#unironically listening to this in middle school changed me as a person

[the-little-crow]

Listening to broadway homestuck at work sure is an experience. Not a bad one mind you, but it sure isn’t good either.

[jkpfr]

OC-tober Day 19: Inspiration

I’m queueing this post because I know I’ll be away from the 17th to the 19th – and because the theme is “inspiration”, I get to talk about my boy Hideki yet again.

(…Though it’s very likely that I won’t have talked about Hideki as part of this challenge yet, but I don’t know that for a fact since I’m writing this way ahead of time. What I mean is: I love talking about this. Strap in.)

When I first created my sweet boy Hideki, his name was Daniel and he was white. Horrible history, I know. I completely revamped this character around 2018-2019 for a Danganronpa RP (horrible history, I know) which gave me the perfect opportunity to keep the same basic layout but make it better, and accentuate some aspects, such as his relationship with being a top-student, a lot more.

One thing that hadn’t changed was my warm memory of the song that inspired this character in the first place. And that song was Animal I Have Become by Three Days Grace.

I created Daniel at some point when I was in high school. By that point, I already knew that song by heart. I’d discovered it via an edgy bloody anime girls montage on YouTube when I was like 10, and after years of listening to it via the AMV, I’d bought the album it was on, One-X, when I was in middle school. And for some reason, this was my go-to CD to put on when I was home alone and washing the dishes.

So it was one random day, as I was washing the dishes and listening to this song I loved, that inspiration struck and I came up with him.

I’m not going to lie, I still love this album unironically. Three Days Grace was never the same after their lead singer left – the new singer and direction never matched the raw and sincere frustration expressed in their earlier works. This album, generally, and this song were relatable as hell. When I listened to the song for the first hundred times, without really knowing what it meant and with English as my second language, I related this song to my personal experience of living in an abusive home (a theme explored in other songs on the album) and going to a school where I didn’t belong for many reasons. The “animal I had become” was, to me, the version of me that was too mentally exhausted to interact fully with the world, to be the real me I identified with. Years later, I could even add that the “monster” was my then-undiagnosed anxiety, which scared me and made me react in ways I didn’t understand. However, this song is ultimately about addiction. This is something I think I started to understand as my grasp of the English language gradually got better, and that I wound up confirming with a Google search.

It's with that personal relationship to the song and with that knowledge in mind that I came up with a character who had become someone they hated. A character who was a horrible version of themselves, but would internally beg for help, to be freed from this horror. I came up with a character who was initially a complete softie (in my more recent writings, I would make it obvious that he was too soft for his own good) and through abuse, confusion and exhaustion exploded one day and let himself become the worst possible version of himself. This “explosion” isn’t without the intervention of addiction, he lashes out on the person he wanted to build a life with, who then leaves him, and everything is interlinked.

(Of course, because I love a little bit of drama, there’s a misunderstanding with what really caused his boyfriend to “leave”. But that’s unrelated to any song. What matters to what is at the heart of what this song means to me, is what Hideki thinks happened.)

This was the gist of Hideki’s characterisation for a long time. Now, here’s the thing about that Danganronpa RP. Although Hideki was one of my most popular characters ever, and I went through a lot of effort to explore his characterisation as fully as I could within the limitations of that story, the person organising that RP, aka the GM, abused the shit out of me. Oopsie.

This post isn’t about me so I won’t go through the details, but taking advantage of the horrible mental state that I was in back then from going through undiagnosed post-traumatic stress disorder following my aforementioned situation of abuse, this person, among a couple others, made me go through hell and worsened my mental state to the point that I… went in shock one day from realising I had hit rock bottom a long time ago – that I had become the monster I’d feared all my life. This was accompanied by my own break-up, which was in fact what caused me to suddenly wake up.

And here was the inspiration for the second part of Hideki’s writing.

Funnily, my ex-partner had participated in that RP alongside me and had hated Hideki’s boyfriend for having left him, even if Hideki had in fact wronged him, because they knew that character knew what he was going through, and how dangerous it was to abandon him then. I shit you not my partner wound up doing the exact same thing to me. And it’s fine! I’d always defended the nuance in what Jun – the boyfriend character – was perceived to have done.

Here’s the thing, though: there’s a good ending to that story. Having suddenly opened my eyes to what was happening to me, I first went through so much shock that my mental health reached a brand new low and my life was in direct danger. And yet, this was a period in my life that was filled with hope. I was going through something extremely difficult, and that forced me to face the me that wanted to fight to the end. I’ll skip over the details – but after surviving this, having gotten some of the help I needed, having been faced with that strong ability to survive I had, I was able to take control of myself again. And I was free to be the real me again.

And that’s when it struck me that I’d never really conceptualised a good ending for Hideki.

My writing of Hideki kinda stopped in the middle of the conflict. As far as shoving him in different RPs where he would live through specific adventures went, that was perfect. But suddenly, I had a brand new experience, and something inside of me must have known just what made sense for such a relatable character as Hideki.

I know this is already very long, but here’s another song; one day, not too long after my healing had started, I was listening to some rock classics. One of those was Highway to Hell by AC/DC.

And very fittingly for Hideki, randomly, for no particular reason, I started to think about a character who was going to heal.

I thought about a Hideki who eventually reached the right time. Who one day felt like listening to music to help vent his frustrations, and by chance discovered rock, hard rock and metal. Who listened to Highway to Hell, felt something, and suddenly had something he wanted to do. Ideas like “attending a concert”, hope like “I will enjoy it” and “I will be able to blend in”, and that was the start of a messy journey, but a journey of healing nonetheless.

This is the start of an iteration of Hideki which I often joke about, dubbing him “metal Hideki”. He dyes his overgrown bright orange hair an ashy brown, he puts on an edgy t-shirt, and there’s something so fun about how silly it is and yet how much it means to his finally putting himself out there.

This inspired me to finish writing his and Jun’s stories, and I’m very satisfied with how I was able to draw inspiration from different stages in my life to write a compelling character, and by how a song was somehow the starting point both times.

There’s a lot more I could say about Hideki; his backstory and his future, which I never used in RP, in part because I have a full story to tell now! (And also because I’m never doing that shit again. Holy shit.) I’ll leave it at this recent cutesy doodle of him, which is directly taken from a song I felt like he would relate to.

[jeungwn]

it's lila (again) and this is jungwon, soccer boy on academic probation and resident working class icon! hit me up for plots and read all about him below the cut 🫶

born and raised in mugunghwa, more middle than working class by some estimates – jungwons father is a prominent construction contractor and his uncle owns a farm out in the boonies so they're very firmly integrated with the community at the grassroots level.

not the first in his family to attend university, but the first to attend mugunghwa specifically so that's kind of a big deal to his parents! he has virtually no interest in his major (and it shows) but wants to make his folks proud while playing ball sooo here we are!

jungwon has been playing soccer as long as he can remember and even had a couple of offers to play semi-professionally after graduating high school, but things just didn't really come together so he decided to make his parents proud instead. yay filial piety

still has this tiny (and very securely guarded) dream of going pro in the future, but he hasn't exactly been taking it super seriously for a while now. nothing really happened, it just kind of slipped out of his focus and he was sort of hoping that jisoo taking over as team captain would magically change that..... well!!!!

i would speculate that jungwon wasn't close with jisoo on a personal level, but obviously recent events have rattled him quite badly and really put into perspective how aimless he's been for the past year and a half. he's not really interested in the gossip or intrigue though, kind of just wants to put his head down and get back to playing like he used to, and get on with life.

athletic achivements (or lack thereof) aside, jungwon has always enjoyed a better reputation than he really deserved. he's not overly sociable, just happened to run with the right crowd at any given time, not too academically inclined but squeaked through admissions somehow,, the list goes on. parents love him though. ask any mugunghwa locals (rich people don't count) and they'll tell you what a great kid he is and ALWAYS has been. always!

definitely listens to ramenez la coupe à la maison unironically while working out. 🗣️🗣️🗣️ k̶̪̞̞̋̐̀̇y̶͚͙̣̯̮͒l̵̬̱̳̋́̅̓͂͝í̵̝̙̉ą̶̖̙̜̈́̎͠n̸͕̫͇̙͙̞̣͐̓͒͊̂̈́ ̷̭͖̳͙̳͖̍̋̐́̓ͅm̶̠̱̣̤̰͗̓̅̆̃b̴͍͔̗̆̿̍̑̓̌͘̕a̷͓̗̻̅̀̀̑̔͂p̴͙̈́p̸̭͍̦̌͝e̴̼̣̼͒̒̀̐̌͝

on a good day he's approachable, charming, giving very much high school sweetheart all grown up. at the worst of times he's irate and somewhat disdainful, particularly towards strangers. his mood is much more even among friends, and his fellow teammates are definitely the ones who get the most consistent treatment from him

overall, his personal reservations sometimes get the best of him but he's not nefarious in any way!

don't make any comments on his bleached hair, it was a moment of weakness and he has to live with it :( (from an ooc perspective it slays but i know in my heart of hearts he would not be into it)

aside from playing soccer, he's very physically active and likes pretty much all outdoor activities, and can be seen at most social gatherings around school/town.

connection ideas: i'm open for anything, but would love connections with other muses who grew up in mugunghwa to see how their relationship might have progressed through the years </3 friends, enemies, exes, etc.

