#we CANNOT allow this to go through
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If true we HAVE to make this the biggest flop in gaming history, as in 'destroys the company' levels of gaming flop as in a 'lesson must be taught' gaming flop, as in 'E.T. destroyed atari' gaming flop
#gta#gta 6#id'd images#gaming#LISTEN TO ME#WE DO **NOT** PREORDER THE FUCKING GAME.#WE DO NOT. PREORDER. THE FUCKING GAME.#WE DO NOT PREORDER IT. WE DO NOT LOOK AT IT. WE DO NOT GIVE IT THE TIME OF DAY. UNTIL WE KNOW WHAT RETAIL PRICE IS.#WE DO **NOT** REWARD THESE FUCKERS FOR PRICES LIKE THIS IF IT'S REAL. NOT DURING A COST OF LIVING CRISIS. NOT EVER.#listen i don't really care about gta i will be honest. that might discredit my opinion on this some#but like. when game prices have already been rising to fucking unreasonable so hard recently#even despite the fact release-day quality has gone completely down the drain for most of them#we CANNOT allow this to go through#we have already shown them way too readily we're willing to buy any stupid shit with a franchise logo#even before having any fucking clue about it or anything.#look at how fucking expensive-yet-shit preorders have gotten in recent years#we CANNOT show them that this kind of pricing is acceptable for RETAIL PRICE for JUST THE FUCKING GAME#genuinely praying this is a hoax. but i hate the fact that lowkey feels unlikely#seriously though oh my fucking god do not preorder the game#i cannot stress that enough. i do not care what they put in that fucking preorder bundle. do not buy it#they need to fucking learn#(they need to learn in general tbh with preorders but especially when this is a potential thing they're thinking abt)
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I've said it before, I'll say it again, and I'm sure it won't be the last time. I AM SICK AND BLOODY TIRED OF THESE MFS, HALF OF WHO DONT EVEN CARE ABOUT CURSED CHILD, BITCHING AND MOANING ABOUT AN ANGSTY TEEN DARING TO BE AN ANGSTY TEEN, I WILL FIGHT THE LOT OF YOU
(this is gonna be a bit long and probably incoherent so sit down and fucking listen to me 🔫 stick with me because I'm not just complaining about albus haters)
eVERYBODY wants cOoMmpllEeXx relatable HUMAN characters - and then SHIT themselves when the flaws a CHILD has isn't just 🥺 uwu im socially awkward and traumatised 🥺. that's why scorpius doesn't get this fuckass treatment, because his terrible human flaw is that he's a bit shit at conversation and gets sad about his dead mum (generalised understatement, but this post isnt about him. dont come for me i love him 🫶🏻)
god forbid albus, who feels unloved and unwanted (with valid evidence for a teenager), albus who feels completely out of place and outcast from his entire famously-close-knit family, ablus who is well known by the world by default via Harry and hates the attention and high expectations, albus who then gets targeted and bullied by his peers because he's not as perfect and brilliant as his father, albus who is then isolated from his one friend because Harry is making irrational ptsd fueled decisions, albus who tells Harry completely sincerely that he knows he's unlikeable but he'll try and change himself and be more like his siblings because he genuinely believes that's what Harry and everyone else whos had the misfortune of meeting him wants, albus who spends the entire play trying to prove himself and fix things via idiotic childish decisions BECAUSE HES A WHOLE UNSTABLE CHILD
god forbid that CHILD doesn't react like a patient, supported, well adjusted, level headed adult. god forbid he reacts outwardly. god forbid he reacts at all, my bad. clearly he should just sniffle a bit as if he doesn't feel suffocated and helpless by everything in his life, because obviously hes just a spoiled brat who doesn't know what real suffering is. god forbid he complains or feels anything negatively, or doesn't quite grasp that other people are struggling too because he is too busy trying so hard to deal with himself and his declining mental health the best he can with basically no support or understanding. god forbid he isn't completely perfect.
