#what if one of you is an irl of mine
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eventually u get used to the numbers in ur stats on ao3 but sometimes i sit here like what the fuck a hundred people get notified when i post something. what the fuck
#like who are you???#and that's not counting the almost 1k total fic subscriptions across my account???#why are there so many of you#what if one of you is an irl of mine#then what.
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Dean complimenting fellow queer people on their game
Bonus inverse, trying to out-game someone to vicariously flirt for/with your presumed-but-not-at-all-straight friend who has no game whatsoever:
#it's striking how Sam will nod along in his Good Ally way but Dean is the one relating and being seen on this unspoken higher level#anyway can we add that scripted one to the censorship pile as a safe assumption? Yockey wrote it he'd Know#wild how transparently obvious it is spn's writing room was full of queer creatives+supporters who fought for diversity against corporate#it speaks to the experience because it's from the experience#people who refuse to get that are telling on their own lack of knowledge of The Life irl. I know what you are :)#supernatural#spn#the winchesters#dean winchester#destiel#spnedit#spn meta#parallels#dean is bi#spn is queer#8.11#8.13#11.19#12.20#15.07#spnwin 1.13#12.12#mine
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REINVENT
YOURSELF
tumblr HATES my 44.1mb image swag so it has SO MUCH COMPRESSION and downsizing here. :') peep the actual intended size & quality (or as good as i could get it exported)
post-return Q!Tubbo :] Tee hee.
un hamburgesa para tubbo (he lookied ungry)
#qsmp#qsmp fanart#tubbo fanart#qsmp tubbo#yippeeee :D#i forgor what other tags i usually use for my art on this blog. fngbnfdj. oh well.#WHY DID THE WATER TURN INTO LAVA [SHAKES CCTUBBO] WHAT WAS THAT ABOUT HELLO. DID ANYBODY ELSE NOTICE THAT BC I DID. IS IT FROM#THE MACHINE OVERHEATING? HE WAS BURNING WHEN HE SURFACED or is it a less physical creative choice...#this is why theyre surrounded by water and lava (and also bc of dying by the ocean monument ^w^ teehee)#if you notice all the details i had in mind when i drew this ily foreva and eva#i drew this over the course of a few days after the revival/return stream but i never posted it IM SHY OK#i wonder how long i spent on it... must be over 6 hrs atleast? considering i also spent like an hour touching things up b4 posting rn..#nice. im in my hours-long compositions era :D smiles irl so happily i love it#<- usually never spends longer than like 1-2 hrs on one drawing#i shared this with a couple of qsmp-enjoying friends of mine and they convinced me to let it fly free ksksks. FOR THE TUBBLINGS o7#also if anybody has a better image sharing option lmk. DHBFK.#blood#ALMOST FORGOT THAT. THERE IS BLOODIN HERE#CONTAINS BLOOD.#guy whos flehs and bone#debatably#art#months later im slapping on that art tag HFHFHG i forgor
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sometimes doing art is a random person coming by u and winking at u and u absolutely do not know what they're doing that about at all. and sometimes they tell u and ur like that's so beautiful that u've found that in my art but I didnt put it in there
#not art#just externalizing some thoughts so I have bandwidth to do things tonite this is not a jab at anyone#one of my deep anxieties abt my art n stories is someone might pick up#something I dont mean to put in there. and then theyll keep coming to me to ask for that thing that I never intended to provide#this is a completely baseless and paranoid anxiety like irl if that happens what I do is I tell them to fuck off lmao#like what's the repercussion there for me? close to nil. people ask things of anyone every day#and they get turned down every day literally nothing apocalyptic abt it. I just have had a few moments of like#oh at a certain level I will be misconstrued and recontextualized. bc where I come from is foreign to a chunk of my audience#this is a reason why I ask people to not edit my art directly#or. yknow. that if you do that then have the courtesy to not show me#but also on a lighter note it is especially funny when someone does this at me abt shipping#like esteemed guest mine. rest assured if I intend something you'll Know#I'm not known for my subtlety lmao
