#whats their fucking ship name i need someone to tell me i dont know i just call them So Fucking Important To Me and My Everything

[salemontrial]

Was it casual when i called you my god-given solace.

[exyrpf]

Exyblr Dashboard Simulator based on what I personally see on sportsblr:

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👑 girlbossriko follow

how many bro jobs do you think it took before riko moriyama and kevin day realized that uh.....maybe this wasn't just a bro thing

👢exyinaphonebooth follow

how many times do they have to come out and say they're like brothers before you freakos stop shipping them

👑 girlbossriko follow

????? do i know u

#it's a tumblr post about two exy players that you'lll never meet in your life it really isn't that deep

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💃fox-me-up follow

ngl that newest fox is kinda 👀

#psu lb #exy lb

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👨🏻‍❤️‍💋‍👨🏻 talk-exy-to-me

The NARRATIVE that kevin day and neil josten have........son of exy! scouting the rookie-est of rookies from fuck knows arizona........no listen you dont GET IT winning is EVERYTHING TO KEVIN and he would risk it on the foxes? And NEIL? who has only played exy for a year! NEIL Gets his attention!!!!! And hes good and he's getting better every game and he keeps bitching about kevin's ex on live tv BUT WAIT!???? NOT QUITE WHAT YOU EXPECT! Bc then neil shows up with a number on his cheek BECAUSE WELL it turns out they've known each other since they were KIDS! how is everyone not insane w me THEY'RE LITERALLY PERFECT

#where r my fellow njkd truthers #how r u all not here with me this isnt even the start #kevneil #210 #psu #njkd

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☀️ usctrojanny

every smiley blonde striker (jeremy knox) needs a brunette wet cat emotional support backliner (jean moreau)

#jerejean #usc trojans #i'm just saying 🤷‍♀️

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👸🏻 kevindazed follow

did he just......

👸🏻 kevindazed follow

guys please tell me i'm not insane

👸🏻 kevindazed follow

HE'S NEVER BEEN????? SKIIING???? KEVIN WHAT DOES THAT MEAN ?????? KEVIN PLEASE

#i i'm going insane i will literally die if someone doesn't explain this to me HE'S NEVER BEEN SKIING?!!!!

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🧚 goalie-stan

oh....i'm feeling so weak......it'd sure be nice to have a big strong goalie (renee walker) hold me up (renee if you're free on tuesday i am also free on tuesday.........on tuesday this tuesday, any tuesday?)

#literally passing out just thinking about her holding me don't call don't text i'm busy

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🌄 softkevinday follow

do u think if u offered kevin day essential oils to heal his hand he'd beat you to death

#it'd be hard for him bc he only has one hand but he could probably do it #legally this is a joke don't do this

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🗣️ jeremyknoxes follow

feeling normal

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📜 realexyblog

actually exy rpf is fine, i asked kayleigh day herself and she told me it was fine

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🐋 sexyexy

'exy is a stupid name for a sport' have you considered that a) i don't care and b) it's named that solely so i can make sex jokes about it

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🏳️‍🌈 gay4stickball follow

is he, ya know *mimes jerking off* an ncaa exy player

#i don't believe that straight exy players exist

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🙈 ittybittyminny follow

Andrew Minyard!!!!!!! 🥰🥰 short king!!!!🤏🤏😋😋 Awwwwwwww the scrunkly!!!!! 🤗🤗🤗 My boinky boy!!!!!🥺🥺 Crinkly doo,,,,shronkle scrimblo......🥺🥺🥺 rb if you'd scrunkle!!!!!!! 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺

📖 sapphic-exy follow

he literally killed someone

🙈 ittybittyminny follow

And? God forbid women do anything

#also no proof he did that #yeah there's proof his twin bro killed someone but that's not the same bc theyre different people #almost killing someone doesnt count

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���‍⬛ edgarallenexy

got told i'm problematic for liking the ravens? THAT'S LITERALLY MY SCHOOL OH MY GOD

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🌸 softexy

Kevin Day - A Study

#kevin day #psu foxes #palmetto foxes #exy #web weave #poetry #psu foxes #palmetto #edgar allen

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[un1ver53]

Jealous much? - DUKE DENNIS ONESHOT

Angst with fluff 🖤🤞🏽

IF YOU DONT LIKE SMUT THEN YOU MIGHT NOT WANNA READ - it doesn’t have smut but it’s very close to 🤗🤗

1500+ words

••••

You, Y/N Y/L/N is a famous pop star with 9 Grammys under your belt and you couldn’t have done it without your fans of course. You adore your fans a lot since they’ve got you to the place where you are now. Sold out arenas, number one albums in the world, merchandise always needing a restock, your makeup line being one of the most spoken and initiative brands there is. You couldn’t have done it without them; so when your babies keep pestering you to do a collab with a certain someone then you listen. However, you just wished it wasn’t the rapper and singer called Future.

Some people mistake Duke for Future sometimes and as a joke, his fans decide to make fan accounts and ships between you and Future, even though you have been dating Duke for 2 years and you have never seen or interacted with Future. Duke used to find the jokes funny and light-hearted until you made a small little one.

Flashback

You’re sitting on Duke's lap, his arms wrapped around you as his big hands occasionally tightly squeeze your thighs. You start giggling as the fans pipe up again of the never-ending ship of you and the singer/rapper Future. Your boyfriend sighs laughing lightly until you say, “FINE you got me... I’m only with Duke because he’s the closest looking to Futu-”

“N***A what did you just say right now?!” Duke exclaims side eyeing you, not hearing the jokey tone in your voice.

“Baby I was jok-”

“Nah don’t give me that crap, you being serious right now ma? Nah n***a the fuck is this?” Duke pauses the stream abruptly and looks at you dead seriously.

“Baby please just calm down,” you say in a peaceful tone reaching out to hold his hands, which he accepts and lets you speak, “I was only joking since people are saying that, cmon baby you really think I would do that?”

Duke sighs and lets his head rest on your shoulder and you start playing with his dreads. “I’m so sorry mamas, I don’t know what happened. I just don’t want to think about you being with another guy or thinking of being with another guy.”

“It’s okay baby, I promise I never think about other guys in our relationship,”

You put out your small pinky finger for him to interlace it with his large dark one, he smiles and holds your pinky tightly pulling you closer to then interlace your lips together. You moan quietly as his grills bite your lip teasingly and his hands start to go up further up your dress shirt (his normal-sized shirt for him). You squeal feeling his cold hand on your hip and look away shyly then see the stream is still paused and the fans are confused but also somewhat worried. You smile and gesture for him to bring back the live and he does, returning the smile with his shiny grills. The fans are then reassured that everything is okay and not many jokes about the rapper who shall not be named was mentioned again.

Flashback ended

You’re in your personal recording studio with your legs propped on the expensive equipment as you slowly turn yourself side to side in your white wheely chair to wonder what to do. You read the lyrics again and listened to the demos of your verses repeatedly again, not knowing if you should bring the rapper who shall not be named onto the song and make a hit.

Contemplating quietly, you didn’t notice the door opening and your boyfriend but also the rest of the AMP members stroll in. Kai screams “WHAT'S UP SISTER!”

You slightly jump, nearly knocking your iced coffee onto the very expensive equipment, which you could easily buy again but that’s too much effort for you and your team to set up again.

“KAI YOU BITCH! Don’t scare me like that!”

He laughs along with the others and he starts apologising. You smile, and give everyone your hugs until you stop at Duke, he embraces you tightly kissing your lips and then asking, “Are you alright mamas? I can tell something is up?”

Duke always knew when something was bothering you, or if you just weren’t okay. You could fool anyone except him. You sigh and sit back on your white spinny chair in front of the AMP members and start saying the truth. You might as well tell all of them at the same time as Duke.

“Well you know how I’m a singer?”

Everyone nods confusingly but then you continue “Well sometimes a singer needs to collaborate with other singers to make really good songs, right?”

They all collectively nod again, “Girl where is this going?” Fanum asks.

“Just wait stupid,” you sigh looking down at your hands and then speaking ���Well I’ve been making new songs and I’ve made a song, a love song which needs to be a collab with a male singer.”

After that statement, all the males could see where this was going and look between you and Duke wondering if they should pipe up or not.

“Well, do you know who it’s going to be?” Duke asks sternly.

“Well… the producers are all saying that there’s only one person who should do it and the fans have also sai-”

“Fine, I’ll do it n***a!” Kai exclaims exasperated getting up to shake your hand.

Everyone starts laughing, the tension being disrupted through the air and is finally gone because of Kai’s stupidity. However, one person wasn’t laughing, Duke.

“N***A SHE AINT ON ABOUT YOU! She’s probably on about Future. Am I right?” Duke says looking straight at you.

You nod slightly not knowing what to do. He sighs getting up and walking around not knowing how to feel. “Let me hear the song,”

You nod and put it on after telling them that you’ve only recorded with your voice and no one else’s. After the grand reveal of the song, everyone is still shocked at how good your voice is and starts hyping you up. You smile proudly but look around and see your boyfriend just sitting on the sofa looking at the ground. You sigh not knowing what to do, but the saviour Davis always does. He silently starts to make everyone go out of the room before giving you a smile and shutting the door behind him, giving you and Duke privacy.

“Listen baby I-”

“Did you write the song? WHO is it about? It’s about that n***a Future ain’t it?” Angrily, Duke says frustrated and looks up at you.

“Yes. I wrote the song and guess what it’s actually not about Future. I can’t believe you think I would do that?! Do you think I’m some type of whore that would go around making love songs about other people than her boyfriend? BECAUSE GUESS WHAT. IM NOT. I MAKE A LOVE SONG ABOUT MY BOYFRIEND BUT NO MY BOYFRIEND HAS TO THINK ITS-”

Your rant was abruptly ended when Duke grabbed your neck and then started the kiss your lips, both of your tongues finding each other and dancing together as if they were salsa partners. You start to moan as your knees buckle, losing strength. Duke grabs your plump ass, slapping it before lifting you up and dropping you on top of the sofa. He gets on top of you kissing your lips then slowly starts to make his way down to your neck and collarbones, giving you love bites and dark deep hickeys. You continue to moan loudly as being in a recording studio meant that no one could hear you, even if they were pressed up against the door.

You were about to continue then a knock at the door stops you both in your tracks, “ARE YALL DONE ARGUING OR FUCKING?” you hear from the other side of the door.

You laugh and get up, and start fixing your hair combing it with your fingers to try and get rid of the crazy sexed-up hair knowing that if you could have gone all the way then you would defo have to hide the hair as it would’ve been everywhere. Duke smiles at you and hugs you tightly before saying, “I’m sorry for getting angry, I just don’t want you to be with another man. I love the song so much thank you for writing it about me.”

“Jealous much huh? Don’t worry the only love songs I’m singing and writing are about you,” You tease before getting interrupted by the rest of the AMP members intruding into the studio.

“SEE they aren’t fucking!” Chris says at Agent but Angent could see something that his best mate couldn’t.

