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Y’all it’s 6:30 in the morning and I’m already playing the blocking game…
To the pro pal and anti zionist crowd: y’all can make hateful comments on my posts but I’m just gonna block you. I’m too tired and busy to deal with you guys. But if you really want to interact with me- I’ll do it, but you may not like what I say.
I have my ask box open so if y’all are really brave then feel free to interact with me. But like I’ve mentioned before- you may not like what I say.
#jumblr#antisemitism#wow y’all must be bored#here’s some advice#stop harassing jews and israelis#and idk stop being raging antisemitics#that’s probably impossible for y’all to do#since y’all are so weirdly obsessed with us#i said what i said#if you don’t like that I called you out#well honestly I don’t give a fuck
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"yeah I know you've been telling me you're in pain like every day bc of your cavity but here's a video of someone else who got their wisdom teeth removed and is panicking from the the anesthesia and ‘acting stupid’. I have greatly implied up to this point that I don't want you to get anesthesia or to not remove the teeth at all”
#they’re taking out four fucking teeth and im not even allowed to take them afterward.#do you honestly expect that they would give me the option of not being under anesthesia.#they won’t let someone I trust be in the room as it’s happening i don’t Want anesthesia.#idgaf if I say something stupid on anesthesia. im terrified of someone doing something to me that I won’t know about or remember#idk im not fucking blaming you that I Haven’t been to a dentist my whole life. were kinda Not Well Off#but you expect me to just Deal With It as my fucking tooth rots?#it could fucking kill me. the infection could spread to my brain and it could actually fucking kill me#and if they just take out all four Now I won’t have to worry abt it again Ever#it’s funny that when our cat was having teeth issues you expected me to deal wifh it pay#payment and all but when it comes to Me having teeth issues suddenly you want to have a say. fuck off#tooth trauma#words from the monarch
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Throwback to the time that we were gonna get some answers and save ourselves a lot of trouble, then just never followed up on it ~
#traveler from another world ✨#like honestly we just didn’t ask them??#we learned that our two friends allegedly destroyed a whole nation for seemingly no reason and went ‘’hm we should probably follow up on#them about this’’ and then we just never did?#just went ‘’might as well subject ourselves the slowly and agonizingly learning this information through conveniently contrived#sub-plotlines over the course of literal years instead of idk just asking or smth’’#we were so close to this plot line actually going somewhere#I hope we get a traveler quest with dainsleif before Fontaine comes out#it’s been ages and I don’t want to wait another year for him to show up#trauma dump give us a shitload of vaugly relevant lore then fuck off without elaborating for a while#genshin#genshin impact#genshin lore#dainsleif genshin impact#genshin dainsleif
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As previously mentioned here, in my trafficstuck AU, the players are all adult trolls in the present day. Given how troll society functions, they can’t stay on Alternia & at various times, they all take off in various spaceships to wander the universe. I have spent way too much time thinking about how this would be arranged, so here’s the first two of six ships to leave Alternia. (Note: The crews have a tendency to shuffle around as time goes on; this is just how they are arranged after they take off but before Last Life.)
Ship 1
The first to take off, this ship carries Lizzie & Joel. Lizzie is a fuchsia blood & spent most of her life focused on the point when Her Imperious Condescension would decide Lizzie was old enough to be too much a threat to leave alive. Then, they would have their epic showdown that would, almost inevitably, end with Lizzie losing the fight & her life.
Joel was very much not down with this plan. Lizzie stubbornly insisted that she had to at least try to win, to take The Condesce down, but eventually Joel convinced her that, at very least, she deserved a more even playing field & to have the fight on her own terms. They decided the best way to do this was, well before their cohort was meant to take off, they would hack Lizzie’s battle ship & escape off planet, buying some time as they went into hiding.