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happy 3rd birthday to the hottest thing bastille has ever done anyone but me x nightmares (24.08.2020)
#mine#bastille#i talk about bastille all the time irl but mentions of blond dan will not pass my lips#i am boygenius not strong enough#to this day i do not understand it#i dont usually like blond guys and hes basically wearing an emo hawaiian shirt#but ive seen this video so many times and every time i end up blushing and smiling to myself like a fucking teenager LORD#someones commented something like 'great cover dan has no sex appeal' on the youtube vid#and like first of all what a thing to comment absolutely hilarious#second like fair ig each to their own but like THIS is the video you chose to comment that on????#anyway anyone but me x nightmares u will always be famous lives were truly changed forever#i hope that one day u will be allowed on oph so we can have u on spotify#i am once again asking rockstille album when also like maybe dan should just bleach his hair again for it#idk would that be such a bad thing while were out here brainstorming just throwing some ideas out into the universe nothing serious idk
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The queer comunity these days is OBSESSED with stereotyping people like it's some cute quirky lil thing it's infuriating. Lesbians looove frogs and mushrooms lmao, nonbinary people are all littol wittol rat creatures, asexuals love nothing but cake and garlic bread, transmasc little boy ukulele music, transfem TRIPPY WEIRD MUSIC, what do you mEAN you've never seen shitass lesbian film shitass lesbian film and shitass lesbian tv show what's wrong with you are you even a real QUEER? You HAVE to have seen- Shut up!! We're not a hivemind!! I'm going to puke!!
#like it's not the damn internet people irl keep putting stereotypes on me all the time#and then when I'm like 'no that's not me at all?' theyre like yeeeah right suuuure 😏#people will put a stereotype on me of literally the wrong group. It's all so fucking arbatrary it's really annoying#when I came out as trans one girl was like 'aha yeah you didn't give me lesbian vibes'#and I know that was meant to be supportive or something but what the fuck are lesbian vibes#the whole past two years were you thinking like 'lesbian? really? ...ok... no vibes there'#what if I was? as far as you knew I was. as far as I knew I was! at the time!#as far as ~vibes~ go I don't think mine are very trans man#you can't put me in a box based on *vibes* goddamn#- sorry this post was sitting in my drafts for months so you're getting it now -
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a challenger approaches! surrender all your candy! >:)
OH HO HO! A CHALLENGER! You'll be taking no candy from this gal, no-sir-ee!
Only two pokemon each? Then let's make this a double battle shall we?
Alright everyone! Let's-!
I knew the security system would finally come to use! The last log was only a few minutes-
Ah.
To think we've found TWO criminals... Verrrry fortunate. I believe we indeed did. Let's apply them to the this new route.
NEW CHALLENGERS: SUBWAY MASTERS SUN AND MOON GO FULL STEAM AHEAD!
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We're so cooked....
(I had too much fun making the faces.... I had to do multiple versions)
#Lucky Trick or Treat!#trick or treat!#Trick or treat 24#cw eye contact#Oh lordy#Chat are we cooked?#Spoilers#We definitely are#My crime? Oh...#They wanted their drip back 😔#But it's mine to take you know? Yeah#you get it!#Also impersonation of a Poke League offical#Anyways we're gonna die-#dca fandom#dca community#Pokemon#fnaf daycare attendant#Ask LD#Yes the faces are that one death stare soldier meme#If you're curious what 2 pokemon i'd keep on me#Serperior bc Snivy my beloved#WHICH IRL I HAVE ONE AND IS NAMED LUCKY IN MY GAMES!#And a Everstoned Shinx named Yumbo#My shared pokemon with my bf :3#I tried really hard to use the same color pallete#It was really fun to figure out :D#Hope the wait was worth it hehe#>:33333333
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General li'l update
So, things have done anything but slow down for me in the real world. To keep it as vague as possible, there's a chance I'll be losing my job within the next month or so, though we're all currently working on possible solutions to this. Hoping for the best.
