#undersensitive

[slutforwings]

listen. youre all coming on this 'adulting' (throws up) journey with me. i bought an apartment and immediately got chronic back pain. the universe disregarded the fact that im only 23 n was like. you think youre ready to be a Full Adult on your Own? back pain be upon ye.

[stupot]

i am going to purchase my first pair of sneakers in probably 10 years so that i can go play ddr in DC that is how dedicated i am. i literally only own boots but they are my weighted training armor and i need to be light footed to continue to be mediocre at my favorite game in the world

[ozymoron]

i hope the way i nearly fall over everytime i walk has captivated you babygi- OH FUCK

[my-autism-adhd-blog]

hi, i don't normally do this sort of thing, so sorry if it seems a little off.

I'm asking for help on whether or not i'm autistic. it's something i've never considered or seen myself as previously, but when i joined college i made friends with a lot of autistics (correction: all of my friends in college are autistic) most of whom are diagnosed and the majority of them have been trying to convince me i'm autistic.

The thing is is that i don't feel like i have enough traits to be considered as such. i have checked off maybe about 15 of them that we've all looked at together because someone else in the group is looking to get diagnosed through the college. however i don't experience any oversensitivity (and would argue i can be undersensitive if anything) and a lot of my social incompetence can be tossed up to a very sheltered childhood.

While I can go through the college to try to get a diagnosis, i'm nervous about having very little idea about which way the test is gonna go.

Do you have any advice or any traits in myself that I should look out for in particular?

Hi there,

Everyone exhibits a variety of traits, so it’s tough finding them. Here’s a test I found that I see as useful. As it shows how intense your traits are. Here’s mine for reference:

The test will be below if your interested:

Hopefully this helps some. Thank you for the inbox. I hope you have a wonderful day/night. ♥️

[colombinna]

Being autistic really is kind of like being a fairy. Your brain makes you operate differently, almost in parallel to neurotypicals, so it feels like you live in a different plane of existence (like the feywild). You sense things differently, being oversensitive to some things (personally, metals actually burns me sometimes) and undersensitive to others, you have intricate rituals, you have a view on things that can be described as ethereal, you get really obsessed with things others consider mundane, you speak in riddles, and people find you weird and quirky and can't deal with you properly, but others like you understand you perfectly because this is simply Our Normal.

Shout out to my fellow fairies

[autistpride]

Providing a sensory diet is important to all people, but especially autistic individuals.

It helps prevent dysregulation.

Some people are seekers and others avoiders and it can be different for each of the different senses.

Sensory seekers are undersensitive to input. They look for more sensory stimulation. People who sensory seek may look clumsy, be a little too loud or seem to have “behavior issues.”

Sensory avoidant experience sensory input more intensely than the average person, and they avoid it because it's overwhelming to them. People who sensory avoid may seem timid. They may be “picky eaters” or be particular about the types of clothes they wear.

If a person is overstimulated or burnt out they will likely be more avoidant.

[is-this-plural]

Flipping from oversensitive to undersensitive (in response to touch)

RATING: that sounds like autism <3 could be plural though so why not!

[nei-ning]

Now that I've finished reading book about autism, let me just tell you, it was VERY eye opening! LOTS and LOTS of things which match me!

Therefor I wrote everything down and now, I'm gonna do my best and translate the list here. It WILL be long so be prepared. There's few questions where I left my own answer. Those are marked with *

Disorder without impairment of intellectual or language functioning.

"This was it!" a decision of refusing to do something anymore

Inner knowing of being autistic but still not knowing / realizing it

Anxiety, endless hole in the stomach

Sentences / words get stuck to play in the head as a loop

Anxiety feels like an another living being who lives inside you

Always felt of being different from others

No any help from anti-depression medicines and countless of therapy sessions

Trying to fit in women's most common mental health issues: Is this guilt after all, shame, too strong desire to please, super conscientious all the way to exhaustion, reaching for perfection, having eating disorder while hating her body. Maybe just chronically depressed? I'm none of these.

I don't care what others think of me

I can manage but only about those things which I'm interested in

I ignore everything boring

My human dignity does not depend on my body

Is sleeping difficult? No since I fall asleep every evening like a sauna lantern (saunalyhty)

Fear of not being believed

I can behave. I warn I can fake and maintain a facade.

