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[kyouka-supremacy]

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[circe69]

Could I please request 21.) zipping up a dress for you - "what, is the zipper stuck or something?" "no, 'm just looking." With Ghost? Like I can just imagine the tension if they weren’t together yet and they were still just in a ‘will they won’t they’ situation omg 😭💕 thank you!

absolutely anon! thanks for participating in my special :)

["what, is the zipper stuck or something?" "no, 'm just looking."]

𝐩𝐫𝐨𝐦𝐩𝐭 #𝟐𝟏 - 𝐳𝐢𝐩𝐩𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐮𝐩 𝐚 𝐝𝐫𝐞𝐬𝐬 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐲𝐨𝐮 - ❤︎

This was the worst-case scenario that you could possibly think of. Tonight, the Task Force was holding a banquet as a means of celebrating their recent victory, rescuing Kate Laswell back from being kidnapped. They were holding an auction, all the proceeds were to fund communities around them, specifically to help with missing kids.

The dress you were wearing, or, supposed to wear, was a little less than comfortable. A slim-fitting maroon gown that's zipper was stuck on it's on teeth, and it wasn't even halfway up your back yet.

You sighed as you stared at your backside in the mirror, most of it being completely exposed, showing off some freckles and birthmarks you completely forgot you had, and also some rather ugly scars and scratches from years past.

Thinking about who you could call, everyone was in meetings or preparing for the event themselves, all except for one person.

Ghost.

You rolled your eyes at the thought. He was an amazing solider, the best of the best, obviously, but when it came to making friends or being nice at all, he didn't know what he was doing.

It is different, and you can see that. Making conversation and willingly being kind whilst doing so wasn't the same as aiming a pistol and shooting it, but surely, he had other traits that allowed the former?

You were about to find out.

Picking up your phone in your slightly sweaty and clammy hands, you realized how stressed you really were. You dialed his number, his contact's name not even attached to it because you never bothered.

"Hello?" A deep voice spoke from the other side of the phone.

You inhaled sharply, and he immediately recognized who it was.

"Oh great, it's you," he spoke, and you could tell his mouth was stretched into a sly smile.

"Yes, it's me, I need help."

You heard Ghost shuffle around quickly, maybe even a knife being thrown out of its pocket, "What's wrong?"

Walking over to unlock the front door to hopefully let him in later, you balanced your phone between your bare shoulder and cheek, "No, nothing- nothing's seriously wrong, my dress just won't zip up and everyone else is busy."

Silence. You and Ghost marinated in it for a few seconds, and you swear you heard his tongue click against his teeth, something he only did when he was excited.

You heard him stand from his chair over the phone, "So I was the last resort? That's kinda mean, don't ya think?"

He was having a ball with this, but you on the other hand, your back was chilly and both of you had to be somewhere in less than an hour, so you wanted this show to get on the road.

"Just hurry up and GET. IN. HERE." Your words became decreased to nothing but a whispered shout at the end of your sentence, signaling how serious you were.

"Sheesh, woman, I'll be right the-"

You hung up before he could finish his sentence, and did one last look in the mirror to make sure nothing too scandalous was showing. It wasn't even 5 minutes that passed when there was a knock on your door.

"Come in," you yelled from your place in the bedroom. You heard the door creak open, "I'm in my room."

The sound of loafers clicking on your floor filled the hallway and echoing off the walls, right into your ears. You paused for a moment, realizing if Ghost was attending this event, he'd be dressed up too. That was something you weren't prepared to see.

He walked in, one hand in his pocket and the other fixing his simple black mask. No skull, no dirt, no face paint, no blood splattered. It was somehow classy. Ghost wore a regular black tux, a black tie tucked into his blazer, and a pristine white shirt peeking out from underneath it all.

It was safe to say the both of you were impressed with each other's outfits. His eyes skimmed over you, stopping right when he got to your hips. The red dress hugged them perfectly, dropping down into a regular A-line below. The train dragged on the ground, a few sparkles gently appearing at the edge.

"Wow."

You smiled at his loss for words. "Wow yourself, you look great. Now please, zip this thing up." You turned around, your bare back now facing Ghost, and his breath faltered at the sight. He took a few steps towards you without saying anything.

He was so close, you could feel his breath on your neck, it was deep and heavy, the way he was breathing. Like he was nervous, or excited, or maybe both. His hands were hesitant, but you slightly flinched as his fingers softly traced the slope of your back, slowly moving up and down. It was so soft, you weren't sure if he was even touching you at times, but instead just basking in the heat you were radiating.

"Is it really stuck? I might just have to ditch it if it's not working," you said, not sure if you were talking to yourself or him anymore.

"No, I'm - 'm just looking."

Your jaw slightly unhinged at his blatant confession. Just looking?

Finally, his fingers dipped lower to reach the zipper, and you shivered at the feeling.

"Hm. You ticklish?" He said as he slowly pulled up the zipper, leaving a finger in front so he could trace the entirety of your spine one last time.

"No," you said breathily. He didn't need to know how dizzy his touch was making you.

"Not really in any hurry, are we now?" His voice was dangerously low, seductively teasing you, and you loved it.

You shivered once more when his fingers reached the top of your back, drawing a small circle with his pointer finger on your skin.

"You have a birthmark there."

Humming in response, you turned around to face him. "Yes."

"You had a few more, but I was scared if I touched them, you'd freak out."

He started to walk out, looking both ways out the dark hallway as if he was crossing a street.

"I wouldn't freak out." You blurted, making him stop in his tracks, "You don't have to worry about that."

He nodded and said over his shoulder, "Noted."

[fuumiku]

Chilcille huh... ngl I was a little suspicious. like why would you do that, huh... hope youre not mischaracterizing anyone in your weird and wacky ship. a little weird. but then you said they both had flat asses and you know what? I salute you and your perfect characterization

The fact you seem to think you managed to not make this ask insulting is baffling. What the hell. Fuck off.

If you actually care to be open minded about the ship, I talk about marchil on my sideblog 24/7. Funnily enough I’m currently 4k words deep into an analysis of their character arc together in canon, but that’ll take some more days to get done. Some notable posts:

Of course without counting the analyses of Chilchuck on his own I’ve made, like my masterpost on his family situation. Or better yet you could also read my fics for them, see how weird and wacky they are here.

Wanna talk about mischaracterisation? They’re literally a comedic duo who interacts 24/7. Marchil is crazy bc ppl are like "did those shipper read with their eyes CLOSED?? They have no chemistry!" Meanwhile canon is like: "She’s obsessed with knowing everything she can about him and she reads him like a book." In her eyes he’s like that extra rare and hard and shiny unlockable dating sim character, that brooding mysterious character trope that’s thrilling to crack open and typically is at the center of the plot. The wife roleplay???? "Hey, did you know his type is blondes. Hey did you know he likes his women pretty and blonde. Hey did you know he likes her hair. Hey did you know that he teases her 24/7 and it’s one of the few things that consistently gets him grinning because he finds her reactions cute." Like a schoolyard bully pulling on the pigtails of the girl he likes.

It’s not like they have any thematic narratives or relevance. It’s not like she’ll live to 1000 and has existential dread about it while he’s logically gonna be her next friend to die at 50 and wether it’s romantic or platonic it’ll terrify her to lose him. It’s not like it’s fear of death x fear of rejection so they’re both obsessed with the thought of loss looming, past and ongoing. It’s not like it’s half-elf x half-foot and there’s an inherent journey that was and still is to dispel prejudices and truly come to see each other. It’s not like he’s painfully real and raw and flawed but still a good man, that he’s not the figure of prince charming that she’s always dreamed of while still being virtuous and worth fighting for. Or you know, her hair being golden and it being the epitome of beauty to him, and his hair turning silver and it being Marcille’s worst nightmare.

Just a weird wacky ship who means nothing but shallow things to people who have weirdo reasons for liking it. Like can you not. If you’re not imaginative enough to think of reasons why this ship may have an appealing dynamic that’s not my issue. But yes, yes, they’re both flat asses to me, thanks.

[shortpplfedup]

We Are Episodes 9-12: They got me, they really got me

My heart has exploded. This show has ruined me. I'm crying on a Wednesday afternoon about a bunch of queer boys all actively doing their best by each other every day. This show is saying 'Your actions matter. Your intentions matter. Your words matter. IT ALL MATTERS.' Also, we unlocked everything about this show by learning two very important backstories: the story of Tan and Fang, and Phum and Fang's family history.

I think this block of eps has been the most explicitly romantic section of the show so far. Bookended by two of the now-requisite-for-Thai-BL change of scenery trips (and man that volunteer camp paid dividends), this was just a great, GREAT bit of Show. One of my favourite things about how the relationships are progressing in this show is that they are allowing these boys to have courtship. Yeah, they might be attracted to each other, like each other, even make out with each other, but there is a gap between 'I like you' and 'I want to be with you' that romance doesn't always explore. Stating your intentions and deliberately and actively wooing somebody still matters. In the West, and especially in the limited western romance we get, sometimes it feels like we've decided it is juvenile and/or old-fashioned, it is somehow uncool, to require declaration, to ask and receive an answer. We have cool-girled (non-gender-specific) our way into the age of the noncommittal extended situationship. This show allows all of these boys to have that bit of romance, to expect it, to require it, and to have that taken seriously.