[mynameisbartholomew]

The ICK

I’m a hater at heart. I hate it when it rains and the remnants of water linger on the sole of a cheap canvas shoe tracking little drops of shit-colored water wherever they may step. I hate how the smell of leather gets more and more prominent the moment it makes contact with sweat. Like god please just take the jacket off and let the air circulate under your arms so the lingering B.O. and overactive sweat glands can have some semblance of control. It’s really annoying when in a fit of laughter that throaty sound sneaks its way up and ruins the whole mood. I wanted to laugh not listen to a metal fork shoved so deep into a garbage disposal that it just clangs and clangs begging someone to rip it out. I hate when a movie is playing and just as it’s reaching its climax the grating sound of a voice shatters the world-building I’ve spent the hour invested in. It’s utterly repulsive when going out with someone to boba and they pull out a buy 1, get 1 free coupon to pay with. I never know where I stand when it comes to that. Am I not worthy of a full-priced drink? Or is it that you feel the need to treat others while giving yourself the underhand? Are you so strapped for cash a five-dollar drink breaks the bank? Either way, it makes me wonder if I’m hanging around the right company. I hate when it storms and gets dark and cold. But I also hate when it's too bright and so hot that I'd rather be vacationing in Satan's asscrack. But you like the cold, huh? I have a deep-seated hatred for when people use finger guns after saying a particularly risky statement. Put the fingers away. Finger guns are reserved for disaster bisexuals and repressed millennials that have Harry Potter tattoos and say “doggo” unironically. I hate that everything these days is ironic. I hate having a superior music taste to everyone. I would love to get good recommendations other than  “Oh did you hear the Kendrick Lamar album?”  or “ Kanye is the most genius artist of our generation.” I feel no need to keep arguing over why that is so problematic, so for now, I will suffer the burden of being better than a group of brainwashed frat boys that peaked in college. I hate greek life. You were a part of Greek life. I hate people that don’t like Marina. Her music is literally a drug and I’m not afraid to get hooked. I hate people that do drugs. Yes, that is including weed. I don't care how much it Fuuuuuuuccckkkks. I have asthma. I hate people who are oblivious to their surroundings. I hate optimism. I hate pessimism. Just be a normal fucking person and accept that perspectives are constantly changing. I hate bad texters. I hate when people come back into your life like nothing ever happened after months of no contact. I hate deviated septums. You should really get that checked out. I hate people obsessed with watching let’s plays. Like seriously what are you? A middle school highlighter kid? I hate ankle socks. I hate socks that seem as though there is no end in sight. I hate pants that are hicked up too high. I really don’t need to see the ashy gap between the top of your converse hightop and the hem of your jeans begging to be lengthened. I swear your hem is the only inanimate object I’ve seen quite literally begging to be fixed. “Help me! Help me!” I hate messy hair. I hate having too much Hair. Actually, I can condense this by saying I hate poor hygiene. Overall I just generally hate every aspect. It’s not me, it’s you.

[bisamwilson]

If you get this, answer with three random facts about yourself! Then send this to the last seven blogs that are in your notifications. Can be anonymous or not! Let's get to know the person behind the blog!

ahh thank you for the ask!!!!!!! i have completely blanked on every interesting fact about myself that exists but here’s these three lmao:

1) i unironically really love sports movies. i can quote almost every word to remember the titans and the blind side, and i own a costume of the rockford peaches uniform from a league of their own. one of my friends once sent a link in the group chat to a video titled “i can recite any scene from disney’s peter pan from memory” and captioned it “mak with literally any sports movie ever” and it was kind of upsetting how correct they were

2) i use a fake accent almost all the time! i grew up in the south (tho in the suburbs of a city) and most of my family lives in more rural areas. i spent a lot of time with my family in the summers when i was little so i developed a hick-ish accent, but no one ever took me seriously when i spoke in it/people made fun of it so i taught myself how to speak in something more “normal.” (i couldn’t /quite/ fix everything—i still pronounce “ten” and “wendy” as “tin” and “windy” and any soft drink that isn’t pepsi is a coke afaic.) my real accent comes out when i’m talking about my childhood, talking about southern food, speaking/listening to someone with a southern accent, or when i’m really tired (also occasionally when i get angry). one time my (very redneck) brother called while i was in a common space in my dorm and i immediately slipped into my accent without noticing and all of my friends looked at me like i’d grown a second head.

3) all of the sensation in my right middle finger is partially numbed. when i was seven years old i was visiting family out in the sticks and i was playing with the little girl next door. we didn’t have anything to do (again: the sticks) so she started smashing rocks w a hammer and accidentally hit my middle finger instead. it crushed a lot of the nerves in my finger and it hasn’t been the same since. i used to use this lack of feeling to figure out which was my right hand. (in a related story: i had to hold up only my middle finger to change the cast on it after it got smashed, and they used to make me go down to the school’s office so i wouldn’t seemingly flip any students off. i also cried when i found out about this bc i thought i was gonna go to hell for flipping people off and my mom told me it wasn’t a sin bc it was necessary this time lmao. i’m still religious but i now swear like a sailor so like. how the turn tables)

[tearlessrain]

30 questions tag game

Tagged by: @mercurypilgrim (thanks!)

Rules: Answer 30 questions and tag 5 blogs you are contractually obligated to know better.

Name/nickname: I’ve been going by tearless/tearlessrain for so long that a friend once called me that in person and I did not notice that it wasn’t my name until they said something. but I also have a lot of other names, only two of which have legal relevance.

Gender: male

Star sign: virgo, but I’ve been told by the local astrology gays that I’m also an aquarius moon and that it “explains a lot”

Height: 5′2

Birthday: a secret. I do not like being the center of attention.

Time: it’s like 3:40am. I will experience deep regret tomorrow, and I will learn nothing from this.

Favorite bands: queen feels like a cop out but like I’m never really not in the mood to listen to queen. linkin park, unironically. and all the different permutations of the crosby/stills/nash/young/simon/garfunkle cloud.

A few I am currently listening to, though: I can’t really call out specific bands/artists because I’m mostly listening to my oc playlists lately (I literally can’t stay in a bad mood listening to riska’s playlist and that’s just the energy I need in my life right now).

Favorite solo artists: (all together now) david bowie. also hozier and joni mitchell.

Song stuck in my head: O Come All Ye Faithful, in latin, for some fucking reason. it’s been there for days. send help.

Last movie: Kung Fu Panda, discord server was having a movie night.

Last show: WandaVision but I’m behind on it (loved the first two episodes but now I can feel the Marvel-ness looming again and I dread it)

When did I create this blog: god I don’t even remember, I’ve been here since the first age and never changed accounts/urls so like. around ten years now I think.

What do I post: whatever the hell passes through my brain from moment to moment, I can’t believe anyone follows me. lately a lot of rambling about my swtor ocs, sometimes it’s tolkien/silmarillion content, sometimes I liveblog terrible movies on purpose, sometimes it’s isaac asimov hours, sometimes just shitposting or unsolicited opinions about completely random things I’m not qualified to talk about. the only thing I can be relied on to provide is reblogs of ocean and horse photos, but not on any kind of consistent schedule.

Last thing googled: celtic invasion of portugal. I got slightly sidetracked from something else I was doing.

Other blogs: I’ve got art over at @tearlessrainart, horny art over at @a-world-of-osha-violations, and a little pile of extremely specific sideblogs I rarely use.

Do I get asks: not often, but those I do get are appreciated. except you, ray bans bot. I don’t appreciate you.

Why I chose my url: I originally used it as a deviantart handle (still there) because it wasn’t taken and I liked the overall way it sounded, and kept it because it’s rarely taken anywhere. and now it’s been ten years so like it’s stuck at this point.

Following: 305

Followers: 1392 which is far more than I deserve given my wildly inaccessible blogging style

Average hours of sleep: 7-8 hours usually but my actual sleep schedule skews late. I’ve never been one of those people who can skate by on 5 hours and be functional, if I get less than 6 hours I am absolutely useless and was that way even in high school/college when everyone else was pulling all nighters and shit.

Lucky number: I honestly have never understood lucky numbers, and how much I like any given number is solely dependent on how appealing its colors are according to my synesthesia. if anyone’s wondering, 420 is a hideously tacky blue/orange clusterfuck, but 69 is pleasantly greyscale.

Instruments: I play the flute, in that I own a flute that I was pretty good at playing in high school and can, if I choose, still play notes on it. I also own a melodica but I cannot play it, which to be clear does not stop me from playing it.

What am I wearing: pajama pants and a sith cloak. which sounds like a joke but I do actually own a set of sith robes and the cloak happens to be warm and very comfortable so I just kinda. wear it around the house sometimes in the winter.

Dream job: ornamental lighthouse hermit who may or may not be a wizard.

more realistically though I’m hoping to go into sfx makeup and cosmetology (I was like a week away from getting my license when the apocalypse hit)

Dream trip: I’d love to visit australia and new zealand, would also very much like to go back to scotland and possibly just not leave scotland.

Favorite food: sushi, specifically good salmon nigiri. god it’s so good. smeagol was right.

Nationality: regrettably, american.

Favorite song: god I have no idea. uh. I really like the boy in the bubble by paul simon. something about the visuals in that song speak to me.

Last book read: rereading The Robots of Dawn by Isaac Asimov, which is a terrible book that I nonetheless subject myself to periodically because I like all the books around it a lot. I need to start on Robots and Empire but shit’s been going down recently so I haven’t been reading much.

Top three fictional universes I’d like to live in:  

okay LIVE IN is a very different question from “universes I think are neat” because like. I love the whole thing firefly has going on but I wouldn’t survive it for more than five minutes. so with that in mind:

1. middle earth but like, the shire during the third age specifically.

2. I think I would enjoy being a legend of zelda npc. I could just be a weird little potion seller who lives in a tree or something. or maybe an inexplicably sexy fish man. or better yet, the inexplicably sexy fish man’s husband, who sells potions. yeah I’ve got my fictional life here completely figured out now, this is good. I would also own an extremely chonky horse.

3. one of the ones I made up, specifically the one that involves a lot of gryphons and interdimensional bullshit. more specifically the origin universe of said gryphons, which exists at the heart of an extremely complicated multiverse that includes both earth and at least one fantasy world but is part of neither. anyway it’s a nice place.

Tagging: @raemanzu @sith-nb @vampiraptor @nyriad @crypticspren

(only if you want to of course)

[catubarca]

Harry Potter Next Generation Headcanons

im bored. im full of emotions, and am rly missing the HP world... i just want to write down my headcannons for the next gen kiddos tbh.

please remember these are just my opinions? its okay if yours are different. im just bored and want to share my thoughts,,

Teddy Lupin

his name is Theodore Remus “Teddy” Lupin. it’s just what it is

I don’t care what JKR says, to me his name will always be Theodore

i can’t do this “Edward” stuff im so sorry,,,

h u f f l e p u f f

proper school uniform? never heard of it

messy hair, messy clothes

punk rock child

we’re talking like,,,at least two (2) lip piercings ok

absolutely terrible in herbology. do not leave this child alone in a greenhouse, bad things happen

fuckin hoards chocolate

its a problem

dating Victorie Weasley

random bursts of dancing

keeps a lock of hair pink for his mother

lives with the Potters, enjoys pretending to be Ginny to ground his siblings

“Lily, why aren’t you coming out of your room? Dinner’s ready?” “You said I’m grounded! You tell me!” “What? Oh, for the- THEODORE REMUS LUPIN-“

s m i r k s

effortlessly cool,,, but so so dorky,,, in a cool way

Victorie Weasley

ravenclaw!

looks a lot like her mother, Fleur, but inherited those Weasley freckles

a little confused a lot of the time

absolute sweet tooth (teddy abuses this fact a lot)

Mom Friend™

will help you with your homework

always got a book on her

super beautiful and like,,,, the absolute nicest person,,, but

cannot dance

like at all

adores Charms class

a softie you don’t want to cross

“I’m the oldest”

Dominique Weasley

inherited the Classic Weasley Red Hair™

idolises her Uncle Charlie

“I wanna save animals and work with cool dragons, just like Uncle Charlie does!”

