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I saw the new event and it want to participate, If it is not too much trouble, I would like to request:
Type: One Shot Prompt: FRIENDS TO LOVERS: "But [Silver]… we are friends." "…Yes, but–" "But I would very much like to be more than friends." Character: Silver (Twst) x Fem Prefect
Idea: I was thinking of a scenario where Silver and the prefect become increasingly closer by spending time together in the forest behind the campus (where the ancient tree is)
It's just an idea, if my order doesn't convince you, you can discard it, but if not, take your time and don't pressured. Thanks. Bye! <3
Inexplicably Drawn to You
In which your unexpected friendship with the man you met in the forest turns into something more.
Pairing: Silver x Fem!Reader
Prompt: "But [Character Name]... we are friends." "...Yes, but–" "But I would very much like to be more than friends."
A/N: Hello! Thank you for sending your request! Writing stories is one of the main reasons why I made this blog three years ago, so I appreciate every request I receive in my inbox ^^
I apologize for posting this late. The editing part took a while since this became quite long. I hope you enjoy this story!
Other notes: Reader is Yuu/prefect; uses Y/N in place of a name
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It was purely a coincidence meeting him that day.
You have always been drawn to the forest—its lush canopy and the whispers of its inhabitants always leaving you in awe. So when you discovered the forest behind Night Raven's campus, you were so eager to free your schedule for a visit.
And when the time finally came, it was everything you've ever imagined. The forest was peaceful and quiet; a perfect place to take a break from the usual chaos surrounding you.
You were so busy admiring the place that you didn't notice what was in front of you and you tripped.
Something, or rather, someone, was lying on the ground where you were walking.
You wanted to say something to the stranger who made you trip, but the serene look on his face made you think otherwise.
Looking closely, the man, who was sleeping as you noticed, was quite handsome. Him, adding the tranquil backdrop the forest provided, made for a spectacular sight. Just like—
"Like a prince from a storybook..." you murmured.
Just then, the stranger opened his eyes and met yours, making you jump.
"...Um, hi?" you waved awkwardly as the man continued to stare at you.
He blinked for a few moments before sitting upright.
In a groggy voice, he asked, "What time is it?"
"Time? Well..." you paused for a moment to think. "I've been here for about 30 minutes now, and I came here at around 4 PM, so I'm guessing it's already 4:30 PM."
The man widened his eyes and stood up.
"I slept on for too long. I must hurry, or I'll be late. Thank you for your assistance."
He bowed, and before you could even say anything, he had already left.
You could only blink at how quickly everything had happened.
"What'cha up to, Prefect?"
You flinched when two hands suddenly grabbed you by the shoulders.
"Ace! You almost gave me a heart attack!" you shrilled.
"Haha, you shoulda seen the look on your face— ow! What the hell, dude! What was that for?"
Ace frowned at Deuce, who only sighed at his classmate's behavior.
"You shouldn't scare people like that, Ace." He then turned to look at you. "Anyways, what are you doing, Prefect?"
"Nothing much. I'm just drawing," you smiled, showing your sketchpad to the two.
"Woah, you're pretty damn good at this," Ace marveled as he looked through the pages.
"I didn't know you can draw," said Deuce.
You shrugged. "It's just one of my pastime hobbies."
"Ooh, who's this guy?" Ace pointed the latest illustration in your sketchpad.
It was the sleeping man you met in the forest.
"I don't know," you answered, taking your sketchpad back from Ace's hands.
"What do you mean "you don't know"?"
"I just told you. I don't know." You started to put away your stuff in your bag. "I never asked his name."
Ace raised a brow on your statement. "So you drew a guy you don't know? Like what, you got a crush on him or something?"
"Wha-?! No!" you sputtered. "I just thought he's pretty, okay? And I like drawing pretty things."
"Riiiight..." The ginger-haired teen smirked.
"I told you, that's not it!" you screeched, your cheeks slowly reddening at Ace's teasing.
But the boy only laughed at your reaction. Even Deuce couldn't help but laugh too.
You can only sigh in frustration. "Ugh, you guys are terrible!"
"I swear, those two..." you grumbled as you drew the wild anemone you found.
"Oh, it's you..."
"Huh?"
You whipped your head towards the voice. It was the man your friends were teasing you with earlier.
"Oh, hello..." you greeted.
"What are you doing?" he tilted his head as he asked.
"I'm just— drawing! Yes, just drawing this this flower here," you said, opting not to voice out the reason of your grumbling.
"I see..." the man replied.
The silence that followed was long. You thought the man had already left, but to your surprise, he crouched down beside you.
Unable to take it any longer, you spoke. "So, did you get there on time?"
"Hm? Oh, you mean the last time we met. Yes, I did. And it's all thanks to you."
You waved your hand. "There's no need to thank me. Besides, you've already thanked me before."
"But still... if it wasn't for you, I wouldn't have woken up in time for my club activity."
"Ah." You recalled tripping over him the first time you met. "Sorry for tripping over you, by the way."
"It's alright," he replied.
".........."
".........."
Another moment of silence.
"Say," you started. "Do you come here often?"
The man nodded. "I find the forest calming."
You looked down at the wild anemone in front of you. "I see... I hope I'm not causing too much trouble for you."
"Not at all. How about you? Do you visit here often too?"
"When the time allows me to," you responded. "Though I try my best to visit as much as I can."
You turned to look at him.
"Since it's most likely that we'll run into each other a lot here, it's probably best to know each other's names, right?"
Reaching out a hand, you smiled. "I'm Y/N, and you are...?"
"Silver. My name is Silver."
"It's very nice to meet you, Silver."
From that day on, spending your time in the forest with Silver became a common occurrence.
True to his appearance, he was nothing short of a gentleman to you, always making sure you were doing fine during your visits.
