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#sephiroth#ffvii#ff7#sketch#we doodlin again#my art#you open up my diary and he in there like#the next page is him covered in blood 🙂
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Abandoned comic idea from March. Decided against seeing it through to the end because the dialogue feels unnatural and messy. While the core idea of it- Sparrows having doubts about the relationship, being confused and unsure of what she should dedicate her life to, and Euros being indeed blindly naively optimistic- still holds true to my ideas of their characterizations, I've figured I don't really have the details fleshed out well enough yet to construct a satisfactory conversation between them.
Stars with lore building for both of them- clearing out Sparrows' motivation in life (related to her family- deceased dad "because" of spiritualism, grieving mother, newly developed sister frustrated with Sparrows' lack of clear goal in life and lack of proper commitment to promises), what her arc should be, and Euros' past with his first Mechanic, relationship with his Houses and Citizens- and all of that is heavily influenced/dictated by the culture and society of the whole world, the Epsilon group council specifically and the Caper of Euros and Boreas' Blessing colonies that I don't have settled down. So posts with additional worldbuilding is will be most common. Bastards need figuring out asap
#spot says stuff#rw#shpootlin-doodlin#oc tag#oc: three sparrows#oc: caper of euros#tw suggestive#one damn doodle but alright#Sparrows: -takes out that Ancients™ type of speech- | Euros: ah shit here we go again#problem with that is I'm not sure if I wrote that as a reflex of Sparrows' as a means of emotionally distancing herself from the topic-#-as a result of society's conditioning/just being fearful or if it was me not paying attention to character voice in the writing style
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this is that one Really Normal haru fan from like two months ago. love the guy hopefully i see more of him ,. anyways, i want him biblically thank you! ❤
Anonnn n I need you to know i appreciate your msgs so much lmao
it! gives me motivation to finish a few Haru projects i got on the back-burner (and an excuse to post em LMAO)
For now have,,, a really silly idea my friend suggested where haru is small for unknown reasons. I drew it for a warmup last month! Ts why its so rough lmao
(he's confused, but he'll. he'll figure it out)
#haru eizaki (oc)#enn talks#be as unhinged as you like tbh ghjhgjgh#i will be fine lmao#also like#maybe this will get me to finish that comic. or animation. we shall see#whatever haru thing i post next. its for you buddy#and also like. my four friends who like him LMAO#(im lookin at u moss. i am big 🥺🥺at your tags every time#(i am eating them. they are fueling my doodles#anyways i have to kick my entire ass into gear or i will never finish these things#its once again enn talks forever in the tags#thougts for me?? and whoever decides to read these#hello friend. welcome to my thoughts at 1 am#i should really stop posting these things at 1 am#but will i stop? probably not#me and my terrible sleep schedule where i prioritize doodlin over actual sleep#this weekend i will be a log#anywas tHATS IT FROM ME TODAY#OR ESLE I WILL BE UP EVEN LATER
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I just want to say you’re amazing and your blog literally makes my day.
I’ve had some of the most stressful few months of my life and little things like getting updates from this blog makes everything so much better. My current favorite thing to do to de stress is just go through your blog and laugh and see our favorite boys and have fun. Your art is incredible, your comments give me life and this feels like such a happy and welcoming environment. Thank you so much, I don’t know what I would do without this ☺️ I hope all is well for you and you have a great night/day!
and if you look to your left you'll see the dude running this blog crying and sobbing while chugging a two liter bottle of canada dry AWWWWW BROO 😭😭 i'm so glad my blog can be a lil haven- a lil place to just chill even :'))
#fave#snap chats#thats how this blog is for me too tho- it really is the only thing keeping me going LMAO#ngl things havent been super easy for me either the past couple months#ive been super anxious every day just waiting for something terrible to happen even if i have no reason to#so i'm always happy to distract myself a bit and update this blog and chat with y'all#an again im glad my blog can do that for y'all too !! i say it a lot but all i wanna do is make people happy#whether its makin em laugh or smile or just readin shit and goin 'oh wow. lmao' even that's just enough#WAHHH im so glad my blog can be invitin i cant explain it ive always been bad at describing things esp how i feel#but just know i do cherish all the messages i get like these- they mean a lot to me#on that note tho i am doodlin a thing fore i go to bed- dunno if ill finish it or ill just sketch it out to finish in the morn#either way thank yall for keepin me company this past almost year and thank yall for enablin my tomfoolery lmao#im glad it makes yall happy and we can have fun :)
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Behind the Vale Chapter 22
ISAT/Two Hats spoilers below the break! CW: Blood soaking clothes.
