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fr ending it all tonight cuz nothing seems worth it anymore like okay if im gonna be very honest i dont even get the point of trying anymore like it really really isnt worth it, the year started out kinda rough but i thought eh itll be fine but then like it went on and on and then it kept going downhill and see atp i still had hope that i could turn things around right but then i really don't think i can fix this like ive been trying for an entire year man idt anything is going to be any different. and before ik i was sorta depressed and shit but atleast i had some sort of energy to keep going but honestly I'm so fucking drained like idt im going to keep going. this anxiety ocd whatever the fuck it is im not self diagnosing cuz thats yucky like these fucking voices are genuinely getting too much, like bro wym smth very bad will happen if i dont leave the door hanging or keep my shoes exactly in a certain way or sit there and recite the number of fucking likes comments and shares on every reel 3 times. not victimizing here or anything but this is like -2 points for me no since i have to go through all this also and niggas who ain't gone thru shit in their life like the worst thing they've "been through" is getting scolded by parents for bad marks or sum get to sit here, fuck me over, laugh about it, spread it around to their friends who haven't gone through shit either js so they can sit here and judge me?? and then judge the way i cope w it too cuz they know whats better for me more than i do?? and dont even give me that oh ydk what others have been through like nigga even if they have 1. they should understand how it is and not pull ts and 2. if theyre going thru smth and this is their coping mechanism or whatever, just because your lire is fucking shitty doesnt give you the right to fuck up mine and laugh ab it. you cant outrun shit in this fucking city everyone knows everyone and apparently they love to make it so well known they dont like me cuz I'm some #1 alcoholic slut who apparently doesnt have a single nice bone in her body. i admit i was shitty like a while back but legit everyone who's sitting here and saying ts about me has done the same and some of these people have done even worse shit yet they face no consequencs and get to judge me?? its absolute bullshit. I've done nothing but sit here and fucking pray for things to get better and actually try to become a better person but im not gonna waste my time anymore if everything remains like this. you have absolutely no idea how much I've prayed to god, literally begging to fix atleast one aspect of my life but to no fucking avail and it's got nun to do w me being a bitch or whatever or oh it's js karma cuz i see niggas who've fucked me over 10 times worse having the time of their fucking life so god has no excuses. it's not even for character development anymore like okay bro ive actually been trying 2 change what more do i need to develop?? all these niggas do is judge judge judge like oh she drinks ew like nigga maybe the reason i do is cuz you or your friends dumbass fucked me over so hard that i wanted to kill myself?? would you rather me write yall fucking names in my suicide note and kms so the whole gang goes to prison?? fucking hell im doing these idiots a favour and they have issue w that also like bro atp id buy a fuck b4 i gave one (in reality i care a lot or i wouldnt be yapping this much) anw im done trying cuz if i suggest trying again im genyinely gonna waste 3 lakhs that my parents spent and theyll probably kill me themselves so i dont think i have any other fucking option anymore cuz im not dealing w all of this again. i swear to god bro if i actually die ive got a few niggas who i want paying the price for whatever bs they pulled or istg im gonna haunt them and pull one conjuring scene. oh and another thing ik they say iF yOu DoNt LiKe YouR LifE tHeN dO sMtH tO FiX iT like nigga past full year what do you think ive been doing like if god has this big issue w me then im also pulling one scene w him im going up there to see what his problem is

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im like midas except everything i touch rots

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haven’t posted on here in a while but fit lowkey ate so i wanted to show y’all 😭

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bro i swear to god im gonna be hot and sk1nny by the end of this year and get bitches by the dozen starting '25

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honestly i don’t even know how much longer i can hold on like this. i think it’s getting worse than it ever has. one thing i really liked about myself is that i always had hope. hope, the only thing keeping me going. hoping for it to get better i guess. but lately that’s been faltering to almost nonexistent.

the only good thing in my life as of now that provides me even the tiniest bit of excitement is how less i ate and how much i exercised. i’ve never felt this lonely before, and id honestly say im about to descend into somewhat of a d3pressed state i don’t know. i can’t trust anybody either.

