#verywell mind

[chaotic-theatrical-weaver]

“What is Intergenerational Trauma?”, Verywell Mind / “Family Line,” Conan Gray / Tumblr exchange between 1dietcokeinacan and domestic-butch

Shoutout to @suspendedinthevalley for showing me the Tumblr exchange while talking LFE!

[the-healing-mindset]

This is an article that my therapist recommended to me. For some reason, I have no problem at all offering up help to others but rarely if ever do I seek help from anyone else. It is almost as if I have an aversion to it. "I can take care of me, so don't worry about me." is the statement that came up in session. I struggle with relationships for this very reason.

[twansgendew]

Nepotism should be okay just for me I should be allowed to work at the library with my dad and take all the same shifts so we can carpool it should be allowed

[essayist-unexpectedly]

Love, Codependency, and the Accidental Toxicity of Mafuyu and Yuki

While Given is centred around Mafuyu and Uenoyama’s relationship, the lasting impacts of Mafuyu’s romance with Yuki are undeniable. The relationship between Yuki and Mafuyu was one from childhood that grew and evolved with them, eventually landing them in a romantic relationship. While some think that the two were made for each, one character being Hiiragi, a childhood friend who watched the duo evolve, however there can be another viewpoint to this. The other implication when reading Given can be the idea of codependency between Yuki and Mafuyu.

Codependency is defined as “excessive emotional or psychological reliance on a partner, typically one who requires support on account of an illness or addiction” by the Oxford Dictionary, as “a psychological condition or a relationship in which a person manifesting low self-esteem and a strong desire for approval has an unhealthy attachment to another person and places the needs of that person before his or her own” by the Merriam-Webster Dictionary, and finally as “a relationship is when each person involved is mentally, emotionally, physically, and/or spiritually reliant on the other” by the VeryWell Mind website. While all varying, these definitions all seem to agree that codependency is an unhealthy/excessive psychological reliance on another person, often with negative reasons and consequences. Going forward with this definition created from the previous definitions, it could be seen that Mafuyu and Yuki were codependent on each other, rather than just a one sided codependency, like some people experience.

One of the first hints to Yuki and Mafuyu being codependent comes from their constant being together. From the moment that they meet up until they go to different high schools, Mafuyu and Yuki are known to always be together. Even if the two weren’t directly interacting, they are consistently within each other's radius, easily within sight of each other. When appropriate, the duo would also be touching, leaning on each other, or holding each other, really whatever touch could happen in the moment. While the constant togetherness and touch may not seem too serious, it is important to remember that codependency is reliance on another person. Their consistency and wanting to be together constantly is possibly a subtle but real sign of codependency.

The next sign is their general relationship with each other. The two were childhood friends to lovers, a trope that can be built on drama and love triangles, but in this case seemed to be a natural progression between the two characters. Yuki found Mafuyu when they were young children, likely around the age of 5, give or take a year. As the two grew up, they also grew together, becoming intertwined together, becoming inseparable. The duo were almost always together, and with that they also grew to have ‘complimentary’ personalities, as Mafuyu was a quiet and small presence while Yuki was a loud and massive personality. The duo seemed to mold themselves to fit into each other, creating a reliance for the other to be what they were not. One such way this would create a reliance is them needing each other to bounce off of. This is meant as in Mafuyu needing Yuki to speak for him and bring a sense of loudness, of life and excitement for him, while Yuki needed Mafuyu to provide a quiet and reliable space for him, someone to listen and be consistent. Not only do the two seem to have become what the other needed, but another part is their communication. The partners seem to have developed communication that didn’t always require speaking, at least when they were younger. The two seemed to be able to understand each other, understand what the other needed, and it made them even more suited for each other. Every factor of how the two were weaved together throughout their life contributed to the codependence that the two appear to share. It was the evolution from children to young teens together in such similar and at times lonely situations that caused them to grow so close, and likely so reliant on each other for a certain stability and love that they both needed, showcasing the psychological effects of codependency.

Another point towards their relationship being unhealthily dependent is Hiiragi’s view of their relationship. In some ways, Hiiragi seems to view the two as a perfect love story, perfect harmony, due to how they seem to compliment and grow with each other. In some ways, Hiiragi appears to consider Yuki and Mafuyu as perfect for each other. It was Hiiragi who, in the manga, called Yuki a “dominating and moody” person, while claiming Mafuyu to be “submissive and reserved” in terms of personality. It was observed by Hiiragi that Yuki seemed wholly and purely in love with Mafuyu. Through the chapters where Hiiragi narrates his own view on the two, there is a rose-tinted glasses look at the duo. Every character holds a bias when it comes to memories of Yuki as well as his relationship with Mafuyu, with mayhaps Shizusumi being the least biased of the old group. It is because of this bias though that Hiiragi’s view feels like he considers the two to be true love and harmony in romance, he idolised Yuki, and always cared for Mafuyu, making it difficult to point out any flaws in their relationship because of this care. It also seems that Hiiragi, likely accidentally, can be used to point out how close they were, and how reliant they were. Hiiragi stated that “Yuki needed Mafuyu, and Mafuyu needed Yuki” within episode 8 of the anime. The use of the word needed specifically is what matters so much. To claim that they needed each other, Hiiragi was admitting that it wasn’t as simple as them wanting to be together, it wasn’t as much of a choice or a want, but rather the word need has a more definitive feeling, they had to be together, never straying far or else they would suffer - which ended up being true. The truth of Hiiragi saying they needed each other was realised when Mafuyu went to a different high school and Yuki got a job, distancing them. And everything comes together during their fight, which Hiiragi and Shizusumi were witnesses to. This fight is another time where one can spot Hiiragi’s rose-tinted view of Mafuyu and Yuki’s relationship, as Hiiragi claims that the fight was a small, dumb fight, one that every couple experiences. The reason this is seen as optimistic at best is because it is clear to readers and watchers that the fight was big, it was yelling and it was mean - cemented by Mafuyu’s final sentence in the argument. Everything that Hiiragi says about Yuki and Mafuyu’s relationship feels like he was observing with rose-tinted glasses, keeping optimistic about it even as it became worse towards the end. The clear bias may mean this section shouldn’t exist, but it can also be seen as someone witnessing a codependent relationship and thinking all is perfect, when they are watching an active trainwreck. Hiiragi thinking about how the two were an opposites attract relationship, saying they needed each other, and downplaying their fight, all feels like him trying to make sense of what appeared to be his definition of a perfect relationship, and it was as if he himself could not see the codependency that someone reading or watching the series could see through him.