Phum and Peem had a rocky start, so it makes sense that it would take time and effort for them to get to a place where Peem feels comfortable admitting his feelings for Phum, even if he has accepted them to himself (him letting Khluen down gently was such a nice touch), and cannot keep himself from showing them at every turn. A detail I love is that Phum continues to apologise for the way he treated Peem at the start. He so so sincerely regrets it all, in a believable way, and he does not take Peem's forgiveness as a given at all. Him declaring himself in front of all of their friends and going all out to woo Peem is part of that apology, along with his actual multiple, repeated 'I'm sorry's. And then him going STRAIGHT to Peem when he had that fight with his dad, and Peem dropping all the flirty games instantly because he knew something was wrong...BURY MEEEEEEEEEEE.

Tan finally told his friends the story of him and Fang and EVERYTHING about this show clicked into place with that information. Understanding how and when this all started for them explains not only their entire dynamic, but also draws direct lines from them to every other couple. The rocky start? That's Phum and Peem. Falling slowly over time? Q and Toey. Afraid to ruin the friendship? Totally where I see Chain and Pun landing. And then across this chunk we get to see the interiority of their relationship now, and the DEPTHS of their devotion to and understanding of each other. They truly, madly, deeply love each other, exactly for who they each are. Plus, enthusiastically mutually horny for each other, which is always fun to see.

Q and Toey spend some time here really talking through their history and their feelings, explaining their past actions to each other and laying to rest a lot of their fears and hurts from Q's sudden disappearance from Toey's life and Toey's sudden appearance in Q's. These two were working at cross-purposes and off incorrect assumptions for so long, them finally getting onto the same page thanks to their meddling-ass friends was just a giant exhale. And Q asking Toey to be his boyfriend in the way it all began, at the place it all began put me so very deep in my feels.

They are really letting the Chain/Pun thing build up in the background, in tiny moments and offhand comments, and every morsel we get of them feels like it matters. I'm sure that's part practicality given the reshoots, but Chain and Pun also feel like those friends in the group who turn up married one day when nobody knew they even liked each other. In my Hospital Playlist analogy for this show, they are Ik Jun and Song Hwa, down to Chain's loving indulgence of Pun's tuneless insistence on singing.

The non-romantic relationships in this show continue to be the cherry on the sundae. Q and Peem's friendship, Phum and Beer's friendship, Toey and Matt's friendship, the brotherly love between Fang and Phum, Pun and Mick's himbo bromance, how ride or die EVERYBODY is for Toey, how fully integrated Phum, Beer, Mick, Toey and Matt are into the crew now, the silly fun they have when all the gang's together...I'm so emotional about this. I will give New Siwaj that he has always understood that great romances need great friendships to support them. I haven't always liked how he has put those together narratively, or managed the tonal shifts involved, but this one is just working gangbusters for me.

Four more eps to go and I have gone from thinking 16 eps were too many to never wanting this show to leave me. At the same time, I'm aware that we're moving into the New Siwaj Red Zone (aka the final act), where things often fall apart with him. Still, I'm having such a good time so far I'm choosing optimism. Time to update my couple scores.

Q and Toey: 3.5/4 hearts

Their romantic arc is more or less winding down now I think, and they're moving into cupid role for Phum and Peem. I have so thoroughly enjoyed this journey and look forward to seeing how they work as a team in the final bit!

Phum and Peem: 3.5/4 hearts

These two are ruining me, I am giggling kicking my feet all week thinking about them. Peem saying the ocean was too far when Phum wanted to take him there to feel better, but taking Phum there without a second thought when Phum showed up shaken and sad...NO YOU'RE CRYING.

Tan and Fang: 4/4 hearts

They are the absolute heart of this show. Just rock solid, undeniable, unquestionable. Tan saying in ep 12 he wants to be Fang's safe zone AND his family? Fang shouting out his love? PLEASE CALL ME SINGLE MORE QUIETLY ABEG.

Pun and Chain: 3/4 hearts

There is no heterosexual or even queerplatonic explanation for these two, and so the candle in my window stays lit for them.

[quodekash]

FUUUUUUUUUUUCKing hell theyre gonna kiss today????

hes so grumpy already I love this so much

the silent conversations chain and toey are having with their eyes oml I cant

pls this is so funny

theyre both deeply in love with someone else so it's jsut so unnatural to them

BUT ALSO id like to mention that the first thing chain did when he had to pretend to be hitting on toey was put his arm around his shoulders and rest his hand there. which is what he's literally ALWAYS doing with pun, no matter when it is, he's always standing next to pun with his hand resting on one of his shoulders

its like he associates his time with pun as being in a romantic relationship 👀

THESE FUCKIN BASTARDS 😭

JUST KISS IM BEGGING YOU

theyre lost in their own little world 🥺

kiIIIIIS

this is too funny, the cuts from "chain. chain what happened next." to ✨soulful dramatic guitar music✨

im sad they didnt actually kiss but also im not surprised

LOOK AT THEM, DUDE

THEYRE SO NATURAL WITH EACH OTHER

I FUCKIN LOVE FRIENDS TO LOVERS SO SO MUCH

half convinced theyre already dating, they just cant be bothered saying anything so theyre waiting for others to ask them about it

PUN IS SO CUTE DUDE I ADORE HIM HES FUCKING ADORABLE

I LOVE THEM SO FUCKING MUCH THEYRE SOIMPORTANT TO ME

if I ever have a romantic partner, this is what I want

I cant explain it, I just wanna run up to them with pure joy and excitement, and for them to hold me back by just pushing against my skull

it just seems perfect, idk why

GB4JHERGB

THE FRIENDSHIP OF ALL TIME

genuinely think I might be more invested in their friendship than all the romantic relationships in this show

im fucking CRYING

my king matt, this was so unnecessary and I love everything about it

why does it suit him so well tho

they should kiss again I think

I feel everything about this image on a spiritual level

THIS ENTIRE AMUSEMENT PARK SEQUENCE BRINGS ME SO MUCH JOY AND DOPAMINE IM IN LOVE WITH THSI EPUSODE

NEW COMFORT EPISODE UNLOCKED

look its really funny but I do feel bad cos this day is not even a little bit fun for him

like q is having a complete shit time

poor chain doesn't love amusement parks but he has to go on the rides with toey to keep up the facade cos toey loves these rides 😭

and its even worse realising Q also seems to love amusement parks, so he would be having a fucking amazing time if he could just go on all the rides next to Q cos they both love it so much 😭😭

fuckin FINALLY

LMAO WHAT

THIS IS SO FUCKING FUNNY I JUST SCREECHED WITH LAUGHTER SO LOUD AND ITS MIDNIGHT

THE PURE COMICAL SHOCK AS HE REALISDE WHAT HE SAID, THE EXCITEMENT FROM EVERYONE ELSE AS THEYR EALISE WHAT HE SAID

I mean to be fair it was REALLY obvious

im surprised no one noticed earlier but also its a bl so im not at all surprised to find out theyre all fuckin dumbasses

SERIOUSLY THO TANFANG IS WHAT I WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP HOLY SHIT

a lot of the time watching bls ill be like "I want that" but its usually as a joke

but THIS?? the fucking adhd bastard (me) who just wants to be near their partner and compliment and always stimming and just having a swell fucking time while the other one loves them but is mildly tired but also in adoration? FUCKIN GIMME

also how the fuck has Q not realised, theyre all so fucking obvious

also also I cant explain it it just feels deeply as though pun and chain are for real dating they just havent told anyone yet

ill make a post about it all at some point maybe (I definitely wont)

PHYSICAL TOUCH IS HIS LOVE LANGUAGE 😭😭😭

I LOVE THEM SO MUCH HE DOESNT HAVE TO HOLD HIM SECRETLY ANYMORE THEY CAN JUST WALK HAND IN ARM NATURALLY NOW

hear me out tho, this gets even funnier if he's actually already in a committed relationship that no one knows about yet

I dont think it's secret dating, it's just 'not super obvious dating to try and see JUST how oblivious all our friends are. its been three years at this point and still no one's said anything. we're starting to lose all hope.'

I love tan so much, the little wave

what the FUCK

what the FUCK FUCK???

THE SOUNDWIN LINE????

HERE IT IS ITS FUCKIN COMIN GUYS

HE SAID IT

HE FUCKIN SAID IT

[insert that gif of the crowd of people in the bar going insane]

holy fucking shit dude holy fucking shit

my legs are literally shaking idk if I can do this

FUCK TO THE YES, FUCKING EXPLICIT ASK FOR CONSENT HOLY FUCKING SHIT

WHAT THE FUCK

AND THE FUCKING SONG IN THE BACKGROUND !!!!

