#we are khaofang

[doublel27]

I know how deep we are in the Phum and Fang trauma train.

But it’s so horrifying when you consider Beer put Phum at like 4-5 if I remember correctly.

Which means at the oldest they were when Phum got sent away, they were 5 and 6 respectively.

Six is so young. And it was a six-year old Fang that made relentless international phone calls when his brother was sent away. It was a six-year old Fang that was trapped in that giant house alone, because of how focused on the business his parents were, listing to his brother cry in the middle of the night. And you can only think that he probably tried to convince his parents that Phum could stay, that he could take care of him.

According to Beer, they were inseparable before Phum was sent away. And they’re only a year or so apart, Fang has no memories that pre-date Phum’s existence at this point.

Which leaves me with how traumatic it is for your best friend, your constant companion to be ripped from you or you from them, and just trying to hold on to each other across the distance and time. And you would think, as an adult with the best intentions, that best case scenario is they sent Phum away theoretically because they were busy and that way Fang wouldn’t be responsible for him, but Fang still remained responsible for Phum with the distance between them. Fang promising both of them that everything would be alright when Phum came home.

But it wasn’t alright. And Fang spent the last 7-10 years trying to fix the things that are broken and Phum has spent the last 15 years trying to figure out why he’s not enough.

And then the line that killed me was Fang asking Tan not to just disappear on him. If Fang wasn’t enough, to tell him straight, instead of disappearing into the ether. And while Tan reassured Fang how madly in love he is and how he’d never be the one to break up with Fang, my mind flipped back to episode 2, where Fang looks at Tan and observes that Tan isn’t dead. And Tan responded with you haven’t been around either.

And we can assume it’s because neither of them knew what to do with their feelings unsure of how the other one felt…but Fang has already felt Tan disappeared on him once and I…remain not okay.

I need to continue the TanFang fic I started last week that meditated on this particular thought of Fang’s psyche and that line from ep 2.

[incorrectwearetheseries]

Fang: Now, let’s say you haven’t eaten for days and you’re in desperate need of a sandwich. What do you do?

Q: I go over to Peem's apartment and have him make me a sandwich.

Fang: Okay, yes. But Peem's not there.

Chain: Where’s Peem?

Fang: It’s not important where he is. He’s gone. He left the country.

Pun: He left the country? Why? Is he okay?

Fang: Yes, he’s fine.

Tan: Well, if he’s fine, I don’t see why he couldn’t make us a sandwich.

[forcebook]

How long have you known Peem? Since high school. But why did you ask? Nothing much, I was just curious.

[sirlancenotalot]

[thebvbbletea]

"He already knows I love him. I love him the most"

— We Are The Series ep. 16

[srnileforme]

“Tan hearts Khaofang.”

WE ARE (2024)

⤷ for @sherrymagic ♡

[sherrymagic]

AouBoom via @/WeAreSeriesTH (x) — may 9, 2024

[errorkey]

okay but can we talk about fang. khaofang – darling, sweet, elder brother fang – who doesn't know how to let himself be loved.

khaofang who doesn't think he can be loved because he's "too unreasonable" and "doesn't behave well." khaofang who was taught that love always comes with conditions. khaofang who is certain that everyone will leave the people they love – just like their parents did with phum.

khaofang, whose only wish is that tan offers him a warning before he leaves. if only so that he can prepare for what he sees as inevitable.

but he has tan. tan – kind, gentle, walking angel on earth tan – who knows that he is loved.

tan who is there every time fang needs him, ready to listen to his grievances and shower him in reassurance. tan who is unashamed of his love for fang, who will shout it from rooftops and whisper it in secret all the same. tan who promises fang a forever he never thought he deserved.

tan, whose only wish is that khaofang truly understands how cherished he is. so that he knows that when tan says forever, he really, truly means it.

[itseuth]

I love the moments where you can tell that Fang is utterly and irrevocably in love with Tan:

[the-sky-the-stars-the-sea]

HELP THIS IS SO FUNNY

ALSO THEIR REACTIONS-

I’M DYING

[byemambo]

Fang, I'm sorry. It slipped out. Are you angry? You aren't? Babe, you're such a cutie! You aren't telling me off. You aren't mad, either. How cute you are!

We Are (2024) | 1.07

Fang's Cardigans [5/?] | dir. New Siwaj Sawatmaneekul

Grateful for @lazzarella for helping with the time stamps!

[incorrectwearetheseries]

Phum: *awkward smile*

Fang: What’s wrong with your face?

Phum: I like your hair.

Fang: What did you do?

[khaofangjin]

forever inlove with my khaofang jintraphat 🫶🏻

[sirlancenotalot]

[thebvbbletea]

#tanfang & qtoey teasing each other

[7-starboi]

He's the bitey boyfriend 🧛