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crazy how i can be ostracized by fems of all varieties but specifically transfems in regards to this post and still not make justifications to make up and call people namecalling ass names that remind them of their assigned gender!
#yeah i did make up some words to help you understand how it feels. not gonna act like its cool or not hurtful#the same way you shouldnt act like saying theyfab is ok! 🤗#like im not about to use any of those terms i made up ever besides mocking you on this shit until you finally check yaself#keffals#ill apologize when u do.#its on u tho#u started this ish#before all of this ive been addressing this shit while *shocker* still not coming up with shitty words that essentially serve to#subtly misgender someone or make them feel unseen for who they are by lumping them w their assigned gender!#but bc of you and this Super Relevant Context That Totally Gives You A Free Pass To Say Whatever You Want Thats Bigoted If You're#Angry Enough At Whoever i felt the need to give you a taste of your own fuckin medicine. drink up.#hurtful innit?#but its ok and u totally cant tone police me about it bc i was upset with you remember?#or are ya gonna pull some white woman tears on me?
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crows use tools and like to slide down snowy hills. today we saw a goose with a hurt foot who was kept safe by his flock - before taking off, they waited for him to catch up. there are colors only butterflies see. reindeer are matriarchical. cows have best friends and 4 stomachs and like jazz music. i watched a video recently of an octopus making himself a door out of a coconut shell.
i am a little soft, okay. but sometimes i can't talk either. the world is like fractal light to me, and passes through my skin in tendrils. i feel certain small things like a catapult; i skirt around the big things and somehow arrive in crisis without ever realizing i'm in pain.
in 5th grade we read The Curious Incident of the Dog In The Night-time, which is about a young autistic boy. it is how they introduced us to empathy about neurotypes, which was well-timed: around 10 years old was when i started having my life fully ruined by symptoms. people started noticing.
i wonder if birds can tell if another bird is odd. like the phrase odd duck. i have to believe that all odd ducks are still very much loved by the other normal ducks. i have to believe that, or i will cry.
i remember my 5th grade teacher holding the curious incident up, dazzled by the language written by someone who is neurotypical. my teacher said: "sometimes i want to cut open their mind to know exactly how autistics are thinking. it's just so different! they must see the world so strangely!" later, at 22, in my education classes, we were taught to say a person with autism or a person on the spectrum or neurodivergent. i actually personally kind of like person-first language - it implies the other person is trying to protect me from myself. i know they had to teach themselves that pattern of speech, is all, and it shows they're at least trying. and i was a person first, even if i wasn't good at it.
plants learn information. they must encode data somehow, but where would they store it? when you cut open a sapling, you cannot find the how they think - if they "think" at all. they learn, but do not think. i want to paint that process - i think it would be mostly purple and blue.
the book was not about me, it was about a young boy. his life was patterned into a different set of categories. he did not cry about the tag on his shirt. i remember reading it and saying to myself: i am wrong, and broken, but it isn't in this way. something else is wrong with me instead. later, in that same person-first education class, my teacher would bring up the curious incident and mention that it is now widely panned as being inaccurate and stereotypical. she frowned and said we might not know how a person with autism thinks, but it is unlikely to be expressed in that way. this book was written with the best intentions by a special-ed teacher, but there's some debate as to if somebody who was on the spectrum would be even able to write something like this.
we might not understand it, but crows and ravens have developed their own language. this is also true of whales, dolphins, and many other species. i do not know how a crow thinks, but we do know they can problem solve. (is "thinking" equal to "problem solving"? or is "thinking" data processing? data management?) i do not know how my dog thinks, either, but we "talk" all the same - i know what he is asking for, even if he only asks once.
i am not a dolphin or reindeer or a dog in the nighttime, but i am an odd duck. in the ugly duckling, she grows up and comes home and is beautiful and finds her soulmate. all that ugliness she experienced lives in downy feathers inside of her, staining everything a muted grey. she is beautiful eventually, though, so she is loved. they do not want to cut her open to see how she thinks.
a while ago i got into an argument with a classmate about that weird sia music video about autism. my classmate said she thought it was good to raise awareness. i told her they should have just hired someone else to do it. she said it's not fair to an autistic person to expect them to be able to handle that kind of a thing.
today i saw a goose, and he was limping. i want to be loved like a flock loves a wounded creature: the phrase taken under a wing. which is to say i have always known i am not normal. desperate, mewling - i want to be loved beyond words.
loved beyond thinking.
