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lonelyslutavatar · 6 months ago

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I don't know which is funnier... the concept of the receptionist and the perv being the Martin and Jon we know, who got shoved into this world, and they found their counterparts missing, so they assumed their identities and started doing literal role-play therapy... this world's Martin and Jon got sucked into the computers. OR, the receptionist and the perv are the Martin and Jon who are naturally in this world, they have no concept of spooky things, and are instead struggling with a meet-cute that also has problems of professionalism/dating somebody who is seeing the therapist you work for, meanwhile the Martin and Jon we know really did get shoved into the Windows 95 Cyberspace Matrix

this is actually my understanding of the whole thing (assuming that the cameo in ep 17 is indeed a cameo. Personally, I think this IS a jmart cameo but not a plot relevant one)

It's established that Darrien came from another dimension, meaning the jmart that he encountered are not from the tmp verse. He also doesn't come from the tma verse because the Jon and Martin from his dimension are presumably living in Oxford and have different jobs. What really bugs me is that Darrien gave a statement sometime before 1999 (before the Institute burned down) so he must have also traveled a few years backwards since jmart would still have been in their tweens/early teens at this time.

#tmagp theory #even if you argue that Martin must have also worked as a therapy assistant before working at the institute library #it still kinda doesnt make sense to me since he mentioned that he couldn't find a good job until he started lying about his age #and that he worked for almost a decade at the institute #meaning he was at least 19 when he started at the institute #though I guess he could have also worked as a receptionist as a teenager (and was still lying about his age)#and it would match with Jon being there since he studied at Oxford uni #though I still think they come from an unrelated dimension #Occam's razor and all that #anyway I love that Jon and Martin in any dimension always end up being connected in some way #like Popuko and Pipimi

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bloomfish · 8 months ago

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I think one of the worst moments in buffy history is them framing xander's speech about riley in into the woods as like... correct in any way. it makes you really dislike Xander (even more). Buffy's boyfriend literally cheats on her with vampire prostitutes lol and then tells her that if she doesn't forgive him on the spot he's leaving forever. and then we're supposed to buy that Xander is correct in saying that it's all Buffy's fault and that she should run after Riley to beg him to stay?

It's sooo infuriating how Riley is framed as 'the one who got away' when really he's 'the one who was so cripplingly insecure that he couldn't handle his girlfriend being stronger than him and having her own problems because he's made his entire identity about his girlfriend instead of getting the fuck over himself'

the real reason why xander doesn't want buffy to dump riley's ass as she should is so clearly because he projects onto riley. subconsciously he thinks that if someone 'normal' like riley can be with buffy then he also has a shot. newsflash it wasn't riley being 'normal' it was riley being an insecure condescending freak just like u

#and i actually like xander. s7 xander starts to be better. comics xander is near flawless #xander harris shut up forever about buffy's love life at least until youve gone to therapy challenge #i do think buffy could be with someone normal but they would have to be extremely secure well adjusted and also just a chill person #which neither riley nor xander fits.#i dont think there's any buffyverse human male who fits this though tbf #btvs #btvs thoughts

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girlboyburger · 8 months ago

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with my move around the corner and life feeling sort of real again, i'm having Regular Thoughts about hobbies i've been meaning to revisit...

#i didnt realize just how close i was to finishing my suit until i started packing up my supplies #i really did just let the joy get sucked out of me in this place #aahh... so SO excited to LIVE again. ill have hobbies! a consistent work schedule! maybe even treat myself better!#actually. absolutely will treat myself better. and a fursuit? that'd fix me better than therapy tbh #waves my hands around #ee #my art #furry #fursona #fursuit #oc: cow #the cow fursuit timeline #<--this tag will be used again! yay!!#augh #little known hyperfixation is fursuiting btw #i like to watch fursuit parades while drawing sometimes. or like. whole eating lol #and i can name most makers as it goes on #i love fursuits i love crafts

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fbfh · 4 months ago

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Imagine topping Leo in a chair?

