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today is a bad mental health day. i know. i know. but what if i just⊠disappeared?
im feeling really lonely, but i donât have the social energy to like entertain someone, i am just v alone w broken record thoughts abt my own worthlessness
sometimes on nights like these, i consider scorching the earth â orphaning my fics, deleting my blog, deleting social media, and just going away
#personal#melanie lives#idk why im sharing this#im sleep deprived p bad#got something like 5 hours of sleep over the last 48#im just kinda miserable#i also reached out to someone#like to initiate conversation or friendship#and they stopped replying#which makes me feel cringey and weird#idk iâve been getting something Wrong my entire life#and no one ever tells me explicitly what it is#i think my vibes are just fucking weird and unsettling#idk how to fix that tho#like i am not doing that on purpose#in fact my vibes are in shambles DESPITE concerted efforts to appear Normal and Very Chill#idk im sad and exhausted#v defeated today#mostly bc i was denied disability#not for lack of disability â everyone is in agreement abt that#just that im married to someone who provides too well#so⊠im just going to be a burden forever#i didnât smile or laugh today#i make a point to every day#but i couldnât today and it sucks#just v low tonight
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Picking up bg3 again
#Sel talks#A bit#Trying to have a healthier relationship w it this time#Not coming home and playing for hours; losing sleep; all week#I picking it up once or twice a week#Trying to let myself make small progresses#I find the combat tedious at times though#Hate getting through most of a battle and getting defeated and having to restart u_u#Had this one that I spent 3 tries on last weekend and failed all 3#Picked it up again today and got it first try#Which was v surprising#Really wanting to get back to the social aspects though#Looking forward to getting to baulder's gate#Finishing up the under dark stuff#Hopefully got the last bit of the boss coming up!#Idk how we're getting to bg from here; but I'm looking forward to it!#I found the thing for the jarred brains and now I'm wondering if I've missed any? I think I sold a bunch to a merchant...#I wonder if I can find em again#Also looking forward to finding some armor for my tav(?) that's not a robe#Trying to find things for my female bodied drow to look masc in#And the robe I currently have is not flattering :(#Having darker dyes help; but still not ideal#I should share some pics of my tav sometime#My baby talfrin <3#I was so mad when isat came out and the protag was named siffrin#Kept getting these frin names mixed up :(
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van helsing, shop steward: dracula may have all manner of infernal powers, but guess what everyone...
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#dracula daily#re: dracula#september 30#man was *organizing* wHEW#Youtube#no but listen to me.#'we have on our side power of combination - a power denied to the vampire kind'#HI THERE.#the combination acts of 1799 1824 and 1825 criminalising worker unions#the employers and workman act of 1875 decriminalizing unionization (ish)#i know stoker v much not a socialist sympathiser#but like hello look at the history of the time in which the book was written#clearly the material conditions of the time are v much buzzing around the way he's writing....#capita---uhhhhhhh vampirism is an international system of predation and undeath#it can survive as long as it feasts on the life force of the worki---uhhhhhhh humans#but if we strike! .....with a wooden stake ofc lmao it can be defeated!#hahaha sorry whatever about bram stoker's actual politics#the spectre that is haunting europe grabbed him by the throat for van helsing's speech today
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finish her! a toji fushiguro oneshot
pairing âžș wrestler!toji x reader
summary âžș you will have to face one of the most formidable wrestlers in history in your next match: toji fushiguro. but don't be confused, this isn't normal wrestlingâžșno, it's nude wrestling. and winner gets the spoils of the other's body! (extended ver of my toji drabble here) creds to @/reynisxxsimart on twitter for art!
warnings âžș nasty, NASTY smut, VERY public sex, WWE but pornhub edition, youâre a wrestler fighting toji, so some violence but nothing graphic, fem!reader, HUMILIATION, degradation, you're literally fucked in an arena of people, p in v sex, unprotected sex, spanking, oral sex (f! recieving), boobplay, very inaccurate depiction of wrestling/WWE, not edited we die like toji
a/n im going to sit in the corner and think about what i just wrote
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the muffled sounds of the crowdâs deafening roar seem to swirl in the space around you, each cheer vibrating through your chest like distant thunder. you take a long, cool sip of water, a welcome contrast to the warm air backstage. lounging back, you let the chair support your weight, your muscles still humming with the residual tension of anticipation. utahimeâs fingers work into your shoulders, and her voice filters through the buzzing atmosphere, calm and steady as she gives you a rundown of the night ahead, though her words seem to blur slightly at the edgesâjust background noise to the constant hum of adrenaline.
âin front of a crowdâdo you understand? and the rules are no fucking, unless all clothes are off first.â
âright,â you affirm, albeit hesitantly. youâre feeling a bit jitterish in anticipation of whatâs to happen, despite having trained months to hone your ability as a wrestler. look, wwe itself can get really suggestive at times, with people giving wedgies, removing certain articles of clothing, or even letting the crowd cop a feel of the defeated to serve as humiliation. not only does it improve publicity, but it also increases viewership of all the horny bastards on the internet to circle the televised clip around in their subreddits or discord servers.
but what you were going to do todayâthat was a bitâŠextreme. it was like bridging the gap between soft core and hard core, with the humiliation turned up to a hundred. because today, you were going to wrestle the man that all femaleâand maleâwrestlers could even dream of having their hands on, even if for a slight moment.
toji fushiguro.
a man of impressive buildâentering a ring with him only meant defeat. heâs had numerous career wins, far exceeding any other. hell, you shouldnât even be matched to wrestle with him today; he outweighs and outranks you by far. the only thing you really have running for you is the sheer amount of fans you have, ready to tune in to your fights and edit your moves and time spent in the fighting ring to songs like âchun liâ and âmaneater.â so, sure, you donât exactly anticipate a win today in that stadium thatâs waiting for you, but youâre no less of a wrestler in your own right. you wonât go down without a fight.
however, today was no normal fight. the wwe had suddenly decided that their viewership was too low, that extreme measures needed to be taken to boost. so, ironically enough they had decided to change the rules just before your momentous match:
all wrestlers must consent to having all and any articles of clothing removed from their person, particularly for sexual intercourse as a reward for the winner.
so, WWE (Pornhubâs Version) (In The Vault).Â
and your luck dictated that this paradigm shift for the organization occur just before your most anticipated match with toji. again, you knew that no amount of training could prevent you from getting utterly humiliated, but it was almost like the gods were laughing down on you, eager to rub in your impending defeat once more. because you were going to get your shit fucked upâ-literally.
âitâs going to be fine,â utahime assures you, and you snap back to the present from your thoughts at the sound of her voice. âjust think about the publicity thisâll get you! not that you donât have any fans of yourself, but there are going to be a lot of people tuned in because of fushiguro.â
you take an inhale in and nod. âyea, thatâs true. i just want to get it over with.â
as if answering your prayers, gojo satoru, the mc, burst into your dressing room. âitâs your time to shine, buttercup!â he grins, ushering you out the door. albeit a bit nervously, you stand up and make your way into the hallway that leads directly into the middle of the arena. âyouâre going to do great!â
as soon as you walk closer and closer to the arena, the screams get louder and louder, the music booming and causing the floor under you to vibrate. the sounds of people surround all your senses, wrapping you up and causing your heartbeat to go faster and faster.Â
reaching the end of the hallway, the arena is filled with light, and you have to blink to get a hold of your sight. surrounding the center boxing ring are stands upon stands of people, hustling and bustling. at the sight of you, cameramen stationed around in various spots through the arena furiously angle their cameras towards you. not only are journalists and the media snapping pictures, blinding you with the flash, but you see yourself displayed on the big screens visible to everyone in the arena. you smile and wave, causing your fans to scream as they register that you have walked in.Â
then, a realization washes over you. these are the same screens that are going to be projected whatever's going to happen during the fight and when you lose.
oh god.
you walk forward, trying to keep up your smile and wave to all of your fans that outstretched their hands, trying to cop a feel and/or get a high five. most of your fans are male (to no one's surprise), and you can feel their eyes roving over you appreciatively, taking in your outfit. it was simple and tight; shorts that just barely covered your ass and was snug around your hips, and a low cut top that couldn't even be called a top. your cleavage was on full display, and the top stopped just below your waist. typically, this is your wrestling attire you wear to a normal match, but you couldn't help but wryly notice that today, your neckline was cut lower than usual. the wwe was really trying to milk this, huh?
you stood just below the boxing ring, eyes anxiously scanning the arena, unconsciously searching for the man you were set to fight. but no matter how hard you looked, you couldn't spot his tall, muscular figure either in the ring or in the seat he was supposed to occupy with his manager.
a light tap on your shoulder startled you, and you turned to find utahime behind you, a concerned look on her face. "everything alright?"
"yeah," you said, waving her off with a forced smile. "but where is he?"
utahime pointed toward the boxing ring, and then you saw itâa glimpse of black hair.
"alright," you said, swallowing nervously. "i'm heading into the ring. wish me luck."
"wait!" utahime called out, but you were already too far to hear her. gripping the ropes at the edge of the ring, you hauled yourself up and strode toward the center, determined to get a better view. and there, just on the far side of the ring, hidden from your previous angle, was toji fushiguro.
he was lounging back, relaxed, his posture almost lazy as he faced his manager, shiu kong. you couldnât see toji's face from this angle, but his body language indicated that he was the epitome of ease. shiu was saying something to him, and from your best attempt at lip reading, you could just make out the words, "don't break the rules today."
toji, on the other hand, didn't seem to be looking at him (giving 0 fucks, something so classically toji), focusing now towards the big screens everyone else saw in the arena. you turned your gaze towards them as well, only to be taken aback when it was you, a compilation of your best moments in the ring, narrated by gojo.
âand today, fellas, weâre going to see the bombshell y/nâthe maneater, as coined by her fansâ-competing! while her opponent is fushiguro, donât be fooledâshe can pack a mean punch. look at this fight with mei mei; she sweeped the floor with her face!âÂ
satisfied, you looked around, the arena bustling with people getting drinks, being enraptured with your fight on the screen, or pointing at you or toji. toji, on the other hand, was chuckling and shaking his head at your fight, observing as you gave the bitch mei mei a wedgie. which kind of made you flustered, because you had developed a crush on the guy observing him from afar or in passing, so you just focused on shaking out your legs and arms in nervousness.
gojo similarly announced tojiâs fights and compilation, gassing him up for the crowd and it was then that toji finally turned around, uninterested in whatever was going on, and caught your eye. you stared back, breath held involuntarily.Â
his eyes had a predatory glint to them, and he smiled, charmingly in a way that showed off his scar, and they scanned up and down your figure, taking in what you were wearingâor rather, letting his imagination run. nervously, your heart sped up as you clenched your thighs up in anticipation or anxiety, you couldnât choose which, as your mind began running at the speed of light thinking about what was going to happen today.
today, you werenât only going to wrestle toji fushiguro. you were going to fuck him.
but youâre jolted out of your thoughts as gojoâs obnoxious voice blares through the speakers. âgive it up for thee wwe goat, toji fushiguro!â
screams reach an all time high as his smirk is broadcasted to the audience, biceps bulging and flexing as he heaves his way up on the ring, joining you. he waves lazily, roars at an all time high as he stalks his way to you, and you squeeze your nails into your palm out of nervousness.
when gojo announces your name, the male screams rise up in volume, causing you to giggle and fushiguro to roll his eyes from what you can see in the corner of your eye. you give a dainty wave, choosing to wink and blow a kiss to the camera in front of you, causing your fans to scream even louder.
âyou sure got a lotta fanboys, darling.â you jump as toji has now bent down to whisper in your ear, literally sending shivers down your spine.
you force out a laugh. âand you're at no shortage of fangirls yourself, fushiguro.â
he gives you a nonchalant hum, assuming his original position. as gojo continued to yap about the stakes of the round today, the recent rule change, a referee walked over to you both, coming in closer so that you would be able to hear him over the chaos of the arena.
âso, youâre both aware of the rules, right?â he both looked at you, to which you nodded and tojiâs smirk widens. âyou gotta get the otherâs clothes completely off, and the first one to do that wins.â
you gulp, eyeing what toji was wearing today. it was his signature garb, the one he wore to almost every match without fail: grey pants with various sponsorships sewed on, and a black compression shirt. it was definitely very minimal compared to what a lot of the other wrestlers wore, but it was iconic, giving him a lazy, laid back aura that no other wrestler could truly emanate.
it wasnât anything hard to take off in particular.
both of you affirmed your consent to the referee, who then took a step back after wishing you both good luck. you turned, facing toji face on, who had his hand on his hip. âtry to last long, okay?â he smirks, patting your shoulder with his other hand. âiâll try to drag this out as much as i can, but itâs gonna be fuckin hard if that ass is grinding against me.â
you glare, but there isnât much intensity to it because you know heâs much stronger than you. there isnât much to get angry about. âyea, yea,â you huff. âfor all i know, youâll be my personal dildo today.â
he barks out a laugh and looks at the referee, who has one hand raised, the other one poised on his whistle, ready to blow and start the round. itâs starting soon. then, he looks back to you and smiles. âlet the games begin.â
the referee blows the whistle.
at once, you launch yourself towards toji, trying to jump on him to get him off his feet with your weight. instead, he dodges easily and leaves you hurtling towards the floor, making you poise yourself on your hands and feet upon impact. you roll over just as toji tries to tackle you and pin you against your original position on the floor and quickly get up.
however, as youâre steadying yourself on your feet, toji grabs your ankle, causing you to lose your balance and giving him the advantage to pin himself on top of you, his mouth breathing heavily next to your ear, whispering so it was just the two of you that could hear his words. âwhat do you think i should take off first?â he laughs deeply, the vibration causing you to shiver and try to squirm to get out of his hold, to no avail. âshould it be these?â he snakes his hands down to grope your tits, giving them a firm squeeze, much to the arenaâs pleasure. âor should i take these off of you?â he slaps your ass, making you blush furiously.
âfuck you,â you hiss as his hands catch on the edge of your shorts.
he gives you a sweet, small kiss on your temple. âdonât worry, baby,â he smiles. âyouâll be doing that anyways.â and with that, he pulls at your shorts until the waistbandâs elastic rips, leaving your shorts in tatters until he throws the remains of it away, baring your panty-covered ass to the crowd, which immediately grows wild.
you crane your neck to look at the screen, which is currently focused on tojiâs hands feeling up your ass, dipping inside your underwear to knead the flesh. your heart is pounding, the thought i need to get the upper hand flashing continuously across your mind. itâs almost as if youâre drowning, the noises of the crowd blurring together until it was only you and tojiâs weight on you. you barely heard the announcer exclaim, âtoji is currently in the lead!â as you focused on calculating your next move.
it was time to pull out all the stops.Â
turning your head until you were making eye contact with him, you bit your lip, momentarily distracted him with the 180 turn of your actions, now nonchalant rather than the flailing you were doing earlier. then, you raised your hips, meeting your backside with his crotch in an effort to catch him off guard and to make him lose balance. then, you maneuvered yourself so your thighs surround tojiâs waist and hump your hips against his bulge. this momentarily distracted and weakened toji, and you take full advantage of it by overtaking him and now straddling him. you quickly take off his shirt, salivating at the muscles you see. the whole stadium, in fact, can see his abs and pecs glistening with sweat.
smirking while peering down at him, you slowly grind your hips as if you were riding a mechanical bull, making a show of spinning around his shirt with your hand to mock him. tojiâs eyes darken, but a mirthless smile flashes across his face anyways. âdamn, take me out to dinner first.â
you flash him one of your own humorless smirks, happy that you got at least one thing against him. âi donât fuck anyone before the first day, honey. this is just another cheap fuck.â with that, you yank his head back with his hair roughly, making a show of motorboating his pecs, as if to mock him.
instead of getting angry, he chuckles darkly. âyouâre going to regret that. i was going to drag this out, princess, but i gotta fuck the brat out of you.â with that, he spins you around just as quicklyâif not quickerâpinning you against the ground with your hands held above your head in one hand in a vice grip, the other groping its way down your body. he buries his face in your neck, salaciously licking the length of it. with his free handânow stationed around your titsâhe grabs at the hem of your top, pulling it up so everyone could see your lace bra. mockingly, he plants his face in the middle of your tits, moving his head side by side to motorboat you just as you had done to him, the soft plush of your tits encompassing his face.
the crowd cheers, even more so than they had when you had ripped his shirt off, as toji completely rips the top off as you squirm, making the removal even easier for him. you can feel all eyes on you as toji reaches for the clip of your bra, unhooking it and making your tits pop out. helplessly, you look at the screen, your writhing making them move in a jiggling motion, sweat shining and giving you the âoiled-upâ look. he takes a moment to grope them, your whines ignored as he pinches your nipples. âwhat a sensitive girl,â he coos. âtoo bad she was too weak. now sheâs going to have to take my cock.â
with that, he teasingly closes the distance between the waistband of your panties and his teeth, mouth snagging on the elastic. slowly, he drags them down, unveiling your glistening pussy for all eyes to see, and the crowd goes wild, chanting random requests at toji to do the most heinous things to you. as soon as youâre completely naked, he grabs you by the waist, propping you up against one of the corner posts. youâre now standing up, tearfully facing the arena as the wrestler kneels behind you, burying his face and nosing his way until your pussy, lapping up your wetness.
at the unexpected feeling of his tongue, you yelp, and toji slaps your ass. âstay still.â acquiescing, he licks up long stripes and shakes his head to grind his nose into your cunt, pleasuring you while humiliating you in front of everyone, forcing you to succumb to the pleasure heâs making you feel. while licking you, he groans. âfuck, this pussy is so sweet. iâve run out of patience, fuck the performance part.â
with that, toji flips you over so youâre on your hands and knees on the floor and pulls down his pants. you donât even look back at the monster thatâs about to enter you for the sake of your mental health, but your legs are shaking in anticipation of his cock, slick dripping down your thighs.Â
he drags his cock teasingly through your folds, and then brings it out to slap it against your ass, humming appreciatively at the recoil. then, as if heâs lost patience, heâs slowly entering you, pushing against your pussyâs resistance as he penetrates you in front of the whole arena. âfuck!â he groans, getting a better grip on you as he pushes your head down on the mat and fully goes to pound town. Â
the humiliating plap! plap! plap! of his hips against the flesh of your ass echoing multiple strangers watch your pussy get wrecked. âthe fuck this pussyâs so tight for? thought you were a slut?â
youâre tearing up, the feeling of his dick hitting your g-spot straight on making you clench hard, overwhelmed by the feeling of him pummeling you and his hands on your body, feeling you up. clearly, he knew how to pleasure a woman, and it made you all the more annoyed. you were fucked out, but not fucked out enough to prevent you from snarkily replying, âyouâre not turning me on, small dick.â
he did not like that very much.
toji drills his hips into yours faster and slaps your ass multiple times consecutively. âyea, so why is she clenching so fucking much? why is she dripping, you whore?â as if to demonstrate his point, he brings his fingers to rub at your clit furiously, collecting the wetness that had dripped down from your hole then shoving his fingers into your mouth. âsuck.â when you did just that, suckling at his fingers while hollowing your hot, wet heat around the appendages.Â
at that, he groaned. âwhat a little cockwhore. shoulda made you suck my dick instead.â
in retaliation, you bite his fingers, hard, and then spit them out. âi wouldâve bit your micro off.â
toji hisses, grabbing the hair at your scalp and pulling on it until your face was up, his mouth at your ear. âjust for that, iâm going to come inside of your slutty pussy.â he speeds up, moving his hips faster and fast. the hand that wasnât at your hair is now sneaking his way down your back, until you gasp.
because heâs inserted his thumb inside your ass.
âoh, ho ho,â he laughs mockingly. âyou liked that, didnât you?â you offer him no response, choosing instead to focus on the feeling of the sheer amount of pressure you were feeling down there, being doubly stuffed. by now, your orgasm has been steadily building because of the sheer power of tojiâs stroke game, but as soon as he hits your spot one last time, your eyes roll back, causing you to arch your back and writhe due to the intensity of your orgasm.
youâre breathing heavily, toji fucking you roughly through it. once youâve gotten a hold of your sense, you come back to reality as you realize that the crowd has adopted a rhythm to their chants, your fans and his screaming the same thing.
cum! cum! cum!
and toji only chortles as he continues your thirst, looking at you once again, and you can tell that heâs staving his orgasm back just after experiencing your clenches with the way heâs biting his lips, sweat running down from his temple to his abs. âwhat do you say, baby? wanna give the crowd what theyâre asking for?âÂ
all it takes is a whimpered please, and toji just does what the crowd asks of him. ropes of his cum fill you, and you drop down in exhaustion to hear toji declared as winner.Â
as you exhaustedly lift your head up, you see that cameras are out all around you, focused on the screen. youâre flustered when you realize the billboard is displaying tojiâs cum seeping out of you.
A hand on your shoulder. âyou good?â tojiâs looking at you, eyes twinkling.
you let out a breath. âyea,â you laugh, out of breath. âgood round.â
and heâs huffing, giving you a hand to get on your back. you can only lie on the ground as he barks for clothes to be put on you and for some water. then he turns to look at you once more, eyes twinkling. âwanna go for more in my hotel?â
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a/n i was going to have him carry u up near to the stands where your fans could grab at ur titties but this is alr depraved as it is. now im going to take a breather from tumblr for the rest of this week becasue WHEW ch5 gojo yesterday and finished this today i am ON A ROLL. see you guys for next week's kinktober fic (comment if you want to be tagged)! much love<3
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hii! itâs iluvloganhowlett iâm just on my other acc! could you do a logan fluff where logan has a soft spot for u and lit only u? like for a prompt, scott asks a question and logan answers with some âitâs none of your businessâ or is j flat out mean where as when you ask the same question minutes later heâs nicer and thorough with his answer.
and can u please make it logan x mutant!readerđ„°đ„°
Logan Howlett, underrated softie
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A/N: Hi @iluvloganhowlett!! I really appreciate your request and here it is! Enjoy, dear!!
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Winters in upstate New York were exceptionally known for their extreme coldness.
Which of course was no shock that a particular mansion at Westchester County was at -3 degrees celcius, almost reaching at 4 in your keen opinion.
Just being inside made you want to wear a thick full body coat today, wrapped with your favorite scarf and gloves. But you felt silly about that idea, seeing how everyone else was just casually surviving the day with good long sleeved tops. How lucky of them.
Though it was only 8pm, you had the senseless idea of wrapping yourself in your blanket, trying to fall asleep in your bedroom, desparately hoping to sleep through the coldest day of the week.
After a few tosses and turns, feeling the icy breeze sneak into your body, you just knew there was no hope in dozing off. Not with this kind of weather!
You groaned in defeat, sitting up to curse to yourself why you had to feel so, so, so frigid of all days today.
Maybe some instant hot chocolate by the kitchen would help you soothe yourself into sleeping soon.
So you got up, wore an oversized sweater over your thick long sleeved top, placed on your fuzzy slippers, and made your way out of your room to the kitchen.
There were still students around the mansion, either reading books with each other, watching the television by the living room, or playing some board games while having hot beverages and snacks. Hmmm, the smell of hot chocolate from some of them just made you realize that hot chocolate is always a good idea.
Meanwhile over at the kitchen, just a few minutes before you had arrived, Storm was in one of the seats in front of the counter, having her decaffinated coffee, mixing some sugar and some milk with it. Yup, she was one of those who enjoyed the taste of cofffe, even at night, so she has it decaffinated so it won't affect her sleep later.
Scott grabbed a bowl and a box of Lucky Charms cereal from the cupboards and made his way to the fridge, which was being leaned on by Logan, who was having a round of beer.
Scott stood in front of Logan with a serious look on his face, expecting Logan to move. But Logan, who wanted to mess with the man, just stared back at him, flashing a mischievous look. "You should take a picture, it'll last longer."
"Move, asshole," Scott sneered, "I need milk."
Logan continued drinking from his beer, still eyeing scott with the same mischievous look on his face, ignoring his command.
"Oh, Scott, I still have some!" Storm interrupted, saving Scott from possibly wanting to strike Logan, based on his tight grip on his bowl, and now slightly wrinked cereal box.
"Dick," Scott muttered under his breath, moving through Logan, who felt like he won another round of Logan v Scott. That small win was now done being celebrated when you finally arrived into the kitchen.
"Hey guys," you greeted your colleagues, getting some 'heys' from Storm and a slightly disgruntled Scott.
"Hey, doll," Logan recited gently, earning a dear smile from you. He watched you look around the cupboards, noticing your mystified expression as you wandered around each cupboard and cabinets.
You then moved to the fridge, "Sorry, could I just check something inside?" you asked Logan softly with your fingers skimming over each other.
Scott looked up from his meal, watching Logan expose a smile on his mouth, gently moving aside as you opened the fridge, watching you hmph in disappointment.
Scott made his own quiet hmph to himself, seeing Logan's patience with you, to which Storm smiled coyly seeing sparks fly around the tough Wolverine.
"Didn't find what you were looking for, darl?"
"Yeah, I think the kids got the last instant hot chocolate powders for themselves," you frowned lightly in disappointment. "It's okay though," admitting in defeat. You were starting to make your way out, looking at the doorframe, "I think I'll just-"
"Hold on there, bub," Logan's instruction brought you to a halt. You turned around to see a now quiet Logan, whose eyes were looking into, what he thought, were puppy eyes. "Instant powders are for kids," he continued, his eyes quickly scanning around the room as if he was about to make use of the information around him.
"How about I make you some real hot chocolate, huh?"
While Scott and Storm turned to each other, exchanging unsure looks, you let out a small laugh in disbelief, which determined Logan to actually pull it off.
"You?"
You didn't want to sound mean about it, I mean, anyone can make hot chocolate. It wasn't rocket science, or some gourmet dish, but never in your wildest dreams did you think that Logan Howlett, the man who only went to the kitchen to bring out his secret stash of beer, would make you hot chocolate?
But the way you asked didn't matter to Logan, as he got whole milk, chocolate, whipped cream, and heavy cream from the fridge, walked to another counter for powdered sugar, and expresso powder, which he directly got a teaspoon of from Storm's side to which she didn't say anything about, since she herself, was inclined to watch Logan act as if he was someone else she didn't know.
Logan was now whisking together his ingredients in a saucepan that you helped get.
"How long should these be over the heat?" you tip-toed, wanting to see over Logan's shoulder's as he was perfectly centered in front of the saucepan.
"Till you see small bubbles appear around the edges," he replied, looking over at you tip-toe, which he wanted to melt at just seeing.
He then stirred in chopped chocolate, waiting for it to melt, and carefully placing the sauce to low heat, stating to you that 'it's needed for the chocolate to melt completely.'
His little moment of domestic fluff with you and him in the kitchen was put to a pause when a voice from somewhere behind him got his unfortunate attention.
"Since when did you have time to learn all this?," Scott teased, receiving a nudge from the elbow from Storm who shook her head.
"Shut the hell up, prick," Logan said, not even facing a smirking Scott.
Logan then served the drinks in two mugs for him and for you, of course topping them with lots of whipped cream. More than excited to try Logan's hot chocolate, you immediately took a careful sip, tasting the intense, rich, and absolute heaven which had to be the most decadent hot chocolate ever.
"Oh my god," you said, closing your eyes with satisfaction, "It feels like I'm in one of those Parisian cafes, drinking the best hot chocolate there."
It was as if every sip made you forget about how cold and freezing you were just earlier, and seeing you look so content with the drink made Logan want to beam, but of course realized Scott and Storm were, annoyingly still around.
"Glad you like it, Y/N," he thanked, seeing you turn to face him with a curious look on your face.
"I do want to ask..." you hung back the question, "When did you have time to learn how to perfect this? I know you didn't just learn this overnight."
It was a genuine question because despite living since the 1800s or so, it was not exactly like Logan had free time to cook around or whip up hot chocolate, right? This man went through a lot in his life, and would he really just use his spare time investing in something like.. hot chocolate?
Logan looked down, with a humble and small smile on his face.
"My mother..," he first started, "When I was young and while my dad was out, she would make hot chocolate on cold days, or even any day for that matter."
There was so much value you had, appreciating the little yet deeply personal story behind your now, favorite drink. You knew Logan was never an open book with anyone. It was more of a shut and locked up book with the key below the bottom of the ocean for no one to pick up.
But the way he had just been with you tonight so far, was like, he was giving you the key for you, and literally you only.
"So you rememberd her exact recipe?" you inquired more, with a sparkle that Logan saw in your eyes.
"Nah, not exactly," he said, slightly timid with a grin, " 'course I adapted to today's ingredients like instant whipped cream, but it's something like what she made before."
"Do you think you could make some for me again tomorrow?" You genuinely requested, which made Logan more or less, want to fold and do as you say in a heartbeat.
But of course, he wanted to slightly play it cool. "Don't see why not," nodding in agreement.
"Good, I'm gonna bring this with me back to my room now," you announced, "Thanks so much, Logan, good night!"
You then smiled at Scott and Storm, waving them goodbye as you walked away from them, leaving them to smirk like children at Logan.
"That was cute." Storm said, bringing Logan back to his usual, serious look.
"I'd love to try some tomorrow too, Logan," Scott tried to fake his genuine statement at the same time trying not to burst a laughter out of him.
Without any words this time, Logan, holding his mug of hot chocolate in hand, passed Scott with one claw out from his other hand, slicing his cereal box in half.
"Asshole!" Scott yelled, now trying to pick up the pieces of cereal as Logan walked out of the kitchen took a sip from his mug, indulding in the fact that,
A. he made another successful hot chocolate in his life
B. he gets to make it again for you tomorrow
C. he hopes to make it for you for as long as winter's still there.
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Evidence of my state of mental health can easily be determined by how many candles I bring home from target
#more than one is already concerning im usually good at not buying them but once i start planning usage for them across the flat?#today i came home from ONLY BUYING CAT FOOD with five candles. all autumnal/Halloween themed and phenomenal. so.#also a cat on the crescent moon pillow. a skull drinking jar. the proper hair dye ive needed for two months. a Dracula cat toy.#bubble bath for my pain. and the cat food.#the patchouli and firewood candle that came in a cauldron ia already lit im very excited#I'm going to fix dinner and do my hair before a bath. the plan is early to bed and early to rise so we can go on a hike#im supposed to be on my period rn and its making me violently depressed and highstrung. ill go from fine to v unstable in a moment#the bipolar is making the hormonal swings worse so theres an explanation but an explanation doesnt make living it easier#i still feel like im suddenly off the deep end with no tangible explanation for it and im just falling apart#its a little terrifying and its hard not to feel alone in it. and defeated. i know its short term. but im exhausted.
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Another day, another shitshow, another fuck
Summary - post Monza angst and smut. FUCK YOU MCLAREN.
Warnings - filthy smut, fingering, oral, m and f receiving, blowjob, p in v sex, over stimulation, anal, squirting, swearing.
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Should you be surprised that it was another shit race for Lando? Where his team, and teammate fucked him over again? No.
Did it hurt? Yes.
It hurt like hell to see Lando put in that position again. Were Mclaren so fucking blind that they couldn't see it was ONLY Lando who was in contention for the driver's championship?
Yes, the team need each other. Every single person is a valuable part to winning the Constructors Championship, but to see the way they were literally shoving Lando and his chances of the dc to the side - you were no okay with.
Before the summer break, Hungary was a shitshow. His team manipulated Lando and guilt-tripped him to give up the win. Saying ''the way to win a championship is not alone'' He literally gifted his teammate a win, and had to take the brunt of it, losing out every precious point more he would have scored to close the gap to Max.
Now today, all Lando spoke about was getting a 1-2 for the team, yet his teammate only talked about winning. Where were the team orders today? Where did the words from Hungary disappear to?
All you know is that Lando deserved better, instead of getting fucked time and time again when he is driving at his best and doing everything he can to be the team player and fight for his own title which he's dreamed about every sine he was a little boy.
You couldn't attend Monza as you'd just flown back to Monaco from a modeling job in Brazil. You'd landed just in time to watch the race, screaming at the tv and heart aching for what Lando had to go through because of his ''team''
When the race ended and you saw how defeated Lando looked, you'd sent him a message saying you were home and that you loved him, knowing a simple message like that would calm him down and tell him you're there for him.
A few hours later, as you were just chilling in the living room watching some tv, you heard the front door open. You shot up and winced when you saw Lando walk through the door, your heart clenching at the sight of him.
He looked tired, frustrated, angry, sad, helpless. The list goes on. He had a pair of joggers with an oversized quadrant hoodie on, cap hiding his precious curls as his eyes were red and swollen, face drained of his usual brightness.
''Lan, baby'' you whispered as you walked up to him, watched him drop his bags and take his cap off.
He looked at you, his face softening when he saw you, as you enveloped him in a tight hug, trying to pour all of your love for him into it.
You soothed his back and played with the hair at the back of his neck and Lando buried his head in the crook of your neck, breathing deep and staggered.
''I'm here, just breathe. Gonna all be okay Lan'' you said, trying to find the words to calm him down though it would take some time.
''I know, thank you'' he whispered, pulling back and kissing you gently as he cupped your face.
''Missed you'' he said, hugging you again.
''Missed you too my love. Wanna go shower and have something to eat? Just cuddle after?'' you asked, knowing thats' what he always wanted after a bad race.
''Yeah'' he said quietly before retreating to the bedroom while you ordered some food for the both of you.
You didn't press him at first, to start talking about today, or anything at all. He'd asked how your week was and that was it. Comfortable silence through dinner. Once you'd both eaten as much pizza as you could, you watched some more tv in silence, until your nerves gave up and you had to say something.
You pulled back from where you were cuddling Lando at his side and gently looked at him, hoping your eyes would tell him to please open up to you.
''Talk to me Lan'' you said.
He licked his lips. ''Not much to say really. Just fuck up after fuck up''
You sighed. You didn't want to show him pity, because that was the last thing he needed. But you told him how ''he needed to stop blaming himself and see that it was his team and teammate, as usual,'' and that ''you knew he did everything he could to give it his all, how he is driving at his best and it will all pay off soon, he just needs to give it time''
''Thank you baby, really, i don't know what I'd do without you. I love you so much'' he said once you'd finished talking about the shitshow.
You leaned forward, pecking his nose. ''I love you too Lan, always''
You cuddled up again and watched something random again, just content to be with each other.
Lando had his arms wrapped around you, drawing lazy circles on your legs until his hands kept itching closer and closer to your core which was getting wetter and wetter with each movement. You didn't move or say anything though. You wanted him to carry on as he pleased, and use you as a distraction from everything.
He could probably feel your breathing increase though, and finally a few minutes later he let his hand slip into your sleep shorts, pushing your panties to the side and letting his fingers run through your folds.
Your breath hitched when he did that, and you opened your legs wider to give him better access, the both of you still not saying anything but letting your actions speak for themselves.
Your back was to Lando's chest, so he rested his chin on your shoulder as his fingers found your clit and started rubbing rough circles on it, pinching it now and then.
You closed your eyes, suppressing your moans, which Lando quickly told you not to hold in. ''Let them out baby, let me hear you'' he whispered din your ear.
So you did. When you felt his calloused index finger slide through your hole you let out a guttural moan, grinding yourself down on him as he added a second finger, thrusting them in and out hard and fast.
''Oh Lan, yes'' you whispered between breaths as he started nibbling on your sweet spot on your neck.
You were close, your body tensing at the feeling of a warmth starting to build up in your tummy and you realized you needed something to hold onto, so naturally, your hand found Lando's bulge, which by now had grown hard. You palmed him through his shorts, feeling his body jolt up with the contact.
''Fuck, y/n'' he said through gritted teeth.
''Lan I'm close, please'' you begged.
So he sped up his movements, fucking his fingers into you and curling them at just right time, sending you into an orgasmic bliss as your cum gushed all over Lando's fingers, messing your panties and shorts in the process.
''Fuck, god, Lando'' you breathed out, trying to steady it as much as you could to catch your breath again. You let your body fall back onto Lando's, only realizing now just how tense you'd gotten with his actions.
He slid his fingers out, bringing them up to his lips and licking them clean. ''My favorite'' he whispered.
Your cunt was still desperate for more, achingly clenching around nothing, and at the same time you could feel Lando's dick twitching him his shorts, also begging for attention.
Just as you were about to sink down onto your knees as give him some relief, Lando's words shook you to your core.
''Can I fuck you?'' he asked
Your brain was fizzled. Why was he asking? He knew he could do whatever the fuck he wanted with you, but also did he feel so reserved or upset that he felt the need to ask?
''Yes'' you said, eagerly, not caring how desperate you sounded, getting up form your position and watching how his eyes darkened when he saw you take off all your clothes and standing bare in front of him.
You stood there as Lando shamelessly let his eyes roam your body, licking his lips when they stopped at your dripping pussy.
He pulled you onto his lap, grabbing your face for a feverish kiss, not wasting time to let his tongue slip into your mouth as his hands wandered all over your body.
You kissed him back with as much urgency, as you let yourself grind on his thigh.
Lando let out a series of grunts as he looked down and saw the wet patch on his shorts that you left.
''Still wearing too many clothes baby'' you said, already working on taking his tshirt off as he raised his hips off the couch to rid his shorts.
