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soooo hard to talk to people about motorsport outside when they clearly don’t— grasp the whole intricacy of it all. like how can i explain that i don’t particularly like pecco but i feel intrigued by his loser self-deprecating personality and the psychosexually implications of his relationships with the other racers? ‘so you like him?’ people ask. for which i have to settle with ‘yeah’. and go on with my day
#so frustrating to be misinterpreted#like i don’t LIKE him it’s more complicated than that#i’d like to see him win the championship? sure#but that’s part of the greater plot that would make this win his last whne he is ultimately confronted#with marc next year#which also poses a new view on everything#i analyze sport like a literary critic#ugh you wouldn’t get it#francesco bagnaia#motogp
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really wish my one friend would quit flirting with me. and trying to goad me into hanging out more. and assigning us fictional characters that are oh-so-coincidently either couples or with romantic tension. and then interrupting our gameplay to ask me repeatedly if I think they’re “like us” (which they rarely are…). and matching my icon on discord without asking (again, usually by insinuating a couple connection). and giving me random things I do not want and did not ask to receive (and then forcing me to take them???).
#storyrambles#it’s not creepy. just for context. it’s just irritating because I’ve told this person repeatedly that I’m not interested in romance.#this person is also naturally a huge romantic so it is next to impossible to tell whether it’s actual flirtation or just flirting for fun#flirting for fun is cool. I wouldn’t mind that. but if I do it once this person will take that as an invitation to do it an excessive amoun#but yeah after being given 12 roses out of the blue when I said ‘no don’t buy me flowers’. there’s only so many things that can mean#‘it’s nice to see your face you always cover it!’ …I’m masking. because of covid#I’m narrating a game and suddenly ‘I like hearing your voice I should call you every day so I can hear it for 10 minutes’. …no.#‘you have to take the snack I brought you know it’s rude to refuse a gift’ I have never refused a gift. It is rude. But also I didn’t ask.#‘you know this game is one you can play without talking so we can play more often!’ we already play games once a week for usually 3 hours.#‘but it’s not talking so it’s less social energy’ no. that is not how it works.#sorry for the rant im just. tired.#you know those people who are so pleasant to hang out with and then they try way too hard#and that’s actually what makes things awkward? rather than when they’re just being themselves?#yeah. that’s this friend here.#usually I go along with the bit but when I can never tell when the bit is actually a bit#and you insist on me taking on the ‘girl role’ for most of them#I am not going to play along.#UGH don’t get me started on the ‘you’re cute when you’re flustered’#I wasn’t even flustered. I was trying to do mental math while running on four hours of sleep and he was staring directly at me#it’s uncomfortable.#also. I never want to hear that again. fuck. ‘you’re cute when you’re angry’ ‘you’re cute when you’re upset’ ALL THE FUCKING TIME AS A KID#will I be so cute after I kick you in the nuts? will I?#(for clarity I don’t want to kick him. I want to kick those other people.)#I need a lot of alone time. I really do. I can do 3 hours and then I will be drained for the rest of the day.#‘how did you grow up? did you not talk to your mom for more than 3 hours a day?’#first of all. that’s different?#secondly we actually regularly do separate things without talking to each other. or go in separate rooms to take some time to ourselves#also I don’t have to be on high alert for if I’m going to be flirted with. so.#ugh. I like him as a friend. I really do. I know this all makes it seem like the opposite. I try so hard to be as nice as possible.#but UGHHHHHH
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god i cannot wait to be off these steroids…
#marzi speaks#marzivents#<- it’s late n i’m kinda pent up abt this#i’m so TIRED of themmmm#i’m probs gonna be on them for the rest of the year. which SUCKSSS#i don’t like how many ppl comment on the moon face#i don’t mind it. like i look in a mirror and i’m okay.