#what if I uhhhhhh *writes a short concept for no reason at all*

[generative-sorcery]

I've read a short story once, it doesn't matter what it was about but a big part of it was just a guy explaining what dying of dehydration feels like. One line hit me like a wet trout. It went something like:

"And then, a few moments before the brain dies, for the first time in it's existence it can hear what is perfect, unstained silence within it's body. No rushing of blood. No moving of gasses, or nutrients, or excrements. Everything is perfectly still"

It was a part about how right as one dies, they see the truth, and the unbearableness of it is what kills them, which in this case was kind of bullshit imo but that's beside the point- the point is, what is described here to me feels like a quaint description of a longing i'm experiencing

I have no idea whether it's a transition goal or my spirit loathing my flesh or some bullshit outer god shenannigans that don't make sense, but for a while now whenever i've seen one of these pictures of undefinable sillhouettes clad in a single color, usually black, i experienced what i can deacribe only as "gender envy", here's some examples:

I have no idea what to do with this fact, it's always been cool to me that people can feel dysphorias and just... change their gender to whatever they feel like is their real gender but like... what if i want to do that too, but my gender is what looks like someone's sleep paralisys demon? A part of it is that this is what i imagine something with the deathlike stillness described above would look like, i've heard of the concept known as "Body without Organs" and uhhhhhh.....

Uhhhhgggggghhhh. Why can't i do that. I want that.

It's basically endlessly confusing and mind-depraving, but then this motherfucker pulls up and ruins my sleep with his banger essay writing skills:

I'm way too sleep deprived to actually understand the cultural talk here, the part that wants to make me scream is where he talks about how he ties his existence and well-being and comfort to an external object that is physical, in his case a box of needles with testosterone in them, and then he has the audacity to say that everyone has a proverbial "box of needles".

And like... bitch? You're saying that the thing i want is... material? External? My brain is currently wired into lusting after something that is corporeal?

All of this feels like an antithesis to what i want, what i lust after, but curiously enough there's no real problem with that statement, it's absolutely true, that i attach my value and identity to stuff that is not 100% made out of myself, and he does acknowledge that it's just the way it is, and it's nothing anyone can really do about it, but it's just... the terminology used is so hostile towards my extremely specific condition that i want to rip off my skin and cry

All of this is to say... maybe i need help? From someone who knows what the fuck i'm talking about? Does anyone know what the fuck i'm talking about? Please let me know i'm dying to attach a name and societal reasoning to this but i just can't do this all by myself

And yeah of course i am

Also the short story was from a polish collection titled "UTOPAY", not sure which story but it was around page 390

Additionally, it can be said that yeah, i have only the slightest clue about what the concept of BwO is, and most of what i'm talking about while refering to it refers to a section in the lyrics of the song "Theia" by King Gizzard and the Lizard Wizard "dedicated" to it, do with this information whatever you must

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lBBWmzk6-jQ

The part i'm talking about happens at 17:31

[yourdeepestfathoms]

Bela awoke to a fit of horrific screaming, then realized it was herself.

She wasn’t awake. Not really. But she was aware of the things around her. Her eyes were barely open, but she knew the bonds of her nightmare had receded. For now.

“Bela! Bela, it’s okay! It’s okay!”

A voice cut through the sound of her own shrieking. Her eyes finally opened fully; her mother was above her. Alcina’s own eyes were as wide as saucers. Her hair was a complete mess from just waking up. Bela would have laughed at how undignified the great Alcina Dimitrescu looked if it weren’t for the fact that all she saw when she stared at her was disappointment and hatred and disgust.

Hands closed around her arms; Bela screamed louder. Her claws flew out and hooked in Alcina’s back. She dragged them downwards as if she were trying to carve out the spine of her offender, drawing bright red blood.

“Mother!” Another voice arose from the mayhem. It took her a moment to realize it was Cassandra who yelled, most likely alarmed by the blood. She and Daniela were standing in the doorway of what Bela realized was her bedroom.

Bela heaved her breaths, looking all around as she thrashed and struggled. She saw Cassandra with her own claws brandished, just in case, and Daniela with her eyes impossibly wide, but Alcina flared one arm at them, urging them back.

“Get away!” Alcina shouted. “I’ve got her! Get away!” She turned back to Bela and her voice softened instantly. Her hands, warm and shaking ever so slightly, cupped Bela’s face, making her look. “Hey, hey, shh... It’s okay, honey. It’s okay. You’re okay. You’re safe. Mama’s got you.”

Bela tried to look, but she kept seeing things flit in the corners of her vision. She thought she could smell the blood from her dreams. She retracted her claws and they twitched in the glow of the lamp that had been turned on. There was red on them.

Bela screamed louder.

Alcina towered over her, and that scared Bela even more. Hands closed around her brittle wrists and pinned her arms to the mattress to keep her from clawing. Bela took to kicking out her legs, nailing her mother in the stomach several times, but Alcina did not relent.

“Bela.” Alcina said, and her voice was like a mermaid’s song in the middle of a raging hurricane, calm yet firm, even in the eye of such chaos. Even when she was being viciously battered by two bony legs. “Baby, listen to me.”

Bela bared her teeth through quivering lips. She fearfully looked up at Alcina.

“You’re alright. You’re okay.” Alcina said. “It was just a nightmare. You’re safe now, darling. Look around you.”

Bela looked around. The things in the corners of her eyes were starting to recede and disappear. She looked back up at Alcina, whimpering. When a few tears slipped down her cheeks, Alcina dared to release her arms to wipe them away. Bela did not lash out at her this time.

“You’re okay, sweetie,” Alcina murmured. “You’re okay. You’re safe, I promise.”

“M-Mama?”

“That’s right, sweetness. It’s only me. Nobody else.”

Gentle hands brushed against Bela’s neck and face. Bela whimpered. Alcina slowly lowered herself onto the mattress to lay next to her in the messy blankets. Bela curled into her instantly, crying softly.

“It’s okay,” Alcina whispered, running her fingers through her unruly hair. “It’s okay, baby girl. You’re going to be okay…”

Bela wished she could believe her.

[kmclaude]

Forgive me Father, I have no awful headcanons for you, only a general question on comic making. How do you do it, writing-wise/how do you decide what points go where, how do you plot it out (or do you have any resources on the writing aspect that you find useful?) Not to get too bogged down in details, but I attended a writer’s workshop and the author in residence suggested I transfer my wordy sci-fi WIP into graphic novel script, as it might work better. (I do draw, but I don’t know if I have it in me to draw a whole comic—characters in motion? Doing things? With backgrounds? How dare, why can’t everyone just stand around looking pretty)

I was interested but it quickly turned into a lot of internal screaming as I tried to figure out how to compress the hell out of it, since novels are free to do a lot more internal monologuing and such compared to a comic format (to say nothing of trying to write a script without seeing how the panels lay out—just for my own sake, I might have to do both concurrently.)

