#wasteofyourtime

[mystictrashpenguin]

Storytime

Based on my last blog, i promised to write my whole story about this pathetic high school crush life of mine:)

So this is how the story goes....

It was the start of Year 9 when i begin to like you. However, i shall start my story at when i was Year 8. During the huge year-end holidays, i started to get to know you ‘truly’ through one of my friend, A. Even though we were in the same class, I dare not speak to you. One reason was because i didnt dare to, because you were a guy, and i dislike spotlights, if i were to talk to a boy, it felt as if everyone was looking at me. The other reason was probably because i didnt have a good English, and i hate misunderstandings and also repeating the same thing twice just because i had a poor language communication system:( so i just decided not to. And so, since my friend, A, had a beau, who was also friends with you, i think that was when we begun to have interactions through texting.

Year 9, I still remember a few weeks before my 15th birthday. Because i had access to my other friend’s, S, Instagram account (ps. im sorry), i went to spoil a surprise that was meant for me. I saw how much the class planned to chip in, just to get me a gift. I felt awful. I couldn’t feel myself, because i knew how loved i was. And so, i called A and told her about this. I guess at that point A didnt know how to comfort me, so she decided to add you in. The way you comfort people wasnt what i was expecting but i guess it was a better side of you, compared to when youre in class, being a loud nerd and all. And so i guess that was when i begin to have my feelings for you. And when it was my birthday, i remember you came in the class, holding a box in your hand, saying that it was a delivery for me. I was so touched by the gift and the love the class decided to give. It was indeed memorable and i couldnt thank everyone enough. As the days went by, i started to catch strong feelings and it was so hard to sleep every night, weeping...crying... It was terrible. I remember the feeling of not being able to speak what was in my heart or in my head. And i remember the first day of exam. I could not do well because in my head, it was all you. Even the corner kid, JO, asked me if i was okay. But ofc, i kept my mouth zipped. After that, i begin tearing up again, and obviously the spotlight was on me. How great. 

After a few days, the rumor of you having a girlfriend was true. Knowing how disappointed i was, my heart shattered. And that was when i decided to give you up. I didnt want to be the spare tire that was always in the trunk. It was indeed hard to stop, but i knew it needed time. I had to use a lot of things to distract myself:(

And towards the end of the year, when you were still with your girlfriend, you decided to share how you liked before. Great. My name just had to be inside you TINY list. Fun fact, that was when i realized you liked me at the same time when i liked you.

At the end of the year, December. A group of us decided to show up in a mall. In the escape room, we were divided into two groups. I was in the same one as you. I remember i climbed up the wall (literally a wall, there were only bars which was at the top of the wall) to cheat and you were also there with me. I didnt know what i was thinking to be honest. But still, it was an embarrassment.

Year 10, i decided not to look at you or whatsoever, i still remember you saying that i was a closed book and did not want to share my feelings. And that was when i decided to take in your advice and unlock the doors. But as a few days passed, with my doors unlocked, my mouth begin sharpen itself. I didnt felt like me. So, closed doors it was. 

One day, after a busy schedule of meetings, i decided to join my friends and you in a game of PUBG, that time i showed my free self, i was happily enjoying. Although i was already super tired, i decided to brighten my mood up by presenting the annoying version of me. After the game, you decided to send me a text, saying that you enjoyed the night with the annoying version of me. At the same time, you told me that you broke up with your gf. I didnt want to be magic mirror, who knows every single thing. So i decided not to ask further and end the conversation with a ‘bye’. 

At August, we went back to school after a tiring season of online classes. And few weeks before school, I had a meet-up with A and T. At that meet-up A decided to tell me that actually you were still confused with your feelings. When we went back to school, i saw how uncomfortable you were. We were cold and quiet even though you sat in front of me. 

Year 11, i begun to think of you over and over again. And today, 11 May 2021, i decided to 100% give up on you. Thank you for being part of my life and thank you for tolerating me. And i think i will end this blog and this feeling by saying my first and last(for you), I like you, used to. 