The fourth reason one can see them as codependent is Mafuyu's social life outside of Yuki. While yes, he also had Hiiragi and Shizusumi, it appears like he didn’t have anyone else, and even the other two were not as close to him as Yuki was. That statement isn’t meant to diminish Hiiragi, Shizusumi, and Mafuyu’s friendship, rather it is meant to lift the relationship between Yuki and Mafuyu as being on an entirely different level. It’s easily seen that Mafuyu does mainly socialise with Yuki and the other two, but more Yuki than anyone else. It feels like the two were together first, before anyone else could join, creating their little bubble of just Mafuyu and Yuki. Where this truly becomes a concern however is when one looks at Mafuyu’s social life outside of Yuki. As previously stated, at times it seems like Mafuyu felt a certain disconnect at times to Hiiragi and Shizusumi, and this suspicion is furthered by his complete shut down after Yuki’s death. While not everyone will be able to reach out and talk to others while going through grief, perhaps part of their cut off was not only Mafuyu’s depression but also him worrying that he was not close enough to the other two to be able to reach out. Ignoring that speculation, one can take into account the character page of Mafuyu, which states that he was never a part of any clubs or teams, meaning he never really branched out socially. While not much is explored about Mafuyu’s life before Uenoyama outside of what is with Yuki, this feels intentional to show that there wasn’t a lot for him outside of the other boy. The flashbacks seen in Mafuyu’s point of view are consistently with Yuki - their first meeting, their school days, dates, their fight, and finally, Yuki’s death. Nothing else seemed to truly exist, it was as if Mafuyu could ignore all others for Yuki, as he was his world. The lack of a social life can definitely be seen as a sense of reliance on Yuki, solidifying the idea of him being codependent on the other.

The second to last point within Strawberry Swing, specifically the fourth part being a supposed dream sequence that honestly feels like an actual connection to Yuki in the afterlife that Mafuyu has. This dream is where the two actually seem to say goodbye to each other, a certain feeling of peace and melancholy flowing from this section of the manga. Within part four of Strawberry Swing, Yuki and Mafuyu talk on a swing set, with Yuki telling Mafuyu that the redhead has to go, and Mafuyu then leaving. After this, Yuki states that there is a gaping hole within Mafuyu left behind from Yuki’s suicide, and while it may get smaller with time, it shall never be fully repaired, and Yuki would always reside in that hole, listening to Mafuyu as he sings. Overall, this section of the story is a beautiful look into Yuki’s mind on Mafuyu’s healing, and totally feels more like a spiritual encounter than just a dream thanks to the point of view appearing to be Yuki’s, and the outside look at Mafuyu and his grief. Its beauty is only enhanced by the tragedy that speaks within this section though, as it seems to admit that Mafuyu will never fully be able to move on from Yuki or heal from his death. That being said, grief is of course an extremely long process, and it isn’t a linear path to moving on or somehow getting rid of grief, that is simply not how it works. It is not the grief itself that is interesting in this section, but rather the way that Yuki swears to always be in Mafuyu’s heart. Even in death, Yuki will forever stay with Mafuyu, even if he isn’t alive or physically there. Not necessarily a sign of the two being codependent, but definitely an interesting aspect of the manga to consider when it comes to their relationship.

The final point is a line brought up in the Strawberry Swing story within Given. This line is said by Yuki’s mother, Saeko, who states that “Mafuyu… I selfishly believed… that you were that child’s anchor”. She believed that Mafuyu was Yuki’s anchor to the world, that he was the one who kept the other boy alive and stable, tethered to the world. There is also a line where she mentions how Yuki was “like his father”, who is either outright dead or at least implied to be dead, and this line also basically tells the audience it was suicide, and a mental disorder was likely passed down to Yuki from his father. It is made clear in Strawberry Swing that Saeko believed that Mafuyu would be able to keep Yuki alive and well, which isn’t something two children/teenagers should have to do for each other, which she even admits to, saying she was selfish in believing Mafuyu was his anchor and that it was wrong of her to think. This part screams of a mother who watched her son become extremely psychologically reliant on another boy, and only after his death is able to reflect and see how unhealthy it was for both of them. After all, the role of the anchor is extremely dangerous for both parties, as it puts so much pressure on the anchor to keep a good and stable presence, while it leaves the other person with one person who truly connects them to the world, rather than them feeling as though they have a full support system. These roles become even worse in the case of Mafuyu and Yuki, who are two teenage boys in love with mental health issues. They were not stable enough to be in the roles of anchor and tethered person, even if they wanted to be that for each other. So, while terrible for them, the anchor comment definitely implies that Yuki was extremely reliant on Mafuyu to keep him tethered to the world, keep him living, which is a sign of codependency.

In the end, there are codependent tendencies that seem to exist in Mafuyu and Yuki’s relationship. The two boys appeared to rely on each other mentally and socially, which can qualify people for a codependent relationship. While peers, especially Hiiragi, appeared to see them as two perfect halves of a whole, idolising the weaved together nature of Mafuyu and Yuki, it can easily be seen as a rose-tinted view to the duo’s relationship and end up revealing more negative than expected. The additional view of an adult, specifically Yuki’ mother, Saeko, seeing Mafuyu as an anchor for Yuki only enhances the idea of an imperfect and overly reliant relationship. Although it is painful to admit, there is little doubt that one can pick up on hints and read Yuki and Mafuyu as an accidentally toxic codependent relationship.

[nnnyxie]

i feel like we don’t talk enough about how strictly reading/writing smut can literally lead to a porn addiction. porn isn’t strictly video and smut readers/writers need to understand that.

porn can be written.

all of your books are being straight up smut is not cute. it’s not funny. it’s worrying and you need help.

porn addictions are real and serious. if you cannot enjoy a book/piece of work or cannot read a book/piece of work that does not have smut in it, that’s unhealthy.

porn addiction isn’t considered a ‘real’ addiction. but, it is just as real and just as detrimental as any other. it effects your relationships. your mental health. it effects all aspects of your life and it needs to be treated.

i am absolutely not trying to shame anyone with an addiction!! i just believe that it is absolutely necessary that we discuss this.