As an aside, to get a feel for graphic novels I was rereading 99RM and was reminded of how great it was—tightly plotted, intriguing, and anything to do with Ashmedai was just beautifully drawn. I need more Monsignor Tiefer and something something there are parallels between Jehan and Daniel in my head and I don’t know if they make sense but it works for me. (As an aside, I liked the emphasis on atonement being more than just the word sorry, but acknowledgment you did wrong and an attempt to remedy it—I don’t know why that spoke to me the way that it did.)

I thought Tumblr had a word count limit for asks but so far it has offered zero resistance, oh well. I don’t have much else to say but on the topic of 99RM, Adam getting under Monsignor’s skin is amazing, 10/10 (about the Pride picture earlier)

wow tumblr got rid of the markdown editor! or at least in asks which means the new editor probably has no markdown....god i hate this site! anyway...

Totally! So first, giant thank you for the compliments! Second, I have a few questions in turn for you before I dive into a sort of answer, since I can give some advice to your questions in general but it also sounds like you have a specific conundrum on your hands.

My questions to your specific situation are:

did the author give any reason for recommending a, in your words, "wordy" story be turned into a graphic novel?

is the story you're writing more, like you said, "internal monologuing"? action packed? where do the visuals come from?

do you WANT it to be a comic? furthermore, do you want it to be a comic you then must turn around and draw? or would you be interested in writing for comics as a comic writer to have your words turned into art?

With those questions in mind, let me jump into the questions you posed me!

Let me start with a confession...

I've said this before but let me say it again: Ninety-Nine Righteous Men was not originally a comic — it was a feature-length screenplay! And furthermore, it was written for a class so it got workshopped again and again to tighten the plot by a classroom of other nerds — so as kind as your compliments are, I'm giving credit where credit is due as that was not just a solo ship sailing on the sea. On top of that, it got adapted (by me) into a comic for my thesis, so my advisor also helped me make it translate or "read" well given I was director, actor, set designer, writer, editor, SFX guy, etc. all in one. And it was a huge help to have someone say "there is no way you can go blow by blow from script to comic: you need to make edits!" For instance, two scenes got compressed to simple dialogue overlaid on the splashpage of Ashmedai raping Caleb (with an insert panel of Adam and Daniel talking the next day.) What had been probably at least 5 pages became 1.

Additionally, I don't consider myself a strong plotter. That said, I found learning to write for film made the plotting process finally make some damn sense since the old plot diagram we all got taught in grammar school English never made sense as a reader and definitely made 0 sense as a writer — for me, for some reason, the breakdown of 25-50-25 (approx. 25 pages for act 1, 50 for act 2 split into 2 parts of 25 each, 25 pages for act 3) and the breaking down of the beats (the act turning points, the mid points, the low point) helped give me a structure that just "draw a mountain, rising action, climax is there, figure it out" never did. Maybe the plot diagram is visually too linear when stories have ebb and flow? I don't know. But it never clicked until screenwriting. So that's where I am coming from. YMMV.

I should also state that there's Official Ways To Write Comic Scripts to Be Drawn By An Artist (Especially If You Work For A Real Publisher As a Writer) and there's What Works For You/Your Team. I don't give a rat's ass about the former (and as an artist, I kind of hate panel by panel breakdowns like you see there) so I'm pretty much entirely writing on the latter here. I don't give a good god damn about official ways of doing anything: what works for you to get it done is what matters.

What Goes Where?

Like I said, 99RM was a screenplay so it follows, beat-wise, the 3-act screenplay structure (hell, it's probably more accurate to say it follows the act 1/act 2A/act 2B/act 3 structure.) So there was the story idea or concept that then got applied to those story beats associated with the structure, and from there came the Scene-by-scene Breakdown (or Expanded Scene Breakdown) which basically is an outline of beats broken down into individual scenes in short prose form so you get an overview of what happens, can see pacing, etc. In the resources at the end I put some links that give information on the whole story beat thing.

(As an aside: for all my short comics, I don't bother with all that, frankly. I usually have an image or a concept or a bit of writing — usually dialogue or monologue, sometimes a concrete scene — that I pick at and pick at in a little sketchbook, going back and forth between writing and thumbnail sketches of the page. Or I just go by the seat of my pants and bullshit my way through. Either or. Those in many ways are a bit more like poems, in my mind: they are images, they are snapshots, they are feelings that I'm capturing in a few panels. Think doing mental math rather than writing out geometric proofs, yanno?)

Personally, I tend to lean on dialogue as it comes easier for me (it's probably why I'm so drawn to screenwriting!) so for me, if I were to do another longform GN, I'd probably take my general "uhhhhhh I have an idea and some beats maybe so I guess this should happen this way?" outline and start breaking it down scene by scene (I tend to write down scenes or scene sketches in that "uhhhh?" outline anyway LOL) and then figure out basic dialogue and action beats — in short, I'd kind of do the work of writing a screenplay without necessarily going full screenplay format (though I did find the format gave me an idea of timing/pacing, as 1 page of formatted script is about equal to 1 minute of screentime, and gave me room to sketch thumbnails or make edits on the large margins!) If you're not a monologue/soliloque/dialogue/speech person and more an image and description person, you may lean more into visuals and scenes that cut to each other.

Either way this of course introduces the elephant in the panel: art! How do you choose what to draw?

The answer is, well, it depends! The freedom of comics is if you can imagine it, you can make it happen. You have the freedoms (and audio limitations) of a truly silent film with none of the physical limitations. Your words can move in real time with the images or they can be a narrative related to the scene or they could be nonsequitors entirely! The better question is how do you think? Do you need all the words and action written first before you break down the visuals? Do you need a panel by panel breakdown to be happy, or can you freewheel and translate from word and general outlines to thumbnails? What suits you? I really cannot answer this because I think when it comes to what goes where with regard to art, it's a bit of "how do you process visuals" and also a bit of "who's drawing this?" — effectively, who is the interpreter for the exact thing you are writing? Is it you or someone else? If it's you, would you benefit from a barebones script alongside thumbnailed paneling? Would you be served by a barebones script, then thumbnails, then a new script that includes panel and page breakdowns? What frees you up to do what you need to do to tell your story?

If I'm being honest, I don't necessarily worry about panels or what something will look like necessarily until I'm done writing. I may have an image that I clearly state needs to happen. I may even have a sequence of panels that I want to see and I do indeed sketch that out and make note of it in my script. But exactly how things will be laid out, paneled, situated? That could change up until I've sketched my final pencils in CSP (but I am writer and artist so admittedly I get that luxury.)

How do I compress from novel to comic?