#spilled ink#writeblr#personal#please don't ask me to talk on my experience on the spectrum lol. i hate how ppl talk to me about it#i really try not to write so specifically about it#bc inevitably someone talks to me like im a child#i think this is the first time i've ever openly identified with it but i've been hinting for years#i might delete this. feels big.#the thing is that being on the spectrum actually IS a spectrum#and if u say ur autistic#inevitably someone makes an assumption about ur needs/symptoms#please do not treat me differently than u usually would. like.... we can tell when you do#and like i mention. i do appreciate the effort. i do truly appreciate the effort.#but it still feels like...#when i was blind. sometimes people kind of did the same-ish thing.#they'd find out i was blind and start talking really loudly?#and while i KNOW they're just trying to help. it would be like. i'd be trying to find#the right way into a building (sometimes only 1 door is unlocked and i couldn't see the signs posted about where to go)#and ppl would be like ''OH UR BLIND? YES SO THIS IS A DOOR. IT OPENS INTO THE BUILDING. IT IS LOCKED NOW."#''A DOOR CAN BE FOUND IN MANY LOCATIONS.''#and it feels like. when i admit to being autistic#someone comes screeching into my life being like THIS IS A DOOR.
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smiles deviously as you convert to nortalice brainrot
My heckin' brainro- 💥💥💥
Okay, but seriously, this was just as slippery of a slope as when I first entered the IDV fandom hfjdksfd I didn't intend to fall so deep into it as I did 😭 Like??? This is how it started:
And this is how it's going:
Like?? Explain this! How?? I mean, I know how, but how?? Do you see what I mean?? There is no logic or reason, only brainrot 💀 It's all fun though ;w; I'm just equally flabbergasted as I am delighted to be here ghjfhdsjkgfhdjshgd
#ask#anon#anonymous#identity v#idv#identity v prospector#idv prospector#norton campbell#identity v journalist#idv journalist#alice deross#identity v lucky guy#idv lucky guy#nortalice#night's art#sketch#I love the blows pancake up with mind meme fgdhsjgfd#pardon the crude sketch and old-ish art I just needed to make a point fgdshjfds#and yes there are more nortalice sketches there but I'm too shy to post them all ;u;#I still got some ideas I want to do though... I've barely gotten started
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kjsr w a tengu reader PLEASEE begs at ur feet like how u would beg for feixiao
reader teaches her how to fly and maybe occasionally reader casually js picks her up and carried her in the sky while flying for shitz and giggles
-🇮🇩 anon
??? absolutely unprovoked callout ??? you're right, but like ??? (/j)
anyway, i had a long think about this ask and honestly. i can see sara being somewhat intimidated by a tengu!reader actually. because for all that sara is biologically tengu, for most of her life she was raised by humans. she's always been too tengu to be properly human, though, so when she meets tengu!reader, she's afraid she'll be too human to be tengu. because of this i think she'll keep quite a professional distance from reader at first, and it'll take a lot of effort and work on reader's part to get her to open up.
assuming sara really can't fly, i think her meeting tengu!reader who can will make her feel both an intense longing but also an almost unbearable shame. it's something so natural to a tengu, flight; those wings on her back aren't fake. and yet, the sky has always been out of her reach. when she confesses to reader that she can't fly she'll feel like she's speaking with glass in her mouth. she probably doesn't expect reader to offer to teach her, but her heart stutters in her chest when they do. and if she does learn how to fly thanks to reader's help, it'll be something sara cherishes until the day she dies. when she thinks of the sky she'll think of an endless blue and the sound of your laughter carrying in the wind.
