#when i tell you astro boy honestly fucked me up as a kid...

[frankotalk]

honestly love robots so much especially as a trans guy bc of the sort of customisability and gender neutrality offered to robots. a lot of the ppl who voted robot on that poll seem to be hung up on the non-human element which is scary but the way i see it a robot can be lovingly crafted the way a child is born. especially when you aren't religious so the here and now means more to me than any concept of a soul. robots still have their own identity and even if they aren't 'human' they still feel... something. even if its programmed. our brains and environments essentially program us to feel specific ways so why get hung up on that as a robot. ROBOT CLONES HOWEVER

[binunus]

college bf!rocky

a/n next is our rock and aegyo king sorry sanha park minhyuk !! also I was going to post this yesterday :( but me and my roommates got a little too lit for valentine’s and I literally sat for 7 hours straight in zoom so I couldn’t finish it until now but !! I hope you loves enjoy!!

→ genre: fluff, smut

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alright aright alrightttt

we’re gonna switch it up a little bit

add a little flavor

because as much as I would love to say that college bf!astro all got their partners in a cute and smooth sailing way

we all know relationships aren’t that easy

but before we get into how you and rocky met

major: dance

are we surprised? no

rocky is a prodigy in dance

he’s been dancing since he could walk

he started choreographing at age 6

it just made sense for him, like even his parents were like go pursue dance, you’re not a law or business type of kid

he can master any type of dance from jazz, to ballet, to street, to contemporary, to tango, whatever you can think of

he’s roommates with music tech!jinjin

jin literally takes care of him all the time bc rocky??? when he comes back to the apt after dance practice?? dead weight

only passes his gen ed classes bc eunwoo tutors him

if it weren’t for the boys, rocky would literally live in the dance studio

they make sure to drag him out for fun and food at least once a week

or they join and keep him company while he’s practicing

have they gotten noise complaints before while messing around in the dance studio? yes

rocky is loud alright, especially when he’s with astro

he’s a perfectionist, literally will not leave the studio until he’s 100% satisfied with his progress

oh the amount of times myungjun and jin nag at him to take care of his health

now now

you’re also a dance major

people could say that you and rocky are the top two dancers of your year

gasp a rivals to lovers au??? you betcha baby

granted you switched into a dancer major your second year so rocky technically had seniority

but boom baby as soon as you made your appearance, it rocked his world

now im not saying rocky’s cocky bc obviously he’s a cute hardworking humble boy

but was he used to always being placed first in evaluations or getting the highest marks??? yeah

so the first time you placed first and he placed second??? it lit a bit of a fire in him

he’s seen a ton of good dancers in his time, but no one has ever matched his capabilities better than you

there was an unspoken rivalry between you two, everyone knew about it 

you both always wanted to upstage the other

there was always a tension whenever you two were in the same room

but like...have either of you ever really talked to each other besides side remarks in class?

no

and it didn’t really help that the whole dance department basically pit you up against each other to see who was really the best dancer of your year

so you and rocky never had the proper introduction to a friendship, it just went straight to rivalry 

and then came the announcements for the end of the year showcase

and instead of putting on a solo, the department chairs decided to have you and rocky perform a duet

and you’ve never worked with him before so you were dreading the first time you met up

you to your roommate: ugh i can’t believe im partnered up with rocky, that arrogant rude–

your roommate: have you ever even talked to him, y/n? he’s actually very nice

you: no...but that’s what he wants you to believe!

your ego sorta just went along with the whole thing

and rocky was 15 min late to your meeting bc he was out eating food with the guys so your patience?? very thin

literally as soon as he stepped into the dance studio, the air turned stuffy

rocky could feel you glaring at him and he just smirks?? 

rocky: did I make you wait long y/n?

you: yeah you did

he liked pushing your buttons?? idk he just felt satisfaction knowing that any small of action of his affected you that much

it made him feel like he was winning or whatever

and god it took literally forever for you two to decide on a song and genre of performance for the showcase

you wanted contemporary, he wanted ballet

you were literally disagreeing so much on it that you had to ask Siri to flip a coin

and then you fought and said that Siri was rigged when it chose tails (contemporary)

so you decided on a happy? mix of both

rocky at the end of your first meeting: i get that we’re not exactly friends, y/n, but we have to work together so let’s at least be professional

you: i can if you can

rocky: fine

you two literally bicker like five year olds on a playground

even the guys are like ???? why are you being so childish ???

you have 2 months of preparation until the showcase and you start meeting once a week for choreography and practice since given the assignment

you two are pretty civil for the most part, you make the contemporary parts and he makes the ballet parts and then you combine it when you meet up and see how it can incorporate and complement each other

there’s not much joking around ?? like you know how rocky’s a clown when he’s teaching astro choreography?? it’s not like that at all

and honestly you two are too caught up in your rivalry and tension to notice that your styles really match and highlight each other well??

there’s definitely a lot of “i could do this better than you” from both sides

i repeat: you are children

and then there’s this one practice where you and rocky are trying a pas de deux for the first time

(i literally looked this term up, it’s basically what jungkook and jimin from bts did during the 2020 mma black swan intro...if you haven’t seen it, watch it bc it is perfection mmm chefs kiss)

and you don’t know if it’s because you didn’t have enough momentum or rocky didn’t prep himself enough for the lift but he ends up dropping you and you both fall

and you both immediately start blaming each other for the mishap

until you lift your hand to point at him and it just hurts

it’s like a switch goes off, rocky’s immediately concerned and he’s like gently taking your hand like: holy shit are you okay??

you shake your head and you’re wincing whenever you try to move it

you: ow fuck rocky, I think it’s sprained

and he suddenly feels so guilty, like he goes silent

you: can we stop for today? I’m gonna go get this checked out, make sure it’s not broken

rocky: do you want me to go with you?

you: no. I’ll see you next week.

boy he feels so bad, he texts you throughout the course of the following week asking if you’re okay, asking your roommate if you’re okay, telling you he’s sorry that he dropped you

you didn’t respond much, not bc you felt weird texting him–well, you did a little bit shhh–but bc you were beating yourself up for getting injured a month before the showcase

you show up to practice the next week with your wrist in a compression bandage

and he doesn’t greet you with a quip like he usually does, he immediately grabs your wrist (gently) and he’s like inspecting the bandage

you: uh...the doctor said I should be careful with it for a week or two if i want it to heal faster. so don’t bitch at me if i’m not going all out

rocky: y/n...i’m so sorry...I didn’t mean to injure you, it was my fault that we didn’t execute the pas de deux

you just shrug: it was both our faults...if I didn’t fall on my wrist maybe we could have avoided this little obstacle

rocky: if I caught you correctly, you wouldn’t have even fallen

you: are we really arguing right now about this??

and then the two of you just laugh??? 

this is the first real pleasant interaction you’ve had with him

and you notice like wow rocky had a nice smile

you: i should be back to normal before the showcase so we should be fine

rocky: don’t push it though while we’re practicing alright? if your wrist starts hurting then stop, and don’t even think about doing any floor choreo

the atmosphere between you and rocky change after that

he becomes pretty concerned about your recovery–and maybe it’s bc he still blames himself for the cause of it

each night before your set practice days, he always shoots you a text asking how you’re feeling and how your wrist is doing

he brings ice packs, painkillers, and extra bandages during your practices just in case you need it

and you’re actually pretty touched by his concern

about two weeks before the showcase, your wrist is back to full movement and you’re like excited to actually practice to your best ability

from now on you see each other twice a week, just to get that detail and fine-tuning perfected

rocky’s still a bit hesitant to have you go full out but you reassure him that you’re fine

you both try the pas de deux again the day you take your bandage off 

and you can see that he’s nervous to try it

you: rocky, i’m fully healed now. we haven’t practiced this move since the first time and we need it in our routine

rocky: but...y/n, what if I drop you again??

you: you won’t...i trust you 

and you really did, that move requires a lot of trust between partners and you know? maybe it didn’t work out the first time because of the lack of trust between you two

and so you go through the full routine and rocky was holding his breath when that part of the choreography came up but you both successfully did it!! and it was a beautiful move

he was so excited at the end of the run through that he hugged you

and you were smiling too bc this was the first time you did a full run through without any stops in between

you both don’t even notice that all the hostility is gone??

and the tension suddenly changed from hatred to...dare I say it...sexual

oo baby the day of the showcase you two were hella nervous 

but c’mon you and rocky were the best of the best so ofc you absolutely killed the performance

your energies literally merged as soon as the music started

every move was flawless

and you both had to face each other during your ending pose and you were just like looking at him like ??? wtf ??? did you maybe wanna kiss him??

and you know the look that rocky has in his eyes when he’s dancing

imagine that literally piercing into your soul

you got the shivers waiting for the lights to dim 

you both received a standing ovation after your duet obviously

astro watching it bc they always support rocky: they’re gonna fuck 100%

fast forward to the next term bc you both didn’t really have a reason to contact each other during summer break now that the showcase was done

you and rocky had two classes together, dance research and advanced modern technique

it was then that you started to see his actual personality and how goofy of a person he was

you still had a rivalry of course, but now it was healthy

instead of trying to bring each other down, you both started motivating each other to do better

and yes you’ve always been impressed with how good of a dancer rocky was (and vice versa), but now whenever you saw him practice you start to feel a little bit of stir in your stomach and shit are you blushing??

and then you two get paired up again for your midterm evaluation

your teacher: i saw the chemistry you had for the showcase last term, i think you two would work well together for this project

and god is your teacher trying to murder you??? the theme of this midterm was “couple dance” to encourage collaboration or whatever

you were just thankful that the song choice she gave you was more upbeat and not sensual bc you know for a fact that you would not survive doing a sexy dance routine with rocky

but that didn’t stop the way your skin felt like it was on fire whenever he touched you for partner-dependent moves

this time around, you did the choreography process together and it was actually pretty fun??

you and him would bounce back ideas and joke around whenever something looked stupid

you and rocky did this by the way for reference

and then there was one late night when you two were practicing

it was around 2 am, no one else was in the music building and you both didn’t have class the next day so you two were just like fuck it let’s just practice until campus security kicks us out or whatever

you both were literally dancing for four hours, not just this new routine but old ones and freestyles as well

and then you were doing your new routine and during the part where he had to twirl and dip you, you both fall again

but no one got injured this time luckily

and you both just burst out laughing, maybe you were a little delirious at this point in the night

you: i can’t believe you dropped me again

rocky’s laughing and you both just look at each other, and he’s hovering above you right???

and your heart is beating so loudly in your chest you’re positive he can hear it

and you’re thankful that your face was already hot from dancing so that he couldn’t tell that you were in fact blushing

rocky’s like looking at you for a good minute or so and he’s just like thinking in his head: have you always been this cute?

and maybe it’s bc you guys have been getting along so well lately and the vibes are??? immaculate

but the atmosphere suddenly gets super thick and he !! just !! leans down !! and !! kisses !! you !!

and phew baby you bet that you immediately respond to it

you’re literally making out on the floor for like five minutes

and mind you, five minutes is a long time

until rocky’s phone rings loudly through the speaker and you both suddenly separate

he scurries to his phone and you sit up trying to compose yourself 

jinjin: park minhyuk where are you?! it’s 3 am!!

you literally hear jinjin scolding rocky through the phone and you laugh a little bc it’s so cute how he’s getting nagged right now

rocky: hyung...im practicing...

jinjin: do i need to drag you out of there?! i’ll literally call bin to carry your ass to our apartment! how long have you been practicing huh?? have you eaten dinner at all??

rocky: okay okay I’ll come back home

he turns to you after ending the call and he’s so !! shy !!

rocky: I guess that’s the end of our practice haha...do you want me to walk you back to your place?? it’s pretty late out

you: yeah that’d be nice...hm you sure your hyung’s not gonna call a search party for you??

you’re teasing him and he just pouts

rocky: i’ll be fine

rocky walks you back to your apartment and it’s a little?? awkward?? 

but before you bid him goodbye he’s like: uh...the kiss earlier...sorry if I surprised you

your cheeks are hot again: it’s um...it’s okay, I didn’t mind it...it was actually pretty nice...I guess...

and rocky’s heart skips a beat and now he’s blushing: yeah...it was...i’ll see you in class then??

you: yeah, i’ll see you. text me when you get home okay?

he nods and waits until you’re safely inside and then he just starts grumbling to himself

rocky: i’ll see you in class?? could i say anything more stupid??? 

rocky’s adorable okay

him texting you when he gets back: im home :)

you: that’s good! good night rocky :)

he goes to the guys the day after like: i have a predicament !! me and y/n kissed !! 

jinjin: that’s why you were late last night??

eunwoo: you dirty dog, doing it in the dance studio??

rocky: we didn’t do anything else hyung !!

bin: so did you ask them out??

rocky: no...i said...i’ll see you in class

myungjun: i’ll see you in class?!?! are you an idiot??

sanha: hyung even I’d ask y/n out after that

rocky: i know !! im dumb okay!! help me

sanha: you’re a lost case sorry

jinjin: why don’t you start with, hey y/n do you wanna get some food with me??

rocky: AHHHH

yes he does want to ask you out, yes he does want to kiss you again more than he’d like to admit, but he’s shy

you’re not faring any better, you and roommate were literally talking about it all weekend

the next time you see rocky (in class), you two are awkward as fuck

you both keep stealing glances at each other and then if one of you get caught, you both immediately look away

those 50 minutes of class could not go by any slower

and you were so ready to book it after the professor dismissed you but then you hear rocky call your name

rocky: hey y/n, are you free right now?

you: uh yeah! why what’s up

rocky: do you...um...wanna get some coffee with me?? or food or something??

you: do you mean like just to hang out or...uh like a date?

rocky: a date...if you want it to be

and cue the blushies again

you and rocky end up going to this cute cafe and get smoothies bc neither of you were feeling caffeine at the moment

and the whole time you two are just ??? so cute and shy and awkward with each other ???

which is such a contrast from how you two would dance together

rocky’s so sweet, really the cutest boy

gives you so many butterflies

the two of you end up going on little cafe dates before practice 

and you’re all cute and wholesome

and then he turns all passionate and dominant when you start dancing

like wow alright rocky giving you whiplash or whatever

when you show the routine for your midterm, the teacher and other students give you both high praises 

and he’s all giddy after class and he goes up to you: i think its safe to say that we have really good chemistry when we work together, don’t you think?

you’re smiling hehe but you wanna mess with him a little: hmm i think we’re alright, but who knows, i might mesh well with someone else

and then he’s all frowny, a little jealous: what do you mean someone else? do you make out with someone who just has alright chemistry with you??

your eyes go wide and you put your hand over his mouth: im kidding!!

rocky just smirks at your embarrassed reaction and he like tickles your sides

and then he just grabs your hand like: don’t find another dance partner y/n, just be mine

how could you say no to that??? especially when rocky’s just looking all handsome and charming and shit??? exactly. you can’t and why would you ever say no in the first place??

you and rocky dating?? biiiig news in the dance department

and even outside of it

bc lowkey rocky had a bit of a fanclub bc of how good he is at dancing, are we shocked? no

the boys are so happy for him !!

you meet his friends literally the day the two of you start dating

and you’re a bit nervous meeting them bc ofc you want them to like you, they’re his friends

but they’re so sweet...and headass

when rocky brings you to their dinner, the five of them literally start applauding at your entrance

you were so confused and rocky’s just out here with second hand embarrassment

he’s the cutest boyfriend

shy with pda in public (unless you’re dancing), most he’ll do is hold your hand

but in private he’s very clingy

loves backhugging you

he also tickles you when he wants to be a little shit

which is 50% of the time

very playful bf, will tease you at least once every day

if you two are just practicing dancing, he’ll make any sort of excuse to hold you or kiss you

asddfadsjf he’s so cute

gets very soft at night especially when you two are worn out from practice

just wants to go back to your (or his) apartment and cuddle and sleep

imagine just you two cuddling in bed after hours of dancing and he’s just spooning you and he mumbles tiredly into your shoulder: you’re amazing y/n...you’re one of the best dancers i’ve ever seen

and before, his pride would have never allowed him to say that, but now it can

not really one for pet names in my opinion, but he does call you “my y/n”

after you two start dating, you begin to call him by his real name, minhyuk

or you say hyukie

he lowkey loves it when you call him that, it’s so endearing

the guys teasing him, cooing at rocky all gross like : heyyy hyukkie

then rocky just like crosses his arms: only y/n can call me hyukie

he didn’t realize he loves couple dances so much until you and him are dating

well he only loves it because you’re his partner ofc

alright hear me out !! slow dancing with rocky

slow !! dancing !! with !! rocky !!

he dims the lights in the dance studio until it’s just a single spotlight and some slow romantic music comes on and he just grabs you by the hand and twirls you once before pulling you close and you’re just swaying side to side

and then he presses your foreheads together and he’s just looking into your eyes and gives you the softest smile

!!! im freaking out!! i want this so bad !!

that’s how the first i love you comes out

surprise, you say it first

okay but like in the moment, the atmosphere is literally so perfect, and you can just see how much he treasures you and you always feel butterflies whenever he does this, but there was just something that night that made you say it

like your chest was constricting so hard and you were thinking to yourself, i love this man

and so you just said it

and omg the smile on rocky’s face just widens and he kisses you so sweetly before he says it back

loves kissing you, your lips are like a drug to him

can literally make out with you for hours

has pushed you against the walls of the practice room just for a little make out session

ahhh here we go ladies and gents

sex !! with !! rocky !!

first and foremost, dance studio sex??? yes

especially if it’s just you two late night practicing like the first time you kissed?

mirror kink? maybe so

and bc y’all are ~flexible~, you bet he likes bending your back like a pretzel

he’s a very passionate lover, your pleasure is his #1 priority

loves foreplay just as much as the main event

but oof his hips?? grrrrr bark bark ram me over with a truck

his stroke game is so good

literally knows how to fuck you in all the right places

and his stamina??? god tier, can go at it for hours on end

into edging and overstimulation, oof you bet you’re cumming at least twice during every session

i cannot stress this enough!! thigh riding

you know he has thighs of steel

will make you cum just from riding his thigh

most of the time you guys start off slow and sweet, and then just boom it turns it hard sex

will definitely get turned on from doing a sexy dance routine

the amount of times he’s wanted to just fuck you in the middle of class bc you turned him on?? but ofc he has public decency he won’t do that

he knows you get turned on from his fingers oops

anal or vaginal fingering?? he’s all for it baby

he’s loud during sex, all the grunting, huffing, growling, oo im getting chills

not afraid to tell you how good you’re making him feel

not really into spanking, but he grips a lot, like his fingernails have definitely left some deep imprints in your hips or your ass

hair pulling?? yes, both sides receiving

okay but if you call him rocky during sex? big turn on

i can’t explain why, it just is

favorite position?? cowgirl

he loves when you’re on top of him

yes he likes seeing you try to fuck yourself on him

and then when he can’t take it anymore and just grabs your hips and thrusts up into you until your body literally collapses on him

he always tries to make you cum first but oops sometimes baby just busts a nut

yes you will probably tease him about it and then he’ll just shut you up by kissing you 

on another note, no way to turn rocky on faster than sucking on his bottom lip when you’re kissing

will cuddle you after cumming, like he doesn’t care if either of you are sweaty or messy, he’s hugging you for at least five minutes

honestly becomes a baby after sex so it’s more like you’re giving him after care sksksk

the switch he makes from being a sex fiend to a clingy cuddly boy? whiplash

like you need to go to the bathroom to pee or something and he’s like: but...i wanna hug u

i would risk it all for rocky yes

anyway after graduating, rocky becomes a choreographer for this really famous dance studio and get recruited to join a highly-competitive dance troupe

you both do long distance for a little bit bc obviously he’s back home but you have to travel with your group for competitions, sometimes even internationally

and so that caused some strain in your relationship bc distance sucks, but you would always make sure to call him every night before going to bed and despite any time zone difference, he would always answer

your biggest supporter !! literally flew out to surprise you during a big dance competition in london or whatever and you cried happy tears bc was he really there right now??

that’s when you knew that he was the one :’)

you spent the night w him in his hotel room and after a good couple rounds of reunion sex, you were like trying to test the waters a little bit: i missed you hyukie

rocky: i missed you too, but now that you’re here with me, nothing else matters

you: what do you really think about this long distance thing??

rocky: it sucks...but i know it made us stronger. i feel like we can get through anything now

you: yeah, i agree

rocky getting paranoid: omg why? are you thinking of living abroad?? y/n, do i need to start looking at dance studios out here??

you have to hold in your laughter bc he’s so cute: why? would you move out of the county for me if i wanted to??

rocky: i mean...if you’re thinking of leaving for good...then yeah.

he gets so shy and quiet and you’re just !! wow you love him !! he’s yours !!

you kiss him shortly and you smile: no, i’m not gonna live abroad. I miss being home and I miss seeing you all the time. I told you before, I’m thinking of leaving the troupe in two months and then gonna find a job back home for good.

he lets out a sigh of relief: you scared me a little

you just laugh: I only wanted to confirm something and hmm I was right

rocky: what did you wanna confirm??

you being a confident baddie: that I wanna be with you for the rest of my life

rocky feeling his heart implode: you mean it??

you scoffing: why would I be lying about this?

he just laughs and kisses you: I wanna be with you too...I’ve been thinking it since the last time you visited. How much I love you and how much I hated seeing you leave for who knows how long, but I didn’t wanna say anything bc you’re still living your life and I didn’t want a promise like this to influence you to come back if you didn’t want to yet.

two months later you’re back for good and move in with rocky

you end up becoming a choreographer at his dance studio too

you and rocky: the couple™

and you live happily ever after

somewhere down the line...

sanha: hey remember when you two hated each other?

eunwoo: remember when you injured y/n??

bin: remember when you freaked out to us about your first kiss together

myungjun: and you said i’LL sEe yOu iN cLaSs

jinjin: those were fun times, right hyukie?

rocky: i hate you all

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2-16-21

[askmerriauthor]

Star Wars: Visions thoughts and discussion

Been on a bit of a Star Wars binge lately. Getting ready for the Book of Fett and the return of The Mandalorian soon, just finished playing the Jedi: Fallen Order game, and recently "Star Wars: Visions" dropped on Disney+ (not to be confused with the, like, half-dozen other Star Wars properties that use "Visions" as their title). If you've got the streaming service and haven't watched the series yet, I can honestly suggest you should do so. The whole thing is a series of very short episodes and is entirely non-canon to the setting, so you don't even need a hard understanding of Star Wars to enjoy it.

In fact, it's actually better if you don't know anything about Star Wars going in. Spoilers and brief episode discussion after the jump.

Episode 1: The Duel As soon as I saw a lightsaber umbrella and a R2 droid in a hat, I knew this one was going to be a must-watch.

I REPEAT. LIGHTSABER. UMBRELLA.

Solid kick-off for the short series. Dig the aesthetic, dig the classic samurai vibe (even if it's more of an homage than a direct application of the style), dig the simple story. The particular animation style they chose here was a little wonky but I quickly got used to the visuals and loved a bunch of the design choices too much to care. This one was very action/style-focused and clearly chosen as the leading episode for that reason, which I don't fault them at all for.