I've already done my panicking and preemptive grieving. 18 years in a single career is a hell of a run for someone my age, and if it has to come to an end then I've made at least some peace with that idea.
Still though, working every day to find solutions. To fix things. To keep surviving. It's exhausting, I will not lie. We're doing what we can over here.
There's so, so much good to look forward to this year. These are just bumpy patches of road. And some of the bumpiest roads I've driven on have taken me to the best places I've ever been. I'll be alright. I know I'll be alright. I'll be more than alright, by the time this is all said and done.
Been doing more reading of late, which I've been loving. You all are putting out such amazing work and I love bouncing in to read even if it takes me 3 attempts and a couple of hours to get through a posted chapter. Lovely escapes, all around.
My sister turned me onto a game ("game" kind of seems like an odd word for it but either way) on steam called Spirit City: Lofi Sessions. You customize a character, you have a little room, it plays lofi music at you and you can poke at a few playlists, build soundscapes around it (rain noises, thunder, wind, birds chirping, crackling fire etc etc) while your character mills about in spots doing things as just a beautiful little vibe-generator. You can collect spirit pals to vibe with you. It's just really cozy and nice, I love it. Highly recommend.
It has an optioning for in-app journaling, and I've been meaning to get back into journaling regularly just for the sake of my memory and everything else. That's been a huge boon over the last 2-3 days. It's got a productivity timer, to-do list, daily task/habits tracker.
Anyway, I've been making progress on writing but it's slow, staggered. Hit a bit of a wall last night with some of The Stranding where I wrote 8.5 pages of a scene and then just felt... unhappy with it. I had clearly lost the thread of why I started writing it, and needed to walk away to see if a fresher mind could find a place to rewind to and pivot so I can salvage it, or if I'm just gonna carve the whole thing out and set it in the Cut Scenes doc. The other 20 pages I've got waiting? Fine. Good, even. Proud of those. This one, I'm proud of what I'm writing but again... just feels more like floating aimlessly and bouncing. It was clear I wrote it while heavily distracted or with gaps between focus, so it jumps.
I'll see what I can salvage. Can't promise an update and am avoiding making it feel like I'm 'back on schedule' just to find something I can reduce pressure from in my life for the time being. But: I love you all. The Kudos, the views, the comments, the everything. It means a lot. You're all great.
If I do any generic vent/vibe writing, not necessarily attached to anything, I'll consider sharing it here for y'all. You guys deserve a bit of fun and sunshine <3
Have a great time everyone, love y'all to bits <3
~ Belle
#g/t author#gtauthor#author thoughts#just general rambling#irl update#life update#life is a mess and boy am I too tired to clean#Sometimes you just keep chuggin' until someone tells you aren't actually a train y'know what I mean?#If you do know what I mean please let me know#My brain is scrambled eggs because of all of this#I would like things to slow down plz#A friend of mine at the farmer's market this morning asked me 'what's new?' and I just moaned 'too much'.#I would like Less New#For a little while#Until the next big New Thing#The good one#the one where I get to see my fiancee and take them home with me forever#That's the good shit#Looking forward to that
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do you think they met like. at an airport or something-
Sim A: hijab | jacket | pants Sim B: hair | cactus earrings | outfit + hq icons
Feel free to use this post as a prompt and create your own idea based off of this concept! Same palette, different culture/style 💖
No background version under the cut ⬇️
#mine#s2#s2 edit#not listing the makeup because it's a lot lmao but feel free to ask if you spot anything you'd like!#this was absolutely inspired by that one famous picture that I obviously can't find anywhere now#I'm trying to go unapologetically bolder with my edits. if I don't have the guts to edit a sims picture as funky as I want it to be then-#-how will I find the courage to be bold myself and go after what I want irl hm
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At some point I will def start writing love letters to him, so I hope you're mentally prepared
-anon that proposed to Kaveh
please dont send them to me, i dont wanna come off as mean but i genuinely dont know how to respond anymore to smth like this and i dont wanna keep continuing feeling stressed and uncomfy on this blog anymore
#i dont feel for him like that bc theres only one character i started to feel comfortable and all that stuff for#where i for the first time could even get into and understand all the self shipping stuff#but still very timidly#and i still feel a little uncomfortable when ppl approach me so openly and violently about their self shipping#that i dont know how to react especially bc i dont do self ship for me or others here.#and only can feel this to one specific character#so i feel very out of depth? out of my comfort zone here#this is mostly bc i am aro and i feel uncomfortable in general when ppl talk about romantic stuff irl#which is why i do ships bc i get to explore smth entirely fictional not involving real ppl that doesnt make me uncomfy#and perhaps why the only character i feel comfy and do the self ship thing is this specific characte#bc i feel like his way of love and showing affection is similar to mine#which gives me comfort#idk if i explain it well#and sorry for rambling in tags#i just dont wanna say “you make me uncomfortable” and not explain what exactly#so no one misunderstands it#tbd#reply
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does anyone in the world care about anything more than amaury guichon does about making absurdly realistic sculptures out of chocolate?????
