#was debating between if ships or oc ships
Explore tagged Tumblr posts
Text
found a cute new couples picrew!! so i made a couple of IF ships <33 [ picrew here ]
from left to right - Arielle x Carrie (Blood Moon) - Natalie x Shivani (TWC) - Shanaya x Victoria (Infamous) - Crystal x Blaire (Golden) - Rahul x August (Infamous) - Jasmine x Farah (TWC)
#such a cute picrew#was debating between if ships or oc ships#looks like ifs won this round#picrew#oc: arielle song#arielle x carrie#oc: shivani gupta#nat x shivani#oc: shanaya wiseman#shanaya x victoria#oc: crystal sharma#crystal x blaire#oc: rahul chandra#rahul x august#oc: jasmine amari#jasmine x farah
7 notes
¡
View notes
Text
mp100 fan child, Kageyama Harumi!!! she is about 4â5 years old here and is the bio daughter of Mob and just like her dad, she's a very powerful esper and has been since birth!! loves spending time with her dad and hanging out with "Uncle 'Taka"
she came to me in a vision after i told some friends that i don't think Reigen would have kids of his own, but he'd be so down to babysit for everyone else if they did
#also she is on my artfight!!!!#another note idk what ship shes for lol. im stuck between 3 ships ldsfksdf#i have my own ideas for her birth mom tho and that doesnt change w the ships im debating between lmao#mp100#mob psycho 100#mob psycho 100 oc#an idiot's ocs#harumi kageyama#kageyama harumi#kageyama shigeo#shigeo kageyama#reigen arakata#reigen arataka#id in alt text#artists on tumblr#bro she looks so much better in teh mp100 style than in my style đđđ#oh yeah!! mob here would be abt 30 and reigen would be in his 40s!!#mob future 100
26 notes
¡
View notes
Text
calling all PJO fanfic readers!
In the interest of acknowledging great works by fandom writers, DemigodPolls is going to share a big year-end collection of 2024 Percy Jackson fanfic recommendations! In the comment section below or on this AO3 post, leave recommendations for the best PJO fanfics you've read - but there is one major rule: they MUST have been published or last updated in 2024! No exceptions! Reblogs are turned on, but please do NOT leave your recommendations in the reblogs/tags! They will not be considered! Before commenting, make sure that you read the additional specifications below the cut first. If you have nothing to recommend, please do reblog to help support fandom writers and spread the word! Thank you!!!
What we want:
strong grammar
strong writing skills
accurate/interesting depictions of PJO characters
angst/romance/drama/adventure/friendship/character studies/etc
accurately tagged stories (i.e. stories that don't surprise you with untagged triggering content)
stories written with love for the percy jackson universe and its characters
What we DON'T want:
stories that were published/last updated before 2024
stories about ships that would be age-inappropriate in canon, unless the characters are CLEARLY aged up in the story (e.g. no olympians x teenage characters, unless the younger character is explicitly an ADULT when they first meet in the fanfic)
stories that contain non-c*n, inc*st, p*dophilia
stories under 1000 words
stories that fall under "character x everyone"
stories about original characters (stories that contain some OCs in non-protagonist roles are fine, character x reader/self-inserts are fine)
stories that bash other ships/characters (i.e., don't recommend percabeth fics that bash rachel/perachel)
stories that contain non-PJO crossovers (except for RRverse crossovers, i.e. pjo + tkc is fine, toa alone is fine, tkc alone is not, pjo + harry potter is not)
stories that contain gore/extreme violence/extreme bodily harm
stories that contain cheating/infidelity (I just don't want to read those, sorry)
dialogue-only fanfics/texting-only fanfics
stories that contain W*TTG sp0ilers
can I recommend multiple things?
yes! just make sure to categorize them correctly under the relevant prompts.
can I recommend my own story?
yes, but you are highly, highly encouraged to simultaneously recommend at least one other fanfic that you yourself did not write - let's spread the love! (not required)
is smut okay?
yes! but you must specify clearly that the story contains smut in your comment, and please don't use explicit/overly sexual language in your recommendation. I also reserve the right to refuse to consider stories that contain k*nks I don't want to engage with. (ab0, hardcore bd$m, parental name k*nk to name a few)
are non-english fanfics okay?
you are absolutely welcome to recommend non-english fanfics to others in the comments! but I will not be able to put them on the final recommendation list, because I only speak english and I cannot personally vet their contents, cannot observe their grammar, and could be terribly misled by a translator. I'm very sorry! however, if you would like to put together a similar recommendation collection of non-english stories, I'd be happy to promote it on this blog.
is percico okay?
someone asked about this specifically, so here's my stance: percico is a controversial pairing due to the debated inappropriateness of the canon age gap (approx. 3 years). I personally consider 3 years between minors to be juuust beyond my comfort zone (2 years), so please respect my decision to abide by my own comfortability and refuse to consider stories that feature age gaps of this size or larger involving minors. however, you can recommend percico fics where the age gap is explicitly made smaller, or fics where nico and percy are both explicitly adults! this same rule applies to any other ship in a similar circumstance - check the wiki for canon ages if you're unsure! (and to be clear, this is solely about ages, not about the individual merit of the pairing itself. respectfully - this is me drawing a boundary about what I am comfortable with, so do not argue with me on this topic).
is caleo okay?
this pair is even more controversial nowadays, so here's my stance when it comes to weird magical circumstances: within the logic of the pjo universe, some things that seem strange from a mortal perspective are standard within the books. i.e., it's not weird to date fellow demigods, even if the person you're dating is technically your aunt/uncle/cousin/etc. likewise, it's not "weird" for a teenager to date an immortalized or de-immortalized teenager, because... I genuinely don't know, that's just how the book logic works. for that reason, caleo works are accepted. we're going to apply this same logic to pairs like theyna, which could also potentially have murky circumstances (although I do consider thaluke to be especially iffy, because it heavily depends on the situation that people write them in - so if you're unsure, go ahead and submit it, and I'll use my best judgement from there). however, I cannot begin to express my extreme disinterest in discourse about immortal dating ethics - like, I would rather do anything else. not trying to be sassy here, but I'm going to ask you guys to not pick a fight about these topics, for the simple reason that I have zero interest in debating over situations that could never occur in real-life.
are incomplete/discontinued stories okay?
yes! I'd prefer stories that have at least three chapters, but this is not required. completed one-shots are also fine!
If someone already recommended a story that I like, should I vouch for it?
if you would like to, then absolutely!! you can respond to the appropriate prompt from this account in the comments, or you can reply to the person making the recommendation. just make sure to explicitly state which story you're advocating for.
Comments that do not follow these guidelines may be deleted!
How to make recommendations:
There are two places in which you can make your recs! You can click here to leave them on an AO3 mirror of this post, or do so in the comment section below. If the latter, continue reading. Please leave the story name, author username, story rating, main ship, and main characters in your comments - and if you'd like, definitely add some words about why you like it! AO3 direct links are not necessary, but super appreciated. But if it's not on AO3, please ensure that you make clear where exactly I can locate the story. In the comments below, you'll see comments that you can reply to, sorted by ships/lack thereof. Please sort your recommendations by replying to them accordingly (i.e. if you want to recommend 2 solangelo fics and 1 valgrace fic, leave the 2 solangelo recs under the solangelo prompt, then do the same in the valgrace prompt). You MUST explicitly state somewhere if the fanfic contains smut. If you're not sure where to put your recommendations, make your best guess - but absolutely do NOT intentionally mis-categorize your recommendations (i.e, if the pair is not canon, do not put it in the canon pairing section. Seriously. This makes things much more difficult for me while organizing fics, and I'll probably delete your comment anyway.) Lastly, please be mature about shipping. Nothing irritates me more than fighting about percy jackson ships in 2024. If you see fanfics recommended about pairings (or characters!) that you hate, do the mature thing and just scroll past it/do not engage. Character hate and ship hate is not tolerated on this blog. I am very serious about this - if you are starting a fuss about ships/characters, your comments will be deleted and your account will be permanently blocked. Respect your fellow fandom-mates! I will do my best to moderate this comment section, but before looking through them, please understand that I am not responsible for your individual well-being, and there may be fanfic recommendations that are not appropriate for minors/might contain triggering content/etc.
Here's a little form for those of you who find this easier to use, but you don't have to use it!! However, PLEASE do include the following information in your comment regardless:
story name: author: rating: ship: main characters: additional comments (what's it about? why do you like it? etc):
Don't forget, fanfics published/last updated in 2024 only!
Thank you so, so much for participating! The collection won't be published on this blog until late December, so until then, take your time, check those bookmarks, and read new PJO fanfics! Much love to all of you âĄ
- demigodpolls
(art by @viria)
(dividers by @cafekitsune)
#heroes of olympus#percy jackson and the olympians#nico di angelo#hazel levesque#percy jackson#frank zhang#jason grace#annabeth chase#leo valdez#piper mclean#percabeth#solangelo#frazel#valzhang#valgrace#jasico#jercy#frazeleo#theyna#pipabeth#luke castellan#luke castellan x reader#percy jackson x reader#jason grace x reader#valdangelo#jiper#jasiper#pjo hoo toa#rrverse#reyna avila ramirez arellano
245 notes
¡
View notes
Text
Guess That Ship Tournament Season 13: Badly Describe Your Ship! Submissions CLOSED
The Concept: You "badly" describe your ship* to me, I pick out the submissions which I find most funny and compelling and pit them against each other without revealing who they are, people vote on them, and their identities gets revealed once theyâre eliminated.
Submission Guidelines
*For the purpose of this tournament, relationships do not have to be romantic in nature. (Iâm sometimes going to use âshipâ as a shorthand, just know I mean ârelationshipsâ in general.)
Relationship can be between any number of characters.
Real people are accepted if theyâve been dead for more than 100 years.
Roleplay characters are accepted as long as the description only pertains to the characters and not the players.
Crossover ships are only allowed if the crossover is official.
OCs are accepted. (However, OC x Canon is not accepted. Please do not submit other people's OCs without their permission.)
No overtly NSFW submissions. (Mentioning they have sex or are a sex worker is fine, but try to avoid anything more than that.)
Two submissions per person. (Do not submit the same ship twice. I cannot enforce this on Google Forms without forcing you to log in. So just be champs and respect this rule.)
Failure to follow these guidelines may result in all of your submissions being disqualified for this season.
Summary Guidelines
Selection Process: I will read through the list of descriptions submitted without reading their names and pick the most funny and compelling submissions. Then, I will check the name to make sure there's no repeats.
Bring something unique to the table. Make sure to describe their relationship, not just summarize the events of the story.
The description of a badly-described ship is ideally one or two sentences long. Descriptions should not exceed 100 words.
Descriptions should be based on canon, not headcanon. (e.g. You can say âthey love each otherâ instead of âtheyâre loversâ if their romantic nature is debatable.)
Avoid author commentary. (e.g. "They're canonically x," "I love them," "Play/watch/read this," etc.)
Use canonical pronouns.
Avoid identifying information or setting specific giveaways. (i.e. ninja village, space necromancers.)
When submitting OCs, please make sure to at least put a name somewhere. (e.g. "John and Bob by anonymous" or "OCs by Joey.")
The more popular your ship is the more vague the description should be.
I will be more lenient with submissions this season, given "badly" is subjective, but you should still keep these guidelines in mind when writing your summary.
Exclusions
Ships that were accepted in Season 7 onwards and ships that at least reached the semifinals in Season 1-6 are not allowed. For a complete list, please look here. (No need to look through the whole list, just Ctrl+F to find the ship you want.)
Any submissions from Harry Potter will also not be included.
Notes
I will not vet the ships/pairings for problematic content.
If you participate in this tournament, know that you run the risk of unintentionally voting for your nOTP. The mod does not take any responsibility for any distress that may cause you.
There will be a limit of one ship per media in the bracket. You may submit two ships from the same media, but keep in mind only one ship will be able to get in. (A series or franchise will generally count as one media, but they will be evaluated on a case by case basis.)
Submit your ships here! Submissions will be open until Sunday, October 6th at 9 PM EDT.
Please reblog this post to spread the word! The more submissions, the better!
107 notes
¡
View notes
Text
Not So Secret
Tag warnings: MDNI (younglings begone), slightly suggestive, small hint at intimacy, very passionate kissing, confident/soft Tech, overall fluffy sweetness
This is a little prequel ficlet to âMore Than Lifeâ I debated posting this because I just wasnât happy with how it was unfolding so Iâve rewritten it a few times and am finally ready to share it!
Just for a little backstory, Jayla is my Jedi OC. Sheâs newly knighted and sheâs been assigned to Clone Force 99 as their semi permanent Jedi general. Big surprise she is head over heels in love with Tech.
I hope yâall enjoy!
Taglist: @techwrecker
Needy, desperate, unabashed wanting.
Those four words were the only way to describe the hot, open mouth kisses Tech was placing down Jayla's neck. Her soft whimpering at his increasingly wanting touch was only fueling the fire that burned low in Tech's core.
The pair found themselves taking every chance to express their affection in increasingly heated ways whenever the rest of the Batch had vacated the Marauder. This precious time that they would get alone was always seemingly too short and they found themselves having to quickly disentangle themselves from each other before Hunter, Crosshair, Wrecker, and Echo would return.
"Tech!" Jayla's voice came out breathy and hot against his ear. "They're comingâTech, my love, we have toââ
"Yes, I know. I can hear the unmistakable sound of Wrecker's footsteps." Tech said into the soft spot between her neck and shoulder.
He pulled back slightly to take a longing look into her face, still flushed from his kisses and eyes filled with desire.
âWe will have tell them sooner rather than later, meshâla.â Tech said in a lowered voice. The sound alerting whomever was occupying the cockpit that the main hatch had been opened sounded.
A disappointing sigh escaped Jaylaâs lips as she glanced at the Marauderâs blinking console, âSooner would probably be better, wouldnât it?â She said while returning her gaze to Techâs handsome face.
His goggles had become slightly askew amidst their passionate kisses. Jayla reached with both hands that had previously been resting on his chest plate to fix them back to their proper position on his face. Tech did not let her go as she did so and looked at her with a soft gaze through his now corrected goggles.
âAh, thank you, cyare.â Tech said in a low voice. Before Jayla could fully retract her one hand, he gently brought her fingers to his lips, pressing featherlight kisses to them. The redness that had begun to dissipate from Jaylaâs cheeks suddenly returned as Tech continued to trail tender kisses slowly down to her wrist.
âMy loveâŚâ She began in gentle protest, knowing the rest of his squad would appear at any moment. Techâs eyes remained locked with hers as he continued to trail kisses almost to the end of her forearm. His gaze wandered over her soft festures as he relinquished her arm from his grasp. Jayla wrapped both her arms around Techâs middle and pulled him in a bit closer.
Both of them exchanged soft smiles as they stood enveloped in each otherâs arms. After a moment Tech spoke again, âSooner would most likely yield better reactions, especially from Hunter.â He tucked a loose strand of hair behind Jayaâs ear before resting his hand on her waist again.
A beat of silence fell between them and nothing but the hum of the shipâs standby systems could be heard in the cockpit until Jayla sighed a bit heavily as her head came to rest against Techâs chest plate.
âWhat is it, meshâla?â Tech took notice of the slight tenseness that had settled in her shoulders as she tightened her arms around his middle.
âDo you think Hunter would report me to the Jedi Council if we tell him about us?â She said as she lifted her head to look up at him.
Tech considered her question for a moment, his amber brown eyes taking in the concern that had appeared between her brows.
âI do not believe Hunter would do such a thing, as it has become clear that other Jedi have conducted romantic relationships with regs and the like throughout out several battalions.â He placed a soft kiss between her brows to smooth the crease that had formed there.
Tech was not wrong, he seldom ever was, and he had discovered after some digging around on a few anonymous holonet forums that romantic relationships amongst Jedi generals and clones were becoming more common as the war dragged on.
In the end, Tech gathered that while romantic relationships between superiors and subordinates, let alone the Jedi and anyone for that matter, were expressly prohibited by the GAR regulations, following the rules had never been his nor his brothersâ forte. Besides, Tech thought to himself, when had they ever followed orders?
âIf you would prefer it, I will talk to him about our, ehm,â He cleared his throat shyly while his face flushed ever so slightly, ârelationship.â The unexpectedly pleasant situation Tech had found himself in with Jayla was still so new to him. He never expected to fall in love, being that he was born and bred to be a soldier and nothing more. But she had shown him that he could be more than just a soldier, more than a small part in the war they were all fighting. A smile tugged at the corners of his lips. âBesides, Hunter is more than likely already aware of us, given his enhanced senses.â
A new blush crept up into Jaylaâs cheeks as she laid her head down again on Techâs chest plate. Falling in love was as foreign to her as it was to him and it was something that neither of them expected to happen. Jayla had tried to bury her feelings in the beginning, being that she was a Jedi and attachments are forbidden, blah, blah, blah. But she soon realized, much to her surprise, that what she felt for Tech was so much more than just a simple crush or attraction and denying her feelings was no longer possible.
âHe definitely knows. Stars, itâs not like weâve been trying terribly hard to hide ourselves from your brothers anyway.â She admitted softly against him.
âYes, well, half heartedly sneaking around them is rather difficult within the confines of the Marauder.â Tech mused as he traced circles through the fabric of her tunic on her back.
Jayla lifted her head from his chest and smiled at him while bringing her arms to wrap around his neck. âIâve never been good at sneaking around, anyway.â
Her eyes drifted down to his lips as he drew her up into another longing kiss. It took everything inside Tech not to continue kissing her, but his brotherâs voices could now be heard on the other side of the cockpit doors.
A loud knock on the cockpit door pulled them from their perfect little bubble, accompanied by Wreckerâs booming voice.
âHey, are you two done makinâ out in there?? Itâs time for our next mission debrief!â Wrecker teased. Tech and Jayla could hear Crosshair snickering and Echo stifling a chuckle at their brotherâs loud teasing.
âOh, Tech, they all definitely know!â Jayla giggled while pulling back from him to cover the grin that had spread across her face.
âIndeed, it would appear that they do.â Tech chuckled. He snaked his arms tighter around Jaylaâs waist, âPerhaps, being that my brothers are aware of us and what we are up to, and if you are amenable, we could stay in here until the last possible moment so that I may continue to kiss you.â Tech had lowered his voice so that his brothers, who were undoubtedly attempting to listen through the cockpit door, could not hear his bold suggestion.
âTech!â Jayla half squealed his name, trying to keep her voice low. Her heart raced at his sudden suggestion and her cheeks flushed pink.
âYes, cyare?â Techâs eyes were half lidded behind his goggles now and his voice barely above a whisper.
Jayla half heartedly tried to say something to the effect that they shouldnât keep the others waiting but she couldnât seem to get the words out. She was too lost in his soft brown eyes to try and protest again. Her eyes drifted down to his lips then back up to his eyes as she lifted herself up to her tiptoes to meet him as he closed what little space remained between them.
Another loud knock resonated around the cockpit. âYes, Wrecker, we are coming,â Tech broke their kiss just long enough to say.
âAlright, you two, you both can suck face later. We have a mission to get to.â Hunterâs voice caused Jayla to bring both her hands to cover her face in shy embarrassment while her eyes flitted back and forth between Techâs.
âKriff, thereâs no hiding from them now, is there?â Jayla giggled as Tech reluctantly released her form from his grasp.
The corners of Techâs mouth pulled into an amused smile, âI am inclined to agree with you.â
He took her hand into his own as they walked the few steps to the cockpit door.
âShall we, cyare?â Tech asked, clear affection radiating in his tone while his other hand hovered over the door panel.
Jayla nodded up at him with a soft smile on her face before dropped her gaze down to their intertwined hands. Giving his hand a reassuring squeeze, she brought herself up onto her tiptoes and planted a kiss on his cheek.
âThereâs no turning back now.â She smiled up at him, his eyes reflecting back the confidence and kindness she had come to admire so much.
Techâs eyes roved over her soft features once more, spending a lingering moment on her delicate lips. An almost mischievous smile tugged at his mouth as he leaned down to meet her.
Before Jayla knew it, Tech was mere inches from her face, the look in his eyes was as suggestive as it had been before they were interrupted by his brothers.
âOne last kiss, since it will be several rotations before we are alone again.â Tech whispered before bringing his free hand to cup her cheek, pulling her into a deep, wanting kiss.
â˘â˘â˘
#the bad batch#the bad batch fanfiction#holy moly this took a while to write#I live for soft confident tech guys#tbb tech#my Jedi oc Jayla#star wars#tbb#tbb fanfiction#the bad batch fic#tech x oc#tech x fem!reader#baddest batcher writes
59 notes
¡
View notes
Text
OC x Canon Week Bonus Day: Missing the Other
To wrap this up, Iâll let the ship be ambiguous ;) Since the challenge is over, Iâll show off the more⌠detailed drafts I preplanned for the first day. (Debating between ships and prompts at the time)
#heheâ extra points if you can guess which prompts were for which draft#oc: clocheđ#cat scratches đ¸#clochepel#twisted wonderland#twst#rookloche#twst oc#rook hunt#twst rook#twst ocs#twst epel#epel felmier#twst fanart#twst art#twisted wonderland art#twisted wonderland fanart#oc x canon week#oc x canon week 2024#oc x canon week bonus day#pomefiore#twst yuu#twst yume#twst yuusona#yuusona
109 notes
¡
View notes
Text
# â THE MAILBOX is open for business. god do i need a fucking megaphone or something. HELLO?
this is a c!quackity ask blog ! !
SEND ASKS!!!! feel free to pester c!quackity thru asksâ general questions, check-ins, dsmp lore refs, tomfoolery and such are fully welcome. yes i HEAVILY encourage spamming the inbox.
happy to answer both anons + characters (dsmp, ocs, multiverse: film, musicals, videogames, etc). if ur a reoccurring anon then grab an emoji!
#quackitychirps indicates ic. #charlieposting indicates that c!slime has stolen c!quackity's phone.
[ c!tommy ask blog: @innit1999. â IMPORTANT INFO UNDER CUT. ]
rules: literally fucking none. go ham!!!!!!! i'll delete anything that goes too far. 18+ mentions are also fine so i'll tag accordingly, but it won't ever be the main focus here. have fun go crazy ( admin is 21. keep that in mind thank u )
this blog functions on dialogue instead of written out paragraphs of literature.
IMPORTANT: in order to keep my blog tidy i don't respond to reblog replies. i also don't write any literate rp ( eg; *character sits down and does a thingy* etc etc ). this is an ask blog first and foremost so i focus on dialogue to communicate action / location / etc.
reblog threads tend to get real lengthy and clutter up stuff soâ please send another ask instead of reblogging with a reply :) thank you for understanding!
details about quackity:
+ las nevadas era, mainly. if there's specific asks that require a response from vice pres quackity or manburg era q, i can adjust to that: #viceqchirps
+ he's an avian hybrid! he NESTS OFTEN (usually within an amethyst geode) and tries to preen his wings. quackity has a history of being mocked for his instincts and avian attributes, much thanks to a certain ex-husband :/
+ this bitch loves a good debate. motherfucker is a lawyer (sorta) so hit him up with a challenge every now and then. give him fun facts. Threaten him. ask whats going on in his life! throw in curveballs
+ my portrayal is pretty much canon aligned so. yk anything goes. las nevadas is important as hell to him!!!!! c!charlie's his confidantâ of course. fond of c!tommy. he also, painfully, misses c!schlatt. yearns for c!karl and c!sapnap yet refuses to speak of them. c!wilbur is a Bitch /pos . come hom.efrom the war you coward
+ on that note, i would prefer to avoid interaction with positive/good depictions of c!schlatt for this blog. no disrespect to those who do prefer that, i just personally want to uphold the importance of how schlatt's abuse informed a Lot of character development for quackity. thank you!