HOLY FUCKING SHIT DUDE

im gonna be here all day

I dont even need to watch the rest of the episode now

I can just go to bed if I want and watch the rest later or smth

dude I cant wait for q to realise that toey is milk frappe guy

HOLY FUCKING SHIT IT JUST PROCESSED IN MY MIND THAT THEY KISSED

WHAT THE FUCK

omg making out in a haunted house, what a dream

the workers watching on the security cameras probably had a blast that day

how funny would it be if there'd been a scare actor in the shadows in that room with them and they'd been about to scare them but they were too shocked with that tender kiss to remember they have a job

he needs to lie on his bed and just stare at his roof and think about that for a while

tbh same

look at him 🥺 he's so lost in that memory

thEY FUCKIN MADE OUT HOLY FUCK

welp on that note I think im done for now

I might finish the ep with my silly thoughts+screenshots later but for now tis the time for sleep

[respectthepetty]

Pride Petty Watch Update

In less than twelve hours, y'all unlocked the Wild Card.

Which means I have to suffer the consequences of my own actions and rewatch SOTUS.

For clarification - I will be rewatching this IN ADDITION to watching the two shows people pick. Yes, I will be watching a total of THREE shows for Pride: SOTUS and the top two choices in the poll.

I cannot see the results until the poll closes, but remember, vote for your favorite regardless of how I feel about it, and if you can't stand my annoying ass, pick TharnType.

*looks up SOTUS to see if it is still on YouTube*

IT'S FIFTEEN EPISODES?! Son of a bitch!

[wen-kexing-apologist]

Bengiyo's Queer Cinema Syllabus

I am currently working my way through Unit 4: Heartbreak Alley, the totally light-hearted, definitely not agonizing section of @bengiyo’s queer cinema syllabus where I get to watch countless acts of violence be committed against queer people. Thank fuck I have Lesbians waiting for me at the end of this unit. The films in Unit 4 are: Bent (1997), Strange Fruit (2004),Boys Don’t Cry (1999), Brokeback Mountain (2005), Parting Glances (1986),Philadelphia (1993), The Living End (1992), Holding the Man (2015), Jeffery (1995), and Boys on the Side (1995).

Today I will be talking about

Holding the Man (2015) dir. Niel Armfield

[Run Time: 2hr 8 min, Available: Google Play, Language: English]

Summary: The warm, funny and achingly sad story of the 15-year-long love affair between Timothy Conigrave and the boy he fell in love with at high school, John Caleo. (IMDB)

Cast:

Ryan Corr as Timothy Conigrave

Sarah Snook as Pepe Trevor

Craig Stott as John Caleo

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So, as anyone who has seen Ben’s syllabus should know, he was very intentional about setting it up as a lead in to BL. Sometimes I wonder how some of the movies may apply, but I definitely understood where he was coming from with this one…

Ben wanted to show any person going through the syllabus the parallels between BL and Western films that let 30 year olds in terrible wigs play high schoolers. 

He also definitely put this movie on the list because these characters are gay boys in a Catholic school. 

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Anyway, I thought this film was very good, it started off very strong not only with the phone call that cannot be more than two minutes that tells you everything you need to know about the characters, how they are connected to each other, where they are in the present. Especially when you know by the time the phone disconnects that John is dead, especially when the camera cuts to three old men looking at Tim as he tries desperately to call back, a stark reminder that Tim and John will never reach old age. 

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I think the biggest thing I was struggling with in this entire movie was how indiscrete Tim and John were being about their relationship. Like, seriously, full confession, I thought the consequences of their physical intimacy would be because of Catholicism. Shielded by my own age I guess in part, but also hugely because of their lack general lack of fear or discretion, I fully forgot it was illegal to be gay in 1970, when Tim is fully reaching his hand down John’s pants at school, and putting love letters on his desk at school, and giving John hand jobs in his living room, and fucking with the doors unlocked when their friends go out fishing. 

That said, I do appreciate that even under the threats from their school, from their parents, they choose each other over and over again. They are unfazed and unashamed of their relationship and I think that sets the movie up to be all the more tragic because you can kinda tell what’s coming. The fact that they have fought against it all, they have loved each other fiercely and openly and relatively unafraid, makes John’s inevitable death all the more tragic. 

I think the production of this film was really smart, with some really wonderful transitions between scenes and the background music, or a line, or a lingering camera shot. For example when Pepe sends the kiss around the table, and after John and Tim have kissed each other and Pepe tries to take any suspicion of Tim’s feelings away by closing the kissing circle, we hear audio which soon after cuts to mass. The line of course being “To those trapped in the darkness of sin that the light shining in Christ may free them…” The way that John’s father thanks Tim for helping John come out of his shell, only for Tim to unzip John’s sleeping bag, literally opening a casing that was covering John a few scenes later so they can have sex and cuddle during a sleepover.  

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The way the editing supports the discovery, the tension of John’s father finding the letter, while we see John and Tim fucking at the cabin, the friends coming back to catch them in the act, the way the music stops when John’s Dad is interrupted from his thoughts as he starts to read the letter around the same time that Tim slams the door shut on his friends. The way the silence in John’s room from his father is co-opted for the silence in the cabin’s living room with all the boys playing poker as if nothing had happened. The close up of Tim’s hand shaking the man he is interviewing, and then the subtle way Tim wipes his hand against the arm of the chair he is sitting in as if he can catch AIDS just by touching someone who has it. 

I have a thing for movies about AIDS letting their characters bleed. I really love the choice, the knowing that comes with seeing those bright trails of red. The weight to it. I love so many acting choices in this film, the scene of Tim and his mother preparing food after he comes home for his sister’s wedding only to find out that his mother read a letter addressed to him that essentially told him he had AIDS. I love when Tim can’t complete a scene after his acting teacher so thoroughly reads him, and honestly…respect, I appreciate that Tim is willing to admit that. I love the image of John’s father closing the door to their house after John puts his foot down, reaffirms to his dad that he loves Tim and says there is nothing he can do about it. Because the door to their house has bars, and it looks like John’s father is locking himself up in a cage. Trapped inside while John and Tim drive off in to the world. To experience it in its fullness while John’s father cowers away. 

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I think the scenes where John was sick and where he was dying was super well performed. Hell, the entire thing was well performed, but to see Craig Stott go from strong athlete to gasping for breath, so sure footed to unsteady on his feet. I am in love with the blushy little smile that John gives Tim when Tim takes his picture and calls him beautiful after they have shaved John’s head, and glued dinosaur figurines to it. This film does such a phenomenal job of realistically, believably portraying love. 

I’m thankful to the writing for acknowledging sex workers and intravenous drug users, they are our brothers and sisters, they are us, we are all family, and I think it is important that we don’t forget them when we discuss AIDS, and the people we lost to it. 

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I think they handled John’s death very lovingly. I am sure that I would have been bawling if I didn’t end up in a lovely two and a half hour conversation with a friend just before he draws his last breath. And again, the choices here, the loud, agonizing breathing John has when he sleeps, and the way the silence settles in when he draws his last breath. I am glad John told Tim in his own way that he was ready to go. That when he collapsed at home it was so easy. There is no way losing someone you love that deeply isn’t devastating, but at least for me, death is a little easier when I know someone is ready. 

I love that John kept his promise, not to die unless Tim was by his side, and that Tim whispering in his ear “I’m here” was what finally gave John permission to go. (I WANTED TO PUNCH A HOLE THROUGH MY TV WHEN JOHN’S PARENTS DIDN’T LET THE PRIEST SAY TIM WAS ANYTHING MORE THAN A FRIEND TO JOHN.)  I loved that we ended the film with Pepe telling Tim that John was by his side, right before we learn that Tim died ten days after he finished writing his book. 

I should have known, I guess, that this was based on a real story, because of the nature of the material, but for some reason I didn’t. Maybe I missed a title card somewhere or something. But I do think there is something so beautiful about being able to immortalize John, immortalize Tim, and immortalize their love for each other in a book. That their love story was told again through film. That there is no way to deny their love for each other now. 

Favorite Moment 

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Honestly, I really loved the sex scene between John and Timothy near the end of the film when they are back in John’s childhood home to celebrate Christmas with John’s family. John has been receiving treatment for cancer, and is very weak, on oxygen and everything since his lungs have been having a lot of trouble recently. I love that every part of it is so slow and tender, John and Timothy dancing together in John’s room, paralleling the way they danced together at Tim’s sister’s wedding not long after their HIV diagnoses. 

John, as weak as he is, as hard as it is for him to breathe, asks Tim to screw him, and we get absolutely the slowest and most intentional sex scene of the entire film (and there are many sex scenes in this film). I do not think that all sex needs to be tender, do not get me wrong, but I did really love the way that with how obvious it is that John does not have much time left, they take their time with this. It is just such a beautiful expression of love between these two. I appreciate too that they make this sex scene beautiful, that sex between an actively dying cancer patient is held as high or higher in beauty and artistry as all the sex Tim and John were having over the 15 year course of their relationship. It is very obvious that this is a last goodbye, but for all that sex has at times been avoided in this film, for the time it brought HIV into their lives, sex is not a bad thing, sex is a necessary and wanted thing, I just liked it as a part of their goodbyes to each other. 

