#when will I get nicer asks???
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You Lewis fans are a bunch of hypocrites. Imagen if someone was calling Lewis a baby, wouldn't you get defensive and get mad, but when someone does it to Max, it's ok.
Lewis would be ashamed of you lot.
I can't 'imagine' because Lewis doesn't act like a baby.
Your fav acts like one all the time. You act like a baby, you get called a baby. As simple as that.
Idk about us but you lot should be ashamed of yourself for bullying Claire and spamming her comment section with your threats and insults.
#shanice your mouth is moving like a rat YAPPA YAPPA YAPPA YAPPA YAPPA YAPPA shut it please thank yeww#another sid the sloth anon#when will I get nicer asks???#like people asking about my day and telling me about theirs#this is shit#anti verstappen#anti max verstappen#tw bullying#tw threats#tw max verstappen#anon#anon answered#shitty anon#anon ask
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Which thirst trap do you think you would send to your fiancé if you were chatting him up on Grindr for the first time?
this ask feels like an excuse for y'all to get thirst traps 🤔 which I'm happy to oblige since I'm a whore. though of course the really juicy ones I won't be able to post here (not to be all "I lure them in with my dick" but I do)
#thank you anon for the nicer ask than the last one i got#i act a tough game but rude stuff can get me down sometimes so i do appreciate yall when you're encouraging of me 🫶#i dont think yall have seen these but if you follow me on bluesky you probably saw the uncropped ones 👀#asks#anon#me#gay#thirst trap
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Tav and husband Tav are milling around the shops. Tav sees something that they want but needs assistance from a sales rep. Unfortunately, the sales rep is a gum-chewing, dead eyed teenager who is rude AF and absolutely gives no shits about their job (you know the type). Sales rep ignores Tav twice before sassing them and being generally unhelpful.
How would husband Gale respond?
*Gale, angrily leaning over the order counter at the Baldur’s Gate McDonald’s, finger raised, nostrils flared*
Gale: Young man! Look here! (gestures at the sad excuse for a burger sitting on the counter in front of them) I’ll have you know we’ve dined on fish heads AND stale bread that far surpasses the utter slop my beloved has been served today—which, I might add, happened not once, not twice, but thrice—
Crappy Worker: *shrugs* What’s wrong with it?
Gale: Well! As my dearest has politely tried to inform you already: Cold meat; wet bread; extra mayonnaise when we CLEARLY asked for none, and, to add insult to injury, the most unappetizing topping of them all: TWO body hairs of very questionable origin—
Crappy Worker: *shrugs again* So?
Gale: ‘So??’ (gestures furiously at Ronald McDonald poster on wall) How befitting that your patron is a clown, because this entire establishment is rife with clownery—
Tav *hiding a smile*: Love, it’s okay! We’ll go somewhere else.
Gale *indignantly, over his shoulder as Tav leads him out the door*: And you can tell Sir Ronald or Lord McDonald or whatever his moniker is that he has lost our good will, and henceforth we shall ONLY be dining at the Burger Monarch down the road—
Tav: (whispers into Gale’s ear)
Gale: At the BURGER KING down the road—
#😂 thank you for the incredible ask my friend!!#I changed it just slightly to food service because a hangry Gale would REALLY pop off when he saw Tav getting disrespected! 😤☝️☝️☝️#Here’s hoping the Burger Monarch pays a living wage and has nicer employees lmao#gale of waterdeep#gale dekarios#gale x tav#baldur's gate 3#bg3#answered ask
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I feel like this is a horrible thing to say, but when I'm shown examples of when Marinette is having a hard time, it's hard for me to feel bad for her.
It's not like I think she deserves it and I certainly don't draw any joy from it, but I just don't feel any sympathy for when she's struggling.
My theory is that the show has toted her so much as the all-important one-and-only, all while ignoring everyone else's important moments and struggles, that I'm struggling to feel sympathetic for when Marinette is going through some sort of misfortune. Every single one of her struggles are always highlighted in such a way that it's supposed to be this incredibly-important thing that makes Marinette look so sad, but then she's comforted and validated until eventually, this struggle eventually gets resolved and she's all happy again.