Once he was finally as naked as you, you finally got onto your knees on the carpet, sitting between his legs and you took his thick girth and gave him a few pumps.
Lando's back arched off the couch as he settled his arms behind his head, resting it back and openly letting pornographic moans leave his mouth.
The noises he made as you took his tip into your mouth to suck on had you clenching your thighs together, you were sure you could cum by just listening.
You fondled with his balls as you pushed his cock further into your mouth until he was hitting the back of your throat, as you started a steady rhythm so fucking him in and out.
You looked up to see he has his eyes closed, mouth agape and he continued to let himself be heard, hips thrusting up every now and then at how sensitive he was everything his slit touched your throat.
''Fuckin hell, so good'' he mumbled, more to himself as you sped up your pace, eager to taste him.
Lando eventually bought his hands down to hold onto your face, thrusting his hips up to fuck himself into your mouth.
By now you were gagging around him, spit messing your chin and dripping down onto your thighs. Looking at that alone and hearing the sloppy sounded you were making was enough to push Lando over the edge.
He groaned as his dick twitched uncontrollably, his cum blasting out of him down your throat as his hold on your hair tightened.
You moaned at the salty taste of Lando as he praised your name like a mantra, praised you at how well you took him.
He let his body relax back, chest heaving as he was slowly coming down from his high when he finally opened his eyes and saw you still on your knees, wiping your chin with the back of your hand as your own breathing at reached new heights.
''Come here'' he said softly, pulling you onto his lap and cupping your face, gently this time, peppering your face in wet kisses as he finally licked your chin clean of the mixture of spit and cum.
He tucked your hair behind your ears as he bit down on your lower lip, feeling your grind yourself on him once again.
''Need to feel you love. Gonna let me fuck you now yeah?'' he said.
You loved when he spoke to you like that, used his words like that.
You quickly nodded your head, ''Please Lando'' you begged.
''Ride me first then I'll take you from behind?'' he asked again.
You didn't respond verbally though. You just braced your hands on his shoulders as Lando pumped himself a few times, running his cock through your folds before settling at your hole, letting you sink down on him fully in a single thrust.
Your foreheads were resting against each other as the feeling of pain and pleasure overtook your body, letting out rhythmic moans as your walls clenched around Lando.
''Fuck'' he breathlessly cooed as you bit down on your lower lip.
''Hmm'' was all you managed back.
Once your body was used to the intrusion, (you always had to have some time because Lando was bigger than average and it was stung bad at first) you lifted yourself up before slammed back down again, and you continued that rhythm as a string of obscene moans left both yours and Lando's mouths.
His hand were planted tightly on your hips, guiding your movements of riding his thick pole up and down as you couldn't help but lean down and take one his nipples into your mouth, moaned at how it felt to have it in you mouth as you bit and sucked on it. That had Lando a whining mess.
''My brat, so filthy. So fucking dirty'' he mumbled through gritted teeth, spit flying through his mouth as he said it.
Your pace was raw, riding him like your life depended on it, when Lando bought his hand down and let his fingers toy with your clit, quickly edging you on.
''Fuck Lando I'm gonna cum'' you said, panting in his face as his eyes were stuck on yours, growing darker with every thrust.
''Do it'' he said, sternly. The raspiness and hoarseness of his voice only turning you on as you leaned down and locked lips with his in a harsh kiss, both your tongues everywhere, so unable to even have a proper kiss - just licks and nips of each others mouth.
The moment he pinched your slit through his fingers, you were a shuddering mess in his arms. Your body shaking violently as your orgasm ripped through you, gushing your fluids onto Lando's dick, now running down your thighs and his as he took control of fucking himself into you.
''How do you manage to cum so violently baby? Are you okay?'' he asked, concerned etched on his face as he was always so shocked at how much cum you mustered up. Though not concerned enough to stop fucking you!
You breathed heavy, trying to talk and failing to do so he slowed his movements slightly.
''Fuck it you Lan, you don't know what you do to me'' you said, smirking at thinking how this will boost his ego.
''Yeah?'' he asked, picking up his pace again.
''Uh huh. All you'' you said, trying to keep up with him though your body was like jelly.
He sensed your weakness and gently pulled you up, man-handling your body to lay down on the couch as he placed himself between your legs, spreading them wide open before pushing his angry dick back into you, relentlessly chasing his own high now.
You shut your eyes and bit your lip when Lando leaned down and roughly sucked on your nipple, showing it no pity. Your hands found his hair, pulling at and tugging it roughly.
Lando continued his onslaught as his words started again. He was whispering how to were such a fucking good girl for letting him use you as a slut, taking his thick dick so nice, how one day he was gonna fuck a baby into you, how you'd be only his whore forever, and no one would ever get to know how good you are, how you ruined sex for him.
His words were quick to have you shaking underneath him again, an orgasmic bliss taking over your body as you were sure you would black out with the pace he was still going at.
''Uh fuck Lando, fuck me, oh god, please'' you moaned and begged, not sure what for.
He laughed, for the first time since the race ended. ''I am fucking you baby, and you're doing so good for me. I fucking love you so much'' he mumbled, putting pressure on your clit, sending you into yet another orgasm, fluids gushing out of your body uncontrollably.
Lando slowed his movements. ''Still want you form the back, get up'' he ordered. And as much as your body felt like it couldn't move, he made you move and positioned you nicely for himself, you were on your elbows, with your ass in the air and Lando sat on his heels and pumped himself a few times, letting his spit drop down onto this cock to lube himself before he finally pushed into your ass hole.
''Fucking love anal with you baby. So fucking hot'' he said through gritted teeth.
He pushed in all the way and by now words had long left your brain. All you could do was hold onto the pillow as tight as you could and shut your eyes, let them roll to the back of your head as Lando used you how he pleased.
You couldn't even muster up any energy to let any moans leave your mouth, so all you could do was pant and let out shaky breaths, with a few tears rolling down your cheeks.
Lando had pulled your body up, so you were leaning back against him and his hands snaked around to your front and squeezed and pulled at your boobs as he still slammed in and out of you.
''Lan, love you but I-I''
''Yes you can'' you interrupted, leaving open mouthed kisses along your neck and collarbone.
Within seconds he'd sent you over the edge again, body quivering in his arms as he slowed his movements again, riding you through your orgasm.
''Lan''
''I know baby. One more, yeah? For me?''
How could you not when he was talking to you like that?
You nodded, and he handled your body once again and lay down on the couch, resuming his place from earlier and slowly, painfully almost, gliding his cock through your cunt again.
You held your breath, unsure how your body was gonna take it because as good as it felt, you were sore everywhere.
''You're so good. Such a good brat. One more baby, then we're done'' he said, leaning down to kiss you softly, though the bottom part of his body (and yours) was everything but soft. He ruthlessly slammed in and out of your core as you were starting to see stars now.
''Hm Lando wha-I-I'' you couldn't even form words now. Your body was on overdrive and you swear you were starting to feel things you'd never felt. You couldn't even describe what you were feeling when he asked you.
But just as his dick hit over G-spot over and over and over again, your body gave way and all of a sudden you were squirting, left right and center, unable to control it.
When Lando released what was happening, he couldn't stop his own dick from twitching unexplainably harshly, shooting ropes and ropes of milky white cum deep within you.
''FUCK, Y/N WHAT!?'' he exclaimed, unable to stop himself from shouting it out as he couldn't believe it was actually happening.
You though - you were in a state of bliss. Body tingling and fluttering as you just experienced squirting for the first time, and boy did it feel fucking amazing.
As Lando finally came down from your involuntary actions, he was quick to pull out of you and lean down, slurping and swallowing at every bit of juice and liquid your body just gave out.
His tongue on your pussy sent waves of pleasure and when he slid it through your hole, without really knowing what was happening, you ended up cumming AGAIN.
''Fuck LANDO!'' you shouted, not caring if your neighbors could hear you.
He blew some cool air over your cunt as he pulled back and gave you a sheepish smile.
''Sorry couldn't help myself'' he said, breathless as you were.
He let his weigh collapse onto your body and you arms wrapped around him tightly, trying to calm the both of you down though you were starting to shiver at the cold air hitting you sweaty skin.
Lando's curls were stuck on his forehead as your brushed them up and ran you hand through his hair.
''I've always said it and i will continue to. You are out of this world y/n. Fucking incredible in every fucking way. How the hell are you so good at making me feel this good? And I'm sorry - but you squirting is the single most hottest fucking thing you've ever done.'' he said, kissing you straight away and not giving you time to respond.
When he pulled back, you couldn't help but chuckle.
''Lan, you don't get it. Its the effect you have on me. You seriously have no idea what you do to my insides when you talk act, do anything for that matter. You'd just the most amazing person i know inside and out and just the thought of you does crazy things to me. Don't get even me started on what you make me feel when we fuck. It's unlike anything I've ever felt and i wouldn't have it any other way.''
''I don't know what i did to deserve you, but i love you so so much'' he whispered.
''I love you too baby. But promise me one thing. You wont let that asshole of a team bring you done. You need to know how fucking talented and incredible you are and will always be. Don't let anyone ever tell you otherwise. If they do, they'll have to come through me and i will crush them. But seriously, you are the best out there and i promise the good times will come, you will always be MY world champion. Forget what everyone else says. I love you so much.
''Thank you'' he whispered softly again.
The rest of the night was spent in bed with lazy kisses and dare you say more when you say Lando made you squirt again the next morning ;)
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love & company || r. sukuna
⊠biker ryomen sukuna x female biker reader || non-curse au
⊠oneshot
â you're beginning to lose hope of ever fixing your bike as the moon rises over the horizon when a man built like a brick wall and covered in tattoos stops to help you out. he's standoffish and his words are cold - but as it turns out the version of him you see is soft. who knew this man could ever become your best friend, let alone something more? â
⊠warnings ; 18+ only. contains explicit content. friends to lovers. fluff. hurt/comfort. p in v. fingering. oral (f! and m! receiving). degradation (slut). choking. pet names (princess, brat, woman, girl). size kink. rough sex. unprotected. biting. hair pulling. manhandling. toxic relationship (not sukuna). manipulation (not sukuna). reckless driving. use of alcohol and cigarettes. reader is implied to be short/small mostly in comparison to sukuna but he's huge so. ooc warning for sukuna given that this is modern and i want him to be more realistically human. i probably got some of the bike information wrong.
⊠words ; 24.2k.
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A cool evening wind chills your skin as you hunch over your bike on the side of the road. Youâre thankful for your thick leather jacket to protect you from the brisk winds, but it doesnât make it easy to work when your thoughts continue to stray to the fast-approaching night.
Your Kawasaki motorcycle puttered to a stop an hour ago and youâve been on the side of the road ever since. Of course it would happen today of all days, where your patience runs thin and you want nothing more than to be curled up in bed.
Your small array of tools that you keep for times like these are finally proving useful, but you can hardly bring yourself to care as you run out of things to check. Youâre almost certain the issue is a clogged fuel line at this point but without the necessary tools to check, youâre fresh out of ideas on what to do aside from calling a tow truck.
The sound of another passing motorbike is grating on your ears as someone speeds by on a bright red Ducati and you want to curse them out just for having a working bike, but to your surprise, they circle back a minute later and pull up next to you.
A broad-shouldered figure steps off the bike, pulling a dark helmet off and giving his head a shake, running a hand through his pink hair to give it a naturally windswept look. Tattoos line his sharp jaw and scars litter his right eye. Deep near-crimson eyes lock on you, a mildly cold expression spread over the tall manâs features. Heâs just about the textbook definition of what you would think of as a âbad boyâ.
He looks you over before taking in the state of your bike. The sight of you covered in grease and oil sitting in defeat on the ground is amusing to him to say the least- you donât much look the part of a biker between your small figure and approachable stature but one look at your bike and attire tells him not to judge a book by its cover.
âNeed a hand?â
Unfortunately for the tattooed man, heâs caught you in a bad mood.
âNo,â you grumble, picking up your wrench and dipping back into a rhythm of checking everything.
âIâve got more tools than just a wrench,â he offers. Your intense gaze looks him over again, surveying the black leather hanging off his shoulders and red helmet that matches his bike tucked under his elbow.
âI can handle myself,â you insist, not keen on accepting a strangerâs help, especially given his cold expression.
âDidnât say you couldnât,â he retorts with a click of his tongue. âJust askinâ if you want a spanner or pliers.â His eyes flicker to the moon rising in the sky. âOr a flashlight.â
You follow his gaze out to the rising moon, its light not offering enough of a look at your bike to be all that helpful as night begins to fall.
You sigh, wiping perspiration from your forehead with the back of your hand. The manâs lips quirk upwards in a minute smirk at the sight of the grease you accidentally wipe on your head. He thinks itâs cute.
âA spanner would be helpful,â you give in, pulling a pair of pliers from where youâd set them down beneath your knee to show you did at least have a couple of tools handy.
Pulling his hands from his pockets, the tall man turns to the backpack heâd set on the ground behind him. He sets his helmet on the seat of his bike and pulls out a spanner, handing it to you in place of the torque wrench youâve set at your side.
Heâs silent as you thank him and begin adjusting the spannerâs size to detach the fuel line. Standing in silence, he does little more than watch given that you donât seem to want his help.
When the fuel line finally detaches, you groan as you realize youâd been right about the problem the entire time and the line is blocked. Without an air compressor, there isnât much you can do to get your bike running again and your shoulders slump in defeat.
âNow dâyou need a hand?â He asks with a raised brow and a small smirk.
The look you shoot him is fiery and heâd be a liar to say he doesnât think your attitude is cute. It suits the strange vibes he gets from you in the best of ways.
âIâll just call for a tow,â you insist, still refusing the help of the stranger you know nothing about, aside from the fact that he has just about the most high-end street legal sports bike in pristine condition and you find it to be pretentious.
âSuit yourself. I can fix it for free, though.â
You press your lips into a thin line, brow furrowed as you look over his features. The man practically towers over you, heâs built like a tank and dwarfs you in every sense. His expression is aloof, giving away very little about him. You have no reason to believe heâs lying though, so with a sigh, you give in and hand him the spanner heâd lent you.
The man lowers himself beside you, disconnecting the other side of the fuel line entirely as he begins pulling apart the carburetor. You sit back, watching your bike attentively as though he might do damage to it, but his fingers move deftly as if this is all muscle memory to him.
âWhatâs your name?â You ask as the silence stretches on. Itâs a surprisingly comfortable silence, as he grabs a rag and water bottle from his backpack. He glances at you as he wets the rag and begins cleaning the carburetor.
âSukuna.â
âYou know your way around a bike.â
âBeen riding for a while.â
You nod. Despite his kind actions, his words are distant and frigid, so you decide not to push the subject.
Itâs silent for a while as you sit with your hands splayed on the asphalt behind you, watching his actions. Your eyes survey the man hunched over your bike, admiring the smooth lines of the tattoos that line his jaw, more ink just barely visible along his neck from beneath his jacket. His hair looks freshly dyed and his right eye is dotted in long scars that have you wondering what happened.
If the situation were any different, you might be hesitant to accept his help, but in truth youâre too tired to complain.
Itâs not much longer before your bike is back together. Wiping his hands with the rag, he nods to the bike.
âGive âer.â
Pushing yourself to your feet, you turn the key. The engine flips once, twice, three times, before finally sputtering to life.
âOh my god, thank you so much,â you sigh in relief, shaking your head. âI thought the issue was the fuel line,â you groan over the sound of the engine.
âIt is. You need to replace it, this should get you a few miles away though.â
You nod affirmatively, reaching down to hand back his tools. Sukuna dumps them in his bag and throws it over his shoulder.
âYouâre a lifesaver, I donât know how to thank you,â you tell him, your mood no longer sour as your bike continues to roar, thankfully not dead on the side of the road anymore.
âDonât worry âbout it.â He simply shrugs.
âLet me buy you a drink, or something,â you insist in spite of your exhaustion, though his cold demeanor doesnât give you much hope that heâll accept anyway, so you figure youâll be able to get some rest regardless of the offer.
As he turns to grab his helmet, you half expect him to start his bike and drive off without another word, ignoring your offer entirely. Itâs just the impression he gives you, but he surprises you.
âKeep up, then.â
Your brow raises and before you have a chance to complain that youâre covered in a layer of sweat and grease and youâd meant at a later date, his bike is roaring to life.
You scramble onto your own bike and follow him closely. Sukuna is half-shocked when you actually pull up into the parking lot of a small bar right behind him, pulling your helmet off and shaking your head in an effort to fix your hair.
He would be lying if he said he didnât find everything about you intriguing. From your bike to the way you ride and your feisty disposition all packaged in such a tiny figure compared to him, he thinks itâs cute. Maybe even something more than that.
He leads the way to the bar wordlessly as you complain about the grease coating your body, but he barely notices the oil marking your skin. Heâs used to it, if anything, from working on his own bike.
You arenât even sure if heâs listening given his flippant attitude and lack of response, but you drone on regardless. Itâs better than silence.
Choosing to ignore your frustrated rambles, he orders a whiskey and glances in your direction.
âIâll have what heâs having,â you tell the bartender with a sweet smile, waving your hand in the air like you donât much mind what exactly youâre drinking. Itâs your turn to surprise Sukuna.
âDonât think I caught your name,â Sukuna says as you lean over the bar beside him.
You tell him your name with a sweet smile, your mood clearly improved as you take the whiskey and damn-near down it in one swift movement.
When your eyes land on Sukuna again, heâs smirking. Heâs not really sure what to make of you nor you of him, but he certainly likes it.
Though you both elect not to have any more alcohol in favor of driving home later, conversation comes easily for the rest of the hour. At least, as easily as it comes for Sukuna.
âWhereâd you get your bike?â You ask decidedly, trying to make conversation with the stoic individual.
âA shop up north.â
âLooks like it cost a pretty penny.â
He hums in approval.
Thatâs about how most conversations with him go, so when you throw your jacket on and insist you should get home, youâre admittedly surprised when he pauses and holds his hand out expectantly.
You stare up at him curiously. Not once had you gotten the impression he was interested in any of your conversations, yet now he wants something from you? You canât decide what to make of this, what to make of him.
âSorry, um,â you stare down in confusion at his expectant hand, mouth opening and closing as you try to decide what to say.
âYour phone,â he instructs and your pretty eyes widen as you stare up at him, the difference in stature between you both now incredibly apparent as he dwarfs you when standing over you.
âOh!â You stare at him with pursed lips and pull your phone out, opening it to your texts. He sends himself a text and hands your phone back wordlessly, before turning his shoulder as he walks out abruptly, leaving you further confused.
Chasing after him, you just barely catch him as he kicks his bikeâs stand up and throws his helmet on.
âThanks again!â You call after him. He glances over his shoulder and though you canât see his expression behind the dark visor of his helmet, he smirks back at you before driving off.
As you just barely make it back home on your sputtering bike, you manage to replace the fuel line and shoot him a text.
11:53 PM You || fixed the fuel line. thanks again, youre a lifesaver
11:55 PM Sukuna || thanks for the drink.
In all honesty, you figure thatâs the last youâll ever hear from him, but you quickly find out that the cold disposition he gives off isnât really all there is to him when he asks if you want to go to a bike show a week later.
He fails to mention that his youngest brother Yuji would be joining you for the show, but as you walk the show floor with him and his younger sibling, you realize his brother likely just got all the conversation genes.
Sukuna is still aloof, he doesn't say much to you outside of comments about the bikes and even though heâs the one that invited you, you still can't tell if he enjoys your company. Although heâs quiet, his presence is surprisingly alluring and you're grateful to have someone to listen to your ramblings, even if he doesn't seem interested.
As you walk the length of the convention hall, weaving between crowds of people that seem to part at Sukunaâs menacing figure, Sukuna pauses to look at gorgeous black Yamaha. You barely catch the way he silently stops, managing to point out the pause to Yuji just in time to keep you all from getting separated.
âDonât think Iâve heard him talk this much in ages,â Yuji comments with a raised brow. You tilt your head towards him, following his gaze to Sukuna.
âReally?â
âYeah,â the younger man scratches the back of his head. âI donât have my license yet but I like lookinâ around. Heâs usually pretty snippy about which bikes I should be looking at,â he shrugs. âYou guys must have a lot in common for him to be so chatty.â
Chatty, you practically scoff to yourself. The man barely said ten sentences to you.
You do notice the way he shoots Yuji a glare or groans about his chatting on occasion, though. Not once does he direct that at you.
Even still, you don't expect him to keep inviting you out. Ten sentences isnât exactly something to form a friendship on.
Continuing to surprise you, you still hear from him. Next thing you know, youâre invited to ride with him and his brother Choso, invited out to dinner with a group of his friends and he even accepts your invite to see a horror movie with a couple of your friends.
Youâre quick to learn that Sukuna is just like that.
Sukunaâs mild and somewhat haughty disposition is something you grow accustomed to as you learn how to talk to him. Though you find yourself talking mostly at him, you realize thatâs just how he likes things. He pays a surprising amount of attention to your words, though you donât tend to notice until he shows it through actions later.
He shows up to your work with takeout on his lunch break when you mention you forgot your lunch. He goes shopping with you despite his distaste for malls when you tell him you need some new clothes. Heâs more agreeable when youâre around and his friends are quick to point it out, insisting you need to be there at all times to make him more tolerable, though theyâre mostly joking.
He does treat you differently from the rest of his friends. You figure itâs just because your friendship is new, though.
After being invited along on a ride down the highway to a neighboring small town with Sukunaâs friend Uraume and his brother Choso, you eye up Sukunaâs plate. Youâd ordered no side with your meal but god his fries look good. You shoot him a curious glance, met with his typical aloof expression, if not one of mild irritation. Glancing again at his fries, you reach over to steal one, pleased when you pop it in your mouth.
Sukuna rolls his eyes at you, muttering under his breath about you âbeing a bratâ and how âyou should have ordered a sideâ, but itâs all a show as he lets you steal another one when you smile sweetly at him.
When Choso follows your act, wanting to try the fries as well, Sukuna swats his hand away with a hiss. âMy plate isnât a buffet,â he growls contemptibly. Choso wrinkles his nose, shaking his hand of the harsh slap.
When Sukuna gets up to use the washroom, Choso waits until heâs out of earshot to comment.
âHow the hell did you get away with getting some of that assholeâs fries?â
You shrug. âDunno. He just let me.â
âGrumpy bastardâŠâ
Again, you insist you just donât know him well and heâs being kind so the action is brushed off.
A week later, Sukuna insists you tag along with his buddy Toji to get drinks, but when you arrive at the meeting spot and pull your helmet off, Sukuna is haughtily arguing with the raven-haired man.
âCâmon, itâs cheap. Their foodâs fine.â Toji insists with little more than a raised eyebrow and an unamused sigh.
âWhat food?â You ask with a smile as you saunter over to the two much taller men.
âRedâs,â Toji responds gruffly, his unamused expression turning to one of intrigue as he realizes you must be Sukunaâs friend. âYou must be y/n.â
You grin at him as he smirks.
âToji,â he introduces himself. âNow can ya tell this asshole that Redâs is cheap?â
Sukunaâs arms are crossed over his chest. âWe can do better for cheap.â He all but hisses, his eyes fixed in the distance.
âIâve never been,â you glance between the two with pursed lips, mentally chuckling to yourself at how much you have to look up to both men. âI think it sounds good.â
Sukunaâs arms fall to his side as his fiery eyes lock on you. He pauses for a moment, sparing a glance at Toji, but those deep eyes return to you with a begrudging sigh as he grumbles something under his breath.
âFine.â
Tojiâs eyes widen as he dangles his keys from his hands, his expression thoughtful. After a moment, he fists the keys as he gets ready to get in his car and head to the bar. He pauses before opening the door, a shit-eating grin spread over his scarred lips.
âThink I need ya to tag along more often, y/n.â He catches the tilt of your head and chuckles. âThink ya tame this shithead a bit.â
Sukuna roars something at Toji as he tries to catch him before the door slams and the car speeds off, leaving you giggling at the interaction.
Tojiâs not the last to point it out, either.
You donât think much of it, though. Sukuna just shows he cares through his actions and thatâs how you come to know him as your best friend.
Sukuna is, of course, smitten with you. He adores how perfectly you seem to understand him. He loves the way you invite him along to everything with your friends despite his tendencies to scare others off. He loves that in spite of the trouble he gets himself into, your opinion of him never changes. He loves that you text him about stupid things, and that even when his response is inhospitable, you continue to text him like you would any other friend.
Because youâre his best friend. And he wonât admit it to anyone, but you know. He knows you know.
You get him.Â
So of course when you excitedly text him about your date, you have no way of knowing that his naturally cold responses are no longer his usual tone. Theyâre frigid, maybe even mildly snarky, but over text you donât see the way his brow is knit tightly in contempt.
When he meets your boyfriend for the first time, you notice the strange tension between your best friend and partner. Your boyfriend brings it up but you had warned him in advance that Sukuna comes across that way, so you brush it off as little more than Sukuna being himself.
Yet, you notice the little things. Youâve known Sukuna for a long time now. You notice the way his jaw tightens when he sees your boyfriend lean down to kiss you at a dinner for your birthday a year into your relationship. You tilt your head questioningly at him from across the table, a silent query, but he doesnât give you a response, that mild expression never once leaving his eyes as he leans back in his seat.
âKuna?â Your sweet voice pulls his attention down to you when you pull him aside as everyone is saying goodnight outside the restaurant. âWhatâs wrong?â
âNothinâ.â
You cock your brow at his flippant response, dismissing you with a wave of his hand. âI know you well enough to know youâre lying,â you insist with an expectant look.
God, that look makes his hardened expression falter. Sukuna is well aware that heâs unapproachable, scary even. His form is built and he towers over most everyone, not to mention his constant disinterested expression and the tattoos he sports.
You often tease him for his âresting bitch faceâ.
Yet here you are, hand on your hip, so small and sweet, a fire lit behind those gorgeous eyes of yours. Cute.
âItâs just been a long day, donât worry âbout it.â He knows you donât believe him, but itâs the best youâre getting and you know that as well as he does. Hurt flashes through your eyes and he does feel a pang of guilt, but he keeps it locked away as he sighs and pulls something from the pocket of his leather jacket. âHappy birthday, by the way.â
Your wide eyes look up at him in shock. Youâd insisted no one should get you a gift, but when you texted him this morning and told him your boyfriend, so cheerily talking to your friends behind the two of you, had forgotten your birthday, he couldnât leave you empty-handed in that way.
You gingerly reach out and take the box from him. You know what it is instantly and the way your cheeks redden, the way it shocks you to silence has him smirking, mostly to himself. His hands remain in his pockets, his unamused expression locked on your hands that hesitate as you slowly open the velveteen box.
Lying so beautifully strewn in the box is a necklace you pointed out to him when youâd gone shopping together what must have been years ago now. A gorgeous silver chain lays delicately holding a dainty bejeweled star with your birthstone in the center. Of course heâd been paying attention. He always does.
âYou didnât,â itâs all you can manage as you stare at it in disbelief. To your surprise, Sukuna is smiling softly down at you, a rare sight that you want to burn into your retinas.
âYou deserve a good birthday.â
You know itâs a dig at your boyfriend, but you canât bring yourself to care. Maybe that should be a sign, but youâre too caught up in the moment as tears brim your eyes.
âThis was so expensive though, I- I- canât-â
âYou can and you will.â
You know when Sukuna demands something, he means it. This is one of those times.
Tears threatening to spill, you wrap your arms tightly around his toned middle. If he werenât a giant in comparison to you, you might have bowled him over with the force you hug him with.
Sukuna relishes in the moment, memorizing the feeling of your body in his arms, the way you bury your head into his chest, hiding your tears in his hug as they inevitably stain his white V-neck, but he doesnât care. His arms wrap tightly around you, one of the rare times he returns one of your affections.
When you part from him, using your free hand to wipe your eyes, Sukuna takes the box from you, moving to put the necklace on with ease. He moves like every action he takes is practiced as he confidently clasps the necklace around your neck.
âItâs beautiful,â you hum as you look down at it, running a delicate finger over the pendant.
The salmon-haired man hums mildly. ââCourse. You chose it.â
You examine his eyes, your expression unreadable as you contemplate Sukunaâs actions.
He may be agreeable around you, he may be willing to make compromises with you that he wonât for others, but this is new for him. This is sweet, and he knows youâre thinking such a thing too when he meets those pretty eyes staring up at him. He doesnât care anymore, though.
He wants you to be happy.
When your boyfriend confronts you about the necklace later that night, you tell him the truth. Maybe you hope heâll realize he fucked up. Maybe you hope heâll right his wrongs.
Instead, you end up in an argument as your boyfriend insists that his mistake in forgetting the date was honest but that Sukuna overstepped boundaries.
Maybe your best friend did, in truth.
And so as your boyfriend snaps when you defend your best friend and the argument takes a turn for the worse, maybe it shouldnât be that same best friend that you turn to. Maybe that will just make things worse.
But the phone only rings twice before he picks up.
He sounds tired, his voice coated in sluggish exhaustion as he mumbles a âhelloâ on the other line. You hear the rustling of sheets on the other end, a pang of guilt clawing at your throat as you know youâve woken him up.
âKuna?â The tone of your voice is foreign to him. Meek, strained. Even earlier in the night when you had confronted him about his cold disposition, your tone still held that unwavering strength and fire that he loves about you, so this wakes him up.
Leaning up on his elbow in bed, he squints at his phone.
âItâs three in the morning, y/n.â
âI know.â You pause and Sukuna waits for you to explain. He doesnât need to say anything for you to know that heâs listening. âWe got into a fight.â
Sukuna sighs, full of disdain, though not towards you. Never towards you.
âYou safe?â His voice is surprisingly soft, though you chalk it up to him being tired.
You nod, before realizing he canât see you. â... yeah.â
He hears you sniffle on the other end of the line and has to physically resist the urge to say things heâll regret about your boyfriend. âRight. âM on my way. Stay put.â
He hangs up, wasting no time in throwing on a pair of gray sweatpants and a plain black V-neck. He runs a hand through his disheveled hair, although it doesnât do him any favors and he isnât about to waste time styling it. As it stands, youâve seen him in a worse state after some particularly wild nights that had ended with one of you on the otherâs couch.
His bike roars to life outside his apartment and heâs off into the cold night air, barely grazing his skin as his leather jacket and helmet protect him from the bite. He pushes the limits of his bike and of the road as he speeds past any cars he comes across on the short drive to your house, and heâs glad he did when he spots you on your front doorstep, head in your hands in little more than pajama shorts and a tank top.
Heâs off his bike in an instant, shaking his head as he takes his helmet off in an effort to fix his hair before he kneels in front of you.
Youâre relieved at the sight of him, clearly fresh out of bed and having hurried right over. Your knight in shining armor. Or at least a shiny red helmet.
His brow furrows as he looks you over, spotting the goosebumps that litter your bare legs and arms.Â
âShit,â he mutters as he rolls his shoulders and shrugs his leather jacket off, wrapping it around you. It engulfs your figure almost entirely, draping over you like a dress. If the situation was any different he would think itâs adorable.
You look up at him between long, wet lashes, fresh tears streaking down your makeup-stained cheeks. Your eyes are red and puffy from crying and youâre sure your exhaustion and defeat are written across your face in bright bold lettering by the way he frowns.
âDid he kick you out?â
âItâs a long story,â you mutter, just barely audible.
âI got time.â
Thereâs a note of contempt that floats between his words and you know just as well as he does that heâs resisting the urge to beat down your door and knock some sense into your boyfriend.
Your mouth opens then closes enough times that Sukuna grows impatient, muscles in his jaw clenching as he grows closer and closer to busting down your door when you finally find words.
âWeâve been fighting on and off since we got home,â you admit. Sukuna raises a brow. That was four hours ago. âHe was pissed about- about-â you stammer over your words, biting your lip as you fiddle with the necklace that sits beautifully around your neck. Beautiful like you.
âMe,â Sukuna dryly finishes your sentence.
You frown and he knows heâs right. Of course. Maybe the necklace was overstepping this time, but heâd watched your shitty boyfriend step on you more times than he could count and hadnât once said a word. He respected you and your fiery demeanor entirely too much to ever want to see you upset.
Yet no matter what path he chose, it seemed you would be upset regardless.
âHe took my phone and went through everything,â you clear your throat as your voice cracks mid-sentence, staring down at the phone in your hands. The screen is cracked and Sukuna isnât sure if he wants to know whether it was shattered before today or not.
Your words set him ablaze in anger. It burns like an itch on his skin and it takes every last ounce of self control that he has to hold himself back and just listen. The contrasting cold air is nice on his skin, soothing what little fury it's able to with its brisk touch.
âDo you remember that photo we took together on Halloween?â
Sukuna nods slowly. He knows exactly where this is going. It was well over a year ago, before youâd started dating your boyfriend, when you had convinced Sukuna to dress as a king and you his queen. Heâd had a surprising amount of fun with it and with enough alcohol flowing through his veins, his words had grown more frivolous. Heâd spent all night calling you his queen or his princess, pretty much until the moment heâd thrown up, the words ejecting from his dialect along with the alcohol. Regardless, the proof was in the texts between you from that night.
At some point in the night, youâd gotten a photo taken clinging to his shoulders, a calm smile on Sukunaâs lips as heâd carried you with ease. It made him smirk the following morning recalling the memory, glad it hadnât disappeared with the words or alcohol.
Regardless, heâd missed his chance to shoot his shot, growing too accustomed to having you around to consider you didnât see his change in attitude around you as anything more than friendly, so heâd retreated to his usual detached self.
Clearly that detachment wasnât enough for your boyfriend as you flip him your phone screen. So it is newly broken.
God give Sukuna the strength to sit still.
âAnd youâre outside now, why?â
âI felt sick, I needed air.â You shrug, fiddling with your phone in your lap. âHe got mad that I walked away and we ended up fighting again, then he slammed the door in my face.â
âHe kicked you out,â Sukuna states matter of factly, venom dripping from each and every word.
âHe locked me out,â you shrug again, but Sukuna doesnât care for the details. You have no keys, not to your bike or your house, no jacket, youâre in shorts and a tank top⊠jesus.
âWhat a fucking prick.â With that, heâs on his feet and you know heâs about to slam his fist on your door. Or through it. Sukuna may be kind with you but the bad boy persona he sports isnât a persona at all- Sukuna would not hesitate to knock your boyfriend clean out. Heâd been to jail before, one more time wasnât a big deal if it meant keeping you safe.
âKuna.â He pauses at the plain tone you say his name in. Itâs not a warning, itâs not scolding. He doesnât know what to make of it. âNot now.â
He huffs and clicks his tongue. His jaw clenches as his shrunken, furious pupils stare down at you, but when he notices your legs are shaking from the cold, he relents.
âFine.â The word is grumbled as his hands reach for your waist and lift you to your feet with little more than a hum when youâre standing at your full height, barely reaching his broad shoulders. He leaves a hand on the small of your back, setting his helmet over your head and zipping his jacket up over your small frame in an effort to keep you safe when you climb onto the back of his bike.
Sukuna glances back at you as you cling to his toned abdomen, his bike pulling away quickly. Riding with Sukuna is familiar. Though you normally follow him, his quick riding pace and not-entirely-legal maneuvers donât scare you the way they once did, because everything Sukuna does feels practiced, rehearsed.
Pulling into his apartment building, he pulls the bike into a parking spot and lets you hand him the helmet as you follow him up to his apartment.
Itâs a bit of a mess, dishes sit in the sink, empty bottles and cans littering the counter and a garbage bag sits at the door, but it doesnât matter because youâre warm and youâre safe and itâs not like heâd let you take the couch anyway given the current situation.
Sukuna moves to at least tidy the couch, fully expecting you to make yourself at home like you always do, but when he turns to see youâre staring at the ground in the entrance, his jacket wrapped around you like a blanket, he frowns. Thatâs not like you.
In fact, in all the years you two have known one another, Sukunaâs never seen you so spaced out.
âDid he hurt you?â
Itâs his best guess as to why youâre so out of it, but when you shake your head, heâs simply at a loss.
Sukuna doesnât do comfort. Heâll watch your favorite movies with you and make you food, but he doesnât do words of comfort. Heâs a man of action, and although the most beautiful woman heâs ever laid eyes on is standing in his apartment, he doesnât dare to act on the stray thoughts running through his mind, even though he knows you deserve to be treated right.
Coming to stand in front of you, he sighs.
âWhaddya want me to do?â
Anyone else would assume heâs irritated with your presence, but you know itâs a genuine question. Your friend doesnât know what you need and heâs trying his best to figure it out. Heâs trying to help.
âCan I have a blanket?â You ask him, shoulders hunched in exhaustion.
Thereâs silence in the apartment as Sukuna moves to his bedroom to grab a blanket.
âThe red one please!â You call after him as though that isnât the one heâs already grabbing. He knows your favorite.
Returning to you, he drops the red blanket in your arms, his heart twisting as you pull his jacket off and hand it to him in exchange.