Episode 2: Tatooine Rhapsody I'm sorry, I don't recall giving Star Wars permission to be this fucking adorable, how dare you.

The tale of a Padawan survivor of Order 66 who makes a new life for himself not with the power of the Force, but with the power of Rock and Roll and Friendship. Bitchin'. Super adorable, semi-chibi art style that's honestly ringing, like, a dozen different bells in my head for trying to figure out all the different styles it's drawing from. Good fun, if a bit bland in the end. The biggest problem is the music. The story relies on "using music to save the day", which is fine. But when you use that trope you need an absolutely face-melting banger of a performance, which this just doesn't have. An enjoyable entry all the same though. Not bad, not great, cute designs; the quirky story of how Jabba the Hutt got a new slave band to play at his den.

Episode 3: The Twins This entire episode is animated by the team who brought us Kill la Kill and that should really tell you everything you need to know.

You know how if you get a bunch of little kids together, they'll start playing make-believe games where they just invent stories and plot twists and super powers like "I have whatever you can do, but infinity plus 1 better!" shit like that? That's what this short is. It has only the vaguest allusions to the setting proper and immediately hurls every semblance of consistency, logic, and sense out the window with both hands. It is 1,000,000% style over substance.

Okay, y'know what, no, that's not enough to describe the utter insanity this episode is. All I can find online is pictures of the main villain character pulling a General Grievous impression or the protag snaring lightsaber whips on his lightsaber, but that is fucking tiddlywinks compared to where this episode goes.

There is a scene in this short where the protag, who is ghost-riding the hood of his X-Wing upside down in space without a space suit, super-charges his lightsaber into a giant rainbow of FUCK YOU GEORGE LUCAS with the power of familial love and fabulousness, using said rainbow super saber to CUT AN ENTIRE STAR DESTROYER IN HALF WHILE ACCELERATING TO HYPERSPEED, all to save his twin sister's life by making her explode in a somehow non-harmful manner.

This short is utterly nonsensical drivel and yes I would like more right the fuck now, please and thank you.

Episode 4: The Village Bride Wait, we're actually trying to tell a reasonable story in this series? Sorry, I was still on a sugar high from the previous episode. Lemme sit down.

The Village Bride is great. Excellent short that's just dripping with atmosphere and a slow, purposeful pace to its writing. It's short and sweet with little focus on the Force-using characters themselves, which actually serves to its credit. Even in the Star Wars universe, the Ainu people can't catch a fucking break. Easily one of my favorites in the whole run.

Episode 5: The Ninth Jedi The fact that two characters in this short have Sasuke's haircut was extremely distracting. But I actually really enjoyed this entry overall.

Despite playing extremely loose with the established lore around how lightsabers work, this episode over all others really embraces the original setting and tells a slow-burn story about the potential revival of the Jedi Order. A little meandering at times, but it's a solid piece and well worth exploring. Of all the shorts in the series, this one has the greatest potential to actually continue on as a standalone series or be folded into the canon franchise. Main protag is an adorable bean and I love her.

Episode 6: T0-B1 This episode is simultaneously a love letter to Astro Boy and a giant middle finger to Star Wars lore purists.

The tale of an imaginative Droid named T0-B1 who dreams of becoming a hero like the Jedi he's heard so many stories of. This short gets extra credit for being so unyieldingly stylish and charming. On the surface of its presentation and story choices it seems like it doesn't know anything about Star Wars lore, but it's actually packed full of some pretty deep cuts that show the folk behind it do know what they're talking about and just don't fucking care what purists have to say. The entire thing is just "Yeah, I'm ignoring your lore, but I'm doing it in a fun way that makes the setting more interesting, and I'm so genuine about it that you can't be mad at me". I can respect that. Plus the old dude in that screenshot is an armless Jedi who's retired to be a botanist and that's just fucking cool.

Episode 7: The Elder I'm Episode 1, but better.

This one. This shit right here. This is the good shit.

I'm sure y'all have heard before that Star Wars is directly inspired by Kurosawa and samurai films in general, but The Elder really digs into that hard. Where Episode 1 styles itself after a samurai tale, Episode 7 is a samurai tale. Subdued, methodical storytelling, slow-burn pace, charming dialogue amid believable characters, and a truly intimidating villain who provokes a brief but striking duel. This is my vibe. I crave more of this. Far and away the best short of the entire series.

Episode 8: Lop and Ocho Oh for fuck's sake, there's going to be so much porn of this bunny girl character, isn't there?

This entry is another that kind of meanders with the story it's trying to tell and plays very loose with the lore. It reimagines a lot of what we know of the Jedi/The Rebels and Sith/The Empire into a feudal faction-based conflict akin to what you'd see in a period samurai drama. Modernization and callous industry crushing the spirit of the people and breaking apart families. A decent work overall, but nothing really all that impressive in the end. It takes too long to get going and then peters out halfway through its pay-off for some reason.

Episode 9: Akakiri The fact that I had to look up this episode's name and scenes online and still could not remember anything about it should tell you a lot.

The series ends on a downer with the dramatic tale of a fallen Jedi who sacrifices himself and succumbs to the Dark Side. Turning evil for... the greater good? Wha? Had some pretty neat visuals, but I genuinely cannot remember a damn thing about this episode or its characters. Big swing and a miss in terms of impact.

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Ducktales Reviews: The Battle for Castle McDuck!

How to sum up how I feel about this episode.... 

Yeah that’ll do it. This wasn’t a BAD episode. It flowed nicely, had two great new additions to the cast.. but after weeks of really good episodes, warts and all.. this one was just.. okay. Part of the problem isn’t the episode’s fault as I went in expecting the answers to scrooge’s immortality, the answers to hortense we didn’t get last week, and you know donald and della actually getting to interact with their grandparents. I got.. pretty much none of that, though I did get some answer as to how Hortense lived long enough to have donald. But we’ll get to that. Point is part of the episodes baggage is on setting my expectations too high, the same happened with “Astro B.O.Y.D.” earlier this season and in hindsight, that one is really excellent even if it wasn’t the fenton episode I was hoping for, it’s still really damn good. THis one... even if it’s not what I was hoping ofr, while not bad it’s still pretty medicore. Let’s get into why shall we? ------------------------------------------------------------------------------- We open at Castle McDuck, where Webby’s narrating for people who didn’t see the last episode set here and aren’t obsessive about watching the show like you or I. And also because this time she’s not so starstruck that she can’t actually speak or function, so she can actually get all the lore she wants in. The family is here because while the Druid stones seem to be working, the mists protecting the castle, and keeping it out of lockstep with reality every 5 years, have suddenly vanished.  Naturally Fergus blames Scrooge for that. I’m mixed on this version of Fergus. While i’m fine with chanigng things up from life and times, having him live and having him resent scrooge on some level, it worked better last time as there was emotional weight and a reason behind it: Scrooge and him didn’t get along becasue Fergus missed his boy and resented that his sucess lost him a son and made him cold and bitter like Fergus himself. It fit both men to just be too damn proud to talk it out. So while Fergus being a bit crotchety still isn’t ENITRELY out of character him still being a dick to his son for no real reason and given no new one for being an asshole to him just annoys me. The character last time was three dimensional, understandable and likeable. This one is just a bitter old man constantly yelling at his son and doting on his daughter. More on that bit in a bit. 

Downy meanwhile is just as lovely as last time: Since she lived long enough to see her grand children this time, I love seeing her as a wonderful doting grandmother to her great grandbabies. She’s wonderful and I’m thrilled to see her again. It does however bring up one of this episodes biggest issues: Donald and Della are absent and this time for no good reason. Last time, it was fair enough to exclude Donald as there was no real space for him in the narrative, and he likely , even if he loved grandma and grandpa, didn’t want to have to explain his estrangment with scrooge to them and break his poor gram-gram’s heart. That’s fair.  This time though? Their not there because.. frank didn’t want to use them. That’s.. literally it. They could’ve fit fine into the family fued narrative epseically since we’ve seen them sibling squabble, and unlike other adventures they’ve been absent, where they clearly just wanted scrooge to have time with the kids, or in the case of rumble for ragnarok scrooge had valid reason for not using them, this time? There’s no good excuse. Della would want to see her grandparents, Donald would get drug along. They only appear every 5 years. WHy the hell wouldn’t they be here?! I get trying to have character ballance but we’ve had several episodes this season of just scrooge and the kids. We DIDN’T need it this time and the lack of characters dosen’t really change anything. It instead wastes plots like getting to see what Donald and Della’s relationships with their grandparents is like, or their aunt, or finding out how their mother died or at least fucking MENTIONING hortense outside of one word and a photo. YOu think the fact their sister is dead would be important to Scrooge and Matilda but it just.. never comes up. Their niece and nephew never come up and my patince comes up short. I’m fine with character ballance but i’m not fine with wasting a golden opportunity for character interactions we haven’t gotten. I get we just had two weeks of donald and della I do, but it dosen’t make this any less frustrating or nonsensical. Having characters appear two episodes in a row dosen’t magically make them irrelevant or we’d be seeing less of Huey or Louie or Dewey and outside of last week, we REALLY haven’t. If they can show up once an episode why can’t their parents?

Point is a mystery’s afoot, and so is THE PHANTOM BLOT.. to no one’s suprise as he was both in the episode’s description and frankly magic being drained is his mo, this time using a portable generator. Webby dosen’t catch on to this.. but  I let it slide as while she’s the only one to have really met and fought the blot.. she’s also busy with mc duck family stuff and frankly while a missing mystery is here, given how deep the mcduck rouge’s gallery goes, it’s not a stretch to say it could be any one of them. Especially Glomgold, who while not magic is willing to pay for rediculous shit why would “dispersing scrooge’s family castle’s mists to bug his parents” be any diffrent. Or possibly replace them as their son because he’s kind of nuts and entirely made of stupid and that’s why we love him. And Magica has the obvious motives of revenge on scrooge, as this isn’t her first set of dead parents, and a castle full of mystic wonders. It’s plausable to wait and see who it is first instead of just assuming it’s one guy. 

And yup there’s a mysterin town:A set of mystical bagpipes of the clan mcduck that can bring life to where there is none. We don’t know if they can raise the dead but they can bring inanimate objects to life so there’s that. But seriously Donald should take them to his parents graves just to be safe. But before we can get to duck necormancy we have to find them so we get... (checks notes) a Louie and Huey team up again where Louie is an abrasive jackass to his brother for planning ahead, despite the fact he’s been proven wrong on that front twice now, and is entirely insufferable and has learned nothing about trying to find a quick and easy way of doing things depsit elearning this lesson 80 times already. 

As you can tell I hate this subplot and am getting it out of the way NOW because it’s not good and treads ground we’ve tread THREE TIMES ALREADY. and you did it right the first time, you did it okay if sloppiily with let’s get dangerous. Why this ? Louie learns nothing, Huey learns nothing and it’s not funny.The two just search for the mystery, and Louie is impatient. Though talking with a friend in a ducktales server, i’m in one now and it actually really helps with these, did make me realize that Louie’s character development has stalled like I thought... it’s simply a Marco Diaz situation. Like the third season of star vs the forces of evil, it’s basically a coin flip if your getting a well developed verison of the character that’s been built up over multiple seasons.. or a jackass whose learned nothing and treats other people badly. Their different FLAVORS of jackass but jackass still tastes awful no matter who it is. It’s not as BAD as it was there as while it’s not helpign the character, it’s not actively having him do the worst things possible, but it still makes Louie’s plots a chore to sit through at times as when he’s not well written like with split sword, rumble for ragnarok or tickening, he’s just a 2 dimensional greedy jerkhole and I don’t want to spend time with him. And the other brothers have had times of being written one dimensional, not going to lie, but all I get from Louie in these plots is this:

After almost getting his family killed, after getting scrooge’s fortune overnight with minimal effort and having everything he wanted only to learn, suprise, it takes a lot of work to maintain.. and he still just dosent’ get that the easy way isn’t always the way, and after the trickining and let’s get dangerous hasn’t learned his brother is usually right when he’s being anal retentive. This was fine in the last 2 seasons but too much has happened for him to get away with this shit and not come off as obnoxious. It just drags any episode it’s in down with it. I”ll leave the rest of the review under the cut. 

One more subplot before we dig into the main one: The Phantom Blot and his new partner, Pepper! If you don’t remember her it’s fine as she wasn’t named but she was the egghead voiced by Amy Sedaris who showed up for one scene back in the Blot’s first apperance and who frank said they had more plans for. Well we see those plans now as Pepper has been paired with the Blot for this mission as Bradford’s policy for missing mystery missions now is the buddy system. No going solo, despite the Blot really not liking any of this. Which honestly both fits Bradford, as he’s endlessly practical, and is just a good idea: most of his agents are kind of wild cards and have their own agends so forcing them to work together not only gives them better odds with scrooge, but prevents them from working their own angles against FOWLS better instrests. IN this case having the peppy, energetic and talkative pepper go with the closed off and dogmatic blot keeps him from going overboard, as Castle McDuck is basically one large magical nightmare for him to destroy and Blot keeps pepper on task and on stealth since, as we learn now we get to know her, she’s a bit overly excitable and not all that subtle, if not to dewey or della levels. She can stealth when necessary. She’s also DETERMINED to get the blot to bond with her and work with her, and is delighted to work with him, getting the job because.. no one else wanted it becasue the blot scares people and puts them off with his intensity, which he’s shocked about but really shoudln’t be. 

IT’s just a nice dynamic, he helps her be a better agent and she helps him realize he can’t do EVERYTHING alone and that blindly destroying all magic in his path, as much as he’d like to isn’t the option, using some runes to track them. Sure pepper makes their presence obvious once or twice, btu she’s also essential to the mission more often than not and by the end, even if they loose, we’ll get to that, Blot has fully accepted his partner. It’s.. honestly heartwarming when you think about it: The blot’s probably closed him off from personal relationships of any kind because A) his family got brutally murdered by the person he’s hutning and B), he has a mission he can never rest in. He likely wanted to work alone because it’s how he rolls nad i’t sonly through seeing someone who genuinely WANTS to be around him and wants his missiong ot succeed that he realizes he dosen’t have to push everyone away and allies are more useful than none. It’s a warped way of thinking but for someone with as much baggage as blotty, it’s progresss and it’s a really sweet story. HOpefully this relationship will go farther.. I mean strange relationships have happened than a dogmatic dog who hates magic and a peppy go getter both working for an obliviously evil businessman. 

So onto the main plot: Turns out Scrooge wasn’t the first person Fergus called this episode as we meet the DT17 version of Matilda! Horay! She’s voice by Michelle Gomez who like David Tennant and Catherine Tate before her is a doctor who alumnus.. though this time she’s past my time watching the show. I really gotta get on catching up. She played Missy, the female regneration of the master. Gomez is spectacular in the part here, and while I have no past experince with her I certainly want to see more of her work as she’s a delight.  Matilda is Scrooge’s sister. In the comics she was the duitful sister who looked up to her big brother as he left Scotland to make his fortune, sending money and mementio’s back she scrapbooked. She eventually went with Scrooge to america with him... but this didn’t end well as Scrooge took advantage of his sisters as help and when he finally did take them along on an adventure, it was his lowest point, going from an honest buisness man to a cruel robber baron for one moment and left him and his company. She and Hortense TRIED building a bridge with a suprise party.. but by that point while Scrooge had backed away from being a monster, he was still such a dick things blew up. As far as we know he never saw hortense alive again, and he only saw matilda in her old age with the two reconcliing. I’ll get more into ALL of this when I get to those pieces of life and times obviously. Point is she’s a good character.  And so is her reboot version.. but the reboot version did catch me off guard as, much like her dad she’s not really much like the sensible sweet woman from the comics. But given DT17 tends to really play fast and loose with previous versions of characters, and it often works out i’m not going to gripe about it: what  they did here works. As for what EXACTLY they did here, this version of Matilda is more flighty: not incomptient or lacking in charm, but due to sort of bouncing from one improable venture to the next and staying at her parents between ventures. She’s sort of a female version of Jubal Pomp, an itallian duck comics character who modelded himself after Scrooge, but dosen’t have the common sense or work ethic scrooge does. That’s really matilda here minus the looking up to scrooge part: she dosen’t seem untalented, just a bit footloose. She also likes needling her brother and is unsuprisingly her dad’s faviorite since she’s around more.  The two naturally get under each others skin, and we get our main conflict... not just because of their fighting.. but because Webby can’t help but mettle. She’s what makes this plot work: Webby can’t help but try to interfere because she dosen’t get siblings sometimes fight and have long standing resentments, something I relate to, and that stepping in or trying to end it sometimes just makes it worse. Granted sometimes’ it’s necessary, but in this casey Dewey, whose trying to inch her away is right on the money and after the awful plot with these two in SPlit Sword, it’s nice to see Dewey be in the right, but for actually good reason instead of just because the episode says so. Here he’s right that her getting involved will only escalate and her attempt to do so only reveals Matilda kidnapped scrooge’s pet hair clump and died it. She also has something resembling an emu.  This only makes things worse and starts to escalate tensions leading to some between both sides, as Fergus takes Matilda’s and Downy takes scrooges. Again REALLY could’ve used the twins. We do get a nice bit where Webby coaxe Dewey, who understandably dosen’t want to help her further spiral into her own issues by helping mend family issues she really isn’t qualified to solve.. because she’s you know... 13. I mean granted Steven Universe did this sort of thing at her age.. but given he eventually repressed his issues so much he had a mental breakdown and turned into a giant angst monster, and only got better with therapy.. maybe get some therapy instead Webby. Just saying. Therapy everyone? Therapy? But yeah she coaxes Dewey with a statdew, and yes she says that exactly.  This gets the family breifly united, as Dewey fakes an injury.. but finding out it’s fakkkke combined with Huey and Louie coming in just causes the enitre family to spiral into squabbling and webby to shut down a bit, with Scrooge planning to form his own clan after bickering iwth his parents and sister. Oh and it only gets worse when Pepper accidently brings some statues to life, and they get in on it too while Webby’s convinced the families over and she just wanted a place in it. And even if this isnt’ the BEST episdoe the show’s ever done, i’ll get to why in a second, I do like this. Webby’s nearly LOST this family once, way back at the end of season 1 when no one but beakly thought of her feelings about her best friends and surrogate uncle all leaving her after her other surrogate uncle you know.. said some pretty unforgivable things. She’s trying SO hard to force it to fit, so hard to fix things because she can’t stand them being broken, something I PAINFULLY relate to given my own personal issues with not being able to stand people being upset with me. She just wanted a family and i’ts gone.  Of course it isn’t and webby’s sad words coupled with some house crashers get the clan mcduck statues included to kick Blot and Pepper out and get the bagpipes back, while Scrooge points out it’s the good families that can withstand a squabble. So the mystery’’s gotten, Scrooge and Matilda are squareish... and this episodes thankfully over. Happy day! Final Thoughts: This episode is okay. I very clearly have my problems with it.. but it’s a fine half hour of television and funny enough to bounce through it with some good character stuff. It’s just after the last few weeks, and really this whole season.. I expect more. There was no real emotional core besides webby this episode and her issues wer eboiled down to “Families fight but it’s fine”.. which itself is a pretty uncomplicated message when family dyanmics can be complciated messy and painful. My family is thankfully fairly stable, if not without issues because hey no one is, but given other people watching might come from far worse homes where the bickering is far worse and far more toxic.. yeah maybe have some nuance here.  And this is from a show that usualy does that WELL: We saw it with Fergus last time before he was hollowed out for this episode and reduced to an angry dick. We’ve seen it with Donald and Scrooge’s estrangment or Donald and Della’s relationship: Family is complicated , messy and even good ones have problems. That should’ve been the message: family can squabble or even have serious issues but they come back together. Instead we just got a bunch of bickering for a cheesy message that dosen’t quite fit with what the series done. It fits for thanksgiving: family , the good kind, can last arugments and is there for you regardless.. and I know my family is. I just feel they could’ve done the message better. Basically the episode was fine... it just wasn’t up to the high standard this season has set even in it’s down turn and is easily the weakest epseically since Matilda really dosen’t feel all that fleshed out even though what we got of her was great. Basically not a BAD episode.. but it could’ve been a great one, and i’m disapointed the series didn’t try harder.  NEXT TIME: regular coverage for the year concludes as we go back a few months chronlogically to find out why Santa and Scrooge hate each other. IT’s christmas time ya’ll! Until then if there’s an episode of ducktales or another disney series you’d like me to take a look at, suggest it in the comments or comission it outright for give bucks via my direct messages on here or send an ask for my discord. Until we meet agian, there’s always another rainbow. 

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Our Second Chance (Ch.7)

↳ Header created by the amazingly talented @koophoriia​​​​​ from the BHQ’s Banner Request Board.

➳ Pairing: Kim Seokjin x Female OC x Kim Namjoon

➳ Genre(s): Modern!AU, Royalty!AU, Modern Royal Family!AU, Enemies turned Lovers, Love Triangle, Friendship, Humor, Romance, & Angst

➳ Warning(s) & Rating: swearing, mentions of death (passing of a loved one), jealousy  | PG-15

➳ Words: 5.7K

➳ Summary: Have you ever gotten that familiar feeling when you first see someone? That strange connection between yourselves even though you have no clue where that came from. Yeah. That was the sensation that Sumin felt daily ever since she has come face-to-face with only Kim Seokjin. Despite being named after their ancestors, two people who were madly in love with each other, they cannot stand to be in each other’s presence. However, that must change, or else history will repeat itself. Sounds like an adventure, right? 

※ Previously: ch.1 | ch.2 | ch.3 | ch.4 | ch.5 | ch.6

※ Next time: coming soon!

—A/N: And finally! I have kept my promise and updated this series after not doing so for almost TWO years! I’m honestly quite surprised and proud of myself for updating this series as I genuinely thought I was going to leave it unfinished. However, I honestly want to thank the friends I made over that BHQ for igniting that passion for writing once again. I especially want to thank @jinned​ AKA BEAN because without her, I truly believe that this series would have been discontinued AND she introduced me to this amazing group called, “ASTRO,” so enjoy her OC + JinJin and let me know what you guys think! 

- Kim

Chapter 7 – The Heart Wants What It Wants

Previously

It was crazy that in just a few minutes, she went from battling between her rational and emotional side to only allowing her emotional side to take control.

Now, she thought about everything and anything that led to more emptiness within her body.

Maybe, she should just marry Namjoon. He wouldn’t hurt her. He would always protect her from any form of danger.

But then…

Would she be happy with him?

Would she learn to love him?

So many questions flooded her mind, causing this strange yet intense tension to emerge.

Great, now she had a migraine…

What else could go wrong?

“Princess Sumin…your father would like a word with you.” She heard the royal messenger say.

Fuck…

Her…

Life…

“Okay. Tell my father that I’ll be right there.”

Letting out what it appeared to be the millionth sigh that evening, Sumin stood up – with the assistance of Jungkook, of course – and dusted off her hands. She then smoothed out her dress, wiping away any dust or dirt that decorated the dusted pink silk fabric before taking one final deep breath and releasing it nice and slow.