Bill almost has a heart attack

always bringing stray animals home

(“is that a lizard in your pocket, Dominique?” “Yes! His name is Blob.” “You know how your father’s afraid of reptiles, sweetheart, you can’t bring it inside.”)

Gryffindor child

favourite class is definitely Care of Magical Creatures, she and Hagrid like to talk about proper care methods for rare creatures

perpetual dirt stains

BIG middle child vibes

doesn’t really label her sexuality… just kinda does what she wants rly

all the pets in Hogwarts love her

rumours are she’s got an innate, natural magical ability to make them all love her

(she feeds them under the table)

it’s a mystery

big advocate for animal rights

f e m i n i s t

willing to throw hands at all times

usually all smiles though

one of those people who use their whole bodies to laugh

kind of an accidental heartthrob

romcoms

Louis Weasley

looks the most like his mother

ravenclaw

absolutely filled with curiosity. always reading or talking or learning

random facts

(how do you even find that sort of information?

you don’t want to know)

coffee boy

sort of musically talented?

he and James Sirius preach the importance of skincare to all who will listen

secretly full of sass and dry wit

vry graceful and fluid

e y e r o l l

awkward smiles? can never smile properly in photos

on the ravenclaw quidditch team

Ravenclaw Prefect

(“You might be older, but I’m taller.” “Fuck off!”)

only watches High Quality™ tv shows/media

kind of a disaster, despite the gracefulness

Molly Weasley

Classic red hair

comes across as a bit uptight, like her father

I don’t care what you think. (She really cares what you think.)

E y e b r o w s

death glares

drinks like 5 cups of coffee in the morning

studies,,, like a lot

definitely a Gryffindor though

mom jeans

always ready to debate a topic. will destroy opponents.

has been trying to start a successful Debate Club for like 4 years now

naturally falls into the position of a group leader

would be a teacher’s pet, if she wasn’t ready At All Times™ to debate the relevancy of the course syllabus or outdated teaching methods

got into a fight with Severus Snape’s portrait in Headmistress McGonagall’s office.

(Dumbledore’s portrait was laughing, until she turned and ragged on him for a bit. Minerva thought it was absolutely hilarious, so she just let Molly go at it for a while).

full of rage towards everything, but wears a very careful mask of aloofness

to calm down, she likes painting her nails

she’s very good at it

she’s also very good at painting and art in general, weirdly enough

Lucy Weasley

G R Y F F I N D O R

adores shitty puns and has a terrible sense of humour

brown hair, not red

loves to prank people, which makes her Uncle George very proud

Percy complains about her behaviour, but makes sure he knows he’s proud too

(charming all the cauldrons in the potions classroom to scream whenever they’re stirred takes a more complex understanding of spell work than one would expect).

a pit of a punk streak

rly loves hip hop

high key drama queen

does she ever stop yelling? we’re yet to find out

average grades in terms of theory, but she’s the best in terms of applying information

especially for her pranks

has allies throughout the castle, from the portraits to the students

the bigger the prank, the better

but is a firm believer in “confuse, don’t abuse”

all her pranks are mostly harmless

is a surprising lover of older literature, like Hitchhiker’s Guide to the Galaxy, an influence of her sister

a bit rebellious

Fred Weasley II

name isn’t officially “the second”, but it sounds cooler

James Potter, Lucy Weasley, Molly Weasley and Fred Weasley are like the Marauders 2.0

says “squad” and “lit” unironically

niche humour

hipster vibes

avid music lover

smiley sunshine child

takes after his mother the most in looks, just like his sister

a chill type of gryffindor

plays quidditch, and is an excellent chaser, just like his mother

the absolute undisputed King™ of puppy-dog eyes

just,,,, beautiful

the True teacher’s pet

hands in his work on time,, asks lots of questions,,, likes helping students understand their work,, what a boy

can hella nyoom

runs so fast

look at him go

as you might expect, loves a good prank. always down for a laugh

Roxanne Weasley

Gryffindor and pROUD

absolute Queen tbh

was definitely Head Prefect or Gryffindor Prefect at some point

loved by the school

absolute legend

G I R L   P O W E R

infectious laughter

has a soft spot for Louis Weasley and Scorpius Malfoy

these poor disaster children,,,, they need a Mother

M O M

big mom vibes

mothers the hell out of all the first years

a feminist through and through

can be found nodding aggressively to Molly Weasley’s semi-deranged, furious ranting

YAAAASS

loves slang. uses so much slang. always up to date with trends and memes

has all the gossip

becomes a mess around pretty girls

absolute blushing, stuttering disaster around cute girls oh my god

her eye make-up game is killer

sparkly

Distinguished Lesbian

Rosie Weasley

did someone say Weasley™?

red hair and freckles and curls oh my

on the autism spectrum, has trouble socialising sometimes

hella passionate about stuff

hangs out with Scorpius and Albus, the Golden Trio 2.0

f em ini st

her jokes are the best. high quality sense of humour.

Ravenclaw

likes to read. it’s quiet in the school library, which is nice.

abysmal at herbology

surprisingly good at Care of Magical Creatures though? Animals are just,,, so much easier to deal with

overall, really good grades though

bit of a silent type, but she’s actually a riot to hang out with

actually pretty good at quidditch? She’s not on the team, and she’s not super interested in playing, but?? She’s not bad??

She can land a solid hit with a beater’s bat

(eyes you judgementally over the top of a book)

dry wit humour

will throw hands over chess

Hugo Weasley

hufflepuff

unbeatable at chess, like his dad

a lost puppy

someone please help this child

softie

kind of low-key emotional

so supportive!! and loyal!! high-key best friend material

foodie. loves food. please feed him.

takes a bit more after his dad appearance wise

loves to cook. spends lots of time with grandma Molly and his dad in the kitchen

Professor Longbottom is his favourite professor, because he’s more chilled and laidback.

other professors and classes fill him with Distress™

loves astronomy too

maths whizz, so good at arithmancy

(“uh, actually-“)

a little bossy, like his mother

is trying so hard

maybe a little too hard

a bit insecure and nervous, but so soft

please treat this child carefully and with love

James Sirius Potter

Gryffindor

L O U D

a fucking disaster child

what’d you expect, putting “James” and “Sirius” together?

DRAMATIC GASPING

flails his hands around when he talks

s t r u t s

bisexual mess, had a crush on both the Longbottom children at some point

is better than you at everything

including being a different gender

fuck you that’s why

so pretty

he’s so pretty

is thIS CHILD EVER NOT LAUGHING AT SOMETHING OH My god

laughs at everything

all the time

always

high-key emotional

badly timed finger guns

looks like a model in photos? wtf?

gets invited to Girls Nights™

wears nail polish and makeup

loves to yell at people about gender roles and defying stereotypes

TEA SIS

not on the quidditch team surprisingly enough, even though he’s pretty good

prefers to be in the stands, doing A+ commentary on the games

if he can get Fred to stop mid-air due to unbearable, suffocating laughter at least once a game it’s a win in his books

has it OUT for the hufflepuff quidditch team and no one knows why??

definitely makes puns on his name

it drives everyone insane

harry always replies he’s just making his namesake proud

that also drives everyone insane

smug lil shit

Albus Severus Potter

“It’s just Al.”

S L Y T H E R I N

will always find a way to get what he wants, eventually

“dad, why did you name me this way?”

unimpressed

sigh

hella smart. is topping at least five classes

Aunt Hermione is his favourite. She’s the fucking Mistress of Magic! All that power, the ability to make change and improve the Magical World as a whole-

sass master

the reason headmistress mcgonagall keeps a bottle of scotch under her desk at all times

the only potter child to inherit The Eyes™

absolute insomniac

kind of emo, but turns into a fucking softie around Scorpius Malfoy it’s hilarious

adverse to violence. prefers a verbal beatdown method

really tall? despite having shorties for parents??? no one saw it coming

(especially not Teddy. He’s always scared of losing his last few inches of height)

Functional Gay

he’s on the slytherin quidditch team, as a seeker

Lily Luna Potter

Gryffindor

FEMINIST

do not mess with lily luna potter

she may seem cute and sweet, but she will destroy you

inherited her father’s black hair

disaster lesbian

transfiguration is her favourite subject, by far

has no idea what she wants to do with the rest of her life.

Existential Crisis Father-Daughter Bonding Time™

do you ever sleep?

takes after Ginny the most in personality

also, kind of the most like James Fleamont Potter in personality, too?

Loves to help her brother out with pranks, laughs at him when he gets caught and she gets away with it

The only one of the Potter Children who hasn’t got into a fight with Severus Snape’s portrait

because she just ignores him instead

loves talking to the portraits around the castle

Super good at Quidditch, is on the team as a Chaser

Quidditch Captain at some point

adores Hagrid, but who out of the Potter children doesn’t?