You learned that he was a second-year student from Diasomnia and that he was part of the Equestrian Club with Riddle, and along with a first-year named Sebek, he is training to become a retainer for Malleus Draconia, the heir apparent of Briar Valley.
You felt at ease with him, grateful that you found a person aside from your first-year friends to open up to.
And he would always lend an ear to listen to your stories.
You found his presence comforting, just like the forest that has now become a special place for the two of you.
It didn't take long before the feelings of friendship you felt for him had developed into something more.
"Alright, I'm gonna do it."
You announced, clenching your hands with determination.
"Huh? What are you talking about?" Ace asked.
"I'm gonna tell him I like him."
"Finally!" the gingerhead cheered. "I was getting sick of hearing you pine for him every day, to be honest— ack! Dude, you've gotta stop hitting me at the back of my head!"
"I'll stop once you stop being so rude," Deuce replied. "I'll be rooting for you, Prefect!"
You smiled. "Thanks, Deuce. I'll be off then!"
Giving them a small wave, you rushed to the second-years' classrooms, your heart pounding with hope and excitement.
However, that feeling will soon be crushed as soon as you reached your destination.
"This is it, right?"
You panted as you read the sign above the doorframe: "2-A"
You were about to knock when you heard people talking inside, making you pause.
"...Are you two dating?"
"...No, we're not."
You blinked, hearing Silver among the voices you heard.
"The Prefect and I are only good friends, nothing more."
Oh.
Your gaze fell on the floor.
Of course, what were you thinking? It's not like he was doing all those things when you were together because he sees you as more than a friend. It was you who gave those gestures a different meaning.
Laughing bitterly to yourself, you made the walk back to Ramshackle.
"So, how did it go?"
Along with Deuce and Grim, Ace greeted you with his signature grin the moment you walked in Ramshackle's common room.
You could only give them a bittersweet smile in return.
"What, don't tell me you got— mmph!"
Covering Grim's mouth with his free hand, Ace threw a bag of chips in your direction. "You know what? Screw that guy. He doesn't even know what he's missing out on."
"Y-yeah, Ace is right," Deuce chimed in. "Don't worry, Prefect. We're here for you."
After a moment, you sighed, feeling an immense gratefulness for your two friends.
"Thanks, you guys."
"Y-yeah, sure..."
"Pwah! Alright, that's enough! Are we gonna eat these snacks or what?" Grim exclaimed, having wriggled out of Ace's grip.
"Oi, Grim! Don't you dare eat all of the snacks this time, you hear me?" Ace turned to look at your furry roommate, who was already stuffing his mouth full.
Letting out a small laugh, you sat beside Deuce who only shook his head as the other two in the room continued bickering.
You really are lucky to have them as friends.
"Oh..."
You softly gasped as you bumped into the person you have been avoiding all week: Silver.
"Ah... hello, Prefect. You must be here for Professor Crewel's class."
"Y-yes, I am..." you replied awkwardly. "And you? What are you doing here in the lab?"
"Oh, you haven't heard yet? The first-years and second-years will be having a joint class today."
"Really...?" You felt your stomach drop. "I see..."
In that moment, Professor Crewel entered the room. "Alright, puppies, take your seats."
"As I have explained yesterday, we will be making Morpheus's Elixir for today's class. However, as this is a fairly complicated potion, I have assigned to your group a second-year who will guide you in making the potion. Failure to make the potion will cause you to take a remedial class, understood?"
"Yes, sir!"
"Then I will assign your guides now. Group 1..."
"For Y/N's group, Silver here will be your guide."
"What?!" you exclaimed.
Professor Crewel narrowed his eyes at your sudden outburst. "Do you have any problem with the assignment, Miss Y/N?"
"Ah— no, sir. I apologize."
After Crewel left your table, you sighed. Just your rotten luck, you thought.
"Are you alright, Prefect?" Silver asked.
"Huh? Oh, yes, I'm fine! Never been better!"
"Are you sure—?"
"Yep! We should probably start making the potion now. Let's see..." you cut him off, changing the topic to your current activity.
"We need one teaspoon of stardust powder, three dried lavender spikes, five drops of midnight blue extract, one moondrop piece, and one cup of milk."
Before you could put the ingredients in the cauldron, someone grabbed your hands to stop you.
"Wait! Don't dump them in the cauldron all at once."
"Huh?"
It was Silver. You immediately moved your hands away from his, as if you'd be burned if you don't.
"Ah, sorry. The instruction said to boil them together," you said sheepishly.
"You're right. But the ingredients won't mix together properly if you just put them together."
Pouring the cup of milk in the cauldron, Silver continued to explain.
"You have to heat up the milk in low heat first. Once it starts to steam, put the stardust and ground moondrop piece gradually."
He then gave the moondrop to your group mate. "Ground this and the lavender, if you please."
"Wow... you're really good at this," you marveled, watching the purplish blue potion sparkle as you gently stirred it.
Silver smiled. "Not really... I just happened to be familiar with this potion since I used to make them whenever my father gets his bouts of nightmares."
"I see..."
After a moment, Silver spoke once again.
"I haven't seen you visit the forest for a while now..."
"Oh..." you paused. "I was just...busy, y'know... between doing the headmage's biddings, schoolwork, and keeping an eye on Grim, I haven't found the time to visit."
That was a lie, of course.
You just simply haven't had the strength to face him yet after overhearing the conversation he had with his classmate.
You wouldn't admit that to him, though.
"Then... will you be visiting today?"
"I'm... not sure."
"Oh..."
"......."
The space between the two of you were filled with thick silence which lasted until the end of the class.
Silver sighed as he put the cauldron away in the cabinet.
For some reason, you've been avoiding him for several days now.
Did he do something to offend you?
Mulling over the possible reasons of your avoidance, he left the lab and found you talking to one of your classmates.
He was about to say goodbye when he heard the boy shout.
"Prefect! I-I... I like you! Please go out with me!"
Silver remained quiet as he saw the scene unfold before him. It made his stomach churn, much to his confusion.
