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i think in deltarune's full game the original starwalker will be lore relevant but only in a joke way. something akin to napstablook being immune to asriel's soul thing, it'll be mentioned as a joke once but make you go "huh. weird". i think either they will be related to the titans (same star shape) or they will be related to the person who gives you eggs (appears in the room right before the egg room (i have a lot of thoughts on the egg room that i can't get into right now)). but even if i'm completely wrong, as i likely am, i am looking forward to seeing more of this character's cameos because so far it seems like they only appear if you do something you'd otherwise have no reason to. why would you backtrack to that random room? why would you give the gift to berdly? these definitely don't amount to anything but it's neat to think about, to me at least
#i lied i will get into the egg thing#every thing related to them is a callback to undertale!!!!!!!#only reason to go back to the bird room is to see the original starwalker which is a reference to the undertale savepoints#only way to even find it in ch2 is by seeing the undertale game over scene#if you see the man in the car as related (which he is) then that is also the same area where you can hear metalcrusher#after you hear it? before? i don't rember#and like. obviously it's hard to draw patterns from only 2 chapters but after all that#you give the eggs to undertale characters!!#what was i saying. this post escaped me#flavor text
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Jaiden: Cucurucho, you have a lot of power, right?
Cucurucho: ...I don't know. Maybe.
Roier: Ah... Yes, you know, don't act like a dumbass, you have it. You have it, man. Eh?
Jaiden: Is there a way for us to protect all the Eggs? Do you know? I don't want anything to happen to the Eggs that happened to Bobby.
Cucurucho: Ha ha ha
Roier: WHAT? [Smacks Cucurucho]
Jaiden: [Bops him] Headpats.
Cucurucho: Maybe.
Jaiden: [Continues to bop him] Headpats. C'mon, I can get it out of you! Headpats! Chin scratches! Belly rubs!
Roier: [Joins Jaiden in bopping Cucurucho, chuckling and laughs]
Jaiden: Yeah? He's comin' around!
[Jaiden and Roier both laugh]
#Jaiden Animations#Roier#Cucurucho#QSMP#Jaiden#Animations Family#There is. So much I could say about these three#and so much I could say about their relationship / interactions with Cucurucho and Osito Bimbo#Cards on the table... I really would have loved it if Cucurucho / Osito genuinely cared about Jaiden#I mean I know they DID care about her to some extent that much is clear#But they / the Federation were also ABSOLUTELY using her. I'm not arguing that they weren't#But how could anyone not be charmed by Jaiden? The boba the tea parties the head patsâ#The empathy and kindness and everything that made q!Jaiden who she wasâ#Cucurucho and Osito were tools of the Federation but I do want to believe they cared about Jaiden. Albeit in their own fricked up way#I dunno. I know this sounds like massive copium probably but I watched all of her and Roier's streams interacting with them#and I personally think that conflict and duality makes for a more interesting story#But that's just me and my own personal biases. I dunno how to properly put it into words but I am cradling them all close to my heart#I loved Cucurucho / Osito and I thought they were interesting and I'm SO SAD we'll never know what Jaiden did for them in the past#Anyways. For anyone who's read this far into my rantâ you know how Cucurucho saved the Eggs and Jaiden said she died in Purgatory?#I like imagining that she survived the bomb and wound up finding the Eggs in the aftermath#and she helped them survive until Cucurucho found them#I imagine that Jaiden was the reason they were able to escape from the Island / The Watcher / ElQuackity#She stayed behind to slow down their pursuers. And Cucurucho rescuing all the Eggs fulfilled his agreement with Jaidenâ#A promise to protect the Eggs#Like I said a lot of this is copium but that's what I like imagining#TLDR: Cucurucho / Osito did care about her in a weird way but that doesn't mean they weren't manipulating her#May 31 2023#Idk man I got a lot of emotions about q!Jaiden#Roier too but I feel like I've done way more analysis posts about him and Cucurucho. Jaiden needs time in the spotlight#Anyways there's my monthly tag rant
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I found this scene in particular so odd and out of place in the new episode. Apart from the fact that Stolas has no right to be angry at Blitz for "not saving him" when Striker kidnapped him nor to be upset that he didn't tell him about Striker's attempt at shooting him. In Loo Loo Land he's perfectly capable of defending himself (even when he hired Blitz for protection!), why is he complaining that an imp, the lowest class on the hierarchy isn't protecting one of the highest?