Idolises Minerva McGonagall

just as oblivious as her father

Scorpius Malfoy

Actually in Ravenclaw, not Slytherin, much to many people’s surprise

abSOLUTE DADDY’S BOY

super close with his dad

Draco is just so supportive of like everything he does (unlike his father)

classic blonde malfoy looks

actually really funny?

a cuddler. loves hugs. always leeching warmth off of someone

he and Rosie sometimes finger-tip-touch which is their version of a hug, because he know’s she’s not super comfortable with touch

was basically adopted by the Weasley’s and Potter’s

James Sirius will murder for this child

booknerd, always rambling to Al and Rosie about new books coming out he’s interested in reading.

has had a crush on Albus Potter since like 1st year

always worried about making his dad proud, and keeping up the Malfoy name

sweet tooth

he’s just,, soft. just a warm, happy child. he wants love, and affection. someone tell him he’s doing okay, please.

needs,,, validation,,,

he’ll tell you out loud that he has no favourite aunts or uncles, but he secretly really likes spending time with his Uncle Ron

they had a talk, once, in like the middle of the night at a sleepover with Rosie and Al, about feeling insecure in comparison to others, and learning to be proud of yourself for your achievements

there were a few tears, but it was nice

Ron was actually the third person he told, besides his dad and Rosie, about having a crush on Al

openly a disaster romantic. trash taste in romance novels.

always welcome in the Potter-Weasley households

[uta-no-fan-sama]

Uta no Dad-sama, ft. HE★VENS

This took a while, but we hope it’s enjoyable~

Eiichi:

his first reaction is ii

iiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii

okay but in all seriousness

he’s absolutely thrilled 

he pulls back on a lot of his idol work and HE★VENS stuff so he can take care of you

Eiichi definitely cries the first time he holds your baby 

he can’t even bring himself to whisper another ii

anyhow

after having to have mostly taken care of Eiji by himself, Eiichi’s pretty good with raising your kid

he makes sure to allow them to have fun and be free while teaching your child the limits of what they should and shouldn’t do

he’s also super supportive! He makes sure that you all have family bonding time together~

Kira:

bold of you to assume he’d be the dad and not the mom

After taking care of you during your pregnancy, Kira makes sure your kid has everything they require

Kira absolutely gives the best piggyback rides to your kid, and you really can’t help but take photos

because the way he smiles at you and your kid is so soft and loving that you just fall in love with Kira a little more each time

he’s also the one who gets your kid ready for school each morning and quite possibly makes your kid’s lunch

also, he tucks your kid in to bed every night and kisses them goodnight. he also waits in the room lying down next to them until they sleep

Nagi:

ooooh this is hard ngl

when you tell Nagi he’s gonna be a dad, he’s absolutely stunned

he just sits there, expression somewhere between blank and awestruck

then, really quietly, he’ll whisper, “really?”

his eyes shine like stars as he asks, and when you nod your head, he’ll almost cry

he had never expected to actually reach a milestone like this so he’s pretty overwhelmed

when he first sees your kid, his eyes shine--

“look, they’re almost as cute as me!”

you would smack him but you’re tired after the delivery so you settle for a roll of your eyes

Nagi’s actually a really good parent, though

he’s good at getting your kid to listen even though they’re just as stubborn as their father (read: he knows exactly how to bribe/manipulate them)

and he helps them find a good balance between work and play

not to mention the fact that they take after their father in terms of intelligence -- you have yet to see anything below an A* even by the time they’re teens

things only really get chaotic when Nagi hosts his weekly “cute competition”

you can guess who always wins

Eiji: 

Eiji is absolutely the husband who cries with joy when he hears that he’s gonna be a dad

“is it gonna be a boy or a girl???”

you have to explain multiple times that you don’t know that

“are they -- are they gonna look like me??? or you??? i hope they look like you but it would be so good if they looked like me -- what if they look like both of us though oh my GOSH”

and you also have to explain to Eiji multiple times that that is in fact how babies work

also, he doesn’t leave your side. ever

he just...hangs around your shoulder permanently

AND he helps you with everything, even things that aren’t really a concern

like, if you tell him you stubbed your toe on something he’d massage both of your feet because he feels the need to make sure that you’re always happy with him at all times

which is why he nearly gets kicked out of the delivery room (he can’t stand to see you in pain)

he ALSO definitely cries the first time he holds your kid

“they’re so CUTE oh my gosh,” he whisper-shrieks

eiji’s probably googled “how to be the best parent ever” multiple times

so he ends up getting really good at understanding and taking care of your kids and knowing what they need

beware Uncle Eiichi though, he’ll definitely spoil your kiddos

Van: 

Van is unironically the Daddest Dad to ever Dad

I’m serious

“Van, I’m pregnant”

his eyes sparkle as he says, “Hey, Pregnant, I’m Dad”

please smack him

as the surrogate father of HE★VENS, he has plenty experience in taking care of little kids

and he’s already looked up a heck ton of stuff about parenting online

he is an armada of dad jokes and parenting tips AND knows how to deal with your pregnancy

but like. he will never let up on the dad jokes, even when your kid is an adult

Dad Kiryuin will never leave

Dad Kiryuin is eternal

Yamato: 

when you tell Yamato he’s gonna be a dad, he bluescreens

“WHERE DID IT COME FROM”

“Did what come from?”

“TH-THE THING”

“YAMATO THAT IS OUR CHILD YOU’RE TALKING ABOUT”

“EXACTLY”

he is. he is very, very clueless. 

how he passed high school, you will never know

actually wait he probably didn’t

Kira ends up calling Ryuya about it who ends up forcefully educating Yamato on what children are

Yamato then becomes painfully aware of how underprepared for a kid he is and starts doing a lot of research on how to take care of a kid

and not just how to be a good parent, but how to emotionally connect with his child

you can see the change in him as he firmly takes on the role to be the best dad ever

but there are no promises that your kid’s first solution to everything isn’t to punch it into submission

Shion:

when you first tell Shion that he’s gonna be a dad

actually he takes it really well

he’ll smile really happily and say, “shion had a feeling something good was going to happen”

and then he just moves closer to tuck a little bit of your hair behind your ear and he hugs you

he definitely is the calmest about this...

...until he realises he knows jack about parenting

Nagi and Eiichi will often catch him in the middle of the night reading up on it

Van and Kira definitely have a few good tips to share

somehow Nagi is suspiciously good with understanding how parenting works, but all the help is appreciated

Yamato also decides to assign himself as your bodyguard

when Shion first holds his kid, he looks them in the eye and just gently whispers, “i’m your papa,” with a smile

Shion’s definitely a very empathetic person and he absolutely understands your kid really well

he even somehow is aware of what the baby is crying for when they’re crying

“oh they’re tired” “actually, when they cry like that it means they need a diaper change” “nonono that one means they want milk” “wait that one means they need to burp”

but that bond absolutely lasts throughout your kid’s life

you’re a little jealous but you’re also really happy about it

Huuuuuu they’re all such good dads ;-; but for all of them, keep your kid away from Raging

[gotatext]

hello, it’s swamp witch nora again…. i couldn’t stay away.... hitting u with a tiny baby boy who is also terrible (sometimes).  musical softboi who loves karl marx and hates children dying in cobalt mines to make smart phones. as is tradition, here’s the pinterest board, have a peruse. fyi sorry for those of u who have read this intro a thousand times i literally.... can never b bothred to change it n i think thats really sexy of me x

CHARLIE PLUMMER / DEMI-BOY — don’t look now, but is that rory bergström  i see? the 23 year old music student is in their junior year and he is a rochester alum. i hear they can be whimsical, impassioned, self-indulgent and nitpicky, so maybe keep that in mind. i bet he / they will make a name for themselves living in griffin street. ( nora. 24. gmt. she/her. )

aesthetics.

bed hair from a permanent state of slumber, calloused fingertips from strumming bass into the early hours and djing into the blacklit night, self-help books thumbed once and thrown beneath your bed, battered copies of choose your own adventure books, spliffs passed half-arsed across rooftops while light pollution obscures low-hanging stars, marxist literature in stacks against your bedroom walls, a burner phone twice-shattered and a stash of replacement sim cards.

tw ocd, anxiety, drugs

half-swedish, half-british. the swedish is on his mother’s side. he’s bilingual but thinks in english. only really speaks swedish around his mother. only child, and kinda put a lot of pressure on himself to be the perfect kid when he was young, but his parents are honestly, quite decent? and just want him to have a nice life, they don’t care if he isn’t successful or rich or anything, they’re honestly rather solid. (wow imagine having nice parents, a first for all my characters, im literally this meme)

grew up in peckham, a suburb of london. growing up, his mum was a model / actress / waitress who later retrained as a speech therapist and his dad worked in her majesty’s service at buckingham palace. his dad wasn’t allowed to tell his family what his job entailed but rory suspects it’s probably very boring and just involves a lot of…. logistics n security.

was bullied a lot at school. [cole sprouse voice] he didn’t fit in and he didn’t want to fit in. unironically wore a trenchcoat to school every day of his life. spent most of his lunchtimes in the library because it was his safe space. as a result he knows…. loads of useless information because 30% of his school years were spent reading anthologies on space and the vikings etc. would be good on a game show. obsessively recorded every episode of university challenge as a child.

middle-class and lowkey quite wealthy but rarely talks about money, one of those well-off people who still wears really old shitty shoes and only spends money if they absolutely have to

virgin who can’t drive

into star wars, not into the big bang theory. feminist. can’t watch horror movies

favourite film is where the wild things are. also loves the florida project. thinks kids are the sweetest thing and can’t wait to be a dad to some

has been musical for as long as they can remember. first picked up guitar because he thought it would make this girl esther who he was in love with like him, but he just ended up falling in love with music instead.

formulated several different bands as a kid but ultimately had to give it up cos he was quite controlling and got fixated on making a certain sound so it wasn’t really fun for the others. got into electronic music because it was something he could do basically on his own and keep tweaking until he got it perfect

always drumming their fingers or strumming invisible guitar strings. tends to avoid parties bc he has quite has specific tastes when it comes to music and doesn’t like listening to r&b for eight hours while people throw up into plastic cups.

a techno connoisseur. has been making electronic music since he was about twelve.

after his parents divorce, when he was fourteen, rory & his mother moved to run-down suburban neighbourhood, pittsfield, massachussets.

big into photography. he mostly uses a canon 35mm camera, but occasionally uses disposable ones when he wants that more rustic feel.

