your shoulder was padded thickly with gauze pads, strapped tight to your skin. He sat gently on the side, trying to not let his weight dip the bed too much. A hesitant hand brushes across your forehead so he can see your face clearer, a faint smile flickering across his lips. His eyes trail down to the blankets that covered the wound site on your leg, and his brain was filled with images. He wanted so badly to know what it looked like, if it was healing, how much gauze was needed to patch up his mistake.
"I'm sorry." he whispers into the air, gazing down at you. "I'm so so sorry, birdie."
His hands fiddle in his lap as he lets a sigh out. He moves one of his hands stiffly to yours in your lap, gently curling his hand around your fingers. When your digits twitch in your sleep and curl around his back, his eyes burn, and he holds the back of his other hand to his nose to stop a sniffle. "I'm so sorry." he whispers again, throat on fire. "I should have been there sooner. I should have caught you. I should have checked for an explosive, I should have kept my promise." he confesses quietly, the bleeding of his heart spilling past his lips. "I should have been a better brother, birdie. I wish I could take it back."
He swallows thickly, eyes flicking over your face constantly to check for signs of you waking. "I understand if you hate me. Why you don't speak or look at me, and I understand." he tries to smile weakly. "I understand. Bruce was so mad at me, but that's what I deserve. It was all my fault, it truly was." His voice aches as tears finally drip off his nose, a hiccup building in his chest. "But I'll try to make it up to you. I'll earn your trust again, if you'll let me. I promise you; nothing is ever going to happen again."
He wipes his face and stands up, aching as he slips his hand from yours. Your fingers twitch at the loss of the warm contact, and he would give the whole world if he could have the chance to interlace his fingers with yours. Yet he holds himself back, leaning over to give you a featherlight kiss on the forehead, like he used to do years ago when you came to him with nightmares. "I love you, birdie. Forever, I promise." he whispers, stroking your head once gently before he quietly stands up, trying to not jostle the bed. He pads quietly to the door, opening the handle a fraction so that light doesnât spill into the room, giving him a big enough gap to just slip out. He closes the door, forehead pressing against the wood for a moment before he pushes off and heads back towards his own bed.
Away from the four walls that held you and the sun faded rectangle right above your bed, where a poster clearly used to hang.
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DP x DC prompt (except I know a little to no lore either and have all my knowledge from other prompts)
Let's just say Danny left Amity Park (reason of your choosing) and went to Gotham (again reason for your choosing). At first he wanted to live a happy mostly carefree life (as carefree you can get in Gotham), but as rogue attack after rogue attack kept coming towards his way or even in his general direction he realized that holy crap Gotham needs a lot more cleaning up than just with the bats are doing.
So after a long while of not putting on a suit he finally puts back on the suit and goes from zero to hero? But of course he doesn't want to be stuck with the Big b so he mostly keeps his little underground help to himself, using his invisibility (?) and intangibility (?) to stay out of Publics eye but still help out.
That was until the Big b himself was badly injured (I don't know how joker maybe??) it was bad to the point where Danny needed to come and help him. And once b man had his eyes on him then he knew his life just got a whole lot harder. As he was treating Batman, Batmans paranoia started acting up.
Who was this meta? How long have they been in the city and why do they look so young? Those were the only questions circling Batman's head and once he was done being treated he opened his mouth to ask the boys and questions but Danny dipped out.
Batman quickly used the batwalkie talkies and asked Oracle to research a meta or hero that looked at Danny's description. They (?) did so and told Batman and the rest of the bat family who Danny was or at least who phantom was.
After all that came out the kids quickly made it bet on how long it would take to adopt danny or for one of them to start dating him. Sure you look like a young hero but he's been doing this for years and hadn't aged much so he was up for grabs whether it was adoption or dating.
Of course Danny went on extra hidden mode and was like no no no anytime they came close. It got to the point where they we're starting to question what the hell did they do to make him so avoidant of them. I mean they were vigilantes yeah but he was a vigilante too
Yeah that's all I got tune in next time when I do this again except with one more crossover :D
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Written for the @corrodedcoffinfest May Mayhem Bingo event.
What Condition My Condition Was In
Prompt: Riches to Rags | Word Count: 2790 | Rating: T | CW: Traumatic Brain Injury, Alcoholism, Housing Insecurity | POV: Eddie | Relationship(s): Pre-Steddie, Background Ronance | Tags: Struggling After The Events of S4, Future Fic, Middle Aged, Finding Each Other, Hurt/Comfort
The fall happens faster than you'd ever imagine. Once the slide has started, it's nearly impossible to stop it. It just snowballs, and no matter how hard Eddie dug in his heels, down, down, down he went.Â
Record deal, gone.Â
Label, gone.Â
Band, gone.
He eventually landed on his feet, but just barely. All that money they made, and he has nothing left to show for it. Not a goddamn dime. Forty-five years old, with jackshit to his name. Working two jobs just to make ends meet is the only thing preventing him from crawling back to Hawkins, tail between his legs.Â
He picks up a little session work, his talent only heard as an anonymous guitar on albums that will go on to sell millions of copies. His name, nowhere attached. It's humbling, but at least he gets to play the guitar from time to time, and is even paid for it.
That's better than flipping burgers, or washing dishes. He's done both, hopping all around town, trying to earn enough money to cover rent and some rot gut whiskey.
Tonight, he steps out of the liquor store, bottle tucked under his arm, and drops his change into the box of the guy that often sleeps in the little alcove, tucked back and hidden.
Eddie has it bad, but others still have it worse. He's never not had a place to go every night. Not yet.
"Thanks," the guy says, and Eddie nods towards him. He's seen him dozens of times, but he's never really seen him, he realizes. Never really looked. Nor has he ever spoken.
Lots of nights he's asleep, or has his head tucked between his knees, hooded sweatshirt pulled over his head, tight. Hands over his ears. Like he's trying to block out the world. Eddie gets that desire, fully.
Tonight, he sees him. Hears him.Â
And feels like he's in the vicinity of a ghost.
"Steve?" Eddie questions, even if he's sure he's not right. Certain that this isn't Steve Harrington. Just someone with a similar voice. His mind playing tricks on him. But the brown eyes that look up from under his hood to meet his are familiar, way too familiar. Eddie tilts his chin down, more sure this time, "Steve."
"Maybe," Steve says, and at that, Eddie crouches down in front of him. Sitting his brown paper bagged bottle down, taking Steve's face in his hands. He has a fading black eye, and quite the beard that scratches against Eddie's palms.
Steve looks away.
"It's me. It's Eddie, from home," Eddie says. "We had, uh, a spring break together."
That's a bit of an understatement.Â
"Yeah, I'm not an idiot," Steve says, looking back at him, and Eddie laughs, delighted that maybe there's nothing irreparably broken in him. Maybe he's just down on his luck. Eddie knows how that goes, all too well.
They're all a little damaged after what they went through. How could they not be?
"Why are you in Chicago?" Eddie asks. Winter is fast approaching, and camping near the entrance to Joe's Liquor ain't gonna cut it.Â
Steve just shakes his head. Eddie's immediately mad. Where's Robin? Where's Henderson? Why is he out here, all by himself?
"C'mon," Eddie says, making a decision that is no decision at all. Standing up, and offering Steve his hands, "Up we go."
If a deranged Steve Harrington decides to kill him while he sleeps tonight, so be it. Steve saved him once, so as far as Eddie sees it, his life is Steve's to do with what he wants, anyway.Â
Steve lets himself get pulled to his feet, and then Eddie helps him gather up what little he has. It's not much. Steve pauses, "Where are we going?"
"My place," Eddie answers, "that okay?"
And he's relieved when Steve nods.
Eddie leads him into the bathroom, gives him a spare set of towels. They aren't fancy, but they're clean. He shows him the trick to get the right temperature of hot water, an elaborate song and dance, but Eddie's had to learn to perfect it to not get frozen or scalded.
He puts a new disposable razor on the sink, in case he wants it.
When he hears the shower curtain close, Eddie starts making a mental list of everybody's ass he's gonna chew out. Steve Harrington should have people, lots of people, and that he seemingly doesn't is infuriating.Â
Eddie never fell through the cracks. Wayne wouldn't let him. Or Gareth. Jeff. Goodie. They didn't stay together as a band, but he could always crash on any of their couches if he needed to. He'd have a safe place to go, where he's loved.
Why isn't Steve on Robin's couch somewhere?
Steve's hands are shaking when he gets out of the shower, and Eddie slides the bottle across the coffee table. Apparently they both have dealt with the shit they've seen in similar ways. Steve just seems to have it worse right now. Eddie's functioning, but it doesn't seem like Steve is if he wound up like this. All alone.Â
He looks better, all cleaned up, fresh from the shower. Clean shaven. Hair still wet, and too long. In Eddie's clothes. Fading yellow bruise under his right eye.
Eddie has a thousand questions, but he's too scared he'll run to ask them. So he stays quiet. And they drink the cheap whiskey together, passing the bottle back and forth, in silence.
Eddie makes up the couch for him, but isn't at all surprised when Steve slides in bed with Eddie in the middle of the night.Â
There's no reason to comment on it, he remembers exactly how to do this from that first summer, after. They were close then, and Steve stayed planted in his bed for months while they both recovered. Listening to music, reading magazines. Talking about girls, cars and weed. Boy stuff. Surface level stuff. Nothing that was close to uncorking the bottles they'd shoved the goddamn horrors they experienced in the Upside Down into just to survive.
Tonight, Eddie holds out his arm, and Steve curls in close.Â
"I'm fucked up," Steve says, and well, Eddie thinks, who ain't?Â
"Well, me too. I ain't gonna judge."
Steve nods against Eddie's neck, and then falls asleep, and stays asleep for twelve hours. Eddie just lays there, even if his whole body hurts. He gets stiff. His hips, mainly. Too much damage from the bats.
But he's unwilling to wake him.
Mainly because he's scared he'll disappear as soon as he does.Â
Steve stays, and Eddie takes him to work with him the next Monday. He's not sure Steve knows anything about tire repair, but Gus lets Eddie settle him into his own workstation and show him the ropes.
Eddie quickly notices that Steve flinches every time the air compressor fires up to power the impact wrench, his ear coming down towards his shoulder. Digging in the drawers of his assigned tool chest, Eddie finally comes up with a pair of soundproof earmuffs. They're big, and bulky, but Steve nods when Eddie holds them up, making the offer.