But then there's Adrien. No closure about his mom, his dad, Natalie—nothing. He's slapped with all the responsibility of comforting and validating Marinette, who eventually gets her personal conflicts resolved without lasting impact.
I'm not saying Marinette hasn't done anything to comfort and validate Adrien, but his conflicts just feel largely brushed aside and/or downplayed in comparison to Marinette's, which are highlighted and emphasized as significant events.
I don't know if this makes me a bad person or something, and I do kind of feel bad about it, but I just struggle to sympathize with her when the show tries to make us feel bad for her.
Marinette is a fictional character. It's totally fine if the bad writing has completely turned you off to her and drained you of sympathy because the entire purpose of her existence is to entertain people. She's not some meaningful representation that you should want to connect with and understand to improve your world view or something like that. She's just a poorly written teenager in a bad kids show. As long as you're able to acknowledge that fact and own that this is mainly a writing issue - and it sounds like you are - I wouldn't stress about it. The writers have done a lot to make her unlikable! I totally get why someone would not want to watch a show starring her canon self. I struggle at times and I genuinely like Marinette! Her writing is one of the many reasons I just don't know if I'm going to watch season six.
I don't defend Marinette because she's done nothing wrong. I defend her because her faults are so clearly just bad writing and not some grand plan for the character where she's going to learn something, which makes me feel protective of her because I genuinely love the base character concept and what she could have been. It's annoying to see people treating her like she's the problem and not the writing because she's literally not allowed to learn lessons and change, so of course she keeps coming across worse and worse! Her flaws are genuinely fine for a serialized story, they just have no place in an episodic one where the characters stay largely stagnant.
For example, nothing about the season five conflict and final naturally follows the BS season four conflict where she supposedly learned to trust Chat Noir. As much as I don't agree that with that synopsis of what the conflict was, it is how Ladybug sums it up in the final:
Ladybug: Why don't you just give up on me? I've lost ALL the Miraculous! I'm the worst Guardian EVER! I wanted to control everything, I didn't listen to you, I lied to you, I kept you at a distance! Every time you offered me a helping hand, I never took it! I really made a mess of EVERYTHING! Cat Noir: We're gonna get them back one by one…until the very last. And we'll make sure this never happens again.
And yet none of this seems to impact season five. Chat Noir and Ladybug maintain all their secrets and they do absolutely nothing to track down the missing miraculous because the plot won't let them even though it really doesn't fit Marinette's character. She certainly hasn't given up controlling things because, once again, the show literally will not let her do that. The rare episodes where it happens always see her punished like when Alya handing out miraculous lead to SentiNino which almost lead Gabriel to knowing Ladybug's secret identity. Adrien suffers for similar reasons. So does Alya and so many other characters! I totally get why someone would not be able to look past canon's writing since it's not like the flaws are minor. I have the same problem with both Lila and Nathalie.
I just cannot stand Nathalie even though I know that she's as much of a victim as Marinette and all the other characters. None of Nathalie's flaws are her fault because she doesn't exist. It's just that Nathalie's bad writing hits me in a way that makes me despise her while Marinette's hits in a "protect and defend" way. There's no wider logic here. It's just a matter of what characters I connected with enough to look past the bad writing. The type of fanfics I read probably also helped...
My only real piece of advice on this topic is to watch your mental health and take a Miraculous break or even leave the fandom all together if you notice that your Marinette hate (or hate of anything in canon) is really messing with you. I've mentioned before that I'm debating about watching season six and a big reason why is that I don't know if it's going to be good for my mental health. Lila's writing has consistently got on my nerves, but she was a minor enough character that I was still having a good time. Given that Lila is our new big bad with the added bonus of how shitty season five was and the show may have hit a point where it's just not fun for me anymore.
Previously, I had issues with the overall writing, but genuinely enjoyed watching the show as the writers are pretty good at short form story telling, so canon was a nice mix of genuinely enjoyable moments and writing issues that were fun to talk about. That was not true for season five and I just can't picture how it will be true for season six. The only reason I'm even considering it is because I watch the show with my SO and he has a lot of fun listening to me rant about bad media, so I may still have a good time with season six. It would not be the first time that I suffered through a piece of bad media for the sake of a loved one who really wanted someone to rant about it with.