His eyes then shifted to you.
"Oh— um... thank you, but I can't," you replied.
He released a breath he didn't know he was keeping. How odd...
Suddenly, the boy grabbed your arm, making you wince.
"C-can't you give me just one chance? I promise I'll be good to you!"
"Wait, stop—"
"Hey."
Before he could think, Silver found yanking your classmate's hand from your arm, inserting himself between you and him.
"I believe the Prefect had already given her answer."
"Silver..."
"Tch, fine..." the boy said, irritated as he raised his hands in defeat and walked away.
After making sure he was out of sight, Silver turned to you. "Are you alright?"
"Y-yeah... I was just a little surprised, is all," you replied, rubbing the arm your classmate grabbed earlier.
He frowned. Your classmate must've gripped too hard that it even left a mark.
"Has this been happening to you regularly?"
"No, this is the first time this happened, actually."
He paused, eyeing your arm before speaking again. "Do you have somewhere else to be today?"
"No, I don't. Why?
"Then let me escort you back to Ramshackle Dorm."
"Huh?! You don't need to do that!"
However, he only shook his head. "I can't let you walk alone after that. Please, I insist."
After a few more convincing, Silver finally persuaded you into letting him walk you back home.
He sighed in relief as the two of you managed to reach Ramshackle without incident.
"Thank you for walking me back," you said as you opened the front door.
"Of course."
Suddenly, the familiar gingerhead appeared.
"Hey, Prefect!" Ace greeted. "...And Silver?!"
"Wait, Silver's here?"
Another familiar face appeared. This time, it was Deuce.
"Hey guys."
"Hello."
The two Heartslabyul students exchanged looks before looking at the prefect, who sighed.
"He insisted on walking me back."
"Okay..." Ace narrowed his eyes in suspicion.
"Trappola, Spade." Silver turned to the two card soldiers. "Can I speak with you two? Please."
The gingerhead raised a brow before looking at the prefect.
"Do what you want. I'll be going inside and sleep." You waved your hand and went inside.
"Sure..."
"Say what?!"
The two blurted after Silver told them what happened earlier.
"I can't believe he did that..." Ace sighed.
"Yeah, that guy's gonna pay for that... No man should force a woman to do what he wants," Deuce cracked his knuckles as he spoke.
"Please, calm down, there's no need to retaliate. I will speak to the teachers regarding this. I only ask you to keep the Prefect company, in case something like this happens again."
"Say..." Ace suddenly turned to Silver, his eyes serious. "Why are you doing this?"
Silver's brow furrowed in confusion. "What do you mean?"
"I'm asking why are you doing all this effort for the Prefect? Don't get me wrong, we're still gonna do what you asked us to, I just don't get why you asked us for help too? Most people in this school would just tell the teachers what happened and go their merry way at best, but you even walked her home to make sure she arrived safely. What does the Prefect truly mean to you?"
He was taken aback at the first-year's question. "The Prefect is a precious friend of mine and—"
Ace scoffed, cutting him off mid-sentence. "Yeah, right."
"Ace! Don't be rude!" Deuce scolded. "I'm so sorry for my dorm mate's actions. He's only worried for our friend. Don't worry, we'll make sure the Prefect is safe."
Silver stared at Ace, who was scowling, for a moment before turning to Deuce.
"Thank you. And Ace?"
"What?"
"I know you're worried for the Prefect, but I promise you, I would never do anything to hurt her."
He then slightly bowed and left.
"Oh, Silver. Welcome back."
"Hello. What are you guys doing?"
Silver eyed his two dorm mates curiously.
"Oh, I'm just helping this guy write a love letter for his crush, the Ramshackle prefect," the first student replied.
"Hey! Don't tell him that!" the second student shrieked.
"...You like the Prefect?" Silver asked.
"Oh, he's absolutely smitten. Wouldn't stop talking about how cute and nice she is. I got sick of it so I told him to write a letter instead."
"I told you, stop! I don't need everybody to know my business!"
"Hey, speaking of which, you're a friend of the Prefect, right?" Student No. 1 smiled. "Mind helping this guy to ask his crush out?"
Ask the Prefect out...?
Silver felt his his chest twinge with unease.
As much as he'd like to help his dorm mates out, the Prefect is his friend. And she just experienced something terrible with love confessions earlier. If he helped them out, that might make her uncomfortable, and—
"O-on second thought..."
Student No. 1's voice broke him out of his stupor.
The man, who was looking paler by the minute, continued. "You must be busy with other things. Please, forget we asked!"
Grabbing his friend's arm, he rushed out of the room, leaving the unfinished love letter on the table.
Silver could only stare at the doorway in confusion.
"My, no wonder those two look like they saw a ghost. Why the frown?"
He turned to look at the new arrival.
"Father..."
Lilia smiled, before noticing the unattended letter on the table.
"What's this? A love letter?"
Silver nodded. "Those two left it behind."
"Young love... How nice." The older fae giggled. "Who's the recipient?"
"...The Ramshackle prefect."
"Oh... You mean your friend whom you met in the woods?"
"Yes."
Silver frowned at the letter in his adoptive father's hand.
"Are you upset that she's receiving a lot of attention from her admirers?"
Lilia waved the paper in his hand. "You've been staring at this like it's your greatest enemy."
"Oh..."
He let out a sigh. "I'm just worried about her."
Lilia raised a brow, urging him to continue.
"One of her admirers physically harassed her earlier. Who knows what might've happened if I wasn't there to intervene."
"Oh my..." Lilia scowled. "How distasteful. Is she alright?"
"Yes. I escorted her home to make sure she's safe."
The bat fae nodded. "That's good."
"And then there's that..."
Silver paused, unsure of what to say next.
"What do you mean?" Lilia asked.
"For some reason, I feel... restless." Silver ran a hand through his hair. "Like I want to hide her away from the others. Especially when I heard that student talk about her like that."
