#way better than anxiety tho

[actingwithportals]

Getting into Hollow Knight was one of the best things I'd ever done for a lot of reasons but namely the fact that I am significantly less afraid of bugs than I used to be

[pleasedontcareaboutme]

It's missing my father hours rn so imma just dump a bunch of pictures here and cry

( sorry i don't know the source of anything I just had them on my phone)

(also dont read the tags i just need to let it out lol)

[studentbyday]

[brittlebutch]

it's actually so fascinating to me that Brennan has created a character that maintains a pretty relaxed and mild-mannered demeanor and has said multiple times that the absolute Core of her is "FEAR" and how often we see this Fear manifest specifically in Avoidance; it really nails a relationship to that mentality where your brain fully Stops recognizing the emotion properly out of like, sheer self-defense from the stress of having to carry it all the time

I think this is also perfectly showcased in the way we tend to see Tula swing so suddenly from 'level and steady' to 'snarling Panic' and then back again - Just because your brain has detached itself from the Conscious Recognition of the emotion doesn't mean it can Actually stop itself from experiencing it. So the Fear is always there and always acting as a stressor, but because of that inability to Identify it there's no way to recognize or address it before that final straw hits and your bodymind jumps Straight into Full Meltdown Mode; but then once again, once you drop even a Little bit below that Peak Terror your brain ceases to process the emotion; it's like the most exhausting form of Poor Object Permanence in the world

And even if Tula is aware of this happening to her, that doesn't really make it any easier to deal with / address. Even if you're able to spot the symptoms Around the emotion -- chest pain, irritation, nausea, whatever -- because the Emotion Itself is basically impossible to find, you can't really Successfully Pin Down what the problem is OR a way to cope with it. If you can't figure out That You Are Anxious, then figuring out What Is Making You Anxious is impossible, which makes Find A Way To Make Peace With That incomprehensible. That's where the Avoidance comes in: you can no longer identify what might be a Dangerous Situation, which means that Anything New has a big potential to be Really Bad in a variety of ways (ranging "I don't Feel Good" to "Fully Lashing Out bc you've entered Fight/Flight and can't get out of it" to "Actual Outside Danger This Time") and that means the Only Way you know how to be Safe is to just Avoid Doing Anything New and Only stick to Familiar Situations, because anything unfamiliar is a monster of a gamble you don't know how to prepare for or cope with

[knoproblem]

Maybe the fog’s here because I want it here.

Is that why I opened the windows?

Maybe I asked the fog to come…

-MAG170: Recollection

[guinevereslancelot]

how do i stop feeling like i'm in trouble all the time fr. sitting here on my lunch break like everyone's gonna be soooo mad when u get back...from lunch...which you are allowed to have.....(?)

[snickerdoodlles]

there's a point at which someone's fear of being a dick wraps back around to them just being a dick anyways

[altruistic-meme]

people i want to get to know better

ooooooo thank you miels!!! @allthefakepeople

Last song: I'm Not Okay (I Promise) by My Chemical Romance! was listening to a mcr playlist while crocheting earlier lmao

Favorite color: orange! and it always has been :)

Last show/film: actively watching Heartstopper again (good background noise)

Sweet/savory/spicy: sweet almost always! and also spicy never

Relationship status: ...single

Current obsession: all for the game but only by a sliver and i know that's about to change

Last thing I googled: "[county i live in] library" was looking at the volunteer application and sighing bc anxiety ;;;

Last book: still haven't finished The Song of Achilles by Madeline Miller :(

Looking forward to: Young Royals s3 mostly!!! but also the Stardew Valley update and getting to see the new aftg hardcovers!!

i'm going to leave this open for now simply bc no brain power but <3

[faaun]

the way my heart sank . lol

[teenagefeeling]

not looking at my presentation grade so as not to ruin my own day

[1o1percentmilk]

bruh my hands r so sweaty all the time now i need to go to the bathroom 1000x times a day to wash them bc i can't type when they feel icky

[litt1e-prince]

living in my own home away from my dad but he still waits up for me to get home

[orcelito]

checked in for my flight tomorrow and i am hissing biting tearing @ the fact that they dont have a gate assigned for my flight yet

i know the general area since i know the airline im flying with but i DONT. LIKE. not being able to plan ahead.

[sol-draws-sometimes]

This video actually explains the problems pretty well and caused me to change my approach to this. But yes OP! Good points!!!

actually you know what that's exactly it i would rather someone add 5 parantheticals after every sentence than use tone indicators it's 1. accomplishing SO much more in terms of clarity 2. extremely funny to look at depending on how they're used

[coolspacequips]

Have been in such a depressive spiral for more than a week now it felt like a light went off in me smh, yesterday I started to actually feel a little less bad and now I'm SO SICK, can't REMEMBER the last time I was this sick!!!

Like can a bitch catch a break lol!!!!!

[skin2thebonedark]

so i'm just gonna die one day??