And the OTHER new fit reveal! also by @kuro-is-doodlin
[You slowly stir back awake a couple hours later, groggy and weak. You find the strength to lift yourself up, realizing you were still lying with Nille, who had remained in her soft slumber. Her face holding that soft smile she often sported. You're shaken out of your love struck stare as you notice the dark stains across her clothing, looking back down at yourself to see it having drenched your own clothing as well... at least that horrible shade had faded away.]
[You carefully climb out of bed, trying your best not to disturb Nille. You undress from your soiled outfit, cleaning your face and neck as well. The bandages covering your chest were soaked through as well, slowly peeling them off one strip at a time, revealing that caved in scar across your chest again, just staring for a moment as the nightmare flashed in your mind once again. Seeing your own face twisted into a horrid mask, pulled from your very chest...]
[You take a deep breath, doing your best to shake it off and going back to cleaning yourself. Once you were done cleaning up, you decide to swap to your other new outfit. A backless, near lightless turtleneck tank top with a small cutout on the chest and loose, sheer fabric sleeves that go around the rear as well, along with a pair of dark shaded, tapered capris. The outfit complimented by your usual gloves and boots of course.]
[You admire yourself in the mirror for a moment, you're grateful that it get your mind off of everything else for the moment. The moment is short lived though as you notice Nille's still slumbering form in the mirror. You decide to take a walk, needing some fresh air to clear your mind, you think. You creep to the door, very carefully opening it up and shutting it behind you, trying to be as silent as possible.]
"Oh good morning!" [You almost leap out of your boots as the sudden voice startles you, turning to see the old woman who runs the inn just leaving her room as well. You take a second to catch your breath as she lets out a little chuckle.]
"Oh, sorry dear, didn't mean to scare you! I hope the two of you made up, you gals are so cute together~." [She remarks in a hopeless romantic way. You try your best to hide the emotions on your face, though you weren't entirely sure how to filter through the countless emotions rushing through you at the moment. You just give a nervous smile and go along with it.]
"N-Nothing but a silly little spat is all! We've been through far worse, I assure you~." [Stars why are we humoring this?]
"That's great to hear, sweetie! Well just so you know, most places won't be open this early of course, but the park on the north side has such a lovely serenity to it, watching the sunrise from there is breathtaking~. I'm sure your girlfriend would love to see it too." [She continues with her assumptions. This is what we get for playing along...]
"I-I'll keep that in mind, thank you very much m'dame~!" [You try your best to be polite, rushing towards the stairs as you speak to ensure she couldn't get any more words out, waving goodbye just as you slip out of sight, heading out of the front door and shutting it behind you, leaning back against it with a relieved sigh.]
[The cool night air blows through you... there's something comforting about the cold chill cutting through your form, a feeling you hadn't felt in a long while. You place a hand over your chest, the little cut out on your top revealing the tip of your scar to the air, sending a shiver through your whole body. The sensation was uncomfortable, yet welcome. Just another thing about you that was different now, finally different, no longer that damned star you trapped yourself as... You struggle out a deep breath through the chill of night and head off to the park the innkeeper mentioned.]
[It was peaceful, serene, so still and perfect. Almost as if the land had been frozen again in some beautiful way. You'd believe that if not for the cool breeze lightly rustling the grass as it flows by. You take a seat at one of the benches, just absorbing the scene before you, enjoying the cold air, even as you begin to shake and shiver from the consistent cold.]
[You look up at the night sky, seeing all the stars twinkling and shining as always... They feel so distant, more than they ever have before... you're not sure if that's a good thing or not at this point. You glance about them all, trying to find something, anything to recognize, anything that feels familiar. Then you finally spot it, a star, one that feels brighter, stronger, oddly so... It calls to you, like a guide... that must be your wish. You close your eyes and struggle for another deep breath... It's almost time... we can feel it. Stars we're not ready...]
