#we are khaofang

[doublel27]

I know how deep we are in the Phum and Fang trauma train.

But it’s so horrifying when you consider Beer put Phum at like 4-5 if I remember correctly.

Which means at the oldest they were when Phum got sent away, they were 5 and 6 respectively.

Six is so young. And it was a six-year old Fang that made relentless international phone calls when his brother was sent away. It was a six-year old Fang that was trapped in that giant house alone, because of how focused on the business his parents were, listing to his brother cry in the middle of the night. And you can only think that he probably tried to convince his parents that Phum could stay, that he could take care of him.

According to Beer, they were inseparable before Phum was sent away. And they’re only a year or so apart, Fang has no memories that pre-date Phum’s existence at this point.

Which leaves me with how traumatic it is for your best friend, your constant companion to be ripped from you or you from them, and just trying to hold on to each other across the distance and time. And you would think, as an adult with the best intentions, that best case scenario is they sent Phum away theoretically because they were busy and that way Fang wouldn’t be responsible for him, but Fang still remained responsible for Phum with the distance between them. Fang promising both of them that everything would be alright when Phum came home.

But it wasn’t alright. And Fang spent the last 7-10 years trying to fix the things that are broken and Phum has spent the last 15 years trying to figure out why he’s not enough.

And then the line that killed me was Fang asking Tan not to just disappear on him. If Fang wasn’t enough, to tell him straight, instead of disappearing into the ether. And while Tan reassured Fang how madly in love he is and how he’d never be the one to break up with Fang, my mind flipped back to episode 2, where Fang looks at Tan and observes that Tan isn’t dead. And Tan responded with you haven’t been around either.

And we can assume it’s because neither of them knew what to do with their feelings unsure of how the other one felt…but Fang has already felt Tan disappeared on him once and I…remain not okay.

I need to continue the TanFang fic I started last week that meditated on this particular thought of Fang’s psyche and that line from ep 2.

[kexing]

How long have you known Peem? Since high school. But why did you ask? Nothing much, I was just curious.

[sirlancenotalot]

[thebvbbletea]

"He already knows I love him. I love him the most"

— We Are The Series ep. 16

[srnileforme]

“Tan hearts Khaofang.”

WE ARE (2024)

⤷ for @sherrymagic ♡

[sherrymagic]

AouBoom via @/WeAreSeriesTH (x) — may 9, 2024

[errorkey]

okay but can we talk about fang. khaofang – darling, sweet, elder brother fang – who doesn't know how to let himself be loved.

khaofang who doesn't think he can be loved because he's "too unreasonable" and "doesn't behave well." khaofang who was taught that love always comes with conditions. khaofang who is certain that everyone will leave the people they love – just like their parents did with phum.

khaofang, whose only wish is that tan offers him a warning before he leaves. if only so that he can prepare for what he sees as inevitable.

but he has tan. tan – kind, gentle, walking angel on earth tan – who knows that he is loved.

tan who is there every time fang needs him, ready to listen to his grievances and shower him in reassurance. tan who is unashamed of his love for fang, who will shout it from rooftops and whisper it in secret all the same. tan who promises fang a forever he never thought he deserved.

tan, whose only wish is that khaofang truly understands how cherished he is. so that he knows that when tan says forever, he really, truly means it.

[itseuth]

I love the moments where you can tell that Fang is utterly and irrevocably in love with Tan:

[the-sky-the-stars-the-sea]

HELP THIS IS SO FUNNY

ALSO THEIR REACTIONS-

I’M DYING

[byemambo]

Fang, I'm sorry. It slipped out. Are you angry? You aren't? Babe, you're such a cutie! You aren't telling me off. You aren't mad, either. How cute you are!

We Are (2024) | 1.07

Fang's Cardigans [5/?] | dir. New Siwaj Sawatmaneekul

Grateful for @lazzarella for helping with the time stamps!

[khaofangjin]

forever inlove with my khaofang jintraphat 🫶🏻

[7-starboi]

He's the bitey boyfriend 🧛

[sirlancenotalot]

[thebvbbletea]

#tanfang & qtoey teasing each other

[woper123]

THE TINY DETAILS THAT AOUBOOM ACTED OUT LIKE okay first lemme SCREAM ABOUT THE WAY FANG INITIATED THE HAND HOLDING FOR THE FIRST TIME, and the way tan was literally smiling giggling looking at how fang was the first to held his hands, like YOU CAN see how happy tan was seeing fang like this 🥹😭🥹😭your honor they are so in love😭🥹🥹😭🥹😭

[dlanadhz]

People in the We Are tag are acting like it's a huge revelation that Fang will punch a bitch for you, but need I remind you that in episode 1, Phum was like "I need to get revenge on this asshole. who can help me? Ah. Fang." and Fang offered to get this guy back with barely a pause. And it did not come across like a "we have money, let's ruin his life" kind of help. And somewhere else, there was another hint that Fang would fight someone if asked. Phum is also known for fighting a bit. And then Fang heard about Q hurting Toey was like "want me to punch him?"

The revelation that Fang met Tan and his first instinct was to punch his chaos gremlin face is not surprising to me. The idea that they used to fight on the regular, and that he got into fights with others regularly, is not a surprise. In fact, I'm surprised we don't hear about this soft sweater boy fucking people up in high school more often.