If she were to have a serious talk with her father, she needed to be calm and collected. Her heartbreak because of Seokjin had to be put on the back burner for now.

“Alright. Now I’m ready to talk to my father.” Said the princess as she nodded politely to one of the royal guards. The guard bowed his head out of respect and responded to his princess’s words before guiding Sumin to her father.

Just as the two walked away from their spot, two out of breath men came to an immediate halt under the entryway. Their frantic eyes scanned the ballroom in hopes to find a familiar face.

Unfortunately, luck was definitely not on their side, as the panic gentlemen came face-to-face with an endless sea of party guests. No matter where they looked, Seokjin and Namjoon could not find Sumin, which meant their chances at winning over the poor girl’s heart grew slim—especially Seokjin’s chances.

A low growl escaped Namjoon’s lips as he angrily ruffled his hair, no longer caring if his hair didn’t look princely. Then, his heated gaze flickered towards Seokjin before grabbing the pretty boy’s jacket and roughly pulling him forward. Their noses practically bumped into each other.

“This is all your fault,” Namjoon growled deeply.

Seokjin scoffed, roughly pushing Namjoon’s hands off his jacket; thus, creating space between them.

“My fault? Are you fucking kidding me?!” The fuming duke took a step forward, almost towering over the intelligent prince, “If you haven’t goaded me into saying those obvious lies, then Sumin wouldn’t have heard me and runoff,” Then, Seokjin paused as a thought planted itself in his mind, “Correction, if you haven’t called me out to talk to you in her stupid foyer, then this stupid, unnecessary shit wouldn’t have happened in the fucking first place!” The irritated duke finished, smiling politely at the random bystanders who awkwardly glanced their way. For added measure, Seokjin stepped away from Namjoon and fixed his appearance.

Now it was Namjoon’s turn to scoff, and just as he opened his mouth to argue back, he noticed a familiar dress brush by the dessert table.

“Sumin…” He whispered, hoping that Seokjin – his competitor – didn’t hear him but much to Namjoon’s dismay, he did.

The handsome duke swiftly spun around, his focus homed in on Sumin as she closed the distance between herself and her father, the king.

“Shit…” The competitive rivals cursed; their eyes briefly met one another. As if they were on the same page, they dashed towards Sumin’s direction. However, the lovesick men soon halted as they came face-to-face with a furious queen—Sowon.

Rage burned brightly in her eyes as she breathed heavily through her nostrils while Jungkook innocently stood behind her. He awkward waved at his older friends, kindly mouthing that they were about to painfully die by her hands. He even added gestures, thinking that it would be helpful.

It wasn’t.

It only terrified Namjoon and Seokjin, and out of that fear, the two idiots spoke over one another. Both of them desperately hoped that their words would persuade Sowon and allow one of them to talk to Sumin.

Sadly, it didn’t. It only angered Sowon more.

Suddenly, she held up her hands, her cold stare silenced the bumbling idiots that stood before her.

“Good. Now listen to me and listen carefully,” Sowon stepped forward as she grabbed both Namjoon’s and Seokjin’s tie and yanked them forward. The two contenders for Sumin’s heart were now to Sowon’s eye level. “I don’t know what you did, nor do I give a fuck. The only thing that I do care about is that you,” The agitated queen released Namjoon and poured all of her fiery rages toward the handsome idiot, “Broke my dearest friend’s heart. Therefore, you are dead to me. You’ll never be allowed near Sumin.” She threatened with her voice as cold as ice.

Namjoon did a silent cheer. He could always rely on Sowon to do the right thing.

“And you!” The prince heard, quickly squashing his triumphant mood.

On second thought…

Now, it was Namjoon’s turn to be yanked forward, nearly choking the poor prince.

“I know that the stupid Duke’s harsh words were a result of your carefully planted sentences since I know how calculating you can get when you want something to turn in your favor,” Sowon stated as she let go of Namjoon’s tie. The stupid prince had Jungkook to thank as the young lad was the voice of reason for her.

Out of the corner of Sowon’s eye, she noticed a hand slowly raised. Rubbing the sides of her forehead, hoping the massage would soothe away her headache, she asked what Seokjin wanted, but he better picked his words wisely. She already loathed him after the stunt he pulled earlier.

“So, does that mean I have more time to plead with Sumin?”

Both Sowon and Namjoon snapped their gaze onto him. Simultaneously, Jungkook shook his head, silently berating his oldest friend for asking such a stupid question.

Instead of answering, the frustrated queen stalked up to Seokjin and stomped on his foot before walking away. She then sarcastically yelled,

“OOPS! I DIDN’T SEE YOU THERE!”

Seokjin cursed, hopping one foot as he grabbed his aching foot. The poor duke looked utterly flabbergasted as he shot Jungkook a look that practically said, “Are you seriously with her?”

Jungkook simply shrugged, unsure how to respond to Seokjin’s question. The naïve prince then turned to his side, hoping that Namjoon was still there, but he wasn’t. Only a vacated spot remained as the two fellas wheeled their brains over the events that took place.

“I’m not getting Sumin back, am I?”

“For your sake, I hope so, dude. I really hope so…”

In a different part of the castle, a troubled princess stared blankly out the window, with the moon spotlighting certain areas of her father’s office. Almost as if splotches of white paint decorated the flooring. Sumin’s absentmindedly traced the fabric of the ivory lace curtains, the lined material contrasted the softness of her fingers.

Soon, Seokjin’s harsh words flooded her mind as her eyes gradually became glossy. Her breath hitched briefly while her lips thinned as if Sumin tried her hardest to compose herself. The depressed girl shut her eyes, causing a tear to trickle down her precious cheek.

“Sumin?” heard Sumin before she quickly composed herself and wiped away any stray droplets.

With a deep breath, the princess turned away from the window with a soft yet fake smile.

“Yes, father?” questioned Sumin, treading towards him as he stood near the fireplace with his back facing her. She then placed a warm hand on his shoulder, subtly announcing her presence to her father.

“I know that something happened between you and Sir Seokjin and before you argue with your old man. I know,” The king faced her, displaying a loving yet almost sad smile, “Call it a father’s intuition. Still, I know that the duke broke my little girl’s heart, which means that you successfully found someone to marry out of love.” He finished, his voice dropped to almost a whisper as he slowly nodded, trying to wrap his mind around the fact that his little girl was no longer that. What stood before was this beautiful young woman who strongly resembled her mother, but of course, she had his smile and nose. But everything else came from her mother’s side—just like his ancestor, Queen Sumin I.

Talk about oddly strong genes…

After what seemed like forever, the king forcibly removed himself from his many beautiful memories of his beloved daughter. The king cleared his throat and took a seat on his wine-colored sofa chair. He crossed one leg over the other before instructing Sumin to sit as well.

“Now, Sumin, when are your upcoming nuptials to the duke?” asked her father, and instantly, Sumin’s body tensed. Her hands fisted the fabric of her dress while her eyes remained glued on the luxurious rug.

How was Sumin going to tell her dear old dad that she was unsure if she’s still engaged? The answer? She couldn’t, but she had to since Seokjin bluntly confessed that he never loved her, and it was all a lie.

Yet her stubborn heart refused to believe his words. A tiny part of her knew something was up, but all signs pointed that – maybe – just maybe – he told the coldhearted truth.

She glanced towards the ceiling for a second, praying that no tears pooled in the brims of her eyes. She breathed in and out, nice and slow, as she collected herself.

With a sweet smile gracing her lips, Sumin finally answered her father,

“Unfortunately, father, a wedding for Seokjin and I is no longer written in the stars.”

The king’s brow quirked up as confusion slowly washed over his face.

“What do you mean, my dear?” He pointed at Sumin’s ring finger, “I see that you are now dawning our ancestor’s engagement ring, so why do you say that there’ll be no wedding? Did Seokjin do something to you?” He questioned as his voice grew cold near the end, while anger quickly flashed in his eyes.

“No!” Sumin swiftly answered, eliminating any doubts in her father’s mind. However, her answer did the opposite. The fact of how fast she responded to his question planted seeds of distrust in his head. Also, it didn’t help that her face went pale, not even a minute after his question.

Something was wrong, and as the king, it was his duty to get to the bottom of his daughter’s heartache.

Letting out a tired grunt, Sumin’s father stood up, cracking a few bones as he gently took his daughter’s hands into his before pulling her up. Then, without uttering a single word, he wrapped a loving arm around her bare shoulders and hugged her.

With that single hug, Sumin broke down sobbing. This wasn’t a princess crying crocodile tears to her daddy – the king – but a broken-hearted daughter who needed the comfort of the one man that would never crush her heart.

“I don’t know what I did wrong, daddy,” She hiccuped, crying harder, “I thought he loved me.” She said with a voice so devastated that it caused her father’s eyes to become glossy.

“I know, sweetheart. I know.” The king tried his hardest to soothe his daughter’s pain, not as a king who needed to secure the future of his kingdom and his daughter’s reign, but as a father who only wanted his only child to be happy.

Slowly, while it pained him to do so, the king released his daughter from his embrace but still held her within arm’s length. A blanket of silence covered them as the king and princess stared at each other. No words were necessary as their troubled facial expressions spoke for them. However, he couldn’t sleep peacefully, knowing that his little girl was utterly destroyed.

So, as if their ancestor guided his attention, the king’s gaze fell onto the family portrait of Queen Sumin I with her parents. Slowly, a soft smile danced on his face while he briefly closed his eyes, breathing through his nostrils. Then, as he reopened his eyes, he shifted his stare towards the portrait once more.

“Do you recall the old tale of how Queen Sumin I ultimately decided on following through her marriage to King Ji Yong?” The king suddenly asked, instantly capturing Sumin’s attention as she softly shook her head.

In response, he slowly nodded, taking a seat on the wine sofa chair. He gestured for his daughter to retake her seat. If he were to tell this story, he wanted both of them to be comfortable.

Sumin’s father cleared his throat a few times and began his tale,

“Well, of course, it began during nightfall. Your ancestor, King Jin Hwan, summoned his daughter to his deathbed and…”

Grabbing a handful of her skirt, Princess Sumin rushed to her father’s chamber as tears cascaded down her precious cheeks. She didn’t care if the clicking of her heels woke up the entire castle. Her nurse tragically announced, minutes prior, that her father didn’t have much longer, and he could peacefully die in his sleep. But Sumin refused to believe it. Without a moment to lose, she dashed out of her father’s study and sprinted towards her parents’ bedroom.

She already lost the love of her life – the real keeper of her heart and soul – Kim Seokjin, now she was to lose her father?

She might as well hand over the kingdom on a silver platter to her “doting” fiancé, King Ji Yong, at this point.

Pushing past her parents’ royal guards, Sumin roughly pushed open the doors, walking by the royal physicians, nurses, and servants with her eyes focused on her parents’ bed.

With each big, painful step, the princess closed the distance between her and the bed, where her father laid, barely breathing.

Sumin choked back her tears while her mother wept, desperately grasping her husband’s hands.

“S-Sumin…” the distraught princess heard her mother hiccup while maintaining her gaze on the dying king.

“F-father…” Sumin finally broke down, falling to her knees as her legs gave up on her. No strength lingered in her body, both physically and mentally.

Sumin was utterly defeated, and she needed her father more than ever.

Gently taking one of his hands into hers, her mother released one of them seconds earlier, the daughter softly cried as she pressed a tear-stained cheek against his hand.

“I do not know what to do, daddy,” The troubled princess began, “Sir Seokjin is captured and awaiting his execution and has been for almost a month now, and I am so lost.” She sobbed silently, hanging her head low.

Suddenly, she felt something on top of her head. Sumin quickly looked up and was instantly greeted with a tired yet soft smile from the king.

“My darling princess…” He began in a breathy tone, “It saddens me to see you so broken, and if I were at my all-time strength, I would toss that horrid man out of our kingdom and place an eternal ban on him.” King Jin Hwan stated before coughing. He could feel his time coming to an end with each cough. However, he needed to depart one final word of wisdom to his daughter—even if it meant breaking their families’ beloved tradition. Their personal belief that everyone deserves a chance at marrying for love.

Maybe one day…

That tradition will come to light again…

But for now, Sumin needed to do what was best for her people.

“Sweetheart, I know how much you truly loved your knight, and—”

“I love him to the moon and back father. I have been in love with that man ever since we were mere children, and that is why I will do anything to get him back home safely. Even if it means surrendering myself to that wretched king.”

Her words alarmed both the king and queen. Maybe it was not necessary to influence his daughter to follow through with the wedding after all.

After all, he raised his daughter to always follow her heart, and he could die peacefully, knowing that his headstrong child would remain just that—strong-willed.

She should be fine…

Right…?

As the embers slowly fizzled out, the king looked to his wife and then to his daughter before gazing at the ceiling and whispered,

“Remember, I will always love you two. My favorite women…”

Like that, Queen Sumin I went along with the wedding to King Ji Yong, breaking Sir Seokjin’s heart and living in misery until her early death. Sumin’s grandparents explained that the reason for her ancestor’s premature passing was because of a broken heart. They told her that it never healed after Queen Sumin I parted with her beloved knight that infamous day. Just the mere thought alone terrified the young princess; thus, molding her into believing that her true love was out there. She only had to find him, and then, she could have the happy ending that her ancestor never received.

Unfortunately, the idea of a happy ending was so out of reach for the princess.

She found the man believed to be her soulmate.

The two of them fell in love.

And then…

As if someone woke Sumin from her beautiful dream, everything vanished.

All that remained was her ancestor’s engagement ring nestled on Sumin’s ring finger. It served as a cruel reminder that Seokjin, Duke of Birch Ridge, took out her beating heart and stabbed it.

The troubled princess couldn’t help but wince as she clutched her chest. She felt the coolness from her ring, and as if it were suddenly burning her soft skin, Sumin tore it off her finger and carelessly tossed it on the end table next to her chair. Her odd action alarmed her father, and as he opened his mouth to speak, Sumin snatched her family heirloom, cradling it in her chest.

She quietly chanted with closed eyes, “I’m so sorry for any dishonor I may have done…”

“Oh, my precious jewel, you have done nothing of the sort,” Sumin heard her father say, snapping her out of her hypnosis, “You simply fell in love with someone who fooled you.” He finished, his eyes dripping with worry.

“Yeah, but the deadline is soon approaching, and…” The princess paused, recalling the tale her father finished reciting moments earlier, “I will officially accept my betrothal with Namjoon.” She suddenly stood up, rubbing the engagement ring between her fingers and eyed the piece of jewelry intensely. Then, she held it in front of her father. “Here, father. I don’t think I’m worthy of holding onto this precious heirloom as it symbolizes true love, and I, unfortunately, don’t have that. Not anymore.” She stated; her voice so quiet and destroyed as she dragged herself out of the king’s study.

The door slowly closed, letting out this painful creak before shutting and leaving the king alone with his thoughts.

He gazed at the ring, marveling at its beauty while his mind recalled his interaction with his daughter. He had never seen his daughter so utterly destroyed. Not even when the tabloids reported horrific and untrue things about her.

This Seokjin fellow damaged his daughter to the point that she finally waved the white flag.

And before this deal between father-daughter began, he would’ve been ecstatic. He got his wish.

Princess Sumin wedded to Prince Namjoon.

But now?

He could see how much his child loved the duke, and at the end of the day, his daughter’s happiness meant the world to him.

Clearing his throat, the king called for his personal assistant as he tucked the ring away in his breast-pocket. 

Minutes later, sounds of knocking bounced off the four walls of the royal office, followed by that awful creaking, signifying that the door slowly opened.

“Your majesty?”

“Ah, Marshall. I need you to collect everything you know of Seokjin, duke of Birch Ridge, and the rest of his royal family.”

“Sir?”

“I believe that his cousin, Eun Ji, and her family rule over Ilqero.”

“Yes, your majesty.”

 Then, as Marshall turned to leave the office, the king stopped him.

“Oh, and Marshall.”

“Sire?”

“This conversation never happened. Understood?”

Marshall simply nodded, understanding that his master wanted nothing but discretion. He bid the king a goodnight before leaving his presence.

Releasing the tension in his face with a relaxed sigh, the king walked over to his office chair and slumped in it. He placed his hands on the armrests as he looked heavenward, his gaze focused on the stationed ceiling fan.

Then, out of nowhere, a fond smile danced across his face as he imagined how happy his daughter would be after he completed his secret mission.

“I just hope I’m not too late…” He mused, shutting his eyes as he continued picturing his daughter’s beaming expression as he walked her down the aisle.

Slowly, the beautiful, luminescent moon descended toward the ocean as the stars faded into the cover of darkness. The waves relaxed, softly crashing into the cliff as the pitch black, night sky gradually lightened up. It was as if a painter took a large paintbrush dipped in white paint and softened the harshness of the dark sky. Soon, gorgeous strokes of orange mixed with red decorated the once night sky. In the horizon, a spot of yellowish-orange peeked its head slightly from underneath the cold, salty water, and as the minutes rolled by, that spot raised towards the sky, brightening up the beautiful planet and all that inhabit it.

A soft breeze traveled through the vacant castle ground as it made its way towards a specific window. It brushed by the lavender laced curtains and fanned a certain princess’s sleeping face. The cold wind stirred the exhausted girl from her slumber as she slowly fluttered her swollen eyes open.

Small groans escaped her lips as she glanced at her clock with a tired gaze.

“It’s barely 8 A.M.” She mumbled as she pulled the covers over her splotchy face and went back to sleep.

Unfortunately, someone else decided it was time to wake up. This annoying, repeating knock bounced off the walls of the princess’s simple yet elegantly decorated room. The mentally tired princess prayed that the intruder would get the hint and leave, but no. Not even a minute later, after the banging stopped, her bedroom door practically flung wide open.

“Sumin, what are you doing still asleep?” questioned the queen as she strode over to her daughter’s bed and ripped off the covers. “Ah, why is your face all puffy?” She added, beckoning over Sumin’s personal maid, “Miss, please rid of all evidence of my child’s sobbing and—”

“MOM! I say this out of love, but enough! I just got my heartbroken last night, and I really do not want to plan my wedding to Namjoon right this minute! Okay? Please. Just be a normal parent and comfort me. Dad did last night. Why can’t you?”

Sumin’s emotionally inspired speech left her mom in utter awe as this look of embarrassment washed over the queen’s face. Her daughter was honestly right. Ever since her child turned 18, she lost sight of what it meant to be a mother. She went from ensuring her daughter’s happiness and learning essential life lessons to full wedding planner mode. All she cared about was the royal wedding that she completely ignored how unhappy Sumin indeed was.

What kind of mother was she? What type of parent disregarded her child’s happiness?

A terrible one…that’s who…

Snapping back into reality, the queen dismissed her daughter’s maid and sat in the corner of the bed, gesturing for Sumin to sit up.

“I am so sorry for being a terrible mother, Minnie.”

“It’s okay, mom. I’m sure I would’ve done the same if it was a parent and needed to secure my child’s future reign.”

Then, the queen softly shook her head, telling Sumin to not make excuses for her horrid behavior and actions.

“While, yes, I am the queen and need to do what is best for our kingdom, I am, first and foremost, a mother. A mother’s duty is making sure that their child is happy, and I have failed you.”

A soft smile graced Sumin’s face as she reached over and gently took her mother’s hands.

“I forgive you, mom. Starting today, let’s have a clean slate—no more unprompted appearances with the royal dressmaker. No more stacks of wedding magazines magically appearing on my desk, and finally, no more talking about potential wedding destinations. Got it?” stated the princess, voicing her terms of condition.

Slowly, the queen nodded her head as a gracious smile danced across her beautiful face.

Then, she held out her hand for her daughter to shake, symbolizing that the elderly woman agreed to her daughter's terms.

“Deal.”

Later that afternoon, Sumin shockingly found herself combing through the many scattered wedding catalogs. After her stimulating morning conversation with her mother, the princess randomly felt the urge to look through countless magazines. After all, Sumin accepted the fact that she was going to meet Namjoon at the altar—not Seokjin.

Currently flipping through the seventh bridal magazine with pursed lips and knitted brows, Sumin sighed loudly as she carelessly tossed the catalog aside. Only ideas for a Spring wedding filled the pages. Yeah, that would definitely be helpful…if she and Namjoon wanted a Spring wedding.

With a deadpan expression, the frustrated young woman reached over for yet another bridal magazine until suddenly, her laptop repeatedly pinged, notifying the princess that she had an incoming video call with someone. But who?

Swiftly closing the bridal catalog, Sumin slid it to the side of her desk before unlocking her laptop. Tiny creases formed on her forehead as curiosity settled within her face as the princess wondered who would be calling her. She told both Sowon and Jae Hwa that she would reach out to them in a few days as she still needed time to heal.

It couldn’t be Namjoon either as she told him that she would seek him out sometime next week since they needed to scout places to host their reception.

So that left one person…

Seokjin…

But that stupid duke ended things between them, so it made little to no sense for him to reach out to her.

Unless…

Without a moment to lose, Sumin fixed her appearance, positioning her hair in a way that made her look attractive. She double-checked that the puffiness in her eyes wholly vanished. She then lightly pinched her cheeks, causing this rosy tint to slowly creep on her face.

And once she deemed herself presentable, she answered the call, brightly smiling.

“Oh, my God, Sumin?! You’re such a liar! You said that you would invite me to your birthday ball, but I didn’t get an invitation! I am quite offended, young lady!” shouted a familiar voice, but it didn’t belong to the one person that she yearned for—Kim Seokjin.

It did – however – belong to a certain duchess, who became part of the royal family after her marriage to Prince Jinwoo of the kingdom of Ahora.

Eun Byeol.

Without realizing it, Sumin’s eyes went round as she leaned forward, wanting to get a better look at her good friend. Her mouth fell slightly open as she was in complete awe with how much Eun Byeol changed in the last year. She looked incredibly gorgeous for a married woman.

“Eun Byeol! How have you been?” asked Sumin, beaming from excitement.

“I’m doing well! Jinwoo is right across from me if you want to say hi!” announced the duchess, swiveling her laptop and displaying her handsome husband, who smiled politely and waved.

Sumin chuckled softly, finding their interaction adorable, though, she couldn’t help but feel a tad envious of their relationship. The two of them looked and behaved like they were utterly in love. Then, as the princess stared at her screen, the more the envious thoughts grew and soon developed into feelings of longing—a sense of desire for a certain duke that Sumin knew deep down that it was unfortunately over.  

“If it’s over…then why can’t I let you go…?” mumbled the now troubled princess, unknowingly alerting her dear friend.

“Let who go, Min?”

“It’s…maybe you can help me, Byeol.”

Eun Byeol quickly said, “of course,” before kicking her husband out of the room, however, as the prince walked out, Sumin stopped him. She then explained to the duchess that she actually needed advice from the two of them since Prince Jinwoo married someone who wasn’t a princess, which, up until their marriage, was unheard of in Ahora.

Eun Byeol always did like breaking the rules and challenging the monarchy.