you all sound like some fucking boomer telling teenagers they don't know what real struggling is, they aren't mentally ill, they dont have any problems because they have a roof over their head, they should all go to war kids are too soft these days 😫😖😱 fUCKING‼️SHUT UP‼️
he does things wrong but he knows he does and he does everything he can to fix it! and he is fourteen!!! do none of you remember what being fourteen is like 😭😭 I swear half of you have got to be basically fourteen yourselves cmon man
cause I'm seeing this fucking pattern a lot recently. not just for albus, not just in this fandom, everywhere. ‼️ no one can fucking handle flawed characters anymore ‼️ the only thing any character is allowed to have wrong with them is trauma apparently, otherwise they have to be perfect, and I'm getting sick of it. characters and stories are meant to reflect real life, they're meant to help shape our world view, why are you expecting everyone to be fucking perfect??? what happened to nuance? what happened to understanding character development? you are all acting like characters and people are so black and white. either they're perfect or they're insufferable and evil. I won't lie, the most common victims i've noticed of this are women. but the flawed women are typically demonised, whereas the men are typically turned into uwu baby boys who actually aren't capable of doing anything wrong and then fanon goes nuts making them into ittle wittle victims. and I'm so fucking sick of all of it, I hate this. (obviously this is not a strict rule. Albus Potter, and also Albus Dumbledore now I mention it, are demonised beyond belief)
BRING BACK FLAWS AND BRING BACK NOT COMPLETELY WRITING OFF A CHARACTER BECAUSE THEY DARE TO BE HUMAN
I AM FED UP, ALBUS POTTER GET BEHIND ME
#he did many things wrong BUT I PROMISE YOU HE IS MORE AWARE THAN YOU ARE#HE HATES HIMSELF MORE THAN YOU EVER COULD#this post has been building a lot because i just kEEP SEEING ALBUS HATERS AND ITS DRIVING ME INSANE#i am albus potters defence lawyer actually#also eloise bridgertons i am seeing far too many people jumping on that hate train#i know shes going through her im not like other girls i hate pink phase but OF COURSE SHE IS#SHE LIVES IN THE 1800S WOMEN ARENT ALLOWED TO DO SHIT SHE FEELS TRAPPED IN A BOX AND ALL SHE SEES IS OTHER PEOPLE PLAYING THEIR PARTS#i could talk about her a lot more but this isnt the time or place 😔✋🏻 eloise bridgerton they could never make me hate you#also sansa stark i havent even watched game of thrones but i would fight to the death to defend her#her only crime was being a naive child and yet people hate her mercilessly#these are the people coming to me off the top of my head but there are countless fucking others#we are witnessing the death of media literacy and the death of nuance and its killing me i cannot fucking do this#i sincerely hope anyone complaining about al dont ever have teenage children because they will be shit at supporting or understanding them#hpcc#harry potter#albus potter#scorpius malfoy#years spent on tumblr and i still dont know how to tag#albus severus potter#harry potter and the cursed child#scorbus#is it cheeky if i tag bridgerton or game of thrones?#it feels cheeky 😔#the marauders#tagging that too because that fandom are fucking perpetrators of this#(said as someone in it dont come for me)
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wow, okay, transphobia isn't fucking welcome on this blog! and if you have a problem with that i'll block you, bitch!
#i got a horrible ask from someone clearly going through a lot in their life because it was just cruel and disgusting.#i encourage ALL the cis queer women following me to take a second to remember that the only reason we have gay rights and pride in the usa#is because of two trans women.#trans women have always existed#and in today's society they're one of the most unprotected minorities in the world.#it's insane to me that you as a queer person can know first hand how heartbreaking it is to be discriminated against#for something you literally cannot control#only to turn around and discriminate against trans people because you think sexuality is diverse and expansive but somehow gender isnt?!!?#the cognitive dissonance in terf spaces is fucking insane.#i could write a sociological essay on how terf-ism preys on young queer women who feel powerless.#because it's so freeing to let your frustrations with the way the world treats you out through hatred of those you don't understand!#but what terfs don't understand that attitude and behavior is the same attitude and behavior that allows patriarchy and colonialism 2 thriv#sorry for the essay. it's pride month please take the time to educate yourself on transmisogyny and transmisogynoir.
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actually unreal how much of a waste of everyone's time modern schooling is
#lightgriffinsect express#lightgriffinsalt#going through it again rn#im literally not allowed to care about anything other than studying during most of the school year#everything about the system is structured to give students scattered pockets of time between school hours and sleep hours#so they actually just cannot effectively spend a lot of time honing skills outside of the meager few provided at school#and after 12 years we still have so few practical skills unless we were actively learning them ourselves or had super determined parents#which isnt most students mind you#what is even the point of attending school *whose responsibility is to prepare us for the real world* when we learn almost nothing#that we can use irl#it's stupid
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“I’m really sorry.” “So am I.”