Honest answer? You don't. Not really. You adapt from one to another. It's more a translation. Something that would take forever to write may take 1 page in a comic or may take a whole issue.

I'm going to pick on Victor Hugo. Victor Hugo spent a whole-ass book in Notre-Dame de Paris talking about a bird's eye view of Paris and other medieval architecture boring stuff, with I guess some foreshadowing with Montfaucon. Who cares. Not me. I like story. Anyway. When we translate that book to a movie any of the billion times someone's done that, we don't spend a billion years talking at length about medieval Paris. There's no great monologuing about the gibbet or whatever: you get to have some establishing shots, maybe a musical number, and then you move tf on. Because it's a movie, right? Your visuals are right there. We can see medieval Paris. We can see the cathedral. We can see the gibbet. We don't need a whole book: it's visually right there. Same with a comic: you may need many paragraphs to describe, say, a space station off of Sirius and one panel to show it.

On the flip side, you may take one line, maybe two, to say a character keyed in the special code to activate the holodeck; depending on the visual pacing, that could be a whole page of panels (are we trying to stretch time? slow it down? what are we emphasizing?) A character gives a sigh of relief — one line of text, yeah? That could be a frozen panel while a conversation continues on or that could be two (or more!) panels, similar to the direction [a beat] in screenwriting.

Sorry there's not a super easy answer there to the question of compression: it's a lot more of a tug, a push-pull, that depends on what you're conveying.

So Do I Have It In Me to Write & Draw a GN?

The only way you'll know is by doing. Scary, right? The thing is, you don't necessarily need to be an animation king or God's gift to background artists to draw a comic.

Hell, I hate backgrounds. I still remember sitting across from my friend who said "Claude you really need to draw an establishing exterior of the church at some point" and me being like "why do you hate me specifically" because drawing architecture? Again? I already drew the interior of the church altar ONCE, that should be enough, right? But I did draw an exterior of the church. Sorta. More like the top steeple. Enough to suggest what I needed to suggest to give the audience a better sense of place without me absolutely losing my gourd trying to render something out of my wheelhouse at the time.

And that's kinda the ticket, I think. Not everyone's a master draftsman. Not everyone has all the skills in every area. And regardless, from page one to page one hundred, your skills will improve. That's all part of it — and in the meantime, you should lean into your strengths and cheat where you can.

Do you need to lovingly render a background every single panel? Christ no! Does every little detail need to be drawn out? Sure if you want your hand to fall off. Cheat! Use Sketchup to build models! Use Blender to sculpt forms to paint over! Use CSP Assets for prebuilt models and brushes if you use CSP! Take photographs and manip them! Cheat! Do what you need to do to convey what you need to convey!

For instance, a tip/axiom/"rule" I've seen is one establishing shot per scene minimum and a corollary to that has been include a background once per page minimum as grounding (no we cannot all have eternal floating heads and characters in the void. Unless your comic is set in the void. In which case, you do you.) People ain't out here drawing hyper detailed backgrounds per each tiny panel. The people who DO do that are insane. Or stupid. Or both. Or have no deadline? Either way, someone's gonna have a repetitive stress injury... Save yourself the pain and the headache. Take shortcuts. Save your punches for the big K.O. moments.

Start small. Make an 8-page zine. Tell a beginning, a middle, an end in comic form. Bring a scene to life in a few pages. See what you're comfortable drawing and where you struggle. See where you can lean heavily into your comfort zones. Learn how to lean out of your comfort zone. Learn when it's worth it to do the latter.

Or start large. Technically my first finished comic (that wasn't "a dumb pencil thing I drew in elementary school" or "that 13 volume manga I outlined and only penciled, what, 7 pages of in sixth grade" or "random one page things I draw about my characters on throw up on the interwebz") was 99RM so what do I know. I'm just some guy on the internet.

(That's not self-deprecating, I literally am some guy on the internet talking about my path. A lot of this is gonna come down to you and what vibes with you.)

Resources on writing

Some of these are things that help me and some are things that I crowd-sourced from others. Some of these are going to be screenwriting based, some will be comic based.

Making Comics by Scott McCloud: I think everyone recommends this but I think it is a useful book if you're like "ahh!!! christ!! where do I start!!!???" It very much breaks down the elements of comics and the world they exist in and the principles involved, with the caveat that there are no rules! In fact, I need to re-read it.

Comic Book Design: I picked this up at B&N on a whim and in terms of just getting a bird's eye view of varied ways to tackle layout and paneling? It's such a great resource and reference! I personally recommend it as a way to really get a feel for what can be done.

the screenwriter's bible: this is a book that was used in my class. we also used another book that's escaping me but to be honest, I never read anything in school and that's why I'm so stupid. anyway, I'd say check it out if you want, especially if you start googling screenwriting stuff and it's like 20 billion pieces of advice that make 0 sense -- get the core advice from one place and then go from there.

Drawing Words & Writing Pictures: many people I know recommended this. I think I have it? It may be in storage. So frankly, I'd already read a bunch of books on comics before grabbing this that it kind of felt like a rehash. Which isn't shade on the authors — I personally was just a sort of "girl, I don't need comics 101!!!"

Invisible Ink: A Practical Guide to Building Stories that Resonate: this has been recommended so many times to me. I cannot personally speak on it but I can say I do trust those who rec'd it to me so I am passing it along

the story circle: this is pretty much the hero's journey. a useful way to think of journeys! a homie pretty much swears by it

a primer on beats: quick google search got me this that outlines storybeats

save the cat!: what the above refers to, this gives a more genre-specific breakdown. also wants to sell you on the software but you don't need that.

I hope this helps and please feel free to touch base with more info about your specific situation and hopefully I'll have more applicable answers.

[pocketgalaxies]

hi bova, quarantine asks: 8, 27, 35, 37, 39, 48 and tell us why!!

hi chassie

8. What’s a goal you hope to achieve while being quarantined?

uhhhhh i’ve mostly been letting myself feel accomplished for not Completely Losing It but it’d be cool if i can manage to read a book at some point before things go back to normal! also i hope to not contract coronavirus

27. What do you like most about the quarantine?

i appreciate that i am literally required to stay in my home now, as opposed to wanting to stay home when people want me to go out and do other things. also in a weird way time feels like it’s kind of stopped, and a lot of deadlines i used to be super worried about aren’t v pressing anymore (but at the same time i’m feeling more overwhelmed than before bc of all the change and the few deadlines that still remain so maybe not)

35. Who was the last person you texted, called, facetimed?

i texted YOU last, idiot!! and i’m facetiming my roommates rn so we can peer pressure each other into doing schoolwork

37. If you had to live in one item of clothing for the rest of this quarantine what would it be?

i have a super soft crew neck sweater from dry goods that i’ve been wearing to sleep but i will gladly wear it during the day too. and a random pair of underarmor sweatpants i found in my dresser at home, they’re also v soft