Sumin just thought her buddy would do that in a kingdom that welcomed challenges. Not in a realm that strove off traditions, but then again, Eun Byeol was what Ahora surprisingly needed to usher them into a new era. Now, the citizens were happy as ever, and their economy was incredibly strong and stable.

Which made the princess think if those results would appear if Sumin married Seokjin.

Running her fingers through her semi-wavy hair, the frustrated princess swiftly shook away all thoughts of that irresistible jerk before asking the married couple a few questions. Questions that ranged from Jinwoo’s parents' initial reaction to Eun Byeol to how their subjects reacted to the engagement announcement.

Both Jinwoo and Eun Byeol hummed in response; their lips thinned as their gaze flickered towards one another.

“Uh. Well. At first, my parents did everything and anything to ruin our relationship. They even introduced me to another princess, but I immediately terminated that blossoming ‘romance’ as I could not see myself with no one else but my little star.” Replied Jin Woo before placing a sweet kiss on his wife’s temple, causing the little lady to blush profusely. “Eventually, my parents accepted Eun Byeol in the royal family, and now they even like her more than me.” He added, lightly joking about the 180 his parents did.

Eun Byeol nodded, smiling brightly as she agreed with everything that her husband said.

“Does this help, Min?” asked the duchess, hoping that their words helped shed some sort of light for the troubled princess.

Sadly, it didn’t.

If anything, it strengthened Sumin’s desire for Seokjin and made her question her rash decisions.

“Is it too late to back out of my words, Byeol?”

“Last time I checked, you’re the princess between us two; therefore, you can legit do anything that you want.”

Sumin whined, burying her face in her arms. Then, she peeked up, only revealing her chocolate-colored eyes.

“If that’s true, then can you introduce me to anyone that won’t cause me any problems.”

“Well, I have a friend and fellow prince, named Myung Jun, but my other comrades and I call him MJ.” Piped up Jin Woo, flashing a friendly smile. “You two might make a nice couple.” He added.

Eun Byeol rolled his eyes and lightly smacked her husband before shooting him a dirty look. Jinwoo asked what that was for, rubbing his injured bicep and pouting cutely. The annoyed duchess kindly explained that Sumin needed a man that would give something more than just the title of a “nice couple.”

“A princess needs someone who not only makes her unconditionally happy but who also challenges her to become a better version of herself. Kind of like how I am with you.” Eun Byeol further explains, unintentionally planting seeds of realization into Sumin’s confused brain.

Then, like clockwork, Sumin shot up straight with widened eyes.

Both Eun Byeol and Jinwoo snapped their attention on Sumin, concerned for the princess.

“I don’t want to go through with my wedding to Namjoon,” Sumin muttered, panting slightly.

“Min?”

“I want to marry Seokjin because…”

“Because?”

“I am in love with him, and I can’t imagine myself with no one else but him.”

Slowly, a look of relief washed over the princess’s face as this gentle smile danced across her face.

Suddenly, she shot up from her seat, and not even seconds later, a knock was heard in the princess’s office.

“Well, duties call. I’ll video chat with you this weekend. Sounds good?”

Eun Byeol simply nodded, waving goodbye to her friend before disconnecting from the video call.

Sumin closed her laptop and shouted a quick, “enter,” granting permission to enter her office.

“Your highness.” Greeted her father’s personal assistant, respectfully bowing his head.

“Hey, Marshall! How’s everything going with my old man?” asked the princess, stepping away from her desk and striding up to the elderly gentleman.

Marshall released this airy chuckle as he playfully shook his head. He always did love the princess as if she were his own daughter—the joy of working alongside the royal family since the queen’s pregnancy with Sumin.

He had the privilege of watching the princess grow up to be this beautiful, confident young woman.

Speaking of beautiful…

The assistant quickly fished for something in his breast pocket, and once he felt the cold piece of jewelry, he held out in front of Sumin.

Sumin froze slightly. She didn’t expect to see it this soon…

“Prince Namjoon wanted me to give you this.”

Remaining silent, the shocked princess simply held out her hand and allowed Marshall to drop the ring into her palm. With her free hand, she picked up the engagement ring and held it between her thumb and index finger.

“It’s quite extravagant, is it not? Judging by your silence, I am guessing that you love it, and I will relay a thankful message to the princess.”

Snapping into her senses, Sumin eyed Marshall with nothing but confusion written all over her face.

“Your highness?”

“What happened to my ancestor’s engagement ring?”

“Oh, Queen Sumin’s ring?” Marshall let out a small hum, “Ah. Your father gave it to Seokjin and told him to fight for you. Then, once the duke’s successful, the king gave him his blessing to propose to you.”

Slowly, the princess nodded her head as if she didn’t quite hear her dad’s assistant correctly.

Then, it finally registered in her precious mind.

“My dad did what?!”

Our Second Chance is copyright 2018- 2020 by jinterlude, all rights reserved.

[imamotherfuckingstar-lord]

What We Did, pt. 24

Summary:  After finding out you were pregnant, Bucky agrees to help you leave the hero life. The two of you go to Seattle, and hamper down for six months until you start dreaming of a certain someone. Convinced the dreams are a sign, you and Bucky go back to New York. Will everyone be happy to see the pair of you? What questions will they have? And will the lie Bucky and you made up finally resurface?  

A/N: This chapter is dedicated to my main bitch @childishhoebinoo again. THIS IS A BIT SHORT, SORRY!

Warnings: //cheating//pregnancy//ADULT STUFF//

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Chapter Twenty-Four: Rose-colored

“Well, baby is looking great – you have only a few weeks left,” the doctor looked away from the ultrasound monitor and smiled at you before turning attention to Bucky. “Now, Dad, make sure to keep mom and baby happy.”

He laughed and nodded. “Will do.”

“That’s what I like to hear,” she smiled and handed over the ultrasound photos over to you. “I’ll let the girls in the front know you’re coming in next week. I’ll see you two then.”

Bucky and you thanked her and when she leaves, he helps you up. You get dressed while Bucky admires the ultrasound and the two of you feel it in the air – impending parenthood. It’s not like you are afraid, but you were afraid.

“I can’t believe I’m going to be someone’s fucking mom,” you cried out dramatically. Bucky laughed and told you it will be fine. “Sure, you’re going to be great – but I’m a fucking train wreck.”

“Sweetheart, you are not a fucking train wreck; sailor mouthed? Yes, but you’re going to be a great mom,” Bucky insisted as he grabbed a hold of your wrist; he gently tugged you to him and kissed you on the mouth. The kiss was soft and warm, and you wondered briefly, if having sex on an examination table would be completely uncomfortable. The thought passes when your stomach growled and Bucky grinned.

“Come on, I’ll buy us lunch.”

…

The restaurant is quiet as the two of you eat a late lunch; Bucky ordered a hamburger while you went for a chicken sandwich. It’s delicious and the baby is happy, which makes you happy. Your stomach almost touches the edge of the table and Bucky lovingly teases when you can’t reach over for a napkin.

“Yes, let’s make fun of the pregnant lady – I’ll remember that when it comes time to change a shitty diaper.”

“You act like I’m not excited to change diapers,” Bucky argued back playfully. You rolled your eyes and sighed at the sound of your cell going off. You don’t want to pick it up, but it’s Tony. Bucky tells you to answer it and when you do, the man is talking a mile a minute.

“Hold on, Tony, what’s going on?”

“Barton, he got the papers.”

“We just finalized them the other day,” you pointed out.

Tony laughed. “What can I say, my lawyers work fast.”

Your heart dropped as you looked over to Bucky. “So, the lawyers sent Clint the custody agreement? He hasn’t called me.”

The expression on Bucky’s face was evident – displeased and a little worried as you listened to Tony explain the situation. You knew Bucky hadn’t been completely on board with the custody agreement Tony and you came up with, but he wanted to support you. He sat in on the phone conferences with the lawyers Pepper had hired and stayed quiet. You knew he thought Clint was a good man, because he was but you wanted to protect the baby, Bucky and admittedly, yourself.

Tony sighed. “No, he’s far too busy blowing up my cell. He’s become very colorful with his words, the messages are, honestly, performance art.”

“Fuck, I have to call him – he needs to know it’s not your fault. I came to you – you were just being a good friend. Thank you, Tony. I’ll take care of it.”

“No worries, kid. You know Pep and I are in your corner.”

The two of you hang up and suddenly the chicken sandwich didn’t look so good; you placed the phone down on the table and looked to Bucky – he was quietly contemplating something because you had to say his name twice before he looked to you.

You smiled at him and asked if he was okay. “I knew the lawyers sending the papers would get Clint going and I know you never were really onboard with all this…”

“No,” Bucky shook his head and reached down for your hand. He squeezed it tight and brought it up to his lips, giving your knuckles a light kiss. “I’m always going to be at your side, everything I really care about, everything that matters to me – it’s right here at this table. I don’t care what anyone thinks, it doesn’t matter how we ended up here, I’m just glad it happened.”

“Me too.”

Bucky grinned, letting your hand go to dig something out of his jacket pocket. You watched as he brought out a small velvet box, your heart raced as he smiled sheepishly. “I got this the day after you talked about getting married, I guess, I was afraid. I wasn’t sure if us getting married would be just for the kid…”

“God, no, Bucky….”

He nodded. “I know that now, but honestly, even if it was, I would have still married you. I’ve always loved you, doll. From the moment we met, I just loved you and when you told me you were pregnant – I just didn’t want you to do it alone. I didn’t want to see you doing this by yourself, not that you couldn’t.”

The two of you laughed and you leaned in to kiss him again, touching the side of his face. “I don’t want this with anyone else, I don’t,”

“Me neither, so let’s do this, yeah?”

Bucky took out the ring, it was a rose-colored gold braided with small diamonds all around it; it was lovely, and it was more than what you could ever imagine. He took your left hand, his mouth curved into a small, hopeful smile.

“What do you say? Marry this old Brooklyn boy, please.”

“Of course,” you cried out, holding back tears as he slipped on the ring. It was a perfect it and, in that moment, everything else didn’t matter. Throwing both arms around his neck, you kissed Bucky hard and long, forgetting all together how-to breath.

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[let-it-raines]

@dorisquinn​ I accidentally posted your ask before it was ready, so I had to delete that. Haha. But I will answer it now!

This is decidedly not exactly what you asked for. That maaaaay be coming a little later on since I got another prompt with some more specifics on that. This does, however, involve Killian, Jace, and some baseball introductions. 

found on ao3 | here | if that’s more your cup of tea!

-/-

October 2023

“Killian, where are we going?”

“I can’t tell you that, love.”

“Because you’re being obnoxious.”

“No, because I’m surprising you.”

He hears Emma scoff, and he reaches his hand over to place it on her knee, squeezing before leaning his palm against the rough denim.

“Swan, I packed everything we need. I even made some brownies for you. Plus, you and Jace are both wearing appropriate clothing, and we don’t have to stay for the entire time.”

“The entire time?” Emma hisses before looking up into the review mirror to see Jace in the backseat. He’s been sleeping since they put him in the car seat, and since he always sleeps when they drive him, Emma really shouldn’t expect him to wake up anytime soon. “Where are we going?”

Killian sighs and looks over to Emma, flashing her a smile, before threading their hands together and bringing her hand to his lips. “There’s a fall Little League I heard about last week. They’ve got games today.”

“I thought Little League happened in the spring.”

“Aye, it does, but this is a league specifically for fall. It’s for the kids who pretty much eat and breathe baseball.”

“Oh, so you.”

His nose scrunches up. “Yes, you could say that.”

Emma shifts in her seat and runs her thumb over his knuckles. It’s always so soothing when she does that. They could have stayed home today. It would be so simple and wouldn’t have required them to change out of their pajamas, but he wanted to do this. He wanted to take Jace to this game and to have him see kids playing instead of professionals, even if there’s not a chance in hell that he’ll understand what’s going on.

“I like that about you, you know?”

“You like that I’m obsessed with baseball?”

“I like that you have something you love so much.”

He squeezes her hand and turns on the blinker before switching lanes. “I love you far more than I love baseball.”

“That’s rom com level cheesy.”

“You know I have a track record for that.”

“It’s honestly a miracle we’re together because I am not a fan of cheesy.”

Killian scoffs and shakes his head. “You say that you’re not, love. You do this thing where you scrunch up your nose and scowl, but afterward, your lips tug up and compliment the pretty blush on your cheeks. You like it.”

He hits the breaks as the light in front of them turns red. Emma leans over and kisses him, lingering a few seconds more than a quick kiss would require. “I will never admit that.”

Eventually the light turns green, and he keeps driving them toward the fields. It’s a little further away than he was expecting, but then again, traffic was absolutely horrible getting out of Manhattan. He’s not supposed to be doing this. Technically, he’s supposed to be reviewing tape for the ALCS next week, but he knows the techniques of the Astros well enough to know what he’s got to do. Really, he should have an ice pack around his shoulder and should be in bed, but he wanted to do this.

He needed to do this.

The parking lot is full of cars, all of the fields already have games going on, and Killian quickly pulls in a spot near the back of the lot before he and Emma get out of the car.

“Would you rather get the kid or the bags, sweetheart?”

“Bags. He’s going to be mad if you wake him up.”

“Should I just undo the car seat then? Let him sleep?”

Emma hits the button for the trunk to open. “I would.”

Killian nods and quietly opens the door to get to Jace only to find him awake, his eyes sleepily opening until Killian is looking into a pair of blue eyes that look far too much like his own.

“Well, hello,” Killian sighs, reaching forward to undo Jace’s straps. “You woke up just in time, lad.”

“Dada,” he sleepily says. The kid’s got three words down, which Killian is pretty sure means he’s going to be a genius, but that particular word will never get old. “Dada, Dada, Dada.”

“Hi, Jace. Mom and I are going to have you watch some baseball with us. I know you can’t be tired of that, right? It’s not like you watch games all the time, is it? You’ve probably been inside Yankee Stadium more than a lot of the rookies.”

“Dada.”

“So articulate.” Killian keeps undoing Jace’s straps until he’s free of them and can stretch his arms out, releasing a small yawn, and then curling himself into Killian when Killian picks him up.

“Did you wake him up?” Emma asks.

“He was awake. Do you want to trade since we don’t have the car seat?”

“Nah, this is fine. Lead the way, Captain. I assume you have some kind of game plan.”

“I kind of figured we’d wander around, check out a few different games.”

“We can’t just aimlessly wander at a park with a bunch of kids. That’s what creeps do. We’ll look like creeps.”

“We will not.”

She motions toward him. “You have on a baseball cap and sunglasses and dark clothing. You are going to look suspicious.”

Killian pushes Jace up on his hip. “The baby makes me look significantly less creepy. Plus, you. You help.”

Emma shakes her head and rolls her eyes before grabbing a small knit hat out of the bag and tugging it down over Jace’s head. “We can wander if you get me a hamburger and a hot chocolate from the concession stand.” “Deal.”

After he gets Emma her food, even if he does remind her they have brownies, they begin wandering around the fields. It’s colder than he thought it would be, the wind picking up and blowing around the bleachers, and Killian makes sure that Jace is covered at all times. He keeps squirming, wanting to get down and move, but considering he’s not walking yet, Killian isn’t going to put him down on the concrete. Later, they’ll put a blanket down and let him crawl there, but the kid has got to chill.

An eleven-month-old obviously listens when someone tells him that.

“My mom used to do that.”

“Hmm?”

“The woman sitting in the top corner of the bleachers.” Killian points toward a woman sitting down with a sign at her feet next to a cooler he’s sure is full of snacks. She’s wrapped up in a blanket, and she’s sitting away from all of the other parents. “My mom would always sit away from the other parents because they were always losing their shit over a bunch of seven-year-olds playing a game. She said between them and my dad, she just needed a place to breathe.”

Emma exhales next to him, a small white puff of air appearing, and if the sun doesn’t come out soon, they’re going to have to go home sooner than he anticipated. But then she’s leaning her head onto his shoulder and resting her hand on his knee, and everything in the world feels right for a moment.

“Did your mom practice with you? Or was she just your biggest fan from the bleachers?”

“If I asked, she would.” Killian grabs Emma’s and traces his finger over her rings. “She preferred to read with me or to play soccer or something. The only time we really talked about baseball was when I brought it up or when she and Brennan were arguing over how hard he was working me. Of course, that didn’t truly start until after she’s passed, so she missed the worst of it.”

“I’m sorry.”

“Tis okay, my love. It was a long time ago.”

“I know, but that doesn’t mean it sucks any less. One day Jace will be telling someone all the ways we screwed up, too.”

Killian scoffs and shakes his head before turning to kiss Emma’s temple, breathing her in. she smells of a warm vanilla, and he’ll never tire of it. “We’re definitely going to screw up, but we’re nothing like our parents, Swan. It’s not going to be the same.”

“No, no I guess not.”

“I know not.”

Emma laughs and presses their hands forward, releasing his to clap for Jace so he’ll start crawling back toward them. “I’m pretty sure Jace is about to eat grass, so we’re obviously doing a great job.”

“Darling, I think every kid eats grass at some point. Kids come from two people having sex, so it’s not like there’s really a test to see if you’re qualified.”

“Oh my God.” Emma shoves his shoulder and lets go of his hand until she’s leaning forward and grabbing onto Jace. “Your dad is ridiculous, kid. Do you know that? He’s absolutely ridiculous.”

“For saying how the reproduction system works because I – ”

“Excuse me.”

Killian quickly turns from Emma to look up at a young boy standing above him. He’s in a dirtied-up uniform, dirt marks on his knees and scuffing up his cleats, and his jersey is far too big for him. The timid smile on his face, however, seems far too small for him.

“Can I help you?” Killian asks as he tugs down his hat.

“Are you – are you Killian Jones?”

Killian smiles and moves his hat up. “Aye, I am. And may I ask, who are you?”

“Henry.”

“It’s nice to meet you, Henry. Do you want me to sign your ball?”

The kid nods, basically thrusting the ball and the marker into Killian’s hand until Killian is signing the ball while asking Henry about his team and what position he plays. The boy gets a little more talkative, the nerves waning off, and Killian gets it. He does. He never likes to think too highly of himself or think that he’s some big deal, but he’s living the dream. He’s living the dream that ninety percent of the kids here are going to dream of for at least one moment in their lives, and it’s fucking awesome.

It’s…

“Can I tell all of my friends that you’re here?” Henry blurts out.

“Oh, I, uh – ”

“I’m going to take Jace to go watch that game over there,” Emma tells him, nodding and smiling. “You go ahead.”

“Swan – ”

“They’re kids,” Emma whispers. “It’s your favorite. I don’t mind. Go make their day. Henry, you can tell your friends.”

His smile finally matches the size of his face. “Awesome. I’ll be right back.”

Henry sprints away to a group of kids in the same uniform as him, and Killian quickly turns to Emma as she stands and picks Jace up. “Swan, we can leave right now. We don’t have to stick around.”

“Twenty-nine, you came to a ballpark in New York full of kids who are obsessed with baseball. You were obviously going to get recognized despite you’re not so sly disguise. The only people you don’t mind signing autographs for and taking pictures with are kids. Jace and I will go hide out somewhere else, and it’ll be like we’re not here so there aren’t a million and two pictures of him online.”

Killian nods and rises to his feet as well, leaning forward to glide his lips over his. “I love you.”

“I love you, too.”

Jace takes the opportunity to make some kind of unnatural noise then, dimples popping up in his cheeks, and Killian’s heart decides to do some kind of unnatural beat to match his son’s noise.

God, he might be the luckiest man on the planet.

“And Jace either loves your or hates you. I can’t tell.”

“It’s love,” Killian assures her while tugging down Jace’s beanie. “It’s definitely love.”

“Whatever you say, Jones. I think your fan club is on its way over.”

“Wish me luck.”

Emma salutes him and then walks away as Killian hears Jace start screaming out the word “ball.”

He wouldn’t be the son of a baseball player if one of the three words he knows wasn’t ball.

“Yep, ‘ball,’” Emma tells him. “Your daddy plays baseball, and he does it really, really well.”

Killian signs autographs and takes pictures for thirty minutes. It could be longer than that, but he starts losing track of time as more games end and kids keep coming over. Some of them have absolutely no interest in him, actually probably despise him and everyone on the Yankees, but that’s fine. He gets it. Sports are intense, and as long as no one is making any actual threats toward him or his loved ones, Killian is here for a little antagonistic taunting.

(Actual threats happen more often than he’s comfortable with, and while he and Emma have always been private, they are much more so with Jace and the information they share about him. People are bloody insane, and Killian isn’t going to ignore the possibility of harm.)

Eventually, though, once his hand starts to cramp and his cheeks hurt, Killian finishes signing balls and jerseys and taking pictures and politely excuses himself, telling everyone that he’s got a game to prepare for. It’s true, but not entirely. Mostly he wants to get back to his family, get in the car, and go home.

He wanted to be here today, wanted to watch all of these kids have such joy for the game that has defined his life, and he wanted to feel it somewhere outside of the mound.

His shoulder has started hurting again, is an absolute pain in the ass, and Killian has done everything to make it better. It’s not every day and not every game, but it is happening far more often than he’d like it to. It’s happening when he wants to pick up his son after a game and when he’s got his shoulder wrapped around his wife.

It’s happening.

He doesn’t want it to.

And somewhere in the back of his mind, Killian knows that this season won’t be the end. Next season, however, if he can’t pick Jace up without much pain, he might have to hand in his glove. He’s got All-Star games and three fucking World Series Championships, which is more than he could have ever dreamed about. He’s got friends and family and…Emma.

He’s got the love of his life who he shouldn’t even be with.

He’s got the love of his life who he can’t tell these thoughts to, not yet. They’re not supposed to keep secrets from each other, but he’s going to for now, until he knows for sure.

Asking her out all that time ago was complicated, but it worked out for them.

She should have slapped him, refused to talk to him again, and then filed some kind of order against him when he asked her out on television. That was still an asshole, misogynistic move, and every time Killian sees something similar happen, he hates himself for doing that and for possibly encouraging other men to do it. He didn’t…well, he didn’t mean to cause any harm, but he still did, didn’t he?

Emma’s forgiven him, though, and at the end of the day, even with all of the awareness he tries to bring to the problem that keeps persisting with men not taking female reporters seriously, Emma forgiving him is what matters for his personal life.

Emma forgiving him and sticking by his side while he does obnoxious things like drag her out in the cold to go to the little league fields.

“Hey,” Killian whispers when he walks up to the two of them, “you guys ready to go?”

“I think my fingers are icicles.”

“So that’s a yes?”

“That’s definitely a yes.”

They’re able to get out of the park fairly easily, moving away from the crowds and getting into their car, and before Killian knows it, Jace is asleep in his car seat while Emma has her hand in his once more.

Like clockwork.

“Are we going to be those parents who drag their kids out to little league games when it’s not even little league season?”

“Technically we already are.”

Emma laughs and taps her thumb against his hand. “You know what I mean.”

“Aye, I do. And I imagine that if Jace or any other kids want to play baseball during the fall, we’ll be out there, coolers full of snacks and signs tucked under our arms.”

“You’d definitely have to be the coach.”

