#wallow in sadness

[sapphicslut777]

no i think YOU should be scared!!! 😤

[polarsirens]

trials

[hiraethwrote]

anyways, suguru has the sluttiest waist

[redeliminator]

i believe that to some extent Andre knows he's fucked up and this headcanon is one of the hills I will die on in the farewell tape, Cal says that “you can’t cure somebody who has nothing wrong with them.” 

Andre, on the other hand, admits they might be seen as hypocrites. he's not gonna back out, he still thinks it's the right thing for him to do, but he seems to acknowledge that people will not perceive it the same way. he tries to explain that no matter what it’ll look like, it’s not murder for the sake of murder - not in his eyes at least. there's a (sick and twisted) lesson hidden in this tragedy.

to some extent, Andre is aware of what’s going on with him, what exactly shaped him into who he is now. he sees the cause and effect of being bullied, of feeling rejected and alienated, and not being able to do anything about it because that's just who he is. he can kick and scream and shout but he will never change who he is at his core and this realization is crushing for a 17/18-year-old. this and all the implications of a missing sense of belonging.

he knows he’s messed up. he knows what would fix him and he’s convinced it’s out of his reach. he looks at other students and he thinks: it’ll never be me. and he's angry that they have something he will never have.

his awareness doesn't help though. if anything, it fuels his frustration. what adults know to be a temporary problem (high school) seemed like an insurmountable obstacle, the end of everything.

[decisions-at-3am]

How cruel it is, To have so much love. And no one To give it to.

[thebirdandhersong]

listen...... If you want to stop feeling sad, sometimes that means you need to stop listening to that sad music that you told yourself was "validating my emotions" and "self-reflecting" and "helping me process things". Nothing's being processed, my girl, you're just sticking more unnecessary detergent in the emotional laundry machine and watching the soapy water spin.

[deer-with-a-stick]

WHY ARE BELMONTS ALWAYS SO BAD AT THIS

TALKING TO EACH OTHER

EMOTIONAL MATURITY

MAKING FIRST IMPRESSIONS

BEING TRAUMA FREE

WHAT THE HELL GUYS

[helloimtired]

sad lonely yearning screaming crying wallowing hours

[numbuh424]

this is where I'm currently at emotionally btw.

edit: some people are asking for the link, so here it is! I made this immediately after waking up this morning and still feeling sad about them. enjoy! (or not? I guess?)

[short666bread]

[acupofqueercoffee]

[fishareglorious]

do you wonder if vila ever let herself grieve? or did she bury all those feelings deep inside her and keeps moving forward for the kids.

[mythology-void]

SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP THE PARALLELS BETWEEN POSEIDON WANTING TO BE CLOSE TO HIS SON BUT STAYING AWAY BECAUSE ITS WHAT'S BEST FOR HIM AND HERMES WANTING TO BE CLOSE BUT STAYING AWAY BECAUSE HE HAS NO CHOICE I JUST

[ririarts]

No amount of self-sought fury

Will bring back the glory of innocence

x

[cutekoala1001]

Can you draw Julie comforting Buster when he looks like this? 🥺

A MoonJewel request?! Absolutely 💖

[sprolden]

being in your 20s is soooo goofy bc it's just continously processing these big massive things while doing the most mundane tasks. crying my eyes out over something that can't be changed whle folding my laundry. etc