#sorry but like the amount of time and effort and cARE that has to go into every one of those#that's actually what love is#like yes the videos are 1-2 minutes long but irl???? that has to take him bare minimum a full day to make#but realistically longer than that when you take into consideration setting time etc#mine#the chocolate guy
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The whole "if a person is mad at you it's their responsibility to tell you" thing just made me realize how fucked my situation is. Like just. woah
#who wants to hesr the story of how I lost my irl friends recently (you will I'm spitting everything right now)#anyway so last year one day one of my friends decided to randomly backstab me and she started talking behind my back#and yeah this all made me mad because?? what the fuck#she started talking and revealing stuff that i had confide to her to other people and they slowly started drifting from me#BUt the thing here is that she was manipulating the story. she changed it every time she told stuff to people to make me look bad#i heard one of the things she said about me once and i was like ?? she even make me dislike me in her version which like woa#anyway I didn't understand why she did that because it was ? so random? and then she started ignoring me and has not talked to me ever since#the thing is. she apparently didn't have enough with just doing that. she slowly started to rot my other friends' brains too?#in the sense that. suddenly the rest of my group was ignoring me too. they never said anything to me. or stated that they had a problem#they just ignored me in my face? and yeah that. hurt#recently i found thanks to a third party that one of them decided to stop talking to me because apparently i had hurt her uncountable times#and she was just soo sick and tired of me doing that. which. honestly made me mad because she did not ever express that to me?? so#what was i supposed to do. if she never said anything.#anyway one of my friends confronted her about the treatment they were giving to me. the whole exclusion thing. and her answer was-#”well it's not my fault that she doesn't have more friends and doesn't talk to people”#and i was like. woah. what a poor reply. is that really it.. also apparently they all had agree to stop talking to me as a group-#-and they never informed me so. thank you?#and I'm still here asking what i did to that ex friend of mine. later on i found out she had hooked up with the guy i used to like btw#and she kept it secret. oh and then i started dating my current partner ! person she also felt attracted to. and that's my only explanation.#she started gossiping after what happened with the first guy. so that's really everything that comes to mind as a reason#ANYWAY now that i was at the hospital i didn't receive a single text from any of them. so i guess that was it. people who don't care-#-like that are not friends. those people are not my friends. people who ignore me on purpose and gossip like that are not. my friends#so yeah that's why I've been feeling down lately but ! here I am i ended up ranting so. much#rant#vent#?#woah i actually feel so much better after spitting it all#I'm also following that sour grape advice btw I'm not giving them the privilege of cutting me out. I'M the one who dislikes them now
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hmm thinking about the idea of love songs. i think the idea of what a love song is that we have in our culture is inherently a little bit flawed because we have the idea that any song written about romantic feelings is a love song and im thinking thats not exactly true because there is a difference between "romance" and "love". what i'm saying is not that love is a broader category and applies to things that are not romantic in nature. this is in fact true, but it's not what makes the important distinction here. the true distinction between "romance" and "love" is that romance is a societally defined type of interest in another person, whereas love is, essentially, a promise that you make when you build a relationship.