#sev.responses#🇮🇩 anon#kujou sara x reader#ik u intended this to be a funny-ish ask anon but unfortunately i had brainworms#i think about her so much. every time i escape the thoughts i look to her standee on my desk and i start thinking again
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When I'm not thinking about shit he'd do or say I am in fact still producing 20 other WIPs with his face.
WIP, obv
#I'm really starting to enjoy this weird watercolour-ish vibe whatever tf is going on#It kinda feels like carving linoleum#except theres no linoleum#and im not carving anything#except i kinda am cuz im just carving shit from shadows now#which is weird#cuz with my markers its usually the other way around#cuz theyre pretty transparent#but this is weird in a fun way#and oddly satisfying#combining my unapologetic joy of portraits with whatever tf this is is fun#i think its pretty obv already who that is#which sparks joy#also did u know he has a bald spot in his stubble?#now u do ur welcome#eitherway i can't sleep so might as well
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Makochi Townspeople Profiles
The People Who Give Makochi Town Its Colours!
Yama-jii (山じい)
An elderly man Sakura met at Café Pothos. He was grateful when Sakura let him know he'd forgotten something behind. Kotoha calls him "Yama-jii".
Satou-baachan (さとうのばあちゃん)
Sakura gave her a piggyback ride since her hips were hurting so much she couldn't stand. Jumped off Sakura's back and landed like someone from the Av*ngers.
Liquor store (酒店) - Butcher's (精肉店) - Fruit and vegetable store (青果店)
Bakery (ベーカリー)
Taiyaki place (たい焼き店)
Monjayaki place (もんじゃ焼き店)
The People of Tonpu Shopping Street (東風商店街の人々)
The people running shops on Tonpu Shopping Street. They give Bofurin gifts from their shops like bread and fruit for protecting the town. There are also people like the owner of the liquor store, who challenges underage Sakura to a drinking match…
Granny of the first aid kit (救急箱のおばあさん)
A kind old woman who brought a first aid kit over to tend to Sakura, who had been stabbed in the leg. This became an opportunity for Sakura to start building relationships with others again.
The girl Nirei helped (楡井が助けた女性)
The girl who asked Sakura for help as Nirei was getting beaten one-sidedly by some delinquents. The reason Nirei got involved with the delinquents was to protect her from them.
Sasaki (笹城)
The junior high school student who found himself caught up with Shishitoren while chasing a shoplifter on the shopping street. Sakura and the others saved him while he was being attacked by Shishitoren.
The female student Kiryu helped (桐生が助けた女子生徒)
The girl Kiryu brought to Muscle Power. She was being harassed by some delinquents but received help from Kiryu.
Granny (おばあちゃん)
Asked Kaji and the others for help when her pet cat Risa-chan went missing. This doesn't seem to be the first time Risa-chan has run away.
Risa-chan (リサちゃん)
A cat with a pink ribbon as its defining trait. Perhaps because it was being chased by Sakura, its momentum caused it to jump into the river, but was saved by Kaji.
土屋 (Tsuchiya)
A childhood friend of Anzai who used to play with him at the park since they were little. Even now that Anzai has entered Furin High, it seems they still meet at the park of their memories.
長門 (Nagato)
Anzai's childhood friend. Mature and kind, he always went along with Anzai and Tsuchiya's recklessness. After that, the three of them went to different high schools and became separated.