"Hoh..." Lilia hummed, his eyes filled with intrigue. "...Are you sure what you feel for her is only friendship?"
"What?" Silver furrowed his brows. "What is it then if not friendship?"
Lilia only shrugged at his question. "That's for you to find out! It would be less fun if I told you right away."
Grabbing his shoulder, Lilia ushered him to his room. "Now then, it's time for you to think long and hard for the answer, okay?"
"The answer, huh..."
Silver closed his eyes and opened them again, his line of sight never leaving your table in the cafeteria.
A few days had passed since the incident with your classmate happened. The teachers swiftly made an action with his report, sending the culprit into a two-week suspension and transferring him to a different section, making sure that the two of you never crossed paths during classes.
Your two friends from Heartslabyul also kept their promise, making sure you were never alone.
It's also been days since Lilia told him to go find the answer to his own question. Unfortunately, he still hasn't found the right answer to that.
He brought his attention back to your table.
You were laughing at something Ace had said.
Seeing you smile like that, unburdened with the troubles your life here had brought you, made him smile too.
He'd do anything to keep that smile of yours on your face.
And with that, realization slowly found its way to him.
Why he became downhearted when you said you were too busy to visit the forest.
Why he was so upset about the attention from your admirers.
Why he wanted to protect that precious smile of yours.
Ace and Lilia's questions came to Silver's mind.
"What does the Prefect truly mean to you?"
"...Are you sure what you feel for her is only friendship?"
The answer to those is...
"That's what you get for being overzealous," you said, still laughing at Ace's story.
The gingerhead only pouted at your reaction. "It's not funny! Don't you know how hard it is to catch those little guys?"
"At least that'll teach you not to use the school's resources to make a quick cash."
"Yeah, yeah. I get it, so stop laughing!"
"...Prefect."
You tensed as you heard that all too familiar voice. Taking a deep breath, you turned to look at him and smiled.
"Hi, Silver. Can I help you with something?"
"Are you free after class today?"
You eyed him curiously. "Yes. Why do you ask?"
"Then, can we meet in the forest today? I need to tell you something important."
You looked at your two friends and Grim, who gave you worried looks. You gave them a reassuring smile in return.
"Sure, I'll be there."
"I wonder what it is he wanted to talk about?" you said to yourself as you treaded the familiar path of the forest.
This is the first time you've visited this place since... that happened.
You shook your head and continued to walk.
Your feelings are still all over the place, although not as much as before. You've been trying your best to move on, but you are missing the time you've spent with Silver in this forest.
Speak of the devil, you thought, as you spotted the familiar figure lying on the forest floor.
"Seriously, it's a wonder how you can sleep in the cold hard ground so soundly," you chuckled, crouching beside him and brushing off the strands of hair blocking his face.
He must've felt your touch, as he stirred awake from his slumber after brushing off his hair.
"Morning, sleepyhead."
"Mm... Y/N..? Did I make you wait?"
You shook your head. "I just got here. I should be asking you that. Sorry I'm late."
Silver sat up from his sleeping spot. "It's alright."
He patted the space beside him, and you complied, sitting beside him on the ground.
The setting sun painted the sky in an array of colors, making you sigh in awe.
"Y/N."
"Yes?" you replied, taking off your gaze from the sky to him.
"I've been thinking a lot to answer a question I asked myself. And after a few days, I've finally found the answer to that question."
You remained quiet, letting him continue speaking.
"I am ashamed to admit that it took me to realize it after that incident, but I cannot bear to see you be with another man."
Silver looked at you with all seriousness.
You blinked. No way. Is he...?
"Y/N, I am deeply in love with you. And I promise to treasure you every day as long as I live, if you'll have me."
You gasped.
You thought there would be no chance, when you heard him that day. But here he is, laying his feelings out in the open.
Tears began to prickle your eyes.
"But Silver... we are friends."
"...Yes, but–"
"But I would very much like to be more than friends."
You laughed, your tears now flowing freely on your cheeks.
Silver stared at you in disbelief before pulling you in for a hug.
"You have no idea how much I've been wanting you to say that," you said between sobs.
Pressing your foreheads together, he began to wipe your tears with his thumb. "I'm sorry, and thank you."
Once again, you let out a shaky laugh before kissing him.
And as your lips met his, you found yourself grateful to whatever divinity watching you above in this world for letting you meet and love the man who was sleeping on the ground that day.
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fashion baby
#dan and phil#daniel howell#amazingphil#*andiegif#what the hell i'll post these too i guess#that jacket is a look tbh
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Gordon/Barney/Alyx is really really funny to me conceptually bc it's like, two hot geniuses in their 20s who look at the 40-something smartass who hangs around and go 'yeah that guy. we both want him carnally'
#and they're SO right#half life#half life 2#gordon freeman#alyx vance#barney calhoun#freemance#valhoun#freehounce#idk what the hell their poly ship name is sorry lol#(me. posting about a ship with an age gap on the 'can't be normal about age gap ships' website:#SURE HOPE THERE ISN'T ANY AGE GAP DISCOURSE IN HERE)#this was the first time I've drawn any of these characters in LITERAL YEARS and. wow........#feels so crazy that this was the fandom that got me to join tumblr in the first place (in 2011!!!!) and I used to draw them ALL THE TIME#interests change I guess#but I think I'll always come back to hl and portal occasionally. they're too much a part of my dna at this point LOL#my art#description in alt text#oh my god I just went back through my half life tag and the last time I drew these three was when I drew that freehounce meme LMAOOO#how serendipitious
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"Hey Mozart, what kinds of things do you draw?"
Occasionally good, mostly shitposting, and apparently I redesigned Piano to be a judgmental goth.
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And here's one time I drew Ruby-Spears Bass + Piano + Zero:
I've been drawing since I was 8 years old I'm very serious.