+ i violently swerve between serious interactions and utter hysteria in my replies to asks. its like a fucking lucky dip here đ
+ also. shipping isn't a goal here, so attempts to woo quackity will nawt end in a romance plot or anything. ofc there'll be flirting, especially with canon characters he's had relations with (schlatt, wilbur, eret, karl, sapnap). i hc he's had a fling with technoblade at least once LMAO. also during las nevadas he has fortnightly .....gatherings with foolish. he wouldn't fuck a citizen, but he'd fuck a coworker! morals, what're those again?
all anons welcome!!! ADMIN IS 21.
#ask blog#quackitychirps#askblog#quackity#c!quackity#dsmpblr#dsmp rp#dream smp#mcytblr#mcyt#roleplay#oc roleplay#oc rp#slimecicle#ok to rb#rb encouraged!!!
20 notes
¡
View notes
Text
I really, really hate the "Female V is canon" vs "Male V is canon" debate that been popping here and here in the tags those past weeks
Cyberpunk 2077 is a Role Playing Game, there is no "canon" protagonist, that's the whole point. We all have a different playstyles, different stories and headcanons, our custom V is The Canon V of Our Own playthroughs!
After Phantom Liberty dropped, I've seen a lot of players, on Tumblr or Twitter, voicing their concerne and disappointment in how much more Female V focused the official promo, videos and even in-game credits became
I was one of them too, expressing my feelings multiple times, sometimes awkwardly, frustrated that Male V players were once again brushed to the side, because that's how it feels like, right?
Well, it might feels like it, but this isn't the case AT ALL, far from it. This is only what I would call a "Fandom Phenomenon" and I want to talk more about it a bit
I had a great conversation with a friend of mine who works in the game industry and it opened my eyes on the matter, and I've since been really interested in seeing RPGs statistics!
Because it's really, really important to make the difference between the Casual Player Base (majority of players) and the Fans / Fandom Base (minority of players)
ââââââââââââââââââââââââââââ
I always been lurking in fandoms here on Tumblr, since Mass Effect, Dragon Age, and now with Cyberpunk 2077 and Baldur's Gate 3
First I want to drop some stats- might be completly wrong, but I'm only sharing my point of view here, in an attempt to explain why some people are frustrated with Female V being the focus (and why we shouldn't be!)
I think it's not wrong to say that fandoms are mostly occupied by women and fem-identifying individuals; fandoms are a safe place for players and fans to share their passions. Women are STILL HEAVILY harassed and hated in the gaming industry as a whole, it doesn't take a lot of digging to catch a vile comment on Twitter or on Twitch for example, you cannot go far without seeing someone either attacking or sexualizing them
This is a huge problem in the industry still, every games that release with a female protagonist get trashed- just look at the bullshit surrounding GTA 6 just because players will be able to play as a woman as an option
Fandoms are also safe for non-gender conforming people, non-binaries, trans people and queer men, but I think fem individuals and women are a clear majority, at least on Tumblr (only talking about genders identity here and not about being queer or not, not talking about sexualities or attraction) (not an official stat at all and only my point of view and experience from being on Tumblr since ~2012)
Now let's talk about Cyberpunk 2077- because this is my main fandom since 2020, and what prompted me to write this post in the first place
CDPR didn't share any stats recently, but it's REALLY SAFE to assume the MAJORITY of players are playing a straight Male V romancing Panam, followed by a lesbian Female V romancing Judy, but the player pools for both options are still majoritarly cis hetero men (and they are still the focus for AAA studios to sell their games, this is sadly just how it is)
However on the fandom side, Fem V was always the focus; virtual photography, mods, ships, OCs... She was always more popular than Male V, getting more interactions and notes and why trends like "Male V monday" were created and why there is still a lack of male V focused mods (non-binaries and trans fem folks and characters are also sadly under-represented in all type of content and art)
So, being yourself as a non-fem player, playing as a Masc V, seeing CDPR officially make the switch from Male V to Female V, when the space you've been in for the past 3 years has been overwhelmingly Female V focused on all front, was a bit of a punch in the guts; like I said earlier, I was reaaally frustrated with this too!
And I'd say it's "normal"? or at least "ok" to feel this way, it makes sense considering how little attention Male V in general get in the fans community
BUT. BUT... It's REALLY important here to realize how we sound and how we look like when we voice our frustrations on the matter; we sound and look just like all the misogynistic people over on Twitter who screams about "woke games" everytime there is a female protagonist in their "non political games". We have to remember that fandoms are suuuch a small part of the game industry
Baldur's Gate 3 recently shared their stats and this interesting tweet got into my dash
âś tweet
Astarion is nowhere to be seen in the official most romanced companions statistic, but I'm sure a lot of people will agree that he's probably the most popular one in the fandom side!
Another stat here from Mass Effect and really interesting info coming from David Gaider about how the hardcore fanbase aka fandom's choices were WILDLY different from the casual / main player pool
âś tweet
Getting my head out of the fandom bubbles and seeing the bigger picture, how much under-represented women still are in official medias (not talking about fan content) and how insanly misoginistic the game industry still is, both on the player and devs sides, helped me handle my own frustration on the matter, accept and even celebrate Female V being the focus for the Phantom Liberty campaign
With all that said tho, we all should be able to vent about the lack of Male, Masc and Non-Binary content in the fandom side, while still being aware of the industry state, it CAN co-exist! It doesn't make anyone a bad or misogynist person!
We are all humans and can be awkward and make mistakes, especially when voicing frustration or talking while in a negative mood. Let's educate one another in good-faithed manners when we slip instead of jumping to conclusion and throw accusations
Not gonna lie I kind of lost my train of thoughts and not sure how to finish this post, but I hope this can enlight some people on why CDPR made this choice!
Repeating this as a finale note; this doesn't mean that Female V is the "main" V or "canon" V . It's simply her time to shine, and it's well deserved! The industry needs it
#cyberpunk 2077#phantom liberty#text#long post#like- LONG LONG post hgfhgf#hope my rambling makes sense#I legit been really interested in reading these statistics#hope CDPR will drop a similar sheet since the Ultimate edition is out :O#blah blah
134 notes
¡
View notes
Text
"Sun and Rain Part 2: Age of the Empire"
Chapter 39
"Hard Hits"
A "Bad Batch" fanfic!
Pairing: Hunter x fem OC, Echo (more best friend pairing)
A/N: Well y'all...you knew this was coming đ
Today is my last day of summer break before going back to work and what a better way to show my despair at going back to work by posting a chapter full of angst?? đ If you like angst, then you're gonna have a heyday with this one! I've had one scene in this chapter written for a looooong time now, so it's great to finally put it out there!
Also, there's a fun Kimber/Hunter moment I threw in based off of this art I got commissioned a while ago 𼰠See if you can spot it!
Hope y'all still enjoy! (Just don't hate me at the end of this one đ
)
Taglist: @the-sad-batch , @nimata-beroya , @intrepidmare , @legolkenxbi , @tech-aficionado ,
@ladykatakuri , @d1n0-dan , @sammi9498 , @darthzero22 , @scarlettrose9901 ,
@thebadbatchscyare , @chxpsi , @ilikemymendarkandfictional , @4pplecider , @locitapurplepink ,
@l-lend , @nekotaetae , @eternalwaffle , @merkitty49 , @avathebestx ,
@idoubleswearimawriter , @techs-stitches , @fantasyproductions , @totallyunidentified , @dreamsandrosies ,
@theknightofivanhoe
ă Chapter 38
ă Chapter 40
All parts (Part 2) (Part 1)
Explanation: Kimber and Hunter are now Crosshair's prisoners and things come to a head between the Bad Batch and Crosshair back on the planet where it all began....
Huddled together, Kimber and Hunter found themselves on the floor of an Imperial shuttle, still in cuffs and now sailing through hyperspace on their way to an undisclosed location. Two members of Crosshair's team were in the back area guarding them and standing by the door that led further into the ship.Â
A loud alarm rang through the ship, indicating the door was about to open. Hunter's head lifted and his eyebrows furrowed together, which gave Kimber the indication of exactly who was coming. The door slid open and in strolled Crosshair, glaring down at the two of them. Kimber took notice that he had Hunter's knife attached to his belt.
âWhere are we going?â Hunter asked him.Â
Crosshair got down in front of him and pulled out Hunter's comm device from one of his pouches. âYou'll find out soon enough,â he stated as he turned the device on, âand so will your squad.â
âWowâŚso quick to forget they were your squad once, too. Your family, no less,â Kimber snapped, which he ignored as he stood back up.Â
âUsing my comm won't work. They'll know it's a trap,â Hunter debated.Â
Crosshair looked back at him and simply stated, âThey'll still come for you.â
âOh, stop being coy, Crosshair,â said Kimber, irritated. âWhere are you taking us?â
He side-eyed her for a moment before answering, âBack to where this all started.â Then with that, he turned on his heel and walked back through the door, letting it close behind him.
Kimber and Hunter exchanged anxious glances, wondering what Crosshair could possibly mean. Kimberâs gaze dropped in thought to her bound hands. Where could he be taking them? What did he mean by âwhere it all startedâ? Did he mean the Empire? That would probably mean Coruscant, but that didnât seem as significant. Or perhaps he meant Order 66, which preceded even the Empire. That happened for them on Kaller, but even that didnât seem to strike her as important enough to return to. NoâŚthere had to be another planet. One that meant something to all of them.
Then it hit her. He wasnât talking about where things with the galaxy started. He was talking about where things with their squad started...where everything went wrong for them.Â
That meant only one place.
âI know where weâre going,â Kimber stated aloud, turning to Hunter.Â
âQuiet!â the female guard sternly scolded her.Â
Now even more frustrated, Kimber replied with a roll of her eyes, âWe're just talking. Calm down.â
âHey! We said quiet!â the other guard; a male one stated gruffly.
âOr what? You going to kill me?â she challenged, getting up to her feet. âI donât think your Commander will be happy with that since weâre his prisoners.â
âKimber, donât,â Hunter warned her.
The male guard stepped forward and ordered Kimber, âSit down.â
Feeling emboldened by her anger, she looked the trooper down and defiantly responded, âNo.â
The trooper was quick to react as the butt of his blaster rifle forcefully met her stomach. The wind was knocked out of her and, with a choked gasp, she dropped to a knee and clutched her stomach. Hunter immediately moved to stand up, but the other guard approached and held her weapon at his head to keep him from moving.
âThatâs for disobeying orders!â the soldier who hit Kimber cried out.Â
She coughed and gasped for breath before letting out a light snicker. âYou should know this about me: I donât like following orders...especially when they come from Imperial scum like you.â
She didnât know what possessed her to be this audacious to the Imperial soldiers, but her anger and animosity of the situation was overpowering all sense of logic and common sense. The consequence of her statement was then being struck again by the Imperialâs blaster rifle, this time across the face. She let out a loud, pained cry and Hunter called her name in worry. Her left cheekbone throbbed from the impact and she clenched her teeth, holding herself together. This was nothing compared to other punishments sheâd suffered in the past, but that didnât exactly make the pain any less impactful still.Â
The alarm rang again and the doors opened as Crosshair stepped inside, having heard the commotion from the other side. âStand down,â he ordered the two guards.
Stepping back and standing again at attention, the male guard informed him, âShe defied our orders, sir.â
Crosshair glanced at Kimber indignantly and commented, âSheâs good at that.âÂ
Then he walked up to her and took her arm, pulling her up to her feet and towards the door. Kimber tried to resist and she heard Hunter cry out for her, but Crosshair removed her from the room with ease and the doors closed behind them. Once they were alone, he lightly pushed her into one of the safety seats in front of him on the side of the small hallway. She cast a displeased look up at him and then turned away. She didnât even want to look at Crosshair right now. All she could feel was resentment towards him as he stood there, looking down on her.
Then he spoke, his voice oddly calm, âHe hit you hard.â Then she felt his hand carefully touching her hurt cheek.
With an annoyed grunt, she swapped his hand away with her bound hands. âWhat of it?â she asked back.
Stepping back, he said, âI gave orders that you both were to be unharmed. I should reprimand him for using such force on you.â
She scoffed at the notion of him punishing his subordinate on her behalf. âSave your false pity. I don't want it,â she said, turning even more away.
âIt isnât false. You think I want to see you this way?â he asked.
âI don't know, Crosshair. What do you want?â she questioned him, now looking back at him. âBecause frankly, I can't figure that out. You tried to kill us multiple times, then we find out it's most likely not of your own volition and then you were practically begging me not to fight last time I saw you. You seemed almost like yourself, but you still hold allegiance to the Empire. Even now, instead of outright killing me or Hunter, you've captured us and you're taking us back to Kamino.â
His eyes widened slightly.
Cocking her head to the side, she added confidently, âYeah, I figured it out.â
An impressed grunt sounded from his throat. Then he replied, âYou always were sharp.â
Kimber rolled her eyes, unamused, and turned her gaze away. âOh, don't act familiar with me now. Unless you have anything to say to me that's actually worth my time, I want to go back with Hunter.â
âKimber, why must you keep fighting me?â he demanded.Â
That question ignited a spark of disbelief within her and her head snapped back in his direction, fire in her eyes. âWhy must I--? If you're seriously asking me that question, then you're way more far gone than I thought,â she spat at him. Then she shook her head and sighed with defeat. âI really don't know who you are anymore.â
Crosshair simply stared back at her, his eyes instinctively going to the red mark on her cheek that was already beginning to bruise. Even now, seeing her hurt in any way made his blood run hot. He couldnât suppress that even if he tried. He just wanted her to see reason with the Empire; to see the bigger picture like he did, but she was determined to keep opposing him no matter what. She didnât understand what he was trying to do...but she would. He would see to that soon.Â
He walked over to the doors, turned back to Kimber and told her, âI would advise you stay quiet. Make it easy on yourself.â Then he activated the doors and stepped aside, allowing her back into the room.
Kimber just gave him one more displeased glance and walked back inside without saying a word to him. Hunter, who was still seated on the floor, looked up at her immediately with concern and seemingly relaxed slightly as he realized she was okay. She took her place back beside him on the ground, giving him a nod of reassurance. There was definitely a look in his eye that told her he wanted to say something admonishing towards her for how she behaved earlier, but was choosing to stay quiet lest they get in trouble again.Â
All they had to do now was wait in uncomfortable silence until they reached their destination.
They had no idea how long it had been when they felt the ship jolt out of hyperspace. Hunter reached over with his joined hands and took Kimberâs protectively in his own as they figured out they would soon be landing. A minute later, they heard the loud tapping of rainfall on the roof of the ship and Kimberâs shoulders sank. The rainfall confirmed they were exactly where she predicted theyâd end up.
She turned to Hunter and mouthed silently, âKamino.â To which, he nodded in understanding.
Soon, they were both told to get up by the guards and gruffly pulled to their feet. Crosshair came into the back with them, his helmet on over his head, and carrying both Hunter and Kimberâs helmets under his arm. The ramp to the ship lowered and Crosshair led his two hostages and the other soldiers out. Kimber recognized the Kaminoan hangar right away and could hear the clapping of the thunderstorms behind them outside. They were greeted by a young human male with light skin, brown hair and dressed in an Imperial officerâs uniform. Judging by the badge he had on his chest, Kimber deduced he was most likely an Admiral of some sort. He was escorted by five troopers; two in dark armor matching Crosshairâs and three in regular white armor. Crosshair and his group halted in front of the Imperial officer.
The Imperial asked in a deep, authoritative voice, âWhere are the rest of them?â
âTheyâll be here. Weâll intercept upon arrival,â Crosshair informed him.Â
The Admiral directed his attention to Hunter and Kimber and stepped closer to them. âSo youâre the ones they call âHunterâ and âKimberâ,â he greeted them, his tone bordering on condescending. âThe destruction your squad caused on Ryloth got my attention.â
Neither of them said a word to him and just remained stoic in their expressions.
It was then the Admiral took notice of the mark on Kimberâs face, which had darkened a bit more over time, and he commented, âA shame that such a lovely face like yours had to be so marred.â
She sneered, immediately annoyed at his backhanded compliment, and replied, âKeep talking like that and youâll be saying that to yourself in a mirror.â
That earned her an elbow to the arm from Hunter, warning her to stay quiet.
âAdmiral Tarkin described you as quite the feral womanâŚand I see he was correct in that regard,â said the Imperial. When he just got a glare in return, he turned back to Crosshair. âI leave this to you, Commander. Stay on schedule.â
Crosshair and his soldiers walked around the Admiral, forcefully pushing Hunter and Kimber forward, which aggravated them even more. They walked through the hangar and into the brightly-lit halls of Tipoca City, which was certainly something Kimber hadnât missed at all. The strange thing, though, was that the halls were practically empty. There were no Clone troopers or Kaminoans walking around. Not even any young Clone cadets could be seen. Only a couple Imperial soldiers walked by and that was it.Â
âWhere are all the regs?â Hunter inquired.Â
âWhen did you start caring about them?â Crosshair asked back, now with his blaster pointed at Hunter's back as they walked and having given Kimber's helmet to the other soldier with them.Â
âNo Kaminoans either,â said Hunter. Then it dawned on him. âThis facility's being decommissioned.â
Kimber sighed as she now realized that upon hearing Hunter say it aloud. âOf courseâŚ,â she whispered.Â
Hearing no reply to the contrary, Hunter remarked to Crosshair, âYou don't seem too concerned.â
âWhy would I be?â Crosshair questioned.Â
Stopping to face his brother, Hunter responded, âBecause the Empire will be phasing out Clones next.â
Jabbing his blaster into Hunter's chest, Crosshair stated, âNot the ones that matter.â
As Hunter glared at him, Kimber went on to ask him sharply, âWhat will that mean for me, then? I'm not a Clone. Are you saying I don't matter?â
âYou've pushed your luck enough,â Crosshair answered her, âbut I think the Empire could still make use of you.âÂ
âYou think Iâm just going to let the Empire use me the same way theyâre using you? Not a chance,â she said snidely.Â
The other trooper then pushed her forward with the tip of his gun and ordered, âKeep moving.â
The four of them continued on a few more feet and rounded a corner where they entered a Kaminoan security control room. The room was mostly lit by several multicolored holographic projections throughout. One of Crosshair's squadmates informed him that they had detected a ship entering the planet's system, but they had lost it below the scanner range, which Crosshair affirmed was the rest of Clone Force 99 and another one of the troopers said they would notify the scouts.
âDon't bother. They'll come to us,â Crosshair stated. Then he looked at Hunter and Kimber as he added, âThey don't leave their own behind...most of the time.â
âReally? You're going to pull that card?â Kimber snapped as Crosshair removed his helmet.
âYou tried to kill us. We didn't have a choice,â Hunter said sternly.
Crosshair sat down on one of the bowl-like seats in the room, scoffed lightly and asked as he placed a toothpick in his mouth, âAnd I did?â
Something about that simple question rendered both Kimber and Hunter speechless and they were unsure how to respond. Kimber almost said he did have a choice, but then remembered the inhibitor chip. In truth, he hadn't had a choice, but they hadn't known that at the time and that still didn't change the fact that he had shot at them and tried to kill them. All she could do was glance at Hunter with uncertainty, not knowing quite what to do.Â
Hunter stayed quiet, too, for a moment, his mind going over every possible thing he could say to sway his brother. Despite how frustrated he was with Crosshair, there was still a part of him that wanted to get through to him. If not for his own sake, then for Kimber's. Crosshair's absence and actions had affected her the most and he hated seeing her suffer because of the chip in Crosshair's head. If there was a chance he could do something before the rest of his squad got involved, then he had to try and take it.Â
He moved closer to Crosshair and said in a quieter voice so only they could hear, âCrosshair, we've seen what the Empire's doing...occupying planets and silencing anyone who stands against them. You know it's not right.â
Standing up from his seat and removing the toothpick, Crosshair replied nonchalantly, âYou still don't see the bigger pictureâŚbut you will.â
âUgh, just stop with the bigger picture talk. That's not what this is about,â Kimber put in, vexed at his inability to see past that mindset.Â
Hunter sighed, exasperated. âCan't you see they're using you?â he asked, shaking his head. âIt's that inhibitor chip in your head. It's making you follow--â
His words were cut off by the sound of an alarm blaring over the sound system and one of the troopers informing Crosshair that there was an unauthorized entry on one of the platforms. Hunter and Kimber exchanged knowing looks. The others were now inside the facility.Â
âRight on schedule,â said Crosshair. âTime to go.â
âCrosshair, please, don't do this. I'm begging you,â Kimber pleaded with him. âWhatever you plan to do, leave the others out of it.â
He simply looked back at her and replied, âWho's the one begging now?â
As she gaped at him in disbelief, he shoved Hunter's helmet into his bound hands and then hers was given to her just as forcefully. Then they both were pushed forward again out the door by Crosshair's troopers.Â
As they walked through the facility, the remainder of Crosshair's squad met up with them and continued on with them. Before long, Hunter and Kimber recognized where they were being led to. They were heading to the training room. Unfortunately, they both knew it would be easy for Crosshair and his soldiers to pick off the Bad Batch one by one since it was open ground.Â
âI know what you're trying to do, Crosshair,â said Kimber as they kept going.Â
Over his shoulder, he flatly replied, âGood for you.â
Knowing her squad's lives were at stake, she quietly said to him, âYou said you wanted to talk back on Ryloth. Fine, then let's talk. It's not too late to stop this.â
âIt is too late. You had your chance. All of thisâŚwill end here tonight,â he said back, quickening his pace away from her.Â
She wanted to say more, but once again, one of the other troopers shoved her forward to keep her moving and she couldnât suppress an annoyed growl at them. She wasnât sure what to do. Maybe she should have just talked to Crosshair back on Ryloth when sheâd been given the chance. Now, it might be too lateâŚboth for her and her squad.Â
They soon reached the large training room and a wave of nostalgia hit Kimber right away. She remembered her first time in this room, fighting Droids on her own to try and prove herself to the Prime Minister. She remembered the last time theyâd been to Kamino and the whole squad had been sent into this room to prove themselves to Admiral Tarkin and show the continued efficiency of Clone troopers. Now, they were back once more and it was most likely going to be the last place theyâd ever see.
âTake your positions,â Crosshair ordered his troops, stopping Hunter and Kimber in place partway through the room and keeping his blaster aimed at their backs.Â
The rest of the troopers situated themselves on either side of the room; two on the left and three on the right, but then they stopped around the center of the room instead of by the main entrance. Both Kimber and Hunter realized they were anticipating the Bad Batch were going to come up through the central lift instead of the entrance, knowing theyâd still be following Hunterâs comm trace. They waited apprehensively for the rest of the squad to arrive. Kimber had a feeling the others would come up the lift instead of the entrance, thinking theyâd get ahead of CrosshairâŚbut unfortunately, he was already a step ahead of them.Â
Kimber also took notice that one of Crosshairâs troopers had her sniper rifle on their back and she couldnât help but sneer to herself. One way or another, sheâd get her rifle back from them and if she had to, she would use it on that soldier first.