#critical role#imogen x fearne#imogearne#long post#ygifs#but they were literally insane for this are you kidding me#you have Laura Lauraing up a Laura with that imogen emotion work she's pulling and then you have Ashley Ashleying up an Ashley At Her WHAT#like I JUST WANT THEM TO TALK ABOUT IT I JUST WANT AN ACTUAL TALK SHOW TO TALK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#WHATS GOING ON THERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#YOU LITERALLY have Imogen People-Pleaser-Or-Death actually saying So Am I and Actually Acknowledging In EVEN That Small Way#And it's like fearne is Actually So Heartbroken she's Stunned And Yet All She Can Think To Do Is Look At Imogen and Say She’s So Sorry#FEARNE???? we literally did not see THAT magnitude of emotional vulnerability with fearne since she Met Her Lost Mom Ok#and she’s There At The Mercy Of Her Emotions. because of imogen. because of how much she Empathizes with Imogen#and Imogen Wonderful Wonderful Imogen Literally Cannot Look At Fearne More ThanA Second After What She Did*#girls y'all are just insane for this this was The Moment that made me Break Down And Uproot my Not Making Gifs Thing after EIGHT YEARS it's#I know this campaign is so fast paced and plot driven but like it's been nearly 10 episodes and they've not Talked About This Okay#also obsessed with the stilted way imogen thanks fcg for bringing fearne back like it is SOO detached I'm chewing it#she literally spoke as if she wasn't there when you could see imogen relating to fearne by touching her shoulder and saying brought Her back#they literally already Went Through Much with fearne's parents reveal and the way imogen Allowed herself to Be Present in That Situation#no but literally I Think About Fearne Combating How She Regrets Orym Being Brought Back like Thats the gravity of it#imogen says Thank You Fearne and fearne just stands there nearly wanting nothing more than for the reality imogen Meant It
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WIP Wednesday!
Tagged by @detectivelokis @direwombat @inafieldofdaisies @clicheantagonist @socially-awkward-skeleton ty for keeping me in the loop lovelies!
Tagging @g0dspeeed @nonfunctioning-queer @marivenah @henbased
Posting a few things since I've missed a million wip wednesdays, so first up is the beginning of Willa's disastrous journey in part 1 of her dark au :)
“Ugh…” A groan forces itself through cracked, dry lips as she wakes to an insistent mumbling hum buzzing by her head. Her eyes flutter open and roam over her settings with an owlish blink. Numbly, she stares ahead, to the swaying headset that’s making so much noise, and finally to the vibrant orange ribbons, flapping in the wind outside. A few minutes tick by before her memory trickles in, syrupy slow, bringing with it an ice cold terror. Something was wrong. Something was very, very wrong. She was hanging upside down with her seat belt being the only thing holding her in place. It takes another minute to realize that the ribbons outside were not ribbons at all, but flames. To make matters worse, there's a tiny waterfall of liquid, dripping down from the helicopter and splattering onto the ground into a puddle. The smell itself is indistinguishable: Gas. She looks over to her right to see Hudson, passed out, then in front of her to see Burke, also passed out, and then there was… Wait, where the hell was Joseph? “Amaaaziiiiing Graaaace.” The distant, haunting timber of his voice paralyzes her. Ironically, she can’t help but to think that this would be the part in the movie where the main character ran and hid from the killer. But she has no where to run and no where to hide, so she does the next best thing: A fumbling attempt to grab the headset dangling just out of reach, taunting her. “How sweet the sound…” She leans forward, brushing her fingertips against the headset and pushing it further away. “C’mon!” She makes another attempt and this time her hand secures a tight grip around it. With a bud of hope blossoming in her chest, she pulls it toward her, just a little closer- Joseph’s hand shoots into view like a striking viper, latching onto her wrist with a punishing grasp and her breath hitches in her throat. She doesn’t dare to turn her head, in fact she’s not even sure she’s able to. She’s frozen in place, watching him move into her line of view. “That saved… a wretch… liiiike me…” He tilts his head, watching her. Unblinking. Waiting. It’s only when she releases her death grip on the only lifeline out of here that he, in turn, lets go of her wrist. It's a short lived relief, as in the next moment he grabs her jaw, lips twitching in amusement now that he’s made sure she’ll be unable to look away from him. “I told you that God wouldn’t let you take me.” He taunts, using his other hand to blindly reach up and grab the headset behind him, pulling it close so he could talk into the mic. “Dispatch.” “Ohhh… my god.” Nancy responds with a relieved, shaky exhale of breath. The reply prompts a brief half smile, one that doesn’t quite meet his eyes. “Everything is just fine here. No need to call anyone.” No. No, no, no. There was no fucking way- “Yes, Father. Praise be to you.” He drops the headset with a dramatic flourish then leans in with deadened expression, getting close enough that she could smell him this time: Dirt, sweat, ink, old books, and… something else she couldn’t quite put her finger on. He reaches up, slowly, as if approaching a cornered animal and she can’t help but to think, oh god, this is it. Bracing herself for the pain of long, pianist fingers penetrating squishy flesh, her eyes fly open in surprise when rough, callused thumbs brush across the apples of her cheeks instead. It’s a soft, soothing gesture, one she’s unfamiliar with. He wipes away stray tears that she hadn’t even realized were there and takes a moment to watch her. A second later, he’s leaning in, getting too close, forcing her to move her head back until it hits the headrest behind her. “No one is coming to save you.” He utters those final words before climbing out of the helicopter
Next up is Willa's (failed?) cleansing!