#my draws#moz banter#moz banter is for text posts/ones where i talk to myself#i don't really interact with the larger fandom cause tbh it's scary as hell#the salty wily twins#that's my tag for posts about bass and piano#maybe someday i'll write up a post about this explicitly not-canon very AU timeline i've got going#also i have a fully body shot i've been working on for that ruby-spears design of piano i just need to finish it#and the script for the 'episode' she and bass are introduced in#i have fake production notes too it's silly#anyway if you ever want a sampling of what kinds of things i do there's the tags 'my draws' and#mozart's robot rebuild#robot master piano#'moz banter' counts too maybe i guess#this all started because of mmx/dbz crossover rp you know?
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Happy 1st anniversary to Looking Glasses by @ferronickel :) (edit; whoops forgot to remove the space in the tag, sorry i know you've already seen it haha)
#super exciting day :D#every single page in looking glasses is a work of art#if i'm remembering the order of events right#i found about looking glasses bc you visited my blog around the time i first started posting#and i freaked out and was super happy so i checked yours out too#and lo and behold there was a gem of a comic to be found there#thanks for the support you've given me with my art since then :) best wishes for the rest of looking glasses!#also#christ on a stick how the hell do you handle all of those dark fountain swirlies#i always thought they were cool as hell but i have a newfound appreciation for them now that i've tried it myself#this is a bit messy but i didn't wanna overwork it#i'm still learning digital painting so i was guessing my whole way through this haha#was very fun to draw ^-^#couldnt decide what exactly i wanted to draw for this so i drew ralsei in one of my favorite scenes#ralsei#deltarune#looking glasses#first time I've used the queue feature#got it set for 10:30 when I normally wake up so it better work or I'll gut tumblr and sell its entrails in a flea market#update; it did not in fact work#rip tumblr
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#ohhhhhh my fucking god. omg. omg#i really need to learn to trust my own instincts about people#there's this dude - let's call him biff - who lives in my city#he's always been very consistent about staying in touch with me over the years even though we don't really have any shared interests#i met him when he was dating this girl i was friends with. then they broke up & he wanted to hang out with me#then he started dating someone else & they got married and had a kid#and after a while he stopped messaging me (fine by me)... UNTIL#i posted on fb the other day that i was starting the process of quitting everything Meta#and that people should comment if they wanted my contact info elsewhere#after making this post i thought 'hmmm maybe i should have restricted the audience to the only people i actually WANT to stay in touch with'#but it was too late. biff had already messaged me and asked for my number#stupidly i gave it to him. he (a german) joked 'still no german number i see?'#(it is clearly a german number. also i live in fckn germany. and have done so for 7 years. how the hell would i not have a german number?)#then he realized that & added me on whatsapp (kinda silly bc i explicitly said i'm going to quit the whole metaverse eventually but oh well)#first message: 'how u doing?' this man is in his 40s and has still never learned to type properly#second message: he said that he (singular) had recently moved to a new apartment and was not doing great#which makes me think that maybe he's gotten divorced and that's why he's suddenly so eager to reach out to me again#and he added apropos nothing 'but the good thing is that now i'll finally get to see the harry potter movies!'#ummm... great? fuck that transphobe but have fun i guess? what a weird thing to mention#third message was - just fucking WAIT FOR IT - 'what do u think about what's going on in the US recently? are you planning on going back?'#if y'all know me by now you know that this kind of question drives me bonkers#so i replied 'no i'm never going back. i live in germany. kinda sick of people asking me that. I LIVE HERE'#and i just... godddd my intuition is so depressingly good sometimes.#the moment his name popped up in my messages i had this sinking feeling of 'why did i give him my contact info'#and then what do you know... in his next two messages alone there were at least three minor red flags#NOTE TO SELF: TRUST YOUR FUCKING INSTINCT#why haven't i learned this yet? i do not need a 'valid reason' to softly let someone slip out of my life#cosmo gyres#personal#tag rant
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Idk if I'm gonna be able to articulate this on the fly like first thing in the morning, but. I think my ENTIRE body of work is This: Examining how family ties, bonds or lack thereof, the good and bad AND ugly, seep into every facet of who we are and how we come to interact with others. How sometimes, a family tie (or again, a Lack of one), will sometimes bleed into how you act and treat specific people. Will bleed into how you CONNECT with those people (or, will be the very reason you fail to do so).
HOWEVER. HOWEVER. THERE IS A DELICATE LINE. A BALANCING ACT. You CANNOT just simply attribute fanon flavored ideas of found family to such characters. That's too simple, and sometimes, is a complete disservice to the specific character you're working with. I am once again bringing up Chilchuck. YES, him being a dad Absolutely seeps into how he treats his party. But if you call him the party's dad, you're Insane. Do you know ANYTHING ABOUT THAT MAN???? He would prefer you didn't. But I digress. He strikes a fascinating balance, between having The Qualities and ESPECIALLY expressing his care for his party in a Really Specific divorced (separated.) father of three fashion, but that does Not make him a "dad friend". He's a professional. He's on business. He's going home at the end of the day, and at the end of this adventure he's thinking of setting up a shop. I wanted to keep this more vague and broad but like. The Chilchuck example REALLY DOES perfectly articulate What I'm trying to get at, here. He's the perfect encapsulation of How his family shapes him, how that bleeds into his relationships with others, vs Who he is as a person.
How we were raised, our family ties, whether you adhere to it or you've fallen FAR from the tree -- you still fell from that stupid fucking tree. It's in your blood. Literally. It gave you shape, whether you liked it or not. And sometimes some things just set off weird domino effects, that also affect us irrevocably forever.