“Would I?”

“Twenty-nine. C’mon. You would be the first one signing up for it.”

He would. He knows it. If Jace wants to play, Killian would be beyond thrilled to be the coach.

“Sweetheart, if Jace plays baseball, I’ll be the coach. If Jace plays tennis, I’ll be the coach. If Jace is on the debate team, I’ll quiz him. If he is into art, I’ll be at every art show and every class. If he’s into something else entirely different, I’ll be there. I’m always going to be there.”

Emma’s hand squeezes his before he brings her knuckles to his lips once more.

“Killian, are you okay?”

“I’m perfect.”

“Are you sure?”

“Yeah,” he says. It’s a lie and the truth all at once, but for right now, just like this, he’s going to lean more toward the truth of things. Today’s not the day to be figuring everything else out. “I am.”

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[honeyjaez]

Top 10 Albums of 2019

I did this last year and quite honestly it was fun reliving some of these albums. Notice: This is my own opinion and does not reflect what I felt others should have thought swell

2019 saw some of my favorite albums and eras so without further ado:

10. Oneus- Fly With Us

Oneus is a force to be reckoned with and out of all the groups i started to stan in 2019, they are by far my favorite. All their albums since debut have been amazing but this last one really exceeded my expectations and they outdid themselves on this on. Oh and needless to say.....Lit was very much lit.

Stan ONEUS!

9. Astro- All Light

All hail the underappreciated Kings! Astro may not have as many comebacks as other groups, but when they do......OOF. They make up for it by giving me albums I could listen to on repeat until their next one. This album is no exception. Totally blew me away. It was such a beautiful era. a beautiful concept. a beautiful sound. It really matched with Astro’s and I will forever cherish this album.

Dear god...this is when it gets really hard to rank

8. ATEEZ- Treasure EP. Fin: All to Action

THIS WAS SO HARD. ATEEZ for all that they are, are quite possible the MOST impressive rookies in K-POP I’ve ever had the pleasure to see. Their choreography, their music, THEIR STAGE PRESENCE. Like how are they rookies???! I didn’t know them pre-debut, but from day 1 of debut I have been a fan. Since Day 1 I have been whipped. All their albums are pure fucking gold and they are one of the few groups that I don’t hate any of their stuff. This album.... oh this album.. so unique to the Ateez sound I have come to love. The fact that I listened to Wonderland 130 times in the first 3 days should tell you that.

Oh and Win is in my top 3 b-sides of 2019

7.SF9- Narcissist 

SF9 and ATEEZ  ruled my 2019 basically as this list will show. Narcissus is a masterpiece simple as that. Enough? Iconic. Play hard? a FUCKING bop.  Life is so beautiful and Fall in love? Yo, stan fucking art. Stan SF9. While it wasn’t my favorite SF9 album. I loved this era so much.

6.A.C.E-Under Cover: The Mad Squad 

*is currently reliving their concert just a few days ago*

Hey. If you need a healthy piece of advice for 2020, here’s one: Stan A.C.E. Their styles. Their concepts. I love this sound of the Undercover albums. Such a breath of fresh air in the typical kpop sound. It was a hard tie between the first undercover album and this one, but this album ultimately won due to personal preference. Savage is quite possibly my favorite title track from them and all the b-sides are in my tops. Definitely one for the books.

5. Monsta X -Follow

I’M SO MAD AT THIS ERA AND IN LOVE AT THE SAME TIME. This is hands down one of my favorite Monsta X albums, but part of me also cant enjoy it because of all this shit with Wonho! Nevertheless it helped me so much during the worst of it. The whole time of being sad and depressed I found solace strangely enough in listening to this album. Its so beautiful and strong just like those beautiful boys. Wonho we won’t ever stop loving you and we will never stop fighting for you.

4. ATEEZ-Treasure 3: One To All

THE BEST SUMMER ALBUM OF 2019 AND QUITE POSSIBLY EVER.

Like obviously you might not agree, but for me HOT DAMN. I’ve been with Ateez since debut, but i was most excited and hyped for this album here. Like it could not come any slower for me, and when it finally got here oh my fucking god....I thought I was gonna die. Like for real. Ateez gifted us with one of the best gifts this year, and that was this album here. Even if you aren’t an ATEEZ fan, listen to this album because fuck everyone deserves this summer album.

3.Seventeen- An Ode

When I said I needed a full Seventeen album, my fucking boys delivered it. Some of you may know this and some may not, but Seventeen is my ult group. My overall favorite group in the world. They always help me with my depression and I just get this stupid ass smile on my face when I listen to them. This album was so gorgeous in so many ways that it had to be on this list. I cherish every single songs of theirs and I’m so happy that they broke as many record as they did with this one. It’s so well deserved and dsfjhsdkjfdshkjfksjd.

2. SF9 - RPM

#1 and #2 are basically fucking tied. It was so hard to pick but I knew if I was doing a top10, this album was gonna be at the very top. Like I said, certin groups owned my ass in 2019 and SF9 managed to make me even more whipped for them if that’s even possible.

My favorite SF9 album. To Date. No doubts of that. 

RPM was so iconic, and so much like their sound. One of my favorite things about SF9 are their concepts and I felt like this one hit home so hard. 

Not to mention every b-side on this track is a bop. See U tomorrow? My favorite SF9 b-side now. Like hell. If you need a good introduction album to SF9, choose this masterpiece. 

ALSO if I’ve said it once, I’ve said it 800 million times. STAN SF9 you uncultured swines. 

1. Stray Kids- Cle 1: MIROH

And I was fucking right. Like.....words cannot express my love for this album......other than the fact that I literally listened to it on repeat for a whole month and didn’t listen to anything else should show my unhealthy obsession with this album. 

Every song just spoke to me. Victory song? A fucking bop. Maze of Memories? My new fucking anthem. Boxer? Literally play this at my funeral...and don’t even get me started on 19 and Chronosaurus. 

I will die and bury myself with this album if I could. My boys delivered such a good era and it wins album of the year for me.

[kz-i-co]

Fake Love

» Request: "could you do a fuckboy Eunwoo astro au. i just i-i i... please." - Anon

» Pairing: Cha Eunwoo / Reader

» Genre: angst/smut

» Words: 4.2k

» A/N: someone asked me to make a part 2 but honestly I got nothing :( I wrote this strictly as a one shot so I do apologize but I’m having trouble with how I want to continue it unfortunately.

» m.list ╫ astro masterlist

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You walked up the three flights of stairs in no hurry as you just ended your morning shift in the bakery. You liked the idea of getting out around noon to have the rest of the day off, but the tragic thought of being there 5 in the morning was a headache.

An even worse headache was having a room at the very top of this apartment and no working elevator. Once you reached your floor the door across yours came open in a rush. A girl came out wearing an oversized man's button down shirt with nothing underneath it. She was looking around the corner outside the room and suddenly made eye contact with you.

"Do you know the guy that lives here?" She asked.

"Sadly yes."

"Do you know where he would be?"

"I'm sorry I don't know his schedule." And you really didn't. You stayed far away from men like Lee Dongmin, but the problem was he didn't stay away from you, unfortunately.

She nodded and went back inside. She looked confused and disappointed.

You finally entered your apartment and threw your things on your kitchen counter. You felt so tired you just wanted to take a quick nap to brush it off. Once you entered your bedroom, you jumped with confusion and anger filling up Inside.

"Eunwoo what the fuck are you doing here?" You basically yelled from the fact he was past out on your bed.

"Hmm." He stretched. "What?"

"What are you doing in my bed? And how the fuck did you get in?" You were beyond angry.

"I picked your lock." He rolled over put continued to shut his eyes.

"Get out." You hit him with a pillow.

"Is she gone yet?"

"Who?" You continued to ask.

"The girl."

"Oh, now I get it. And yes she's gone. I saw her pass me on the stairs." You lied and he finally got up.

"You don't want to sleep with me?" He yawned.

"Get the fuck out." You clenched your teeth.

"Ok jeez." He stretched again in a standing position. "You're my favorite neighbor that's all."

"You're my only neighbor on this floor and if you don't like all the girls you sleep with then don't sleep with them. Easy as that." You complained.

"You're funny."

"Stop using my apartment for your escape. If you have a one night stand then go to their house and sneak out. Gosh you're so stupid."

"I can't go their place."

"Why not?" You asked pushing him out to your front door.

"I rather not know anything about them, it's easier to break things off."

"You're unbelievable. Stay out." You opened your door.

Once you closed the door you heard talking. "There you are, I thought maybe you wanted lunch with my parents?"

You laughed to your self. You could just picture his facial expression.

....

You heard knocking on your door causing your comfort to disappear. You got up slowly and opened the door.

You saw Eunwoo standing there with an unamused glare. "What do you want?" You broke the awkward silence.

"You lied to me."

"About what?" You tilted your head and smiled sarcastically.

"You told me she was gone."

"I saw her leave, that wasn't a lie." You said being convincing. "How was your date with her parents?"

He sighed dramatically and passed you. "Dongmin I'm not sure if you have gotten this through your head but please LEAVE." Your voice turn to anger.

"Why, we're friends." He sat down on your couch and started eating your popcorn.

"Umm.....we hate each other, thought that was obvious." You stood in front of your tv so he couldn't pay attention to your movie.

"I don't hate you." He said it like it was obvious. "I want to sleep with you, I told you before."

You blushed slightly feeling angry again. It was true. Lee Dongmin was what they call it a player? Or fuckboy even more realistic.

Since you became neighbors he has been trying to hook up with you, even when you were in relationships. You showed no interest which somehow attracted him more. It became a game by this point and you wish you could punch him in his dumb beautiful face. Yes beautiful. He was crazy attractive, there was no denying that but you wished he could be a decent guy. That was pretty much impossible in this generation.

Now he just finds humor in all of this and continues to annoy you. "Come on it will be probably the best sex you've ever have." He broke your train of thought.

"Highly doubt it." Your voice was sassy.

"I'll prove you wrong." He ate more popcorn.

"Oh my god, just please get out."

"You're flustered I can tell." He laughed.

"I want to die." You yelled across the room as you entered your bedroom.

"(Y/N) its okay, you can just admit it." He followed you.

"Eunwoo if you don't leave my apartment this instant, I will murder you."

He blushed feeling affected by your anger. "God you're so hot."

You clenched your jaw grabbing a pair of scissors.

"Okay I'm leaving. But try not to think of me."

"Oh I will be thinking of you, with these scissors." You smirked.

He looked down at his crouch, covering it with his hand quickly. "You really do things to me (Y/N)."

"Fuck off." You slammed the door in his face.

"I need to move." You whined and sat back down finishing your movie.

-

You woke up feeling refreshed as your day off let you sleep in. You stretched not wanting to get up. You looked over grabbing your phone reading the time of 10:15am. You swung your legs over getting up and making your way out of your bedroom. You glanced over the couch not sure of what you were seeing at first and walked closer. Your anger only soon begun once again seeing Eunwoo sleeping on your couch. To be honest you were just glad he didn't make his way into your bed.

"What the fuck now." You kicked him.

"Morning beautiful."

"Dick." You went back to your bedroom and got dressed quickly.

You walked out of our apartment and straight into his seeing a naked girl in his fridge. She saw you and quickly covered her chest.

"Who the hell are you?" You said distraught.

"Sonya." She said timidly.

"He didn't tell you he was engaged?" You started some fake tears.

"No, I'm so sorry. I didn't know."

"I can't believe this." You collapse on his couch doing your best acting.

You startled her enough to quickly grab her belongs and run out the door. You stopped and left his apartment back into yours. He was just getting up once you entered. "She's gone."

"Really?" He asked interested.

"Yes now get out." You heard more knocking at your door.

You groaned answering. Once you seen who it was your attitude changed. "Shit, I forgot. I'm sorry."

"It's okay." Your friend entered your apartment and stoped once she saw Eunwoo about it leave. "Hi?" She greeted unsure of who he was.

"This is Eunwoo my annoying neighbor and he was just leaving right." Your voice was perky.

"Yeah, thanks (Y/N). You're a good friend and it's nice to meet you-"

"Chaehyung." She filled in. She blushed but you didn't catch it.

Eunwoo passed by and left the apartment slowly. "How long you gonna be?" She asked following Eunwoo.

"Just a few minutes." You called from the bathroom. You were just doing your hair and makeup.

She waited outside waiting for you but on the other hand exchanged numbers with Eunwoo.

You left your apartment and saw her outside. "Why are you so smiley?" You asked.

"Nothing, just watching some dumb videos on Facebook."

You brushed it aside and left with your best friend.

-

Another day of work had you sluggish walking up the stairs. Once you reached your floor you saw Chaehyung leave Eunwoo's apartment. You grew confused and she looked at you startled.

"What the hell are you doing in there?" You said.

"Nothing." He face was blank.

"Please don't tell me you slept with that fool."

"I- um I."

"Chaehyung why?" You hit yourself in the forehead.

"What's wrong, he's so sweet and funny." She began.

"Let me guess he isn't in there." You said.

"He left a note that he had to go to work." She shrugged.

You saw more clearly of all the hickies up and down her neck. "You believe that? Chaehyung he is not a nice guy. I promise."

"I'll be careful." She was about to leave.

"You met his fucking yesterday, and you had sex with him already."

"An an adult (Y/N). Let me have fun."

"Whatever." You sighed. You had a bone to pick with him not her. You entered your apartment being prepared to catch him in your apartment once again but you grew confused to see he wasn't there.

"Well played Dongmin." You thought it would be stupid on his part if he snuck into your apartment after he slept with your best friend. Maybe he wasn't as dumb as you thought.

-

~one week later~

You left your apartment to make a trip to the store and caught Dongmin entering his.

He glanced at you with a smile like Nothing was wrong.

You warned Chaehyung of how he was and didn't want to listen. He never called her back and hid when she would show up at his apartment. She was hurt but she got over it quickly, at least to your face.

"Pig."

"You really still pissed at me?"

"Are you kidding me. You fucked my best friend and blew her off."

"Your point is? You knew about this." He shrugged.

"But she is my best friend." You yelled.

"She came to me first." He smirked.

"Last thing I want is my best friend getting some STD from a fuck boy like you." You sassed.

"I don't have an STD."

"You slept with every girl in this city. I doubt you use protection."

"I do sometimes. And I get tested like the responsible adult that I am." He shrugged again.

"Did you with Chae?" You asked.

"No."

"You're an asshole." You stared to walk away.

"If it makes you feel any better. I didn't even cum inside her."

"Ew, I don't want to know." You plugged your ears and went into your apartment with him following.

"I'm sorry (Y/N)." You turned around from the sympathy in his voice.

"Tell her I will-"

"Oh she's over you." You stared with confidence.

"What?" He asked confused.

"She has a new boyfriend already."

"She has a boyfriend?" The jealousy was visible in his face.

"Yup."

"Then why are you assaulting me?"

"Because you're a pig." You folded your arms. "What is wrong with you? You fuck over women and you hate the fact that they are better without you. You just want them to be heart broken over you forever huh? How cold can you be?"

"That's not it." He rubbed the back of his neck. "I have commitment issues. I just can't find a girl I really like."

"Then date like a normal person." Your voice was still snippy.

"You can't really know until you have sex-"

"Please leave." He turned around and head back towards your door. "I'm not just sayin right now. I mean stay away from me and my friend for good." Your voice was harsh and serious.

He just nodded and left.

You wanted him out of your life and that's what you got. Well for a few days.

-

It was 1:07pm and a sudden knock woke you from your nice sweet nap that you got to enjoy for a too short of a time. Work has been kicking your ass and all you wanted to do was sleep it off and someone decided to ruin it.

Your first thought was Dongmin but you haven't seen him in a few days, nor did you hear him, meaning no girls. Where was he? You knew you shouldn't care or worry but you couldn't help but be curious.

You opened up and saw a face you never thought you would see again. Your ex Jaehoon.

"Hey, what are you doing here?" Your voice was perked up but fake.

"I heard you moved and I wanted to catch up." He smiled.

"I didn't move, you've been here before." You smiled painfully.

"Really?" He laughed.

"Wow, you've changed it a lot." He walked in without an invitation.

"Yeah-" You didn't.

"You still live here by yourself?" He kept asking questions.

"Umm well-"

"Hey do you want to go out for dinner later maybe-" He continued But was cut off by another figure.

"Hey who's this?" Eunwoo enter your apartment suddenly.

"Hey Eunwoo-"

"Who's his (Y/N)?" Jaehoon cut you off. You felt like your head could explode at any minute.

"I'm here boyfriend. Who are you?" Eunwoo said.

"You're her boyfriend?" He looked at you. "You're dating this guy?"

"(Y/N)? Did you forget our plans?" Eunwoo came in.

Jaehoon looked at you. "I'm sorry I forgot Eunwoo, let me just get ready." You quickly ran to your room and got ready. You could still over near Jaehoon and Eunwoo talking in the living room.

"Yeah it's our 5 month anniversary." Eunwoo said loudly.

"5 months? We've only been broken up in 4." He said horrified causing you to slap your forehead stressed.

"Eunwoo I think you meant 4." You laughed sarcastically.

"Oh right. It feels longer then it is because I've fallen so hard in love-" He leaned down to kiss you but you covered your face.

"I haven't brush my teeth yet hun." You smiled falsely.

"I don't care about that." He smiled.

"Sorry Jaehoon, we can catch up another time." You said and he looked hurt which made your day. He was a horrible boyfriend and you didn't miss him.

"Nice to meet you Eunwoo. I hope her fake orgasms don't bother you."

You rolled your eyes as he left. Then you turned to Eunwoo. "Um...why did-"

"You are such a bad liar. I could hear your struggle the moment you opened that door." He walked towards your door.

"Thank you." Was all you said as he was leaving. "Hey, are you busy tonight?"

"No, why?" He started to smirk.

"Just making sure you will be around in case he comes back."

"I'll be next door, like usual." He smiled and finally left.

-

What were you doing? Why did you even think of him.

You were about to knock on his door until you heard moaning come from into the room. You filled up with anger for the last time and walked back over to your apartment until you heard his door open.

"Oh hey." He smiled and he was fully dressed and nothing suspicious.

"You have company?"

"No." He said.

"I heard some girl." You walked back over to his apartment and he moved to the side so you could see inside.

"I had my tv on." He shrugged.

"Are you watching porn?"

"I don't watch porn I had some romance movie on, and there may have been a sex scene."

"You don't watch porn, that's bullshit." You rolled your eyes.

"Nope. I just think of you." He leaned forward.

"Okay." You turned around annoyed. The old Dongmin was back and you didn't miss him.

"Are we okay now?" He asked following you into your apartment and shutting the door behind him like he was welcomed.

"We were never okay but I don't hate you as much as I hated you before."

You grabbed a few drinks from the fridge. You figured it was your day off tomorrow so you can let loose a little. "So you really dated that prick?"

You walked over to your couch and put the tv on and Dongmin wasn't far from you.

"Aren't all guys pricks, let's be honest." You smiled taking a sip. "Each and everyone in their own special way. He was a clingy, jealous, obsessed weirdo and you are a fuck boy who doesn't care about girls feelings."

"I do care about one girls feelings." He finally sat down next to you.

"And who would that be?"

"Yours." You looked at him. "After what you said, it really tore me up."

"Good. Just testing to see if your soul is still alive."

He smiled gently. "Don't you want to like-"

"What are you saying?" You cut him off. "You ask me to sleep with you one more time I will lose it. I'm probably the last girl on earth who you haven't even touched and I rather not-"

He cut you off by placing his lips towards yours. His lips were soft and moisture from the recent sips of alcohol. It felt nice.

Stop. Stop. Stop. Stop. Stop. Stop. Stop.

Why aren't you stopping?

He leaned you back farther that your back was laying comfortably on your couch. His tongue brush your bottom lip, begging for entry. You instantly granted access, mentally regretting every decision.

He moved his lips off of yours down your neck. You accidentally moaned against his touch causing a cocky grin to appear. "I knew you wanted me."

"I don't."

"Then why aren't you stopping?"

You were at loss of words. "Because-" You felt his hand make their way into your sweat pants. "Because I knew you wouldn't listen anyway."

His hand went deeper inside your panties causing your breathing to pick up. "Explain why you are wet already?"

"Fuck off, you're hard already." You can feel him against your thigh.

"I've wanted you from the day I saw you, I told you that."

"Shut up, no you didn't."

His fingers made their way inside. "I think you are the most beautiful girl I have ever seen."

You blushed from his comment but also felt flustered as he began to pump his fingers in and out of you. Was this just fuck boy talk? Saying what you want to hear but don't mean anything.

"I don't believe that." You closed your eyes tightly.

"I'll prove it to you." He released his fingers and began to remove your sweatpants along with your underwear.

He leaned down kissing up your thigh until he reached your well moisten area. Your fingers grabbed onto the couch cushions tightly as you felt his tongue circle through your core. You have never been touch, not like this. The feeling was almost unreal.

You couldn't stay still and kept clenching against him to the point he pinned your leg to the couch tightly. You bit your lip to stop yourself from screaming but to be honest it would matter anyway.

You felt him replace his fingers with his tongue causing more friction. He leaned up and smiled down at you. He was about to kiss you once again but you moaned finally reaching your high and you closed your eyes weakly.

You felt his presence move away causing you to open your eyes. He was leaning back unbuckling his jeans and you couldn't help the butterflies erupting throughout your stomach.

"Can we move into the bedroom?"

"Sure." He smiled causing you to blush. Why were you giving in? Why?

He picked you up bridal style and carried you to your bed. He ripped off your ship and immediately began to suck on your chest. You helped yourself out of your bra to stop the uncomfortable tugging of your straps that he wasn't patient for.

You began pulling up his shirt causing him to stop for a brief second only to pull it completely off. He was thin but he still had a very nice figure not to toned but not to lanky either. It was perfect.

He grabbed your hand bringing it towards his crotch and he helped you rub against his stiffened member outside of his boxers. He leaned up and quickly transitioned to your lips once again.

You hated yourself for getting in this situation. You knew the out come so why fall deeper in this hole. He didn't really care about you. He just wanted sex. You always had the habit of falling hard and you could already tell it's happening with Eunwoo. He blew off your friend and didn't care to even check up on her. She was broken in the beginning. You lied saying she had a boyfriend just to see a reaction and you did. Your friend was better off and that's what you told her.

But here you were know falling for the same damn trick. You couldn't stop yourself, you couldn't stop him. You glanced up seeing him finishing with the condom and lining himself up with you. It was officially to late to put an end to all this and you had nothing but regret.

You felt the pain sting you as he pounded into you quickly. You pushed your thoughts aside and just let the lust take over again. He held your hips, bringing you into him for more friction. You moaned loudly as he moved faster. The room was spinning by this point. He leaned forward giving you a new refreshing angle. He kissed down your neck as you held on to him.

You clawed down his back as you felt your high over come you for the second time for the night. Something Jaehoon could never achieve. "Fuck (Y/N) that hurts."