I'm not the kind of person who will tell people they're not welcome in a fandom unless they like X. That sort of gate keeping is ugly and often straight up bullying, so don't read this as me saying that you have to like Marinette to enjoy the show or that you need to disengage if you don't like X% of canon. As long as you're having fun and not forcing your dislike on others by sending clearly unwelcome asks or engaging with sugar posts in an antagonistic way or anything like that, then I'm going to defend your right to be in fandom even if we personally aren't going to get along and need to stay in our separate fandom bubbles.* All I'm saying is that it's important to know when to disengage from a piece of media. To keep track of when something starts consistently bringing you more sorrow than joy. When that line is crossed? It's time to move on.
The sad fact is that, while you may utterly adore a piece of media, you have no control of what that media will do, so you need to be very careful about trusting your mental health to total strangers. It's part of why I tend to be so critical of media. Analysis and plot pitches like I do on this blog are genuinely fun for me, but they're also a much healthier way to engage with a story than just trusting it to be good and getting burned when it isn't. There's a reason I avoid theory crafting. I've gotten really into that in the past and wound up hurt because I put way too much faith in strangers who ended up sucking at their job.
*Btw, the line about separate fandom bubbles was not aimed at you. It's just a general statement about how fandom works. All are welcome, but all do not need to directly interact. Curating your fandom experience is important self care. Blocking someone isn't some sort of value judgement. It's just sometimes a thing you need to do in order to keep from seething when you accidentally see their asinine hot takes.
#blckwhtepersona#ml writing critical#ml writing salt#My best friend has “please read this bad book for me” privileges and uses them#But notably only for stuff she's read/is reading#She gets one a series from me because I love her that much#Her latest ask was an absolutly horrendous book called Fourth Wing and it sucked so much...#But I did have fun ranting about it with her! So it was a genuinely positive experience.#Not positive enough to get me to read the second book though#She hasn't even been able to finish it and it's been like a year now#I am much nicer to Nathalie and Lila in fic since I don't enjoy writing salt fic#But when taking about canon?#No mercy!!!
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Hey, do you use your physical sketches to draw? If so how do you render them, I’m relearning to do so but yeah
First off, sorry taking so long to answer this! But yes! A lot of the art I'm posting here is drawn traditionally and then I'm coloring them in digitally. Here's a quick step-by-step of what I mean for anyone who's curious:
Here's what the art initially looks like before any editing. All my drawings are usually relatively small, I'm doing all of these out of an office notebook with some office pens
First thing I do is adjust the image in my phone's photo settings. The only three things I usually do are increase the brightness, the contrast, and get rid of all the saturation
Then I go into IbisPaint X, usually touch up the image a bit to get rid of any errors or shadows that weren't already covered with the initial adjustments, and then I duplicate the photo, set the duplicate to multiply, and start a new layer in between both like so:
It's pretty simple! I'm not the biggest fan of making digital art (just too tricky) but there's no denying that if you just want some plain colors on the picture, there's no easier way to do so.
#thanks for the ask!!#anyones free to talk to me btw#also small kinda unrelated thing but yeah i think a fun thing about doing art this way is that its all kinds fast and simple#and i never really let myself do that when i was younger#i always said Id only post QUALITY art if i was going to post any and nothing less#but im really glad i changed my mind about that because this summers been really fun just thinking of ideas and getting them out there#course im excited for art classes to start back up again! ill be making stuff that looks way nicer for that#but its been fun to forget about striving for perfection
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You are the Realmleaper. You are an anchor without a ship to pull you back up. You are stuck watching retellings of the same play over and over. This time you are...
>The Party's companion >The Rouge's guide >The Kid's protector >The King's informant >The Script's rewriter >The Original's hope >The Researcher's project >The...
Hmm. You don't know yet.
Time to find out!
