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#genshin#genshin impact#wriothesley#genshin wriothesley#gi wriothesley#there you go ravi#i think it was very nice of mihoyo to ensure we have cake every day and not just on our birthday#a very special item indeed#it's very special to Me#if i've been spinning my camera around a lot more than usual while running since the 17th no i haven't#why would i do that#what could possibly motivate it#it'll be a mystery for the ages#ray's records
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new lab partner!
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#word girl#wordgirl#steven boxleitner#two brains#dr two brains#doctor two brains#dr. two brains#my art#my stuff#me 6 hours ago: yk what im gonna digitize a class doodle in a very simple way what could possibly go wrong#5 and 40 something min later: what did i just create#no seriously shout out to this guy for getting me my motivation do draw back#what is this IMPROVEMENT???? WHERE THE HELL DID IT COME FROM?.#anyways sorry for not updating the steven blog tm I was busy with. this. /pos#my silly I love him a lot hope nothing bad and painful happens to him
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My friend Hajimmy Hinata birthday post🎆🎉
#Hajime hinata#Sdr2#Super danganronpa 2#Danganronpa 2#Danganronpa#I finally got an idea and motivation and I went with it I will never look at this again#An art#izuru kamukura#PSA I DONT CARE HOW OLD THEY RLY ARE... let me live in my world....#Theme of this year. It's been fucked but its gonna be ok.#Hey. Dont cry. sunny days and new year full of possibility on planet earth ok?#So important to me that hes just some guy. Who did his best and needed help and got supersoldier'd against his possibility to consent#But just did what he could and ended up being incredible. Through the power of Some Guy who people like and trust
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it’s that no one ever believed him that gets to me the most. this is a society of telepaths. and yet when the doctor finds out that the drums are real, he’s surprised. the master is surprised, elated, by the confirmation that he’s hearing something that’s really there, that this thing that’s been following him and hurting him for so long is real.
after a certain point, given that the master is Really Fucking Good at mind control and such, you have to imagine that no one could just pick up on the noise in his head with a little general telepathy. he had to choose to let the doctor in to share it. and. and okay. we need to put aside him striving to be The Best At Controlling People’s Minds in the context of him having his mind violated as a child because if i think about these two things in relation to each other i’ll throw up.
but there has to have been a point before he was so accomplished that he couldn’t have defended his own mind as easily. that he couldn’t keep someone, anyone, from delving into his head and hearing the drums. which means i must conclude, because we find out who put them in his head at all and it’s the most powerful guy on gallifrey, that when he was younger, the people around him did know. they could hear the drums. they could figure out what was done to him. but they did nothing, they said nothing, they told him he was hearing things. because if the lord president wanted to use a child for his own ends, who was going to stand up and stop him? easier to sweep it under the rug. and the master lived with that for so long that finally having just one other person hear the drums was a shock to him.