#it’s a little weird. but like. just because it’s different. like getting used to a new haircut#but every time i see someone for the first time in a bit it’s ‘woah your face got rounder’#and i have to go ‘oh yeah it’s water retention- steroids thing it’ll go away when i’m able to go off ‘em’#and they go ‘oh alright :) you still look good btw don’t worry’#and i just. i HATE how people talk about it!! like jfc. it’s so clear that they think it’s like kinda sad#my dad said he thinks it’s cute and he’s the only one i actually think is telling the truth there#my mom and i agree that it doesn’t matter. but even then she tries to tell me not to panic#like a little extra squish in my face is something to panic over#it’s so clear that so many people see it as another thing to pity#oh poor thing. has that chronic illness for the rest of her life. and the steroids made her jaw look rounder :(#like jfc i knew fatphobia was prevalent but come the fuck on. literally i’m like barely retaining water for steroids too#like. i’m still very much skinny (i JUST finished being malnourished ffs) but bc i’m retaining water in my face#now ppl feel the need to comfort me. over this tiny cosmetic thing that does not matter#like. i wouldn’t feel weird abt it if it weren’t for everyone else making it such a THING. why is everyone so weird about it#i’m not insecure about it but when ppl try to comfort me or go ‘it’s not that bad’ it makes me feel like i’m SUPPOSED to be insecure abt it#and it drives me NUTS. bc there are things about being on steroids that i would love to be comforted about#but the water retention is not one of them. i couldn’t give a rat’s ass about the water retention#y’know what i’d like to be comforted over? the mood swings. the irritability. the insomnia. the appetite fluctuation#the slow healing of skin. thinning and dryness in the skin. having to take like 3 other medications alongside the steroid#bc taking the steroid causes side effects that need to be medically treated or prevented#even outside of the steroid! i’d like some comfort about having to build back my stamina from scratch#i’d like some comfort about having the worst balance i’ve had in years#there’s. more to this. but i’m out of tags. maybe i’ll make some replies idk. i’m just. UGH
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Picky eater rant of the night people ALWAYS assume that if a kid is “picky” it’ll mean they just don’t like healthy food. I didn’t like CHOCOLATE for YEARS because you know what? Chocolate simply isn’t that great. Grown adults tried to pressure me into liking chocolate bc apparently kids can’t jsut ‘not like chocolate’. I didn’t like chocolate until I stopped getting as overwhelmed by it. For years I didn’t eat most things chocolate bc chocolate is such an intense flavor that I simply just couldn’t stand it. Chocolate was just too much flavor. Im autistic, it took years for me to be able to eat things with a ton of flavor bc it was just too much for me. The same reason I didn’t like chocolate is why I didn’t like seasonings on my food. The idea of ‘healthy and unhealthy’ foods DOESNT EXIST to a child’s tastebuds. It exists to their brain, yeah! But a kid does not inherently go “this food is healthy therefore I hate it” and the idea that children being picky is in some way spiteful or out of being too spoilt to eat healthy food is INSANE to me and plainly WRONG. Whenever I see posts about people who actually give their kids grace and help them expand their pallets, it doesn’t take much to realize that these kids also don’t eat things like pizza(which I didn’t like much as a kid bc I didn’t like tomato sauce) and chocolate and other foods that are considered junk food. Why is there this idea that it’s a kids Vs adults thing when a kid simply has different tastebuds.
#even today people will be weird about me not liking certain chocolate things#ie I still don’t really like chocolate ice cream#but the sheer amount of shit I got for it as a kid#while also getting shit for not liking tomato products and anything spicy#ughhhhhh it boils my blood#kids are not doing things to spite you!!! they are just also people!!!#why is this so hard!!!#ugh!!!!!#as a kid I LOVED BROCCOLI and HATED CHOCOLATE#and still got shit for being picky#like ughhhhhhhh#i used to order pizza with less or no sauce#it took me years to enjoy frozen pizza bc the sauce was different than the ordered kind so I just wouldn’t eat it#i didn’t eat pepperoni pizza until last year
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if you’re gonna “counter” me, perhaps address the points made with your own, provide proof that legitimizes them, and then explain how it counters me. grade nine debate would eat you alive🙄
#me: here is thorough slideshow on why rhys is abusive#rhys stan: ugh you probably like zade meadows and don’t get that he’s morally gray. also don’t read the books then#ALSO WHY AM I BEING DISRESPECTED LIKE THIS! I WOULDN’T TOUCH ZADE WITH A 1000 FOOT POLE#anti rhysand#acotar
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Hunger Games rant
This is kind of surprising me because I used to ship Everlark when I read the books years ago but upon a re-read as an adult?
I’m just wandering through the Hunger Games fandom and seriously have to say… I very very much doubt that Katniss and Peeta “would’ve happened anyway” if they were not reaped nor if the Games never existed.