In that scene Stolas accuses Blitz of not understanding "how much he cared about him", but has he forgotten that he was the one who couldn't stand up not to Asmodeous nor to the accusations of him "sleeping with an imp"?
This reaction shows the actual opposite of what he's telling Blitz he did.
I read that Stolas is supposedly also not aware of ~things~ but why is the narrative conveniently forgetting about his faults as well?
Onto the "apology tour" subject: I fail to understand why Blitz owes Stolas an apology. The only time he was shitty to him was actually in Ozzie's when he asked him on a (fake) date without telling him all the story. But they didn't talk about that not during that episode neither during Apology Tour. Is it because doing this would have forced the narrative to acknowledge that also Stolas was at fault during that episode?
All the other times they interacted (on and off screen, their chats don't really mean anything since it seems that's the way Blitz writes in general), Blitz was being good to him (not that he had any other choice, due to their society ranks and their deal).
To me, this looks like bad writing. But if someone has a different take, I'm happy to hear their interpretation.
#helluva boss critical#helluva boss criticism#anti stolitz#stolitz critical#vivziepop critical#my first post on this critical tag...... wow..... i guess i can't escape my destiny#but since i liked the series during s1 i hope to get proved wrong actually????#i read a post about apology tour on my feed from a person i know saying omg stolas is so meee#and im like omg i do not want to interact with this person never again stolas was kind of toxic and manipulative in that ep#his words reminded me of what my ex used to tell me#can't you see how much i show you that i love you????#then proceded not to even send a small message of congratulations when i majored in my study course#he said that congratulating me would have made him âdeeply uncomfortableâ because he didn't major yet#when stolas said âyoure making me uncomfortableâ i was like wow i am triggered lmao
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it doesn't feel real to me fellas. but I don't have time to sit by and chat and unload unfortunately so I'll just drop this and be on my way, cya kind folks very soon âïž
not professional but I liked how his eye looked goddang it. I knew I was screwing myself but I did it anyway
#don't worry ill actually be screaming in my reblogs now and again if I dont get to make a post soon with my tremendous mound of m#messy words#guyzđ« i watched it 3 days ago and i still cant believe it happened#it's definetly cause i dropped out of the anticipation train for the last like what 5 months? just slapped me like a truck with a hand#bb jeezez christ im so happy fellas it's so goofy and best of all it feels safe(I COULD BE VERY WRONG)#ya know me tho. things in life be pretty tough so i keep my hoping and optimisim for the escapism spaces đđ#anyway i can't stick around and tag ramble im afriad. if i don't come back soon#at the very least count on me during the summer!#.... but also no way im not atleast watching what everyone will be saying about this season#i have an ambition to draw something small after every episode release. so we'll see!#kuroshitsuji#black butler#kuroshitsuji fanart#fanart#sebastian michaelis#ciel phantomhive#digital art#weston college arc#black butler anime#kuroshitsuji anime#kuroshitsuji: kishuku gakkou hen
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how we should be naming our minecraft builds, a helpful guide by Cait Machina
#inspired by elmhat's tags on an ask we sent to the mcyt builds contest#this is not a vaguepost however it did get me to draw something and that was fun!#anyway this also quickly turned into a shitpost so it is what it is. go read piranesi#shoutout to vikingpilot for naming the Ghostâs Vault that and having it be actually a vault. 10/10 no notes#just like this post probably#yt#misc#orig#art#also yeah ill concede the original pandora was in fact a vault#but i don't believe people who say the other prisons are also vaults. nuh uh. definitionally NOT what they are doing#those are escape rooms/puzzleboxes
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banging my head against the wall every time I see someone reblogging a post of mine with tags mentioning the âunrequited confessionâ. we have been OVER this it is NOT a case of unrequited romantic love it is completely canonically up in the air as a possibility. listen to jayden revri himself and be enlightened i am begging you
