#type: journal

[learnhowtosway]

When Mount Pinatubo erupted, my family and I survived 6 metres of lahar and mudslide by climbing onto the roof of the church next to our home. Large rocks from the volcano evaded direct contact with the church, which would have caused it to collapse, and that was the only time I believe I witnessed a miracle.

it's so weird to me that everyone on this website is a human person outside of their weird internet niche so rb this with a random bit of your lore

[patronsaintofweirdgirls]

Reference photo from one of my recent road trips, I’m working on a series of these so pls send me photos of your ominous roadside signs

[aobacafe]

⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀♬⠀✿⠀✏️ • kiss pngs。📎

[sunsbleeding]

…and maybe that’s all it was about, not the biggest grandest damn day of your life, not the days you conquered all your fears, finished therapy - passing with an A+, or the day you made everyone finally like you, maybe it was a lot more about the love and the simple magic of existing that was there all along, maybe it’s about feeling alive, whatever that means to you, dear friend, and the tenderness everywhere, if you look for it and just squint a little, the strangers who become dear friends, the loves of your life that lasted but a moment, the acquaintance that gave you the best advice on your flight to Chicago, the person that smiled at you from across the smoke dampened dive bar, lest we forget the best friend that never stopped checking in on you even when you became nothing more than a pebble sized version of yourself, cold and unresponsive, it’s there, life, in a million places I have and haven’t been yet, it’s not simple and it is, it’s a contradiction that taste like rare red wine, and cheap mistakes, stupid thrills and being the laughing stock and not caring one bit because you can hear the melody, everyones pain echoed back in their chorus, here’s to more endless exploration, sloppy makeouts, fuck ups and wins, not caring a tad what they say or what they think even when it’s begging to split you open, mechanical bulls, dirty martinis, cinema, dancing, Bukowski, Mozart, Martin Scorsese, Jane Austen, the cha cha, a cup of sugar, a dead rose growing mold, I love so many, so much, I’ll be the villain, or the hero, or the background character no one needs to know but I’m gonna do it with love, I’m gonna do it like it’s the only thing I know how too, depression be damned, addiction be drowned, two cold hands around its throat, the word crazy may be thrown at you like a knife but it can be caught like a bouquet, petals raining down like confetti, whatever!! we’re all heading to the same end anyways, might as well have a little bit of blind stupid fun, even if they shake there silly sheep heads in your direction, be a bit kinder, but be fearless in the face of people that will never understand you, it’s not your job to translate yourself for them, the snickers and sneers, pink with jealousy, lousy with life experience, remember, it’s not your life’s mission to be a fucking doormat, you’re not woven that way, what does it matter? love the ones that love you, truly. Go on and live, go on and do it so well, and loud, and ripe with joy that when your day comes you may waltz out of this world, hand in cold hand with the reaper, hold the scythe, help with the weight of it all, with your tales to tell and laughs to be had on the strange journey home, all your dreams already lived, all your bad decisions made, all the forgiveness caught in a butterfly net, all the hate planted and growing chickweed and dandelions, ready for nothing but another adventure, eyes set on the sun, soul humming like the harvest moon, heart full of a life lived like a shotgun, life lived like a sick mess, fuck the broom, break the glass, you can do it all and still be good, still being a speck of flesh worth loving after you went and did it all….

[sneeky-bean]

that's so real

[opalstonedyke]

A butchfemme valentine's day for me 💖

[belovedapollo]

love letters to Mother Nature 🌳 reblog is ok, don’t repost/use

[witchpassing]

i do worry that for some of you the whole doll thing is simply a new set of unattainable standards to torture yourselves with

[joyfuljourney2025]

[the---hermit]

14|02|2025

This week continues to be a rollercoaster. I think I made a new friend yesterday, which I was not expecting but I am very grateful for it. Today I also learned that some of my plans for exams and thesis are not doable, which sent me into a bit of an existential crisis, but then my problem solving skills kicked in and I think I figured out a potential plan b. It's not ideal nor what I wanted, but all I can do is to adapt to what life throws at me, and I think these potential solutions I have found can be good. I also decided to change my approach towards the class I am self studying for the spring exam season. I had originally planned to work on the recorded lectures first and then move on to the materials. After working on two lectures I decided to switch my approach. So now I will be focusing on all the materials, reading and writing notes for them, and then I will go back to the rest of the recordings. This is because during those lectures the professor often refers to the materials and reads them, if I work on them before watching those lectures I can skip the parts in which she reads and just add the informations she adds to the text. This should minimize the waste of time.

4/50 days of productivity:

continued working on the recorded lectures of my spaces of knowledge class

started working on the materials for the same class

did a bit of research to solve the unexpected changes in my future exam plans and found a potential solution

planned my study for the rest of the week

set up my bullet journal for next week

practiced Irish on duolingo

[littlealienproducts]

Procrastinate Sticker Sheet by QheekieMart

[schuylerpeck]

there's so much longing in here, I say to my therapist, pointing to where it lives at the end of my throat. it's spilling out. it's spilling over. it's spilling inward.

at work, in line to pay for groceries, brushing my teeth in a quiet apartment, the feeling will squeeze its grip: I have so much more to give than this. it stings like frostbite — to feel so cold, you burn. to feel so lonely, you're suffocated.

I've gone running and writing and left cookies on neighbors' doorsteps. sung loud enough to hear my echo at the other end of town. still go days without a word. at the end of the night, my hands cramp with the need to hold. a ferocity to be good to someone—someones. a want to be of use. all this energy with little place to go. all that goes unsaid, collecting, consuming like a rust.

[silvirub]

L o v e

[blueprint-9376]

12.02.2025 [🙂]

🍵: 카페 가서 책 완독하기/ The day I went to a cafe and finished reading a book

[nodssalementriche]

Good morning to all of the beautiful lesbians on tumblr🤍 have an incredible time, treat yourself a little today, go outside, take deep breaths, give yourself a little massage, journal your heart out, cook something yummy or comforting, stretch and move a little, hydrate yourself, roll your shoulders back and forth, dance to your favorite songs, tell your loved ones you love them, write that letter, make that art piece, laugh as much as you can, and remember you are okay! You are human, you are likely a lesbian (totally fine if not, haha, everyone should take care as well) and that is beautiful existence in and of itself 🤍✨💌