Eddie puts them over his ears, and Steve smiles as he adjusts them, then gives Eddie the thumbs up.
Turns out, Steve can change a tire, and fast. He's not as good with the patching jobs, so Eddie takes all those, and just gives Steve the straight swaps. It works well, and they sit a few feet apart, working during the days.
At night, still in their coveralls, they swing by Joe's and get two bottles and go back to Eddie's apartment, where they drink them on the couch. Watching mindless television. Steve enjoys ballgames, and it doesn't bother Eddie. The background noise of them. It reminds him of home, and Wayne.
Eddie still wants to ask: Where's Robin? Where's Nancy? Where's fucking Henderson?
He doesn't.
They drink, and they go to bed, and Eddie lays awake staring at the ceiling, not understanding how this happened.Â
It doesn't take long for Eddie to realize that Steve gets migraines. So, Eddie finds a pair of blackout curtains at the thrift store down the block that are actually pretty fucking amazing. There's one little hole, but it's nothing a little duct tape can't fix. He hangs them up, and his whole room is cast in darkness, even as the sun shines brightly outside.Â
Eddie gives him earplugs, a glass of water, and leaves him to rest.
Gus understands the days that Steve can't get out of bed and into work. Gus reminds Eddie of Wayne. No nonsense. But fair. And having your head splitting in two isn't nonsense, and therefore is excused without any commentary whatsoever.
It's a little lonelier without Steve in the garage, but Eddie works like he always does. Patching, changing, then rolling the next one in line inside.
After two days, Steve's back, and his workload and mood lightens.
Overall, Steve seems fine. He has more good days than bad, and that's always been Eddie's own personal benchmark for fine. He's funny, and just Steve. The same Steve that Eddie remembers from that spring break, and that summer that followed. Just older, and with a little more baggage. A little more damage.
But at the core of him, he's Steve Harrington.
And Steve Harrington shouldn't be crashing in Eddie Munson's dingy apartment.
In the end, Eddie can't let it go. He's running down to the corner pizza place, because they decided they needed to actually eat something tonight. They can't drink all their calories all the time. And a pizza sounded good, and cheap. Eddie likes cheap.
But, before he makes it to the pizza place, he makes a pit stop into the outdated phone booth. He hopes it still works. It did the last time he used it, but that's been a while.
Nancy Wheeler is the only one he could find a number for, and it has been burning a hole in his pocket. He presses the receiver to his ear, feeds it quarters, dials the number he hopes is good, and listens to it ring.Â
"Wheeler," he says when she picks up, and he can hear her wheels turning, trying to figure out who the fuck this is on the other end. He puts her out of his misery, "It's Eddie Munson."
"Eddie!" she says, and she sounds delighted, honestly. She laughs in his ear, and he likes the sound, but also kind of hates her. She let Steve end up on the streets. Alone. All of them are on his fucking shit list right now.
"Hey. I'm trying to get a hold of Buckley, do you have a good number?" he asks.
The line goes quiet, too quiet. Fuck. Is she dead? Is that what's happened? That would make sense, would explain thisâ
"Have you found him? Jesus, Eddie. Please tell me you've found him," she pleads.Â
Eddie didn't even know they were supposed to be looking for him.Â
He scrubs his hand across his eyes, brushing away the tears that are suddenly there. They're looking. They're desperate. He knows they are, he can hear it in her voice, and he nods, pressing his face into the glass of the phone booth. There aren't many of them left, and this one has definitely seen better days.
"Eddie," she says again, dragging him out of his stupor.
"What happened?" he asks.
"Eddie," she says, this time a demand.
"I've got him," he admits, and he hears the second her resolve shatters.Â
"You've got him," she whispers. Then she's screaming in his ear, a deafening sound, "Robin! Eddie's got him!"
"Where are you? We're coming!" Robin shouts in the distance, but clear as a bell.
Eddie takes a deep breath. They're not. Not if Steve doesn't want that.Â
"Uh, let me ask him first. Okay?" Eddie says, and kind of regrets that he didn't do that first. He was just too curious, too mad. Too scared he'd flee.
Nancy's quiet on the other end, and he hears the scuffle, the quiet argument over who's gonna keep the phone, ending with Nancy saying it's okay, he's okay, Eddie's got him.
Eddie's got him.
"He just stopped checking in one day," Nancy says, as if that explains it all. "We couldn't find him after that. We've looked, Eddie, we've all looked everywhere."
He knows they have. Believes that, and can't believe he ever thought they weren't. He feels guilty.
"He has a job, and a place to stay," Eddie says, "He's okay. Don't worry."
Eddie is sure all they've done is worry.Â
"Eddie, please," Robin says, muffled by the background noise, and Eddie hates to tell her no. He does. But he's not betraying Steve. He'll ease into it, feel him out.Â
"I gotta go," he says, and hangs the phone up before they can argue.Â
Eddie puts the pizza down on the coffee table, and Steve flips open the top of the box. He seems good, has seemed good for a while. As good as they can be, in the condition their conditions are in. He smiles to himself, he hasn't thought of that song in a long time. It makes him think of Wayne and his record collection. He needs to call home soon. Or visit, maybe. Depends on how this whole Steve thing goes.
He's scared Steve's gonna run, disappear. As a runner himself, Eddie's scared Steve will be one, too. He'll give chase, they all will. But he doesn't want to spook Steve.Â
"Can I ask about Robin?" Eddie asks gently, pulling the band-aid off, and Steve turns and looks at him. Smiling wide. He hasn't looked that happy about anything since he turned up. It catches Eddie by surprise.
"She's good. She's with Nance. Did you know that?" Steve asks, and takes another big bite from his slice of pizza. Like he's unbothered. Does he not know he's missing?
"Uh, no. Good for them. That's real good. And Henderson?" he questions.
"Also good. Married. Two kids. Doing science-y things," Steve says. "Still a smart little shithead."
And now Eddie's confused.
"That's good. Do they know where you are?" Eddie asks, and Steve pauses, like he's thinking about it.
"Probably not. I haven't checked in with them in a while. I should probably do that."
Eddie wants to scream, 'You think?!'
But he doesn't.
"Jesus Christ, Steve," Eddie says instead, laughing as he tosses his slice back into the box. "I thought you ran away from them."
"What? No, I just â they're all settled. Happy. And I'm, well, this," he says, motioning towards himself. "Brain damaged, and a drunk."
No. He's perfect. He's always been perfect. Flawed, and human, but perfect, and so fucking loved by all of them. Does he not know that?
Eddie startles him, he knows he does, when he cups both of Steve's cheeks in his hands. Just like he did crouched on that sidewalk outside of Joe's. Just like Steve did to him, hovering over his bleeding, bat shredded body in the Upside Down. Promising that everything would be okay.
He was right. Everything will be okay.
Eddie looks in Steve's eyes, telling him the truth, "They're worried to death about you. I didn't know what kind of situation was happening here, but I called them. I called Nancy. They're so worried."
"Oh. Shit," Steve says. "Maybe I've been out of contact longer than I've realized."
Eddie is baffled. But mainly he's relieved. Steve's okay. He found him. What if he didn't find him?
What if he wanders off again?
He can't think about that.Â
"C'mon," Eddie says, standing up, and shoving his feet into his shoes without untying the laces. Sweeping a handful of loose change into his palm from the table next to the front door. "Let's go call them."
He knows there's a long road ahead for him, for both of them, but this part is an easy fix. If Steve will stay with him, and fuck, Eddie hopes he'll stay, then maybe they can deal with some of their messed up shit together.
They walk down to the payphone, and Eddie really needs to figure out that whole cell phone thing. He will. For both of them. Get them back on the grid.
Eddie hands the receiver to Steve, feeds the slot quarters, and dials the number, then steps back.Â
It must connect, because he can hear Steve say into the receiver, "Hey. It's me. I'm sorry. I guess I got a little sidetracked."
Eddie grips the edge of the phone booth door that's still ajar. Holding his breath. Waiting.
Then, Steve laughs.
And Eddie lets out a ragged breath. Smiling.
Everything will be okay.
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Notes: Title from Just Dropped In (To See What Condition My Condition Was In) by The First Edition.
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â✠LORD OF THE YEAR âŸâ
Your Yearly Ruling Planet, Explained
If the profection year is the landscape, then the ruling planet, the Lord of the Year, is the weather. Itâs the mood that follows you into every room. The god at the gate. The tone beneath the tone. You donât just live the themes of the house. You live inside the energy of its planetary ruler, whether itâs a flood, a fire, a slow rebuild, or a gentle return. This is the planet holding the pen. Writing the chapter. Setting the pace. Below is a breakdown of each planetary Lord of the Year. Not just what it governs, but what it feels like to live under its watch. The pressure it applies. The truth it demands. The version of you it came to awaken. Read the one that rules your current year. And maybe the ones youâre still carrying from the past. Because some lessons echo longer than the calendar.
â Sun Year
The year the mirror cracks and you decide whether to glue the pieces back, or let your real face through. This isnât about confidence, but confrontation with yourself. With the costume you didnât know you were wearing until it started to itch. In a Sun year, anything false becomes unbearable. You canât keep pretending it fits, the job, the relationship, the name they gave you. Your identity becomes a living question, one that doesnât care if it makes anyone else uncomfortable. You might feel exposed. Thatâs part of it. The Sun isnât interested in your image. It wants your essence, the version of you thatâs not curated for belonging. So this year asks: Can you live in the light of your own becoming, even if no one claps? Can you let yourself be witnessed even in the moments where your voice shakes? Itâs not ego, itâs emergence. And it burns.
✠Moon Year
The year your body remembers before your mind can explain. Nothing feels solid, and nothing stays still. You reach for routine and find water. You speak and surprise yourself with what falls out. The Moon doesnât move in straight lines, she pulls from beneath, memory lodged in muscle, grief woven into your tone of voice. This year, everything personal becomes primary. You feel everything. And you canât logic your way out of it. Your nervous system becomes the map, your triggers, the language. You may want to retreat, not to disappear, but to find where your own heartbeat went missing beneath all that caretaking, all that smiling, all that holding it together. This is the year you stop asking if youâre too sensitive. You are and thatâs where your wisdom lives. This isnât about feelings, itâs about truth. The kind that rises when you stop translating your ache into something more acceptable. The Moon gives no answers, only cycles, only tides, only the slow grace of letting yourself come undone and still belong.