WHICH IS. TO SAY. I have no fucking idea what I'm talking about. I'm always trying to figure that out. Found family is/can be real, you're not strictly bound by blood if you don't wanna be. BUT. The bullshit I'm constantly on, is trying to figure out how to balance all that without slotting everyone into reductive roles. I'm gay and I seek to destroy the nuclear family. Not attempt to recreate nuclear family 2.0. You CAN reconstruct What Family Is/Means from the ground up, but you have to accept that things are going to get Weird. Because you're Queer. You are fundamentally incompatible with the status quo and normalcy, the solution is NOT assimilation and palatability, the solution is to just. Get weirder. And be fluent in canon. Okay. I love you
#my notes#why am i becoming chilchuck's spokesperson. chilchuck defender.#well i can fucking tell you! it's because my dad is a divorced father of FIVE. with a drinking problem so bad#that if he didn't quit it would have killed him. and guess what! i can tell you a few things about alfonse.#the way alfonse strives to be just like gustav. idealizing him ect ect. and the way i just wanna grab him by the shoulders#and SHAKE HIM. SHAKE HIM. SHAKE HIM. snap him out of repeating the cycles by the power of friendship and gay sex#it SUCKS ASS TO SAY IT IN THE SAME BREATH. I HATE THIS AS MUCH AS YOU DO.#but if you (my own brother) are gonna end up Just Like Your Father could you at least go all the way. get divorced. for the love of god#get divorced. oh my god okay oversharing hour but the WAY. THE WAY. dad once told me#[my brother's now ex wife far as i know thank god it finally happened bu my god it took WAY too long]#but the way my dad told me once [my brother's ex wife] reminded him a bit of his second wife.#oh my god i didn't even tell you the famous dad lore. he's been divorced three times. he is THE EPIC DIVORCE MAN.#like when i look at chilchuck i go. i know this man personally. i live with him.#alfonse's case is. really. really way more complicated. like what i just said#truly is only the tip of the iceberg WHILE ALSO. SIMULTANEOUSLY. only being One Single Facet. to what he is to me.#BUT ALSO. CONSIDER. the Parallels i'm setting up between alfonse w gustav VS. moe and its mother.#okay i will not say more bc i'll talk forever. final piece i really want to throw out there is though#do you think anna's situation w her family business being The Basis of how she connects w others#do you think the WAY she and all the other annas were Raised is like. comparable to religion actually?#and ESP like. i don't know if there's any hard and fast rules or anything but she and all her sisters ARE.#PRESUMABLY. RAISED A V SPECIFIC WAY. to be highly competitive cut-throat merchants.#what does this mean for COMMANDER anna. one of (if not ONLY?) instance of an anna who fell outside of that.#also is it agab dependant? could you be amab and then later on become an anna if that's what#oh my god i'm thinking of that ratatouille post. accepting of your gender identity but NOT of your Life Choice to be a chef.#is it. exactly like that. and if you're afab and end up being trans do you just fall to the wayside?#like the point is NOT to inject transphobia in here. the point is to ask Okay HOW THE HELL DOES ANY OF THIS WORK???????#bc the Implications go INSANE. and also the point is to ask what is the funniest answer possible to any of the questions#I'M HERE TO HAVE FUN. AND BE INSANE.#like final clarification i only say religion bc that's what i'm familiar with (specifically christainity)#but maybe it's more apt -- a different flavor of traditional family culture that has strict gender roles.
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There are literally 3 euros left on my bank account
#i should get tax refund and pay for my summer job this week i guess i'll survive#still stressful as hell though#i don't want to complain too much cause i know i'm privileged living in a country with a broad social security system#but it's also chaotic and bloated as fuck with a million different benefits and no one understanding how it works#my previous social security benefit ended in may so i had to apply for a new different one#but i needed a medical certificate for it and only had doctor's appointment last week#and getting the decision on that application takes time so meanwhile i applied for the last resort income support#but my application for that was rejected for unknown reasons and i complained about the decision but it's still in progress#so now i'm just waiting here with no money from anywhere whatsoever 🤷#bro what they expect me to do#go begging from the church? go shoplifting?#if this post is incoherent to you i feel the same#keanu.txt
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To everyone that has ever tagged me in something to get my opinion, has sent me an ask, or anything else of the sort I just want to say
I am so sorry.
#a lot of them end in drafting hell until the day i finally stumble upon them when i go through my drafts again#my other blogs are NOT looking any better#and my queue is also full of posts most of the time#i'm constantly hitting the queue limit on one of my other blogs too#if things continue like this then one of these days i'll figure out what the draft limit is i guess ._.
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oh my god these are so sweet this rules. you are all so awesome forever
#skye's ramblings#LOVING THIS GAME A LOT. took me a bit to check bc the 'notify me' function doesn't seem to actually. work. hell <3#its fun to guess who drew what and also fun when i can instantly go 'i know you' i <3 my mutuals art styles#anyway ithink. first 2 are definitely ash i can recognize your handwriting and i want to laugh at your pen troubles. HA HA HA <3#also love how the timestamps make it look like you were just struggling with pen size for over 3 hours HKDGJDGJ#ray skirt was rain im pretty suure and its everything to me. holds him in my hands <3 ray under that one was toby ithink. ily too bro <3#i wanna say the trio one is ana??? they look like your little sucklet guys but i could be wrong gjdgjs <3#the guinea pig and toadette are aarne for sure and i love them dearly <3 hope youre doing well#and last one is GERM AAHGH the colors are soo pretty i adore how you draw ray forever. also the little autism pin... holding him so close#anywaway THANK YOU GUYS im having a blast w these i'll leave the post up if anyone wants to send more <3 i realy love this game
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I always get the urge to post on tumblr when I'm feeling crazy. Most of the time, it's from lack of sleep.