“Not this one.” He holds a hand out, stopping the peggie at her side and giving them a look before handing over the book he’d been reading from. His blue eyes—looking almost colorless in the moonlight—flick back to her and the water parts around him when he moves closer. “This ones not clean.” Then he lunges, pushing her down until she's submerged underneath the water again. She struggles, trying to gain purchase on anything, but the effort is futile and a few seconds later she’s already resurfacing. Her chest heaves with her gasps for air, her lips trembling from the cold temperature. “Y-you mm-muh-mother-f-fucker!” “Ahhhh!” He clicks his tongue with a smile, “Shhhh.” Expecting it this time, she holds her breath just before he pushes her under, the cold water shocking her system as if she were doing a polar plunge. She manages to grab hold of his shirt, pulling him with her and delighting in the blurry shock on his face when he stumbles and falls. He barely manages to catch himself and in using her to regain his balance, he sends her back slamming into the ground, driving the air from her lungs. Out of instinct, she opens her mouth and inhales water, gulping it down like she hasn’t had a drink in years. It gives her a bone chilling sense of dreadful déjà vu. Her frantic movements grow more sluggish the longer time passes until soon, she isn’t even struggling at all, but weakly smacking at whatever part of his body she could. But he doesn’t relent, he doesn’t let up, he keeps her there until her vision darkens at the edges. Then he keeps her there even longer, sharp fingers digging into her shoulders as he takes out his rage and frustration on her. She can’t do anything but exhale… and let go. . . . “N’aww, you really thought this was over? It’s only just begun…” . . . Someones pressing on her chest—one, two, three—then pushing air into her lungs. They repeat the motions again. One. Two. Three. Air forces its way into her lungs. She doesn’t respond. Again—one, two, three—more air. She responds this time, coughing and throwing up water that spills over her face. Sweet, sweet air fills her lungs and there’s a multitude of voices all mumbling by her ear. Her eyes lazily open, idly noting that her chest feels heavy, that it aches. Above her, with the moonlight behind him like a halo, she can only think that Joseph Seed looks just like an angel in that moment. Or maybe it’s the bliss—yeah, she’s sure it's the bliss. His lips were moving and the words don't register with her, but the relief was clear on his face. Raising a hand, he pushes wet strands of hair from her face and slowly, the words begin to fade in. “You’re not here by accident or by chance. You are here by the grace of God. You’ve been given a gift.” His lips pull up into a smile, not like the half ones that she’d seen earlier in the crash, but a real one. His hand smooths over her hair again, the motions setting her at ease, making her relax, disarming her. “Now it remains to be seen whether you choose to embrace it…” His voice lowers into a despairing whisper, ”Or to cast it aside.” Chirping crickets fill the silence while he continues to stare, memorizing her features.
#willa is just going through it but shes fine. like seriously. we dont talk about that random voice after she drowns we just DONT#how many times has willa died in the dark au fic now? yes :)#ehem anyway willa and josephs relationship is totally normcore!#oc: willa rook#if theres any typos of mistakes dont look at them pls ive edited the ever living fuck out of these (minus the bottom one) & i dont wanna#look at them for at least a few hours sksk#also fuck tumblr for not allowing me to put my beloved valerie onto this wip wednesday post >:(#edited to add banner cause i cannot believe i didnt add the banner i worked SO HARD on
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as a Rebecca enjoyer I would really like to see some options in book 4 digging into how little has changed if your detective is seeking or ambivalent to reconciliation, or the absence of apologies. As well as detectives who aren’t seeking/rejecting reconciliation but Rebecca cannot let go of anyways. Especially since we’ve now had one of the few times, according to the detective’s memory, Rebecca explicitly expressing regret for her actions.