“N***a look at Y/N’s neck then speak to me.”

You look confused whilst Duke looks down and starts laughing. You turn around to look into a mirror and see all the dark hickeys Duke left.

“DUKE, AGENT, EVERYONE SHUT THE FUCK UP!” You exclaim trying to hide them with your hands.

•••

You got to do the song with Future after all, and let’s just say the song was an instant hit and you may have gotten a few awards for it. Duke was the proudest boyfriend in the world and wishes he could’ve put his jealousy aside in the earlier days, but now he makes up for it by giving you the best nights and mornings wink of your life after you win the awards.

The song I’ve been on about is called ‘Loveeeeeee Song’ By Rihanna ft. Future

[jazzyblusnowflake]

OMG hi…I really like your art and was wondering if you wanna be mutuals??????????? Also tell me about your MD ships :3c

honey we are dating- .....okay yknow what- HI PRETTY & TALENTED LADY- yess i will absolutely love toooo 🙈💕💕💕💕💕

also lets see uhhh okay this is an excuse for me to just... expload-

keep in mind not every ship is meant for all of you so dont badger me about stuff that ISNT CANON or YOU DONT SHIP. contrary to whatever you believe, when somone posts about THEIR ships, nobody wants to hear about you NOT shipping it on THAT EXACT post.

hang in there, this gon be a long one >:p

First off we are starting strong with Nuzi- Biscuitbites obviously thats a given- these two just have too much to be said about why and how they make eachother the best version of eachother, whether they ever became canon or not- they fit like puzzle pieces- they lessen eachothers negative traits by being their for eachother.

next is Vuzi- Violentviolet, they are my favorite kind of enemies to lovers 😔 but its also tragic smh. kinda pissed off at how V always does something good in Uzis favor only when she is LITERALLY PASSED OUT- either in the camp ep on the bus or in Alices lab. like damn ofFUCKINGcourse Uzi wouldnt know she cares about her 😭😭😭

envuzi- Violentbitingbiscuits, i love these goobers with all my heart- they deserve the best 😔💕💕💕💕

envy - [does this poor ship just NOT have an exclusive FINDABLE tag name??? im calling them GoldenMemories...], i like to think that if they were in the manor still, and nothing bad had ever happened, these two would be comforting eachother in the healthiest way possible. V needs someone like N and N is just adorable like that uwu

Next we have JxTessa/Jessa- [calling them Fancyblades cuz why not-] J deserves some closure for the shit shes gone through smhhh 😔, its a tragic yuri of J loving and wanting something she probably already accepted she couldnt have, and even then she gotta deal with Ns ass being the favorite one regardless of how hard she tries to be perfect... sighhh i wanna imagine them in a future where Tessa was spared as the only human and J could save her 😭😭😭😭 Tessa might have loved doing mechanical stuff or wore black to hide grease/oil stains on her clothes from her parents and wore gloves to hide her oily stained hands- i want her to have a scene of wiring drones back to life and saving them and saying something like "hey there, you made it! dont worry, ill take care of you, youre my friend now :3" or something //dies//, also before anyone says it- even if Tessa was a teen in the flashbacks- romance is not exclusive to ADULTS, teens can love eachother without having sexual stuff involved. no she was not their MOTHER figure, she was their FRIEND who liked to fix robots for herself to not be alone in a house where her own parents literally chain her up as punishment. i dont even know why im arguing about this, people headcanon or make aus about characters NOT being dead all the time and if Tessa was alive for as long as J thought she was, Tessa would have been a perfectly fine adult either way. so counting this, yes shes canonically considered an adult when Cyn tries to imitate an adult humans body 🙄 makes as much sense as everything else i guess-

next ones i got is NorixYeva/Neva- Solverlilies- i just think theyre neat 😭😭😭 and once again, like everything else in this franchise- they are tragic yuris 😔 damn liam im finding a pattern over here 🤨 anyway, i like to think they either got closer in the lab experimentations or were already close when they were working as WDs in the campsite area for the humans. obviously canonically they were probably straight or just not into eachother romantically- [Nori either u have the worst taste men or Khan just fucking lost it after you died-] but also on the other handddd.... they have 2 hands and they are robots, i want them to kiss like two barbie dolls and im gonna make them do just that-

DollxLizzy/Dizzy- Bloodypink, wost fucking ship names ever, i cant find shit on them with these tags and it makes me angry >:/ at this point 2/3s of my ships are just tragic yuris smh, Doll did not deserve any of the things handed to her, even if she went about doing some things the wrong way i wish Lizzy didnt just abandon her- but then again, Doll did kinda abuse Lizzys trust and Lizzy got scared of being close to a serial murderer so.... morality calls this a draw? 😭 im crying... i wish someone was there to help Doll... sigh... i like to think Lizzy would have waited for Doll to just come back at some point... oh well, thats why AUs exist :"3 //sobs in the corner//

DollxUzi/Dollzi- Bloodybats, this ship is so underrated to me... they could have been... so much more. but why weren't they? did Yeva abandon ever getting close to Uzi when she was a kid after Nori died? did Uzi and Doll just never play around together as kids when their mothers were so close? were they ever close and something went wrong as they grew older? at worst they could have been like sisters together, and at best maybe more than friends. i just dont know what happened here, like Yeva could have tried to keep an eye on Uzi, maybe Uzi could have found Dolls powers so cool before having them too- i dont know theres literally tons of possibilities- but if Doll deserved to be saved or cared for by anyone, at least one of them should have been Uzi... sigh.

ThadxV- Killingblonde, yall this is... the cutest shit... ever???? like from here on out we kinda go into the more or less crackship territory but these two are adorable- Dumbass yet wholesome jock boy that just wants to keep his queen happy 😔👌👌👌 He and Uzi would have so much to talk about on "crushing on literal murder bots that stabbed and almost ate us" its literally love at first stab smhhh 😫💕

ThadxSam- Smokyjock ???? for some fucking reason??? i dont know what my brain did here man- i just like the trope of someone getting under Thads skin- like pair up the healthy sports loving gym boy with the lazy but wholesome dumbass that does drugs or is always just sleep deprived and Thad is always trying to just... take care of his ass and make him take care of himself but he just WONT SMHHH-

okay some more or less crack ships down here:

ThadxN: it speaks for itself. its too adorable and youll go blind from the light of wholesomeness-

ThadxNxUzi: Uzi will die here from the overwhelming wholesomeness... oh bonus if its just a 4s polycule of ThadxNxUzixV i mean i know im pushing my luck but.... random crackships go brr- V and Uzi will complain but love their dumbass golden puppy partners-

ThadxUzi: i think they could have been close and Thad caring about her as a childhood friend turned crush sounds just too cute for me 😔

LizzyxUzi: another random ass rivals to lovers or some shit idk what this is, Lizzy would pay Uzi to kiss the fuck out of her i dont make the rules-

ThadxLizzy: in some cases where they are NOT headcanoned as siblings or cousins, i think they have a good energy of wholesome jock bf and girly queen cheerleader lol, Thad is just a good bf eitherway-

DollxUzixLizzy: the gals would not leave a single second of silence for the small gremlin i swear to God- [Uzi is gay as FUCK for her gfs, absolute girloser unit with her gorgeous but crazy gfs]

okay for the end i have some characters that arent ships but i wish they could have become closer as friends or work out their issues...

J and N- too much abuse and toxicity here, i wish they could talk together more and see they have a lot of things in common- maybe a full line of dialogue from J without threatning N in every sense of the manner would be nice for a change =_=

Doll and V- again, a bit morally ambiguous to ship a character with the murderer of your family, esp when said murderer hasnt expressed regret lmao, but i wish they could at least be friends... Dolls disdain for the murder drones pushed her to end up the way she did. maybe if she didnt do it alone she would have been alive by now. so i like to think what would have happened if she and V could have made up- not necessarily Doll forgiving her- but at least having the space to grow and understand why they did they things that happened.

Cyn and literally ANYONE- i want the solver to be SEPARATE from Cyn- i wish Cyn would have still existed somewhere down there and was savable- i wish this poor child AI had a happy ending to her by connecting with the others as ACTUAL siblings... goddamnit 😔

aaaand thats it for this fine ass day 🫡 yall are welcome to ask about any of these- boy the tags are gonna be.... a lot.

[t8oo]

By all accounts the lupin fandom has always prided itself as a drama free ship war free open to polyamory and wildly different headcanons fandom. And I can name a few people that have worked hard to keep this place very friendly. And I really started in this fandom in a friendly place. I even managed to make friends that Liked Luzeni maybe even just as much as me. I was ecstasic. I really loved those people so much, I talked to them daily. Some of them I respected so much for their craft. Great.

Id always been upfront and very clear that they were befriending someone who was fucked in the head. And i dont mean seasonal depression type I mean Bipolar and Bpd and all the symptoms it entails. Im not even going to mention the upbringing and the life ive had. All of it was a complete and violently abusive catastrophy.

Last year I exhibited symptoms that were intense. TOXIC. It didnt mean that I was toxic to my friend, because I was rational enough to know about boundaries. I was at the end of my rope. For undisclosed reasons I had to be interned. Great. During the ultimate time that lead me to become crazy, not a single person i thought was my friend gave me a hand. I received a message from one friend while I was litteraly perched on the windowsill about to jump telling me about their life. Not asking abt me. I sent some Hey thats cool but im about to kill myself and they didnt reply. Days after I was interned they told me that my message triggered them so they had to have an emergency meeting with their psychiatrist. Cool. Nothing abt me still. Sorry ? Fallout 1

During yhat whole shitstorm and despite everything a friend became my like. favorite person in bpd terms. Just really fucking embarassing shit really. I tried to prevent it, i tried to pull out not to make it worse, which not only was making it worse but was making it toxic. I aparently blew out, which of course my memory conveniently forgot. I said something ahout their partner. They never explained what. Again, after internment I apologized. They told me they needed time. They bsolutely deserved it. I was probably horrible to warrant that reaction. I might even have been toxic. Again, I do not remember what I even said. Im not a demonic entity it couldnt have been like I desacrated them and insulted them beyond repair. Even in my anger I have always been limited. But all i can do is speculate. They never explained, just took my apology. And then They never came back. That friend I liked so much that despite everything I did to control myself became a person i liked beyond wat was normal. We have had so much fun. Not enough to mend bridges or explained anything. Fallout 2

During that blow out one friend meddled, asking that other friend for information ? I asked to pass along a message to friend B. which friend A refused. Like it was not their business, even tho they were clearly invested in the business enough to talk to both of us about it lol. No problem. 4 days ago thou i confronted a group of friends that were friends As friend, for kicking them out of an rp group for no reason, even bordering on racism. My friend feels hurt about that event, has always hinted at it. it even stopped them from rping, something they did for 12 years. They had no closure and so I tried to bring it to them. Asshole move or empathic ? Thinking back i may have been taking the situation personnaly because i was already on my way out menrally. I dont know. All i know is that four days later, after i talked for hours to that group and the reason why they treated my friend so poorly that they still had scars over it, i was experiencing a mental crisis and that friend refused a request. Great. Fallout 3