A few minutes later, just as Crosshair predicted, the central lift came up from below the floor and on the platform stood Echo, Wrecker and Tech with their weapons all drawn and Crosshairâs squad all raised their own weapons at them, showing the Clones they were outmatched.Â
Patronizingly, Crosshair greeted them by tossing Hunterâs comm towards them and saying, âAnd here we all areâŚtogether again. You wonât be needing your weapons.â
The other soldiers slowly closed in on the Clones, warning them to get rid of their weapons. The Clones all looked to Hunter, who gave them a nod to comply. Begrudgingly, they all threw their blasters to the floor as well as a thermal detonator from Tech and Wreckerâs large vibroblade.
âSee? Following orders isnât so difficult,â Crosshair taunted them, though it was mostly directed at Hunter. Then he looked around slightly and asked the others, âWhereâs your little sidekick?â
âYou think weâd bring her here?â Wrecker questioned. He lifted his helmet up onto his head and added, âWeâre smarter than that.â
âLying was never your strength, Wrecker,â Crosshair stated. Then he ordered one of his soldiers to find Omega and they exited the room.Â
Echo then called out, âAre you two all right?â
âWeâre fine,â Kimber answered. Â
âYou are not. There is a contusion on your left cheek,â Tech pointed out.
Behind her, Crosshair snidely remarked, âThatâs what happens to those who defy orders.â
âYeah, something you used to be good at once,â Kimber said back. âOr have you conveniently forgotten that?â
Crosshair didnât say anything back.
Soon, one of his troopers stated, âWeâre running out of time, Commander.â
âHold your positions,â Crosshair ordered.
It was then Hunterâs turn to look over to Crosshair and, with a glare on his face, he asked, âSo this was your grand plan? Bring us here and kill us?â
âIf I wanted you dead, you would be,â Crosshair said back, his voice turning dark under his helmet. âNot that it wouldnât be justified.â
âJustified? Are you kidding me?â Kimber questioned, appalled. âWhat have we done that would justify killing us?â
âYou betrayed everything we stood for,â Crosshair answered, âAnd for what? The Republic?â
Hunter responded steadfastly, âWeâre loyal to each other, not some Empire.â
Crosshair then said five words that struck both Hunter and Kimber to the core:
âYou werenât loyal to me.â
The two of them went wide-eyed in shock and couldnât find the words to reply to him. That wasnât the response they were anticipating.Â
He continued, âI was one of you. You may have forgotten, but I havenât. And itâs why Iâm going to give you what you never gave me...a chance.â
Crosshairâs squad all turned their heads to him in surprise and even the other Clones were astonished, too. Hunter and Kimber still remained silent. What did this mean for them? What was Crosshair really doing?
Just then, he put a finger up to the side of his helmet, getting a transmission. Then he spoke aloud, âSend her on a shuttle off-world.â
Kimberâs anxiety spiked hearing that. That meant Omega had been found.
âCrosshair, donât,â Hunter said.
âItâs for her own goodâŚand yours,â Crosshair said back.
Hunter pushed further, insisting, âOmega belongs with us.â
âLiving among fugitives where sheâs in constant danger?â Crosshair asked. Then he scoffed in bemusement. âYou want to protect the kid, then let her go. Stop pretending to be something you're not, Hunter.â
Before she could stop herself, Kimber said snarkily back, âOh, that's rich coming from you, Crosshair, thinking you have any importance in this Empire! You think this is who you are? You're no different than the regs you claim to hate so much.â
Turning to Kimber, Crosshair replied, âI am not. None of us are.â He looked back at Hunter. âYou know this, too, Hunter. We're not like the regs. We never have been. We're superior.â Once again, his tone grew ominous as he went on, âThe Empire can't protect the galaxy without strength. This is what we were made for. Think of all we could do...together.â
With one fluid motion, Crosshair then pulled out Hunter's knife from his belt and broke Hunter's cuffs with one downward stroke. Afterwards, he pushed him forward towards his brothers. Kimber inhaled shakily in fear of whatever Crosshair had planned.
âWe were brothers once,â Crosshair said to Hunter, not paying heed to Kimber still beside him. âWe can be again.â
Kimber wanted that more than anything; it was all she had wished for, for months and at any other time, she would've welcomed that chance without hesitationâŚbut something in his voice indicated that what he was proposing was not what she or any of the others wanted. Something still wasnât right.
Hunter inquired suspiciously, âWhy would we trust you?â
In response, Crosshair aimed his blaster at them again.
âNo!â Kimber cried out, going to run forward.
âDonât move,â Crosshair ordered, whirling around on her and pointing his blaster her way. When she stopped, he then said, âI donât want to make you a part of this.â
âCommander?â one of the troopers asked, puzzled at the favoritism his Commander was showing.
Kimber glared harshly at Crosshair. Now, he had the audacity to care about what happened to her and put her above his brothers? All she wanted to do was give him a piece of her mind, but with the blaster pointed at her, she was disgruntled and kept her mouth shut.
With that, Crosshair turned his weapon back to his brothers and then ordered his squad to stand down, but to everyoneâs surprise, they actually refused his order and kept their weapons aimed at the Clones. The tension of the moment was almost palpable as the Clones and Kimber apprehensively waited for Crosshairâs next move.Â
They werenât prepared for what happened next.Â
Crosshair fired his blasterâŚoff to the side, where the shot suddenly bounced off the wall and around the room in the blink of an eye and, to the Clonesâ and Kimberâs shock, all of Crosshairâs squadmates dropped dead to the floor, each of them with a smoking hole in their bodies. In that moment, the Bad Batch all discovered that Crosshair's reflective discs had been strategically placed throughout the room and had reflected his shot to kill his squad.Â
He had been planning for this all along.Â
When everyone looked to Crosshair with both curiosity and caution, he approached them, took off his helmet and asked Hunter, âDoes that answer your question?â
âCrosshairâŚ!â Kimber gasped out, still too stunned at what had just happened. She was stunned even more when Crosshair unexpectedly turned to face her and cut her bindings off with Hunterâs knife.
However, any hope in the situation was short-lived as Crosshair started walking towards them, his blaster aimed at them again. Hunter put himself in front of Kimber and they both guardedly moved back as Crosshair advanced.
âYou all are meant for more than drifting through the galaxy. Itâs time to stop running,â he said to them as he then lowered his weapon. Then he implored them, âJoin the EmpireâŚand you will have purpose again.â
Kimber could feel her heart dropping. She shouldâve known this seemed too easy and too good to be true. âYou think thatâs what this is all about: not knowing our purpose?â she asked in unbelief.
âYou really donât get who we are, do you?â Hunter also questioned.Â
Crosshairâs face darkened from the shadows that framed his face and his facial expressions contorted with enmity, his eyes widening with fury. âDonât make the same mistake twice. Donât become my enemy,â he threatened, a growl in his low voice unlike anything theyâd ever heard from him before.Â
âCrosshairâŚwe never were,â Hunter countered, his expression crestfallen.
Finally, Kimber had had enough. She was so disheartened at Crosshairâs relentless insistence that they join the Empire and acting as though they were the villains in this situation. There were things she wanted to say to him that sheâd been bottling up the whole time. Inside, she felt like a dam ready to burst and couldnât let this go on any longer.Â
She pushed past Hunterâs arm, stepped up and asked, âCrosshair...can you look me in the eye and tell me that you're truly happy with the Empire?â
âKimber, no,â Hunter said warningly.
She ignored him and kept going, her gaze set intently on Crosshair and her voice strong and tenacious, âCan you look me...in the eye...and tell me that you would rather obey the Empire's orders and impose oppression on several planets than traversing the galaxy with us? I know you think we're meant for more than that, but would that really be so bad right now? Wouldn't you rather just be with us instead of helping spread terror through the galaxy?â She took another step closer to him and her tone turned to pleading. âYou know what the Empire is doing is wrong. With them, you might have found a semblance of acceptance in a time of pain, but did you really find happiness or purpose? I refuse to believe you have. I know you think we abandoned you...and I am sorry for that.âÂ
Listening to her, Crosshairâs face seemingly began to soften slightly.
âYou think you're giving us a chance, but that's not what this is. You now have a chance to escape all of this!â she said emotionally. Then she took a risk and moved even closer to him so she was directly in front of him, looking up into his face, and she laid her hands on his arms, which made him flinch. âCome back with us, Crosshair. Come back to your family, where you really belong. You need us...and more importantly, we need you. I need you. I need my partner back. I need my brother back. You and me, we're the eyes in the sky together...remember? I've said these things a thousand times and I'll say them a thousand more. Please, I'm begging you...come home, brother.âÂ
She released his arms and stepped back, her eyes searching his face for his potential reaction. There was conflict in his eyes as he glanced down to the ground, seemingly in deep thought. She wasnât sure what he was thinking and she wished she could see into his mind. Had anything she said had an affect on him at all? Had she finally been able to get through to him?Â
Finally, he spoke up, âKimberâŚI--â
The alarms inside the room went off all of a sudden, which made everyone jump in surprise. Right after that, the turret towers rose up from the ground as did several rows of training Droids. This was an unexpected complication. To make things worse, Hunter suddenly sprinted past Kimber and tackled Crosshair to the ground.
âNoâŚ!â Kimber groaned at seeing that happen, just when she thought maybe sheâd gotten through to Crosshair, but there was no time to focus on it as, a second later, the Droids started firing on them.Â
Kimber quickly leapt and rolled behind the barricade closest to her as the other three grabbed their weapons from off the ground and started firing at the Droids. As she crouched behind her cover, she spotted the now dead trooper that had her sniper rifle and she pulled it off of their back.
âServes you right,â she mumbled aloud as she put the rifle back together. Then she leaned back and placed her back against the battlement just as Echo crouched behind it next to her.
âHey, why did you activate the Droids?â she heard Wrecker ask loudly in annoyance.
âThis was not my doing,â Tech responded.Â
Echo and Kimber both popped up from behind their cover and took some more shots at the Droids, which now seemed to be coming from every corner of the room.
âUgh, they're everywhere!â Kimber complained.
âI don't know what brought them in here, but be careful, Kim,â Echo told her.
As she kept shooting at the Droids, she glanced over to where Hunter and Crosshair were still struggling against each other on the ground, wishing they would stop. Then there came a shot from high up, taking out one of the Droids closest to them. When she looked up, she saw Omega up on one of the towers, her bow drawn, and next to her was AZI, the medical Droid. All Kimber could do was hope the kid would stay safe in this fight. She continued fending off the Droids coming their way and she saw Hunter finally kick Crosshair off of him. They continued to fight as they got to their feet. Kimber wanted to keep her eyes on them to ensure they didn't hurt each other, but there were more Droids heading for them. Her first instinct was to protect both of them, so she continued shooting the Droids behind them.Â
A few seconds later, she saw Hunter grab Crosshair around his waist, pick him up and then full on body slam him to the ground, rolling over top of him and coming back up with both his blaster in one hand and his vibroblade in the other. With Crosshair down for a moment, Hunter seized the opportunity to start shooting the Droids, as well.
Just then, another set of Droids came up from the floor right in the middle of the room; behind Hunter and in between the battlements everyone else was hiding behind. Kimber jumped over to the other side as Echo moved himself out of the way, too, as did Wrecker and Tech on their side. Hunter also turned around to fight them, leaving his back exposed to Crosshair. They were all now completely surrounded, but they weren't going to give up.Â
Kimber fired at the new wave of Droids...and then heard the familiar sound of another sniper rifle.
Her head whipped around and she was astonished to see Crosshair had stood up with his rifle and was now also shooting the Droids. He wasn't running or trying to go for Hunter while his back was turned. He was actually helping her and the others fight the current threat! She couldn't believe it!Â
The others noticed, too, and it felt as though they had an extra push to fight as hard as they could. Wrecker came out from behind the battlement, drawing his large blade, and stabbed the Droid closest to him, kicking it back to give everyone room to move. Everyone jumped out into the open at once, their weapons firing all around the room at the Droids. In that pivotal moment, with all six members of the Bad Batch back together in the same place, it felt as though they were fighting as a real squad again.
Kimber saw movement off to the side of the room and saw that the one remaining member of Crosshair's Imperial squad; the one who had gone off to find Omega had returned. Seeing that the rest of the squad had been killed off by their Commander, Kimber saw no reason to leave this one standing. She directed her sights onto the Imperial soldier and fired at her, but she were quick to avoid Kimber's shots as she backed out and ran out the training room's side door. Kimber ran forward a couple steps to go after her, but then she stopped, glancing back at her boys. She couldn't leave them now, not when they were in danger. They needed her here. She was just going to have to let the Imperial soldier go.Â
As she ran back into the fray, Wrecker threw a Droid through the air that crashed into another one. Then Hunter ran at a Droid, jumped up onto it and stabbed right into its neck area with his knife. The Droid started short-circuiting and wobbling with Hunter still holding onto it until Crosshair took a shot directly at its head. As it toppled over, Hunter leapt off and the two of them shared a quick glance before diverting their attention to other incoming attacks. Wrecker, Echo and Tech had moved to higher ground while Hunter, Kimber and Crosshair stayed on the main level.
Kimber was shooting at the Droids and evading their shots when she found herself back to back against Hunter, who met her gaze over his shoulder, smirked and then told her as they continued fighting, âI couldn't say it before, so I'll say it now: you are by far the most hot headed trouble-seeker of a woman I've ever met.â
Knowing he was referring to her misbehavior back on the shuttle, she just grinned to herself and said back, âCompliment me later, Sergeant.â Then she took back up her rifle and resumed firing at the Droids, ducking out of the way of a bolt that shot just between them and springing off to the side. She fired a shot at the Droid that had just fired at them and it went straight through the center.Â
âKimber, behind you!â Wrecker called to her on the other side of the room.Â
She heard the warning and turned around to see a Droid right behind her. Before she could react, the Droid shoved her, sending her flying back a few feet and her rifle fell out of her hand. She quickly sat up and saw two blaster bolts come from behind her and hit the Droid in the neck and the head. When she looked behind her, she expected it to be Hunter, but she was wrong.
Her savior had been Crosshair.Â
He simply gave her a nod and went back to fighting the rest of the enemies. She was taken aback for a brief moment. He had saved Hunter earlier and now, he had just saved her. Surely, that had to mean something; that he still caredâŚmaybe the Crosshair she knew was beginning to come back.Â
Swiftly, Kimber picked up her rifle, got to her and rejoined in the fight. She noticed Omega had somehow made her way down from the tower to the ground along with AZI. The number of Droids left was dwindling down thanks to everyoneâs efforts and very soon, all of them were taken down. Now, all that was left was dealing with Crosshair. Hunter and Crosshair were in the center of the room; Wrecker, Echo, Tech and Omega were all on one side and Kimber was on the other and they all closed in towards the middle of the room just as Crosshair faced HunterâŚand Hunter raised his blaster at him.Â
âHunter, please donât!â Kimber cried out, coming up next to him. She stole a look at Crosshair across from him and he looked conflicted...even minorly defeated. Though, when she looked back at Hunter, there was a forlorn look in his face and in his eyes as he gazed over at his brother.
Then he spoke, desperately pleading similarly to how Kimber had earlier, âCrosshairâŚforget the Empire. This isnât you. Itâs your inhibitor chip. We can help you.â
Crosshair shook his head and responded, his voice low again, âWrong. I had my chip removedâŚa long time ago.â
That response stunned all the Clones and they were rendered speechless.
For KimberâŚher world was shattered in an instant.
Crosshairâs chip had been removed? What did this mean? More importantly, when had this happened? Given all the things heâd done in general, to his brothers and the things heâd done to her, how much of it had been because of the chip and how much of it had been of his own volition? All this time, sheâd believed he could never have done any of those things of his own free will; the Crosshair she knew and loved would never threaten her, his family or other innocent people! NoâŚhe had to be lying. There was no way this was true. Her blood ran cold and her body went numb just thinking about it.
Finally, Hunter broke the silence. âSince when?â he asked.
âDoes it matter?â Crosshair asked in return, exasperated and with a shake of his head.Â
âYes!â Hunter growled at him, his teeth now clenching in anger at Crosshairâs reluctance to answer.
Kimber wanted to shout at him that of course it mattered when he got his chip out and to demand he tell the truth, but she was too stunned to speak. All she could do was stare at Crosshair.
Then, with a look of frustration, Crosshair responded to Hunter, âThisâŚis who I am.â
âNo...NO!â Kimber finally screamed, a mix of sorrow and outrage growing within her. âThis is not who you are, Crosshair! Stop lying to us! I know you and you would never do any of this willingly! You would never! Please, tell me this isnât true!â
He glanced over at her, but his expression remained unchanged and he said nothing back to her. That only broke Kimberâs heart even more and she felt incredibly betrayed, even more than she had before on Bracca.Â
âNoâŚit canât be,â she thought despairingly in her mind.
As he turned his glaring attention back to Hunter, she noticed his hand that held his rifle twitch ever so slightly and his finger was inching up towards the trigger.
Crosshair brought up his weapon and a stun blast was fired.
Hunter watched as Crosshair got disoriented, fell to his knees and then collapsed forward onto the floor. However, he had been shocked to see Crosshair drop all of a sudden because the stun shot had not come from his own blaster, even though he had been a millisecond away from firing it. His head turned to Kimber next to him and he saw she was standing there, her eyes wide in sad horror, panting heavily and with her rifle raised.
She had been the one to stun him.Â
Taking note of the pain in her eyes, Hunter sheathed his vibroblade, put away his blaster and approached her, gently placing one hand on her arm and the other on her rifle. âEasy, love. Itâs okay,â he said to try and help calm her, lightly pushing down on her weapon to get her to lower it.
âNoâŚitâs not,â she replied, tears forming in her eyes.
He removed his hand from her rifle and brought it up to her face, tenderly rubbing his thumb on her cheek and giving her an encouraging look, one that was silently telling her to stay strong. Even though what had just happened was heartbreaking, they were going to be okay and figure things out. She wasnât confident in what he was trying to tell her, but she still appreciated his attempt to reassure her nonetheless and she leaned more into his hand, taking in what warmth she could.
After he stepped away, they realized everyone else was walking up to them and Omega suddenly came running down and threw her arms around Hunter, relieved to see he was okay. Kimber, however, kept her eyes on Crosshair unconscious on the floor. She didnât know who she was really looking at anymore. What would she even say to him whenever he came to? She wanted to scream, cry, run away, punch him while he was downâŚthen right then, she felt a pair of arms hug her around her waist, pulling her out of her thoughts and back into reality. When she glanced down, she found herself looking into the bright, brown eyes and smiling face of Omega. Grateful for the young girlâs comforting hug, Kimber laid a hand on Omegaâs head and smoothed her hair, mustering up a smile for her. After the kid let her go, Kimber walked over to where everyone else was standing around, watching Hunter crouch down beside Crosshair and inspect his head.
A few seconds passed when they all heard beeping and Tech stepped forward, declaring urgently to Hunter while looking at his datapad, âThree Venators are descending into the city. We need to leave now.â
Heeding Techâs warning, Hunter proceeded to pick up Crosshairâs rifle and pack, placed the pack on his own back and ordered Wrecker to grab Crosshair. âHeâs coming with us,â he said.
Kimber hadnât expected Hunter to say that, given the information sheâd just learned about Crosshair. âWeâreâŚtaking him back?â she asked Hunter, a slight sliver of hope in her tone just as Wrecker lifted Crosshair and slung him over his shoulder.
He gave her a nod. âWeâll figure things out with him once we get out of hereâŚbut weâre not leaving him behind again,â he avowed.
She wouldâve burst into tears in that moment if they werenât in immediate danger, so she withheld her emotions for the time being. Putting her rifle on her back, she gave him a nod back and stated, âLetâs leave this Forceforsaken place.â
With that, the Clones, Kimber and AZI took off running from the training room and into the bright white hallways of Tipoca City, the urgency of their situation giving them the speed they needed. They were all reunited, they had Crosshair back with them--albeit a bit against his will--and now, they had to get away before the Empire cornered them and captured them. They had to move fast.
Suddenly, everything around them trembled. The ground shook beneath them and they all started to stumble and lose their balance. The lights in the corridor flickered briefly and then were suddenly shut off. Something was happening outside and it definitely wasnât good. Hunter called to everyone to hurry and get to the outside lift. They picked up speed and reached the door to the outside, halting immediately as they got out into the rain.
To everyoneâs terror, they saw and could hear laser fire raining down from the sky onto the city and everything before them was being destroyed. In seconds, there was a huge, thundering explosion directly in front of them, blowing up a good portion of the pathway.Â
âBack inside! Go!â Hunter cried out, turning around and going back the other way.
Kimber turned to follow and saw that Omega was still standing in place, watching in fright the horrors that were unfolding in front of her as her home was being destroyed before her very eyes. AZI had grabbed her hand, but she wasnât moving.Â
âOmega, we have to go! Now!â Kimber cried frantically, taking Omega by the shoulders and giving her a necessary shove back towards the door and after the others.
Just as Omega started running, another laser blast suddenly hit the spot where she had just been standing, blowing up a chunk of the bridge, and the force of the blast sent Kimber flying backwards further down the pathway. She rolled and ended up going over the broken edge, but her hand quickly grabbed the ledge. Unfortunately, she could feel her gloved hand already starting to lose her grip on the ledge that was slick from the heavy rain. She heard, even over the sounds of the Venator fire, Omega and a couple of the others scream her name, but she knew that if any of them came out after her, they would more than likely get killed.
All she could do was yell, âRun!â just before her hold on the edge of the bridge was lost.
#star wars the bad batch#the bad batch#bad batch hunter#sergeant hunter#my sergeant#bad batch fanfic#hunter x oc fic#sun and rain fanfic
26 notes
¡
View notes
Text
Writing Commissions Open!
Hey howdy hey, guess who's broke and whose brain has latched on to the idea of getting a bike or a trike to get places other than the one (1) coffee shop in walking distance!
YEP. I need to open commissions.
However, I do have at least one thing going for me- I'm told I'm fairly good at writing things! Fanfic things, at least. While I'm not dumb enough to outright go "hey, pay me to write fanfiction," I figure I can at least point out some fanfics I've written that seem to have gone over well as examples of my work, since that's most of what I've got for proof of my skills.
x x
x
x x x
x x
x x
I'd show more, but Tumblr won't let me add more images, and even these fought me Tooth And Nail when I was trying to format them properly. Truly a functioning website.
Hopefully these kind of give an idea of the vibes I'm strongest with, too. Pricing and rules will be under the cut. I do have a target I'm trying to reach here, but depending on how well this goes, I might end up keeping commissions open indefinitely. We'll see. :D
DM me if you're interested!
Things I'm Comfortable Writing:
Original Storylines (Brief primer on the world/characters I'll be writing with will be required)
Things like the pieces shown on my AO3 account
OCs
Y/N-style pieces (both with and without the actual usage of "Y/N")
Mild Romance
Gore/Severe Injury
Body Horror
Whump
Look, if it's in the Danny Phantom phandom and basically nowhere else, I'm probably just fine writing it, despite its intensity xD
Things I Will Not Write:
Smut. There's no shame in enjoying it, I just. Don't.
Incest. Absolutely NONE. Even leaving aside the whole debate about whether or not people should ship incest ships, I would not be able to enjoy writing it, which would make the resulting work of low quality, which would be a huge waste of time for everyone involved.
Pedophilia- specifically, ships with a minor and an adult multiple years their senior. See above. 17yo x 18yo is pushing it, but depending on the circumstances, I might allow it. They aren't exactly in completely different phases of life there. However, I'm in my 20s and don't particularly want to think about or write about kids the age of my youngest brother dating people my age or older, you feel me?