Favorite Quote

“How can you write this play? You’re making assumptions about your status.”

Honestly. What an incredible fucking line. Tim sitting in a room, interviewing a man who is dying of toxoplasmosis because of his HIV status for a play. I am not opposed to people making plays about terminally ill people. I do think it is important to immortalize, to remember, to tell stories. But for the love of GOD you canNOT go waltzing in to a dying man’s apartment, wipe your hands on his chair after you shake his hand because his AIDS disgusts you, and then demand his life story and his thoughts about dying. 

Tim had so much unprotected sex in college, Tim is hiding from the (possible) truth, Tim does not want to know. What right does Tim have to ask others for their stories when he is running from his own? 

Score

9/10

[sour-ggrapess]

RED MEANS I LOVE YOU

kim namjoon x fem reader

summary; The towns serial killer comes to fu!ck and manipulate you every night.

A/n; Ik joon is so sweet and would like never but ghostface and billy loomis turn me on and so dose joon so.....here we are ig. this is rushed tbh. Tumblr hates me

warnings; blackmailing, knife play, unprotected se!x, bathroom se!x, hair pulling, bl!ood , Violence.

Water running as you put on your new fenty beauty skin wash. Self care made you feel like a bad bitch. Your pink night gown that you could see your boobs in but who cares. Forgetting all about the crazy man that comes to fuck you every night. You knew he was a crazy dickhead that killed your boyfriend and your enemy. He wanted you to his-self and no one else.

A loud noise coming from your living room making you jump out of your skin. You know not to act like those stupid hoes from the horror movies so you lock your roo m door and hide in your bathroom .

"Y/N! I KNOW YOUR HOME!" your crazy boyfriend yells out through the house. You were scared of him but if you were to shut him out you knew he would kill you just loved him back. "In here baby." you respond as you unlock your door to go greet him. He meets you at your door as he pulls you in for a deep kiss, you couldn't deny the dick was amazing and his touch did make you feel loved in ways you couldn't explain.

He pulled away from the kiss looking you directly in your eyes. "I hope you dont think I will ever hurt. He looks as if hes depressed, "Are you scared of me, y/n?" He questions you with a little twinkle in his eye that will make you feel like a dick if you say the wrong thing.

"I would never be scared of you, I know you love me." You say knowing you were. Placing a peck on his forehead as you walk back into your ensuite. Joon follows you and grabs your waist as you lean over the sink. "can I show you how much I love you?" He groaned against your ear. You nod your head giving him consent to do whatever. You didnt just only let him, you liked every bit of the way he pulled you hair and sliced up your thighs to leave little scars.

Joon was already leaking precum from the way he could see your boobs and ass very clearly through the night gown. Sliding his hand up your dress as his hand roamed and explored your skin. Finding your nipples he starts playing with them making your back arch and your ass press on his hard dick. Undoing the string on his sweats you could see his print very vividly in.

Shoving the dress up to your upper back as he shoves his long cock into your hole that was dripping for him. His head shoots back and high pitched whimpers escape his lips. His cock rubbing on your soft walls, shit you could cum right now. Grabbing his knife out his pocket flinging the blade out to carve his initials into your lower back like a tramp stamp. Whines and whimpers running off your tongue as the blades sinks into your skin, knj now carved into your waist with blood running down it. "See my pretty girl look. Red. The color of love." He groaned against your neck as he cock ran deep in your walls.

Joon grabbed a fist full of hair pulling your hair back so you could look at him. "if you ever leave me ill kill you and me so we will never be apart." He grunted as he looked straight into your twitching eyes. His sick twisted words making you release on him. Hands moving to grip your neck as he rams his cock into you even harder.

His cum shooting into your pussy as he slashes a wide gash into your stomach.

"Red means I love you"

[pharawee]

🖇️BL WATCHLIST DECEMBER

🎬7 Days Before Valentine - WETV - The crispest sound I've ever heard in a Thai drama. And so much symbolism, I love it!

🎬Playboyy - GAGAOOLALA - 🍌🍍🍈🍎🍑🍐

🎬For Him - IQIYI - Messy uni bl my beloved.

🎬Twins - GAGAOOLALA - The first ep had a bit too much exposition for my taste but I like it.

🎬Pit Babe - IQIYI - Not iqiyi geolocking things again. Don't they understand I need to watch this for the neonsynth vibes and Nut and Pon??

🎬Beyond the Star - IQIYI - Look how they massacred my show. But still, Bank Chanwut my beloved. 🥰

🎬The Sign - YOUTUBE - The fantasy lakorn BL of my dreams.

🎬Dead Friend Forever | DFF - IQIYI - How did BOC know that I want a horror BL for Christmas this year?

🎬Bake Me Please - GAGAOOLALA - Ohm and Guide and lots of sweetness, need I say more?

🎬My Universe - IQIYI - Lots of couples each with their own self-contained mini series (if you can even call it that). I'm intrigued.

The calendar overview for November was super handy so:

🖇️FINISHED

🎬My Dear Gangster Oppa - IQIYI - This is already so cute. Achievement unlocked: new Thursday happy place.

🎬Bake Me Please - GAGAOOLALA - Ohm and Guide and lots of sweetness, need I say more?

🖇️ON HOLD (aka I love these shows, I just don't have the time😭)

🎬Absolute Zero - IQIYI - I want to love this show - it's beautiful and bittersweet - but some of the plot leaves me puzzled.

🎬Shadow - GAGAOOLALA - I've been waiting for this series for so long. 😭

🎬Last Twilight - YOUTUBE - I'll tentatively watch this for JimmySea.

🎬Cherry Magic Thailand - YOUTUBE - This is going to be unbearably cute, I just know it.

🎬The Middleman's Love -| IQIYI + YOUTUBE - This is moving very very fast, much faster than the novel. Consequently, Jade is very, very unhinged but that's why I love him.

🎬Cooking Crush - 26 November | YOUTUBE - OffGun means I'm in.

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[teecupangel]

desmond would definitely be the type to accidentally woo the og fm/otome protagonist AND the harem + bg characters. with the ikemen sengoku, it would be funny if desmond’s route is only unlocked after the mc finishes the entire game and gets all the ending cue the twist of video game protagonist! desmond getting isekaied. His bad route is probably going to be desmond sacrificing himself again :/ …. normal route is desmond just booking it and never finding the truth of who he actually was, rip pov outsider.

Let’s add @artduringclasstime’s reply to the previous post

Those four or so years where I played the Ikemen series religiously just came out of the woodwork to smack me in the face. Sasuke renamed himself after a fictional ninja the moment he went back in time, the STARS he'll have in his eyes upon meeting Desmond. ... and I can definitely see Kenshin going after Desmond. Whether it's for a fight or otherwise, even he doesn't know

Desmond had no plans to do such a thing in the first place. He has no idea why the hell any of these was happening to him.

He doesn’t understand that, because he’s an unknown character, whatever system is in place in the world sees him as a ‘player character’ which means… people have easier time to fall in love with him because of his personality.

I like to imagine that Desmond was given a buff in their affection rating like in the normal mode of “Villains are Destined to Die” where the ‘player character’ gets a 30% affinity already to the possible love interests like a “we’re sorry you’re stuck in our world” kind of apology buff from the ‘gods’ of this world.

Of course, that additional affinity is just there to make sure Desmond doesn’t get on the bad sides of the powerful men from the get go and can still go down or up, depending on Desmond’s action.

Sasuke would be the one to talk about Multiverses and such and how Desmond’s existence could mean that they themselves are a work of fiction in a different world.

Desmond is like “yeah, I get what you’re talking about but that’s not really helpful to our current situation?” which would embarrass Sasuke because he got too fired up about it.

So in this one, they sorta know Desmond’s true identity because Sasuke played Assassin’s Creed (for the history) so Sasuke gives them the idea that maybe a POE is also somewhere here since Desmond’s here.

It’s a long shot but it’s a possibility that they can’t just dismiss.

And that is the start of Desmond’s route. Depending on the player’s actions, the player character would later switch to Desmond for the secret BL route! (Which has a harem ending because why not?)

(Kenshin’s route is more on the side of enemies-to-lovers route with Desmond actually getting a headache over how ‘devoted’ to fighting Kenshin is).

His bad ending is them finding the POE and learning that it can be used to bring them back to their proper time and dimension BUT they will come back to it at the exact time they left so Desmond will return to his world only to die from the device ‘again’. He still goes through with it though because he wants to get Mai and Sasuke back to their time and he believes he’s been living in borrowed time. The normal ending, I believe, is Desmond not using the POE and finally leaving everyone with the idea that, if he’s stuck in this world, he’ll build a Brotherhood somewhere he’s more familiar with: Italy. In other words, the normal ending has Desmond alive but alone in a whole other country with no idea what happens to him afterwards.

