#ugly poetry

[cutelilrat]

love me

inside and out

rip my skin

open my chest and my stomach

see my skin, my fat, my muscle, my guts, and my bones

analyze my anatomy

cover your hands with my blood and my fluids

hold the heart that loves you so deeply

hold it as it beats for you, all for you

tell me you still love me

look at all of the ugly and disgusting things in my body

and still tell me you love me

not my outside appearance

not my personality

look inside me

see what loves you so deep

find something you love

inside and out

love me

@beelzebubsbois @bluestarssystem

[little-paper-ghost-child]

Hi uh for some reason a bunch of not nice memories and emotions just hit me like a semi truck so here’s a poem (not really mostly just writing garbage) I will most likely delete when I wake up after I sleep after posting this (that probably makes sense)

Tw for all kinds of not nice things toned to be extremely vague👍👍

I hate to see you sad

I hate to see you sad it’s so upsetting because then

Then you get angry

That’s okay

Blow of some steam, I don’t mind

Hurt me.

I like this cage

You told me I’m on the outside so it must be true

I don’t get a choice though

Or I hate myself, but that’s okay

Kiss me.

I feel disgusting for it.

I really do but that’s fine right?

As long as it makes you happy to make me feel rotten

Twisted gnarled broken

It’s fine, I’m fine

Break me

When you destroy everything that’s left

Ruin, rot,

use your stupid hands to take me apart

Like a child and a toy

I think, I made it all up

That has to be it right? You wouldn’t do this to me

Right?

You are my best friend

Right?

Right?

Right?

It’s all fine, boundaries are privilege not right

Ruin me.

[theworldofbrightshadows]

Vorrei piangere ma non ci riesco, avrei bisogno di liberarmi da qualche peso che mi porto dietro ma non ci riesco. Allora provo a dormire per sopire tutto all'interno, ma non ci riesco..

[lucidloving]

Janet Fitch, White Oleander // Charles Bukowski, Ham on Rye // Gail Carson Levine, "Fairest" // Anne Sexton, A Self-Portrait in Letters // Hieu Minh Nguyen, "Pig" // Valentina-Remenar on DeviantArt // Ashe Vernon, Not A Girl

[motheyesofnight]

(from "my secret place")

in my most secret place

there's an ugly secret hidden so my eyes

had always glistened, but now the whole earth

collapsed, the atmosphere frozen,

bodies that unsightly entangled rolling

over the frozen wasteland, and my eyes

no more glisten and my ugly secret

is no longer a secret and my most

secret place lost its meaning.

[sadghostgirl14]

[arcanespillo]

I LAY MY BROTHER DOWN, GARY SHORT

[lacemyribbons]

“i see no point in living if i can’t be beautiful.” ᡣ𐭩ྀིྀི

[grokebaby]

This is your notebook. Yours, nobody else's. Remember that even if you grant pages of it to someone else

This is your notebook.

Destroy every page as you please. Some, you leave out cold, unfinished, frozen in a single moment forever. Forever, or maybe for as long as you, all powerful one, give it the mercy of continuation. Some, you fill with so much grime it drips out from the gaps and warps the paper to the full limits of what it can take.

Consume and ravage the entire thing. Fill it to it's aching, gurgling brim, or pluck it absolutely godlessly dry. Pour out your tears and mucus on it. Bleed on the paper. Drink it back up to rejuvenate your soul. Like an animal eating the placenta post-birth. You crack your skull on it then pick at the brain scatters like a bird on the sidewalk.

Rip off the bad ones. Or don't. Popped pimples bleed anyway.

This is your notebook. It loves you. You love it too. Except when you hate it. But you love it still, because it holds a fraction of your soul regardless.

[lunarhode]

you gave me the bedroom eyes and i took it as a challenge rather than an invite

[ro-sham-no]

i remember my college acceptance letter, a poem by me.

thanks to @samwhump for the encouragement :) <33333

[louisegluckpdf]

[uwmspeccoll]

It's Feral Friday!

If Special Collections were compared to a National Park- a thoughtfully curated, accessible experience of the wilderness of the natural world- where would its edges lie? What would be considered off the beaten path, how would its boundaries be defined, and in what ways would the landscape beyond those boundaries inspire our imagination and broaden our conceptions of the world and our communicative capacities?

That’s the realm of pluralistic inquiry explored by Feral Fridays, a new weekly post where we’ll feature items from our collection like zines, experimental book arts, independently produced poetry and other unruly materials that exist at the margins of publishing and literary traditions.

Let’s get Feral!   

--Ana, Special Collections Graduate Intern

Images:

That Way Issue 1, Spring 2021

That Way Issue 1, Spring 2021, pp. 23-24 (excerpt from interview w/Erma Fiend)

Thing Issue no. 3, Summer 1990

Re: Creation by Nikki Giovanni, Broadside Press, 1970

Aquarius Rising by Ben Fama, Ugly Duckling Presse, 2010

excerpt from Ugly Duckling Issue 6, October 2003

Lynch by Inch: an interview to Ali Khalid Abdullah 2003

Blue Horses for Navajo Women by Nia Francisco, Greenfield Review Press, 1988

Mildred Pierce Issue 3, April 2009

The Match! Number 97, Winter 2001-2002

[vamperinee]

Dear God, why do you hate me? Why did you spend so much time making other girls look pretty, but to me you got lazy. What did I do to deserve to look like this?

A letter to God, from a girl.

[petrichor-moss-and-lightning]

Belladonna of Sadness (1973) // Clementine Von Radics // Lilith Kerr (me lol), Unloving the Knife

on taking up space

[speedyphilosopherpanda]

I've seen the people you liked.

And I'm shattered that none of them are as ugly as myself.