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[fisheito]

What are you hopes and dreams for Yakumo? What kind of event theme would be your dream event? Any kinks or anything in particular you want to see in his rooms? Anything plot-wise you would like to see?

You know, I never thought about that

While playing , i suspend all my worldly desires. Then i take whatever I'm given like a good little F2P 🤣

Tho now that you bring it up🫨🤔..hmm...

Hopes n Dreams: a WIP , it seems . But for now...

- he needs to be in a dress. This is part of my agenda to have everyone put on the dress at LEAST once. No fakeouts like kuya's hakama pants. I want his legs sleeveless. Ready access. Destroy eiden while wearing a breezy skirt or smthh. Follow Blade's example , bc Blade is performing gender VERYwell.!!

Event???:

- yokai event with all three little beasties LOOKIN beastlier?? Yes???? Please??????????? I want them UNSETTLING and FERAL but with sharp beautifusful eyes.

in line with my desire for a snakular yakuhebi, i want him more monstrous. Covered in scales and the tail and the fangs with the dripdrop .which, yesyes probably never will happen but I'm gonna think about it anyway .

- I'm not creative when it comes to event ideas. The devs are way ahead of me on that. All i can think about is restaurant, but we've already had several forms of that. Barista yakumo..maid cafe...valentines parlour.... ahahahh I'm only ever thinking about eating...sorry... ...

- new jot note, new chance, becausr now i am DETERMINED to think of an event i wanna see. *scrunches brow* gmm..hmmm.......!!!! Does it count if i say some sorta winter event. One that requires yakumo to actually exist in cold weather. And he's wearing the giantest puffiest marshmallow of an 800layer coat because he's so very cold and will fall asleep in the snow if you leave him out there too long. Like, his silhouette is just a blob. There's nothing sexy about it. Covered head to toe in industrial arctic expedition protective gear 🤣🤣🤣 yakumo visits penguins. Wait what

-nononono JOT NOTE: TAKE 3! I *WILL* COME UP WITH AN EVENT! A CONCEPT! NOT JUST AN OUTFIT!. . . . . GOD but i just want an excuse to put him in the dorkiest/ most mundane outfits. He's just wearing farming clothes and helping his grandparents feed chickens. He's wearing a stupid little khaki uniform while catching bugs with a net like an amateur. Wait no he's the slutty glittery assistant in a leotard waiting to be cut in half by Magician Eiden where was i going with this i cant actually!!!--- move on to the next qursiyon

The ROOMS?:

- why has yakumo not hit it from the back yet. ? (Not counting FA R5..) Probably because doggystyle would deny him access to eiden's mouth, which is apparently a fate worse than cult sacrifice. Yakumo probably prefers to stare lovingly(🙄) at eiden's face while they're boinking so......

.

But *I* want them to throw it back. Just once. Eiden ass up face slightly-less-to-completely-inaccessible. Have garu as a guest instructor. I request this specific new angle just once kudapleas

- you mentioned kink and idk about elaborate kinks but '*slaps the roof of the car* TIE HIM UP. SUBJUGATE HIM. MAKE HIM WHINE AND CRY AND COME THE SECOND EIDEN TOUCHES HIS DICK. OR COME UNTOUCHED. THE POINT IS ,I WANT MORE OF THAT BULLYING FROM DARK NOVA R2

- it didn't occur to me to mention this bc i thought it was natural;assumed;common knowledge; but i shouldn't assume whatever i want is group consensus. So, explicitly stating that i am waiting for the snake hemipenes. I would love the non human look but it doesn't look like we'll get that. So I'll settle for 2 human dicks. Incredibly gracious of me iknow.

((Taking a break to thank all the fic authors who fulfill fantasies i know will never show up in game. The mind is a powerful tool but i still need kindling and these writers are made of dry sticks))

Um, ploT? Maybe?:

- the only thing I'd like for plot yakumo is to keep on showing his char development! He's changing ever so slowly!but steadily! Like how in his first interaction with rei, i was expecting him to get cowed by rei's blunt wording, but nope... he... understood what rei meant at base level and responded with a level of Spine and Emotional Awareness, instead of pure panic. Huh. Well whaddya know. Surprised me, fo sho. So I'd like to see him doing his best as time goes on ahhaha👈👉👈👉👈👉🤜

- i have NO idea where they arw going with the plot. Once again i must reiterate that i am like a child in front of a shiny screen re: consuming media. I have All belief. I am just going with it. There are no predictions or criticisms ongoing in my brain unless something is like... egregiously heteronormatively painful. So.

[rin-and-jade]

Hello Hello!

Starting off to say feel free to take as long as you need to respond to this! You guys run a busy account.

Recently (more like months ago), our mother found out we had DID. She is heavily, heavily misinformed on what the disorder is; what the symptoms would be like and what the disorder even is. We had, initially, not wanted her to know irregardless, but one of our system mates. We honestly dont know where to start because we dont have any of the good resources for that anymore- we never saved any.

Links, especially videos, are highly appreciated, as I have to send things thru texts. I would say tumblr posts are also on the table because she knows I use tumblr a ton, and I send her posts occasionally.

Hi, yeah it a busy account in a way, but i am taking a break so its been chill. Will be back running this weekend with more posts though!

Because you mentioned videos, i decided to review two of them.

One of them is short, the other one is long but thorough. Please review them again before sending the link to her if you're okay with it.

Also, here are my trusted go-to articles for everyone:

From Cleveland

From WebMD

From Mayo

Lastly, from Verywell Mind

Sadly, i do not have any tumblr posts i can recommend to you, so i hope this suffices for now! To also make up for it, please come back to me for further assistance, she can also asks any questions here that you are afraid to answer yourself, as i have many knowledge in it, and can help you explain things to people who do not have CDDs.