The last friend litteraly stood by and said nothing. Not before the fallout and not after. I dont even know'if that counts as a fallout. This girl was so cute, so fun, so talented, so FUNNY. And when it came to a heed she said nothing. No side taking. Neutrality. Okay

At this point I no longer had anyone to talk to I think. I was documenting my attempt and the horrible conditions of the psych ward on twitter for everyone of my "friends" to see. One i particularly loved so much because they genuinely were on the same level of insanity related to luzeni made a tweet about the late hystix, a person i did not know but a lot of the lupin fandom did. A beautiful soul that was always supportive and kind. Everyone was mourning her. It was truly heartbreaking. I hope she is in peace. Our attempts matched in timing, it was actually mindblowing. Mine just fucking failed because of nosy neighbors. I feel so close to her in spirit still. That we both struggled so much that we came to the conclusion that nothing could save us. She did not have the nosy neighbors. That friend mourned her publicly.. on twitter. Ok. Logical, its a depressing, horrible and sad situation all around. All we can do is mourn. Still, it was a friend I was genuinely close to. That never showed the empathy they did to me. Hey dude so im kind of facing the exact same issues but you never reached out ? While my torment was there and documented on twitter because again. I did not fucking know wat was going on. I was in a strict mental ward under a lot of dosage from nurses who refused to give me insulin even thou i was type 1. Friend said that they tweeted at me. No mention of the years and years of discussions we had on discord and me checking up on them everytime they pulled out for severe family matters and i was genuinely concerned. Nope they aparently tweeted something at me. Okay. Thank you for the concern. Your investment really shows. Fallout 4

after that I stopped friends all together. The fact that friends I was talking nigh on everyday to each revealed their lack of concern for me during an extreme mental health crisis was abyssmal to say the least.

Fallout 5 came with Sheen. I was managing a charity zine for Palestine, and the lack of investment from so many artists brought me to the edge. I took it out on Sheen in the softest way possible. I told them I was disapointed in their piece and that it looked low effory. Sheen, a person I had knwon for the entirety of my investment in the lupin fandom, decided that an offense was enough to block me and never speak again. Once again i was on the verge of yet another blow out. And it happened. Lol. Its just so funny in retrospect that everytime I start acting weird alluding to a breakdown people shun me out despite, you know. me being clear abt my medical record. I realized that I was rude to Sheen and it was uncalled for. Apologized publicly not in the attempt that Sheen sees it but just so that everyone knows that if they hear abt the story, at least they know its all been my fault. Online friendships are so cool because it just takes the block button to burn bridges without coming back. With no chance of mending or at least a genuine apology. so Fallout 5

Is there a reason that all of these issues happened within one fandom ? I do think so. Unless i am incredibly unlucky. Or an abusive piece of shit unbeknownst to me. I think that the lupin fandom is surface level niceties. If they dont like you you will know. It will be passive but you will be muted and eventually just ostracized. You will not be invited in fandom events, or group discussions. It did not help that my mental health was constantly deteriorating and I started developping a persecution complex, thinking that people were making secret discords where they were telling others to avoid me or something. Ive endured all of this for one thing. One Humiliating thing : i love luzeni. I love it so much I want a tatto of it. I love it so much that after years before sleep I pick a random fic and then imagine their discussions. I love their dynamic so much. I love their romance I love how fucking inhinged they are i love that they hurt and love each other the same, i love that they cant live without the other, that they genuinely complete each other in a really ugly but complete patchwork of mental illness and really elaborate kinks.

I gave up thou. Another depression, I blew out, attempted again with the window, got caught and sent to the hospital. It pulled me back from the fandom. I realized i was allocating so much of my thoughts to it and how I could be better perceived, how I could make friends again to talk about the fictional thing i loved the most in the world. And I realized that in giving up and keeping to myself, that I could be more stable. That the damage was done and I cant really enjoy this fandom anymore, but Im still attached to the hip to luzeni and so in the words of a really brilliant man... Nah... Ill do my own thing.

U might be wondering why the hell is this bitch airing their laundry publicly. Its therapeutic. You dont have to read or care. If those friends see it, and make a comment of their own about how the events did NOT happen like I told, I would love to hear how they perceived it. I do not give my friendship freely and easily and these people have done profound damage to my abilty to trust. And most of all, I never had any closure. I kept rethinking, blaming them, then myself, then miscommunication, then them and then myself again. To this day I dont know why all of this happend. Did I act like an unfathomable monster, or did my friend simply not give a shit enough to help me through this. I dont fucking know and I cant deny either options. Maybe I am talking through a completely selfish wrapped sens of perception that is not to be trusted. I wouldnt be surprised. I have a very hard time relying on my own brain lately. My health is deteriorating very fast, and shit is getting worse.

The second reason is that I am going to be interned for psychiatric issues for the next 3 months. For the first time in my life I think Ill finally get all the professional support i need, available and close. Im not going to be investing any time in the fandom, if simply talking to the psychiatrist abt this catastrophic strings of fallouts. I might be posting some luzenis, but frankly i doubt it. I only make fanart when I am happy, or sad enough but still capable. Im neither right now. You are not entitled to any of these informations, but I just wanted to write them out of my mind because I have a LOT of baggage to go on through and this is an extra bag I dont need so im throwing it out.

You cannot gauge an entire fandom from your perspective, the same way you cannot gauge an entire userbase. No, tiktokers are not the worst people in humanity. Neither are reddit users. Being on tumblr is cool, but it doesnt make u better than being on twitter. And so this is only my opinion of the lupin fandom. I met some amazing persons that i wish the best for, for ever and ever, but in all the niceties and welcoming you might see, I dont think that extends to a person with mental illnesses that are villified, or out of their control. I can fairly say that my experience was disapointing, and I dont intend to rekindle anything. Ill just be on the fringe maintaining the spirit of luzeni alive because fuck you monkey punch these are my characters now by law.

If you read until this bro get a life. Also im joking, youv given me more consideration than most people i met have. If your take after this is that I am deranged, then youv read right.

Thank you for reading. This blog has always been a pleasure to post on, even my most cringe and embarassing shippy stuff. Ive been met with nothint but support, and I truly enjoy being here because of you. I hope this isnt a 3+ month long goodbye. I hope I draw my lovers again. But I cant guarantee anything. I wish you all health most of all, and love and compassion.

[my-castles-crumbling]

oh my GOD the weirdest thing just happened to me and I NEED ur advice.

So basically, I have this friendship group of like eleven annoying idiots (love ‘em all), and me.

Two of them and me r in the marauders fandom. We’re all 16 btw, just finished GCSEs!!!!!!!!! This is THE summer!!!!!

Anyways, we have ONE couple in our friendship group (that gives rosekiller vibes ngl) and a few others are dating people but not from inside the group (not much group-cest).

So like yesterday, we were all hanging out at one of our houses and I turn to my best mate in the group (who’s also a marauder girlie) and say “isn’t it so weird that our friendship group doesn’t have a wolfstar ship.” cause like ngl, we do give marauder era friendship vibes.

AND EVERYONES GOES SILENT???????? Like people were halfway thru words and they SHUT up. They always ignore us when we talk abt the marauders.  

So I turn to everyone and go “what’s with the silence, half of u don’t even know what wolfstar is.”

And one of them goes “we might not know shit about harry potter but someone’s definitely mentioned wolfstar a few times”. 

AND SHE LOOKS AT ONE OF OUR FRIENDS.

I assume I shouldn’t use her real name her so imma just call her Clara (she loves TS Clara Bow song so-).

Clara blushes REAL red and looks down and whispers for the person who said that to shut up.

So I say “Hang on, I thought we weren’t allowed to blab abt the marauders after *my best mate* and *another person in the group* argued over who hated JKR the most? For three hours.”

And the girl from before who apparently knows what wolfstar is says “Yeah- except when we’re watching wolfstar happen, of course we have to know what it is.”

HUH,

So I furrow my eyes brows at her and she goes “you know” which I DONT.

And then my best mate rolls her eyes and says “we do have a wolfstar in this friendship group dumbass.” 

LIKE WHO OKAY? 

Anyway, we sorta moved on. And when I tried to hound my best mate later that night she wouldn’t tell me shit. She just kept saying “no. you know all the ships in our friendship group. we aren’t keeping the wolfstar one from you.”

ANYWAY I went home and THEN it occurred to me that… ME. I could be in the wolfstar ship our friends were talking abt. Otherwise I would KNOW, since I always know.

And there’s only one person they all ship me with in our group, Clara. 

SO I TEXT MY BEST MATE LIKE, WAHT RHE FUCK GIRL YOUVE BEEN SHIPING ME WITH SOMEONE SECRETLY

and she says, she hasn’t been shipping us secretly she’s been shipping us to my face

and so I say, that it wasn’t serious until she compared me to my FAV marauders couple

and so she says, WELL IM GLAD U NOW FEEL ITS SERIOUS 

and so I say, how dare u compare me to remus, I love him but he’s def not me. 

and she says, IM NOT BITCH YOURE SIRIUS

so I say, SIRIUS? 

and she says, SIRIUS!

And I say, girl how? 

And she says, how about the fact that ur family are psychos and u really need to move out. How abt because ur an idiot who can’t see what’s right in front of her? How about your a demi bi queer chaotic mess who can’t recognise what could be the love of your life if she literally kissed you on the cheek which she FUCKING DID

so I say, … that was platonic? 

And she says, I hate you (jk I love u) but no rlly I hate u so much. WHAT RHE FUCK DUDE. 

So I say, wait, u don’t think she has a crush on me do u? 

and she says, I FUCKING HATE U HOW R U THIS DUMB.

(this is all taking place over text in case I hadn’t made that clear).

So i say, JUST CAUSE SHES GAY DOESNT MEAN SHE FANCIES ME.

And she says, NO BUT KISSING UR CHEEK AND ASKING U OUT ON SINGLE DATES AND BEINF SAD WHEN U GET A BF AND SPENDING ALL HER TIME WITH TOU DOES MEAN SHE FANCIES U DUMBASS.

So I say, has she told you? 

And she says, u know I can’t say either way.

So I say, so no. She doesn’t. 

AND RHEN I STOP REPLYING.

But now I think she might. 

Which is awkward. Look i’m not like- straight or anything, but I never get crushes, who has the time to care honestly. 

And I don’t wanna be like, oh my friend who’s a lesbian ObViOuSlY has a crush on ME. I’m not like, Erin in Derry Girls. UGH. 

But in hindsight, she HAS seemed bothered whenever I talk about boyfriends (which isn’t that often cause again, who has the fucking time). 

And she did NOT like my ex. Which was only sort of fair personality wise.

And like yes, technically, we have hung out solo and then she kissed my cheek. But like, we’re just really good friends.

ALSO how dare my best mate compare me to Sirius. Sure my parents are evil but they’re NOT RICH. I mean if you’re gonna be horrific at least be rich right? 