âż Mercury Year
The year your mind rebels and your voice remembers who it was before it learned to be polite. At first, it might feel like noise. So many thoughts, so many questions, so many selves inside your sentences. But Mercury isnât chaos, Mercury is disruption. The intelligent kind, the sacred kind, the kind that shows you exactly where your story stopped being yours. This is the year your internal narrator starts getting louder than the one who raised you. Youâll notice how many of your words were chosen to make others comfortable. How many of your silences were strategy. How often you told the truth only when it was safe. Now? Now the truth wants out, raw, unfiltered, maybe even ugly. And with it: curiosity. Youâll start investigating your habits, your reflexes, your contradictions. Not to fix them but to understand where they came from, and who they once protected. You may write. You may speak. You may leave conversations that no longer echo your evolution. This year is about being honest. Let your words tremble. Let your thoughts get messy. Clarity will come, not when you decide what you believe, but when you stop being afraid to find out.
â Mars Year
The year your instincts kick the door down and you stop pretending you donât already know what you want. This is not a subtle year. This is blood-in-the-mouth, heat-under-the-ribcage, say-it-before-you-swallow-it kind of living. Youâre no longer content to sit still in rooms that drain you. You feel it in your teeth. The urgency. The pulse. The question: What are you still holding back for? Mars doesnât give you a plan, he gives you friction, he gives you the moment before the leap and then dares you to jump anyway. This is the year you meet your anger and realize itâs never been about rage, itâs been about refusal to be erased, to keep loving at a discount, to contort yourself into something palatable just to avoid being called difficult. You might cut ties. You might fight back. You might walk away from something you thought you'd never survive without, and feel more alive than you ever did inside it. This isnât recklessness, this is sacred combustion, this is agency rediscovered in the wreckage of who you had to be to stay safe. And after all that? Peace. But the kind thatâs earned, not performed.
â Venus Year
The year sweetness becomes subversive and you realize softness was never your weakness, it was your birthright. You were taught that love is something to earn. That beauty is what makes you worthy of being kept. That pleasure must be justified, made productive, shared, tamed. But Venus remembers something older. This is the year you stop performing want and start embodying it. The year you notice where your yeses came from, fear, politeness, hunger, and you take them back, one by one. Venus will not beg, sheâll wait. Sheâll withhold nothing except from what insults her. This is the year you feel the grief of how long youâve settled. How many times you accepted almost, how often you mistook being needed for being loved. And it hurts. But underneath that hurt is a different language, one where softness has claws. Where longing has boundaries, where beauty is not about being seen but about seeing yourself and staying. This year, desire becomes holy. And you stop apologizing for the altar.
â Jupiter Year
The year you grow too wide for your old name and the horizon starts calling you by something else. At first, it feels like restlessness. A quiet rebellion against what used to feel âfine.â The shoes still fit, but they donât feel like yours, the conversations bore you, the spaces shrink, nd the soul, so long contained, starts to rise like steam through the cracks. Jupiter doesnât expand you gently. It stretches you to the point of rupture, not to break you, but to show you whatâs been waiting on the other side of your comfort. This is the year you want meaning, more resonance, more sky. You begin to question the systems that shaped you. The beliefs that felt safe because they were inherited. The truths that kept you small but praised. You may travel, physically, spiritually, internally. But what youâre really seeking is a wider story. One that fits who youâre becoming. And yes, there are risks. Jupiter can swell what isnât rooted, it can tempt you toward excess, escape, distraction. But the deeper invitation is simple: follow what expands you even if it terrifies you, even if it leaves people behind. You are not a static thing. You are a myth still being written and this year, you start telling it differently.
â Saturn Year
The year you run out of scaffolding and realize the shape you were chasing was never yours. This is not the year you get what you want. Itâs the year you find out why you wanted it in the first place. And whether that hunger was yours, or inherited. Whether that discipline was devotion, or fear in a pressed shirt. Saturn doesnât strip you down to punish. It strips you down because itâs time to stop carrying blueprints you never drew. The life you thought you were building? Whose foundation was that? Whose voice told you that sacrifice was sacred, that being seen required earning it, that love was measurable by how much you endured? This year, time stretches like a long hallway, no doors, no applause. Just the echo of your own footsteps, and the quiet sense that something is about to begin, but only if you can first stop pretending itâs already built. Saturn isnât about becoming stronger, itâs about becoming cleaner. And thatâs a much lonelier, more exacting kind of becoming.
â
Uranus Year
The year the ground splits and instead of running, you realize youâve been trying to leave your own life quietly for years. Uranus doesnât knock. He strikes, sudden, unscheduled, and uninterested in your plans. This is not a breakdown, itâs a jailbreak. And somewhere, if youâre honest, youâve been praying for it. This is the year the script youâve been following, the one written in fear, family patterns, job titles, politeness, catches fire and you donât save it. You watch it burn with something that feels dangerously close to relief. It might start with disruption: a departure, a confrontation, a wild decision you canât explain. But underneath it is a deeper frequency, the sound of your own self-respect coming back online. Uranus doesnât ask: Are you ready? He asks: What will you do when nothing is holding you anymore but truth? And that truth is this: you outgrew the cage long ago. This year, your soul stops pretending it's okay inside it. Expect rupture. Expect awakening. Expect to shock yourself. And trust it.
â Neptune Year
The year the edges blur and the shape of your life begins to soften into something less explainable, but more true. At first, it feels like losing focus, like forgetting what you came here to prove. The ambitions fade, the goals get slippery, the truth stops speaking in sentences and starts arriving in symbols, songs, and sleep. This is not confusion, but the absence of pretending. Neptune doesnât take your direction away, it takes away the illusion that you ever needed to control the direction to be safe. This year, what you once called clarity starts to feel like confinement and what you once dismissed as fantasy starts whispering to you with ancient familiarity. You may grieve the old structure, you may feel foolish, you may weep for reasons you canât name and love people you canât explain. Let it happen. Youâre meant to be porous. Neptune wants surrender, the kind where you finally stop explaining your intuition and just follow it. The kind where you stop labeling every ache and let it move through like weather. The kind where you stop clinging to shape and become the ocean.
â Pluto Year
The year something ancient wakes up in you and demands you name what youâve been calling âcopingâ but has always been grief. Pluto doesnât knock, or whisper, or wait, he drags you under to strip you of the roles, identities, obsessions, and quiet addictions that helped you survive but now keep you from living. This is the year your mask starts to rot. The charm wears off, the coping breaks, the people-pleasing fractures. Youâre left with the raw, unwelcome thing youâve been carrying: the unmet hunger, the rage beneath the smile, the control disguised as care. And it hurts. Not because youâre falling apart but because youâre falling in. Into yourself, into the power you handed away too many times, into the shadow youâve tried to outgrow by becoming âbetterâ instead of becoming whole. This isnât reinvention, itâs exposure. This is the year you realize that the death you feared was actually a doorway. And the monster you kept locked underground was never trying to destroy you, it was trying to return you to the part of you that was never afraid of the dark, only afraid youâd have to walk through it alone. But you wonât. Because what dies this year doesnât disappear, it becomes you.
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đ§That One Time It Went Soulmate v. Soulmate, Double-or-Nothing Between đŠRobin and Eddieđž, Because No One Could Deserve Robinâs Plantonic Soulmate EVER, but Eddie Can (and WILL) Count The Ways That Heâll Fucking âšTRYâš
âïžOR: 5/5 times Steve/Eddie talk to anyone but each other about their feelings (for each other), +1 (other time they turn around and talk to one another)
Robinâs staring openly at him after he places their order with an extra shake to goâto take home with him for when Steve gets off work.
âYou sure thatâs what he wants?â
Eddie turns to her slowly.
âHeâs my favorite person in the world,â Eddie says simply; âI know what his favorite flavor is.â
In fairness: it does change. He has a baseline thatâs good always but, this time of year, the chill in the air? After a shift, especially one without Robin? Here, from this diner, with its stupidly weird-ass menu?
Caramel Waffle. No question.
âHmm,â Robin hums around her straw as they go to take a seatâheâll grab Steveâs when theyâre done so itâs not melted to fuck before he can get it in a freezer.
âSo,â she pops her lips together as he slides in across from herâhe was waiting for this tone. Sheâd been cagey all afternoon. They hang out enough on their own for him to have clocked it when he picked her up: she had a mission. An agenda.
Eddie was pretty sure from the jump that both of those things were justâŠhim.
He just wasnât sure yet about the why.
âI want you to know that it is not out of a lesser opinion of you, or our friendship, that I am asking you this,â she starts, almost businesslike but he also sees how earnestly she means it; âand honestly I am cautiously optimistic on all fronts, but,â she bites her lip before straightening up a bit and tilting her chin, full-on resolute.
âHeâs too important,â she says it, uncompromising. âAnd cautious optimism is not sufficient.â She nods to herself, takes what looks like a fortifying drink of her milkshake and then forges intoâŠsomething not wholly unlike battle:
âWhat are your intentions toward my Platonic Soulmate?â
Eddieâd figured it was Steve; the mission. The agenda.
Even when they hang out on their own, Steveâs too big a part of both of them for him to ever be absent. Not for real.
But, this particular mission? LikeâŠ
âWe exchanged rings, Birdie,â Eddie says, kinda at a loss; âyou were there.â
She was the witness-they-didnât-technically-need and the best-woman-that-counted-for-everything when they very-not-legally threw a barbecue to pledge for always out loud with the people they loved, when as many of those people as possible could gather and see it and know itâmake it feel a fraction as big as it is in Eddieâs chest, for some slice of the world to know it explicitly, out loud.
And see it.
Robin purses her lips and stares him down, unimpressed.
âYou know what I mean.â
AndâŠyeah. If he thinks on it, heâŠprobably does.
He doesnât agree that itâs necessary by any means but: he can agree that Steve is too important for anything to be left to assumptions; to just âcautiousâ anything.
Steve deserves only whole-hearts. All-in. Absolute certainty for always, when it comes to loving. To keeping and cherishing.
To having and holding.
So what she means is more than the rings. Goes beyond the so-called honeymoon period everyoneâs got a comment about, which Eddie refuses to call as such, or acknowledge as anything like that at all, because likeâŠokay, look.
His heart feels easy in his chest, now, in a way it never had before Steve. It felt that way on the worst days of PT, through the worst of the pain. It felt that way sometimes even that first time trudging through hell, without even knowing the man. Eddie hadnât even realized his heart was all sludged up and calcified until he looked at Steve and it shivered so hard that all of that gunk sloughed off and he was made brand new.