"Vale?" [You perk up, turning to see Nille approaching, wearing her cloak over her form, likely to cover up your blood that still stained her clothes.]
"I thought you'd ran off again..." [Crab... we probably should have left a note or something...]
"O-Oh, sorry, I just... needed some fresh air." [Nille sighs in relief... then her face starts to darken, the panic fading away and she takes in your whole outfit.]
"Th-Those are quite the threads you got on, there." [Your own face darkens a bit too, looking away.]
"Th-Thank you! I thought it was rather stunning, is it not~?" [You try to keep your little flirty mask up, but you still can't even manage to look at her. You quickly perk up as she was suddenly sitting beside you, her arms wrapping around yours and holding close.]
"Change, it's freezing out here, how can you stand this? I mean crab, you're even shivering!"
"Hehe, it actually feels sort of n-nice." [You start to explain through your chattering teeth.]
"I-I ran so hot as a star, it's nice to feel cold finally~."
"Well that's great for you, but I'm freezing! Can we go back inside now?" [She asks, causing you to chuckle some, glancing back up at the sky, looking at that star.]
"Not yet... Do you see it?" [You ask, helping point it out to her. She looks up to it as her annoyed, uncomfortable look swaps to one of awe.]
"Th... That's... Bonnie is that way, I can feel it!"
"It seems my wish came true..." [Your own expression falls to a more bittersweet one. You perk back up as you feel Nille's fingers intertwine with yours, holding your hand tightly.]
"Hey... It's gonna be alright, I'm here for yah, and I'm not going anywhere, alright?"
"... Thank you Nille." [You sigh out, looking up to the sky again as you notice the light of the sun starting to poke through, just savoring the gorgeous sight of the sun rising. Nille's head lightly lays onto your shoulder as she watches. You both sit in silence, taking in the beautiful view together.]
#lives worth living au#lwlau#isat au#isat spoilers#isat fanfic#isat#in stars and time fanfic#two hat spoilers#in stars and time spoilers#isat two hats#btvau#behind the vale
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Hey guys, as you may have noticed, Daily Pearl Doodles is going into a pause for now. Classes have started up again and the both of us have become quite busy with new irl stuff and new hyperfixations
Perhaps one day we will come back fully, but for now we will just doodlin' whenever we feel like it hehe
Reminder that you can find us both, Mod Morph at @imorphemi and Mod Cosmic at @lunarblazes if you so wish <3
Thank you for all your loves on our doodles :D
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easy 600 words under the cut.
He clawed at his shirt, peeling it off his skin. “How are we going to eat if I can’t even find a single rabbit? Or fox? Or anything here?” He wiped his face off with his shirt and discarded it beside the fire. He tipped back, resting against his heels.
At some point this will be a cohesive story but for now I'm just doodlin' and throwing words onto the screen.
We had been travelling the Shaar wasteland for days. The sun was uncomfortably hot during the day and bone chillingly cold at night. We did our best to make short work of this leg of the journey but my provisions were starting to dwindle. Astarion tried to hunt for the both of us, but there weren’t many animals to be had in the area.
Days quickly morphed to a tenday. We had just settled into a camping spot for sunrise and had a small fire crackling in front of us. The air was already starting to warm up.
“I’m going to go see if I can find any animals to hunt, I won’t be long,” Astarion said, pitching off his armour so he could move silently through the grasses.
I just nodded at him and went searching through my packs to see if I had missed any food I could scrounge up.
30 minutes had passed and Astarion still wasn’t back. It was getting dangerously close to the sun peeking over the horizon. I stood up and started pacing, considering going to look for Astarion.
I heard the barest of footsteps approaching from behind our tent. It was Astarion, empty handed. He stumbled up to me, sinking to his knees beside the fire.
“I couldn’t find ANYTHING, Quyn,” he whispered. I had never seen him sweat like he was now. He must have been running full speed the entire time he was out. He clawed at his shirt, peeling it off his skin. “How are we going to eat if I can’t even find a single rabbit? Or fox? Or anything here?” He wiped his face off with his shirt and discarded it beside the fire. He tipped back, resting against his heels.