as such, what i call "love" here might be better defined as "care", as that implies more time and effort, but that's a different suitcase to unpack and largely unimportant to my point here, which is more about the societal conventions of what we call love songs. the point is, relationships can be built with other people, yes, but also animals, places, organizations, ideas, so on and so on, whereas romance requires another person, hence the difference between the ideas of "romance" and "love".
with that in mind, there are two types of songs we in western, english speaking, society call "love songs":
1) songs that are about a person's romantic interest in someone that is either definitively known to be unrequited (existing monogamous relationship, sexuality that doesn't align, etc) or simply not requited (aka romantic interest being unknown); and
2) songs about an existing relationship (keeping in mind my points about relationships not just being with people, but also places, things, etcetera) as is.
(some examples of the latter category: mountaintop by relient k, which defines the relationship in question as non-romantic; or i miss my mum by cavetown, which is - as the title implies - a song about the singer missing their mother.)
now, the thing that makes distinguishing these two difficult is the fact that songs about an existing relationship CAN be about wanting certain aspects of that relationship to change. in these cases, determining that a song is one or the other will hinge either on a) authorial intent or b) whether the song is more about what the singer wants (thereby implying #1) or the lack thereof in that relationship (which would imply #2).
to get back to the subject at hand: the term "love song", as we think of it, is an umbrella term that include both of these two categories, and i think that perhaps it is reductive to do so. with that in mind, i think perhaps it would be more appropriate for "love song" to mean only the latter, whereas the former is a category of its own. WHICH is not to say that the two can't overlap — just that if a song is about a person with whom the singer has no relationship, it cannot be considered a love song due to the fact that it is a song about infatuation, not love.
(another interesting wrinkle this provides is the fact that a song might start out in the first category and, as the writer develops a relationship with a person, might move into the second category as they write more.)
#anyway. just some of my thoughts on this as an aromantic songwriter#ari opinion hour#this goes a good deal to reconcile my constant writing of love songs with the fact that none of them are romantic#which im fine with as long as im keeping them to myself but it DOES feel dishonest when i hide that theyre love songs.#however this did also go some way to convince me that maybe care songs is an alternative that i SHOULD use because it is more applicable to#me than the concept of love which MOST people do not have the same perspective on as i do and having different definitions of the same word#is an important barrier to consider in communication#i will admit i do think im clinging to my care songs being love songs due to my relationship with an organization to which love is very#important as i dont want to go back on my promises to that organization as it IS very important to me#anyway. can you tell ive been reading house of leaves by the fact that this appeared fully fledged in my head in fully academic language#but for real like thinking about it now and even my old love songs like most would probably think to see them that they would go in the#first category and they just. DO NOT. at least not the ones that were written after i was like Yeah im aro again#its interesting the ones i wrote in the brief period where i thought i WASNT aro in like mid hs those i WOULD put in the first category#even though like i do NOT think i was right about it being romantic#but the ones after i was like Yea im aro again are like. Thats definitely the latter#part of it is i did find a voice that was like genuinely Mine and wasnt just writing sort of generic love songs#love songs in the typical usage i mean so they were really more infatuation songs#but like i was still with the last person irl who i wrote these about divorced from like... my aroness because of how much i liked him#and i would still put those in the second category#so part of it is awareness as well#so. yeah. its interesting#i probably should just suck it up and start calling them care songs. even if people dont know what i mean to say that
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How many Kierans have you seen on this god—I mean Arceus forsaken app? I need to know. And if possible, send me their links.
