#warning tmi

[zephyrchama]

[Thoughts about an MC who gets periods]

Getting periods in the Devildom must be pretty rough. Demons probably don’t get them, and the number of humans freely wandering around has to be incredibly low. If MC takes the form of a sheep then they likely don't have to deal with it immediately, but eventually that's going to wear off and they'll revert back to a human. Does the Devildom even have pads and tampons for sale?

MC might have to sheepishly ask Barbatos if he can acquire some in bulk from the human world. Barbatos would remain professional as always when inquiring about the use of these products and their role in daily life. He'd have to report it to the prince. They're both aware of what periods are, but only in a vague "oh yeah, humans do that" kind of way. (Perhaps in the future, Lucifer could use his secret Akuzon account to order more?)

There's surely some plant or potion that prevents them, but they're not meant for long term use. Probably tastes nasty over time and covers human skin in a weird oozing rash if consumed too often.

A month or two into the exchange program, MC might have to call up Solomon for aid.

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“Can you help me with something?”

Solomon, not too interested in MC yet, agrees just to be amicable with his fellow human exchange student. They must be scared! They must be missing humans! “Is something on your mind?”

“You know how to do magic, right?”

What a silly question. It’s almost refreshing to hear. “I do.”

“Do you know… like, uh, smell…? Reducing magic? Something to cover up smells? Without being obvious, I mean. I feel like I stink and I was really hoping you could help me figure something out.”

How cute, he thinks. He can’t quite remember the time when he smelled fully human anymore, and he can’t really smell the distinct odor on people that demons can, but he knows demons can easily sniff out a human from afar. “Oh, don’t worry about that. It should go away on its own as you spend time here.”

MC isn’t convinced. “I don’t think it will…”

“Trust me. How are you finding Devildom cuisine? I know you’re not used to it, but eating more will help you adjust. I can whip up a few simpler dishes for you to try if you need help.”

MC is silent for a bit. Solomon thinks his job is done until they say quietly, “that’s not the problem.”

“What?”

“I’m pretty sure the brothers I live with can smell, uh, my cycle.” No use being coy about it, better get straight to the point. “They stare at me when I’m on my period. I think - no, I know - they can smell the blood. I’ve seen them sniff the air when I’m around. It's weird. And I can’t exactly stop it from happening every month.”

“Oh.” Now it’s Solomon’s turn to be quiet. He’s embarrassed and surprised, a little humbled, and also really interested in this problem. It’s not something he’s ever thought about before.

MC continues, “I think they can tell when I’m ovulating too, Asmo started lingering around more often, and Lucifer looked scarier than usual, and they all stare more, and-”

“I think I get it.” Solomon can’t stop his face from turning pink. Despite his usual grin, he doesn't think he’s ready to listen to the rest of MC’s sentence.

There should be an easy solution, but it’s something that warrants testing if MC doesn’t want the brothers noticing a sudden spell cast upon them. It could get mistaken for something malicious. Solomon says, “I might be able to help. Can you come over today?”

[leonardcohenofficial]

david byrne during "crosseyed and painless," stop making sense (jonathan demme, 1984)

[miwiheroes]

you know the period cramps are bad when i bust out stranger things season 2 episode 2

[littlexdeaths]

dude i think my mother in law just heard me masturbating and i honestly want to die rn

[ftm-radio]

My gender is 4 years old

...and four days, as of April 15th. This post is a bit late. 😅

Four years ago, all the confusing little puzzle pieces I'd been collecting came together in a genuine eureka! moment and I realized I was transgender. It was exhilarating and terrifying and it undeniably changed my life for the better.

The last few years have felt pretty damn slow and I've had to scramble over a few frustrating obstacles (never changing my name AGAIN, lmao, that was annoying as fuck) but it's all been worth it and now it feels like I'm really making headway.

I started testosterone this past year! I did that! I'm almost 7 months on T now! Currently on a dose of two pumps of gel, which I have only missed applying once in all that time because I was literally sick. The changes are gradual but they are real and they have already brought me so much joy and made me so much happier in my humble flesh prison. 💗

The most anticipated change for me (and for a lot of transmasc folks, I imagine) is my voice, and BOY (heh) am I happy to share this data comparison with you:

[ LEFT: A screenshot from the Voice Pitch Analyzer app, dated November 3rd, 2021. It shows that OP's voice registers fully within the female voice range. RIGHT: Another screenshot from the app, dated April 12th, 2024. This one shows that OP's voice registers mostly between the Androgynous and Male voice ranges. ]

My voice is so different now. It sounds different, it feels different, and in just the last week or so I swear it has gotten a little rougher and raspier and I am LIVING. I could not be happier!!!