Bigotry presented to the reader as a positive thing. I'm not gonna write your favorite heroic character declaring OOC that minorities are terrible people. If you want something from the POV of a character meant to be terrible, such as someone like Fire Lord Ozai in AtLA, however, I may be willing to write it.
I reserve the right to refuse any commission and not have to explain why. Person-to-person, though, this will likely only come up if someone tries to commission something that crosses these lines and refuses to acknowledge such.
Payment: 5¢ USD per word. This works out toâŚ
$12.50 for 250 words
$25 for 500 words
$50 for 1K words
and so on.
I'll need half the payment up front as a deposit, then the rest upon completion. If, for whatever reason, I fail to write the commission, you will be refunded in full.
If you pay me for a given number of words, I will do my best to stick to it. I will make sure you at least get your money's worth, but if I just can't quite fit the writing into the given limit, I won't charge you for the extra words. Call it 100 words or so of wiggle room.
A commission for a fic 1K or larger that runs 100 words or less over the intended length will not cost extra
A commission for a fic between 500 and 999 words that runs 50 words or less over will not cost extra
A commission for a fic 499 words or below that runs 25 words or less over will not cost extra
A commission for a fic that has enough going on to run over that limit will result in me contacting you to ask for either a scaled-down plot or payment for the extra writing.
I will not consider calling a commission complete until I can hit the target wordcount at minimum.
If it should happen that I just can't make a scene stretch to the full wordcount, but you still want to keep what is written, the words that were not written will be refunded.
#writing commissions#writing comms open#id in alt text#atla#rottmnt#tmnt#gravity falls#gf#msa#mystery skulls animated#ninjago#steven universe#steven universe: future#animator vs animation#ava/m#sticks#su#suf#trike saga
72 notes
¡
View notes
Text
lover be good to me: part one
You meet Kita Shinsuke on a rainy summer day, with a sea of hydrangeas swirling at your feet. You know him instantly, as only a soulmate can. He seems like a good man. Like a good soulmate.
But it's your wedding day.
minors and ageless blogs do not interact.
pairings: kita shinsuke x f!reader, oc x f!reader
notes: this fic has been a long time comingâit's basically my baby at this point. i'm so excited to finally get to share part one with you! i am so thankful for everyone who has sat thru me yelling about this to them. and a million thank yous to my beta, between your enthusiasm for this fic and all your help with itâi don't know if it could have been done without you!
title and part title are from hozier's "be" and "nfwmb"
tags for this part: soulmate au (first words), this is a very reader-centric story, very significant reader x oc, slow burn, hurt/comfort, pining, alcohol consumption, anxiety.
see main fic tags here.
wc: 13k
The hydrangeas are in full bloom.
You can see them through the window: the sea in each blossom, the radiant blue of them veined through with white, ocean and foam detailed in petals. They nod with the rain, weighed down by the fat droplets.Â
There are two men that keep passing through the sea of hydrangeas like ships, leaving little eddies of blooms in their wake. They must be vendors considering theyâre weighted down by boxes, though neither seems bothered by their load.Â
You watch them for a moment. Theyâre both efficient, unbothered by the slow, steady drizzle. You rest your chin on your cupped palm, eyes drawn to the shorter man. Thereâs a few strands of hair peeking out from beneath his hat, the hazy gray of itâblack-tipped like thundercloudsâan odd contrast to his lean, toned body.Â
He makes his way through the courtyard, and you lean forward to keep him in sight, your nose almost pressed against the foggy window pane. He steps carefully around a drooping hydrangea bloom, his calm face visible for the first time, and something threads through you for a breath unraveling too quickly for you to place.Â
He ducks beneath the eaves and out of your sight.Â
Just in time, too. The rain picks up drumming gently against the ground, carrying a few loosened petals with it. The other manâbroader and taller but no less graceful for itâspits out a curse. He hurries forward until he too is gone from view.Â
âTold you it would rain,â Abe says from behind you, making you yelp. She presses in next to you. Her breath billows over the window pane blooming hazy against it, a marine fog.Â
âYou did,â you say with a laugh. âSo did the weather channel. Almost a full week before you did.â
She scoffs. âYes, but thatâs their job. Mine was sheer instinct.â
âAnd listening to the weather channel?â
âMust you slander me?â
âYes,â you say, smiling, but your gaze returns to the courtyard where the hydrangeas are bleeding petals under the rainâs heavy cut.Â
âAre you nervous?â
You meet Abeâs gaze in the reflection of the window pane. Her dark eyes are warm and soft, and maybe a little bit sad.Â
âShould I be?â you ask.
She wraps a small hand around yours and you realize youâve been tapping your nail against your water glass, a crystalline symphony.Â
âNo,â she says firmly. âYou shouldnât.â
Warmth blooms in your chest, sprouts like flowers between the cracks in the concrete. You lean into her. She sighs, long and put-upon, but she tilts towards you, opens her body to you. Itâs an invitation you know well. You rest your head in the crook of her shoulder and stare out the window.
âYeah,â you say. âYouâre right.â
âAlways am.â
âThatâs debatable, Natsu.âÂ
She grumbles but starts to pull away without comment when the kimono stylist calls out for her. She pauses for a moment. She leans in and adjusts your shiromuku carefully, her fingers deft. Then she squeezes your hand softly, familiar and warm, like a song youâll always know. You squeeze back.Â
You watch her reflection in the window until it blurs at the edges. Sheâs already bickering with Yoshikawa by the time it fades entirely from the foggy windowpane, their voices carrying. Youâre sure that theyâre curled together over Yoshikawaâs phone, flicking through the itinerary youâve already forgotten most of.Â
Thereâs movement beyond the window and you perk up as the man from before walks by. Heâs kept under the eaves by the increased rain, and you can see the way itâs dampened his hair to something closer to slate.
Thereâs a gleam of amber above the boxes heâs carrying; the briefest flash of his eyes, bright and keen. He sweeps by the window almost close enough to touch, and you press your fingertips against the cool pane without thinking.Â
Itâs this closeness that lets you see his phoneâa flip phone, of all things, with a little charm you canât quite make out dangling from itâslip from his pocket. You wince as it drops out of view.Â
He keeps going though, utterly unfazed. The rain has overshadowed the noise you realize, and youâre darting outside before you even know it, the shoji rattling slightly from your force. The summer humidity rolls over you, so stark against your aircon-chilled skin that you shiver with it.Â
âYou dropped your phone!â you call out after the man, hurrying along the engawa to scoop it up, careful of your shiromukuâs hem. The tiny charm is a stylized stalk of rice, you realize, the little panicles at the top colored with shimmering golden paint. Itâs cute. A little at odds with his utilitarian flip phone, but cute nonetheless.
Ahead of you, the man goes still.
Heâs turning around when his name unfurls inside of you.Â
The movies hadnât said it was anything like this.
Thereâs no passion ripping through you like forest fire, no lightning strike sizzling his name into your very bones. Itâs slow and soft, like slipping into bathwater after a long, hard day, the heated kiss of it a balm against all of your bruises. Like the bloom of the first crocuses, a promise of spring after the long winter.Â
âOh, Shinsuke,â you breathe, and you think youâve never known a name so well, that each curve of it was made to fit upon your tongue.Â
The manâShinsukeâstares at you. And then his lips tilt into a faint smile, tender like the oncoming dawn; a watercolor sky burgeoning with sunlight, a world coming awake. You think you could build a home in the way he looks at you.Â
âThere you are,â he says softly. âIâve been waiting.â
You know.
Youâve known for years that heâs been waiting for you; itâs been scrawled on your skin this whole time. He has always, always been waiting for you.
Your soulmark pulses faintly. For a breath, you think you can see it glow despite the heavy layers you have on.
âShinsuke,â you say again. Itâs a helpless little sound, the edges of it catching in your throat like burrs. You need to say something else. You know you do. You know what you have to tell him, but heâs looking at you so softly that the words keep getting lost.Â
Your grip on his phone tightens until the little rice charm is cutting into your skin.
His smile starts to fade. It curls in on itself, wilting at the edges, like the last of the summer flowers.
Heâs been looking at only you, you realize. Just you. Your face, most likely, but it feels like something moreâas if heâs seeing down to your marrow, as if heâs flayed you open beneath his tender gaze. Heâs only been looking at you. Nothing else.Â
Heâs been looking at you, but you think heâs seeing the rest now. Your careful makeup. Your pristine hair.
Your lavish shiromukuâcarefully embroidered with the elegant sweep of cranesâ wings and with delicate petals unfolding into bountiful chrysanthemumsâthat fits you perfectly, the heavy silk of it as white as driven snow.
You couldnât find the words for it, caught up in the gentle sun of his joy as it pooled golden around you, but heâs finally seeing what you couldnât say.
Itâs your wedding day.
***
Your soulmark appears when youâre twelve, all without you even noticing.Â
Summer is in full bloom in Toyooka; the wet lick of a heatwave has settled oppressive over the countryside. Itâs relentless. Even the rice fields seem to feel it, the verdant green ripple of them becoming a honey-slow shiver under the windâs gentle touch.Â
In the heat the cicadasâ call goes lazy; the storks only come out in the earliest parts of morning. They wade carefully through the still waters of the rice paddies, their beaks flashing in the weak sunlight as they needle down into the murk.Â
The rental house is tucked carefully between two farms, a lone house amid the rippling rice plants. Itâs old but well-maintained, a perfect little hideaway for your mother to finish her study. In the heat, she keeps the shoji doors open wide to let in the dancing, citronella-scented breeze. The first day you wander around the house to weigh the papers down with a mish-mash of items: the fruit bowl, pilfered from the kitchen counter under your fatherâs nose; encyclopedias long outdated; a pair of petal-flecked garden shears.Â
It helps it feel like home.
Abe and her mother have come to Toyooka too; your mothers spend their days bent close together, talking in a language you know by heart but still canât understand. Caught up in their research, they leave you to your own devices.
Away from all of your other friends and the bustle of the city, you and Abe roam free like a pair of stray cats. You spend the days without chores wandering through town, your arm hooked through hers, both your tongues stained sky blue from the Gari-Gari Kun popsicles from the conbini. The grannies wave at you as you pass by them; the two of you wave back with sticky fingers.Â
You flit in and out of the rice paddies, scooping up tadpoles from the murky water. The farmers grow used to your presence quickly; they greet you cheerfully, accepting the onigiri you bring with little nods.Â
After you splash through a paddy to coo over them, Watanabe lets you feed his ducks. He pours the feed from his hands into your smaller ones with a grunt. His hands are strong but aged, the dark skin on the back of his hands papery in the sunlight, wrinkled like old parchment. He teaches you both how to sprinkle the feed into the water just right so the ducks go arrowing across the water, little ships without sails.Â
The days are long and short in the same breath. Â
At night, Abeâs flashlight flickers in her window like a firefly, long after you are both meant to be in bed. You flash your own message back, little secrets wrapped up in ribbons of light, never mentioned after dawn. The two of you are woven together as only childhood friends can be.
And itâs Abe that sees your soulmark first.Â
Itâs midday and the clouds are rolling in across the clear blue sky hanging heavy and low, a gray promise of afternoon thunder. The two of you trace shapes in the clouds, shaded under a massive camphor tree, bumping into each otherâs arms as you go.
Thereâs a rabbit in your cloud, the puffy edges of it extending into fluffy gray ears that wisp and sway with the growing breeze. Youâve just traced along the little curve of its nose when Abeâwho has been burbling away like a spring brook, her chatter weaving a spell around the two of youâgoes silent.Â
Then she shrieks and grabs your arm.
âWhen did it come in?â she asks breathlessly. Sheâs shaking you too hard for you to see what sheâs talking about, but thereâs only one thing that tone could mean.Â
You freeze, your heart pounding in your ears. For a moment, you consider closing your eyes, as if that will keep it from being real. As if that will rewrite your fate.Â
You think of all the quotes youâve scrawled in your notebooks late at night, and hope for all of them and none of them.Â
Abe gives you another little shake. âI canât believe you didnât tell me! Itâs so early! How long have you had it? Has anyone said it yet? What do youââ
âI donât know!â you say, shaking her off and scooting backwards, pulling your arm towards your chest.Â
She scowls. âHow do you not know?â
âI didnât notice it.â
You hadnât. Maybe it was the sleepy haze of summer days running together.
Maybe you hadnât wanted to see it.
Now that you know, itâs easy to see your mark. Itâs already settled into your skin, the kanji tucked carefully into the tender flesh of the crook of your elbow. The characters are neat, precise little things, delicate at the edges. It shimmers silvery in the sunlight. A winter moonâs glow inked into your skin.
Abe plants her hands on her hips. âYou didnât notice your soulmark?â
You shake your head. âYou know I would tell you!!â
She huffs. âI guess. You really didnât know?â
You yank on a tuft of grass. âNope.â
âIdiot,â she says, but itâs fond. She nudges closer to you despite the heat. âWho doesnât realize their mark was written?â
âMe, I guess.â
âGuess so. Lemme see,â she says, making grabby hands at your arm; you let her yank it close with a sigh. She peers down at your mark with heavy concentration.
âYou look like Granny Takada right now.â
She pouts. âDo not!â
âYou do,â you tell her. âYouâre all squinty.âÂ
âDo you want me to read it to you or not?â
You take a second too long to answer, the words caught in your throat, tangled on your tongue. Abe glances up. Something passes over her face; itâs too quick to know, a fleeting summer storm. She drops your arm with a sigh.
âThe kanji are complicated,â she complains. âToo hard to read. Leave it to you to have a soulmate like that.âÂ
âHey! Whatâs that supposed to mean?â you ask, wrinkling your nose even as you relax, your muscles uncoiling.Â
She snorts. âNothing, nothing,â she coos, smacking your hand away when you swat at her. âLetâs go, itâs gonna rain. We canât track mud inside again.â
âThat was you, not me.â
Abe ignores you, popping up to her feet and rocking back on her heels. She takes off before you can stand her braids streaming behind her like kite ribbons, and you yelp out a protest as you scramble to your feet.Â
âNat-chan!âÂ
âKeep up!â she shouts, halfway to the rice paddy that edges the little meadow, and you take off after her.
The skies open on the two of you when youâre almost back to the rental, the rain relentless and heavy as only a summer storm can be. You both shriek but the water is warm, and you giggle at the way Abeâs bangs are plastered to her forehead even as you keep running.
You tumble into the genkan just as the first lightning strike splits the sky. Youâre practically tripping over each other. Abe knocks into the getabako, jarring a pair of your fatherâs shoes, their well-worn soles rolling upwards like the barnacled hull of a capsized boat. She grunts with the impact.
âQuiet,â you hiss.
âIâm being quiet,â she hisses back, just as your mother rounds the corner and fixes the two of you with an unimpressed raised brow.
Abeâs mother peeks around the corner too, her lips thinning as she sees the water dripping from the two of you. âYouâre soaked,â she says. âAnd youâre making a mess of the genkan, Natsumi.â
âSorry,â she mutters.
Her mother sighs. âWerenât you supposed to be back earlier? Before the rain?â
âWe got distracted because her soulmark came in!â Abe says, pointing to you with no remorse.Â
You gape at her.Â
âWhat?â she says. âItâs in a pretty obvious spot.âÂ
âNatsumi,â her mother says, exasperated. âYouâre always jumping in feet first.â
Abe grumbles, but goes quiet when her mother eyes her.
âChieko,â your mother says. âDo you need umbrellas for the walk home?â
âIf itâs not an inconvenience.â
âOf course not.â
You and Abe engage in a rapid-fire round of mouthing things to each other as your mothers search for umbrellas, too close to risk actual words. Abe speaks fast, even in exaggerated slow motion, and after you think she says something about snails, you decide itâs too incomprehensible to keep trying. You wave her off with a quick tilt of your head. She scowls but stops, crossing her arms with a soggy squish.Â
The scowl disappears from her face as soon as her mother steps up beside her, handing her one of your umbrellas. She traces a finger over the nearest little cat design, petting lightly at its fabric ears.Â
âLetâs go before you catch a cold,â Chieko says. âSay goodbye.â
âBye,â Abe says, her voice stilted.
âBye,â you parrot.Â
âAlright then,â Chieko says after a moment. She looks at you, considering. You bite the inside of your cheek, running the tip of your tongue against the pinched flesh.Â
She sighs. âYouâll figure it out,â she says softly.
You should have known that she wouldnât offer congratulations. The relief spreads over you like a balm, soothing the scrape you hadnât even known was there.Â
You nod.Â
âSee you tomorrow,â your mother tells her.
She and Abe disappear out the front door and into the downpour; Abe throws you one last look before the door closes behind them. You look away.Â
Your mother is quiet for a moment. âDo you want to talk about it?â she asks.
âIâI donât think so.â
She considers you. âAlright,â she says. âIâll get you a towel and then you need to go change before you get sick.â
âOkay.âÂ
She disappears down the hallway without another word.Â
You look down to your soulmark. At the thin kanji of it, the gleam of them like spiderwebs caught in a moonbeam, an ethereal silver. When you touch it, tracing a fingertip carefully against the crook of your elbow, it just feels like skin. As if itâs always been there. As if itâs always been a part of you.Â
Upside down, the kanji are difficult to parse. You run your fingers over them once more, and then your mother is there with a towel. You yank your fingers away as if burned. She doesnât react, just handing you the towel and corralling you upstairs to dry yourself off.Â
Dinner is quiet that night and you go up to bed early, tired from the ups and downs of the day.
Youâve just finished brushing your teeth when the flickering catches your attention. You spit out the last bit of foam and rinse out your mouth before padding over to your window.Â
A little light bobs up and down across the way; at moments, you can make out the vague outline of Abeâs face when she brings the flashlight up with a sharp jerk that almost hits her chin. Sheâs cycling through the attention-getting code youâd made up a few years back.Â
You consider pulling your shade down entirely.Â
Instead, you pad over to your dresser drawer and pull out your own flashlight. You settle into bed with it heavy on your lap. You pull at the edge of the faded sticker slapped below the switch, tearing a little piece of it off. You flick it on for a second. Just enough to let Abe know youâre there.Â
Itâs not your normal greeting, and Abeâs window stays dark for a long, long moment.Â
Mad at me? she finally flashes, little pulses of starlight in the dark.
You are. Soulmates are different for the two of you. Youâve grown up hearing all of the jargon for your motherâs study, and you know that she has too. You know the low rate of soulmates meeting, and you know the distant look in your fatherâs eyes as he wraps tender fingers around his blackened mark.Â
Itâs different, and you thought she knew that.Â
Sorry, her flashlight blinks out. I am.
You think of how she complained about the kanji of your mark despite being the most proficient in your classroom.Â
Mad at me?
You wonder how you would have told your parents that youâd received your mark when you can barely acknowledge it yourself.Â
You raise your flashlight.
No, you send off. Not anymore.Â
Good, she immediately sends.Â
You talk until your eyelids are drooping and your jaw is cracking with non-stop yawning. Itâs easy to say goodnight, knowing youâll see each other in the morning. You pull down your shade and climb into bed.
You fall asleep with your hand cupped over your soulmark.
***
It takes you three days to finally ask what your mark says.Â
Evening is coming to life, the sky darkening into plum, the faintest hint of cotton-candy pink lingering on the horizon. As your father sets the table, youâre unable to resist the quiet call of what fate has scraped into your skin.Â
He blinks, trading a look with your mother, but then he smiles softly.Â
âAfter dinner,â he tells you. âOkay?â
You nod.
Itâs your mother who reads it to you later, the two of you whispering together on the engawa surrounded by the flicker of the summer fireflies. You curl tight into her side, a rib returned.Â
âThere you are,â she reads softly, stroking a thumb gently over the kanji. âIâve been waiting.âÂ
Her voice is a honeyed drip, sweet and steady, and though she is smiling, you think she sounds sad. She shifts to press a hand tight over her stomach as if itâs the only thing holding her together, as if sheâs suddenly too big for her body. You know her mark is there. The kanji has gone sour and black, an eclipsed moon.Â
âI donât know if I want them to wait for me,â you whisper to her.Â
She presses a kiss to your hairline. âYou donât have to know, tadpole.â
You bite the inside of your cheek.Â
She shifts beside you. âYou donât have to wait for them, you know,â she tells you.
âReally?â
âReally,â she says.
âDo you think Iâll meet them?â you ask, kicking your feet and looking out into the night. A firefly flares bright, and you consider running to catch it. Youâve always been quick enough. The fireflies have always been trusting enough.Â
She nudges a knuckle against your cheek. âThe chances are low,â she admits, because she has never lied to you about soulmates. âAnd thatâs not necessarily a bad thing.â
âWhy?â
She sighs. âYouâll understand when youâre older.â
She still has her hand pressed hard against her ribcage.Â
You bite your lip and donât ask anything else.Â
The two of you stay curled together under the stars, watching the trucks trundle down the road as the late-working farmers return from the paddies. Eventually, she ushers you inside, and when she thinks you arenât looking she knots her fingers in your fatherâs shirt. The fabric winds tight around her fingers, cutting into the softness of her skin. Her shoulders are trembling. Your father cups the back of her head and brushes a kiss to her hairline.Â
You go up to your bedroom without a word because even this young, you know there are things you arenât meant to see.Â
Not long after that night your mother and Abeâs mother publish the study. Itâs a culmination of years of grueling research on soulmates, of half-written notes on napkins when you go out to restaurants, of simmering arguments between her and Abeâs mother, of death threats and poisonous words.Â
It covers the concept of soulmates like kudzu, winding over the romance of it and smothering it beneath statistics and a dissection of societal impact alike.Â
It gets a nickname soon after publication, and your motherâs smile is a melon rind curve, bitter at the edges.Â
They call it the Heartbreak Study.
***
Summer comes to an end.
You leave Toyooka on a rainy afternoon, the light drizzle sending water droplets racing down the train window. The storks huddle together in the paddies, their wet feathers gleaming like the moon. Abe is warm at your side curled into you, already half-asleep from the underlying hum of the train. It picks up speed and the rolling green of the countryside blurs like a watercolor, smearing across the horizon as you head back to the city.
It feels like youâre leaving more than the countryside behind.
Still, the city is a comfort, the bustle of it a familiar song, and youâd missed the neon lights that dot the streets like little flowers. With the return of school just around the corner itâs nice to settle back into the rhythm of city life, so different from the steady, unyielding heartbeat of Toyooka.Â
You unpack your clothes and yourself too, slotting everything back into your city life, trying to fit back into it like a well-worn pair of shoes.Â
âOh,â Yoshikawa says lazily the next day, when you and Abe find her sprawled out on a bench by the conbini, sucking on a popsicle. She peers up at you, her long hair flowing around her shoulders like weeds in the current, softly swaying with each little movement. âYouâre back.â
âShe got her soulmark!â Abe says, dragging you forward by your wrist to display your mark.Â
âNatsu,â you groan, ignoring the way she tugs at your wrist to pull you even more into Yoshikawaâs space. âReally?â
âWhat, you werenât going to tell her?â
âYeah,â Yoshikawa drawls, her dark eyes sly. âWere you not gonna tell me?â
âShut up, Yocchan,â you say. âYou know I was going to tell you.â
âYou sure?â she asks, propping herself up on her elbows. âDoesnât quite sound like it.â
âYocchan.â
âFine, fine, Iâll stop teasing. Can I see?âÂ
You hesitate for a breath.Â
âYou donât gotta,â Yoshikawa says, biting into her popsicle with a loud crunch. Her lips are blue with it, the same color as the mid-morning sky. It drips down her elegant fingers, catches on the small scars littered across them. She licks at them absently, but her gaze is keen.
