#venting and ranting I AM SORRY

[zorangezest]

Eating and chewing your AU for dinner, it scratches a damn ITCHHHHH BROO I LOVE IT SMMM THE DESIGNS AND STYLE AND WRITING ARE SO PEAK 🕺

so I brought a propaganda poster and some doodles XD

YOU. YOU!!!!!!!!!!!DID YOU KNOW YOU WERE THE FIRST EVER PERSON TO SEND ART INTO MY INBOX. DID YOU KNOW YOUR FANART OF MY HUMANFORMERS SOUNDWAVE WAS MY INSTAGRAM PFP FOR LIKE 4 MONTHS

[starscream-is-my-wife]

Sometimes a day makes you want a Starscream to bite and squeeze

[firesidehampter]

I just feel like I am slowly dying. I can't even describe it. The pain, the nausea, the fatigue...everything. My body is suffering and I can't fix it. There is no cure for anything I have it's just trying to manage the symptoms. Trying to find doctors that listen. Trying everything they suggest. And I am still trying to talk to them about getting exploratories done. I just want answers. I am exhausted. I am in pain. I feel as if I am slowly dying.

This comes off as dramatic probably but it is truly how I feel. I am losing my mind. And this doesn't even touch the surface of my symptoms, just the most prominent ones.

[jordanswitches]

no i'm actually gonna strangle someone lol i had a blood test last week to decide if i get to have a blood transfusion that would dramatically imrpove my health and life. got the results today, they're invalid bc i took my iron tables less than eight hours before i got the test. have never been told when to take my tablets in relation to my blood tests, it was just a note on my results bc it was abnormally high. it took them five times to get the blood from me this time bc my veins are so deep and now i'll have to wait at least two weeks for another appointment and get stuck with needles god knows how many times all over again and i just cannot keep waiting for my life to stop sucking

[eaterofdust]

I have finally wasted my time on the Live Action. What the actual fuck has everyone here been on to compliment Snotlout this movie does him so fucking dirty????

[angelsdean]

don't know how people multi-fandom. dipped my toe into another one and immediately backed out bc everyone there was insufferable.

[youling-the-ghost]

hey, random person on the internet, maybe don't do this?

[off-the-rails-raccoon]

Did you like the new ending :3 (fuck the old one)

I LOVE IT SO MUCH!!!!!! It's the best logical way the dsmp could've ended AND because it's so open-ended, it leaves a lot of room for the fandom to build on, which isn't something you see a lot in media nowadays.

HOWEVER, it has been really bothering me these past few days since it was released, and I've had complex feelings about it that I haven't really been able to figure out until somewhat recently. Though, this is probably just me lol!

I'm gonna try to make this as short and legible as I can, but as you know I'm so very bad at that so sorry in advance.

Dsmp has been my main source of entertainment and an escape from just life in general since I first started getting into it—which was back in mid-2020 or so, but that was less of dsmp itself and more of the fandom. Though I still really enjoy the content creators content itself, I've watched them less and less and on the occasion that I see a clip or quote by them (especially Tommy) it's SO jarring how much they've changed and matured, and it's only a reminder of how I've done the same. That's the feeling I got when seeing the new lore. Everything has changed, people have matured, relationships have drifted apart, and we are living in the present.

It's like the feeling of finding an old toy that you distinctly remember loving so very much way back then and realizing you feel indifferent to it now. You've changed, your taste of things you enjoy changed, your relationships with people have changed, and you've grown.

I don't want to go back but I don't want to stop reminiscing, and this ending has made me realize that.

[cryptidwrestling]

...So. Uh. I know I am unreasonably annoyed by this but like. I now kinda understand why some people opt to stay off of the WWE side of Twitter, and more power to those of ya'll that are on there without going insane or losing your temper.

Because the amount of people on social media giving Liv and Raquel irl and not kayfabe hell over Rhea's injury OR saying-not speculating and I am not exagerating I saw at least three comments like this-"Oh yeah, Rhea is definately pregnant not hurt and ya'll are silly for believing otherwise" is way too damn high.

[the-red-hoodlum]

me when I dont want oestrogen or progesterone but my mother has explicitly said she doesnt want me on testosterone (fair enough I guess??) or blockers (ok but wtf with that one I already have massive tits what more do you want from me smh 🙄🙄/silly /hj): so.. ignore the problem for longer then? :D

[liesmultixxx]

not to be sad on main but why am i so ugly?

i really hate knowing no one will ever be so entranced when they see me and feel nervous/ giddy around me

no one will have a crush on me or find me attractive or anything of that sort

no one will freak out because i talked to them or paid attention to them

no one at all

i’m invisible

[nemo-of-house-hamartia]

ok, once more I realize that my own kindness and friendliness has been taken for implied consent, and as always, the troubles that are brewing now are connected to OCs.

So let me be clear and frank one more time, one last time, because I have NO INTENTION of going through what I went through in 2021.

While I am always immensely happy that my Original Characters are enjoyed and that they can serve as source of inspiration, they are NOT however a template for anyone to base their OCs on.

They are not something that you can take in their entirety, change whatever suits you, and then call it your own.

It doesn't work like that, especially because, and allow me to reiterate this once and for all, OCs are *immensely* personal.

They are an extention of the soul of the person that creates them.

So taking whatever suits your fancy and use it for the "aesthetic" or the "vibes" is immensely disrespectful and, dare I say, rather impertinent, especially when both characters happen to belong to the same fandom.

Now, I am not talking about certain tropes and subjects that are typical of certain genre, of course not.

We are all somehow reinveting something that's already there when we work with OCs and stories.