39. What’s your favorite restaurant? Is it closed?

a cruel question!!!! if i HAD to pick one i’d say bibimbab, a local korean restaurant in michigan. they are closed right now ://

48. What’s your favorite quote?

uhhhhhh whyyyyyyyyy goddammit uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh fuck ummmmmmmmmmmm CAN I GIVE YOU A FEW OPTIONS

“see, god may have / invented blood, but we two girls in love / invented invincibility” - keaton st. james (the Power and the Weight and Truth of love between wlw that allows it to be compared to god’s invention of blood, which is conventionally smth that represents unbreakable bonds and the fundamental nature of being alive. the “but” implies that perhaps two girls in love can equal or even exceed the act of inventing blood by inventing invincibility instead, which to me is a higher-level word that acknowledges the complexities and gray areas of living that blood doesn’t necessarily acknowledge, while also asserting a strength that comes from wlw themselves to fight through that)

“if it’s a crime to bend the line, then we should tear it up” - MADE IN HEIGHTS (this song has always just been one of my favs and this line stood out to me the first time i listened to it. i like the carelessness of “tear[ing] it up” within this simple construct of a straight line of convention/normality. rip it up until it’s virtually unrecognizable, out of individuality and rebellion and the right to unique self-expression)

“i dream of a language whose words, like fists, would fracture jaws” - emil cioran (this quote has been w me for a long time, i think it articulates some of the reasons i love language and writing. the way words can come off the page to have an effect that’s not only emotional but also physical. and i like that the metaphor is violent, it resists the idea that writing is passive and purely descriptive. it is ofc a form of record-keeping but it also has the power to incite violence, and just to get away from the quote a bit it has an underestimated power to change the course of history in general. also i like the idea of dreaming of a language)

“when i met ana i knew: i loved her to the point of invention” - sarah ruhl (i don’t even know what to say about this i think the entire monologue is fantastic and the entire play is fantastic. “to the point of invention” is such a short and simple phrase but it’s this huge and almost divine concept, doing things that have never been done by anyone in history, to make one person happier. and the monologue starts w a real-life example, someone who v truly did something historic and monumental for the person they love!! the whole thing just blows me away, and it inspires me to be that open and determined and to Feel. to love so much that i can change the world)

quarantine asks

[itsladykit]

heya kit UwU ❤ for the ship meme if you are still up for it, could you do the atypical boys like all of them, twist, rus, edge, pup and cash if that's ok or is it too many? if so feel free to skip this ye

Who’s the cuddler: 

Twist, but Rus and Pup provide some tough competition. This boy will snatch up any or all of his lovers and cuddle into them no matter where they are or what they’re doing. It’s resulted in more than one burnt dinner—which is part of the reason Edge has banned him from the kitchen.

Pup and Rus are also very cuddly, but they typically glom onto Twist and whichever monster he’s already captured for some good cuddles.

Who makes the bed:

Edge, Pup, and Twist. Edge is very neat and tidy in general, while Pup is actually pretty meticulous. Managing his environment really helps him manage his anxiety too. And Twist really needs things to feel right. That usually means keeping things in their proper place. He’s actually more fastidious than he seems.

Who wakes up first:

Uhhhhhh..... These boys’ sleep schedules are so messed up, honestly. So here’s a basic rundown of their sleep schedules:

Slim goes to sleep around dawn, and gets up sometime around 10 or 11. He gardens for a while, then goes back to bed at 4 or 5, depending on the season. He probably takes a short nap after “lunch” at midnight as well.

Twist has no sleep schedule. He’s completely unpredictable and sleeps at really odd hours.

Cash is actually pretty erratic too. He doesn’t really have a “normal” circadian rhythm, so he just tends to sleep in short naps throughout the day and night.

Edge is the only one who has a solid sleep schedule—up at dusk, asleep at dawn.

Rus mostly sticks to Edge’s sleep schedule, but sometimes he’ll wake up in the middle of the day and either watch Edge sleep or go find Twist or Slim for a smoke or a quick afternoon delight.

Who has the weird taste in music:

...this time it’s gotta be Twist. Certain tones are actually really pleasurable to him, so he’ll listen to whale songs or didgeridoo music and start purring. (It’s because those tones mimic the sounds mother dragons make when soothing their young. It’s kind of precious, but it’s definitely weird. Rus absolutely takes advantage because Twist is super pliable and at ease after listening to that music.)

Who is more protective:

Hahahahaha. Holy crap, who isn’t super protective in this group? Honestly, I wouldn’t want to be the one to hurt any of these boys, because the other four will be coming after that person with a vengeance.

Who sings in the shower:

Twist...and maybe Cash. Sometimes Slim.

Who cries during movies:

Twist, Slim, and Rus. Edge and Cash cry too, but more rarely.

Who spends the most while out shopping:

Twist. He doesn’t really have a solid grasp of money? Thankfully, Edge is pretty savvy, and they’ve got some solid investments so money isn’t really an issue for them. Twist is very much the type who sees a thing, wants the thing, and buys the thing without considering the cost.

Cash, once he’s introduced to the concept of money, probably doesn’t really grasp the actual value of paper money until much later. Pup probably has to keep an eye on him the first few times they go into town to make sure he doesn’t under- or over-pay the vendors.

Who kisses more roughly:

Cash. He doesn’t really get kissing at first, but once he does, it’s always as if he’s trying to devour his partner.

Who is more dominate:

In order—

Rus & Cash

Edge

Twist

Slim

My eagerness to write for the ship, rated from 1-10: 

Sexually and romantically: 9/10. Time and the desire for variety are the only reason I don’t post Atypical 24/7. I don’t write as much smut for these guys simply because smut is hard and I...don’t feel like I do a very good job with it? So I’m hesitant to use the Atypical boys and ruin the vibe of the fic.

Shipping meme

[unsuccesscr]

Tag muns you want to know better; repost - don’t reblog.

(I don’t have a mun fc so have a pic of my boy instead)

What inspired you to try/create that muse/s: I’ve talked about this a little bit before;essentially I created this AU first and then the blog was sort of a way to get my ideas out. I considered writing a fic but I don’t really have the time or focus and i’m not enough of an artist to draw it out. (although I still want to sit down and sketch some designs at some point)

Uh as for what inspired the AU itself? A few things. Watching BNHA, it never really made sense to me that Izuku couldn’t be a hero without a quirk. It felt very much like “telling not showing” story telling bc while the characters kept insisting it was impossible, all evidence shown says the opposite. We constantly see Izuku doing great things without using OFA and we also see some pretty irrelevant quirks. Is the guy who can stretch his fingers or the one who can pull his eyeballs from his head really better off than Izuku. I mean, really?