And here’s the thing, if I bring it up and Clara does like me- WHAT DO I SAY

and if I bring it up and she doesn’t, i’m that bitch who assumes she does cause she’s gay.

AND if I don’t and she does like me, am I just being ignorant so it’s easier for me. 

Or if i don’t and she doesn’t like me, will I think there’s some weird air here and she won’t even know what’s going on. 

I HATE being in the unknown.

And like I had known our friends shipped us but they’ve done it for like… three years maybe? Not religiously but as a jk. 

So by this point it’s just background noise. but now they’ve compared us to WOLFSTAR (and know what wolfstar is it seems) now I’m like thinking about this.

MAYBE THATS THEIR PLAN. Maybe it’s just a trick to mess with us more. 

But now I can’t help worrying that when we hang out it’s supposed to be a date. Or that time she kissed me was supposed to be a date and I DIDNT REALISE and just rudely ignored her. 

WHAT IF IVE BEEN A BITCH THIS WHOLE TIME? 

Also like yes, she was there for the wolfstar comparison, but idk if SHE knows it was US being compared to them.

Clara doesn’t LOVE the marauders fandom, but she’s lovely and always lets me ramble about it (like I let her ramble abt her books). And so she knows a lot of lore, specifically about Wolfstar. 

So idk if she knew it was abt us, or if she’s just like realising now.

Also, and here’s the weird part, I care. 

I never give a shit usually, about whoever has a crush on me or whatever. I just do what I want and deal with other people later. But now it’s my friend, my really lovely and funny and sweet and beautiful and kind friend and I don’t want to hurt her.

BUT MAYBE I WONT. Cause maybe she doesn’t even like me so it’s nothing to worry abt. 

WHO KNOWS ANYMORE.

Anyway, that’s the story. Got any advice for me Cas? ALSO congrats on your new school!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Oh boy.

First of all- babe, it sounds like you're the last to know about all this. But I'm glad you're aware now. Welcome to the party!

Also- "my really lovely and funny and sweet and beautiful and kind friend" uhm. do you wanna say that again? And tell me there's no feelings there?

I mean, I'm not gonna tell you how you feel but it sounds like you need to stop overthinking and just spend some time with Clara. Because it could be that you're overlooking something great, here. Stop getting in your head and just feel for a bit. Wolfstar is a superior ship for a reason :D

Naming you wolfstar anon

[quillkiller]

wait tell me more about fwb moonwater…..

ok so. this started as a conversation between me and my beloved sude @stillagoodwitch and then me and @sugarsnappeases couldn’t let it go..

also it started because me and sude hate moonwater and are wolfstar ride or dies who like to make regulus suffer :/ so i hope ur not expecting loving and sweet moonwater

regulus studies abroad. im thinking france or berlin ?? he’s doing academic resesrch all throughout europe and just never returns home

he meets remus and they start working/studying together because they’re very academically compatible. remus thinks regulus is hot. regulus thinks remus is hot. so they start fucking. there’s never really any feelings involve buy like they do like each other and they are friends

sirius is coming to visit :/ and this is how it all started. as ive said before it physically pains me to ship either remus or sirius with anyone but each other so we were like How do people write them in other pairings and then go about introducing them in a platonic setting ???? like how is remus going to date regulus and then meet his brother and not fall in love with him… no disrespect to moonwater shippers. i even see the potential. this is literally just a me problem

anyway. sirius is coming to visit for like a week. reg and sirius dont see each other that often. regs excited and sirius is excited ! but they’re also both worried and axious <3 bc they almost always end their visits on somewhat bad terms

reg and remus are working pretty closely together. i dont really know what they’re working on but i know they have to spend a lot of time together. so naturally reg invites remus to dinner with him and sirius. thinking remus can work as a bit of s buffer between them

sirius and remus meet and well. they fall in love in every universe i dont know what to tell you. it was written in the stars. remus thought he lucked out with the youngest black and now he meets the older black who’s so smart and sexy and rough around the edges and so very pretty and so very lovely and who looks delectable and who’s batting his eyelashes at remus without really meaning to. there’s just tension between them immediately. remus is so upset he didnt meet sirius first. sirius is upset because he can’t flirt with someone his brother is sleeping with

lots of late night conversations after regulus has fallen asleep. them meeting in the kitchen in the middle of the night. they’re thirsty or hungry or whatever. they’re smoking together. getting to know each other. always in the middle of the night. and they’re not really breaking any rules but they’re also not telling regulus about it so it feels like they’re breaking rules. neither of them want to name the reason why they cant let regulus know

sirius hates himself because that’s his little brother. he’s supposed to be better. he’s also supposed to want to be better. but he also resents him a bit. resents him for defending their parents. resents him for moving abroad. resents him for not taking his side. and he loves him more than anything but they come from a home where you had to fight cheat and steal to get things you wanted. and he wants remus but he loves regulus. but he already has regulus. he’ll always have regulus because regulus will always be his brother. a fate neither of them can escape. he’ll always love regulus because he can’t help it. he loves him when he hates him

they had to fight cheat and steal to get what they wanted but in addition to that they would also always have more than they ever needed. <- an excuse sirius uses to excuse his feelings for remus. regulus has his studies, friends, a life he likes, money, a nice flat and endless opportunities. he has more than he’ll ever need and sirius wants remus.

i also love this au because it’s such a character study of both black brothers and their nastier traits. how fucked up they are and how much they love each other but how being kind to each other doesn’t come naturally. how selfishness and greed is rooted in both of them

and! i love this au because its such an interesting remus study. how he’s also a bit fucked up and selfish and greedy. he knows he’s homewrecking a family but he just cant let sirius go. he’s not used to getting what he wants in life so when it’s presented he wont turn it down. a normal person would probably extract themselves from the situation but he DOESNT

^ because in no universe will sirius or remus ever be normal about each other. they’ll never not be completely unhinged about the other ever … and that is what i love about them.. they’d both do morally fucked up things to get to each other every single time. so remus can look past sirius fucking over his brother, and sirius can look past remus fucking over someone he was ’dating’

there were never any romantic feelings between regulus and remus and regulus is genuinely not that upset about losing him. its his brother. its all about his big brother and how he always gets what he wants. regulus couldnt care less about losing remus, but he’ll never forgive sirius. and that’s okay because there’s lots of things they’ll never forgive each other for. they still love each other because they cant help it. they’re the only ones who understand and that’s fine. they’ve done unforgivable things to each other but they’ll never hate each other more than they love each other. it all comes back to how deeply they understand each other no matter how often they wish they didn’t

so regulus doesn’t talk to sirius for a year and sirius doesn’t try to reach out. until one day sirius gets a phone call and remus has all but moved in with him at this point. sirius ends the call with ’okay, miss you, too’

who was that?

regulus

your brother?

no the other person i know called regulus

but? i—, shouldn’t he like hate you forever or something?

he’s my brother. he already hates me forever

END SCENE <3

[nikiluv]

I JUST WANNA SAY THAT I ACCIDENTALY RANTED!!😭 u dont have to post or answer to this but i had to get this off my chest. but bro ppl who in this fandom are literally so soft istg😭its so irritating like. they treat riki like he's a fucking kid when he's 18 turning 19🤦‍♀️so he's a YOUNG MAN!! A MAN A GROWN ONE BTW who just so happens to b young like what's so hard to grasp. Nbs saying you have to treat him like he done experienced every walk of life, but at the end of the day he's still a man and he should b treated accordingly. and it esp pisses me off cuz they have no issue sexualizing the other members specifically the hyung line. and ofc I see other ppl kinda fester this energy into sunoo and jungwon even tho its mainly riki. I vividly rmb someone making a tiktok AS A JOKE!! saying I wanna get aten by sunoo like that when he inhaled a cake and ppl were doing entirely TOO MUCHHH!! and she rightfully called them out saying if it was heeseung or jake nb would care and ppl would agree and its like literallyyy. I've also seen ppl on here say they won't wrote smut for sunoo and riki and its like there's nothing wrong with that at all but why are we leaving out jungwon like hello?? hes very much still apart of that line and sunoo is older than both of them so its like?? if u leave one out leave them all out😭🤦‍♀️i could name so much more examples but this is alr getting so long. but I also had to mention the fact that I VIVIDLY rmb when jungwon turned 18 or 19 or wtv age ppl immediately started pumping out smuts with absolutely no fuss and its like?? WHERE WAS THIS ENERGY AT W NIKI???At least keep the same energy if u do ts like. And its just so much that plays into it too because everyone knows enhypen is catered towards women. I feel like that was their first mistake but on top of that it brought in a lot of young girls who's minds clearly still aren't developed and they feel as tho its like their job?? to protect them when in reality half of the group could literally be their uncle or something. Idk its just so irritating to see ts within a fandom because although I don't claim any kpop fandom anymore. I use to b a engene at some point and a nctzen at some point and LEMME TELL YOUUUU its such a difference!! although ncity has had its moments that was like the only kpop fandom who were actually funny and wouldn't baby none of the members. even if u were underage they would still treat u accordingly without sexualizing u. idk ima stop here cuz this is getting to long but its just so much shit wrong w engenes. like I said earlier u don't have to read or answer to this!! but engenes just annoy the heck outta me🤦‍♀️

it’s fine, what you say was facts tho, like I was an nctzen arnd 2020-2022 ish, and like no nctzen smut blogs said anything about jisung smut being wrote, I mean there where that didn’t agree with it but no hate comments or anything

To me it’s so insane about how people write so much crazy shit about jw but don’t keep the same energy w sunoo and riki

For sunoo it’s probably because he is portrayed at “more feminine” which is just his image, and also because of his sunsun ship etc etc

To me it’s if you wanna give the same energy to Niki, keep that energy towards ALL of Enhypen, don’t just “defend” Niki, talking about writing smut for him just to make yourself better

And the craziest thing is those that are super pressed are always the Enhypen smut blogs ? Like bro ??? Ur writing smut too, what are you on about?? (If it’s fluff blogs then I understand because they do not want to see them, which is valid, so just block, it’s fine, you don’t have to see things you do not want to, no need to send hate )

I really detest that people wanna write the craziest most lewd shit for the rest of Enhypen but when someone writes something for riki even slightly suggestive or fluff smut , they go berserk? Like dude, u go on and on about how we should not sexualise them, then don’t write smut ? Bffr 🤣

[pumpkinsy0]

PUMPKIN I NEED YOU TO GIVE ME AS MANY REASONS WHY PURLY IS THE BEST SHIP!! MY FRIEND IS TRYING TO CONVINCE ME THAT IT SUCKS AND I NEED TO PROVE HER WRONG

-🍵🧊

this feels like the equivalent of giving the bat signal in the sky for me to come