#tumblr killed my quality please pay respects in this trying time#WOOO LUCAS MOMENT!!!#wow it sure does suck to be stuck falling through alternates of the same universe#good thing you didn't let your only connection to the ones getting you out get severed right lucas? right??#to its credit the Universe is trying to be nicer to them#it's like when a guest comes over so you bring out the good plates#except instead of plates its worlds they can do well in#look its not a great metaphor#also pleaseee ask questions#about lucas or any of the specific worlds i love talking about it#ik this fandom is hit and miss with ocs interacting with canon but cringe is dead so idc#oc: lucas#the realmleaper#isat#in stars and time#isat spoilers#(technically. sooo very vaguely but there's twohats spoilers if you squint)#in stars and time spoilers#in stars and time oc#isat oc#(also technically)#(they're an oc and they're in isat atm so it counts)#art#my art#nach0 art#lots of tags! thanks for reading
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it was a lot easier to ask for things for christmas when i was younger. i was five, so if i was shown a toy i probably would say i wanted it. being a five year old, i mostly cared about the receiving part - a stuffed dog, a bucket of tiny horses, a playmobil train, didn’t really matter, it was mine now. a few years later pokemon began airing on tv and anything with pikachu on it was guaranteed to be a hit. im unsure of the occasion but i remember being given literal math practice books at some point and loving doing my additions and multiplications because they were pokemon themed. it was truly so, so easy.
then i got a little older and my desires started to get a little more complex. pikachus were still pretty cool and all but i wasnt happy with just any toy anymore: i cared about my cartoons and the things i saw in commercials, and so i would ask for those things. i knew about super soakers, and nerf guns, and moon shoes, and sock ��em boppers, but i also knew the difference between, say, a stuffed animal of a brown dog and one of scooby doo. i knew disappointment, too, because i could tell when i was handed something in lieu of the other. at the time i couldnt have possibly understood why the substitutions got made, but i could see when it happened.
then i got a little older and developed hobbies and preferences. i had opinions on things, i had feelings, and i started to learn how to express these ideas. i could articulate why one thing could not be a substitute for another, and how i felt when it was handed to me anyway, and also what i thought about being given a great many things i did not ask for instead of those that i did. i became frustrated with clothes and socks and other such things because i knew that when i needed them we could go get them. they didnt feel special or thoughtful. they seemed like an excuse to have one more box to hand me, one more thing to play coy about, one more thing to ooh and aah at and take photos of when i eventually held it up. and so the ideals of gift-giving began to erode.
of course, i hadnt quite learned of the whys. they were specifically kept from me, and from my sisters, so we could play family (as it were). theyre pretty evident now, knowing what i know as i type this, but at the time things kind of just. crumbled away. there were some nice surprises where the spirit felt alive and real, like the year we received ipod nanos. (3rd gen, i think? they were skinny but still had a touch wheel with the button in the center.) i remember crying incoherently as i held mine, and i also remember my entire family being stunned and confused (they clearly hadnt expected that reaction either). i think i was simply overwhelmed to have been given such a nice thing after coming to expect disappointment.
there was also the year we were given the gamecube, and our game boy advance sps, but they didnt feel as special because we knew it was mostly since an older cousin had given us her super nintendo and our parents wanted us to entertain ourselves. it actually led to a lot of frustration that our parents didnt attempt to understand, because you cannot do ‘similar to’ with a video game unless you actually bother to find out what it is. which really started to highlight what felt weird about the gift-giving all those years: whose thoughts, exactly, have gone into this ‘thoughtful’ gift?
it’s a hard question to answer, and really depends on who you are talking to. this being tumblr, i can assume someone reading is familiar with ‘i see a cool bug/rock/blorbo’ -> ‘i send it to my cool bug/rock/blorbo friend’. it’s kind of ingrained in the culture. but we also (largely) understand that theres variance and specialty within these categories, that not all blorbos are the same, and that most blorbos are very different, actually, to the point where people debate what constitutes an ‘actual’ representation of the ones they care about. but theres also people that dont care that deeply and are mostly only there because their friend is, or because they like the character’s design, or any number of other reasons, and knowing where to meet them on their interest kind of requires knowing more than just ‘oh they like this’.