So I was thinking about that a lot and I kept seeing quirkless villain AUs where Izuku is really capable, like essentially the perfect enemy. But no quirkless hero AUs. I saw a couple posts mention liking the concept but no fics, no fanart, no headcanons. Basically I was hungry for that content so I made it myself lmao. No regrets.

You will pry the concept of quirkless Izuku from my cold, dead, hands.

What is inspiration for that muse/s: I mostly try to draw from canon, to the point where this is probably better described as ‘canon divergent’ than an actual AU. I try to keep all major events the same and my headcanons are all based on stuff that has happened in canon as well. Whenever I need inspiration to write, re-reading chapters of the manga or watching some of the anime usually does the trick.

Most of Izuku’s gadgets are based on video games or other anime that I like. His arsenal of arrows is based heavily on the Legend of Zelda series and his coil-rope is based on a few anime.

There is a fair amount of drawing on my own experiences as well, for the parts of his anxiety and autism. As well as a lot of research. I spend a lot of time reading up on things like psychology as well as biology and physics bc uh Izuku is one smart cookie and I am not. Sometimes it will take me hours of research for one reply, because Izuku is uh,,,,a fucking nerd.

Thread/AU that made you really happy: Hmmmmm, I have a lot? 

but uhhhhhh I tend to really really enjoy threads that are plotted out with my partner. Not necessarily beforehand but at some point. Sharing headcanons and knowing it’s going somewhere make me a lot more excited than one-off threads (which I still enjoy, don’t get me wrong!) tbh the more we interact OOC, the more i’m going to enjoy our IC interactions.

I also really like doing random dash shennanigans! those make me super happy!

Something really special on your wishlist: Uh i’ll make a proper post about this at some point but I’d really love to explore Izuku facing off against one or more of his classmates for some reason and them essentially realizing how fucked they are/that it’s a good thing he’s normally on their side.

It being some sort of class exercise is good but also uh mind control would be cool (not like Shinsou’s quirk, something more where he’s acting independently but the quirk is influencing him to attack? idk) and uh yeah basically I just live off of people realizing how capable Izuku is

Something you are looking for in short future for your muse: I’m really looking forward to developing him more on the emotional side. I think i’ve focused too much on the practical “how would this work” side of this AU but now that i’m somewhat happy with the timeline i’d like to return to his actual character arc.

Share something related to your muse!:

um i’m not sure what this exactly means but uh, have one of my favorite manga panels?

Izuku? immediately caving because a Ochako said something nice to him? it’s more likely than you think. and honestly? mood.

What do you think about character’s design/how do you came up with this:

I make fun of Izuku quite a bit but I actually love his design. It really highlights his personality. The wild hair, the big eyes, the adorable pinch-able cheeks. I love how dorky looking he is lmao and honestly I get upset when people try to make him look more suave. Stop it. (i’m looking @ you anime where are my boy’s tacky t-shirts)

His hero costume though? I hate it. So much. Especially the alpha version. But the beta and gamma aren’t much better. 

What your muse taught you: I know a lot of irrelevant shit I didn’t know before that’s for sure like how a quadratic function can be used to calculate the trajectory of projectiles and how genetics work/how genetics would affect quirks. Like I mentioned before, a lot of research goes into writing this boy.

On the sappier side? Izuku really goes to show being a kind person doesn’t make you a weak person. I faced a fair amount of bullying and abuse as a kid myself and it kind of turned me into an asshole. As a way to ‘protect’ myself. And the whole world kind of acts like being nice is a bad thing. The whole nice guys finish last nonsense.

Izuku learns to stand up for himself in a way that isn’t mean or cruel or hardened. He’s still incredibly soft and empathetic. He still cries at the drop of a hat despite being strong emotionally and physically. And god, I wish I could be more like him in that regard.

What is roleplay for you: Hnnnn does it sound bad if I say ‘a hobby’? I enjoy it, and like with all hobbies it’s a great way to meet like-minded people and make friends. But it’s not my job, and I don’t plan on becoming a professional writer or anything. It’s all for fun.

Just say something nice about other mun!: 

Honestly if I talk about all the people on here I love we’ll be here all fucking day and no one wants to listen (read?) to what I have to say (write?) for that long. so just suffice to say I love every single one of you god bless.

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[transssexualheart]

Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaallllllllll

1- what images do you have set for your desktop/cell phone wallpaper?my phone has pictures of my friends and my desktop is still dan avidan i keep forgetting to change it

2- have you ever had a crush on a teacher?no

3- what as your last text message?sent? it was “me too”

4- what do you see yourself doing in ten years?probably dying

5- if you could be anywhere else right now, where would you be?in someone’s arms

6- what was your coolest halloween costume?uhh probably last years even tho it wasn’t that great bc i made it myself and had a styled wig and everything

7- what was your favorite 90s show?i was not alive in the 90s

8- who was your last kiss?still zee

9- have you ever been stood up?no

10- favorite ice cream flavor?strawberry or cotton candy

11- have you ever been to las vegas?no

12- your favorite pair of shoes?probably my pink ones they’re soft and have tiny one inch platforms

13- honestly, have you ever cheated on a significant other?no

14- what is your favorite fruit?watermelon or strawberry

15- have you ever talked to anyone on tumblr that your could see yourself dating/having sex with? if possible?well i mean one of my exes i met over tumblr so it’s not a wild concept to me but currently i’m not like,,, interested in others

16- are you into hookups? short or long term relationships?long term

17- do you smoke? if so, what?no

18- what do you do to get over your anger?rant about it on this blog or sometimes to a friend i guess

19- do you believe in god?idk man

20- does the person you’re in love with know it?yeah

21- favorite position?sleeping

22- what’s your horoscope sign?leo

23- your fears?being abandoned, myself sometimes, everyone secretly hating me, never being loved, etc

24- how many pets do you have? what kind?three, a cat and two fish

25- what never fails to turn you on?uhhhhhh

26- your idea of a perfect first date?idk uh,, get food maybe hold hands a little 

27- what is something most people don’t know about you?idk,, i guess most people don’t know what i look like during a full on breakdown that i’m not trying to disguise

28- what makes you feel the happiest?hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

29- what store do you shop at most often?i dont shop a lot

30- how do you feel about oral? giving and or receiving? never gave or received, both sound good to me tho

31- do you believe in karma?idk

32- are you single?yeah

33- do you think flowers or candy are a better way to apologize? the best way to apologize is to mean it and not expect forgiveness if you really fucked up and to be genuine and honest and if you do those things it shouldn’t really matter whether you choose flowers or candy

34- are you a good swimmer?i mean,, i won’t drown

35- coffee or tea?tea

36- online shopping or shopping in person?i do both

37- would you rather be older or younger than your current age?i’d prefer to keep my age so i don’t fuck up the timeline of my life thank u very much