âItâs fine,â you say. âIâm justâŚstill getting used to it.â
She hums.Â
âGreat,â Abe says, using her grip on your wrist to tug you forward again. âLook, look, look!â
Yoshikawa pushes herself the rest of the way up slowly, tucking her popsicle between her teeth as she reaches for your arm. Her fingers are sticky against your skin. Sheâs quiet as she reads your mark, her brow slightly furrowed.Â
She lets you go after a minute, and you try not to fidget.
âRomantic,â she says. She lays back down on the bench.
Abe makes a strangled noise. âThatâs all?â
Yoshikawa blinks slowly, but thereâs a smug curve to her lips. âIs there something else to say?â
Abe stamps her foot. âThereâs so much to say! She got her mark! The first of us! The first in our year!â
âNah, Sasaki got his right before the break.â
âHe did?â
âHe did?â you echo. Relief blooms in you, rooting in the cracks of you, and you let out a tight breath you didnât know you were holding.Â
âYeah,â Yoshikawa says. She closes her eyes and raises her face to the sun. It bathes her, turns her golden, an offering at the ending summerâs altar. âOur moms are friends. Heard them talking about it.âÂ
âOh,â Abe says, pursing her lips. She glances at you, and you donât know what she sees in your face, but her eyes go soft. âI guess itâs better that way. It wonât be as big of a deal. Itâll be fine.â
âYou think so?â you ask. It comes out smaller than you meant it to.Â
She nudges you with her hip. âYeah,â she says, her voice gentle. Thereâs a promise in it. âI do.â
Yoshikawa hums her agreement as she bites off the last of her popsicle, ignoring Abeâs wince. She sucks the stick clean and glances at it. âOh,â she says mildly. âI won.âÂ
âWhat?â Abe cries out, practically clambering on top of her to grab the stick. âHow do you always win?â
Yoshikawa grunts under her sudden burden, stretching out one long arm to keep Abe from grabbing the stick. âSânot my fault you have bad luck.â
âCâmon, you already had a popsicle today!â
You watch them struggle, Abe doing her best to blanket Yoshikawaâs lanky frame with her tiny one. The laughter bubbles out of you, spills from you like an overflowing urn, loud and unrestrained.Â
They turn to you in unison, brows raised.Â
âLetâs go to the park,â you say, laughter still sweet on your tongue. âDonât want to waste the day.âÂ
They eye you for a moment. They look at each other and shrug.Â
âConbini first,â Abe says. âI want something.âÂ
âYou canât have my popsicle,â Yoshikawa says.
âI donât want your stupid free popsicle!â
âYou were just trying to grab it!â
âWell I donât want it anymore! I want mochi instead!â
This time you swallow down your laugh, let it spread warm through you like bottled sunshine. You follow the bickering pair into the conbini. They wait for you at the door, and you link pinkies with them both so they can drag you down the snack aisle.
For the first time since getting your mark, it feels like everything is going to be okay.
***
School starts up again.
Itâs still warm, the last dregs of summer lingering in the air as you walk languidly to school with your friends. Abe flits ahead, her dark hair shimmering under the morning sun, and you think of a little darting fish on a reef, a quicksilver flash of scales. She greets other classmates easily. They always have a smile for her, and she falls into step beside them for a moment, chattering away.Â
But in the end she always turns around and waits for you and Yoshikawa.
Sheâs off in the distance when Yoshikawa glances down at the silver peeking out of the crook of your elbow, exposed by the summer uniformâs short sleeves.Â
âNo wrap?â she asks.Â
âNo wrap,â you say.
Youâd thought about it, but wearing a wrap screams that youâve gotten your mark. With yours tucked tender into the crook of your elbow, you might be able to get away with it. At least you hope so. You know how many eyes will be on you when people realize, and you shift on the balls of your feet, pressing closer to Yoshikawa.
She hums. âAlright.â
You know that tone.
âDo not cause any problems,â you warn her.
She blinks slowly, like a smug cat with a patch of sunshine all to itself. âI would never. Do you want some toast?â
âDo I whatââ
She pulls a handkerchief filled with toast out from her bag, little oily spots of butter bleeding through the hand-embroidered cloth. âToast,â she says, holding it out.
âDonât try to distract me,â you say irritably, but when she nudges the toast in your direction you slip a piece free of the handkerchief. Youâve eaten breakfast but no one makes bread like Yoshikawaâs mother, a hobby sheâd picked up in her year abroad as a teen. Any of her loaves crackle perfectly under the bread knife, each slice thick and hearty, woven through with herbs and spices.Â
âI would never.â
âLiar,â you mutter, sinking your teeth into the toast.
âSo mean,â she says, but sheâs smiling.
âHurry up!â Abe shouts back to you both, her hands cupped over her mouth to unnecessarily amplify herself.Â
Yoshikawa ignores her, sauntering along as your fellow students pour past you both. She moves like a river current, languid and flowing, and immoveable from her path.Â
âYouâre the worst,â Abe tells her a few minutes later, when youâve finally caught up to her.Â
âUh huh.â
âDonât ignore me, Yocchan!âÂ
âIâm not,â Yoshikawa says, holding out the toast again. She always brings enough for all three of you. âYou just say it so much that itâs lost all meaning.âÂ
Abe grumbles, but she snags a piece of toast. It crunches beneath her teeth, a crackling symphony. âThis is bribery, you know,â she says through her mouthful, scrunching up her nose.Â
Yoshikawa shrugs.Â
âCâmon,â you say, poking at them both. âWeâre gonna be late.â
Abe links arms with you. Your mark flashes bright with the movement, glimmering like snow in the moonlight, all prismatic ice.Â
She hums, shifting her arm just enough that your elbows are interlocked, hiding your mark as she tugs you towards the school gates. âLetâs go then,â she says.Â
Yoshikawa falls into step on your other side. She leans over and softly bonks her head against yours, her long hair a veil for you both. You press together for a breath, then she pulls back and links her arm through your other arm as you enter the school grounds.
You make it two whole periods before someone notices.Â
Itâs Hasegawa, of course, her deep brown eyes going wide as you reach into your bag for your textbook. She says something to her seatmate, and Hondaâs eyes snap to you.
You keep arranging your supplies. You set your pencil down next to your notebook and line them up as precisely as you can, nudging it back and forth until itâs perfectly aligned as they whisper to each other. They keep glancing at you until Yoshikawa leans back in her seat and flashes them a razor-edged smile. Honda squeaks, and they both go quiet after that.
But thereâs no escaping it. You can feel eyes on you all day, and murmurs follow you everywhere. You barely eat at lunch, pushing the pieces of your bento around as Abe and Yoshikawa crowd you on either side.Â
You almost make it to the end of the school day, but then Ueda and Nakajima stop you in the hallway. You bow to your seniors as they look you up and down.Â
âWe heard you got your soulmark,â Nakajima says, swaying in place just slightly, like kelp caught in a current. âIs it true?â
âYes,â you say, trying not to fidget with your sleeve.
âWhen?â Ueda asks, frowning.
âOver the break.â
âEarly to be getting your mark,â she muses. She doesnât have hers yet, you think. Only a handful of people in her year do.Â
âThey say the earlier the mark manifests, the stronger the soul bond,â Nakajima says.Â
Itâs a common belief, one of the oldest wives tales there is, but youâve spent too long listening to your mother. You know better. Still, your stomach twists.
âWhat does yours say?â Ueda asks.
You bite your tongue; the pain flashes through you like lightning, bright and sharp and bitter. The bitterness lingers, fills your mouth until you have to swallow it down. It stings the whole way.Â
Ueda waits.
When you tell her, it feels like each word is being torn from you, as if theyâd rooted into your very flesh.Â
(You suppose they have.)Â
For a breath, Uedaâs face twists. You think of the first hint of rot in ripe fruit, when the scent goes too sweet, a promise of decay. It isnât the first time youâve seen jealousy over a mark, but itâs odd to have it directed at you.Â
I didnât ask for this, you want to tell her. I donât know if I even want this.
âOh, how lovely,â Nakajima murmurs, moon-eyed. âYouâre lucky to have such a devoted soulmate.â
You smile, but you think itâs a poor imitation of one, soured at the edges as it is. âYeah,â you say, because sheâs looking at you expectantly. âI am.â
âWell, congratulations. Right, Machi?â
âYeah,â Ueda says, flashing you a tight smile. âCongratulations.âÂ
âThank you,â you say, the words ash on your tongue.Â
Nakajima tilts her head, bird-like, but Yoshikawa comes to your rescue, calling out your name from down the hall. You bid your seniors a quiet goodbye before hurrying to her.
She slings an arm around your shoulders, squeezing lightly.Â
âOkay?â she asks.
âYeah,â you say. âIâm fine.â
She hums her disbelief but leaves you be.
With her by your side, smiling pleasantly and radiating danger, the day passes without anyone else approaching you. Abe joins you again, looking proud of herself in a way that means she caused a problem, and you wonder what you did to deserve both of them.Â
They come home with you when school ends, waving to your parents as you head up to your room. You collapse face-down on your bed and Yoshikawa laughs, low and deep and a little bit sad.Â
She and Abe curl up around you like cats. They talk about everything and nothing, filling up your room with their presence until you start to go lax against them. They shuffle closer as you do and theyâre warm against you, like sunbaked stone. You sink into that warmth and breathe out deeply.
The next few weeks will be filled with questions, with murmurs behind your back, with everything that comes with getting your mark so early. You know that, but thereâs one other thing that you know, too.
With them, you know youâll make it through.Â
***
The school year blurs past in a watercolor of seasons. Fall gives way to winter, curling up under the biting cold; spring chases away winter in a riot of color, the sakura buds unfurling as your upperclassmen graduate, each bloom inset into the branches like a little jewel. As summer beckons, the days warming as the promise of rain hangs heavy in the humid air, Kimura gets her mark.
Sheâs only the third person in your year to get hers and sheâs coy about it, wrapping it in a ribbon, the burgundy silk luscious against her skin. Itâs as eye-catching as she meant it to be.Â
Itâs elegant in its own way, though the ribbon wilts slightly as the day goes on, mostly from the way she keeps touching it. She strokes along the ribbon as she talks with her friends. Youâre not sure she realizes it.
A few people glance your way, their eyes flickering to your elbow, but their attention is as fleeting as the first snow. Their gazes return to Kimura, to the bruised burgundy of her ribbon.
Something loosens in you, unravels from where itâs been knit tight around your ribs.Â
Honda gets hers next, and then Watanabe gets his.Â
Slowly, mark after mark comes into being, words unfurling across skin. As more of your classmates receive their marks, yours fades into the background. It becomes common and you sink into that commonality, having long waited for the spotlight on you to cease.
Your mark fades into the background, like a star just after dawnâknown only to those who know where to look. You try not to think of it. Sometimes you even succeed.
In your second year of high school, thereâs Takao.
Heâs a quiet boy. Stoic, even, his face almost stony as he introduces himself as the new transfer student. But he has a dandelion tuft smile, downy soft and fleeting, carried off by the wind not long after it blooms across his lips.Â
You like it, his smile.Â
You watch Kimuraâyour class rep, a position sheâs held since middle schoolâget to her feet. Takao is setting up his desk when she approaches, methodically laying out his supplies. He keeps them in neat rows and you canât help but smile when you see that his eraser is a battered little Keroppi, its round eyes almost flattened into a straight line on one side.
The classâs chatter softens, a few people glancing towards Kimura and Takao. You canât see her face, but her fingers are trembling, just a bit. He looks unbothered. Thereâs not a trace of nerves in him, until you realize that the tips of his ears have gone faintly pink.
Kimuraâs voice doesnât carry when she greets him so you donât hear what she says, but you see the tension bleed from her after Takao speaks.Â
Not soulmates, then.
She relaxes, and from the way her hands are moving sheâs starting to outline the classroom expectations. You shift in your seat, starting to turn away, when a flash of movement from Takao catches your eye.
He looks at you from beneath the fan of his eyelashes from across the classroom. He has a small spray of fading freckles, you realize, speckled over the bridge of his nose like a cluster of stars. He gives you that smile again. It takes a moment to realize youâre staring, and you look away, your cheeks hot. Â
âYouâve got a crush,â Abe sing-songs at lunch a few days later, jabbing her chopsticks into your bento and stealing a piece of pickled daikon.Â
âI donât,â you say, moving your bento away as she tries to steal another piece.Â
Yoshikawa snorts. Sheâs sprawled out on the grass next to you and Abe, her long skirt caught up around her calves. Thereâs grass caught in her black hair, the verdant blades swaying as she moves, as if floating in the whirling eddies of the darkened sea. Â
âIf youâre gonna lie,â she says, turning over onto her stomach, âat least do it well.âÂ
âIâm not lying!â
âLiar.â
âSuch a liar,â Abe agrees. âYou stare at him all the time.â
âNo I donât!â
Abeâs grin goes sly. âI didnât say who,â she tells you.Â
âIâit doesnât matter who, I donât stare at anyone!â
Yoshikawa raises an eyebrow. âSo you donât stare at Takao.âÂ
You scowl down at the ground, ripping up a small chunk of grass. You rub the blades between your fingers until theyâre a fine pulp, and the scent of a freshly mowed lawn permeates the air.
âSee?â Abe says. âTold you.â
âAre you going to talk to him?â Yoshikawa asks, peering up at you. Sheâs sly-eyed, her gaze keen despite the way she yawns.Â
âNot yet,â you say. It takes you a moment to realize that youâre cupping a hand over your mark, rubbing your thumb over the thin skin just above it.
Yoshikawa smiles, warm and soft and knowing, and doesnât say anything else. Instead she moves closer to you, curling around you like a crescent moon, her head padded on her discarded blazer. You settle into the cradle of her.
Abe is grinning wildly. âI knew that you had a crush,â she says, popping another bite of your rice into her mouth.Â
âOh, like we havenât seen the way you moon over Takeda!â you say.
She shrugs. âSheâs cute.âÂ
You huff and reach over to steal some of her tamagoyaki. She yelps, scrambling to pull her bento away as you snatch at the last piece. âMean!â she says, watching as you eat it, the fluffy egg practically melting on your tongue. âI want the rest of your daikon!â
âGet your own!â
She reaches for your bento and you swat at her. The two of you bicker for the rest of lunch, only ceasing when you return to the classroom and take your seats.
Out of the corner of your eye, thereâs a flicker of movement. When you glance over, Takao is already watching you. Thereâs a smile tucked sweet into the corner of his mouth, a sliver of a thing.Â
Itâs you who looks away first.
Youâll talk to him eventually, you think, cupping a hand over your soulmark once again.Â
Just not yet.
***
Not yet lasts longer than you thought.
You and Takao trade glances across the classroom for one week, then another, and then another still. Each look is a fleeting thing, like a shooting star streaking across the sky.Â
But you donât speak to each other.Â
You learn the sound of his voice through others when he speaks to your classmates and teachers. Itâs quiet, steady, with a warm rasp to it that makes you think of billowing smoke. He blushes to the tips of his ears when it cracks. Itâs cute in a way that makes you ache. Â
You learn the sound of him, but never for yourself.
Still, you gravitate towards each other. He offers you a tangerine one morning, his smile small, soft, and earnest. When you nod he uses his fingernail to split open the peel, unfurling it in a smooth motion. The peel curls bright around his hand. He separates out a segment and gives it to you, his fingertips damp with sticky juice. They leave shy little imprints across your palm.Â
The fruit bursts across your tongue like sunshine, golden and warm. Takao is watching you with hopeful eyes. You grin, and hold your hand out for another.
He sits down next to you to share it. The classroom is full of chatter, but the two of you are quiet, wrapped up in your own world. Suddenly, itâs not so much that youâre scared of speaking, but that maybe you donât quite need it. Not yet.
It would be nice, you suppose, but as time passes, you and Takao find ways to fit together without speaking. Instead, you learn the tilt of his mouth and the crinkle of his nose and the way his fingers run through his hair.Â
It works. Itâs not quite enough, but it works.
And so not yet lasts just a little bit longer, the two of you steering away from the cliffâs edge looming in the distance.Â
Another month goes by.Â
You spend hours with Takao, the sight of you together a common thing to the point where your classmates ask you where he is when theyâre looking for him. You can usually tell them. Youâre incredibly aware of each other, caught in each otherâs gravitational pull.Â
Sometimes it feels like youâre destined to only orbit each other, to never truly touch.Â
But sometimes you almost speak.
Itâs a golden afternoon, the wind rustling through the leaves like a lullaby, filling the space between you both. Youâre tucked together on one of the benches in the schoolâs yard watching the flow of students as they head to their clubs.Â
Takao is sunstruck, haloed in gold, and it makes his dark eyes even deeper, an obsidian sheen. Youâve seen it before, but thereâs still something about it that makes your stomach flip.Â
He shakes his head, trying to get his hair out of his eyes. It doesnât work, and he does it again. You think of a wet dog and try to stifle your laugh.Â
When he does it for a third time, you reach out and brush your fingers through his hair, sweeping it back from his face. He turns into the touch, just slightly.
Someone shrieks out a laugh, and you look up to see one of the girls in the other classes batting lightly at her boyfriend. He murmurs something to her, and her smile grows wider.Â
Your stomach twists, coiling tight as you watch them banter with each other. The gaps between your ribs seem to grow, until the empty space is what youâre made of.Â
You want, you want, you want.Â
You wonder if youâll ever have.
Takao senses your change in mood but you say nothing, and the two of you separate not long after.Â
Your father is watering the plants when you come home. They fill the windows of your home, the sun streaming through the verdant leaves, leaving emerald patches of light on the floor, natureâs stained glass.Â
Heâs quietly humming to himself, each note off-key, but he stops as soon as he sees you. He eyes you for a moment.Â
âWhatâs wrong?â he asks.
âNothing,â you say.
âYou were better at lying when you were little,â he tells you.
âThanks.â
âYouâre welcome. Now whatâs wrong?â
You tell him. It spills out of you like an oil slick, coating everything it touches. You tell him about Takao, about the silence, about it all. You hadnât realized how much the quiet was eating away at your bones.Â
âSo what is it, exactly, that youâre worrying about?â your father asks when youâve finished. Itâs a sharp question, razor-edged, but his eyes are soft.
âWhat if heâs not my soulmate?â you ask him.
He blinks. âDoes that change how you feel about him?â
You take a moment to consider. You think of Takaoâs smile, and the way his fingers linger against the palm of your hand when he hands you the erasers to clap; the way he lets you take pieces of his bento, all without a word.Â
âNo,â you say. âI donât think so.â
âThere you go, then.â
âBut if heâs not my soulmateââ
âYou know the statistics as well as I do,â he says. âIf Takao isnât your soulmate, that doesnât mean you canât be with him.â
âTheyâre waiting,â you whisper.
âThat doesnât mean you have to,â he says gently. âYouâre allowed to make your own choice.âÂ
Youâre not sure that you are.
âWhat if he is my soulmate?â
Your father puts down the watering can. You see a flash of his soulmark. Itâs blackened, a charred smudge against his skin, and when you glance up at his face, thereâs something old in his expression. For a breath, you donât know him at all.
Itâs gone as soon as it came, like a shadow beneath the summer sun. He smiles at you. âThen your mom and I will have to meet him, wonât we?â
You balk.Â
He laughs, a sound that shimmers in the air. âIâm joking, tadpole,â he says. âAnd if he isâyouâll figure it out. Thereâs no point in guessing before you even know.âÂ
You fidget with your sleeve, rubbing your thumb over the fraying hem of it.Â
There are worse things than losing something you never had, you think.
âOkay,â you say. âOkay.â
But things are easier said than done.
Itâs not easy, not with Takao. Itâs hard to find the words when youâve spent so much time living in the space between them.Â
You find yourself on the rooftop with him during lunch. Itâs unseasonably warm, thick puffy clouds sitting high in a robinâs egg blue sky, and youâre sitting side-by-side, close enough to touch. Close enough, but not quite.
Takao hands you some anpan; you give him one of your onigiri, peeling the packaging open for him. He nudges against you, a silent thank you, and something in you breaks.Â
âThis is stupid,â you blurt out, loud enough that a few heads turn your way.
You clap your hand over your mouth immediately.Â
He blinks, staring at you with his lips parted, and your cheeks start to heat. And then he laughs, the sound like woodfire smoke, billowing out of him in low, slow tones. It sweeps over you, settles on your skin, and though your cheeks heat more the sight of him sparks something in you.Â
He laughs freely and warmly, his eyes crinkling at the edges. It doesnât stop; if anything, it flows more strongly, like a river to the ocean. You find yourself swept up in it, laughter bubbling up inside you.Â
When it spills out of you and joins his, it sounds like a song.Â
âI cannot believe thatâs what you said,â he says, and oh, youâve ached to hear his voice when it was meant for you. You drink it in, swallow it down, something for you alone. âOf all the things.â
He laughs again, short and sharp with delight, but your smile is wilting, going brittle at the edges.
You finally have Takao, only to lose him a moment later.
Youâre not soulmates.Â
***
It changes things.Â
You donât mean for it to happen, but it does. Suddenly, the language between the two of you is different. Too used to speaking without words, neither of you are prepared for actual speech. You stumble over conversation, the words caught in your mouths like pebbles in a wave, spinning over and over until theyâre worn down to nothing.Â
âYouâll figure it out,â Abe says, lounging upside down on your bed, tapping away at her controller, her brow furrowed as she smashes at the buttons. âYou just gotta adjust, thatâs all.âÂ
You sigh. Itâs not something you can explain, really. How one space was filled and another emptied. It leaves something in you aching.Â
Yoshikawa hums from where sheâs sprawled on your floor, barely paying attention to the tv as she hits combo after combo, much to Abeâs annoyance. âSoulmate stuff is weird,â she says. âBut itâs up to you.â
âItâs up to him, too,â you remind her. âNot everyone wants to date someone who isnât their soulmate.â
âI donât think you have to worry about that.âÂ
âYeah?â
âYeah,â Abe says. âHe likes you. Itâs kinda gross how much.â
Your cheeks heat. âShut up.â
She sticks her tongue out at you. âMake me.âÂ
You throw a pillow at her face, relishing her little yelp as she tries to scramble out of the way and almost falls off your bed.Â
âBrat,â she says, tossing the pillow back. âHe does, though. Like you.â
âI know,â you say, something vast filling you.
âIs this about the waiting thing?â Yoshikawa asks, putting down her controller and turning to face you. She hooks her chin over your knee, looking up at you with knowing eyes.Â
You bite at your bottom lip.Â
You know the rates better than anyone; youâve spent your whole childhood hearing a language all its own. Percentages, probabilities, and all manners of complicated academic jargon, all focused on stripping away the whimsy of soulmates.Â
Your mother has only ever wanted to understand. But in that coveting, that hunger, she pressed understanding upon you as well, until youâre caught up in yourself, a tangled skein, so knotted that the beginning can barely be found.Â
âWhat if I do meet them?â you ask. âAnd they really have been waiting?â
Yoshikawa hums; it reverberates through you. âDunno,â she says. âBut what if you donât meet them?â
You glare. âThanks, thatâs helpful.âÂ
âYeah, Yocchan,â Abe pipes up. âSuper helpful.â
Yoshikawa tosses another pillow at her. âI donât see you offering anything!â
âI already said itâll be fine!âÂ
âNo you didnât.â
âYes, I did!âÂ
You laugh, the sound light but loud. Your friends pause, looking incredibly pleased with themselves.Â
âOh good,â Abe says. âYouâre back.âÂ
âWhat do you mean?â you ask.