Few of the players knew that Lizzie & Joel had this plan until a while after it went down. Joel first confided in Griann that they needed a grub that could get into the battleship’s systems. Griann suggested Joel reach out to Tangoh, who had grown the game grub for 3rd Life & who Grian insisted would be sympathetic to their cause & not rat them out. After a lot of dithering, Joel contacted Tangoh & Tangoh happily grew & coded a grub for them that could hack into a ship system & basically nuke any tracking that might be on it. In exchange, of course, Lizzie used her position to acquire some extremely rare & expensive tech bits for Tangoh. No questions were asked by either side.
Joel & Lizzie made a slightly rocky, but successful, escape on the hacked battleship, along with hefty amount of supplies. Big down side of their ship is that it can’t sustain FTL very long, as it’s so huge it’d really require psionics to maintain that kind of velocity. But really. They’re not in a rush to get anywhere, just wandering the more distant, empty parts of the universe for long stretches & making port extremely rarely at extremely secluded planets.
Ship 2
Troll life sucks. It sucks for kids, it sucks for adults, & it sucks more the lower on the hemospectrum you are. It especially sucks if you are a gold blood with psionics, given you can pretty much expect to get shoved in some high blood’s ship as an engine. It was that or get culled. So yeah, Impuls had a pretty grim fate to look forward to. Luckily, his moirail, Skizzl, would never let that happen.
With the help of their friend, Tangoh (& the parts Lizzie helped Tangoh acquire), they built a ship & the three of them took off together several perigees after Joel & Lizzie. Since then, they’ve been on the move for the most part, avoiding other Alternian ships as best they can. When they can’t avoid run ins with other trolls, Tangoh does all the talking, which makes sense because, as an indigo blood, he has the most social standing & unless they run into high bloods or royalty, he can generally talk &/or intimidate their way out of trouble. Impuls tries his best not to be around for such things, to minimize risk of being caught. If they’re taken off guard though, they will generally put up the pretense that he & Skizzl are in Tangoh’s “employ,” which usually works well as most troll’s don’t look too closely at a blue blood keeping a couple of low bloods around to take care of things for them. (The moment they’re alone again, though, Skizzl & Impuls gives Tangoh so much shit for using high blood vernacular & acting ‘all proper & shit.’ The poking of fun sometimes lasts days if Tangoh said something they deem particularly ridiculous.)
Fun fact: since they built their ship themselves, it is designed to have two operating modes: 1. It can self-propel & be steered using a navigation panel or 2. It can be controlled, entirely or partially, by Impuls. He & Tangoh teamed up to invent a, uh, less brutal method for hooking Impuls into the system, allowing him to use his psionics to take over various functions without literally being permanently melded with the ship. Given how most space travel is just ‘get a boost in a direction & coast,’ Impuls will often just jump in to set a course & let physics do the rest of the work. If they want to go really fast, like faster than light, he has to be fully controlling things as there really is no replacement for his batshit psionics in those cases. But really, his job as the ship’s helmsman is far more laid back than a psionic gold blood could hope for & he finds he quite likes it this way.
