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Me the first two sessions with my psychiatrist: Yeah I'm doing great, I love my job, I love my life!
Me at the third session: I've been lying to you this whole time about everything, and I may be dying
#we had a productive session#i havent been taking my meds for over a year. but i told her i have been for the first two sessions#because im not super mentally ill in the summer so i thought i was fine#famous last sentiments i guess#once winter hit i remembered im on meds for a reason#so i told her i actually havent been taking my meds and im dealing with the consequences#i thought shed be mad at me. she wasnt#she just said that we'll get me started on the low starting dose and work our way back up to the normal dose#soni made another appointment with her and got some low doses ordered#and then i made an appointment for a vitamin d lab cuz ive been deficient on that for forever#and then made a gyno appointment cuz im a disaster#very productive morning#im about to go to a work meeting#moral of the story: dont go off your meds#and if you do tell your psychiatrist about it. they wont be mad
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Guys, I saw something and need to clarify somethig since someone might think the same, I don't beg for attention, I don't need attention (that's how I always lived, seriously, I am absolutely okay without any and I don't see anything wrong in not having any if it's not a work that demands it), a lot of posts constantly that just bury your dash might be annoying and that's why I've been telling to block me, not follow me, in fact a lot of attention exhausts me very quickly, all I do here I do for myself, I love what I do, I specifically don't put a lot of tags on some posts because I've been making them mostly for myself and someone specific (for them just to see it and know that I care and love what they do, not react on it. That's why I'm sometimes sad when people pressurely tell me that I didn't react on something they created for me or didn't interact with them, I'm deeply sorry, I can't answer on them all if I don't feel like it and hope you understand it) *polite bow*
I mean, guys, we all will walk on separated roads sooner or later, but for now I wanna have as much fun as I can 🧡
There are a lot of beautiful people over here who already told that they are okay with my chaos, but there might be some knew who will be confused XDDD
#I'm not an attention kind of person and it's a bit sad when people think so#I love chaos and quiet at the same time and enjoy equivalently them both#But I have people who I care deeply about#Don't get me wrong#They can stop noticing me absolutely#Forget about me#But I still will be doing what I always was until it will be moment to walk alone#But one thing this anon told for sure that I agree with#These authors are very big for me#They are so cool that they can crash the planet *giggle*#Also I don't believe in “always” and pretty sure that I will move to somewhere different when time will come#Anyway#Good morning and have a nice and productive day everyone! *giggle* 🧡🍀💛
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I know nothing about 911 but seeing all the bucktommy posts makes me really interested, if you don’t mind could you give a short introduction of the ship/which episode(s) to watch for them? Thanks!!
Hi! So the ship is a very new one and they don't have a lot of screen time yet, so their relationship only appears in season seven, episodes: 7x3 to 7x6 and then 7x9 and 7x10. Tommy Kinard as a side character also shows up in episodes 2x9, 2x12, 2x14 (in an off-screen capacity) and 2x16.
As for the introduction, the lore with this show runs sort of deep, but as condensed and simplified as I can give it to you: the decision to introduce bi!Buck and Tommy and his love interest was made very last minute (like as the first few episodes of season seven were coming out kind of last minute...) as the tv show switched networks from FOX to ABC and was working with a protracted season, (10 episodes in stead of 18), so this first season you see them together in has a very "let's see how well this works and if the general audience approves of it" kind of vibe.
Obviously, it worked for me! And the general reception has been good. Personally, I find their dynamic fun and genuine; the show runner was aiming for a non-heavy coming out story with a romcom twist, which I think they succeeded at. Buck (or "Evan" as Tommy calls him) is sort of the obvious favourite of the show in the audience and the writer's eyes, he's gotten a lot of development over the years, but has stagnanted recently on the romance side of things and also in his professional development, (which is partly the fault of the writers and partly just bad luck with maintaining actors). So I think a lot of fans are excited to see him "off the hamster wheel", as they say, in the love department. This opens up the possibility to explore other plot lines with him as a character in his professional life and personal life now that hes in a steady relationship.
Tommy we don't know much about yet, other than he was deeply in the closet when we first see him in the season 2 flash-back episodes. He's not initially a very warm, welcoming, and accepting person, but it's implied that a lot of that behavior was influenced by his environment and poor upbringing, and he is quick to make amends and befriend the main characters when he's shown to be in the wrong. He used to be in the army, and is a fan of cars, martial arts, and rom coms. The way he talks in the season seven episodes makes it clear that he's done a lot of self reflection since we've last seen him (and since he's come out). He's shown to be an open and honest person who does his best to show up for the people he cares for, and once Buck is in his line of sight, all that attention is turned his way.
I think with this ship what people are most excited about is the potential it demonstrates: Buck as a character is someone who's been on an aggressive misson of self discovery and understanding, he's been actively looking for a romantic partner to have a committed, mature relationship with, he's someone who's willing to give a lot of himself away to his partner and is desperately hoping to have that attention and affection mirrored back at him.