#hi ive been hit with the urge to post. wonder why (sarcastic)#also im currently in a dnd campaign run by Geeky and its my favorite thing ever rn and i really wanna talk about it#i have a little bunny boy fighter named Hopkins and hes such a little problem child i really need to tone him down vshdsjsb#and he has 2 equally chaotic dads who im also rotating around in my head. their names are Genji and Toby and i love love love them#Genji is a wizard and Toby is an artificer#i think its funny how theyre both spell casters when i made Hopkins explicitly Not a spell caster vshssjssk#they all travel around Geekys beautiful homebrew world doing all this history work because theyre big nerds#and i guess Genji and Toby managed to die? question mark? idk theyre at like magic heaven. or hell idk#at least that's what's implied. and i think thats cool#ask me more about my bunny family please#OH MY GOD I JUST HAD THE BEST IDEA#i could customize calico critters to by my little bunny family 🥺#i have to put that on my long growing list of projects i want to do eventually#first i have to get through septictober. then i'll do my silly little ideas#i should post my art of my little bunny family sometime too
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GOVERNMENTS! LEADERSHIPS! WOO!! i hate politics but Jamaa having a flag (last time I checked) suggests that there's some type of government or organization right?? like, yeah the jammatians could've just joined together and said something like "we stand together forever" but no. nah. no thank you. SO, i haven't thought about fully implementing this yet, but i kinda want to? hear me out; the lands of Jamaa have different pseudo-governments and cultures. there's only so much you can do in a game that [was] focused about educating kids the alphas don't count here k? Jamaa Township has a council-based "government;" the alphas make decisions. Township is a jack-of-all-trades thing, anyone from anywhere lives there, so the culture is one big loving doting hug of complete fuckery. Nothing makes sense except the things that do. A leopard runs the news station alongside a penguin. A great horned owl is playing the orchestra on top of the diamond shop. Jam Mart is always empty, a room filled with nothing but pillows exists, it's always crowded and nobody knows personal space even if it gutted them. It just makes sense. Appondale and Kimbara, which are in a territory dispute in my rewrite, both have a vague government structure following the same thing; battle. Appondale and Kimbara both LOVE battle, but in different ways. Appondale, and every other land, by default, also has the alphas that live there in charge (ex. Atlas and his pride, Olive, Biff, etc.) Outside of that "official" government, it's a chieftain system. Tribes in Appondale are somewhat isolated. News gets around, but everyone wants to be left alone outside of events. A gathering for something and other happens, Appondalians (?) celebrate and build camaraderie, and then the camaraderie is basically forgotten about when they retreat to their respective tribes, families, etc. Kimbara, being a smaller land in my rewrite, dabbles in military aristocracy. Protection is NEEDED, and since Kimbara is so bare, warlords are celebrated instead of regular chieftains. Tactical brilliance on the battlefield is what earns you respect. If you have a good sturdy build in Kimbara, use it! They're probably more interconnected because of this. Not necessarily hosting meetings per say, but maybe just little things, like marriages between different tribes. Castes most likely exist in families because of this, we'll see.
Being a warlord's offspring isn't earning you any leverage in Kimbara; blood is as thick as water until it's on the ground. Meritocracy but not really but actually kind of.
In Appondale, blood means everything, to the point of family heads being the ones who call the shots for the land, especially noticeable in Atlas' pride, where obviously the males/head of the family is in charge.
also here's proof about my au's map im transferring it to digital rn
#animal jam#ajc#aj classic#add more later#i have ideas for the other land areas#like Crystal Sands and Coral Canyons#but they most likely wouldn't make sense until i finished my au's map#i actually hate politics so hell yeah funny animal characters get to suffer with them#and i suppose that the development of “governments” would happen eventually throughout the eras#especially with Mira and Zios no longer around#i guess i need to make a culture post too#i'll get to it later because im in absolute misery#i don't want to hear SHIT about my handwriting i've been writing like that for as long as i can remember#why everything is shaped weirdly is spoilers#especially for Coral Canyons#but i'm going to add landmarks and stuff to make it feel more like a map#and less like an upside down fire emoji#that white spot in the middle was a mistake i didn't bother to fix#it won't show in the final product and ik it won't because if it does im throwing my head into a wall#“what happened to sarepia?” poof. no longer. i'm moving the extra unused lands between the main lands to make the map bigger#and bits of sarepia will be sprinkled throughout#i'm giving that bonfire thing sarepia had to balloosh#and the theater to township#so yeah it's really not special here#also i still got to do a map for the underwater areas bc they deserve their special attention as well#but wouldn't it be funny if i said “nah” like ajhq did#lost temple of zios is so small because it's the remnants of the temple and not the actual temple itself#the actual temple fucked off#think of it as the archives thing#except zios didn't write a loser diary bc wtf was that
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hardcore projecting my avoidancy onto dabi in this soulmate au thing i started in november
#u know i had to do it to em#🤝🏼🧍🏽♀️🌳#should i just say f it and share my fic headcanons on this account#this account isn't linked to my writing stuff so . is it REALLY a spoiler if no one knoes what the hell im talking abojt#just kidding i can't share them bc what if someone connects the dots and finds out i like emotional intimacy#help i am so dramatic i have a writing blog and 2 god damn ao3 accounts#the main one is where i comment/bookmark/give kudos from#and the other one is my writing one#i do all that despite knowing no one gives a fuck#we'll see how i feel by the time i have 20 fics up#currently at 4 but the wips. the wips are crawling out from under my bed and grabbkng me by the ankle#they demand my attwntion SORRY but mommy has executive dysfunction#i was supposed to have posted 4 or 5 things by now so that i'd have time for the halloween stuff that come up next in my series 🥴#then i was gonna wrap it up with updates on the one year of which is valentine's day and white day#the other halloween thing i started last halloween could work too but i probably won't get in the mood to write it in time lmao#soulmate au was supposed to drop in june RIP#i have most of it's notes finished it's the actual writing that's kicking my ass. it feels so disorganized which is throwing me off#anyways this post is about that au but im actually working on the hero reader one#which i keep overthinking#ik a reader can have an ability and still not be an oc but hmmmm i dunno#the quirk is generic but i think bc i have actual ocs with that ability it is throwing me off lmao#i considered changing it to a water quirk but i think it'll stay cuz i like it more for the theme#also it'd make 1 scene annoyingly difficult#i guess i could just make it a rainy day huh#oh well it is staying. now to finish the prologue that i'll probably never post. gotta write it so i have a good idea of their dynamic#and feel the emotional weight? idk writer words bro i am jus fuckign around on#we chilling 😎#and by we i mean me and my headache#which i just gave myself#noice 😎
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Woke up sad from a fuckass dream and thought of being comforted into a hug but with me being too shit at emotional stuff of this sorta thing sometimes well... (... i'm better at it i think, i used to be much worse) So naturally the obvious alternative was to think of being comforted by myself, which lead me to think of clone tropes, of course.