âCan I, um, come in?â
Sukuna raises an eyebrow questioningly, subconsciously fiddling with the tongue piercing in his mouth. Not once have you ever asked him to come in. You always, always, made yourself at home, even though it was much to his dismay the first few times youâd let yourself into his apartment in spite of his grumbles and irritated huffs.
Sukunaâs reaction is all the permission you need as you realize he must find the whole situation strange, but everything feels foreign to you. Itâs not like you havenât stayed at Sukunaâs before, itâs not like the couch isnât your second bed, itâs that you feel like youâre betraying your boyfriend by being here.
Not that Sukuna would do anything anyway, you know he doesnât see you in such a way. You may be his closest friend but heâs never once shown any sort of other interest towards you. Even if he did see you that way, heâs just not that kind of person.
Still, you gingerly sit at the edge of the couch, pulling your knees to your chest and wrapping yourself in the massive blanket. Sukuna moves to sit beside you, kicking his feet up on the coffee table. He looks at you expectantly, waiting to see what you want to do, if you want to talk.
But you donât answer, and Sukuna is at a loss of what to do. A contemplative silence settles over you as he leans his head back against the couch, eyeing you and hoping youâll say something.
âCan I ask you something, Ryo?â
The use of the nickname he lets only you call him quirks his brow as he realizes youâre serious.
âDo you think Iâm pretty?â
Thatâs⊠not what the gruff man was expecting to hear.
His jaw tightens as his piercing eyes stare down at you. He rubs a hand over his face as he tries to make sense of the question, too tired to be thinking this deeply over something. He stares at you pensively as though the world rests on this one response.
âYeah. Youâre pretty.â
Your eyes fall to your knees and the way Sukunaâs head tilts, youâre sure he thinks heâs made a mistake.
âThanks, Kuna.â
âThe fuck did that prick say to you that has ya askinâ?â
You hesitate, avoiding his discerning eyes as Sukunaâs chest surges with anger. Your best friendâs fist clenches in his lap as he leans forward, examining your expression.
âWhat the fuck did he say?â Sukunaâs voice is monstrous, but you could never fear his anger knowing heâs never once directed it your way. You know heâs irritated you havenât answered yet, but even between his irritation and the gruff tone he uses, he could never scare you.
âHe told me I couldnât do better than him.â
âAnd?â Sukuna pushes demandingly, his fingers clasping the back of his couch so hard you wonder if he has the strength to crush it.
âThat heâs way out of my league and should have chosenâŠâ you trail off, not oblivious to the way Sukuna quirks a brow for you to continue. When you meekly whisper your friendâs name, Sukunaâs seething.
Fury practically drifts from his body like smoke and to your surprise you do hear the couch creak beneath his hand.
Youâve only ever seen Sukuna this angry once before.
Sukunaâs closest friend aside from you, Uraume, often accompanied you on your trips to the bar with Sukuna and would join in on your rides with their own bike. The two of them were two peas in a pod, similar in all the ways you werenât, but if anything it made you closer to Uraume for having an understanding of Sukuna.
For that exact reason, youâd spotted Uraumeâs discomfort a mile away when someone began hitting on them. Uraume could handle themself, so you didnât think much of it until the manâs hand was tightly gripping Uraumeâs arm.
Alarmed, you pointed out Uraumeâs discomfort to your drunk best friend and he didnât hesitate to clock the man hitting on them.
So when Sukuna is on his feet with a familiar rage brewing and doesnât seem to know what to do with himself, you know you have to calm him down before youâre bailing him out of jail again. Itâs not something you want to make a habit of.
âKuna, itâs okay.â
âNo!â He hisses, swinging his hand through the air as he stares at the door.
âPlease, Iâll be okay, I promise,â you try to insist, wrapping your arms around yourself.
âItâs not okay for him to say shit like that to you,â he growls, glowering from where he stands over you, eyes on the door. He wants to leave, you know he does.
âItâs not, I know, but itâs not your problem.â
âNot my- What the fuck donât you get?â
Your eyes widen at Sukunaâs question. His voice is frigid as ever, but for once you feel the shards of ice pricking your skin.
âWhat?â Your dumbfounded and hurt question hangs in the air momentarily as you try to process this outburst.
Sukunaâs scarred eye twitches as he runs his tongue over his teeth. He huffs out a breath as he sees your expression, forcing himself to calm down so as not to make this about him. He doesnât want to say something he regrets, and he certainly doesnât want that icy tone to be directed at you, ever again.
âHe doesnât fucking deserve you.â
Your shoulders fall at his words, his chest heaving as he stares at you with an unidentifiable emotion.
âWhereâs this coming from?â Your brow knits tightly over the bridge of your nose. As you subconsciously chew on your lower lip, Sukuna has to do everything in his power not to stare at your lips.
âLook, I just care, alright? Or somethinâ.â
You barely know how to react to your best friendâs admission of care for you. Not once has he ever shown an ounce of his care through words. Sure, heâs shown it in other ways, but this is a first for him.
His gaze is fixed on the kitchen, so he barely notices when you stand up and set your hand on his arm, your thumb comfortingly rubbing his arm.
âI appreciate it, Kuna.â You tell him with a tired smile, doing your best to reassure him that youâre okay in spite of the situation. âJust⊠can we please just watch a movie or something?â Youâre too tired, too worn out to handle everything going on right now and youâre afraid the buildup of emotions in your chest will overflow if you donât distract yourself soon.
Sukunaâs focus fixes on your hand on his arm, the way it seems to burn into him in a way heâd long grown painfully familiar with. It wasnât uncommon for you to grab his arm and drag him somewhere, or hug him each time you said hello. Hell, the Halloween youâd both gotten entirely too drunk, youâd been on Sukunaâs back half of the night giggling and telling him, your King, where to take you.
Yet this time, the burn hurts. It hurts him to see you here with dried tears on your cheeks. It angers him to know your boyfriend had gotten away with treating you in such a way for so long.
He lets out a breath through his nose and takes a seat on the couch again at your insistence, watching as you drape the big blanket over the both of you. And god is it cute when you do, making sure heâs completely covered from the waist down like youâre tucking him in.
When you lean back against the arm of the couch, slinking comfortably back into the cushions and grab the remote, Sukuna feels his body begin to relax too, allowing himself to focus on your wellbeing here and now rather than the fact that he wants to pummel your boyfriend.
Heâs not shocked when you flip through options and eventually settle on a Studio Ghibli movie he knows youâve seen a million times because heâs seen it one too many times.
You know he doesnât mind although he isnât the biggest fan of the movie. Either way, itâs nearly five in the morning and you both know youâll be asleep before you know it.
â
The next morning as cool air pours through a window and birdsong decorates each blow of the breeze, the pounding of your head is a rude awakening. Itâs too early for you to be up given that you were awake so late, but your phone seems to think otherwise.
Your eyes flicker open blearily, and you lean up in bed with a yawn, realizing suddenly that youâre in Sukunaâs room and heâs nowhere to be found. Sitting up fully, you bring a hand up to your temple, pressing on it in an effort to ease the pain as you search for your phone, finding it eventually on the floor a small distance away.
Hopping down from the tall mattress, you yawn as you stare at the screen, your heart clenching at the sight of the contact photo on-screen as your phone rings. Your boyfriend has his arms wrapped around your middle, his chin resting on your shoulder as you both grin. With the way your screen is now shattered, it looks almost like a scene from a movie in the way itâs practically screaming a warning at you.
Youâd spent far too much time alone with your thoughts the previous night. Hell, even with Sukunaâs comfort, his disdain for your boyfriend had been a bit of a wakeup call. Still, your thumb hovers over the green button.
âHello?â Your voice is broken as you answer the phone.
âThank god baby, I was so worried about you. Iâm so sorry, I shouldnât have left you outside last night, I wasnât thinking clearly.â
You take a couple of steps forward, walking towards the living room as your eyes lock onto the tall man draped over the couch, his limbs entirely too long for the cushions. He must have carried you to his bed at some point and taken the couch.
Your stomach twists as you realize your boyfriendâs words are all lost on you, you didnât hear a single one. Youâre not sure when you tuned him out, or how long youâve been staring at Sukuna when your boyfriendâs words pull you from your thoughts.
âY/n? Did you hear me?â
âSorry, Iâm a bit out of it. What did you say?â
He sighs in frustration on the other side of the line and you wince as his tone gains a familiar edge. âWhere are you? Iâm coming to get you so we can talk.â
âI- um-â you pause, brow furrowing as you stare at your best friend, who begins to shuffle from his uncomfortable position on the couch as your soft voice awakens him from slumber.
âY/n?â Your boyfriendâs voice cuts through the haze again, but youâre at a loss for words as Sukuna lifts his head, irritation written across his face at being awake, but when he flips over on the couch and spots you, his demeanor softens.
âYeah. Youâre pretty.â
Sukunaâs words ring in your head over and over and you bite your lip. He pushes himself up on the couch, moving to stand a small distance in front of you in three long strides.
Sukuna may not have a way with words, but you never had a hard time telling what he was thinking just by the way he looks at you. As he stares down at you with a tilt of his head, you know exactly whatâs going through his mind.
Like that, it all clicks. Of course he hated your boyfriend. The signs were always there, you just didnât pay them any mind. The reason he was colder than usual towards your boyfriend is as obvious as the sun in the sky.
Sukuna thinks youâre pretty. He wasnât trying to comfort you when he said that. Thatâs not who Sukuna is. That may as well be an admission that he would move mountains for you.
âY/n, baby? Whatâs going on? I want you home, now.â
Your chest twists at his tone and as your eyes meet Sukunaâs, you wonder if your phone is loud enough for him to hear when his lip twitches.
You clear your throat, your eyes never once leaving Sukunaâs from where he stands with tousled hair, wrinkled sweatpants and a bare chest. Itâs not unfamiliar to you, you know Sukuna is beyond hot. You know Sukuna could take anyone he wants home and you know he has a streak of doing so, but now that you think about it, itâs been a long time since youâve seen Sukuna with anyone, and you know why now.
âYou left me outside all night in the cold.â Your voice is meek, still mindlessly chewing on your lip as you stare at the tattooed manâs eyes, now lit ablaze with a fire that hadnât been there earlier. âYou know what- I should go.â
âWhat? Baby, come on we need to talk-â
âI have nothing to talk to you about. Weâre-â You pause, your stomach stirring uncomfortably as all of your emotions seem to collide and collapse within you. You feel the tears that threaten to spill, your composure that threatens to break as you ball your hand into a fist at your side.
Sukunaâs hand twitches beside him as he does everything in his power not to lean down and kiss you then and there. He wants you. He wants all of you. He wants to show your boyfriend everything heâs about to lose.
He wants to make you his. He wants you to make him yours.
Yet, all he can reasonably do is set a hand on your upper arm. He canât be selfish. Not when youâve come to him in your time of need.
âWeâre done.â
âNonono, we are not done, hold on-â
âIâll come grab my bike and my things soon-â
â-letâs talk about this, I just made a mistake, okay-â
â-goodbye.â
âDonât hang up, baby, hold on, fuck-â
Your hand falls to your side as you stare up at the taller man.
He doesnât say a word as a tear runs down your cheek, shortly followed by a sob wracking your body. Sukunaâs hand moves from your arm to the back of your head as he pulls you into his chest, holding you there as you cry against his bare skin, tears wetting his toned pecs.
Itâs not his ideal morning, but at least he can shamelessly say now that he wants to rearrange your boyfriendâs face with his fist.
He wonât say it anyway, though. He knows better.
Your best friend doesnât say anything but his actions speak volumes as he holds you to him protectively, unmoving as he envelops you into his form. He exhales deeply as he holds you tightly to his body, his fingers gripping you tightly. Itâs reassuring to know you have him in your time of need and eventually your tears begin to subside.
You blink your wet lashes against his skin as your warm breath fans his chest and abdomen. He shoots you a disgruntled look as your lashes tickle his skin and he jolts at the feeling.
âDonât be a brat,â he warns through gritted teeth, but it holds no malice.
You chuckle through tears. âSorry, Ryo.â
He rolls his shoulders and holds you again, letting your face fall against his chest once more. This time, youâre careful to keep your eyes closed to avoid tickling him.
Heâs surprisingly patient with you as he lets you stand there, only moving to take and silence your phone when he grows frustrated with the vibration.
When you finally settle, he leads you back to the couch, tossing his shirt and the blanket off the couch and onto the floor.
âDid you move me to the bed?â
He hums affirmatively, his chest warming as you smile at him. âThanks, I could have taken the couch though. It looked a bit too small for y-â
âNo.â
You breathe out through your nose in a half-hearted laugh. Thereâs never any use arguing with him when heâs made up his mind, so you give it up. Oh well.
âCan I stay here for a bit?â
You figure Sukuna will huff and puff and make a show out of it but he nods easily.
âThanks,â you sigh, sinking back into the couch.
You stare at the ceiling. What a morning. Youâve barely been awake for ten minutes and your heart is pounding in your chest just from sitting beside your best friend, someone youâve known for years.
Someone youâd long pushed any attraction for down into the depths of your heart in an effort to save yourself the heartbreak of being with someone who seemed to have no interest in you. Hell, youâd once thought he was emotionally unavailable, and yetâŠ?
You canât help but stare.
Heâs exhausted, youâre not sure how much longer heâll be able to stay awake as his head bobs down onto the back of the couch, mouth slightly ajar as sleep settles over his form. You smile softly at the sight, swallowing at the yearning feeling of wanting to settle into his warmth, though you know you shouldnât.
Youâre a mess. Youâve heard your boyfriend- ex- say things you arenât ready to admit to yourself that leave fresh stinging wounds. Hell, thatâs an entire can of worms you donât want to touch right now. Your belongings, your bike, your entire life is all trapped in his house, in the house of someone that-
God why had you let him step all over you like that? It leaves you frowning as your heart twists and clenches uncomfortably. You loved him. Deep down, you know itâs the reason. You convinced yourself he loved you too.
You curse yourself for overlooking your feelings for Sukuna, for pushing them down. Heâd always cared deeply for you, the signs had always been there, yet you never paid them any mind.
Chewing on your lower lip again, you get to your feet and grab the blanket off the floor, draping it over him. Your thumb brushes over the faded black lines that race over his shoulders and down his collar bones as you tuck the blanket over his shoulders.
He hums subconsciously, a serene smile pulling at his lips.
You smile back, turning to get some rest yourself. When Sukuna kicks his foot out suddenly and damn-near trips you, you let out a surprised yelp, spinning around to confront him.
âWhat the hell, Kuna?â You harshly snarl at him.
His lidded eyes just barely open, your reaction earning a smirk from him. Thereâs his feisty best friend.
âCâmere, itâs cold.â
Itâs not cold, and Ryomen Sukuna is not sly, but your stomach flutters and your heart jumps to your throat anyway. Your shoulders fall to your sides in surprise, unable to be frustrated with him.
He flips the blanket up, his arm extended over the back of the couch. His expression is mild as usual but when you take him up on his offer and plop down next to him, his racing heart tells you everything you need to know.
Pulling your knees up onto the couch, you let him pull you against is chest, your head resting on his broad shoulder as he barely lasts a minute before the rhythm of his breathing steadies and his head falls back on the couch again.
Youâre not long for the world of the waking either as you succumb to the temptation of sleep on his warm chest.
When your eyes flicker open again, your head has fallen into Sukunaâs lap and heâs splayed in what looks like an uncomfortable position with his arm and leg hanging off the couch. His head is still leaned back against the back of the couch with his mouth hanging open as soft snores part his lips.
Itâs not the first time youâve seen him asleep. Youâve spent many hungover mornings at his apartment and vice versa but now in the gentle morning light with the distant sound of birdsong as the only noise disturbing his snores, he looks peaceful.
You shuffle on his lap in an effort to get a better look at his serene expression, but his strained groan suggests that you may have awoken him earlier than he would have liked.
âCan ya cut that out?â He grumbles without opening his eyes as he reaches down and adjusts your head to lay more on his abdomen.
The irritation in his voice doesnât hold a candle to the sincerity in which his arm now cradles you against him and you giggle, to which he opens an eye to observe you.
âSorry,â you hum. He exhales as he closes his eyes again, sliding further down on the couch.
You lay in bliss on his toned and horribly attractive bare chest for what only feels like a few minutes before his eyes peel open and heâs drinking in the sight of you, his gorgeous best friend, smiling at him from his chest.
And oh my god, Ryomen Sukuna is blushing.
Would you really be his best friend if you didnât point it out?
âKuna?â
âHm?â
âYou a lil flustered?â
Sukunaâs brow furrows deeply. âI am not.â
âYouâre blushing.â
âItâs warm in here, youâre laying on top of me and we have a blanket,â he refutes with an edge to his voice that tells you that youâre poking a nerve.
You also know him well enough to know itâs faux anger, playful if anything.
âFunny, I was told it was cold a couple of hours ago.â
His lip curls, chest rising and falling beneath you as he huffs. âYou push my buttons.â You can see from the way a muscle in his jaw works that heâs fiddling with his tongue piercing.
âI could push more than just your buttons,â your voice drips with confidence, lowering an octave at the implication. You pull a hand out from beneath your chin, running a dainty finger across the length of his collar bone.
Sukunaâs pupils dilate in an instant, his attention drawn to your finger. He swallows hard, the corners of his lips pulling up into a smirk. All signs of his contempt forgotten, warmth swirls in those gorgeous eyes of his, but the smirk on his lips is devilish.
âCareful, princess,â he warns in a gruff voice that has you clenching your thighs together with wide eyes. Sukunaâs brow twitches as he feels your legs shuffle, entirely too happy with himself at getting such a reaction from you all from two words. He chuckles, his chest rumbling beneath you as you hide your face in his chest, heat radiating from your cheeks.
Tension is ripe in the air between you both when you finally meet Sukunaâs intense gaze and it makes a question pop into your mind.
âHow long?â The words are blurted out and Sukuna shifts beneath you to get a better view.
âWhat are you on about?â
âHow long have you liked me?â
Sukunaâs scoff hits the air before he can even register heâs made the noise. âGo get ready or whatever so we can pick up your shit.â His brow is pulled into a tight scowl as he all but shoves you to the ground.
You barely manage to catch yourself before falling on your ass, rolling your eyes as you steady yourself.
âKuuuna!â You coo with a grin, but before you have a chance to tease him any further, Sukuna lunges at you. âWait, wait-â
You shriek in protest as he barrels into your legs, effortlessly lifting you over his shoulder. He pays no mind to any of your protests, nor your kicking and squirming against him as he dumps you with little grace on his bed.
âWhat-â
âStop complaininâ and go change or shower or whatever yâ gotta do. I want your bike back.â
Sitting up as you attempt to reorient yourself, you blink a couple of times and manage to call his name out just before heâs turning away.
âI donât have anything to wear,â you tell him, staring down at your pajamas.
âYouâve been leaving shit here for years, find something in my closet.â
âHave I?â You wonder aloud, suddenly realizing your hungover mornings passed in his apartment are likely the culprit for many missing outfits. âWait, why do you want my bike back?â You realize suddenly, but heâs already shutting the door to his room and leaving you in tranquility.
Standing in the silence broken only by distant birdsong and the muffled sounds of traffic, you find your gaze lingering on the door where he once stood.
How long? You wonder to yourself. How many signs, how many signals had you missed or brushed off all these years under the assumption that your grumpy best friend was just that- your best friend?
You set a hand over your fast-beating heart, trying to steady the pace itâs beating at as emotions run rampant through you. Between the shock of realization of Sukunaâs feelings and the shitty night youâd had- your birthday, by the way- you canât help the shaky exhale that parts your lips.
Itâs a lot to take in.
You take your time showering, enjoying the way the warm water rinses away all signs of the prior night. Itâs a warm respite from the days that are beginning to grow frosty as winter approaches. Most importantly, the white noise of the water falling drowns out the steady stream of jumbled thoughts flowing like a river through your mind.
Perusing Sukunaâs closet, you do manage to find more of your clothes than you had expected.
âMy nice leggings were here the whole time?â You mutter to yourself as you pull them from a pile of pants. Along with them, you manage to find a pair of jeans, more shirts than youâd care to admit, an old jacket and a hoodie.
Pulling on a form-fitting black low-cut shirt and a red leather jacket, you poke your head out of the bedroom door.
âWhyâd you never give any of this back?â
Sukunaâs leaning out the window with a cigarette held between two fingers. He blows a puff of smoke out into the cool fall air before turning to you. Heâs still in his sweatpants but has pulled his shirt on.
âI used to bring âem back to your place when I visited but they always ended up back on my couch,â he shrugs simply. âWasnât worth the time.â
âI didnât know it was this much clothing.â
âYour memoryâs shit.â
âOuch,â you hold a hand to your heart, feigning being hurt.
He stubs out the cigarette, waving the smoke out the window with his arm before shutting it. âDone in there?â
You nod and exchange places with Sukuna as he showers. He takes less than a quarter of the time you did and is out with the most effortlessly cool style that you canât help but be jealous of him.
His typical black leather jacket hangs off his shoulders with a vintage Harley Davidson shirt beneath. He sports ripped jeans on his lower half and blackout shades sit atop his spiked pink hair.
âSee something you like?â
You barely manage to utter out a pathetic âuhâ before Sukunaâs chuckling at you as he catches you eyeing him from your place on the couch. He makes his way around the couch, patting your shoulder encouragingly.
âLetâs go.â
Shaking your head to clear your mind, you get to your feet and follow Sukuna to the door, stopping him before he can leave.
âHey. Can you stay on the sidewalk while I talk to him?â
The tall man pauses at your serious tone, examining your expression. âWhy?â
You know why heâs asking.
âIâm serious, Ryo. I donât want you two fighting.â
âHe treated you like shit, y/n.â
âI- I know.â
His jaw clenches. âThe piece of shit deserves-â
âI know, okay? Please, this is what Iâm trying to prevent. Besides, if you get into trouble, Iâll leave your ass in jail this time.â
His head falls back, eyes closed as he comes to terms with just how serious you are. He rolls his shoulders backwards once before nodding. âWhatever, fine.â His tone drips with exasperation and anger and you can only hope at this point that he means what he says.
âThank you,â you sigh in relief, falling into place beside him as he leads the way down to his bike.
Though you rode behind him less than twelve hours ago, somehow it feels different today as he places his helmet on you and pulls you tight to his broad form. His feisty little backpack, so cute in his helmet. Heâs not oblivious to the way your hands roam his abs either as a smirk pulls at his features. Itâs a sweet momentary distraction from his searing anger.
It takes every ounce of self control that Sukuna has to stay at his bike as he watches you ring the doorbell of your own house. Thank god for the cold air keeping his anger from simmering through his skin. Heâs sure heâd be a pile of molten anger otherwise.
You shuffle uncomfortably at the doorstep, knowing entirely too well that this is going to go poorly. You were practically asking for a fight by showing up with Sukuna but what better option do you have? Your wallet and keys are still sitting soundly on the nightstand of the bed youâd spent the last several months sleeping in. At least, thatâs where they should be.
It takes a moment before the door creaks open, your exâs surprised wide eyes staring back at you.
âShit, thank god youâre home-â
You barely manage to duck from his grasp as he attempts to pull you into his embrace. Your heart pounds hard in your chest as you face your ex, whose face contorts to one of pain when you duck away from him.
âI told you-â You mentally curse yourself as your voice breaks. Closing your eyes, you readjust and face your ex with confidence. âWeâre done.â
âWe need to talk,â he insists, his voice sickeningly sweet, and it almost makes you want to gag the way he swings between sweet nothings and manipulative cords that twist your heart.
âWe talked for four hours last night. Thereâs nothing left to talk about!â You swing a hand through the air for emphasis as your voice rises, staring at him in disbelief. âJust let me in, I need my keys and-â
His arm swings out to block the door, knuckles white as he grips the frame of the door. His brow curls upwards in⊠frustration? Irritation? Anger? Pain? Youâre not sure. âThis is your home. You belong with me.â
You swallow the bile in your throat like a stone straight to the pit of your stomach. Once words like that would have made you swoon, now you feel as though youâre a deer in the headlights staring at a man you donât recognize. A man who holds the barrel of a metaphorical gun.
You spare a glance behind you for reassurance, spotting Sukuna sitting at his bike. If itâs possible for a man to have smoke spewing from his ears, Sukuna is the spitting image of such a thing. His face is red with anger, hands clenched at either side of his body as he tries desperately to hold himself back.
He still remembers the way you excitedly told him about your new boyfriend. About how sweet he was, how kind he was. Although it pained him to know it was someone else making you happy, he was just glad you were happy. But when you had invited him to meet your boyfriend, Sukuna couldnât help but feel as though the man didnât match your description.
Heâd tried to convince himself he was just being jealous, but the more time he spent around you, the more he noticed.
The last straw for Sukuna was when you had invited him, your boyfriend, and some of your closest friends along to see the latest installment in the Predator franchise. Youâd stopped for dinner first and your boyfriend had insisted on ordering for you.
Sukuna hadnât thought much of it at the time, but he had found it strange when a salad had been set in front of you. Not once had Sukuna ever seen you order a salad. Well, he had, but as a side. Never as the entire meal.
Heâd tried to brush it off but when youâd decided on popcorn at the movie and your boyfriend had insisted you didnât need it, Sukuna made a point of ordering a large one and sharing it with you.
Now as you look back at him uncertainly, every bone in Sukunaâs body screams to move. Yet his brain tells him to listen to you. He takes a breath in an effort to stay calm, deciding to respect your wishes.
âYou brought him here?â Your ex pales as he follows your line of sight.
That seems to give you the confidence to face him again as anger sears through your blood. âYou left me outside alone! He came to get me!â You search his face for any sign of remorse. When you donât find it, tears prick at your eyes. Over a year spent together and he canât even show you an ounce of kindness.
âI told you baby, it was a mistake!â
âNo- No. No, a mistake is forgetting to turn off the sink, not leaving me outside in the cold with nothing but a broken phone.â Your voice drips with venom as the cold of the previous night envelops you in its memory, a reminder that this is for the best.
âYour phone isnât broken, get over it y/n.â You glance down at his fist as it balls at his side.
âYou shattered it.â You deadpan.
âCan we forget about the phone? For fuckâs sake.â He lifts his fist in the air to bring it up to his forehead as he attempts to calm himself down. âLook-â he shoots Sukuna a glance before smiling, his voice growing honeyed. âWeâll figure things out, okay? Why donât you come in?â
You hesitate. You see the red flags as clear as day now that the fog has lifted, and you know Sukuna is grateful when you pleadingly look at him. His signal to come beat the shit out of your ex. Well, no, it isnât. But he wishes it was.
Regardless, heâs up the front lawn to the door of the small house in an instant, standing behind you with all the self-control he can physically muster.
âWeâre having a private conversation, would you mind-â
âWhatever you can say in front of me, you can say in front of him.â You insist, backing into Sukuna as your ex reaches for your arm. Youâre thankful in this moment that your closest friend is nearly seven feet and built like a brick wall as it could never really matter who heâs up against, heâll always be the scariest one in the room.
Your exâs mouth curls into a snarl, eyeing Sukunaâs hands that rest easily on your upper arms.
âYouâve gotta be-â he grumbles to himself, rubbing the bridge of his nose with his hand that isnât blocking you from entering the house. âCome on baby, you know you belong with me and not-â he cuts himself off as he shoots Sukuna an icy glance.
You shift uncomfortably at the tone he uses as he says that you belong with him, growing uneasy the longer youâre in his presence. Steeling your resolve, you straighten yourself and muster as much confidence as you can.
âThis isnât about Sukuna. You left me outside in the cold last night and I called my best friend to get me,â you tell him without missing a beat. Sukuna is practically grinning behind you as your exâs jaw clenches but you donât see the exchange between the two men. âOh, and I donât belong with or to anyone.â
Sukuna squeezes your arm in reassurance.
âI need my keys and wallet. Iâm taking my bike and some clothes.â
Your ex mulls over your words before relenting finally, just as youâre beginning to think youâll be without belongings. âFine, but he stays outside.â
You glance up at Sukuna, whose expression is unreadable. âFine,â you agree, slipping from Sukunaâs grasp and into the house. Your ex goes to close the door in Sukunaâs face, but a steady hand stops him just as you dash out of sight into your old bedroom.
âLet go of the door, man.â
âLeave the door open, man,â Sukuna warns mockingly in a sneer.
âSheâs my-â
âSheâs not. Sheâs not yours. She doesnât belong to you.â
âGo fuck yourself, Sukuna.â He rolls his eyes, pressing more of his weight against the door, but itâs nothing compared to the bulk Sukuna packs.
âConsider yourself lucky Iâm not rearranging your face right now,â his deep eyes blaze as he leans closer to your ex, his words dangerously low. If ever Sukuna is thankful that he knows heâs a scary person, itâs right now as your ex flinches back and relents, leaving the door open and leaving Sukuna at the door.
Your ex disappears from Sukunaâs sight and he stands up straight, turning to the side as he stares at your bike. He knows you can handle yourself, but he still doesnât love the prospect of you being alone with your ex for any period of time.
Sukuna especially hates how long it takes. Heâs not sure how much you need to pack and he canât make out whatever youâre talking about with your ex but each passing moment he grows less patient and less willing to wait outside.
Just as heâs thinking of stepping inside, he sees your tiny figure with a backpack and a suitcase, keys dangling from your fingers and your wallet held firmly in your hand. The relief on your face when you lock eyes with Sukuna is somewhat heartwarming, but what isnât is the way your ex tries to grab your wrist as you make your way to the door.
You pull against him but his grip fastens.
Sukuna sees red. He sees red and he doesnât think twice about stepping into what was once your house.
âDonât touch her.â
Your eyes widen at the sight of Sukuna making his way towards you with gritted teeth. âNo, no, no! Sukuna! Itâs fine, I can handle this!â Your hand with your wallet and keys flies up as you maneuver yourself between him and your ex.
Your exâs hand doesnât loosen even when your arm physically blocks Sukuna from laying a beating on him.
You take a breath, looking between the two men. âIâm leaving. Please let go,â you say softly, so calmly it almost breaks Sukunaâs heart that your exâs actions seem so normal to you.
âWe arenât done talking-â
âWe are. Iâll be back for the rest of my things later.â You tug your wrist again, sending a pleading look to your ex, but his grip only tightens. âPlease let go.â
âY/n, please. Please, we can work this out.â
âLet go,â you tell him firmly, ignoring his words.
âPlease-â
âI donât know if youâre incapable of listening or if you just want your head bashed in, but Iâd listen to her.â Sukunaâs voice is a warning, dripping with malevolence youâve never heard from him before. His chest is pressed hard against your free hand and you arenât sure you can hold him back much longer.
âRyo,â you plead, looking between the two men as you try to pull your wrist again. Your exâs hand twitches at Sukunaâs words before loosening and falling to his side. You breathe out a sigh of relief, glancing down at the bruising markings his fingers left behind.
âSo heâs Ryo now, huh?â
You glare pointedly at your ex, knowing that one wrong word will have him with his face caved in.
Sukunaâs intense stare never once leaves your ex, but he does allow you to hand him your suitcase and gently tug his forearm to follow you out the door.
Your ex watches from the door as Sukuna follows you to your bike. His intent gaze has your hair standing on end but you choose to ignore the feeling in favor of hopping on your bike.
The sound of your bike roaring to life puts both you and Sukuna at ease and you ride down the driveway, stopping next to his bike. He jogs after you with your suitcase still in-hand.
Sukuna is quiet, which isnât unusual for him but you can practically feel the anger coming off of him in droves like smoke. Kicking your bikeâs stand out, you hop off and flip his Ducatiâs storage compartment open, pulling out a couple of straps to secure your suitcase to the back of your bike.
âReady?â
You pull your friendâs attention from your ex finally as your hand comes to rest on his bicep. His eyes travel from your face to your arm that rests on him, where he can see the way your wrist is reddened and sure to bruise.
Realizing the sight of your reddened arm has his jaw clenching with anger, you move it behind your back and out of sight.
âKuna, please.â
His intense gaze examines yours as the breeze faintly ruffles his spiked hair. Heâs completely still apart from the muscle working in his jaw as he thinks over his options at this moment, but his chest heaves as he sighs in exasperation and gives in.
âWhatever,â he growls, shooting a poisonous look back at the door that your ex hasnât moved from. Sukuna haughtily pulls his helmet on over his head, flipping his visor down before getting on his bike and accelerating quickly.
Based on the way Sukuna weaves through traffic and carelessly speeds through lights, you know heâs furious. You pull your bike into the parking spot next to him a couple of minutes after he pulls in, finding him pacing in the parking garage.
Shutting off your bike and pulling off your helmet, you approach him with angled brows, trying to reassure him. âThanks for coming with me, I appreciate it.â Heâs blinded by rage and youâre not even sure if he hears you. âKuna, Iâm okay,â you insist, reaching out to put a hand on his arm but he still brushes past you.
Sighing, you unload your suitcase from the back of your bike and return the bungee cables to the storage compartment of the Ducati as you let Sukuna blow off some steam.
Once everything is ready to go up to Sukunaâs apartment, you turn your attention back to him.
âCan we go up to your place?â
âHe hurt you,â Sukuna hisses with pupils the size of pinpricks. It would be intimidating if you didnât know that anger was directed elsewhere.
âItâs nothing really, it doesnât hurt.â
âFucking asshole, I should have-â
âNope, weâre not going into that. I donât want to know what you think you should have done.â
You grab your suitcase and begin rolling it through the parkade to the elevator, relieved when you hear a frustrated grunt behind you and a pair of keys clinking. The ride up to his apartment is silent, shrouded in anger.
Really, you should be the angry one but if anything, you're more relieved. Relieved that you have someone like Sukuna to stay with, someone whoâs so willing to come get you at three in the morning when you need him most.
Sukuna swings the door to his apartment open, slamming against the doorstop loudly before creaking shut. His hand flies to his pocket as he trudges across the apartment, tossing his leather jacket on the couch and leaning out the window as he lights a cigarette.
A puff of smoke leaves his mouth as he swings his head back with closed eyes.
Shaking your head, you decide not to give him a hard time for his bad habit and give him space as you busy yourself with setting the couch up nicely for yourself to sleep on given that you were now homeless, among other things.
Sukuna takes his time at the window, stubbing out his cigarette when itâs barely an inch long and finally approaching you from where you sit on the floor looking through your bag, taking inventory of what you have and what youâll need to pick up eventually.
Your pretty face smiles up at him when his shadow blocks your view and he finds himself relaxing more from the sight of you than he had from the nicotine.
âAre you okay?â You tilt your head, noting that he seems more calm now and he nods.
âShould be askinâ you that.â
âIâm okay. I mean it,â you insist.
His eyes flicker down to your wrist again but he knows better than to doubt you and he knows you can handle the pain. Sitting down on the couch behind you, he leans back and watches you quietly.
âI got the things that were most important, but hopefully I can go back and grab everything else eventually,â you note, more to yourself than him. He still hums in acknowledgement. âWhyâd you want my bike back so bad, by the way?â
Your friend leans forward on his knees. âSo I can still go for rides with you.â
âWhat, do I make a bad backpack?â You tease with a grin that has Sukunaâs shoulders falling to his sides as his anger subsides completely.
âHard to drive when youâre feelinâ me up, princess.â
Your lips purse as your cheeks redden, caught off-guard by his nonchalant smirk. Youâd felt up his abs a bit during the ride to your old place, sure, but being called out still had the tips of your ears heating up.
You stubbornly avoid his gaze, going back to figuring out if youâd forgotten anything. Deep chuckles resonate from behind you as your new roommate ruffles your hair and gets to his feet.
âBy the way weâre goinâ out tonight.â
You tilt your head, eyes following Sukuna as he saunters over to the fridge and pulls out an energy drink.
âWhereâd you have in mind?â You ask curiously, not entirely sure youâre in the mood to go out.
âThat new rom com movie or whatever that you wanted to see is showing tonight. I got tickets.â He reaches back into the fridge and pulls out your favorite beverage, tossing it to you.
You barely manage to catch it, mumbling a thank you. âI donât really know if Iâm up for it,â you admit, staring at the drink in your hands.
âI already bought the tickets,â he shrugs, laying back on the couch again. âSuck it up.â
Your nose wrinkles in distaste but you know itâs likely for the best that youâre out of the house so you do, in fact, suck it up.
It quickly becomes time for the movie and you find yourself back in the parking garage a couple of hours before sunset.
âCan you drive?â
âYou gonna feel me up again?â Sukuna raises a brow at you, but a hint of a smirk pulls at his lips.
â... Can I?â
Your confidence catches him off-guard and he blanches, his lips parting as he stares at you. His eyes flicker to your lips and that single action has your heart beating fast and hard in your chest. The fluttering in your stomach as you wait for him to react is enough to make you wretch and you consider yourself lucky that he seems to pull himself together as his lips tug upwards into a sly grin.
He takes a step forward, dipping his head down to whisper in your ear. âDonât stray too low while Iâm drivinâ.â
Youâre left choking on air as Sukunaâs tone sends a jolt of electricity straight up your spine, setting your entire body ablaze. Your eyes trail the length of his body, pausing as you watch him pull his leather jacket over his thin white shirt. The way his muscles ripple and tense with each movement has you swallowing hard as you realize just how built and toned he really is.