[masterlist]
#wind breaker (satoru nii)#wind breaker character book#sakura haruka#kaji ren#anzai masaki#since these guys are kinda mentioned#wei translates#from the alleywei#SORRY FOR THE WAIT#1st picture for each character follows what panel they used in the character book#it was a bit hard to find a nice-ish one for nagato ngl#where he isnt completely battered#and since the anime hasnt done the keel arc yet im trying to avoid spoilery panels#UWAH this took so long#i started right after dinner and now its almost 1am#gonna go pass out. u know how it is with friday nights (this salaryman is getting old)#next section shouldnt take too long 🎵
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do you make enough money from selling prints in etsy to sustain your life? how are you able to afford this beautiful house and time to crochet and go on walks and all of that? i’m not asking for nosiness but because i’m trying to figure out what i would need to do in order to make my life financially sustainable… is art an option… etc
short answer i mooch off my bf <333333333333333
#long answer part 1: i make enough off my etsy to afford my stuff (and i really don't buy much) and help out w th food bills where i can etc#i hvnt been able to do much of that OR save anything for the past couple months bc i hvnt been selling much BUT . things are beginning#to pick up again and i hve new stock to add when i get back from holidays :3#i have a smallish job lined up from my agent which is exciting! but hopefully i will make enough w her doing picture books etc to be able#to pay my keep / save more etc! i hve been anxious abt money this past months but thats just more so money for me to spend on small stuff :#i also dont drive so . i dont rlly hve many outwards expenses . im very lucky to have him hes very kind and lovely !!#if i wasnt w him and he didnt hve a house i would still b living w my mama which i did since i left uni!#long answer part 2: i always make time for goofing off during my work day. always!!!#part of the joys of being a freelancer! i can do what i want!!#i can share my routine in more detail if u guys want but i dont start work until abt 2pm-ish most days bc i dont rlly work well in the#mornings. when i hve more work that might change!! i have enough on to keep me busy but im not rlly hvin 2 manage my time u kno#im very very lucky to be in such a comfortable position :3 i hope one day u can be as comfy !!#oh also. i think once the agency work kicks in i will b fine financially ! and also u can absolutely make a living off etsy when its good#its very good for me ! i was very comfy financially around xmas last year i made a lot#u can do it u can do it !! art will always sell !!
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“Its just a hobby.”
“You won’t get far.”
“Pick another job.”
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“Ok”
“But what else am i good at tho?”
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#original illustration#original art#traditional art#traditional drawing#original artwork#traditional painting#dont repost#ill find u mf#my art <3#artwork#hshshshsh#kinda vent ish?#my artwork#my art lol#my art#illust#artists on tumblr#illustration#art#it started as a cute drawing session with my sister and then i got lectured what am i gonna do with life#lol wish i would know too ;)#orginal character#orginal art
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"Just friends, right?"
"Right..."
#cyberpunkaddict.png#oc: villiam bryant#oc: hazel jolea#ship: ice on fire#cyberpunk 2077#virtual photography#male v#female v#cyberpunk 2077 photomode#cyberpunk 2077 screenshots#masc v#femv#fem v#cyberpunk 2077 v#dailyvideogames#gamingnetwork#gaming photography#dailygaming#cyberpunk v#cyberpunk 2077 oc#i know what u might be thinkin wtf is this this is not Songbird#this is before Villiam dated Songbird#Hazel and Villiam are just friends until 2083 ish cuz life is stupid and complicated and the timing was never right#and lets not forget that Villiam has trust issues and Hazel has no patience to deal with that shit#so thats why Songbird and Villiam dated for a lil while#and yes i got into modding and im starting off making npvs of my ocs#q
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saw that requests for x men drawings are open and i would LOVE to see your take on rictor!!!
Sorry this took forever! You got me into Ricstar so I got distracted in reading Ricstar comics & fanfics! It was for research but now I can't stop screaming & crying & throwing up about them!
Casual Rictor
Also it was nice playing around with Green for a change instead of Red!
Prev: Boom-Boom Trinary M Armor Pixie Surge
Requests are open for Casual X-Men (Tho I'll focus on anyone who's a B-Lister or below) I'm gonna try to catch up to my goal of one a day but I have accepted the fact that it will likely bleed into August!