This in turn, lead me to think of how it would all work out, how they could do all the things i'm too much of a coward to do... except they probably wouldn't since they are me, so. Also they couldn't alter too much about themselves cause it would negate the point of being a clone? and then we'd get caught being two persons and what? do i introduce them as a long lost twin or?? (ALSO on the technically side of things they have no papers & ID & shit fuck... let's just forgor about those for a sec). They'd obviously have to hang with the same friends cause i know i'd be sad as fuck if i didn't. They'd have to create an internet handle too fucking I'd have to explain we are actually two persons now to my friends server so i can invite them QZSJHGNK What if they are better than me though and people like them better... Who truly is the real one if one of them allow themselves to live to the fullest... But knowing myself, i'd also feel so bad knowing my other self feels sad, whether i'm the clone or the original
Anyway i dont know where i was going with this but... we would just probably hang like 🧍🧍 but at least i could hug them whenever, probably, if they'd let me (also i probably should allow myself to be a bit bolder & kinder to myself)
#my dream wasnt that bad i suppose but also i really felt like shit afterwards like i havent felt in a while so.#ANYWAY#🫵 a selected few of you will understand where those thoughts come from wink wonk#that being said im punching this nightmare and i'm not letting this fucker ruin my day#pimer babbles#anyway yea i really need to work on that cause like#i never initiate hugs & stuff because i'm too embarrassed i fucking guess#but also i used to lightly push people away & kick their shins if they actually did#i dunno man im just annoying i guess#also i think i get overwhelmed too fast but#Anyway it was weird thoughts time brought to you by : i just woke up station#i love the clone tropes and sure the silly goofiness of it is fun but the RAMIFACTIONS of it all#is what drives me crazy love this shit#psychological horror hell ye hell ye hell ye#(yea i guess i'll post this goof after all)
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Sunday doodles
#you ever just *puts feet on the wall*#or sit upside down off the side of your bed#i saw a post earlier this week I've been trying to find about fearing god#i read it but didn't have time to share my thoughts and i forgot to save it to my drafts so i lost it#anyway they talked about fearing god in service today#the overlap of related events like this scares me all the time#like... i know this stuff just happens and they had this sermon planned for months and it's coincidental#''but what if god is actually real and this is him trying to talk to me? what if he's trying to move me back on track?''#that's something i can't help but think#i'm starting to think I'll never know what is real and whether there's a god and if i really am setting myself up to burn in hell#i have to make a choice whether to leave my friends and hide who I am and go back to the church#or be myself and enjoy my time alive knowing what could be waiting for me when I go#I know that sounds extremely dramatic but it's something I think about a lot#it's one thing for someone to have never gotten to known God#but some say that the one unforgivable sin - the only thing that can keep you out of heaven forever...#...is knowing god and accepting him in your heart but then turning your back on him#I've done those rituals; been baptized and taken communion and said the famous prayer#if that unforgivable sin is true then I guess i've already made my choice; there really is no going back for me haha#damn right that god is scary lol#not tagging the game because I monolouged too much lmao#doodles#sunday doodles#depressing sunday doodle posts have arrived once again#dw im chilling today just lost in thought#was able to put in pto so i get the day to reflect on the very important things 21 year olds think about#things like ''what could've been'' and ''how do i want to draw my next fluffy boy''
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anyways fucking. fucking hell
#Dear fuck why is this shit so hard#Who cares if I say it once in the notes of a post noone will read anyways#just. fucking hell people aren't lying when they say that this age is the fucking worst to live in#I just wanna hope that things will get better I am gripping that promise so so hard rn#I'm just so goddamn tired and. just.#At least when I'm older I'll have the possibility to dissappear and never hear or talk or deal with these people ever again#Just. fucking god this is hard#and everyone says to keep going caus things will get better. I don't have any hope anymore but I guess I just gotta keep going#And I wanna make a big deal out of everything and make so many people hurt with that one permanent desition but I know it aint#worth it and stuff. just fucking hell.#was it so hard to ask to live somewhere safe. I just want to worry abt normal things#I dont wnat to have to do things that don't suit me I shouldn't be doing any of this I should just worry abt.#who fucking knows. I should be able to just worry about dumb internet drama and using soci.al media too much or whatever#But I can't worry about that that's just not how it works#And I remember that maybe I could have a nice life where. where I get to breathe for once and I get to be happy and taken care of#And then I get hope and I tjink things can change and then i am forced to remember what happens when I dare to think such dumb shit#things won't change. at least not now. no hope just gotta endure this shit and wait till I am old enough to just. get out of here and never#Look back and stuff.#maybe I'll get to do that.and I'll be happy and everything will be alright#It's hard to imagine that will happen. Most likely won't. but I dont know#And here I am. I should be saying this to my the.rapist or some shit but instead I'm venting on a tumblr blog just.#I should probably go to sleep#just. How naive of me to think that things would have gotten better.#And a part of me thinks it's stupid to say this shit here like it feels like I'm just doing this for attention or some shit and I dunno#Maybe I am doing it for attention. hoping that someone will read this dumb little cry for help and at least tell me that I'll be alright#but I know that won't happen but still I do this. just in case
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