#trafficstuck#Joel SmallishBeans#lizzie ldshadowlady#tangotek#Skizzleman#verdant rambles#trafficblr#specifically not putting this in impulse’s tag ‘cause he does not need to see this.#good lord I don’t want to be the reason someone has to give Impulse a thorough explanation of Homestuck#fuck it I’m adding on#Hermitstuck#‘cause honestly this AU is rapidly expanding to include that as well somehow.#oh damn I also forgot#trafficshipping#‘cause there is some in this post
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had the craziest nightmare today. hit every nightmare genre and added a new one just for me
#timothy's txts.#late getting off my break at work for my worst manager BUT at the worst place i worked#walked into my manager in a meeting with EVERY head person in our district and they all chided me for being late and told me to hurry and#then i couldn’t find my apron#and then the street turned into a riot with cars being targeted by rockets and pedestrians being. also hit by rockets ?#this lady and i were by each other and we were like well normally we wouldn’t steal these motorbikes (they were hot pink though and swag as#hell) and then we started trying to escape but my seat was too high so i couldn’t drive safely#eventually we made it to her house with a small group of my coworkers / friends#and then a coworker i really liked got targeted and killed bc of me and the killers were shouting my name and hunting me down#so i go inside this lady’s house and it’s huge and honestly really nice#and i’m like hey do you have a toolbox PLEASE i need an alan wrench to lower the seat so i can drive safely and get away#and she was like yeah second floor#i asked which room? give me a landmark of the room so i don’t search every one#and she said it’s directly on the landing you can’t miss it#i go upstairs (the people hunting me in a red minivan have pulled up to her house and are suspiciously pulling all around it and backing up#and looking in the windows and i don’t know if this lady would sell me out) and ITS A TOY HOUSE. ???!??? not a toolbox…#so i’m searching but the people come in so i’m running through rooms and being quiet and make my way down to the basement that connects to#the garage and look desperately for a fucking alan wrench and they’re getting closer and i go through a small closet and there’s a trap door#and i go in there where there’s another hidden door and i finally get to the garage#and i find a tool box and decide to write the lady a note thanking her and telling her why i left so quickly#but all the papers i find are filled with scary notes and i’m wondering why they make me so uneasy#until i realize they’re notes that were written to Me from. a guy who really fucked me up#and one of them says ‘trans hot’ and i literally go :( i don’t want to be trans hot…#<- specifically from him because of the issues.#and then i realize that he’s the one hunting me down to Get me (the red van was irl his family’s car lmao)#and i’m panicking in an increasing amount and i won’t be able to get to the motorbike and escape with my coworkers and friends#and then my sibling woke me up asking if i wanted a breakfast sandwich or pancakes. so. crazy dream to have at nine in the morning#ask to tag
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I hate a “starving kids in Africa” ass bitch
#ignoreing the fact that that phrase#brings up so much in turns of thinking Africa is a wasteland#it’s the weird moral superiority of it all#the whole “ I don’t give actually give a fuck about food insecurity I just found a way to shut you down by bringing up someone#with a life worse than yours#like I saw someone saw mY MOraL OcD My MeNTal ILlnESs over people being stressed about Palistine#and first way to make fun of mental illness good job#and second I don’t think you really care about Palistine further than you can bitch about it#further than you can say well I don’t flinch when I see dead bodies so I’m better than you#not only is that crass and cruel to the person going with the mental condition it’s crass and cruel to PALESTINIANS#YOU THINK THEY WANT TO TO SEE THEIR DEAD BODIES AS A FUCKING JOKE#a stick to measure yourself to see if your more ‘down for the cause’#it’s fucking sick#and it’s the same bullshit you pull for police brutality#hell a person got killed by police earlier this year and you have people circulating the clip#like looking at and sharing gore makes you a better person#honestly it would make sense if someone’s mental condition flares up due to death#it’s more wiring if it doesn’t#and it’s a lot more worrying if you act like people being destressed and traumatized from a FUCKING GENOCIDE is some kind of moral failure#mental health
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I’m going to. rip my fucking hair out.
#Why why why can’t I enjoy anything ever like it’s so draining I can’t even explain it#Everything makes me anxious and I really REALLY don’t think thats normal nor do I think it’s just general anxiety#I want. answers genuinely but no I can’t see help because of my mom. I probably won’t be able to find out what my fucking problem is until#I’m like. 18 or older#Well into my 20s even#Fuck. it’s like. would I even be able to afford a therapist.#especially if I got disowned/kicked out#I keep trying to convince my mom to get me help/try to get me a diagnosis#and she just doesn’t want to fucking. help me. it’s not even a money thing it’s the fact she DOESNT GIVE A FUCK about her child’s mental#problems and health. Besides if I got diagnosed with like. adhd like everyone says I have (I think it could be that or something deeper) it#would literally end in her getting MORE FUCKING MONEY like our homeschool funds thing would give us more money for like#disability or whatever. if it were adhd. I forget.#I’m trying to use that to convince her and she just doesn’t listen#but honestly it’s like. what’s the point. I know I would feel better if I had a diagnosis because I would know the actual cause of my issue#and would easily find ways to combat it and help myself instead of listening to everyone say I have adhd without a diagnosis and go by that#Because everything I do to try and help with adhd doesn’t fucking work with my deeper mental issues.#And to be really honest I think it’s a personality disorder and I’ve done my own research and I show majority of BPD symptoms#And it’s commonly mistook for adhd. But I would NEVER express that to my mom because she would twist it into me being abusive and awful#again like. fuck even if I can’t get medicated I know I would feel so. so much better about myself knowing WHY I’m like this#Instead of living my life questioning what the fuck is wrong with me#I’m so sick of being different#if you read this. why would u put urself through that.