Youâre thankful you arenât caught and are spared from Sukunaâs teasing as you hop onto the back of his bike, purposefully making a show of feeling up his abs. Moving from his pecs, across the peaks and valleys of each set of muscles, down until you take pause as you feel the waist of his pants connect with the tips of your fingers.
Sukuna groans, looking over his shoulder before he puts on his helmet. âNot while Iâm driving, got it?â
You nod at him, batting your eyelashes sweetly. He huffs, adjusting the crotch of his pants before pulling his helmet on. He waits for you to follow suit before pulling out of the parking garage and heading to the theater.
Sukunaâs warmth is both a beacon of hope and a searing flame to your skin. A comfort and an exciting new idea to explore. You hold onto him tightly, your body melting into his heat as he drives much more carefully with you hooked onto him than he had earlier in the day.
Sukuna pulls into a spot by the front door of the theater and waits for you to let go before hopping off of the bike himself.
âPopcorn?â He asks you mildly, hands in his pockets.
âUm, thatâs alright.â
Sukunaâs eyes narrow. âWhy?â
âI donât need popcorn.â
âDonât need or donât want?â
You pause, your brow knit as you silently question what he means, but Sukunaâs seen this play out before with your ex and he wants to break this habit.
âDo you want popcorn, y/n?â
You run a hand through your hair, exhaling quietly. âYeah, itâd be nice.â
Sukuna nods, surprising you as he grabs not your forearm or bicep as he usually does, but your hand. His much larger, veiny hand folds over yours, his fingers tangling with yours. Your hand is so small in his and even the feeling of your hand against him feels like a reminder of just how cute you are to him.
Your cheeks are surely dusted in a red glow, but you donât mind given the surprisingly pleasant eagerness in your chest.
With popcorn in-hand, Sukuna leads you into the theater, taking you to your seat and relaxing into the reclining chair. He lifts the arm rest between you, not once disconnecting your hands like itâs the most natural action in the world.
And in all honesty, it is. Everything with Sukuna is easy. It feels right. It feels right in a way youâre not familiar with and itâs exhilarating.
Given the cheesy scenario he set up for, you half-expect Sukuna to make a move during the movie, but his thumb simply continues to rub soothing lines over your knuckles.
Itâs after the movie that he surprises you.
Bounding down the stairs ahead of Sukuna as you tug him along with you, youâre practically gushing about the movie that youâre positive he barely paid attention to. It isnât his style of film but he doesnât mind either way.
â-I mean come on, how can you not love Owen Wilson in that role?â
âMm.â
â-and itâs so charming watching him start to learn and care about her world-â
âMhmm.â
â-oh my god and when she realizes she loves him and she shows up at the tournament-â
âIâm glad you liked it.â Despite how little he has to say about the movie, heâs just happy you enjoyed it.
â-and when he gets her flooowers?-â
Sukuna chuckles as you continue to gush over the movie at him. Still hand-in-hand, he tugs you along, quietly listening to your rambles as he makes his way to his bike. His chest swirls with anticipation as you pay his actions no mind when he turns towards the storage compartment of his bike as you continue rambling on.
It takes only a moment for his hand to reach the delicate item heâs in search of, deftly wrapping two fingers around the dainty object. Keeping his hand behind him, he turns to you with a soft smile. Lidded eyes stare at you with mirth, an expression that isnât typical for Sukuna, so your rambles begin to fade into silence as you tilt your head curiously at him.
âFlowers, hm?â He asks, pulling a beautiful, blooming red rose out from behind him. He holds it out to you, pulling you closer by the hand thatâs still intertwined with his as you purse your lips in disbelief.
âI- I-â You stammer over your words as your mouth goes dry, eyes fixed on the gorgeous flower held in Sukunaâs fingers.
Itâs almost a strange sight to behold- the same man youâd seen passed out on your couch dozens of times, the man youâd had to bail out of jail on more than one occasion, the same man who grumbled and complained every single time you went to Redâs Bar- now holding a dainty little rose for you.
âW- when did you even have time to get this?â You shake your head, it doesnât matter. âSukuna, this is so much I-â
His brows raise as your rambles begin again and although heâs flustered you more times than he can count over the years, heâs never seen you genuinely nervous like this.
â-you really didnât have to do anything like this for me-â
âY/n.â
â-taking me to the movies is already a big deal and I know the last day has been a hassle for you-â
âY/n,â Sukuna chuckles this time, his grip on your hand tightening as he squeezes it in an effort to get your attention.
â-I didnât get you anything, I donât-â
âY/n,â Sukuna leans down, capturing your lips against his. His lips are soft and the kiss is uncharacteristically sweet. His hand slides out of your grasp, sliding up your arm and coming to rest on your waist as he pulls you closer to him. He parts from your lips with a smirk. âShut up, princess.â
You stare breathlessly at him, eyes flickering wildly between his eyes, his lips, before resting down on the rose again.
âTake the damn flower.â
âR-right!â You gingerly reach out, holding the stem as you bring it up to your nose. âYou didnât have to do all this, you know.â
âWell, someone had to,â it comes out as more of a grumble as his brow furrows, but his fingers curl into the skin of your waist as he speaks, betraying the meaning behind his words.
âMhmm, someone.â You agree teasingly, smiling up at him. âThank you, Kuna.â You rise up onto your tiptoes, resting a hand on his chest as you lean up to kiss him, just barely able to reach his jaw.
His chest vibrates in a content hum. âSo short,â he mocks, tilting his head to meet your lips again. Pulling his other hand from his pocket, he pulls the flower from your fingers, setting it in the storage behind him and finding your waist to bring you flush against him.
Your hands slide up the length of his hard musculature until you find his neck. Your fingers tangle in the short hair at his nape and another hum slips from his lips, swallowed by your kiss.
He leans down to meet your height better as the kiss gains urgency, years of pent up emotions flooding from Sukunaâs every movement. His fingers curl into your skin, pulling you impossibly closer.
âKuna?â
He grunts into the kiss, smirking against your lips when he slides a hand from your waist down to your hips.
âCan we-â you breathe out between kisses, â-go home?â
Sukuna parts from your lips, examining your expression with blown pupils, so wide you can barely see the deep color of his irises. He swallows hard, his chest rising and falling fast as he nods silently.
You let out a surprised squeal when he grabs you by the hips and effortlessly lifts you onto his bike.
â-can do it myself,â you insist but Sukuna doesnât register your words, too caught up in the intoxication of your smell, your feel, your taste. He wants more.
Hopping on the bike in front of you, he waits for your helmet to be on before he starts his Ducati and throws his helmet on. Your hands take their place around his toned abdomen, sliding down without a momentâs thought.
âBehave,â Sukuna hisses loud enough that you hear him even over the sound of his bikeâs engine. He doesnât need your visor up to know youâre smiling innocently at him.
He clicks his tongue and speeds out of the parking lot back towards his apartment. Though heâs still more careful driving with his sweet little backpack clinging to him, youâre not oblivious to the fact that he is driving quicker than usual.
Relaxing against Sukunaâs toned back brings with it a comfort you havenât felt in a long time. Itâs strange, despite him speeding through traffic and the sparking tension between you both, itâs easy to close your eyes and relax against him.
Itâs not a feeling youâve had with your ex for a long time. Although you ignored the flags throughout your relationship and defended him when he didnât deserve it, it wasnât always that way, but Sukuna has always been a safe and worry-free escape from the world for you. Since the first day he drove into your life, since you first realized that Sukuna enjoyed your company as much as you enjoyed his.
Heâs a hard book to read and an easy presence to be in.
Your eyes flicker open, not realizing youâd grown so relaxed holding onto him that heâd already pulled into his parking spot, parking beside your Kawasaki.
Sukuna instinctively moves to get off his bike, expecting you to follow him, but pauses when you move rather sluggishly behind him. Pulling his helmet off, he shakes his head in an effort to fix his hair before he eyes you over his shoulder.
âYou gonna get off?â
To anyone else, it might come across as aggressive, but his tone is mild as ever.
âSorry, Kuna.â
You exhale and push off the bike with a hand resting on Sukunaâs shoulder blade. He watches you curiously, tucking you under his shoulder and leading the way back up to his apartment.
Pulling out his keys in the elevator, he ducks his head to get a good look at your expression.
âTired?â
âNo! ⊠Well, yeah, but I was just relaxing,â you tell him and he hums, his eyes swirling with mirth. You cross an arm over your chest, your breast pressing against your arm. His eyes flicker to the sight, pupils dilating as he swallows hard. âSee something you like, Sukuna?â
Your lidded eyes and purring voice has the taller man teetering on the edge of self control. His mind reels with thoughts that arenât appropriate for the elevator and the moment the door opens, heâs making his way to his apartment like a man on a mission.
Desire pools between your thighs at his eagerness, made more apparent in the way he fumbles at the door with his keys.
Itâs not even a second after the door is closed and he maneuvers you against the door, helmets on the ground as his fingers move to flip the lock behind you before they travel up the side of your body, admiring your curves before he cups your face.
He captures your lips, hungry to taste you again. He wants to devour you, he wants to mark you and make you his. Your lips move in tandem with his, matching his fervor with equal eagerness.
Your fingers rake his chest, thumbs sliding over the length of his collarbones. The feeling of his broad chest beneath your hands drives you crazy and you press back against him, your breasts pressing against the expanse of his chest.
âKuna, wait,â you breathe, chest heaving as you part from him. Vermillion irises lock on you as he pulls back, his fingers gripping your waist almost bruisingly. âThis isn'tâŠâ You pause, your mouth opening and closing hesitantly.
âOut with it,â Sukuna encourages hoarsely.
You shoot him a wry smile at his blunt impatience. âThis isnât just a hookup for me, you know.â
He raises a brow at you. âYou think thatâs what this is for me?â You might even assume he sounds offended.
âNo! No,â you clarify, shaking your head as your pretty eyes go wide. He rolls his shoulders, leaning his face closer to yours as he intently watches you. âI just⊠I-â you pause again, avoiding his intense gaze.
âItâs not a one night stand, y/n.â Sukunaâs pupils shrink as he speaks solemnly. He feels you relax in his grip, your eyes coming up to meet his. âRelax nâ let me take care of you.â
Your cheeks redden at your best friendâs boldness and you shuffle as you press your thighs together.
âI better not be your rebound, yâknow.â Thereâs a teasing lilt to his voice now, the elbow holding him up against the door sliding down as his face grows closer to you. God, heâs tall. Heâs tall and built like a monster, and between the size of his hands, his muscles, not to mention his height⊠Your wide, almost timid eyes flicker down to his crotch. He catches the action and smirks. âDonât get nervous now,â he leers.
âIâm not!â You squeak, the blush spreading to the tips of your ears. âAnd⊠youâre not a rebound.â You grab his shirt collar as you pull him in for a kiss, much sweeter than the covetous one youâd shared a minute ago.
Sukunaâs eyes flutter shut as he finds himself relaxing into your touch when you slide your hands up his neck and into his dark, undyed undercut.
âI like you, Ryo.â You admit when you pull back just enough for the words to reach his ears. His smirk can be felt against your lips.
âFuck, youâre hot.â In true Sukuna fashion, thatâs his way of reciprocating your admission, because he doesnât do feelings. But you know. You know exactly what he means.
You grin against his lips, giggling like a giddy school girl whoâs just seen her crush smile. Sukunaâs chest rumbles at your sudden timid delight.
âYouâre such a loser,â he chuckles, his hand moving from your waist to hold your chin. He kisses you softly, your giggles persisting against his lips. Your fingers curl gleefully in his hair when he pulls back with impishly narrowed eyes. âYouâre makinâ it hard to kiss you.â
âSorry,â you chirp, your eyes crinkling in the corners. âItâs just cute- youâre cute.â
âMe?â He pulls back, standing at his full height and making a point of showing off his broad shouldered stance. âCute?â He tilts his head quizzically as if to prove a point but if anything, you find the strands of hair falling out of place over his forehead cute.
âYeah, you.â
âIâll show you cute,â he grumbles, and suddenly youâre lifted off the ground effortlessly. You shriek in surprise in his ear as you grasp at the back of his leather jacket. He mumbles something about you being a brat before dumping you on the couch and crawling over your body.
His form looms over you and youâre both suddenly very aware of the immense size difference between you both, something which might be one of Sukunaâs favorite things. He loves how tiny you are, how easily he can handle you.
Sukuna takes pause, his usually dour gaze filled with longing, admiring what heâd wanted for so long as you stare back at him with wide eyes. He loves the fiery attitude you always sport, but this flustered side of you is new to him and he drinks it in like a drug.
Your chest rises and falls quickly, eyes darting from his arms that cage you in, down the expanse of his chest that peeks through his V-neck, back up to that alluring tattooed face. His sharp jaw, his ever-present smirk, his intense stare, itâs all so goddamn sexy and youâre flustered to silence like a deer in the headlights being hunted by a wolf.
âFunny, you seem to have lost your bark,â he comments tantalizingly, dipping down to kiss your jaw. Now with your body trapped beneath him, he feels the way your hips twitch. âWhat happened to the brat from earlier?â
You swallow down a moan as his voice sets you ablaze. Your hands find purchase on his biceps, fingers gripping him tightly. You take a breath to readjust and bat your lashes up at him as you push through the sudden nerves that seem to chase you. âBrat? I donât know what youâre talking about, Kuna.â
Sukuna grins, a devilish gleam in his eyes. âThere she is,â he hums, bringing himself down to his elbows to kiss you wholly. His lips move urgently against yours, tongue swiping your lower lip almost immediately. He groans when you grant him access by parting your lips, drinking in your taste. You gasp in surprise as his tongue piercing grazes your tongue, a strangely pleasurable new feeling.
Your hands slide from his biceps up his neck, keeping him close, pulling him closer as you deepen the kiss. When you shift beneath him to clench your thighs as heat pools in your lower abdomen, he groans.
âFuck,â he hisses into your mouth, catching you by surprise when he nips your lower lip. He pulls back for only a moment but in that split second the look on your best friendâs face tells you everything you need to know. Youâre his prey, and heâs about to devour you.
âKuna-!â You gasp in surprise when kisses down the side of your neck, leaving behind purple bruises as he sucks and nips at the side of your neck. Reaching the sensitive spot at the base of your neck, his teeth graze your skin before gently sinking in, testing the waters with a glance at your face.
You whine, squirming beneath him.
Sukuna withdraws with a smirk, running his tongue soothingly over the reddened skin. âKinky little thing, arenât you?â He purrs, rolling his hips against you so roughly you whimper. âShit,â he mumbles and returns to his ministrations, his hips rolling against yours like a dog in heat.
âSh-shut up, KunaâŠâ you groan, rutting your hips up into him. His movement stutters with pleasure and he nips your skin again in response. âDarlinâ, hold onto me,â his husky voice commands against the skin of your ear.
âHm? Ah-!â
Sukuna slides a muscular arm beneath the small of your back, pressing you to him and urging your arms to cling to his shoulders. You wrap your legs around his waist as he picks you up, holding your small frame to him in one arm.
He carries you to his bedroom, shutting the door behind him as you press kisses to his collarbone, leaving behind marks of your own. He hums, plopping you down onto the bed and standing to shrug his jacket off and unbuckle his belt, letting it and his jeans drop to the floor.
Youâre sure your face is red as a tomato, pupils dilated as you admire his body, your gaze landing on the boner thatâs pulling the fabric of his black Calvin Klein boxers taut. You swipe your tongue out over your lips, bringing your lower lip between your teeth.
Your best friend grins, pulling you to the edge of the bed by your ankles. You let out a surprised gasp, gripping at the sheets at either side of you.
âGânna take my time nâ treat her right,â he purrs, falling over you as your legs wrap around his waist to pull him closer. He could be talking about you or your pussy, it doesnât matter either way.
He lifts your shirt up over your head and you arch your back to make it easier. Youâre so pliant for him and he adores your obedience, adores the desperate, lustful look in your eyes.
âShit, girl,â he mumbles, his eyes eating you alive on the spot as he admires your body. Youâre so small in comparison to the way his figure looms over you.
Catching your gaze, he squeezes one of your breasts, slipping the other from the fabric of your lace bra to press the warm flat of his tongue to your nipple. You jolt as pleasure buzzes through your body, moaning when he sucks the hardened bud between his lips. The cool metal of his piercing intensifies the pleasure when it grazes your skin and causes goosebumps to raise on your arms.
Your hands find his hair, tugging enough that Sukuna smirks against the plush of your skin.
âSo needy,â he hums. Your thighs clench around his waist as the vibration of his voice against your skin rocks through you.
Your lidded eyes stare down at him and you take the opportunity to tug his shirt off. He complies, tossing it across the room. His heavily tattooed chest, abdomen, arms- heâs gorgeous and you can barely believe heâs standing over you right now, eyes for only you.
âKuna,â you mumble between moans, jerking as he flicks your nipple with a smug grin.
He mutters out a âwhatâ before sinking his teeth into your breast. You gasp, eyes widening and bucking your hips against him as your head swings back into the mattress. As you arch your back for him, Sukuna deftly slips your bra off.
âStop being a tease,â you plead, the hard length of his cock twitching against your core as you tighten your legs.
âA tease? What do you want then, hm?â His voice is cocky, knowing. He wants you on your knees begging.
âKunaaaa,â you groan, laying the back of your arm across your eyes, suddenly timid.
Sukuna clicks his tongue, pulling your arm away from your face. He grabs your other arm and holds them both down above you with one large hand. âWhat do you want, brat?â His face is inches away from yours now and he rolls his hips against your core teasingly despite the ache he feels.
âI-â you pant, pausing to look at his intense stare. âWanâ you to eat me out.â
âYeah?â He hums, lowering his head so that his lips brush yours. âThought you had manners?â
âPlease, Kuna,â you beg in a whiny voice. Sukuna smirks, getting to his knees at the edge of the bed and draping his arm over your hips to hold them down as he sprawls your legs out before him.
âFuckinâ soaked for me,â he groans, his breath warm against the fabric of your panties. He wastes no time hooking his fingers through the fabric to pull them aside. His digits brush your folds as you buck your hips in a desperate attempt at friction.
Chuckling softly, Sukuna languidly licks up your cunt, savoring your taste with the slow movement. You squirm beneath him, raking your fingers through his hair as you try to buck your hips towards his tongue.
âPatience,â Sukuna hums and flicks his tongue out to circle your clit. His piercing grazes the sensitive bundle of nerves and your eyes go wide with pleasure.
âSuch a- hah- asshole- ah-!â Sukuna doesnât give you the satisfaction of teasing him as he pushes his long tongue into your dripping chasm, your walls clenching around the muscle in ecstasy.
Sukuna groans as your fingers tug his hair. He lets you buck your hips into his mouth and ride his face, relishing in the sound of your moans and pants.
The feeling of his tongue inside you is already so intense that when he brings a thumb up to flick your clit, the sudden desire that pulses through your body straight to the knot tightening in your core has you bucking your hips in surprise. His grip on your hips fastens as he holds you down again, keeping you from squirming out of his grasp.
The desire and heat pooling in your core quickly grow in intensity as Sukunaâs experienced tongue plunges through your folds, drinking up your arousal.
âK-Kuna- I- Iâm gonna-â your words are mere babbles as you try to speak through the bliss, your orgasm steadily approaching.
âLet me taste it, princess.â
The feeling of his voice with his tongue within you, the way his piercing suddenly flicks your gummy walls, his thumb on your clit, the way he calls you princess, itâs so much that your orgasm crashes over you in a wave, causing your body to jolt and jerk against the mattress.
Sukunaâs thumb leaves your clit as he holds down one of your thighs to keep you from crushing his head as you moan and pant out his name while your body spasms. He slows his ministrations to drink every last drop of your orgasm before flicking your clit with his tongue one last time, pleased when you jolt.
He pushes himself up, wiping your slick from his chin with the back of his hand.
âShit, youâre hot,â he mutters. You barely have a moment to come down from your high before heâs pulling you to the floor by your waist, dropping you on your knees. His hungry expression and throbbing cock tell you everything you need to know as you look up at him through your lashes.
Your fingers curl around the waist of his boxers as you pull them down his thighs. His rock-hard erection slaps against his abs as you free it from the confines of the fabric. Sure, Sukuna is a monster of a man at nearly seven feet tall of solid muscle mass and youâd felt him grinding against you, but your eyes still widen at the sight of his cock.
You feel your mouth water as you stare at the angry red tip, veins protruding and pulsing with desire on either side.
âThink you can take it?â He asks and although itâs a teasing and husky tone he uses with you, he is genuinely asking as well. You nod eagerly and he grins. âGood girl,â he purrs.
Bringing a hand up to his cock, you wrap your fingers daintily around the thick base, looking up at those glimmering vermillion eyes as you run your tongue from base to tip, eliciting a heavy groan from the man.
âChrist,â he groans, his head flying back in pleasure. You smirk and take the tip of his cock into your mouth, swirling your tongue over the leaking slit before teasingly pulling back with a pop!
His hips shudder as he does everything in his power to stop himself from using your mouth, to stop himself from shoving his cock down your throat with no warning.
âNeedy, Ryo?â
You donât expect the way that sets him off, lights his desire ablaze anew as he fists your hair and leans down with a clenched jaw to look you in the eyes.
You whimper in surprise, closing your thighs from where you sit on your knees as your cunt pulses from the way he handles you so roughly.
âLetâs get it straight right now which of us is needy,â he growls with a smirk, eyeing the way you shift your thighs. âYou gonna be a good little slut for me?â
You nod up at him, pupils dilating as he tugs your hair. He grins, narrowing his eyes. âWords, woman.â
âYes, Kuna,â you purr back at him. The wild look in his eyes intensifies as he receives your consent and pushes the tip of his cock past your lips. His jaw goes slack in pleasure as you swirl your tongue around the head, lapping up his precum.
âShit,â he groans out, watching as you take his cock without breaking eye contact while he thrusts further into your mouth. You gag when he reaches the back of your throat, tears pricking in the corners of your eyes and you shut them as you take his length. âAh ah, look at me. Takinâ me so well.â
Sukuna knows you canât take his entire cock in your mouth, he knows thereâs a fairly large size difference between the both of you. It doesnât stop the way he pushes your head down on his cock watching the way tears run down your cheeks as you so obediently let him handle you.
Saliva runs down the length of his cock and you bring a hand up to the base, pumping what you canât fit in your throat. His hand pulls your mouth off his cock, adjusting his hand to hold your head back against the bed so that he can relentlessly fuck into you, massive cock hitting the back of your throat and gagging you with each thrust.
He throws his head back as you pump the base of his shaft while he fucks you, being his perfect little doll. His abs flex and twitch when your muscles tense as you swallow around him.
âSuch a nasty fuckinâ throat.â He barely gives you any time to breathe as his pace increases, along with the pace of your hand to match. His chest heaves as he moans, letting you dig your nails into his thigh for purchase while he uses your throat.
His cock twitches as you moan when he hits the back of your throat and his eyes shut tight with pleasure, jaw going slack. When he jolts again with the next thrust, you know heâs close so you hum contentedly, sending vibrations up his shaft and causing his hips to jerk erratically as he chases his high.
âF-fuck,â he groans out before his hips stutter and your eyes widen when his cum unloads down your throat, thick ropes of salty sweet arousal swallowed as he keeps himself warm within your mouth. You move your lips slowly around his girth, milking every last drop of his orgasm. You pull back after a moment to allow yourself a chance to breathe, panting as you stare up at him.
His chest heaves and his cock twitches every few seconds, telling of the orgasm heâs just had. Still, his eyes burn with desire when he finally opens them.
He reaches down to pick you up and sets you at the edge of the bed on all fours roughly.
He squeezes your ass before slapping it once. Your body jolts in surprise as you gasp.
âPrincess, you on any birth control?â
âMhmm, you can go raw.â
You hear him mumble a curse beneath his breath. âYou tell me if itâs too much,â he tells you, catching the way you glance over your shoulder at him and nod.
In spite of the rough way he uses and handles you, heâs still very attentive to your pleasure and comfort.
He pays no mind to the fact that you actually liked the panties youâre wearing as he physically tears them off of your body, tossing the ripped fabric aside. You whine in complaint, shooting him a look from over your shoulder.
âIâll buy ya new ones,â he huffs, returning his attention to your body.
Squeezing your ass in both palms, he leans down and buries his face in your pussy, licking a stripe from your clit to your dripping entrance. He hums at how wet you still are, moving a hand up your spine to hold you down and keep you arched for him.
His teeth sink into the plump of your ass and you squeak at the sudden burst of pain that quickly twists to pleasure when he soothingly laps over the mark heâs left.
He slides his hand down from squeezing your plump ass to glide a finger through your lubricated folds. You lean into his touch, gasping when he suddenly plunges one long finger into your lubricated pussy.
Your walls are tight as they pulse around his long finger. He eases another digit in, pumping them slowly as he realizes just how tight you are.
âRelax, darlinâ,â he hums soothingly, curling his fingers against your walls a couple of times before he finds your g spot. His voice is such a stark contrast to his rough tendencies, but itâs soothing to have him so worried for your comfort.
âRyo, f-fuck-â you moan out as his fingers languidly curl against your gummy walls which gradually relax against his long fingers. With a couple more pumps of his fingers, he pulls them out, leaving you pulsing around nothing and craving his touch as you shift your hips in search of friction with a whine.
Sukuna grunts when he lines himself up with your plump cunt, pumping himself a couple of times before he slowly eases his tip into you. Your eyes widen at the delicious burn of the stretch, fingers curling in the sheets as you adjust to his massive size. And god this is only the tip.
You cry out, the feeling of his girthy cock filling you up blurring your vision as the pain transitions to pleasure before the process begins all over again with each movement he makes. His cock throbs, making you feel impossibly full.
Sukuna wants to ruin you, he wants to tear you apart on his cock, but he doesnât want to hurt his sweet little best friend, so he watches the way your face contorts in mild pain, waiting for your expression to relax as he slowly feeds you his cock, inch by inch.
âDoinâ so good for me, darlinâ,â Sukuna purrs, his thumb stroking your back in contrast to the fact that heâs still holding you down and keeping you arched for him.
His cock head brushes your cervix, pressing against it as he bottoms out, fingers curling against your back at how tight youâre squeezing him as he waits for you to adjust.
Your shoulders relax beneath his touch and you whimper as he slides his cock out to the tip, setting a moderate pace so as not to shock you. The feeling of his thick, veiny cock is like nothing youâve ever experienced, his size just so much to take that you moan and whine with each thrust of his cock into your tight hole.
You grip at the sheets beneath you, gasping as Sukuna speeds up his thrusts and presses you hard into the mattress, muffling your moans.
âKuna- mmph,â you let out a muffled whimper, jolting when he slaps your ass roughly, no longer holding back.
âF-fuckinâ- shit-â he groans, his fingers gripping your skin bruisingly as he holds you in place. He leans forward, sliding his hand from your back to your neck, restricting your airflow subtly. Pleasure tears through your spine as he leans forward and pushes in deeper with each thrust, pulling moans and screams of his name from deep in your throat.
âK-Kuna, Iâm- hah- close,â you whimper, words muffled by the sheets beneath you. He loosens his fingers from your neck, grabbing your waist with both hands as he pulls your ass closer to him, pounding into you faster as he chases his own high.
âShit, yâr such a good lil slut for me,â he groans, feeling your walls tighten around his thick length with each thrust.
Pleasure tightens deep within your core, knotting and curling as he fucks you so deliciously that your juices are already dripping from your cunt around his hilt. His eyes lock on the sight and he throws his head back in pleasure, his own high not far behind.
With one last hit against your cervix, your orgasm hits you like a goddamn truck, like nothing youâve ever experienced before as your entire body shakes and jolts, your knees and legs giving out.
If Sukuna wasnât holding you up, you surely would have collapsed as stars cloud your vision and you moan his name like a mantra. Your eyes are glossy and your mind delirious as he continues to fuck you through your high, your walls milking him in a way that has him quickly climbing towards his release.
With only a few more erratic thrusts that have you whining under him in overstimulation, his cock twitches suddenly as his entire load fills you up, mixing with your juices and dripping out of your swollen lips down your thighs that Sukuna is still holding up.
He moans as he slowly lets your body go and you sink to the mattress, panting beneath him as his cock slips from between your thighs. His eyes flicker to your pretty pussy, his cum leaking out with each pulse of your walls. His chest heaves as well as he slowly gets to his feet and walks to the side of the bed, sliding up against the headboard.
Sukuna pulls your body up from where youâve collapsed, wrapping his arms around you as his sweat-slicked skin sticks to yours. Heâs much gentler now, looking you over for any signs that he might have hurt you accidentally, but when you finally open your eyes, theyâre glossy with pleasure and filled with adoration.
He canât help the way he genuinely smiles, not a common thing for the tepid biker, but when you grin and giggle in return, it makes his heart jump.
He practically turns to putty in your hands and as you silently bask in the afterglow of the best sex of your life and lean into Sukunaâs embrace.
âWasnât too rough with you, was I?â He asks after a moment and youâre surprised by the way his fingers softly graze your skin.
âYou were great Kuna, donât worry,â you answer, yawning afterwards.
He hums in relief, leaning his head back for a moment before taking it upon himself to get you cleaned up before you pass out. Grabbing a towel, he wipes your thighs and tosses the towel in a hamper at the edge of the room before pulling the covers over your figure and crawling in behind you.
âRyo?â
Sukuna hums quizzically.
âDo I get to know how long now?â
âYouâre a brat,â he growls in your ear as he pulls you flush against his chest, his arms folded around your middle.
âYeah yeah, just answer the question,â you grouse, rolling your eyes. You have an inkling of a feeling that you know when he realized his feelings for you, but youâre curious nonetheless.
He sighs, knowing youâll never let him live this down. âDunno. Itâs been a while,â he avoids the question.
You flip in his arms to face him with raised brows. He groans, avoiding your gaze.
âI guess around the time you got with your ex,â he admits, his eyes locked on the wall behind you as he tucks your head under his chin to avoid your intent gaze.
âIs that why you stopped seeing people?â
âYou noticed?â
âKuna, you had a new girl under your arm every time I saw you for a while.â
He grunts, pulling you tighter to his body.
Giggling, you kiss his collar bone. âThatâs sweet.â
Sukunaâs chest rises and falls heavily as he lets out a long sigh. You can practically feel the way his cheeks are heating up as you tease him, something that youâd only managed a handful of times in all the years youâve known him.
âSorry, am I embarrassing the big bad motorcycling bad boy?â You push, squeaking in protest as Sukuna wastes no time in shoving you away from him in an attempt to push you off the bed. âWait, wait, wait! Iâm sorry!â You insist, looking to him for mercy as you cling to his arms, clutching desperately at the flexed muscles.
âAnd?â
âAndâŠâ you search for the words heâs looking to hear in his eyes, gripping his arms tighter. âI wonât do it again?â
âAnd?â
âIâm sorry I ate the rest of your leftovers this morning?â
His brow furrows. Oh shit.
âI mean⊠no I didnât. Theyâre still there,â you mumble, avoiding his judgemental gaze guiltily.
Sukunaâs hold on your shoulder begins to lax as you teeter at the edge of the bed, threatening to drop you to the floor. You scramble to try to grip him tighter.
âIâll buy you new food!â
Sukuna sighs and drags you back to him. You let out a relieved puff of air against his chest, snuggling back into his warmth. âJusâ wanted you to say when it was for you.â
You tilt your head up at him, only able to see his chin. âWhen what was?â
âYou know. When you realized what you think of me or whatever.â Sukunaâs gruff tone is telling that he isnât used to such sincere conversations. Although youâve known him a long time and heâd told you about damn near every sexual encounter heâs had, Sukunaâs most record-breaking relationship was a shocking three months.
Of course, Sukuna isnât a romantic, and she didnât know him well enough to know that he was putting in effort, so it didnât last long.
âOh. When I realized I like you?â
He grunts.
You hum in thought, moments throughout your friendship scrolling through your mind like a slideshow.
Of course, your forefront thought is when Sukuna first stepped off that stupidly well taken care of Ducati and surprised you when he managed to not only get you home on a running bike, but let you buy him a drink. Heâs always been ridiculously attractive, but no, those werenât feelings.
You think of all the times you hung out with friends and they would point out his change in behavior. Youâd always think on the statement, watch the way that aloof look of his turns mild when he faces you, but you didnât want to think about it too much.
You ponder on the time youâd called him on a whim early in your friendship when your date had bailed on you. Sukuna did not want to see the cheesy romance movie you had tickets for, but heâd sucked it up and shown up. Youâd offered to buy him dinner as a thank you, but he paid regardless. It was the kind of thing a real date would do, but heâd complained so much you brushed the thought away.
When you were entirely too obsessed with Game of Thrones and insisted he be your king in a big fur cloak for Halloween, maybe then something had changed.
âYou want me to be some guy from the show you like?â Heâd grumbled and guffawed over having to dress up at all, insisting heâd been planning to put in minimal effort.
âPleaaase, Kuna?â You were practically on your knees by the time heâd agreed with a roll of his eyes. âYouâd make a good Robb Stark,â you insist before second-guessing yourself. âWell, if he was grumpy and kind of a dick.â You shrug, grinning up at him as he shoots you a begrudging look through narrowed eyes.
It only takes you a few days to put together the costume given the abundance of medieval king and knight costumes around.
His arms cross over his rugged chest, the fabric of his shirt pulled taut by the movement. âYou canât be serious.â He stares at the tight faux leather coat you hand him with a scowl.
âHe wears something similar!â
âIâm not wearing this.â
âPlease, you said you would!â You pout at him as you sport your best puppy dog eyes.
âNo.â
You jut your bottom lip out, taking a step towards him as you shove the leather top to his chest. His eyes narrow, gears turning in his head until he shuts his eyes, giving in.
Your eyes light up as he pulls the top from you, groaning as he pulls it on over his shirt. Itâs tight on him, which you expected given Sukunaâs sheer size, but itâs a strangely hot look on your rugged best friend. Even more so when he lets you drape the cape over his shoulders and set a cute little crown on his head.
âNo, absolutely not,â he hisses, slapping your hand away when you try to clip the crown in place with a bobby pin.
âYouâre such a pain,â you tease as you try again, holding an extra pin between your teeth.
Standing back, you admire your work as you receive a very unamused look in return. Sukunaâs build makes for a very kingly stature in spite of the contrasting tattoos and it makes him hot. In fact, youâre half afraid someone will whisk him away at the Halloween party given how nicely heâs cleaned up.
Your lips twitch downwards at the thought. You donât want him to be whisked away. You want your king by your side.
âSo?â
Snapping you from your thoughts, your eyes light up again. âYou look great,â you tell him with a grin. His eyes flicker with something you donât recognize.
He hums, examining your expression. âWell, go get ready then. Gonna sweat through all this leather nâ shit.â
âOh like you arenât used to leather,â you roll your eyes, but you oblige, getting your matching Talisa Stark outfit on.
When you return to Sukuna sitting on his couch, you muster your best impression of your character. âMy king?â
Your best friendâs attention turns to you, eyes widening as you approach him in a floor-length queenâs gown with a matching gray cloak and a crown pinned into your hair. âShit, yâ look good,â he breathes out.
Your cheeks heat up and you scratch at the back of your neck. âThanks, Kuna.â You clear your throat and your mind to the best of your ability as you offer him a hand. âReady?â
He hums, taking your hand before grabbing his keys and offering you his arm. âMy queen?â
Youâd be lying if you said that wasnât the first spark. The first real spark. As he loosened up throughout the night and repetitively called you his princess, you knew you were spent. Each and every time he used the name had you giggling up a storm and while youâd brushed it off as intoxication at the time, you knew the truth deep down.
So when heâd returned to his aloof self the following morning, you swallowed down your feelings.
You couldnât bear the thought of losing your best friend and he didnât have a good track record with relationships. Youâd be lying if you said you werenât scared, even now.
âHalloween,â you utter finally, unsure of just how long youâve been silently contemplating an answer in his arms.
âFigures,â his chest rumbles in brief laughter.
âYou knew?â
âNah, thought it was the alcohol.â
âYeah, I thought so too. Thatâs why I started dating other people.â
Sukuna doesnât respond but he buries his face into the crown of your head, drinking in your warmth, your intoxicating scent, and your soft skin against his as he closes his eyes.
No more other people, youâre his.
âWas it me callinâ you my princess?â He asks of the night you realized youâd caught feelings.
âThat, and you make a good Robb Stark.â
He snorts. âI remember being told I was a dick.â
You shrug, smiling against the warm skin of his chest. âI donât retract that statement.â
He presses a kiss to the top of your head and warmth spreads through your body as you relax against him, eyes closing as exhaustion spreads across you like a warm blanket. You know the kiss is a sassy retort, but it shamelessly works on you.
âFine. I retract my statement.â
âThatâs my princess.â
â
âCan you stop moving so much?â
Unsurprisingly, Sukunaâs got an attitude today and he absolutely plans on making it your problem as he huffs.
Your gloved hands work carefully to thoroughly cover every last strand of his short hair with dye. You know very well the only reason heâs being such a menace today is because youâd suggested a change in color and heâs afraid itâll look bad.