and so we get disconnects, and misunderstandings, and disappointment, and frustration. and we get not knowing why one thing is ok but another isnt, or why you can interchange two things but this third one is unacceptable, it seems like theres no way of knowing but could you have known? was this there all along? did i skip i question or, more importantly, pass on an answer i was given? and so i think upon such things. and i see where things could have diverged, or evidence thereof. and i consider that to give and receive not only requires two, but also a connection to have been made. ‘oh!’ you might say, ‘that mug has a pikachu and some snowflakes on it! i always send something with a pikachu, this will be that this year!’ and you mail it and it sits on my shelf, unused. collecting dust. i dont even use it to store anything.
and so i began seeing what the thoughts were. i saw that i was given twelve balls of yarn in six different colors because theyre fun and aesthetically pleasing, but the thought did not contain ‘this is not enough of an individual color to make anything larger than hat and scarf’. i saw i was given a shirt that says ‘# serf life’ on it because it was meant as a family joke and i do think it is a funny shirt to wear, but the thought did not contain how i felt about what the joke references at the time it became a ‘joke’. i saw i was given some books i had asked for by title and volume number because i have been trying to get the entire out-of-print series, but the thought did not contain ‘i wonder why candy only ever asks for these specific books’. over several years i saw i was given many books that are similar to but not within the series (or even genre) i was obsessed with because they get sorted together as ‘humorous coffee table nonfiction’ at bookstores, but the thought did not contain what i liked about that series (trivia compilations), why i stopped reading that series (poorly verified), or why i had nothing to say about most of the previously gifted books.
and it goes on. years of this. we even do a grand show of sharing our christmas lists with each other, and fussing about getting under one roof to share them, and making a whole ceremony (complete with photographs) of opening everything, and sharing ‘oh i was at this place and thought of you when i saw it’, and it goes round and round and round and i am always just sitting there wondering if the next thing thats handed to me will actually have me in mind or it will simply be ‘thoughtful’.
i just dont know what to ask for christmas anymore.
#personal#this took me three hours to type on my phone#it kind of sucked to do but i needed to get the words out#i have tried many times over the years to communicate#and there have been occasions where i felt fully heard and included#i deeply appreciate the heavy duty singer my grandma gave me#but the only one thats made me stop and cry like that ipod did#was when my dad gave me a box of space marines#he saw i asked for little mens to paint#because i wanted to pose them with my gundams#and instead of getting a whole bunch of shitty cheap tiny dudes#he picked out a five-man box thats actually playable#he told me he thought a matched unit would look nicer#and i could see he connected it to his wargames AND model trains#i was fuckin touched! he put thought in and i could see it!
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also okay my dad really botched my birthday this year BUT he is buying me a new laptop and i am SO excited to have a computer that isn't constantly trying to murder itself.
#my job will be nicer when everything is not constantly freezing or crashing. thanks dad.#anyway i think i'm gonna get a clear case for it and put some stickers on it.#after jj bought me stickers and i put them on my journal i realized i need more stickers.#they make me happy every time i see them...#maybe i will ask the beloved muts to help me pick some out. ^_^#izzy.txt
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FINALLY I DRAW SOMETHING!!!!!!!
some Joseph, both young (around 1980 i'd say, when he was traveling w Stan a few years before the portal incident) and old (~2017, now an art teacher at Westchester High). i like to think the first one is a picture Stan took of him while they were traveling and the second one is his staff photo at WH. the more things change the more they stay the same. i might give em backgrounds and foregrounds to look like that
he's had that jacket since the 70s. real leather will last you.