38- cats or dogs?how can i choose

39- are you a competitive person?i don’t think so

40- do you believe in aliens?yes

41- do you like dancing?don’t really do it much 

42- what kind of music do you listen to?many kinds, mostly anything but country

43- what is your favorite cartoon character?how can i choose just one

44- where are you from?albany

45- eat at home or eat out?eat out

46- how much more social are you when you’re drunk?i’ve never been drunk

47- what was the last thing you bought for yourself?i don’t remember

48- why do you think your followers follow you?idk actually why do u guys follow me

49- how many hours do you sleep at night?it varies, sometimes like ten sometimes none

50- what worries you most about the future?i pretty much rely on the fact that i’ll probably die before it matters but if i don’t die i’ll have no idea what i’m doing

51- if you had a friend that spoke to you the same way you speak to yourself, how long would you be friends?not very, i’m not friends with myself tho so

52- are you happy with yourself?no, never really have been

53- what do you wish you didn’t know?i don’t know

54- what big lesson could people learn from your life?i guess,, not to take people for granted 

55- if you could live in any home on a television series, what would it be?what

56- what’s your favorite website?i visit this hellsite most often i guess

57- what’s the habit your proudest of breaking?the only habit i could think of that i broke was biting my nails

58- what was your most recent trip of over 50 miles?idk how many miles i travel bc i don’t drive

59- what’s the best bargain you’ve ever found at a garage sale or thrift store?idk

60- what do you order when you eat chinese food?sweet and sour chicken and white rice 

61- if you had to be names after one of the fifty states what would it be?no

62- if you had to teach a subject to a class, what would it be?alright so there are three things that i feel like i’m able to do well those three things are draw, write, and play pokemon and i’m a failure at everything else i do so probably an art class or creative writing class

63- favorite kind of chips?i like doritos

64- favorite kind of sandwich?grilled cheese

65- which do you use more often, dictionary or thesaurus?dictionary

66- have you ever been stung by a bee?yeah, only once, and i have a history of not fucking eating for whole days and that was one of those days and i guess the sting just triggered the dehydration and all that and i got really dizzy and my legs gave out and my mom had to carry me home

67- what’s your favorite form of exercise?my what now

68- are you afraid of heights?more afraid of what i’d do to myself than the height itself

69- what’s the most memorable class you’ve ever taken?eight grade science, i had a bunch of friends in that class and we hated the teacher at the time and the shit he did and we were constantly like going insane and here’s the main reason: my mom went to school with that teacher and she managed to find a fuckin. story that he wrote in 11th grade and she showed it to me and my god it was so bad and the main character was such a self insert and i was like “oh my god this is amazing” and you know what i fuckin did? u know what i did? i decided to make c o p i e s of the story so i could bring it into school and show my friends. so i had like ten copies and we gave one to my friend kevin however. we gave it to him DURING science class. so instead of doing his work kevin is sitting back there reading this story and laughing at it and the teacher is like “what are you doing kevin?” and kevin, instead of putting it away and being like “my work”, was like “oh i’m reading your 11th grade story” and at this point i’m like “oh fuck” and then the teacher asked where he got it and he points to me and i’m like “OH FUCK” so he comes over and asks where i got it and i’m like “surprise my mom went to school with you” and he’s like “i haven’t seen this story in years” and guess who’s like “DO U WANT A COPY” and reaches over me and into my backpack to pull out a fuckin copied version :^) anyway that day was wild some girl i never talk to who didn’t even know my dead name let alone my actual name came up to me asking for a copy

70- what’s your favorite breakfast?pancakes or waffles

71- do you like guacamole?no

72- have you ever been in a physical fight?no

73- what/who are you thinking about right now?um

74- do you like cuddling?yes

75- are you holding onto something you need to let go of?can we not have this conversation over tumblr’s ask system thanks

76- have you ever experienced one of your biggest fears?i live with myself every day lmao

77- favorite city you’ve been to?nyc!!

78- would you break the law to save a family member?probably

79- talk about an embarrassing moment?me, as a person

80- are there any causes you strongly believe in?idk

81- what’s the worst injury you’ve ever had?not sure

82- fav day of the week?none

83- do you consider yourself sexually open minded?idk what that means

84- how do you feel about porn?i don’t watch it really, but if that’s your thing then it’s your thing

85- which living celebrity would you like to know?idk

86- who was your hottest ex?it’s hard for me to like,, determine that because my sexual attraction to someone usually isn’t there until i start liking them romantically (in most cases, there’s people i never liked romatically but found attractive or people i found attractive before i liked them but that’s not the case with anyone i actually dated) and it disappears when i don’t like them romantically anymore so ???? also rude question especially considering at least two of my exes follow me here

87- do you want/have kids?don’t have them, might have them but that’s dependent on whether or not my partner is able to take care of kids i’m not gonna have kids if i know that my partner can’t be a good parent to them. also still not sure if i want them myself

88- has anyone ever told you that they wanted to marry you?no

89- do you get easily distracted?hell yeah

90- ass or titties?why… choose…..

91- what is your favorite word?to use in writing, probably “gentle”. to use in speech, probably “fuckin”

92- how do you feel about tattoos?i want a lot, i have two

93- do you have any pets?this was already a question?

94- how tall are you? 5′5

95- how old are you?14

96- 3 physical features you get complimented on a lot?i don’t get complimented on specifics, the most i get it usually like “you look nice today” or sometimes ppl say they like my makeup but that’s not a physical feature of mine

97- is there anything you’re really passionate about?i love,, the jims and the piano

98- do you have trust issues?idk, i don’t let most people see me cry or see me having a breakdown and i only really trust a few people with most stuff and it’s usually because there was something that happened in the past that allowed them to already know stuff like that and they were good about it and i was like “oh, then they’ll be alright about it and i don’t have to explain myself to them because they already know” but?????

99- do you believe in love at first sight?god no, what if they’re a dick?? u can’t judge a book by it’s cover. also i think that now i’ll have to know someone pretty well to start liking them because of past and current events

100- what are some words that you live by? why? i don’t have a specific quote or anything but. if you love someone tell them. i’ve said this before, and i don’t mean specifically romantically in fact in some cases you should keep that to yourself so no one is made uncomfortable but like. tell your mom or your best friend or your dad or your grandma that you love them because they could be gone real soon or you could be gone real soon and they should know that you love them before that happens

thank u for asking

[oracles]

All of the emojis for the sweet and pure asks

DSJFHFDJKHKFJFFF honestly you’re probably like the only person who cares about what i say on here … thank u .. my savior 💖

(obviously imma put this under a cut .. if it doesn’t work on mobile, i apologize in advance aadhjfdkff since when things are under a cut i tend to write long ass rambling answers)

🐰- do you believe in soul mates?

as an utterly hopeless romantic, i certainly want to. i think because of like … insecurities, self hate and stuff (not to get too deep), it’s a comforting idea to me to like Know that there’s someone out there who doesn’t see me the way i do … but realistically? no. i think you gotta realize that relationships are hard and something you have to work to keep healthy and happy and not as magically problem-solving as soulmate tropes make it out to be. so short answer: realistically no, ideally yes. 