In all your years of knowing him, heâs always had the same pink hair, so you were thrilled he was allowing you the honor of dying it back to its original color, black. Youâd actually insisted on orange or red, but black was the only thing he was willing to compromise on.
You make your way back around him and find his scowling face looking up at you. Covering the last few strands of hair over his forehead, you boldly sit on his lap.
His demeanor changes in an instant as you straddle him and his hands eagerly find your hips and begin roaming up your waist and back down to your thighs. You shoot him a warning glance as you accidentally smudge some black dye on his forehead, but he pays you no mind as he continues his ministrations.
âKuna,â you warn sternly, trying to wipe off the black marking before it leaves a stain, but itâs too late. You sigh and look over your work.
âJust a quickie, câmon,â he insists with a grin.
âI donât want to be covered in black dye,â you retort and Sukuna groans, throwing his head back dramatically. âHow long do I gotta wait?â
âThirty minutes.â
He frowns, eyes following your movements as you pull off your gloves and throw them in the trash of your shared apartment. He canât for the life of him tear his eyes from you as you proceed to wash your hands before grabbing a damp towelette to wipe at his forehead.
Suddenly feeling like a child as you take care of the marking on his forehead, he swats at your hand.
âYouâre a menace,â you mutter, avoiding his hand with practiced precision as you wipe away any traces of hair dye from his face.
He smirks, he likes the way you tease him and if anything it only makes him want to bend you over the table more.
Still, when you pull back to inspect his face and leave a gentle peck on his lips, he knows you donât mind his attitude.
You know itâs all a ruse of sorts. Not around others, but around you it is.
Dating him for so many years came with its fair share of complications, especially given that Sukunaâs communication skills were about as good as those of a rock. He often didnât pick up on small signs that you were bothered by things and vice versa, as heâs a tough book to read.
Regardless of any small arguments, nothing ever got out of hand surprisingly. You canât imagine your life if Sukuna hadnât shown up to get you the night your ex kicked you out. What Sukuna lacked in the department of emotional understanding, he made up for with his actions.
Although he very rarely says it, you know Sukuna loves you.
Each and every âI love youâ is met with a kiss, a squeeze of your arm, a tug towards him.
Sukuna has his own way of showing you he loves you.
He picks you up from work with flowers, shocking those around you when the grumpy-looking tattooed man hands you flowers that surely wonât make it home in great condition on his bike, but it doesnât matter.
He runs you a bath when he fucks you into oblivion and your legs give out. It may be his own hand that inflicted your weakness, but it doesnât matter because he shows you just how much he cares for you through his aftercare routine.
He makes your coffee with far too much milk and sugar for his own taste and complains about it the whole time, but it doesnât matter because he still does it every morning for you.
Sukuna loves you, and he knows that youâre aware of it.
When it comes time to wash his hair, he closes his eyes when you help him wash it in the sink. Your fingers move so delicately, taking care to wash out all the dye.
When he dries his hair with a towel and sees the way you delight at the sight of his freshly jet-black hair, he chuckles.
âWhy do you never grow your hair out?â You ask, running your hands through his spiked hair. The color suits him and brings out his eyes in the most stunning way, youâre sure you have stars in your eyes from the way youâre staring at him.
âDunno. The other color looks good,â he shrugs.
âIt does!â You agree with a grin, âbut so does this!â You insist. âItâs hot.â
He hums, looking himself over in the mirror. In truth, he doesnât mind it. He only really indulged you because youâd insisted, but it worked out given what he had in mind for the night. It would look good in photos.
âWhen is Shiu getting here?â You ask curiously, interrupting Sukunaâs thoughts as your short arms wrap around his middle from behind.
âHour from now.â
You gasp suddenly. âI need to clean up.â
âI can clean you up,â Sukuna smirks, lifting his arms in an attempt to see your face from where you stand behind him.
âKunaaa,â you whine. âI need time to get ready.â
He groans dramatically. âFine,â he grumbles, watching as you prance away happily to get ready.
You, Sukuna, Choso, Toji, Shiu, and Uraume were all going out in celebration of Tojiâs newest addition to his family, a young boy. It was surprising that he was the first to settle down, but when youâd met his wife, you could see that she was his world, the way he relaxed at her touch and his own edge calmed in the same way Sukunaâs does around you.
Sukuna lays on his bed, watching as you choose a gorgeous black dress that hugs your curves so delectably that he wants to tear it off of you then and there. The whole time, he fumbles with something in his pocket, grateful when you donât notice the small box accidentally fall from his grasp and onto the bed.
You chat with him about your work the whole time. Sukunaâs mind is elsewhere but given that heâs never all that chatty, you donât notice. Looking yourself over in the mirror, you let out a relieved breath when you manage to be ready with only a couple of minutes to spare.
âYâ look gorgeous.â Sultry words are whispered in your ear, followed up by a kiss to your neck as your boyfriend comes up behind you. His hands rest softly on your waist as he rests his chin on your shoulder, bending down to your height.
You watch his actions from the mirror, the way his lidded eyes look over the curves of your figure, the way he slides his arms so delicately around your middle to envelop you in a tight hug, itâs these moments that you treasure the most.
The quiet moments where you simply enjoy one anotherâs presence.
Your lives are so busy that you donât always get time to yourselves, so melting into his arms in that moment, you wish it would last forever.
Of course forever is a long time, and Shiu certainly doesnât have the patience to wait in his car that long for you both. Youâre not entirely sure why Sukuna doesnât want to take your bikes, but you donât push the subject. Your boyfriendâs mind is a mysterious place.
Your group gathers at a restaurant thatâs a bit fancy for everyoneâs tastes, but Uraume had insisted on it given the occasion. The real surprise was that Sukuna had dressed up a bit as well, sporting a sleek black pair of slacks, a black long sleeve button-up, and a red tie. His ensemble went well with your black dress.
Over the years, Sukunaâs friends had become your friends, long before you started dating, even.
Choso and Yuji were like your little brothers, and Uraume and Toji your closest drinking buddies. They got along surprisingly well with your friends too, especially Choso and Yuji who, unlike Sukuna, seemed to have a talent for getting along with everyone. Shiu generally only tagged along when Toji was around, but their banter was always welcome.
As Toji shows off photos of his son Megumi alongside his daughter Tsumiki, you notice Sukuna whispering something to Choso, casting oddly uneasy glances in your direction. Frowning, you glance over yourself once as though thereâs something wrong with your outfit. No⊠it looks fine. So whatâs Sukuna being so secretive about?
You brush it off as nothing, sure youâre overthinking things⊠until he pulls Toji aside after the man finishes showing off photos of his son.
You tilt your head quizzically to Uraume as you lean over towards them, ensuring Sukuna canât hear you.
âIs Kuna acting weird to you?â
âYes,â Uraume follows your gaze, narrowing their eyes. âPerhaps he misses Toji?â
âAre we talking about the same person?â A small smirk quirks up the corners of your lips.
Uraume laughs lightly with you. âYouâre right,â they agree, but the thought doesnât leave your mind.
Itâs not like Sukuna doesnât have off days like everyone else, but this is a strange change of demeanor for him. He seems strangely fidgety, as though he canât sit still. His leg had bounced under the table throughout most of dinner and he was strangely eager to get the bill.
He had been horny all day, the best guess you have is that maybe itâs that and he wants to get home.
Still, it doesnât explain him being so secretive throughout the night. In fact, heâd barely spoken a lick to you. Which isnât entirely uncommon, but in place of words he would normally find comfort in your touch. Yet tonight it felt as though youâd hardly seen him despite sitting next to him most of the night.
You resort to asking him about it later, though an uneasy feeling tugs at you the more you notice it.
Youâre almost grateful the dinner is over when it is as you intertwine your fingers with Sukuna like nothing is wrong. Shiu leads the way across the expanse of grass by the restaurant to his car one lot over, chatting with Toji as you and your boyfriend trail behind.
With Choso and Uraume a short distance behind you, you figure now is as good of a time to ask as any.
âIs everything alright, baby?â You tilt your head to look at your boyfriend.
Something glimmers in his eyes, an emotion you donât recognize. Thatâs odd.
ââCourse.â
Well, thatâs not reassuring.
âOkay⊠Nothingâs wrong?â
He shoots you a small smirk, kissing the top of your head.
âNothinâs wrong, princess. Donât worry your pretty little head.â
You sigh, unable to help the feeling that he has something up his sleeve, but also able to recognize that whatever heâs plotting, he clearly has no intention of telling you. Regardless, youâre relieved that his nonchalant attitude seems to have returned. Maybe itâs nothing to worry about after all.
You miss the way he glances between the two groups, nodding to both as you sigh and give in.
âAlright, Kuna. I love you.â
Sukuna stops to face you and you blink at him perplexedly. Time seems to stand still as his chest rises and falls so quickly, heâs sure you can hear his heart beating out of his chest as he fumbles in his pocket for a moment.
You open your mouth to question him but your words die on your tongue when your boyfriend swallows hard before making a quick movement down onto one knee and your eyes go wide, your heart pounding in tandem with his.
Itâs just the two of you in that moment, all sounds drowned out by beating hearts, lights and movement a blur behind you both. Everything is just Sukuna. Just you.
âY/n,â he begins hoarsely. His voice shakes slightly and he curses himself for it but he doesnât dare look away from your gorgeous wide eyes.
Your lips part, a lump forming in your throat. It feels as though it could choke you and you swallow hard but it only seems to encourage the tears you had yet to notice welling in your eyes.
âI had this whole speech planned,â he chuckles breathlessly. âPracticed nâ everything.â
You nod slowly, your hands trembling as you bring one up to your mouth to suppress your shock and awe when he pulls out a small red velvet box.
âBut I donât think that shit's for me. So I decided to keep it simple.â
Nestled delicately within the box is a gorgeous silver ring with a beautiful diamond held delicately in the center. The ring splits into three separate parts just before the gem that all twist with smaller jewels around the metal.
âMarry me?â
Although he very rarely says it, you know Sukuna loves you.
From the way he holds you to the way he listens and kisses you between words. From the way he brings you lunch at work when you forget to the way he drives more carefully when youâre cuddled behind him on his bike.
Sukuna loves you, and he knows that youâre aware of it.
And you love him too.
âYes!â
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I See You - Tara Carpenter
Part 2 of I Dare You
Summary: At one of Amber's infamous parties, Tara's feelings get more and more complicated as she starts getting to know you.
Warnings: Fem!Painter!Reader, slow burn, mentions of sex, alcohol and partying, minor angst, non canon/high school
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So, the glitch in the matrix seemed to be lasting much longer than you anticipated.
You did your best to forget the interaction you'd had with Tara and, honestly, that hadn't been such a difficult task. You still had a life, after all, and the rest of your day was divided into making preparations for the volunteering you'd be doing at the hospital during the weekend, studying and trying to make any progress on your painting.
Unfortunately, the last task proved itself to be annoyingly impossible, no matter how hard you tried. You'd tried everything from throwing random brushstrokes at the canvas to staring at the blank space while upside down in your bed, which filled your brain with blood but not with ideas.
There came a point when you had to admit defeat, at least for a day, and you picked up your phone to try to distract yourself from what seemed to be your greatest artistic failure. Your plans were to doomscroll through all possible social media and try to get the slightest bit of inspiration, but your attention was grabbed by a text notification coming from your Instagram.
From the username, it was clear that the text had been from none other than Tara Carpenter, which made your heart race a little in response. Your profile was a bit hard to find because there were no photos of you, which meant that Tara specifically had to look for you for a while. What's more, your profile was basically an exhibition of your artwork and the idea of someone other than your friends and teacher looking at all your projects made you a little anxious.
The texts themselves contained nothing much, apart from Tara apologizing for taking your pen (which you didn't even remember lending, to be honest) and then trying to strike up a conversation by asking you about Freddy vs Leatherface. Even so, noticing that she'd made an effort to keep on talking to you left you swooning.
You answered, of course. It would be rude to leave someone on read, wouldn't it? And besides, you were already planning to procrastinate anyway, so why not be nice and talk to Tara for a few minutes?
Who cares if minutes became hours, right?
And when school started the next day, you felt lighter, somehow. To your relief, no one seemed to remember your disastrous stumble the day before (probably because few people remembered you in general) and so you didn't have to deal with any giggles or weird looks.
You were in the middle of getting some books out of your locker when a familiar pen levitated into your field of vision. Your gaze followed the tanned arm that was holding it and you were met with long eyelashes and a sly smile.
âI'm a woman of my word! Here's your pen.â Tara raised the object towards you, making a funny reference to the text she had sent you the day before.
You rolled your eyes in amusement, although you couldn't hold the expression for long due to the corners of your lips lifting involuntarily. You took the small item from her hand and quickly put it in your bag. âThanks, it's good to know you're not a thief. Did you at least bring one pen today?â
She understood the light, false accusatory tone in your voice and raised her hand, showing two fingers raised in a V. âHaha. Just so you know, I brought two today.â
It was amazing how instantaneous and right that conversation felt, almost as if it was the kind of thing you did all the time and not for the first time. Talking to Tara was surprisingly easy and you could see at least a friendship blooming between you in the near future.
If it weren't for the fact that she hangs out with the most insufferable people in the world, of course.
The reminder of Tara's group of friends hit you like a thunderbolt and made your chest ache for some reason. The words of both Ethan and Mindy echoed in your head, warning you to be careful, but a large chunk of your mind also insisted on reminding you of Anika's more positive opinion on the topic.
You turned to your locker again, pretending you were looking for something that didn't even exist. âI could never manage with just one pen.â You added politely, not wanting to leave Tara's joke unanswered just because your thoughts were getting muddled.
âI know. Artist and all, aren't you?â The girl nodded and you could see out of the corner of your eye as she leaned on the locker next to you, crossing her arms while still looking at you with a thoughtful expression. âHey, don't you feel like going to a party tonight?â
Your eyes nearly popped out of their sockets as you processed what she had said, but Tara remained completely unbothered by your side. As far as you knew, the Carpenter girl didn't usually throw parties, but Amber Freeman did, and she'd instituted a very specific rule about them ever since she'd thrown the first one during your freshman year:
Invite only. No losers allowed.
And, as far as you knew, in Amber's opinion you were included in the word âlosersâ.
âI don't think so.â You shook your head. âAmber's throwing this party, isn't she? I don't have an invitation and I don't even like parties that much.â
Tara laughed out loud at that, causing a few heads to turn in your direction and your cheeks to heat up like coals. âI'm inviting you, ain't I? and seriously! I've never even seen you at the boring school parties, how are you supposed to know if you like parties or not without ever having tried them?â
Okay, you weren't expecting Tara to rebut your arguments or be so insistent about your presence. Was it getting warmer or was it just your impression? âBut... I don't even know anyone who's going, I'll probably just stand in the corner the whole night. And also, I have an appointment the next day, I can't, like, go wild...â
Unexpectedly, Tara let out an even louder laugh, this time even wiping away a tear that ran down her cheek. âGo wild? You're hilarious.â She controlled her breathing, still keeping a bright smile on her face. âYou don't have to drink if you don't want to, no one's going to force you. And about the being alone part, you can invite those friends of yours. Amber won't mind, she wants more people at her parties anyway and she refuses to call sophomores and below.â
You looked at her with surprise and suspicion. Invite your friends? Did Tara remember that your friends included Mindy Meeks-Martin? Like, basically Amber's number one enemy, Mindy Meeks-Martin?
Tara finally noticed your wary expression and sighed, uncrossing her arms and raising both hands in a peaceful gesture. âLook, Amber said I could invite nice people and I think you're nice. She'll be busy with other things anyway, she probably won't even notice that your friends are there.â
You bit your lower lip, considering your options. On the one hand, parties weren't exactly your natural habitat and you still had your doubts about whether or not you were welcome there. On the other hand, Tara had been so kind to you lately and... for some reason, you wanted to explore it a little further.
âCan I give you an answer later? I'll ask my friends if they're going.â That's what you decided to answer, choosing to leave your conflicting future in the hands of your dear companions.
Tara nodded a yes and complemented the action with a shrug. âOkay. But even if they decide not to go, I think you should give it a chance.â
Suddenly, the bell for the first period echoed in the corridors, waking you both up to the fact that you had to be in your classrooms in a few seconds. As lockers closed and teenagers ran to avoid being late, Tara lazily turned around and started walking away, ending your interaction.
But you didn't want it to end so soon. In a impulsive act, you raised your voice. âWhat should I wear?â
Tara turned as soon as she heard you and her eyes slowly traveled up and down your body as a smile worthy of the Cheshire cat broke out on her face. âWear something pretty! But I think you were already going to do that anyway.â
System crash. Your brain shortcutted. Did Tara had just...? No, she couldn't have possibly... checked you out? Were you seeing things?
As Tara's back got further and further down the corridor, you ran back to your classroom, muttering on the way, âGod, I'm really not your strongest soldier.â
_
âI need to ask you something.â
You were extremely nervous. Your fingers kept drumming on the table and your brain was desperately trying to think of a way to convince your friends to A) go to Amber's party with you and B) not think you were out of your mind.
Tara's words (and her actions, by the way) really made you consider that crazy possibility. On any other occasion, you would have denied it as quickly as possible and then run away, but you were finding that Tara Carpenter could be extremely convincing.
Mindy swallowed a piece of the sandwich she was holding, making a dismissive gesture with her hands. âIâve told you before, we have no interest in a throuple.â
Sitting next to her with her feet propped up on her girlfriend's lap, Anika raised an eyebrow and smiled playfully. âWho says we don't?â
âWhat?!â Both Mindy and Ethan shouted, although the girl clearly got the joke and was just going along with it, while the boy seemed really bothered by the idea. You and Anika let out a loud chuckle and you smiled at her in appreciation, knowing that she had joked around just to make you less nervous.
With the mood more relaxed, you took a deep breath and said the words in rapid fire, fearing that they would never come out if you lingered too long. âTara invited me to Amber's party and she said I could invite you guys. Would you go with me? Please?â
âAbsolutely not.â Mindy quickly denied your request, putting on an angry expression. âAnd why would you want to go to a party like that, anyway?â
âThat's right, only assholes go to that kind of thing.â Ethan agreed with the girl, looking equally annoyed by your suggestion.
Your eyes turned to Anika in a plea for help and she nodded almost imperceptibly. Opening her famous warm smile that reached her eyes, she grabbed Mindy's arm and pouted. âPleeeeeeeeeeeease, I've always wanted to go to a party like this. We can just go and laugh at people being dumb.â
âWe can laugh at people being dumb at school literally all the time, I don't need to be at Amber Freeman's house for that.â Mindy objects, but it's obvious that she's already starting to give in to her girlfriend's charms by the way her face looks more peaceful.
Anika looked in your direction and you understood that you would have to stay in that ping pong game of arguments until the other two gave in. âAmber won't even notice we were there! Tara said there would be too many people for her to handle.â
âAaaand,â Anika added, moving even closer to Mindy, almost sitting on her lap on that narrow wooden bench. âOur theme for the A.V club project is literally young and reckless! What's more young and reckless than Amber's parties?! We'll get some great material if we go!â
Mindy considered the proposal for long seconds that left you on the edge of your seat. You knew Ethan would probably go if you all did, so it was really all in the Meeks-Martin girl's hands.
Finally, she sighed and rolled her eyes, slipping an arm around her girlfriend's shoulders. âOkay, I'll go. But Iâm warning you, if Amber even looks in my direction, I won't answer for myself.â
Anika squealed, grabbing Mindy's face and pulling her close to kiss her cheek, which clearly got the girl flustered even though she only replied with an âalright, alrightâ. You smiled at this, feeling a mixture of amusement and relief at knowing that your friends had agreed to embark with you on this madness.
Ethan hadn't necessarily agreed yet, but when you looked in his direction, he sighed dramatically, so that his brown curls moved with the wind. âIf you're both going, I think I'll go to keep y/n company. So she won't be a third wheel and won't be bothered by idiots, you know?â
You thanked the boy with a pat on the shoulder and his smile automatically widened. Across the table, Mindy laughed. âOh, I don't think you have to worry about y/n getting third wheeled, Ethan. Tara invited her, did you forget?â
âHoly shit. I have to tell Tara.â You remembered your conversation with the girl earlier, rushing into her DMs and completely ignoring the jokes and teasing from the girls in front of you.
You just hoped they could also ignore your completely flustered behavior.
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We're going!
A simple message had made Tara's day a thousand times better. She'd forgotten how insufferable Amber could be on party days, as well as the fact that Liv had spent the whole day acting like a pick-me-girl because Chad had been spending much more time on his phone than with her lately.
She'd put her best Casanova act into play when she'd spoken to you earlier, but somehow your sense of humor made her break character and just act like herself, which was something she couldn't remember doing so freely in a long time.
Of course she had appealed for a bit of her charm at the end, but she just couldn't hold back when you had opened up such a perfect opening for her to flirt.
âYou should really thank me, you know that?â A familiar voice whispered close to her ear and soon pale arms wrapped around her neck in a grip that bordered on uncomfortable. âI basically handed you your challenge on a platter by letting you invite those weirdos.â
Tara was annoyed by the comment and she quickly disentangled herself from the hug, bumping into Amber and her devilish expression. The shorter girl huffed, fixing her clothes and hair as if that was the real reason she had walked away.
At least this time she didn't turn red. That was progress.
âShut up. If anything happens, it'll be my merit.â Tara slung her bag over her shoulder, walking along with Amber and the other students to the exit after another tiring Friday of classes.
The taller girl didn't even mind Tara's protests, shaking her head as if she didn't believe the freckled girlâs words. âAnyway, at least you'll be busy while I'm doing someone and won't be bothering me the next day.â
They walked out the door and fortunately Tara could already see Sam's car parked not far away. The girl turned her face in the opposite direction of her friendâs, pretending it was due to the sun and hoping Amber hadn't seen the pained expression on her face. âWhatever. See you later, Freeman.â
âSee you later, Carpenter!â Amber shouted back, but Tara didn't turn around to wave goodbye and kept her head down until she reached the old sedan her mother used to drive. At least that was until she was no longer sober enough to hold a steering wheel.
Inside the car, Sam raised her head when she heard the door open and close after Tara got into the passenger seat. She started to back out of the parking lot, occasionally glancing at her younger sister who seemed to be upset beside her. âSo... how was school?â
âDon't fucking start.â Tara muttered, putting on her headphones in a quick move to isolate herself from the world and from an older sister who suddenly wanted to be there for her after abandoning her alone with an alcoholic for a year.
She closed her eyes and leaned her head on the window, trying not to think about how Amber really got on her nerves sometimes, or think about the guilt that was starting to rise up inside her after being rude to Sam for nothing. Why couldn't her mind stop working for just one minute?
But as she tried to make her own thoughts go blank, a pleasant memory surfaced. Tara remembered your conversation earlier, the way you could understand each other's moods and how genuinely happy she was that you were going to the party for her.
Maybe, if she just kissed you and hid the real reason behind everything, you could even be friends after all. Maybe she could even convince Amber that you were a nice person, so that you could hang out with them.
Of course, these were only wishful thinking, but Tara wanted peace and, at the moment, the utopian idea of having you around gave her that exact feeling.Â
_
âOkay, now give me a spin.â
You turned in your place at Anika's request, being mindful to not to get out of the sight of your phone camera, which was leaning awkwardly on your desk. Your room was a mess of clothes scattered all over the place, highlighting your intense search to decide on the perfect outfit to wear for the party.
âSo?â You asked your friend, who had her attention split between the video call and her own elaborate makeup.
Anika seemed to finish her analysis on your look while you were about to start trembling with anxiety. You trusted the girl's fashion sense more than anything and you swore you could have started crying if she said that your outfit wasn't good. Fortunately, her response was a positive nod and a satisfied grin. âOh, you look so cute!â
You looked down, once again staring at the outfit you had chosen, which was a comfortable one, but neat enough to let people know that you had put some effort into dressing up.
Receiving compliments had never exactly been your strong suit, but as much as you felt awkward about Anika's comment, you couldn't get Tara's recommendation out of your head. âYeah, but do I look pretty?â
âOf course you do! Cute, pretty, it's all the same!â
You frowned, still feeling annoyed. Fashion had never exactly been your forte and that fact was your Achilles heel at the moment, since you still weren't convinced that âcuteâ and âprettyâ were the same thing. In your opinion, Tara seemed to be the type who liked pretty girls, but not cute girls.
Or maybe it didn't make any sense at all and you were just going crazy at the thought of spending the next few hours in a house full of people you either didn't know or didn't like. Besides, when did you start caring about the kind of girl Tara liked?
âI can hear your thoughts from here, you know?â Anika called out, making your head snap out of that internal cycle of overthinking. âIs this all to impress Tara?â
âUgh.â You grunted, flopping onto your bed oblivious to the dozens of clothes that were crumpling under your body. âNo? Maybe? I don't know.â
You felt ashamed of the situation, even though you knew Anika wasn't the judgmental type. Your feelings were still confusing and you definitely didn't feel ready to admit that you thought about Tara more than you should, but there was also no way to hide something that was so obvious.
âHey, it's okay, you know? Actually, I'm glad to see you're interested in someone.â Anika replied kindly, which made you work up the courage to sit up, staring at your friend's genuine expression through the screen. âI know you're worried about Mindy and all, but Chad's always nice to me when I go to their house and it was super easy to do some school work with Wes for our calc class.â
She continued, âWhat I mean is that Tara could still be a nice girl for you, no matter how much there's this Romeo and Juliet thing going on between our groups.â
âIt's not that. I mean, it is a bit, but also...â You sighed, trying hard not to run your hands through your hair and make it look messy. â... I don't think she'd be interested in me. I mean, she's been giving me these signals but, I don't know, maybe she does it with everyone?â
Anika tsked, shaking her head and giving you a playful smile. âI've never heard of Tara being a player.â
You groaned again, turning your face away as if the act would somehow stop you from feeling so flustered. Anika laughed in response. âJust enjoy the moment! You already know she's the straight forward type, don't you? If she wants something from you, I'm sure she'll get it.â
âAnika!â You shrieked, appalled by what she was inferring. Your entire face seemed to be engulfed in lava as your friend laughed even louder at the clear shock you expressed.
âWhat?! The world needs more people like that, you know? That's why I'm going to take the initiative to run away to a corner with Mindy at the first opportunity and-.â
âEw! No! Stop talking! Please, you're my mother figures!â
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The walls of the house seemed to shake under Tara's fingers as she leaned on it, making her way to the bathroom in slow, crooked steps as she cursed quietly at the amount of people crowding into the hallway.
They were screaming with joy, slurring the lyrics of the extremely loud song that was playing on the huge speakers in the living room, echoing throughout the house and possibly the entire block. Thank God, Wes had already taken care of his mother.
Tara groaned the whole way, feeling like pushing away all the sweaty, alcohol-altered people who bumped into her shoulder, unable to see properly through the colored lights that made the place look like a nightclub. She sighed in relief when she finally found the bathroom, opening the door and locking herself inside without caring about the noise it made.
She turned on the lights and leaned on the sink with both hands, leaning over to look at her reflection in the mirror, with tired eyes and her bangs sticking to her forehead from sweat. God, how could she have been so shaken up by a measly hour of partying? She used to be able to take a lot more.
But she also knew exactly what had led up to it and the smell of alcohol on her lips wouldn't let her lie. She thought she was going to have more fun, but her evening became much more difficult after she saw Amber stick her tongue down the throats of at least three people right in front of her, making a point of giving Tara a thumbs-up afterwards, almost as if she was trying to annoy her friend on purpose.
Tara tried everything to make herself less bothered. She'd danced, she'd watched some people play 7 minutes in heaven, she'd even flirted with a few people just for fun, but in the end, what had stopped her blood from pounding furiously in her ears had been the beers stocked in Amber's basement fridge.
She stopped after the third one, after she felt tipsy enough. She didn't want to be her mother's daughter, who didn't know her own limits and fell asleep on the living room carpet because she didn't have the strength to walk to her own room. And the drinks helped for a while, but now that the sweat had evaporated the effect of the alcohol on herself, her headache left her one scream or punch away from going insane.
Tara splashed water on her face, oblivious to the fact that her makeup was getting smudged or her bangs got even wetter. At this point, she no longer cared about much other than surviving the rest of the night.
Once she had pulled herself together, she sighed and left the bathroom, expecting to be dragged into the living room by the crowd of teenagers dancing and jumping around like wild animals, but instead she ended up being bumped in the opposite direction, almost knocking her off balance.
âOh my God, I'm sorry!â Gentle hands rushed to hold Tara up before she fell and she followed the length of the arms with her eyes until she bumped into a familiar face. It was you, who was now staring at Tara with a frown. The girl couldn't help herself and looked you up and down, mentally appreciating the way you were dressed.
You quickly took your hands off Tara's shoulders, rubbing them anxiously. The girl felt a tug in her chest as she remembered that she had invited you and you most likely should have spent all this time looking for her, while she was drinking and whining about not having the attention of the biggest bitch in Woodsboro. Drunk and abandoning people? Wow, the Carpenter women's genes never fail.
âI didn't realize you'd already arrived.â Tara broke the awkward silence, mentally thanking you for being upstairs and being able to talk without having to shout over the hip hop track playing in the living room.
You looked away, shifting your weight from one foot to the other. âYeah. It's been a while.â
Tara nodded, feeling a little disappointed in herself as she realized that you had clearly been annoyed by her absence. She tried to strike up a conversation again, wishing she could somehow put a smile on your face. âWhat brings you upstairs? Not enjoying the energy of the party?â
âI was looking for the bathroom.â You sighed, hugging your elbows. âActually, I was more looking to escape to the bathroom, because I was planning to hide there until my friends decided to leave.â
âYou really donât like parties, huh?â Tara joked, but the smile on her face hardened when she realized that you hadn't laughed along with her.
Tara felt terrible. Sure, you'd only had a few interactions before, but all of them had proved that you could understand each other easily. Now, Tara didn't know if it was the party, if it was her or something else that had made you look so uncomfortable, but she was determined to make it up to you for being an idiot.
âYou know, I think I have a better hiding place than a small bathroom.â She leaned towards you, as if she was sharing a secret. âAre you interested?â
You scrutinized the girl's face and she couldn't help but be disappointed that you didn't even seem to be affected by your proximity as you usually would. Your arms were crossed as you felt suspicious of her offer. âDon't you have to go back to the party?â
Tara made a dismissive gesture with her hand and started walking down the large hallway, looking for a specific room. âNah, I've been to so many of these that it's lost itâs spark to me.â
Technically, it wasn't a lie. Tara was sick of that party and she'd love to have a distraction from the fact that Amber was now probably at her body count number 100 and Tara wasn't talking about dead people. But then again, she felt strangely committed to making you have at least a little fun and she really liked your company.
Maybe it was just because she felt bad for having invited you in the first place. Yeah, that must be it.
She opened Amber's bedroom door, barging in without hesitation and heading straight for the window, opening it all the way. Behind her, you seemed slightly alarmed by the idea of simply invading the personal space of a girl who could make your life a living hell. âUhâŠâ
But before you could really protest, Tara put one leg out of the window, glancing in your direction with a playful smile. âTrust me. Youâre not scared, are you?â
âIâm not scared, but trusting you? After you invited me to a party youâre trying to escape?â you replied, making Tara's smile widen as she realized you were starting to open up again. âAnd what are you doing at the window, Rapunzel?â
Tara chuckled, pointing your way. âWait and see.â
In a swift motion, she raised her hands to the roof platform above her head, pushing off Amber's window with her feet to gain enough momentum to pull herself up with extra effort from her arms. Still holding onto the edge, Tara hung upside down, looking at you through the window with her bangs sticking up. âSo, are you coming or not?â
You snorted lightly with the sight, shaking your head as you approached the window. âIâm no Spider-Man. If I fall from here, itâll be your fault, and I hope they write it down as homicide.â
âGood to know you have so much faith in me.â Tara answered, kneeling on the roof tiles and extending her hand for you to grab. You hesitated for a few seconds, and honestly, Tara couldnât blame you for it, but she kept looking at you expectantly, trying to communicate with her eyes. Let me make things right with you.
She almost sighed in relief when you finally grabbed her forearm, letting her help you up slowly, pretending not to notice how her hands ended up on your hips. All in the name of making your night a little less boring, of course.
But wow, your body felt... warm.
It didnât take long for you to pull away from Tara, clearing your throat and sitting on the roof beside her. It would be hard to stand for long due to the slope, but the spot was comfortable enough for you to sit or lie down without the risk of rolling off.
The roof was quite high, not tall enough for you to see the entire city, for example, but high enough that the people below you looked like tiny ants. Ants that were dancing, having fun, and throwing cups of beer at each other.
âDo you come here often?â you broke the silence, but Tara saw the exact moment you winced, realizing way too late the double meaning of your words. âI didnât mean⊠I wasnâtâŠâ
âItâs all good.â Tara laughed, considering saying something to tease you even more, but she ultimately decided against it , feeling a bit sorry for your embarrassed state. âAnd no, to answer your question. I used to spend a lot more time up here before, but nowâŠâ
She let the sentence trail off, lost in her own thoughts. Maybe the last time she had been on that roof was the day Sam had gone to rehab, two years ago. Which, looking back now, was probably around the same time Amber stopped being a caring friend and started being the friend that thought Tara complained too much.
The two of you remained in a comfortable silence for a few more secondsâor as quiet as it could be with two massive speakers blasting music two floors below. Tara glanced to the side, staring at your face, which seemed more focused on the starry sky, illuminated only by a few beams of moonlight.
Like she had felt in the car earlier, that sight gave her peace. It wasnât like looking at Amber, which made her feel like her organs were being squeezed and thrown into an erupting volcano. Looking at you made her feel like a sea breeze was brushing against her face, a comforting, peaceful gust of wind.
Taraâs eyes drifted down to your lips, and she had to run her tongue across her own. Amberâs challenge lingered in the back of her mind, and she was tempted to test if your kiss would be a better distraction than the cheap beer sheâd grabbed from the basement.
But suddenly, Tara felt self-conscious. Maybe it was the fact that the idea had been Amberâs, and she was still too annoyed with the girl to give her the satisfaction of being right. Maybe it was because she could still taste the alcohol in her mouth and didnât want you to taste it too.
Or maybe it was something else. Something gentler and softer that even Tara couldnât quite describe yet.
âOh, look!â Tara snapped out of her own thoughts when she saw you excitedly pointing at the sky. âYou can see Orion so clearly!â
She followed the direction of your hand with her eyes, feeling confused about what exactly she was supposed to be looking at. That particular night was cloudless, which made the vast array of stars shining in the dark sky exceptionally beautiful.
You noticed the lost expression on the girlâs face beside you and chuckled. âOrion? The constellation?â
âOh, yeah. I⊠I know.â Tara just nodded, feeling a bit embarrassed for not being sure what you were referring to. She knew what a constellation was, of course, but she had never studied them in much detail, and in her eyes, all she could see in the sky were random stars, beautiful but completely scattered.
You laughed again, not buying Taraâs excuse for a second after seeing how confused her eyes looked. Gently, your hand held hers as you started pointing out the constellation with both of your hands joined together.
âSee those three stars close together? Thatâs what we call Orionâs belt. Itâs much easier to spot the rest of the constellation starting from there. Up there, kind of making a triangle, you have Meissa, Betelgeuse, and Bellatrix, and if you look to the side, it kinda looks like heâs holding a bow.â
Tara wanted to pay attention to your explanation, but her brain turned to mush the moment your hands got entangled, and her heart started pounding like the drums in a heavy metal song. You, on the other hand, seemed completely unaware of the action, which made Tara feel even more like an idiot.
Wow, what was in those drinks?
âYou really know a lot about this,â she said, trying to sound normal, even though her voice felt like it could crack at any moment. You smiled at the comment, letting go of her hand to play with your fingers in your lap.
âOne day, I had this brilliant idea to paint constellations on my bedroom ceilingâor at least most of themâand I had to do a ton of research to make sure it looked right.â You laughed, and Tara realized she wanted to hear that sound more and more.
âItâs cool that youâre a painter. Itâs different.â She wanted to keep the conversation going, eager to learn more about any detail you were willing to offer, but she didnât exactly know what to say. For someone who usually had no trouble expressing herself, Tara seemed to have forgotten her entire vocabulary.
Luckily, you seemed to be in the opposite situation, feeling comfortable enough to keep talking. âI guess so? Iâve never thought much about it before. Painting is a lot more than just a hobby for meâitâs more like a safe haven, you know?â
Tara nodded instead of giving a verbal response, especially because she knew exactly what you were talking about, but she didnât have the words to express how much she needed a conversation like thisâso simple, yet so healing.
She reached into the pocket of her jacket, slowly pulling out her phone. âCan I take a picture of the constellation?â Tara asked, mentally kicking herself when she heard how vulnerable her voice sounded.