#very fun that this twist is. first of all great for end of time. but also can be used to recontextualize other bits of the master’s behavio#not even explain away but give extra meaning to. you know?#he hypnotizes people because if he can control them it’d damn well his right to do so and if they didn’t want to be mindfucked they should#have had better defenses. he’s the master and he came to conquer. and such.#but it’s also. this is now inextricable from the fact that his own mind was opened up and used against him as a child. when he couldn’t#possibly have defended himself. this past and his actions cannot be separated.#a man can have more than one motivation he can be both a little bastard who wants to rule a world because its his due since no one could#stop him. and also. it can be because there is no way to undo what was forced on him as a kid. but he can at least make sure nothing and no#one will ever control him again. he’s the master and you will obey *him*. never again the other way around.#the master#simm!master#doctor who
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I'm a strong "percy would get a job in education/outreach to underprivileged kids in the future" truther but I don't necessarily agree with people who say that him taking on marine biology as a college major doesn't make sense at all
"why would he study marine biology he can already work with sea animals to his heart's desire" I don't know maybe because he wants to get paid???????? he wants a normal job???? percy grew up poor and unsafe. why is it weird that he craves stability with a career that enables him to do something that he loves? or maybe he wants to go into the system and help bring about lasting reform that will actually improve care for sea creatures??? yes he can save sea animals on his own time but think about it. is it better to abandon his life in the middle of the night to go help a trapped sea creature Every Single Time it happens or is it better to enter the system and make it so that capitalists stop polluting water or disturbing sea ecosystems for profit. his powers as a son of poseidon are a band-aid not a lasting solution to systemic environmental neglect and decay. he has an established precedent of caring for bringing about systemic change (see: turning down immortality) and for me this is no different (I just personally headcanon him wanting to bring change for disadvantaged kids but whatever)
to me this logic is like telling an exceptional artist that there's no point in going to art school to become a professional when they can already just do art on their own time for fun. like yeah....... if you're content with doing that as just a hobby. but what if you want to become an even better artist and learn new skills. what if you want to do it as a job that pays you and gives you health insurance and social security. then what
for me the main logistical issue of him majoring in marine biology has never been that he would never do that it's that the intersection of new rome college accreditation to the Actual Real world isn't all that clear/logistically sound. like I guess the mist can handle anything but what impact is new rome going to be able to have on the realm of mortals. this would be a nice thing to discuss actually (more in tags)
#also........ can we acknowledge that Maybe percy could still have things he wants to learn about sea creatures#he can talk to them but that doesn't mean he knows every important thing there is to know about them#“there's nothing he could do as a marine bio that he can't already do” You should research marine bio before making such a claim#he's only 17/18 man#saying “percy can do the job of a marine biologist all on his own” assumes that percy will always know what's best for every sea creature#which is kind of ignorant and presumptuous in my opinion. he is brave and smart and kind but it's a bit anti-intellectual#to imply that he has No Use for such an education. that he couldn't possibly have anything more that he needs to learn#you can't tout yourself as a therapist just because you give exceptional advice and counsel you need an Education. you need Accreditation#however it's also rick's burden to more clearly state percy's motivations for a major decision like this#anyways that's just my opinion#baye.txt#percy jackson and the olympians#(this is not a defense of the new books as a whole lol it's just one of its details that I actually am not bothered by)#percy jackson#pjo headcanon#pjo hoo toa
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flowey and chara's relationship is always so interesting to me. when flowey absorbs everyone's souls and gains control over the timeline, he just wants to bring it all back to zero. back to when chara first fell. but he's already changed so much by that point - his and asriel's personalities and attitudes are almost complete opposites. would chara even still like him, if they met him as he was now? what if asriel's qualities that flowey buried and got rid of were what drew chara to him in the first place? what would he do if he realised that the person he is now, which was molded largely due to his past failures and regrets, is not the kind of person that chara would be fond of? what then?
#undertale#utdr#flowey the flower#asriel dreemurr#chara dreemurr#i think what drew chara to asriel was his kindness. how he was soft and empathetic and gentle. and how it was seemingly unconditional#i think chara's life before falling down was not kind. so when they met asriel who treated them kindly without expecting anything in return#it drew them to him. because up on the surface they were used to people only being nice to them to get something from them. or being#terrible from the get go.#flowey cares about chara. but would he have shown them that same kindness that asriel did back then?#like. flowey. the same flowey that wanted to kill chara over and over again so they wouldn't leave him.#i feel like chara could possibly see Flowey as just another one of the terrible people they knew on the surface. nice with ulterior motives#i just think it would be interesting if all the bad qualities flowey saw in himself and tried to stomp out were what chara liked about him
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Headcanon: Chilchuck and his Bad Takes on Literature
i think chilchuck would be like my mom in the sense that he wouldnt like sad stories. dont get me wrong, cautionary tales? absolutely fine. they serve a purpose to him which is to tell people "dont be an idiot and do this or else something bad will happen"
generally sad or angsty stories though? no point to him, and in his perspective its really confusing how people just read things that make them sad. like whats the use of reading something if its just gonna make you sad. whats the lesson? its not even real so it doesnt help anyone.
whats the point in making yourself cry when you could just avoid that entirely by not reading it at all?