-mystictrashpenguin:)

[inspiringlynbee-blog]

Dorney Park is a rip off!

https://www.theodysseyonline.com/dorney-park-ripoff-or-excitment?ref=pn-fb

[why-so-sober-blog]

It's pretty bad that amazon can get to your house quicker than the police...

[recessiverepressive]

I'm an idiot.

[dry-high]

Memories

I am disassociated with my thoughts I can remember But not feel There is a surreality To my memories Every thought conjured Seeming familiar Yet never mine to keep Always having to leave behind In my far too deep to reach These thoughts Though being mine I cannot relate Or even correlate The emotions being felt Having loved And forgotten Emotions drifting away From my memories Free from the pain Both beautiful and insane An upper hand To the misunderstood Who will never understand Why everyone lives in the past Dreaming about things that have been Speaking on sorrow And lessons that have been felt Through themselves and stored in their minds

[hornyangryandpoor]

Nothing makes me more sad than to watch good people waste their time on shitty people.

[staringatawallisallthathelp-blog]

It's funny, the drama that goes on in high school. The way people just automatically assume things while getting into someone's business that they've never even talked to. I will never grasp why people will dislike someone for something that does not involve them at all. Like you're wasting your life on something so petty while every one else is enjoying themselves and you're bringing down the people around you. Why?

[antippgmistakes]

Will the PPG artists ever change drawing styles?

You don't have to read this if you don't want to! This is just "my" thoughts and "my" opinions. Enjoy at your own risk! -Mod Tricky I wonder if PPG artists will ever draw something regarding PPG, because I think the style is complex, however the young PPG artists aren't drawing it correctly though. It annoys a lot of people, I can tell. What I suggest, is for them to stop for a while, and try drawing something different with their own thoughts. No trace, and no bases. Some examples of "styles" would include: fusing animals, actual anime or chibis, and possibly creating your own species (that's what I'm doing!) I suggest some of these because it helps them to draw more things rather than a head with huge eyes and hair that's larger then the actual head. This would improve the artists drastically, maybe if they actually "do" draw in one of those styles!! We could help them try something different and help them become unique with their own created style, but they won't listen to us, won't they? I just realized this was a waste of time because I know the PPG artists won't read this and yet I decided to post this anyway. Thank you for wasting your time reading this! -Mod Tricky

[jade-i]

Talking shit and trying to put others down isn't really gona get you anywhere.

[-emokitten-]

Your hateful words hurt more then anything in this world. "Brittany is waste of my time" "should have dated you then her" you say the past is the past but yet it still hurts. Fuck you

[shimmeringxstars]

I read too much, I listen to music too much and I am way too chill. 

[perkssofmylife]

Sorry for being the fucked up piece of shit I promised I would never be.

[dominus-mundi-sum-blog]

Good (whatever time of day it is whilst you're reading this)!

OK so, a bit of background information. When your work at McDonald's they do what's called a '5 Star' Programme where you learn different stations in McDonald's and get a star for each. 5 is very rare, 4 is also quite rare, 3 won't be seen to often, 2 is quite common and 1 is extremely common. Anyway, there's this photo/meme going around with guy working at McDonald's (scooping fries) with his name badge which has no stars on it with the caption, "You know you're useless when you work at McDonald's and have no stars on your name badge." or something around those lines. Now I don't want to impress my whole 15 or so followers but, I now have three of the five stars.

Ladies, in a line...

[hurtsslikeeheavenn]

You can't sing.

If you have trouble staying on PITCH or MELODY and you are in a singing class costing almost $300 a month, YOU ARE LITERALLY WASTING YOUR TIME AND MONEY. You're making the group sound bad and I don't understand how you don't know that you can't sing. I blame your parents for letting you join JKelley and messing up the sound. Also you look like a literal dying cat when you sing and you're always looking in the mirror ALWAYS so why can't you see you look stupid? ... You sound like a dying cat too. I just honestly don't understand. Are you tone deaf..? You were either born with it or you weren't. Nothing can change that. No matter how many lessons you take, you will still suck at singing and not be able to stay on pitch. Bottom line: If you can't sing, don't go to singing class.