Sure, he had a crush on her which is likely why he gave her the burned bread that day(something that I’m pretty sure isn’t even covered in the movies) which people seem to think makes her required to like him back. Their relationship was also a forced play for the Capitol, she had no choice. If it was “gonna happen anyway”, she would’ve been dating him already by the first book. 
As an (now)Everthorne shipper, I am a little biased but she clearly has more in common with Gale, they had known each other for years, and she even bluntly states that “he is hers and she is his” at one point. Seems straight forward to me. Gale also deserved better than what SC did to him. Yes, he helped to design those bombs but I very much doubt he knew what Coin was going to use them for nor did he know that Prim was going to be there and put in the direct line of fire. Prove me wrong. I’m also slightly irritated that Katniss holds this over his head, and while I understand given that it’s Prim, she should know him better than that. Just seemed like an easy way for Collins to get rid of him so she could pander to fans by putting Katniss with Peeta. Yes, he lied by omission but he didn’t want to hurt her. And I find it odd that she just can’t seem to get over that, while she seems to just instantly forgive Peeta for every manipulation(unintended or not) that he puts her through. 
I do find it funny that some people seriously seem to think that Gale and Katniss actually are cousins. Take the Everlark blinders off, people. You really think that Collins would create a love triangle that involved incest?
She picked Peeta in the end because he could give her stability in a post war world when she had no one, not because she loved him like that. Matches up to “she’ll pick who she can’t survive without” to me. I know people immediately interpret that as “she’ll pick who she loves” but no. If Gale meant it that way, he would’ve said it that way but he also knows the only one Katniss would and could ever truly love is Prim. Peeta does not understand this about her.
The movies just showed a “happy-ever-after Everlark” ending while ignoring that fact that Peeta is still struggling with the hijack(and poses a continuing threat to Katniss because of it) and in the books, Katniss does wonder what kind of future she also could’ve had with Gale like they were talking about before the first reaping. But she dismisses it because she imagines that he’s moved on. Her ending with Peeta comes across to me as “obligation” still. Surprisingly, lots of people seem to get this too I’ve read but most are still “romantic Everlark” anyway. 🤷♀️
Katniss had gone through the books pretty adamant that she didn’t want to marry or have children and yes, that was largely because she didn’t want them to have to go through the Games but it’s also been said behind the scenes that she only did these exact things in the end because Peeta wanted it. Literally along the lines of “I didn’t want children but Peeta did and kept asking until I finally caved…” just rubs me the wrong way.
I think it would’ve been a refreshing change to have ended this series the way Katniss originally wanted. Where she didn’t end up with anyone. (@zalrb here on Tumblr says this all way better than I ever could. Go visit them.)
#my own opinion#anti Everlark#seriously they wouldn’t have just happened anyway had the games not existed#if they were ever going to be a thing it would’ve happened before the first book#hunger games#the hunger games#I just had to rant after going through so much fanfiction where ‘Everlark would be a thing no matter what!’#I also hated starting a story that was marked specifically as Everthorne only to have Katniss meet Peeta#and literally decide two seconds later that she loves him instead and runs off to be with him#how does that make Gale the bad guy? ugh 🙄#Or he is written wildly out of character to justify her running off with Peeta#just had to get all this off my chest#you don’t like or agree? I don’t care really#as said this is my opinion#and rant
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i need to give Adam Stanheight a big fat sloppy wet kiss. on the MOUTH. specifically this picture. i need to taste his cigarettes in MY mouth.🥲😣😣😣😣
#adam faulkner stanheight#adam from saw#adam stanheight#adam faulkner#adam radford#adam radford faulkner#adam faulkner radford#adam radford stanheight#adam stanheight from saw#gay#gayboy#twink#big sloppy wet kiss#kiss#mwah#i need to kiss him#so bad#UGH#you wouldn’t get it#istg im gonna scream#I NEED HIM SO BAD#MMEEEEOOOWWWW#MEOW#meowwww#woof woof
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:c
