#vent post? I guess?

[luvsavos]

i am once again apologizing for my lack of activity/responsiveness

my childhood cat passed away a few days ago which has just been more stuff on top of everything else for me to deal with to stress me out and upset me

i'll try to get back to stuff. Eventually. as soon as i can</3

[lunarstar-fell]

Today I’m really missing my childhood friend. He was quite literally the boy next door and my bedroom window lined up with his across the street. We went inside each other’s houses maybe 20 times total because we spent every single day playing basketball in his driveway (he taught me) until it was too dark to function. He was my first “boyfriend” at 4 years old, when we sat on his front steps and i, having just learned what a boyfriend was said “hey do you wanna be my boyfriend” and he was like “oh sure” and I spent the whole spring break bragging about it (Technically we never officially broke up lmao). we never kissed or even held hands romantically we just spent time together, and when the rest of our friends were around we didn’t really talk. I remember learning about his family, he had a pretty rough home life. His older brother and I hated each other because he and his friends had a crush on my older sister, but we kind of held this respect for each other of being the only people this boy had. His mom and I didn’t get along (I dented her door so it was kinda deserved). I remember one day I was upset so I sat on the curb in front of my house, this was my friend groups signal that you wanted to hang out, and he came up to me and said he had to go to practice tonight but I could come over first thing in the morning and we could spend the day together. So at like 6am I opened my window and called across the street to see if I could come over. And when he let me inside he took me up to his ROOM. This was crazy bc I had never been upstairs before. I remember us just sitting in his bed and playing on his DS. I tried real hard to stay awake but ultimately fell asleep and took a nap. I woke up hours later and he had taken his shirt off (keep in mind there were no intentions here, his house didn’t have AC and it was hot as FUCK up there, but little me was still like omg omg omg). We played games until his brother got home and I had to sneak out the garage door before his mom came in because I wasn’t really allowed to be there. Somehow she found out because he got grounded but he didn’t blame me he just said “you just needed someone to hangout with it’s okay”. We grew apart around the summer I turned 9. He went into middle school and got into some bad situations. When I was 10 my parents decided to move. At this point I didn’t have any friends on our block, I knocked on his door and told him I was leaving and asked to play basketball one last time. We didn’t really know each other anymore so we didn’t talk much, but I think I gave him a hug at the end of the night.

I haven’t seen or spoken to him since then, I’ve heard rumors he ended up in juvie but i honestly don’t know what happened to him. We weren’t close enough for me to go looking for him but we were too close for me to forget. I really hope everything worked out for him.

[1fishinacoat]

My prom is tmrw but I don’t want to go and I feel guilty and I’m going to go (it’s expensive) and I know I’ll prob have a good time but. Uuuuugh I feel so anxious and I just don’t know if I’ll have the energy to do that kind of socialization

[whattraintracks]

I was not prepared for the rollercoaster ride that was my lunch today. Too tired to pack lunch for work. Options: skip or buy. Decided to be smart today and order Chipotle online. I pick it up. I think, you should check they got it right, social anxiety kicks in and I walk out that door as fast as I can. Sing a long to an epic song on the way back to work. Get to work. Pull out my meal. The meal is for Seth J. Who is Seth J? I don't know. But it is. Not me. I am frustrated, I am angry. I am sad. I tried to eat but I have been denied. Skip it is. I am not going back to Chipotle. Guess someone else will get a free meal at my house because this meal contains things that I. Cannot eat. Not even on a good day and today is not that. But then I think, let's just take a look at it. Why? Well Seth J isn't getting their order today either so I might as well check. Lo and behold it IS my order, the lids/stickers just got switched. So yeah. I'm eating Chipotle and my day is. Going. How about y'all?

[awesomepuppyy]

too scared to post on main .

ignore this maybe

[8d2t]

oil and water. wasnt meant to be.

[miikpal]

for consumption

[starscream-is-my-wife]

Sometimes a day makes you want a Starscream to bite and squeeze

[pepperochau]

Submit writing to school journal last year, it gets rejected

Rework the story entirely, change the all the tenses, add more descriptions of the characters so they feel less samey, change the ending (which alters the whole feel of the story), remove any explicity references to the new yorker: it still gets rejected

??????? god the spite i feel is intense like I've read last year's journal i know im not writing at a level beneath the accepted submissions here

[feather-bone]

[ID: a digital illustration of a deer blowing swirly smoke-like breath upward, a wolf chewing a bone to its right, and a crow flying above. The background is swirly dark blue and grey. End]

COLD BREATH

[the-infamous-cowardlion]

I love when people from first world countries decide to share on tumblr for the bilionth time that they're using animals products since they're "sooo enviromentally friendly and use the WHOLE animal uwu"

Meanwhile, 80% of the deforested area of the amazon rainforest is used for cattle ranching. But sure, feel free to tell me how eco-friendly your leather is as the tanning poisons our rivers or how important meat is for european culture while latin america burns for your double cheeseburger.

Don't worry, I totally understand it's too much to ask for you to stop eating meat in the name of the planet, animals, and us third-worlders who will be affected the most by global warming.

[magichroma]

Being asexual (maybe asexual maybe demisexual maybe some secret third thing I don't fucking know) is such a mindfuck. I've lived my life a certain way my whole life only to realize more and more that I am just near incapable of feeling something practically everyone else can, and in a society where sex is constantly used to sell things, it gets pretty weird. Triply so when what you assume to be sexual attraction is basically only felt within the bounds of narratives (role play, stories, kink) making you constantly try to convince yourself that you can find the one thing to fix you.

[shalom-iamcominghome]

"We need more diverse queer representation!"

You cannot even handle queer jews.

[kuuttituutti]

makes you think

[gothwineaunts]

Oofh. The hate in the comments. It's starting to get to me. I've been trying to ignore it for a long time now, but like they literally want one of the romantic leads to disappear. So many people. They just hate her. Like not even "love to hate her." Just despise her enough to call her slurs and pray for her death. In a wlw.

I must have really fucked this up, I think.

[starscreamingg]

Okay I'm so sleep deprived so pardon whatever this is but something that's got me FUCKED up about ai generated pictures songs writing is that it just fucking kills the ability to analyse for me because there's no fucking INTENTION behind it. Like why was this decision made why were these colours used what does that say about the work NOTHING because a bunch of programming took work that DID have intent and theme and purposeful choices and turned it into SLOP. Like I COULD analyse this but it doesn't MEAN anything it's EMPTY I want to EXPLODEEE