#rambling#payneland#also getting recommended posts with this rhetoric fhdhfjdhd itâs just annoying cause itâs like. misinformation#if that scene was actually a rejection Iâd feel a lot worse about this show as a whole like really it Matters that itâs not#do you really think Superhell 2: Escape From Superhell would be a good idea. because I feel like theyâre actively trying to counter those#kinds of damaging or at least exhausting and overdone queer tropes#tragic unrequited gay boy hopelessly in love with his best friend suffering forever because heâs gay#is. exactly the kind of exhausting overdone queer trope that almost unequivocally makes me lose a lot of respect for a show#so it is very very very important to me that this is. not that. and the actors have cemented that fact openly#pleaseâŠâŠâŠ..please just listen to the words being saidâŠâŠâŠdonât conflate uncertainty with rejectionâŠâŠ..take my hand#thatâs not to say edwin didnât TAKE it as a rejection. because based on what he says to niko he absolutely did#which will make it all the more juicy when what he thinks is impossible starts to become real and within reach. eventually. hopefully#also- less explicit- but Charlesâ hand-on-heart thing after their last hug⊠like you really donât have to be a film major#(saying this as a film major) to deduce what that means and what its calling back to. itâs pretty easy to put 2+2 together there#but anyway. I digress
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I genuinely believe Naksu haunts the narrative. Her actions and existence as Naksu heavily impact the entire story. Her past, the life she lived and the shadow of it in Mudeok. But we don't actually know any of it because Naksu is not in the story.
Like. What she lost as Cho Yeong is something that we are never allowed to forget, the loss of her body, her powers, her freedom, and her impending death as a soul shifter hangs over Mudeok's head like guillotine.
All the while we don't actually know the Shadow Assassin Naksu, she died in the first episode, as soon as the story began. Other than training and killing (soul shifters) what kind of person was she when she didn't have to rely on another person else or hide or live as someone else? We don't know and we don't ever learn any of that.
Still, her absence is the plot, yet her former existence as Naksu influences everything; Yul's actions and what she was to him, Jang Uk's goal of returning her powers, the revelation of soul shifters to Park Jin, Jang Gang's departure, Jin Mu's accomplishments, the King's Star even.
Everything is about her existence but she doesn't actually exist at all anymore.
#before anyone disagrees she declares naksu dead in ep 5 or something and tell yul the person he knew no longer exists in ep 19#naksu is dead but the shadow of her hangs over everything#what could have been and what wasn't is mourned in nearly episode#alchemy of souls#also im not saying one life is better than the other but there is always this sense of loss in mudeok that is never forgotten by the story#SHE DESERVED TO LIVE AS HERSELF#Also for me its the tragedy of all of it that makes the show so good#like dont get me wrong im certifiably insane over the romance and would be very happy with the ending offered but even the then the best pa#*the happy ending offered in ep19#is that#she escaped the circle of tragedy shes been trapped in#and has so many people that she loves and cares for now and how those ppl care for her just as much#this post is brought to you by: my mutual and i finally finishing our rewatch
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Jennifer nearly jumped into the water / and she was tired like no one's ever been tired
#myart#wesley crusher#jennifer is on her way home. then she remembers her life is like a nightmare!!!!#geniunelyyyy thinking about the post-first duty years of wesleys life is so miserable.#he killed his best friend and ruined his friendship with everyone else and lost picards respect (the only thing he ever cared about)#and then you just. dont hear about him at all for 2 years.#trying to capture the extremely specific existential dread of knowing something is deeply wrong in your life but not being able to change.#JUST THE LOOK OF A YOUNG MAN WHOS PROFOUNDLY UNHAPPY AND DOESNT EVEN KNOW WHY!!!#the quote from that novel. where he says âjaxa knew better than the rest of us the only way to escape this thing was to dieâ. ITS SICK!!#like leaving starfleet was not even on his radar until journeys end. he didnt even consider that as an option. so what could he do.#man. theres a reason for the prominently placed golden gate bridge. jennifer nearly jumped into the water.... cuz she got no way to get out#the photos in the bg are him and picard. jack. two of joshie (the ski tripppppp) him and bev and the entire nova squadron up top#do i think he would have his room this nicely decorated while horribly depressed NO!!! it was just for the compostion of the piece#like trying so hard to keep up appearances. being surrounded by pictures of all the people who love him and still not able to get out.#some of the papers lying around the desk are like. intended to be letters to bev that he just gave up on writing.#OKAY sorry i just wanted to finish this before i leave tomorrow. i spent such a stupid amount of time on this. never again#you people should always talk to me forever about my friend wesley . im soooo normal. lies facedown on floor#OH AND THE VERY SPECIFIC. EMOTION. LYING ON BED IN FULL UNIFORM. WE'VE ALLLL BEEN THERE.