...okay, fine, I could be happier lmao.

I'm adjusting to my deeper voice and still learning how to use it in a way I like & that feels best to me, so I'm starting to do some casual at-home voice training again after basically forgetting about the concept completely since 2021. (Whoops.) But I am already so much happier and more content with my voice than I have ever been in my life, so it's only getting better from here, lads. <3

I've also had to go to a lot of appointments and answer a ton of phone calls about said appts recently because I kinda fucked up my eyeball (it's better now, don't worry! and be gentle to your eyes, they are delicate and eye drops are so fucking annoying when you're doing them seven times a day, jfc) and my voice has reached a point where I was a lot more comfortable interacting with strangers and I also didn't notice any surprise or confusion when I introduced myself with a male name! It was kind of amazing.

Also singing is even more fun now. I love love LOVE singing along with a male vocalist and feeling the way my voice kinda rumbles through my chest. 10/10 sensory experience.

Other changes aren't nearly as exciting or obvious as my voice, but here's a quick (?) rundown, for those who are curious:

Mood — Gotta be honest, I don't think I've really noticed any significant change in my day-to-day mood, though I may not be the best judge for this because I have trouble figuring out what/how I'm feeling in general, tbh. But I think I have certainly gotten more comfortable and content with myself and I'd even go so far as to say I feel a little more confident these days. It's nice, I appreciate it.

Acne — I definitely noticed a change in how my acne presents itself on my face. I wouldn't say it's worse than before (I've had very bad acne since I was a young teenager and only got medication for it like, last year which has helped immensely) but I think it's different. More little red spots and roughness than the unpleasant and painful pimples I'm used to. I don't even mind it, really. Oddly affirming.

Facial Hair — I've got facial hair. I really do!!! Not clickbait!!! It's not much, not enough for me to be brave and take my dad up on his offer of shaving lessons quite yet, but it has grown in enough that I don't feel silly including it in self portraits! 🤭🧔🏻 Got a little bit of a mustache happening, a little bit at the sides of my face, some fuzz on my chin (with one LONG hair that I can only assume has been greedy and stealing his brothers' growth), and a frankly surprising lil patch of hair under my jaw. On a semi-related note, not sure if my brows have gotten much darker/thicker. They might have? idk.

my new discord icon, hehe... 👁💜🪓

Body Hair — I have gotten a little more hair on my forearms, and it may have gotten a little darker too! I have a tattoo on my arm just below my left wrist and it's been surprisingly helpful for measuring arm hair growth because for years my tattoo was not covered by hair at all but the left side of it's a little fuzzy now... 😏 I've gotten more noticeable hair growth on my upper arms, which were basically hairless before (free gender euphoria every time I put on my T) and on my thighs. Don't think my lower legs have gotten much hairier, and I'm a little impatient about it lmao. I want to get hairy enough to rival my brother.

Energy/Appetite — Can't say I've really noticed any differences here? I am not a very active person and I already struggled with appetite and getting myself to eat before I started T (thank you adhd & poor eating habits 🥲💀), so I can't quite tell if I'm ignoring more hunger signals than usual. 😅 I am hoping to get more active and start doing more physical activity now that it's starting to get warmer outside again, so hopefully that will help me see these sorts of changes and also get me into some better eating habits as I expend more energy and work up a proper appetite! (Also, since we're on the topic... a reminder for all of us that taking care of yourself and feeding the body you live in is a million times more important than aesthetics and numbers on a scale. ❤)

Menstruation — I am still getting my period right on schedule, but I am happy to say it is considerably lighter than it was before I started testosterone! My period has begun getting shorter, too. It lasted for roughly 7–9 days before, but I was bleeding for exactly 7 days last month, and only 6 days this month. I'm not sure if this trend will continue at such a dramatic rate, but if my next round is only 5 days I will be very excited about it, lol. My uterus can retire any day now, please...

Bottom Growth — if any of my friends read this part, don't speak to me about it lmao — Yeah... there's a little bit of something happening down there. Not a lot, and I haven't really noticed any pain or sensitivity, but there's a Difference. Aaaaand I like it. 😌 I am looking forward to any and all future developments. 😏👉🏻👉🏻

Okay! I think that's it, really.

I know I haven't been super active on this blog for quite a while now (I have really gotten into fandom blogging on my main lmao, and also discord is my favorite thing right now, it's where 90% of my friends live) so I hope this nice, long, ramble-y post makes up for that a little bit. <3

Not gonna make any promises that I'll post here more often, but y'know. I might. It could happen. Definitely not leaving this blog to sit and gather dust, that's for sure. I'll still be reblogging stuff semi-frequently, even if I'm not writing up my own posts.