Her tone didnât go unnoticed by you, and you looked at her with a bit of confusion, but soon after, your eyes softened, shining with kindnessâalmost as bright as the stars above your heads. âYou donât have to ask me to take pictures of the sky, but do you want me to point it out again?â
âSorry, old habit.â She shook her head to snap out of it, feeling her cheeks heating up as she started opening the camera app and aiming it upward. âBut yeah, please.â
Slowly and gently, you took Taraâs hands again, working together with her to make sure the constellation was perfectly centered. You were close enough for Tara to catch the pleasant scent of your perfume, but she forced herself to stay focused on the picture you two were trying to capture.
After a few successful shots of Orion (which Tara planned to edit later to make it more visible and color-corrected), the two of you lay down side by side, admiring the nightâs beauty in another moment of shared, comfortable silence.
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Now, the silence inside Samâs car wasnât as comfortable.
It was the first time Tara had asked Sam to pick her up from a party, especially as late as 2 AM, considering the younger Carpenter always used to sleep over at Amberâs once everything wrapped up.
But after you left, Tara completely lost the desire to stay. The music was dull, she had no interest in drinking or playing any games, and she definitely didnât want to be around her friends anymore.
She sat in a thoughtful silence, her head resting against the window, watching as the asphalt disappeared behind the car doors. The soft hum of the engine served as background noise since Tara didnât have her precious headphones, but sheâd spent enough time around loud music for the night anyway, so her ears were begging for a break.
âDid you⊠have fun?â Sam asked cautiously, as if Tara were a wounded animal that might lash out at any moment. The younger girl sighed, feeling guilty for being the reason behind the hostile distance between them.
She already felt guilty about enough things. Maybe it was time to start lifting some of that weight off her shoulders.
âI guess I did.â She nodded, watching Samâs surprised expression at her genuine response. The look made her seem younger, reminding Tara that Sam wasnât that much older than her. Now that she thought about it, she couldnât remember seeing Sam so carefree since sheâd returned, but her anger hadnât exactly allowed her to notice the little details. âI had a good time.â
âGood,â Sam replied, trying to hide a satisfied smile from tugging at the corner of her lips. In the passenger seat, Tara did the same, feeling a tiny bit of happiness from the small progress theyâd made. Small steps were important.
The car fell silent again, but it felt less heavy, and Tara figured it was because Sam was tired and still had to focus on the road for at least another 10 minutes. Taking advantage of the pause, the younger Carpenter pulled her phone out of her jacket pocket, going straight to her gallery and searching for the pictures she had taken earlier.
Most of them were of the sky, capturing the fateful (and now familiar to Tara) constellation of Orion, which made her think of the feeling of your hands on hers. Two others, however, were a bit more personal for her.
She zoomed in on the photo, staring at the profile of your face bathed in moonlight as you smiled brighter than the stars. She had taken the picture in secret, an impulsive urge to capture not just the moment, but you. Tomorrow, she could blame it on the alcohol, but tonight, she would give herself the privilege of gazing at your carefree expression for a few long seconds.
You had probably spent hours talking on the roof, and yet it still didnât feel like enough. Tara wanted more. She needed more. Even though sheâd never considered herself to be possessive or clingy, she couldnât help but want to explore every little piece of your world as if it were the most beautiful piece of art.
A sudden thought crossed her mind, and Tara quickly opened Instagram, this time taking her time to scroll through and really appreciate each of your paintings. As she studied the pieces you had displayed, she mentally kicked herself for not having done it sooner. It was clear that you drew inspiration from the Renaissance, and that people were your greatest muse. There were few self-portraits, but Tara recognized some of your friends in the works.
She was so captivated that she felt a strong urge to knock on your door and ask you to tell her the story behind each one, just for the pleasure of hearing your voice. But, well, it was 2 AM, and she didnât even know where you lived.
And, of course, she wasnât that crazy.
Still, she decided to slide into your DMs, sending you five of the photos you had taken of the sky, taking the opportunity to wish you a good night. Would sending a heart emoji be too much? She decided against it. The photos would be enough.
But Tara still wasnât satisfied with her exploration, so she ventured into your stories, looking for anything that could give her more reasons to talk to you. It turned out to be a great decision, because she struck gold.
You had posted an announcement from Woodsboro Central Hospital earlier, calling for volunteers for a special event dedicated to bringing joy to children hospitalized with cancer. The flyer said that any help was welcome, from telling stories to dressing up as superheroes, and Tara couldnât stop wondering what you had signed up to do.
Without wasting any time, she navigated to the hospitalâs profile, hoping they were still accepting applications even though she was texting them literally seven hours before the event.
Hi, Iâm interested in volunteering! Would you need a photographer?
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You Are Still Human
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Pairing: Wendigo!Josh Washington x Fem!Reader Description: Josh breaks down over the fact that he cannot live a normal life since his possession and no longer believes that he is truly human. So you find a special way to remind him of his humanity... Warnings: 18+, Smut, Fluff, Angst, Mental Breakdown, Insecurities, P In V, Creampie, Slight Choking, Rough Smut Animalistic Smut, Mention Of Breeding, No Foreplay Or Prep, Pain Kink-ish??? (Let me know if I missed any!) Word Count: 3.2k A/N: So I finally got this done! I didn't expect it to end up this long but as you can see, things got out of hand FAST. đ I hope you guys enjoy it! đ€ Josh Washington Masterlist: đ€ Taglist: @nuggetsandmoose, @maquillagebookmark, @wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee28374728, @bee-who-isnt-french
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My tired feet slowly shuffle across the hardwood floor as I push myself through the front door of our shared home. I am exhausted after several errands that I had to run today, to say the least. But that's the price I have to pay for pushing them off until right at last minute. Though it wasn't exactly the extra work I had to do that pushed my mind and body to feel so worn out. My loving boyfriend decided to join me, which was a rare occurrence for him.
Ever since the... Incident... He hasn't wanted to go out into the world much. I understand his anxiety of being seen in public with his condition so I never push, but today he insisted on joining me on my mission to finish my to-do list. Perhaps he felt bad that all these burdens were placed on my shoulders with his lack of want to leave the house.
But unfortunately, a face mask to cover up his ripped cheek and sharpened canines was just not enough to cover what he has become. Recovery for Josh was long and hard and we had only just began talking about the possibility of cosmetic surgery. It was a long process before we could even begin worrying about such things.
After leaving the mountain, the spirit of the wendigo left him, not being able to leave where it is bound. But still, traces of an animal-like presence lingered in his behaviors and personality. We didn't know if restoring his humanity was possible, but the doctors were able to recover just enough to get him to a point of leaving the hospital to live a normal life. Though even then, I had to beg to convince them to let me take him home with me.
His parents were hesitant on letting me take care of him, but after some negotiating, they bought a secluded cabin in a swallow forest, just deep enough to give us privacy but not too deep that I would be trapped if I needed to get away. Josh's humanity was indeed resorted, but the primal animal was still within.
And that's where we are now. Josh has an odd habit of forgetting how to act "human" sometimes. Every once in awhile he will stare at someone random and growl lowly, or even nip at the air as though his need to feed was getting too intense. It was worrisome, to say the least. Sometimes I would stay up at night, fearing the one thing that I always worried was inevitableâthat Josh would lose control once more.
Though time and time again, he would prove me wrong with a loving and warm cuddle at the end of the day. But sadly, tonight will not be so sweet. I can tell by the way Josh trudges into the living room, his head hung low and shoulders slumped. He wants to be left alone.
Though I understand this, I don't want to leave him with his thoughts again. Bad things happen when Josh is left alone with his thoughts. So I approach the doorway of the living room, leaning against the frame as I watch his tired form from afar. He seems defeated by the way he sat slouched against the soft cushions of our couch.
Slowly, I make my way to him step by step and sit on the couch, my eyes watching him to read his body language. He does not react to my presence, instead staring out into a void of nothingness like his mind is elsewhere. I reach over to the small end table by my side and pull its drawer open, only to retrieve a small, red bag.
I set it on my lap and then turn back to Josh, carefully taking on of his large hands in my own. They have grown a tiny bit since his possession, by an inch for each finger at least. Every part of his body has grown a bit since then. Sometimes it could feel a little intimidating. I run my thumb over the fragile, pale skin on the back of his hand before releasing a tired sigh.
"Your nails are getting long again, sweetheart. Shall I trim them for you?" I ask while reaching for the bag in my lap with my free hand, pulling the zipper to the side to reveal a bunch of nail care tools.
He does not respond verbally, but let's out a huff to let me know that he is fine with it. So with that, I begin my work, trimming and filing away at the sharp and jagged claws. It takes what feels like an hour to get them finished and looking nearly human again. In this time, Josh doesn't move a bit. He is so still, it's hard to tell he is even breathing. But once I finish and go to move my hands away from his, his boney fingers clasp my own.
"Thank... You..." He whispers faintly, his voice coarse and almost ghostly. Life glimmers in his eyes for a brief moment as his light irises study his hands.
But then, after a minute of admiring my work, he stands from his spot on the couch. He begins to pace around the coffee table in the center of the room, as if his mind is wandering, pondering something intense. I watch him for a few moments as he silently walks, feet shuffling along the carpet. But then, he mutters something...
"It's not enough..."
I almost do not catch it, until he repeats the words in a volume just slightly higher than before. But before I know it, Josh is pacing more frantically, whispering the sentence over and over. An eerie dread falls over my body as I watch him, his movements growing more panicked. He seems frightened and enraged, and those feelings seem to grow until he finally snaps, flipping over the coffee table in one swoop of his arms.
"I'm sick of this fucking shit!" He screams in a voice that sounds more like a howl from a wounded animal than anything else. "I'm so sick of being a fucking monster! I'm so fucking sick of people looking at me like oneâlike I shouldn't be with you or like I'm going to hurt you! I just want to be human again!"
I am stunned, sitting still as ever as if I'm afraid to move. That is until he breaks down, falling to his knees as he let's out a mournful sob. It's as if his spirit has been beaten down to the point of no return by this curse, every day stares, and the pressure of trying to be what he once was. Within a second, I am by his side on the floor, pulling him close to me and embracing him tightly.
"You're not a monster." I whisper sweetly as I caress his thinned out hair, just one more thing he has had to be insecure about since becoming human again. But it never lost its silky texture, which was what I had always loved the most about it.
He shakes his head and whimpers faintly, "I'm just a monster..."
I think for a moment. Usually it's pretty hard to break someone out of this mindset, especially Josh. He has a stubborn way of thinking, which makes it hard to convince him otherwise on a lot of subjects. I continue to pet his hair and think of back when he was human, how much he loved to show me just how much he loved me every day. Of course, a lot of times it would be through physical actsâ And finally, it hits me. I know what will break him out of these self-abusive thoughts.
"I want you to prove to me that you're not a monster." I order firmly, which is enough for him to finally raise his head from where it is tucked in my shoulder and look up at me.
"W-What?" He queries just barely above a whisperâjust barely enough for me to hear his quivering voice.
I gently caress his cheek, brushing my fingers over his deep scars as I clarify. "Prove to me that you aren't a monster. I know you can. Prove to me that you can feel all the emotions that a normal person can feel, and make me feel them as well in return."
He stares at me for a moment, eyes clearly uncertain about my rather intimate proposition. I can practically see the internal battle going on inside his mind through those glazed over pupils in the center of his white irises. Then, he let's out a shaky breath before biting his lip subtlyâa risky habit he still carries from being human, but has to be more cautious doing now with his sharpened teeth.
"I... I don't want to hurt you..." He whimpers like a hurt puppy, glancing back down at his fidgeting fingers.
"You won't," I say as I place my hands on his cheeks, forcing his gaze back to me so he can see my sincerity. "I know you..."
He adverts his eyes once more, only this time looking down at the growing bulge under the rough fabric of his jeansâsomething I had failed to notice before. Josh had grown so backwards since his turningâso backwards that we haven't had sex since prior to it. I know it is killing him, especially since he was always the horniest guy I knew before this happened.
To make things easier for him, I place my hand on his thigh, resting right beside his needy member. He swallows thickly as he visibly shivers, a thin layer of sweat already coating his skin as his temperature rises. It is a subtle action to test the waters and when I'm sure he is comfortable, my hand goes right to the spot I know he desires so much.
But as soon as my hand cups the twitching length through his pants, something changes. A soft growl is heard rumbling at the back of his throat, and when my eyes flick back up, I am met with a hungry and what looks to be primal gaze. His eyes are no longer soft and sorrowful, but hold something almost animalistic within them.
Before I can say anything, Josh scoops me up and throws me down on the couch, knocking a startled gasp to fly out from me that seems to fall on deaf ears. He is quick to cage me between his arms, and lower his body weight down over top of me to encase me in his grasp, like a predator sealing his prey's fate.
No words are spoken, just the sounds of his ragged breaths and rabid growls fill the air. His body temperature has risen even higher than I have ever felt from him, and as he presses his chest against mine to keep me locked in place, I can feel his racing heartbeat vibrating through his chest as well. It amazes me that he hasn't had a heart attack yet.
But still, it seems as if something is stopping him in place. A lost, uncertain, question glimmers in his orbs as though he is waiting for an answer. Though he is silent, I know what he is askingâthe final thing he needs to take things to the next level.
"Go ahead, Josh. I'm ready." I breath faintly, giving him the permission he seeks.
As if from a movie, he tears our clothes off at a supernatural speed. I lay there, naked and dumbfounded as I look at the shreds of clothing that fell all around us, surrounding us like some sort of makeshift nest. I can't help but wonder how in the hell he managed to do that after I just clipped and filed his claws down, but I don't have much time to answer.
A shriek of shock, pain, and pleasure tears from my throat as I feel the familiar sting of something long and hard entering my canal, though this time in a more rough and fast way. Josh was always one for foreplay, but I guess there isn't time for that now, as he is already buried deep within me to the brim within just a split second.
His eyes hold a bit of remorse for only a mere moment, until that hunger returns. I barely have time to breathe as he retracts and enters at a pace I have never seen from him before. His hips pound furiously into mine, a subtle ache setting into my joints almost in an instant as he does his work. His grip on my waist is enough to burst my organs, while his dull nails cut into my flesh, crimson liquid forming under them more and more with each flex of his fingers. If I hadn't have cut his nails before this, I'd be done for. But I feel like Josh would know to be more careful if there was an actual hazard.
The intensity of his tip hitting my g-spot over and over at a brutal force feels to be enough to actually bruise it. Josh was always so good at finding it but this is a whole new level. I push my head back against the cushions as a cry of painful ecstasy parts my lips. Gripping the edges of the cushions and ripped strands of clothing in my fists, I begin to squirm out of pure instinct. Of course, Josh doesn't like this very much. Before I know it, a tight hand is wrapped firmly around my neck, but not enough to actually hurt me. This shows me that deep down, Josh still has some control.
He pounds into me in a sloppy and rough rhythm, determined like an animal desperate to breed. Grunts, groans, and growls that sound less than human are all that are heard from him. I would be concerned if my mind was clear enough to pay attention. No, right now, all my senses were overwhelmed by Josh, cutting off my awareness of the world around us like a sweet death. I am out of my own body now, my soul flying high in the clouds of heaven.
To my surprise, he pulls out. A soft exhale escapes me has he let's go of my throat, but that's only to quickly flip me over so he can now get in from the back. As soon as he shoves his length back inside, he's moving at a pace yet again unimaginable while his claws grip my hips firmly. He is almost pulling me back onto his cock at times, so my hips can meet his own has he thrusts into me. It's so animalistic and natural and it feels so right. And by the feeling of it, it's just enough to satisfy Josh completely.
With a roaring howl, Josh finally finds the release he has been chasing for so long. His speed and strength increases as he comes undone within me, and he fills me to the brim as if he wants to claim me... Or maybe even breed me. It is all too much for me to bear. The sensation of his heavy load spraying into my sweet spot is enough to send me flying over the edge. I bury my face into the cushion as a shuddering moan falls from my lips, before my voice strains away to nothing. My whole body trembles as I practically melt beneath him, and my walls squeeze and quiver around his cock as though I'm practically begging for more.
Though soon that psychical need gives away into exhaustion as soon as my tense muscles relax once my high subsides, my body falling limp like I no longer can control it. I'm just a doll now, all at the mercy of the man who gives me life. He may think that because I help him to heal, I am his savior. But he couldn't be more wrong. Without Joshua, I would be in a darker place, drowning in my trauma of that night. But now, I have him. And in this moment of silence where nothingness hangs in the air, that thought enters my brain. A small smile curls the corners of my lips while I close my eyes, feeling peace as I soak up his warmth while his hot breath fans my shoulder.
He removes himself from me, both of us letting out a trembling whimper, the overestimation stinging our most sensitive areas momentarily. He does not waste a single breath on words, instead leaning down to capture my lips with his. He is carefulâcareful to not cut me with his long canines, but also holding a tenderness he used to show before all of this. He knows that I am at my most vulnerable at this time, and will take the most caution to not break me at my fine glass-like state. When he pulls away, he gazes upon me with tear-filled and passionate eyes, his orbs reflecting what seems to be gratefulness and love.
"That wasn't the wendigo in me..." He breathes faintly while raising a hand to caress my cheek in a way so tender that I feel as if I could cry. Though I raise a questioning brow at that statement, not knowing what he means. So he elaborates after taking another second to breathe, still worn out by our recent activities. "I just needed you that badly... So I guess that was the human in me, huh?"
I smile at that and nod, admiring how he blushes at what he admits. For someone who used to be so ballsy and open with his dirty thoughts, Josh could be pretty backwards at times. It was something I always adored so much about him. I run my fingers through his raven, disheveled hair while taking in his stunning features, a soft sigh leaving me before I whisper. "You can have me whenever you like, Josh."
Josh smiles and presses his lips to mine once more, and then lays his head on my chest. I watch him intently, taking note of how he smiles when he hears my heartbeat quicken ever so slightly at the sight of him on top of me. He gently rubs my sides, soon stopping to snuggle into my breasts, seemingly deciding that this nest of our torn clothing would be our bed for the night.
Josh always reminded me of a Great Dane in a way. Despite being a lot bigger than me, there was always enough space on top of me for cuddles in his eyes. It was always quite amusing to me each time his large form would envelope my own. I continue to pet his hair, soft strands threading through my fingers with each touch. He let's out a huff in contentment and kisses my left breast, the sensation of his lips on my skin being absorbed through my flesh and meeting my heart to caress it with the love he feels for me.
"Thank you..." He murmurs, his voice dropping an octave lower and coming out more like a purr due to his exhaustion. My eyes focus on him as he closes his eyes, taking one more deep breath and then continuing his sentence a mere second before he falls into a peaceful slumber on top of me. "For everything..."
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GIANNA'S KINKTOBER '24 SEASON
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€âą ËËË Kinktober day six.
Shower sex (5.2k words)
summary: Lando had the fantastic idea to save time by showering with you.
warnings: NSFW, +18, smut, MDNI, stablished relationship, unprotected sex, the Max mentioned is Max F.
Any time you agreed to take a shower together was always meant to be romantic, just that. But of course, one thing led to another, and it inevitably always ended with him fucking you against the wall.Â
It started off cute, Lando washing your hair and you washing his, sharing short kisses and exchanging âI love youâsâ, until he decided to wash your body, and you let out a low moan when he reached your tummy as he stood behind you.Â
He couldnât contain his devilish smile, his eyes darkening when they met with yours. âAnd I thought you were being innocent today,â he whispered, keeping his hand there.
âI am. You were the one who suggested we shower together.â You defended yourself, but if you were being completely honest, you wanted him as soon as he undressed himself in front of you.Â
âWe have to save time, thatâs why we are showering together. Max is gonna kill us if we are late again. But if thatâs the case, I guess you wonât mind if I keep going.â
âBe my guest,â you swallowed hard, squeezing your legs a bit, hoping he wouldnât notice.
He continued washing your body, going straight for your thighs, but now he was much closer to you, your back almost pressed to his chest. The shaky breath that escaped his lips when he parted your thighs let you know he wanted you just as bad, and he was just teasing you, so you decided to play along.
âMy turn,â you said, turning around to face him. You grabbed him by the shoulders and made him turn around, starting with his strong back and then down his front, going for his chest and then his tummy. You purposefully made all the way to his V line, lingering there for a moment before going back up.
Lando had his eyes shut as his cock started to grow, trying to keep his composure as hard as he could, but man, any time your small fingers got close to his area, he almost bucked his hips.Â
âWhatâs wrong, baby?â You were the one teasing him now.Â
âNothing, Iâm fine.â
âYeah?â You were now approaching his dick again, but this time, you didnât stop. You kept going until you got there, and when you did, you grabbed it between your fingers. He almost let out a moan at this, but he didnât want to give you the satisfaction.Â
That was until you started stroking him slowly, not putting enough pressure but enough for him to admit his defeat. A low whimper echoed through the shower, making a smile appear on your face.Â
âYou sound so pretty when you are trying to keep it down,â you whispered as you placed a kiss on his shoulder. âBut I like it more when you are loud for me, baby, show me Iâm making you feel good.â You said as you picked up the pace
âMhm, fucking hell.â He was enjoying it as much as you hoped he would, his body jolting a bit at the feeling.Â
You knew him so well that you knew just the right amount of pressure to use as your hand travelled up and down his length, exploring it fully as your thumb occasionally took a moment to sweep his head. It all felt like heaven to him â you taking your time to make him feel good as you whispered encouraging words in his ear.
âMhm, feels so good, baby.â Lando moaned out as his eyes dropped where you were holding him, the sole sight of your hand making him squirm under your touch.
The shower was getting hotter by the second, and he wasnât trying to hold his moans back anymore, so his pretty sounds echoed through the bathroom and into your ears, making you more eager to have him inside you as you stroked him. At this point, you were feeling so desperate for attention that your unoccupied hand left his shoulder and went straight to your dripping pussy, playing with it just barely to relieve some of your neediness.
Lando took notice of this and realised he wasnât giving you any attention, making him feel guilty almost immediately. He knew that you didnât actually ask to get something in return, just like he didnât ask for anything in return when he was pleasing you, but how could he leave his girlfriend unattended?
âStop,â he said in a shaky tone. âI wanna be inside you.â
âBut we have barely-â
âPlease,â he insisted as he turned around to face you, making you drop his dick and take your hand away from your clit. âI need you.â
With that, you just nodded and started kissing him, passionate and rough. His hands found your hips to bring you closer to him, making you moan into the kiss as soon as you felt his hard cock pressed against your skin.
Lando carried you and pinned you against the nearest wall, holding you as tight as he could without hurting you. The cold tiles against your skin made you hiss, but you didnât care. You only cared about him.Â
With your legs wrapped around his waist, he was running his free hand up and down your body, almost as if he wanted to make sure he touched every inch of your soft skin.Â
Lando used one of his hands to run his fingers through your folds a few times, wanting to see how wet you were, and man, you were so wet for him that you didnât need any more preparation. He took his cock after that, stroking it a couple of times slowly before guiding it to your entrance.
The sigh of relief you both let out at the feeling was music to your ears, and the way you were already squeezing him caused him to moan one more time as he pressed his forehead against yours. âReady?â He asked after a few seconds.
âYes, please.âÂ
As soon as you said this, he started moving, setting a delicious pace for the both of you. The last thing you wanted was to be late again for Maxâs dinner, so you knew you had to be quick. Luckily, that position made your clit rub against his pelvic bone with every thrust, bringing you to the edge a lot faster than usual, and the water running down your bodies somehow made it hotter.
"Faster,â you whimper, and he immediately complies.Â
Your arms around his neck allowed you to tug at the hair on the back of his head, the feeling only making him more desperate for a release.Â
His pace became sloppier as he approached his high, a string of moans and your name leaving his lips as soon as he came inside you, pushing you over the edge and bringing you to your sweet release soon after. Lando found the crook of your neck to try and steady his breathing.Â
Your body was slipping down the tiles and back to the ground, your legs feeling like jelly, but he immediately sensed you struggling to keep yourself standing, so he quickly brought you up to his chest and wrapped his arms around you.Â
âSee? We both showered and even had time for a quickie. This is a real time saver,â he whispered, kissing the top of your head.
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[4.5K] Steve Harrington x fem!reader 18+
A/N: sorry, no advent blurb today as weâre v tired and v sick and writing doesnât sound fun. but please have an old fic that was once on the masterlist
âThis is a bad idea,â you whispered, shy, nervous, wanting to curl into yourself.
Steve stayed still behind you, your back to his chest, his legs bent and framing your own. His hand stroked over your knee, a safe distance, one that didnât add too much pressure to the situation. The boy pressed a kiss to your cheek, nose nudging your temple. âWe can stop, if you want.â His voice was quiet and filled with soft sincerity. âItâs okay.â
But youâd asked for this, face flushed, squirming on Steveâs bed sheets âcause how on earth did you go from watching Fast Times at Ridgemont High to talking about sex to telling your best friend youâd never had an orgasm?
âWhat?â Heâd asked, face soft with shock. âWhat about those six months you dated that guy, whatshisface? Liam?â
âLewis,â youâd corrected, fingers pulling uncomfortably at the blanket Steve kept at the end of his bed for you. âAnd no, he just couldnât get me there, I guess. Maybe it was me. Itâs gotta be me, I canât even make it happen myself.â
Steve had paused at that, looking at you with parted lips and soft eyes âcause you looked so sad, so frustrated, defeat taking over from the embarrassment youâd felt in admitting such a thing.
âItâs not you,â heâd said, determined. âHe shouldâve taken his time with you orâ or, found out what you liked.â
You huffed out a laugh at that, humourless and tired. You shrugged, hands falling into your lap. âHowâs that fair when I donât even know what I like myself?â
You donât know what happened after that. Just that the movie was paused and the evening outside turned to night, Steveâs blue room turning navy in the shadows, the dull glow of his bedside lamp making your bare legs turn apricot and rosy in the light. His hand looked so big against your knee, like he could swallow you whole.
You asked him. Voice quiet, words making the boyâs cheeks turn pink. Asked him to help, to show you, to tell you what you were doing wrong which sounded so ridiculous, because Jesus Christ, it was your body, for fuck sake.
You sucked in a deep breath. âNo, itâs fine. Iâm justâ being stupid. We can keep going.â
You felt Steve relax a little behind you, his body sinking into the pile of pillows at his headboard, your body falling into his in turn. His thumb drew circles on the side of your knee, a touch youâd felt before: during a horror movie in the dark of the cinema, in the front seat of his car when you cried about a boy who wasnât him, when heâd argued with his dad and you piled yourself into his lap for comfort.
âAre you sure?â Steve whispered and his voice was right by your ear, lips almost touching the shell of it. It made you shiver, spine tingling. âAnd youâre not stupid. This, the way you feel. Itâs not stupid, okay?â
You realised he was waiting for you to answer him, so you nodded, chest tight at his earnest words, always trying to make you feel better. Heâd once told you when you were both only thirteen, that that was his job and heâd proven it true ever since.
âYeah, mâsure.â You let your head rest against his, cheek to his chin, day old stubble rough against your skin. âThanks, Steve.â
A silence swept over you both, not exactly uncomfortable but not an easy one either, not like it usually was. âCause your skirt was hitched up high, the hem of it falling towards the tops of your thighs when youâd bent your knees and sat between Steveâs legs. Heâd patted the space there and your body had burned, but youâd obeyed all the same. His thumb was still rubbing circles and your hands lay awkwardly in your lap until finally, finally, Steve took them in his own and placed them flat over your thighs, his bigger ones covering your fingers.
âSo youâve never, everâ?â
âNo,â you whispered it back, like a dirty secret. Something to be ashamed about. âCan't even manage it myself⊠itâsâ fuck, I donât know.â You choked off your own words, heated embarrassment creeping up the back of your neck.
Steve squeezed your hands, gentle, soothing. âSâokay. Do you, uh, do you try? A lot?â
He sounded nervous too and suddenly you were thankful for this position, eyes hidden from each other, knowing his cheeks would be flushed, too pretty to look at. You sucked in a breath and nodded. âSometimes, yeah. I guess. Itâs justâ I either get interrupted or it doesnât feel right and then the times when it does, I just canât⊠canât. You know.â
âFinish?â Steve supplied helpfully.
You nodded again.
âOkay, uh, why donât youâ do you wanna, try? Show me?â You heard him swallow audibly, Adamâs apple bobbing in his throat and you felt his jaw tense against your temple, where you were leaning against him.
You stiffened, and Steve felt that too, so he tangled his fingers between your own and used his thumb and yours to skim up and down your legs. You wondered if he noticed how warm you were, if he realised you were running so much hotter than before.
âItâs just me,â he whispered to you, head ducked tucked down so he words fell into the crook of your neck. He sounded so soft, familiar, like the sixteen year old whoâd picked you up from your shitty first date and told you that the next boy that hurt you would have to deal with him. âDo you trust me?â
You licked your bottom lip, mouth dry but you made a noise of agreement. âYeah, I trust you.â You felt his smile, felt the affection ripple through him and back into you, âcause you really, really did. More than anyone, you thought.
âWe can stop whenever you want, alright?â Steve said and you bobbed your head, suddenly feeling clumsy, fingers too small between his own, legs splayed out like a broken down China doll. You dug your toes into the mattress and breathed out. âShow me.â Steve whispered again. âShow me what you do.â
It took a second, maybe five, for your heart to stop rattling against your chest, for your bones to stop vibrating. But you took one hand from Steveâs and pressed it between your thighs, hidden under your skirt. Your underwear was still very much on and you were unsure how to go about that, so you squeezed your eyes shut and tried to find your clit the best you could under the cotton, shifting your fingers over the fabric.
Then Steve tsked, a soft sound that didnât come across as reprimanding as it shouldâve, but between that and his hand catching yours again, you stopped, unsure.
âYou normally just dive right in like that?â Steve murmured, rubbing his thumb over your knuckle. âChrist, you gotta be nicer to yourself, babe, you need to relax more.â
âI do?â
Steve laughed quietly, a huff of spearmint breath falling across your cheek and wasnât unkind, it didnât make you shrink like you thought it wouldâve. âWell, yeah,â Steve answered. âYou gotta warm yourself up, right? Get in the mood. Hasnât anyone taken their time with you? Made you feel like, uh, like putty?â
âPutty?â Your lips kicked up at the corners, lashes fluttering as your eyes closed, happy to listen to Steve and the smile in his voice. He sounded shy, and it was lovely, it made you feel better, warmer, ready for what was happening.
âYeah,â he huffed. âYou know, all gooey nâshit. Nice. Relaxed.â Steve sucked in a breath and pressed your joined hands to your thigh, his so much wider and covering much more skin. âYouâre real cute, babe, someoneâs gotta treat you the same way.â
âNo,â you shook your head, trying not to sound too sad about it, âcause Steveâs hand on your bare skin was starting to make you feel real nice, warm, just like he was describing. Except you were anything but relaxed, heartbeat a livewire racing through your bones, a new pulse thrumming, stomach jumping at each touch. âYou think Iâm cute?â
You werenât sure why you asked that, but suddenly, you were desperate to know.
âYou kiddinâ?â Steve said and you could hear the smile there, the one you knew so well. He leaned in, chin hooked over your shoulder when he felt you settle back against him, body more lax than before. His lips brushed your cheek when he spoke. âYouâre the cutest girl in town, dâyou not know that?â
You squirmed, too pleased with his comment but embarrassed all the same. Steve always gave you too much attention but it was the way it had always been, a little flirting over the diner table, his hand on the small of your back when you walked through too big crowds, an offered cheek for you to kiss goodbye when he dropped you home after school.
âShut up,â you whispered, voice thick and quiet and caught in your throat. You didnât mean that. You didnât want him to shut up at all. And Steve knew that.
âNow, if youâre the cutest thing in all of Hawkins,â he continued, emboldened by the way you tucked your head into the crook of his neck, letting your fingers go soft between his own. âDonât you think you gotta be nice to yourself?â
Your breath stuttered and hitched in your chest and despite the nerves that still pinballed around in your stomach, your thighs dropped open a little, the hem of your skirt hitching higher still and Steve swallowed down a curse.
âI donât think I know how.â It was embarrassing, admitting it, cheeks on fire, nose scrunched even though Steve couldnât see.
His hands swept up your thighs, taking yours with them, stopping short of creeping under your skirt before retreating back down to your knees. âLike this,â the boy whispered. âSee? Nice and sweet. Slow.â
You wanted to let your hands fall away, wanted to feel Steveâs rough fingertips and wide palms span over your skin but when you tried to pull away, Steve only tightened his grip. âAh, ah, câmon. You canât learn if I do it for you.â
There was a whine stuck in your throat; a bratty, moody noise that you didnât dare let out in fear of being teased by the boy for all of entirety but Steve seemed to sense your frustration anyway.
âCâmon, you got this.â Steve pressed a quick kiss to wherever he could reach, a warm smack of his lips against the skin under your ear, right by your jaw. âRelax, remember?â
So you did, letting out a small sigh before sinking back into him, legs widening and letting Steve drag your hands up and down your thighs, your skin erupting in goosebumps every time you felt a particularly rough graze of Steveâs short nails.
âWhat dâyou think about?â He asked, voice hushed, almost hoarse. It sounded dirty, like a secret you werenât supposed to tell anyone else about. âWhen you touch yourself? What dâyou think about?â
You pressed your lips together and shrugged, a gasp wrenching out from you when Steve moved your hands inwards, to the softer dough of your thighs, creeping higher and higher until you felt the cotton and lace edge of your underwear against your fingertips.
âI dunno,â your voice didnât sound like your own. âSomeone else, I guess. Someoneâs fingers, instead of my own. Beingâ being kissed and their, their mouth. Lips. Tongues.â
If Steveâs hips twitched up into your own, you were sure youâd imagined it. But he took a second before he answered, nodding so his nose pressed into your cheek, his hair fell over your own.
âSâgood,â he agreed, praising you like any teacher would. âWhat about their mouth, huh? Where dâyou want it?â
You squirmed, face on fire, teeth chewing something rotten at your poor bottom lip and when you didnât answer, Steve took your hand and placed it over your cunt, the cotton there suddenly more damp than it was before. You wanted to throw yourself out the window. Or worse, at Steve.
âHere?â The boy suggested. He wasnât really touching you, just his hand over your wrist and fingers, guiding, pressing slightly. âHas someone done that to you? Has someone put their mouth here?â
You shook your head, unable to stop the little whine that came out with it, disappointment colouring the sound. Steve tutted, cooing at you with sympathy and he let out a stuttered sigh when you took it upon yourself to press two fingers closer to your clit, seeking out some friction.
âThatâs a real shame, you know that?â Steveâs hands left yours, only to grasp your waist and pull you back into him a little firmer and youâd be lying if you didnât feel him, hard under his jeans, pressed into the bottom of your back.
It only made you press your fingers into yourself harder.
âIt is?â You were breathless, each word a huff of air, face screwed up and eyes shut tight as you tried to work out where you wanted your fingers the most.
âFuck, yeah itâs a shame, babe.â Steve whispered. âTold you, didnât I? Youâre the sweetest girl there is. And someoneâs not tasted you? Not told how sweet you really are?â Steve blew out a breath, as if exasperated. âThatâs just unfair.â
âSteve.â You weren't sure what you were whining your best friend's name for. For release? Permission? Guidance? All of the above, maybe.
But Steve seemed to know, âcause he nudged your hand closer to your cunt, coaxed you into running your fingers over your cotton covered folds. âYeah?â He asked and his voice was hoarse, a little wrecked sounding. âReady for more? Feelinâ good?â
You nodded, clumsy, breath coming out a little heavier than before.
Steve let one finger flirt with the edge of your underwear, along the lace trim where your cunt met your thigh and he snapped the elastic against you, feeling brave when you pressed back against him, like you couldnât be close enough.
âWant these off?â You heard him swallow hard, sounding quieter than before. âDonât have to, if you donât want to. We can do whateverââ
You lifted your hips in answer, one hand holding onto Steveâs thigh for support as the other dragged down your underwear and your cheeks cringed with heat as you caught a glimpse of how wet the cotton was. You balled them into your fist, shoving them to the bottom of Steveâs bed and they lay there like a flashing neon sign, all lilac and buttercream coloured flowers, lacy and mortifying.
Your skirt still covered you, hiding a lot from Steve. But the boy could look over your shoulder and see the way your chest heaved, nipples pebbled underneath your T-shirt, the one youâd stolen from him freshman year and made into a crop top. You were all legs, soft thighs, socked feet digging into his duvet, skirt flirting dangerously with all that bare skin underneath. He tried not to rut up into you, but he knew you had to feel him by now, his hard cock pressed against your spine, twitching at every breathy noise you let out.
âWhat next?â You asked and you sounded desperate, more pent up than youâd ever felt before and you wondered if it was really because you were taking your time with it, if all these slow touches really worked. You wondered if it was Steve. âShould I justâ?â
Your fingers dug into your thighs, sitting over your skin alone âcause Steve was gripping at his own knees, knuckles white on the denim. âFuck,â his voice cracked. âJust, uh, do what feels good, yeah?â
You made a sound of protest, frustration spilling up and out of your throat because this is where it went wrong, fingers fumbling, unsure where to touch to be able to coax you over the edge.