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nessa in the bun suit
#my art#what r my tags for her. god#vanessa#vanessa fnaf#fnaf vanessa#vanessa sb#sb vanessa#fnaf#security breach#i always forget to main tag my nonđđ art lolz#anywayy i wanted to draw her in the bunny suit But i also wanted to show that i Respect Women so here she is HHDKAJGJD#but i still gave her a jacket and a belt so she wouldnt feel so naked..#the fishnets r torn at her thighs not bc if anything naughty but because thick thighs are the natural enemy of thin pants like those#like i have so many ripped leggings. ANYWAYYYYY#those shoes and feet were hellish to draw. ugh. but hopefully i've convinced everyone that i actually definitely know how to draw them ^_^#also her hair is rlly messy and curly here because i accidentally made it really messy and curly. bc i like how it looks#i personally think the pose is really clever on my part. it resembles a cutesy anime pose but only bc she's trying to take the heels off#and ig you could say smth about how this whole drawing is abt a forced performance of femininity. and abt nessa trying to escape it#but that just makes me sound like im overthinking it HFKAKGKS i just have strong feelings abt how oversexualized she is#i hope everyone enjoys reading a whole entire essay in the tags everytime i post bc im not stopping anytime soon
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i'm tired i'm too tired to keep approaching people individually and i'm kinda done. i'm just gonna say this publicly once, please read this. the situation over here rn isn't about palestinians fighting for their human rights and freedom, if it were i would support it. the attacks on israel are by a terrorist organization named Hamas and you're more than welcome to look them up-their ideology is: number one that they see the muslim people as entitled to the land of israel/palestine (which i am not going to argue about, i don't agree nor disagree on that i quite literally don't care about that conversation), and number two that they need to kill jews. i'm not paraphrasing that's in their literal "covenant"- again, look it up- that they strive to kill all jewish people and see it as their obligation to do so. i hate this country and its government with every fiber of my being and the things israel has done (and still does) to palestinians are absolutely horrible and condemnable. with that said, the attacks rn aren't about that. they're not by palestinian citizens, they're by the terrorist group known as hamas. they do things that could not ever be done in the name of fighting for human rights or self-preservation. i am critical of israel but 1,100 innocent israeli civilians are dead since saturday. some are people i know and care about. so many were kidnapped and tortured. this IS complicated and you SHOULD educate yourself proparly on the matter before speaking and yes before reblogging random posts too. your opinion is your own but you must have the proper information before preaching it.
reblog this, don't reblog this, i don't really care anymore. but i had to say something.