Thatâs not a honeymoon period. Thatâs the start of the rest of his whole fucking life, where a certain vibrant level of joy is the baseline. Is their rule.
But, for someone outside Eddieâs chest: he understands. Robin means past that thing she thinks sheâs seeing. She meansâŠpast Hawkins. Past the Upside Down and all the heartache. PastâŠforever.
What are hisâŠ
âI donât think I believed people had souls, in like, the sense that people say it?â Eddie starts, because Robin of all people deserves the fullest truth he can offer.
Alsoâand fuck if he ever admits it out loudâbut itâs also because if sheâs gonna question his heart, in this, no matter how entitled she is to make sure?
She can damn well be subjected to the full extent of his capacity to wax poetic upon just how overwhelmingly, impossibly, marrow-deep in love he is.
âDefinitely not the churchy sense,â he clarifies with a wave of the hand; âI thought they were abstract, just a word for an idea, yâknow?â
She knowsâsheâs told him that she felt something of the same.
Before Steve.
âBut he made me believe in them,â Eddie says, and fuck you, maybe his voice is already a little shaky, but he wants her to know how honest he is, how committed he is, how deep his runsâjust like how she learned what it was to be Steveâs soulmate, too.
âBecause itâs the very real thing that makes me feel alive like I never knew I could feel,â and his left hand reaches up a little awkward to his chest to feel what it is to be alive that big with his own palm, and the sensation of it against the ring on his previously so-long-empty finger there, now the safe-keeper of Steveâs Grandadâs ring, the one he paid some fancy jeweller with his own paycheckâwe will use my familyâs money, together, heâd told Eddie later, days into what actually was their literal honeymoon; this is from me, like, from my heart to yours and if Eddieâd cried a little about it, naked between rounds in their hotel bed, and if heâd kissed Steve senseless about it a lot at the same time? Damn right he should haveâbut pressing his hand to his chest with the now-familiar weight and warmth of that ring?
Fuck, but does he feel alive. And as far as his soul goes?
âHe is where mine lives.â
Itâs Steve. Itâs all Steve.
âOr how mine lives. How it came to be,â Eddie still hasnât puzzled it out entirely, the specifics; isnât sure if he ever will. âOr both.â
Not that it matters, really. It might be the only puzzle in his whole fucking life that his brainâs willing to let lie not-wholly solved, because again: whatever the details could possibly be, theyâd just lead back to a piece or part of a single entity.
The singular love of his life.
âI will kill you if you hurt him,â Robin jolts him back into the now, where he thinks maybe more silence has gathered than he thought, between the last words he did say and now.
She looks at himâŠnot mean, not like daggers: more just really honest. Wide-eyed and more serious than heâs ever watched her be, even when they were almost certainly walking toward their own deaths in battle.
âPlease do,â Eddie answers her, automatic. That is, like, not a hard thing to figure out a response to.
âLike, theyâll never find the body,â Robin leans forward over the table, almost knocks her milkshake over and frowns as she slides it aside further out of her way and takes her position again: âIâm serious.â
âMe too,â Eddie says simply before taking a long suck of his milkshake. âIf I hurt him, the way youâre talking?â He spreads his arms and gestures wide to himself, all his most vulnerable parts on display because, like:
âDo me the favor. Please.â
He hopes itâd still be easy, splayed with all his squishy vital parts to hit, just bone in the way; hopes all the scar tissue wouldnât make the job too difficult.
âWhy?â Robin asks, a littleâŠnot sharp exactly.
Pointed.
But Eddie doesnât understand why the question of whyeven needs to be asked, especially from her. Itâs fucking obvious.
âIf I hurt him?â Eddie shrugs, takes a sip again of his shake to keep his throat from getting too thick with any emotions atâŠentertaining an impossible thing.
âIf I did that, I wouldnât deserve him anymore, even if I didnât automatically drive him away by default, for the hurting. Iâd lose him either way,â and the shake doesnât even taste right for how wrong those words feel, the bile underneath them, but itâs still mostly making the horrible wordsâŠeasier.
Given the topic.
Because Eddie doesnât care really for himself like thatâthough Steve, outside this unnerving and frankly fucking stomach-churning hypothetical and instead in the blissful beautiful now: Steve would get all frowny at him and scold him like one of his no-longer-little-nuggets for making idiotic choices or saying dumbass thingsâbut Steve isnât here.
And Eddie means this shit.
âI donât really know if Iâd even want to,â he swallows hard, thankful for the cold of the shake to keep his wits somewhat together; keep him on task to the fucking point: âto be a person, without a soul,â he leans back in the seat and crosses his arms over the squishy bits of him now, because in the now he hasnât done anything to jeopardize the best thing thatâs every fucking happened to him; that ever will.
âNot now that I know what itâs like to live with one, like this.â
And Eddie feels his lips curving atâŠwell. Basically itâs kind of unavoidable, trying to keep a smile off his face when he thinks on Steve:
âLike this. With him.â
Robin matches him, leaning back and crossing her arms, eyeing him oddly.
âItâs not healthy to base your life around whether another personâs in it.â
âSays the platonic soulmate,â Eddie literally snorts, glad heâs not drinking for itâice cream up the nose fucking sucks; âsounds like those codependency talks your parents were sneaking in took root somewhere, if youâre spouting them back at me.â
Eddie may not have been present for the months post-Starcourt where the Buckleys had struggled with whether Steve was a suitor or a playboy, for how often he and their daughter dogged each otherâs steps, but heâs heard the stories. He knows it took them a while toâŠif not entirely understand it, at least to accept it.
Steveâs been known to watch the game with her dad when Wayneâs not home. Steve plies her mom with baked goods that she used to signal her acceptance of him, her welcome even, after breaking down to ask for recipes.
He gave them to her, or most of them, but won her fully over by promising heâd never be so far away not to make them for her himself.
âI never said I believed it,â Robin grouses, a little defensive; âlet alone agreed with it. It was just a statement.â
Eddie expected as much. But heâs not above wanting to poke holes in her flimsy-ass attempt to set him off-balance. ToâŠtest him, however sheâs trying to.
âBut thatâs not what I meant.â
He knew that, too. But heâs not absolutely sure what she meant instead.
Despite his myriad suspicions. He does have a formidable knack for imagining potential scenarios.
âI would have answered the same way, so,â Robin huffs; âI didnât need that âwhyâ.â
Eddie bites back a little smirk at her streak of indignationânot the time.
Heâs actually getting better at that. Appropriate timing. It helps, appreciating what it means to have so many people he loves.
And then, one person who defines all that love is, all on his own. Every breath he breathes.
âI meant,â Robin finally leans in again, pins him with her stare, with meaning; âwhy do you love him?â
He doesnâtâŠexpect that. Not from Robin.
But her tone doesnât question it. Doesnât question her dearest friend, her closest confidant, her Captial-P soulmate.
SheâsâŠnot testing him. But she is weighing him.
And somehow thatâs very different.
âWhy?â he still canât help but huff a laugh. âHow does anyone not?â
She squares her shoulders, but as formidable as she makes herself, as formidable as she is, her eyes are all heartbreak. But the protective kind.
âA lot of people are stupid,â she spits; âhave been so goddamn stupid.â
Eddie knows she doesnât mean him. Itâs not directed his way. He agrees with her, and appreciates that if the time ever comes, he has the best second in command at his side to stand guard for the heart he loves more than his own.
He gets what she means, why sheâs askingâwhy any of this is happening, today.
Sheâs seen more than him, but not even half, betweenthem, of the people so stupid, so reckless as to trample his beautiful husbandâs heart.
Their soulmateâs heart.
And now that he gets it, he has so many ways to ease whatever fears she has, concerns that arenât about him, but linger because she cares that much.
He can easily give her what sheâs looking for.
âI love his smile,â Eddie says with his own, because itâs not about the way it looks, so much as the lights that glow through in him for it. âI love when he hugs me,â heâs so good at it, it makes a man feel safe as much as cherished, protected with strength and cradled with care. He feels Steveâs heartbeat against his sometimes like that, held close enough, pressed tight enough.
âAnd then when he < I>holds me,â when itâs all of that, but more. Longer. Sustained and Eddie can drown in it. In him.
âHe kisses like itâs an Olympic sport where heâs the reigning gold medalist for always,â because sure, Eddie hadnât had a vast amount of experience but heâd been kissed, even if only dirty and sloppy and never any further, but heâd thought they been at least decent.
Little did he fucking know.
âBut then, at the same time he treats it like itâs his favorite pastime.â
Because Steve doesnât just deal in the breathtaking, world-rewriting approach; he also dives in thorough, devoted down to his cells.
Breathtaking, world-rewriting all in its own unfathomable way.
âHis laugh,â and Eddieâs smile grows as his chest feels like it expands, like it always finds a way to do just when Eddie thinks it canât swell any more, like, for the laws of physics.
He did eventually pass physics, but. They never covered anything to do with love.
And even if they had, it couldnât have been the kind of love Eddie feels, now.
âThe way his brow furrows when heâs confused, or frustrated, like he,â and Eddie sees it, the little crinkles, the soft sparkling behind his eyes as he tries to sort something out behind them, like the fires of his mind at work, and itâs a beautiful thing.
âBut mostly so I get to smooth it out,â Eddie admits because: itâs a beautiful thing. And itâs likewise a temptation.
All of Steve is kind of both at the same time, always.
âI love that he lets me take care of him,â and not just for the way it makes him feel proud of being trusted that much, where so few have ever passed the bar for entry into the magic of who Steve is, in his wholeness.
âNot least because taking care if him is one if the best things in the whole world,â because Steve doesnât hide anything anymore, and heâs so open, so honest with every vulnerable piece, and Eddie feels like he could conquer the world with the might of that confidence, that faith; âlike when your heart and your mind and your body all align right and agree, this is what you were made for,â and he believes that. He was built to meet Steve Harrington, and to be bound to every part of him. To be his partner in all things. To love and to honor and to cherish. For all of time.
âI love him for seeing me,â because it works both ways, and the feeling of having Steve is only rivalled in perfect measure by what it feels like to be had and held by Steve in kind: âand letting me see him.â
Always together. It still steals Eddieâs breath almost painful, but too sweet to ever try and tamp it down.
âI love falling asleep on his chest,â Eddieâs eyes close of their own accord, can feel it like thatâs where he is, here and now, the bed of curls between those delectable nipples, the softness of his skin. âHe runs so warm, like just, like when his heart beats, itâs pumping safety and comfort as a rule and when youâre pressed against him, it just emanates into you,â and thatâs it, thatâs exactly it.