What little we know about Tommy so far makes it clear that he's mature and willing enough to be that person for Buck: if it works out and the writers allow him to be. I just really enjoy what little I've seen so far, and with the show being back to its regular 18 episodes next season and Tommy pretty much confirmed to return, I'm interested and invested and hopefully in where they may take this relationship next.
Also I feel like I need to add if you're going to engage with the fandom specifically for this ship, do it through the #bucktommy tag on tumblr, because it's a real mine field out there right now, lol.
#bucktommy#asks#sorry I'm wine drunk i hope this makes sense#also I'm fairly new to this fandom so if anyone wants to add extra context feel free#I'm juat very good at digesting information and love to rubber neck and used to work in tv production#911#i will edit this in the morning 🤦🏼♂️
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Friendly reminder the Dragon Age Devs AMA is happening later today for all you Americans out there! Consider me very impressed that a majority of the questions with the greatest upvotes are quite critical of the game!
I linked it below!
#its happening at like 4 in the morning for me so i won't be able to join in the live trash fire I assume it will be#if anyone wants to ramble/send me their hot takes on what the devs say my inbox is open!#going to be all over it when I wake up!#a lot of questions about world states / lack of rp options / lack of depth to companions etc...#a lot of asks for patches to add more content like BG3 has done - like EA would allow that?! they'd charge $20 for shit they had them cut#questions about how lacking the lucanis romance is in terms of content too -> in general the romances are getting a lot of criticism#a really good question about retconning solas's motivations too#surprised i only saw one or two questions about the executors -> the one I saw was asking if it was in Gaider's plan for the series lmao#a few about production troubles and a few about misleading statements devs made#i am so very proud that no one is giving them wiggle room <3#especially about how they were misleading in their marketing of this game - that was outright scummy to consumers#EA is not entirely at fault for how misleading/vague they were in their marketing#Bioware doesn't have EA holding a gun to their head every minute of the day - they're multi-million dollar company#you don't need to defend them lmao#someone please ask them to release the Joplin Cut for me lmao#bioware critical#datv critical#edit - i 100% have a lot of sympathy for individual devs and the crappy work environment they're in#but when some of them are outright misleading customers about what is in the game its just shitty all round#i feel bad for the individuals and not so much the company and execs#veilguard critical
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It always rubs me the wrong way when people characterize atsushi as too much of a sweetheart. Like he IS a sweetheart but he's also snarky and sarcastic and most importantly he's very very angry. Do not forget this.
#I think its a product of like. People thinking that being kind and being angry are mutually exclusive#Which they very much are not#Atsushi is an extremely compassionate character who also happens to be angry!! These things do not cancel each other out#Like. He bites and screams and fights when someone hurts him or someone he cares about#He's been hurt so much and he's furious and bitter about it.#He's still a compassionate character. He's so so good. Being angry at people that hurt you is not bad.#He's not someone who just rolls over and takes whats thrown at him. He establishes this very early on#Idk. I just think taking away that part of him that's bitter and angry about the way he was treated#Is a major disservice to his character#Jesus this turned into a tangeant. I love atsushi a lot.#I'm a very angry person myself. I actually like that about myself!! I relate to atsushi a lot just as#Someone whos affected by mental illness in ways that often end up making me someone thats hard to be around#Atsushi is a tiger. He bites. This is important.#Sorry sorry. The atsushi brainrot is strong this morning#ruby speaks#Bsd#Bsd atsushi#Atsushiposting
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So about yesterday. Do you remember everything? I wish I didn't.
Bonus: Chi Yeol’ reaction
#crash course in romance#kdramaedit#kdramadaily#kdrama#kdramagifs#userbbelcher#chewieblog#dailynetflix#dailytvfilmgifs#cinematv#tvcentric#mufaloedit#crashcourseedit#love everything about this scene!!!#she lifted him up + they didn’t show them laying down (thank you for that production team)#+ his reaction in the morning and the way the writers following their own script#like she is strong because she was an athlete and he’s not eating good enough and very thin#so it’s logical that she can lift him up#love these little details
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just want 2 say abt the marvel rivals post u made... big mood bc that's me every game getting banished to Magneto, Strange, or Adam bc these ppl wont stop picking Punisher (?) and feeding like crazy… like maybe i want to play (idk any of the dps chars bc I never play them but imagine one here)... but noooo give the 2k dmg guy MVP and not me with 35k damage blocked/healing done..... smh -poro anon
do you really want to play dps when you dont know any of the dps tho ……… much to consider …….
