#what if I just Kms.

[hyunpic]

[swordmaid]

i like doing the orin duel last in yves’ playthrough bc it’s like theee climax of her story and also so she doesn’t get time to process her trauma bc I fight the brain right after hehe 🤭. but anyway throughout act 3 yves doesn’t just get her memories back as the bhaalspawn, she also gets the slow revelation of how she became one.

bc yves used to live in the lower city and she was one of the kelemvorite mortarch working in the graveyards before she got turned, id imagine current yves came across people she knew before, as well as visited the mortuary (where she spent the most time in) and found her old journal detailing her life - or lack of- after she got turned. yves managing to slowly piece together her past ; she was a kelemvorite cleric - at least that part of herself is true - but she tried to look into the ritualistic killings by the bhaalists and got killed bc of it. and then, to spite kelemvor, bhaal took that dead cleric’s flesh and face and moulded it with his to make his very own bride -> durge yves. she’s made for the sole purpose of worshipping him instead of her death god and killing for him. and when she’s killed enough in his name, he’ll consider that dowry sufficient and claim her, fully making her his.

anyway, yves’ revelation that she died and was remade against her will, and she’s essentially just wearing a dead girl’s face, and she defiled her own god and twisted his teachings in the worst way possible likeeeeee … the spiraling..!! and the meltdown …!!!! the NEED to claw at her own skin bc existing in it disgusts her. and now she’s seeing small fragments of the horrible things she has done for bhaal, and the killings she performed, and perhaps the worst thing was she remembered that she liked it. and the ecstasy that came through her whenever she did it. and when she tries to pray to kelemvor again now that she has her own mind back bhaal literally stops her heart from beating as a reminder that he holds her leash.

so when the time comes and she has decided that she’ll rid of all the bhaalspawns (and then herself), and when she’s duelling orin, I always make yves cast divine intervention to finish orin off bc it’s like her calling out to kelemvor and offering herself to him again. and when he answers her call and she denies bhaal, she’s finally granted the death she was denied of, and finally finally she can return back to her death god.

until withers is like lol no you’re not done yet

after the revival I think yves is like 🧍‍♀️ a bit shell shocked and lost. but she doesn’t have time to reevaluate herself when there is a nether brain to fight and she’s helping dismantle the very thing she crafted with gortash. and in the end she lets wyll go with karlach to avernus because she thinks he’s better off without someone like her, and after the little party they’ll have I imagine yves quietly leaves. she joins the other clerics who are helping clean up the aftermath. she doesn’t say that she was part of the group who helped saved the city, only claimed that they helped her in one point, and she doesn’t keep contact with anyone and generally tries to avoid them - out of her own shame and her own guilt.

she keeps the memories with her though - even the most disgusting and horrible ones, and with time she wrangles through them and learns to reconcile. she accepts this strange life of hers now, and she tries to help and do good just so when she finally finally reunites with the god of death again, the scales are at least tipped to her favor.

[l0tt1ee]

[verysadlesbian]

I'M GONNA KILL MYSELF

[girlwearied]

fuck zodiac signs do you also kinda feel excruciatingly unlovable in every way possible sometimes

[tootles338]

[lotus-pear]

the dialogue choices in this game should be more diabolical

[yangjeongin]

guitarist hyunjin 😳

[thecinnamongirlll]

[ins4nebxtch]

god i know how all of this rn is probably for character development and shit, but how i wish i was dead

[mjfass]

[sofiisx]

[xlcovo]

i’d be rich asf </3

[cutelilrat]

yall this gonna sound real crazy but i dont see any reason to be awake anymore. why do i wake up each morning. to repeat the cycle. over and over and over and over again. im tired. i dont want to keep living like this anymore.

[eepyava]

[dzzyfroml0vingyou]

WHY CAN'T I JUST BE SKINNY

i am skinny fat. i'm not fat, but i am not skinny either. I don't want to be able to pull the skin of my stomach. I don't want to sit down and all of my stomach just pools over my pant and just sits on my legs. I hate that no matter what position I am in, I look fat. I hate how much my thighs move when I walk. I hate the fact that I actually have to work to lose weight and I can't just st@rve and all the weight be gone.