"Sorry." You giggles. You reached your hand down by his member, rubbing along to push him quicker to the edge. He slowed down immensely once he finally reached the edge. He gave a few more pumps before removing himself completely. He collapsed on the bed next to you and the last thing you remember was him whispering in your ear. You were beyond tired to even recall his statement.

-

The worst thing once you woke up the next morning, was not the fact that you gave into a fuckboy like Dongmin but the face that you hope he would be different with you. But once you woke up and say he was gone that all soon changed. You actually felt heart broken. You expected it sure but you didn't want to believe it.

You got up and threw on a quick casual outfit browsed your apartment. He wasn't in your bathroom nor your kitchen. He wasn't there completely. He blew you off. You grabbed your coat and decided to go get coffee that was only down the street. You opened your door suddenly and saw Eunwoo on the last step with a brown bag and two coffee cups.

Your heart fluttered once you've seen him not understanding this new form of attraction. "Hey, I wanted to go get breakfast with you but I didn't want to wake you up. I know you get up early for your job and all."

You felt your eyes water and you couldn't hid the smile forming on your face. "What is this?"

"I got you breakfast, weren't you listening?" He said with a bit of sass.

"I mean what is all of this? You run out on girls remember?" You wiped your tears tryin not to be obvious.

"I told you already (Y/N). I like you."

"You want to be in a relationship with me?" You asked.

"Yeah."

"I don't know."

"I'm sorry you seen my bad side but I promise, I would never want to hurt you....ever."

"I-I."

"Can we talk inside, my arms are gettin tired." He said with a bright smile.

You nodded and went back inside. "I meant what I said last night." You turned to look at him.

"I don't remember. I fell asleep." You said causing him to give you an amusing glare.

"I said I might be in love with you." He shrugged like it was nothing.

"You're in love with me?"

"We've been neighbors for a long time now (Y/N). I can't help what I feel." He confesses.

"I don't know how I feel." You said and he came up closer to you trapping you in the corner of your counters.

"Please just give me one chance to take you out. I promise I won't hurt you."

"But you hurt so many others." Your voice was soft.

"Because you were the one I wanted all along." He leaned down and you looked him right in the eyes. He was serious and you didn't know how to process anything.

"Please." He whispered as you felt his lips brush up against yours.

You filled in the tight space grasping his soft lips in yours. You rubbed your hand down his back causing him hum in pain. "You Okay?" You asked with a slight guilt knowing what was wrong.

"You were rough last night." He laughed.

"I'm sorry." You bit your lip.

"You owe me." He smirked.

"I want my breakfast first." You moved away and he hugged your from behind. You felt happy but will it last?

[astrofireworks]

cha eunwoo | astro

An introduction to Astro, lights of our lives, for new Arohas!

(done with @rockoaroundthechristmastree, @rockytheastroid​, @astrofireworks​, @jinwoosmile, @ongbins and @jakganim)

masterlist 

Born 30 March 1997

Gunpo child

How to recognise Eunwoo: look for a literal angel there you go there he is

Literally looks the same in all his eras bc he looks good with dark hair and fantagio Knows it

^ At time of writing anyway; he just came out with light brown hair for dream pt. 02′s jacket and everyone is fucKIN SHOOKT

Fuckin unreal smdh

Baby: light blue car

Visual 3/6

@jakganim (in a fic LOL but it was FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY PUNY LIL HEART) said once that Eunwoo’s as beautiful outside as he is on the inside and honestly i’ve never heard a sentence that describes eunwoo so perfectly 

in short, a heart as radiant and beautiful as he appears????

Researches everything bc he’s a diligent and worried bub

Whatever shows he goes on???? He researches them 

researched every single person going on law of the jungle and also researched what the climate was going to be like and how to build different things 

researched the MCs he was going on with when he went on Happy Together 3 and got exposed they read his unfiltered notes out loud in detail he got so shy ajsdfhlaskjd

researched everyone in crime scene 3 because he didn’t want to make a fool of himself 

got so nervous about variety show training programme bc they didn’t let him know who was going to be on the show with him so he couldn’t research them

puts so much effort into things what the fuck ! 

Real Name: Lee Dong Min 

Nickname: Buttmin (Lee Dongmin: 이동민) where second letter 동 sounds similar to the second letter in butt (엉덩이) because he thought he had a big butt asjdhlfakjsd

he can spell his name with his butt thanks variety show training

Actor 

Was MJ in The Best Hit/Hit the Top (and the members made jokes about it)

had a thing with the members where they’d call him Fake MJ 

Starred in their webdrama To Be Continued as the “lead” but not really (cries forever)

Was part of a miniseries called “Replies that Make us Flutter” where they took send-in answers for topics and incorporated them into short drama episodes. 

Bin starred in one with him as well. He tried to be a bad boy that hated Eunwoo. It was not convincing.

Won Male CF Star at the MTN Broadcast CF Festival

He’s currently in Revenge Note as the “leader” of Astro, it’s weird

#SmartBoi

goes to Sungkyungkwan uni, prestigious uni in SK

was also the top 3rd student in his school AND was student body president in middle school i’m truly weeping

Introduced on a few shows with the hashtag #차파고 (Cha-pha Go, a spin on Alpha Go) because he’s so damn diligent and detailed 

Also went on 1 v 100 with bin and mj but he got into the finals/semi-finals WOW WE STAN BRAINS AND BEAUTY 

Knows japanese and chinese and is nearly fluent in english bless his heart

Also speaks Chinese because his younger brother studies in China

DONGHWIIIIIIIIIIIII

Cute as fuck during new year’s when the rest of astro were in the fantz celebrating new year’s he went home to visit his brother bc he came back from china so he video called into vapp

I need to stop saying fantz someone shoot me i started ironically and now i can’t stop

Once upon a time was in the jungle with Yuri, apparently picked up aegyo there

Gets made fun of all the time by astro for the aegyo asjdfkhlskjd they make him sing the aegyo song literally every time 

And they annoy him by singing it too

Always gets iconic lines / killing parts in songs 

내꺼할래 !! (wanna be mine?)

같이 갈래? (let’s go together?)

Iconic line in polaris

Here’s a compilation you didn’t know you needed

Again made fun of by astro for doing the 같이 갈래

That one astro play where he’s just talking and then lil bitches sanha and jinjin pop up behind him and go 같이 갈래!!! and he just looks so done

The centre of all of Astro’s arm symbol formations 

Makes sure that you know who he is (bc he’s cHa-A e-EUN Wu-UU *thumps chest*) 

This ALSO gets mimicked by the other members, and poor boy tried to chug a soda and do this as well but ended up burping on camera as a result ;v;

Also the stiffest dancer my poor son

Got sent on some programme for idols who can’t dance it was Hilarious

But he also put so much effort into it i’m rly crying he made sure to get help from rocko in dancing the choreography right ;;;;

And he’s improved so much i’m !!!!!! so proud he puts in so much effort and he works so hard and he practices so much fuck i’m emo 

Literally ??? is perfect whatever he says his bad sides are are actually good points smdh 

Was asked once if there was anything he couldn’t do, to which he replied that he wasn’t good at relationships and the MC replied that wtf it just made him more attractive

farewell i am on the floor crying 

oh right okay yes one bad side:

MINIONS 

Smdh he loves them so much

The glasses he wore in the cicada video

that one video of them playing with the minion helicopter

that MINION HAT

160108 DDOCA when they’re playing with the minion blanket and jinjin opens it up and promptly looks horrified  

What the hell is this

European Bagel: once said he was eating an ‘european bagel’ on ok!ready episode 1 if anyone knows what that means pls let us know

He gets anxious about being a burden to astro

Talked about it in Astro Project watch at your own risk I cried

Listen he does so much he juggles acting and photoshoots for CFs and astro promotions he’s constantly trying to improve himself he’s never a burden and if there's one member in all of astro i want to hug and just !! tell him he's okay and that everything will be okay and tell him that he’s perfect and that he’s enough and deserves love it’d be Eunwoo for me ;;;;;;;;

Also Eunwoo: (sits quietly) / 5stro: let’s fuck with him

was playing with the ducks when jinjin and sanha come up behind him and screamed lmao he nearly fell on his face

A compilation or two… or three of Eunwoo being bothered by the other members lolol

Once Jinjin had to pull a secret camera on him and tell him that Astro accidentally broke a camera and without hesitating he offered to pay the full 1.5k$ that camera was worth adsfjkasd what a pure gullible bean ;A;

ICONIC BASEBALL DDOCA THAT SLAYED ALL THE BINU STANS THERE EVER WERE i’m writing this from the grave

Cutest whine? He goes like aaAAa or something like that idk but he does it when he gets annoyed it’s the cutest thing ;;;;;

Literally the (^▽^) face

Mouth opens up into a really wide triangle, width depends on how embarrassed he gets

My favourite laugh in the entire universe

heck I’m so in love,,,

LOVES KIDS 

during one ASC a baby came on and asked all of astro to go to their house to play for christmas eunwoo got out of his seat right away he was 1000% ready to run out of the studio and hop on that airplane

Actually a lil bitch lmao 

“Haha u were going 2 sleep?? Nah stay up & watch me on vlive fam”

Makes fun of hyung line’s height i live for this 

After arohas missed the “MJ” during the first fanchant he joked saying “why don’t y’all just come in on ‘jinjin’ instead?” #LetMJLive2k17 also #LetArohasLive2k17

Voice like moonlight 

Need him singing??? Here

Titles his v-lives “차은우의 Just one 10 minutes” but they’re never 10 minutes they’re nearly an hour long 

His voice is just really really soothing and comforting and if you ever need something to calm you down when you’re upset or if you need a background voice for when you’re studying here he is

Singing voice has improved so so so so so so much from Spring Up, his live singing shakes me to the core

Also sang opera in ASC so really hoo boy he’s improved so much I’m so !!! :’)

Literally can we pause and take a moment to appreciate his baby photos I looked like a rat when I was younger and here he is, snatching, 

My favourite baby ever ajkdlhsfakjsdf i lovE

Did some modelling campaigns pre-debut 

Shara Shara

I bet you needed all these pictures in your life

Cute lotion video :’)

Still king of CFs he recently did a baskin robbins one (with Yoo Seung Ho)

It’s pretty funny

He’s so cute what the heck

After the whole thing, he got addicted to ice cream; he mentioned in a vlive that at some point he could just eat sandwiches and ice cream the whole day

But fantagio also probably feeds all of astro ice cream for breakfast so really,  

A Lafuma ad with Seolhyun (AOA) 

A Polham ad with Doyeon (Weki Meki)

A Ceci spread with Doyeon too!! 

A Lotte Water Park ad with Sejeong (Gugudan)

Won an award for best male CF smdh 

Wears frickin glasses and makes everyone cry 

That one DDOCA where it’s him preparing for a hit the top shooting I would like you to know that this is coming to you from the grave

Got scouted by a Fantagio recruiter when he was in middle school, then bugged into joining the fantz

He was the school president, in the top three of the entire school, wanted Seoul National University to become a judge bless his fuckin heart

Apparently rejected Fantagio the first couple times they asked, but gave in bless him thank god

Astro claimed pre-debut walking anywhere with him meant everyone doing double-takes

Re-enacted on ok!ready: sanha and mj talking in a coffeeshop then stopping and sTARING THE FUCK OUT OF EUNWOO LMAO

Literally blew up on male-dominated sites for being PRETTIER THAN THE FEMALE MCs AT SHOW!MUCORE

So pretty that Hello Venus thought he was prettier than them when starring in their video

Some weibo arohas describe him as the kind of handsome where “even if you’re already married, you’d still take a second glance at him if you passed by him on the street” ("那种虽然有老公了但是对路过的帅哥还是想多看两眼的感觉") I 10000% agree 

weibo arohas also call him "车车" car car / cha cha i'm fuckinjasdfkjdf

In case you wanted a heart attack

Labelled a “Face Genius”, but wants to be acknowledged for more than his looks

“Someone who’s more reliable than anyone else and who always gives his all to the people he treasures, who’s very hard on himself and there are times where it gets too much but because of that, he’s someone who’s detailed and earnest.” (creds to @astrotranslations)

Dony on Weekly Idol called Rowoon (SF9) a face genius once but Rowoon politely deferred and said that title belonged to Cha Eunwoo :’)

Said once in an interview that he’d take whoever he likes out to dinner, give them a necklace then confess asdjfhlaskjd a true romantic bby

Also said that he was an “FM” boyfriend (field manual) asjdhflaksjd my heart is weak don’t attack me like this

You know what, Binu gets a section to themselves smdh 

Just so you know, arohas didn’t come up with the name ‘Binu’, they came up with it (”Team Soap”) themselves 

explained it by saying 빈 (Bin) + 우 (Woo) = 비누 (Soap)

Roommates!!

Picked each other in OK!Ready and have been living in the same room ever since 

in the recent Night Night show they did Eunwoo said that if he could pick roommates again, he’d still pick Bin 

Is apparently scentless to Bin 

Smdh we all know what habituation is it’s bc he smells Eunwoo too much Eunwoo doesn’t have a specific smell anymore

Also together like 24/7 stuck to each other’s side if you’re looking for eunwoo ever just look for bin you’ll find him there

Bin claims Eunwoo is the most beautiful creature on earth tbh same 

“Is he really human? How can someone that looks like him exist?”

Eunwoo thinks Bin is the most handsome too I love supportive friendships ;u;

IS THE ONLY ONE WHO CAN WAKE BIN UP AMAZING

Literally though sanha and jinjin posted a twitter video of them trying to wake bin up it doesn’t work it apparently only works when eunwoo gets him to wake up 

Sleeps through sanha and jinjin prodding him but wakes up when eunwoo starts talking in a vlive

Bin said in the harper’s bazaar interview that he doesn’t wake up when the manager calls him to get up but his eyes naturally open when he hears Eunwoo sighing (creds to @astrotranslations)

Bin’s mom even sent in a concern to hello counsellor bc he wouldn’t stop sleeping and couldn’t wake up so really… eunwoo = magic?

Want more Binu? Here, here and here!

Friends with Mingyu from Seventeen

Mingyu called him once for advice on what to bring to the jungle since he too was going on law of the jungle

Said in Night Night that he gets cold really easily

Yet in OK!Ready (as pointed out by @jinwoostro) he stood outside waiting for Jinjin and Sanha to come even though he was freezing ;u; 

A sweetheart!! Who cares so much !!!! for other members!!!!!!

Listen this boy works so hard and he does so much for a 20 year old: he models, he acts, he’s learning 3 other languages for Aroha, he handles university courses AND he still keeps up with astro’s promotions I’m really crying he’s worked so hard he deserves the world

Im rly fukcing criyng i gotta sotp i love this boy, 

[ultimatedoughboi]

Get to know me a little better!

Wow man! Your mom let you get tagged in this TWO TIMES!!!? Thank you @deenameetay and @lnsect, lets get started.

How tall are you? I am 5′6" or 5'5.5" depending on the scale. Just about average.

What color are your eyes? A warm brown i guess.

Do you wear contacts and/or glasses? Hahaha! Nope! I aint no scrub, living the 20/20 vision lyfe!

Do you wear braces? I used to have them, for the majority of my young life. Now I have perfect teeth and live in constant fear that I am gonna fuck em up.

What is your fashion style? Hmmmmmm, it depends, I am a pretty big jean person so jeans and sweaters/jackets for most seasons. But summer time I am living the short and croptop life. And If I am at home, my style constists of big oversized jackets, socks and either spandex or boxer shorts. Gotta be comfy yo.

When were you born? November 3rd, 2000..god I am getting old

Do you have any siblings? Absolutely, got one little brother. 

What kind of student are you? It all depends I think I am a hardworking student half the time taking my hardest classes so I can get a good job in da future, but I am also a pretty shit student too, I procrastinate, and ratger ask people how to do all the work I have than to figure it out myself. Im a mess, sorry everyone!

What are your favorite subjects? My favorite subjects are math and science. I understand math and adore the work in it and I love physics! I just wish my grades were better for these classes.

What are your favorite movies? Ah shit fam, I have a super obsession with animated films. I absolutely adore the iron giant and princess and the frog. And I also love watching this movie called drop dead gorgeous, pretty good comedy that I’d highly recommend! I also really love spirited away and ponyo abd the 3d animated astro boy, these helped make up my childhood.

What are your favorite pastimes? I like to draw a whole bunch as my main past time and to play games either on my computer or on any of my consoles. I also like to play my violin, listen to music and do other crafting things like sewing and knitting and such!

Do you have any regrets? Since when does anyone live and have no regrets,,, buddy I am literally drowning in a sea of them as we speak.

What’s your dream job? My absolute dream job would either be an astronaut, an astrophysics professor or an animator. I have a deep obsession with space and always have wanted to learn more about it, and I also have a huge affinity for the arts and animating!

Would you like to get married? Hell yeah I do, just gotta find someone who’d wanna get with this ugly mug. :,)

Do you want kids? I want 2 to 3 kids, at least one to be a biological child of mine and at least one adopted!

How many countries have you visited? I have visited a goodly amount when I went on my Europe trip, I think roughly 10 countries in total?

What is your scariest dream? I have two that left me pretty shaken up. One when it was the night before my first day in Kindergarten and I envisioned a flying metal lunch tray with a scary face that was vaporizing my classmates, reducing them to ash. And another, a close friend of mine was either in a car crssh or exploded right before we both went on a cruise and I had to attend their funeral.

Do you have a significant other?

Hahahahaha,.. Noo I am a single Pringle, hmu if you wanna chat ;) (JK please dont hit me up for that purpose, though if you wanna chat to tell jokes and memes, then please do!)

Put your playlist on shuffle and, without skipping, put the first 15 songs.

·Me and Mr. Wolf- The Real Tuesday Weld

·Bohemian Rhapsody- Queen

·Adventures- Hyper Potions

·Planetary (GO!)- My Chemical Romance

·Danse Macabre- Camille Saint-saëns

·Neon- RWBY Soundtrack

·Don’t Trust Me- 3OH!3

·Cookies!- Ninja Sex Party

·Don’t Threaten Me With A Good Time- Panic at the disco

·Blinded by the Light- Manfred Mann

·Hot Blood- Kaleo

·Dinosaur Laser Fight- Ninja Sex Party

·Farmer Refuted- Hamilton

·The Hero of Rhyme- Starbomb

·Hey Brother- Vitamin String Quartet

I have multiple playlists, but this one I go to more often.

I choose, @confetti-pants , @w3lc0met0w0nd3rl4nd , @hey-joelman , @flowercrowns-and-virgos, @sherscribbles, @pastelpolydemi, and @lainlaps to share things about themselves. Honestly, y'all dont have to if you dont want to! I just tgink it was kind of exciting is all! :D

[binunus]

college bf!mj

a/n AH !!!! THE ANNOUNCEMENT OF THE ASTRO COMEBACK ???? APRIL 5TH ??? WHAT A TIME TO BE ALIVE LOVES !! i genuinely...do not know if I will be able to survive this month bc of them. 

(also i tried to get this posted on mj’s birthday but I’m so sorry a lot of shit happened and I had a ~bad mental breakdown~ and it’s just been rough out here but that’s a story for another time if any of you lovely beings wanna know hehe)

→ genre: fluff, smut

→ tw: mentions of cheating (in past relationships)

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KIM MYUNGJUN !!

A LIVING REINCARNATION OF THE SUN

this is gonna be so cute i just !! love him so much???

has his own apartment, but he honestly stays over all of the boys’ places so much that...he barely sleeps at his apt

major: vocal performance

his voice is literally honey

can probably sing higher than some sopranos in his major

so friendly, everyone who meets him loves him

mj just has a way of attracting people and making people comfortable around him

in short, he is – of course – the moodmaker

can turn anyone’s frown upside down

he’s down?? for like everything

an adventurous spontaneous type

has...probably failed a ged ed class once or twice before...

he’s not stupid okay! he just doesn’t really care about the classes that has no connection to his major

like will he ever apply calculus in singing? probably not

oh but professors can’t hate him, even if he just messes around during class

he’s just so kind and likeable

loves his boys aka astro

will literally do anything to make them smile, even if he’s had a rough day

as long as his boys are happy :’) he’s happy :’)

now how do you meet myungjun??

he’s in an acapella group on campus

he just has to be alright

he was the only freshman that got in during his first year

that shows how good he is :*

a tenor in the highly competitive co-ed group

spoiler alert, he convinces sanha to join, but that’s for college bf!sanha

myungjun is what me and my friends like to call: the solo whore

and it’s not bc he’s greedy for solos, he’s a real team player

his voice just happens to sound the best for most solos your group has??

you’re also in the acapella group

im not giving a voice part bc then that would put you in a binary category

so soprano, alto, tenor, baritone, bass, you pick love

anyway, you and myungjun were chosen to sing a duet for one of your competition pieces

and it was the key emotional piece so you and him had to be on your A games

you and myungjun were friends ofc, you had to be some sort of friends with everyone in your acapella group

but you never really hung out with him outside of rehearsal

well until you got this duet together

and you weren’t worried about it, mj was so fun and nice and an amazing singer, you had no doubt these extra practices with him would be a good time

and you were right! besides singing, you actually got a chance to get to know him and how goofy he really was

you’re pretty sure you always had an ab workout whenever you hung out with him bc of how much he made you laugh

about a month away from competition, you and myungjun were like best buds

literally a chaotic, iconic duo

the chemistry you two had during your duet was spectacular, your voices highlighted and bounced off each other very well

but! your leader had a little critique

“y/n, myungjun, that was great but...can you guys pretend to look...like in love? I get we’re all friends here, but if you can’t convey the emotion of the song in our performance, what’s the point? This goes for everyone, this is a song about how much you love your partner and would give them the world, we need to show that in our eyes and movements, even if you’re just singing ooh and woah for like 10 measures.”

you and myungjun decide to stay after rehearsal and practice the emotions you guess...

your leader had a point, good singing could only go so far

and for the first time, myunjun was a bit...? awkward??

you: alright so how are we gonna pretend to be madly in love with each other

he chuckles and shrugs: honestly I don’t know, look at me like I’m your boyfriend or something??

you: well, I hate my last boyfriend so that probably wouldn’t be a good idea

myungjun offering you a high-five: I hate...well I think I hate...my last partner too so at least we have that

you: how do you think you hate your last partner? are you not dating anyone right now?

he gives you a smile and like you notice it’s forced?? it’s not genuine or bright like the one he usually gives

mj: no I’m not dating anyone...my last relationship sorta traumatized me I guess. 

you: ...how did it traumatize you...? you don’t have to tell me if you don’t want to myungjun

mj: ah *awkward laughter* well...I was sorta going through it my senior year of high school, stress from graduating and what to do with my life and all that shit, you know? I dated this person since my freshman year and I guess my mental health got the best of me during that time and they couldn’t handle it. We were planning on staying together throughout college and do long distance but I found out in the summer before starting college that they fucked my high school best friend behind my back...when I confronted them about it, the answer they gave me was that I was too down and preoccupied with my worries to notice about my partner’s needs...pretty fucked up right?

your jaw dropped, your eyes were bulging out at his story

you: myungjun what the fuck??? what college do they go to? I’ll pull up right now and beat their asses, I don’t know scream in their face or something! That’s fucked!