I want to be honest and open

When talking, words fall on the floor and are forgotten there. I feel powerless since it feels like none understands me.

I'm often angry when others don't get it what I mean

I'm in a contact with other people more than I could handle

I like to talk long about the same subject and I don't like it when the subject it changed quickly.

Difficulties with eye contact

Hard to work together since others don't think like I.

Others' slowness is infuriating.

I don't like repeating things. Saying it once should be enough

In social situations I act and fake. I fear people.

I can't handle of being interrupted. Example: If another person on the phone wants something else than what I have in mind in that moment.

I don't like changing plans

I get tired easily and need breaks often

Few powerful objects of interest. Many things don't interest at all

Oversensitive to sounds (always wearing headphones)

I'm smart on certain things but on others completely useless

Can't survive from simple calculations or can't follow simple instructions

Challenges in routines. Taking a shower and brushing teeth are very challenging. I can manage but it's very challenging / demanding.

Everything practical and physical demands a lot of efforts

(Small) Talking is difficult since I never know what to say

Autism is caused by biological reasons and is heavily inherited

Autism is not an illness / disease. You can't train yourself out of it and there's no medication to it.

Difficulties in communication and social interaction

Limited behavioral patterns and targets of interest which can, for example, lead to it that routines are important and changes difficult

Senses can be over- or undersensitive.

Autistic has to reason that what others can do naturally

Strong sense of honesty and justice

It's easier to focus on details than on a bigger picture

It can be hard to start a tasks or end them

Most autism tests are made for MEN only

Do I like to play games? Yes (PS4 etc)*

I pay attention on cars' register plates? Yes*

Numbers fascinate me: Yes and no. (I believe in angel numbers so in that sense yes, otherwise no)*

I don't enjoy reading belles-lettres: No, I don't.*

I enjoy gathering information about different subjects, like cars: Depends (I like plague / Black Death!)*

Do I like social happenings and meeting people: No

I have to rest and recharge long after being social

Autistic girls couldn't handle changes, didn't know how to shower, couldn't get their teeth brushed, were extremely sensitive to sounds, got temper tantrums at home, slept badly and they had no friends. They were lonely girls who didn't play with dolls but broke them or only brushed their hair.

To autistic child being held by force / against their will in order to calm them is very damaging. Touch feels uncomfortable.

Autistic understands everything literally

Parents never asked at home how school day was so I learned not to speak about myself

Using words wrong infuriates

Do you feel the need to share your experience with others or is it irrelevant? - It's not if nothing hasn't happened. I don't feel I have anything to tell.

Autistic is strict about details

Music, writing and drawing helps autistic person to release tension

Autism can also be caused by "mother's coldness" which has caused child to withdraw and shutdown.

Autistic girls are handy (drawing, making jewelry, hobby) or then they like animals (or both)

Focuses so hard on drawing (for example) that forgets to eat, go to bathroom etc.

Synesthesia (seeing colors or forms when listening music, getting a taste of something in mouth from words, music, people etc. Example: I once saw a man on TV and he tasted like beetroot!)

Doesn't feel like fitting in society's roles, like how you should look

No connection to body

Periods surprise every time

Doesn't realize being sick

Eating disorder is common on adult autistic people

Connection to anorexia

Overwhelmed by sounds and lights. Can hear fridge's humming or kids outside even that windows are closed. Chat happening at the back of the bus, neighbors. All sounds flood in brains.

Remembers a lot from what s/he has heard

It's important for autistic person to control the situation

Stimming: A way to express emotions. Can appear as sniffing something, stroking pleasantly feeling items, movement (exam: dance), singing, repeating words, biting / chewing, listening sounds, pulling lips etc.

Hands need to re-learn things constantly (like how to peel potato)

Hands can survive from small tasks, not from big ones

Hate towards it you should constantly be doing something

Hard to be around people who are constantly moving, their movement(s) gets on the nerves (aka pisses off)

Doesn't invite anyone to visit them since visits are exhausting

Addiction of routines. Same food every day, each summer the same vacation destination, doing things in specific time because then you can prepare yourself for them.