#i swear to you you do not want to know what they are currently doing to israeli citizens. it is horrifying. if you do want to know you can-#-google it at your own discretion. or you can ask me and i'll tell you but it really is so so awful. i do not recommend it.#and mutuals: PLEASE AT LEAST TAG PALESTINE. THANK YOU.#israel#palestine#i love how in my introduction post i say that i don't speak politics. i didn't want to and i still don't want to. but-#-there is no escaping this.#i do think this is important information that a lot of people don't seem to have so i do think yall should reblog this. but do whatever-#-feels right to you obviously.#.....anyway#netalk
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sometimes, we have to have a day where we allow ourselves to do absolutely nothing because we are emotionally stuck. nothing seems right, and everything seems dreadfully mundane. you feel like youâre the only person on the planet (while also feeling like the world is spinning without you).
sometimes, distracting ourselves 24/7 with productivity stops us from realizing what we need. i hate that we have become a society where everything we do has to be commodified.
why canât we be okay just doing ânothingâ tasks? you donât always have to be pursuing something. what happened to taking a few mins out to do that thing that feels like ânothingâ but makes you happy? like whatâs wrong with playing sims or taking a nap? whatâs wrong with accepting that some days just donât work and thereâs nothing wrong with accepting that???
likeâŠburnout is so real. ppl tell us to stay inspired and ~keep going~ but you have to have the energy and the presence to do so. like in all of us the spark is there, but we donât have the capacity to nurse it.
better to let that fire burn organically (and light it again when you have time and energyâŠ) as often as you can than to rush every second and not even know youâre at the end of the wick.
#on the other end of it there is unhealthy escapism but thatâs not what this post is abt#i just genuinely hate how older adults specifically also have this weird idea of what nothin looks like#like I always say: the things that are nurtured and encouraged as kids are shitted on as adults#this may not even make sense but thatâs why i wrote it for me idk#at the end of the day life is gonna be whatever I make it and I choose to let my fire burn on MY TIME#even if that time is objectively âwastedâ. at least my days are longer#words#recovery#burnout#imposter syndrome#depression#chronic illness#actually adhd
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I think it's interesting that when Gandalf describes Denethor's ability to "perceive, if he bends his will thither, much of what is passing in the minds of men," he ties it less to his wisdom or general insightfulness (though he possesses both) than to his difference from "other men of this time," his near total NĂșmenĂłreanness, and as bolded here, the active exercise of his will.
Tolkien also attributes Denethor's resilience against Sauron (by contrast with Saruman) to not only his right to use the Anor-stone, but "great strength of will." He notes that Sauron had no servant with greater mental powers than Saruman or Denethor, and Gandalf remarks that Denethor was "too great" to be subdued to Sauron's will.
Denethor and Gandalf have a strange and unsettling silent confrontation, carried on by their gazes, yet it strikes Pippin as like "a line of smouldering fire" and "as if reading each other's mind." Gandalf afterwards says Pippin was stuck between two "terrible old men," lumping Denethor in with himself. Pippin also sees some kind of kinship between Denethor and Gandalf, as Sam saw between Faramir and Gandalf.
In his letters, Tolkien said that the ancient NĂșmenĂłreans became barely distinguishable from Elves in appearance and in their powers of mind. In Unfinished Tales, he notes that they loved their horses, and when a NĂșmenĂłrean had a strong bond with a horse, it was said that the horse could be summoned "by thought alone."
In LOTR, Faramirâwho has inherited Denethor's NĂșmenĂłreanness/wizardlinessâhas a reputation for command over both animals and men. When everyone else is thrown by their horses upon being chased by five NazgĂ»l, he not only keeps his seat, but mysteriously gets his horse to ride back towards the NazgĂ»l. And during the retreat across the Pelennor, the soldiers in the city conclude that Faramir must be with the men who are managing to retreat in order, repeating Beregond's remark that he has some undefined command over both men and beasts.
Gandalf suggests that this is a result of Faramir pitting himself against the effects of the Nazgûl in some way, but his abilities (whatever they are) are outmatched. In the event, the effect of Faramir's Aura of Courage commanding abilities remains until he's shot and finally falls to the Black Breath.