moving to the states, their photography became more focused on suburban neighborhoods and are often quite dark and cinematic (think gregory crewsden). here are some shots of pittsfield i really like which rory has on his wall [1] [2] [3]

falls in love 12 times a day. never had a girlfriend or boyfriend. gets sweaty when someone cute looks at him. flirting?? what?? would prefer to idealise them from a distance

gender??? hm. rory don’t really know where they fit yet, sometimes he feels like a guy and sometimes they dont feel like anything at all!! slippin out of his physical form into the spirit realm! isn’t really bothered, cos they think it’s a social construct anyway. uses he/they pronouns interchangeably, but currently feels like ‘he’ is more fitting. won’t necessarily pull anyone up on it cos he knows having an identity that’s constantly…. in flux.. can be annoying for others … and doesn’t want to be a burden even tho it isn’t at all?? rory internalises guilt

everything is socially constructed. mirrors let you move through time. the whole thing’s a metaphor. he thinks he’s got free will but really he’s trapped in a maze. in a system. all he can do is consume. people think it’s a happy game. it’s not a happy game — it’s a fucking nightmare world, and the worst thing is, it’s real and we live in it!!!!

has ocd. tries to let it affect his life as little as possible, but obviously it’s incredibly hard to control a compulsive disorder. was teased for it at school when other kids started to notice. he was obsessed with the number five, would wash his hands five times, count stairs i groups of five, he could only use the corridors in one direction and always had to keep his hands busy. it manifests itself in hyper-fixations (trains when he was a child – specifically steam engines – then later he became obsessed with space and the patterns of constellations, and now he’s obsessed with synthesizers) and repetitive behaviours like counting stairs. doesn’t really affect his social life at all, he can jst get a bit locked-on n hyper-focused sometimes.

has insomnia. barely ever sleeps. finds it hard to switch off from work / writing / gaming / whatever’s preoccupying him in that moment. he’s always awake at 5am and quite often sleeps in through classes but still gets really good grades because he’s very good at his course. rarely attends classes. prefers to work independently. doesn’t really trust his tutors are intelligent enough to be teaching him, and is particularly suspicious of the lockwood tutors. a music snob tbh

occasionally deals weed n pills when strapped for cash, but only 2 ppl he knows, and on a very small scale grass-roots level!! (so its ok???) rollerskates around campus dealing cos they dnt have a car. we love to see it

aesthetics: bed hair from a permanent state of slumber, calloused fingertips from strumming bass into the early hours and drumming into blacklit night, self-help books thumbed once and thrown beneath your bed, watching vine compilations until your eyes turn square, battered copies of choose your own adventure books, spliffs passed half-arsed across rooftops while light pollution obscures low-hanging stars

likes: techno, the webpage cats on synthesizers in space, allen ginsberg, vintage gramophones,  floating points, lcd soundsystem, marijuana, soft dogs that let you pet them, late-night strolls talking about the universe, independent films, cigarettes, herbal tea, gallows humour, long showers, brown eyes, tchaikovsky, dr. seuss, constellations, photography, late night jazz, vintage game boys and girls who could rip his still-beating heart out of his chest and use it as an ashtray. dislikes:  weddings, funerals, formality, button-up shirts that people actually button-up, bananas, hot coffee, social media, people who watch and play sports, rap music – especially of the misogynistic variety, indie wankers in wire-framed glasses that play ed sheeran songs at open mic nights.

plot ! with ! me ! i’d say all the usual “exes fwb hookups spiel” but rory… has never hooked up with anyone… i feel like a deer in the headlights of love……. so give me

study buddies,

people who are also into techno and are music snobs about it,

people who love all kinds of music,

people who are in bands that maybe rory’s recorded and produced stuff for,

people he actually jams with (he plays bass and synth),

unrequited crushes!!

actually i think rory had sex w delilah in the last version of this rp so if u want a hook up plot its possible just unlikely. they’d hav 2 be the driving force i reckon cos rory doesn’t really act on impulses like desire or anythin.... jst bottles that shit up !!! but yea we could do a spicy hook up plot maybs, depending on the person

someone they met at a knitting club in freshman year and have remained friends with despite no longer going to it

people rory knows from open mic nights and gigs

library girlfriends / boyfriends that he stares at longingly while paging through leatherbound volumes

gamers !!! social recluses !!! hermits !!

people he deals weed to on his rollerskates (why r all my characters obsessed with rollerskates)

skaters. rory is really shit at skateboarding. like really shit. help the smol

[vengefulblue]

85 questions

tagged by @psychicmoth : thx fi <3

rules: answer these 85 questions and tag 20 people (i'm not tagging ppl, soz. do it if you want, maybe tag me if you want me to see it?? since i'm never on tumblr)

— what was your last…

1. drink: water 2. phone call: asking my sister for a ride 3. text message: i don't have a cell, but uhh,, my last dm was talking abt unironically using emoticons 4. song you listened to: affection by cigarettes after sex 5. time you cried: this morning, reading a stressful fic update (it was good, just sadsadsad)

— have you ever…

6. dated someone twice: yes, we were engaged for a while too - i should have listened to younger me's instincts 7. kissed someone and regretted it: yes 8. been cheated on: yes, at least once - probably more than i know abt 9. lost someone special: yes 10. been depressed: literally since my earliest memories 11. gotten drunk and thrown up: yep, vodka is evil

— fave colours

12. all the blues!! 13. grey 14. black

— in the last year have you…

15. made new friends: yes <3 all my twitter mutuals 16. fallen out of love: yes (thank god) 17. laughed until you cried: yes 18. found out someone was talking about you: no 19. met someone who changed you: yes! a person who is *just like me*, who every time we talk we find out more ways we are the same person 20. found out who your friends are: yes? probably 21. kissed someone on your facebook friends list: no, i haven't kissed anyone in almost a year and a half  :c  i am lonely boye

— general

22. how many of your facebook friends do you know irl: all of them except maybe 2? i was in middle school when facebook was popular, and everyone added literally everyone they knew (or who even had any friend in common)... so i still need to unfriend all the kids i went to school with, but i'm lazy 23. do you have any pets: juno kitty!! she is almost 4 (1 may) and she is lovely. i've had her since she was 8 weeks old, so she’s grown up to be exactly like me 24. do you want to change your name: yes. jensen isn't legally my name: it was meant to be temporary to help ppl adjust to calling me something different, but i still haven't found a better "permanent name" so i haven't done the legal thing yet. when i turn 25, i'll do that, whether i'm called jensen or something else (feel free to suggest names that fit me, fr) 25. what did you do for your last birthday: sit at home and eat seafood and drink champagne 26. what time did you wake up today: 4am 27. what were you doing at midnight last night: i was passed out in an armchair 28. what is something you can’t wait for: 21 july i'm going to see dnp in schenectady with @daggerdove !!!! <3 30. what are you listening to right now: falsettos obcr 31. have you ever talked to a person named tom: there were 2 toms in my class, plus one the year below me, so yes

32. something that’s getting on your nerves: my dumbass school has changed their structure & program requirements drastically, with no warning, so i might have to apply & transfer to a different school, or else get a job. i want to scream and cry and break something and die (i'm doing none of those things, but i'm v v upset)

33. most visited website: twitter & youtube 34. hair colour: dark brown, nearly black 35. long or short hair: i like short hair but i'm trying to grow mine to shoulder length bc i haven't had it like that in abt 6 yrs?? and i think i might be able to do it in a way that's pretty but still boyish

36. do you have a crush on someone: i don't think so. it's hard to tell for sure bc i feel friendship and romantic feelings very similarly (i'm demiromantic, and i am always slightly in love with my friends??) but i don't have anyone i particularly want to date rn, just many ppl i would like to cuddle and maybe kiss on their cheeks and forehead

37. what do you like about yourself: i think i’m funny, and i care so much abt ppl 38. want any piercings: want more ear piercings (2nd, 3rd, cartilage) 39. blood type: A+ 40. nicknames: jenn (i do not like, is only ok for family) - i want better nicknames but nobody gives me nicknames :(( 41. relationship status: single 42. sign: double capricorn, taurus moon 43. pronouns: he/him or they/them 44. fave tv show: probably bake off or steven universe 45. tattoos: no, i might get some one day 46. right or left handed: right 47: ever had surgery: yes 48. piercings: ears? other than that, no 49. sport: no (maybe swimming if that counts) 50. vacation: ehm, someplace warm and sunny? i live in a cold cloudy place & i've only been on vacation once in my life 51. trainers: high tops or sand shoes (??? idk what to call these, the slip on canvas sneakers)

— more general

52. eating: i’m gonna have rajma chawal, but i haven’t done the rice yet 53. drinking: tea, in a moment 54. i’m about to watch: water boil 55. waiting for: sister to leave 56. want: warm squishy cuddles 57. get married: yes, tho i don't believe marriage should exist as a distinct legal institution, different from other contracts - legal things abt taxes, child rearing/acquisition, etc shouldn’t be affected by personal promises in that way 58. career: ???? no fuckin clue m8 - tbh i just wanna be a house spouse (lol rhyme) and read books and cook and raise babies, but that's not exactly realistic, so maybe writer?? english teacher?? office drone?? probavly office drone  >_<

— which is better

59. hugs or kisses: hugs </3 someone pls come cuddle me?? 60. lips or eyes: eyes 61. shorter or taller: tall masc folks, short femme folks 62. older or younger: older masc folks, younger femme folks 63. nice arms or stomach: arms <3 64. hookup or relationships: relationship 65. troublemaker or hesitant: no?? i like decisive but gentle & sweet - no trouble, no wishy-washy-ness

— have you ever

66. kissed a stranger: no 67. drank hard liquor: yes 68. turned someone down: yes 69. sex on first date: kinda?? not really, but something like that 70: broken someone’s heart: maybe 71. had your heart broken: yes 72. been arrested: no 73. cried when someone died: yes 74. fallen for a friend: always

— do you believe in

75. yourself: not usually 76. miracles: absolutely 77. love at first sight: not exactly, but a bit? i believe in recognizing compatibility and “clicking” the first time you meet, but not 100% full blown romantic love 78. santa claus: no  e_e 79. angels: ye

— misc

80. eye colour: mostly brown, but they go a bit greeny-hazel sometimes 81. best friend’s name: probably jenna. i don't hang out with anyone but she's my only irl friend... & if mutuals count, i talk most at jolisa & morgan & corinne & soph (& anu, who is a more recent mutual <3) i don’t talk to menace (yes that is what i call them) so much, but we are twins at so many things that i consider them v good friend 82. favourite movie: moonrise kingdom 83. favourite actor: my auntie hanne <3 idk if she's like, good? it's been a few years since i watched anything she was in. but i love her, so she's my favorite (she was in ideal and a movie called dread)

84. favourite cartoon: thundercats made me a furry, so ???? and inuyasha also, it was my first actual full realization that i was bi (bc jfc i wanted to be in a inuyasha/kagome sandwich) 85. favourite teacher’s name: kerrin mccadden - taught creative writing in high school, best coolest teacher ever, and she's an amazing poet (google her!!)