ANYWAYS LETS GO🚨🚨🚨

shipping papercut is like making a sandwich at subway, u can say it sucks all u want, but my brother in christ, U made it that way, this ship is like one of thee “u can do whatever the fuck u want w these two and u can make it make sense” ship u can possibly have in this fandom, if u dont like papercut, maybe its just UR rendition of it u dont like, pick it up n try it again w different things added to it to see if u like it🙄🙄

this ship is literally at the VERY BASE of it, opposites that compliment each other attracting and high school sweethearts and ur telling me ur not at least a lil interested🤨🤨AND I WASNT KISSING W THE ARTISTIC LIBERTY U CAN TAKE W THESE TWO, they can literally be enemies to lovers, that aloof couple trope, fake dating that turned real, u can even make ur own way on how they got together, u can pick and choose its like an all u can eat buffet, ur not rlly “trapped by canon” here

these r literally two dumbasses together like all the time, just imagine the dumb but sweet things they find themselves doin, and the ppl they annoy, just have a heart

if u like angst, curly was in the reformatory for 6 months after ponys life was quite literally changed forever, curly doesnt quite understand his own emotions, pony tries to see the good in the world while curlys always in trouble, AND THERES OTHERS IF U JUST DIP UR TOES INTO SHIPPING EM, the angst potential is RIGHT there🗣️🗣️

at the very base of this ship, theres nothing wrong w it, theres no weird age gap, they wouldnt be abusive towards each other, and ik some ppl have issues w this but also, but its a rare “not dating within the gang” ship, so u would HAVE to go out of ur WAY to make it weird, literally nothing wrong w this ship

if u love the relationship pony has w the gang, this ship can definitely help u expand on ponys relationship w everyone as a whole and u can show off just how protective the guys can become when it comes to pony in his own romantic relationships, what other ship u know is doin that🤨🤨BARELY ANY OF EM IF U DID NAME SOME🗣️🗣️🗣️

honestly same thing goes w the shepards, theres no other ship where u have angela and tim’s relationships w curly being explored through any other ship

while pony and curly r friends during the outsiders, its obvious they arent THAT close to each other, and so what i find interesting about this ship is that u can imagine their own little relationship actually building up and the trust in each other growing, as time goes on, i just think its cool to see them actually flourish, just make something entirely new because of the other and with each other, in a different way from other ships in this fandom

im a literal suckerrrr for cultural hcs so i love when theres cultural aspects actually shown with this ship i think its so cool bc it can get pretty intimate, like curly showing and introducing pony to parts of his culture???? so intimate actually SO underrated, and thats rlly only something i see done w the shepards and it rubs off on this ship as well and i love it 1000/10 (while we here can i convince u of haitian shepards🤔🤔 /lh)

they have shared experiences!!! yes they r opposites attract but they r also just some guys who r put in the same situation, trying to navigate life and protect each other, together, and even in their personal lives, theres things that should push them away from the other but it doesnt, they r this fandoms ship equivalent of the indomitable human spirit and thats all bc they r stupid lil dudes together

are u not a sucker for a guy whos pretty much been closed off emotionally a good chunk of his life finding someone to share his life w and finally finding learning to chillax once in a while w that person and that person alone cause theyre special to em?? boooooo🧱🧱🧱🧱🧱thats such a good trope

this is like the only ship where u actually have “rival” gangs interacting w each other,,,WHERE IS UR SENSE OF ADVENTURE

every shipper of them is literally so cool, like literally, ive never met a shitty shipper of these two, shipping them is like having a vip pass, and its not even like a huge group of ppl, its a small community, we r like a quiet village, unlike SOME SHIPS HERE🙄🙄

ANYWAYS i rest my case, ur just bein a lil haterrrr

if this aint convince ur friend that they arent at least a lil good, the problem isnt the ship,,,its ur friend,,,drop em immediately, but if this did??? welcome to the cool club

[missjanjie]

Xana and Tara- 11 (I just feel like it fits both of them😭💕

i dont know what their ship name is bcs i havent seen any posts abt them ship-wise so im gonna call them xantara until someone corrects me lol

11. “I swear, I’m gonna fuck the next person that walks through that door.”

-

“You seem tense,” Perla observed. “Is this really how you get just because you’ve gone too long without getting laid?”

Xana rolled her eyes, though she didn’t deny it. “Look, normally when I hit the three month mark post-break up, I’ve usually hooked up, like, a dozen times. I’m severely behind schedule, that would stress anyone out.” 

She quirked her brow, unsure if she should be amused or concerned. “Any nymphomaniac, maybe.”

“It’s not a medical condition to have needs, Perla. Just count your blessings that I don’t see you like that, or we would be having an entirely different conversation,” she retorted dryly. 

Perla furrowed her brows. “Okay, we’ll circle back on whether or not that was an insult. Back to the topic at hand – what are you going to do about your little predicament.” 

Xana leaned back against the bar and downed the rest of her drink. “I’ll tell you what I’m gonna do,” she said as she set her glass down, “I swear, I’m gonna fuck the next person that walks through that door.” Her gaze locked onto the entrance of the club, waiting to see who would be her mark, and hoping it was someone she actually would want to sleep with so Perla didn’t call her bluff. 

No more than two minutes later, the door opened and a petite brunette walked in. She looked around, clearly trying to spot someone, before shrugging and going up to the bar and ordering a drink.

“You come here often? Don’t think I’ve seen you around before,” she did her best to come off as cool, just barely interested, while she was less subtle in checking the woman out. 

“Nope, just moved here from Newfoundland,” she chirped. “I’m Tara, by the way.”

Xana tried her best not to smirk. She knew she could eat this girl alive without batting an eye, but she didn’t want to scare her off either – she had a sort of wide-eyed enthusiasm that she just couldn’t take away from her yet. “Xana, pleasure to meet you,” she drawled. 

Tara smiled, though she could feel her heartbeat quicken under the intensity of Xana’s gaze. “You too. Have you lived here long?”

“Mhm. Lemme buy your next drink, then I’ll show you what a good time out west looks like,” she winked. Maybe it was too early to feel a sense of satisfaction, but she had a hunch that they were both going to get exactly what they needed out of their night.

[astra-galaxie]

They really wasted THE FUCK out of Nathan Pandit. Like WE DONT KNOW HIS HEIGHT, HIS BLOOD TYPE, HIS WEIGHT AND WE DONT KNOW MUCH ABOUT HIM. He should’ve gotten a longer character arc and have a chance as a suspect or partner in a main investigation, he had so much potential, and yet pretty simple was like: “Yeah bro you gonna die and we’ll not tell more about you.” Nathan really got killed just to discard of him, and some things about his murder case felt really OOC out of him cause I’m pretty sure he wouldn’t let a bunch of kids touch snakes, and let alone learn how to handle them without any regard for safety. I really think he should’ve gotten more moments with Harper Stone, I wanted to see them blossom as a couple and end up together, and more things about their relationship and they really killed Harper’s character too by turning her into the activist stereotype LIKE WHAT THE HELL.

I know. It would have been nice if we were at least allowed to learn more about Nathan instead of him getting killed in the first case. Sure, I'm grateful they didn't make him the killer, but he could have been a suspect instead! I know PS was probably trying to go for a shock factor like, "We're going back to Grimsborough, so our first victim needs to be someone everyone will know and already care about! Oh! I know! Let's use Nathan!" Like, seriously?! The only info we know about Natha's profile is his age; we don't even know how tall he is or anything else!

Even in S1, he seemed to get the short end of the stick when it came to character development. The others got to serve as our partners in the main investigation and the AIs, but the only time Nathan was our partner was for a few AIs! And maybe it's because he only typically got one analysis per case (the autopsy), but compared to other teammates, we barely got to interact with him and know very little about him...

As for Snake in The Grass itself, it did seem a little OCC. Nathan knows a lot about snakes and would know how to properly handle them, but even so, he was the Zoo's vet and not a tour guide? Why would he be the one showing kids the animals anyway? Wouldn't that be more like Harper or Vince Moon's job??

As for Harper, personally, I don't ship her and Nathan (it felt like a last-minute ship idea to me when playing S1), but even so, it would have been nice to see them interact instead of Harper just being like, "oh, we broke up." And the part where she says Nathan wouldn't accept her reaction just confused me. I feel like when they broke up, Nathan would be sad but would respect Harper's request to end things, not try to win her back with gifts she wouldn't want! Maybe if PS didn't butcher the ship so much, I would like it more, but as it stands, it leaves a lot to be desired for me.

And even if I don't ship them, I still HATE what they did with Harper's character in S8! Yes, I agree she cares about animals, but she wouldn't be as crazy about it as they made her act in S8! She was basically a completely different character! The only thing in common with her past versions is her name and design! Other than that, she's unrecognizable!

[dysfunctionallygrey]

Who the fuck was gonna tell me how gay all the units in pjsk are?!???

I got bored over the summer and decided to download pjsekai again (there's a story behind that but it's too long.) Before this, I knew like 3 things about it: 1. Its a rhythm game, 2. Also a gacha game 3. Emu Ootori. I haven't heard much of people talking about the story, but I did know a few ships (Ruikasa) and that a number of them would have queer ships. (what are you gonna do it's fandom)

I was not however, prepared for the sheer MAGNITUDE of ships and ship material.

Prepare for a long ass post underneath because if theres one thing I enjoy it's yappering. Also spoilers for a few main stories ig.

Jesus Christ what the hell miku why are you turning all the units gay.

I'm not much of a shipper but God, are homosexual tendencies like a requirement for a sekai?????? My god these bitches gay, good for them. And this is coming from someone who hasn't finished all the stories.

First of all More More Jump.

I'm not that big of a fan of Idol Groups but the Sapphic squad™ has really captured me.

I had to rub my eyes in disbelief for a moment everytime they interacted because

The MOMENT Shizuku and Airi walked in and opened their mouths my immediate reaction was: oh?

And then as the story went on i was like: Oh!

OH.

Suddenly my favorite Vocaloid song is Romeo and Cinderella.

THE WAY AIRI SAID HER NAME I CAN'T. THEY CARE ABOUT EACH OTHER SM "You're my Idol." IS THAT SLANG FOR I WANNA GET MARRIED TO YOU AND RUN OFF TO THE COUNTRYSIDE WITH TWO CATS THESE TWO ARE KILLING ME.

I was rendered speechless.

The only consisyent thing to come out of my mouth was "Oh."

Oh spelled backwards is Ho which is one half of Homo therefore the other half is Minori and Haruka.

And dont let me get STARTED on them.

I ddid a quick deep dive into both Shizuairi and MinoHaru.

Let me just say that Haruka was probably Minori's awakening. Actually that is my hc now Haruka was Minori's awakening thank you all goodnight I will be expecting my Nobel Prize tomorrow.

There is so much ship material between these two it is actually insane, PLUS all their cards????

I saw some clips of some event stories and damn. I know these aren't meant to be ship fodder but it is so damn easy to put this stuff through a shipping lens.

Speaking of Len

Vivid BAD Squad???

Not a single het person in sight.