#I kind of disagree w most people that the narrative is pushing you into forgiving her#kind of.#I think wayhaven’s writing style is intentionally pretty transparent to the reader on character motivations#even when they/the detective aren’t explicitly aware#there’s enough context clues to get an idea of what’s sitting underneath the surface#so I think the emphasis on Rebecca’s grief around her kid is more about telling the audience that her feelings on these matters ARE sincere#in nature. at least to how Rebecca interprets then#but what id enjoy seeing some more of in book 4 is the choice to pull open the conflicts happening here#Rebecca runs away AND engages w the detective irrespective of their wishes because she simultaneously cannot accept this relationship as#broken beyond repair AND is unable to acknowledge to herself the core issue to their relationship#the job was an obstacle yeah but the true conflict to their relationship is Rebecca’s avoidance w dealing w grief#and it results in what we see in either relationship state#I can’t let you go/I can’t believe it’s broken beyond repair <- can’t acknowledge what I chose to do#I can’t break down these walls/won’t spend time with you <- won’t acknowledge I ran away from you out of grief#and I think the next step narrative wise now that the tone to their relationship has gone through the big revalation arcs#is to start unpacking the WHYS#allow the detective to have those hard conversations and deal w whether Rebecca runs away from those or not#tunes talks wayhaven
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Bout to test this public WiFi
#summer camp tag#travel tag#ace is a mess#its giving old hprp ace vibes :/ returning to our roots while sleep deprived#i do apologise for audio quality but also not cus im talking to myself in public so this is as good as it gets#but yeah. gonna go be a health centre assistant at american summer camp cus i wanted medical/child care related work experience#as if i didnt have a panic attack a couple months ago trying out a new supermarket#now gonna pretend i can be trusted to go to another country when i hate flying and trying new things#but told myself i had to try doing more things that scare me so 🤷♀️ here we are i guess#i do apologise if this makes no sense i cannot follow a logic conversation structure at the best of times let alone when my head is so fuzzy#im actually freaking out about this flight and the whole immigration thing though like i have a layover#so do i go through immigration at my first american airport or the second when i reach my destination? whats security like?#ive only ever done internal uk flights and ooh stressed what if they ask me something and i say the wrong thing?#i have snacks in my bag but the thought of eating right now makes me nauseous am i even allowed to keep them in my carryon?
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I just want to share an OOC update with you all because it is funny and that is that I have officially Fractured My Ass. i cannot believe this..........................
#i tripped going down my parents wooden stairs and thusly broke my tailbone...#I HATE THis STUPID BAKA EARTH THAT ALLOWED THIS TO HAPPEN TO ME AJKDHJKHJK#i went to watch kung fu panda with family yesterday and my god............... the agony of sitting through an entire movie........#and then sitting through a car ride there and back.....#it's a pain you cannot understand until you Too break your ass.#u ____________ u#thank fuck for standing desks!!!!#and pls be careful with baggy pants on stairwells: YOUR SWAG ISN'T WORTH HAVING A BROKEN ASS !!!!#( the old ppl were right all along oh god..... they warned us of the danger of baggy pants and we never listened...................... )#( ThEIR PROPHECY HAS BEEN FULFILLED ................... )#( but also this fall happened abt a week ago so no worries i am fINE now i'm just still healing from it LMAO )
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There always seems to be one kid who just screams like a tornado siren, all day long, at any given opportunity. Like, kid, I love you, you are precious and deserve all the happiness in the world; but please for the love of god shut up. There are people trying to learn here and you’re not helping them or yourself.