#snap chats#OWDJSK I MEAN IM JUST SAYIN ……. yaint lab any for the day you Can play dps …..#ok im being mean . i Naturally gravitate to tank or support i gen love those roles#but it is very aggravating trying to tank or support alone#at least i feel as though people are more willing to dual support but if youre tank youre on your own#which isnt HORRIBLE its very much doable and ive won games that way but having one SUPPORT on top of that … girls ….#tank is an entirely thankless role which is fine for me but its just…. wow ……#like again im not super affected. except i am because I Repeat two supports is great#mags works best with a second tank but ive been able to win games with just him so w/e#also anon …… i dont think mvp is distributed based on damage blocked ….. its based on kills per second im p sure#idk i actually havent looked into how mvps are achieved in rivals but ill do that in the morn prob#in any case dont hard focus stats since stats arent wholly reflective of whats happening in game#what matters is winning and securing objectives and as long as thats being done then Yippee ….#ofc Play The Game and make yourself a productive team member but dont get caught up in just the numbers#ok that ends my unsolicited tidbit bye bye im sleeping
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i think instead of incredible 3d renders and custom artwork opq should have just put a bunch of guys with sock puppets in front of a camera and forced them to pantomime what characters were doing as they described it. i think that would have been really good. cellbit i am available for hire there’s more great ideas where this came from
#opq#class was cancelled this morning. i’m doing great things with my free time. very productive things
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obsessed with marcus aurelius just writing "The best revenge is to not be like that." if you're thinking of digging two Graves just stop. you're being cringe
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Having more energy with adhd is such a fucking bad experience. A death trap.
LIKE IDK. I DONT KNOWWW
My productiveness absolutely crashes and burns if I am fully energized. Bc I'm distracted and I'm doing 150 things and doing nothing, and absolutely no force on earth will stop me from abandoning a Task and getting serotonin somewhere more lazy and pleasant.
Like what do I do, stay forever trapped in a loop of being just a bit sleep deprived? How do you even do that, eventually it's still majorly sleep deprived.
#the best time to do smth big is at 2 am on a night where you shouldve been asleep 4 hours ago.#its like. so fucking bad#also thats why i have strict morning routine and if i misstep on it the entire rest of day crashes and burns#bc it all HINGES on my brain being very dead and allowing me to be hella productive for 30 minutes to get all the boring tasks n get out#after that im all on my own and my own is in teh passenger seat of a monkey car driven by my brain
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Fuck me, do neurotypical people really do things this often?
#eelsgospel#took my first dose of adderall#had a compulsion to set my bed#I've been more productive in one morning#than I have been in the past few days#my room freaks me out because I can comprehend it#as opposed to just spacing out#in whatever living space I'm in#It's like I'm possessed by a very helpful ghost
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It is interesting with Antoinette. I could see it being that Lestat genuinely had affection for her, even if he would certainly have killed her had Louis personally asked him to -- or it could be that she was just familiar, and he wanted the closest thing to intimacy he could get, so someone who knew him was better than someone who didn't. And the whole possibility that she reminded him of Gabrielle in some ways...
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Yeah, I totally agree, anon.
I actually unfortunately suspect that Antoinette isn't a character the show will really come back to, and I think I'm one of three people that cares about that, haha, but where I tend to land on her relationship with Lestat is the fact that neither Lestat nor Louis actually have any friends.
That's not to say that I think Lestat and Antoinette were just friends, I don't, they obviously fucked a lot (which like, also comes down to the fact that Lestat doesn't know how to have friends he doesn't fuck, haha), but I do think the reality is that Lestat and Louis have very different racial and cultural contexts, hobbies and areas of interest which aren't things they can easily share with each other, especially not in early-1900s America, and I think that's a bigger factor in their relationship breakdown than either will admit to.
It's why Louis' able to reconnect with Jonah so quickly - they might be leading different lives, but they have more overlapping factors than they don't, whereas he and Lestat have less than they do - and for Lestat as a white theatre kid, he needs to be around other performers. I think with Antoinette, she's obviously a talented vocalist and an ambitious artist, and I can see that genuinely just being company that Lestat wants to be close with. They probably talk shit about crap theatre they've seen and do vocal runs together and fuck, and honestly for a part of Lestat, that would lowkey be a dream relationship, haha. Do I think they have a deep emotional connection? No, but given even Louis' willing to admit she's talented, and his own complex relationship with not succeeding as an artist, I wonder how much that factors in to his portrayal of her and his insecurities around their relationship (to say nothing of the fact that she's both white and a woman).
This feels like it's going on a hundred tangents, haha, but my point is maybe they'd step out on each other less or descend into unforessen levels of chaos and destruction if they both had a few friends they could talk about their identities and niche interests with!!