I stood in front of him, waiting for him to look up. He didn’t. “Astarion, you can still eat to keep up your strength,” I said quietly.
He reached out to my barely healed thigh, where he had fed just a day before. “You aren’t healing like you usually do. A few more days like we’ve had and I’ll drain you dry.”
“You won’t,” I said simply.
He groaned and leaned his forehead against my thigh, “I’m so hungry, Quyn.”
“I know.”
“Maybe… just a little. That would be enough.”
I stroked my hand down his curls and held him against my leg. HIs hands came up to caress the back of my leg, a touch hesitant.
“You can,” I breathed to him.
His fangs sunk in, causing me to gasp a little at the pain from the bruising that was still there from the other day.
I could feel Astarion desperately gulping down blood, and when I glanced down I saw some trickling out of the side of his mouth. He was usually more careful than that. He must have felt worse than he was letting on.
I watched my blood slowly drip onto his chest, mesmerized. I could watch him feed all day. I sighed contentedly and felt my knees almost buckle. Astarion pulled away from my thigh, gasping. I looked up at the horizon for a second, noticing the first rays slowly seeping over the mountain to the east.
I looked back down at Astarion, his eyes still on the ground, avoiding my gaze. I tipped his chin up with two fingers.
He slowly looked up at me, his red eyes darker than usual. “You know I would do anything for you, right?” his hands were dangling uselessly in his lap. He didn’t look ready to move, even with the sun quickly rising behind him.
“I know,” I said back simply. “We can try again tomorrow.” I reached my hand out to him, and when he took it, I led him to our tent.
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OKAY WOW THERE WAS A VERY BIG POSITIVE RESPONSE TO THE TELEPHONE GAME, HI
FOLLOW THE TELEPHONE GAME BLOG! @hws-telephone
I thought about making a discord, but to be entirely honest, I really don't want to manage that. In hindsight it might be good for discussions and feedback's sake, but my moderator days are behind me (I used to be a discord and in-game mod for a Minecraft server and I think I would rather eat my hand than do that again.) We will. See.
PLEASE READ MY FOLLOWING THOUGHTS ABOUT THE EVENT! I would love to hear feedback, but I think this kind of event may have to be a trial and error sort of situation. I've never hosted an event before and this is one that will move semi-fast. I will also need to be holding decent communication with people!
• Skill level does not matter. Anyone is allowed to participate regardless of their skill level or materials of choice, so long as those who work traditionally are able to get clear/well lit photos of their submission
• I will need to hold an experimental round capped at 5-7 participants. I do not know how long I should give people to complete their part. Life gets in the way and I know not everyone is fast (I am very much not fast). However, considering there will be a large number of participants, we gotta get moving! I think as of right now, everyone would have 3-5 days to complete their parts, and if they need an extension they get 2 days. If we need more time, that's possible! THE FIRST SIX PEOPLE TO FILL OUT THE GOOGLE FORMS (linked further in the post) WILL BE CONTACTED TO PARTICIPATE IN THE EXPERIMENTAL ROUND.
• Once we get into it, there could be a short-format and long-format group? Short format being people only get 1-3 days to work while long-format gets a week? The different groups differ based on complexity? Unsure. Need community feedback on this. OR we could just have two separate groups co-running so people don't have to wait forever to play.
• GOOGLE FORMS SUBMISSION HERE FOR PARTICIPANTS
• Once I have The Participants, their usernames will be ordered randomly and that'll be the order the drawing is passed around.
• If this is an event with multiple rounds... Maybe each round has a different theme? I know I have different groups of people following me (off the top of my head, FrUK, FACE fam, and Nordic centric blogs in particular). I think the first round will just be using my design for Nyo!Austria because I'm interested to see if we use a character whose clothing isn't able to be referenced by a quick google search, how that will be affected by the telephone. Unsure.
• I will start the experimental round and the very first Big Round. Other people can volunteer to be the starting artist in the future!