Also, for the whole ‘Pecharunt’ thing, it’s a mythical pokemon but you won’t find anything about it. There’s no historical evidence, not even myths, legends or even rumors of it existing. It’s a sneaky b’str’d, but it’s also the leader of the Lousy 3 (punt them to oblivion). And it even appears to break the ‘Pokémon aren’t even evil but loyal to evil trainers’ formula as I think it’s malicious, evil, ruthless and wants to do nothing but destroy. We don’t know why. We know nothing about it. But when it awakens,
GET AWAY FROM IT (or beat the living crap out of it, if you dare)
And don’t eat any purple coloured mochi, it was it that made them
ah— well to be honest i have no idea how many there are personally. in total. and i genuinely dont want to find out but.... if you really want to know the other three i think its uhm.
er... gimme a minute. @/ghost-kid-kieran @/ogerpons-favorite and @/adventureswithdipplin
oh there isnt any books about it....? huhm. thats weird... i remember seeing a deep purple book in the library the cover of it looked really old and had an image of some sort of peach thing opened? the pages felt a little brittle too.
i did try reading it just a bit but when i left to go get something i came back and it was gone? somebody probably grabbed it from my table. i dont know. i did try asking the librarian about it but there wasnt any information or anything of it at all.
but thank you for letting me know.. but why would i eat a random mochi? and is it that powerful? huh.
#rotomblr#pkmn irl#thanks for the ask!#trainer kieran#pokemon fanart#why did you want to know the other kierans? i am the least helpful person to direct you to them.#let alone conversing with them. heck even meeting them was just nerve wracking. well except the ogerpon one.#about encountering the book its been some time honestly.#i cant really remember what was written in there so your guess is good as mine.#//ooc: I'm not gonna tag sorry but he doesn't know how to tag either so. </3
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DATING IS SO HARD WTF
#vent to follow in the tags lmao#like. what????#people!!! chill the fuck out!!#i had some dude unmatch with me bc i didn’t respond to him YESTERDAY#and like it’s not that big of a deal we’d only just matched but like?? patience is a fucking virtue?? and i have a life?#he was all like come back :((( then two minutes later he was like ok sorry for bothering you bye and then LEFT#like. fine if you do that but the message?? what??#anyway it came at a bad time bc. a bitch is already in crisis rn#cause i kinda feel like my irl friends hate me for some reason and i already feel bad that i’ve been so busy i’ve not been able to#talk to them that much#and i was supposed to go on a trip with my friend but that’s been postponed (not her fault or mine)#and my car still won’t start. we tried to jump it today and it didn’t do anything#anyway i’m like rapid cycling through major emotions and it’s like mimi chill the fuck out#and listening to way too much phoebe bridgers i know the end#also i’m in crisis bc i’ve made up with like. my oldest friend who used to have a crush on me and when i told him i preferred girls he like#stopped talking to me for a while#that was years ago and now we’re slowly becoming friends again but i feel so much guilt over it for no reason#and i get into avoidant episodes as a coping mechanism and like. i feel like im going into one atp#okay okay vent over im okay lmaoo#sorry folks hope your days going better than mine <3#。・:*˚:✧。 mimi speaks!
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It's difficult dealing with so many people who think we aren't meant to be with eachother. I don't get why someone else's relationship can mean so much to bystanders. Can't you find something else to do?
#mine#yandere#yancore#irl yandere#yanderecore#yandere vent#yanposting#i just. self confidence can only get you so far. surrounded by people who are saying awful things wears me down so much#i hate them so much and i wish they never existed. its making me stronger supposedly but the only thing i feel like its actually doing is#making me violent and miserable and angry and nauseous. please stop saying those things about him#i try to block it out but its literally everywhere. this is all i have. this is ALL I HAVE. BUT IT DOESNT MATTER HUH#and it feels like theyre all against me. and the only thing i can do is cry and hate them more and more#and the only thing i can do is love him the most. but only by myself. because no one can comprehend the lengths i would go#and no one takes it seriously and appreciates that its the only thing keeping me sane and the only reason why im here rn#but then again. they dont matter do they?#i just need to permanently kill that part of me that cares what they think. because nothing else and no one else matters!! ok??
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