#i luv my friends ;-; i feel like i’m gonna lose my mind when i’m not living right by all my friends lmao 😭#i’ve literally been hanging out w ppl like at least every other day if not every day#we made semi spontaneous plan to go to pride tmrwwweww 🥹🥹 i’m excited#i just am so happy that i get to spend sm time w ppl rn bc we’re all somewhat free bc summer 😭#also idk i was just thinking abt this recently but like#it’s kinda new to me to like actually be comfortable/confident in knowing my friends want/like my presence ;-;#even then i’m not that confident LMAO bc after sm time together i’m like surely they’ll get sick of me#like we’ve seen each other every day the past like three days#but no 🥹 ugh like idk man i had one elementary to sort of middle and high school friendship#that like fucked me up i feel like lmfao 💀#like girl sidelined me so much for other friends that i just#:l and cried so much bc of that 😀 anyway 😀#so like idk i’m just so grateful rn 😭😭😭#also was thinking abt it recently bc my mom made me feel judged/ made me feel like she was annoyed that i was staying here on campus#when i technically don’t need to and my main/only reason is bc friends#and after that conversation w her i got kinda annoyed bc i was like#i have had so many conversations w you where i was sad af or frustrated that my friends wouldn’t reach out to me ever#or my friend who never paid attention to me when other friends were around#like i don’t think she’s actually judging like me staying for friends but it was that one conversation we were both kinda annoyed idk#and i was just like . pls#anyway 😀 i always have so many friend thoughts i always be overthinking it LOL#anyway anyway i need to be up in like 6 hrs LOLLLLLL pride tho yay 🥰🥰🥰#rip me not having clean cute clothes for this LOL 🤪#ong last yr i tied my hair in a ponytail w like rainbow hair ties tied down the ponytail……#idk if i have those but if i do maybe i should do that again LOL#idk might be too lazy tho we’ll see how much time i have to get ready when i wake up 🤡#jeanne talks#TOO MUCH BYE
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Skybound//Seabound
My friends and also tumblr have managed to relight my Ninjago spark an insane amount. So here’s a piece I did for Jay and Nya because ummmmmm them <3
#ugh I have been so busy today#but the grind never stops!!!! still posting at least once a week#I might start doing more#if I feel like it#anyways#I also listened to that one song (you know the one)#so add it all up and you get this#you guys wouldn’t believe what I’ve started#because of this#hyperfixation?#ninjago#ninjago fanart#jay ninjago#nya ninjago#jaya ninjago#Crab Doodles#gonna be honest I like the first one better (I did that one at like 1 am tehe)
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started watching the new live action avatar
it’s. It’s pretty ok I guess? But there’s a lot of things I’m not altogether happy about. It feels very. Generic. Which is kind of sad.
I’m only two episodes in though, so I won’t be too harsh. But there are a few things that I really don’t like, and number one was Aang going into the Avatar State in front of Sokka and Katara for the first time when seeing Monk Gyatso instead of when escaping Zuko, and that moment being isolated instead of the moment everyone in the world knew the Avatar had returned
in the original series, Aang goes into the Avatar State when confronted by irrefutable proof in the form of the skeleton of his best friend and mentor - the airbenders really were massacred and he can no longer deny it.
every statue of the Avatar around the globe lights up in a single moment. the legendary figure’s destined return is announced to the world by an overwhelming outpouring of grief and rage from a young child who just discovered that everyone he ever knew and loved is gone. it’s poignant. the Avatar’s return in that moment is not a triumph. that terrifying show of strength and power, enough to light up the world in its glow, is pure emotional anguish from a small twelve year old, who just saw the dead body of his mentor and now believes he is all alone
and Katara and Sokka having seen the Avatar State before means that there is less of the shock and “what is happening” in this pivotal scene (which was the main focus in the live action). of course Sokka is still concerned about them potentially getting flung off the mountain. but both of them know this reaction for what it is - mysterious power, sure, but primarily, they see and recognize his grief.
I just. what happened to “we’re your family now” and “neither of us are gonna let anything happen to you”??? :(
on a side note, I do feel like Katara and Sokka themselves have been heavily (heh) watered down. it’s a shame. Sokka’s my favourite, and I just think that I. Don’t trust writers with Katara now. (Why is her waterbending a secret? The whole reason she didn’t learn was because there was no one to teach her and she couldn’t leave… also where is her instant connection with Aang… where is their silliness… where did it go…)
however! I did like a couple things that were done and I want to be a bit positive so here
love Zuko and Suki’s actors. they did a great job
Sokka and Suki’s training together was cute ☺️ (though I wish he had worn the uniform of the Kyoshi Warriors…)
Aang himself is adorable :) (wish he got to be a little more silly but Netflix adaptations always are more serious for some reason)
I actually kind of enjoyed getting to see some of the scenes from the war’s outbreak. I prefer the way the original show portrays it, with a lot of info being learned reverse chronologically, but it was cool to see Sozin, and some of the airbenders, and a little more of Gyatso (who I also really enjoyed :’) )
Katara bending water at Aang and it reducing to them splashing each other without even trying to bend. Rare sillies!