lately i’ve been thinking about going back to $h a lot. the fact that someone said it’s pathetic and also the fact that i genuinely think it’s pathetic to be this weak just cuz a guy fucked you over, is the only reason i haven’t relapsed yet but i don’t know how much longer i can hold on.

as someone who’d consider themself religious, at first i thought god would help me through this, help me persevere. i genuinely believed that god would make it better and this was probably happening for me to grow as a person and it was probably for my own good. honestly i feel like everything keeps going downhill and no matter how much i pray, god doesn’t seem to answer.

i feel scared and anxious every single second of every single day, I've isolated myself completely from people for months now. I feel like a shell of who i used to be, I genuinely feel as if there's a gaping hole inside me. I don't know what to do anymore, anymore of this and i think I'm gonna finally be done.

I'm posting this as a last resort. anyone, any entity, any being, god if you're reading this, i genuinely can't do this anymore. if you're doing this for character development or whatever please, I think there's gonna be nobody left to develop if this keeps on going.

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manic pixie dream girl walked so hello kitty girl could run

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girl respectfully with all the love in the world get a grip!!!! what do you seriously expect to get out of relationships with highschool boys!!! let me tell you something even if you lose weight and become adriana limas twin it might change the way they treat you but it will never change the intentions they have for you 😭 have some pride and have some self love why would you ever give some sweaty intellectually challenged little boy the power to be able to say that he ever had you doesnt the thought of it make you feel the tiniest bit embarrassed. go study and do something good for your future instead of wasting your time on worthless boys all theyre doing is using you for free ego boosts because theyve somehow tricked you into thinking theyre worth something instead of seeing them for the losers they know they are i know this all sounds a lil mean through text and my words are harsh but it seriously hurts me everytime i see your posts on my dash trust me love dating and letting yourself go through humiliating experiences and having exes and having "lore" might sound cool at your age but its not worth your energy your life force and especially your body dont make stupid mistakes just because the girls around you are making them know better do better & be better i promise you while youre sitting here agonising over this whole situation you got with your ex hes mentally laughing his head off at you because he managed to have this much of an effect on you and having the biggest high of his life because he found someone "pathetic" enough to care about him

whoever you are, i genuinely love you.

but also i just need to find a way to have the same effect on him, i cant move on knowing someone did all that to me and got away with it. i need them to suffer the same amount and i don't know im just very determined to make that happen in whatever way possible. it's literally all i think about and i cannot focus on anything else unless I've gotten even

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need a guardian angel so fucking bad

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su1c1d4l but not in a I w4nna km$ so bad way, but a who or what am i even living for way

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went from thinking bout him 24/7, to thinking about putting a bull3t through my head cuz of him

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Vetted by: @gazavetters, my number verified on the list is ( #89 )

My dear friend,

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donate rn

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Hi 👋, My name is Mohammad, and I’m reaching out in a moment of desperate need. I’m a father of three young children living in Gaza, and we are caught in the midst of a catastrophic war. Our home is no longer a safe haven, and the future here seems increasingly uncertain. 💔

I’ve launched a fundraising campaign with the goal of raising $60,000 to relocate my family to a safer place where my children can grow up in peace and have a chance at a brighter future.

Unfortunately, my previous fundraising efforts were abruptly halted when my account was terminated without explanation. However, I remain determined to keep fighting for my family’s safety and well-being. 🫶

If you could take a moment to read our story, consider donating, or simply share our campaign with others, it would make an incredible difference. Every act of kindness, no matter how small, brings us one step closer to safety and a new beginning. 🙏

Thank you for your time, compassion, and support. ❤️‍🩹

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go donate rn

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question : do people who spend most of their time hating on you (esp teenage boys) start treating you better once you're sk1nnier/hotter in general?

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just found out i can get to my ugw by december if i eat 1000 c4ls a day

need an 4na buddy please 😭

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the only motivation keeping me going was wearing this dress at a wedding im going to at the end of the month

my mother said it was too slvtty and refused to buy it

please give me another major motivation before i kms

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i think most of us here have equated that

skinny = happy