What I am talking about is taking certain specific idiosyncrasies that make a certain character unique, change them to suit your character, and then being SO IMPERTINENT to just call it your own and parading it around without even having the courtesy to quote the person that has inspired you, taking advantage of the fact that I am just a small creator with a small following.

This is a huge No No for me.

Huge.

I appreciate that other creators might have a different opinion or perspective when it comes to OCs, and while I do not share entirely in that, I sure as hell respect it.

But allow me to be crystal clear: if this happens to me, like it had in 2021, that's the *easiest* way to lose all respect I might harbour for you, and I seldomly get mad or angry.

I am always accomodating, always supportive, and I think I have proven it aplenty in the past few years.

But this is something that I cannot condone nor agree with.

And it's not just a matter of ethic, in this sense: it's a matter of also hurting me, and literally put my whole creative process into shamble.

It's a matter of having respect of others.

Now, you might say: who cares if they hurt you? they are characters that do not exist, just move on and have thicker skin!

Well, as I said above, for when it concerns myself, my OCs are an extention of my own soul, a way for me to formulate and explain feelings that sometimes I have a hard time let out; a way for me to actually face, fragmentize and analyze my own trauma through them;

and most important of all, they are OFTEN a love letter to both the world I am exploring with them AND my own husband and child, such as in the case of Jacob and Dorothea,for whom, as I said often in the past 5 years, I have poured A LOT from myself and my husband's own story.

You could say that it probably my fault for having bared my feelings so much and poured so much of myself into a character;

And you might be correct, because I have learned my lesson, and ever since Dorothea and Jacob, no other character has been infused with as much of my own being as they were.

but that doesn't mean that it stings any less when I see it unravels in front of my eyes.

I am tired.

[flowersarefreetherapy]

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i am so so so fucking pissed right now

i spent five hours last week in a state meeting listening to Deaf and Hard of Hearing individuals (who are heavily involved in politics) talk about how the dissolvement of the DoE means that D/HH kids in the state are now going to struggle even more to get accommodations in school (more than they already have). They also talked about the challenges that will likely arise with the national government's public ignoring of the ADA laws, which means that now local places feel they can do the same

this is going to make an already challenging life even worse for D/HH individuals, and the interpreters who share their lives and communities. I can't cite the ADA to get the deserved access for my consumers if the government won't recognize it.

So i'm pissed. because these are kids. who are already so far behind their hearing peers in everything. so I post about it on my other social medias. how if you voted for trump I want you to stop following me.

now i've been dealing with so many people reaching out going "well..... I did, but you didn't mean me did you?" yeah. yeah i did mean you. it's because of you that my job is now so much harder. its because of you that my safety as a trans man is so far beyond compromised. its because of you that kids WHO ALREADY EXIST will now struggle beyond belief in their life.

fuck your "protect the children". fuck your "choose life" slogans. you don't fucking care about kids. you don't fucking care unless they aren't born and don't demand accountability from you. there are real, alive kids who exist right now who's rights are being taken away from them and all you voted to care about what the fucking economy (great job. applause all around) and the supposed pro-life stance. which so clearly gives you a guilt-free conscience to ignore the KIDS WHO ARE FUCKING ALIVE NOW

i'm so pissed. I chose this profession to help people and I am not going to stop doing that. I'm going to keep providing access, I'm going to keep fighting for the D/HH community that I love so much and the queer community I am a part of. I'm going to keep fucking fighting because i trubiz refuse to let these people be the ones to come out on top.

[starheirxero]

Oh my GOD y'all I just saw a post and it made me feel vindicated about something I totally forgot bc it was like. "People act like doing a lot of things (drinking, partying, having sex, etc) while having schizophrenia is a bad thing" and like. Goddd I don't know if y'all remember this, but yk how Sun having schizophrenia was a topic for a while bc of Sun's hallucinations?

Do you guys also remember like. that someone made a post saying that Sun should not have been drinking wine at all because of his schizophrenia??? And how they were very firm that Sun was making his disorder, like, worse? by drinking???

Cuz. I remember thinking it was so weird to assume that, despite Sun insisting "no, I haven't even been drinking enough to get proper drunk, it's not a problem and I'll even cut back because people are getting worried," they were so sure that Sun was just totally throwing himself down the drain bc schizophrenic people Shouldn't be drinking at all. apparently.

And I just. It's so weird remembering that bc wow, that really Was a kinda trashy take huh? Like maybe for some folks, if they drink, their hallucinations or their delusions will get worse yk? But. That's not a guarantee. A schizophrenic person knowing their boundaries with alcohol shouldn't still be seen as this deeply tragic thing. Like wow, you're not really viewing schizophrenic people as People, are you 🤨

[prismatic-starstuff]

gotta be honest.

i sometimes feel a tiny bit sad when i watch the scene where glûg gets it from sauron... but then, i really don't.

like, sure, adar wasn't handling things perfectly. but in the situation, what else exactly was he supposed to do. he had to make sure his children didn't fall into sauron's hands, and no, he didn't do it in the best way; but he was traumatised by everything he'd seen before - his children being sacrificed for sauron's rituals - and he knew full well the horrors that would happen under sauron's rule. he knew that only pain and death would await them. he knew sauron wouldn't care about them at all.

and what was the first thing sauron did when approached about a crisis? what did their new master do when he was being told that many uruk were in danger? how did sauron, the one they killed their father for, react to this?

he stabbed one of them directly through the chest. he didn't even grace them with a facial expression or a noise of exertion while he did it. he proved adar completely right and showed that life under him would be dangerous, that it would be far worse than what they had under adar, that sauron did not care about them.

so, sorry glûg.

maybe you should've stuck with your father, huh.