âNothing,â she says, but you think thereâs a bit of sadness to her, in the waning moon of her smile. âAre you gonna play with us now?âÂ
She shoves a controller at you and you take it with a huff. âGet ready to lose,â you tell her.
âWhat else is new?â Yoshikawa asks, moving away from you to grab her own controller again.
âShut up, Yocchan,â Abe says, scowling. âYouâre the worst.â
âLove you too.âÂ
You ignore them both to pick your character, but you canât help the smile that plays across your lips as they continue to argue with each other. Abe curls herself around you, sticking her tongue out at Yoshikawa. You shift to give her room and your mark catches the light, reflects it back like morning dew.Â
For a moment you stare down at the words that have already changed your life so much. Sometimes you wonder how much more they can take from you.
âItâs my choice,â you say. You freeze, not having meant to say it out loud, but Yoshikawa just hums, settling warm on your other side
âYeah,â she says with a little hum. âIt is.âÂ
But it isnât just your choice.
You canât quite understand Takaoâs smile anymore. The nuances are lost in the space between the two of you, a language half-forgotten. The structure is there, but youâve lost some of the words.Â
You canât quite understand his choice, either.
âIâm sorry,â he tells you, a scant few weeks after you realize you arenât soulmates. The tips of his ears are pink, the color of the early dawn, and his eyes are glassy. âItâs just thatââ
âWeâre not soulmates,â you finish for him. Your heart is thrumming behind your ribs, a hummingbird battering against its cage. âRight?â
He winces. âYeah.â
âI didnât think it would matter.â
Maybe you should have known that it would.
He winces again; his hands tighten on the strap of his school bag. He stares at you, looking helpless, and you hate that you want to cradle his face in your hands. That you want to make it better for him.Â
âItââ
He cuts himself off. His lip trembles, wobbling like a spinning top, and it comes to you all at once. Itâs written in the space between you, in a language youâve both been speaking for months, one thatâs all your own.
Takaoâs lying.
âTell me the truth,â you demand, clenching your fists.Â
He looks away. âWeâre not soulmates,â he says. âThatâs all there is to it.â
âLiar.â
âPlease donât make this harder than it needs to be,â he says. âPlease.â
âThen tell me the truth.â
âIâm telling you the truth.â
âFine,â you say. âFine.âÂ
When you walk away, he doesnât come after you.Â
***
You hide yourself away among the hydrangea bushes that line the library, settling yourself in a sea of powder-blue petals. You curl up, pulling your knees up against your chest, and cry quietly until your uniform skirt is damp.Â
âWell, thatâs not good,â Abe says.
You glance up to see her and Yoshikawa leaning over the hydrangea bushes, looking down at you with tender expressions. You immediately cry harder, starting to sob aloud.
âOh shit,â Abe says, pushing through the puffball clusters of flowers and dropping to her knees beside you. âDonât cry, donât cry, itâs okay.âÂ
âTakao?â Yoshikawa asks.
You nod.Â
She smiles, sharp and mean. âAbe, stay with her. Iâll be back.â
You shoot to your feet, grabbing her by her uniform sleeve before she can take off. âNo!â you yelp. âNo, Asako, donât do anything!â
âWhy not? He made you cry.âÂ
âHe justâitâs okay.â
âItâs not.âÂ
âHe doesnât want to be with someone who isnât his soulmate,â you say softly. âThatâsâŚheâs allowed to make that choice.â
She clicks her tongue. âHe didnât strike me as the type.â
âMe either,â you mumble. âI think heâs lying.â
âWhy would he lie?â Abe asks, tilting her head.
âDonât know,â you say. âBut it justâŚit just seemed like he was. Please leave him alone.â
You donât know how to explain it. Youâre not sure you can. Itâs a strange little language, the language that forms between two people who havenât spoken to each other, and youâre not sure anyone who hasnât created that language between themselves and another could even begin to understand the alphabet of it.Â
Yoshikawa hums; her sly eyes are narrowed, the deep brown of them darkened to almost black. âFine. But if he makes you cry again, all bets are off.â
âYeah,â Abe says, nudging you up to your feet. âAnd we know where you hide, so no point in trying to keep it from us!â
Your laugh is watery, but itâs light as it leaves your lips.Â
Abe loops her arm through yours. âLetâs go,â she says. âItâs lunchtime and Yoshikawa has a good bento today.â
âAnd itâs not for you,â Yoshikawa says lazily, stuffing her hands in her pocket as the three of you start to walk. âSo donât even try it.âÂ
You laugh again and they bicker all the way to the classroom. Youâre in the middle of grabbing your own bento when you feel eyes on you and when you look up, Takao startles, looking away quickly. You bite your lip as the tips of his ears go pink once more.Â
He glances at you again, and his eyes linger on your face. When his lips curl down into a small frown, you realize he knows youâve been crying. He looks away as the twist of his lips goes pained.Â
Yoshikawa steps in front of you, blocking your view of him. âCâmon,â she says softly, chivving you towards her desk where Abe is already sitting. âLetâs go.â
You follow her after one last glance in Takaoâs direction.Â
It develops into a routine over the next few weeks. You get used to the feeling of eyes on you all over again. Takaoâs gaze feels silken against your skin, and though you shouldnât, you bask in it. Maybe youâre too used to it; it reminds you of the beginning, when all you had was fleeting looks and quiet gazes.Â
But now he looks away every time you look up, though his ears always give him away.Â
Still, thereâs a comfort to it. It doesnât go away, even as you simply circle around each other, caught in each otherâs orbit once more. This time, at least, you know that youâll stay this way.Â
Except two months after you go your separate ways, youâre assigned to work on a project together.
Your hurt has waned; itâs a healing bruise, now, only flaring to life when you press on it. The hopeful look on Takaoâs face barely even causes an ache. You stay in your seat, but he gets to his feet and comes to you as the teacher leaves.
âHi,â Takao says, fidgeting with the strap of his school bag. âIâmâif you want to switch partners to someone else, I understand.â
âDo you want to switch partners?â you ask.
âNot really,â he blurts out, and this time, his blush is bright, the apples of his cheeks dusted in heated red. âI mean, no. I donât.â
âOkay,â you say slowly. It feels nice, somehow, looking at him, at his small, timid smile and the way the sun catches golden on his skin. âI guess Iâm fine with it.â
âOkay,â he says. âOkay, IâmâIâm glad.â
âLetâs talk after clubs,â you say. âWe can figure out our topic then.âÂ
He nods. He stands there for a moment; itâs only when you raise an eyebrow that he jolts and heads back to his desk. When you look over, heâs got his hands pressed against his face. You think you see him mutter âidiotâ to himself.
The smile tugs on your lips without you even realizing it.Â
***
âI miss you,â Takao says, fifteen minutes into your third project session. âI miss you so much.âÂ
You go stiff.Â
The project has gone well so far. Youâve found yourself falling into easy communication with Takao, but youâve kept it strictly to the project, rarely going into your lives outside of school. Still, itâs easy in a way it hasnât been in a while. You find yourself smiling, and sometimes he even makes you laugh.Â
âOkay,â you say, sounding wooden even to yourself. âIâI donât know what you want me to say to that.âÂ
He winces. âYou donât have to say anything,â he says.
You mean to say okay, but what you say instead isâ
âI miss you too.â
Takao blinks. And then a smile is spreading across his lips, slow like the dawn and just as warm. âReally?â he asks.
Your cheeks heat, but you nod.Â
âDo you think we can be friends?â he asks, almost shy.
You bite your lip. âI thinkâŚI think we can try.âÂ
âIâd like that,â he says softly. âIâd really like that.â
You smile at him, slow and sure. âMe too.â
He smiles back, and the two of you turn back to your project.
You find that it takes time to learn how to be friends with Takao. Itâs not like Abe and Yoshikawa with the fluid ease of childhood friends, forged by years and years at each otherâs sides, memory after memory built into a firm foundation. Nor is it like your other friends.
Takao seems to inhabit a space all his own. Maybe he always will. It seems right that he would; it doesnât surprise you that he carved himself a place in your world without even trying.Â
It takes time. Eventually, even Abe and Yoshikawa warm up to him, until the four of you are spending summer nights together, popsicles melting down your fingers in the heat. You laugh through sticky lips and sit side-by-side despite the heat.
It feels good to have him back in your life, and high school goes by in a whirlwind of seasons, the years melting together until you graduate. Heâs by your side when you do ,along with Yoshikawa and Abe, the four of you taking pictures on the school lawn surrounded by your peers.Â
The four of you spend as much time as you can together before you head off to college, just a few scant weeks after graduating.Â
Itâs easy with Yoshikawa and Abe; the three of you are woven together, a tapestry of home. College is just another stitch, with the three of you attending the same one. You find a cute apartment just off campus, in a slightly worn building with wisteria dripping down the sides like honey. Yoshikawa and Abe like to hang laundry from the balcony; they says it comes back with a floral scent. The dishwasher is broken more often than not, the rooms are tiny, and you love it. So do they, and the three of you build a home together.
With Takao, itâs harder. You drift away from each other in college, pressed in on all sides by classes, studying, and local friends. It feels hard to find the time to breathe, let alone text Takao anything other than a fleeting check-in or a picture of something that reminded you of him.
Unlike before, it feels natural. It isnât without its edges but theyâre dulled, so that they press against your skin instead of cut. He simply fades from your everyday life until the ding of his text message is a surprise instead of a given.Â
When he walks back into your life in your third year of college, itâs like getting hit by a lightning bolt.
***
The izakaya is tucked away at the edge of the city, sandwiched between two small apartment buildings that have ivy spidering up the side of them. You watch as a sheet billows on a clothesline, rippling like water, the clothespins holding firm despite the strong breeze.Â
The fat tabby lazing on the edge of the izakaya steps doesnât even lift its head to look at you. Itâs sheltered under a verdant fern frond, part of the little forest of plants clustered around the entrance. Some of the plants are spilling out of their pots, sprawling out in great clusters of leaves, the tiny flowers dotted in them barely visible in the light of the nearby vending machine.Â
You crouch down by the cat unable to resist, and it blinks itself awake slowly, turning slate gray eyes your way. It sniffs at your knuckles when you reach out to it. It rubs its cheek against your hand once, and then gets to its feet, stretching mightily as your friends laugh from just inside the entrance. You try to pet it again but it pointedly turns away and curls up again under the frond, further in than before, a little forest deity hidden amid lush scenery.Â
You stare at it for a moment longer, looking at how its cheeks squish up against its paws.Â
âPouting doesnât affect Momo,â someone behind you says.
You look up, and then go still.
âHi,â Takao says, warm like the early morning sun. âItâs good to see you.â
âYou too,â you say, as if he hasnât knocked the breath from you. âHow have you been?â
âIâve been good. You?â
âAre we really going to do this?â you ask, standing up from your awkward crouch.Â
He smiles, and you think he might be swallowing down a laugh. âDo what?â
You scowl at him. âYou know what,â you say. âThe small talk.â
âItâs polite.â
âIs that your main concern? Politeness?â
This time, he does laugh, low and sweet. âNo,â he says, his eyes glittering. âYou are.â
Your cheeks heat. âYou canât just say that.â
âJust did,â he says. âAreâare you here by yourself?â
âWith friends.â
âDo you think I could steal you away for a drink?â
âYeah,â you say softly. âI think you can.âÂ
He smiles at you. âGood.â
He ushers you into the izakaya. Itâs warm inside despite the open windows, and the scent of fried food lingers in the air. Peopleâs chatter fills the room up to the rafters, little laughs peppered in like champagne sounds, little pops of joy. Thereâs another cat curled up on a barstool tucked away in a corner, a ball of white fluff that makes you think of dandelions.Â
Yoshikawa sees you first; when she sees Takao behind you, she raises a single elegant brow before turning back to your group of friends. She says something with a lazy roll of her shoulders, and suddenly, all of your friends are trying very hard to not look at the entrance.Â
âOh my god,â you mutter.
Takao laughs, the huff of air stirring against your nape. âTheyâre pretty obvious,â he says. âShould we go say hi?âÂ
âLater,â you say.
He follows you to the bar. Heâs close, and under the scent of fried food you can make out the faintest hint of his woodsy cologne.Â
You sit side by side, close enough to feel each otherâs warmth but without touching. The bartender brings you your beers, and you look to Takao as he taps the neck of his bottle against yours.Â
âItâs so good to see you,â he breathes, his dark eyes soft.
âYeah,â you say. âIt is.âÂ
One drink turns into two until youâre both sliding closer to each other in your seat, pressing into each otherâs sides. You barely keep yourself from curling into him. He leans in close when youâre speaking, so that his voice is rumbling low in your ear.Â
You share some takoyaki and then one of the biggest okonomiyaki youâve ever seen, the pancake stuffed to the brim with filling and heavily topped. When the food arrives, so does the white cat, meowing quietly at your feet as it winds its way around the rungs of your barstool. Takao holds you steady when you lean down to pet it, his hand firm on your lower back.Â
By your third beer, Yoshikawa and the rest of your friend group leaves. She gives you a little wave on her way out the door.Â
âSorry,â Takao says. âI didnât mean to take up your whole night.âÂ
âItâs okay,â you say. âItâs beenâŚreally nice.â
âJust nice?â
âGreat,â you admit. âItâs been great.â
He smiles, and itâs that same dandelion fluff smile you remember, sweet and fleeting.Â
âGood,â he says, taking a sip from his beer. You watch the way his forearm flexes. âListen, do you want to meet up again?â
âYeah, I would.â
His eyes crinkle. âGreat,â he says.
You bite down on your smile.Â
The two of you finish your beers between lazy chatter. Itâs comfortable, as if you never fell out of touch.Â
When you leave, Takao waits as you pet the white cat once more, delicately bumping your knuckles against its cheek as it rumbles out a purr. It meows pitifully when you stop, opening its blue, blue eyes with a disgruntled look on its face, and you laugh to yourself, kneeling to give it a few more pets.Â
You look for the tabby as you exit the izakaya but itâs gone, likely curled up amid some of the planters further back. You and Takao both stop at the sidewalk, carefully making sure youâre out of the way of any pedestrians, and for a moment, you just look at each other.
âSee you soon?â Takao asks.
âYeah,â you say. âSee you soon.âÂ
âGood,â he breathes, with his eyes so soft that it makes your cheeks warm.Â
You say goodbye, and each of you heads home. When you glance back Takao is already looking back at you from the street corner. You give him a little wave, and he jolts before hurrying off.
You smile your whole way home.
***
âItâs so hot,â you complain, flopping down next to Takao on the park bench. âCan we go to the conbini?â
âPopsicles?â he asks.
âNo, I want onigiri.â
He raises a brow. âHow does that help with the heat?â
âIt doesnât,â you tell him. âThe aircon does.â
He laughs. âOh, of course.âÂ
You head to the closest conbini, practically swimming through the humid summer air. The air is so thick that you could cut it; thereâs rain on the horizon, promised in the encroaching gray-blue clouds hanging low in the sky.Â
Inside itâs blessedly cool, the aircon hard at work. The two of you scour the aisles, picking out varying snacks and pointing out new flavors to each otherâyou try to make him buy a cream stew Gari Gari Kun popsicle, but he refusesâbefore you head to the cashier.
You settle in at one of the tables, opening your drink as Takao unwraps one of your onigiri, handing it to you before he busies himself with his own food. He gives you a little swat when you reach out for his snacks, making you retract your hand with a laugh. As you pull back, you wonder when the two of you fell back into rhythm.
Itâs close to the one you had in high school, but not the same. Thereâs something new twining through the rhythm, a swirl of notes that resonates through you. Itâs an easy flow, a soft ebb and tide, like the calmest of seas.Â
âHey,â Takao says gently.Â
âHmm?â
âWhere did you go, just then?âÂ
You blink and take a sip of your peach tea. It lingers sweet on your tongue as you meet his stoic gaze. His mouth tilts, just slightly, something tucked up secret in the corner of his soft lips.Â
For a moment, you just look at him. He meets your gaze easily; he lets you look your fill, as patient as ever.
âSorry,â you say. âNowhere important.âÂ
âOkay.â
You shake your head. âYouâre soââ you break off.
âIâm so?â
You bite at your lip. âYou,â you say. âYouâre so you.â
His smile is small, but it grows, as steady and sure as the sunâs rise.
âI hope so,â he says, almost flippant, but thereâs something soft in his gaze; it brushes over you like silk.
âShut up,â you tell him.
He just laughs, quiet and low.
The two of you chat as you eat, talking about Yoshikawaâs upcoming art show at a trendy new gallery. Youâve been waiting patiently ever since the curator first picked her up as a featured artist. Itâll be nice to go with Takao, for the four of you to be side-by-side again, something thatâs becoming as constant as it was in your high school days.Â
When youâre finished Takao takes all the wrappers and folds them up neatly, creasing them until theyâre practically origami. You bite down on your smile.
The summer air rolls over you as you step back into it, licking across your skin as only wet heat can. You shudder with it.Â
Still you meander through the nearby park, ducking beneath low-hanging branches hanging heavy with fruit, the citrus of them permeating the air. Itâs quiet, with just the distant shouts of the playground and the whisper of the leaves in the stirring breeze to accompany you both.Â
You find yourself at the koi pond without meaning to and Takao wordlessly heads to the food meter as you settle yourself on the rock wall that edges the pond. The surface ripples, orange and gold scales muted in the murky water like a sunset covered by clouds. You trail your fingertips over the surface, and giggle as they mouth at them.Â
Takao presses some feed into your palm when he comes back; the heat of him lingers there. Your mark glimmers in the light as you toss in the feed, a needlepoint flash of silver. You can feel Takaoâs eyes on it. But then the koi come up in great, arcing splashes, the quiet pond roiling like the angry sea in their fervor, and you laugh as you dodge the worst of it.
Takao chuckles, and he settles down next to you to hand you the last of the feed.
You curl into him despite the heat, skin against skin, a slick slide of a touch before you fall still. The koi are still churning up the water, their gaping mouths breaking through the surface, and you give them what they want. Scales flicker by, a mesmerizing firework show caught beneath the surface, and so it catches you off guard when Takao suddenly saysâ
âIâm sorry.âÂ
You go still.
âFor what?â
He shifts beside you; when you glance at him, heâs staring into the distance, his dark eyes caught on something that only he can see.
âFor high school.â
You breathe out through your nose. âSo youâve said.â
âI was scared.â
âSo youâve said,â you repeat.
He glances at you, then, and his eyes remind you of the vastness of the unending night sky, dark and glittering.
âIâm not scared anymore.âÂ
You suck in a sharp breath. He waits, ever patient.
âMe neither,â you say, curling your pinky around his, twining around him like thread.Â
He cups your cheek, his touch almost reverent, and presses his forehead to yours. âOkay?â he asks.
âOkay,â you breathe.
He leans in and kisses you. Itâs careful and sweet.
It feels like coming home.
He breaks the kiss when youâve stolen each otherâs breath away.
 âOur soulmatesââ he starts.
âIt doesnât matter,â you say breathlessly, kissing him again. Heâs smiling against your lips. Warmth floods you. You love him, you love him, you love him. Thatâs all there is. Thatâs all you need.Â
âIt doesnât matter,â you say again.
He presses his forehead against yours. âYouâre right,â he says. âIt doesnât.â
Until suddenly, it does.
***
You and your soulmateâShinsuke, you think, still tasting the honey of it on your tongue, Shinsuke Shinsuke Shinsukeâwatch each other.Â
The only sound is the steady fall of the rain.Â
Itâs picked up again, sending the hydrangeas eddying, spinning in a lazy current as their puffball blossoms catch the droplets. More petals flutter to the ground. The blue of them is stark against the dirt, and you think of what a storm leaves in its wake.
Shinsuke lets out a deep, slow breath, and you wince. His amber eyes have dimmed and the last of his smile has washed away, leaving just the dregs of emotion behind, too faint for you to read.Â
You feel too small for your skin; your heart is fluttering, a hummingbird thing, trying to press through the gaps in your ribcage. You take in a shallow breath. It tastes of the earth, of drenched soil and summer heat. You choke on it.Â
Shinsukeâs brow furrows as you take in another breath, even shallower than the last, and your heart is thrumming, and his eyes are so sharp, so knowing, so kind. Youâre caught in the amber of them, the resin of his gaze pouring over you.Â
Even the rain seems quiet now.Â
His lips part.
Your ribs start to crack; your heart thumps harder against them. Too strong, too fast, too loud.Â
His lips part, and you do the only thing you can.
âIâm sorry,â you gasp.
You run.
383 notes
¡
View notes
Text
Minor Feelings // PREVIEW!!
Shanks (opla/anime) x OC (female)
Rating: overall will be mature
Story Will Contain: live action implied, age gap, OC had been kidnapped n shanks found her, arranged marriages, eventual smut, wild ass families
notes, eeeh love this preview ,, trying to decide whether to focus on this fic or my mihawk one
Masterlist, vote for which i should focus on here
-
Two days went by before Marisol's eyelids finally began to flutter, her extremities slowly stretching outwards like a cat. Twitching fingers attempting to grasp at the unfamiliar plush bedding that surrounded her as tiny mewls left her lips. The next thing she noticed was the sound of waves, the sound of a bell ringing in the distance. Then a scent of fresh pine sparked her brain into overdrive, nose contorting in confusion as tingles ran down her spine.
Her morning bliss, gone within mere secondsâan obvious, heavy gaze had been focused on her form and she finally felt it. Alarm bells went off inside her head. Freezing under the blankets, fear tickled from top to bottom as she thought through the sudden situation. This wasn't the bed or room she'd gone to sleep in. And her gut instincts ran rampant with no sense of fight or flight- no sense of if she were safe or in danger. And as her breathing grew heavier turning into quick gasps, it alerted the figure in the corner she was properly conscious.
"You're awake." a thick, gravelly voice she couldn't register spoke, "been a few days, was gettin' worried," the man continued, "couldn't have ya dyin' in my bed."
She debated staying under the covers with the false pretense of protection- If I can't see him he can't see me. But if she'd learned anything about disobedience during her long 24 years of life, was it never ended well. Yet her thirst for adventure and answers always won out in the end. So slowly her grip on the blankets tightened as she pulled them from over her head, letting her face feel the cooler air of the room. It took a second to adjust to the light streaming in from the windows, but when she did, what Marisol saw made her sigh in defeatâ
Red hair. A large man with claw marks over an eye. Her stomach dropped as he readjusted his position from where he sat giving her a better look of him. Quickly her mouth ran dry as her brain wracked every conversation she'd had of renown pirates.
Marisol's heavy and still sleep ridden eyes widen in fear, surprise, as she scoots backwards on the bed create more distance between them. Realization dawned. An emperor of the sea was staring her down with dark eyes, and it made her blood run cold. Maybe all along, he'd been the one to plot her kidnapping and simply waited to show his face. Waited until she was broken down.
"So you know who I am." smugness reeked from the smirk on this lips.
She nodded slowly, dazed and still waking up.
"And you are?"
Clearing her throat she croaked out, "I'm Marisol." but wouldn't he already know that?
"Shanks," he replied, leaning back and crossing his arms across his large chest. The top few buttons of his shirt undone, showed muscle underneath that drew her eyes in with shame.
"Why did you take me?"
For a second, he looked perplexed, "take you?" he hummed, "I mean, suppose I did take you from that ship of ridiculously stupid pirates... you wanted to be there?"