no glasses alts + the first sketch below
#[holding him in my hands like a tiny baby bird]#idk if hes hiding something on his neck. he might be. those neck covers just happened. probably less embarrassing than Ford's tattoos thoug#also im not super interested in “what if Stan had a romance partner who helped him run the shack” type Stan/oc buuuuuuuut#unfortunately i am not immune to old man yaoi and have been thinking “ok BUT what if Jojo helped Stan run the shack” during this rewatch#i think theyre not super open about their relationship so Dipper & Mabel have no idea until the manotaur ep when Mabel realizes “woah......#“Grunkle Stan do you have a crush on Grunkle Jojo???”#[Joseph so called Grunkle Jojo bc “we've known each other long enough hes basically family”]#anyway Mabel tries to “fix Stan up” to help him ask him out & Jojo is fully aware its happening and says nothing bc Funny#they do tell her and Dipper at the end of the day bc since she went through all that trouble trying to set em up they should know#plus kids these days tend to be a lot nicer about gay people sometimes#also good: Jojo giving Stan A Look every time he's shitty or sexist but otherwise not caring about any other morally dubious/bad thing#like Jojo can excuse regular tax fraud/stealing/scamming people but he draws the line at almost getting Waddles eaten by a dinosaur#hes the worlds most “not my circus not my monkeys” moral compass#hes said that before. and Dipper points out that it IS his circus bc he helps run the shack#to which he responds “hah. yeah :)” bc he helps do the fraud and scams <3#fuck i have to draw that as a comic or fake screenshots or something#anyway im not planning on focusing on a Mr's Mysteries AU but i may talk about it occasionally#ANYWAY ANYWAY i wanna talk about him i love talking about him send some asks let me talk about him <3#oc: Joseph van Dyke
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Bought one of my lil nephew giannis shoes for his birthday bcs he loves giannis and these are some of the ugliest fucking things I have ever laid my eyes on in my life. anyways it's his bday today so i gave them to him. but they are so ugly. he loves them
#i am not a sneakerhead#i wish i could be . finacially i can be. but mentally i cannot#i am not a car guy either. i could. but i cant mentally#bcs the only time id get smthing pretty is to look at it. and keep it safe#and then id want to km$ for not using smthing thats intended to be used bcs i hate wasted potential#once i got these rlly nice shoes#ive worn them once when i was trying them on#and i hate myself every day for doing that but also i just cant get them dirty#BUT I HATE THAT#some ppl can do that. they get a million things and only use it once and yea i COULD but psychologically i just CANT#im friends with a lot of sneakerheads and chain wearers and while i cant mentally make myself one#i can understand why they can#like ppl always wanna excuse not helping ppl by pointing at the stuff they already have#like oh u can buy urself a chain but cant buy ur momma and u a nicer place to live#like ok so credit scores are not existent then. especially when ppl use that phrase against ppl growing into crime like#yes they are making money now but is it good clean money? no. thats not gonna go into smthing long term n hefty like a house#chains are a rlly big thing bcs sometimes some jewelers just dont ask questions. hence bmf's jeweler getting roped into their crime schemes#any business can be like that btw. like michael jacksons doctor getting paid to kill him. the difficulty lvl just changes#and also. random ppl make fun of the stuff they can see or hear right in front of them#random ppl can and will make u feel bad abt any little thing they know or see the best bcs theyre assholes like that#u wear shoes all the time everywhere. thats more and more eyes noticing how old/dirty ur shoes are#or ur cars old n busted or ur phones a fucking android like it doesnt matter. the more ppl can see. the more theyll know#the more sensitive u get abt whats actually small to u at the start but big 2 them n then it gets big 2 u#anyways yea so like. i get it. i dont do it but i can see why others do#anyways yea these shoes are so ugly lol like i dont buy merch of my favs unless the style matches mine personally#he just liked them bcs they were giannis tbh n then i pointed out they were modeled after 1 of the jerseys#which made he rlly want them a while back so i surprised him today#but yea these things are ugly lol im glad he likes them but ew LMFAO
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*slams hands down on table*
XERO????