âHey, hey, sâalright,â Steve assured you, whispering again. âGive me your hand.â
You did, without hesitation, and together, with Steveâs fingers twisted between your own, he guided your touch underneath your skirt. You held your breath as you felt your own fingers - and the boyâs - slip between your folds, your legs parting automatically for him. You felt his breath hitch and fall over your cheek as you let out a tiny moan, urging him on, your fingers following his as he swept up and down your cunt, gathering up the slick there before pressing your middle finger to your clit.
âYeah?â Steve asked and he sounded awed when you cried out, a soft grunt that made him see fucking God. âThat good?â
You could barely speak. âYeah,â you whispered on a breath, head lolling back to rest against his shoulder, giving Steve an unobstructed view down your front, to the way your hands could be seen between your thighs, skirt rucked up around them.
âAttaâ girl, keep doinâ that, okay?â
You did as you were told, adding your pointer finger to the mix, rubbing the two digits over your clit in soft circles, panting every time you felt Steveâs fingers slip between your own. Steveâs free hand was on your waist, a vice-like grip that you werenât sure he was aware of, his palm on the strip of bare skin between your top and skirt. Every time you let out a shy noise, he squeezed, kneading at the dough there.
âJesus Christ,â he muttered, jaw slack as he watched you work at yourself, never letting go of his hand and fuck, fuck, you were so wet, velvet heat under his touch.
âDâyou use your fingers?â Steve asked you, lips against your cheek, both of you leaning into each other as if you were unable to help it. âInside? Do you put your fingers inside yourself?â
Twenty minutes ago, you wouldâve died if the boy had asked you such a thing, but now? Now? Now you whined at it, cunt clenching around nothing at the idea of it and you shook your head, temple rubbing against Steveâs cheek in a way that killed him with how fond it was.
âNot really,â you whispered to him, âcause even with his fingers slipping over your clit, you were still so shy. âDonât feel big enough, never- shit - never full enough.â
Steve swore his eyes rolled back into his skull, âcause all he could see was white, a blank flash over his vision that felt white hot. He rubbed soothing at your waist, let his fingers span over the width of your side, blunt nails sliding over your ribs. âPoor girl,â he sympathised and he smiled when you whined as he pulled your fingers away. âShh, gimme a minute, hey? Here, just, try this, huh?â
You didnât get to ask what he was meaning before the fingers that had been rubbing over your slick skin were in his mouth, two digits pressed to his tongue and Steve sucked. He licked over the pads, most definitely tasting you and you felt his chest rumble with a groan he tried to keep in. And then, as quick as it happened, it was over.
Steve brought your spit slick fingers back between your thighs, nudging the tips of them against your entrance. You keened, hips arching off the bed a little until Steve soothed you back down against him, mouthing over your jaw and cheek in a touch that definitely couldnât be misconstrued as a kiss.
You sighed as you slid them in, two fingers fucking into yourself as deep as you could manage, slipping in easily with how insanely turned on you were. You hooked them up, like all the articles in the magazines you hid from your parents told you to do, searching for that spot that would apparently make you see stars. But you fell short, fingers not long enough and your clit was aching with neglect.
âSteve,â you felt close to tears, the usual frustration bubbling at the surface of your chest, ready to pop and simmer over. Youâd have normally given up by now. âSteve, sânot working.â
âGotta be patient, babe,â Steve assured you, âgotta be nice to yourself, câmon, donât let your head take over.â
But Steve saw the tear that rolled down your cheek and he caught your chin, titling your face towards him as he frowned down at you. You looked wrecked, heartbroken and all pent up, lips red and slick from where youâd chewed at them, eyes all glassy.
He shouldnât have asked. But he was already in too deep. What does it matter now, right?
Right?
âWant me to help?â
He waited, one second, two, three and then you nodded, relief and disbelief filling his chest all at once. He swallowed back a broken moan and tapped his thumb at your chin, just catching your pouting bottom lip. âYou gotta tell me, please?â
âPlease, Steve, please. I want you to touch me.â
Heâd died. He was dead.
But then you were pulling at his wrist and guiding it back between your legs, your fingers slick from where theyâd been inside of yourself and Steve wasnât sure he was able to handle it. His middle finger nudged up against your entrance and Steve felt it flutter, his eyes closing as he took a deep breath and reminded himself that this was for you, not him.
He was rock fucking hard.
âReady?â He asked in a last bid for confirmation. You were laying fully against him now, thighs pressed to his, skirt barely covering you and you nodded so furiously that Steve didnât dare ask you to speak again. âOkay, Iâve got you, alright?â
His finger slid in so easily and you clenched around him, velvet heat that made his heart stutter and his cock kick up against your spine. You immediately felt the difference, the boyâs finger thicker and longer, already reaching parts of you that youâd never felt. You felt like you were going to burst.
âMore?â Steve asked and his voice eas shot, eyes closing at the feel of you, your small hand wrapped around his wrist to ensure he wouldnât stop and Steve wanted to tell you heâd never stop if you didnât want him to, that heâd do this every fucking day if youâd let him. âAnother?â
âAnother,â you agreed and god, you werenât holding back anymore, moans tumbling from your lips when Steve slid another finger in with his first, the feeling of your cunt tightening around him making you both cry out.
Your hips were shifting against him, listing yourself on and off of his fingers and he groaned, stuttered dirty, filthy words into your hair as he let you fuck yourself down onto his didgits. The friction was too much for him, his cock straining in the denim, weeping for release.
âTouch yourself, babe,â he managed to groan out, sighing at the sight of you doing what he told, hand flying to your thighs so you could rub messy, wet fingers over your clit. âThatâs it, good girl. Jesus, are you close? I can feel you - fucking hell - I can feel you getting tighter.â
You mumbled something unintelligible, a sob ripping through your chest and Steve decided it wasnât a good idea to ask, deciding that he needed to get you out of your own head so your body could take over.
âDo you like it when I talk to you?â He asked instead, a whisper against your ear, his breath warm on your neck, his fingers spanning upupup until they grazed the lace of your bra. You rutted against his hand harder, whining when he hit a deep spot inside of you, one that made your vision go blue-white. âYou do, donât you? My girl likes hearing dirty things, right? Like when I asked you if someone had went down on you? If youâd had someoneâs tongue here?â
Steve slid his fingers in and out of you a little faster to get his point across, sweating when you moaned his name. His name. Your own fingers were moving with intent now; tight concise circles that were making your toes curl.
âWould you let me do that? Huh?â Steve dared to asked, grinning when you almost ripped the sleeve off his shirt as you grabbed at his arm, lips falling open in a long moan. âShit, you look so damn pretty, you know that? I could do that for you though, if you wanted.â Steveâs eyes closed for just a second at the thought of it. âCould put my mouth on you, let you know if youâre really as sweet as you lookââ
You seized up, body stiffening as you let out a noise Steve would never forget, a breathy moan of his name that heâd think about every time he fisted his own cock. He kept pumping his fingers into you, eyes wide as your own hand faltered and you shook, head slumping back against his shoulder as you decided to hold onto him instead, hands reaching back to grab at his shoulders, his neck, his hair.
Your pussy was a vice around his fingers, filthy, wet sounds filling his bedroom and he was pretty damn sure but he had to ask, he had to knowâ
âYou cominâ, babe? Yeah?â You nodded, frantic, eyes slammed shut and nose scrunched up all cute and Steve couldnât help it, couldnât stop it. âFucking hell, oh shit, yeah, there you go, thatâs it, thatâs it, thatâs itââ
He wasnât even ashamed that he came in his jeans like a teenager, in fact, he was a little insane with it. White spots over his vision as his cock twitched and jumped, letting his hips grind against your ass as you whined, your cunt still fluttering around his fingers as he slowed down the way they pumped in and out of you. He heard you swear when he finally pulled them away, slick with your release, sliding them into his mouth as if hiding the evidence.
Your eyes finally met Steveâs when you turned and flopped onto the bed next to him, mattress shifting as you both panting, chests heaving. He turned to find you already staring, eyes wide and cheeks flushed the prettiest colour, almost matching his own.
âHoly fucking shit,â you managed on a gasp.
âTold you,â he managed to say, fighting to keep the smile of his lips.
âWhat?â You frowned at him, wondering what on earth he wanted to say to you after that. He still looked like your best friend, still sounded like him too. Maybe just a little more smug. âTold me what?â
Steve took the time to push his finger into his mouth once more, enjoying the way your face burned, lips falling open as you watched, unblinking. He let his tongue wrap around it, chasing what was left of your taste until he let it go with a dirty pop.
âSweetest girl in this fucking town,â he said.
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no body, no crime | Coriolanus Snow | v.
Your childhood friend returns from his exile in district 12, but he's not the sweet, quiet boy you once knew anymore.
Warnings: NON-CON, Plinth!Reader, Gaslighting, Drugging, Murder, Forced Marriage, Forced Pregnancy, Loss of Virginity, Somnophilia
This is a dark story. Heed warnings before reading under the cut.
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Grandmaâamâs dissonant notes fill your room as you lie on the bed. The old womanâs wobbly soprano has been the background noise to your awakening this early morning.
At least it diverted you from your dire thoughts.
You rose with low spirits, defeated. You didnât dare leave the cover of the warm blankets.
Youâve stared at the ceiling for so long, the flower patterns have morphed into smudges of pale color swirling in your vision. Itâs all you did the entire morning. Stare at the ceiling while awful thoughts collide in your head. Perhaps for hours. Youâre not sure. Time has been a foggy concept as of late.
You canât even remember when everything started spinning out of control. The beginning of your unraveling.
The day before Coryo held you as you wept in his arms. For a while, in the warmth of his embrace, the uproar in your head fell silent.
Now itâs all noise again. Chaos. You have no desire to climb out of bed, face the day. Perhaps it makes you a bad guest. But hiding is easier. So itâs exactly what you elect to do.
Hiding until it becomes an impossibility.
Or until the door knocks in that case.Â
The sound startles you.Â
You donât answer. Instead, you burrow yourself further beneath the sheets.Â
The knock starts again. Stubbornly, you ignore it.
âIâm coming in,â a familiar, airy voice announces.
The creaking of the door reaches you and your brows crumple. A slight weight plops on the mattress, making it dip under you. You freeze, willing yourself to remain still.Â
A delicate perfume hangs in the air. Guilt seeps through you. Itâs not like sheâs done anything to you. If anything, sheâs been kind. Itâs about the hot layer of shame that has grown thick roots into your being.
Her gentle lilt flutters above you.
âI wonât move until you talk to me; Iâm worried.â
You gnaw on your lip. The seconds stretch to minutes, arduously long, seemingly endless as she remains on your bed. It dawns on you how deadly serious the older of the Snow cousins is. She will not go away until you speak to her.
Besides, your motherâs voice echoes somewhere in your head. Your behavior is ill-fitted for a lady. Here you are, a guest in someone elseâs house, acting like a petulant child.
Though you balk at the prospect, itâs time to face the world.
You huff out a quiet sigh under your breath before peeking above the blanket.Â
âTigris,â you mumble.Â
Her thin blonde brows are pinched.Â
âYou missed breakfast,â she notes. She tilts her head, scrutinizing you as her frown deepens. âFirst dinner, now breakfast. Itâs becoming a habit.â
Concern glimmers in her honey orbs. Your chest squeezes. The last thing you want is for someone else to feel terrible. You push the blanket further away from you, sitting up as a contrite smile tugs your lips.Â
âSorry.â
Tigrisâ slender fingers latch onto your forearm.Â
âDonât apologize. Just keep me company today.â
You attempt to deflect, âWhat about Coryo?â
The blonde releases a deep exhale, crossing her arms in frustration. Youâve gazed upon a similar crease on Coriolanusâ face before.
âHe barely has time for me these days. Between his work with Dr Gaul, the University andâŠâ A small smile plays on her lips as her voice trails off. âYou of course.â Your cheeks heat at her implication. Of course, youâre aware of Coriolanusâ dedication to showing up for you as of late. But it never occurred to you that it could impede on Tigrisâ time with him. It saddens you.
From what you recall of the glimpses of them you caught growing up, there was a time the two Snow cousins were inseparable. After all, ever since they were young, Tigris has been everything to him. A mother, a sister, a best friend. It was clear on Coriolanusâ face too. Fondness was etched on his face whenever he looked at his cousin.Â
She leans over you, her tone pleading.
âCome on, I really need a friend, and something tells me you do too.â
Shoulders sagging in surrender, you concede, âIâll get dressed.â
She leaps to her feet, a victorious smile breaking onto her face.
âIâll have the maid bring you some food before we go,â she sings. âWhenâs the last time you ate anyways?â
You purse your lips, shocked at the realization of how long itâs been since your last meal, eating having toppled to the bottom of your list of priorities the last two days.
You give an honest reply.
âIâŠcanât remember.â
Concern scrunches Tigrisâ angular features once more. She then takes her leave and you glumly get ready for the day.
Food is brought up to your room. You nibble down every bite of cheese, bread and eggs until youâre full.
You find the massive trunk Coriolanus had the staff carry up to your room. You marvel as you peer inside, rummaging in search of an outfit for the day. His thoughtfulness astounds you. You donât deserve a friend like Coryo.
Once youâve removed your night robe, it pools at your feet. Your stomach sinks at the sight of your bare form. Bruises still speckle your skin. They are starting to fade but the ones on your hips and thighs are still quite prominent. The thought of Coryo touching you this way crosses your mind and you shudder.Â
You know you shouldnât feel this way.
Itâs like your friend said. Itâs better that it was him than some stranger with nefarious intentions. After all, you were both drunk. You both didnât mean for it to happen. Itâs obvious Coriolanus is as inconvenienced by this as you are.Â
You should move on, let the incident scatter amidst the unfortunate mistakes of youth. Itâs what common sense dictates. Otherwise guilt will chew you to the bone.
But you canât.Â
Every time you think of that night, youâre unsettled, an inkling of wrong humming through you.
It haunts you. Though you wished it didnât.
The remainder of the morning is spent with Tigris. The two of you scour the city in search of various fabrics and items her boss, Fabricia Whatnot, asks her to collect.Â
Itâs a nice change of scenery and you welcome it.
You even get to see Tigris work on a dress, a magnificent wedding gown whose sight stirs a bittersweet feeling within you. It reminds you that your own dress was ruined, a matter youâve yet to solve.Â
âŠIf thereâll even still be a wedding.Â
As the afternoon sun crests to a scorching peak in the bright blue sky, she offers to stop by a cafĂ© which you readily accept. You both sit beneath a wide umbrella on the outdoor terrace.Â
You take small bites of your petit fours, the sugar melting on your tongue providing much needed comfort.
âDoes your grandmother do this every morning?âÂ
Tigrisâ lips pause above the rim of her porcelain cup, her honey gaze widening at your question. Realization then lights up her face.
âOh, the singing? Yes, almost.â A fond smile spreads onto her thin lips. âGrandmaâam likes to reminisce about the glory days of our family, you knowâŠbefore the war.â
Your brows furrow.
The glory days...
Could the days before the war truly be referred to as that? The people of the Districts were forced to serve the ever-growing needs of the Capitol citizens, reaping no benefits from their hard work and being kept docile by the perpetual threat of execution.
Exactly like now.
You hardly see the glory in that. Maybe for the victors, the ones who get to stand atop the mountain while others try to claw their way up from the bottom until their hands bleed.
But, as usual, you donât voice your treasonous thoughts, simply nodding in response.
Tigris and you both relish the comfortable silence for a while. She doesnât urge you to talk and youâre grateful for that. Idle talk is an arduous task when constant worries gnaw at your mind.
While she may not know the depth of your predicament, you appreciate that Tigris picks up enough not to prod.
âItâs nice here, isnât it?â she says. âQuiet. I like to come here when I need a moment to myself.â
Your gaze roams across the luxurious garden near the cafĂ©. You get lost in admiring the pretty flowers and the swan fountain. It reminds you of your own garden, your beloved roses, probably withering from neglect. Youâll need to tend to them soon.
âItâs beautiful,â you admit. You nibble on your bottom lip before your eyes find hers. âIâm sorry for beingâŠdifficult this morning.â
Tigrisâ shoulders heave as she replies nonchalantly, âItâs quite alright.â Mirth sparkles in her amber orbs. âIâm sorry for dragging you all over Panem to run those errands.â
You give a small smile. âItâs fine. I enjoyed the distraction.â
You look down and fiddle with your napkin, arranging it in different positions several times in your lap.
âIs something the matter?â
Tigrisâ abrupt inquiry makes your head snap up.
You hesitate beneath her compassionate stare. After a long, quiet minute, your shoulders slump.
âI just loathe that I am such a burden to you and Coryo,â you mumble.
Tigris tilts her head, genuine confusion scrunching her features. âA burden? Donât be ridiculous. You could never be that to me...â Her slender hand reaches across the table to drape over yours. âAnd even less to Coryo.â
A wry chuckle leaves your lips. âWell, heâs got better things to do than taking care of me.â
She shakes her head.
âTaking care of you is a pleasure to my cousin.â
You wince. âI very much doubt that.â
Tigrisâ head lowers, her hand rising to her mouth to dampen her chortle.
âWhatâs so funny?â you ask, frowning.
âItâs justâŠyou really donât see how much youâre changing him?â She studies you momentarily before heaving out a long exhale. âCan you keep a secret?â
âOf course,â you reply immediately. She smiles.
âI havenât seen him focus on something other than his ambitions in so longâŠnot the way he focuses on you.â
Your jaw hangs slack at her admission.
She pauses, seeming to mull over her next words. âCoryoâŠwhen he returned from his service in District 12, he was so different. I thought all the warmth in him was gone, that he was becoming like my uncle.â A distant, sad look dims her eyes. âA cold, calculated man. But when heâs around youâŠ" Fondness illuminates her face while she gauges you. "I donât know, it's almost like heâs back to his old self. The little boy I knew, sweet and caring. My little Coryo.â
Her fingers tighten around yours as she beams. âYouâre good for him, so donât worry about being a burden. It couldnât be further from the truth.â
Tears of relief almost spill from your eyes at that but you swallow them.
Instead, you return her smile. It may have been at the behest of your dead brother but you couldnât deny how comforting Coriolanusâ presence has been, his friendship the silver lining above somber clouds. Coryo is the only one who gladly listens when you talk about Sejanus and how much it aches that heâs not there anymore, his passing having left a void that can never be filled. Itâs too painful for your mother and your dadâs in plain denial. If it werenât for Coryo, grief would have eaten you alive, youâre certain of it.Â
Itâs hard to picture your life without him in it now, in some form or another. In fact, you donât think you even want to. You may have lost a brother but the gods were merciful and granted you another.
After you leave the cafĂ©, you and Tigris take a leisurely stroll through the Capitolâs streets. The talk you had with her rejuvenated you. For the first time since that awful night at Clemensiaâs, you feel a bit more like yourself.Â
All is well until someone strides out of a bakery, someone you know too well. The sight of the familiar face freezes you in your spot.Â
Your eyes then lock from across the street. You watch the recognition dawn on his face.Â
He starts making his way towards you.Â
A surge of panic bleeds inside you. You briskly grab Tigrisâ hand.
âLetâs go,â you urge, already pulling her in the other direction.Â
âWaitâŠwhat?â Befuddled, Tigris lets you drag her along as you start racing through the streets.
You donât dare look behind you, your heart thundering inside your chest.Â
You dive into a busy street. The crowd cloaks you as you zigzag between bodies. Strangers give you dirty looks but you donât care, focused on running as far away from who you saw as you can.Â
You and Tigris end up in a narrow alleyway, catching your breaths behind a dumpster.Â
You shoot worried glances at the other end of the alleyway. You lost him, you realize. A strange blend of emotions fills you, every single one carving a larger hole inside your chest.
âWho was that?â Tigris asks between uneven breaths.
Shame swells within you as your gaze lands on the cobblestoned floor.
âMy fiancĂ©,â you reply.
âHey.â Your head lifts from your knees, your eyes traveling to the blond head peeking through the slight opening of the door.
Concerned cobalt orbs study you. You avoid his scrutiny by focusing on a random spot on the bed sheets. He enters the room. As he sits at the edge of the bed, you bring your legs closer to your chest.
His soft tone breaks through your hazy train of thoughts. âTigris told me what happened.â
You unleash a shaky breath before finally meeting his gaze.
âIâm a coward,â you say.
His hand rises to cradle your jaw, his thumb collecting an errant tear you didnât even realize had spilled over. âYouâre not a coward,â he assures.
Your lip wobbles. Of course you are. You saw William, your own fiancĂ©, and ran away from him. Who does that? An idiot and a coward. But you didnât know what else to do. You panicked. When his beautiful green eyes locked with yours, all you could think about was those same eyes filled with hate and betrayal if he ever learnt what you did.
âI am,â you affirm.
Coriolanus strokes the side of your face, his tone growing firmer, âItâs a tough situationâŠâ
His sentence is halted by a loud banging downstairs.Â
Your eyes go wide.
âWhatâs that?â
The faint echo of your name being yelled from outside reaches you. Your heart leaps as Coryoâs features go taut, his jaw clenching.
His lips stretch in a tense smile.
âI'll go check. Stay here.â
âIâll come.â
You jump from bed and make a beeline for the door. He tries to placate you by holding your shoulders, blocking the exit with his towering frame.
âPrincess, I donât think-â
You glower at him. You canât run forever.
âYou canât stop me, Coryo.â
Tension hangs in the air for some minutes, thick and electric, before he relents with a deep sigh, âAlright.â
Heart in your throat, you take slow steps down the stairs. Coryo trails behind you in silence.
Your nameâs uttered again, the door rattling as he bangs against it. You flinch.
Trembling feet drag to the front door. Your hand spreads over the wooden carving. You take a deep breath before hesitant words stumble out of you.
âWilliam, you canât be here.â
âI love you. Of course I should be here.âÂ
Unwavering determination vibrates in his tone. Guilt flares within you. You swallow the impending rush of tears. You donât deserve him. Heâs good, kind, honestâŠand youâre a liar.
âI saw you with that girl, Snowâs cousin. Talk to me, baby, please.â
âI just need a little time...alone.â
âWhat? Is this about the wedding preparations? Is it your parents?â He sounds confused and hurt. Your heart wrenches. Youâre hurting him. Itâs exactly what you meant to avoid. âWhatever it is, we can fix it. We can face anything as long as weâre together.â
The desperation thickens in his voice.
âCome out. I just want to see your face, please.â
âIâŠâ
Your fingers hover above the gold door knob. But your hand is snatched by long, stern digits before it can fully wrap around the handle. Coryo tugs you away from the door. You gasp as his deep voice resonates in the lobby.Â
âYou need to leave her be. She told you she needs space, William,â he says.
âSnow!â A mirthless chuckle ripples from the other side. âI knew it had to be you somehow.â You leap as the hinges of the door shake as Williamâs fists slam against it once more. âWhat did you do to her?â
Tears well up in your eyes.Â
âRight now, itâs you thatâs hurting her,â Coriolanus says, his fingers curling around yours. âWhat kind of husband-to-be doesnât respect his future wifeâs wishes?â
Your brows collide. You wish he didnât speak like that. After all, youâre the one at fault. But fear keeps the words chained to your throat.
âI just need to see her, please,â William insists.
Your stomach lurches. This is insane. Your fiancĂ© is on the other side of the door and you wonât let him see you.
Maybe Williamâs right. Maybe talking to him will fix everything.
You sniffle and wipe your tears. You take a solid stride towards the door again, fingers ready to open it.Â
âI think I should, just for a few minutes.â
Your decision is made but Coryoâs hand cinches around your wrist. This time his hold is much firmer, on the cusp of painful in fact.Â
You grimace as he draws you away from the door, near the stairs.
He bends over you to whisper hotly, âTo tell him what, princess?â Angling your chin upward, he sighs. âThat you gave me something you denied him all this time? After just a few drinks?â Heat nestles in your cheeks. It is true. Both you and him got near that point so often, but you were adamant about waiting for your wedding night. It was your excuse every time. You doubt heâd take it well if you told him what occurred. While you want to believe your relationship will survive it, Coriolanusâ words are tossing fuel on every insecurity within you. Your confidence wavers, your hand sagging in his hold.
Coriolanusâ intense blue gaze is hard on you as he continues, his raspy tone low and foreboding, âOr perhaps, youâll make up a lie? You really think he won't see it on your face?â A contrite expression settles on his handsome features. âYou wear your emotions on your sleeves. Heâll know right away.â His thumb sweeps over your cheek to wipe a lone, stray tear. âWilliam seems like a good man, but such a betrayalâŠitâd break the two of you before you even began.â He leans closer, his lips ghosting over your earshell. âHe will never forgive you.â
All hope shrivels inside you, the last remnants you still held onto crumbling to dust.
You almost made a mistake. Of course Coryoâs right.Â
âDo you trust me?âÂ
You give a frantic nod, releasing a shuddering sob.
He smiles at your response.
âThen go upstairs,â he instructs. âIâll talk to him, fix everything.â
Seeing you linger at the bottom of the stairs, longing gaze darting to the door, Coriolanus squeezes your hand in reassurance.
âDonât worry, princess. Iâm going to make sure you still get to have a wedding at the end of this.â His smile grows wide. âI promise you.â
You search his face. Confidence radiates from his expression, planting the belief that heâs right deep within you. You shouldnât have doubted him. Coriolanus has gone to great lengths to help you. Even now, heâs protecting your future. Itâs more than one should ask of a friend, yet heâs doing it for your sake.
âThank you,â you say. His hand slackens around yours, a satisfied glint dancing in his cobalt gaze. You rush up the stairs, not daring to look back in fear you falter once more.
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Nothing But A Dream
summary: you've agreed to take things slow with astarion, only partaking in nighttime activities when he specifically desires them, and this morning, he wants you, but he would hate to intrude on your precious beauty sleep.
rating: E
word count: 1.6k
pairing: astarion x you (fem!reader)
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Ever since defeating the Absolute, youâve been enjoying your quiet life in the Underdark with Astarion. You agreed to take things slow when it comes to sex; he still wanted to experience this with you, but he needed time to feel truly like himself when being intimate. It wasnât an issue for you, and you were open to take as much time as needed and indulge him in anything he wanted to try, whenever he wanted to, for as long as he didnât feel pressured by it. You knew how important this was for him, after the discussion you had following the defeat of Cazador, and the last thing you wanted was to make him uncomfortable.Â
Even though he wouldnât admit it out loud yet, you sensed how he enjoyed the proximity you shared without the pressure of sex. Itâs in the way he allowed himself to relax when he was with you, as you laid close on the sofa while you were both reading, or how he insisted to wash your hair and style it afterwards â it drives him crazy how little care you give it â when you were taking baths together, so he could look at you like you were his masterpiece, but what he told you he preferred were those lazy mornings cuddling in bed naked. He would lay over your chest, skin to skin, listening to the lulling melody of your soft heartbeat. Finding comfort in your warmth reminded him of the sunâs embrace that he missed dearly. Those were the moments he cherished the most, where he was able to see you being at your most vulnerable, on display, just for him.Â
You were a heavy sleeper, and with no real responsibilities anymore, you allowed yourself to sleep-in way more often than you used to (you deserved it, after all, who would blame the Saviour of Baldurâs Gate for indulging in a little respite). Itâs not something Astarion was able to do, but he had no reason to get up on his own and do anything else. What point would there be of doing anything without you, the very reason he kept on living? This morning was no exception, as you laid bare in the warmth of your bed with Astarion hugging you from behind.
As you slightly move half-awake, you feel his hand ghosting over your hips, and eventually cupping your tender breasts. You happily moan into his touch, loving how his grip held all of you ever so perfectly. It wasnât necessarily sexual when he did it, rather comforting â as much for him than for you â and you loved how he cradled you as if you were going to slip out from his grasp at any moment, holding on tight to you. There was one thing that felt different today, but in the bliss of your slumber, you werenât able to quite put your finger on it. You hum, checking in on him as you feel him grab onto you rougher than usual, with his nails digging into the soft skin of your boobs.
âSo sorry dear, I didnât mean to wake you,â he says, his voice deep, as if he himself had just woken up.Â
âMh, you okay?â You mumble, still in limbo.
âEverything is just fine darling,â he kisses your shoulder softly. âGo back to sleep.â
Astarionâs honeyed voice in the crook of your neck brings you comfort and you find yourself following his words, nuzzling into your pillow as you back up into him further, seeking for more contact from him. In your dazed state, you think you can hear him growl softly, and you pay it no mind at first, until you feel something poke harder at your back and his hot breath upon your shoulder. This, along with his hand kneading your breast constantly, have you feeling a warmth pool to the bottom of your stomach that was becoming difficult to ignore. You try to shift around in your dazed state only to find Astarion holding you tightly in place, stopping you from moving at all.
â âstarion?â You mutter, as you finally awaken.
âShh, youâre alright, love,â he purrs, his voice but a whisper.
âWhat are youâ ahâ!â
His hand leaves your boobs to sneak down between your legs, sliding between your folds to find the dampness thatâs been accumulating there.
âArenât you the neediest little thing,â he groans, his voice becoming darker as his fingers lazily massage over your clit. âYou can relax, dear, I just need you to stay still now.â
The stimulation heâs been providing between your legs finally stirs you completely awake, hazy from his touch. He slides his cock just between your folds and thatâs when you realize what the firmness in your back was. Instinctively, you spread your legs apart to help him ease in, wanting him to go further, but he closes your thighs back together, uttering in a raspy voice.
âTsk tsk, I said relax. You need not do anything.â
âAre you sure about this?â You manage to say through your breathy voice.
âVery much so,â his other hand wraps around your throat pulling you back, only applying a light pressure around your neck and a whimper escapes you. âNow, be good for me, will you, darling?â
You nod, as much as you can with his hand around you, and close your eyes, letting him use you as he sees fit. His hand over your waist holds your legs tightly together, as he slides his length between your legs, getting his cock wet from your folds. His rhythm starts slow as he gets accustomed to the sensation, and the friction it creates has you panting, as your own pleasure builds up.
"Oh doll, are you enjoying me using you in your sleep? How depraved," he growls and you feel yourself getting soaked from the sound of his voice and his shaft sliding over your entrance.
It had been so long since you had been intimately close, you had almost forgotten the surprising size of him. You wanted nothing but for him to slide inside of you and indulge in his carnal desires, to use and defile you as if you were nothing but a toy to him, but you let him completely take the reins on this one, let him reclaim his sexual and bodily autonomy the way he chose to, and this morning, it involved fucking you while you were asleep, without you moving as much as a muscle. He chose to focus on his own needs, and in doing so, you discovered a new form of pleasure.
You hear him grunt as his thrust become more erratic, with his nails digging inside the soft skin of your hips, and the wet sounds of your juices slipping over his cock between your legs, and although this was meant for him to focus on his own pleasure, having him handle you this way after many weeks apart brought you close to your edge just as fast as he did. You find yourself contracting the muscles of your thighs together, squeezing around his shaft tighter and at the same time, providing additional stimulation to your clit
âGodsâ ah, you feel too good, dear, I wonât last much longer,â he breathes behind you, his growling turning primal now, making him almost unrecognizable. âCan I slide inside of you? Itâll just be the tip, please, I need to feel you.â
Youâre not even sure if he heard the âyesâ you barely manage to voice out, when you feel him plunge inside of you in one strong push, your pussy offering little to no resistance in the state it is.
âFuckkk, I've missed how you feel wrapped around me,â he groans. âSo sorry love, I simply canât resist your cunt when it's drooling for me like that,â he resumes his thrusts into you, nearing the point of his own climax, when he hears you whimpering. âYou've been so good for me, I just need you to hold on a bit longer. Can you do that for me, my sweet?â
Youâre way past the point of answering, reduced to small cries and gasps as he rams recklessly into your needy cunt. When you hear him whine your name, you clench around him, hit by the waves of your orgasm. As your walls tighten around him, he finally stills inside, pushing your hips flush against his to shoot his seed deep inside your womb. You feel his cock pulsing inside of you as he unloads himself and the sensation sends an additional wave of electricity through your body.
Youâre both left as panting messes, bathing in a mix of your combined sweat and come as you come down from your high. He rests with his forehead against your shoulder as he catches his breath.
âWouldnât want to make a mess here, itâd be better if I just stayed inside you, donât you think?â He says between breaths, and you hum, your voice still out for the count, as he smiles behind you. âI thought so. Now, I believe you have a beauty sleep you need to catch up on, you should try to rest a bit more before we face the day.â
Even if you wanted to get up, you wouldnât have been able to, as this session got you as tired as if you had never slept in the first place. He snuggles back into the position he initially was, with the additional embrace your cunt was providing around him, and leaves a loving kiss over your shoulder, nuzzling into your neck. As you close your eyes, ready to drift back into a deep slumber, he whispers softly:
âThank you, my love.â
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One week ago today the Supreme Court issued its landmark decision in U.S. v. Trump, creating a monarchial presidency the likes of which the founders would have taken up arms against. The courtâs response to an attempted auto-coup by a defeated president who is poised to potentially regain office in a matter of weeks was to carve out vast new areas of presidential immunity and invent new rules of evidence that no one was even arguing about yet â but to do so with no clear standards or bright lines, reserving to itself the considerable power to set them later or not set them at all and decide things as it sees fit on a case-by-case basis where it can craft its own preferred outcomes. And yet ⊠the biggest national political story since then has not been the Supreme Courtâs unilateral rebalancing of the Constitutionâs separation of powers in favor of Donald Trumpâs short-term criminal defense and long-term political power, but rather Joe Bidenâs decline with age and his fitness to defeat Trump in the November election. Historians will struggle to make sense of this week because itâs impossibly surreal for those of us living through it.
What An Utterly Surreal Week In American Politics
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Not Drinking For a Fun Time
fem*Reader x Bang Chan
*WARNING*
contains: p n v, sex, unprotected sex, kissing, TENSION, straight up delulu, grinding, oral (fem receiving), I'm sure I missed something; let me know in the comments.
WC: 8.7k
a/n: not gonna lie, I'm super nervous because this is my first ever "long fic" that I'm posting and I'm not sure how ya'll will react. This started out as a fluff story and we only meant to be a couple hundred words or so...and then it escalated. Also, my requests are open so if you have an idea and want me to play it out please do not be afraid to send me an ask, I'll pretty much anything fluff, scenario....the dirtier the better hehe
Synopsis: âIâm not a performer, and Iâm not a singer. I canât entertain people. What makes you think I can lie to them?â ⊠this was the goal. Lie to the public about a relationship between you and Chris, but there was no relationship
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You're at the bar. Sulking. Wishing you were at home but longing for another drink. Your day couldnât be worse, from the emotional rollercoaster youâve been on to all the little things that ticked you off in the worst ways.Â
The bartender rests another glass in front of you, the cold liquid reflecting the bar's dim light. âOn the house,â he gestures to the drink. You nod your head in thanks and lazily grab the drink. Youâve already had enough to make your mind foggy, but not foggy enough. The events of today keep replaying in your head.Â
âYouâll need to cooperate with us, Ms.L/N.â The shock is evident in not only your face but your tone as well.Â
âCooperate? You're asking me to be someone that Iâm not.â Your chest heaves with anger, and your mind runs miles with adrenaline.Â
âY/N, please,â Chris coos. You whip your head around to meet the leader's and the group's defeated eyes. They have their heads hung low, still trying to process the information given in the meeting.Â
âIâm not a performer, and Iâm not a singer. I canât entertain people. What makes you think I can lie to them?â ⊠this was the goal. Lie to the public about a relationship between you and Chris, but there was no relationship. In fact, you didnât know any of the members from Stray Kids.Â
You didnât know any of them until you started working in the same building as them. Youâd pass them by in the halls, nodding in acknowledgment. One day, you were just off, stressed from all the work and frustrated that nothing was working.Â
Chris noticed and asked if you were okay, being the amazing person he is. His comfort eased your stress, but anyone from afar could have mistaken his comfort for something else. The next thing you knew, pictures of you and Chris were plastered on every face of social media. Hell, you were even on the news.
Everyone was terrified that the public would react negatively and you wouldnât be allowed to step a foot out of your own house, but it was the opposite. People swooned over your fake relationship and the idea that Chris had found someone that made him happy, but none of that was true.Â
The sting of the liquid slides down your throat, and the bitter aftertaste makes your face scrunch. However, the foggy effects of the drink quickly fade your feelings. You notice a few snickers behind you, a pair of girls whispering and staring holes into the back of your head. You ignore them as much as possible while taking another small sip of your drink.Â
Am I being overdramatic? Should I just go with what they are saying? People already think so, anyway. Thoughts cloud your mind, and you're entirely oblivious to the man who sneakily slides into the stool next to you. You turn your eyes to him and notice the ball cap that covers his face and the oversized black hoodie that hugs his body casually.Â
He lifts his head to meet your eyes, and you're welcomed with soft brown eyes. You sighâŠand groan simultaneously, taking another sip of your drink. âIâm not drinking for a fun time, Mr. Bahng.âÂ
âThen Iâm not either.â he raises his finger, indicating a bottle. The bartender quickly sets a bottle of Soju on the counter along with a shot glass.Â
You both sit there in silence as Chris pours a single shot. He swings his head back, taking the shot with ease.Â
âWhat are you doing here Bahng?â your voice mimics defeat.Â
âDrinking,â his voice is anything but defeat or sympathy. In fact, it almost sounds⊠optimistic. Your blood boils. How is he not angry, confused, or at least unhappy with the situation? You look at him with disgust.