#I don’t like being harsh with people in general but if one child is raising the tension in the room to a fever pitch every single day#making it incredibly hard for the kids who are trying really really hard to focus when they already have focus issues#and because I know this specific kid gets absolutely spoiled rotten at home and is allowed to do whatever they want#you know… sometimes it helps to show the kid how they sound to others by demonstrating the obnoxious nature of The Scream#because when the parents do Jack Shit about teaching their kid discipline and courtesy; you have to be a parent in their stead#But do NOT continue to scream. You are an adult with adequate emotional control. Screaming should be be done EXTREMELY sparingly#and only utilized for demonstration purposes or to stop a brawl; not for bullying or intimidation#Don’t do a JoJo Siwa and TRY to make kids cry even though you may get stressed enough that you want to escalate on purpose#Again: you are an adult with adequate emotional control; don’t escalate unless the overreaching plan is to deescalate#if eliciting a startle response will stop harmful behavior and “snap them out of it” for long enough for you to get through#or if they just need to let all their emotions out at once so they can lose enough of that high energy to think critically#then sure#but you have to guide them back down very carefully and calmly; it’s a precise science#Don’t be mean about it; be genuine in your feelings and don’t go overboard. Genuine ≠ mean unless you’re evil#Or if you don’t feel emotions very strongly (like I do) then react like a “normal” person. Lie about being angry or sad if it is appropriat#Again: Your goal should not be to get the kid to do what you want; the goal should be to get them to feel good enough#so they are ABLE to do it in the first place#And the goal should also be to show them how their actions affect others if they are not aware of it#“Teach a man to fish” and all that. Don’t always check them; get them to check themselves#If a kid hits another kid when they’re angry at something completely unrelated; then 1.) redirect destructive behavior#and 2.) walk them back over to the kid they hurt and say:#“Look at [name]; look how sad you made them. [name] didn’t do anything to you#It’s okay to be angry but we CANNOT hit people when we are angry because it hurts and makes them cry.” Works great#Always remember there is a power imbalance inherent in EVERY child-adult relationship and NEVER abuse it#And if you’re not patient or emotionally stable enough to work with or have children; then don’t. Please don’t.#Children are not cute little dolls to play dress-up with; nor are they perfect angels; nor are they your personal stress ball#Having children is NOT A GAME. They are PEOPLE who will grow to be your age one day and everything you do affects them#Sorry I’m just tired of all these parents who shove iPads in their kids faces so they don’t bother them. You’re giving them an addiction
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#idk it's just really frustrating to think that people will ALWAYS make allowances for people they're romantically in love with but#not make those same allowances for someone else they otherwise care about.#that people will risk things for their partners that they wouldn't for their friends#that it's EXPECTED for you to prioritize your spouse/significant other/etc. at all times but prioritizing your friend(s) is rarely even#considered. and when you're like me and you LITERALLY CANNOT DO THIS SHIT BY YOURSELF...#like I know I go on and on about marrying some theoretical woman all the time (and my ongoing...whatever this is. with Musician Guy)#but genuinely I'm not even sure that I want that I think I just want someone who will fucking visit me in the hospital if I get into a car#crash or fix me soup when I'm sick.#like...yeah. in that one story I wrote I think I distilled it down: we all just want someone to hold us when we're sad#and it SUCKS that the only avenue we seem to be allowed to pursue that is through a romantic relationship#right now I have my dad but if something happens to him...I genuinely do not know what I'm going to do. I'll have nowhere to go#if something terrible happens. I'll have no one to help me be a person. and I just. like I really am going to just have to power through#the next 60 years on this fucking planet alone and by god I'll fucking do it but I wish I didn't have to!!!!#and I think this was why the loss of Her™ friendship (which was necessary. for both of us) was so acutely painful. because even after#she got married she WAS willing to prioritize me when things got bad enough. she DID genuinely care about me in a way I don't think#anyone ever has. and I just really don't think I'll ever find that ever again. and I can't go back and I don't WANT to be with her anymore#but it was this time of the year when she told me she was getting married way back when and my brain has kept that like the World's Worst#Anniversary and all of those terrible ugly feelings are coming back in full force and I HATE that I'm still unpacking this I. HATE. that#this not-even-relationship is STILL doing this to me#WHAT THE FUCK!!! IS UP WITH THAT!!!!!!#*sigh* okay for REAL I am logging off right now because I've already said Too Many Embarrassing Personal Things about myself today#and I do not want to put myself in a position to say anymore!#In the Vents#GOD this is so stupid IT'S NOT LIKE SOMEBODY DIED WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS
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I wiped out so hard tonight my KNEES