I already had the AnHane tag open on a separate tab halfway through but the way I JUMPED to open the AkiToya one and I hate to invoke the lord's name thrice but Jesus H. Christ what in the hell

I had to open my phone and text my friend if I just witnessed a gay divorce in front of my very own eyes and she confirmed.

I couldn't even make a "girls are fightinggh" joke because my mouth was AGAPE.

OPEN.

AJAR.

The fly nearby was too distracted to come into my mouth because of what it just witnessed.

And Toya's Backstory.

Their Bond???

THEIR RECONCILIATION?????

It only needed to be outside and raining and I would've been SOLD.

The music. The emotion. The words. Akito's speech. GOD. It legitimately made me tear up.

And that marks number 4. I'm not religious anymore but there's smth about these gays that make me start shaking aggressively as if ridden with rabies.

Anyways

This iis getting too long.

I was originally gonna write smth abt AnHane too but that took also a hell ton of words.

And of course I had a few words to say about everyone's favorite gay clowns and no I'm not talking about your friend group I'm talking about Wonderland x Showtime.

I have yet to finish the n25 story. But judging from the overall tone and the look I feel like it's smth I would love.

Insert sentence about Leo/Need here.

Jk I actually love those girls Saki is one of my favs and I am in LOVE with Shiho's cover of Lost ones Weeping.

Part 2 sometime in the future

[ronancebyler]

Platonic Edancy headcanons?

heheheheheh it's them!

as always, canon is simply a suggestion over a rule. if these contradict each other or canon i truly don't care. also you will probably see ships/friendships of either characters mentioned

she/her for nancy, they/he for eddie (as always, alternate pronoun hcs used in different posts should be ignored <3333)

they are disgustingly platonic soulmates. like, they're steve and robin level horrendous. they will think and say the exact same things in the same phrasing at the same time and know what the other's thinking without saying anything

they both are weirdly physically connected. like, if eddie is nauseous because he didn't eat well nancy will immediately feel nauseous too and it is FREAKY. like, nancy will be hanging out with robin and be like "give me a minute" to text eddie if he's been eating recently and they would go "how tf did you sense it" and she responds with "telepathy pains, edmund. eat your fucking food"

nancy does not drink enough water. she'll forget for far too long and she doesn't like how it feels on her throat, but eddie can always tell when she hasn't been hydrating herself.

"drink your water, nancy drew" "but ew" "you are way too smart to die from this." "fine..."

nancy has an immaculate gaydar, and eddie has the most horrendous gaydar known to mankind

"you thought i liked steve????" "listen, i didn't know you well enough to know how much you would loathe getting back together with him." "i was painfully obviously in love with robin!" "SHUT UP!"

meanwhile nancy immediately clocked both sides of steddie

like she could immediately tell that eddie were in love with steve but also immediately clocked that it was reciprocated which eddie strongly argues with

texts the most out of pocket shit to each other with no context

they end conversations with "i'm going to go fuck your ex boyfriend" and "i'm going to go sleep with your boyfriend's best friend"

they both need glasses and they both hate wearing their glasses so they have a backup pair for each other just in case they forget

nancy is always the one who fixes eddie's wounds. steve and hopper have both tried and failed, she is terrifyingly protective of wounded eddie

nobody but eddie cooks for her. she prefers to cook, even though she's not very good at it it gives her a sense of control, but she still feels in control when it's eddie doing the cooking (even though they're a horrendous cook)

when she and jonathan broke up, she cried into eddie's shirt for hours as he sat with her and let her let it out

nancy helps eddie graduate school! she's the only one who explained the concepts in a way that clicked in their brain

nancy plays dnd with eddie (and the rest of the spicy six) MUCH to mike's chagrin, but even worse, she's really good at it

like her and eddie are the best teammates ever, and it gives steve and robin a run for their money in syncronization

robin and eddie constantly argue who knows nancy better (eddie is in the lead, though to be fair if it was over steve robin would win)

not the touchiest of best friends, but do use an indescribable amount of pet names

"honey" "darling" "dear" "love" "my husband" "my darling wife" all lead to extreme confusion with robin and steve when they're in the room too

they are both investigative journalists and they're partners in the field

nancy has defended eddie from bullies before, which is absolutely terrifying for the bullies

eddie helps foster nancy's urge to clinge onto the hinges of society to keep herself small and fitting in into an "i dont give a fuck!" attitude

eddie introduces nancy to her first queer experience. it was very one off and she was in love with robin but it was very helpful to her to have a queer experience with someone who didn't have all this history and emotion and care attached to them and was just casual

she went to eddie to cry after her and robin got together because the last time she felt like this was with barb

eddie was absolutely horrified to tell her he was gay. they were shaking, quiet, and overall just didn't look like themself, because losing nancy would be like losing a part of himself but not telling nancy would be hiding a part of themself.

nancy told eddie they were into steve, so that wasn't a reveal he had to attempt.

"you're in love with steve." "how the fuck--"

extremely good at charades, can guess from an eyebrow raise

nancy taught eddie how to get really good at guns, so now they're terrifying to everyone in a seven mile radius apart and in a four hundred mile radius together.

nancy's competence calms eddie down when they're anxious, eddie's energy drowns out the world when nancy's anxious

they're so weirdly similar it's insane. like, different universes, same brain

eddie draws nancy so much, so when steve found his notebook of drawings and noticed they were mostly nancy, she jumped to the conclusion that they had a crush on her

nancy was ready to punch everyone who were trying to get out of replenishing eddie for the struggles they went through from both the homicide allegations and the "earthquake"

everyone assumes nancy is the reasonable one, but they're both pretty even in that matter

"nance--wheeler, you know I love the energy, love the concept, but things will go very bad if you kill everyone in the government" "you know i could get away with it." "you absolutely could, but it would be exhausting and take so much work and you should probably take a nap instead."

robin and eddie have a sibling esque villainizing each other friendship and nancy absolutely comes up way too often as the mutually agreed upon best person ever

e: "you're annoying!" r: "WELL IM SLEEPING WITH YOUR BEST FRIEND" e: "WELL IM BEST FRIENDS WITH THE PERSON YOU'RE FUCKING." r: "IM BEST FRIENDS WITH THE PERSON YOU'RE FUCKING TOO" e: "YES BUT BEING BEST FRIENDS AND THE FAVORITE PERSON OF WITH NANCY IS INFINITELY COOLER THAN BEING BEST FRIENDS WITH STEVE" s: "hey!" e: "love you, stevie, but it's nancy fucking wheeler" s: "that's fair" r: "hey, im also nancy's favorite person!" e: "yk im the favorite just like stevie's yours." r: "fair but fuck you."

eddie's the only person who will ever make fun of nancy. mostly because everyone is scared of her or admires her too much, but partially because if anyone else every tried they'd immediately murder them

"maybe those murder allegations should be correct" "edmund, no." "that's not even my fucking name???"

they have beef with mike because of this since mike feels the exact same

nancy absolutely finds it hilarious the idea that anyone finds eddie cool

"didn't you trip over air the other day?" "STFU"

they're cofounders of the "mike wheeler realize ur gay" club and do sit him down often for interventions

it seems i typed too much for the death hcs so they'll show up in the reblogs

[anonymous--weirdo]

i really dont like when you dont listen

Show: Teen Wolf

Rating: EXPLICIT

Ship: Thiam

Dominant Liam Dunbar

______________________________________________________________ Theodore Raeken hated pack meetings. Everyone had long gotten over their fear of Theo. They trusted him to an extent. That wasn't the problem. The problem was that every single pack meeting made Liam ignore him the entire time. If there was one thing Theo hated more than pack meetings, it was being ignored by Liam. He was ignored most of his childhood; it made sense he yearned for attention. Theo reached for Liam’s hand under the table and was happy when the other held it back. A soft smile flashed upon his face. The only thoughts in his mind were Liam, not the hunters coming in from out of town, not the fact they needed to be on guard just in case they ended up being untrustworthy. Only Liam Dunbar, he thought of Liam’s eyes, the soft baby blue that made his mind go static, especially when Liam gave him puppy dog eyes; the thoughts wandered to his smile, well not even his smile but his lips in general, he thought of the way they melted against him, how beautiful they were bruised and swollen from making out, thought of the way a soft Theo would escape when he wanted to take things further. He got so lost in thought he had almost forgotten he was at Derek’s stupid loft sitting around his kitchen table. 

“Theodore!” Liam hugged and slapped his shoulder, this snapped Theo at of his blissful thinking. He knew when Liam said his full first name he was in trouble. He looked around the table at everyone else and then at Liam. 

“Do not Theodore me! I didn't do anything wrong!” He grumbled out at his lover. He already did not want to be here in the first place. The least they could do was let him daydream in peace. 

“You weren’t listening, were you?”Stiles rolled his eyes, Stiles was still a bit on guard to Theo and rightfully so. 

“I will punch you,” Theo said grumpily and crossing his arms, “can someone tell me exactly what I missed that has Stiles and Liam’s panties in a twist. It’s not like I was a willing or active participant in this conversation! You all were talking I was minding my own-” “Theo, we were trying to ask you if you wanted to come patrolling with me tonight to make sure nothing was going on drawing the hunters to beacon hills.” Liam said, taking a deep breath. 

“That is a stupid question, Why would you even ask that? Why is it even important right now? Why is any of this even important right now? We could handle this when something actually goes wrong or a threat is posed but you all would rather sit around and chit chat about something that isn't even happe-” 

“Truck, now.” Liam said glaring over at Theo. 

“No! And will you stop cutting me off? It’s really starting to pi-” 

“I said truck, now Theodore!” Liam said in a tone that made Theo shut the fuck up instantly. Theo knew what that tone meant, he needed to get his ass in the truck. But something else creeped up inside him, a devilish smirk appeared on his face. 

“No!” he said again, arms crossed over his chest as he stared at Liam, “And don't you dare cut me off again you know I hate that shit.” 

“Theo, you have exactly 3 seconds to get in the truck. One-” Liam started 

“Ooooooo Theo got in trouble!” Stile’s teased him. This genuinely bothered Theo, it was cute when Liam did it but the second Stiles did it it made him grumpy.

“I'm going because I don't wanna deal with that,” he pointed to Stiles (which earned him an angry yet amused glare from Derek). He stood from his seat and went to the truck his keys left on the table. 

“We will go patrolling tonight,” Liam said with a scarily sweet smile dancing upon his lips, “I am also sorry for his behavior. I’m gonna handle that.” He said, grabbing the keys from the marble table top. 

The sentence made Stiles cringe, “Ew dude, I can smell the lust from here and I’m not even a wolf.” 

The statement simply made Liam roll his eyes as he left heading out to the truck. Theo stood outside the passenger door waiting for Liam to come out. He smiled when he saw his lover, it wasn’t the smile of someone who had just acted like an asshole in front of everyone. It was the smile of someone who was genuinely happy to see their lover. 