LITERALLY love you for this. riding Leo in a chair is in like your top 5 favorite ways to ride Leo. your faces are so close together and he can feel every intimate rockwing bouncing squeeze of your tight juicy little hole gripping his throbbing cock like a vise. his eyes are so wide and his grip on your soft hips is nearly enough to leave pretty little fingertip bruises polkadotting your thighs (which he's obsessed with) and your hips (which he's also obsessed with) and your ass (are you sensing a pattern here????) and god everything you do drives him crazy but CHRIST the way you hold his face so sweetly in your pretty hands, so innocent and tender while simultaneously milking his cock for all he's got. and he'll give it to you. Leo will let you ride him in that chair that he can't look at after that without going half mast. he'll let you ride him until he's shooting blanks, until both of your cum drips on the floor, mixing in messy creamy beautiful puddles. Leo will throw his head back in pleasure, panting, chest heaving and giving you the best view of his perfect neck that's just begging to be covered in hickeys and bites. Leo will let you ride him in a chair until he passes out. can't walk. pounding down gatorade and liquid iv to try and rehydrate. and he'll thank you for it.

#drabbles #leo valdez #leo valdez smut #leo valdez x reader #leo valdez drabbles #heroes of olympus #heroes of olympus x reader #heroes of olympus drabbles #heroes of olympus smut #op's birthday #op's bday smutathon #off to a poppin start am I right ladies #also funny story #my dad (a certified piece of shit) used to buy us the worst groceries #long story but every week there was a recipe I had to make that required like 3 limes or lemons depending on what citrus we had #and he would buy produce that was simultaneously organic and locally sourced AND horribly low quality #the lemons and limes would be rock fucking hard and I had to juice those motherfuckers #so every week I had to go down to the workbench thing in the basement and use a literal bench vise to squeeze them until they were soft #i'm not even exaggerating right now I wish I was #I had to use industrial tools and equipment to work with that shit #like bro why was I 12 using a vise on lemons??????? AND HE KNEW #HE SAW AND LAUGHED AND I EXPLAINED AND HE LAUGHED AND DID NOT FUCKING CARE #before you ask yes I'm trying to get a sooner therapy appointment #so yeah #going through it!

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caligvlasaqvarivm · 6 months ago

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Okay challenge mode. You are a therapist and Eridan Ampora from Homestuck has just walked right out of his intro page into your office. How do you fix him?

put him and karkat in a room with a pile of stuff and tell them they can't leave until they've jumped into it and talked about their feelings

#realtalk therapy doesnt work unless the person getting the therapy puts in the effort to make it work #eridan starts the comic in complete and utter denial that he's in need of help #so there's really nothing i nor any stranger could do about that #HOWEVER he does talk to karkat often about his feelings (and vice versa) and #the reason they didnt hang out during the game seems to be #1) they were on separate teams and didnt realize the teams were the same team until later on #2) by then it was too late and eridan had aggro'd all his angels #3) gamzee was deliberately keeping eridan away from karkat and vice versa (likely bc gamzee had a palecrush on kk)#4) karkat was too busy falling victim to his own insecurities abt being a leader to pay attention to his actual friendships #4a) eg. it shouldve been the time player doing the frog hunt with kanaya & not the blood player #like im not saying moirallegiance with karkat would have fixed all of eridans problems but i am saying #what eridan really needed was a friend who took his problems seriously and could see past his bullshitting #and karkat already WAS that friend - they just never hung out #so by the time the meteor rolls around eridan has spent WEEKS feeling abandoned anxious and alone on his death planet #and karkat has gotten used to not thinking about eridan too much #so karkat - who is basically eridans only actual friend at that point - isnt able to get through to him & eridan snaps #like the thing about sburb/homestuck is that it really stresses the importance of friendship and working together #letting each other help with each others' problems #thats why the smallest viable game is still two people by necessity #so when we see things like gamzee snapping or eridan snapping or vriska snapping #as much as these are the 'fault' of the person snapping they also need to be viewed as comprehensive team failures #the people who should have spent the game together didnt and the people who shouldnt have spent the game together did #vriska was allowed to bully tf outta tavros and nobody intervened #eridan was left all alone and nobody tried to help him #and everybody was mean to gamzee and nobody tried to connect with him #and you know whose job it is to make sure the right people are hanging out together? the blood player #and unfortunately our blood player was so insecure that he was doing jobs that werent his to do #im not saying pale erikar would fix homestuck but i am saying pale erikar is a symptom of things being fixed in homestuck

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youremyonlyhope · 1 year ago

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Living with Body Focused Repetitive Behaviors

Me: *Is super stressed over life.*

Trichotillomania: Time to pull some hair! C'mon. You won't even notice you're doing it. It'll make you feel better.

Me: NO. *Spends 4 days putting hair in a mini twist protective style* There.