I hope things go well with these current links, have a good timezone wherever you are <3

- j

[traumasurvivorshelpingsurvivors]

hi, im kinda just looking for some like, reassurance maybe. or something like that idk

so where i live, a lot of people are pretty outwardly ableist. if youre autistic, or mentally ill, or anything other than abled and allistic you Will be bullied for it (and youll be lucky if anyone takes your disability seriously, if youre not entirely wheelchair-bound)

i am autistic, mentally ill, have poor hand joints (its similar in some ways to arthritis), repetitive strain injuries, some form of lumbar lordosis, have pretty miserable ibs and very, VERY likely have cushings disease (we're trying to schedule my specific cortisol blood test right now), but due to being surrounded by said ableism, ive kind of gotten it in my head that i dont count as disabled (despite being, Factually, disabled, due to my autism). i feel bad for even trying to lump myself in with "Actual" disabled people (more obviously physically disabled, use canes or wheelchairs and such) because i have it Easier than them, which is a really stupid thought but i cant seem to stop feeling like im lying or betraying people somehow when i say im disabled.

sorry for the bother, hope your day is going well. thanks.

Hello anon,

I’d like to extend my deepest sympathies as someone with invisible illnesses as well, and assure you are not bothering anyone by seeking reassurance around it.

I’m so sorry you’re having to deal with co-morbidities and how it (sadly, yet understandably) impacts your daily living.  I found no less than three articles that might help offer some additional assurances that you are definitely not on an island on your own (though I can appreciate how sometimes the guilt and stigma could leave you feeling that way) - and each article also includes suggestions, and ideas for self-help, advocacy and support.

The Challenges of Living with Invisble Illness via Psychology Today

What is Invisible Illness via Verywell Mind

You Don’t Look Sick: Uncovering and Understanding Invisible Illness via BetterUp

I hope that at the very least, it might be the first step in how to give yourself the compassion you deserve as you navigate not only illnesses you can’t help having but also as you find a support system that (at the very least) sees your personhood and struggles and does not immediately dismiss them.  You deserve people in your corner <3

I wish you well - and hope your day is lovely, too :)

- Mod Kat

[sinful-morningstar]

Spartober day 15 Caning (VNero)

Author's note: I had fun writing this one, this had less to do with the smutty side though it is smutty i chose to delve into the dynamis of Kinks and he use of safewords and the traffic light system and how safewords can and should also be used by a dominant partner when engaging in kinky stuff, so without further ado, please enjoy today's prompt! Prompts by whatsanapocalae1 (I use a combination of SparTober and Devil MayTober Prompts) 15: Caning (VNero) V hummed softly as he felt Nero sit across his lap, he smirked gently as he looked at his plump backside with an amused hum. Nero had asked him to try something new and while V was for the challenge this was…different.. he hesitated as he asked gently "Nero. Are you quite sure this is what you want ?" he asked, tilting his head gently.

“Uhhhhh yeah, I am quite sure, V. I know it may sound a little strange. But I trust you. Please go on…” Nero said gently, showing that he was ready for what they had discussed albeit briefly…

"and..if I'm correct you specified I used my cane. Not my hands?" V said, holding up the Cane in his hand. His heart racing with anticipation, he had pulled Nero’s hair before even choked him but this, this wasn't something he had in mind,

Nero nodded eagerly “Yeah, you heard me right. Just do me a favour. No hands…and don't be gentle with it. I can take it.” he said with a determined smirk wiggling his backside as an insentive.

"Oh..how i'd like to be gentle..but….i suppose the act itself does indeed call for a heavy hand or..cane in this instance…" V purred gently with a smirk.

Nero bit his lip suppressing a moan he loved the way V’s voice sounded velvety smooth making him shiver with pleasure “ Mmm Yeah that's it! Don't you dare go gentle”.

V blinked softly blushing in surprise at Nero's response "My, My..it seems you're quite eager.." he swallowed gently before teasing Nero tracing the cane along his exposed backside.

Nero smirked deviously “Yeah, I know what I want V. That's why I asked you to do this in the first place… so just get on with it..” he asked hurriedly.

"Mmm i'm half tempted to make you beg, but..that would be cruel of me, and the cane is punishment enough…" V smirked gently composing himself.

"Verywell.. I'll indulge you..my naughty little devil" he chuckled gently.

With a Shiver Nero let out a soft moan “I love it when you call me that, V. Now get to it, will you?” he said even more expectantly his tone was almost demanding.

V gave a warning strike with his cane "How cheeky, ..i believe i give orders here , boy…" he said with a smirk.

“Oh yeah? Give me the real thing already. I can take it…” Nero responded with a confident tone raising his head up with determination.

V bit his lip gently as he exhaled and went for it striking his backside hard with his cane

“AH-!” Nero Moaned loudly at the sensation “ Yes! Yes! That's what I'm talking about.” he said breathlessly panting as he looked up at V with a puppy eyed expression.

"You enjoy this pain don't you?~" V purred as he continued to strike Nero harder.

Nero was still panting as he nodded “ Y-Yeah…I-I do..”. He moaned out in pain and pleasure.

"Such a naughty boy…" V said in a sultry tone as he struck his backside again harshly makig the exposed skin pink with irritation.

“AH-” Nero moaned even louder, his arousal pressed up against V’s thigh as he felt his body alight with warmth and desire “You're right, I am a naughty boy. And I deserve to be punished.” he Whimpered out.

V chuckled darkly, "such an eager little minx" he stuck him over and over , watching as the lightly dusted pink flesh became more deep in its pink hue..

“Ahhh Nnn.. MMmm~” Nero continued to moan out with each strike making him shiver with delight. “Ahahaha, oh yeah. I'm loving this…but you still haven't given me what I really want V. The real punishment”. He said blushing darkly panting as his legs trembled.

"Oh, and would that be?" V asked with a raised brow.his own excitement growing but something felt off, he did feel pleasure but he couldn't deny a sense of ..guilt?..fear?.. He wasn't quite sure, but he’d continue just for Nero.

“Go harder, V. That's what I want. Don't hold back, please. I want you to give it to me hard. Go on.” Nero begged pitifully as he whimpered and whined .

V sighed gently he was hesitant but he wanted to give Nero what he Desired "Very well…" he struck hard leaving a red mark on tender flesh hoping it was to Nero's liking

Nero arched his back, almost bucking his hips seeing stars “Oh, yes…that's the spot.!” he cried out.