âI love his heartbeat,â not just because heâd sought it out with desperate need after their last fight with the monsters, when itâd been Steve they almost lost. âLike the sound, when Iâm against him,â because now, itâs a lullaby, an embrace, a declaration, every assurance Eddie doesnât strictly need anymore but never passes up an opportunity to listen to and bask in, every opportunity he gets.
âI love how it feels when,â he starts, pauses when Robinâs face scrunches a little, like sheâs bracing for a blow and it clicks, what sheâs expecting.
HeâŠwasnât not going to at least skirt the edges of that part of their relationship. What often comes before he sleeps on Steveâs chest. But.
âDonât worry, Birdie,â he assures her, dramatically folding his hands over hers with cloying sincerity; âI wonât defile your virgin ears.â
âIf I have to listen to the retelling of your sexploits from him,â Robin smacks his hands away with a grimace; âI think once is enough.â
Eddie cackles as Robin groans.
âMore than.â
He waves her off as he catches her breath; he wonât make her relive it herself. Heâd love to, for his own sake and enjoyment but, he does love Robin. He doesnât want to orchestrate her torture.
At least not today.
âI love how he eats his breakfast,â how he starts with a rich boyâs manners and ends like a starving man, with bits of egg on his cheek.
âI love how he brushes his teeth,â smearing toothpaste around first then going back to brush in tiny circles all around.
âI love how weirdly and, like, inhumanly quick he does his hair?â Itâs record setting, seriously, like how can you get that height and that coif so perfect so fast. âBut then how what always makes him almost late is picking the right shoes.â
Robin laughs, then reins herself back; itâs true though. How the clearly color-coded collections of the same fucking tennis shoes befuddle him for choice is hilarious, but so fucking endearing as hell.
âI love how I can tell him that I love him,â because for one, and the least of it all: Eddie never thought heâd find himself in a future where that was even the slightest possibility. But when itâs Steve? When itâsâŠwhen itâs this, with Steve?
When Steve lets Eddie love him? And flushes and smiles and melts for it, every goddamn time? Because of Eddie, and the size of Eddieâs love, or however much of it can be conveyed in the dearly limited medium of puny words?
âItâs him, but itâs,â Eddie shakes his head, beaming stupidly he knows, feels it in his cheeks, tugging his scarsâhe knows, but see, he couldnât possibly give one single shit about it because his heart is so full, because he gets to love Steve Harrington, andâ
âLoving him has been the greatest thing Iâve ever known. Itâs not a privilege. Itâs not a joy. Itâs not a blessing,â Eddie laughs, just once: the limits of language areâŠoffensive, almost. Because no.
Itâs none of those things.
âItâs like I said, loving him?â
He waits for Robin to meet his eyes so she sees what the words canât hold, never could, and while heâs not banking on his gaze carrying the whole of it, heâs more confident it can weave together at least some of the gaps.
âItâs what lives in me now and tells me Iâm alive,â and thatâs honest, thatâs honest to all and every god, and all that surpasses them in the whole of being. âMaybe reminds me there are things to be alive for,â Eddie licks his lips, lets himself feel the way his heartbeatâs ramped up simply because heâŠhe loves.
Because he loves.
âIt is meaning, and it is light, and it is purpose and itâs what makes you open your eyes and feel that soft settled gratefulness that you get to do any of it, because heâs next to you,â Eddieâs words come without needing to think, or plan, for all he once scripted speeches on tabletops, or in notebooks to guide a narrative: this is his life. And more importantly: his love. His heart and his soul.
He wouldnât want a script for any of it.
But more than wanting: he doesnât have a single fucking need for it.
It is in his cells. He is made of all this, now. Of course it comes out of its own accord.
As blinding and as certain as it damn well should.
âHeâs the reason for all of it,â Eddie finally says, voice a little shaky but itâs just because his breathâs a little shaky first, with the vastness of it all. âWhat would be the point, without it? Without him?â
He doesnât need an answer, and Robin doesnât try to give one. But he will ask, just as much without any need of a response:
âIf that isnât the same thing as a soul, then what the fuck is?â
It rings kinda quiet for a few seconds. Then minutes. Robin glances at her now melted remnants of milkshake.
Eddie looks to his own almost-full glass of wholly-unfrozen chocolate malt, and the condensation pooled underneath.
When he looks up, Robinâs eyes are on him. Shining and much less confrontational than theyâd been.
âWhat?â Eddie asks, mostly confused but still a little suspicious. Heâs been as flayed-wide as he can be, and is proud to be, and he trusts Robin implicitly butâŠhe was being weighed and measured in order to be judged somehow.
So, he thinks itâs only smart to be at least a little bit cautious.
âJust glad,â she says, and smiles honest, no agenda left now. âYouâre one of my favorite people,â and Eddie knew that in theory, at least by implicationâstill feels very nice to hear it.
âBut youâre not my Platonic Soulmate.â
Eddie knew that, too. More than in theory. He respects the fuck out of it.
He appreciates that people beyond Eddie love Steve as fierce as this. Just as he deserves.
âIt would have sucked to have had to take you out if you didnât deserve him.â
Eddie snorts, because he knows she fucking means it. Heâs almost honored that she thinks the idea of having to gut him in Steveâs defense would have been paired with any level of remorse.
âMind you,â Robin goes a little serious again, but notâŠnot like before.
âI donât know if anyone deserves him,â and she says that more like I donât think anyone could. Eddie doesnât disagree.
But he thinks thatâs the end of it, and decides heâs not going to let good ice cream go to waste just because itâs more anâŠextra cold Yoo-hoo slushie.
And how could he even consider letting that go to waste? Who would he even be if he did that, he wouldnât even recognize himselfâ
âBut you.â
Eddie looks up to meet her gaze with his lips still on the straw, mouth full of creamy chocolate. Itâs not his most dignified look.
And sheâsâŠsheâs still kind of assessing, butâŠmore like sheâs made up her mind, by now. Finished her mission, fulfilled her agenda. Has the weight of him.
Possibly approves, even.
âYouâre close enough.â
And goddamn, that is some glowing praise from Robin Buckley.
Especially when it comes to her Platonic Soulmate.
And yeah, maybe Eddie does drink the rest of his Yoo-hoo slushie with a little bit of pride for it.
He knows it tastes sweeter to the last obnoxious half-air-filled sip, either way.
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Hello! I am re-reading the tithenai chronicles and couldn't help but note a particular due is paid to horses in both books, I was wondering if this comes from you having particular experience with them?
Hello! This is a very funny question to me personally, because I once saw a reader argue that, because I've written multiple books in which horses die, I must hate horses in real life, and am therefore Problematic for using fiction to channel my obvious anti-horse sentiments. I really wish I was making this up, but if nothing else, it does serve as a perfect example of how absurd it is to equate depiction with endorsement, because I actually love horses! I learned to ride as a kid, and had weekly lessons for years; I had to stop when I was fifteen, because I didn't have time for it any more, but for ages, I was very much a Horse Kid.
In fact, I'm in a storytelling mood, so here is a Foz The Horse Kid story:
The year I turned fifteen, at the start of tenth grade, I changed to a new school with better academic opportunities. Midway through the year, we all went away to camp, and for the second day's activities, we were meant to spend half of it bike riding on dirt trails, and half on horseback. Now, I did learn to cycle in childhood, but after a particular memorable crash around age eleven, where I hurt myself quite badly (I still have the scar), I'd basically given up on bikes; I was frightened of them, and even now, I can't balance on one unless my feet are able to touch the ground on both sides. So on this day at camp, we were split into two groups: one would do bikes first, then horses; and one who'd do horses first, and then bikes. I was assigned to the former, and it's not an overstatement to say I was terrified.
I made a single, trembling effort to get on the BMX I'd been given, but the seat was too high for my feet to touch the ground, and I promptly fell over. Somehow, I did not burst into tears, which would've compounded the embarrassment of being fifteen and unable to ride a bike, and was instead granted permission to ride along in the supply car behind the cyclists until it was time to switch activities. And so I would've done, if not for the fact that, right before we were due to set off, one of the boys from the other group showed up with a different problem. He was still on his horse, which was being led along by one of the instructors, partly because she'd had to bring the horse anyway, but mostly because he'd had a pronounced allergic reaction to something and his eyes were so swollen that he couldn't have safely walked on foot.
It was, very nearly, a perfect narrative turn of fate. I couldn't cycle; he couldn't ride. Solution: we would switch places and double up on the activities we were capable of performing, so he'd cycle twice and I'd ride twice. It felt like something out of one the Horse Girl Novels I'd read as a tween, but I sure as hell wasn't complaining.
"Can you ride?" the instructor asked me.
I told her I'd ridden for five years, and she was very pleased to hear it, as it meant we could safely canter to catch up with the other group, who'd already gone on ahead, without risk of my falling off. So I mounted up and off we went, chatting the whole time, until we reached the other students. They turned out to be the beginner group - the riders had been split into two parties based on skill level - and the remaining instructor, who was the younger brother of the woman who'd picked me up, was leading an unmounted but saddled grey mare along by the reins.
This felt very significant to teenage me, because I loved grey horses, so naturally, I asked why she was there. The answer was that she'd originally been assigned to a teacher who'd radically overstated his riding ability: she wasn't a beginner level horse, and due to some foolishness or other on his part, most likely yanking too hard on the reins, he'd been bucked off. This has resulted in him walking - or limping, rather - back to the main part of the camp to recover, leaving the mare behind. Which also meant that the instructors were now shorthanded: they'd expected to have a vaguely competent third adult along to help out with the beginners, and instead were on their own. Which meant that, as the only other person in the group with actual riding experience, I ended up being drafted as a helper.
My mission: riding alongside one of the more popular girls in our grade, who was very nearly as nervous about being on a horse as I'd been with the bike, and trying to keep her calm. Having started from a place of anxiety, she'd then watched the teacher get thrown and one of her friends led away looking like an overripe tomato; understandably, she wasn't having a great time. So I talked to her, and because she was scared of the horse, it was easy to joke about how I'd been scared of the bike, which I think made her feel a bit better; I won't say she ended up loving the experience, but she settled down, and nothing else eventful happened for the rest of the ride, which ended when we met back up with the advanced group and the bike riders to switch over.