Dermatillomania: Hey. Your hands are free. And restless. And dry... Pick your skin. Bleed. Bleed.

Me: Stop! *Starts up a new crochet project to keep hands busy.* Ok cool.

Onychophagia: Hi hi. Your nails are.... perfect biting length... you should do that.

Me: Noooooooooooo *Paints nails.*

Dermatillomania: Oh look, you got some nail polish on your skin. Pick it off... now pick some more...

Me: SDJAKFDSJFKLDKAFDJKLAFJDKSAKLFDASL

#is this tmi? oh well. this is the tmi website #trichotillomania #dermatillomania #onychophagia #bfrb #body focused repetitive behavior #ocd #guys guess what? my therapist all but prescribed that i get a manicure to prevent picking at my skin #apparently after a year with this therapist i never mentioned my finger picking until this week #and she was like 'ok since you find it tough to paint them yourself get a manicure. self care and preventative'#because my cuticles are horrific due to me constantly picking at them and the sides of my fingers #so i've always been too embarrassed to go to a nail salon and my therapist was like 'exposure therapy!'#currently my nails are sloppily painted because i can't hold a brush still and they're already chipping after like 5 days #actually they probably started chipping on the second day honestly.#i need to redo my twists a bit which actually satisfies the trich urges since i'll be running my fingers through my hair to do it #but i won't actually be pulling. but also. i will be getting the shed hairs out. so. kind of fulfills that.#but right now my nails are long enough for me to feel them sometimes hit my keyboard. which. isn't normal for me.#and despite the nail polish i feel the urge to bite them shorter ahhhhh #anyway if you're Black with natural hair and have trich i HIGHLY suggest mini twists since it helps deter me from pulling #sure i have to redo it every few weeks but seriously. game changer. harder to find individual hairs to pull.

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specialbluehens · 2 years ago

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i think it would be very silly, a little hee hee funny, if shane ended up put in an older sibling role (without trying) to the younger bachelors/bachelorettes

#it starts with sam @ joja #asking for advice esp while kent is gone & shane is like 🤨 ay yo idc #but eventually shane will just. casually answer sam's questions. maybe he likes him. no. it's bc answering will get sam to shut up #shut up #& then one day he's passing by alex who's trying to perfect the way he throws his gridball #cue former griball player shane: ur form sucks #alex gets mad & asks shane to do it better then #shane does it perfectly & alex suddenly asks if shane can show him #shane is confused but goes step by step #& then alex just starts asking more questions later & shane is like ????? ok?????#& then one day while it's raining sebastian stops shane & asks him if therapy rlly does help #& shane is like dude idk if i can rlly talk to u abt this go 2 ur mom #sebastian looks so sad tho #so shane does explain it & the process #seb continues going to shane with questions #this cycle continues with the other younger bachelors/bachelorettes #until shane has this gaggle that follows him & he's so confused as to why this is happening #emily thinks it's rlly funny #shane is groaning & slamming his head on the table the entire time #ramblings #my headcanons

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sportsthoughts · 1 month ago

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i am staying up for geno's ceremony (hopefully a stream will show it) but if you see me here after 1am (8pm) PLEASE shout at me at tell me to go to bed.

#i have an entire day of creative therapies training tomorrow which frankly i can't be arsed for. especially not the very early start #and my supervisor has signed me up for a sand therapy seminar. insert anakin gif here i DONT like sand but sigh i have a client it may help #anyway point being i CANNOT stay up until 3am i need at least seven hours of sleep

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lightblueminecraftorchid · 2 months ago

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the 14 year old edgelord in me keeps trying to compose deep poetry about coming to after dissociating. calm down babes. we’re all good here.

#blue chatter #just. the experience of blinking into existence becoming associated with ice in my mouth #and how it’s becoming a pattern that the first visual thing I process is a hand in front of my face #At least that I remember. I’m sure other stuff happens but my memory is unsurprisingly v blurry after #I feel bad for making my roommate take care of me so often #but I super cannot control when I dissociate #and I do genuinely need the help #bc today I was home alone and it took a loooooot longer to break out of the blurry stage #I somehow didn’t think to get ice about it until I was in the middle of the grocery store an hour after the episode had ended #I want to be more independent about this so people don’t have to take care of me all the time #it is relieving to know that I can live with friends after grad school #so *someone* can be around usually if something goes wrong and I’m not cognizant enough to help myself #but I don’t wanna make them feel like they have to help me or put that on them #or like. freak out their kids. their kids are not raised remotely like I was and they’re rly young so they don’t rly understand this.#how do you explain trauma to a three year old whose parents are incredibly good at gentle parenting #idk. I’ll figure it out. hopefully with time and therapy I’ll be able to process my trauma enough that I won’t be like this forever.#I don’t wanna be like this forever.#I want to go to grad school and start practicing in clinical psychology and help people #and be independent and be able to support my friends instead of the other way around