but the one of the biggest reasons why sad stories exist is to let you release all the built up grief in you. to send you something to let out all your emotions in a healthy way. catharsis. empathy.
even when i dont relate to the tragic experiences in some stories, several ones ive read have lead me to realize that im in a bad situation or that im following in the footsteps of the character suffering. its like a wake up call.
and making yourself cry isnt inherently a bad thing. if crying allows you to let go of building pressure and tension in you then thats good!
but chil wouldnt see that. of course he wouldnt, hes avoidant of most situations that would allow him to release emotion, and fearful of letting his mature (read: repressed) persona slip.
hes someone that runs away to quick comforts and distractions at the earliest sign of issue. hes already been in too many horrifying situations, dealing with another is a pain. and he knows denying everything and refusing to look at the situation doesnt help, but it definitely provides a quick and easy happiness in the comfort of ignorance.
because of this, reading something made to make one empathize with and confront these bad emotions is defeating the point of his cowering. if he faces his issues, even if only through the perspective of a story, he'd have to deal with acknowledging that things are bad and need fixing, and he'd feel terrible and guilty in the moment - which of course is the worst thing that could happen to a person (his thought, not mine).
which is why i find the concept of him being/becoming a tragedy himself at the same time as this headcanon soooo interesting. imagine the irony of him bashing on the protagonists of tragic stories for acting on emotion and impulse rather than logic, when he himself has fallen victim to irrational thinking while in grief.
cause... thats what people do when they grieve. they lash out, make bad decisions, ruin themselves, ruin others.
for a tragedy to be prevented, the protagonists would have to change fundamental parts of themselves, and act perfectly rational when under extreme stress. and chilchuck holds himself to these kinds of unrealistic standards because he unwittingly believes he can handle it all.
he cant, obviously. we see it for ourselves in his relationship with his wife. they were doomed from the beginning by chils already-established avoidance and lack of emotional vulnerabiltiy (and whatever else his wife had going on).
this is all just to say that if you told him about orpheus and eurydice, he'd probably be one of those idiots trying to point out the "plot hole" that he couldve "just not looked back" and "just trusted her"
i dont understand. whats the point in reading tragedies? the protagonist is stupid, anyways. why would you take bitter medicine? why subject yourself to that?
i think its just a bad story.
#EDIT : SORRY THAT THERES NO PICTURES BY THE WAY I COULDNT BE BOTHERED TO LOOK FOR APPROPRIATE ONES IM SORRY!!!#hi. i wrote meta on accident#THIS WAS MEANT TO BE PART OF A JOKE BUT THEN I JUST KEPT GOING AND GOING AND I FORGOT TO MAKE THE JOKE PART OF IT SO NOW ITS 100% SERIOUS#to be fair i was always serious but i intended for it to be presented as a joke#this took me like 3 hours to write god help me#i did this instead of doing my homework. im toast#anyways. hi yes. chilchuck is a hypocrite#feel free to discuss about this cause i find it really interesting. theres layers to this mans hypocrisy HHSDHASHDDH#my fascination with chils avoidance like ive talked about above is the main motivation for tragedy au actually#imagine a world where he gets what he wants. he can change the narrative change himself and prevent anything that could possibly go wrong#and dream up a fantasy world where he can let go of all responsibility and his avoidant behavior has no consequences#id talk more about it but also im really sleepy and should be working so ill leave you with this for now#im... i gotta tag this man i worked too hard on it#chilchuck#chilchuck tims#dungeon meshi#yeagh. yeah!