• No posting your submission until the end of the round!!! This is very important. The point of a telephone is you only know what the person right before you did!
• When it comes to someone's turn, I will be reaching out via Tumblr DM (or through another contact method if that is preferred). I'm considering asking someone to co-host this event with me for organization's sake, but I don't. Really have someone to do that. So!
If there's anything else we need to talk about, throw it in the replies!!! This is really going to be a trial and error kinda event until we get it down! Ideally, this would be a fun year round project/event!
BELOW THE CUT IS JUST ME TAGGING EVERYONE WHO REPLIED TO/REBLOGGED THE ORIGINAL POST
Hi, you replied to/reblogged the interest check so you get Priority News that there is a telephone game sideblog to follow @hws-telephone and that if you're still interested there is a submissions post pinned to the blog.
THE FIRST SIX RESPONSES WILL BE CONTACTED FOR THE EXPERIMENTAL ROUND.
@doodlin-moons @hws-lceland @ironic-orange @vikingosten @soulsembers @yaqamole @dappy-dappernette @losnordiquitos @tema-makes-art-sometimes @dandelion-coffee-bear @spiritmoon23 @genpaele @astrophilic-soul @batataaurdoodh @the-heaminator @krazys-ass-emporium @sixcatsinajacket @hoasens @wackylittlegal @starsilversword @untitled-kitsune @2p-nyotalia
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GOTTA SUPPORT MY MUTUAL 💪💪💪💪💪
patting u on the head. can i perhaps get my favorite boy impulsesv? or whatever you feel like doodlin’!
FUCK YEAH SIMPY 4 IMPY GANG!!!! 💪 here is ur impulse .
Oh man i miss impulse. Haven't thought of him in a Hooooot while . I should go watch him again...... (And then proceeds not to . Dangit)
Vote 4 me we made it to moomtuals round 5 baby 😎 get a doodle!!
#hermitcraft#hermitcraft fanart#impulsesv#impulsesv fanart#mcyt#maeart#asks#sushirens#ty for the headpats 🥺👉👈
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Tfw your scientist boyfriend gets so wrapped up with work he forgets to pay attention to you😤
Yeah I’m drawing these boys again, doodlin’ stuff cause I have had the slowest day ever. Freestyle-not-using-hand-references aside, I like the way Chen looks here. Kloss, I wanna work on a bit more because he’s lookin’ like two other characters I’ve drawn with a similar face and we can’t have that😬
Also I made the word bubbles too small. Whoops!
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doodlin me and my friends sona again
didnt know what to put so
[ps this is a satire joke we made the other night and it felt fitting to these nutjobs]
#art#digital art#my art#oc#original character#utmv#utmv oc#undertale multiverse#parasite blue [oc]#friends oc#dusty [oc]
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we doodlin (aka moth, again)
#picking up drawing again just in case i wanna partake in artfight 💀#art#my art#oc#digital art#moth#moth oc#csp#clip studio#clip studio paint
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Four lab doodles so far, I’ve got more but tbh I kinda wanna wait to scan the rest in since they always get squished somehow in my scrubs (๑ᵕ⌓ᵕ̤) the first two are from week 2 and the bottom two are from week 4 so daily doodlin’ is certainly working
I was honestly pretty worried that my art would tank in frequency since I’m working full time again, but since I doodle in between samples I think I sketch even more?? It’s great! I’m completing a character or scene sketch a day so that’s fun! Had a few so far that would look pretty cool as prints i think. 👀
There’s a Lambros + Ratchet scene I did earlier this week when we literally had nothing coming in but that got big squished, so I defs need to scan that in. Weekends are still for working on big paintings and digital stuff so i gotta make sure i stay on track lol.
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(Sorry for caps! Also The Owl House spoilers i think??? Maybe? Just watch out babes)
N e way
HEYA BABYGIRLS WHATSUP ITS 1:30 ISH I DONT GIVE A SHIT ANYWAY IM HAVING THOUGHTS ABOUT THE MASKS IN TOH RIGHT BC I WAS DOODLIN SOME ALTERNATIVES BC FUN RIGHT. AND WAS LIKE “HM. I SMELL SYMBOLISM.”