So goodbye for now, and thanks for tuning in! 👋🏻📻💖💙✨️

[starspunt]

oh yeah... no nut november was this month, huh...

[fionacle]

[random-thought-depository]

I've signed up for a program that will pay me for doing in-home caretaking work for my mom's elderly partner (it's work I've already been doing for free for years, might as well get paid for it). I got my first paychecks yesterday and my bank cleared the funds by this morning!

I was owed a few months of back-pay because of how the application process worked (I started the application process November last year), so yesterday I went from having $70 in the bank to having almost $2700! My regular pay is going to be about $900 per month. It's not much, but it's a big step up from where I was a month ago both in terms of family/household income and in terms of my personal financial autonomy!

Lately I've had the frightening realization that I'm almost 40 now, my life for the last 10 years or so has resembled that of a bird atrophying in an austere cage, this state of affairs has enough inertia that there's no obvious inevitable end to it except me dying of old age or being social murdered (likely some combination of both), and even this low level of safety and comfort is fragile, the obvious plausible default ways my situation might change in the near future are that it gets much worse, e.g. that I quickly end up homeless after my elderly mom dies and her social security deposits stop coming. This realization frightened me enough that I have begun to make more systematic efforts to improve my life. That probably sounds like some Jordan Peterson bootstraps thing but actually a big part of the economic/financial side of this project for me is to stop listening to the neoliberal eligibility worker in my head, stop doing welfare avoidance, get a lot more strategic about leveraging the welfare system to try to get my family into better conditions. So far, my big project to improve the living conditions of my family and improve my own life has achieved two big successes:

- The thing I talked about in the first and second paragraphs of this post.

- I have spent my life from puberty up to now semi-voluntarily celibate, I think mostly because of a heterosexual male version of lesbian sheepitude induced by a combination of over-correction away from being a type of guy women complain about a lot, former bullied kid alief that other people are likely to experience me soliciting interaction with them as an irritation, and assessment that most women wouldn't want a male partner who starts with my socio-economic condition (poor and still lives with my mom). I would like to begin having an erotic life that at least occasionally includes sex with one or more other people, and to that end I have made a resolution to be more forward in expressing romantic/sexual attraction/desire. By doing this, I was able to make "Tumblr is a hook-up app" work for me, I have an appointment with a woman who wants to take my virginity in June!

These feel like good signs. My wings are not powerless and dead!

The next big thing on my agenda is to try to get my family out of our tiny overcrowded slum apartment and into a better place, one where we can have a kitchen, a bathroom we don't share with other tenants, and where I can have a private room. My mother and her partner are both elderly and I'm now an officially registered caretaking worker for my mom's partner, so I am hoping I can find some housing assistance for seniors program that will give them a better apartment and let me live in it too as a live-in caretaker.

[tamayula-journal]

It's finally getting cooler in Japan, like autumn, so it's the perfect time for me to wear my waistcoat!

I miss my Slytherin boys and it's so much fun to go out in my Slytherin waistcoat and wear my snake ring... 🤤💞

[palms-upturned]

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[paranormaljones]

In the same boat with ghoulcy, the "ehh I could see it" camp. What was the fic that sold you on it?

Exactly, I find their current dynamic absolutely fascinating, regardless of what it turns into in the future. If they started to tend towards the romantic or if they just kept up whatever it is they have now, I honestly wouldn't be upset either way.

The fic that got me was An Equal Partnership by Emily_F6 on AO3. It's so incredibly well written and the characterizations are spot on. There are some graphically violent/sexual moments (which are denoted in the content warnings) and for personal reasons I scroll past those (mostly the sexual content, violence I can usually handle), but the rest of the fic makes skipping a few bits so worth it.

[shadowglens]

god i’m so sick 😭

[3m0n3rd]

OMG THIS IS WHAT HAPPENS WHEN YOU TAKE FUCKING 5 METABOLISM PILLS TO LOSE WEIGHT. I JUST SHIT SO MUCH ITZ PAINFUL SEND HELP

[songmingisthighs]

DO NOT TRUST @luvt0kki SHE'S CONNIVING AND CALCULATIVE

[chigirisprincess]

i dropped my vibe so the charging prongs are all fucked up and won’t charge properly unless it’s in a very specific position …. this was in fact the universe telling me i should just die!!!!

[lighthouseshepard]

feels like. most of the past few months have just been me waiting in drs offices alone hoping for answers or a solution that will stick. and it sucks