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#hello everyone how are you?#I hope everything is doing alright! from my part I can say life is treating me well lately#and I feel very light and okay#I am here mainly to get things straight#I saw an anon going around some other blogs talking about me#saying I am an hater and I shouldn’t be writing larry fics#I think this is the same anon that I blocked some weeks ago#because they told me I should not use Harry for clout (????)#and I want to say only one thing because I don’t care of defending myself on this website anymore and that is#it’s not clout and it’s not easy#being a (new) writer here is not easy because people don’t care what you do and there is definitely not clout around me#im not using harry to gain anything#if anything I am constantly questioning whether I am somehow good at writing silly stories and putting myself out there for people’s judg#*judgement. and I promise you it’s not always nice#especially when this place doesn’t like people who you don’t always agree with#especially when you are blocked by half of this side of fandom (larries because I had said something in the past that they didn’t like)#louies because im a larrie ergo I hate louis (???) and harries because i dont care about Harry as much as they do#so no I am not ashamed of writing and I am not ashamed of writing giving my characters#(that rarely have anything to do with H/L irl) thei#their names and physical features#and honestly people like you anon should definitely stop to play this stupid game of fandom police#deciding who can read what and who can write what#because this actions only affect new writers in the way that#they will be alienated. they will feel alienated#and this whatever this fandom is shouldn’t be about that#ever. you don’t know what people go through every fucking day#you definetely dont know how this sort of silencing mission you have going on#will affect people on the internet and their mental health#stop defending the imaginary people you think H/L are and start treating people in this fandom as actual human beings#and since you probably would like to know this: I am not currently working on any project because i am fucking scared of reaction like this
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I really being go through it emotionally rn huh
#honestly not well at the moment#grief and mourning fucking sucks#and I hate it#I have moments of fine and the next I’m screaming and sobbing#but at least them ouizzy crumbs giving me a reason to wake up in the mornings#sometimes it’s the little things you gotta find to keep yourself going#don’t know why I’m putting this all here but I suppose it’s better than bottling up#sorry Frenchie I don’t have the box in my brain where I can just lock all the tramutic shit away and not think about it#I just want to be okay#but the truth is I’m not#and pretending I am isn’t working any more
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My ass needs to be in bed but I was looking at my anilist-yes I have one as it’s super helpful to keep track of anime I’ve watched + plan to watch-since i finished big o s1 they separated s2 as a different thing and WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU MEAN INTERNATIONAL VIEWINGS BASICALLY SAVED THE SHOW FROM ENDING ON A CLIFFHANGER??
#meg text#the big o#this is utterly fucking insane to me#I know this can happen cause like sonic x wasn’t planned a third season but 4kids demand it lol#but this is “we had the whole show planned but no one in Japan liked it- I guess it’s better we cancel it midway through”#us dubbing it: this is a hit! Let’s fund the studio!#this is so generous especially given it was cartoon fucking network who was involved#aka the company who after the 2000s into the 2010s stopped giving a fuck about their shows#but they helped continue a show that was OVERSEAS just because it did well on their side anime block#also it’s crazy how well big o did do given the west does not know mecha well#I wonder if this was certain states or like universally the show did great everywhere in US#because I feel my state is so anime illiterate but maybe that’s due to being around too many normies irl#honestly given this show didn’t get more that’s probably why people forgot about it#which is still dumb because older things are worth the time but hey at least this show got finished as intended#maybe we don’t live in a dark timeline if we’re in the one that big o finished in /j
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is it silly that i genuinely think learning to do my makeup is one of the best things i’ve ever done?