Faramir also makes repeated references to perceiving or reading things in Gollum's mind. At one point, he describes Gollum's mind as dark and closed, yet unable to prevent Faramir from detecting that he's holding something back about Cirith Ungol specifically. Noticeably, this only happens when Faramir orders Gollum to look at him (which Gollum does "unwillingly"), and the light drains from his eyes as he meets Faramir's. It seems decidedly reminiscent of the later Gandalf vs Denethor duel-by-eye-contact.
Faramir's exact words about Gollum's secrecy are "That much I perceived clearly in his mind," in reference to his earlier questioning of him. He says that he can "read" previous murders in Gollum and Gollum cries out in pain when he tries to lie to him.
When Faramir gives staves to Frodo and Sam, he says that a "virtue" of finding and returning has been placed on them, with zero explanation of what he means by that. He adds a hope that the virtue will not altogether fail under Sauron's power in Mordor. He describes the people who did the woodwork but not who placed the virtues (it doesn't seem inherent to the wood itself, given his phrasing).
We do know that DĂșnedain can potentially embed enchantments into items. The Barrow-daggers carried by Merry and Pippin are specifically enchanted against the Witch-king of Angmar by an unknown DĂșnadan of the North, and when Merry stabs the Witch-king, the dagger breaks enough spells for Ăowyn's ordinary sword to finish the job.
Meanwhile, Aragorn uses his healing powers to help the city, wishing for the presence of Elrond, because he is their eldest of their kind and more powerful. Aragorn, also, has at least some part of this ability to actively exercise his will and mental powers, perhaps an equal share, though he uses it less often.
In the book, he doesn't physically attack the Mouth of Sauron, but instead holds his gaze (again, eye contact is important!). There's another silent struggle that involves no weaponry or any other contact.
He prevails in some way over the Mouth of Sauron (not a warped creature of Sauron in the book, but a cruel NĂșmenĂłrean who has "learned great sorcery"). The Mouth indignantly says he has diplomatic immunity and can't be attacked like this.
But, I mean, maybe they're all just smart and perceptive, it's really unclear.
#eldritch dĂșnedain WHEN#because i am very aware that this could be deeply unsettling if presented just a bit differently!#but it is wild to me that tolkien can outright say 'this guy is a nĂșmenĂłrean who learned sorcery'#and people are still like 'but can nĂșmenĂłreans use magic. i guess we'll never know.'#or have faramir give his whole speech about what gollum's mind looks like to him and what he can see clearly in it#fandom: idk it's just really unclear#gandalf: denethor can see what happens in other people's minds if he exercises his will#fandom: a great mystery ... maybe he's just very wise and insightful???#tolkien: the dĂșnadan who enchanted the daggers would be happy to know his spells worked and helped defeat the witch-king#fandom: nĂșmenĂłrean craftmanship is /skilled/ of course but how can we make this about elves#honestly it seems like people don't /want/ nĂșmenĂłreans to have supernatural abilities and i'm not sure why#humans who have elvish-style powers and appearance yet can never escape their humanity is SUCH a concept#(yes i will harp on this until the end of time)#anghraine babbles#legendarium fanwank#legendarium blogging#long post#hĂșrinionath
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No one is asking you to like cops IRL, not even the show. If you look at Arcane and what you see is copaganda, if you look at Cait and only see PoLiCe OfFiCeR and not the character, the problem is YOU.