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you show the boys ur vibrator that looks like a lipstick and they're all varying levels of gagged
#what do you MEAN they can look like that...#sebek isn't even familiar with sex toys. you've given that man levels of paranoia you will never understand .#ace makes fun of you but next time u do ur makeup he's not-so-subtly looking at your bag and wondering if any other of your things are toys#deuce is flabbergasted. he's happy for u . he really is . but they can be that small??? how powerful is it?? ...is it better than him HUSDF#hes not gonna hate on you for having one but he lowk gets motivated to work harder when pleasuring you from that point onward#riddle is so .#i mean . as long as u clean it .#trey turns it on IMMEDIATELY lmao he wants to see how it does and how he could possibly use it on u#AWUHGHHHHH NEED TO WRITE HEADCANNONS ABOUT THESE BITCHES DISCOVERING YOUR TOYS IM SO SICK#nsfvv#moth.txt
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steel wool has the hugest opportunity in the world for a sb 2 like. vanny cassie plotline of her having been manipulated by mimic to be its new minion by framing Gregory during the elevator scene to cut off her one support system. gregory vanessa and freddy protags fleshing them out with dialogue as characters but also their motivations and what theyve been doing for years. have their long absence in games period but also in universe from helping the glamrocks/setting up mxes be explained by showcasing their fear and trauma by them just wanting to get away and they thought they were safe but they werent. have cassie be the reason they have to jump back into the fray and realize no matter what they do theyll have to kill mimic for good to be truly free even if they're afraid. plot of the game is Gregory trying to convince cassie he didnt do it and that shes being tricked and it takes all campaign to get through to her, probably after an intense dramatic climax. have Roxy be there by Cassies side to show how Freddy abandoning them at the Plex affected her and the 2 sides of the same coin the 2 of them have going on regarding sentience and their relationship with the characters they were designed to be with Freddy who got to be free and roxy who didnt. the actual vanny comes back as a big betrayal towards mimic after killing glitchtrap in hw2, either to become an antihero or to try and take over as mastermind. superstar duo reunite and names cleared. throughout the campaign Gregory finds out about ggy and its revealed in a room with documents about patient 46 and tapes where a final tape is found and Gregory speaks in it or is addressed by name. he grapples with it and not remembering it. btw setting is a modern day fallfest which is like amusement park size instead of small festival. boom peak game
#this is isnane wishful thinking but i think some of these could happen hopefully#like vanny cassie seems like such a clear direction for the story and the framed plotline with Gregory works with it so well#plus roxy being there and interacting with freddy could be a natural way to explain why 3 star fam didnt help them#and give more insight to their characters and motivations and their fear#i just feel like. if they portray 3 star as being afraid in and out and their absense isnt just an absence and#they could actually explain it and also enhance their characters at the same time#itd work so well#they were absent from the story and games for so long bc they tried their hardest to be#they were afraid and wanted to just be free and live normally and not face the mimic#so they just trapped it in a room with help from mxes#(the hw2 candy cadet story about not buying the family meal)#and then the mimic came back because they DIDNT kill it out of fear (everyone dying when they didnt by the meal)#and thats their arc is that their arc gives all the insight we could need about how sb affected them#and vanny and vanessas abuse and gregory and freddy and their family and how close they are but how afraid they are too#and that this game would be when theyre forced to confront the mimic after putting it off bc of fear#which is literslly the story the hw2 candy cadet stories tell basically#with cassie being the 'casualty'#but cassie gregorys bff being hurt and caught in the middle is what forces them to finally face their fear l#and kill the mimic#like. this makes so much sense. its such a clear direction and lines up with everyrhing#gives a genuine explanation for why cassies dad was so involved. its bc 3 star wasnt on purpose#has the foundation to flesh out everything we could possibly want to see about them#PLEASE ZTEEL WOOLLLL. PLEASE IM BEGGING. JUST SOMETHING SIMIALR TO THIS EVEN A LITTLE BUT#some things like roxy and freddy and ggy and the fallfest stuff might be wishful rhinking but like#the entire thing with 3 star and cassie and mimic is just so vivid and clear to me. it could so easily be the direction#but im so prepared for them to do something completely different and be lowkey disappointed#thoughts#theory#pre security breach 2#<-courtesy of dawko bc hes calling the idea of this game sb2. ill change it one day
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there’s nothing wrong plot-wise with the horizon conversation actually. y’all are just babies who don’t understand kaidan’s character or the purpose of conflict in a story lol
#mass effect#kaidan alenko#fandom critical#tell me how tf you think Kaidan is supposed to react to his dead girlfriend/friend appearing out of the blue working with terrorists#tell me what tf you think Shepard could POSSIBLY say that would justify their actions to him/convince him to abandon the alliance#i’ll be waiting.#real life is messy. people miscommunicate and say the wrong things. they hurt each other and have to work to repair the damage.#that’s what makes a story INTERESTING. the CONFLICT#if you think he should just go AWOL (which is illegal btw) so he can kiss your Shepard’s ass 24/7 you can just say that.#and don’t get it twisted: this also applies to people who claim to love Kaidan but then read his motivations on horizon in the worst light#or throw the entire confrontation out of ‘tHeiR cAnOn’ bc it makes their Shepard’s tummy hurt :(#that’s the whole point l m a o anyway#maybe someday I’ll manage to turn my Horizon Thoughts into a coherent meta but for now: you all are Incorrect
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There was a post talking about how disappointing Disney+ Star Wars costumes have been..