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#to preface this- obviously i don’t think that anyone should EVER feel like they have to wear makeup to look presentable#not wearing makeup is normal and there is no bare minimum for makeup products anyone should be required to wear#but in the past year i’ve started to learn how to properly do my makeup#and honestly? it’s one of the greatest skills i’ve learned#it’s really therapeutic (despite the wild strings of cursing that comes from doing eyeliner)#the brushes and stuff have such a nice texture on my face and in my hands- it automatically calms me down#i love the packaging of all the products (i feel like a crow whenever i’m shopping for new ones bc i love the pretty bottles and tubes)#it’s honestly just fun to do as well- like using highlighter on the tip of my nose? that shit gives me so much serotonin holyyyyy#and i get to feel extra pretty for a little bit after i first put it on which is always a bonus!!#my hands have gotten steadier (though they’re still kinda wobbly it’s manageable)#there is no feeling better than getting an eyeliner wing perfect first try#plus i get to have glitter on my face?! HELL YEAH!!!!#i dunno just. i’m glad i taught myself cause it makes me really happy#fuck the beauty industry though. there’s so much bullshit there#FUCK anyone and anything that preys on and creates insecurities to sell products. it’s BULL. SHIT.
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Oh. Oh everything hurts. Literally so bad
#well kids its time once again to play: is it the vaxxes giving me muscle aches or my stupid baka uterus#honestly. probably both#someone give me the thomas evans treatment I don’t want the leg bits no more#back is literally KILLING me the FUCK#DID I GET INJECTED WITH SCURVY MATE WHAT IN GODS NAAAAAAME#WELL… at least its an excuse to not go to miyazaki class tomorrow#fuuuuuck that amirite?
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Strange question but can any of y’all like scratch your own back??? Like being able to reach everything with just you own hand???
#random post#I honestly don’t know how I came to this thought but I’m posting it onto the tumblr for all my friends to see ig#ok ok for me. I can get every part of my own back no problem#my shoulder is just very. flexible ig lmao I don’t stretch it or anything it has just always been like that#I actually took the time and looked at my shoulders in the mirror recently and noticed that my right shoulder (the flexible one)#looks fucking WEIIRRDDDDD. I can make it dip down (?) real low and it lets me take my arm#and wrap it behind my head and under my chin. so I can then touch my right ear with that same arm#I’m just fucked up in some places idk. lol yesterday I’m p sure I fucked up in the ankle#cus I was tryna be silly for my sister and like skip away while whistling. but my right ankle went NOPE and I fell onto the floor 😭#yea. sometimes my ankles just give out but it’s like whatever. I’m sure for most people it’s some like. crippling pain#rolling their ankle and falling and tears and wah. but I’m just like :D woopsie daisy had a stumble there. oh well ¯\_(ツ)_/¯#I honestly don’t know if I’ve ever rolled my ankle. May I have maybe I haven’t#but nonetheless I’ve definitely had moments of ‘oh my ankle should definitely not feel that way’ but then I keep walking but. softer lmao#I got really off topic there but that just what y’all have to deal with I’m sorry UVDYVJJEC
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been awake for 36 hours….. now i sleep
#i feel like i was run over by several trains#my brain is mush…#work was rough 😫#and it was so fucking hot today#like outside was quite hot but not horrific#but in the kitchen??? hell#and we don’t have a working air conditioner rn#the chef let me hog one of the two fans tho 💞#well not let me. he pointed the fan at me after i said i was dying and he came over to feel how hot and gross it was by the dishwasher#honestly like. you’d think the line would be worse?? but being in dish on a hot day is BRUTAL#it’s the steam. the humidity is what gets you#he was v concerned lol. it honestly wasn’t THAT bad like i wasn’t about to actually keel over#well ok by the end of the night i definitely was but that was in no small part thanks to the lack of sleep#he suggested i take a break to go hang out in the cooler which i found hilarious#tho honestly. it would’ve been nice#but i didn’t really have time#he did also freeze a rag for me tho! u put it on the back of ur neck and it’s wonderful#so yeah shoutout to my boss i guess xD#tho to give myself credit i think i’m pretty good at exuding the kind of pathetic wet cat energy that compels people to help me#like at my last job there was this one guy that would always give me snacks#usually just little scraps of whatever he was cooking#but it was really nice. he’d call me over from the other side of the kitchen just to try a bite of something#jx.txt
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what’s some good news from this week?