“Give me more, V. I want it all. Hard and rough, please.

V shivered softly enjoying the sensation, he kept going as he went harder and harder , however he was afraid of leaving welts and bruises on Nero's pale skin .

Nero whimpered loudly “Yes, that's it…just like that…” his thighs jiggled along with his backside with every strike.

He moaned “ Mmm~ I love it when you hit me hard, V. You know just how I like it. More please.”

"such a little masochist, I wonder what other things you desire that would make heads turn and blood rush…" V purred low in his throat.

Nero felt his head spin as he was dizzy with pure unadulterated Lust panting as he responded “ I crave for a lot of things, V. But right now I just want you to beat me black and blue. I want you to teach me a lesson--a lesson in pain. I wanna be a good boy next time, promise! Just please…give me…more.”

V shivered "darling..as much as i adore the idea of giving you what you desire, we must discuss limits otherwise this would be considered assault , regardless of consent.."

Nero whined in protest “No no no…I need this. Just do it, V. I don't want to stop. Just hit me again. Come on. Please.” he begged, unaware of what his partner was asking him.

“You don't have to worry about hurting me or leaving marks. I can take it! I want it!”

"Nero…I'd like to introduce the use of a safeword, not just for you but also for myself…I fear I may have some limits of my own…" V said as he set the cane to the side and gently rubbed the red swollen cheeks. He gave Nero a gentle fond look showing that he cared and that he wanted to be serious about this.

Nero snapped out of his wanton lust filled state as he lost himself in V’s emerald green eyes almost luring him back to his senses, he nodded gently taking in his words.

“A safeword? That's a good idea, V. Okay, in that case. Our safeword is lemon.”

He blinked, tilting his head in confusion “ Wait… What should you need the safeword for, anyway? You're not afraid of getting hurt too are you? I'm not that rough..”.

"No..my dear, its to show i may not be comfortable going past a certain line i've set myself not to cross…while you are eager i can't live with myself 'beating you black and blue' as you put it, while i'm not averse to any kinks; i draw the line when blood is spilt and flesh is torn…" V explained gently.

Nero sighed gently in understanding “You're probably right. We should play it safe. But you don't have to hold back so much, V. I want to see marks and bruises all over my backside”.

V raised a brow showing he was still taking this seriously.

Nero sighed once again “Okay, lemon. That sounds good. So can we continue? Pleeease, V? I really want to. You know I love it when you hurt me.”

"Along with the use of a safeword I'd like to use the stoplight system during your Canning…" V said gently.

"Please..love.. indulge me so that my mind can be at rest while pleasuring you…"

Nero gave a fond look and nodded with a smile “Yes of course, V. Whatever works for you.”

He bit his lip gently “I'm trusting you here. But I want it rough. You hear me, V. Rough! Don't go easy on me. Just…hit me again…please.” he begged with a small whimper

"Verywell but if I don't hear you using your words correctly we will stop, is that understood?" V asked, lifting Nero's chin gently.

Nero swallowed softly shivering as he felt V’s thumb brush again st his plump bottom lip. “Yes, V. I understand.” he moaned softly.

He cleared throat before responding properly, seriously.

“I promise to use our safeword if the need arises. And I promise to obey your stoplight system too. So please, go as hard as you can…I'm all yours, V…” Nero finished as he looked back at V’s emerald eyes with a warm smile.

"Mmm, Good Boy~" V praised gently as he raised his can up confidently , pleased that they had set the proper boundaries before going any further. This was what he wanted from this, to please his lover while keeping his mind at ease. Nero was in for an interesting night…

[krizlldaa]

Do it now! sometimes, later becomes never. -smone

The Power of Self-Discipline: Unlocking Your Full Potential

Imagine a life where you have the power to achieve your goals, overcome obstacles, and live a purposeful and fulfilling existence. This life is within your reach, and the key to unlocking its potential lies in one powerful trait: self-discipline. Self-discipline is the foundation upon which success is built, enabling individuals to conquer their limitations, stay focused, and make consistent progress towards their aspirations. In this persuasive essay, we will explore the significance of self-discipline and how it can transform your life.

1. Achieving Goals:

Self-discipline is the driving force behind goal attainment. It empowers individuals to set clear objectives, create actionable plans, and stay committed to their pursuit. With self-discipline, you can break down your goals into manageable steps, prioritize tasks, and maintain focus even in the face of distractions or setbacks. By staying disciplined, you can turn your dreams into reality and experience the satisfaction of achieving what you once thought was impossible.

2. Building Resilience:

Life is full of challenges and obstacles that can deter even the most determined individuals. However, self-discipline acts as a shield against adversity, helping you develop resilience and bounce back from setbacks. It instills the mindset that obstacles are merely stepping stones towards growth and success. With self-discipline, you can persevere through difficult times, learn from failures, and emerge stronger, more resilient, and better equipped to face future challenges.

3. Improving Productivity:

In a world filled with distractions, self-discipline is the key to maintaining focus and maximizing productivity. It allows you to prioritize tasks, manage your time effectively, and resist the temptation of procrastination. By staying disciplined, you can eliminate time-wasting activities, stay on track with your responsibilities, and accomplish more in less time. The result is increased efficiency, heightened performance, and a greater sense of accomplishment.

4. Cultivating Healthy Habits:

Self-discipline extends beyond work and goal achievement; it also plays a crucial role in cultivating healthy habits. Whether it's maintaining a balanced diet, exercising regularly, or practicing mindfulness, self-discipline enables you to make conscious choices that benefit your physical, mental, and emotional well-being. By staying disciplined, you can overcome unhealthy habits, develop self-care routines, and lead a healthier, more balanced lifestyle.

5. Enhancing Personal Growth:

Self-discipline is a catalyst for personal growth and self-improvement. It requires self-awareness, self-control, and a willingness to step outside of your comfort zone. By embracing self-discipline, you can challenge your limits, acquire new skills, and expand your knowledge. It encourages continuous learning, fosters personal development, and opens doors to new opportunities. With self-discipline, you can unlock your full potential and become the best version of yourself.