[women-inthe-sequel]

11 questions

Tagged by @winterjily! Thanks, darling. <3

Rules: Always post the rules. Answer the 11 random questions posted for you. Create 11 new ones and tag 11 people. Let the person who tagged you know that you answered.

1. Do you have a pet peeve? at work, it’s when people tell the receptionist that they’ve called so many times or when they complain about how long i take to get back to them. i always return calls within 24 hours. calling me four times an hour actually makes me want to call you less!!!

2. Best dream you’ve ever had? any dream where i get to use magic

3. What’s your patronus if you know it? while my favorite animals are penguins, i’m not chill enough to be one (pun not and definitely intended). maybe a bunny?

4. Favorite fictional character? a few: lily evans (love of my life), james potter, harry potter, scarlett o’hara, adam parish, liesel meminger, jordan baker, monica geller

5. Thoughts on pineapple on pizza? it’s okay? not my thing, but it’s fine.

6. What type of phone do you have? samsung galaxy s7

7. What is you fave thing about yourself? favorite change about myself in the past year was fully letting myself be excited about the things that excite me in public. cutting any of the shame attached to being unironically enthusiastic about the things that make me happy.

8. Three things that make you beyond ecstatic? wizard rock concerts, figure skating, & good hugs

9. Favorite song of all time? (Or a few.. I know it’s hard to pick just one) my most listened to song on spotify last year was ‘in the middle’ by dodie. does that count?

10. When did you join Tumblr and why? oh so long ago (as in, 2011, maybe?), stopped using it for awhile, and then came back. originally, because someone at school told me about it. i came back for the hp fandom and fanfic.

11. Favorite memory from when you were a child (or younger for those of us who are still “children” hahah)? hmm. idk about favorite, but i still remember my first skating competition. we all screamed when our team got gold. YOUR QUESTIONS: 1. what are you currently watching and/or reading? 2. one thing you have always wanted to do? 3. favorite childhood book? 4. go to pizza order? 5. hogwarts house? 6. how often do you remember your dreams? 7. something you think about every day? 8. have you ever happened to see and recognized a famous person? 9. three things that make you excited? 10. something that can always make you cry? 11. last movie that stuck with you? tagging: @adequategatsbys, @no-literally, @orderofthepygmypuff, & anyone else who wants to do it!

[jaymarawrites-blog]

LIKE RATS - 6 - Corkboard

Second Chance preferred local dives to chain restaurants when possible, so I assumed Ray’s was “our” choice until we got inside. It was a barbecue place that seated us at picnic-style benches covered in red-and-white checked tablecloths, the kind of benches that make your ass ache after fifteen minutes. Framed art of pot-belly pigs running a restaurant - taking orders, making change, prepping food - decorated the walls. I hadn’t been a vegetarian since college, but this was in poor taste. I wished I’d gone with Andie and Abel and a few of the others looking for a vegan-friendly option.

There was a brief skittering around the picnic table as we were seated: we sat promptly and Echo Eclipse shuffled to decide where to sit on the opposite side of the table.

“Wait, wait… Hold up.” The tall one, the singer, held up his hand. “Here, I get Michael. Then guitar, guitar,” he said pointing first at Mason, already seated, then at the empty space opposite Mason. “Bass, bass,” he continued, pointing at Tyler, then the space next to Mason. “And drums, drums.” That was Sam across from their drummer.

Michael squeezed me onto the bench next to him so that he and I were both occupying the space across from the other singer.

The singer grinned as he sat. “That’s how you do that.”

“Et tu?” the Echo Eclipse drummer called from the other end of the table. “You put the drummers all the way down here?”

“Yeah,” he called back. “Didn’t you hear? Nobody gives a fuck about the drummer!”

They all laughed together as Second Chance smiled politely.

Echo Eclipse was still a young band. Together ten years - as we soon learned - or not, they were a young band. They all still liked each other. Their chemistry was immediately apparent; they relished each other’s company. Second Chance getting together for this tour had been more like distant cousins reuniting at a funeral. No ill will, no animosity. A pleasant greeting but not much else to say.

I’d always loved spending time around the other guys. I loved Michael more when I saw him through other people’s eyes, and that included the band. He was kind, charming, classy. He was a good man who anyone would want to know. He commanded respect and he wasn’t so fucking obsequious. That he saved for me. It was a hard truth that I enjoyed Michael as a member of the band more than I did as his own person.

But at least I admitted it. To myself.

The server was a girl, and young. Young enough that she had no idea who she was speaking to when she took Michael’s drink order of water with lemon. Over the last year or so I had only just begun to notice that the vast majority of servers and cashiers I dealt with were young enough to call me ma’am unironically. This girl had to have been in high school. Her joints were knobby and her hair was limp. Second Chance was on TRL while she was in diapers.

Jesus.

The Echo Eclipse singer, Chris, reached one hand toward the server’s hair. I thought he was going to grab a lock of it but he stopped at the gesture. “My hair was this color once.” He grinned a vertical labret piercing and two snakebite rings at her.

The server peeked from under stringy bangs at the black hair that hung to Chris’s shoulders like this was a trap, the setup to a cruel joke. Her hair was the shade between blonde and brown that doesn’t register as a color at all.

“It’s not that color now.”

“No, I know.” He fingered a lock of his own hair between his index and middle fingers and glanced down at it. “That was my natural color but I couldn’t pull it off so I did this.”

She smiled hesitantly.

“Looks pretty on you, though.”

I smiled at the server’s reaction as she blushed and scampered away with our order. I couldn’t remember the last time I’d heard a man other than Michael pay a woman other than myself a compliment devoid of entendre.

On the surface, Chris wasn’t unlike Michael when I first met him. He seemed already to have a bit of the same ease and grace about him that Michael had. The same likeability, whatever quality it was that made people want to please them, Chris had it. It was probably the same quality that made them good frontmen, though Michael hated that word.

“Man, I have to thank you for having us on the tour,” Chris was saying to Michael with a sweeping glance down our side of the table to include whoever was listening. I was certain that every one of us felt like he was thanking us individually.

Michael gave his tight-lipped smile, the one I’d thought was a sign of taking me seriously all those years ago, the one I knew now was a sign of discomfort. For the first time I wondered whether or not they’d even had any say in Echo Eclipse being on the tour.

“We’re glad for it,” he said, the lines around his eyes crinkling. “We need some energy on the tour now that we’re old men.”

“If this is old, man,” Chris said, gesturing at Michael in his black jeans and baggy black sweater, the sleeve of which he kept winding around one wrist, “then I can’t wait.”

“Well. You will.” The uncomfortable smile again, and I could feel my own grin overcompensating for Michael.

Chris turned his attention to me. “And you’re a fuckin trooper, man. I bet you didn’t know what you signed up for.”

I opened my mouth to answer but Michael beat me to it. “She did,” he said. “She’s toured with us before. When we were engaged. She did my makeup for every show when I still did that kind of thing.”

“He was actually pretty handy with a makeup brush as I’m sure you can imagine, so it was just kind of an excuse to be together.”

Mason, who I hadn’t realized was listening, lowered his head in mock-confidence and interjected, “It was the least amount of makeup he ever got done.”

The guys laughed - even Michael - and I squirmed. Michael placed his long fingers on my knee and I squirmed more.

“I’m running to the bathroom,” I said and extricated myself.

The restaurant had only a unisex single-seat bathroom but it was clean. I washed my hands and reapplied a nude lipstick. I brushed flakes of black mascara from under my eyes. I wondered how much longer I should stand there to make it seem as if I’d actually had to use the bathroom.

The great irony of my career, or my career-turned-pastime-turned-only-solace-from-Michael, was that it taught me a great universal truth: the power of makeup is finite. Makeup on a horrible person was like lacquer on barbed wire and I’d had that experience more than once.

Conversely, some of the most beautiful people I’d met in my life were shit with a brush. Physically beautiful people. Radiant people. People who emitted a positive energy like it was plutonium.

Returning to our table I realized that, despite the growing list of similarities between the two of them, this was the difference between Michael and Chris. Michael had that inimitable ease and grace but he didn’t radiate positivity like Chris did. Sam had it, too, which is why I’d adored him from the moment I met him.

I slowed my steps approaching the table to study them, the two of them, together. Michael’s eye crinkles - there were entire blogs dedicated to his eye crinkles. And you could see exactly where Chris’s would form as he ducked his head to laugh. That was a difference: Chris often tucked his head when he laughed, when he was amused, and Michael tended to raise his chin like he was balancing something on it, a pose of arrogance. It was as if, for each of them, the gesture was an inverse function of their height.

Chris turned and caught my eye as he continued speaking to Michael, and the connecting of our eyes was like puncturing a corkboard with a thumbtack. A fastening, a nestling. Secure and satisfying.

Only as I sat again next to Michael - in even less space than before I got up - did I realize that he had been watching me return to the table, as well. They had both been watching me, Chris smiling, Michael and his tight lips.

I sat slowly. “What’s… up?”

Chris’s ankle grazed my calf as he pulled his legs back under his own seat and he apologized. He asked, “Would you be down to do my makeup? For the show tomorrow?”

I glanced at Michael as a reflex. He was watching me intently despite being close enough that, turned toward me like this, his breath moved my hair.

“Sure.”

This was another reflex, a reflex I had when asked to do something for someone. It didn't make me a good person. It made me a bitter and unhappy person. It was a prison of compulsion. Someone said thank you, I said you’re welcome; someone said excuse me, I said I’m sorry; someone said can you?, I said yes.

I still felt the brushing of his ankle against my calf moments later.

***

I felt obligated to spend some time in Michael’s bunk again that night. I felt obligated to throw extra attention his way since I knew I would get a reprieve the next day with all the work for the show. Sound check would take time, warm-ups would take time, dressing would take time though not quite so much as it used to, but I could take extra time with Chris’s makeup.