The part where Desmond books it and no one finds out who he truly is would work as the ‘failed’ event of unlocking Desmond’s route.

To even unlock Desmond’s route, there would be two conditions:

(1) Finished all the endings for each route.

(2) Start a new game and go to a specific event that lets Mai walk in town (this will show up as a new ‘option’ during one of the early parts of the game)

(3) Choose the “Don’t scream” when Mai wakes up one night with a shadow looming above her after the previous event on condition (2).

If all conditions are done, Desmond is unlocked as a possible route but to get to the Desmond’s route, the choices to develop his affection must be chosen.

The condition to change to Desmond as the main character and enter the BL route is to actually develop his affection up to 30% only but keep all affections to other characters at 29% or below before Sasuke appears and tells Mai and Desmond that Desmond is a character from the franchise Assassin’s Creed.

[bengiyo]

Dangerous Romance Ep 6 Stray Thoughts

Last week, this show continued to baffle me by converting completely to a tropes generation machine. Sailom now apparently lives with Kanghan’s family during the week, and Saifah’s foot issues are completely gone. Sailom, Kanghan, and Pimfah went to an open house at a university, where Kanghan continued to take Ls. Sailom decided to leave the only good shirt he and his brother have somewhere on that campus so he could wear the same tacky shirt as Kanghan. The show set up some sort of false dichotomy where Sailom has to choose himself and his future by studying with an older student, or sacrificing his future to tutor Kanghan. Also, there’s a new teacher, and Pimfah has a crush on Sailom.

Love that Pimfah is the only person able to state their romantic desires with clarity and conviction.

Kanghan, you can’t just toss Sailom away as your tutor when his financial and physical security is riding on tutoring you.

If these kids don’t stop openly shipping…

I’d love to go back to my old school as a teacher and revive my old team.

Now Sailom is expected to teach Kanghan the cheerleading routine as well? Will this boy’s list of responsibilities ever come to an end?

Kanghan, I really don’t think you should have taken Pimfah’s confession from her. That’s not cool, and your list of offenses grows.

I respect Pimfah. She took her shot and accepted Sailom’s answer. Still, we spend so much time on what other people want from Sailom. It’s tiresome.

Now, as much as I like big moments in the rain, why are they arguing in the rain about Pimfah? Why is Kanghan so mad that Sailom rejected Pimfah, and why would Sailom confess his feelings under these circumstances? He’s got way too much riding on this arrangement.

We let a BL boy get wet in the rain. Sailom could die.

Sailom is at school with a fever? That’s bad form. Thank you for acknowledging that he should have stayed home, School Nurse.

If debt collectors are coming through to torture him on the regular, why would Sailom ever leave his front door unlocked?

Sponge baths, my beloathed. I think feverish Sailom is the first time we’ve gotten much of what’s going on with him internally in over a month.

I’m glad at least one of Sailom’s friends went to check on him properly.

Why do we only get interior thoughts and memories from Sailom when it’s about his crush on Kanghan? He started off so compelling, and he’s just a romantic interest now.

I suppose it’s Kanghan’s turn to get sick in the rain?

Damn, they straight up snubbed Kanghan on water, too.

Here we go with the heavy-handed windmill analogy after they just snubbed Kanghan.

I’m just not feeling this jealousy bit from Kanghan. He told Sailom he has no feelings for him. Guy is his friend. This is stupid.

Oh, I don’t like this kiss. How we got here does not support any tension present in the restraint nor does it justify all these flashbacks.

How dare they try to bait me back next week with a pinky touch.

Well, that sucked for me. I really thought Sailom was going to be our protagonist but I was wrong. This show continues to not take him or his reality seriously. I don’t like that this show signaled that it would take poverty and class seriously just for it to be this. I hope the folks who enjoy the actor chemistry and visuals are at least having fun with the haphazard deployment of tropes. I cannot believe the same directors are also doing Love in Translation right now. This is belemptious.

[avorbl]

Avor's Watchlist for weeks 36 + 37

Fall has begun and I am watching 16 currently airing shows 14 of which are Qls. My rewatches have been on hold for a few weeks now.

Currently Airing

Battle of the Writers 7/12 Beautiful Boys kissing, tropes and even a bit of a story if you look hard enough

Sugar Dog Life 6/10 Lonely people, food and not enough communication the Japanese recipe for a good watch

First Note of Love 6/12 Compared to all the loud stuff thats currently airing this one is very quiet

Seoul Blues 7/8 Messy people messing around Jeonha finally reacted to something but it feels very much like they stitched two scripts they had and made it 8 episodes with the same character names

The On1y One 8/12 Best thing currently airing beautiful cinemaphotography and wonderful acting

Love Next Door 10/16 The first 8 episodes showed us why Seokryu did not feel that she could be open about her problems with anyone at home and now I am supposed to find her at fault because she kept her illness a secret?

Live in Love 3/5 The colours keep colouring and with all the talk about tone this week the tonal dissonance between what his happening to Cake and how they react to it is a bit distracting

Room 2/5 Fun and chaotic not sure what it wants to tell

Happy of the End 2/8 I am waiting for the sub of the fourth episode to continue because I dont think I can get myself to watch each episode on its own its heavy and beautiful

Kidnap 2/12 I get to see Ohm again

The Hidden Moon 2/10 A propos Ohm a ghost romance. They rank right after robot romances for plots to avoid for me. I am cautiously optimistic about this one though as long as they are not introducing time layers.

Jack & Joker: U Steal My Heart! 1/12 War is a good actor and I liked Yin whom I havent seen outside of En of love. But I was promised a heist.

Love is Like a Poison 1/10 The colour intensity was to mismatched between the poison transitions and the rest of the episode hopefully that changes

Unlock Your Love 1/8 I am not sure about this one the character interactions and the main characters action compared to her flashback experiences feel a bit too contrived

Bad Guy My Boss 1/10 20 year olds in charge of a company are always so in control. A fantasy office setting to forget work on Sunday evenings

Love Sick 2024 1/15 Real children bringing me a highschool story. With a big cast I am bit scared that I am supposed to remember and differentiate all these boys in their highschool uniforms

What I am catching up on

My Best Boyfriend 4/17

Unstoppable High Kick 25/167

Gym Affairs 15/24 Loneliness and desire (for love)

The Princess Royal 21/40 A typical mid show slump with this one, its promising

Word of Honor 17/36 I think of all the gay characters Gong Jun could have played while watching this

Like Love 8/15 2014 BL

Fight for My Way 4/16 I really need to watch everything Park Seojoon has been in

Finished in the last two weeks

Takara’s Treasure 02.09.24 9,5/10 Loved how they got gradually closer. Taishin getting a better understanding of Takara and Takara's reason for being so withdrawn getting revealed. The depiction of the "creepy uncle" really is the only blemish on this otherwise well thought out series.

Mr Mitsuyas Planned Feeding 06.09.24 9/10 A lovely story about finding support and yourself.

Takara’s Treasure Spin off 09.09.24 8,5/10 A nice end cap to this wonderful story

I Hear the Sunspot 12.09.24 6/10 This is the series I ve written the most notes for this year and it all boils down to: Great visuals but a dissappointing second half. We got the introduction of a secondary character instead of the growth and adaptation the couple needed

4 Minutes 13.09.24 9,5/10 The finale was truly unnerving, limbo made palpable. Those first minutes of surreal softness really got to me. A perfect ending to a good show. Regrets, Consequences, Redemption, LIMBO This series makes a strong case for how choices influence our lives and if we dont make choices life wont be better. Simplistic solutions only work in fantasy

Boytoy 14.09.24 7,5/10 Deeper than I intially thought. But a classic gay people at the edge of society BL with a happy ending though.

With You I Bloom 15.09.24 8/10 About social bonds and priorities. Would have been better if the credits werent as lighthearted/ the opening credits did not have such a sports drama vibe. Probably would have worked better as several movies .

Love Enemy 15.09.24 7,5/10 Fourty minutes of fluff to pass the time

Dropped in the last two weeks

The Founder of Diabolism Season 1 5/15 03.09.24 -/10

Addicted Heroin 4/10 03.09.24 -/10

[suzuran777]

Upcoming BL game: Ooe (Adelta)

Last week Adelta posted some information about their newest game, Ooe (大穢)! The R18 visual novel is scheduled to be released fall 2023 (now changed to 2024!), though they’re also planning on releasing some other Ooe-related projects like an all-ages TRPG (tabletop role-playing game) version of the game and a digital format novel.

Story 30th year of the Showa era (1955), detective Oosaki travels to an abandoned fishing village located on the remote island of Ooejima, located south of Tokyo. After receiving a strange request from his client, he attends the commemoration of an actress who passed away three years ago, on his behalf. During his stay on the island a series of strange events happen. The ship that is supposed to pick them up never arrives, no one has heard anything from the event organizer, and there seems to be an unexplainable hatred and fear among the other people who gathered on the island. Stranded on this ominous island, ten people unravel the mystery of their shared past and the death of the actress, whose name is also "Ooe".