#rictor#julio richter#x-men#x men#I didn't know what shatterstar's favorite food so I put like mojo sauce? im very new to them so#and star seems like the type to have weird tastes in food#my art#x factor#i saw marvel unlimited's design of rictor and i really like the shape language of it I just wished I didn't see it when I was almost done#the hardest part for me was figuring out what body type to give him cuz like everyone is so buff in the og x-factor ALSO HANDS#I also started reading excalibur when I was doing this and thought about adding some druidic elements but it looked too dnd-ish ;-;#felt so clever with the highlights its squares (rocks) + stars (hahaa shatterstar)#ricstar#i keep on reading ricstar stuff on my breaks during work they don't know lmaooo#kermit-coded u have cursed and blessed me at the same time#marvel#earth 616
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scrolled a little too far back on mogetwt and found pure gold:
#i miss mitsumona… i love asumona y e s but mitsumona~~~~~~~~~~~~~~#‘where were you when this part of idol sengen was being serialised?’ trapped outside due to regionlock s o b s#man… looking at idol sengen on piccoma again like. gosh. 7.9 million hearts/likes so trueeeee#which do you think we’ll get first: mitsuki mv (a la gijirenai) or idol sengen s2?#the crumbs we get of her in mona mvs isnt enoughhhhhhhh aaaaa#even a 1 image mv would do!!! just give us a tiny bit more of her plsssss#i wanna know what made mona such a huge fan of hers~~~~~~~#though. the way mona specifies that she only likes girl idols will forever be funny to me#she really can’t care less about lxl huh… so true of her tbh#girl idols are a m a z i n g (<-weakling who tears up while watching love live live recordings)#like. man. props to the casting directors or sth bc. m a n their stage presence is unreal for idol vas#like waaaaaaaaaaaaaaa if you told me the vas were idols themselves id believe you#rkk was so cute. and aik.yan was super cool (esp during her solo) a n d ain.ya was both cute and cool and!!!!!!!!!#but um!!!! i digress!!!! anyways stan girl idols (esp mona) lxl w h o—#i think i’ll forever be envious of those who’ll be able to watch nan.su’s mona oneman live though… no foreigners allowed (how sad)…#though y’all should def check out some of nan.su’s other songs!! her powerful songs are so cool (imo)…#but i think she’s actually really good at singing songs with cheering/chanting portions lmfaooo the monachan lives on#i think hw should give mona more cool-ish songs though… let nan.su show off her range!!!#though. while im on the topic. i think sena should have cool songs too. narumi sisters cool song p l s s s s s#(bc my hot take over here is that hw doesn’t let their vas show off their full range *c o u g h s* i m e a n—)#what am i even on anymore h e l p started on mitsumona ended up in narumi sisters cool song desires…#anyways!!!! stream silent sword (both the og by ama.miya sora and the cover by nan.su) that’s all goodbye
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Okay but is eli team edward or team jacob
have you SEEN who his boyfriend is???? obviously edward
#thanks for the ask!#if u start really reaching u can find so many likenesses between thranto and twilight#like uh thrawn is a different species-ish to eli and leaves eli but eventually comes back and initiates eli into his own other society#see basically the same. for sure
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nejisasu doodle! a universe where the hyuuga's slavery bs doesn't get ignored and Neji and Sasuke are better off for it (and also they're married)
#digital art#naruto fanart#artists on tumblr#hyuuga neji#uchiha sasuke#doodle#nejisasu#sasuneji#i personally have hit them with the aspec and qpr beam#but it can be read as romantic lol#sasuke is totally a huge ass brat in a happier world#but like in an adorable and funny way#i really wanted to draw sth digitally so i just went through my sketchbook and drew a scene i liked#also i experimented with brushes a bit because normally i start with a flat ass no texture colour layer#and i think csp did not like that because when i first exported the file it was like 21 fucking MB#like normally my pngs end up around 5 MB#and the canvas was the same size#i figure since there was no real continuous plane of colour more information has to be saved? anyway i scaled the png down by like 50 perce#this is inspired by an au of mine in fact the sketch i adapted was for that au but i decided fuck it#vanilla characers (-ish) it is#yall i cant fucking believe how the hyuuga side branch is treated in the series#and how sasuke is treated!! kakashi fr acts like hes a spoiled brat when his entire family was murdered and he was fucking tortured#and has been alone since he was like 7#yeah he is a bit of an ass but spoiled??#also kakashi fr saying in the prelims that the hyuuga are konoha's best clan like excuse me what dojutsu do u have in ur eyesocket??#its wild ive been reading naruto parallel to writing my fanfic for the first time and its certaintly... something#also the sandaime going like each person in the village is my preicous person uhuh each person except all of the uchiha apparently#and except the hyuuga side branch. and all the people sent on traumatising missions#and all the people he lets danzo kidnap and brainwash#and naruto who he let grow up all alone. and all the people he sends to die fighting for a perpetual cycle of violence :D fun stuff!