SO. FIRST WE HAVE THE SHAPES OF THE MASKS. HUNTER’S IS SHAPED LIKE THE MARKINGS OF A BARN OWL (AND HIS WHOLE COLOR PALLET IS DEFINITELY BASED OFF OF THE BARN OWL.). GUESS WHAT? GUESS WHAT BARN OWLS ARE ASSOCIATED WITH? DEATH AND REBIRTH. AND WHAT HAPPENS TO THE GOLDEN GUARDS, OR CALEB IF YOU WANNA GET FUNKY. THEY DIE, AND ARE REBORN. OVER AND OVER AGAIN. INTERESTING HUH?
But there’s MORE! GUESS WHAT? IN COMPARISON TO HUNTER’S CUTE ROUNDED MASK, WE’VE GOT BELOS’ MASK. HIS IS LONG AND POINTY. NOW IF WE’RE THINKIN BIRD, WHAT DOES THAT REMIND YOU OF? CROWS AND OTHER SUCH BIRDS. CARRION BIRDS! WHAT DO THOSE DO? THEY THEY FEED ON CORPSES AND ROTTING THINGS, THEY SCAVENGE FOR FOOD. ALMOST LIKE HOW BELOS IS CONSTANTLY USING HIS BROTHER’S DEAD CORPSE PICKING AWAY FLESH AND REMOVING BONE FOR HIS OWN USES. BIG HMMMMM. CROWS ARE ALSO KNOWN AS ILL OMENS AND/OR MESSENGERS OF DEATH. BELOS IS HERE TO GENOCIDE. VESSEL OF DEATH HMMM? AND CONNECTORS OF THE SPIRITUAL AND MATERIAL REALMS? WELL I MEAN I MIGHT BE REACHING BUT CMON HE’S RESURRECTING HIS BROTHER OVER AND OVER TECHNICALLY.
Anyway! Last point: His mask and Hunter’s have front facing golden masks. They got predator faces broskis. And also: gold. Which, makes sense. They’re the top dudes in the whole pyramid scheme right? Belos is the *Emperor*, and again, he’s gonna genocide the whole Isles. And Hunter’s his attack dog. Predators! Everyone else’s (the scouts) masks are grey/silver with eyes placed on the side. They’re also round and circular, giving a less threatening look to em. Yeah. Plus everyone in the BI is like belos’ prey n shit idk man. N e way that’s it love y’all sorry <333
#late night rambles#i’ve connected the dots#mask theories#the owl house#the owl house spoilers#the owl house belos#the owl house hunter#the emperor’s coven#coven scouts#symbolism#bird symbolism#reaching a bit prolly#caps cw#excited yelling kinda#but also im tired so its like i have to shout so my brain knows whats up#random thoughts#rambles#theorizin#that’s just a theory#a MASK theory#it’s so late#i should sleep i need to be up early#night guys <33#sorry lol#i hope i make sense#tell me what u think (:#toh#toh speculation#toh golden guard#traggy’s shit
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omgggggg bestie that bg3 art was so fucking cute!!! My vampire man def deserves some tickles (all these cuties do theyre so touch starved) we love to see a grumpy vampire get wrecked by all of his “totally not” friends. 10/10 amazing art. -pandabun
Ahhh thank you Pan Pan!! He definitely needs more tickles and there are more to come! Not just for him but others as well! Plan on doodlin my player character Xaeren~ (I can remember how I spelled his name and my ps5 is off so I can't check rn lmao). But there will be more Baldur's Gate content as well as Dragon Age and the rest of the Tickle Forest Creatures in the near future! I'm so happy I'm drawing again!!
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Behind the Vale Chapter 19
ISAT, Two Hats, AND SASASAP spoilers this time! oh my! CW: Mental Spirals, very negative self talk.
New fit for Vale! Art by the always incredible @kuro-is-doodlin
[Nille gives an impressed whistle as you do a light flourish, showing off your new outfit once you arrive back at the inn you were staying at. The lightless coat and pants with darkless buttons, wrist cuffs, waist band, and tailoring around right chest section were incredibly elegant, striking in it's simplicity. Your usual gloves and boots complimenting it all perfectly.]