The game focuses on the ''Closed circle mystery'' element that can often be found in detective fiction. The chaotic atmosphere peculiar to post-war Japan will also be noticeable in this story. The genre is ‘’Mystery x Detective x Japanese horror’’, but according to the official blog posts it won’t have any ghosts or extremely gorey content. This is also the first Adelta game which will have a top protagonist! (and everyone is 'straight’ supposedly, which probably just means they're usually not into men but only fall for Oosaki lol). 

All nine attendees, who are also all murderers, will have their own routes, although some routes might be shorter than the others (4 full main routes). The servant who dies at the beginning of the game (I think this refers to Funeno) will also have his own route. When one route is cleared, more choices will be added to the game and more routes will unlock. Some newer blog updates also showed that there’s actually a 10th route? Which probably unlocks after clearing all of the other routes (I suspect it's Daiba). It’s also confirmed that the first route is Ariake, so maybe it will follow a similar pattern as the previous Adelta games in which you can only play the routes in a certain order!

Main characters Every character's personality seems to be inspired by the Buddhist fundamental earthly desires (workings of life that are believed to cause one psychological/physical suffering and impede the quest for enlightenment). I looked up the kanji that were used in the image below and added some translations/definitions of each term. I am not super familiar with these terms, so please let me know if there are any mistakes of course!

Oosaki (大崎) - Protagonist: A calm and collected young detective. He’s very tall and therefore people who meet him for the first time often assume he’s unfriendly, but in reality he's quite nice and just has a serious personality.

Ariake (有明) -  Disregard (Anapatrapya 無愧): A mortician who likes helping out those in need. After injuring his dominant hand, he has been receiving a lot of help from others and keeps thanking them. His mental factor initially seemed similar to Shijoumae but after checking the explanations on the official blog it seems like it more or less means he's a good person, even while doing something bad.

Shimbashi (新橋) -  Stinginess/greed (Mātsarya 慳): A screenwriter who has a weird way of speaking, somehow combining overly polite speach and insults. He’s very proud of himself, also a germaphobe. His mental factor refers to the fact that he only wants to satisfy his own desires.

Hinode (日出) -  Resentment/Anger  (Krodha 忿): A junior high school student who travelled to the island on behalf of his mother. It seems like he doesn't talk. Uses a crutch to walk, though it's not really explained yet why.

Shijoumae (市場前) -  Shamelessness (Āhrīkya 無慚): A gentle and polite surgeon, who is also specialized in treating burn victims. In this case the factor of “shamelessness” seems to represent someone who does not accept criticism from others and does not realize he's wrong.

Shiodome (汐留) -  Restlesness (Auddhatya 掉挙): An energetic folkorist who can’t leave anything left unexplained. He’s researching the folklore and history of the island. His mental factor basically means he's trying to laugh off problems instead of addressing them.

Funeno (船野) -  Sloth (Middha 睡眠): A servant who runs the two abandoned inns on the island. He’s so kindhearted that even the butterflies on the island seem to like him. He only fears Oosaki...

Toyosu (豊洲) -  Regret (Kaukritya 悪作): A soft-spoken monk, who always has a gentle air around him. Doesn’t quite understand why he was invited to the ceremony, as he has no connections to the Ooe family.

Takeshiba (竹芝) -  Lethargy/Gloominess (Styāna 惛沈?): (Not super sure about this one because the kanji listed below is 惘沈 but by looking for that I don't get any results.) A magician who speaks in Kansai dialect. He often seems quite nervous and avoids any form of conflict.

Aomi (青海) -  Envy (Īrṣyā 嫉): A quiet music teacher who doesn’t talk a lot. When he does speak, it’s limited to short sentences only.

Side characters

Daiba Shizuma (台場静馬): Oosaki’s client who has a similar appearance as him. I’m not sure if he will remain as just a side character in the game because he’s the only one who also has red eyes, while so far all side characters have black eyes. He also has his own short story in the extra booklet... I wonder if he’s a secret route? He has way too much official art too. 

Shinagawa Zakuro (品川柘榴): A junior detective who’s always tired.

Shinkiba (新木場): Manager of the detective agency, likes reading books

(Image sources: [1] [2] Characters and illustrations belong to Adelta.)

By the way, in a previous blog post it was mentioned that 大穢 will be used to refer to the 18+ BL visual novel version of the game which will be released first, and  大江 for the all-ages TRPG version, though both seem to have the same reading. Most older pictures still use 大江 but I think this decision to change the kanji was only made later.

Some fun facts: all of the characters except Oosaki are named after the stations of the Yurikamome Line. One of the blog posts mentions that since there are a lot of characters, the writer wanted to make it easy for people to remember their names, so they called them after train stations near Tokyo Big Sight (the location where Comiket is held twice a year). It seems like Oosaki and the side characters Shinagawa and Shinkiba are called after stations on the Rinkai line? But they did mention that these names weren't chosen for any plot-related reasons.

So far it also seems like some characters share their first names with characters from existing novels. Shiodome's first name is Michio, which is also the name of a quite relevant character in Kotou no Oni. Daiba's first name is Shizuma which seems to be referencing a character in the Inugami Curse, and Funeno's first name is Kureichirou, which is also the name of one of the main characters of Dogra Magra (the novel you might remember from Hashihime!).

As usual the writer uses a lot of literature as inspiration, this time it was mentioned that the story was inspired by Agatha Christie's And Then There Were None, Edogawa Ranpo's Kotou no Oni and a few other stories inspired by real-life incidents (Anatahan, Higarigoke and the Mount Hakkoda incidents). They also seem to be referencing Inugami Curse or The inugami Family, so that's a small reading list for those who want to read something that could possibly be referenced in the game!

The official Adelta Twitter account frequently posts new updates about the game, so I recommend turning notifications on! They post a lot of background illustrations, CG previews, lineart, sketches etc. If you want even more information, I also purchase BL magazine Cool-B. Adelta always publishes a little bit of extra information in there, for example a ''madness'' scale ranking each character from 1 -5 (5 being the worst) so it's definitely worth checking out if you want to know more about this game.

[hxhhasmysoul]

Just see this in twitter by someone :

"Why do people read shonen for subtextual doomed yaoi click bait when X exists and you don’t have to pretend?"

"I'm starting to think maybe people should read actual BL manga. perhaps considering manga written with actual gay characters in it in addition to shipping m x m from whatever battle shounen you're into."

Like because of those subtext, there can be fanfics and fanarts, right? And then I decided to come here, this blog of yours is one of my favorite place...

First of, thank you for the kind words. I'm glad you're enjoying my blog even if it's a hot mess at times.

While I enjoy my ships that I have from the shounes I like, I didn't read /watch HxH or JJK for the ships. When I first watched the HxH anime it was after years of deep depression where I stopped reading things and watching things or playing games with plots. I'd just put forgettable shows or youtube videos in the background and play some mind numbing click game if I wasn't working.

I literally don't remember anything from that time, at least I was semi functional then, I had worse times. But summer was the worst, I didn't make much money generally but over the summer I had like one fifth of my regular work load at best and I just couldn't handle the existential dread and anxiety.

And I was watching videos of people speaking about media i knew all day and eventually I ran out of those that were about stuff I knew but I liked the person's voice so I clicked onto videos about stuff i didn't. And things they said about HxH made me go: really? And it was something about the last phase of the Hunter's Exam, it had nothing to do with any ship.

And I made the effort to watch a whole ass fucking anime. Like 100+ episodes. In about 5 days. It had characters I really started to love early on like Gon and Killua or Melody and train-wreck characters like Hisoka or Illumi that I couldn't stop myself from looking at with utter fascination, like wtf. And it had these intertwining plot lines and it didn't focus on just one character and Gon didn't even fight some of the bosses and the plot just veered into places I didn't expect but in the best fucking way possible and in the Chimera Ant arc it was really going from bad to worse and getting more tense and painful and the sense of dread and doom was mounting ... and it traumatised me. And I didn't know what to do with myself and for the first time ever I turned to fandom to process what I've experienced. And yeah I came out of convince that Gon and Killua loved each other in a romantic way and it was very important but like I didn't go into it or even kept watching for that.

HxH unlocked in me the ability to enjoy stuff again. To actually interact with media. It made me write alone again, not just co-write with a friend.

And like I don't watch/read that much. I don't have the time or energy, I also want to keep enjoying fandom and that takes up time and write my own stuff.

I don't even remember why I watched JJK. I knew absolutely nothing about it going, not who the characters were, not what the plot was. Like I must've read some blurb but I really don't know. And like episode one and I loved Yuuji and I just kept watching and the Junpei episodes came and I had to stop watching for a day and collect myself because how could they you know, how could they to my child... And after I finished the anime I read the manga and it was better? And worse, so much more traumatising.

But JJK is my kind of story too, it doesn't overfocus on one character, it has intertwining plots. It has some characters that I love or am fascinated by.