In a world filled with distractions and instant gratification, self-discipline is the differentiating factor between mediocrity and greatness. It empowers individuals to achieve their goals, overcome obstacles, and lead a purposeful life. By embracing self-discipline, you can unlock your full potential, cultivate resilience, improve productivity, cultivate healthy habits, and embark on a journey of personal growth. So, let us embrace self-discipline and unleash the power within us to create a life of success, fulfillment, and limitless possibilities.

Source: Verywell Mind

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#@gracelourevilla

[lewmagoo]

This whole regression thing is fucking weird and infantile.

hi! i know this was intended as an insult, but for others, allow me to explain regression. i’m paraphrasing from verywell health:

firstly: age regression is NOT a sexual practice. age regression is NOT the same thing as age play. regression is safe for everyone, including minors. this is why i created a separate blog for age regression, because i wanted a safe, non sexual space to go when i was regressed.

what is age regression?

age regression is when a person reverts to a younger state of mind. they may regress a few years back from their current age or, in some cases, return to a child-like or infant-like state. regression is a normal and temporary coping mechanism for stress and untreated trauma in both children and adults. childlike behaviors often follow.

people sometimes revert to childlike behavior to cope with trauma, stress, severe illness, or mental health disorders. age regression can be unconscious (involuntary) or conscious (voluntary) behavior. personally, i regress to cope with trauma and mental health issues.

i completely get it if you don’t understand it, but to come into someone’s inbox and get after them for their coping mechanism is uncalled for. we all have different ways of coping. this is mine. go find something else to get mad over.

[chaotic-theatrical-weaver]

On longing for love:

VeryWellMind infographic on intimacy vs. isolation / “People Watching,” Conan Gray / “Alone,” Daniel Durant / “When,” dodie

[whentranslatorscry]

Kakushidate Yakusuke Being Hospitalized (2/3)

Different from Satoi-sensei, who already enjoyed an unshakable position and was in a league of her own, this man was a new talent the editorial department had high hopes for and attached great importance to—or something.

"Yeah, yeah, more or less. Only, he's not exactly a newcomer. He's actually older than Satoi-sensei and has been around longer." 

"Really?"

The manga world gives the impression of young geniuses popping up constantly, but on the other hand there's also a tendency for some to take surprisingly long to make their mark. While it's true that anyone can become hugely popular regardless of age or status, reality isn't so rosy.

Sure it's better than being unemployed, but it was a harsh world I didn't think I could handle— though not exactly as Kondou-san put it, maybe only those like Satoi-sensei who take hardship as nourishment are bound to succeed.

"Fumoto-sensei's 'Verywell,' it started serializing in our magazine recently and… How to put it, it's something I feel has potential. His time is finally coming. As editor-in-chief, I am filled with excitement from the bottom of my heart."

Wow, Kondou-san's job must be so fulfilling—he sounds so enthusiastic that I temporarily put my own affairs at the back of my mind to feel sincere happiness for him. But not having read the manga, I couldn't really comment. 

Plus, from how he talks, he and Fumoto-sensei seemed to be sailing much as smoothly as Satoi-sensei, having no room for an unskilled person like me whose only talent is sidestepping trouble.

Just as I was puzzling about what this issue could possibly be,

"Just that, there's been a problem these past few days, and it's very serious." 

He finally got to the point.

I leaned forward, wanting to listen closely.

Just what was this "trouble not entirely unrelated to me."

"I mean, nothing unprecedented...Fumoto-sensei's issue isn't the bizarre, unheard-of, extraordinary kind that's befallen you almost daily. It's a problem that manga artists or novelists, or any 'creator' of some sort, could potentially face at any time. It's neither especially novel or especially classic." 

"...Kondou-san, you're talking in circles and making this more complicated than it needs to be. Don't worry, no matter what kind of request it is, if there's a real necessity for it, Kyouko-san will accept, you can rest assured. She's not the sort of detective who only takes on 'charming mysteries' or 'baffling cases.' Besides, as the forgetful detective, you know she keeps all secrets."

As far as the forgetful detective goes, unless it was a "case that could be solved within a day," she wouldn't take it on either. After all, just recently she had made a right mess of things by not strictly adhering to this rule.

Though I felt bad for Kondou-san, if I already could discern that the case was an unnecessary hardship at my end, I'd recommend another detective more suited for it than Kyouko-san— I too felt partially responsible for that previous incident.

"No, that's not what I meant... You're right though, no point in beating around the bush and raising your unwarranted expectations, that would counter my intentions. Being an editor, some things are just hard to express."

This hesitant manner was so unlike Kondou-san— not raising my expectations, but with his solemn preamble I couldn't help imagining what kind of huge deal it could be. 

However, just when I thought he had finally made up his mind to get down to business and start giving specifics, he jumped back to the previous topic.

"The fallen middle schooler...she was trying to commit suicide, wasn't she?"  

Though for some reason certain news reports (almost all of them) had morphed it into me trying to murder her, at the very least the fact she jumped off the building on her own was undisputed.

I, having personally experienced countless events straight out of a mystery novel, would be inclined to suspect that this entire affair was actually a homicide staged to look like a suicide. I've experienced such cases firsthand. This is not purely hypothetical. But there was a handwritten will left behind here, suggesting it was a suicide.

A note typed on a computer or sent via text message could potentially be forged, one handwritten, however, is irrefutable.

"Yeah, the problem lies with what she wrote."

"What problem exactly?"

As someone suspected of murder, the existence of the will was like a lifeline in my eyes. For now it's just baseless speculation by the media, but without that will I could have really been charged with attempted murder— come to think of it, a suicide does not necessarily need to leave a will, so I probably should be grateful to her for leaving one.

"Absolutely. As your friend, I feel I should be just as grateful to her as you are... But I simply cannot." 

Kondou-san's tone carried a hint of anger. This anger probably wasn't directed at me, but I still shrank back instinctively.

"H-how so?"

"That will has become the root of my… and also Fumoto-sensei's troubles. No, it has taken root, sprouted, and the vines growing from it are suffocating Fumoto-sensei so he can hardly breathe."

"......?"

"It's about what's written— she declared herself a fan of his."

Being as dense as I am, I was still left in the fog at this point. But the following words made it clear just how grave and heavy were the troubles they carried.

"She wrote in black and white that she was personally moved by Fumoto-sensei's piece to take her life, even considerately drew illustrations of his characters."