"What- no! I-" clammy fingers squeeze together, warmth rising to her cheeks as she grew flustered, body literally shaking from the overwhelming-ness of the situation, "I'm confused."
"You and me both mama, now what were y'doin' locked in a room on that ship of ragtags? They had no business tryin' to board us I can tell you that."
Marisol grimaced as she placed her head in her hands, bringing her knees to her chest. The wheels in her head turned. She needed to think fast- needed to seem genuine in her confusion without revealing too much, not that she wasn't confused. Because, while she didn't understand why pirates came for her, she also understood her Father's unfortunate stature had everything to do with it. And Marisol can't afford for the extremely wanted pirate in front of her to find out her surname. But the panic in her chest made it easy, because she felt she were being swallowed whole.
"I don't even know what day it is. Or what part of the sea I'm in... don't even know how long I've been gone." Marisol's voice was so quiet that Shanks wasn't sure he'd heard her correct. Like a little child in trouble mumbling apologies, the dejection was written all over her.
"I think I understand now." sighing, Shanks got up with a grunt and made his way over to his bed where the strange girl sat. She looked up to follow his movements- watched as he kneeled beside the bed, only an arms length or two away, "it's August 20th."
An incessant ringing reverberated in her ears. Marisol felt her surroundings go blurry, numbness taking over, "fuck," is all she could mutter. The musk of pine invaded her senses as she prodded her fingers into her temple, "it was July 11th yesterday.."
#opla shanks#shanks x reader#shanks headcanons#shanks#opla#one piece#one piece live action#fanfic#hhighkey minor feelings
66 notes
¡
View notes
Text
Mario Stuff Headcanons
and by mario i mean the immortal fool au. sorry. you're not getting any game canon HCs from me ever again... not that I've written any in the last 15 years...
You know mine already as an ifool reader but
Mario and Luigi (both in their mid-late 30s) never have much involvement in my comics, so theyâre just cis dudes with unknown sexualities for all i know right now,
actually, scratch that. as of this post, ifool Mario is dating Toad
Geno (age 4000+???), Stars in my AU physically cant be sexed and align to genders based on their interactions with modern society and interactions with other stars based on who gendered themselves on THEIR exposure to the mortal world. He presented himself as masculine, which was carried over into a physical presence when Starlow made him human based on her own personal love for yaoi media. Once he discovered sexuality as a human, he fell into pansexual territory, dominantly falling in love with peach but also having complex feelings for Kamek since they dated decades ago and all that missed opportunity of being physical is creeping up on him. Outside of those two, he has no real attraction preference.
Kamek (age 140) is bisexual/gender nonconforming. Before becoming Bowserâs caretaker and during his temporary retirement, heâs had a lot of exposure to the Beanbean kingdom where at least half the Beanish population is gender nonconforming. Itâs the norm here and nobody even labels it âgender nonconformingâ. Any beanish that was a girly girl or manly man would simply boast it, but anyone that presented anywhere in between was normal. He started questioning his gender when disguising himself as peach, but just accepted himself as nonconforming and made himself more and more flamboyant whenever away from his koopa troop duties. Currently he is with Naval Piranha, but also returns those complex feelings Geno has on him and canât quite figure out if he still loves Geno in some way (they argue and insult each other a lot), or if theyâre making up for their relationship 50-60 years ago not being mutually sexual due to the physical limitations of Genoâs first inanimate object possessions. Other past relationships include Lima, Harhall, possibly Lakitu from Tetris Attack, had a one-shot date with Gadd and crushed on Toadsworth⌠and the list expands as i keep writing this guy.
Lady Lima (277), bisexual girly. Had a relationship with Cackletta, ditched her to be with Kamek who came in like Howl from Howlâs moving castle, then dumped him and devoted her life thereafter to make both Cacky and Kamek miserable whenever she wasnât on shift. Currently in a stable long distance relationship with Toadsworth, so long as her past is buried under a rug.
Fawful (18), I was playing with the idea of him being transmasc, but itâll conflict with ifoolâs prologue. Regardless, he presented masculine since he was a child. Heâs otherwise aroace with his asexuality being of the absolute sex-repulsed kind. I have an OC ship for him that i wanna tap into in future comics as homage to my friends in the fawful fandom, and also, to bring to the table that aroace relationships can actually exist Fawful also has a backstory of being a prank-wished stork child that Geno brought to the lives of Kamek and Lima when he took their sarcastic wishes literal during a debate on the existence of storks, so Fawful kind of has a mom and two dads here, but nobodyâs ever gonna talk about it Lima simply does not want to acknowledge that babies come from the stork despite literally getting one
Mallow (age 23 in the comic), still figuring himself out but is in a happy and healthy relationship with Gaz (20). He sees himself with a bit of effeminate charm whereas Gaz presents a bit more masculine, but theyâre both cis dudes
Gaz, absolutely gay, both in happiness and sexuality
Naval Piranha (50s), another aroace, but not sex-repulsed. She just wants to be around Kamek and spend all her time with him. It wouldnât matter what gender or anything he is. Sheâs just glued to him and making it work out. She knows his past relationships and is fine with Kamek being with others- so long as sheâs also friends with them. Technically, she does get on friendly terms with Geno since ifool, but doesnât understand why kamek, peach and others find him so âhot and sexyâ as a human as Naval personally finds him aesthetically boring
Cackletta (224 at time of death), not much is written about her, but lesbian
Gadd (age ???), cis man, i-dont-care-whoever-gives-me-the-time-of-day-sexual
#headcanons#mario#luigi#geno#geno smrpg#mallow smrpg#mallow#kamek#gaz smrpg#naval piranha#cackletta#e gadd#lady lima#fawful
18 notes
¡
View notes
Text
Guess That Ship Tournament Season 12: Submissions CLOSED!
The Concept: You describe your ship* to me, I pick out the submissions which I find most compelling and pit them against each other without revealing who they are, people vote on them, and their identities gets revealed once theyâre eliminated.
Submission Guidelines
*For the purpose of this tournament, relationships do not have to be romantic in nature. (Iâm sometimes going to use âshipâ as a shorthand, just know I mean ârelationshipsâ in general.)
Relationship can be between any number of characters.
Real people are accepted if theyâve been dead for more than 100 years.
Roleplay characters are accepted as long as the description only pertains to the characters and not the players.
Crossover ships are only allowed if the crossover is official.
OCs are accepted. (However, OC x Canon is not accepted. Please do not submit other people's OCs without their permission.)
No overtly NSFW submissions. (Mentioning they have sex or are a sex worker is fine, but try to avoid anything more than that.)
Two submission per person. (Do not submit the same ship twice. I cannot enforce this on Google Forms without forcing you to log in. So just be champs and respect this rule.)
Failure to follow these guidelines may result in all of your submissions being disqualified for this season.
Summary Guidelines
Selection Process: I will read through the list of descriptions submitted without reading their names and pick the most compelling submissions. Then, I will check the name to make sure there's no repeats.
Keep it concise, but also bring something unique to the table. Make sure to describe their relationship, not just summarize the events of the story.
Previous submissions for reference. The ideal submission should be 2-3 paragraphs, but you can make it as short or long as you want. Please keep in mind the longer your submission, the less likely it is to get in.
Tips on what to avoid while writing a summary can be found here.
Descriptions should be based on canon, not headcanon. (e.g. You can say âthey love each otherâ instead of âtheyâre loversâ if their romantic nature is debatable.)
Avoid author commentary. (e.g. "They're canonically x," "I love them," "Play/watch/read this," etc.)
Use canonical pronouns.
Avoid identifying information or setting specific giveaways. (i.e. Ninja village, space necromancers.)
When submitting OCs, please make sure to at least put a name somewhere. (e.g. "John and Bob by anonymous" or "OCs by Joey.")
The more popular your ship is the more vague the description should be.
Exclusions
Ships that were accepted in Season 7 onwards and ships that at least reached the semifinals in Season 1-6 are not allowed. For a complete list, please look here. (No need to look through the whole list, just Ctrl+F to find the ship you want.)
Any submissions from Harry Potter will also not be included.
Notes
I will not vet the ships/pairings for problematic content.
If you participate in this tournament, know that you run the risk of unintentionally voting for your nOTP. The mod does not take any responsibility for any distress that may cause you.
There will be a limit of one ship per media in the bracket. You may submit two ships from the same media, but keep in mind only one ship will be able to get in. (A series or franchise will generally count as one media, but they will be evaluated on a case by case basis.)
Submit your ships here! Submissions will be open until Monday, August 5th at 10 PM EDT.
Please reblog this post to spread the word! The more submissions, the better!
90 notes
¡
View notes
Text
American Apple Pie
Pairing: Low/Mid Honor Arthur Morgan and female OC.
Rating: Explicit
Summary: Savigne Ricci is a temporary guest at the Van der Linde camp. Her path crosses with the enforcer of the gang, Arthur Morgan, and despite their differences, a relationship develops between them. Whole lot of smut and fluff, slow burn-ish.
Chapter 30
AOC link:
https://archiveofourown.org/works/54945853/chapters/149566579
She was growing to like Shady Belle, or rather, disliking it less. If she were given a choice, she would have gladly returned to the former two spots, but the ride to work was considerably shorter and work was getting busier, so there was at least that.
Ecco hadnât acknowledged her since the last incident. She had been on edge for a long time, but as he continued to ignore her day after day, her wariness had passed. Just as she was getting lulled by safety, thinking whatever happened had been it and that wasnât so bad after all, he showed up at her station as if he could read her mind.
âGo to my office, Savigne.â
She froze and broke out in cold sweat. Several moments she lingered, unable to make her feet move. Even though nobody was paying attention, she felt like everyone knew, that all of Saint Denis knew and talked behind her back. She felt deep shame despite not having done anything at all as she slowly walked up the stairs. When she arrived at his office, it was empty. There was only one chair. So she waited, standing across from his desk.Â
A minute passed. Then two. Then ten. After twenty minutes she checked her pocket watch and wondered if she was going crazy, if she had dreamed up the entire thing. She watched the slow, tedious crawl of the hands of the watch. Thirty minutes. She vacillated between going back down and waiting on. Maybe he had forgotten? Maybe he was sidetracked? She remained rooted, too afraid to go against his word. Her feet hurt from standing all day but there was nowhere to sit down, so she stood on. The days were shorter now, she watched the window darken and looked at her watch again. Forty-two minutes. He must have forgotten she told herself. Iâll wait five more minutes and then Iâll leave.Â
Five minutes later she thought what's another five minutes. She shuffled on her feet and timidly eyed the desk. The temptation to lean against it was overwhelming. The pain on her feet moved up to her lower back. Next time she checked the time, it was an hour. She went to the door and looked out. Chef Ecco was nowhere to be seen. Again she thought she should leave. It was getting late and she was tired. And yet, she returned to the room and stood around. The fear of offending Chef Ecco even more than she had and inviting his ire intimidated her. He was already clearly displeased with her and he could fire her. Then she would eat into her savings and her savings were for the cabin.Â
The notion of the cabin gave her strength and she ignored the pain pulsing in her lower back by going over recipes in her head. When she ran out of those she wanted to check the time again but didnât, afraid to see how late it was. The room got dark. She didnât know if she should turn on the gas lamp so she stood there in the dark for what felt like hours as the pain in her legs became unbearable. She felt shamefully weak and small, debating how she could allow herself to be treated like this and counter-debating that after all the waiting she had done, it would be foolish to leave now.
Saint Denis transformed outside the window as the arc lights in the streets flickered on. She started to fall into a dreamy state of mind where she hung in limbo, separate from everything. She thought about her childhood and all the orphanages she'd been through and the friends she had lost contact with one way or another and Sister Rodriguez and Sister DuBois and her ex flames, her ex bosses - the entire arc of her life that had started with her carried off the ship with only a tattered book and a photo pressed between the pages, cared for and fed by strangers to now: the chapter where she had somehow, some way managed to find her own family. Sometimes, when she was tense like she was now, she liked to construct imaginary moments in her head. Like introducing Arthur to her parents. Who - because she conveniently could 'remember' them however she wanted - were funny and mischivieous and warm. She imagined helping her mom in the kitchen but her mom would be the superior cook, teaching Savigne the best tricks while her dad opened the door and there was Arthur, with a bouquet of flowers in his hand. Scratch that, that didn't look right at all. Maybe a box of sweets? No, not right either. More like with a deer slung over his shoulder? God, that sounded absurd.Â
When she heard the door close behind her she jumped and broke out of her reverie. She looked over her shoulder and saw his silhouette standing by the door, a shadow against other shadows. He didnât light the lamp and he didnât move. There was a long silence.
He didnât apologize, but simply said âGood.â
She turned back to stare at the window. âI need to go home,â she said finally, a tad irritated. âMy boyfriendâŚâ
âI want to talk about your future prospects,â was the smooth interjection.
She heard the rustle of clothes behind her and for a moment panicked, thinking he was undressing. She was terrified to look, and so she didnât. Her heart was thumping in her chest. When he glided to stand right behind her she felt herself start to tremble.
âYouâre a good cook Savigne,â was the sigh in her ear. âBut thatâs not enough. Good cooks are a dime a dozen.â
She cleared her throat but when she tried to speak, her voice was gone.
She flinched when she felt his hand on her upper left arm, light and ephemeral, crawling up to her neckline to casually tuck loose strands of hair behind her ear.
âDonât move!â he ordered when she tried to shift away and she froze with the low command. She hated the idea that he could feel her tremble.
âDo you like it here?â was the same mild question he had asked her the first time and it triggered something in her, as if she was a lab rat, conditioned for it.
Not anymore, she thought but what she said was âIâm learning a lot, Chef.âÂ
He chuckled at her answer, fingers brushing over the shell of her ear as she resisted the urge to slap his hand away.
âHave you learned that everything has a price?â
She wasn't sure how to answer this loaded question and for long moments just watched the dust motes lazily dance in the beam of light that was coming from the streetlamp.
âI need to go home,â she droned again finally, feeling short of breath. âMy partner will be worried.â
She couldn't see his face as he stood behind her left shoulder but sensed the flare up of his anger. A huff of disappointment as he shifted to her right. She held very still as fingers spidered down her chest, lightly circled a breast. Suddenly a flash of the Murfree incident sparked in her mind and it was like a gut punch. These two men touching her against her will overlapped and for a moment a sense of dislocation and confusion washed over her and she wasnât sure where she stood in space and time.Â
âWhen youâre here, be here,â he snarled and the feeling passed as the present solidified.Â
She felt his palm ghost down her breast and bile rose in her throat as her shuddering intensified. The slow, deep intake of a breath behind her right ear told her that he enjoyed her discomfort.Â
âI have an excellent job for you,â he muttered as he came around to stand before her. His hands, deceptively strong after years of kneading and scrunching and molding, held her waist, before they traveled up. His breath smelled of peppermint as he puffed in her face and she had a distant thought that she would hate the scent from here on throughout her life.
Then something very strange happened - Savigne felt herself fracture into two.
She stood there as he gently palmed her breasts, sensitive and swollen with her expected period, revolted at herself for letting it happen but too hypnotized to act.Â
But she was also outside the window, screaming mutely and beating on the glass to wake herself up.Â
His lips moved but she didn't hear him. What she heard was the smack of the palms on the window pane - tha thump, tha thump, tha thump - a deep, primal sound she heard whooshing and beating in her ears.
Only when the hands on her breasts clenched and a needle sharp pain jolted through her, did she manage to whimper and take in a shuddering breath and the cotton in her ears fell off. The world became louder, sharper, warmer.
ââŚgood,â she caught the last bit of the sentence cooed softly in her ear.
She stood swaying on her feet, trying to gather her thoughts when he idly stepped around her and disappeared behind her back.
A match was struck and the light that flicked on in the room startled her and hurt her eyes.
Footsteps approached, then passed her as Ecco walked around his desk and sat in his chair.Â
He huffed at the paperwork piled on his desk and casually checked the folders, stacking them up in their proper order. She watched him, marveling how she had thought him handsome and charming. He looked slimy and dirty, beads of sweat lined up on his greasy mustache; hair caked stiff with pomade, littered with specks of dandruff.
âThis job I have for youâŚâ he sighed, distracted by the folder in his hand. âThere is this ball coming up. I was invited to cook for it. And Iâm going to pick a few people to come alongâŚâ His dark eyes turned up to her, dull and lifeless. âInterested?â
She felt incapable of speech but someone did it for her and she heard herself stupidly say âA ball?â
He nodded. âExtra money.â
She blinked at him. The speed with which he entered and left his moods intimidated and unbalanced her because she never knew what he would do a moment later, and she suspected that this was intentional. Very little with Chef Ecco, after all, was accidental. The precision and mastery of his meals, of his plating, of the set up of his menu - all things practiced and perfected through years of observation and mastery. This was no different to him than cooking she realized - something to be done with excellence and unsentimental perfection.
âGood money,â he pushed, taking her silence as hesitation.
Whoever was working her vocal cords, did it again:
âI never cooked for a ball before.â
He waved her argument away, all amicable smiles and easy banter. âSame thing. Easier if you ask me. Lots of cold hors dâouvres and whatnot, so a lot of the cooking happens ahead of time. Lots of pastries. Youâre good at those.â
âIf you say so, chef,â she droned listlessly.
âI know you are,â he said warmly. âI actually have something particular in mind. SomethingâŚmore traditional. Something a bit more Italian. Anyone can make a pie,â he said with mild disdain, âI want a desert thatâs more unique.â
âLike what?â It was a surreal experience - hearing herself speak but not doing the talking. Like listening to her own voice on a gramophone but having no memory of the recording.
âHow is your frutta martorana game?â
âI havenât made thatâŚin ages,â she heard herself concede.
âYouâll be great, I know it,â he waved her discomfort away. âYouâre great at anything you set your mind to.â The warmth of his voice bolstered the idea that she was dreaming because surely this couldn't be the same man from minutes ago?
She felt her facial muscles strain as her mouth was pulled into a smile. âWhere is this ball?â
âMr. Bronteâs mansion.â The panes of her face moved and whatever expression that resulted in, made him ask âYou know him?â
âI know of him.â She heard the tone of wariness in her own voice but he didnât.Â
âImportant man,â he said and she noticed his nod of approval. âAnyhow, I mean to surprise him with something from the motherland. What do you think?â
âI think itâll hit the mark,â Savigne said and her voice sounded muffled to her ears, like it was coming from the bottom of a well. âEspecially if heâs Sicilian.â
He smiled conspiratorially when he replied: âI think so too.â
Then a jolt of her inner voice:Â Refuse.
âIâŚâ she cleared her throat, âIâm not sure if Iâm the right choice for the job, chef.â
âDonât be silly,â he said dismissively, thumbing through the folder again.
Donât take this as payment for what he did.
âWhy, what did he do?â she thought morosely and the memory of minutes ago flared up in her. She was alarmed by how efficiently and quickly she had managed to rugsweep it.
Refuse!
âI donât want to embarrass myself.â
He blinked up at her.Â
âBut what about the cabin?â she thought helplessly. âHe said good money.â
Her inner voice was sharp like barbwire she had curled a fist on:Â REFUSE!
âIâm not a good fit,â she said with more determination.
His eyes hardened at her rejection and her breath caught in her throat. âNonsense,â he said, giving her a weighed look, âYouâre perfect. You will accept. I donât do charity, you earned it.â He looked her a long moment, eyes boring into her, daring her to argue and to her own horror, proud as she imagined herself to be, she wilted under that stare like a child. Not that long ago she had believed Dutch to be intimidating, but when the moment came, she had easily stood up to, spoken back at Dutch. Ecco, not so much.
âYes, chef,â she whispered at last.
He nodded curtly. âI stocked up marzipan. Practice until the ball. Now go.â
She dreamily marched out of the room on stiff legs and found herself in the street. Then she walked around for a while, her mind blank and dim, turning random corners, brushing against strangers. When she found a deserted alley she doubled over and threw up. One half was horrified to be vomiting in public like some drunkard, but the other half felt relieved as if she had thrown up all the dirt and ugliness and she was clean again. She stumbled away in shame and found a fountain and washed her mouth and her face. Then she walked some more and as she walked, like the focus of a pair of binoculars being adjusted until the image became crisp, her shattered halves glided over one another and solidified into one person again.Â
When she looked up, she was surprised that she was standing across the door of the steakhouse. She stood there for a long time, watching the door, unsure what to do.Â
Go home, said her inner voice eventually. Itâs late.
She knew it to be true but still hesitated with indecision.
It was nothing. You're fine. Go home to your family.
The word mushroomed a deep feeling of warmth and safety in her gut and she turned around towards the stables to pick up Cricket.
Whenever she was late, he would sit by the main camp fire because it was right across the horses and today was no different. He jumped up and strode over when she rode in.Â
"Was 'bout to ride out for ya," he said when he arrived. "Yer late."
She turned around and hugged him tightly and he stiffened a little with surprise. Embracing him all the way out by their distant tent used to make him uncomfortable, now he merely tensed up here in full view of the gang and it made her inexplicably but also immeasurably happy.
"Woman, yer drunk again?"
"No," she chuckled into his chest.
He gripped her shoulders and held her out to look at her face. He must have smelled the droplets of vomit on her clothes. "Ya got sick?"
âThrew up,â she sighed. âDid a lot of tasting today. Something I ate must have been off.â If he heard her lie, he didn't push. Instead he pulled the saddle off Cricket as she fed him an apple. Then he took the basket from her and strolled alongside her to their tent.
She thought about telling him about the ball but she knew he wasn't going to like it and she didn't have the energy to fight him about it tonight. âHow was your day?â she asked instead.
âFine,â was his typical stoic retort.
"My back is hurting something fierce," she sighed, giving him a side eye. "A massage would be nice."
"That so?" he grinned.
"But someone has to clean me up first."
He hummed with amusement.Â
"Think you can help me with that?"
"I can try, ma'am."
The next day Chef Ecco was gone out of town and Savigne burst with so much joy at the news, she got into a work frenzy. It was as if she had twice the energy to spare as she chopped and whisked and shucked, food appearing in front of her like magic. One of the plates she prepared as a suggestion for the upcoming winter menu was so brilliant, the sous chef came over and inspected it from all angles and praised her until she turned red. She grinned self consciously, shy but proud and Sarah gave her a âwell doneâ smile from her station which boosted her spirits further.
Then she left Antoineâs and headed right to the market and shopped until her basket grew heavy. She saw a little dirty kitten in a corner and cried a little, then almost lost her head in a heated argument with the butcher, then went to pick up Cricket and found herself prattling to Jebediah about how to make remoulade, all the while ignoring the deep confusion and disinterest in his face.
That evening she cooked Arthur meatloaf and sat watching him eat with gusto after her own meal was done.
âDo you chew? Like, at all?â she said with a mixture of concern and disgust.Â
He grunted and nodded in confirmation, her sarcasm lost on him.
She sighed and watched the gang idle about, feeling antsy and restless and brimming. In her mind, she was gearing up to have a fight with him because she knew he wasn't going to like her cooking for Bronte and just then the universe decided to trip her:
âBronteâs gonna have a ball in a few days.â he said around his food. ââM tellinâ ya so you donâ spin tales in that head oâyours when ya see me all fancy.â
She blinked at him, stupefied. âW-what?â was all she managed a long while later.
He ran his tongue along his teeth and took a sip from his whiskey before he clarified: ââM goinâ to some silly ball. Donâ want ya to think 'm meetin' a woman or some other nonsense cause I cleaned up.â
âFirst of all..." she said coolly "...I don't have a single jealous bone in my body." She ignored the dry side eye he gave her. "And second, I guess I'll see you there!"