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shima-draws · 1 year ago

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Also it really sucks bc I want to draw but I CAN’T bc I’m in a lot of pain rn. Sitting here like

#AUGHH. I’m still in physical therapy btw.#I was doing p good for a while until I sat in the car for a 5 hour round trip and that fucked my back up SO bad #So I relapsed. And my pain has been Bad for the past couple weeks #Not nearly as bad as it was at the beginning but my pain levels are back up #Which makes me so MAD bc I was at the point where I barelyyy felt it #SIGHS #Well. I’m getting dry needling done tomorrow and that should help #Not SUPER fond of the idea of needles getting poked into my back but at this point I’ll do anything #My therapist says everyone who’s done it under his care has felt a lot better afterwards #And I trust his judgement so.#I’ll be poked and prodded at tomorrow morning lol #I just want this to be over. It started in May. It’s October now #It’s been what. Five months?? FIVE????#It’s almost been half a year since this started oh my fucking god. Killing myself #Shima speaks

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yuri-for-businesswomen · 7 months ago

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i need to consume something or my thoughts consume me

#all my therapist telling me she wont treat me until i go sober taught me is to lie to the therapist #and it made me question therapy altogether but all my friends swear by it #but now i already told everyone im going sober so i fucked myself 😑#well i should learn how to be sober during the week so i can get back into fitness #i have to call the drug counsellor she referred me to and see what she says #something has to change for sure… but im starting to think some people just arent meant to be fully sober #a lot of people dont see through or dont care about the bullshit but i do #and the bullshit just doesnt stop #i just need to be on top of that and have more self discipline and thats what i need to learn #how to not give into my impulses… and then i can do recreational substance use or something instead of abusing them #personal #but at the end of the day its about emotional regulation and self discipline and creating a better life for myself #because when its not substances then its the tv or food or shopping like the general issue is my lack of impulse control #so i dont really see how sobriety will solve all that it will just make me wish i had substances to ease my mind

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fbfh · 5 months ago

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good news wildcats, I'm finally watching hsmtmts s4. I just finished episode 1 and I am SCREAMING.

toxic ricky is back!!!!!!!!!!! unhinged unstable season 1 ricky my darling!!!! my beloved!!!!!!!!! my pathetic soggy prayers have been answered!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

#anyway it started making my brain too happy so I'm gonna have to pick it up and put it down until I get good n fixated enough to mass consum #but the good news is I'm getting so many ideas for rocks 2 n 3 n 4!!!!!!!!!#it will be a slow and steady process but it's chuggin down the choo choo tracks!!!!!!!!!! I'm working on wrapping up curiosity while I outl #then when I write those probs is when I'll outline cur2-3.#also mike being like “yeah I met your mom in my senior year so uh... be safe”#and ricky's like “don't worry dad I won't get my heart broken”#“......OH. you mean THAT kind of safe.”#I am WAITING AND AGONIZING for them to drop an implied sex scene #i know they probs won't cause it's disney but PLEASE GOD PLEASE #I NEED TO SEE WHAT RICKY LOOKS LIKE ON CAMERA AFTER GETTING HIS FUCKING WORLD ROCKED #PLEASE GOD PLEASE IM BEGGING YOU #anyway yeah #tried to talk to someone about all this and got HORRIBLE rejection sensitive dysphoria so time to delve into fanfiction to cope!!!!!!!!#love writing as a creative outlet!!!!!! love that I have therapy tomorrow!!!!!!!!

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glaseado-gym-official · 4 months ago

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Oh hey, fellow cane user! What sort of cane do you use? Do you have ice spikes for it?

@gotta-pet-em-all

Oh, uh, hello... Most days I can get by using my single point cane... Which I have ice spikes for, yeah... Still have the wheelchair I used from when I couldn't walk though. So, I guess that would be an alternative option if I started feeling really bad, or something.