My original group was now set to ride, and because the instructors were also swapping over, the brother and sister now got to lead the experienced group, while the other pair took the beginners. Which meant that, as I more properly belonged in the experienced group, I got to stay with the same instructors - and because I'd helped them out on the previous ride, I was offered the chance to ride the grey mare who'd proven too much for our teacher. This was, again, an extremely Horse Girl Novel thing to be happening, but there were only so many horses to go around, and as one person had already fallen off the mare after misjudging their skill level, it made sense to offer her first to the one student they felt vaguely sure was competent.
Offer here being the operative word: it was very clear that I could've said no if I wanted, and as she'd thrown her last rider, it would've been understandable if I'd declined. Still, I said yes, and it felt like that won me some extra respect from the instructors, if only because it made their jobs slightly easier. So I mount the grey mare, and it was instantly apparent that she was a fast, responsive horse. Up comes the rest of my group, several of whom are farm kids who actually know what they're doing, and we all set off - and once again, there's no teacher, because they're with the beginner's group.
Now, I've always been an extrovert, and whether due to practice or nature, even as a teen, I was very rarely intimidated by adults. If someone talks to me normally, I'll talk to them normally, and I was, by this point, having a really good time. This meant that, as a result of my cheerfully bantering with the brother instructor, I ended up riding alongside him at the front of the pack rather than back with the others, and when we hit a particularly long stretch of open track, I joked that I bet I could beat him in a race to the next gate.
"You're on," he says, and counts us down - three, two, one - and off we go from a walk to a gallop, leaving his sister to yell exasperatedly after us, "OI, DARREN!", with an implied you bastard at the end of it, because he definitely wasn't meant to be racing, and especially not with a student. But she couldn't chase after us, which means we got away with it, and of course he ended up being faster - he knew the track and his horse in a way that I don't - but I kept up decently, it was all great fun, and by the time the others caught us up, we were waiting at the gate for them, laughing.
The rest of the ride was uneventful by comparison, but pleasantly so. Some of the farm kids joined in the conversation at various points, the scenery was gorgeous, and the grey mare was perfect to ride. By the time we were done, the sister had forgiven her brother for being an idiot, and the two of them were joking that I should come help take the horses back to the stable, although of course I couldn't. But as we dismounted at the corral, and I stopped to give the grey mare a thorough goodbye pat, one of the farm kids, who was also part of the popular group, walked over and calls my name.
"Yeah?" I said, because this kid had never spoken to me before outside of class.
"You were really graceful," he said, and promptly turned and walked away again, before I could really manage to get out a thank you. It was an absurd thing to happen, I thought at the time - almost more implausible than all the other Horse Girl Novel stuff - not least because it wasn't the sort of compliment that teenage boys are typically known for making. It's the kind of thing that sticks with you, thought, which is why I still remember it so vividly some 24 years later. Graceful is not a thing I'd ever been called before and haven't been since - my general vibe is that of several racoons in a trenchcoat - but for one day, I got to live out the Horse Girl Novel Camp Fantasy dream, and it still makes me happy to think about.
All of which is to say: I am really, genuinely fond of horses! Though sadly, I don't think I'm capable of riding any more; I slipped a disc so badly in 2019 that I've taken permanent damage, and my suspicion is that three minutes in the saddle would be enough to put me into spasm. But either way, I can still write about horses - or creatures which serve the same narrative niche, ie: animals you ride and form a bond with - and that's pretty great.
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Part 20
Final part to the Nice Arc and the segue into the E-Soul Arc! Lets go!!!! This has been wild so far. Holy crap. Thank you guys, so much. Again, always feel free to ask me questions or just speculation. Today, work is hell. Mock inspection. *Dies like several tbhx characters*
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Nice felt his world fall out from under him. He wouldn't make it in time. Nice could vaguely hear screaming. He didn't know that it was his own.Â
The robots were all destroyed and Moon had punched Enlighter's lights out.
He rushed forward, hoping against hope that he would make it.Â
A surge of blue lightning lit up the buildings.Â
E-Soul zipped up a nearby building.
Nice collapsed to the ground.Â
E-Soul had caught Lin Ling.Â
âSorry. Iâm going to borrow him for a bit. I hope you don't mind? We have some catching up to do and he needs medical attention as soon as possible. See you later!â
Nice was frozen in so many different emotions. âWhat. The. Fuck.â He said, voice sounding a bit dead.
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Shang Chao was pacing as he waited for his lover to return with their friend. A doctor was waiting on their floor as well. His heart had stopped when Lin Ling went over the edge of the building. It had only started again when Yang Cheng had caught him.Â
The hidden panel slid back in the wall, revealing the stairwell that was mostly used in emergency situations. Yang Cheng entered and quickly laid Lin Ling on the couch.Â
The doctor got to work immediately. He was a Trusted doctor and could diagone with just a touch. Thankfully nothing required a hospital visit. The unconscious hero just needed rest, fluids, food, and time to heal from mild torture.
He bandaged up what needed bandages and left soon after.Â
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Lin Ling felt like he had been run over. He groaned in discomfort as he woke up.
âOh, thank goodness. You're awake." A vaguely familiar voice said. It made a pang of longing go through him.
It took him a few moments to be able to pry his eyes open.
Shang Chaoâs smiling face greeted him. âGood morning.â
"Shang Chao? What? Where am I?" Lin Ling asked.
âMinevand A-Chengâs apartment in Hero Tower. He caught you."Â
âCaught me? I think I passed out some time after Nice and-" Lin Ling bolted up and immediately regretted it. âNice! Wreck! Moon! Are they okay?!â He gasped out, pain stealing his breath away.
âThey're fine! Don't worry! Lay back down!" Shang Chao fussed. âA-Cheng and I are more worried about you right now."Â
"A-Chaoâs right. What in the world has been going on?â Yang Cheng said as he walked over. He was in casual clothes and not his hero costume.
âYou just disappeared after saving me that night. After revealing you were a hero the whole time we knew you! It's been four years!" Chao exclaimed.
âMy parents died, my phone was busted in the altercation, and I had to transfer to a cheaper college. I hated it! But my life was falling down around me. I refused to drag you three down as well. Then the Threads of my powers connected to you three snapped and I just couldn't get up the nerve to try dnd reach out." Lin Ling told them. "How is Xia Qing, anyway?â
"She's in America on a work vacation in Florida. Miami to be exact. She met a girl there from our neck of the woods. They might start dating.â Yang Cheng let him know.
"That's not the point. Don't distract us!â Chao scolded. "Powers? Theads? Explain please?â
âOne of my powers is ugh.â Ling groaned before saying the next part âhas been named, by others, Maternal Instinct. I have metaphysical threads connecting people under my care back to me. It gives a general location and state of being. I knew you were in danger immediately even before I saw the guy pointing a gun at you.â
âUnder your care?â Cheng asked.
âMy powers came from being a super nanny and my homemaking skills. Over time that gained me Trust and my Hero Identity as Homemaker. If I consistently take care of someone and consciously claim them, then they come under my powers. I call those people my wards/charges. You three and my own parents were my only connections like that. For years. Until recently.â Lining sighed. âI was literally your mom-friend.âÂ
âThat actually makes sense now. Why it felt like we lost a parent all of the sudden after you vanished. And why A-Cheng used to slip up and call you mom on accident sometimes. Behind your back.â Shang Chao said as he was looking on his tablet. Homemaker's internal only comprehensive hero profile was on it. All of his current abilities were listed along with explanations of them.
Yang Cheng was blushing from mortification at that revelation.
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It was an hour later that the two helped Lin Ling back to his own apartment that he shared with Nice and Wreck.
âAre you sure you're alright with them? Nice gives me the creeps, honestly.â Yang Cheng asked. Lin Ling was glad that being a hero brought out Chengâs confidence.
âIâm more than fine with them. Cone on. Don't be like that.â Ling scolded gently as the two made faces.
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Nice burst into the apartment and collapsed at Lin Ling's feet. He buried his face into Lingâs knees and started sobbing. Wreck wasn't much better. He buried his own face in his thigh. Moon immediately went to get the massive blanket that Ling had finished. She cuddled into Lingâs side and covered them all up with it.Â
Yang Cheng and Shang Chao shared a look and silently left. They would be back later to check in. Even if they didn't like it, the four needed space.
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Lin Ling ran his fingers through Moonâs tangled hair and muttered nonsense soothing words as he calmed his family down.
âI can't. I justâŠâ Nice wailed before ever so gently grabbing at his hands. âI love you. I'm in love with you.â Nice confessed while looking in Lin Lingâs eyes. The blanket had fallen off of them a bit.
âI am, too.â Wreck covered both of their hands with his larger ones. Moon scooched over to the other end of the couch.Â
Lin Ling knew that no words needed to be spoken as he guided Nice up on to the couch and then Wreck. He then took his hands back.Â
He cupped Niceâs face in both of them. He looked in to those tear filled sapphire eyes and leaned in. Their lips met in their first kiss. Ling poured all of his love for the man into it. By the end, Nice was dazed and gasping for breath. Ling then did the same for Wreck.
âI am in love with you both, as well.â
#tbhx#to be hero x#homemaker lin ling#hero lin ling#lin ling#nice tbhx#wreck tbhx#moon tbhx#yang cheng#shang chao#tbhx wrice#yang cheng x shang chao
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Hi love would you mind making a part for professor!ellie where reader is pregnant again OR when their daughter grows up ?
Amazing work btw
Headcannons: professor!ellie williams x reader

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professor ellie / first time / nsfw headcannons / more headcannons
starting a life together / getting married / having a baby / grading
for more on their first baby click here: aurora bloom / baby number 2 (currently reading)
â Auroraâs favorite thing to do is sit on Ellieâs lap during her late-night grading sessions, asking questions like, âAre your students as smart as me?â
â She wears glasses just like Ellie nowâreader thinks theyâre twins.
â Aurora mimics Ellieâs mannerisms, like adjusting her glasses when sheâs nervous or tilting her head when thinking.
â She already knows how to read short paragraphs and corrects peopleâs grammarâeven Ellieâs, which makes her beam with pride.
â Aurora's drawings always include three peopleâMama, Mommy, and herâbut now a fourth baby blob is starting to appear in the corner labeled âArny.â
â When you went into labor, Aurora tried to pack her own bag âto help,â which included crayons, a banana, and Ellieâs old lecture clicker.