1. I never said anyone asked me to like cops irl
2. I know thatâs what I said.
#I was gonna make a long drawn out response specifying or whatever but the post is very self explanatory#idk if I see it as a#âproblemâ but like yeah thatâs literally the point of the post#I already have to extend Grace sympathy and understanding to police irl being black in the south#Iâm not doing it for a show I like for a character I tolerate#like the surface level analysis I do of Caitlyn has her as a well written character#I donât care to delve any deeper than that unless itâs about how she interacts with or shapes characters I like lmao#And the characters I like are doing thing that I wish I could see more of irl#I think I made a post a while ago about how fandom as escapism for me is difficult bc the way I interact w/ media is shaped by my real life#and since fandom is majority white they just donât get it and refuse to#this might be part of that#like idc about the redeemed bigot thereâs enough of those in my spaces already#Iâm sure theyâre very sad and important and educational for you but I donât care#one more time for anon I ME THATS JUST ME ALONE NOBODY ELSE JUST ME! I donât care#uhm in conclusion cry about it?#WAAAAIT#I also never said arcane was copaganda#I quite literally specified my issues are w/ fans who canât spare a single thought for a black characters thatâs not âheâs so obsessed with#sad white girl 5â#again idc enough to think about the enforcers beyond what they mean to ekko or Mel#depends on s2 but so far#well now Iâm thinking do I think itâs copaganda?#from a character standpoint maybe not but like any show thatâs wants me to believe or root for a grown ass woman who didnât realize cops#were bad. like thereâs a lot of yâall irl but itâs a show yknow?#they diiid have that Caitlyn ekko fight and ekko was clearly correct but again the results of that are more fandom bias#um idk Iâll have to rewatch maybe! but I#did nooot say arcane was copaganda in the og post like I said I quite literally spoke on how I felt#oh but the way vi broke up that fight#hem hawwwww#conclusion vi wants to be copaganda for coochie but her common sense stops her from being completely stupid đ sad đ
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Maybe it's just the autism talking but I feel so very inhuman right now? Does that make any sense? Like a creature desperate to get out of this skin, a skin that does not quite feel like my own. I stretch my body and feel that I cannot quite stretch it enough. I do not have the patience for tapping, scratching, high joyful voices and I'd rather not talk at all. A growl itches to get out deep in my throat. My eyes feel heavy, disturbed by bright lights. Everything is just a little too loud. I am a moment away from snapping like a wild animal and I don't know what to think of such a feeling. I have the strange urge to wander into the woods and simply not return. I want to lay here with closed eyes and not a thought in my head. I do not wish for death itself, but rather the concept and the feeling of laying beneath the Earth.
#too many things to think about#to concern myself with#I just want to escape it for a few days#why is that so much to ask?#autism#probably#actually autistic#I dunno do I even tag this at all?#why bother#do I really want to lay bare my soul to the world?#eh I say that as though exactly one person won't like this post and that's the only interaction I'll get#no point in worrying what people think of me
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have you read DMMD or do you occasionally aobapost just for the meme?
and if you did, who's your favorite character?
oh I don't actually read visual novels, it's kind of a common misconception, but I just click through them and absorb the information so I can make posts
also unfortunately I like koujaku, but he's tied with noiz usually
#disregard what it says in the body of the post my actual answer is Clear and it's not even close#I just wanted to maintain the respect of my insane mutuals and to pretend to have nuanced taste#and also to make sure that the version of this post that could theoretically escape containment wouldn't be me saying 'oh I like Clear'
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Supernatural 13.20 Unfinished Business
#can't get over 'he used me he debased me until I was-' (and he can't even finish it). spn writers s'il vous plait the hell#too many things to talk about at once#this episode gives us so much in 43 minutes and I don't even know where to start#if I analyze on the post I'll be here 12 paragraphs later breaking down the minutia of Speight's fantastic performance this entire episode#long story short what they're saying in this scene is:#gabriel: asmodeus tortured me (I will kill them) (I know it won't fix me) (I don't care) (Loki is mine. this is mine.)#sam: I understand (of course I would take a shot at lucifer) (I'm ready to die) (I want to die) (did I ever escape? will I ever escape?)#dean: revenge is a waste of time (with me with dad it only ends ugly) (I tried) (I'm always trying to change it) (I can never change it)#supernatural#spnedit#spn#spndaily#supernaturaldaily#supernaturaledit#spn gifs#sam winchester#dean winchester#archangel gabriel#gabriel supernatural#the trickster#spn season 13#my edits#something about how they never joke about asmodeus. or late seasons lucifer. now that they know them they know how bad it is#and sam immediately 'i know' vs. 'haha lucifer wearing sam to the prom' from s4-s5#sam what happened to you in hell. dean what happened to you in hell. daddy's girl broke in 30 and the reject son has never been right
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