he’s laughing a little: thanks y/n, but it’s alright. You know, maybe I was too caught up in my own problems that I ended up neglecting my partner’s needs...I guess that’s why I’m always just trying to be carefree and fun now.

you: that doesn’t justify the fact that what they did to you was wrong. you should have never gone through that myungjun, it’s not your fault that you were going through it mentally, your partner should have been there to support you and understand your struggles, not cheat on you with your best friend. ugh I’m pissed for you. 

mj: I appreciate it y/n, but yeah love’s sorta a hard subject for me.

you nod in understanding

mj: well! that’s my traumatic breakup story, it’s only fair you share yours

you laugh: you’re right. Well I was dating this guy right when I entered college, met him at the freshman orientation, completely hit it off. I was so in love with him, we dated for about a year. And then last semester he broke up with me out of nowhere, said he wanted to focus on school and himself and that he needed a break from dating. I found out two days later that he started dating one of his suite mates and that on the night he broke up with me, they fucked. So love? also something hard for me.

mj: aww look at us both unable to find or relate to love because of past relationship traumas.

you hit his shoulder laughing: you’re such a headass

mj: I’m kidding! anyway, I’m sorry you went through that too y/n. it sucks and your ex is a dumbass for breaking up with you. Do you still have feelings for him? w-wait, you don’t have to answer that, was that insensitive?

you: you’re fine haha. Um...well...sometimes when I overthink things at night, I do miss him and I wonder what the hell I did wrong for it to end so abruptly because I was honestly really happy with him, but then I wake up in the morning and I hate him again. 

mj: you did nothing wrong y/n...and if you need to call me at 2 am when you’re overthinking and need some badass confidence knocked into you, I will be awake.

you smile and give him a hug: thanks myungjun...you know the same goes for you too?

mj: hm??? what do you mean??

you: you don’t always have to smile around me, especially if you don’t feel like it. Don’t repress your mental health, huh? It’s bad for the soul to bottle it in. I’m not gonna force you to share your darkest fears with me, I’m just saying that if you feel drained and wanna talk about it, I’m here to listen

myungjun pouts a little bit, he’s really touched?? it’s hard for him to share his troubles with others

like as much as he loves astro and is close to them, he doesn’t share his down sides with the boys as often as he should bc he never wants to burden them

myungjun just always thought it was easier to suppress the bad feelings and put on a happy act

but he couldn’t deny the weight lifted off his shoulders after telling you about his breakup

and maybe it was because your energies were on a different level lately, but he found it so?? easy?? to just vent to you after that

until competition, the two of you worked on faking like you were in love (basically imagining that each other was your favorite actor/actress or whatever, something like that)

it was good enough for the group to believe it lol

but what about the judges and audience hmmmmm

anyway, fast forward and it’s competition day!!

myungjun introduces you to his best friends aka the boysss aka astro

they come and support him for his competition ugh we love

you’re like smiling and hyper when you meet them

...has myungjun been rubbing off on you???

you: it’s so nice to meet you all! myungun always talks so highly of you

astro: huh?? you’re lying, myungjun hyung complimenting us???

and then they start messing and friendly bickering with each other and yes they’re teasing mj

you’re laughing bc it’s so cute?? you can see in their eyes and their smiles how much they really care about each other :’)

also astro, probably jin or eunwoo, maybe rocky: we’re sorry if m hyung has driven you to insanity these past few months of rehearsing

you just laugh as myungjun hits them: myungjun’s actually been like my partner in crime lately, so we’re all good :)

*cue the boys exchanging looks with each other*

you perform ah ha ha

alright, you were so used to thinking that myungjun was...idk kim soohyun or something bc mm chef’s kiss his acting...to get into the emotion of the song

but then during the actual performance you saw him as myungjun and like all the hard work and extra practices and late night talks came in full force and you were just...singing to him

and you notice how...handsome?? and charismatic?? myungjun really is...and the little sparkle in his eyes when he’s performing like...wow

and after your set, you’re just like shit, what the fuck was that??

your group doesn’t win though, you place second!

but you and myungjun get awarded best solo/duet of the entire competition

astro: ;)

your acapella group: ;)

the judges: ;)

alright so im a firm believer that if myungjun had feelings for someone, he would straight up tell them like balls to the wall full fucking send

after competition, the routine of school comes back. you occasionally hang out with myungjun outside of rehearsal

by occasionally, I mean once a week hangout with myungjun (and astro bc they started inviting you to their dinners)

and then one night – at midnight – he calls you like out of pocket and his tone is like completely serious

you’re a bit scared?? like: myungjun...is everything okay? did something happen?

mj: y/n...can I ask you something?

you: yeah, of course

mj: do you still think about your ex?

you: o_o um...honestly no, not really...why?

mj: well, if I’m being honest. y/n, I have feelings for you. And i’m not asking you to like me back or give me an answer straight away, but I just wanted to let you know. If you don’t think about your ex anymore, and if you think you’re ready...maybe you can consider thinking of me??

mmmmm kim myungjun you slick flirty dog grrr bark bark

and you know how he can just talk, and talk fast, so you’re still in the middle of processing this and he just goes on like

“sleep on it, y/n. I’ll see you soon for rehearsal, okay? good night”

like you don’t even have a chance to respond to him bc he just hangs up the phone

you think about it, of course you think about it, you’ve been thinking about it ever since competition

having feelings for myungjun has always been in the back of your mind since then

like did you notice that when you hung out with him, your heart would flutter if he said something sweet?? or if you two were a bit too close to each other?? 100%

but you didn’t know if either of you were ready for another relationship so it’s just been put on the back burner

at the next acapella practice, you find that your cheeks just flush whenever myungjun looks your way

the rehearsal went a bit??? weird?? like even your group noticed that there was a bit of a tension between you and myungjun

but of course, he goes up and talks to you after rehearsal ended and he’s like: hey...I’m sorry if my confession made you feel weird, I didn’t mean for that at all. If you want, we can just forget about what I said and stay friends! 

you just facepalm like: myungjun you idiot, I’m acting weird because I like you too. God, you know maybe the boys are right, maybe you need to shut your mouth for a little bit

and he whines like: hey!

but then he realizes what you said and he gives you the brightest smile: you mean it?? you like me back??

and you’re like shyly smiling now: yeah...I do...but do you want to take the next step?? I mean...do you think you’re ready for another relationship??

he gets like serious and he grabs your hand: not gonna lie, I don’t think I’ll ever be fully ready after my last one...but if there’s someone I wanna try it with, it’s you.

:’) kim !!! myung !!! jun !!!

dating myungjun?? the best thing ever

the cutest boy alive honestly

he has so much cute and goofy in him already with just friends and strangers

but with you, it’s increased tenfold

even you start to act cute and goofy after dating him

petnames?? bub and bubby

myungjun is not serious about a lot of things, but he is very serious about his feelings for you and your relationship

y’all take things at your own pace and he !! values !! consent !! even if it’s just like making out

he just doesn’t wanna mess things up with you :’)

the type of boyfriend to sing you to sleep ah !!! his voice is heaven alright

will be extra about pda in front of the guys to make them grossed out

and yes you get embarrassed, but myungjun’s too cute to scold

you get used to a lot of second-hand embarrassment dating him and being friends with the boys

but it’s just so endearing, you can’t even fight it

will swing your arms together when you’re out just walking

screams he’s so cute

you don’t really fight bc communicating with each other is one of the biggest things in your relationship

like if a disagreement or a situation comes up, you two are mature enough to talk it through and work things out bc you both already been knew what it’s like to be in a relationship that didn’t have full transparency

you do jokingly bicker about small things though (like think about how astro fights)

but he always ends fights by scooping you up in a hug and showering your face with kisses

loves kissing your nose

just imagine: you and myungjun cuddling and he just kisses your nose and you scrunch up your face and he just laughs and kisses you all over and you two end up giggling

will do anything to see a smile on your face, it’s the greatest sight to him

alright we been talking too much about how cute myungjun is

he’s also a hot motherfucker alright

the most attractive when he’s singing in your opinion

you know how charismatic he is, you’ve seen it first hand during rehearsal and performances

he’s very good at hiding his horniness, especially in public

but phew when you two are in private and myungjun’s in the mood

you can tell bc his eyes just get hazy and he immediately just starts kissing your neck

a very passionate lover, will prioritize your pleasure over his

sex with myungjun can go from being sweet and sensual, to fun and playful, to hot and exciting

by that...I mean that he is down to try every kink and position you can think of

as long as both of you are okay with it ofc

he’s one of the kinkiest members in astro im convinced

blindfolds? bondage? ice cubes? wax play?

you want it? you got it

he’s not into feet though, i apologize to my foot fetish lovers

his favorite position is actually missionary

myungjun loves being able to watch you and to see how good he’s making you feel

in missionary is when he feels the most connected to you, it’s just a passionate position

and yes he’s very vocal, so you betcha he encourages you to be vocal as well

will try to mess with you in a sense where say you two are hanging out with the guys, he’ll touch you and challenge you to not make a noise

and then he’ll snicker and wink at you if you even let out a peep

he’s a tease !!! like will edge you until you’re on the brink of cumming at least 3 times

myungjun has pretty good stroke game alright

very fluid with his hips, idk he just knows all the right spots to hit

praise...kink...that’s the tweet, need I say more

he’s into hair pulling !! both ways !! 

okay hear me out...myungjun fucking you and pulling your hair until your screaming and then after you both cum, he’s like: you hit a high f earlier bub! I almost wanted to harmonize with you but–

you: myungjun are you serious!

sex with him would always just be a fun time, like he’s hot and grrr it feels so good but there’s always a bit of laughing and joking around in the process

like he will tickle you before he puts his cock in you just to see the switch of you laughing to moaning

alright but shower sex?? he’s into that

and just the acoustics of both of your sounds in the bathroom?? it’s so filthy he loves it – and it’s easy to clean up afterwards

you bet that after any performance with your group, the two of you have sex, even if it’s just a quickie in an empty practice room or whatever

no shame, will kick the boys out or announce “we’re going to fuck bye!” if you or him get too horny in the middle of a hangout

im just gonna throw this out here...you and myungjun...mile high club

(your group competed in an acapella competition and the flight there...it just happened)

all in all, myungjun just wants to make you happy and feel good and smile, even if you two just finished an intense sex session

let’s get into the deep stuff though, you are the only person myungjun is comfortable with to not show a smile all the time

even with the boys, there’s always a small part of him that wants to just push through and be optimistic just so that they won’t worry

but with you, he knows that it’s okay to be sad and to be vulnerable :’)

when myungjun cries bc he’s upset :( fuck you cry too

he loves when you just hug him and stroke his hair when he’s stressed

very showy about your relationship, not bc he’s braggy, but bc he just wants to show the world how happy you make him and that he’s in love <3

the boys are so happy to see their eldest in love :’)

they don’t show it around each other, but they’ve come up to you in private and say sweet things like

“you make myungjun hyung so happy, he always brings joy to everyone but you bring joy to him, thank you”

im !! getting !! sentimental !!

the day you found out myungjun was in love with you was the day you met his parents

‘twas a bit spontaneous

his parents came to see one of your group performances and myungjun’s like holding your hand and leading you somewhere after you get off stage and he’s like “bub! these are my parents!”

you end up getting dinner with his family and yikes you were hella nervous, you were not expecting on meeting his parents right after your performance

not gonna lie, you thought he was leading you to the car for some post-performance sex

but they adored you, his parents could see how much you meant to their son ugh I cry

anyway, the L word

as you’re finishing dinner, myungjun’s all giddy and just like

“I’m so glad you came and watched mom and dad, the timing was perfect too! I wanted to introduce you to y/n for a while now and have you meet the person I love.”

and his parents are just smiling at you and saying how they’re so happy to finally meet you and how you have an amazing voice and to take care of myungjun and you’re !!! just !!! blushing !!!

as soon as you both got in the car after saying goodbye to his parents, he’s just like: hope I didn’t surprise you too much bubby, I didn’t know my parents were coming to watch until like an hour before we went on stage

you just give him a little smile: I was a bit caught off guard, but it’s okay. Your parents are so sweet, I see where you get it from bub.

myungjun: I can tell that they love you already! well of course not as much as I do, but with time I know they’ll come pretty close

and you’re blushing again, it’s the L word: do you mean it myungjun?

myungjun: that my parents love you?? of course–

you: no, bub...that you...love me?

myungjun: yeah...unless you don’t feel the same way–

you: myungjun! no, of course I do! I just wasn’t expecting the first time to hear it was with your parents

you two are laughing, ugh this man

after your giggles subside, he leans over from the driver’s seat and he just cups your cheek and pecks your nose: I love you y/n, thank you for reminding me what love feels like

you: I love you too myungjun

and then you two are just like sharing a sweet kiss in the parking lot of the restaurant before starting the drive back to his place

do you and myungjun make duets together for fun and post it?? yeah probably

you are the luckiest dating myungjun, the living breathing embodiment of serotonin and love

even when you two are older and out of college, he still gives you the same affection and attention and authenticity ugh he’s just amazing

im so sorry this was late but happy belated to our happy virus <3

3-12-21

[stcvic]

hello, my dudes ! i’m lauren, i’m twenty years old, i live in the est, i use she/her pronouns, and i make up 1/2 of the dynamic duo that brought newcastlehqs to a computer near you ! honestly, i would tell you about myself but i don’t want to bore you so i’ll keep it short and sweet: i spend all of my money on movies and concert tickets, i could live off of coffee ice cream and cool ranch doritos ( a fitness icon ), and i love you. now that that’s over, i’d now like to introduce you all to this little devil, STEVIE ADLER.

( zoey deutch, 22, she/her. ) – hey, jagger’s pub ? it’s me, stevie adler, y’know the town’s hoyden. listen, i’m not going to make it to work tonight because i’ve got a gig with my band, saturdaze. i’m the keyboardist / bassist and they really need me even though they keep denying my request to cover electric feel by MGMT.

background !

stevie adler was born in newcastle, vermont to marcus adler and andrea adler.

she has three brothers cooper (25), axel (20), and graham (16).

her interest in music came solely from her dad who used to be a sound technician for very famous groups like aerosmith, the stones, and fleetwood mac ( how she got her name ! ) but he decided to hang up the passport for a while and now he’s visiting sound tech professor at the university of vermont and occasionally works the soundboard for the red light lounge whenever there’s a show.

she doesn’t have a relationship with her mom at all seeing as she left marcus, stevie, and her siblings because she claims she was ‘fed up with the fact that her husband was always traveling and leaving her to raise the kids on her own.’ that wasn’t the case though, she was just being dramatic and needed an excuse to leave. the real reason, which was later disclosed, was that she was pissed marcus’ career could flourish while hers was on the back burner. so in short: stevie’s selfish mother left her family to pursue a career and spoil herself while stevie’s dad was pursuing his career to foot the bills and provide for his family.

her dad never remarried or fell back in love with anyone else so it was just him, cooper, stevie, axel, and graham.

because she grew up around all boys, it was only a given she’d pick up on some of their ‘tendencies’ for example: as opposed to picking up a barbie doll and playing dress up like some girls and boys, she picked up a baseball and a bat instead. there wasn’t a day that went by where she wasn’t outside playing getting bruised up or scabby knee’d. she was apart of several different sports teams as a kid and even through her teenage years, but ( this is kinda cheesy ) she always managed to keep her interest in music just as relevant. 

personality !

okay, so her label is the hoyden which is basically just a jazzy word for a tomboy and carefree, boisterous girl and that’s exactly what stevie is: a carefree tomboy.

i pretty much shaped her off of a few of my favorite characters –– nick miller ( new girl ), ilana wexler ( broad city ), gina linetti ( brooklyn nine nine ), blake henderson ( workaholics ) !

she might be off-putting to some people because they think she comes off as ‘mean’ and ‘intimidating’ but really they’re just mislabeling her sarcasm and her resting bitch face. but tbh, she is kind of intimidating at first glance, she can’t help it though.

did i mention she’s very sarcastic ? a true Smart Ass™

she isn’t a serious person whatsoever, i know this is bad but she’s the type of person to start laughing at the most inappropriate times. she has no idea how to handle serious situations either so if she sees someone crying she’s just like ... um ... yikes ? i gtg.

SHE IS LITERALLY THE EMBODIMENT OF THIS VINE, THIS IS LITERALLY STEVIE WHEN I SAY SHE ISN’T SERIOUS AND DOESN’T KNOW HOW TO HANDLE SERIOUS SITUATIONS ! I AM YELLING ! 

she hates showing any form of emotional vulnerability and hardly ever cries in front of anyone or ever for that matter because her daddy didn’t raise no bitch ! that’s probably why she doesn’t know what to do when she sees people cry ? she might come off apathetic because of it ?

growing up around all boys, she developed a really thick skin and tough exterior that’s pretty hard to cut through. it takes a lot to set her off when it comes to something that’s targeted towards her. however, if someone crosses one of her friends or someone she cares about, she will not hesitate to throw hands.

certified queen of impetuous decisions and running away from her responsibilities !

in short: she’s just a very sarcastic, rather comical person who is careless almost 99%, but she tries and she’s a true ride or die homie !

CHECK OUT HER MUSINGS PAGE BECAUSE IT’S BASICALLY HER AND I’M JUST SHIT AT EXPLAINING THINGS !

possible connections !

wifey for life(y) ! lmao this title is kind of dumb but basically i want a connection where stevie and said muse are basically like abbi and ilana from broad city ! if you don’t watch the show then don’t worry, honestly, i’ll give you the run down: they’re basically two peas in a pod ( some people probs think they’re dating ) and there isn’t a day that goes by when they aren’t getting themselves into some sort of situation that you pretty much only see on a movie screen or just ... trouble. when they aren’t wreaking havoc, they kick back and smoke weed, drink, talk about life, etc. if someone tries to come for one of them, the other will be the first in line to throw hands and defend their ass.

the yin to her yang ! just another way of saying polar opposite and although they might not be carbon copies of each other and probably wouldn’t been seen together ever had it been in a societal norm situation, the two of them somehow click ? maybe it was their similar taste in music that brought them together or the fact they bonded over something similar. maybe they could’ve met back in the day at a party or a concert and they were the only two people who knew every word to every song/certain song ? we can definitely talk it out more if you’re interested !

friends with benefits ! think mila kunis and justin timberlake circa friends with benefits. no emotions, just sex. i would say maybe they’ll start catching feelings, but stevie is pretty emotionally shut down so it could be an unrequited love thing – who knows ? regardless, their dynamic is far from awkward. they aren’t afraid to blatantly text the other to come thru, bang a few out of their system, then end the night tossing back shots at the pub, catching a movie, clubbing at the red light lounge or grabbing a bite to eat.

are we hating, are we fucking ? ( shoutout childish gambino ) because i live for the drama and the thrill, i kind of want a dynamic where they literally cannot stand each other but the sexual tension is there. like they’re constantly at each other’s throats and throw shade at one another just to get a rise out of one another. they act like the can’t stand it, but they’re lowkey into it and enjoy the playful, cut-throat banter ! maybe it’s lead to a few hookups, maybe it hasn’t happened yet, who knows ?

trivia buddy / competitor ! okay this is so random, but i figured it was pretty different ? since stevie grew up playing a lot of sports with her brothers and being on different teams as a kid, she has a very competitive nature about her. if someone challenges her to do something, she’ll most likely drop everything to do it. she loves a little friendly competition. so, since astro’s has a trivia tuesdays night, i was thinking maybe her and said muse could either be on a team together or they go head to head every tuesday and they make a deal, whoever loses that night has to buy the other person a round of drinks or something ! i don’t know i thought this was cute !

good influencee / bad influencer ! someone who’s constantly worrying about stevie while she’s trying to get them to worry less, to let loose and actually experience life for a change rather than being so ... cautious and hesitant, rather than sticking to the same old shit different day sort of thing. while she’s trying to get them to worry less, they’re constantly trying to get stevie to think things through before making impetuous decisions. 

the crushee ! listen... someone who has a crush on stevie, someone who’s insistent that they’ll pierce through that exterior and show her that not all love is bad. someone who’s drawn to her but she can’t understand why ( or maybe she doesn’t even know that they are ).

ALSO HERE ARE MORE I JUST THOUGHT OF BUT I’M TOO EXCITED TO ELABORATE SOME ARE SELF EXPLANATORY THO

regular / favorite customer at the bar !

one of her brother’s best friends !

drinking buddy ! 

salt sibling ! 

confidant / cornerstone !

roommate !

[jongjongdaein]

Love, Live, and Heal

Word count: 2085

Genre: Angst

Member(characters): Wonwoo, You, Moonbin, Mark, & rest of Seventeen (but as a group)

Summary: Your two best friends die 5 minutes apart, how are you going to cope with it?

You know this if for you, don’t be sad too long. It’s okay to cry and let all your emotions roam free. I’m here whenever you want to talk to me and want to cry and need a shoulder. Don’t shy away from telling what’s wrong or going on in your life okay? Also I wrote this super fast and I don’t know if the story flows well, but its the best I could do with writers block, a pounding headache, a sprained ankle, and a stomach that is hurting like the pits of hell.

“Hey.” Someone sat down right in front of me

“Go away.” I huffed not looking up from my phone

“What, no.”

I roll my eyes as I let out a sigh and look up, my eyes traveled all around his face until it dawned upon me, “Wonwoo what do you want.”

“You’re acting all weird again I don’t like it.” He put his elbows on the seats armrests and started to lean forward, “What’s happening in your life? You haven’t spoken to me in 24 hours.” His eyes held a deep genuine worry

“Nothings wrong.”

“You see when girls say that, they usually mean the complete opposite. So honestly, are you going to tell me or are you going to suffer again by yourself?”

I stayed silent hoping he would drop the topic of conversation and talk about his new choreo that he created.

“Fine.” Wonwoo stood up and looked down at me, his fingers ran through his long shaggy auburn brown hair. It stayed quiet for a few seconds which genuinely felt like centuries, “Don’t tell me. Suffer through something that’s making you really depressed again because you simply cannot tell me what is going on through that head of yours.” He looked away for a split second and back at my drooping head, “It’s not like I cared anyways.” I thought that he had walked away

I never thought that he would give up so easily ever in his life, but after dealing with me not being able to speak about the rough patches in my life, he started to learn how to deal with my stubborn emotions. I wish that he’d pry the answers out of me and that he would always stay by my side. But all things don’t last forever, and some things surely die.

Two days beforehand

I dialed Moonbin’s number into my phone as I waited patiently at the bottom of my apartment for him to arrive.  Moonbin was someone I knew ever since the womb. Our mothers were childhood best friends and they grew up and old together. I always wanted someone like that in my life and god blessed me with Moonbin. We did everything together, from our first cut on the knee, to eating our very first pomegranates, getting our first kiss and special someone, all the way to our very first breakups. You name it, we experienced all together, and I was so grateful to have a bestfriend like him. We hung out everyday until Moonbin’s acceptance into Fantagio as their new trainee. I watched him from behind my computer screen on iTeen and his little web-drama, what a dork. He debuted with the group, Astro with five other equally as dorky, lovable, handsome kids. But for Moonbin and the rest of Astro were all like my older and younger brothers, they were there for me all the time and held a special place in my heart. Moonbin and I stayed in contact until this day, no force could ever pull us apart.