Easier to understand self-made instructions

Cleaning little by little (task per day) so that housework doesn't become overwhelming

Talking rudely to yourself, keeping yourself stupid

Hard to interact with others' conversation. Usual respond is weird look and: "What?"

Fight / disagreement with a parent. Doesn't get along with father or mother

Laughing at things which others don't get

Perfect rest from sounds and movements (exam: No TV on)

Desire to intervene in matters (exam: baking) if result is not perfect

Lack of sense of direction

Unable to try new route to a market (fear of getting lost)

Anxiety which comes from familiar thing having something new or strange in it, that I haven't "grow up" but stayed "as a child".

Doesn't understand why people scream in concerts, games etc.

Difficulties of getting a female friend (for female autistic persons)

Lack of empathy

Cognitive empathy: Doesn't understand how to react in certain situations

Can do emotional empathy

Let's others decide

Doesn't have strength to go through the same things over and over again with a friend

Easier to get along with boys

Ready to sacrifice a lot for a friend

Fictions affect deeply (exam: as a learning material)

Too critical

Constant collisions and misunderstandings with people

[wired-for-weird]

2, 12, 56 for the NSFW asks

Your 5 favorite spots to be stimulated.

You get 3 because my body is simultaneously oversensitive and undersensitive as fuck and the range of touch that's good is Pretty Narrow

Clit. Didn't used to be anything special before going on T but holy shit that bottom growth baybee.

Belly. I cannot fucking explain this but pressure or touches of any kind on my tummy makes me fucking Melt.

Scalp. head skritchies pleeeease

Do you have any kinks?

*looks into the camera* *looks at my blog* *looks back at the camera*

.....yea

Strangest/most unique place you’ve had sex? How about masturbated?

I am sorry but literally my only answers are Bed and Sofa. Everywhere else seems like A Lot Of Effort.

[v0latileromantic]

no but so much of jerome’s behaviour can be explained by autistic hyposensitivity & sensory seeking. clearly arkham never bothered with the raads-r but i will diagnose the shit out of him

behold my jerome autism notes:

speaks with unusual intonation, speech stereotypy, ‘odd’ and ‘rehearsed’ physical mannerisms, no grasp of when you should or shouldn’t make a joke, no grasp of how much eye contact is too much, sensory seeking by eating non-food items and jumping/climbing/getting into violent situations, his body is undersensitive to pain to the point that he can tolerate being mutilated, no social boundaries, demand avoidance, his intense focus on fun and chaos could easily qualify as a restricted interest, he wears gloves all the time (sensory issue). i could go on

[avensartt]

Alright I am suspecting I might be autistic so I'll use here to write down the reasons

(tell me if you know any of these are or are not autism traits)

Traits I know a lot of autistic people have:

• T-Rex arms (or as my dad calls them "mantis arms")

• difficulty making friends

• zoning out. a lot.

• not making eye contact when listening someone

• forgetting to actually listen when focusing on making eye contact

• auditory processing issues (I can hear it but cant understand)

• hyperfixations

• I've been to a gifted kid program and was told I was gifted when I was 6

• abnormal posture

• vocal and physical stims (stressed hand flapping, feet stomping, rocking, random animalistic noises etcetera)

Things I'm not sure are autism traits:

• early language development (I started talking in full sentences pretty early) [ this one might just be because I'm gifted ]

• I usually talk "silently and not saying the words fully" even tho I dont notice

I'm in huge doubt because my parents are educated people and they surely would have noticed if smth was wrong right? And they took me to a psychologist when I was young (the one that told them I was gifted) fairly often and she also didnt notice anything. But that might be because most research on autism was based on boys and it makes sence I was highly masking since I'm a girl and also gifted

• and when I dont talk like that I talk loudly and again, not understandable

• undersensitive to loud and "annoying" sounds

• oversensitive(?) to pain ( like my mom said I once wanted to get carried for 3 days because I skinned my knee) (or when after a dentist apointment my mom said she didnt scream/shout that much when she was giving birth)

it would really help if you told me more autism traits so I could see if I had them

Idk maybe I'm just being dramatic and these arent autism and I'm just weird like I font remember ever having a meltdown

[velathetanager]

Supernatural Idea

OK, so you know how it’s a common HC that Hous is autistic (from what I’ve seen)? Imagine if he had sensory issues that Kay, as his new companion, helps him with once she learns that they exist.