and I keep thinking about it because when you look back at older tv shows (not just star wars, but basically anything before streaming really took over) and the effort that used to be put into production
you can really see how worth it that effort was! And I just miss it so much!
Like I literally do not care how bad the cgi looks as long as there was effort and care put into what was made.
This is coming from the fact that I am rewatching Once Upon A Time...
and even though OUAT's digital effects are kinda awful endearingly shitty, anything that was practical or real was GORGEOUS!
I’ve never seen costumes as consistently beautiful and detailed and unique as they were on this show Every! Single! Episode!
The makeup was always amazing. The hair was amazing. And the props were sick! (Even the green screen castles and stuff's designs were beautiful)
I just miss when tv shows put this much effort into their production
When they let artists! be ARTISTS! and actually appreciated them! Instead of just underpaying and overworking them for the bare minimum results
When you can look at stuff like OUAT and the star wars prequels, it just makes the recent stuff so much more disappointing
#we have proof of what could be possible if the people running things actually cared#there is no excuse for the laziness and it's just so frustrating#streaming has really ruined everything#there’s no more motivation to make things good anymore because the corporations and stuff will make money anyways#ahsoka could have looked so cool#and yet...#anyways that's my rant for now#at least zeb looked good in the mandalorian#star wars#star wars costumes#disney star wars#once upon a time#ouat#ouat rumple#ouat rewatch#ouat costumes#Ahsoka#zeb orrelios#the mandalorian#star wars prequels#kate's post
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i could write a 100 page essay about what a fucking masterpiece warframe is. i will write many words in the tags. please readem if you want my 'tism.
#ive been playing on and off since 2019 but its only recently when i dumped destiny 2 (probably for good) and picked it up#to fill the grind-shaped hole in my heart#that i have uncovered just how FUCKING INCREDIBLE warframe is#everything about it makes me incredibly autistic#from its masterful utilization of an incredibly styled and individual soundtrack full of absolute bangers#to its seemingly unique understanding of how and why an MMO is special to and because of its players#and its truly special story- a uniquely human take on the “post-ruin scifi” tale#it knows exactly how and when to yank on your heart to make you weep like a baby#and it knows exactly when you're going to get angry and want vengeance#and it knows when to let you let loose and unleash hell#SPOILERS FOR THE NEW WAR AHEAD#IF YOU THINK YOU COULD PLAY THE GAME PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE DO#SPOILER WARNING#i think the narmer corruption of fortuna was genuinely one of the most gutpunchingly horrible moments ive ever experienced in a video game#i started playing when fortuna was already in the game but the story of fortuna and vox solaris was really what made warframe stand out 2 m#i would drop into the orb vallis as gauss and dash around doing bounties and fishing and mining because i really loved everything about#fortuna and wanted to spend as much time there as possible#for me vox solaris was my proudest achievement (in warframe.) to say “i helped that! i did that!” was an incredibly good feeling#the story really spoke to me on a deeper level#and vox solaris has always been my favorite faction as a result#so to do absolutely everything that i could#to lift together with my tenno brothers and sisters and yet STILL fail?