💌- diary or journal?

the one i write in is honestly a mix of both, but i think it’s more of a diary. it’s cathartic to write things out when you don’t wanna talk to someone else about it (or in addition to venting to another person) and for the journal aspect of it, i really like looking back on things i did back in the day. i’ve had a diary/journal hybrid since like 2008-ish? so i love that !

✨- which fictional character (book, show, or movie) do you relate to most?

ooh good question …. there’s a lot! i think i see bits of myself in a lot of characters so there isn’t any One (1) person i relate to the most. shaw from person of interest keeps coming to mind but maybe i’ve just absorbed parts of her, rather than actually being like her so who knows . jessica jones is another one, in some aspects. i think just from those two you can tell the Type of character i not only gravitate towards, but relate to too

💕- are you crushing on someone?

irl? no, i’m not. i have plenty of celebrity crushes though so i can’t even begin to start listing those. honestly most of the celebs i talk about / reblog on here are most likely a crush . to paraphrase an iconic pisces, yeah i’m a love whore and what about it ??? dfjkdhkjff

💋- kissing in the dark or kissing in the rain?

both !!!!! but kissing in the dark may be more ideal so i can hide how flustered i probably would be

🐝- describe your aesthetic in emojis

💌💣🌙🥀🖤  less of an aesthetic and more so just emojis i like, i feel like

🍼- what is your favorite memory?

oof … this is a really hard question. honestly, i don’t know. there’s a lot of memorable things. i feel like it’s mainly just the lil things – moments that i look back on that don’t seem like much but are really warm and comforting to reminiscence about (sorry, this isn’t really an answer)

🌸- what is your favorite flower?

a more recent fav but i’ve been really interested in diphylleia grayi / skeleton flowers lately. part of me doesn’t even know if they’re like real, but i’ve written a lot about them lately (and ofc listened to the jonghyun song about it) so i’ve had a sort of attachment to them lately. aside from that, i don’t really have a favorite? i think they’re all pretty

💖- have you ever been in love?

a lot dkjfhkjff probably more of a crush / infatuation than anything else in actuality, i suppose, though. platonically in love, however? absolutely

🍰- strawberry or vanilla?

vanilla, hands down

🍯- describe your favorite smell

ironically, vanilla is a big favorite smell of mine. i think i have a pretty sensitive sense of smell so there’s a lot of different things. i also like tea / coffee smells? idk, just stuff like that. which is part of why i enjoy baking, i think

🎂- if you had 3 wishes, what would they be?

1) for more wishes … bc im a gremlin

beyond that, i never know what to say for these questions beyond things i obviously want like world peace, ending world hunger, etc etc. like for personal things maybe … like being happy with myself? bc i think my self-image issues hinder me a LOT.

🍪- cookie dough or cookies?

both!!!! i eat the left over cookie dough when i bake but the final product is always really good too. (cookies, if i had to pick one though)

☕- coffee or tea?

tea !!!! don’t really feel like the coffee type of person (aside from enjoying the smell of it)

🍃- would you rather live in a sea with mermaids or a forest with fairies?

a forest with fairies, that sounds absolutely lovely

🍂- what’s your middle name?

it’s my dad’s first name

💫- what is your sun, moon, and rising sign?

gemini sun, pisces moon and leo rising

🌧️- favorite thing to do on rainy days?

stay inside in bed with chai. basically just having a lazy day – reading, watching something, etc etc

🍭- how tall are you?

5′7″, though a part of me likes to hypothesize that if my posture wasn’t absolute SHIT my actual height would be 5′8″ (wishful thinking probably, but my posture is bad though)

💒- which show would you want to live in?

the good place was the first one to come to mind but idk about that … they go through a lot of shit and i for sure would just be in the bad place, without a chance of redemption. to appeal my Babey side ……… can i say winnie the pooh or smth (also, im just blanking out on any decent tv show where the universe isn’t one where i will probably instantly DIE in bc of how inept i am)

🎄- what is your favorite holiday?

i often say christmas for this one actually. not because we really celebrate it or anything, i just like the atmosphere around this time of year usually. mostly bc of childhood memories and how fun it was for me then

🍦- what scented candle is your favorite?

i don’t use any, but probably something vanilla-y so im sure there’s holiday candles that fit my taste

🎶- favorite song right now?

not necessarily a favorite (bc i have a LOT), but im listening to pirate king by ateez right now (thanks winnie)

💘- 3 ways to win your heart?

idk !!!!!!! have a good/similar sense of humor to me, listen to what i have to say (and like ….. don’t make me feel like shit or annoying for bringing up my interests or showing you things i think you’ll like), and uhhhhhh maybe like do cute lil romantic things for me ??? im a sucker for that. esp when people remember lil details about me based off what i’ve just casually said, idk .. it’s bare minimum time i guess. i just can’t fathom anyone Wanting to win my heart in the first place so it’s really easy bc im touch and romance starved

🍩- current mood?

okay ? just kinda here – not really happy but not sad either. neutral. procrastinating

❄️- what is your favorite season?

spring because of my birthday and the weather is decent, i guess. though i’ll also nominate winter

💍- your current relationship status?

what you think? .. DJKHFKF SINGLE of course . when have i ever been anything else

📷- a photo of yourself

absolutely not. though i have posted some before (you can click my name in my description to see this ugly minion mug of mine)

💅🏻- do you like being spoiled?

it’s weird because as a concept, yes i absolutely do but in reality, i will feel guilty and bad if anyone spends money on me at all because i don’t think i’m worth that so in practice, i guess i have to abandon my sugar baby dreams

🕊️- 3 habits you have?

1) keysmashing ? dhfkjffjkf like it’s genuinely so instinctual to me that i have to stop and make myself stop before i type it to locals i know or in emails to my teachers. in a similar realm, is my lowercase aesthetic . if only i could type my essays like this

2) saying and typing ‘like’ a lot. i guess i really AM the valley girl that envi says i sound like ………. tis a sad day. i never really noticed how much i do it till i reread old messages

3) not sitting properly. at school i do it obviously, but at home i most often sit cross legged on chairs or with one leg up or something. gay culture, babey ! the amount of times i’ve been told off for sitting “improperly” or “like a man” .. amazing

and bonus 4) being a dumbass. i just felt the urge to say that. don’t expect me to think or say anything intelligent ever. especially if we’re talking irl because my brain will exit immediately and i won’t be able to put a single coherent sentence together. i sound better online than offline, trust me.