I imagine he’s undersensitive to touch and oversensitive to sight, so she serves as weighted objects/provides tactile sensations for him and brings his sight back into something manageable while also allowing him to wield her Absolute Eyesight (I’ll explain later) without problems.

[autistpride]

Interoception is the least known and least understood sensory system.

Interoception sense controls automatic motor movements and is the awareness and ability to detect and attend to the inner body sensations.

Automatic motor movements is our unconscious movements such as blinking, breathing, flinching, etc.

Inner body sensations are hunger, thirst, tiredness, pain, bladder, bowel, body temperature, illness, arousal, recogniseing emotions, and more.

The insula is located deep in the cerebral cortex and is in charge of recieving and decoding these sensations.

So basically it's how we feel and how we understand ourselves.

Oftentimes autistic individuals have struggles with interoception in that we are either hyper aware, hypo aware, or a mixture of both.

Other things such as hyperfixation, meltdown, shutdown, or burnout can affect a person's interoception.

An oversensitive aware person would feel these sensations more quickly and strongly than others.

Being oversensitive aware can cause problems for a person as the body is interpreting the signals for these things and the person may not be able to focus on other needs or meet these needs.

An oversensitive aware person may be told they are overreacting until it is a more serious issue. This could lead to a meltdown or shutdown.

An undersensitive aware person would not as quickly feel these sensations as others.

Being undersensitive aware can cause problems for a person as the body is not interpreting the signals for these things meaning it's not uncommon for someone to go hours without a drink, food, or using the toilet. This could cause the person to recognise suddenly and urgently a need.

An undersensitive aware person may be told they are overreacting and shamed for not doing these things sooner.

It’s simple! If a neurotypical person is hungry, they eat. When feeling full, they stop eating. When thirsty, they get a drink. Tired, go to sleep. Cold, put on a coat or use a blanket. Hot, remove layers or use a fan. Need to use the toilet, they go.

But for oversensitive aware Autistic individuals they may recognise these cues and have more intense feelings. They may feel hunger as painful, have a low tolerance for pain, feel tired or needing to use the toilet more frequently then others without a medical reason.

But for undersensitive aware autistic individuals may not recognise these cues. They may need to be reminded to eat, to use the bathroom, have a high pain tolerance, or when to get some rest.

So if your autistic individual if becoming dysregulated consider internal issues as a cause of dysregulation.

Ask how long has it been since they ate, had a drink, slept, used the toilet, are they dressed appropriately for the weather, etc.

[2dkapsddr]

January 26th, 2024 - SDVX EG, Taiko, PIU PHOENIX, DDR A3, Music Diver

met up with the same friend again today and had a MASSIVE insanely good session as opposed to last time. we got to explore a lot more than just piu and i introduced her to sdvx! (finally got a clear after a crash on 2 MINUTES FIGHTERS EXH HELLYEAH)

insanely competitive (but insanely brief) arcade taiko matchup with a very undersensitive drum on my side...

and then surprisingly only 2 sets (i think?) of piu where i got a sick SSS+ and EXTREME GAME on Vector S18!!!

similarly we did 2 battle sets of music diver. i was reluctant to play it since i hadn't played it in a really long while and couldn't remember whether pink/blue were the drum/screen... but after figuring it out in the first 10 seconds of a song, i kicked total ASS!! CHECK OUT THIS PUPA SCORE!!! GOD I LOVE THIS GAME SO MUCH, it definitely feels like the ideal rhythm game i like imagining in my head.

and finally, i ended my own session with some DDR A3 after friend had to go, but i got some neat scores and even did a weekly challenge set thing for Team Heron! (i couldn't join the team since i still can't travel everywhere for ddr tourneys, but i contributed in my own way i guess !) (first set pictured was an unfortunate set where i still had dot arrows accidentally active from way back when i played with CHI XU)

[banyanstuart]

Sensory Processing Disorder and Addiction: Understanding the Correlation and How to Address Both Conditions