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#hmmmm let’s seeeeeee#well the first one that comes to my mind which will be LIFE CHANGING IF IT HAPPENS#I think where I’m living weed is close to being legalized#it still has a few places to go through#but it’s a LOT closer than it ever has been!#and if weed is legalized that would be a GAME changer#it’s also been super sunny and it’s getting nice out so that’s always a plus#OH OH OH#also I think I’m going to be staying over at my dog sitting place in June and July and I’m SO EXCITED#a place to myself again?!?!#I get to smoke and paint and take pics and do whatever the fuck I want ALSO ILL BE WITH MAYAAAAA#also also alsooooo I might be able to dogsit for one of my neighbors dogs soon too!#of course it lands on the same day that I’m taking care of maya but I think the timing might work out?#obviously maya comes first#but omg if I’m able to take care of Murphy (neighbors dog) I would be SO HAPPY#Murphy is honestly the cutest fucking dog I have EVER SEEN#I don’t think I’ve ever met a golden retriever in real life and holy shit he doesn’t even know me but he LOVES ME#I was talking to his owner the other day about the dogsitting and everything#and I was giving him pets and love and he was twirling and looking up at me and kept kissing me literally all over#my face my thighs everywhere he could reach he is SO CUTE AND SO FULL OF LOVE AHHHHHHHH#some happy moments from my week 😌#thanks for asking lovely!!!#do you have any good news or happy moments you would like to share?? 🥰🥰#ask#🌸 anon
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not to be dramatic but I literally feel like I’m going insane lol
#first of all I must acknowledge the percy of it all. I don’t know how many of you are reading those posts and honestly I’m not conveying#how I feel very well but I’m so deadly serious when I say I feel sick when I think about those books and not even in a bad way necessarily#just nauseous whatever. second most pressing issue is the whole “am I going to drop out transfer suck it up or kill myself”#okay I’m really not considering that last one I have to live to see dani in july but I haven’t the slightest clue what I’m gonna do next#year. on one hand I hope this school explodes on the other transferring sounds so unfun but back to the first hand I hate this city#and I hope it explodes to and I have nobody I know to live with off campus next year and tbh I would rather die than live w sarah suitemate#which brings us to sarah suitemate. how in the hell is my only friend in this god forsaken city like kind of subtly homophobic#In addition to kind of being a bad fucking person. like lol! yes ladies six months deep with no other friends and I Am that desperate#also it’s the very beginning of the quarter and I kind of hate all my classes. okay I know they just started and it’s very early to judge#but I already feel like I’m going crazy I preferred my other two quarters where I was eating literally 12 credits I was satisfied with that#I’m just scared and lonely can I say that outright is it embarrassing to admit that outright at 11am on tumblr#the only thing that gives me comfort genuinely is just repeating that “everything works out in the end” saying bc I really do believe that#even though I hope my closest friend within a reasonable radius of me drops dead and I’m directionless and I want to kill myself#whenever I think about the book I’m reading it will all be okay#anyways time to eat the pastry I got from the campus market is not a good time to tell you guys I didn’t eat breakfast or could you tell#carmen.txt
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