AHAIAHSIWHF HAIII MINUTE. CLASPS MY HANDS TOGETHER VERY POLITELY. I put Eclipse in a time loop that starts from the first day of October and restarts on the day he dies 😁 The loop can only be broken when he starts to heal from his trauma and ties up loose ends :3
#asks#itsahotminuteinbetween#lunar is EXTREMELY important for the loop too#obviously they're there bc they were part of the takeover#but how Lunar reacts to Eclipse is a huge indicator of whether or not Eclipse is getting close to breaking out#i talked a lot about this au w/ my friend kat and flap said once that eclipse starts to become hyperaware of certain 'events' and what they-#-mean and also realizing what it means when they stop doing them. like lunar asking less and less if eclipse is okay even tho he's clearly-#-doing worse. and he tells himself he doesn't care. but in the next loop he's nicer to fix it#yk? yk???#he goes through probably hundreds of loops and experiences every emotion and does everything he can think of#but it doesn't work until he's open. he has to get off the track that leads him to his death.#and i rhink abt it a lot HDKABSKSNS#tsams#eclipse#no id#xero thoughts and rambles
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#personal#thinking about how the phrase treat others how you want to be treated is actually incredibly one way#unless damn near every person ive ever met wants to be treated like shit which i cant imagine is true#like idk i spent a lot of my time giving my energy to people. and ill never feel bad for putting love and kindness out into the world#but i gave some of these people everything i had. or not everything that would diminish me but everything i could spare for them at the time#i treated them attentively and considerately and tenderly and lovingly#and that kindness has not been extended back to me by most of these people#some of them have surely in their own 'love language' and im grateful for these people in my life#but most of the people ive treated with intentional care have actively and on purpose caused me a lot of emotional harm#which again. im working through and like karma will get them without me needing to be there or whatever while i do my own healing#but regardless i still think some of that shit should not have happened like it did#i dont understand how everyone can say to me treat others how youd like to be treated but not tell me the caveat#that they will not treat me the way i want to be treated even if i put in that effort for them/for our friendship or relationship or whatevr#like idk im a bitch for asking you to leave me alone when ive been vomiting for two days straight but you can straightup sexually misconduct#with my body and then when i write poetry about it and share my feelings instead of leaving and taking that information anywhere helpful#you get to decode youre traumatized actually and im still a bitch for bringing it up?#make it make sense#'treat others the way you want to be treated' so youd like it if i starved you and verbally insulted and gaslight and manipulated you? no?#then what the fuck is the point of you saying that to me???#idk im just fucking pissed rn that. idk what im pissed at. cause again i know im no contact with all of these people now and their#shitty justice will find its way to them. and i cant be mad at myself for saddling with the wrong people cause some of that was my choices#and some of it was blood i couldnt escape for a long time. and i said i dont want to regret or resent#putting love out to the world#but i am still angry that so much of me was given to the wrong people. that these people just chose to completely ignore#the level of respect and patience and kindness i showed them#idk dudes im just angry. 'treat others the way you want to be treated' fuck off thats some quiet manipulation bullshit to get me to be#nicer to you even as you abuse the self-worth outta me fuck off fuck you#i found it again. you cant bury it im too full of love to not love myself too but it hurts how hard they tried for so long#'treat others the way you want to be treated' how bout no. how bout i treat everyone with a base level of kindness#and when youve shown me that you will treat me the way i deserve to be treated then ill fucking play niceys back
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ngl ive been thinking abt moving back here and being primarily active here again. the bot followers on twitter are starting to piss me off real bad
#ill still be using twitter ofc its kinda hard to stop using it when its so easy to get news on there rly quickly#but otherwise im thinking abt mainly posting here again... i havent been going on twitter that much lately anyway..........#its just funny how i moved to twitter in like 2018 bc i thought it was nicer to post on and then some rich douchebag took over#now the site is just a huge piece of shit like he is#i know its not much better here but at least i dont have to deal with bots 🙄#whatever. ill fink abt it#i dont have much to post anyway ive been spending most of my free time playing video games. and by video games i mean honkai star rail#if i feel like it ill talk abt my sillies here i suppose. maybe ask me abt things. idk#ask me abt gallagher ill write an essay for you#allyrambles
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damn it feels so good to actually have friends who i feel safe around. like to have friends who im not worried that if they find out that i like "cringe" things they wont judge me. woah!!