An Exploration of Sensory Processing Disorder and Its Link to Addiction

Sensory Processing Disorder (SPD) is a neurological condition that affects millions of individuals around the world. One of the many implications of SPD is its connection to addiction; the relationship between them has been researched extensively. A recent study by Dr. Stuart of Banyan Treatment Center studied this relationship in greater detail, leading to some intriguing insights. SPD can be traced to an individual's sensory system. The sensory system is responsible for perceiving information from the external environment; the brain relies on it to process light, sound, and touch. In SPD, particular senses are oversensitive or undersensitive to the stimulus. As a result, individuals may avoid certain activities due to being overwhelmed by stimuli. Dr. Stuart's study aimed to understand how SPD can lead to addiction. He found that the oversensitivity of the sensory system can lead to individuals seeking out more intense experiences to manage their heightened senses. This can manifest as addiction to intoxication, drugs, and other activities. Below are the key takeaways from the study:

Sensory Processing Disorder (SPD) is a neurological condition that creates an oversensitivity to external stimuli.

SPD can lead individuals to seek out more intense experiences, such as substance use or risky activities.

Dr. Stuart of Banyan Treatment Center has conducted research into the relationship between SPD and addiction, leading to some intriguing insights.

This article sheds light on the complex relationship between SPD and addiction. It is important to remember that addiction is a complex disorder that has a variety of underlying causes. For those who are struggling with addiction, there is help available – Banyan Treatment Center provides comprehensive treatment services. To learn more about Dr. Stuart's findings, please check out the full article here.

[c0smicfern]

typed up a fucking long rant, but tumblr ate it. probably for the best, anyway; that shit was rambly asf & just laid things out for the... 5th, 6th, 7th time??? i feel like i never leave these rants with any deeper insight than i had prior to writing them. it's always just. "i don't fit the dsm criteria for autism, not REALLY" vs. "what was that 6-month period of chronic exhaustion, complete reclusivity, STRONGLY increased sensitivities, sudden food issues, and frequent situational mutism/meltdowns/shutdowns about???" i do not know how to reconcile these things. i dig through the adhd reddit for any record of someone with solely adhd going through anything similar, and i come up with nothing. i form a hypothesis about that period possibly being explainable by my high sensitivity & drug abuse around that time, but i don't find anything through that line of questioning/research either. none of it makes any sense. doesn't help that i've been meeting new people recently & keep getting identified as autistic by the autistics among those new people. it's like. surely, i MUST be, but i CAN'T be. and still, that psychic sensation of melting plastic permeates my brain. like... imagine the emotional/mental equivalent of the sight & smell of melting plastic, and that's what that 6-month period felt like in my brain just. fucking constantly. the craziest part is that some self-destructive aspect of my brain actually *misses* that feeling because things felt certain then, at least. i, in good faith, fully believed that i was autistic during that period because i HAD to be. i didn't know how else to possibly explain what was happening to me. i still don't, but i do feel a little better now. i'm able to work again, at least. and that's it, i guess. some profane, intuitive part of my brain identifies with autistic people whenever i meet one (even before they've told me that they are) but only up to a certain extent. it's such a weird sensation. think OG peter parker & miles morales's meeting in into the spiderverse, only the colors don't switch from green & purple to the red & blue. it's the simultaneous intuitive understanding that a particular person is autistic & being reminded of the part of me that has always felt the same, only different. it feels like doing a dna comparison test & receiving a 75% match. yet, i don't find myself undersensitive to / unable to successfully parse tone of voice & facial expressions. i don't remember if i was as a child. i've definitely never struggled with metaphors. moreso, i've struggled in parsing motives & intentions and knowing what acceptable behavior is, leading me to be taken advantage of & abused at times. i've needed most idioms i've ever encountered to be explained in order for me to understand them, but the 'uncomfortable' ones don't make me feel uncomfortable. i typically understand when people are upset with me & have historically without needing to work it out consciously, though. idk. it all seems to be in conflict with itself, but my current understanding is that i only have adhd, social anxiety, and a higher sensitivity & that 6-month period was an anomaly, probably caused partially by drug abuse & partially by high stress.