I relaxed into Michael a tiny bit more, knowing temporary relief was imminent.

~~~

Begin at the beginning: LIKE RATS - Prologue

[the-unofficial-force]

@dcntcommitsuicide​ asked: 12. What’s the meaning behind your muse’s url?

Another RP Questions For The Mun (always accepting) 

Here it is on another post because I am extra and ramble far too much. So here’s an essay on what all the URLs for my sideblogs (and for this blog!) mean, for anybody who was curious:

the-unofficial-force - So this is going to take some explaining... Basically, all of the muses here (my OCs, anyways) are/were from a fanfic universe/series I was planning on writing back in like 2011-2012 when I was in middle school (I might still do this if people want me to and if I ever have time, but, this is fine for now. Also good gravy I just realized how long I’ve been in BBC Sherlock hell... I’m old...). The original idea was that all of the muses here know each other, are friends with each other, and sometimes get involved in their parents’ business in between dealing with their own lives and stuff. Because I wanted to justify this by hearkening back to the original books, I called these doofs “The Baker Street Irregulars”. Therefore, when it came time to pick a URL, I figured the quote where Holmes first coins the term, “it is the unofficial force... the Baker Street Irregulars”  would be a good pick.

The rest are under the cut because this got so long and you probably only wanted this URL... I am so, so sorry.

elijahseditorials - Eli’s a writer and his blog is from his perspective/a good deal more personal than some of the others because of how emotional he is. Editorials, of course, are personal thoughts on the world and the people around the writer. Hence, the blog is kind of like Elijah’s editorials. (I had a hard time with this one, so it’s not the best of reasons!)

the-domin-ator - Dom’s a funny guy but kind of innocent (despite being a little shit) and loves puns, and he’s also a rock star/musician type. When I first started out/in the fanfic verse I mentioned above, I set his age as a young teenager with somewhat misplaced/odd rock ‘n’ roll sensibilities, so, I figured he’d try to make up a really, really stupid badass stage name for himself and use it totally unironically, hence “The Dominator”.

singingsoftlytothedawn - Will’s an actor and really into musical theatre, and I felt like “Corner of the Sky” from Pippin (which is also one of his nicknames) fit him and his attitude rather nicely. The specific lyric is, “So don’t ask where I’m going/Just listen when I’m gone/And far away you’ll hear me singing/Softly to the dawn”.

stvitusdancer - Okay, so the St. Vitus’ Dance was what a lot of people called this outbreak of dancing mania/dancing plague throughout the 14th, 15th, 16th, and 17th centuries (I’m a huge medieval and history buff, so...) where people literally danced until they died. St. Vitus is the patron saint of dancers and entertainers, but there’s this huge macabre history surrounding him because of that. Penny loves any and all things morbid and dark (eventually becoming a detective like her uncle Sherlock), but remains completely well-adjusted, pleasant, and happy. She’s also a ballerina and loves to dance, so I figured St. Vitus would fit a dancer who loved dark and creepy stuff.

theotherdilestrade - This one is pretty self-explanatory. Isabel, like her dad, goes into police work at New Scotland Yard and becomes a DI. So I figure there would be a lot of confusion between having two DIs with the same name, and Isabel would have to clarify who she is and how she’s not her father (if somebody expected to have her father consult on their case but got her instead, for example). The scenario I was imagining specifically was Isa and Greg eating lunch together or something and someone calling for DI Lestrade, and both of them turning around, Greg making motions to get up, and whoever called them would have to say, “no, not you, the other DI Lestrade”. Also the URL can sort of be read as Isabel trying to step out from her dad’s shadow while still being really close to him and honoring the work he does.

neverchangeanddontyoueverstop - So Sarah is still woefully underdeveloped and I need to fix that at some point, so I had no idea what to do with her URL. Thankfully, Fleetwood Mac’s song “Sara” has the line, “Sara/You’re the poet in my heart/Never change/And don’t you ever stop” which captures her attitude fairly well (she’s an optimist and has a very plucky outlook on life) so I just used that.

quis--custodiet and forged--in--fire - Ah yes, the cryptids of my blog. Sean and Daisy are a pair of siblings who may get scrapped at this point (but I love them so much...) but are important to everybody else here as they’re part of the fanfic verse I’ve been talking about. Quis custodiet is Latin for “who guards”, and it’s a take off on the phrase, Quis custodiet ipsos custodes?, or, literally translated, “Who will guard the guards themselves?”. I feel like that’s sort of a summation of Sean’s role in the team, as he’s often times the voice of reason and is very protective of all his friends. Daisy loves to do really cool metallurgy stuff (welding, soldering, smeltering, mechanics probably too, all that jazz), and really comes into her own by finding it/something she’s good at (it’s a big character moment for her), so, she was literally forged in fire.

rose--of-the--world - My unannounced, unofficially official Rosie Watson blog! This is just a translation of one of the meanings of “Rosamund”.

lets-investigate - So this is theoretically the home for my Holmes and Watson muses, but, I’m not on here as much as I ought to be. I probably should have made this its own main blog but I got lazy... this whole account is probably going to be going through some overhauling soon (nothing bad though!). “The Other Side of Life” by The Moody Blues always has given me really strong Sherlock Holmes vibes. Like, all of it, but specifically the lines, “The atmosphere on the streets tonight/Is the driving beat of the world/The word down here on the streets tonight/Is the truest music you’ve heard” but I couldn’t think of a good URL from that because all of it is so good. So, instead, I picked the chorus to pluck a URL from: “Baby, baby, baby, let’s investigate/The other side of life tonight/The lovers and the fighters and the risks they take/Are on the other side of life tonight”.

holmesthemeddler - This comes from one of my favorite exchanges in the ACD books, from The Speckled Band, when Roylott is trying to intimidate Holmes and Holmes just gleefully takes the (in my opinion) really silly insults: “I know you, you scoundrel! I have heard of you before. You are Holmes the meddler!... Holmes the busybody!... Holmes the Scotland Yard Jack-in-office!” Also, he does meddle, a lot, and I think it’s a pretty good descriptor of his character.

goodoldwatson - Also from the ACD books, this is from His Last Bow: “Good old Watson! You are the one fixed point in a changing age. There's an east wind coming all the same, such a wind as never blew on England yet. It will be cold and bitter, Watson, and a good many of us may wither before its blast. But it's God's own wind none the less, and a cleaner, better, stronger land will lie in the sunshine when the storm has cleared.” I also thought it complimented “holmesthemeddler” nicely!

[lesbianbruabba]

I was tagged by @laila-myqueen thanks luv :) 

I'm tagging @theartificialdane @toriibelledarling @imalwaysaslutfordrag @samrull @purecamp @dottiethunderfuck @veronicasanders @theuniversalevolution @djoodimattel @artificialortega @mistressaq xo 

1. name? Christie/christabel irl depending on who you ask. I go by Wednesday online :)

2. nickname? Chris, Wen, xXpussyslayer69Xx

3. undercover name? xXpussyslayer69Xx

4. drag name? (This was pornstar but I changed it) but anyway probs just go by Wednesday

5. middle name? I'm Chinese we don't have those unless you're /really/ extra

6. first born son or daughters name? Jimothy or Yiffany. No regrets

7. age first kiss? What

8. age first crush? 6 on a boy, 9 on a girl

9. age when you first knew what you wanted to do? I've wanted to be a fashion designer since 10. I'm probably going to be a teacher, and I decided that when I was 15.

10. age when you met your best friend? Depends on which one, most in middle school. Everyone here I met 2015/2016

11. favourite song? right now it’s wasted by cartel and fake happy by paramore

12. favourite colour? Pink

13. favourite film? Barbie in the princess and the pauper

14. favourite actor? Willam

15. favourite actress? Willam

16. favourite time of year? Autumn

17. favourite animal? Furries

18. favourite country? Amongst the ones I've been to probably the U.K. or Japan

19. favourite person in the whole world? My lil brother.

20. favourite food? Ice cream

21. favourite feeling? When your friends like your memes

22. least favourite song? Idk. Don't have one

23. least favourite film? The emoji movie

24. least favourite actor/actress? I'm not that big on films in general idk

25. least favourite event? Results day because I freaked the fuck out

26. least favourite food? Tomatoes and celery

27. least favourite feeling? disappointing others or hurting them when you had good intentions

28. best feeling in the world? In the world? Relief or validation or some shit I guess

29. quote to the world? 三人行必有我師

30. best memory? Xi’an when I was 12, last day of school, lit dinner, prom etc. Mostly stuff with friends.

31. best gift ever given? Mum got me tickets to Courtney’s fancy concert

32. favourite alcohol drink? I don’t drink

33. guilty pleasure? Listening to Rasputin unironically

34. best superhero? Alice

35. best place in the whole world? My room

36. celebrity crush? Too many :c Madonna and Angelina Jolie

37. who’d play you in the movie of your life? What life

38. who’d be your love interest? I don’t have one irl so

39. who’d provide the soundtrack to your movie? Courtney Act, the Hush Sound and Rick Astley all together

40. favourite cartoon? Does anime count

41. character /person you can most relate to? Equal parts Farrah Moan and Nina Bo’nina Brown

42. sun or rain? rain

43. Adele or Ed Sheeran? Both

44. Taylor Swift or Kanye West? Taylor

45. pale or tanned? I’m pale myself but it’s whateva

46. USA or UK? The UK (Sorry Californians)

47. cash or card? cash

48. blonde or brain? Blonde and memes you know who yall are

49. secret talent? I can say hello in like 20 languages does that count (thx duolingo)

50. if you had to make your own religion what would it be? Praise Ekmek

51. Audition song? Something by lana del rey or alizee

52. Britain or America’s got talent? I don’t watch TV

53. favourite Disney movie? Don’t really have one

54. do you love or hate game of thrones? Not interested

55. nicest person you’ve ever met: well I THOUGHT she was a nice person but apparently she’s not so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

[nekosd43]

Lavender, orange, and canary?

SHIT YEAH I CAN TALK ABOUT MUSIC FOREVER HOPE YOU’RE READY FOR A VERY INCOMPATIBLE MIX OF SONGS AND SCATTERSHOT EXPLANATIONS.  I EVEN MADE YOUTUBE PLAYLISTS.  I PUT IT UNDER A CUT BECAUSE IT GOT LONG AND I RESPECT PEOPLE’S TIMELINES TOO MUCH TO DO THAT DO YOU GUYS.