I thought Kyoshi herself coming to defend her island was pretty sweet!!!
Katara getting flashbacks to her mother’s death on seeing firebending. Well I don’t like this, obviously, but it clearly shows how her mother’s death haunts her, and if they have Katara face off against Zuko again at the North Pole, it’ll be all the more triumphant.
Suki’s mom!!! Damn she was so cool!!!!!!
#also whyyy was Katara not the first person Aang saw??? this is really important!!!#and what is Katara’s role here. She didn’t even seem to break the iceberg. That’s. That’s her whole. That’s. She. She kickstarts it. Gah.#Katara my beloved my sweetie I don’t know why your writing got fucked up in the comics and now here#you deserve so much better#also why no Aang and Zuko confrontation? hello? that’s really important???#they had him meet Iroh though. so that was actually pretty interesting#no agni kai between Zhao and Zuko either? maybe it’ll happen next episode?#ugh. I actually don’t like a lot of things. But I’ve only watched two episode so I’ll be chill and wait for more#storyrambles#atla#also this is just me being nitpicky but if we were going to actually see gyatso’s death (which. Idk it was more impactful not seeing it tbh#there’s this implication that gyatso may have broken his vow of pacifism since his skeleton was surrounded by tons of fire nation soldiers#implying he may have killed them#it wouldn’t have fit or made sense at the beginning of the show#but if they were going to show his death scene. Idk. Guess I just expected something more substantial#personally from what little we knew of Gyatso it actually does seem likely he’d break his vow if he really did die protecting the children#also. he was supposed to be the strongest airbender at the time. come on now. he just gets roasted?
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I’ve taken more days off than usual this year between getting covid and honestly just. Stress. Not usually sick but. I think I need it.
Yeah.
Still feel guilty af.
Never regretted taking one though. Someone else can be compelled to proctor the SAT on their planning. Im feeling super fucking under-appreciated lately.
#the culture of being a teacher is…gross#I have other coworkers who are chronically out why can’t I just. not feel guilty???#I wouldn’t need to take these days if everything wasn’t so Mich#don’t get my wrong I love what I am supposed to be doing#it’s just that the job is so much more than that#apparently if you take ten or more school days off you’re considered a chronically absent teacher by most spaces on the internet#that’s my usual number for the year but not this time#I have the damn days. admin is on vacation rn ffs. someone else!! can proctor! not my problem!!!#AMP cert tests for advanced on Thursday and Friday#which reminds me I need to email school manager about coverage for that fucking ugh
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Porfiry telling Raskolnikov that at least he was honest and in one bound took the furthest leap to put his theory to the test of actual action——
#Taylor believing a man who is obviously lying to her#like. it’s fascinating to me how they’ll say anything to her and she’ll be like ‘okay let’s go’#she’s never read Jane Austen and it shows. but that’s okay because she’s the character in an Austen novel#she has no sense of self-preservation she has no common sense when it comes to love#and the reason I have endless patience for that is because she IS different. she is extraordinary. she is WEIRD. she’s so needy#so angry so fragile so stupid so brilliant so completely helpless#like the bolter———I can’t even LOOK at it right now#because you know she was like this since she was 5 and SHE knows it#just so. Different. so strange. I mean she ruled her family with an iron fist from the age of 11#and her packaging is so basic and she she had so much access to everything anyone could want#so there are none of the usual marks of someone being so Different#but like. people HATED her from day one. you know her own strength of personality was drawing out many people’s hatred or envy#and she’s so helpless in her own personality because she can never change#like thank you aimee? or whatever? heck yeah there was some girl who bullied her and brutalized her on the playground#and you know it devastated Taylor from day one and still does#and it’s just. I don’t know how people can’t see that someone with that extraordinary set of gifts#wouldn’t also suffer in such an extraordinary way#and ways that elicit so much scorn and non-sympathy because people are unsettled and jealous and annoyed by her#because she WILL find a way to win#but isn’t that proof enough that she is the very OPPOSITE OF NORMAL#it’s why people have to be like ‘oh she sold her soul to the devil for this success.’ or whatever the psy-op spy thing is#because there’s no human way to explain her success if she really were as basic/talentless as people say#ugh this is all so incoherent and irritating and I’m so sorry but I just. I cannot explain how protective my heart is of her#and all the many many mistakes she’s made and the prisons she’s made for herself because she’s LIVING the tragedy#of never having denied herself one time/getting everything she wants#and discovering the poison at the bottom of everything she reached for with desperate hands#like. I love her so much and I am so protective of her because she is so helpless and she is getting shot in the face every time#and she feels every blow!#whew I need to turn off reblogs and will probably delete but I just#this album is all of her spilled out and people DO hate to see it because a lot of people hate her!!!!