#//grusha definitely has balance issues due to his injury #//since it affects his hip and leg #//but he regularly attends physical therapy to make sure his muscles are strengthened enough so he can get by with a single point cane #//he needed a wheelchair to get around initially though #//which he used until he could start getting around without it #//he might also be a little too stubborn to rely on a cane with more balance support #//anyways i did some research on canes for this so hopefully it all makes sense :)#pokemon #pkmn rp #grusha rp #grusha answers

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schemelin · 3 months ago

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every now and then i experience brief moments of self-awareness telling me to make major changes to the fusionsprunt story

#queue #maybe it has to do with this need of visualizing it as an actual tv show. it's not necessarily a bad thing #it's so much fun to question what would happen if a specific part was rewritten or twisted into smth else. how would it work and all #for example. i've been thinking. what if Hunter was an actual robot? how does his interaction with Exocannis and B2 change bcs of it? :0 #i dont think that part will be rewritten but it's an interesting possibility #one thing i wanted to change is Gideon's lore though!#the way he disregards B2 doesn't sit right w me (and ig it didn't with everyone else who read the lore)#also! there's not much info about his childhood. it was nice until BOO TRAUMAAA.#overall i wanted to introduce him some other way. the way Gideon Rigell would do!#perhaps with a little comic? a loose dialogue in an artwork of sorts #comparing him to who he is currently is like going. wow! good job buddy ur getting better! but also you should probably seek therapy...#as for B2. i have some ideas.#some times i enjoy exploring new designs in which she looks VERY non-human or has some sort of non-human mentality #a true alien!#i wanna redesign her siblings and make all of them have an 'x' somewhere in their names #what if Beatrix had 4 siblings? what if she was the 'youngest'? what if they were all created by the same person #a person who was responsible for their creation but who also treated them like their own children #some kind of enthusiastic visionary with a passion for robotics who genuinely cared for machines. even 'mindless' ones #Also B2's relation to the Holloway Comet #like no. that's the. that's The Mother. that's the mother guys that's UNQUESTIONABLE #im talking about Monument Mythos vibes yknow. about giant n terrifying monuments/objects #i'm also cooking up ideas for comics focused solely on Bee #oneshots of sorts.... i should probably start sketching......#why am i having good ideas when i barely slept last night HSBWYSBWHDBHQHASSHHA #starbstalks

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slumbering-shadows · 8 months ago

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shaking wren violently by the shoulders. he loves you so much you idiot stop this

#the prisoners throne spoilers #the prisoners throne #tfota #GIRL #she's a mess #he is also a mess #I think most of the current issues could have been solved before they started if someone got these fucking children some therapy #Bogdana irritates me. why is she so eager for this wedding. stop that #Its very interesting also how much Oak feels like Cardan until we get to see Cardan again. they're so similar and yet so different

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erisolkat · 4 months ago

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god i hate everyone

#who thought it would be cute to immediately start ribbing me about how hairy and bald and ugly im gonna be when i go on t #one. im taking minoxidil. two. i wanna be hairy. and three. im not transitioning to attract you guys im transitioning to attract other trans #people! other trans guys find it hot come on!#like ok so dads brother is out here rn right #so first mom tells me hes gonna ask me questions about being trans. ok fine.#second she starts going on about how i had to be emotionally vulnerable with like 3 different therapists for this. whatever.#then when i start participating in the conversation she immediately asks ��so how are you feeling about losing all your hair”#THEN she has the audacity to say to my uncle “yeah its sort of a gamble hes either gonna end up hairy like the italian side or fairly #baby smooth like yall“ when she fucking KNOWS that im dysphoric about my lack of body hair #and this happens every time! and its out of nowhere constantly!#all the while the cis men in the room are fucking bullying me with all this toxic masculinity bullshit!#sometimes i just wish i had never come out is all im saying #kept this a secret until i became an adult yknow. yeah i would have to do everything myself but it wouldn't be like this #just because i told you that you could call me a fag doesnt mean youre suddenly allowed to do microagressions constantly #shes tickled to fucking death with calling my future bottom growth my “teenie weenie” what the fuck! what the fuck!!!#and meanwhile every time i try to say words or make a joke my dad and grandpa jump on the fucking opportunity to correct me! or cut me off!#sorry im fucking exhausted i barely slept at all the night before last and got i think maybe 7 hours of sleep at most last night #and i just got out of therapy which always wears me out

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