Years ago I used to read a lot of BL but none really stuck with me because they weren't that much my kind of stories. I'm not saying they were bad, they just weren't it for me.

But this is why I read HxH or JJK. The shipping for me is the result, not the reason. I just want more with the characters I love, more situations more emotions. So I love the fanart and the fanfic and it really adds to my enjoyment of these characters and their stories.

But also everyone is different and reads for different reasons. So people who say you should read X instead are really presumptuous, the imagine that they understand why someone enjoys something, what experiences and emotions they are after. And like maybe there are BL stories with characters like Gon and Killua and Yuuji, there are certainly BL stories with guys with kinda Sukuna vibes, I vaguely remember that. It's just that I haven't stumbled upon any that'd have the other factors too that make me enjoy HxH or JJK. Maybe I will encounter them and enjoy them but with how much time and energy I have, I likely won't go out there to look for them to prove someone's point that I'd just enjoy those hypothetical stories more.

There's this annoying culture in fandom where people expect others to justify why they enjoy things. And it's not enough for you to have a reason to like something, the reason will be scritinised and it's validity will be judged. And those people who feel that need to play judge to what others enjoy and and how, they really make fandom and online spaces worse for everyone. They are like those nosy neighbours who stand in their window all day watching what everyone else is doing. And we all know that the window neighbours are creepy, but somehow the fandom judges are not called nosy and creepy enough and honestly they should be. Because honestly they should mind their fucking business.

[inkameswetrust]

The Window Sill (Pt. 4)

Pairing: James Diamond x Kendall Knight

Characters: Kendall Knight, James Diamond, Logan Hortense Mitchell, Carlos Garcia, Jennifer Knight & Katie Knight

Content Warnings: Fluff, BL, SFW

Word Count: 2,253

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After a long afternoon of awkward interactions and denting a few cars with the shove of faulty shopping carts, Kendall hung up his uniform apron and clocked out for the day. He then explained to his friends that he needed to hurry home and look after Katie in their mother's absence. Logan and Carlos shared some parting words with Kendall and gave a pair of urgent looks. He nodded in understanding, acknowledging he had to try again at some point.

James, Logan, and Carlos left Kendall to his devices as he silently walked home. He sulked into every labored footstep, his boots crushing the melted snow and chunky ice scattered across the sidewalk. Kendall reflected on the words he spoke to James or the lack thereof, and continued wondering why he found it so difficult to speak up.

All this frustration and regret quickly turned into anger and annoyance. James kissed him, so why was Kendall constantly questioning the status of their relationship? Why had James not confirmed this with Kendall or, at the very least, asked him before the kiss?

Before he knew it, Kendall's frustrated mumbling and spiraling thoughts carried him all the way home. As he sank his hand into his pocket, he realized it felt emptier and deeper than usual. He plunged his hand in further and frantically checked all his pockets to realize he left the house this morning without his keys. Kendall groaned and brought his palm to his forehead before reluctantly knocking on the door, crying, "Katie!"

Katie cracked open the door, only a sliver of space between it and its frame to show a fraction of her frowning face. "You're late," she grumbled while keeping one hand securely on the lock.

"I was at work," Kendall replied in a monotone voice.

Katie held out her hand through the crack in the door, showing her palm to Kendall as if to ask for something. Financial compensation, perhaps. "Five bucks," Katie demanded, as if tardiness warranted an entry fee.

"Katie!" Kendall whined, refusing to cave into her childish demands.

"Fine." Katie sighed, unlocking the door and opening it completely to grant Kendall entrance. He shuffled inside and immediately flopped face-first onto the living room couch. Katie strode to his side with crossed arms and a sympathetic sigh ready to deploy.

"So, how'd it go?" Katie questioned, hoping there was a fraction of good news behind Kendall's defeatedness.

"Mmph." Kendall groaned into the throw pillow. Katie dropped her arms to her sides, realizing the situation was much more difficult for Kendall than anticipated.

"Wow. That bad, huh?" Katie queried sympathetically.

"Hmmph..." Kendall replied in a muffled grunt, his body sinking into the couch cushions like an anchor underwater.

Katie sympathetically gazed down at her defeated older brother, unsure of how to console him or lift his spirits. Although she knew this situation was entirely out of her control, Katie felt an odd sense of responsibility to aid him regardless.

"Do you wanna play Biohazard Battle Blast 5?" Katie questioned, hoping to find an adequate solution or distraction. Kendall shook his head, his face never leaving the throw pillow.

"Do you wanna watch the Pussycat Dolls on MTV?" Katie suggested, to which Kendall responded with an additional shake of his head. She fell silent for a brief moment, contemplating a third and final solution.

"Do you want me to make you a pink smoothie?" Katie added. Kendall nodded his head into the throw pillow, still refusing to make a single sound in response. He turned his head to the side, showing Katie a fraction of his sullied face as a small glimmer of hope began to fuel his movements.

"Great!" Katie cheered, "Now, can you go make the smoothie? Mom says I shouldn't touch the blender."

Kendall groaned and returned his face to its rightful throne atop the throw pillow, hidden away and buried like a corpse. Although he appreciated the sentiment behind Katie's suggestion, he couldn't find it in himself to rise any higher than the arms of the couch.

The doorbell rang, alerting Katie and Kendall of someone's presence. Unwilling to stand or speak, Katie answers the door in Kendall's stead. "Hey, James," Katie spoke neutrally.

"Hey, Katie!" James replied cheerfully.

Kendall's head couldn't possibly rise from the pillow any quicker. He hurried to his feet and tumbled off the couch and onto the floor. "J-James!" Kendall cried as he stood with poor coordination and even poorer composure.

Katie looked in both directions, acknowledging the tension setting in. She awkwardly tucked her lips inward and scuttled to her bedroom, saying, "I'll just leave you two alone."

James and Kendall continued to share an awkward glance. James parts his lips to begin speaking, but Kendall stops him with the gesture of his hand before he can get a word out.

"Not yet," Kendall advises with a quick shake of his head, "Katie, close your door!"

The drawn-out creak of Katie's closing door echoed through the hallway, but it never clicked shut. Annoyed by Katie's defiance, Kendall cries, "All the way!"

Katie slowly and reluctantly shut her bedroom door, leaving Kendall and James to their own devices. The two boys shared a glance, the room engulfed in awkward silence.

"So, Logan wanted me to get his calculator back from you," James remarked.

"Oh, right!" Kendall uttered as he scrambled back to the couch and pulled a TI-83 from his backpack. I forgot I still had this. He would've been fuming if I had held onto it any longer."

"Right..." James replied as Kendall handed him back the calculator. He was caught narrowing his eyes deep in thought. "Are you alright, by the way? You've been acting weird today."

"W-What? No way!" Kendall refuted with nervous chuckles and a weak grin, "I'm totally fine. Never better, actually."

"Aww, do I make you nervous?" James cooed with a sing-songy voice, "Listen, I understand. It takes a lot of strength to keep your composure in front of a face like this."

James strikes his signature smolder with both hands fluttering at either side of his face. Kendall chuckles and crosses his arms, saying, "Okay, now you're just teasing me."

"Is it working?" James queried, his puppy-dog eyes rounding to match his crescent-like grin.

"You're ridiculous," Kendall scoffed with a simple shake of his head. He stood firmly, his arms locked together in their own security.

"I think I'll take that," James began, gently tucking Kendall's hair behind his ear lobe, "As a yes."

In performing this small yet seemingly significant gesture, James snaked his hand to the back of Kendall's head and pulled him in closer. Kendall had little time to react before realizing he was almost effortlessly ensnared. Though no words were spoken, it was abundantly clear the contrasting glints in the boys' eyes spoke a million words.

James saw right through Kendall's annoyed glance. He'd chuckle if he had the voice to. Instead, his eyes swam down to Kendall's lips, noticing them parting as if to say something but failing to. Kendall followed suit, his eyes falling upon that familiar pompous smirk.

The two boys leaned in closely, their lips brushing against one another and sparking an electrifying sensation of closeness. Just as they were about to grace each other with the privilege of a kiss, the sounds of jingling keys and a turning doorknob were heard from the front door.

Kendall tensed up, shoving James away before Jennifer could open the door and see them too close together.

"Kids, I've got groceries. Can you please come out here and—" Jennifer trailed off, noticing James's presence. She clung to her bag of groceries and chuckled awkwardly, not having expected guests at this time.

"Oh, hi, James!" Jennifer cheered, struggling to clutch every grocery bag completely.

After a quick shared glance with Kendall, James began displaying a helpful facade to steer Jennifer's suspicions away, if only for a short while.

"Hey there, Mama Knight!" James replied heartily as he reached out to assist Jennifer in carrying the groceries to the kitchen, "Here, let me help you with those. You must be exhausted!"

Jennifer squeaked, watching James take an armful of groceries without a hint of hesitation. She sighed with relief as she let her arms rest and relax at her sides.