You scoff under your breath, paying attention back to your glass, âI canât believe you.â
âCanât believe what?â he questions.
âI canât believe you have no reaction. I canât believe you're not angry. They are asking for us to be in a fake relationship, and you're not the least bit affected,â you whisper, careful not to let anyone hear.Â
âI am angry, but not in the way you thinkâ he turned his body to you. âIâm angry that you're in this situation. You didnât ask for this, but here we are.âÂ
âI donât think I can do this.â You lean forward, caging your head in your hands. Tears are threatening to spill. I canât lie to the world when I donât even want this. I donât want to lie. I want to be able to date and have fun, not be caged to some contract just because someone mistook comfort for something else. I canât have people watch my every move, just waiting for me to make the simplest mistake.Â
âNot by yourself, you canât,â his words lift your head slowly, and your body hangs low in front of you.Â
âI donât even know you.â
âThat will come with time. Look, I wonât force you into this; no one will. But you need to know that things have already escalated, and if we donât do something soon, they will continue to escalate. Yes, this is a solution, a messy one, but a solution.â The earnestness in his eyes makes your heart warm and the tears swell. âAnd you need to know, you're not doing this alone. I might be a stranger, but Iâm here, and the guys say Iâm a pretty good listener.â his last comment makes you chuckle as a single tear escapes you, rolling down your cheek. Chris instinctively reaches his hand to catch the tear on your cheek; his thumb delicately wipes the salty liquid off your cheek. The touch is simple but sweet, and you hate the way his touch electrifies your whole body. Your eyes meet, gentle brown eyes and a deep dimple smile.Â
Your heart fills with an unfamiliar warmth, but it's welcomedâŠ.slightly. Maybe this wonât be as bad as you might think.Â
They did offer money, and there's a contract, so does the risk really outweigh the means? Your mind is fighting to keep up with what's morally right and what you want. What do you want?Â
You do the one thing youâve always done: count to three in your head, breathe a long, deep breath, and say the first thing that comes to mind. âOkay.â You stare into Chrisâs eyes, pleading for him to understand your hesitance. âIâll do it.âÂ
Chris breathes out a sigh of relief, and you can physically see his body relax on the stool. He takes out his hand, waiting for you to shake it. He gives you a look and raises his eyebrows. It makes you laugh, but regardless, you shake his hand. âThank you, Y/N.âÂ
âNo problem, Mr.Bahng,â you spin in your chair and back to your drink.
âPlease, call me Chris,â he nudges your shoulder playfully.Â
What could possibly go wrong?Â
*******
3 weeks go by after you agreed to be in this fake relationship. A contract was signed, and rules were in place, but that didnât stop your nerves from crawling all over your body.Â
âOkay, run this by me one more time so that I understand completely.âÂ
Stray Kids' head of marketing sits comfortably at the end of the table, scanning you and Chris.Â
You and Chris, it's hard to think about. Since youâve both agreed to this, youâve gotten closer and become close friends. Itâs hard to imagine that you barely even knew each other weeks ago, but now, heâs your closest friend, closer than anyone else.Â
âThe press and fans love your relationship; it's actually boosting ratings. Ever since we announced your ârelationship,ââ she air quotes the word, âyour fans have been more active.â
You donât know how to feel; you're glad that the band is getting more attention, but you're also a little nervous. I mean, how long is this little ruse supposed to go on for? âWhy do I feel like there is a âbutâ coming?âÂ
âBut, your fans are asking more and more questions. When did you meet? Are you two living together? How involved are you?â She directs each question to you as if you know all the answers.Â
âSo what can we do to ease the questions? Surely, no one can expect us to keep this up forever.â Youâre thankful Chris can read your mind.Â
The marketing head and everyone else in the room hold their breaths. The silence makes your heart thump and sink, âyou are, aren't you?â The laugh that escapes you is humorless and breathy. âYou are expecting us to keep this up, at least for as long as we can, until someone starts raising eyes, but even then, youâll probably come up with some way to puppet us out of it.âÂ
Chris looks from you to the marketing head, waiting for someone to answer your accusation. âWell, is that true?â Youâre both met with more silence, answering both of your questions. He scoffs next to you, joining you in your humorless acts. âWell, what's your solution then?âÂ
There has to be a catch to all of this. âWe suggest that you bothâŠâ she pauses, eyes screaming with concern, âstart saying that you live together.âÂ
âJust start saying this publicly? That's all?â You wait for the answer to Chrisâs question, but when their marketing professional meets your eye with a weary look, you already know it.
âNo, they want us to live together and show it off,â you answer Chris before the head of marketing can speak.Â
Chris is fuming beside you; this wasnât a part of the deal, âBut the contract-âÂ
âThe contract states that both of you will keep up this act under any means necessary.â she pauses for a moment, âif the public sees that you are both happy and moving forward, thereâs a very good possibility that theyâll be content and move onto another form of gossip. We need to show them that you're both just moving forward like a normal couple.â She tries to make sense of it, even though as you replay her words in your mind, they seem crazier and crazier. You and Chris share the same look of disapproval, but if they were right about this fake relationship, why wouldnât they be right about anything else? âWe just need to keep this act up until something better comes along,â she continues, directing her last comment directly at you, âI promise this will all be over soon. No idol can escape drama of some kind.â
You hang on desperately to her last words, which brings you here and now, moving the last box of your stuff into a small apartment the company paid for. At least you're not spending any real money on all this. You set your box down on the kitchen counter, clapping your hands. âFinally,â you breathe.Â
You walk around the kitchen counter and into the living room. There's a large couch in the middle and two hallways on either side of the living room. One leads to Chrisâs room and the other to yours. It's a small apartment, but it works for your situation. Chris had already moved his stuff into his room; you havenât seen much of him.Â
You saunter down the hall to your bedroom and collapse onto your bed. Suddenly, your phone starts to ring. You answer without looking at the caller ID, âHi honey, how are you?â.
âHey Ama, Iâm good, how is Appa?â the smile reaches your ears as you talk endlessly with your mother. The second this whole thing started, the first thing you did was call your mother. Hearing her encouraging words made the whole ordeal a little less nerve-racking. You couldnât lie to your mother, the rest of the worldâŠmaybe, but not her.Â
After an hour, you hang up the phone with your mom, bidding her a goodnight. âJesus, it's late.â You look out into the cold night sky, guessing you kind of lost track of time.Â
You get up from your spot on your bed and hurriedly get dressed into your sleepwear until your stomach pains with the feeling of being empty. Hunger overwhelms you as you make your way out to the kitchen quietly. You're wearing an oversized sweater and shorts, with your hair up in a messy bun as you enter the kitchen to find Chris eating cereal. âDonât tell me thatâs your dinner.âÂ
âHey! I will let you know that this is a perfectly normal late-night snack,â Chris says between mouthfuls. Heâs wearing a black tank top, showing off his defined arms and grey sweatpants. It's so casual, but why does it make him look so hot?Â
It makes you chuckle and shake your head, and you slowly make your way to the middle of the kitchen.Â
The one word to describe the air in the room right now is awkward. What do you do? Do you act like heâs not there and just go about making food? Do you take a snack into your room and leave him be? Maybe he's hungry, but is asking to make him some food too much?Â
Chris sees the gears turning in your head, âdo you want something to eat?â He asks.
âOh, Um. Yeah, but Iâm not sure what to make just yet.â You fiddle with your sleeve.
âThere's ramen in the cabinets and cereal in the other one. Iâm not sure what's in the fridge, but Iâm sure there's some fruit if youâd like.â You nod your head, thinking of what you're craving. âBut we can always order something if you're craving something specific?âÂ
Heâs so kind. It's the same kindness he showed that fateful day when someone mistook that kindness for something more intimate. You smile at the thought. âFruit sounds good.â You walk over to the fridge and scan its contents. You settle on some strawberries, take the plastic box, and run it through the sink. You donât know how hungry you really are, so instead of wasting a plate and taking it to your room, you settle on just plucking each strawberry out of the plastic container.Â
*Chris*Â
Chris watches as you wrap your plump lips around each strawberry; his mind spins with different ideas. He thinks of your lips wrapping around his finger, your tongue twirling around his digit. He thinks of his cock springing free and your hand pumping him to full length while your mouth hangs low in anticipation. He leans forward, guiding himself across your waiting tongueâŠ
âSo why are you up so late?â Your comment snaps him out of his fantasies. He tries to shuffle in his spot, making it seem casual when, in reality, his sweats have become uncomfortably tight.Â
âI had some work I needed to finish, and then I got hungry.â he gestures to the now empty bowl, âHow about you?âÂ
âI was on a call with my mom, lost track of time, and then got hungry.â You gesture to the strawberry in your hand and slowly wrap your lips around it. Chris looks down, trying not to stare, but then he swallows a groan when he sneaks a glimpse of your bare legs. Shorts. Sheâs just wearing shorts. Get a hold of yourself.Â
Chris needs to think of something to divert the conversation. It's too awkward right now, and it's not helping when all he can think about is ripping your shorts off.Â
âHo-â
âYo-â
You both speak at the same time. Clearly, you are both trying to make the whole thing a little more comfortable. Both of you chuckle at the realization.Â
âI really hope we can make this whole thing a little less awkward,â Chris says as you start packing the rest of the strawberries and putting the stems in the nearby trash can.Â
âMe too,â you sigh.
âWeâre friends! The only show we have to put on is for the cameraâ
******
This was a shit idea. He canât eat, he canât sleep, he canât function without a single thought leading back to you. And this âruseâ is going on for way too long.Â
It's been 3 months. 3 whole months!Â
But Chris couldnât lieâit's been the best three months. Youâve both gotten so comfortable with each other that youâve dedicated Fridays to movie night. Chris will sometimes bring your coffee order to you just because he knows youâd appreciate it, even if he doesnât drink coffee himself.Â
Youâve gotten to know each other so well and laughed so hard together that it just feels natural.Â
He canât help it. Even before this whole thing happened, heâd always watched you from afar, admired how hard you worked and how beautiful you were. But it was always thatâa distant crush.Â
Until this whole ordeal just planted itself right in his lap. He had to get close to you and take a chance with you. He didnât care if it was fake. It was a chance.Â
But tonight, he was cursing at himself for ever agreeing to this deal in the first place.Â
It had been three months, so the public was starting to ask questions about when they were going to see you at an eventâŠtogether. So, the marketing team decided that a red carpet-event was the perfect time to show you off to the public.Â
Just a few pictures, maybe some conversations, but that's it. Then weâll both be home, and we can just watch a movie. At least, that's what he thought.Â
You both got ready separately because Chris had an interview an hour before the event. He was waiting by the front for your car to pull forward, and that's when you stepped out.Â
His eyes widened, and his breath literally caught in his throat. Your dress was long and elegant, with one strap hanging loosely on your shoulder while the other was bare. It hugged your hips tightly to accentuate your best features. The slit was high, a little higher than youâd prefer, but it matched the theme of the dark red dress. The back of the dress was bare and reached down just before the curve of your ass.Â
Chris took a long, low breath, trying to control the fighting urge inside him. He was staring at the way the dress flowed with every step you took; it was like you were walking on water with how graceful each heel clicked.Â
âWhat?âÂ
He took his eyes off your legs and up to your doe eyes, which were smoky. It makes your eyes bright and glow.Â
âN-nothing. I-â It was hard for him to form words. He knew you were beautiful; he thought about it every day, but he never saw you like this. He always saw you in either comfy clothes or your work clothes, never this. âYou look beautiful.âÂ
He could see the natural blush from underneath your makeup, and he melted at the sight of your smile.Â
âShall we?â Chris held out his arm.
âWe shall.â You took his arm, and he walked you inside the event.Â
Easy peasy.
***
There were endless flashes and pictures, and reporters were screaming from one side to the other. You and Chris were being pulled from one background to another, everyone begging to get a picture of the happy couple. If only they knew.Â
Chris was holding the middle of your back, smiling widely at each camera. Your body shivered from his touch. Surely he could feel the goosebumps across your skin. If he did, he didnât let you know. His previous comment lingered in your mind, and it made your body warm with affection.Â
Heâs wearing a tailored black suit with just the jacket. It was styled so that he didnât need a shirt to complement the jacket. It was high enough to cover everything but low enough to show his muscular chest. He stole your breath awayâthere's no better way to put it.Â
His hold on you could be seen as endearing to the public eye, but you knew his tight hold felt different. It felt possessive. As he guided you from one area to another, his touch became more apparent to you. You could map out the roughness of the pads of his fingers, the feeling of the cold metal from his accessories, and how his palm rested fully on your skin.Â
It sent tingles through your body, tingles you haven't felt in a while.Â
At one point, he guided you to another photographer. Your smile falters, the exhaustion getting to you. Out of the corner of your eye, you could see Chris turn his head to look at you, studying you. You couldnât see if he was smiling. All you could tell was that he was looking at you. The photographers must be eating this up.Â
You focused on trying to keep your smile up until you felt the tip of Chris's finger tilt your chin in his direction. Your eyes meet, and your smile immediately fades. Thinking you did something wrong, you search his eyes, but all you see is warmth. Your worry fades, your lips part, and your mind goes blank. The noise of the photographer fades, the tightness of the dress disappears, and every little thing is gone, the only thing you can hear, see, and breathe is Chris.Â
His eyes wander from you to your lips and back to your eyes, secretly asking for permission. It's for the camera. You tilt in your head, begging for him to lean in. Your tongue darts out to wet your lips as Chris slowly leans in to graze his lips across yours. He presses a little hard to envelop your lips. His tongue slips across your bottom lip, and his hand on your back itches to touch you more.Â
Loud cheers ultimately break up your little moment, and Chris quickly separates his lips from yours. The party mask slips back into action when his dimple smile appears and flashes towards the camera.Â
A few more pictures and smiles and Chris quietly guides you out of the red carpet areaâthe feeling of his soft lips on your own leaves a tattooed memory in your brain. Finally, you and Chris are inside the elegant building. Art decorates each wall, and people mingle around, admiring the work of the artist, sharing conversations, and enjoying the drinks floating around by the staff.Â
âIâm sorry if I overstepped. I thought maybe it would be a good idea for the camera.â Chris is quick to answer any accusation that you didnât have prepared.Â
âOh, yeah, you're right. It was a good move.â You try to seem calm and cool about what just happened. I mean, you are cool with what he did; you just wish it lasted longer. âFor the camera.âÂ
âFor the cameraâ the last few words come out breathy and soft by the both of you, not sure if either of you truly means it.Â
âChris!â shouts of his name come from afar, and you recognize the familiar faces. âGuys!â Chris gives his members a big hug, leaving you to follow close behind. You remember the ones who are here: Hyunjin, Minho, and Felix, all gather to greet Chris.Â
You leave them to get caught up, knowing theyâve missed seeing each other. A waiter comes by, offering you a drink, and you take it with grace. You know there will be a driver taking you home tonight, so why not have a few drinks? You wander around, enjoying the sight of the beautiful art.Â
Colors and interesting figures decorate each canvas. You read each name and study the painting, wanting to understand exactly what the artist was feeling when creating each masterpiece.Â
You stop at a particular painting of a woman. She's surrounded by different shades of black and white, her body covered by just a sheet of cloth. Her bare shoulder and the side of her face are turned away from the view of the audience, seeming like she is trying to hide her naked figure. The cloth in question is splattered with all different shades of red. You examine the title of the piece, âHidden Lust.â
âInteresting painting?â A voice startles you from behind. Chris stands behind you, examining the painting with you.Â
You smile, returning to the painting. âHow are the boys?â
âTheyâre good; they asked about you.â A smirk plays on his lips as he studies the painting alongside you.Â
You hum and examine the brittle strokes of the painting. You both stand there in silence, admiring each delicate brush of paint.Â
Once you hear Chris's steady breathing, all concentration on the painting goes out the window. You can practically feel it on your skin, sending tingles straight to your core. You and Chris stand a mere few inches apart, your hands twitching to touch.Â
All thoughts of how the artist could be portrayed in the painting have left your mind; the only thing that haunts your mind is the feeling of Chrisâs lips on yours. The fainted memory still makes your skin tingle and your core pound with need. Suddenly the breath you have been holding releases with a long sigh, and you can see Chris suck in a breath.Â
Slowly, your head turns in his direction, and Chris does the same. You both hold eye contact for what feels like forever, silently sending each other hidden messages. The air between you is so thick it becomes hard to breathe. Your eyes dart down onto his lips, retaining the memory once again, imagining what his lips would feel like if they were placed on other parts of your body.Â
âThereâs the lucky couple!â your moment is broken once again, and Chris is left to greet more flooding guests. Once again, you're left to wander the wallsâŠalone.Â
***
Where did she go? Heâs been roaming around this building for what feels like hours. If he wasnât stopped every five minutes, maybe he could find you.Â
It's not until he sees the dark, silky color of your dress he finally releases the breath heâs been holding.Â
You're walking away from a painting and venturing off into another room filled with more art. He couldn't care less about the pieces hanging on the walls. He keeps thinking about that kiss.Â
It was meant to be quick, and he meant to slide his thumb right between the two of you so that your lips wouldnât touch. But the moment was too quick, and the camera was too bright, and before he knew it, your lips were touching. It was like kissing a flower petal, light and soft, and he craved more. He wanted to kiss you so that you would kiss back with the same passion he felt inside, but he couldnât do that now, not when everyone was watching. He would take what he could get, even if it was just a small, simple kiss.Â
Leaving the cameras, he could see the confusion on your face, and worry settled in the pit of his stomach. He shouldnât have done that, not without asking you first, not with cameras taking pictures of your every move, not when the whole world was watching. That's why he blurted out the first thing that came to mind.Â
Iâm such an idiot, he thought to himself.Â
Calm and frantic battle in his body with each step he takes to you. This room is filled with sculptures on every corner, and smaller paintings hang. The last few people leave the room so that it's just you and Chris. He sees you studying a sculpture of two people holding each other in an embrace. The two mold together with a shared kiss, and what looks to be water made of stone surrounds them. It's quite beautiful, but the person looking at the art piece is even more stunning. His mind screams with the need to feel your lips on his once again, but he forces himself to stand next to you in silence, pretending as if he cares about the art piece in front of him.Â
âIâm sorry I keep getting pulled away.â He whispers as he slides next to you.Â
âNo need to apologize; you're famous, and people want to meet you.â He can tell youâre holding something back. Heâs only known you for a few months, but it feels like years to him.Â
âStill, I came here with you. I should be at least spending some time with you,â he canât help but look at you, at the way your features react to his words, the way your chest rises and falls as you breathe, and the way your nails pick at each other. You're holding something back, and it's killing him inside. âDid I-... Did I make you uncomfortable⊠with that kiss?â
His question physically takes you aback. He's trying to read you, trying to predict what youâll say next. Everything runs through his mind: you slapping him, you yelling at him, you kissing him-
âNo, of course not.â Chris breathes out a sigh. âIt's just-â your eyes wander, and his body stiffensâŠagain. âI-â you attempt to say something, â...nothing,â but your mouth shuts, and your attention is back on the sculpture.Â
Knowing he didnât make you uncomfortable eases him, but not knowing what's on your mind makes his mind wander. If he didnât make you uncomfortable, what could possibly be going on in that pretty head of yours?
âY/Nâ Chris grabs hold of your arms to turn you to face him. âPlease, tell me what's on your mind, or else I might lose mine.â
You suck in a breath and open your mouth to say something. âI justâŠâ your eyes wander once again, but Chris quickly takes his other hand to caress his thumb over your jaw, bringing your attention back onto him. âI just really want-â
âBahng! There you are!â a tall man with spikey black hair holds his arms out. His suit blinds the both of you as his sequined suit sparkles in the light.
âOh my god, Iâm going to end up in jail tonight if we donât get out of here soon.â his comment makes you laugh, and his body melts at the sound.Â
I canât wait till I finally get you alone.Â
*****
Hours later, you are finally home, out of that tight dress, and your hair is free. You're relaxing on the couch, watching as the rain carelessly falls out the window. You thought a nice cup of tea would help the cloud of thoughts in your mind, and then you thought the rain would help, but so far, nothing has helped.Â
The way Chris spoke earlier replays in your mind like a constant dream. The way he touched you, the way his eyes bored into your soul. You were so close to confessing that you wanted more than just a simple kiss; he made you want more of him.Â
Now you're here, dreading if he walks out here and the awkwardness is back up. You both worked so hard to become comfortable with each other, and you donât want that awkward tension to fill the room again.Â
You hear the door creak open, signaling that Chris is out of the shower. He comes out in a pair of sweats and a loose shirt, rubbing a towel over his drenched hair.Â
âYouâre still up,â he says surprised.Â
âYeah, canât sleep. Must be leftover adrenaline from tonight.â that's a lie. It's because stupid Chris won't stay out of your stupid mind.Â
He nods his head, and you go back to staring blankly out the window. Thick silence, so thick it could be cut with a knife. You could feel the nerve on the end of your skin, and you pray that Chris doesnât notice.Â
âBack at the gala, you were about to say something.âÂ
You whip your head around, seeming dumbfounded. âOh, I-â How do I get out of this? âI donât rememberâÂ
He slumps, looking defeated. âOh, I see.â The pout on his lips makes your insides turn and ache. What did he want to hear?
âDo youâŠwant to watch a movie?â his innocent question makes you smile. âSure, I'd like that.âÂ
***
This was pointless. It's not like youâre actually paying attention to the movie. Your mind is clouded with doubts and thoughts, and Chris just sits there, enjoying the mindless action movie you guys agreed on.Â
Heâs so focused on what's playing on the screen. His lips are slightly parted, his eyes glow with every loud explosion, and his brows furrow every time a character takes a hit. Itâs fun to study him, it's more entertaining than this damn movieâŠ.I wonder if all heâs thinking is about the movie.
***
Why the fuck does she keep looking at me? Do I have something on my face? Maybe she can see right through me and tell that Iâve been thinking about her? Can girls do that?
It is taking every bit of will he has left in his body for Chris to keep looking at this damn movie. He stopped paying attention halfway through it because he got a glimpse of your bare thigh. You're wearing shorts again, and it might actually kill him this time. God, he wants to touch you so badly. He wants to rake his hands through your thighs. He wants you to pull his hair and guide him over your body. He wants you to show him what makes you scream, and then he wants to make you scream his name-
âDo you know what's going on? Because I think Iâm lost.âÂ
Chris snaps his head in your directionâŠshit.
âUhhâŠwellâŠyou see the guy he⊠yea, I havenât really been paying that much attention,â he breathes out a sigh of defeat.Â
âReally! You looked like you were really paying attention.â if only you knew. âI guess I just kind of zoned out,â he scratches the back of his head, suddenly feeling embarrassed.Â
âWhat were you thinking about?â your voice sounds so hopeful, but he canât stop thinking about you running out of the apartment the second he confesses.Â
âOhâŠnothingâÂ
âOh,â you went from hopeful to disappointment with a single word, and it made his chest ache. You both sit in silence for a beat too long, watching the movie unfold before you.Â
He canât bear the silence. It feels like that first week all over again, and it's killing him inside. âLooks like the storm is passing pretty quickly.â
Your head snaps to him with a quirked eyebrow. You stare at his unphased face for what feels like an eternityâŠthenâŠThe room fills with your laughter. âYou want to talk about the weather?â
âUhhâ
More sounds of laughter crowd the room. âWhat?â he's in utter shock. What could possibly be so funny right now?
âNothing. Yes, it does look like it's dying down,â but itâs laced with sarcasm; anyone can hear it, Chris, most of all.Â
His hooded eyes look down at you with a âseriousâ look. âWhat?â Your hands are thrown up in surrender.Â
âNothing,â he matches with the same tone.
Heâs met with your giggles. The light shift of the mood makes his smile wide, and finally, heâs at ease. Finally, you smile again, and the awkward tension dissipates.Â
Your body stretches in a long yawn, and in doing so, it inches closer to Chris. Over time, your head falls onto Chrisâs shoulder, relaxing into his warmth.Â
Chrisâs body is on fire. Every nerve and sense is hyper-aware of your every move; it's like he can feel you without the barrier of his clothes.Â
His eyes look down, watching you rest in his comfort. He feels like a teenager again, experiencing his first crush. He can feel butterflies in his stomach, and his palms begin to sweat. No one has ever made him feel this nervous.
Your shirt dips down just below the swell of your breasts, and he curses at himself for even looking. He hates the fact that your body has so much control over him, but he loves it at the same time. He thinks about all the ways your body could torture him. Your body wrapped in fragile lingerie that he could rip with his teeth, your naked body underneath him, fully exposed for him-
âOh my god.âÂ
Youâre both startled apart from each other. Chris only takes a minute to follow your shocked eyes down to the prominent tent forming at his pants.Â
Shit.
âI- um,â Chris scrambles to find a pillow or blanket to cover his bulge. How could this happen now of all times? He expects to hear your screams, your words of disgust, or something that results in him leaving the apartment with his head hung low in shame. But more laughter echoes around the room, and he sees you turned over, holding your belly with giggles. Â
âI would apologize, but it looks like you're enjoying my embarrassment.âÂ
âIt's not that,â your voice cracks with laughs. âI just was surprised. I know you canât control it.â more laughter fills the room. If only you werenât laughing at his embarrassment, he would actually enjoy hearing your giggles.Â
âI have more control than that,â Chris scoffs.Â
âThen what is it?â You look at him, your smile still shining, while his fades. This is his chance; it's now or never. You could either lock yourself in your room, and he could never see you again, or he could be the happiest man alive.Â
He takes a deep breath. âI was thinking aboutâŠour kissâ.Â
***
You wish you could say you had an immediate reaction, that you jumped into his arms the second he mentioned you, but you were dumbstruck. Your eyes were shot, and your lips parted in a silent gasp.Â
âI guess it was a good kiss.â Chris shrugged, his smile mimicking a quiet laugh.Â
âIt was.â You recall the memory, and instinctively, you wet your lips. Chris holds your gaze, not letting you run or cower away again.Â
The two of you are engaged in a silent battle, each waiting for the other to give in and address the unspoken tension between you. However, you refuse to be the first to make a move, unwilling to risk misinterpreting the situation.
Your breathing becomes shallow and heavy, âI should go to bed,â but you have no intention of moving. Rather than moving, you stay perfectly still, gazing at Chris, shifting your gaze from his eyes to his lips.
Chris inches closer, leaning into you. âTell me you feel nothing, and I will walk away.âÂ
Another moment of silence settles in the air. His espresso eyes contrast with his pale skin, entrapping you, unable to move, speak, or breathe. His hand comes up to caress your cheek and moves a strand of hair away from your face. âTell me you donât feel what I feel,â he says.
Your breath is thick and trapped, and words never make it past your lips. All you can do is communicate with your eyes and beg for him to understand your silence. âI need you to tell me, babyâ.
Already breathy and chest heaving with need, you nod your head rapidly and stutter out a âyes.âÂ
Within seconds, Chris's lips are on yours. It's nothing like the previous kiss you shared; this one is hungry, desperate, and has shallow breaths stolen when your lips part but immediately back as if they have been deprived and starved. Â
His hands cup your face, deepening the kiss. You can feel his tongue silently ask permission, sliding along your bottom lip. You steal another breath, which Chris takes as an opportunity to push his tongue past the barrier of your lips. He swallows your pleasurable moans as your hands tug and pull him closer to your body.Â
Heat radiates off of him like lust steaming off his body, and you can feel his muscles tense when you rake your hands over his clothes, begging him to remove his shirt.
Chris uses his body weight to push your back flat against the couch; he lodges his leg between your thighs, spreading your legs and pressing against your core. The sudden tension makes you groan into Chrisâs mouth, which he devours. Â
He keeps the tension on your core, slightly rubbing his thigh against it every now and again. When his hands move down, one to grasp you by your hip and another to fondle your breast is when you separate your lips to release the sudden gasp, all the while, you arch your back.
His grip on your hip tightens, âYou have no idea how long Iâve wanted to do this.â his words rasp into your ear, sending shockwaves down every nerve in your body. Â
His hands hold you close to his body, and all the while, his eyes wander. Words blend into moans and whimpers as Chris keeps your burning core stimulated with his thigh. âHow do you want it, baby?â His voice buzzes in your ear, and it shoots straight to your gut, making you needy and excited for more.Â
âTell me what you want.â your hands shoot into Chrisâs hair, tugging and angling his head so you can kiss him again. You just want him, all of him. With your tongue plunged into his mouth, you wrap your legs around his waist, pulling him closer. His thigh moves so his hips join with yours, pushing his growing bulge against your thumping core.
Your lips part and open to say something, but Chris adds more pressure to his hips, pushing his erection against you. What you were going to say dies on your tongue, and your eyes roll to the back of your skull. âI want you so bad,â he growls, hiding his rosy cheeks in the crook of your neck. His hips find a slow rhythm, grinding both your clothed cores against each other.Â
âChris,â you moan his name, and you can feel his groin twitch against his pants. Your positive Chris can smell your arousal dripping from you. The wet spot thats gathered at the base of your panties is evidence of it.Â
âPlease,â you whimper, desperate for more of him. He hums in your shoulder before biting the flesh. The sudden pain causes your face to contort, but it quickly subsides as you feel Chrisâs tongue soothing the mark, leaving a beautiful love bite behind.
âI never thought Iâd hear you say that, fuck, thatâs hotâ Your mind is fuzzy with how Chris is grinding his erection into you.Â
Without warning, Chris pulls his body up, only to crawl down between your legs. He makes quick work of ridding your lower clothing. Leaving you bare in front of him. Your pussy clenches from his intense stare, and your face heats when he realizes it. âWhat? Do I make you nervous when I stare?â
You can feel the heat of his breath against your folds. It makes you clench around nothingâŠand he smirks at the sight.Â
Chris starts to kiss your thighs, inching closer to your dripping pussy. Finally, relief washes over you as Chris wets your lips with his tongue. Your hand goes back into Chrisâs hair, tugging him closer.Â
You bite your lip, trying to keep your moans quiet as his wet muscle swirls around your swollen bundle of nerves. You hold back your screams of pleasure, not willing just yet to let him hear you.Â
âAre you holding back?â Chris peaks up from between your legs. Your hips follow him, begging for him to continue. You both meet eyes, and he can tell youâve been holding back your screams from him. âDonât. I want to hear you. I want the neighbors to know my name,â and with that, he dives back between your legs, attacking your clit like there is no tomorrow.Â
You scream his name in pleasure, grinding your hips onto him. Chris works in tandem in sucking your clit into his mouth and flicking his tongue inside your walls.Â
Within minutes your coating his chin with your juices and moaning at the relief in your body. Your orgasm washes over you, but that doesnât stop Chris. He loves the way your pussy tastes. The sweetness he can feel on his tongue electrifies his whole body.Â
âChris, I- ahg -wait, I canâtâ Chris keeps his previous pace, sucking your clit and looping his tongue inside your folds.Â
âCome for me, baby. Youâve done so well.â Chris slides his middle finger past your wet folds, curling it up so it hits the gummy spot that makes you see stars. Your legs begin to shake, and your whole body convulses at the added feeling.Â
âChris!â you scream his name as your second orgasm squirts onto his shirt. Your legs shut close, and Chris removes himself from between them. He jumps up to kiss your forehead and lips gently. âYou did so well for me, baby. Iâve got you,â he coos softly.Â
One of his hands rubs soft circles on your hips, biding them open again. The ache of overstimulation subsides and your legs begin to open again. Chris kisses your forehead gently one last time, a smirk clear on his face.Â
 Lost in lust, you tug off his shirt, revealing his chiseled abs and defined body. Your eyes go wide, but Chris takes your lips in a hurried kiss. You rake your hand down his pecks to his abs, stopping just before where his V-line meets the button of his pants. You break the kiss to find that his face is contorted to what looks like pain. Worry shoots through you, but Chris snaps his eyes open and cages you below him, his arms on either side of your head, âno one has ever touched me like that.â he breathesâŠâ Do it again.â
***
You both tugged at each other, prying more clothes off your bodies and ending up in your current position. You straddling his lap, rubbing your bare cunt against his cock.
Logic and reason left your mind when Chris had you quivering over his tongue. âY/N, shouldnât we-âÂ
But you didnât want to wait another second. You lifted your lips to guide your folds onto Chrisâs waiting cock. You both groan at the pleasure.Â
Immediately, you start swirling your hips, chasing that pleasure. âSlowly, baby, Iâm not going anywhere,â you clenched at his words. You cling to his words. You hope those words are true, even after this night, after this whole contract thing is over. You donât want this to end. You hug yourself close to his body, grasping his shoulders, and you can tell by the way he holds you close that heâs thinking the same thoughts as you.Â
You lift your hips slowly only to let yourself settle back down onto his cock. You both relish the feeling, not wanting it to be over too soon; You set a measured pace.Â
You can see the sweat trickle down Chrisâs forehead. His hands claw the flesh of your ass, willing himself not to ram into you. The last thing he wants is for this to end too quickly, and heâll be damned if he comes before you do.Â
A mixture of moans and grunts fills the room. Your hips have a mind of their own as they begin to grind into him at a more steady pace. Your nails leave red marks on his shoulders, âI want to see you, want to watch you come,â Chris grunts out.Â
Something within you snaps. You donât know if it was his words or the growing knot twisting inside you, but with his words, you lift your hips and slam down onto his cock. You set a brutal pace, bousing on top of him. Chris grinds his teeth but wills his eyes open so he can watch your perfect tits bounce.Â
You are both lost in the pleasure of each other, and both of you try to chase your release. Chrisâs hands grip your waist like a vice, helping you lift your hips in tandem with his thrusts.Â
âGod, you feel so fucking good.â His thrusts become frantic, the tip of his cock kissing your cervix perfectly. With a few more final thrusts into you, you were coming undone onto his cock. Screaming his name and leaving scratch marks against his abs.Â
His cock plunged desperately in and out of your spasming, creaming cunt, using your body shamelessly for his own euphoric release. The harsh sounds of skin slapping skin and shattered moans and muffled curses echoed off the walls as Chris pushed his cock into you and coated your inner walls white.Â
You both stilled, with heavy and shaky breathing being the only forms of communication you could muster.Â
You couldnât move, could hardly breathe, and your mind was nothing but a pile of mush. It was once you opened your eyes and realized you had been moved, cleaned, and tucked into your own bed did you realize that you passed out in Chrisâs arms.Â
You expected to wake up in his arms, but he was nowhere to be seen. You were left in your own room, alone and cold.Â
âChris?â you called, hoping what you experienced wasnât a dream, that it was real. It sure felt real. Your legs and pussy were still sore just thinking about it.Â
Worry begins to settle in. What if you did imagine all of it? What if you're back to a feeling that's all too familiar, with uncomfortable tension that sends shivers down your spine and nights filled with longing for what could have been?
âLook whoâs finally up.â You turned your head to your door frame, where Chris was holding a bag of food in one hand.Â
You could feel your shoulders relax, âwhat, you didnât think I dish you after one night, did you?â he came closer, setting the bag to the side.Â
âNo, just got me worried.â Chan comes brings his hand up to caress your cheek and you lean into his touch.Â
*Chris*
You both knew what was coming. Now that the tension has spoken for itself, what does that mean for the both of you?
Chris sits himself on the edge of your bed, taking a breath for what heâs about to say, but you speak first.Â
âWhat does this mean now? Is the contract still in place?âÂ
His ears perk up and his eyes widen. He wasnât about to let you go, no now, not ever. âIâll be honest. I like you⊠a lot.â a chuckle escapes him âand I donât want this to be the end. But I also donât want to push you, if you donât want the same.-â
âI doâ you interrupt him. Your cheeks flush with that pretty pink that makes him melt and your smile shines high which makes his chest fill with a warmth heâs never felt before.Â
âYou do?â
âI like you too, I wouldnât have done what we did if I didnât. And honestly, I could give two shits about the contract right nowâ you chuckle with him.Â
âThen how about thisâŠâ he twists his body so he can comfortably face you and holds out his hand for you to shake, âa new contract, physically binding.â he smiles, but suddenly changes his tone to a more serious one, âI promise to make you laugh, I promise to piss the hell out of you, but make it up to you, to make you smile, to bug the hell out of you, and I promise that as long as I call you mine, I will love you with all of me.â
Your smile stretches miles and you shake his hand. With heartfelt sincerity, you speak, âI promise to always find ways to bring a smile to your face and fill the air with laughter. I promise to make mistakes, but find ways for you to forgive me, I also promise to love every part of you even the parts you may seem unlovable.â Your voice is so angelic as if itâs softly whispering into his ear.Â
You both share a tender kiss, feeling the warmth of each other's embrace. As your lips meet, a rush of emotions overcomes you, and you find yourselves entwined in each other's arms. The soft touch of your partner's skin against yours creates an intimate and comforting atmosphere. As you lay in bed, the world outside fades away, leaving only the two of you wrapped in each other's love. In this moment, you both find solace in the knowledge that no matter what challenges life may present, you have each other to lean on.
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