#and to have it rubbed in my face by the corruption of the greatest shining pillar of hope in the warframe universe?#felt like i got kicked in the stomach#i felt sad and angry. but most of all i was DRIVEN.#which is GOOD. because RARELY does a video game present you the “you lost” scenario and have it feel not only satisfyingly painful#but MOTIVATING.#my only complaint with the new war is that i didnt get to hack ballas to pieces by myself#i had real flashbacks to running around helping people as gauss while approaching the final boss with erra#and to step onto the ballas arena as gauss prime. i nearly came from the narrative significance
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decided I’m still in love with my TOA cat au. Eventually his kids agree to bring him home and take care of him on a schedule and his youngest (who got mysteriously claimed whilst Apollo was a cat) begged and begged to take him home. So the other kids eventually relented and he (loves Warrior cats so much) gave Apollo an honorary Warrior cats name. (Placeholder will be Rufflepaw / Ruffletail bc he’s a teenager cat! Actually no I feel like the teen awkwardness, self-awareness etc. given to Apollo as Lester when he got turned into a teen could correlate to Being A Scared Kitty.) WORSE THOUGHT: what if Apollo had the same identity crisis he did during the series but instead of “Lester” it was “Ruffletail”. How would that make you (me) feel (very upset). OK ACTUALLY INSTEAD, when Apollo completes his trials (?? WAIT. HOW WOULD HE DO THAT HE’S A CAT HANG ON.) and he publishes his book series about his trials he gently reads them to his (very excited) kids as a bedtime story. They all huddle around him (he is the nightlight and the radiator) as he reads and whenever Apollo reads out his identity crisis sections, every time he says his agreed-upon cat name his youngest yells “RUFFLETAIL!!” after it.
#apollo#toa#cat#toa cat au#dadpollo#HYPOTHETICALLY if I were to mirror the character arcs (as much as I could given. CAT) of the og TOA series AND TAKE THIS VERY SERIOUSLY#I would make the parts where Apollo is being cringe and obnoxious to try his hardest to make sure everyone “knows” he’s super selfish#Instead be him pretending to be over dramatic about being a cat. Generally being a nuisance and not cooperating (shitting in the sink).#but when he drops the 50 layers of denial he’s got going on he admits to himself how ABSOLUTELY TERRIFYING it is to be an Actual God#who is now a Cat. and how helpless he feels. I think people around him would realise this when he doesn’t manage to#fake being over dramatic well enough people recognise he’s actually very upset and possibly in pain. And are very gentle and quiet with him#(bc he’s literally just a scared shaking cat :((( bless him)#Him realising the consequences of his actions would come from him being much weaker -> knowing what feeling utterly helpless feels like.#Much of the tragedy would come from being unable to communicate or apollogise with people he’s hurt currently (more intense motivation to#Apologise and communicate when he’s a god)#BUT then again this is if you were to take this seriously I like it silly 💃🕺#I also like that he’s just being rotated around various people’s houses over the summer and Suffering.#Poor baby but also he absolutely deserves it <33 he’s learning!!