â Ellie sometimes brings Aurora to campus events. She introduces her proudly with âThis is my daughter. Sheâs smarter than my entire first-year class.â
â Aurora makes Ellie bracelets from string and demands she wear them even during lectures. She always does.
â Aurora asks science questions constantly. Ellie answers all of them with a whiteboard and diagrams.
â You once walked in on Aurora âlecturingâ her stuffed animals, using Ellieâs tone exactly.
â Ellie writes down Auroraâs quotes in a leather-bound âAurora Archiveâ journal.
â She refers to Ellie as âthe smartest person aliveâ and you as âthe prettiest.â
â Auroraâs handwriting practice turned into a full essay on why âMommy Ellie is too bossy, but I still love her.â
â Ellie was obsessively thorough about the IVF process, reading every published study on embryo grading, success rates, and maternal health. She made color-coded charts for each clinic they considered.
â The decision to have a second child came after Aurora turned five, when she looked up at them one night and asked, âWhy donât I have a baby brother or sister?â
â Ellie wanted a boy this time, not because she loved Aurora any less, but because she was fascinated by how different he might be â still theirs, but uniquely his own.
â You carried Arnold, just like with Aurora, and Ellie was even more attentive this timeâbringing snacks, checking nutrient levels, monitoring stress like a hawk.
â You used the same donor, ensuring Arnold and Aurora were biologically related, and Ellie cried when they found out the embryo had successfully implanted.
â Ellie held her breath during every scan, gripping your hand tightly until they saw that tiny heartbeat flicker on the screen.
â At home, Ellie converted her study into a nursery months before it was needed, painting it a rich forest green and hanging hand-painted space-themed art on the walls.
â She read academic articles aloud to your belly, mumbling about epigenetics and language development, hoping Arnold would be a little genius like his sister.
â Aurora would whisper secrets to her unborn brother, telling him what not to do so âMama doesnât freak out.â
â You and Ellie filmed short video diaries for Arnold, each one ending with Aurora saying, âHurry up and come out, dummy.â
â Your pregnancy with Arnold was harder than Auroraâs â more nausea, more exhaustion â and Ellie handled everything from meals to laundry to carrying you to bed if you fell asleep on the couch.
â Ellie barely slept the night you went into labor, pacing in circles around their bedroom and triple-checking the hospital bag every 10 minutes.
â When Arnold was born, Ellie was the first to cry, trembling as she cut the umbilical cord and kissed your sweaty forehead, whispering, âYou did it. Heâs here.â
â Arnold was a quiet babyâunlike his fiery older sisterâand when the nurse handed him to Ellie, he blinked up at her with wide, moss-green eyes.
â Aurora was the first to hold Arnold after them, sitting carefully on the hospital bed, her small arms wrapped awkwardly around her baby brother, declaring, âHe smells weird. But heâs cute.â
â Ellie took an extended sabbatical from the university, something she never did for herself, but did without hesitation for Arnold and you.
â She kept a detailed baby log, recording every feeding, nap, and developmental milestone like it was groundbreaking research. (âHe smiled at 4 weeks. Do you know how rare that is?â)
â You would often find Ellie in the middle of the night, swaying gently in the rocking chair with Arnold on her chest, whispering about constellations and music theory.
â Aurora helped with diaper changes, read bedtime stories to Arnold (whether he was awake or not), and told everyone at school, âI have a brother. Heâs gonna be smarter than all of you.â
â Ellie constantly takes pictures of the three of youâyou nursing, Aurora playing peekaboo, Arnold asleep on Ellieâs chest. She prints them, dates them, and keeps them in a growing archive labeled The Love We Made.
â Arnold has Ellie wrapped around his tiny fingers alreadyâshe holds him like heâs made of glass.
â She was an emotional wreck the day he was born, whispering âYouâre here. Youâre real,â over and over.
â Ellie sobbed in the hospital bathroom, clutching a photo of Aurora and trying to calm her nerves before holding Arnold for the first time.
â She made laminated feeding/diapering schedules and color-coded copies for both reader and herself.
â Ellie insisted on staying awake every night at first. You had to force her to rest by dragging her to bed.
â Her obsession with checking his breathing every 20 minutes has led to installing four different monitors.
â Ellie reads academic articles to him during nap timeââgotta start the kid early.â
â His nursery is space-themed. Ellie picked every star and constellation herself and even made a mobile from scratch.
â She prints out graphs of his growth and annotates them.
â You caught Ellie softly kissing Arnoldâs forehead while murmuring, âIâll protect you forever. I promise.â
â She calls him âmy little theoryâ because she wants to âtest how much love a person can feel before they combust.â
â Ellie holds Arnold for hours while writing lectures one-handed, content even if it takes twice as long.
â She talks about him constantly at workââSorry my emailâs late. My son drooled on my laptop.â
â Ellie insisted on giving him a middle name that references a philosopherâArnold Pascal Williams.
â She puts little leather-bound books in his crib for aesthetic photos.
â Ellie made a password-protected photo archive titled âArnold Growth Logs.â
â She has framed side-by-side ultrasound pictures of Aurora and Arnold on her office wall.
â You found Ellie singing lullabies in Hebrew and Latin just for âacademic diversity.â
â Sheâs more patient with Arnold than sheâs ever been with anyone.
â Ellieâs phone is overloaded with baby picsâshe has a folder just labeled âArnsmol.â
â She wrote a 10-page email to the pediatrician just asking about sleep regression.
â Ellie gets extremely possessive when someone other than you or Aurora holds Arnold.
â Her glasses fog up when she gets overwhelmed watching both kids together.
â Arnoldâs first smile made Ellie go silent for ten minutes, then cry like a waterfall.
â She lowkey competes with you over who Arnold calms down with faster.
â She stares at you when sheâs breastfeeding, completely mesmerized.
â Ellie reads textbooks on postpartum care so she can understand everything reader is experiencing.
â She canceled her own faculty conference trip because Arnold had a cold.
â Ellie redesigned her lecture schedule so she never misses bedtime for either child.
â Ellieâs gone full mama bearâshe snapped at a stranger who called Arnold âit.â
â She started a private blog documenting her âMotherhood and Academiaâ journey, but only you have the link.
â Ellie sometimes forgets to eat if the babyâs cryingâbut never forgets to feed him.
â You teases Ellie about her âunofficial PhD in parenting.â Ellie secretly loves it.
â Arnoldâs first laugh made Ellie record five videos trying to recreate the sound.
â She leaves love notes inside your breast pump bag.
â She wants to homeschool both kidsâyour not fully convinced yet.
â Ellie smells Arnoldâs head constantly. Says itâs âbaby serotonin.â
â Ellie cried when Aurora said âArnold is my best friend forever.â
â Sheâs started humming lullabies even while writing lectures now.
â She talks to Arnold about how theyâll build rockets or dissect frogs together someday.
â Ellie calls Aurora and Arnold her âentire thesis on love.â
â She still panics during diaper changesâeven though sheâs read three parenting books.
â Ellie smells like baby lotion, chalkboard dust, and coffee now.
â Her voice softens immediately when either kid cries.
â Ellie doodles tiny versions of Aurora and Arnold in her margins during meetings.
â Ellie sometimes stares at you and just whispers, âHow did I get this lucky?â
â She tells Arnold he looks like you, then whispers, âthank god.â
â Ellie calls their family of four âthe most important study sheâll ever conduct.â
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I NEED AGNSTY VIGILANTE đ€ČđŸ
A/n: I love angst. It's my life and soul. I gift you, my first angsty Vigilante fanfic of the year.
Summary: Can you really call this relationship a routine? Or is it insanity?
You don't even have to look anymore, as your hands guide the gauze over his bleeding bicep. You've done this before in multiple ways on almost every part of him. Tonight is the third night in a row where he's been cut during patrol. On a Tuesday night, when most couples are cuddling up or going to bed, you are cleaning his wounds on the couch.
You can't really get mad without having to point the finger at yourself. He told you this would happen before asking you out. He went into great detail on what his life is like. You just didn't want to believe him. Maybe you just didn't want to lose him.
"And then I met up with Chr- I mean Peacemaker!" Adrian says excitedly. He moves his arm slightly and nearly forces you to start over. You're not even listening, and you know you should be. Your wonderful boyfriend is telling you about his day, but you're stuck on how bad yours was.
"That's great." You say in a monotone voice. You hope it's enough to keep him talking so he doesn't get up before you're done.
You finish his arm and rip the bandage with your teeth. You tie it just a bit tighter than usual, and Adrian catches onto it. He might not be the best with cues, but he certainly knows yours.
"Did something happen?" He asks innocently. You don't have the heart to tell him you've been feeling neglected or how you no longer feel the spark. "Do I need to go hit someone? I will go back out and hit them. They'll never see it coming." He presses for answers.
"No, no one needs to be hit," You assure him. He's shirtless on your couch, and you should be all over him. You want to hold him and fall asleep on top of him. Yet, you know he'd ignore the pain in his body. You'd be up all night wondering if you're crushing a bruised rib. "I'm just lost in thought." You finally answer.
He frowns at your response because a part of him knows you're lying. He's not as oblivious as some people assume; he can tell when people are upset or mad.
You place a hand on his shoulder and feel how soft his skin is. There are scars littered across his bare chest, and you can remember dressing most of them. You sigh because that's all you can do right now.
"Ok, well, if I'm all set, we can watch 'Fargo'!" He stands from the couch to grab the remote. You can't explain why you feel your stomach sink at that idea. Another night of watching "Fargo".
"I'm actually going to go to bed," You say. You fake a yawn before crawling off the couch. The stare Adrian gives you is enough to tell you he's not buying it. His lips are slightly parted, and his brows are pressed down. "I'll watch it with you tomorrow night." You suggest with a half-assed smile.
"Are you mad at me?" His question cuts through you. You weren't expecting him to even ask. You aren't sure if you should answer. You open your mouth to deliver a comforting response. To tell him you aren't mad, but he stops you. "Please, don't lie."
"I'm just tired of this," You say while gesturing in the general area. It's a terrible answer, and you cringe at it. "I'm tired of the same routine." You admit.
"I wouldn't really call this a routine. Even if it was, aren't routines good?" He shrugs. His hands fidget together nervously. His weight is leaning onto one leg while the other bends. "I thought everything was ok." He says.
It was ok for a few months. You were happy to be with him and to see his vulnerable side. Now, you aren't so sure you saw the bigger picture. You have him, but you also get him in small moments where he's injured for most of them.