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Definitely cried watching this weeks episode lip wobbling/quivering and all. I don’t think I can watch it again without tears being involved
#tybw spoilers#jushiro ukitake#for the people who cried I’m with you I get it#genuinely thought I wouldn’t but I didn’t realize that I was in so deep#lmao the favorite character doin things to me#that and shunsui wasn’t helping cus he’s my second favorite#and then unohana showed up and I started crying again#I’m satisfied but my heart hurts ugh I love him so much#I called my mom abt it so that helped#ngl I really love ukitake and this cemented it for me
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Happy Father’s Day to Brimstone from Daughter of Smoke and Bone <33
#daily psa to read dosab I’m serious. So many of you would like Dosab if you read it I am positive#many a time when speaking on something I like there’s a “I would but I wouldn’t reccomend it” element not with this everyone read dosab#daughter of smoke and bone#dosab#s speaks#done rereading the first book… now That is how you do ya urban fantasy (although the series is a cross between the urban/paranormal and hig#fucked up that certain paranormal ya from that era (like Fallen Shiver etc.) are getting a resurgence when they could never be what this#Series is I deserve an (animated! we’ll done!) adaptation (but live action my worst fear)#I swear to you the series is like if Cosmic Love by Florence was a book series if you care about my opinion please tbr#+ it’s about a girl who was raised by a monster family and the monster family is w on derful#and Karou and Zuzana’s friendship is everything and the atmosphere is perfect ugh#(Can especially say it’s perfect now given I’m where it’s set rn)#Anyway happy Father’s Day to the Chimeara who saved his pseudo daughter through the power of love and necromancy
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Wondering if I should toy around with the idea of certain parts of a Chryssalid just aren’t salvageable for meat due to how toxic their venom is. “…individual specimen storage in reinforced caskets…”
But may depend on how the bug gets killed. But also their young and where ever that is stored in their body. Probably don’t want to ingest those eggs.
The worldbuilding I can toy with…
May just say sustained heat for a certain cook time can neutralize the venom.
^My poor brain atm
#I’m supposed to be getting ready for work and my brain hits me with this#xcom musings#xcom worldbuilding#my brain now going ‘do you want to patch up old information in those fics???’ deary me…#edit because wow spelling on my part but autocorrect ugh#now I’m imagining the trial and error the Reapers went through#and yes I know the difference between venom and poison when it comes to ingestion. just wouldn’t be surprised if the Elders ->#made their venom poisonous too. also xenobiology can do (nearly) what ever it wants
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Oh god. I have to see my family in three days
#if you guys start to see a spiraling mental breakdown starting on Christmas Eve#mind ya business#every time I see my siblings I just get more and more upset#and feel more and more bitter over my mother#it’s been 6 months since I last saw them#wonder how much has changed since then. wonder how much worse they are#also I’m worried my sister will bring her boyfriend to Christmas dinner#he’s like. fine I guess. the same kind of shitty as her but whatever#it was easier to ignore that I won’t ever be able to bring a partner when none of my siblings were old enough to do so#now that they ARE doing it. it makes it…. yeah#seeing my grandma interact with him and being happy and chatty#but knowing if I ever brought MY gf it would be a fucking disaster#unless I lied and said she was just a friend. which is shitty enough anyways#but wouldn’t even work my mom and aunt and sister would still make shitty snide comments when my grandparents weren’t around#ugh#I should stop thinking about this#I’m just making myself mad#kaz rambles
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