#I fell over. so many times. including two of the worst falls I’ve had in a WHILE#god the first one literally like minute and a half on the ice i lose a foot under me and do the splits. crash into the barriers#I am notably Not flexible I cannot do the splits. I don’t know how I kept skating afterwards#the worst fall I have ever had however was right at the end and the thing that made me get off#we were playing a thing and both me and this other guy we’re trying to catch this girl who turned out to be Also going very fast#three way collision all falling forwards on top of each other#we SLID there were BLADES BY MY HEAD im lucky im short im amazed nobody got actually hurt#except like. my knees which are now staging a coup I rlly should ice them but I don’t have ice and I just wanna sleep#but GOD tonight was a mixed bag#i have acquired the instagram and will probably get him on committee if he sends me the thing#also slowly thinking hrm yeah he’s probably straight#anyway good news: i think we’re pretty solidly friends now. bad news: prooobably regrettably heterosexual#idk straight guys shouldn’t be allowed to be cute and funny and good at skating it’s not fair#aaaanyway. it’s my own fault bc I meet most new people through hockey now and this sport is pretty notoriously not queer#it’s a little different here but the people who end up Good are largely not yknow. and I am unfortunately into guys who can skate#also they end up being the people I actually get to talk to with what I do. dumb as hell. they should invent gay hockey players#anyway my assessment is still vibes based there’s time for me to be proven wrong but we will see. it’d be funny if he was queer after this#will think abt texting him on a day that isn’t tomorrow bc tomorrow’s gonna be too much and I would like to have some time to chill sometime#anyway this is my periodic reminder to myself that I’m literally just Allowed to have feelings. fucked up that it’s true#but like it’s just. allowed. and it’s not even that I’m dumb or have bad taste or smth like that and over like what.#almost two years? there have been 5 guys total. mr prick who WAS queer unfortunately. and while the other four did turn out to be straight#that was due to 1. guy literally had rainbow fucking stick tape and Everyone thought he was gay. also I was just kinda fucking around there#2. talked to him like three times before asking him out. agrees to dinner bc he thinks it’s funny. 3. many signals bc bunch of queer friends#still unconfirmed but be does have a girlfriend ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ 4. okay maybe I should know better by now but he’s cute okay I’m allowed to hope#it’s not even like I’ve DONE anything other than talk to him dude you’re fine you’re allowed to feel things#aaaanyway. bed now. eepy. will talk to him later. he complimented my hair okay I’m done now going to sleep#very sorry to anyone who reads these tags for just going on abt this guy but also no I’m not scroll down#luke.txt
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#ok guess what fuckers youre going to be on another tag ramble adventure with me#ive been afflicted with the same images in my brain tumbling around and the only way to free my brain is to write them out#and anyways i have been contemplating wol au uri for a bit due to various reasons (he came up and then i got this image and couldnt be free#shb with uri as the wol is. after killing vauthry. he is SO fucked up that raha STILL wont just let him die#he was supposed to have raha send him to the rift with the light and let him die there but now that he cant stop him rahas taking it himsel#and theres the whole. 'no we really cannot have the wol die.' thing.#that makes it infinitely worse to uri. him just yelling through blood to let him die! let him have his turn! he WANTS to die!#the idea of bring told that the wol CANT die makes it so much more unfair to him#'you wouldnt know what to do if i died? i didnt know what to do for years after louisoux died! i still dont know what to do without moenbry#da! papalymo can sacrifice himself and everyone adapts! shtola has thrown herself to the lifestream twice! minfilia died! i had to stay sil#ent and let ryne choose her own path if she died or not! i cant tell people that i would be lost yet everyone gets to tell ME that?#do you think i am better than them do you think them worth less why do they have the right to die and i do not!'#he is SO SO SO much worse as a wol and it falls out in one outburst after hes quizzed as to why he thought he could sacrifice himself#but he also realizes that its really fucked up to say that aloud so yknow. yknow what. yknow.#hell bottle up all his feelings and then one day hell either die or start crying and it looks like he aint allowed to die!#he still takes the aid from ardbert at amaurot with the statement that#'if i dont try and save who i might then ill never be able to face moenbryda'#anyways cannot stop thinking about me giving uri the echo like 'this will be funny!' and hes just 'my life has become infinitely worse'#HEAD IN MY HANDS
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OKAY i have fucking HAD IT with today. it's not even fucking 9am and i am alreADY fighting back a meltdown