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Tally still isn't quite back to 100% yet, but she's recovered a lot in general. Every time she does one of her normal habits that she'd stopped doing while she was sick, my heart just squeezes with gratefulness. Stuff like her yowling like I died after I go to bed, her climbing onto my lap while I'm sitting on the toilet and/or watching me from on top of her litter box, her jumping onto furniture, her getting up in my face and sniffing my breath as I slowly blow air at her, her trying to eat the plants, her PLAYING.... and of course, her eating.
I also discovered the coat rack toppled over onto the couch after getting out of bed today - surely her doing. Didn't break anything so im just glad she's back to being at least some semblance of a chaos demon, even if she's not totally recovered yet.
It's the little things, sometimes. All her little habits, some harmless and some annoying, that make up who she is and her presence in my life. When all of these stop, so she's just a lump on the couch, barely eating and barely getting up... it was unsettling. And worrisome.
But I've got my baby back. She's still not super high energy, but she's got enough to feel like herself again. And I'm so, so grateful.
#speculation nation#i had a vet appointment scheduled for yesterday for blood work if she still wasnt better by then#and on monday when they called to confirm the appointment she was still really lethargic. only starting to act better.#so i didnt wanna cancel it yet. but on tuesday and wednesday she was acting a Lot better. actually mostly finishing her dry food!!#and returning to a lot of her old habits. i was really glad.#of course since it was new years eve and new years day i couldnt call the vet to cancel the appointment on the 2nd. bc the office was closed#but thankfully when i called earlier in the day yesterday they were completely fine canceling the appointment day-of#a lot of places dont let u do that so it was a relief bfmsbfm#so im watching her to make sure she doesnt get worse again. but i think she'll be fine.#i feel like it likely Was the same thing that june had. but a different manifestation. and more worrying.#bc june was just sneezing for like a week ish. i felt rly bad for her but she was still eating fine.#and she was up and playing and such. but when tally got sick... it was like she was a whole different cat.#i never want to see tally so stiff and lethargic and refusing to eat food like that again.#i know theres a good chance i will. eventually. but i hope it's not for a good long while. at least a decade.#my baby's normally the picture of health so it just feels so wrong...#and ultimately. i think the trip to the vet to get their vaccines is what caused this. the stress lowering their immune systems#and potentially smth they picked up while they were there. idk.#it was still important to get them their updated vaccines. but God i could've done without the reactions and sicknessss hfkshfnd
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Bought 2 two cans of monster ultra and an unlawful amount of gummy bears and I’m going to trick my anxiety-riddled brain with a simultaneous sugar and caffeine rush to get these presentation slides done
#perfect plan what could go wrong#but I have a 20min presentation next week that I haven’t started preparing for even a little bit bc presentations make me want to die and#even making the slides etc. gives me hella anxiety bc I know I’m gonna have to present this#but I need to start like yesterday and this is the only way I can think of#the plan B is alcohol but that can backfire even worse if u get the wring kind of drunk and alcohol makes my anxiety skyrocket for the next#2ish days and wouldn’t rly need that rn#as does sugar tbh but only for like a day so it’s fine-ish#could’ve just multitasked with buying normal sugary monsters instead but gummy bears are more fun#april 2024#2024
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