“Hello baby wolf.” He said amusement laced through his sweet and silky voice. Despite the tone that escaped his lips his partner did not look amused. “Look i-” he was cut off by Liam’s lips on his, it wasn’t a soft kiss by any means. It was rough and it was powerful. Theo stabilized himself on the truck as he held onto Liam’s sides. “Mmm not that I don’t mind this side of you baby wolf but may I ask what warranted this sudden display of affection?” He smirked and bit his lip. 

“Get your ass in the truck, now.” was all Liam said before going to the driver side. Liam had gotten his license (finally) and they were trying to help Theo give up control, it had become very helpful for them and it saved Theo the hassle of driving when he really didn’t want to drive. 

Once both were inside the truck Theo reached over for Liam’s hand, the other held it tenderly. There was one thing Theo and Liam never messed with and it was the car routine, their playlist played through the radio and they had to hold hands. No fight or anything could disrupt this, it kept Liam’s road rage intact and it helped with Theo’s passenger anxiety. 

Theo listened to the radio as soft songs played through the stereo system. He kissed Liam’s knuckles when a car cut him off. His partner was already a bit, he wouldn’t say angry or mad, Liam didn’t get genuinely mad at Theo, annoyed was more the word he was looking for. He didn’t want that annoyance to turn into anger and them both get killed in an accident, or worse, Liam get hurt. He knew the other would heal but he still didn't like the idea of Liam hurting. He watched the lights change as they pulled into Liam’s driveway. Theo moved in a few weeks into their relationship after Liam found out about him living out of his truck. Once the truck was parked and cut off they exited and entered the house. 

“I want you upstairs in my room, now Theodore. You wanted my attention, you're going to get it. Somebody is about to get a lesson in listening.” Liam growled. Theo was taken aback, he had never seen this side of Liam before. It was…hot. It was so hot Theo almost believed a god had crafted him. Despite his attraction to this new Liam he couldn’t help but be a shit, “No, I don’t think I will. Maybe I’ll go sit on the couch.” he smirked as he watched his partner's eyes darken. He genuinely shivered softly.

“Oh darling, it’s funny you think you have any say in this. Upstairs now,” Liam said with a dark chuckle. Chills went straight down Theo’s spine and he listened. He practically sprinted up the wooden steps to Liam’s room. Liam followed behind with a sweeter giggle that made Theo melt inside. 

Once inside the room Liam pinned Theo to the now closed and locked door. Liam kissed his lover passionately, it was rough and violent. Theo adored every second of it. Usually kisses like this were initiated by Theo and usually after Liam scored a winning goal in lacrosse, which had been happening a lot since he made the deal with him. Liam took Theo’s bottom lip between his teeth gently and ran his hands up his shirts lightly dragging his nails down his chest. 

“Take this off and go sit on the bed while I decide what I want to do with you,” Liam commanded. Theo thought he had seen every single part of Liam. Dominant Liam had never surfaced and Theo genuinely thought Liam was a submissive brat at all times. Theo nodded and stripped his shirt off, throwing it into the clothes hamper, Liam hated dirty clothes on the floor. He sat on the edge of the bed looking up at Liam who’s eyes had gained a new sparkle, normally this would make Theo smile and kiss the corners of his mouth and then his lips softly, but this sparkle was different. It meant something bad was coming to Theo and boy was he excited, he was sure the growing tent in his jeans was giving that away. 

Liam smirked at his partner before walking teasingly slowly to his dresser. He opened the top drawer, Liam had one tie, from some stupid middle school dance he didn't even want to attend, but in the moment he had never been happier for the damn thing. 

“You see Theo, pretty boys who listen get to touch themselves. However, pretty boys who are mean and dont listen don't get to feel that sweet relief.” he smirked softly. Liam made his way over to Theo and pressed him down by his chest, so he was flat on his back. He looped the tie around the headboard and then around Theo’s wrist. When he was sure Theo couldnt move he kissed the other deeply, hsi hands trailing up and down the chimeras sides. He knew Theo’s kinks and limits, he ran his nails gently down his sides, he knew it was agonizing for the other. Theo would rather Liam draw blood than be gentle. Everytime they made, ‘congrats you won the game’ love Theo would end up with deep red scratch marks down his back that Liam would kiss softly and The would gloat about. 

“Li-Liam, come on, don't be a little shit,” Theo huffed out looking down at his partner's face kissing him roughly again. Theo happily kissed back, though he craved Liam’s touch. The gentle nail marks were not cutting it, he needed more. 

“I really suggest you be good for me Theodore,” Theo suddenly loved his first name. It was the best sound in the entire universe and he wanted it played over and over again like his favorite song. 

“Mm no sir, I don't think I will. You see you may have this act like you have the power. But you are all bark and no bite baby wolf,” Theo teased him. From an outside perspective this may have seemed like a very very bad idea. But in Theo’s eyes it was a brilliant plan. 

Liam didn't justify that comment with a response. He kissed down Theos neck covering it in love bites, drinking in each and every whimper, each soft noise of pleasure flooding his brains with endorphins. Being noisy was usually what Liam did. They had gotten complaints multiple times by the other members of the house because of Liam’s noisiness. So to hear Theo making them was electrifying. 

He kept the kisses trailing along his hip bones and back up his chest, he knew this was hell for Theo. The other was understimulated and that was exactly what Liam wanted. He undid Theo’s belt slowly looking up into his hazel eyes. He tossed the belt to the dresser and Theo's jeans somewhere in the room. That was what ultimately made Theo realize he had no idea what he was in store for. Liam was the romantic partner to make you neatly fold your clothes before hed let you fuck him so the fact his boxer and jeans were discarded on the floor meant regular Liam was gone and this new side was here to stay. 

It took Theo way too long to realize he was the only one naked. Liam was fully clothed. “Hey! That is not fair, you are gawking at my body, why are you still clothed?” he huffed out at the other. He tugged the restraints before stopping, he didn't want to accidentally break free. He was enjoying this more than he would ever admit. 

Liam smirked “oh, does Theo want to see my body?” He said in a teasing tone, “well I wanted you to listen at today’s meeting. Lives could be at stake Theodore,” he said, the name making him shiver and grow harder, “I knew you loved that name” he chuckled deeply. 

“It’s hard to hate it when you keep saying it like you're going to pounce on me at any moment.” Theo smirked at him, he almost hoped that was exactly what Liam planned to do, but something told him that was the exact opposite of what was going to happen to him. 

“Oh no darling, I have more class than that.” He said stroking Theo’s member slowly maintaining perfect eye contact, and Theo had never loved the color blue more. A soft moan escaped his lips as relief washed over him, though it was quickly ripped away. Liam ran his hands down Theo’s thighs slowly, teasing him. “Beg for it Theodore. I want you to beg for me to touch you, I want you to beg me to feel pleasure.” 

The words alone almost made the other cum. He blushed bright red, he had never begged a day in his life. “And if I don't?” Theo asked, raising a brow. 

“I will let you lay here, hard, needy, and get myself off. Force you to watch me, but never one will touch you, and you clearly don't touch yourself.” Liam smirked. “That’s your big punishment if you continue to not listen, your lesser punishment isn’t anything you can't handle,” he said and stroked him once more, but it was  a ghost-like touch. He pulled a hand away and gave a gentle smile, “this is okay right? You're still comfortable?” 

Theo smiled sweetly at the other, Liam was too perfect for his own good. “Yes darling I am still okay. I will tell you if I'm not. You know that.” He promised him and pursed his lips for a kiss which he received. 

“Now beg,” he demanded. The stark contrast between sweet boyfriend Liam and this dominant Liam was something that made Theo’s brain go static, it was as if something in his mind snapped. 

He felt himself growing painfully harder and bit his lip, “Please Liam, please touch me. I need you to touch me so badly.” He begged softly, “Please.” The last please was so openly vulnerable. Liam smiled and stripped down, throwing his clothes to an unknown whereabouts. Hovered over theo’s face. 

“I will make you feel so beautiful Theodore,” he whispered before kissing him roughly. While he did want Theo to learn a lesson he wanted Theo to feel pretty, he wanted Theo to know he was the only person Liam ever needed in this sense. He began to stroke Theo at a painfully slow but even pace as he roughly kissed the other. He smirked into it feeling the vibrations of the others moans against his lips. He would occasionally speed up and slow down, increasing and decreasing pressure. Theo knew Liam was good at this part, handjobs were not uncommon for the pair, most of the time happening in the truck, once in Scott’s room, and twice in Derek’s bathroom. However with the new dominance it was so much more than usual, he was feeling things at ten thousand times the power he usually did. 

“Mm fuck Liam, oh god.” he mumbled softly, his hips bucking up against the others hand. 

“No,” he said and roughly held Theo’s hips down with one hand, he knew the press was going to leave a bruise and he knew Theo would love it. He liked being marked up, it was one of his biggest turn ons as Liam learned over the months. Liam edged him closer and closed and then pulled his hand back. 

“Hey!” Theo huffed out and looked up into Liam’s eyes, “that was not fair!” He muttered out. 

Liam smirked “awwe, well good boys get to cum the first time, sadly Theodore you've been a very very bad boy today,” Liam growled in his ear. 

“Do that again and its instantaneous baby wolf,” he chuckled back softly, he still had some of his wit despite his incredibly submissive state. 

Liam rolled his eyes and pulled away from his lover, he dug through his bedside drawer and pulled out a lube. He slicked up two fingers, “are you still okay?” He asked gently, he wanted to make sure. 

“Mm id be less okay if you didn't do this,” he smiled at him, “I love you.” He said sweetly. 

Liam slid the two fingers into Theo, “I love you too Theodore,” He whispered and kissed him roughly as he began to finger him open, he wasn’t going to hurt his lover in a bad way. He knew the process pretty well. He gripped Theo’s hips bruisingly rough causing Theo to moan out Liam’s name softly, and slid a pillow under Theo’s hips to help with the angling. He kissed him roughly again, his teeth taking Theo’s bottom lip again as he slid a third finger in. He made sure the other was ready before pulling his hand away. 

Liam lubed himself up and slid into Theo slowly giving his lover time to adjust, “you look so handsome like this,” he said with a sickeningly sweet voice as if he wasn't balls deep in Theo. He started slowly listening to the other’s small whimpers. 

“Liam I need you to speed up, please darling.” This beg was not asked for and it made Liam sparkle in his soft bedroom lighting.  He nodded, he sped up nails digging into Theo’s hips. Theo moaned loudly as he felt the other pound into him, he had never been on this end of the love making but he could see why Liam was so loud every single time. 

“Mm fuck The, youre so pretty. So fucking pretty,” he said speeding up using some of his wold strength to increase depth and hardness of his thrust. Then he hit it, the spot inside of Theo that made gospel spew from his lips. 

“Oh fuck Liam, fuck—thats—right there!” He said and closed his bound hands into fists. He ached to touch himself, he felt himself growing closer as Liam hit the bundle of nerves with each thrust. “Mm fuck Liam, oh fuck, I’m close, I’m so close.” He moaned out, eyes fluttered shut and head thrown back, his hair was curly and matted to his forehead with sweat. He felt himself get closer to his climax, but then Liam stopped. Just as he was close. 