#this is not actually related to your ask but i've been thinking a bit about different family make ups lately#and while i was hungover this morning after yoga and getting breakfast with my mum#i told her about how one of our production coordinators at work - let's call her A - had a baby last year with her wife#and they had a very good friend who's gay who became their sperm donor#and he's like#LOVING being fun uncle and A and i were talking about it the other day at work because she was genuinely shocked because he's#been very open about how much he does not want kids of his own and it caused a lot of hesitancy with her and her wife taking him up on offe#but how much he's stepped up#she said he's been amazing#and he's been so helpful and supportive and done so much running around for them when they've been knocked sideways with having a newborn#and he loves being with his little niece who's actually his biological daughter and getting to give her back#and A was like we were close before but now he's my daughter's uncle and now he truly feels like my brother#and A and her partner and him are already talking about having another baby in the next year or so#idk why your ask made me remember this#maybe i was just thinking about it still after talking to mum about it over breakfast#but idk maybe it comes back to this whole idea that queer family units are inherently unconventional in our current structure#and applying conventional tropes to them doesn't work#which again has nothing to do with your ask haha just something i'm thinking about#lestat asks#iwtv asks
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I am working on two Mel/Ben fics
One short one where Melanie is in episode 5 and one longer one that takes place post season 4
#i woke up this morning and wrote 900 words on a short fic before getting out of bed to go to work#very productive half an hour#i had an idea and i started typing#it's 1400 words now and will probably stay relatively short#if I can i'll try to post it by this weekend#i'm busy thursday saturday and sunday though in addition to regular work#so maybe not#or i take a half day on friday just to finish this fic - i'm not above it#the other one i've been working on for several weeks and it's about 11k words now#not going to start posting that one until the season is properly over#snowpiercer
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Good evening gamers!!! Seems like I missed promo hour which is a shame😔 I shall try to partake in it next time!
#pan rambles#honestly today has been a rollercoaster-afknsdksn#The morning was pretty good and I felt pretty productive!#and then the afternoon rolled around and I was Not Vibing and got extremely sad and anxious for no reason other than my brain being mean </3#luckily though I managed to pick myself up a few hours ago and I'm feeling better now#not perfect- but better#on a happier note!!! I finished F.inal F.antasy 12 a while back!#I plan to start the Y.akuza series next!! I'm very excited!#Alas I'll probably not be immune to f/oing someone from that series#but I'm walking in pretty blind so idk who that would be just yet#Some pals have already made guesses so place your bets everyone! fjsnfksndks
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high as fuck eating a giant ceaser salad cheers x
#ive had an amazing day <3#my friend spent the night last night and we watched lost in trasnlation#and then we made waffles this morning#then i took her home and had my therapy session#(which was very productive despite how drained i felt)#and then i read a bunch of 'the water cure' by sophie mackintonsh#which is shaping up to be one of my favorite books of the year 75 pages in
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thinking about how 5x04 birthmarks actually sets up house's childhood as being more fucked up than i think the writers intended.
like okay. to run down: john house is abusive towards his son. house deduces that his dad isn't his biological father when he's 12 and confronts him about it. as a result, his dad proceeds to not speak to him for months besides leaving notes at his bedroom door. house's belief that his dad isn't his biological father is eventually vindicated after john's death and he realizes that his mother didn't like his father much either.
which. jesus christ. can we just take a step back and let that sink in? his mother had an affair and house is the result of that. and his mom just..... lets her husband abuse her son? it doesn't sound like she really stepped in at any point to stop it and the only time we see his parents together she makes excuses for her husband's behavior. and like. house is born in 1959 so yes, it's not like his mother could easily leave her husband and i'm not saying that blythe house is evil bc it is a difficult situation given the time period, but the way the narrative frames her (lack of) action in such a passive way vs acknowledging that she's complicit is... really fucked up tbh! and i'm not saying that a victim of child abuse can't love their parents bc it's really complicated! but it's just such a weird thing to toss out there like a dead fish to fester in the sun and do absolutely nothing else with it.
i really don't know that the writers fully thought through the implications of the back story they set up even tho it ends up explaining why house puts up with a lot of really messed up shit from the people around him.
#good morning and hello! woke up thinking about this!#side bar: it's weird the only characters they constantly bring up pre-series back stories for are cameron and to a lesser extent foreman#thirteen is defined by having huntington's so her backstory comes up but not in the same way it comes up with cameron or foreman#everyone clearly had a life pre-series and currently has a personal life but only the two characters are constantly defined by their pasts#so it just makes it weirder to drop this Very Big and Serious back story for house when we don't know a lot about him even tho he's the mc#which is the same thing conan doyle did with sherlock: he has a past and it's referenced but not critical and that's *fine*#but there's really no closing the pandora's box once you've had the reveal that house is the survivor of child abuse and the product of#an affair that his mother had and she seemingly didn't step in a whole lot to stop it tho she was there for the aftermath#this rewatch is just so fascinating. i'm getting such a different experience out of it and i have no clue why.#hate crimes md#house md#gregory house
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