me having my one social interaction a week and spending the next week overthinking and overanalysing it and the other persons perception of me
the other person having that one social interaction amongst many during their week and moving on like a normal person
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I think some people genuinely don't grasp the concept of "sensory issues" when it comes to things like food.
A food sensory issue is not "I don't want to eat that because it isn't my preferred flavor"
A food sensory issue is "something about the taste/texture/smell of this is incompatible with my brain and it makes me gag and if you try to force that into me I will choke on it and/or throw up"
A food sensory issue is "something set me off and now I can't eat for hours because I feel sick to my stomach and there isn't a way to fix that especially if the sensory trigger is lingering like a smell"
A food sensory issue is "you might as well have asked me to eat a bowl full of rocks because this is about as edible to me, no matter how much I wish that weren't the case"
A food sensory issue is "I haven't eaten anything decent in 3 days because I haven't had a chance to go to the store and I don't have anything left I'm physically capable of eating"
A food sensory issue is "I'm super fucking hungry but I took one bite and no matter how hard I tried to eat it I automatically gagged it back out because my body completely rejects it because of the taste/texture/smell"
A food sensory issue is "struggling to maintain a passable diet so you don't have a bunch of deficiencies because what you can eat is restricted"
Quite frankly, food sensory issues should really be treated similarly to food allergies in that you cannot safely try to trick or force a person to eat them.
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Full stop I think if you go out of your way to by definition gaslight and beat around the bush with someone you know is low functioning in the skull and has been very forthcoming about being a system with no information despite being asked again and again about strange treatment while you're this old then you should dropbox your will and kick the chair because clearly theres no fixing that one.
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great, just found out my constant efforts to combat my ADHD are not working and I'm still accidentally hurting the people I care about. I hate it here. I just don't want to hurt people why is that so hard...
I thought I was doing such a good job, I'm constantly trying to make sure I'm responding to people adequately because I've been yelled at so much over it and I really want to make people feel valued and make sure they know I'm giving them my attention. I work so hard to not interrupt others during conversation, I try so hard to maintain attention to conversations, I try so hard to pay attention to my surroundings so that I don't ignore friends, I try so hard to push past rejection sensitivity so that I can help people - but apparently it's all useless
I guess I'd rather know. I'll still keep trying. It just really hurts
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Hate how I didn't even think until now abt how zelda was alone as a dragon for so many years until the present. I wonder way too much abt how everything was for her and esp now as a dragon like mineru did say you lose yourself completely iirc but reg the tears shed do I believe it's not fully true. Maybe depends how strong your spirit is. Like yeah she can't really communicate well anymore but she recognizes us and her eyes. Her eyes I still can't get over them they're so full of emotion that's absolutely her eyes. Like. You're still inside that dragon when you become one if you try your best to remember is what I think (or want to believe). It's 5am I am not going to try to explain my already barely coherent thoughts better. Too much possibilities where I think some border on denial. I am a fluff not angst person. Anyways I wonder how long all those years felt what do you do as a dragon did the sages try talking to her dragon form or like anything-
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It's so damn difficult to accept that some things are beyond my control and that even if I made a mistake, if I wasn't given the chance to be made aware of and fix that mistake, then there's no point in me self-flagellating over it. If something about me, or my friendship, wasn't good enough for someone else or it was somehow actively harmful to them despite my best attempts to be supportive and considerate of their needs and to communicate, and I wasn't given the opportunity to rectify that, then there's no damn point in me beating myself up over it.
It feels, of course, like if I just figure out exactly what I did wrong then I can somehow fix it - but I can't. I have to make my peace with that.
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hrmm considering upping my prices for any fullbody art wayyyyyy way up bc of how hard they r for me to finish especially with characters im unfamiliar w/ drawing (aka most comms)
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