#i just wanted to go to the bathroom in PEACE but soloing my job means#the instant i get up to go someone's gonna walk through the door#and ofc it was the dumb bitch who i reached out to FIVE TIMES telling her not to show up#'oh i have a phone but only use it for my alarm' i'm sorry???????? what????#you expect to coexist in this society and not allow people to contact you for shit?#my work system is garbage and i CANNOT contact you any other way#you NEED to be receptive to that!#'sorry you drove all the way out here' my ASS.#you are RESPONSIBLE in your part of the SOCIAL CONTRACT with places you do business with to respect that we are#not an infaLLIBLE AUTOMATED SERVICE#and you will SOMETIMES need to be contacted by us so we can change plans!!!#the lady wasnt even mean about it and i usually wont go off about customers being idiots but FOR ONCE#IM GONNA BE MAD#oh and let's not forget she showed up nearly ten minutes late#(which is why i thought i was finally safe to go pee after an hour of not being able to go)#personal
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going insane. will not be back shortly
#good news i got into a scholarship!#bad news! I FORGOT TO READ THE T AND C SO It"S IN A WHOLE ASS FUCKING CONTINENT AWAY#my mother is this close to bitch slapping me and tbh fair#like. i go into this interview with barely any prep and then like. i go into the room and mid interview the lady is like. you do realise. t#the school you opted for. is the only school we cannot allow you into because you're a native citizen#me visibly hwat#anyway the lady was like i'm going to be completely fucking honest you're probably one of our best candidates but#we cannot put you into that school for legal reasons. but. we can offer you 20+ other options.. elsewhere#and the school overseas is really posh! not as posh as the og school i selected but i would totally accept. IF IT WAS IN MY COUNTRY#anyway just in. a shitty mood because of procrastinating majorly on almost every assignment and being stuck in close quarters with.#family without a break and also. school fucking shutting down postponed any chance of me getting out of the house#and like. i found out one of the spots i was gunning for was like. with an idea that i was considering but actually REJECTED to do a more#like. palatable idea and anyway. like. my speaking skills are good i want a do over please genuinely feel shitty because </3 i could have!!#anyway. uh. going through it. going though it .#i just want to win something without any work... sighs... i sound like a baby but IT'S TRUE I JUST WANT TO DO WELL#without putting much effort because every time i do put effort it ends up backfiring like. bro#earth cannot be flat because of the fact my life is going constantly downhill like. L. that kinda mood#anyway turned out as a kinda win but. uh. anyway sucks to be me ig! moral of the story - think before you act and uh. read perhaps
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Section 1557 is the law that guarantees trans protections in the us. Saying she supports that law is not “not giving a shit about trans rights lol” just because you don’t know to what law she is referring.
Lovely how libs has spent a year going "yeah well Harris is gonna back and fund a genocide but at least she will stand by trans people in the US" just for her to come out as not giving a shit about trans rights lol
#my family is middle eastern and quite simply the us has been bombing us for nearly 80 years#it is always demonstrably more catastrophic under republican presidents#and we lose all aid and medical support funding#you are not going to change the democratic party by refusing to vote#the reason the republican party has gotten so radical is because their radicals VOTE#the difference in my family has always been 5 dead cousins and the option for student visas vs 30 dead cousins and wasting diseases#that is the blood on the ground at the end of the day. that is what lesser of two evils is#‘well i am radically opposed to that and committed to stopping ALL bloodshed’—person whose idea of radical action inaction#and watching left-leaning americans every election cycle go ‘im going to make the party agree with me by withholding my vote’#and then each successive cycle watching the party move further center because people on the far left dont vote and far right do#you must understand that the metric by which you demonstrate your values is voting not inaction#the party shifts to center because people in the center are the ones voting#and furthermore why are people promoting not voting suddenly using 200K as the current death toll that is not correct#you have decided the true number isn’t emotional enough? you undercut the horrific fact of the acts by abandoning facts for impact#roe v wade was lost because of the supreme court. that is the power and purpose of that court. trump was allowed to stack it last time#which is why even under another president it worked its way up through other trump-picked courts to the one republicans had unfairly stacked#you are in fact citing a long-term devastating reprecussion of trump’s last presidency#the president cannot interfere with the court. did anyone here take civics.#and furthermore the continued economic fallout and failure to maintain affordability programs that started during the pandemic is because#republicans keep killing them in the house which they control#simply so nothing beneficial to the people passes under a different party’s president#the reason you all keep acting like presidental elections and their candidates +policies come out of nowhere is just telling on yourselves#that you arent following or participating in smaller elections in the interrim#insane to watch so many people on the left swallow the idea that voting is pointless at the same time that we have WATCHED#how radical voters voting has swung the entire conservative party deeply right of right
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