"Fancy, please tell me you didn't blow all our coin on an outfit again though."
"Of course not, Nilly~! That would be preposterous... It was two outfits~." [She simply responds with smacking her palm against her face, grumbling to herself.]
"Alright... looks like we're gonna need to stay here another day to earn some more..."
"Sorryyyy~." [You can't help but tease some, but she knows you'll do your best to earn it back. Her expression doesn't lift though, as if stuck on a thought.]
"Nille?... I-I'm sorry, I didn't think it was that big of a deal. I can take care of it tomorrow if you want to rela-"
"Are you still avoiding them, Vale?... Are you prolonging this all on purpose?" [She cuts you off, causing you to freeze, your heart leaping into your throat. You hesitate, bringing your hands up to grip your arms in a bit of a close hug with yourself.]
"... I... I'm sorry Nille, I guess... I just wanted to enjoy this, as long as I could..." [Your words almost surprise yourself. You did your best to not think about the impending meeting, but it seems that subconscious part of you was forcing itself upon your actions. You look to Nille nervously, expecting the worst. Her expression is gentle, worried for you as opposed to angry.]
"Vale, this doesn't have to end. You don't have to leave when we find them... I want you to stick around." [She trying to take your hands in her, but you pull away.]
"I-I... I don't know if I can..." [You choke out, placing a hand over your mouth and trying to stop the tears from falling.]
"Why not Vale? Please, I just want to understa-"
"BECAUSE THEY'RE NOT MINE ANYMORE, OKAY?! THEY'RE HIS! THEY WON'T BE MY FAMILY EVER AGAIN!!" [You scream, quickly covering your mouth again. No no no no no, why did we say that?! What do we do?! She's staring at us, confused, how do we explain that, what can we-.]
"Vale... Just tell me what happened, please? I promise I won't tell anyone, and I promise it won't change what I think of you."
"... I've had both of those promises broken before." [You mumble out, sitting down on you bed and wiping the welling tears from your eyes. You take a deep yet shaky breath, slowly letting it back out.]
"I don't want to lose you Nille..."
"I don't wanna lose you either, Vale." [She responds quickly, coming over to sit beside you, placing a hand on top of one of yours comfortingly. She slowly brings a hand up to your face, the rough, calloused texture gently placed on your cheek, helping wipe some tears away. You suddenly pull away with a gasp, pushing her hand away as memories suddenly flash in your mind.]
[You're brought back to so long ago... the loop you finally managed to defeat the king. The loop just before you finally gave up, when everyone noticed you were acting funny. When everyone comforted you... When Mirabelle touched your face, and realized how much you cared about them... Tears begin to pour from from your eyes.]
"V-Vale?! I-I'm sorry, I-I didn't mean to-" [You fall to your knees, cupping your face and sobbing. We could have kept going! We made progress!! Why did we finally chose to give up when things changed for once?!!? Wh-Why-...]
"Why wasn't I strong enough?..." [Is all you can manage to whimper out through your crying.]
"... Please Vay, I can't help if you don't talk to me..."
"Why do you think you can help me?! Why are you so BLINDING insistent?! Wh-Why-?!.... Why... Why do you think I deserve your kindness? J-Just leave already and join up with your family... leave me behind like I deserve..."
"Alright, fine." [You look up at Nille in shock, she sits there with her arms crossed, a serious look on her face.]
"If you want me gone so bad, and you think I'll leave if I know what happened. Then tell me. Make me leave. Prove to me you don't deserve having me around." [You pause, a flurry of emotions running through you. We can't tell her, we can't let her leave!... but we can't keep lying to her! She doesn't deserve this, and we don't deserve her... We'll never be happy, it won't happen, so why keep trying to fool ourself?... Let's just get this all over with.]
"... Fine... It's not fair I've been parading around like I'm worth anything anyways... You don't deserve to be lied to anymore." [Your face hardens, trying to hold back every emotion you can. You wipe the remnants of your tears once again, getting up to take a seat on the opposite bed from them.]
"I'm not... I wasn't some extra party member journeying with them... I was the Traveler. Siffrin..."
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