#undiagnosed world

[dailyscug]

[skunkes]

imagine an alternate universe where al is real and he's drawing a lil guy who looks like you like "wish this guy was real"

I THINK ABT THIS AAAAAAALL THE TIME but then it turns into seeing it like this lmfao (using this og version as an example solely because i couldnt find the redraw someone made where its like im saving myself for my husband and the professional businessman looking guy is like where is my hermit NEET wife)

[hoofpeet]

Various experimental doodles paired with [part of] yesterday's journal entry 👍🐄

[hetalian-veteran]

Hetalia Characters as Things my Family Members have said

The Netherlands: "Give me a sec, I gotta scrub the nicotine off the bathroom ceiling."

Germany: "Hey mom, can you please pick us up? Your son is serenading people against their will with his anti-Valentine's Day song at the nacho bar in the middle of church."

Romano: "Please bless that the potluck committee will be better prepared next time." (My brother said this while blessing the food at a church potluck, where the committee was, of course, in attendance).

America: "Get the fried chicken out of your underwear!!!!!"

Sealand: "Stop finding everything I sneak!"

Italy: "Hey everyone! They're giving out free lobster bibs in the men's room!"

Canada: "Sides?? SIDES?!? The tree is round, there are no sides!!!!!!!!"

Prussia: "Go make me a sandwich." (My brother said this to my sister and proceeded to have a laundry basket thrown at him).

Tag yourself. I'm The Netherlands, because that's something I literally found myself having to say today. (And was also the inspiration for making this post. Let me know if you wanna see more. I've got loads of stuff and my family is weird).

[chronicsymptomsyndrome]

As a kid my family used to make fun of me for stuff that is apparently exclusively reserved for “old people” like rolling across the room in a rolly chair to grab something (instead of getting up and taking three steps) or sitting down at a table to do quick food prep like cut fruit or scramble an egg (instead of just standing at the counter for 90 seconds) TURNS OUT what they called laziness was just disability all along haha TURNS OUT I just needed a mobility aid yet here I am today still without one because they gaslit me into believing I was “just lazy” and it took me decades to finally understand that’s not true. haha who knew

[dearinglovebot]

thinking about beautiful claire again and how she has such an autistic way of interacting with people

her version of small talk is stilted and in service of a wider goal (introducing herself to eli, talking with investors). it has the vibe that she spent hours looking in the mirror and smiling while rehearsing Answers To That Question. she does not care about maintaining any level of connection further than what is strictly needed to achieve her Goal. sometimes you can see the Real her slipping out like with masrani where she’s a little snarky but there’s those attempts to reorient herself and get Back On Topic so that she can reach The Goal. there is no interest whatsoever in the social aspect of small talk which is building connection/rapport.

which is completely contrasted to how she acts when there are no expectations set on her (first control room scene, general interactions with owen, dominion opening with zia and franklin). she goes from docile lamb to opinionated wolf in an instant. unmasked claire is deeply argumentative and convinced that she is right and she can prove it (autistic sense of black and white justice)! so much so that she steamrolls relationships that she cares about (karen, owen, franklin). understanding how to truly relate to others is a work in progress even in dominion (autistic misunderstanding of social cues). dominion is truly just Unmasked Claire in her full glory. she gives the rudest introduction to kayla ever and is entirely off-putting as she tries to steamroll her into joining the search party for her daughter but she is also just so earnest that, well, you’ve gotta help the poor woman.

[uncanny-tranny]

Piggybacking off this post I made last night, but I think two things can be true at once:

Being diagnosed or undiagnosed can both be disadvantages. Neither a state of diagnosis nor undiagnosis can be more "beneficial" because both can be harmful dependent on the situation. We need to be open to the possibility that a diagnosis can be helpful, harmful, a mix, or neither, and not having a diagnosis can also be helpful, harmful, a mix, or neither.

Basically, disability is complex. We live in an ableist world that simultaneously demands disabled people adhere to strict standards but also just not exist in the first place. It's hard enough to navigate diagnosis, and making it harder is only going to harm us, not abled people. They don't care about the intricacies of disability, more often than not.

[vimbry-moved]

the thing about being raised predominantly around people who are very impatient and judgemental and carry this generational shame of what others might think is that you will develop a perception of this being the default state of the world. and then you get older and realise most people are actually quite nice and don't notice or care about these things at all, which is good. the bad part is unpacking all of that but you know, that part's good.

[littleclosetofbyler]

this is a meta byler commentary.

I am a controversial person, wherever I go. Am I proud of it? No. Do I do anything to change this? Nope.

The thing is, when you are controversial you get used to be messy and making a mess whenever you go, so everytime i open tumblr and i see I have more than 1 notification I ask myself "What the hell did I do now??" The thing is, lately is not much of a problem, most of the time is just reblogs or answers or comments or something like that and I ENJOY this.

So, thank you for accepting someone who is absolutely out of the traditional cj of what someone here is supposed to be.

Also, no, I am not a native english speaker, I am a native spanish speaker who lives in China because I found my weird peace in here, but people usually assume I am from anywhere else but my home country.

Also, Byler endgame.