4

Unable to bear the relentless portrayal of "Secondhand bookstore employee (25)" as a suspect of critical concern, I'd not paid due attention to recent news and print media—thus, my understanding of the precise details pertaining to the middle school girl, and the specific content of her will, was rather limited.

All I know is that she left a will, and tried to end her life by jumping from a building— which, frankly speaking, was more unbearable for me to contemplate than my own reality of being suspected. The backdrop that led a twelve-year-old to commit suicide is something I found too distressing to face, neither did I wish to know what drove her to that.

It was far too sensitive a topic.

Even if it was the very reason for my hospitalization and job loss— the thought of her still hovering on the verge of death made it all the worse. I didn’t expect that the suicide note would be so baffling— or maybe baffling isn't quite the right word.

After all, it has to do with someone's life—not only.

It has to do with someone's profession as a manga artist. 

I never imagined that during my unconsciousness, things would turn out like this for Kondou-san…

“Is this the 'largely related to me' thing?”

“Well…had you not been in the exact spot where she fell, it would've blown up.”

He said.

Perhaps to calm his nerves, he began now to peel an apple. I then noticed that I'd actually been holding the apple that he had peeled for me the whole time without taking a bite, and immediately took a bite.

“You mean?”

I asked him munching on juicy fruit. 

Kondou-san sighed and said,

'What I mean is, if it wasn't for 'Secondhand bookstore employee (25)' becoming a media darling, the one under fire now would probably be Fumoto."

Hold on. Shouldn't I be the one sighing at this? It seemed I'd somehow helped Kondou-san without realizing it, just through a layer of separation— which did please me of course, but becoming a media darling (or 'media target' rather) because of it was hardly something to celebrate.

"I am not happy that you became the punching bag. But it is fact that I was saved because of it. I spoke up for you when you were wrongly accused before, and now not only can we call it even, there is even some left over, the surplus may even rival the national budget! And maybe in order to maintain the narrative that you are the culprit, the will has barely been reported on."

That's how it was.

Looking at it with tinted glasses, we could also say that in order to frame me, the media concealed the existence of the will— of course, considerations were also made because the "victim" was an underage girl who still showed signs of life. But if I hadn't been standing at the spot where she fell that day, she probably would have gone to meet the King of Hell according to plan, and the contents of the will would likely have been made public, with the barrel pointed at the "culprit" who drove her to suicide.  

Indeed—at Fumoto Shun.

"Uh, the piece that moved her, isn't it that manga, the one currently being serialized, 'Verywell', was it?"

"No, not that one. It's Fumoto-sensei's early work. It's a short story he drew when he was just starting out… A one-shot called Cicerone."  

Kondou-san explained.

I didn't even know the name of his currently serializing work until just now, so of course I'd never heard of this one-shot or had any idea what it was about. And I didn't understand the meaning of that loanword(?) Cicerone either.

"Well, that's one only people in the know would know about. If she read that, she must really be a true fan of his. Having such a huge fan should have been a happy thing."

"And what kind of manga is it?"

I wasn't sure if I should ask, but if I didn't, the conversation would grind to a halt, so I picked up the courage to ask.

"Hard to describe in one sentence…but for sure, there is suicide in the piece. From a certain point of view, if you ask whether it glorifies suicide, yes, it does. Since he had just debuted at the time and it was drawn when he was very young, should we call it radical...? It's undeniable that some parts are sharp and thorny."

Kondou-san seemed rather reluctant to elaborate—hmm. 

I hadn't seen the content, so I won't comment much, but from what I had gathered, some people were sure to blame that manga for the schoolgirl's suicide, believing she imitated what she saw. 

Especially since she wasn't just any fan— she spelled it out in her will. If it weren't for the media making me out to be a suspect and giving it widespread coverage, the prevailing narrative in the media would definitely have been full of tired arguments about "the harmful influence of manga on children" or that "creative freedom shouldn't be unlimited".

The mere thought of it sent shivers down my spine.

I used to half-jokingly, half-seriously curse heaven for treating me this way. But this was the first time I thanked my innate misfortune without the slightest hint of self-mockery. Even if there's no need to be so dramatic, just thinking about what would have happened if the one passing by when she jumped wasn't me with my inborn misfortune, but someone smaller, and the suicide girl and them were killed together... 

No doubt Fumoto-sensei's manga would have become the target of public backlash for taking two lives. 

Needless to say that as a mystery novel reader,I stand on the side of defending creative freedom. But on the other hand, it's not that I want to restrict press freedom either, yet I also don't want authors to have to turn their imaginations into reality under so many constraints— this is my personal opinion.

Rather, not so much an opinion as just some random thought— expressing my feelings without much due consideration. Just my reflexive, unexamined thoughts— in fact, if I were to come across works full of blatant discrimination, I'm sure it would make me uncomfortable. I would certainly 'feel' that children shouldn't be exposed to such things.

There's no solution to this dilemma.

All you end up with is mixed reviews.

If you ask whether creative works can influence their audience's lives or sensibilities, the answer is of course yes— if there are readers who became professional baseball or football players because of reading comics, then how can we definitively say there are none who became juvenile delinquents or criminals? Not just children, even adults can be influenced by fiction, become better or worse people because of them— this is undeniable. Rather, one might say people seek out creative works precisely with the desire to change their own lives. 

Be it comics, novels, movies, or nonfiction reality, it is basically impossible to come into contact with certain things and remain unaffected whatsoever. At the extreme, some readers or viewers might see the relentless media attacking me and think, "That suspicious guy deserves all the criticism he gets."—who knows. 

No media under the sun does not influence its consumers.  

Nevertheless, to play the relativist and go, "all judgments are intrinsically subjective" is equally meaningless. Hence, when both sides can only muster impressions that don't amount to opinions, the debate is basically over— that's what I think.

People are naturally influenced by what's around them, but if your own feelings were to be overturned by this reasoning— that would be untenable for anyone. Of course, to be defeated in an argument is not to lose. It's not a question of victory or defeat, and it's not a question of value perspective.

"There's a good chance it could have caused a tremendous scandal, but Kondou-san, we seem to have averted the worst case scenario, haven't we? A close shave, I suppose... or should we say it ended as an incident not worth calling an accident... Anyway, no longer a problem, is it?"