"I just feel like I barely see you, and when I do, you're either bleeding out or running out to see Chris." You try to keep your voice level. Your throat feels tight and sore. It hurts to breathe and to speak because you can feel the tears threatening to form. "I just want to go on a date or to feel like an actual couple."
"I can take you on a date," He perks up. You want to believe him, truly you do. The last time you planned a date, it was cancelled because he got stabbed in the shoulder the night before. The time before that, the date went terribly because he was too busy scouring for potential threats. The only time a date went well was when you both cooked together and stayed in.
"Adrian, you are covered in cuts and bruises. If we go out, someone will notice or you'll be in pain," You point out.
Deep inside you, you can feel a ripping sensation. Like when someone tears up a paper or a letter. It's piece by piece and slow. You stare at Adrian, and it feels like he's the paper. You're ripping him up.
"I just don't know if I can keep doing this. It feels like insanity," Your voice cracks. Hearing it is enough for the tears to flood your eyes. To hear your own heartbreak is by far the worst thing. "I sit and I tend to your wounds and I feel... I feel this nothing." You speak as if air is failing you.
Adrian's eyes don't soften or even change. His jaw clenches as if he's thinking. You don't know if there's anything to say. You just admitted to feeling nothing with him.
"Should I go?" He mumbles while placing his hands on his hips. It's not a question of being mean. He's genuinely asking because he doesn't know what to say. You can't give him an answer from your lips, so you nod. "Should I come back?" He asks while heading to the door. You don't move, and he takes that as a 'maybe'.
"I do love you," His voice is warm as he opens the door. He stands there for a few seconds to take it in. "I loved every night with you."
"I know." You answer with a trembling smile. You can feel hot tears rolling down your cheeks. You'll miss him until he inevitably returns. You'll miss him.
He steps past the door and closes it behind him.
#adrian chase x y/n#adrian chase x reader#adrian chase#adrian chase x female reader#vigilante peacemaker#vigilante x reader#Vigilante x you#vigilnate x y/n#dc comics#freddie stroma
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As Diego explained the color-changing process, they ran into the same words-with-three-syllables-or-more problem. But instead of drawing attention to it, Oona simply smiled and nodded. There were only so many times in one conversation she could point out her lack of intelligence before it really started to bum her outâa boundary she both discovered and enforced only as she got older. "Oh wow," she said simply, trying to imbue the word with the fact that she was honestly impressed, but also looking to tiptoe away from scientific talk. "That's really interesting."
No communal wine? Oona shook her head, the tip of her finger tapping a couple of times at the base of the wineglass. "We were a pretty staunch bunch of Welch's enthusiasts," she answered with some humor. She'd long ago broken away from that church, even before the Hallow, and not entirely of her own volition, but there were still a few scattered memories that could bring a smile to her face. Sweet, sticky grape juice was one of them, apparently. At his follow-up question, Oona found herself reaching up to pinch at the crucifix that hung past her collarbones. She felt her muscles tense somewhat, uncertain and definitely not looking forward to where this topic would lead.
"I... am, yes," she answered, though the truth of the matter felt more complicated than those three words. "I find a lot of comfort in it, but I totally understand if that is not your thing." He was a scientist, after all. It wouldn't surprise her. A few scientific types have taken it upon themselves to challenge her over the past decade, as well as plenty of people who were simply grief-stricken. "I am not here to judge or cast aspersions. You're a very intelligent young man." And there she went, sounding like her grandmother. Young man. Diego was probably a few years her senior. "But to answer your next question, yes. I would go back if I could. I mean, I hope to. It's definitely where I'd like for Lydia to spend the rest of her childhood."
Mexico, Florida, Stanfordâto Oona, that was an exceptionally interesting life. Even in a world-ending situation, her own stayed relatively sheltered until recently. "Fourteen?" she repeated, thinking back to when she was fourteen herself. She just remembered trudging through Great Expectations in her English class and secretly watching New Girl at her friend Hunter's house. She spent time in front of the mirror in her bedroom rolling up the bottom of her t-shirts to see what wearing a crop top would look like after her parents went to bed; she certainly wasn't attending a highly competitive university. "That must've been an intense transition. I can't imagine. I was still such a kid at 14."
And then he got involved with Eden, presumably. Oona pressed her lips together, reminding herself of her own words: not here to judge or cast aspersions. What was done is done. She cleared her throat quietly. "You know, I came into his building in hopes of finding that fancy red syrup. I don't remember what it's called, but they put it in Shirley Temples." The syrup was probably long past its expiration date, but Oona was willing to hold onto this one silly little delusion for another few minutes. Silly little delusions were sort of all she had some days. "Do you want to help me poke around behind the bar?"
"Yeah no, it's...it's a common misconception." he smiled, hoping those words provided some sort of reassurance. Diego often feared being perceived as odd, or dull, or intimidating. Feared his company might be feeling uncomfortable or, out of place. So when Oona asked him a follow-up question that could well open the floodgates of information, he was very evidently gladdened. It showed, in the way he shifted excitedly in his seat, and the way his smile was less controlled and somewhat uneven. "Okay so uh, colour." now there was a challenge of putting things in a way that did not sound like spewing out a textbook, so he leaned just slightly forward and cleared his throat. "In red wines there are these pigments called the anthocyanins, they're found in grape skin and they give it that original purple-red colour. These pigments as they age, and...well the nature of ageing itself is a contributor, but these pigments they polymerise which uh, forms larger molecules that reflect light differently. The pigments also oxidise, this shifts the colour from purple to...ruby, to garnet and sometimes brick --" he lifts his cup then, a perfect example. "and brown. Brown is a rare find." he reached for the wine cork, placing it upright between his thumb and his index. "Cork, like this one, creates small and controlled oxygen exposure. When done right it leads to this...gradual change in colour and flavour." he let go of the cork then, and with a swift movement of his hand he dismissed the rest of the factors pertaining to phenolic compounds and tannins and changes in white wine. "That's the gist of it really. Storage conditions and grape variety are contributors too but...we don't need to get into all of that."
He may have put her on the spot there, so he nodded encouragingly as she provided feedback. "Rich and sweet. Well, I'm glad we can agree." a laugh followed his words and he did not take the opportunity to dive into particular vanilla notes provided by the oak barrel storage. Instead he welcomed the change of topic and left it at that. "I see." she'd not exposed much, so he'd started putting together bits and pieces on his own. "Your church, no communal wine?" Diego knew Methodists, Baptists and the Seventh-day Adventists replaced the communal wine with grape juice, but exceptions were made across different churches depending entirely on agreed-upon preferences. There was no way of knowing for certain. Besides asking, that is. "Are you a religious person, Oona?" Diego leaned back into his chair, sinking deeper into it's comfort. His fingers lightly tapped the wine glass, which rested effortlessly above the armrest where his hand had settled. Eyes remained on her, as she spoke of the ranch, as her eyes glistened with memory of what must've been 'the most beautiful place this side of heaven'. Unbeknownst to her, there was something about those words which deepened his resolve. A lot depended on this cure, a lot could yet be restored. "Is that where you'd go? If you could? Back to Colorado?" Her questions were delivered with a coat of amusement and he had to laugh. "No, no you did not forget." Another sip of wine graced his lips before he attempted a response. Times like these Diego wished he'd lived a more...interesting life. "Well uh, before my fancy-pants school I was an infant so, Mexico?" eyes narrowed above a smile. For all the many things he could recall, he never could quite remember a time when he wasn't being taught something. From the moment he was sentient enough to truly grasp the world around him, he was already in school. His parents made sure not a single drop of potential was ever wasted. Yet it didn't exactly make for a good story, in the end. "Parents moved to Florida when I was one. I started school at four, moved to Stanford at fourteen then..." Elliot came, and he'd become a part of something he'd never really got a say in. And was stuck in it's vicious and unpredictable unravelling ever since. But again, it did not make for a good story. "I guess here I am. Here we are." part of him was itching to ask, to see what she thought of that -- of him, of Eden, of his contribution to how utterly fucked the world had become. But the other half, was stronger, and it had kept him quiet, reaching for another sip of that wine.
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Spotify mini podcast I can't skip because I'm showering: it's been a bad year for Boeing
Me: yeah it has!
Podcast: it started in January when a door panel blew out --
Me: that was in JANUARY??
#rambles#its that time of year#when you start questioning where the year went#and what even happened in it
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ALSO I am learning how to teach very introverted students, something my natural skillset as a teacher does not help me with.
#one of my greatest tools in the toolkit of my teaching (imo) is that I am unpredictable#I will turn on a dime and Iâll share a thought from the depths of my soul or back of the pantry of my random opinions#that will make them laugh or hook them and they want to hear more#with a group of introverted students maybe they love to see it maybe they donât but it doesnât work for them to become engaged#they get so quiet and so still#and not in the good way that kind of happens but kind of just in the scared mouse kind of way#BUT. this past week I kind of had a breakthrough#I totally wasnât planning on it but the moment was right so I talked to them about them being quiet and introverted (gently teasing them)!#and then I said âbut do you like it when I just stand here and talk about the bookâ and they were like âyeah! kind of the pressure is offâ#and then I said âoh! thatâs good to know. because when youâre quiet it makes me feel like you hate meâ#(not realizing until I said it that that was the heart of the issue)#and they laughed in surprise (i didnât say it in a way where I was putting that burden on them in a serious way)#and then I said âyeah last night I went home like âomg was that a stupid thing to say about Frank Churchill?? no one respondedâ#and then they kind of shriek-laughed at me and they were like noooooo#and then they said what if we gave you a thumbs up when you were done so you know we donât hate you#and I said that would be great#and THEN a few days later I gave them an agenda for our discussion written out on the board#where I talked and they listened (I called it discussion with myself) and then they had questions to ponder and things to talk about#with each other. and a lot of time. and THEN I cold called them (they wonât volunteer)#but by that time they were so much more relaxed and they knew what we were doing#so they talked more! and it was so goooood#ALSO idk if it was them#or me who had changed but by the time I got to lecturing at them again#I could feel the quiet warmth that I could not before#(the absence of which is what makes speaking publicly instantly a torture to me l o l)#and it helped so much! like. they didnât say much (some of them did the thumbs up)#but I had cleared the expectations for them and for me tbh and it helped. I was not waiting for a response from them so in fact I got more#of one. and best of all I could feel them feeling both the warmth and the power of Emma a little bit more#it is starting to click. anyway this is so much but y eah#Iâve been wrestling with this problem a l l year. cracking it in December lol
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