[tatsumi-rin]

Moral Orel doesn't seem 100% like a show I'd feel seen in if you don't know me but then I remember the episode with the special ed kids and underneath the usual satire on extremist bible belt religion it reminds me WAY too much of how actual special ed departments treated me and other kids growing up.

Like the writers must HAVE BEEN THERE IN LIFE, man. I'd kill to sit down with Dino Stamatopoulos and find out what the fuck inspired him and the other writing staff that day.

[angeltannis]

The fact that Symmetra’s seemingly only childhood friend was a boy she fundamentally disagreed with everything about and disliked pretty much everything that he stood for - and that it was exactly the same for him - is so so so funny to me. Unlikeable neurodivergent bitches gotta stick together

[the-great-kraken]

i can't stop thinking about super strength as an allegory for dyspraxia

it sounds a little counterintuitive, since super strength usually comes with connotations of peak physical ability, but i think outside of the obvious there's a lot of really fascinating slightly more subtle overlap

a lot of characters with super strength are often shown to be clumsy - if mainly for comedy purposes. they'll misjudge their own strength and break whatever they're holding or throw things a comical distance or a friendly nudge will send an ally through a wall.

while dyspraxia obviously doesn't work exactly like this, the experience of attempting to have my body do one thing only to have it respond unpredictability and, depending on context, sometimes destructively, is altogether too real.

the archetypal example of super strength is superman, and his iconic 'i live in a world of cardboard' speech really illustrates that a core aspect of his strength is the requirement to constantly limit himself and adjust the way his body works, or else risk devastating consequences - essentially masking. he has to be constantly vigilant and aware of every action so he can try and ensure that his body responds Correctly. as much as the stakes are clearly much higher for superman than your average dyspraxic, that’s a very relatable feeling for me.

this can also make for some interesting commentary on accessibility, since the world around him isn't built for him to interact with safely. strong characters struggling to use certain more breakble objects is a pretty regular gag, and depending on the nature of the story, it's fairly common for their genius friends to build versions of objects that are reliable and safe for them - essentially giving them proper accommodations they couldn't otherwise access.

this struggle to interact with the world around them is often shown to worsen when under emotional stress - think mr incredible throwing his boss through a building and breaking his car door. for me, this is very common, as it becomes more difficult to focus on my movements when distracted, and it's always worse when because i'm upset, exhausted or frustrated.

this last point has less to do with existing tropes and more to do with what i think could be an interesting direction to take characters like this. as a dyspraxic person, i often feel a disconnect between what i view as Me and what is My Body. when i attempt to do one thing only to end up doing another, it can feel like my mind is an entirely different entity to my body. i think pushing a superpowered character in this direction could be incredibly compelling, and could be easily combined with the classic internal conflict of "am i my secret identity or my super alter ego?" (for anyone curious this is why i'm so attached to luther from the umbrella academy. his ape body took on a life of its own in my head since the show did nothing with it.)

but yeah, a lot of classic super strength tropes are very relatable for me, and i think with a little push could make for an absolutely brilliant disability metaphor. i've been toying with this as a concept for a while, but i've never quite managed to put a proper character framework on top, forget a plot, so i figured i'd try to get it out of my system for a bit with a tumblr post instead

[elfhunk]

so, something stuck out to me when i was catching up on the news yesterday that i wanted to point out.

the administration is trying to catch agencies & grant recipients for using federal funds to promote gender ideology, right?

well, it made me wonder what this all was in writing.

here's the definition from the executive order. this is the only definition they have given. as someone who used to work in federal grant reporting, it stuck out to me.

because if government is about drawing lines for people to color inside of, then this is not a line drawn from observation.

reading over this as written, line by line, and thinking about the programs i worked with? the federal grant recipients that dealt with LGBTQ+ issues? they were not promoting replacing the biological category of sex with a self-assessed gender.

that's not gender ideology.

programs emphasized the difference between biological sex and gender, especially when seeking medical care.

if gender ideology is the idea that there is a vast spectrum of genders that are disconnected from one's sex? then we say that they are connected. we don't have to say how they're connected.

you don't give them anything. you look them in the eye and say, "well, we never required all institutions in society to regard this claim as true! we're just a little nonprofit program, aren't we? we didn't do any of that, mister president!"

this is why they're trying to buy out the federal workers. they've built careers out of this game. so many of them out there are playing this little game to make sure programs get the funds they need to serve their communities as they see fit.

tl;dr read laws as written and you can begin playing a horrible little pedantic game with these people. this language is violent and horrible, but it's also sloppy and imprecise. don't give up the game. force them to keep playing. waste their time while people on the ground keep providing care.

[chronicaallychill]

I'm not saying it's smart but if somebody offered me a lobotomy rn I'd say yes please and ty

[chillian-murphy]

I don't think Neil is dumb or anything but if you're not making him a little stupid in your fic, wtf are you doing. He doesn't know what's going on. He doesn't get shit. He has absolutely never picked up on the fact that he's being flirted with.

[drivenbydopamine]

I just need to sit at the end of a dock on a lake for about 12 to 8,760 hours and I'll be fine.