@angry-avaocardo @silly1xxx @gollyimsosoevil
#appreciation post for my besties✨✨#also the tags got reallylong and rambly just me complainign about the ex friend and a quick update so feell free not to read them if you#dont wanna#theres nothing of substance in there lol#ugh god my old friend the one i made the really long post about asking for advice#i probably mentioned this but i never felt safe to talk about things i like with them#oh god i would never be able to show them defrag#and i probably wouldnt even be willing to ramble about like. the arg or smth to them#id be too worried of them making fun of me#but also they had a way of making it so i hung out with them the most even tho i didnt want to#“me and friend are going to the canteen you two wanna come?”#“[with none of my input] no me and Charlie are staying here”#the only person i felt safe talking about my interests to was a friend that i made when trying to move away frrom the toxic one#a friend who they would consistently ask if i was replacing them with and was so fucking jealous of him#in fact that friend is gollyimsoevil yea that guy#hes great he likes gay addison shit so yk bestie#also they were so good at guilt tripping that now i use their guilt tripping tactics on myself to try and get myself to do things lol#and they would make fun of me so often but GOD FORBID I MAKE FUN OF THEM#they were making fun of me to another person a few /years/ ago so i made some snarky comment about them#because i was really upset by them making fun of me#and they brought it up to me like 2 months ago before we cut them off#like dude you mock and make fun of everything i do so much that ive just stopped talking and completely zoned out whenever im around you#and youre holding some snarky remark that i made when we were like 11 /because you were making fun of me/#UGH#oh ye update on that if anyone cares it went fine they seem to have moved on and are just hanging out with different people now#they havent made any attempt to contact any of us but also havent cut us off#i havent cut them off either ive just left it#i catch them giving me and the other two friends who used to be friends with them dirty looks#but i kinda just ignore it#i have like 5 friends my age who are much much much nicer than them
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Thanks for all the rankings❣️
Now rank the foxes by how close they are to Kevin😈
tyty for sending them in i feel like i should start doing the youtube S tier chart bc it might be more visually appealing lmaoo but okay i hope the Andrew placement isn’t controversial here, ik they’ve known each other for longer and trust each other a lot. howeverr Neil and Kevin are just two peas in a pod. cut from the same cloth. (but there’s also parts to Kevin that Neil doesn’t fully understand obviously) anyway:
1. Wymack (i’m including him bc it’s true)
2. Neil
3. Andrew
4. Abby
5. Aaron
6. Nicky
7. Matt
8. Dan
9. Allison
10. Renee
#i love you rank anon again tell me where i messed up#i was really debating switching neil and abby’s placement but hmmm#i just feel like neil is kevin’s new hyperfixation and neil gets kevin#but idk idk#like they’re both harsh on each other kevin is harsh in terms of exy#and neil is harsh when it comes to character growth for kevin (maybe he could be nicer about it) but usually the close friends speak up#i don’t think renee and kevin exchange a single word#maybe they do#but if they do the impact is very low#there’s a big drop off between abby and aaron i think lol#i just say that bc aaron and kevin go dancing at eden’s#aftg#psu foxes#ask tag
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My friend: I can't think while I'm at work
Me, at work, earlier that day: word for word writing a fic In my head
#not a happy one either#out here in the pharmacy aisles thinking about comas#(old news)#but it was like Elsie calling her mom and her mom asking how everyone was#namely how Elsie (heart failure) and Finch (fetus whos host is going into heart failure) are doing#and Elsie says that shes been having contractions but shes hiding them from her doctors#(even though she thinks its Braxton hicks)#and her mom yells at her and asks why she would do that and Elsie says she doesn't want to have this baby without her wife#because her wife Atticus has been in a coma for about a week after an aneurysm ruptured + she hemorrhaged and seized#and her mom is about to say like “a life for a life” vibes. when a baby is born someone dies. that's how it works#and Elsie yells at her because a) what the fuck and b) why would god choose to kill her HEALTHY wife after making Elsie so sick?#why wouldn't he take Elsie if he needed a life for a life?#anyway i wrote it when i got home lmao#and now im at work again but this time it was filling waters.#and while i was doing that i was day dreaming about Rainey and Lyria and Remus#it was a nicer daydream (Rainey and Lyria going to get icecream but Rainey has no cash. Remus has 100$)#but i knew Remus had to ve hurt or she wouldn't be there (third wheeling AND She and Lyria don't get along)#so i was trying to figure out the timeline and decided on when she tried to kill herself so Rainey is watching her#and all I thiught was: (annoyed) i promsie not to kill myself in the next half an hour 😒#(while they run to town to get icecream together and she's left at home)#james is rambling again#ocs#rambling#thoughts#writer#writing#original character
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