“Moonbin?”

“Hello?”

“Are you almost here?” I sat on the small stairs that led up to the lobby of my apartment and started to clap my feet together

“Yeah I’m almost there, I just stopped by at the bakery. Is Mark there yet?”

Mark, debuted with NCT 127 and is doing such an amazing job in his life. Today was the day he got a rest so he disguised himself and called us up after he hasn’t seen any of us in a while.

Flashback

Mark was a friend we met while in secondary school. He was new to the class and had told us that he was a trainee with SM, everyone started to bombard him with questions and asking him to get signatures and to give out numbers. Moonbin and I were talking as usual in our seats in the back and didn’t bother to look up at the commotion that stirred our class the wrong direction. Mark’s gaze landed upon us and started to walk towards our seats. Of course we were curious as how life was as a trainee and if he got to see the groups and soloists that were with SM, but we knew that this is another life he was supposed to live, that we should give him air and space.

“Hi, I’m Mark. Originally from Vancouver, Canada.” His hands were shoved in his pockets and a bright smile took over his small face

“I’m Moonbin. Originally from Cheongju, South Korea.” He offered his hand to Mark with a similar flashy smile that got his eyes to crease into small dark crescents, Mark took his hand firmly and shook it without hesitation

“I’m _______. Originally from Vancouver, Canada as well.” I laugh and shake my hand a little to signify a ‘Hello’

Marks smile never left his face as fangirls and fanboys started chanting and murmuring on how lucky we were or how we didn’t deserve Mark’s attention. Others were jealous and others were completely done with the whole hype of a soon-to-be idol in our classroom.

Mark and Moonbin realized that they had so much more in common than they thought. Moonbin informed Mark that he auditioned for Fantagio and was waiting to hear back as Mark was telling him the crazy things that happened in SM training sessions and meetings. We all hit it off so well, we soon became the most popular trio in the school. We were called, “The Golden Trio.” We three were inseparable until Moonbin was accepted and had to move away and graduation happened.

Flashback End

“He said he was coming soon I’ll call him right-” I was cut off to a shot gun shot on the other side of the phone, “Moonbin.”

I heard no response, “Moonbin.” I kept repeating his name until I could hear his voice, “Moonbin.”

“Oh my god. _______, I… I don’t know if I’ll see you today.” His voice sent relief through my body but his words sent daggers through my heart

“Moonbin, fuck. God. What do you mean are you okay? What’s happening there?” By now I was on my feet, clear panic written all over my face

I could hear panting and grunting, fast winds blowing by the speaker, “There’s a shooting.”

Those three words, nothing more nothing less. “A…. A….. A what…?” My hand was shaking in fear my eyes filling up with tears, “Run, stay safe. Please.. God..”

Another two gunshots were heard through the phone, this time it was dangerously close. “I….” I heard coughing on the end of the line, “I got……” More coughing, “I got shot in the leg and upper stomach.”

My hand flew to my mouth, covering the shock and denial I was in, “No there’s no way. Tell me you’re kidding. Moonbin I can’t lose you. Please…” My voice was shaking now, my hands couldn’t stop shaking.

“I can’t move, everything hurts.” He moaned into the phone

“Moonbin please. Don’t close your eyes.” I warned him as sobs slowly escaped my mouth

“I’m tired though…” HIs voice slowly got softer by the passing millisecond

“Moonbin…. Moon please don’t die like this you have Astro waiting for you. You have everything waiting for you ahead. I can’t let you die like this what are you doing…” My hands wiped away the tears that escaped from both my eyes

The line went silent. With softs screams and loud ones filling up the line, fast footsteps surrounded my ears. Pedestrians yelling, “This man needs help instantly!” Fangirls recognizing Moonbin and screaming that their idol was close to dead.  Pedestrians calling the police and shouting, “The culprit is getting in the car! He’s driving away!” My eyes started to become blurry and I hung up and called Mark right away who was driving over with his manager.

“Mark…” I started to sob

“Hey! I’m- Are you crying?” His voice was worrying

“Moonbin… He…..-” I tried to get my words out but sobs just kept coming out of my mouth leaving me incoherent

I heard another voice in the background, “What is this stupid black car doing, he’s driving on the wrong side of the road.” My eyes widened, not them too.

“MARK. PUT ME ON SPEAKERPHONE RIGHT NOW.” Mark quickly heard my loud cries and places me on speaker phone, “THAT BLACK CAR HOLDS A CULPRIT THAT KILLED MOONBIN YOU NEED TO-” I was cut off by loud manly screams

“OH MY GO-” I heard a crash, tumbling, and painful screaming.

My phone fell down to the concrete flooring, my hands dropped to my sides. There’s no way. I lost…..  Lost both of them… In the span of 5 minutes.

My hands ran through my hair as i dropped down, my hips not touching the floor but instead sitting on top of my ankles.

“No...No…..NO…….” I cried out, “This can’t be happening.”

Several passersby came over to ask if I was okay, asking me what happened. I couldn’t even process it myself, how could I tell them what happened. An woman engulfed me in her arms and was stroking my hair. Leaving me to cry into her shoulder over the past 5 minutes, where I lost two of my best friends.

Recent/Current/Now

Wonwoo never left. Instead he sat right next to me. Getting lost in that flashback I started to sob. My tears wouldn’t stop leaving my dried out eyes as my voice was shaky. His arms quickly engulfed me in a tight embrace gently stroking my hair. Ever since the accident I stayed at my work building. I stayed inside my dull office not getting out of the chair unless it was urgent. Seventeen often visited me in my office to check up on me and make sure I was still alive.

Seventeen is a 13 member group that I met during my internship at Pledis while Mark and Moonbin were off training. I became close with the boys as I helped them vocal train and take care of them from the evil ruling of the staff and CEO. I watched them grow into the fantastic young men they are today and they slowly take down girls hearts one by one. They were there for me when Moonbin and Mark couldn’t, as they were busy creating their own lives. I quickly became very close to the boys and met one of my new best friends there, Wonwoo. We automatically clicked and I would be lying if i didn’t say that I definitely have had some romantic feelings towards him.

“You’re going to be okay.” He said softly

“They died because of me.”

“They didn’t. It wasn’t your fault.” He kept stroking my hair making me feel more relaxed

“It was…. If it weren-”

“It wasn’t your fault. It was the culprit. The one who pulled the trigger and drove the car. Were you any of those people?”

“No..”

“Exactly. Therefore it isn’t your fault.” We sat there for a moment, Wonwoo hugging me. Engulfing me in his arms and me getting lost in his body and scent. “Don’t forget that Seventeen is here for you. You may feel like you have lost your entire world and friends, but we’re here. We can help you heal and be happy again. We’re here for you when you fall and we’ll help you get back up.”

I stay quiet for a moment, soaking my tears back up into my eyes, “What about you? Specifically?”

“I don’t think right now is a good time to tell you what’s been going through my mind, but I want you to never forget that I am here whenever you need me. I will stand by you through thick and thin. We don’t have a deep connection like what you had with the two of them, but I’m sure as hell that our relationship isn’t below that, that there is so much more to it.” He lifted my head and came dangerously close, “So will you let me help you, and let me know what going on in your head? Will you let me let you love, live, and heal?” As with that his warm lips were placed on my forehead. After feeling sad, alone, broken, and damaged for 48 hours, for once after their death, I felt right at home, like I was complete. Because I couldn’t cope with my best friends death alone, that I needed someone to show me how to Love, Live and Heal.

[fordarkisthesuede]

Star Watch - Crystal Clear & The Hard Way

If you’re wondering why I’m late to the party with these, there’s an easy answer:  being an adult really sucks sometimes. I have to juggle a job, every-day things like hygiene/food intake/chores, and all my fandoms with what my brain has the energy or mood for, while knowing I only have so much time in the day to do these things. Do I feel like continuing my Yu Yu Hakusho marathon today, or do I want to watch something new? Do I want to browse the web after watching a 10-minute Star Vs episode, or do I want to plop down and not have to move for the entire time it takes me to watch an episode or two of Buffy before I have to go to bed so I can get up for work? 

Also, I don’t have cable, so I depend on people uploading new episodes. Usually I don’t have the opportunity to see them until a whole day later. To put it simply, it sucks.

Crystal Clear:

I have no idea what happens in this one because I managed to avoid every single spoiler for it! Horray!

[one episode-viewing later]

Uh. Ok. I see why a lot of people didn’t like this very much. And why people didn’t bother unleashing spoilers.

This episode was sort of slow, especially considering the Big Reveal was that “oh hey the big magic problem we’ve been having is getting worse, here’s the giant swirling green mass of magic to prove it”. Like we didn't already know it was going to be a continuing problem from earlier this season. It did have its humorous moments, though, so it’s worth re-watching again later on, maybe post-season. Still, here’s the highlight reel of the important bits:

1) I love Old Goat-Demon Man, aka Chancellor Lekmet. Yes, of course that’s important! He’s precious! 

I mean look at that face!! He’s adorable!!!

And he has GREAT reaction faces!!!

Ha ha, that’s one for the scrapbook!

2) Crystal Guy is entertaining, especially his relationship with Old Goat-Demon Man. I’m sort of glad they fleshed out his character more, even if it does show off a terrible flaw. I mean, really, man??? You just go with your GUT for who’s evil?! 

He really takes care of the Chancellor, though. :)

3) WAS THAT ECLIPSA??? UP THERE??? IN THE CORNER OF THE SHOT OF CRYSTALLIZED PEOPLE?????? 

IT IS. THAT’S HER. OR A REALLY REALLY GOOD COSPLAYER. 

#FreeEclipsa2017

4) Now we know where Glossaryk got his head-crystal from! And he still wears it! 

5) Glossaryk is apparently the most powerful magic being in the universe. 

6) Star got a crystal of her own! That….houses a potentially evil person inside… 

That’ll probably come back later. I’m looking forward to that.

Overall - 6/10. Slow moving, but it had some good moments and a bit of character reveals. (And…Eclipsa…encased in crystal…?!) Also, it was just plain charming to see Star and Crystal Man Rhombulus have tea and chit-chat together:

That’s just darling.

The Hard Way:

This is a Ludo episode! I’ve grown really attached to the little guy over the course of the season, if you couldn’t tell. He’s grown a lot, and I LOVED “Ludo In The Wild”, so I’m hoping for more character development, humor, and insightful talk of the Queen of my heart Darkness, Eclipsa! We don’t even know what Eclipsa’s voice is like, let alone seen her in any other way but a badass portrait with her handsome monster!husband, but I consider her a favorite character already. Y’know, if you didn’t already guess that from my other Star Watch posts.

Either way, our little birb Ludo is going to learn some magic today! Try hard, Ludo! (･ω´-ゞ)^☆

Sweet castle, bro. I wonder how old it is...?

I really like how Ludo actively wants to work hard to get what he wants (even if he does say he doesn’t really know what he wants later). That’s serious character development! :3c (I saw someone mention that he’s definitely  a masochist now due to this scene; yeah i could buy that tbh but let’s not delve into that corner when clearly he just wants to earn his power here ok)

Tell me you could say no to that face. Go on.

Also, we learn that Ludo’s one out of fifty kids and had no attention from individual parents. In his words, everything he’s learned “[he’s] learned dirty” and he wants guidance. That explains partly why he listens to the wand’s every direction, rather than doing things his own way like Star. Of course, his lack of imagination also explains it, but there you go.

I like how Glossaryk just goes ahead and starts teaching him from the top. He does truly act as Ludo’s guide to magic, rather than rejecting him outright or getting him to make a fool of himself instead. Glossaryk works the definition of True Neutral.

But actually, it’s interesting that it took Ludo a couple of tries to get a basic spell correct when he easily zaps the apple into smithereens just by getting mad. He’s clearly got power in there, he just doesn’t know how to control it all. I’m not surprised Ludo managed to learn a spell that Star couldn’t follow the directions for, though. Star’s amazing at inventing her own stuff, and she’s clearly powerful, but she’s terrible at following orders and thinking in any other way but her own.

Look at that boy’s self esteem rise!!! ;w; Yes, I am proud of you!!!

Good lord, all Ludo wants is validation and affection. He treats Glossaryk as a mentor/parental figure, wanting to genuinely make him proud and receive affection for doing a good job. Ugh, what’s this horrible pain in my heart looking at this little twerp being so happy about it owwwww sendhelp

Uh, anyway, I also like how Glossaryk just continues to work the affectionate-mentor role. Even if he’s reluctant about the “affection” part, he still does it. Whether it’s for his own gain or if he’s compelled to follow the book-holder’s instructions is up in the air for the moment.

Someone please give the affection-starved scaly bird boy a hug!! (;_;)

Aaand now I gotta address what everybody and their grandmother’s talking about: Toffee’s in the wand and has been giving Ludo instructions all along.

I’m honestly not surprised about that part. It was either going to be Toffee or Eclipsa (even if she’s stuck in crystal, she can potentially astro-project ok). Admittedly, I preferred thinking it was Eclipsa, because with her sympathy and love for monsters it would make sense to have her guide Ludo. Toffee makes sense too, but we know his end goal is pretty much improving the world for monsters by collapsing Mewni’s social barriers, by either violent or non-violent means, and as we’ve seen him use simple care and gentle instruction to get people to do what he wants and side with him, he comes off as the more manipulative one. Despite having the same end goal and methods, the big difference between them is that Eclipsa would be more likely to not want to put Ludo in complete mortal danger; Toffee is the sort of person that doesn’t mind sacrificing things, be it his body or someone else’s, whether it’s for the greater good or not.

On that note: TOFFEE GET THE FUCK OUT OF LUDO’S BODY THIS INSTANT YOU RIDICULOUS BIPEDAL LIZARD! DON’T MAKE ME PUNCH IT OUT YOU MANIPULATIVE PIECE OF SHIT!!!

What’s so sad about all of it is that Ludo treats the wand’s voice (Toffee) like a friend. He follows it’s advice to the tee, sure, but he takes care of it and talks to it like it’s a person. He doesn’t even know it’s really Toffee in there. Toffee is literally just using him as a means to an end...again.

But on another note, there was definitely something SUPER fascinating about Toffee instantly being able to possess Ludo. Considering Toffee’s immortality, I think he really is Eclipsa’s son. (Or grandson!) To be able to channel her kind of “tainted” magic so quickly might mean that they’re blood-related.

Though admittedly, even Marco, a non-magical person, was able to channel it after a while. I suppose the best way I can explain it is that the more weak-willed you are, the easier you are to taint. Star’s pretty independent, so of course it didn’t affect her; Marco’s less so, so eventually he succumbed (we don’t know the exact time-frame); and we now know Ludo legitimately wants and needs guidance through things, so he’s a much easier target. It doesn’t exactly explain how Toffee possessed Ludo, considering Marco didn’t get possessed by Star’s wand, but there are some mysteries that take time to solve, of course.

And naturally, the exchange between Toffee and Glossaryk is VERY interesting:

Toffee:  “Time to give it up old man. You’ll never get him on your side.”

Glossaryk:  “But I don’t have a side.”

Again, Glossaryk is showing his True Neutral colors. Considering he taught Queen Eclipsa, it’s no surprise he’s okay with monsters, and through this simple expression he seems okay with the idea of monsters living side-by-side with Mewni rather than being very repressed social outcasts. He’s not for the absolute rule by Mewni folk, and he’s not for the absolute rule by Monsters. He seems to really just want to teach his magical skills to whoever gets the book. Of course, considering he’s the most powerful magic-user in the whole universe, if he really didn’t like something he could put a stop to it.

Verdict - easy 10/10. Definite one for a rewatch in terms of humor and character development (despite the lack of Eclipsa talk), so I rank it high! I doubt the possession is permanent, so this probably isn’t the last time we see Ludo, let alone Toffee-possessed!Ludo. I REALLY hope we get more Ludo-Glossaryk interactions. Ludo might not have Star’s powerful imaginative magic, but he’s still got skills and an eagerness to learn (even if he does get one-tracked).

[realrhythmskrp]

DISPATCH, 03/30/17: Mirage Media has officially released information about leader and main rapper, Yong Seongkyeo, also known as Kyeo, on G-ZER0’s official website! Kyeo is a ‘93 liner and has been beloved by fans since his debut in 2013. Find out more about Kyeo below!

I, YONG SEONGKYEO, have read and understand the terms and conditions as my position of LEADER AND LEAD RAPPER of G-ZER0 and agree to honor the standards that are to be expected of me as an employee of MIRAGE.

OOC INFORMATION

Preferred name: Ossy Pronouns: they/them Timezone: EST Other muses: —

IC INFORMATION

Faceclaim: Park Jiwoo aka Jinjin of ASTRO

Name: Yong Seongkyeo Stage name (if applicable): Kyeo

Idol concept: He is regarded as having some of the best raps in the industry, even having earned a few nicknames from fans due to this. There are rumors that he was offered/is currently being offered a solo rap career under Prime. He was a temporary host for television host 2.

…and it is quite true, because Kyeo has been known to have written raps for many other groups as well as himself and his own group. His fans adore this about him and support him every step of the way. Kyeo does enjoy it, though, because it makes him feel better about himself as a songwriter/rapper. He is always desperate to please not only his fans but other groups and his own. He tries to look prideful but Kyeo does not have a big ego. So while he looks like he can do anything to his fans, he actually does struggle a lot on the inside and with himself when it comes to all the work he has to do. His public image is so much more pure than his private life, as he prefers not to worry his fans and even his groupmates. There is nothing worse than having the attention all shifted onto him. This is why Kyeo always works hard for everyone.

Birth date and age: Oct. 26th, 1993; age 23 Company name: Mirage Group Name (if applicable): G-ZER0 Group Position (if applicable): Leader/Lead rapper

Strengths: Kyeo’s strengths include his rapping and songwriting skills. He is also very good at putting forth a lot of energy to keep his group running and overall is a strong support as the leader of his group. Weaknesses: While he does sing and dance, he is not as great as his groupmates, especially when it comes to dancing. He is always one of the last ones to learn all the moves and has to work harder because of this. It is also very easy for Kyeo to become disorganized and overworked.

Positive traits: ambitious, sympathetic, attentive Negative traits: introverted, vulgar, quiet

PERSONAL HISTORY: tw: homophobia

When your family is broke as hell, all you ever want is for them to get by, right? That’s what Kyeo really wanted, but somehow it never really seemed to be enough. With a booming economy and mother out of work, there wasn’t much that him and his older brother could do until they got into high school.

Kyeo was born into a family of three; a mom, dad, and older brother by 3 years. From his birth to when he was about ten years old, things were just great between the family. His mom and dad worked 9 to 5 jobs that had them up in the morning for breakfast and home at night for dinner as well as his brother helping Kyeo with his homework almost every night he had some. They were like a blissful, fairy tail family–

And then his mom lost her job. He was eleven and it seemed that it was the only thing she really cared about. It was also when his father was promoted, but the promotion was anything but good for the family. Kyeo found his father working long hours, spending all his time at home in bed either drinking, watching television, or sleeping away so that he could get up and do the same routine all over again the next day. It was painful to see, that and the fact this his mom did what seemed like a complete 360 degree twist of her life. She was more harsh, more rude, and definitely a lot more strict on her boys.

Upon entering high school at the age of fifteen, Kyeo had a factory job in the city to which he reported to almost every day after school. They were nice to him and they barely let him work past sunset every day in order to send him home to have dinner and do his homework. But it just caused more drama between him and his mom– and not to mention his brother, who was out of high school by then, slaved his way through a job he hated too. It hurt him so much, honestly, seeing his whole family fall apart and he was only fifteen.

But it all changed when he found out he was gay. Being gay is something you don’t like to talk about with your family that often and Kyeo never did, at least, until he brought a boy home from school that he had recently started dating. He was head over heels for the boy; he found peace and heaven in him and the two of them clicked so well despite all the people at school who bullied them to no end. Somehow he felt he could have the shittiest day and wake up remembering he had someone like that in his life and everything would be okay– but that was just a mistake.

The mistake he made was bringing him home. His mom went absolutely nuts. In front of the other fifteen year old’s eyes, his mother beat Kyeo, not with her fists, but with anything she could find - spoons, pans, baking sheets… anything, and it scared the absolute shit out of both of the little kids, so much that Kyeo found himself losing the one boy he felt he could trust and lean on in any situation. He blamed his mom; no, he blamed his whole fucking family for turning into this shitty example of how poverty forces a wedge between the once beautiful relationships they had.

His mom hated his sexuality. His mom hated him and everytime he would make a snide remark about not being interested in a girl that someone showed him, Kyeo found himself being battered, so battered that he became spooked by the littlest brief noises that sounded like the beating of a boy who only wanted his mom to love him. He still gets twitchy hearing things like that, even after he had escaped that life when he was seventeen. He was sick and tired of his mom shitting on his interest in men and and then literally beating him up for it, until he practically bled sometimes. Kyeo had enough.

It was no secret that the boy had a passion for music, and he had used this as an outlet to try and cope with the way his family treated him. With his misfit poems and his desire to do something more, he moved out, and he found himself interning at what was then a small company within his city, RHYTHMS, and as their popularity grew, so did Kyeo’s career in songwriting. He soon grew tired of watching everyone take credit for his work and decided on auditioning himself. It was only to make himself proud and more known to the public. And, to his surprise, he made it into RHYTHMS upcoming group, G-ZER0 at the age of 17.

As a trainee, he pushed himself to every limit every day. He tried to avoid all of his groupmates in G-ZER0 for the simple fact that he didn’t want them to know who he really was, but that was before he found out he was going to be the leader of them all. (Kyeo would never tell anyone how much he cried that night after figuring it out because he was so happy and proud of himself, yet so distraught and unaware of what to make of it all.) From that point on, he lightened up, showing that he could take that responsibility and prove to people he was worth it. There was just one problem– they still didn’t know he was broke and gay.

…and hopefully they would never know. He debuted with the group at the age of 20, shining as their songwriter, leader, and lead rapper. God, he’s so proud of himself but all he can think about sometimes is if his mother knows he’s out here living a dream he never thought he had. He’s so blessed and so thankful that it feels so sinful to think it’s not worth it if his mom doesn’t notice…

So he tries not to, but damn, it still hurts.

Nowadays he finds himself doing all he can to support his group. He is 23 and too old for being the emotional child he was when the group had debuted. Many fans believe he has grown as a person with the position at stake, and Kyeo truly believes it too. He finds himself thankful for his career and the way it has shaped him, because he has opened up a bit more, become more responsible, and also found that he can appreciate life without constantly looking over his shoulder for the face that he used to think judge him. He cherishes not only his fans but his group mates, as they are his closest and the most important people in his life. He has achieved not only being the leader one of the most popular boy groups of all time, but also being a soloist on the side, having released a mixtape and some singles. Kyeo is still working towards his goals, too, even though he has already achieved them, because he always believes that the sky’s the limit.