The endless argument has ended. And so has the problem, it's solved.

While it's hard to say the deep root of it was resolved completely, still, by me becoming the scapegoat, the worst seems to have been avoided. It may not be a perfectly tidy resolution, but hasn't the matter been settled?

"No, it's not that simple. Certainly thanks to you— although it's weird to say— since it didn't become public, the problem didn't surface. However, even if it didn't become public, the man in question still found out."

"The man in question?"

"Fumoto-sensei."

He was greatly devastated, Kondou-san told me. 

Someone passed this news on to him. Who told him anyway? Well, I can't get too angry about it now, but I can't help feeling for Kondou-san's feelings.

"For his own work to nearly take a child's life— it made him so upset he's considering putting down his pen— or rather, it's making his creative work painful."

What a forced pun.

But I understand the feeling, even if I can't fully understand as I've never heard of a manga directly leading to something like this. Though it's a sad universal truth that young people have been driven to suicide after being inspired by novels, plays and other creative works since historical times. That brings no comfort here of course.

If the manga artist he has such high hopes for is being driven into such dire straits, it's not unthinkable that Kondou-san would be anxious. As the magazine's editor and as a human, it's hard not to share in that distress.

That's the kind of man he is.

But if there is any advice I could give as a third party regarding this matter, ultimately, it's a hardship that Fumoto-sensei will have to overcome by himself I think. Or if he's reached the point where he doesn't even want to draw manga anymore, then that decision should be respected.

"I understand that too of course. We are trying to persuade him in consultation with his direct editor, but in the end it will come down to his own judgment."

"Seems fair. Yeah, it's not my place to interfere...I'm being too nosy. Terribly rude of me. But why tell me about this?'"

After hearing the whole story, I felt this was entirely a trade secret— even though it was closely related to what happened to me, was it really okay for him to tell me the contents of a will involving Fumoto-sensei's dismissal? And wasn't he originally asking me to introduce Kyouko-san to him... From listening to it all, I still felt this wasn't a case suitable to entrust to the forgetful detective. 

No, not just the forgetful detective, no detective at all— because there's neither a mystery that needs solving, nor a criminal that needs catching.

"You're absolutely right, Yakusuke— only if the story I just told is true."

"Only if it's true?" 

—Wasn't it true?

I was listening the whole time thinking it was.

All this while I have been burdened with countless unfounded accusations labeled "facts." Just like how now the media was portraying me as a critical suspect and making a big fuss. Even if you told me that everything just now was "fabricated," I could not easily deny it either.

Nothing can be certain— a certain perfectionist detective once said this. 

"Hmm...I may have misled you. The reality is what it is. I didn't see the original suicide note but the police showed me a copy and revealed some insider details that haven't been told to you yet— Simply put, Fumoto-sensei's current circumstances are not entirely separate from yours."  

"Is that so..."

"But you know, something just doesn't feel quite right about it."

Kondou-san said.

Despite his use of "feel quite" in an offhand way, his tone was one of firm conviction.

Something was off.

What could it be that was off?

"On the flip side, you could say it feels too contrived— I can't quite put it in words, but there's something forced about it." 

"Forced..."

Was there some... conspiracy or something?

A plot to undermine a promising young manga creator expected to carry the future of the magazine, making a middle school girl leave behind a suicide note like that and killing herself— that's what he was getting at?

That's too forced.

A storyline like that would be not only forced but delusional paranoia that even I wouldn't entertain.

"Of course, I have no intention of spouting such wild speculations, and if she really did attempt suicide because of Fumoto-sensei's work, as editor-in-chief I have no intention of shirking responsibility either. But the malaise I feel makes me think there's more to it."

Malaise...that was really far too abstract to base anything on. But even so, can't ignore a felt sense of unease.

Is this why he requested Kyouko-san?

This is why he needed Okitegami Kyouko?

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[themindofastrid]

🌐 Recs of the Week No.1

Hello there👋🏽! Across the internet there’s a lot of awesomeness, so I decided to curate a small list of cool content that I think it’s worth sharing, I hope you find it useful, inspiring or interesting.

Thank you so much for being here♡.

Without further ado, these are my internet findings of the week:

Articles📝

Videos���

Podcasts🎙️

I hope you found any of these useful and interesting.

Until next week!

[rin-and-jade]

Ahhh hi you’ve probably got asks like this before but I’m suspecting I maybe system or have DID and where can find resources? Don’t know where to look or start at all, a lot places use terms and acronyms I’ve never heard bc I’m not “I’m community” aha. I have a lot of anxiety bc this feels REAL and thus scary and I want to learn about it but don’t know how, THANKY OU

I have sources that has been approved by me:

This one is from verywell mind

The other one from cleveland clinic

Throwing one from webmd

Last one from mayo clinic

Here is also the research web about the disorder if needed btw

If you have any terms or acronyms you need to ask, feel free to say it here later! Hope these links suffices for you.

- j

[traumasurvivorshelpingsurvivors]

Hello there ! You can just call me Anon Is it okay if you describe symptoms and behavior of Hypersexuality created from sexual abuse? I feel as though I might have it from the research I've done. I am going to see a therapist for this as I know talking to internet strangers isn't enough, but I want to hear what other people think hypersexuality is before I fully jump to conclusions and I'm too embarassed to talk about it to my friends

Hi anon,

Thank you for reaching out and I want to commend you for your self awareness and taking the steps to address it via therapy - I think that’s the healthiest option to tackle with a trained professional in order to assess, and potentially treat, the core wounds behind some symptoms.

I’m sure you’ve likely already seen some of the basics around hypersexuality, but I went ahead and am including two links about it via the mayo clinic, and verywell mind.  However I thought it might be good to share two articles written by people for a more personal examination to see if any of these resonate with you (the second one includes an interview with a psychotherapist as well as case study references).  

All that being said, even if two people go through the same experience, they might have very opposite, yet equally valid, responses to it - so maybe some of these resonate, maybe they won’t.  But if anything I hope it helps you examine how you might want to broach the subject in the safe space of therapy in order to process.

Also, anyone seeing this who might like to comment, or reblog to add any additional insight/resources for anon, please feel free to - thanks in advance!

- Mod Kat