“Oh darling, did you really think I was going to let you come yet?” Liam ran a soft hand down his face and placed his thumb on Theo’s bottom lip, “perhaps you are just a pretty face Theodore.” The words made the hair on his neck stand up but the look in Liam’s eyes let him know he was okay. 

“No sir, I remember. I've been bad,” He said and hoped playing into Liam’s little game would help him get to his climax. 

“Youre the prettiest suck up I've ever seen,” Liam whispered into his ear marking down his jaw and kissed him deeply again. He picked back up his speed railing into Theo, he pulled back from the other to hear his pretty moans, and once the other was close he pulled back and stopped. 

This continued a few more times until Liam had a satisfied grin on his face, “don't cum until I say so, you hear me?” Liam said and kissed him deeply. The other nodded sweetly, throat raw from screaming Liam’s name, he prayed no one was home.  Liam kissed him and pounded him with all the force he could muster, hips snapping at a bruising pace until he came deep in Theo.

He kept the pace going, snaking his hand to Theo’s member and looking into his eyes, deeply. “Fuck Liam, I am begging you,” pleasure filled tears in theo’s eyes began to spill down his cheeks. He looked absolutely beautiful like this, “Liam please let me cum. Please I'll listen” he begged, his legs shaking in pleasure. Liam nodded to him and kissed him, helping him to his orgasm. Theo moaned out Liam's name and a string of profanities against his lips. 

Liam let Theo ride out his high before pulling out of him, he undid the restraints and sat on the bed pulling Theo into his lap smiling at him. He ran gentle fingers through his brown hair and hummed, “that’s it. Come back to be Theo.” he said as the other came down from his high. He pressed soft kisses to the other’s temple. 

“Where have you been hiding that form of you?” Theo asked softly and wiped the tear streaks from his face. He had never felt so much pleasure, “and how do I get in trouble more often?” He asked, laying his head on Liam’s shoulder. Usually this was reversed, Theo making sure Liam came back down from his high gently and to love. 

“I really don’t like when you don't listen at meetings,” Liam smiled, “come on. Let’s get you cleaned up handsome.” he said and helped Theo to the shower, the others legs still trembling. “If I knew I could get the Theo Raeken to scream my name like that I would have dont it much sooner” he chuckled and turned the shower on. Once the warm water spurted out he took a wash rag and cleaned theo and himself, he then ran gentle fingers through his hair and hummed a soft song. 

After the shower they laid in the bed in fuzzy pajamas under the warm covers. Their foreheads were pressed together and gentle kisses were exchanged. 

“I love you,” Theo whispered softly. 

“And I love you,” Liam whispered. It had been his new response recently. I love you, too sounded like a forced response even if it was true. It felt more real to say I love you. He gently kissed Theo’s lips “get some rest; we have to patrol later.” Theo pouted but knew he wasn’t up for another round of being a brat yet. So he just nodded and snuggled Liam close as they dozed off. 

[tucaneggs]

is xephna technically rare pair? it was when I was into it since there was no art for sooo long. if not then xephrythna maybe? not sure what counts

To me xephna is less rare and more underrated? but that might just be because of different fandom experiences -shrugs- Personally its not my favourite lalna ship, that award goes to nanocoffee which i looved as a teen, but ive grown to like xephna more recently! Even if i personally dont think its a rarepair i wrote my thoughts down :]

Xephna and Xephrythna thoughts under the read more

xephna

Lalna wears his heart on his sleeve, Xephos is full of secrets, You would think this would cause problems but makes things easy for them. Lalna doesnt ask Xephos about how fucked up he is, and Xephos doesnt need to guess how Lalna is doing. No mind games, just honesty. Of course, if this is Yoglabs!xephos we're taling about, then mind games are a necessity

To me their relationship is friendly banter and passionate nights and knowing things about the world that no one else does. Its tripping over eachothers tools and getting into eachothers spaces and being a pest but you cant quite live without it... well Xephos cant. Lalna is his comfort mad scientist, his silly rabbit, his good time boy. After all this time, he can always talk to Lalna.

About most things, anyway. Dont worry about it.

At first, Lalna just thought Xephos was fascinating scientifically. He's more of an engineer...wizard...science guy than a biologist, but still! As someone who feels things deeply, Lalna would be the first to confess his love for xephos. Who in response panicked a little, but once the nerves wore off happily returned the feeling.

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Xephrthna

the e in that name is doing a LOT of heavy lifting joking aside I like both Xephian and Rythna for different reasons and combining them is v inchresting!!

Xephos finding the dramatic wizard baffling at first, and Rythian finding Xephos neurotic and high-strung attitude abraisive. But then something... weird happens. They end up running into eachother when in an open mood, and get to chatting, and find that they have a lot in common. A friendship blossoms from there, and eventually into something more. Xephos is upfront with Rythian that he's "kind of dating someone else but we have an open thing going on" before anything happens, and rythian doesnt mind it. But he doesnt tell rythian who the other person is, and rythian never asks. He assumes its honeydew, or prehaps someone he doesnt know. Xephos is fine not talking about it, enjoying their one on one company.

Rythian teaching xephos magic, getting frustrated when he gets distracted, but then xephos calls him "a brilliant wizard" and he decides to forget his anger.

If you throw lalna in the mix i feel like it would. pardon me. explode.

I have this idea of pre-nuke (the tekkit server one, the OG war) Lalna and Rythian being aquainted but dont quite know eachother, then everything goes to shit and rythian blames lalna but thats about it. Like theres no deeper beef than that... until Lalna nukes the base BUT DONT WORRYABOUT IT.

Things begin to cool, while Lalna does enjoy yanking rythian around, he decides one day to approach him peacefully, wanting to make ammends. Rythian, naturally and rightfully suspicous, asks why and Lalna only says

"A friend asked me to" Suprisingly this works, at least enough for Xephos to finally feel comfortable enough to tell Rythian that the other guy he's seeing was actually rythians long time rival - Lalna

Rythian is uh. mad. and it takes a while for him to warm up to Xephos again, but he cares for him, and decides to try and make it work. He and Lalna are awkward for a while. But one day when Xephos leaves the two of them while on an errand, they get into a fight that ends with one hell of a makeout session, and more. Xephos comes home to a messy house and bedroom, with a passed out rythian sleeping across Lalnas bare chest. Lalna waves to xephos, Xephos is quite happy that thats been sorted.

Xephos kinda becomes the mediator for tension between Lalna and Rythian. They're still working out shit, a LOT of old anger there, but both want Xephos to be happy, so they'll do anything for him.

[thesimulacrasimp]

So yeah, here we go again! I just watched 3rd n 4th eps of hazbin hotel so, again, my thoghts abt it. Idk if i really need to put spoilers warning anymore, but ig ill do it just in case. As with previous post there will be some screenshots.

HAZBIN HOTEL EP 3-4 SPOILERS WARNING!

So tbh i dont have much to say about 3rd ep. Overall it was a really cute ep where everyone kinda got along. Also we met alot of new overlords (that one giant wolf girl was cool as hell) n got a few bop songs. I really like all new voices we got here. Also Velvette was killin in this ep, like slay queen!! Also i didnt know this girl (idk her name srry) was Carmillas (idk if spelled the name correctly--) daughter, that really suprised me.

Ok 4th ep... I have alot to say about it. First of all when that Angels moive started i was like: WTH S GOIN ON WHAT????? Then i thoght that its Angels dream (or nightmare-) n that wolf guy was representation of Valentino. N then when its all started i was like: Oh. I get it.

Speaking about Val, when all that fire started n he opened his wings, that was FUCKING BEAUTIFUL N I REALLY DIDNT EXPECT HIM TO HAVE ACTUAL WINGS, I WAS LIKE: :O I FOR REAL ALWAYS THOUGHT THAT WAS JUST A FUR COAT--- ok n thats literally the only good i can say about Val by now.

That one awful scene with Val n Angel was literally so scary... Ive never been in SA, ive never had such "experience" (and thank GOD for that), but i know that feeling of fear when you just in trap and you cant do anything, i know how that feels to be abused, when you just hiding in corner feeling so fucking scared that you gonna get beated up n yelled again, you KNOW that will happen and you just wait for it in terrify, you literally feel yourself like a little child who cant do anything, you want to share your problems to someone, just wanna cry to someone, but you cant and you need to pretend that everything is okay. I was so scared for Angel in that scene and i really felt it. And the way Angel tried to make Charlie leave before that all happened.. Yes, he definetly knew whats gonna happen n thats so scary...

Anyway OMG VOX HIIII!!!!!! :DDDD

BTW THE FACT THAT HES HOLDING VALS HAND LIKE HE WAS ABOUT TO KISS IT----- THIS SHIP IS TAKING OVER MY BRAIN PLS SEND HELP

Yeah, yknow what really strange thing about all that? Is the fact that Val s obviously a horrible person consindering all the things he done to Angel, but he is still an ENJOYABLE CHARACTER. Like- ofc that awful abusive scene was not enjoyable at all, but for some reason i just cant hate him!! I TRY BUT I JUST CANT N THATS SO WEIRD. probably its because i know its not a real person, its just a character but still-

Also (someone pls count how many times i used this word-) i really didnt expect to see an ACTUAL SEX SCENES IN THE SONG. Ig i shouldve expect it n i kinda did, but i still didnt-

Also this little scene made me fucking cry, for real. But not the fact that Angel crying made me cry, but his line: "If i end up broken, I wont be his favourite toy anymore. And maybe he'll let me go.."

I dont know why this exact line made me cry, but it did and i think this is awesome, because they really made me care for Angel, even tho, again, ive never experienced such feelings so i cant relate to that, but i still feel so bad for him.

Ok can we talk about that Husk was AN OVERLORD??? I WAS LIKE: WHAAAAATT????

And OF COURSE that one Husk n Angels song. You already know how i feel about it so im not even gonna talk bout it! SIKE‼️I WILL!!!!! THIS SONG IS SO FRICKIN CUTE, THE FACT THAT HUSK STARTED TO JOKINGLY (or maybe not jokingly-) SAYING THAT ANGEL IS A LOSER TO BRIGHT HIM UP IS ACTUALLY SO SMART! THEYRE BOTH SO CUTE TOGETHER SINGING AND HOLDING HANDS FOR A LITTLE TOO MUCH!!! AND THIS SONG IS MUSICALLY ALSO SO AMAZING, ITS LITERALLY MY STYLE OF SONGS, MAYBE MY NEW FAV SONG I CANT REALLY TELL RN! And the meaning of this song is really good too. Whatever is happening to you, unless youre not alone, everything is better!

Andddd everything is ended quite good and wholesome! They came to the hotel, Charlie apoligized and everything is good!!

soooo yeah! Thats it i guess! Im pretty sure im gonna edit it if i remember something else i wanted to say, but thats it by now!

My review/thoughts on eps 1-2

My review/thoughts on eps 5-6

My review/thoughts on eps 7-8