"He's helpful today!" Jennifer remarked excitedly to Kendall. She followed James into the kitchen, stowing away the groceries with his help. Kendall sunk into the living room couch and sighed into his palms in disbelief that James' diversion worked successfully.

Jennifer had eventually asked James to stay for dinner to which he happily obliged. Everyone sat at the table joyously and unbothered. At times, James held Kendall's hand under the table causing him to slur his words in front of Jennifer. Despite Kendall's nerves, James found ways of discreetly showing small displays of affection. They'd never gone any further than stealing a few glances or winking in Kendall's direction.

Katie kept a lookout for arousing suspicion and alerted Kendall with a few urgent glances if she felt things were starting to escalate. He thanked Katie each time with a simple nod and made sure to signal James with an urgent glance of his own.

After an incredibly risky dinner, Jennifer and Katie had left James and Kendall amongst themselves. They were sure they wanted to spend a few final moments together before nightfall fell upon them but for seemingly different reasons.

"I'll see you tomorrow, 'kay?" James declared, leaving a familiar impression on Kendall's hand with the caress of this thumb.

"W-Wait!" Kendall cried, stopping James from turning away by reaching for his shoulder.

James looked at Kendall, awaiting a response with an open mind. Kendall's heart drummed away at the walls of his chest, alerting him of the stakes of his situation. It was now or never. This was his opportunity to speak.

Unable to carry the weight of his thoughts and transform them into words, Kendall grabbed James' shirt and pulled him in for a quick yet meaningful kiss. Dazed and bewildered, James kept his eyes wide open. He was accustomed to leaving people starstruck in his wake, but this shift in their dynamic had stunned him completely.

Kendall pulled away slowly and shakily. He reluctantly opened his eyes to see stars glimmering in James'. After a brief awkward silence, Kendall hurriedly distanced himself from James and kept his hands firmly at his sides.

"Why... did you do that?" James whispered breathlessly in a trance-like state.

"S-Sorry!" Kendall uttered, his cheeks flushing with color as the realization of his actions seeped into every corner of his mind, "I just... there's something I've been meaning to ask you."

James nodded in understanding, and with a heavy sigh, Kendall faced the music. "Last night you gave me that gift, and then you kissed me." Kendall began, his voice trembling with uncertainty. "Does that mean we're... y'know, dating?"

"Well, do you want us to?" James queried, not having given this much thought before now.

"Well, yeah!" Kendall blurted out, nervously clearing his throat immediately after, "I mean, yes. I think I do."

"Then it's settled. We're dating." James declared confidently, his smile shining as brightly as ever.

"Okay, wow! Awesome. Super cool." Kendall exclaimed, nervously continuing his response until he awkwardly chuckled his breath away, "But aren't you scared?"

James' cocked his brow, intrigued by the nature of Kendall's query. He was never one to shy away from a romantic pursuit, so he stood his ground and shook his head. "Of what? Being with you?" James questioned casually, taking Kendall's hands in his own and holding him closely, "Do I look scared?"

Kendall's face contorted with a crooked grin and wide eyes. His shoulders shot up like rockets and his skin reddened with constraint. He could feel James' advances causing him to shut down completely. The way James looked at him, the undeniable certainty in his eyes was almost overwhelming. There wasn't a hint of doubt to be found.

Kendall pulled away, shielding his face with his hands and groaning into his palms. "Argh, stop looking at me like that!" Kendall cried, his voice rasping with annoyance.

"Like what? This?" James teased, removing one of Kendall's hands from his face so that he could gaze upon a sillier, more mocking expression. He pursed his lips and jokingly batted his eyes to craft a cartoonish kind of look.

"James!" Kendall barked as he threw his hands down.

"Okay, okay, I'll stop," James assured.

Kendall sighed with relief as he lowered his head to James' shoulder and buried his face in his neck. It felt familiar there, almost comforting. James held him closely, hugging him and gently caressing his shoulder.

"Are you seriously not scared, though?" Kendall continued, "I mean, being together... it can be risky. We'll probably have to hide this from people at school and even our parents."

James' gaze hardened from the harsh reality of Kendall's words. Kendall's worry, albeit warranted, felt infectious. He ceased the stroking movements of his caress and truly mulled over the situation. James acknowledged the risks of their relationship but shook his head and stood his ground for Kendall's sake.

"Don't worry, I think I can handle being brave enough for the both of us," James assured in a voice just barely louder than a whisper.

James' response wasn't a definite no, but it was reassurance nonetheless and Kendall found solace in it. He hoped James would prove to be a man of his word.

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Too Much Hassle (Obey Me!) fanfic

summary; This particular MC hates Valentine's Day. But will put up with the chaos to keep the best boys smiling. However. The end of the day has them seeking isolation. With Leviathan.

characters: Marzena OC/MC, Leviathan.

content: romance overload, frustrated MC, casual fluff

I was going to lose my mind soon. The past two weeks had been nothing but holiday prep and gushing over Valentine's Day. The holiday I absolutely hate. But I didn't have a way to explain why without hurting all those happy and smiling people that wanted to gift me their love. So I had been putting on a neutral mood to go with the flow.

But the day of had been absolute chaos and constant chocolate gifting. I had not even gotten to sleep in. Since Asmodeus had woken me up for a pre-breakfast spa treatment. The fruit scents helped a ton. But by the time we finished with the after dinner party, I was about to rip into someone verbally or physically or both. Lucifer took the hint to tell his brothers to let me go to bed early. Beelzebub giving me a bear hug before I walked away to thank me for the small mountain of various snacks I had been sure to gift him. Which felt good, but didn't help my brain much. So I did the only thing I could do afterwards. I walked up to the second floor and texted Leviathan to unlock his door.

The door was slightly open when I got to Leviathan's room. Which I was so glad for I just walked right in to then close it. The shut in otaku looking up from his computer to ask me, "Did you come by to borrow that new manga?" I shook my head to just drop my ass next to his chair and shudder. Which had Leviathan pause to then turn off his current game. "Marzena? Are you okay?" I shook my head to hug my knees. "Overloaded... Too much everything..." Leviathan went wide eyed at the realization of what I meant. So he grabbed up the fuzzy blanket I had bought him to drop it over me. Which helped so much before he tuned on some soft techno music. His frame soon settling beside me as I heaved a sigh of relief. His tail lacing around my middle as he huffed. "I keep forgetting that you have anti-normie tendencies like me. But you get so popular around these holiday celebrations. I keep assuming you like it."

I gave a snort before I finally told the truth. "Levi. I hate this holiday. Valentine's Day is a load of absolute garbage. Ever since I was a preschool kid. My school always had us make a big deal out of this stupid holiday. Made the kids craft up shoeboxes that we decorated to get little cards. But every year... My box either got trashed or it just went missing. The one card I got the kid said his mom made him give it to me. Then the jerk ripped it in half and threw it away on me."

Leviathan goes so quiet he stops breathing. My eyes watering as I rubbed at them and continued. "I got asked out on dates. Then got stood up or saw my date was with someone else. That one group date turned out to be so everyone might show off they were a couple and I got sidelined. I hate this holiday so damn much, Levi. If people are supposed to show the ones they love how they feel, then they need to do it like it's a day to day important thing. Not make up some dumbass holiday for it." A quiet pause has me think that someone else heard me outside of Leviathan's room. But I don't get the chance to think on that when Leviathan sweeps me into a tight hug. Moving the blanket so he can look me in the face. "Tell me their names... Every one of them... I will hack their socials and ruin their lives... Bank accounts drained and jobs lost... I will ruin them for every tear you've ever cried.... Heartless bastards...!"

The fact that it was Leviathan saying this had me look to him in surprise. Only to see something I never expected from him. Pure and barely held molten hate and fury for me. His demon form out in full as he gave growls every time he breathed to have his muscles tight. Which was honestly the most impactful thing to see. So I blinked a few times to then feel a lot of my stress melt off me. My arms coming around Leviathan's waist as he gave a surprised squeak. "That's the most romantic showing of love I have yet to see. Crazy as that sounds. It was real and completely just for me based on feelings of love. Best Valentine ever."

Leviathan went rigid to yelp and stammer. But he soon realized how happy I was to blush and hug me tighter. His anger popping like a bubble to be replaced with the fluff heart of gold that was his true self. "Crap. Now you got me all flustered and mushy feeling. Natural twenty critical hit, Marzena. Cripes, my heart is gonna pop if you keep this up." I gave a huff of a laugh to nuzzle my nose to his and hum at him. "Silly nerd. You got my heart doing the salsa right back. So it's mutual, Lev. Also. I know you got me that strawberry ice cream mochi that is hidden in the freezer. You win first prize in that bet Mammon has about what my favorite treat is. So you get to rub that in his face."

Leviathan gives a happy snicker before he nudges us over to his tv and the pile of cushions I set up for him to game on top of. The two of laying down on our stomachs with the blanket over us to start up Devil Kart. With Leviathan saying with confidence, "Full tournament race. Then we sneak down to get said snack."