🦄- how do you perceive yourself?

i don’t wanna turn this into oversharing emo o’clock but i’ll summarize it in one word … BAD. gremlin and scum are also fitting words. perhaps i have made points sometimes but that’s just after i go to rent-a-brain-cell ‘ r us . otherwise? complete fool . a clown, if you will . don’t get me started on my looks

🦋- how do you think others perceive you?

this is what i REALLY want to know. i have an irrationally strong desire to just know what people think of me. it’s what gives me a self-identity and a better sense of who i am bc idk !!!!!! is my quietness making me look mean ??? who knows ! just how ugly am i actually ???? someone tell me

🌈- things I find attractive in girls/guys

there’s a lot of things and i’m also feeling lazy to list things. but pretty smiles have always been a huge weakness of mine. and perhaps i have an arm kink ….. like not super muscley arms (i.e: body builder types) but kinda toned/defined ones? NUT . (not a necessity ofc, just a bonus)

🍓- one secret about yourself

well it’s not a secret online, but my sexuality i guess? offline, aside from kendra, no one else knows. beyond that, i wish i had something scandalous i could reveal but im genuinely a boring person

🍒- how do you act when you have a crush?

inside im a mess. usually i just like looking at them and going into my Daydream World (patent pending) to fulfill my romantic desires there. outwardly, i don’t do like anything. idk how obvious i am honestly. i don’t interact with them at all, aside from sneaking glances, bc i am scum !!! and also i lack any confidence whatsoever 

💔- the reason behind your last breakup?

never had one, so this is non-applicable :/

💬- what your last text message says?

to summarize, it was just me in the gc talking about a song i listened to a lot that i saw in my spotify top 100 list thing and about how i recently realized the singer/rapper was malaysian

🎥- what show are you currently binging on?

currently, im not really marathoning anything exactly ? i guess the closest would be blackish, but i haven’t watched that in a hot minute. i’m trying to catch up on it though. 

⛅- what is your morning routine?

usually it’s just get up, brush teeth / wash face, and then change into my clothes for the day and then have breakfast 

💗- who do you miss?

who i used to be ……. :( IM KIDDING . ummm idk, no one really? i guess i miss the people i don’t talk to as much anymore, though it’s really my own fault most of the time since im a horrible communicator 

🥀- last time you cried?

oof i don’t really remember …… like i get emo a lot but i don’t exactly full on cry a lot? one semi-recent time i remember crying was when envi sent us this one song in the gc and it was just really pure and romantic and i got in my feelings about it. funny how my crying works ……. i don’t cry a lot but it can be brought on by the weirdest, most random things

🎁- when is your birthday?

may 29th !!!!!

🔪- scariest/creepiest experience?

not really either (since im not scared of ghosts, though i do kinda believe in them. like i don’t NOT believe in them, but im also not gonna fight someone who doesn’t, y’know?) but long story short – i got smacked in the back of the head (like it felt like a hard slap) once and no one was there/did it. must’ve been the ghost in our apartment. i joke a lot about there being one in our place but i wouldn’t be surprised if there was, with the random stuff that happens sometimes (mostly things just falling). again im no huge believer in ghosts, it’s just whatever to me but getting hit in the back of the head like that was definitely WEIRD. bc it honestly felt like how my little brother hits me but it wasn’t him so …….. hm.

💤- date someone younger, older, or same age as you?

same age or older (not by a lot), probably. being with someone younger makes me feel weird (weirdly, usually with men. like i’ll be more comfortable dating a girl a year younger than me than a guy for example.. for maturity reasons i GUESS). but it depends. if i like someone within a reasonable age range, then i like them. 

🎀- any question you want

you didn’t ask one so n/a (and neither did i in the ask i sent you so rip)

[koupri]

💖 8 🖤 9 ♨️ 10 ✒️ 11 💭 12 🎵 13 🎇 14 🌻 15 🌩 16 🔑 17 💎 18 🏆 19 🎬 20 >:333c

*wheezes*

💖 8. Is there a character that embodies your good traits, or traits you wish you had?

Hm...I think yirina is that? Shes a very happy person, and I’m not. 

🖤 9. Is there a character that embodies your bad traits? Several characters? Which ones and what traits?

Well I made my ffxiv character emotionally constipated, and my smoke witch character (who i need to name..) is basically a personification of how I don’t really realize how bad its gotten till I randomly remember something, and then i forget again. Smoke is a good symbolization because its like, fading fire? and also unable to really hold a solid form. 

♨️ 10. Is there a character that explores your interests or fetishes (orrrr is that just all of you characters)?

Reed. tho that wasnt my intention xD. His creation just happened to overlap with my own random interest in learning to draw nsfw. I got bored of nsfw in like, a month. 

✒️ 11. If you have characters that embody certain traits of yours—good or bad—has writing them changed how you view those traits? Has it affected you in any way?

Honestly all of my “characters” are just characters that sprung from random names I made for games and stuff ‘xD. but nah, nothings changed so far. 

💭 12.  Do you fantasize about being any of your characters, or are you more detached?

uhhhh I’ve had multiple dreams about being yirina if that counts..?? one had a sick underwater boss in it. it was great

🎵 13. Do you create playlists for your characters?

no but i should :0

🎇 14. When writing for specific characters, is there anything you have to do to get into the right mindset?

not really? but I work best with other people, the mixture of 2 minds will almost always have better results than just one spinning its wheels. 

🌻 15. Which character is your guilty pleasure?

hmm...my ffxiv character kinda. tho his design is actual overdesigned garbage i lov him xD

🌩 16. Is there a character of yours who’s a real struggle to write/draw? Why do you think that is?

any characters in my steampunky universe because it wasnt just mine and it never will be. 

🔑 17. Which character is the easiest to draw/write?

Yirina, shes basically my default now xD. She was the reason I stopped drawing anime cats (thank fuck) and began to draw humans. (tho because her hair covers the sides of her face, I didnt figure out how to draw characters with short hair for ages)

💎 18. Is there anything you really wish you could do, character-design-wise, that you feel is outside your current skillset? A concept that you wish you could pull off but are uncertain about?

Good shapes in a character. Like, bingos character shapes are fucking amazing. all of my characters are twigs 

🏆 19. What’s more important to you: visual design, unique personality, a trendy character aesthetic, etc? If you’re not sure, then what’s the first thing you usually nail down in a character?

hmmm, well i do like trendy character aesthetics. Its fun to take what people like and see what you can do with it 

🎬 20. Do you ever plan to do anything (comic, animation, etc) with your characters? Or are you just happy to have them?

uhhhhhh/.......hopefully. I plan on making video games but I also kinda wanna do a webcomic? Im not good at planning tho so hmmm. I’ll likely not use my own characters for the games (instead making new ones) but yh