If you just want the playlists but not the explanations:

Lavender

Orange

Canary

lavender: songs you connect to

I’d like to entitle this Playlist “Songs that have the ability to make me cry without warning if they come on”

Setting Sail, Coming Home - Darren Korb - I associate this song with the death of a friend (COMING OUT STRONG HERE) so that might be unfair but I can and have put this song on for hours and just cry/sing.  It’s so good.

This Year - The Mountain Goats - I know it’s cliche to make this your anthem but THIS IS MY MOTHERFUCKING FIGHT SONG.  I cannot BEGIN to tell you how many hard times I’ve gotten through muttering “I am gonna make it through this year if it kills me.”

Stronger Than You - Aivi & Surasshu & Estelle - THE GAY ANTHEM I DIDN’T KNOW I NEEDED UNTIL IT HAPPENED AND NOW I CANNOT GET THROUGH A DAY WITHOUT IT.

Six Days at the Bottom of the Ocean - Explosions in the Sky - I remember the first time i heard this song, it felt like something was melting in me.  Like, something that had frozen over was warming up for the very first time in a long time.

Exile Vilify - The National - I love this song for every bit of it, but the line “No you’re thinking too fast / You’re like marbles on glass” is what really sells it because I can’t think of a better way to explain what my brain feels like when I’m in the middle of an anxiety attack.

Brand New Colony - The Postal Service - This is sappy as fuck but my long time SO who doesn’t have a head for music or lyrics managed to memorize the lyrics of this song (and I cannot stress how hard that is for him, he literally does not hear music or lyrics the same way I do) and quoted them to me on a date once.  It was adorable, I think of it every time I hear it.

We Never Change - Coldplay - I legit don’t know what it is about this song, I think it’s the repetition of “I want to live life and always be true” because yeah big mood. 

Starts With One - Shiny Toy Guns - This whole fucking album was there for me when my depression and anxiety got to it’s absolute worst.  Even though the content of the song is sad, singing it out with full force always made me feel better.

Here Comes a Thought - Aivi & Surasshu, Estelle, & AJ Michalka - Steven Universe of course was able to give me a mindfulness song that best describes the feelings of intrusive thoughts and ALSO how to deal with them and I cry EVERY GODDAMN TIME.

Never Quite Free - The Mountain Goats - This is a great song about coping with trauma and how it stays with you, even when you’re “over” it.  It’s not happy, but I take comfort in it because it reminds me that it’s okay to not be okay, and that that’s not my fault when something causes me to relapse.

Everything’s Alright - Laura Shigihara - Another song about dealing with bad things and finding comfort in other people.  I loved this song since the first time I heard it.  Played the game it came (To the Moon) from like two years later and yeah, it’s a gut punch.

Eight Melodies - Keiichi Suzuki and Hirokazu Tanaka - Earthbound means a lot to me.  The Sanctuaries and the Eight Melodies mean a lot to me too.  I always have to take a minute for a good cry when I’m playing this game and this part happens.

Undertale - Toby Fox - I remember exactly how I felt when I walked down the long hallway in Undertale and this song started playing for the first time.  It was so out of place from the rest of the soundtrack stylistically, but absolutely perfect.  I remember thinking “this game is changing me.”  I played Undertale REALLY early, before the hype spoiled it for everyone, and this was the moment I realized I was going to be a different person after playing it.

King and Lionheart - Of Monsters and Men - OKAY THIS SONG HAS ONLY BEEN IN MY LIFE FOR TWO WEEKS AND IT’S ALREADY MADE ME CRY UPWARDS OF A TRILLION TIMES SO YEAH.  Just like, fuck me up.  Seriously.  Songs about being there for people you love and holding hands in the endtimes just… UGH.

orange: songs you want other people to associate with you

I call this playlist “BIG MOOD”

Die Anywhere Else - Alec Holowka & Scott Benson (Cover by Mandopony) - I have a weakness for a good riff and a catchy chorus and also anyone who knows me knows the chorus is BIG MOOD HOLY SHIT I WANT TO DIE ANYWHERE BUT HERE.

Live and Learn - Crush 40 - Look I like garbage and I need everyone who knows me to understand that sometimes I unironically listen to butt rock from sonic games.  If you can’t accept that about me we can’t be friends.

Harder, Better, Faster, Stronger - Daft Punk - I like to think I’m including this song because of it’s connotations about improving yourself and working towards being a better you but no it’s just robots I love robots.

Dog Days are Over - Florence + The Machine - I literally listen to this song every morning.  It’s my alarm clock.

No Dogs on the Moon - Griffin McElroy - MY AESTHETIC.  Seriously this song is just me.  Catchy off-sync tune with samples of dogs autotuned to nonsense and absolute cuteness.  This is me in song form.

What Would Captain Picard Do? - Hank Green - I may or may not quote this song unironically to people when I make decisions about important things.

Saturn Valley Caverns - Keiichi Suzuki and Hirokazu Tanaka - There’s a tumblr post somewhere about that one friend who makes you listen to shitty ambient cave music from Earthbound on vinyl… I am that friend.

Ready Steady Go! - L’Arc~en~Ciel - LOOK THIS SONG GOT ME THROUGH HIGH SCHOOL AND I COULDN’T FIND A GOOD QUALITY FULL VERSION BUT THAT’S OKAY THE FMA CUT IS PRETTY GOOD CUT.

Love Today - Mika - I think if I wanted people to know one thing it’s that I try my best to love everyone and this song works really good for capturing that mood.

Float On - Modest Mouse - I want to be this chill.  A lot of people think I am this chill.  I am not.  I wish i WAS THO.

Foreign Object - The Mountain Goats - Everyone should know my favorite Mountain Goats song is the one about the guy getting stabbed in the face with a knife because why wouldn’t it be.

Shy Guy’s Toybox - Yuka Tsujiyoko - This is what the inside of my brain feels like on a good day.

*~ASTERISK~ - Orange Range - I guess this song is from Bleach but I never watched Bleach.  I heard this song one time and I was like “THAT.  I WANT TO BE THE WAY THAT SONG MAKES ME FEEL.”  So yeah.  I want to be the way this song makes me feel.

Computer Music - she - sometimes I am basically a shitpost generating robot and people know this and love this about me therefore this song best expresses my love as a computer who loves music.

Pursuing My True Self - Shoji Meguro - Besides the fact that this is from Persona 4 and everyone needs to know I love Persona 4, I’ve taken on this song on as a personal creed because it makes me want to fucking jump kick the moon.

Movin’ Right Along - The Muppets (cover by Alkaline Trio) - Another chill song about going with the flow that I wish I was and i TRY SO HARD TO BE also I love the Muppets and this cover fucking rocks.

Love Like You - Rebecca Sugar - I am trash for this song it just fucks me right up.

canary:songs to listen to on a sunny day

Also known as “PUMPED UP KICKS THAT MAKE ME WANT TO PUNCH THE SUN”. 

I’m not gonna give individual explanations for these ones, but these are songs that make me feel energized and ready to take on the world, which I need when it’s sunny because I hate the sun and want to die.  Also I associate sun with summer, and summer reminds me of being at home and listening to KROQ (local radio station) with my dad.  A lot of these are the kinds of songs that we’d listen to.

I Bet You Look Good on the Dance Floor - Arctic Monkeys

Think I’m in Love - Beck

Ain’t No Rest for the Wicked - Cage the Elephant

World Go Boom - DJ Earworm

Cosmic Love - Florence + The Machine

These Days - Foo Fighters

Don’t Stop (Color on the Walls) - Foster the People

Holy Touch - Foxy Shazam

In This City - Iglu & Hartly

Are You Gonna be my Girl? - Jet

Big Casino - Jimmy Eat World

Bad Romance - Lady Gaga

No Children - The Mountain Goats

I will Wait - Mumford and Sons

Savior - Rise Against

Cherry Bomb - The Runaways

Far Behind - Social Distortion

Reptilla - The Strokes

Everything is AWESOME!!! - Tegan and Sara

It’s Getting Boring By the Sea - Blood Red Shoes

THAT WAS FUN BUT I SPENT WAY TOO MUCH TIME ON IT.

[aprikota]

some things about me

-in middle school I unironically listened to nickelback -despite what I may say, I have only heard and liked a few mcr songs -I am terrible at reading people. I can’t look at someone and make inferences based on subtle body language and microexpressions (w the singular exception of my fav person). If u want me to know how you’re feeling either come out and say it and/or be really obvious about it -I overshare on tumblr bc I don’t want to directly ask for help w my issues but I still want people to know about them and then decide for themselves whether or not to do something about it, ya feel -I really, really hate chocolate. Idgaf what it is. If it had chocolate in it I’m not eating it. -I can only drink coffee if it has a shitload of creamer and a fuckton of sugar, and since drinking it always makes me feel kinda sick I don’t drink a lot of coffee -I can’t sit still long enough for taking a bath, which is unfortunate considering how much I love bath bombs -I regret every haircut I have received for the past four years to some extent -I don’t really like the sw prequels v much. tcw and swr are so much better. Every reason that the prequels sucked tcw fixed. -since we’re on the topic of star wars, I really like Anakin in fanon and fics, but Luke = 💯in canon *and* fanon -I have two cats. I got one when I was eight and going through my mythology phase and named her Isis (come at me with that terrorist bullshit if u lookin for a fight) and I got another when I was eleven and named her Hazel bc her eyes are hazel sometimes. They both really hate each other. -once I had a beta fish named Gem. She died a few years back bc she rotted from the inside out. -most of the bad in my life can be traced to a few key decisions I made in middle school -I was straight in middle school but then started getting confused about 8th grade. I said I was bi for probably a few months until I discovered what pansexuality is. Atm I’m wondering if I might also be polyromantic, or if I’m just desperate for a relationship and am just accepting of anyone that would take me at this point -where tf does patricott come from??? well I’m pansexual and I love apricots. I smushed the two together to make pantricot and then changed a few letters. -I write fanfiction and have a tumblr dedicated to my writing shit/my shit writing. Good luck finding it lmao. -I’ve had my braces on for over three years. I Cry. -I will literally answer any ask bc I’m desperate for attention -I swear a bunch, it's probably a problem -I love cuddles and displaying affection through touch. I'm also flirty with my friends but not flirty with people I'm actually attracted to -I actually really like math and I'm really good at it. The numbers make sense and I can pick things up really quickly. The only reason why I'm not doing so great in class is that I don't pay attention in class and then learn everything the night before the tests