"How d'ya mean?"
âIÂ have been asked to cook for the ball," she gloated and sat back in her chair. He gave her a sharp look and swallowed his food. âWhat?â she said with unease when he remained quiet.
âWaitinâ for ya to say you refused.â
âWhat!? I canât refuse.â
His eyebrows rose. âSaid you was asked, didnâ ya?â
âItâs not that kind of asking,â was her annoyed answer. âI was politely told.â When he didnât divert his gaze: âWhat now?â
âAintâ a good idea.â
She huffed in disbelief. âYou just told me youâre going yourself!â
He completely breezed over that point. âYa donâ wanna mingle with these folks, Savigne.â
âWhoâs mingling? Iâm just going to be in the kitchen, cooking food.â
âNo.â
âExcuse me?â
âYer excused,â he said around his food after he stuffed an enormous piece of meatloaf into his mouth.
There was a long silence as she watched him chew with disbelief. âYou know, itâs sort of amazing, your hypocrisy.â She enjoyed his startled pause. âAre you seriously telling me youâre going but I canât?â Her anger sizzled.
His eyes flicked at her. âThis man took Jack.â
âYou think I hit my head or something? I know he took Jack.â
He continued his dinner for a few moments. âThen ya know it ainât safe.â
âHow come youâre going, anyway?â
âWas invited. With Dutch and others.â
She blinked again and almost laughed because he had to be joking. When he ate on as if it was perfectly normal, she said âAre you serious?â
He did his âsure, why wouldnât I be?â shrug.Â
âThe man who took Jack invited you guys to a ball?â
He hummed in affirmation. Still maddeningly eating. Her temper flared up properly.
âAnd you accepted?â
âDutch wants to go,â he said, taking a sip from his whiskey. âThinks we canâŚfind something for us there.â
She gaped at him as he refilled his bowl.
First of all, that meatloaf was heavy and rich and a third bowl was obscene.
Second, and more importantly, he actually had the audacity to ask her not to attend while he himself was going toâŚwhat were the words he used⌠âmingle with these folksâ.
A few moments later he did a double take at her face.Â
âYâalright?â
âActually no,â she sputtered, feeling the heat rising to her cheeks.
âWhatâs the ma-â
âThe matter is that youâve been lecturing me on not getting mixed up with these people and youâre actually going to the damn ball!â
âWoman, I ainât goinâ cause I wanna,â was his exasperated response.
âSame,â she quipped and crossed her arms.
âAinât the same.â
âWhy?â
He opened his mouth but she was faster:Â
âI tell you why,â she spoke over him. âYouâre a damn hypocrite, thatâs why!â she hissed. She hated how hot it was here. How stifling. She unbuttoned the top button of her blouse.
He seemed surprised at the fervor of her reaction and slowly put down his fork.Â
âNow listen hereâŚâ He cleared his throat and took a moment to grab the napkin to wipe his beard.Â
âNo! Who cares what your explanation is? Youâre a hypocrite. Youâll say this and then youâll turn around and say that!â She glared at the campfire. People still lighting fires in this heat was also obscene.
He looked at her a long moment. Eyed his meatloaf with longing and then looked at her again. She wanted to strangle him for that alone.Â
âI donâ like doinâ it,â he said, softer, with a timbre of appeasement as if she was a horse he was trying to calm down. It flared the fire in her hotter.Â
âWho said I was?! Itâs my damn job!â
âFair. But...â
âBut what?â God she wished he would say something outrageous. That fork was tempting her to grab it and stick it in his hand.
He gave out a frustrated sigh and tried a different angle: âSavigne. DarlinââŚâ
âOh this should be good.â
ââŚdonâ wanna worry âbout ya when âm on a job.â
âSounds like a you problem to me.â
âSure,â he said patiently. âBut yer my woman and-â
âArthur Morgan,â she growled as she felt the pulse starting to beat behind her eyes, âDo you actually think that means you can tell me what to do?â
âCourse not,â he scoffed. A moment later: âKinda.â He sighed at the glare he gave her. âYer safety is my job, âmember?â
âThis is not a treasure hunt,â she hissed. âOr living alone in a cabin. Iâm going to a god damn ball as a cook.â
âThis man as dangerous as them Murfrees,â he growled. âMore!â
âIâm around a dangerous man all day every day!â she said with some heat.
There was a moment of silence. âThe hell that mean?â
She quickly looked away.
âSavigne?â
âI was talking about the gang. I mean you. Technically.â she mumbled a while later.
He leaned back in his chair. âWas you now?â was his narrow eyed question. Given the circumstances, that save was nothing but spectacular and yet Arthur Morgan didnât buy it. He sat there like a bloodhound who had caught a whiff and was about to put his nose down to track it.
âYou know what,â she flustered and rose up. âYou go on and eat your meatloaf.â She turned towards the trees.
âThe hell ya goinâ?â
âGoing for a walk,â she yelled over her shoulder and ran off before he could sink his teeth into the problem and shake it out of her.
"God damn hypocrite," she seethed, stalking through the dark forest, working herself up. "The problem", she mumbled as she pushed branches out of the way and tripped on roots, "is men." The more she thought on it, the more apparent it seemed. At the root of all her problems: men. Infuriating, despicable, outrageous men. Mr. Rochester? Man. Murfrees? Men. Bronte? Man. Dutch? Man.
Ecco her mind whispered and she flinched at the thought, then quickly stuffed it away.
She fanned herself, feeling all hot and bothered. Her head swam and there was an odd pulse between her legs. She wished her period would finally come so she could be done with it. For weeks now she had been stuck on this ridiculous Ferris wheel, going round and round from angry to aroused to anxious to elevated.
"Men are the problem,â she muttered. âTheyâre not good for anything.â
An image flashed in her mind of Arthur thrusting into her, his eyes devouring her as the table under her creaked furiously.
She halted and cleared her throat. "Okay now," she mumbled, "pull yourself together, what the hell?Â
"The problem is men", she started again but then she remembered the feeling of his trigger finger inside her, brushing her sensitive spot and making her shiver.
She stopped, panting with confusion and a little horrified at the coiling in her gut.
"No, no, no, no," she hissed. "The problem isâŚ"
The way he had moaned her name when she was on her knees, pleasuring him on his birthday.
She felt herself get wet and gasped with disbelief.
Suddenly she heard his running foot falls behind her.Â
"Savigne!"
She dived into the thicket, slowly so the bushes won't shiver and crawled around as carefully as she could.Â
"Ya gonna make me hunt you down?" he called, amused, and he already sounded closer. âAinât gonna take long, tell ya that.â
Silence. She stood stock still. The ego of this man, she thought, incensed.
"Last chance, Savigne," he drawled, closer still.
Even from here she could hear the grin in his voice and it did make the coil in her gut shiver. She listened to the crunching of his steps draw near and softened her breath. Moments later his boots appeared in her sights.
"So be it," he chuckled darkly.
He dropped down to his haunches, back turned to her and inspected the ground. This made her very uneasy and she almost jumped up to protest that itâs unfair. She hadn't taken tracks into consideration!
A moment later he rose up and walked off her field of vision. She took a silent breath of relief. She was about to move on but then thought that he was way too quiet. Maybe he was waiting for her to pop out? So she sat there, listening with utmost attention to the deep silence. Her hands closed on a thick stick and she carefully hefted it, rose just a little and threw it far to her right. The crunch of steps heading in that direction made her grin and she slowly slithered through the undergrowth in the opposite direction.
Idiot, she thought and shook her head. That was the thing about men, they always pranced around like they ruled the world butâŚShe stopped in her tracks. Men did actually rule the world. Whatever, she thought, thatâs not the point.
She emerged a while later and peeked up carefully to look behind her. Nothing. She smugly brushed her skirts and turned around with a grin on her face and almost screamed with surprise. He was standing right there, one shoulder pressed against the tree, arms crossed, hips angled away. She gawked at him then morosely turned to the direction she came from in disbelief, then turned back to him again.
âYa know,â he drawled, eyes locking to hers, âthat was kinda embarrassingly easy.â
âYou cheated!â she yelped.
âThat so?â
âYeah, you tracked me! Doesnât fucking count!â
He chuckled and bounced off the tree. âNext time,â he said lowly, âmaybe donâ stomp so hard ya leave tracks.â
âYou god damnâŚâ she hissed as she marched towards him. The fact that he was utterly unfazed by her menacing approach irritated her to no end. ââŚsmugâŚcockyâŚconceitedâŚâ He merely straightened to loom over her, rolling his shoulders, visibly amused by her fury. ââŚman!â she spat.
It was hard to say which one of them was more shocked when she found herself gripping the lapels of his shirt to pull him down and crushing her lips against his. He froze with surprise for a moment, then - always a man who never rebuked her advances - swung his arms around her and kissed her back just as aggressively, lips and tongue moving ferociously against hers.
âIâm going to that ball,â she hissed and grabbed his hair and jerked his head lower as she kissed him again. He grunted with the pain but followed her command, hands grasping her waist to crush her against him.
âThe hell yâare,â he grunted as he walked her backwards and threw her against the tree.
She felt a shudder run through her from head to toe as her hands flew to his gun belt. âYou donât give a damn about what I want, do you?â she growled as she reached for his trousers next and almost yanked the buttons off in her haste to undo them while his hands hungrily clutched her breasts and his mouth descended on hers.
âCourse I care,â he snarled but his breath hitched as she fell to her knees in front of him and immediately took him in her mouth. He flinched with surprise and couldnât avoid the loud moan that escaped his lips. His cock stiffened in her mouth and she hummed with pleasure, gliding her lips up the shaft to take him deeper. One of his hands flew to the tree to support himself as a shiver went down his legs while the other tangled with her hair, undecided between drawing her closer and pushing her away. The decision was made for him when her nails raked the back of his thighs as she twirled her tongue around his swelling head and then proceeded to swallow him to the hilt while he moaned again and hissed a Christsakes above her. She moaned too, feeling the burn of the fire between her legs and the wetness soaking her bloomers.Â
She sucked harder, setting a ruthless pace as he squirmed above her and his moans grew louder than he usually allowed himself to be. âChrist!âŚwomanâŚohâŚjeeeesusâŚahâŚSavigneâŚdamnâ. It was like music to her ears, especially the soft cry that he let loose every time the tip of her tongue touched under his swollen head. She felt besotted with lust, absolutely drenched in it, she felt like she could fuck him till morning and then some. Her head was swimming and her cunt was aflame. Arthur was writhing above her, stunned and reduced to a blabbering mess and she felt like she would come just by listening to the sounds he was making. The power she held over him at that moment was like fiery whiskey, going straight to her head.
She gasped with surprise and disappointment when he pushed her off and roughly grabbed her arm to pull her up. She was turned around and shoved against the tree. âLies! You donât fucking care,â she stammered as hands pulled up her skirt and ripped off her bloomers.
âWomanâŚâ he growled into her ear as his fingers found her dripping folds. Her ass was pulled back harshly and she tried to steady herself, gripping the bark as he groaned and immediately pushed into her. She was so wet, he glided in smoothly despite his size. He gasped her name and swelled bigger in her with excitement.
ââŚwould burn the world for ya,â he sighed in her ear, kissing her neck as he pulled out almost completely before the next sharp thrust that made her whimper.
This rendered her speechless for a moment and when she flustered and tried to come up with something witty, his hands pulled up her thighs, lifting her to the tip of her toes as he fucked the breath out of her lungs. She merely managed a raspy cry of ecstasy as he gently bit her neck and increased his pace. In the back of her mind there was a certain pride to have driven him this wild because even at his neediest, Arthur had never taken her rough like this. She bit into her lip to muffle herself and mewled with the pleasure, feeling every nerve in her body light up with fire. Just when she thought it couldnât get any better he angled her slightly, making her eyes roll back and her toes curl and a few more smacks later she was undone as her mind turned white with the force of her orgasm.Â
He whispered a curse as his motions became more vigorous and desperate and soon followed her, the pitch of his gasps rising as he emptied himself into her. Her eyelids fluttered and the sharp sensation of rapture spread through her before it slowly dulled like a forest fire that had run out of trees to burn. She listened to the drumming of her heartbeat in her ears, her head still swimming in ecstasy. He carefully lowered her back on her feet, then steadied her with a light grip on her hips as she almost toppled, her legs still shaking. His panting behind her was loud in the hushed forest.Â
A few moments later he asked her if she was okay and she gasped a âyesâ as her hands crawled up the tree to straighten herself. He pulled his trousers back up and buttoned them, still breathing hard before he turned her around to look at her face. His thumb glided over her lower lip that she had punctured with her bite and his eyes, still churning and stormy, locked on hers before he lowered his forehead on hers. His harsh exhalations plumed down her face as he pressed her against himself with his hand on her lower back.Â
âSavigneâŚâ he managed between the puffs, â...ya possessed?â
âI think so,â she whispered, struggling to catch her breath, too. âSorry.â
He scoffed, then kissed her temple. âAintâŚcomplaininââŚbutâŚhate it when yaâŚrun off.â
âDidnât lookâŚlike youâŚhated it,â she wheezed.Â
He chuckled lowly and retrieved his gun belt from the ground with a grunt. She looked around, suddenly anxious if they had been far enough away from camp. The forest looked dark and empty. She couldnât hear the camp either but that meant little as her pulse was beating in her ears. She wiped her hands over her face, moist from the humidity and the sweat and tried to push her hair back into shape. Then she gathered her torn bloomers, gave him a pointed look that earned her a shrug and a grin and stuffed them into the pocket of her skirt.Â
âYou owe meâŚunderwear.â she panted.Â
âMe?â he said, running his fingers through his wild hair. âThis is allâŚon you.â
She groaned, now feeling abashed as she was coming down from that insane lust spike.
He chuckled at her state and took her hand, kissed her palm as he led her back. Their walk back was understandably a lot slower and calmer and went on for longer than she expected. They had managed to get pretty far with their furious chase so that was good at least. She beat her skirts to free any dust and debris. She saw the gated entrance of Shady Belle and wasnât pleased that they had returned this way.
âYou think theyâll know when they see us?â
He gave her a look. âIÂ would.â
She groaned again, tried to tame her hair once more as he grinned wider at her discomfort.
âThis wouldnât have happened if you hadnât followed me,â she hissed, annoyed by his nonchalance.Â
âCourse I followed,â he scoffed. âYa ran like a wild beast. SidesâŚyou know ya would have got lost.â
That much was true.Â
âYa cookinâ somethinâ in the food or what?â he asked, the grin on his face broadening.Â
âFunny,â she said drily, then couldnât help but click her tongue at his expression. He looked like the cat that ate the canary. âDonât look so pleased with yourself.â
He just smirked. His eyes were warm and she was somewhat taken aback to see unmistakable love in them. Of course by now, having gotten to know him as well as she did, she knew Arthur loved her. But he loved her in his own way â he never said it, nor did he show it in the usual ways people do. The expression of his affection for her was a lot more subtle, more reserved and complicated.Â
If she had been asked to explain it, she would have said that she knew he loved her because at times it felt supernatural how well he read her and it wasnât hard to follow that he only read her as well as he did because he paid attention to her. Nobody paid this much attention to someone if they didnât care enough about them.Â
But rarely did she see it in his gaze as obviously as she did at that moment. It set her heart aflame.
They were close to the camp now. She retrieved her hand and smacked him on the forearm. âStop. Grinning. Like. A. Fool!â she hissed.Â
âAm a fool,â he shrugged, still grinning.
She clicked her tongue again in distaste and dared a glance at the gang as they turned to stroll towards their tent. They seemed to be occupied but you couldnât trust this lot â they saw more than they let on and had way too much idle time on their hands to share the things between each other that they had missed.Â
He was sauntering as if he had returned from some gallant deed and she couldnât help but roll her eyes at his silliness. When they arrived at the table, his third meatloaf bowl was empty.
She glanced at his face and the stupefied vexation she found there made her erupt in chortles. She clamped her hand over her mouth when he gave her a baleful glance but the chortles devolved into cackles behind her palm. Â
âThought you was done with that,â John called from a distance.Â
âYou a stray or somethinâ?â Arthur barked. âEatinâ other peopleâs food?â
Savigne felt the sting of tears in the corner of her eyes.
John just shrugged and scratched the back of his neck, shifting on his feet. âCame to look for yaâŚfood was just sittinâ there.â
Arthur gave her another side eye as she stood there, laughing and dabbing the tears off her eyes with her sleeves. He grabbed the back of the chair and slammed it to the ground hard before he sat down to pull his whiskey in front of him.Â
âHow come ya didnâ steal the whiskey too, ya mooch!â he yelled, his eyes hard on John.Â
âI got whiskey,â John said dismissively.
âUnbelievable!â Arthur hissed.
âWas gettingâ cold and all,â John tried and was cut off by Arthurâs sharp gaze. âYou was gone,â he tried again, flustered.
âI like it cold, why I left it ya fool!â Savigne had just gained control over her cackling and almost broke into laughter again at that blatant lie.
âSorry Savigne,â the other man called over. âIt was delicious.â
She nodded in acceptance of the compliment as Arthurâs withering gaze made him finally scurry away.Â
She fell into her chair, exhausted from bickering and running and fucking and laughing and this time it was him who clicked his tongue at her amusement.Â
âThis here your fault,â he said, annoyed.
âWhat!? Why?â
âYer feedinâ these sponges and now we canât leave food out no more. Too many god damn coons about.âÂ
She chuckled at that. âAll I did was give them an extra pizza pie. Also, stop crying - that was your third bowl. Iâll make you more tomorrow,â she said, wiping the remnant of tears off her face.
He grumbled something incomprehensible as she sank on the other chair. In the distance, Javier strummed his guitar.
âIâm still going,â she said a while later.
âGuess âm gonna have to keep an eye on ya,â Â he huffed. Then: âI want lazan ya.â
She grinned at the way he said it. âOkay.â
He seemed mollified as he drank his whiskey and she sat with him, placed a hand on his and watched the Moon rise.
#arthur morgan x female reader#arthur morgan fluff#arthur morgan smut#low honor arthur morgan#mid honor arthur morgan#arthur morgan#red dead redemption 2#fluff#smut#fanfic#dom arthur morgan
15 notes
¡
View notes
Text
Introducing and Explaining My One Piece Oc with this meme and also just the power of Yap! No pictures yet. I cannot draw, I havenât found the right picrew/dress up games for her style and my spine, backbone and brain arenât rotted enough to use AI :p
Allow me to introduce to Jackie! She works for Big News Morgan and is his personal assistant at the WEJ and also Heiress Apparent to the Underworld.
Her job boils down to being a hired gossip. Sheâll go from pirate ship to pirate ship to schmooze and get/swap information, all with a friendly smile and a silly demeanour! She delivers packages too heavy for the News Coos and gives special secret editions of their magazines to their highest level pirate clients (think really interesting pirates that are sure to generate BIG NEWS and of course the Yonkos! They get the most preferential treatment). Sheâll be buddy-buddy with the Marines too but thatâs more for practicality and preemptive damage control for when Morgan inevitably pisses them off. She occasionally works her magic on civilians to get them better deals on paper and ink.
Devil Fruit: around the age of 5, Jackie stumble across an oddly red looking pear with an incredibly unnatural swirl that wrapped around the whole fruit, only ending where it point out a the stem. It later turned out she ate the Arrow-Arrow fruit and became a Direction Woman! She can create Arrows (the symbol to be clear) and while she shoot them out at people, the real power is how it changed her sense of direction. She always knows how to get to where she wants to go and can make arrows that she can stand or sit on to take her there! For example if she wants to head back to the WE NEWS, she just has to think of Morgan and feel this pull wanting to take her there. Itâs also useful for fighting! Place an arrow point up under someoneâs chin and it can hit as hard as an uppercut! She can send anything and anyone up down left right or spinning in a circle all from a safe distance, as long as she can see it, she can move it.
Appearance: Medium black skin with mid-back length curly light brown hair that fades into a gray ish blonde. Has a slightly crooked nose from a fight that wasnât reset before it healed so she wears a white bandage overtop of the bridge. Has a tooth gap. Gun metal grey round eyes, she rarely blinks honestly. Attire-wise she dresses as a cross between standard Newsies cosplay and classic aviator uniform. Her uniform is generally a frilly collared sleeveless button up with a ribbon delicately tied around the collar, a pair of dark pinstriped pants that are tucked into shin high lace up boots, finished off with some gloves that are definitely one size too big, a pinstriped paper boy hat and an aviator jacket with multiple patches from around the world covering the back and sleeves.
Personality: Sheâs incredibly two faced. In front of potential customers and coworkers sheâs sweet as sugar but put her in a room with just the higher ups of the Underworld and all that positive energy and charm disappears. On the clock sheâs very loud, comedically dramatic, and very forthcoming. The only time sheâs really in off the clock mode is when sheâs completely alone, where she has no one to perform for. The only person thatâs ever seen both sides to her (and doesnât hate her for it) is Big News Morgan and sheâŚappreciates it way more than sheâs willing to admit. And itâs not like the nice work side of her doesnât truly exist, it does! Itâs just so carefully folded and tucked into a corner of her heart that she refuses to acknowledge.
1. Her birthday is October 12th (International Newspaper Carrier Day).
2. 15 pre-timeskip and 17 post-timeskip.
3. Generally yes, itâs her uniform after all but sheâll change it up for a special occasion like a party or if itâs a day off.
4. British (boo đ
đ
).
5. Lucky number 7! BNM is resolute that sheâs the World Economic Journal's good luck charm! Jackie however doesnât believe in luck of any kind and they get into debates about it all the time.
6. Wind/Outside. If you were to sniff more youâd find hints of ink and that warm paper smell.
7. A soft grey.
8. Soups and Sandwiches! She likes how they can be made out of basically anything plus itâs super easy to carry around in her thermos and lunchbox and great for on the go!
9. Heavy, creamy foods like Mac and Cheese or Chowders. They make her feel all sleepy and lazy.
10. Work mostly which means all the people around the seas all the time.
11. Often, her job is just being outside a lot and a good public image canât be maintained if their most outgoing employee looks and smells like shit.
12. A universal donor (which I have decided to dub OX+ for the sake of simplicity.) She makes it a point to donate every couple of months.
13. Does it occasionally but everyone onboard hates it and begs her to stop.
14. If Devil Fruits are allowed? Sheâs winning easy. If theyâre not? Sheâd still take like 3rd or 4th place.
15. Tomato soup! She can whip it up super easily and itâs pretty tasty if sheâd say so herself!
16. Whenever she can. Her hours are incredibly spontaneous and she pretty much always on the go. Her sleep hours are precious to her and she has 4 different intricate locks on her bedroom door to prove it.
17. Comedic relief middle child who no one actually takes seriously.
18. A pigeon: half because of the whole carrier pigeon thing and half because theyâre both everywhere and nowhere all the time.
19. 5â7 pre-time skip and 5â9 post time skip. A little underweight honestly, which deeply concerns her coworkers considering how young she is.
20. Y'know Iâve never actually thought of her bust size before but likeâŚa B ig idk??
21. A simple big capital J.
22. Not super different honestly. At most she changes her uniform color palette from all whites and beiges and adds a dark magenta element (her pants and bow)
#one piece#one piece oc#Jackie#I hope you like my precious daughter bc I do#her backstory with Morgan will be next Iâm very excited!!#I might redo the DF explanation the more I look at it the less it makes sense đđ#her backstory is gonna be my greatest crime on this website: Iâm gonna make England a real place in One Piece
9 notes
¡
View notes