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sorry for only saying this type of shit lately but i kinda wanna drive a car straight into a brick wall at the highest speed possible
#trying to keep it together so bad because i already know the problems and solutions and whatnot but i cannot do anything#i desperately just need to do something. accomplish any task. actually several would be nice. but i cannot stand just letting life go by#while i watch other people have the things i want. or even metaphorically living my dream like. that should be me why am i settling for thi#i hate even talking about this because i feel so stupid when i know it's not even a real tangible problem and that i actually DO have real#problems to tackle and the ability to do so but i'm choosing to be upset over the stupidest things i could possibly be sad about#and i can't even be sad about it in a normal way i'm cycling through like several different reactions to smth that isn't even real#or if it is real i literally do not have tanglible evidence for it one way or another like i'm driving myself insane for no reason#i can't even get catharsis because all i'm doing is digging a deeper hole for something i never should've gone back into in the first place#because i KNOW how i am i KNOW how i react to things and i still chose to do it lmao.#and i continue to choose to go through this shit instead of actively trying to change my life because... i'm lazy? and stupid? idk#negative self-talk isn't gonna get me to do anything either so let's just say i'm feeling particularly unmotivated like usual#i hated being a teenager but i really do miss when all my problems just amounted to 'someone was mean to me on tumblr today :(' or i failed#a test in chemistry or something. like i yearn for that simplicity becasue at this point all i'm doing is ruining my own life LMAO#i'm too scared to live i'm too scared to die so i just sit here and fantasize that life could be amazing if i wait#and i'll magically get everything i've ever wanted if i just wait long enough. and i know it isn't true and i still wait for it to happen.#because honestly like. i think deep down i am just convinced i will fail at anything i do when that shouldn't be what scares me.#what scares me should be never even allowing myself to fail because i never tried to do anything at all with myself or my life#like. wake the fuck up. get off your ass and put in the effort. learn some skills. gain independence and stability and discipline and do it#just live please i'm begging you just live so i can be happy don't i deserve to be happy... why am i not letting myself be happy#i'm literally keeping myself trapped in this negative feedback loop ON PURPOSE because teehee shiny toy#and it doesn't matter if the love is real it doesn't matter how i feel like i'm just using it as a distraction i can't say it's motivation#because it's barely motivated me at all. i have to start being realistic. 25 & just realizing you actually have to participate in your life#anyways. i've cried i've agonized i've pictured killing myself in 30 different ways. i think the only way i'm gonna feel better is#to just actually try this time without giving up. wish me luck
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Every day I urge closer to finding every single cave in botw and then comparing them in totk
#yknow like. are they still there? have they changed? what about the shrines? a lot of caves have shrines in them in botw#and then maybe attempting to make some sort of guess about shifts in climate/geography/the sly falling to the ground#and how that could possibly explain any of it#and also to go to every cave location of totk but in botw to see what was there before#and also looking at the totk caves and determining which ones are retconned always been there and which ones would have#genuinely been made by the earthquakes/upheavel#bc like. a LOT of those caves have ruins in them. and i can buy a few covering up over time but some of them? do not buy it#the like. for example. cafe cales cliffbase cave. literally open ruins to the ocean. intact pirate ship in there. cmon. i dont buy it#actually i havent checked that but it is surely not there... hang on one moment#yeah no not there#anyway ive forgotten what i was saying#this was not inspired by that guy who did all the rivers in hyrule but i WAS motivated more by it#moss' madness#botw#totk#loz
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you know you've hit rock bottom when by the end of the session your therapist hits the head in hands pose and goes "let's. l-let's just try to stay alive for now. n-no meds we'll just focus on finding the reasons to keep you here"
#we actually talked about possible meds options but. we just don't know what to go with jdkskskd#the ONLY antidepressants that worked on me are made only where i live and they literally taste like acid#and this is not even me exaggerating my therapist said this stuff could probably burn your stomach if you took too much. yikes#and they're like VERY strong so like. i'll probably need something just as strong. can i just get lobotomy atp#at least i brought my sunday plushie with me. i kept it in the backpack the entire time#but maybe one day he'll actually participate....#my mom took me taking sunday there so seriously like she kept asking for updates#and when i was done she was like “is sunny still there with you”#and i sent her a pic of him and i was like “we'll be home soon :)” and she was like “good job you two”#anyway bro yeah im trying. im trying#though tbh the problem is. not me having no reason to live but more like#having all the reasons and motivation but feeling like i don't deserve it#so it was like before sunday drip marketing “YAYAYAYAYAY I'LL DEFINITELY GET HIM I'LL DEFINITELY GET HIM”#and then after i was like “HOW DARE YOU MAKE ME STAY ALIVE FOR YOU” 😭😭#i-it's okay if it doesn't make sense to you im just. saying stuff#[ 💚 𝐥𝐢𝐧𝐚 𝐭𝐚𝐥𝐤𝐬 ]#mmaybe i'll post a linagram vd tomorrow
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